#part 2 of idk how many

[rey-129-fan]

Gotham-Amity Co-op AU

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Wow, okay, people seem to really like this. Awesome! Whelp, here's part 2!

“Alright, order.  Order.”

“Yeah, I’ll take a Triple Nasty with cheese, extra mustard and pickles.” Laughs rang out at Dash’s remark as everyone settled in to their seats.  Sam, who stood at the front of the room by a blackboard, just gave the quarterback a flat look while Danny and Tucker snickered at the teacher’s desk.  The group was meeting in an empty classroom at Casper since most were still Casper students, at least for another couple of months until graduation.  Jazz and Kyle, both of whom were attending school in Gotham, were dropping in to visit and attend the meeting.

“We are now beginning the first meeting for the Green Amity Co-o-”

“Oh, we are not calling it that!” Paulina cried out.  Sam’s eye twitched and started to glow slightly as those around the Latina nodded in agreement.

Jazz quickly stepped in.  “While naming something Green in a city that has a known meta Eco-terrorist might not be a good idea, we can discuss names later.  For now, let’s focus on more important matters for the co-op.”

“Right,” Sam sighed, releasing the tension in her shoulders.  “So has everyone had a chance to look over the info and pictures Jazz and Kyle were able to gather?”  Getting various conformations, the goth nodded. “Does anyone have any objections on using the building as a Gotham based co-op?”

“Not really.”

“Nope.” 

“None from me.”

“Okay, so we’ll put down an offer to buy the building,” Sam nodded before shuffling around some papers in her hands.  “Next on the agenda is rent.”

“Won’t we own the building?  Why would we need to pay rent?” Dash asked.  Kwan nodded while several others in the group just dropped their heads.

“Because we need to pay for things like utilities and taxes,” Valarie shot back, arms crossed as she stared down her former friend group.

“Not to mention that we should collect some money for potential repairs that will be needed in the future,” Wes added, nodding.  Dash turned and glared at both of them.

“As Val and Wes said, we may own the building, but we still need to gather money to pay for things like water, electricity, internet.  Things needed to make the building usable,” Jazz explained in a less condescending tone, mullifying the blond.

“So we need to figure out how much each utility is and split it between everyone, with a little extra on top to make a fund for repairs?” Danny clarified.

“That is a start, but some people will use more of some things than others.”

“Well, we can always start with it and adjust as we get a better idea of how much it costs and who uses up what amount,” Star said as she stood up and walked over to the board.  She picked up a piece of chalk and began writing down numbers.  “Do we know how much we have to pay for property tax?  From what I could find on the internet, the average cost of utilities in Gotham is about $118 a month, give or take.”

“That lines up with what I saw too, though that doesn’t include internet or phone plans,” Val nodded.

“Well, our phone plans aren’t likely to change, so we don’t need to worry about that.  Most internet plans start about $40 a month,” Tucker added.  Star nodded and added the 40.

“As for property taxes, given the building’s estimated amount, it would be about $15,900 a year, which is paid quarterly.”

Star continued writing.  “So 15,900 a year is 1325 a month.  We currently have 11 people, so that’d be 120.45 per person per month just in taxes.”

“So utilities plus internet and taxes would put us at about $242 a month.”

“Don’t forget insurance and repairs.  Gotham isn’t the safest place, what with all the supervillains,” Danny added.

“Never mind random ghosts dropping in just to fight Fenton.  We’re probably going to have to repair the place more often than the average,” Kwan nodded.

“Hey!  Don’t pin the property damage from ghost fights on me!  It’s mostly the GIW doing that!”

“We know, Danny, but you can’t deny that there are going to be at least a few ghosts that will come just to fight, and the GIW are likely to follow them.”  Danny crossed his arms and grumbled, but conceded.

“We should just double the amount we have for now.  That way we can cover the basics and have enough to cover anything that could come up, while most can afford it with a part-time job,” Tucker suggested.

“It’s a start,” Jazz agreed.

“And if we need to adjust it, we can always discuss it again,”Mikey pointed out.

“Alright, so all in favor of starting rent at $485 a month, raise your hand.” Sam counted the hands in the air.  Eleven.  “Very well.  Up Next: rules.”

“Oh come on!  We’re no longer kids and are going to college!  Why would you wanna create rules?!” Dash protested.

“Just because we’re adults now doesn’t mean that there aren’t still rules we have to follow,” Jazz responded.  “Pretty much any place you could live would have quiet hours and cleanliness requirements.  Plus I’m pretty sure there are places or things that you wouldn’t want others to mess with.” More grumbling was heard but no more protests.  “Now, from what I’ve observed and read on the internet, in general quiet hours are generally between 10-11 pm to about 8 am during the week, with it rolling back an hour on the weekends.  I don’t need it to be that strict, but I would like to have some quiet by the time I’m going to sleep.”

“What exactly do quiet hours entail?  Is it like a curfew?” Mikey asked, pushing up his glasses and looking at the two actual college students.

“Nah man, they’re just the hours you have to be quiet for.  Ya can do whatever ya want, so long as yer not disturbing anyone or keeping them up.  Just don’t do anything that’ll get the cops or Bats on ya, and yer good,” Kyle explained.

“Sweet!”

“So what should these quiet hours be?  Not going to lie, but midnight seems like a good start, especially if you have early morning classes,” Wes spoke up.

“Midnight is good for me.”

“Aw, but what if we want to have a party!”

“Well, if you start at 8, that gives you four hours,” Sam explained, raising her eyebrow.

“A 4 hour party seems to be enough, especially since not all of us would want to have a crazy party outside our door all night,” Val stated, glaring at Dash and Paulina.

“It seems common consensus is quiet by midnight.  What about when they end?”

“Well, most of us will likely have classes starting by 9.  Including travel time and getting ready, we’re likely to be up around 8 or so.  That’d give us 8 hours of quiet to study and fall asleep.”

“So midnight to 8 am for quiet hours?  Any objections?” None were made.

The meeting continued on in much the same way, with only a few protests to some rules, mostly related to shared chores and the creation of a chore schedule.  But these protests were quickly silenced by a glare from Valarie that slowly glowed a slight red the more protests were made.

“Alright, I think we’ve covered everything we set out for today’s meeting,” Jazz said, tapping some papers against the desk she sat at.  She took over the meeting as Sam grew more annoyed.  The goth was now sitting between Danny and Tucker, who were both offering small touches of comfort.  “Remember, if you have any questions, share them in the discord server.  And if you have any suggestions for a name, please feel free to send them to Wes, who will compile them into a poll so we can vote on them in a week.  Now, would anyone like to add anything else?”

A few mutters and shakes were the answer.

“Very well, that concludes this meeting.  Hope everyone has a good summer, and when we next meet, hopefully, it should be in our new building.”

***

Did I seriously just write 1363 more words of set up? Yes, yes I did. I have no regrets. We should be in Gotham starting next chapter and get up to the shenanigans then.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there! I started writing this while I was baking a pie for my own mother.

I am going back and forth on whether Phantom Planet is canon or not, but either way, all of Amity Park knows about Danny in this, but not the outside world, and especially not the GIW. While I do read a lot of bad parent Maddie and Jack, I much prefer to have them as good parents that love and accept both Danny and his little clone/cousin/sister.

Sorry guys, but Bruce is not adopting either Phantom.

Again, feel free to leave suggestions for names for the Co-op, as well as for this little AU itself. Also, suggestions for shenanigans and powers our liminal teens might have outside just glowing eyes.

#liminal amity park #dp x dc crossover #more dp in this #just dialogue #so much dialogue and set up #i regret nothing #no beta we die like danny and jason #danny phantom #danny fenton #jazz fenton #sam manson #tucker foley #dash #kwan #paulina sanchez #star #valarie gray #mikey #wes weston #kyle weston #amity park teens getting ready for college #part 2 of idk how many

[ironwolf11]

Byler Fanfic

The Boy Who Cried Zombie Chapter 1 part 2 rating: General Audience.

Will walks over to El as he begins to make out what is happening. “El?” he asks. “Hey, What's wrong?” he says. His voice soft. “El look it’s okay, We’ll stop him okay? Look at me” El moves her eyes slowly as they're red and burning. Will can tell she's crying by her quivering lips “Hey, it’s okay” he says as he pulls her into a tight hug. “We’ll stop him okay?” he says beginning to tear up “We WILL stop him okay? He repeats, pushing the tears down. “We’ll stop him together okay?” “Okay” she replies in a soft whisper. “We have to catch up to the rest of the family. But we can talk about this later if you want” “okay,” “Thank you Will” “Any time” he says, pulling away from the hug while giving her a reassuring smile. “I think I'll stay out here for a little bit. I need to think.” “Yeah, okay. Take your time.” Will says before turning to Mike. Mike’s still over by el. His lips part as he looks at El. Before clamping shut and tuning to Will. Mike and Will head back up to the cabin meeting Johnathan at the door. “Hey you guys okay?” Jonathan asks as they walk in. Mike and Will look at each other then back at Jonathan. “Yeah we're okay” Mike says. “Good,” Jonathan says. Will walks over and on the couch by Joyce. Johnathan decides to join him not long after. That leaves Mike there standing at the door “Great, we can start getting a plan ready,” Hopper says, interjecting from El’s old room. “What?” Mike says confused. “We just got back and you're already planning on fighting again? El needs to rest.” “ Is Vecna out there resting?” “No, no he’s not. So neither are we. End of discussion!” Hopper says “No! No, not the end of discussion. She just got back! We don’t even have a place to Stay!” Will looks over at Jonathan with a worried look on his face. He tries to get up off the couch. Jonathan stops him by grabbing his wrist before he could even stand up. Jonathan and Will look at each other and he just shakes his head no and says “let them figure it out.” Will nods and sits back down. They're still looking at each other as Mike begins to yell again, Will tears his eyes away from Jonathan and puts them back on to Mike and Hopper arguing. “She needs to rest!” Mike says walking forward to Hopper tapping hopper on the chest. “It’s best if she rests!” Mike says “ No it’s not, Trust me I know what's best for her!” “And right now I know that's best if we don’t fight about her in front of people” Hopper says whispering. “Yeah.” “Yeah, I guess you're right.” Mike says. He calms down a little bit. Jonathan looks at Will “See?” “Yeah.” Will says, staring at the rotted wood beneath his feet. He knew Mike was still upset. But he wasn't going to start another fight. He lifts his head back up to see Mike who begins to walk outside. Hopper follows shortly behind.

part 3 coming soon. Ask me if you want to be tagged in the next part <3

#byler #will byers #stranger things #mike wheeler #jim hopper #platonic mileven #eleven #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler #part 2 of idk how many #part 2 #another cliffhanger #stranger things season 5 prediction #stranger things fan fic #stay tuned #elmike

[valkubusqueen]

Avatrice + being cute in season 1 & 2 (part 1)

requested by @warrionnunaddict 

#warriornunedit #warrior nun #avatrice #avatriceedit #ava silva #sister beatrice #wnedit #i had some many clips ready and i def needed another set to finish them #and look at how many moments like had in episode 1 in season 2 #there are more in season 1 but later on so i'll add them later #also warrionnunaddict it would not let me @ u so i linked ur account i hope thats ok if not tell me and i'll delete it #mine #warriornun* #gifset #warrionnunaddict #also i hope the you like it i know its not like the other one but maybe part 2 will be idk

[withdenim]

Do you think they know? About the whole. Being gay thing? I don’t know if they know.

#percival called Arin cool so many times after seeing him fall on his face SO many time #That’s the gay condition sir #percival tartigrade #guy with the STUPIDEST NAME /affectionate #Arin ninjago #Arin dragons rising #dragons rising part 2 #what’s their ship name lmao #I’ve seen people call them #imperiumdragon shipping #and also #dragonclaw shipping #personally I think the word floortile should be in there #tartigradefloortile shipping /j #how stupid can I make it competition #idk if I like imperiumdragon bc imperium is. a place KFNFKDMKF #that lots of people are from #and he doesn’t want to be a claw anymore so idk if claw works ! #percival x Arin ninjago #my art

[muckyschmuck]

of course u make another creature and of course u put glasses on it

#it doesnt even need glasses like at all #my art #oc art #digital art #traditional art #for like one... #doodlings #ears progressively get bigger and bigger #dumb fops #try to design a vile thing that isnt just johnny 2 challenge fucking impossible #TRY TO DESING A CHARACTER WITHOUT A MIDDLE PART CHALLENGE #FUCKING IMPOSSILED #or glasses #anyway only beast in a 500 mile radius with a cellphone #damn bitch how do u have furry same face syndrome #i think its juts i have no many fucking things theyre bound to start looking samey IDK idc i love him #at least its not another DEAD CORPSE CHARACTER #I MEANT SO MANY NOT NO MANY

[forourtomorrows]

memories

#persona 2 spoilers #persona 2 innocent sin #persona 2 #persona 2 fanart #tatsujun #tatsuya suou #jun kurosu #delislittledrawings #GOD it’s finally over !! 6 hours of drawing and idk how many rephrasing in my head #…actually compared to the comic i had to do at school six hours is really not that long #anyway i can’t believe coloring was the best part of all of this #and also it’s my first take with anything angsty but what can i say those two really don’t have the most peaceful love story

[musical-chick-13]

So I guess ultimately my question is why are we assuming that Nayuta specifically meant “Denji belongs to me definitively, and you are trying to take his attention away from me?”

Aside from the fact that narrative misdirection is a thing and that I think it would completely contradict all the themes of the story thus far to just have her be Makima 2.0 and inherently evil...

We don’t actually know if she and Yoru recognize each other or not? Even on a subconscious level. If she does recognize Yoru (and, reasonably, knows how her powers work) calling Yoru a thief could have meant that “You are trying to steal Denji’s spinal cord to make a weapon” or even “You have stolen this random girl’s body to use for yourself.” (Even if she doesn’t know specifically that Yoru is sharing Asa’s body, she might still be able to tell that something weird is going on?)

She’s still a child, she might have just impulsively said the smallest amount of words that would sort-of convey what she was feeling.

I’m not worried yet.

Yet.

#I know people are pointing to the 'don't kiss me in front of her' as evidence of her posessiveness over denji but. she's also a child? #lots of children just don't like seeing kissing in general. especially involving family members. it's also possible that...idk they were #watching a movie once with a kiss scene and she made a disgusted face or something and denji just interpreted that the wrong way #I mean. I know creators like to troll people especially ones who are essentially human cryptids like fujimoto but...he did say that part 2 #would be different from part 1. idk he's not a stupid writer I don't think he would go this hard on Themes™ of love and connection and how #they enrich our lives and then backtrack on that? I don't think he would highlight how Things Will Be Different if it didn't mean anything? #MANY THOUGHTS HEAD FULL #I'm still sad we didn't get a discussion between yoru and nayuta about eating crayons I'm thinking too much about that one comic #nayuta #yoru #chainsaw man #chainsaw man spoilers #chainsaw man manga spoilers #csm spoilers #csm manga spoilers #csm chapter 119 #(I think that's all of the tags people might have reasonably blocked if they don't want manga spoilers???)

[catsaurofmagiccomedy]

Missing my podcast guys o'clock!

#save me john malevolent. john malevolent save me. save me... #arthur; ypur famous ideas arthur; i miss them;; #malevolent podcast #malevolent #sam; samama khalid come back to me in ur iconic unrelenting search for the find out part of “fuck around and find out” #aliceee alice;; i need ur roasting ppl and “if i don't pay it attention it hasn't happened” attitude .. #gwen; my little scientifically unexplained specimen;; how many more finding outs do you have left in your journey bc of ur fucking around... #CELIA .come back;; pls keep breaking the barriers btwn dimensions queen; r u trying 2 go back home? idk but i support all ur rights & wrongs #tmagp #the magnus protocol #the magnus pod #imiss all of my guys (gender neutral)™ #i also miss red valley & the cellar letters;; but these guys™ r more recently missing so i haven't acclimated to their loss yet :c #when will they come back from the war (the perfectly reasonable in between season break)

[solace-seekers]

in my jason feels again….

#he’s like. the epitome of a hidden tragedy to me #especially with the way part of the fandom hates/hated him #idk maybe it’s cause i can just relate to his general vibe #just how he was the rule follower. perfect in every way he could be #and yet. and yet. he failed #he was always less than percy from the moment they met to everyone else #percy who has never once followed the rules but also came out on top of jason #how he was always criticized as boring or a moral less leader #but when did he have the opportunity to learn not to be? at the roman camp since 2????? #all the expectations placed on him as jupiters son that in the end he could never hope to achieve #these thoughts are probably disjumbldd and bad but yea. jason feels are so happening rn #pjo #hoo #pjo/hoo #jason grace #coming back to this cause i forgot to add my most important thought #the fact that so many readers hated him from the very beginning because he was not percy #it’s just. so devastating

[worstloki]

negative connotations to Arabic phrase ‘God is Great’ incorrect. average praying Muslim does takbir (says Allahu Akbar) a minimum 95 times a day and should have been counted.

#minimum #like MIMIMUM. #each day #like that’s just for the 5 prayers #only the obligatory ones it doesn’t include the additional voluntary ones most people also tend to do at some point #it doesn’t include regular use of the phrase in conversation #the phrase is literally used as an exclamation #like if you say ‘Allahu akbar my shift is over! I can go home alhumdulilah!’ #like I don’t know what to tell you #western news-media connotations are so weird #you literally yell takbir to celebrate as well #saw a thing where everyone did takbir every time someone donated a huge amount to charity like brooooooooo #people be laughing so hard and getting Allahuakbar Allahuakbar out while wheezing #you score a goal? Allahu akbar alhumdulilah #this is very normal culturally transmitted info #Christian Arabs use the phrase as well like it's Arabic come on western media you’re not even trying #it’s such a joke #95 doesn't even include the 2 calls to prayer #it doesn't count people who do the extra allahu akbar (x33) after each prayer #doesn't include anything recited before bed #like. these are not uncommon things people choose to do. like...... BRO??? #if you've ever seen Muslims praying in a group the person leading the prayer does the takbir out loud. that's literally how it's done #there are like 7 or 5 'Allahu akbar's in each round of prayer #you can't NOT say that part out loud it's literally THE part that has to be said out loud in each prayer #this information is very available online #you can say it before doing anything idk why it became a big deal in the west especially #it's some strange xenophobic Islamophobic normalise killings in those regions of the world mix #I’ve been getting recommended so many Arabic anime edits idk what to tell you #call everyone habibi it’s good for you #one of the most popular world languages fr

[marsixm]

i also think the fact that i had such a stunted and isolated upbringing and now that im an adult all my friends are on atypical life paths (and honestly even my friends as a kid were like this too) means i find things that are usually very common life stages really interesting. like knowing someone who has a house and a wife and 2 kids (with that wife) and a job with a salary feels like meeting fucking paul bunyun to me. or hearing the kids i work with talk about graduating high school and going to college and being on a real path with that stuff is neat? or even sometimes knowing cis/het people who are like going thru that coming of age stuff that i never really experienced the way you see it in the movies bc of transness/queerness/neurodivergence. its like woah they said the name of the thing in the thing. do u know what i mean???

#this actually reminds me of one of the girls at work whose been here for 2 yrs so i feel like im watching her grow up #shes graduating hs this year and shes really smart and she always asks questions like this #like picking ur brain about your life like 'what did you feel like growing up how was your family' etc #its kinda cool #she already got a degree bc of dual credit courses and an internship lined up and im so proud of her #and theres another girl her same age who came to me last night telling me her situationship just broke her heart #and they were both talking all about their prom dresses and all that stuff and were so excited last month #like idk i guess i just find it endearing #i think part of it is also that while these specific paths are thought of as common/default #there really is so much variance in life and really truly so many people not on those paths for so many reasons #which actually does loop around to making it seem strange #like truly how many people do you really know anymore who stayed at 1 job until they rose the ranks #who got married and had kids with that person and now they live in a house in the suburbs with some dogs and cats #like who does that anymore #meanwhile i think its just cool seeing kids actually experiencing growing up but in retrospect and not as a peer feeling confused & jealous #like woah youre a girl buying a dress and getting her hair done and texting a boy thats so wild ive never done that #or woah youre taking courses to prepare for college and know what degree youre going for #i no longer feel resentment that i felt left behind during all that shit when i was a teenager #im just happy for them and proud of them

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

k, m, n, t for pd and/or suck!!! >:33333

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

-> you know i gotta say wiwi. i have to. that character was Made For Me i swear to GOD . genuinely i cannot think about prime defenders season 2 episode 39 without feeling physically sick bc i love it so much. its the only one i havent relistened to since i heard it the first time. i KNOW its gonna make me cry again so i genuienly have not touched it even though theres things in there i need to hear again for character research. his arc is so like. narratively satisfying in a way that hits me so fucking deep to my core in an extremely personal way. and like. there were definitely some Decisions that i was REALLY ANNOYING about hating when they were brought up because im used to media with bad storytelling/creators that do not care about their characters but. looking back on it i would not change a single thing about it. i love you wiwi so much.

-> FOR SUCK.... its not over yet. so i cannot definitively say. campaign finale comes out tomorrow so my answer may change depending on that but for right now i think i gotta say arthur. i joke a lot about hating arthur for no real reason in particular but. man his story is just REALLY good. not going 2 give you suck spoilers (hehe) but i also really like how shilo has grown through the campaign. hes my little guy :]

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.

-> TIDE. TIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIDE TIDE TIDE I LOVE TIDE SO MUCH. thats my dad thats my best friend i love tide so much dude. every time he is mentioned or on screen i am just like :D HI TIDE I LOVE YOU TIDE

-> grefgore :] light of my life this is how i feel anytime i think about grefgore

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

-> CHARACTER STUDIES. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. I LIKE A GOOD SHIPPING FIC AS MUCH AS THE NEXT GUY BUT PLEASE GOD WRITE THEM IN CHARACTER. EXPLORE THEIR THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS AND WHY THEY MAKE CERTAIN DECISIONS THE WAY THEY DO. this doesnt even go for just pd and suck this is like. true for every single fandom ive ever fucking been in. do you know how hard it is to find character studies in the danny phantom tag on ao3. nobody has even fucking watched the show how are they going to write character studies they just want (<< i cannot legally finish this sentence without getting in so much trouble) I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING MY FUCKING SELF AROUND HERE. ALL I EVER WRITE ARE CHARACTER STUDIES BC THATS THE WAY I THINK ABOUT CHARACTERS. I LOVE THEIR MOTIVATIONS I LOVE TO GET INSIDE THEIR BRAINS LIKE A LITTLE PARASITE AND IT IS ALWAYS SURPRISING TO ME WHEN OTHER PEOPLE DO NOT THINK LIKE THIS. (edit im just now reading through this and realized the question says three things. i did not process that. my three things are all more character studies please)

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

-> oh dude i have so many hmmmmmmm how to choose just one. i have a LOT of feelings about wiwis original death and i might write something about that when i can get over my shrimp emotions about him. dakota cole audhd truther but that ones pretty much canon anyway so i dont think it counts. vyncent and his relationship with growing up in fantasy world and then being thrown into prime and how he adjusted to that. I think he really lies shitty syfy channel type horror movies that are so stupidly bad. and also plays a lot of video games but again i think thats mostly canon already. i think tide listens to dad rock but also like. ocean man by ween. you already know about my william and ashe being each others emotional support at concerts. i think william and ashe should hang out and do emo kid things more. i also have a lot of feelings about ashe and coping with the crippling loneliness of basically growing up alone and how the pd becoming like INSTANT best friends was so much for him in sooo many ways. you already know how i feel about mark i am in the middle of dissecting him like im in a high school biology class as we speak. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i know im gonna think of something really good after i hit the post button so stay tuned

#ive written like. maybe 2 shipping fics in recent years and one was while i was high on post-wisdom-teeth-surgery drugs #and the other has been in my wips for over a year bc i got to the quote unquote romantic part and ran out of all ideas #<< ive started working on this one again and instead of making them kiss i just went on for like . 4 more paragrapsh #about how the robot character finds it inconvenient to be in a body that visibly emotes. so that explains a lot i guess #the murderbot influence has hit me apparently #I DONT REALLY HAVE MANY SUCK HEADCANONS. as much as i loooove the suckening it doesnt like. grip me quite as hard as #pd and riptide do. #same with bitb! i fucking looooove bitb and i think about it so much but i dont necessarily have hcs for it because i like. #prefer the way canon is??? if that makes sense???? #I DO HOWEVER love to say the phrase “arthur bennett is a beautiful name for a butch lesbian” only bc i saw a piece of fanart with #that as the caption after like. epsiode 3. and it got stuck in my mind #oh also idk if ur here yet but arthur and deacon are also divorced father toxic exes in my mind. they totally fuck in a vampire style #(<< which is . ALSO a quote from a piece of fnaart that got stuck in my mind so fucking hard. they totally fuck in a vampire style. #i hate it here) #GODDD THANK U FOR LETTING ME RAMBLE. CAN YOU TELL IM NORMAL ABOUT THIS #asks #intertexts #friends!!!

[lemongogo]

hi

#yall ths art block is so bad its actually making me so stressed out😭😭😭 #its been awful plenty of times before BUT THISSS???IT FEELS NEVER ENDINGGG #so fucking frustrating-__- and i was finally working on smth i had started to like yday #but i hit this mid point where i didnt know How 2 break thru from like .. rough > finished #and im like T__T . brah . head in my hands #IDK WHAT TO DOOOOOOO . < lamenting . < woe is me . #sry i luv talking abt it . its therapeutic tbh . what do u guys do when u are in this position #i also try to go back to basics and j do gesture studies until i feel more capable #but im like shakig the bars of my cage . let me do smt fun again. please ❤️ PLEASEE ❤️ #i think part of it is also imposter syndrome whre like .. u see so many people u look up to doing so many cool things w their art #and its like . falling back into the trap of comparison and feeling like nothing u make can replicate the feeling of seeing those other #things ykwim🤔 #sick in da head . i think its also a twt issue #like ever since i started posting on there ive been feeling like i have 2 make . quote unquote good things which . obviously dookie sentimen #bc any art is objectively good art there isnt like . U CANT BE BAD YKWIM HELP #but when i j posted to tumblr it was like . u send it off like slapping a horse on the ass and u see it ride away and its so lowkey #and fun.. the community here is so muchc fun .. j dont feel pressured here #smiles sweetly #<gi influence #maybe ill delete the app 4 a while until i feel normal again #guys we need to kill all social media #guys we need to go back to drawing sheep on rocks (<giotto ref( #if i had 2 elaborate ig it feels like . i am following the path of most resistance -__- like wading hesdstrong in2 waves that keep pushing #me back . theres so much i want to do Wish i could do but its like damn i can barely draw like two complete things over the course of 2-3 mo #from how HARD IT ISSS🚶and my aphantasia compounds it . fumbling arnd in a dark room hoping smth sticks #graa.. i think its the realization that i couldnt ever do art professionally bc im such an obstinate artist T_T #tbh saying all this now its like looking up in2 the eyes of all my art insecurities looming over me #CASTING 100 FT SHADOWWWW🧍 #whteve . check back on me in 2 months hopefully i feel normal ab it then

[sheepgirlmaidtummy]

i think i have this fear of being seen as a liar i think. like. everyone does it. and as a kid i stole stuff all the time and the way that was dealt with kinda just fucked with my head. do people see my kindness and my compassion as manipulation? am i read as someone trying to tear down the walls so i can get something while ur guard is down?. idk why someone thinking that of me makes me feel so miserable like. what if they were right? ive made mistakes before.. whos to say they arent right about this time? i dont want to stop being kind but it scares me to think about that.

#im so different to all the people ive met. i know afew kindred spirits. 2 is in my cule and im dating the other #but idk. some part of me Long ago decided that i wanted to bring comfort to people. when i see how rough the world gets.. #i know thats something i can do to make people feel better. even if its just 1 person. #what else has there been in my life worth living for. aside from the company it brings and the growth i get to be part of. #i never got to be this kind. i never got to be treated this kindly before i transitioned. #idk. i guess this stuff just makes me think im doing something wrong. am i not supposed to try and make other happy if i seem like a trick? #to me this is what being a woman means for me. in so many ways... maybe thats why it being doubted hurts so much. #anyway.. my blood sugar is low. and its 2am. ily reader. i hope its not too much.

[graceful-not]

Uhh a response to @ccbcrazy 's video on Conya except it got too long and I put too much effort into it to just make it a reblog. So uh. VERY LONG rambling about why my feelings on Conya are complicated that somehow managed to have way too much Jay in it. why does he keep sneaking in here goddamnit.

OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL YEAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!! THE SILLIES EVER!!!! I love the way you organized the bullet points! Made everything very easy to follow (other than all the times the audio cut out RIP 💀) but. yeah . yeah them. they are sooooo. SO! UAUAUUA.

I agree with most of your points (and relate very very much w/ that bit about being ace and the Love At First Sight trope, though I'm aro and not ace), and ESPECIALLY with how Skybound handled everything (I could say so much about how much I hate despise the way they resolved Jaya in Skybound it's so icky I hate it I hate it I hate it I HATE IT), but I don't really have much to add to them, so I'll here are my random disjointed thoughts that sometimes and sometimes do not align with yours:

at some points, the emphasis on how it's something guilty and forbidden and how she "wants him but she can't have him", to quote that one Cole fangirl. It.. sat weirdly with me? As well as the phrasing of "the narrative wants him to be self-sacrificing", when talking about Cole on one of the slides. It feels weird to phrase it like that, as if the narrative is pushing him into that role rather than it being part of who he is, y'know? And the reason that the "yearning for what you know you can't have" aspect felt strange to me was that Cole putting friendship over his romantic relationships is a VERY significant thing about him for me. He values his friendships and family over any kind of romance, and would rather forfeit a potential romance than lose a friend, even if that friend hurt him. Which felt weird when the rest of the slideshow made it clear that you, like me, enjoy Conya because above all else, Cole loves Nya as a comrade and an equal. As a friend, before and even IF he loves her as anything else, which as you point out, isn't something we can definitively say about the other relationships (especially Jaya. I like it, I really do, and I'd say I think I like it more than Conya? but it's. it's VERY complicated and messy and they aren't really stable like. At All. for a while.)

And that part of Cole resonated with me a lot; the part that's perfectly fine not pursuing Nya because he doesn't NEED that connection like Jay does, because he's satisfied and content with where he is in their relationship now, after they both calm down and he realizes it isn't worth it, because it isn't even something he wants all THAT much. (The larger issue is that Jay was against him spending time with her at ALL, even as friends, because he was being possessive and insecure which is a whole host of other things-)

And actually? Y'know what? I'm gonna talk about Jay for a bit bc I feel like, though you did have a few slides on it and touch on it, you didn't really talk about how Jay is a very fundamental aspect of Conya's dynamic in-canon, as Nya's Yang and Cole's best friend (A title which he bestowes upon himself, I might add.) Jay is... Not Very Secure In His Relationships for the first few seasons. It stems from feeling inferior and weak compared to everyone else, which grows into clinginess and possessiveness for the ones that DO choose him, because he's afraid they'll leave, which in turn pushes them away because he's being Weird About It. He has this habit of... sorting those closest to him into neat little boxes that reassure him (Nya as his girlfriend who loves him and finds him funny and won't leave him and Cole as his best friend who's loyal and supportive and also won't ever leave him, and, as you'll note, he's the one that starts both of these, with asking Nya out and proclaiming Cole as his bestie during Skybound.) And when those people step out of those boxes, the change unsettles him, and he panics and doubles down on his tactics, sometimes even resorting to violence (which makes things worse and pushes them away more and... you get it. it's a whole cycle.) So.. Nya and Cole and their interactions are very defined by What Jay Will Let Them Do, for the first few seasons. What won't set him off, what is Good and Innocent and won't make him insecure. S1-7 Jay would NOT have let the hand nuzzle happen. But I believe S8-15 Jay WOULD. Because he's actually secure in his relationship with Nya and they trust each other, and he trusts Cole, etc. etc.

And I feel like them having an undercurrent of romantic tension kind of spits in the face of that?? I dunno. It makes the intention a little wobbly. I like the idea that it comes from a place of camaraderie, where platonic love can also be deep and intimate and layered, and not just repressed romantic feelings. Because the thought that either of them are just pining and never having that resolved makes me sad for all three of them :(.

But I DO like to think that Cole is a little bit madly in love with all of his friends in different ways (just like me fr..) and Nya's the one he latched onto back in S3 because she's a girl and heteronormativity. Cole has a lot of love in his heart ok and he cares about them very very much 🥹. And he loves and supports them and maybe he wants to kiss some or all of them but he can't do that so he's fine where he is. really he is. he's fine. HES FINE!!! he's okay when she puts a hand on his shoulder and he doesn't know how to express that he loves her so so so much and he missed her but not in the way that Jay loves her, in a different way, but he feels like it's just as important but Jay obviously didn't see it that way and he doesn't know if he does now, and how he loves them all different but so so strongly and how can she and Jay even make it so simple it's so EASY for them to wear the Yin/Yang relationship label it just FITS even though none of those relationships are alike how can the same label work when the love is obviously so different and he doesn't know if Nya even could understand that, understand how much his heart bursts with affection and fondness for her and the others, but she DOES she DOES get how you can love someone so much that there maybe aren't correct words for it, that's why Jay was the one to propose because she was just happy the way they were, and she's happy the way they are now and she's happy the way she and Cole are now except she can't be because they keep getting TORN APART and they can't ever really be happy because they're all always in danger ALL THE TIMe- sorry got carried away aha.

but yeah. And then Jay is there. and i can't let myself think Abt Conya too long because I get really sad about him. bc he's not LIKE THAT. He doesn't Get It like they (and I haha was it clear I am maybe projecting) do. The labels are comforting to him, rather than unneeded or even restricting in the way they could never encompass the full force of the feelings. They're like signifiers that the love is real, is there, is Official, which isn't something the others need because they already take the loving as a fact and a given, and Jay doesn't! He doubts his relationships and needs the reassurance of the labels, to be able to say, definitively, "This is my Yang, which means we love eachother romantically and complete eachother and are missing a piece without eachother and" (do you see where the problem is. The proposal scene was so cute but I think about his little rambly speech a little too much BUDDY WITH ANY OTHER PERSON ITD BE CUTE BUT WITH YOU AND YOUR TRACK RECORD ITS CONCERNING) But that also means that when the "rules" are broken he thinks it means the love is also broken because now the label has been dismantled and that's! NOT TRUE!!! AHH!!!!!!!! I truly think he would be cured if he made out with someone other than Nya (w/ her permission obv) for like ten seconds but he would literally never do that. but it would fix him I know this in my heart if Nya told him to go out and get some bitches he would be cured of All of His Complexes he would experience Enlightenment through the knowledge that he could do that and his relationship with Nya would still be valid and their feelings wouldn't change just because he did it and he would ALSO get to kiss someone about it. Literally win-win. Maybe it could even be Cole. this is how mudshock shippers stay winning.

And THATS always been my biggest issue with Conya. They never know what to do with Jay. Because if he found out Nya doesn't love him and is IN LOVE WITH HIS BEST FRIEND he would literally never recover all of his self worth issues that he overcame down the fucking drain bitch!! because everything bad he thought about himself has been proven true! AND THE REASON HE ACTS LIKE THAT IN THE FIRST FEW SEASONS IS BC THATS EXACTLY WHAT HES TERRIFIED OF HAPPENING!! And because he's so insecure and also has so much amatonormativity entrenched within him because the rules and restrictions reassure him, he's diametrically opposed to Conya! so I can't let myself have a Conya AU without Jay unpacking all of that and being Okay with people experiencing love differently, and then maybe realizing he doesn't have to love so restrictively anymore either, and THEN Conya can be whatever the fuck is going on with them in peace. Or he finds out Nya is in love with Cole and almost loses his shit before they both tell him they are also still in love with him. And he's like "oh thank God wait Cole ur in love with me" and that would fix him. Imagine thinking you're literally the worst and then you pull both Nya AND Cole while actively being kind of a jerk to them. how do you have the self worth issues after that shdbsjdb.

anyway go watch the video 👍

#ninjago #conya #jaya #mudshock #cole brookstone #nya jiang #nya smith #jay walker #the reason i dont talk a lot about Nya's POV is because it would be mostly about Skybound and that wasnt really relevant to anything else I #was talking about here. but i have sooo many thoughts about Nya and skybound and how she views relationships and commitment so. #if people want a part 2 to this weird rambly post?? #bruiseshipping #←technically #tldr of this entire post is uhh. Aro Cole real??? Conya QPR real???? idk man #mudshockshipping

[deus-ex-mona]

no thoughts, just the way the narumi sisters are so different yet fundamentally similar at the same time yk?

#i love the functionally dysfunctional relationship of the narumi sisters to an unhealthy degree i think… #i’ve just been thinking about how both sisters put each other up on a high pedestal while having a less than high opinion of themselves and. #aaaaaaa just the way sena calls mona her angel while thinking of herself as a useless/subpar older sis #a n d how the main source of mona’s depression is her constant comparisons with her beloved big sis sena is just. aaaaa #just!!!! the way sena pushes herself past her limits in her attempts to portray herself as an ideal big sis for mona #even at the expense of her own health sometimes (see also: the beach sisters honeypre event) #i really feel like the way sena thinks she isn’t good enough of a big sis to mona is pretty glossed over for the most part tbh.. man. #(​i have many thoughts on this tbh. none of them coherent) #and just. aaaaaaaaaaaa im really happy that both of them have great support systems (their families + [midori for sena]/[monacas for mona]) #like. even though they don’t personally think they’re good enough compared to their ideals… #at least they have people who are there to love them for who they truly are. their true selves (honto no watashi) if you will— #idk i just wish both of them could see themselves exactly how their sister sees them… #b ut man i really want idol sengen season 2 just so that we may be able to see how sena reacts upon finding out what happens to the bracelet #i doubt they’ll show it in an mv but. man. i really want to know how she’ll react… #im probably misremembering and misinterpreting a bunch of stuff about sena huh… i miss her thoughhh #i miss seeing the sisters together tbh. i think the gen 3 sibling pairs should sing together a la tokyo [season] session style