#or that I'm a person of color at all

[thehealingsystem]

being biracial between white and poc will always be so alienating for me I don't relate to anyone. I don't quite fit in with whites but I don't quite fit in with people of color. been more white passing than the rest of my family doesn't help

#with white people I always feel like I'm gonna be “found out” with people of color I feel like a token white friend #or seen as white even though I'm poc too #I literally lived on a reservation for a huge portion of my life but I still don't feel like I'm allowed to claim the poc experience #or that I'm a person of color at all #now that im experiencing the life a lot of white americans experience #which btw you people lack so much community it's actually isolating #indigenous #native american #biracial #bipoc #poc #I can wear the most obvious indigenous jewelry and accessories or clothing and still assumed im white #I literally wore a shirt once from a powwow with my tribe on it and an adult went “oh you really like Indians huh.” what the fuck #and when I say I'm native every single time without fail is just #“oh my god I love native culture btw im so jealous of ur skin color you lived on the rez wow did you live in houses made from sticks” #“oh but you're like white native I don't think of you as actually native you can't claim that im still gonna make white jokes about you”

[eldrtchmn]

Goldmask

#fanart #art #myart #digital art #soulsborne #elden ring #Goldmask #Eldrtchmn #I'm gonna post all the art I did in the last few weeks lol #and maybe some personal stuff like photos from our vacation in Japan 👀 #I made this for that color wheel challenge on Twitter actually! as the color yellow

[somnimagus]

My page for @kairizine. It was such a huge honor to be part of this wonderful book with everyone, I had so much fun!

[id in alt!]

#kingdom hearts #kh #kh kairi #kh xion #kh namine #i don't really feel proud of my own stuff usually but #i really think this is the drawing i'm most proud of from this past year!! it made me think 'oh maybe i can draw' haha #i'm still kinda bad with colors but something clicked with this one. and i feel like i got the sentimental feeling i wanted! #ooh but this project's about flower symbolism so ramble incoming: #protea symbolizes resilience transformation and diversity; hollyhock means 'please remember me.' #so my general theme was finding a sense of self. #these 3 have struggled with finding their own identity; they tend to get left behind both in-universe and in general plotwise #and naminé and xion both resemble kairi and were overshadowed by her memory. but i feel like all 3 have transformed into their own people #xion and naminé have their faces covered partially by hollyhock to show their wish to be remembered for who they are- #instead of the parts that they share with someone else #and the protea bouquets show how they each held on and resiliently grew into their own person despite it all #i put a little swervy path on the hill behind kairi to give that hopeful sense of growth and moving forward. it's a little hard to see #hopefully that makes sense! i really love symbolism but i think in visuals so i'm really bad with words #but gosh working with everyone on this project was so fun. it was like impossible not to get swept up by the team's hype for this zine #i need to hunt down everybody's work and rb it #ohh and everybody's flowers are so crisply drawn it's insane!! i think if i lined all these flowers and leaves i'd die haha #fan art #my art #project stuff

[heartorbit]

we get a little silly

#project sekai #pjsk #proseka #emu otori #prsk #i was SO sleepy yesterday after class i couldnt draw or sketch so i blocked this out of color very silly style #i love drawing like that and other artists make it look so good i'm not great at it but its fun from time to time. she silly! #nenes cardigan patch is a seashell bc i didnt know how to draw robot head. soz. #i will never miss emu heart hair strand. believe it. #my first class was late in the evening + ive been jumping around on all of my comms so i havent drawn mych personal. i sleepy #my semester staarted yesterday so my biweekly posts will become um maybe monthly who knows. more like whenever i wnat which is what i do rn #if youre reading this i wuv you. #the early birthday emu.. but she will get more. just u waits.

[ink--theory]

forbidden love type of beat

#i'm too lazy to color it in so all you get is this lmao #if you wanna color it in yourself then be my guest just msg me and i'll send you a transparent ver. #splatoon #agent 32 #agent 4 #agent 8 #ah yess my personal agent 32 au that i've only drawn for one other time and will never write fanfic for uwu #I was still a bit sad about splatfest so I just said 'why not draw some good ol yuri' and here I am #my art shit

[flickering-nightfall]

ubemaster (they are ube colored to me)

#spearmaster is a lovely shade of purple #“they're ube colored” i say and then all the food is a different shade of purple lol #...storytime! #i started drawing this a little while ago #and it made me crave sapin-sapin #we got some. craving satisfied. actually the suman satisfied the craving more than the sapin-sapin but anyways - #i didn't come back to the drawing yet. then i saw pansear translating filipino food to rw #and i was like eyyy! and got around to finishing this #i'm missing the latik/coconut flakes on the sapin-sapin but meh #i personally don't like them. #I mean I don't like eating them - they look nice but I'm not a fan of the texture #spearmaster and survivor are going to regret sitting on/leaning on that btw it's VERY sticky #also if you haven't tried ube ice cream with vanilla ice cream you should <3 #rain world #rw spearmaster #flickerdoodles #art #food

[lotus-pear]

what is childe doing in bungou gay dogs😟

#finally finished reading this manga after it sat on my to read list for a couple years #a good friend finally convinced me into reading it and i buckled and read the whole thing in three days (i'm not ok <33) #anyway she neglected to tell me childe was in it otherwise i would have read it sooner!!!!!! #NO NO HEAR ME OUT #murder gingers with dead blue eyes that are part of dark antagonistic organizations and happen to be executives in said organizations #relatively similar color palette and cocky confident personalities that are instantly shed when in the heat of battle #tragic pasts where both were mercilessly tormented until salvation occurred in the form of an invitation to their respective organizations #childe has so many siblings that one of them left and infiltrated another anime #i better not see any chuuya stans @ me in the tags and be like ''stop comparing zhongli's wallet to my pookie chuuya'' #i will fuck you up #i'm so sry to anyone who actually sat and read all the tags im so mentally ill abt this mf i can talk about him for hrs if given the chance #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #lotus draws

[venacoeurva]

Unstoppable force vs immovable object, truly (I couldn’t decide which version to go with, so have both)

-Please do not reupload/edit/use.-

#I'm an ''all characters are ver until proven otherwise'' person but let me live for the meme #I mostly just wanted an excuse to draw miraak #miraak #wren nerevarine #nord #dunmer #tes #tesblr #suggestive #they’re naked but all their bits are covered #artsyfartsyness #Tel leaves for like a week to do something and the bedroom is in shambles #enjoy this from last night I just colored it today n shit

[nipuni]

OHHHH my god I just got my latest GibsonGirlDress order and it’s a dream!!! this set is my new favourite 😭 look at it!! 

#I keep ordering these vests in different colors they are so good!! #I ordered custom measurements for this one and it fits way better than my old ones I'm so happy!! #I have to take in the others but I'm too scared to ruin them..my sewing is not at that level yet ;; #but now I can use the measurements of this one for reference #the boots are from American Duchess #this set came with petticoat and stockings #also I'm wearing a corset! I'm built like a plank so it's worth mentioning that any shape is understructure #this is all linen and the blouse is cotton cambric #🥺❤️ #personal #nips photos

[tvckerwash]

you know, an interpretation of ct that I don't see that I personally really love is that she's a fuck up. like yes she's cool and she has some good fight scenes, but a huge part of her character is that she makes mistakes. the mistakes that she makes are ones that on their own aren't the end of the world, but she keeps making these little mistakes, and they eventually add up until she's out of room to make any more.

a really good example of this phenomenon in action is the actions she took leading up to her final confrontation with carolina and tex.

strike one, she thought she saw something in the water, but when asked by the leader what it was, she brushed it off as nothing when even if it had been nothing, it would've been smart to tell him what she thought she saw.

strike two, she didn't sense or notice florida's presence when the leader did, and she looks at the leader twice, once as she pulled out her magnums, and again after she did a scan of the room, almost like she was looking at him for guidance before he finds florida and takes him out with one good axe throw.

strike three, she couldn't convince the leader to leave when they had the chance to get away, and her cheap tricks were not enough to hold off either tex or carolina in a fight. they were only good for incapacitating her opponents enough for her to get away, which doesn't work when she has no escape.

ct is not tex, or carolina, or south. she is not a one woman army who can get herself out of trouble when she's stuck in tough situations. she needs people who can watch her back, she need a team who can cover her when she does mess up, and the leader and his team were not those people. she couldn't bring herself to trust them, and they couldn't bring themselves to trust her, and that cost all of them their lives.

#i say i never see this interpretation of ct as if I'm not the only person having ct thoughts in 2024 lmao #red vs blue #rvb #agent connecticut #this is why wash and ct work so good together they function best in teams but theyre put in situations where theyre on their own #and they suffer because of it #but where wash had no choice in ending up w/o a team ct did #the ability to choose is a powerful tool. but being able to choose means that sometime somewhere someone will choose wrong #oh to further clarify the interpretation of ct I'm used to seeing is stereotypical hyper competent badass bitch type character #I've never really seen ct that way though tbh. she's a rebellious smart-ass who loves stating the obvious #it's honestly a pretty childish trait which i think goes well with her complex about being seen as a kid who needs excuses made for #her subpar performance in the field #basically in her head ct is james bond but in reality she's cringefail loser girl who wants to be a hero #you know what analyzing and discussing how heroism is viewed in rvb might be a pretty good essay #these colorful guys and gals aint heroes theyre all losers trying their best #anyway I'm off to attempt drawing a meta! tucker piece that may or may not turn out

[anantaru]

i love it when hoyo makes those unique designs, huohuo's so cool and even though i won't roll for her, she really stands out between all the other female characters, they put so much cool stuff into her clothes and everything 🙇🏻‍♀️ like she really looks like a 5 star alone from her entire design!!

#or maybe i'm just happy to see a different outfit for once #I know not everyone likes her design but I personally really love it #for example if you compare the outfits of the last couple of female characters in hsr #all outfits are the same just different color #like even the top and bottom its all the same and that's so sad #I think jingliu was the last one to have a unique outfit now it's just recoloring #I hope they do add more cooler outfits in the future tho #I mean we will be in another world soon so maybe there!! #໒꒱ ׁׅ ✦ yoru talks hsr'

[corallapis]

No, never. Missy! I will never stand with Doctor!

#simm!master #missy #gomez!master #tenth doctor #twelfth doctor #doctor x master #doctor who #dwedit #dw #* #not even trying to consistently color this one soz ✌️ #so i was thinking abt the change in simm!master's attitude from eot (“get out of the way”) to s10 (“i will never stand with the doctor”)... #and like. what if you voluntarily saved the doctor by throwing yourself back into the time war #the war that you made yourself human to escape from the first time round #dragged back to gallifrey at the mercy of the ppl who you just opposed? (the people who engineered your insanity in the first place?) #when missy asks him to go to gallifrey with her & 12 says ''you'll be clapped irons'' yeah i'm sure it was a great deal more than that #for the deserter. for the person who they cursed as a child & still failed to bring about their salvation #for the someone who tried to kill the founder of all time lord society #and then when gallifrey is saved... does the doctor (again: whose life you saved!!! when you last saw each other) come looking for you? no #you have to get yourself out. and when you find yourself trapped & the doctor finally does appear... what does he say to you? #''so they cured your little condition and kicked you out'' !!!! #like. yeah. i think simm!master is totally in the right for not listening to a single thing 12 says past that point. lmao.

[superloves4]

For @leucisticpuffin awesome fic here!!

Hopefully the tumblr cruch will not ruin this! (Just Maedhros, Maglor, Elrond and Elros with no texture underneath)

#tried to make it look like paper #punished for my cat hubris #i can't draw animals at all #fairly sure I got the eye color wrong #I'm exactly the person they talk about when they say artist that can't draw old men #silmarillion #maglor #the silmarillion #feanorians #tolkien #silm #maedhros #elros #elros tar minyatur #elrond and elros #kidnap fam #my art #i just realized I forgot to color in Maglor glasses #ironically apt for Maglor

[essektheylyss]

was reminded that people get riled up about this the way they get riled up about pineapple on pizza and honestly, as a knowledge org nerd, it is weird and unnecessary 😌

#like I do think it's annoying to be all haughty about 'um people are only buying books for the aesthetic' cuz usually they are not #and also cuz like... look. I as a writer do not give a fuck if someone wants to buy a book for aesthetic purposes. boost those sales #but MORE IMPORTANTLY SOME PEOPLE DO THINK IN SUCH A WAY THAT THIS IS A USEFUL METRIC FOR ORGANIZING. #ME FOR INSTANCE. #(I do not organize by color cuz my spouse is not one of those people but I would if I was just organizing for me) #trying to insist that a method of organizing can't possibly be useful if it doesn't work for you personally is clown behavior. #trick meme cuz you can't change my mind on this but that's cuz I'm CORRECT. #god the people who are like 'um if you care about how your books are organized or the ~aesthetic~ you don't actually like books' #drive me NUTS #sorry if you can't care about two things at once but some of us are perfectly capable of multitasking. good lord.

[aethersea]

devastating to go into the tag for an obscure vampire movie I've been quietly obsessed with for years to find mostly gifsets of minor characters (played by big-name actors) and review blogs saying they didn't like it :(

@ everyone who made a post saying "I liked it :)" I am blowing you a kiss. everyone who made a lovely gifset or photoset of the cinematography I am tipping my hat. that one poster that said "bro did y'all just miss the Entire Message about class and race or???" I am shaking your hand with enthusiasm there was SUCH a message about class and race

anyway everybody should watch Night Teeth and revel in glitzy flashy modern vampires in LA with me

#finx rambles #night teeth #vampires #apparently the marketing heavily overemphasized megan fox (she has a bit role. she's in like one scene) #so that one's not on the fans #but I am sad about all those people fuming bc it didn't have a poly ending #girl this is hollywood? what did you expect? #invent it yourself? that is what fandom is for?? queer reads have always been about discarding endings and living in the liminal?? #(side note I love queer readings of fairy tales. fairy tales class was so fun. god I need sleep or something my brain is on SUCH tangents.) #frustrated by that one post saying 'the vampire-slaying gang leader spends the day after a catastrophe befalls #trying to get his shift covered at work? unrealistic' #bro he's working class. he's poor. he's gotta put food on the table. do you think your job cares about your personal tragedy #this is in fact part of the Themes At Play wrt class. believe it or not. #sad also about those reviews that are like 'eh it was mid' but I've never needed critics to agree with me and I'm not about to start now #I did think the gifmakers would be on my side though #the lighting in this movie??? #that whole opening sequence in the credits with the storytelling done through reflections in cars at night? #the color choices??? the lighting??!?!?!?!

[robo-dino-puppy]

horizontober 2023 | 3: recognize

greetings, dr. sobeck. you are clear to proceed.

#horizontober2023 #horizon zero dawn #hzd #aloy #hzd all-mother mountain #so i saw this prompt and this scene is what i thought of #and i was like oh i can put my new gifmaking powers to use! #aaaaaand it turns out to be like the hardest scene to fit under tumblr's 10mb limit bc of all the glow and the gradients that causes #(i'm still learning/experimenting - and using only free software - so i'm sure a seasoned gifmaker could do/has done much better T_T ) #i'm not particularly happy with the coloring in the first two either but i decided i'm *done* lmao #also apparently i'm too lazy to add subtitles sorry i think y'all still get the idea #gifs #hzd gifs #finally thank u to the person on youtube who uploaded the cutscenes bc i sure as heck didn't have a video or a save in the right spot