#or scared of the adults that run it-

[arcadequeerz]

the fact that people in power in this country care more about acting as if queer people are any risk at all to kids, instead of how often school shootings happen- makes me sick.

#the fact that kids can be scared to go to school because of: some random person coming with a gun #or that kids are scared to go to school for being bullied for who they are- #or scared of the adults that run it- #byt yeah lets go after the queer people who are just fighting to fucking live. who just want kids to know #that its ok to be who they are n its ok to be proud about it. #lets take resources away from kids who need it. #i'm so fucking tired of this country man. they dont care how many queer kids die- they dont care how many suffer #they dont give a shit about any child queer or not #this country fails us time n time again n then people act like we need to be so grateful for it #idk if i worded this well. rbs off because im just mad. and upset. #i want queer kids to be able to find joy in who they are with out fear. i want there to be places they can find #answers- i want them to be fucking safe.

[clonerightsagenda]

Listening to the finale so it's time to start chewing on the walls again about Miranda Pryce and this story's handling of disabled villainy

#like.... as a child she was TIRED of people being afraid of her #and now as an adult she scares people on purpose bc she might as well have them afraid because she WANTS them to be #instead of them recoiling just bc she happens to be visibly disabled #and is a reminder of the fragility of the human body #(was youth and immortality obsessed Matthew afraid of her? did he cringe away until she made herself over?) #so I get the obsession to Perfect humanity... to rip apart the world and fix it #that's a great motivation for a disabled villain especially given she was born pre-ADA and left more or less to die #BUT also there's the constant emphasis on how gross and horrifying her prosthetics are by our 'heroes' #that's not interrogated at all by the narrative #and certainly feels like a choice to make her an extra scary villain #running in circles screaming #wolf 359 #I WILL put this in the tag #perpetual perpetual ladies night

[nose-nippin-fun]

“But letting walls down,

it can sometimes

set you straight”

~ The Wise Old Bartender Who’s Seen It All

#finally opened up to my parents #about my sister’s verbal abuse #and about me needing to assert myself as an adult #by moving into my own place #I’d been so scared to talk to them #because my sister weaponized that as “running to mommy and daddy #but it was a relief to finally have my feelings about the situation affirmed #bawled my eyes out in the car #now I need to collect myself enough to go back in and deal with my sister #Huskerdust give me strength…

[trebhum]

Laceys Games and Valle Verde are so criminally underrated it's a real shame. I consume a lot of digital horror/arg content but truthfully those two are the best I've seen besides classic Petscop. The way they weave their narratives and their aesthetics are truly phenomenal. One of the reasons Petscop got so big when it did is because there was nothing really like it. I think the same can be said for both Lacey and Valle Verde, I wish there were more people who appreciated just how insanely good they both are. But, I suppose, it is always fun to be "niche"

#the biggest complaint people always have is oooohhhhh its so OVERSATURATED its all the same... #and i get that. to a certain extent #i think there is a Lot of digital horror/arg stuff out there especially nowadays i think it only becomes increasingly popular #but i think most of it is usually pretty good. i think sometimes you'll have something a little subpar like i didnt really care for #the man in the suit but even so i appreciate that someone probably put their heart and a lot of effort into making it and i like it just #bcuz of that. does that make sense? #and i think a lot of it is made by younger people as well. the good stuff is out there you just have to know where to look #or also understand that both genres as a whole are still pretty quote unquote new and also predominantly run by a younger generation #for an overall younger audience. when i say younger i mean like teenagers and young adults #although my bfs little brother loves the mandela catalogue and hes like 11 so maybe even younger #anyways this was kind of rambling but i highly recommend both laceys games and valle verde. its very rare that something like this #Actually scares/creeps me out but both have done so with flying colors.

[mariatesstruther]

okay but a modern au where tommy always takes sarah to the library and gradually falls in love with the pretty head librarian ms. maria

#tommy x maria #this has cutesy vibes but i also think it would be funny if maria was just the most intense and organized librarian anyone has ever seen #*intimidating #like she will shush you and glare daggers if you bring in books dmamaged #shes not mean or anything just intimidating because she has an underfunded but highly rated and historically important library to run!!!! #she means business!!!! #shes super nice to and good with the kids #but all the adults are scared of her #at first tommy think she keeps looking at him because she think hes cute #*thinks #when she comes up to him in the historical fiction aisle he’s elated #maria: dude. you need to stop picking up books and walking around with them if you aren’t going to put them back #maria: im sick of finding pirate themed historical romance novels in the kids section after you leave with your daughter #tommy: um. absolutely. sorry ma’am #library au #the tipsy bison #maria x tommy

[somnas-writes]

Au where all the riordanverse protagonists met when they were little. The parents get to talking and end up forming an alliance to take care of their children.

#like #Sadie makes a trip down to Boston to take Percy to an aquarium and runs into Natalie #at the same time Julian is in town with the kids #they meet at the aquarium #the kids start playing together in the kiddie pool #the adults talk while watching their kids and end up scheduling lunch at a restaurant nearby #cue a years long friendship between the parents #the kids also become close friends #the kids catch the attention of various gods but the presence of the other pantheons scares them off #mcga #pjo #tkc #pjo au #riordanverse #let me cook #somnas.rambles #somnas.writes

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Holy shit it’s gonna be alright. My parents want a diplomatic, CIVILIZED meeting almost akin to a peace treaty, to occur in a few days.

Yes yes yes yes

#exjw #ex cult #I hadn’t anticipated exactly how much I had leveled the playing field when I became an adult and got myself THREE reputable jobs #I went into that conversation verbally loaded for bear and prepared to run to the hospital for asylum if things got ugly #They didn’t even ask me questions yet; they just said they’re prepared to hear me out and make changes #It’s wild how differently they’re treating me now vs. when I was sixteen #They’re more scared of what I’ll do than I am of what they’ll do. I’ve never had it like this before #Not that fear is good… but it feels much better to be in this kind of situation with some control and agency #It feels good to have power; and I will not abuse that power to needlessly make them feel worse than they need to #because I am better than they were four years ago

[coffee-bat]

big boy hours continue

#yesterday i was soooo brave #bc in p.e. (technically self defense class bc thats what i chose) we had to spend a solid few minutes running at the start #like in a circle as warm-up #and i fucking died. i have marfan syndrome (which affects the heart even if you dont have the severe heart variant) AND anemia i cant fuckin #g run #i cant do fucking stamina-based shit i loose feeling invmy legs and get black spots imnediately #so after that i had to sit on the mat for a few mins and do my best not to pass out💀 #and i was absolute shit for the rest of the class bc i was exhausted and dizzy #so i decided to be a big boy and after class went to the trainer (who im a bit scared off) to ask if if i have a genetic illness that me- #*makes me #-have no stamina then can i just. not run please. or do i have to change my p.e. class (please no) #and it went very well! i dont have to change classes and im allowed to just do my own warm ups while theyre running #i was so scared of trying to ask for that😭 #im unreasonably happy with myself for doing what technically is a normal adult thing but. shh #ramble #personal

[sourcengine]

call me scared the way i am so scared

#dectalk speaking #um #adult mutuals may ask for my nsft side. #BUT #i may not give it bc i am so fucking scared #sobs and coughs and wheezes and cries and runs away forever and ever into a deep dark cave never to be seen ever again

[thebleedingeffect]

.

#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

[spookietrex]

"She only sleeps when it's raining

And she screams, and her voice is straining

She says, "Baby, it's 3 AM, I must be lonely"

And she says, "Baby, well, I can't help

But be scared of it all sometimes."

-Matchbox Twenty

#3am thoughts #its 3am #i can't sleep #c ptsd #ptsd nightmares #complex ptsd #ptsd #ptsd recovery #actually ptsd #complex post traumatic stress disorder #actually complex ptsd #severe depression #depressing thoughts #depressive #depression #actually disabled #disabled #physical disability #disability #my spoons are running low #actually spoonie #low spoons #spoon theory #spoonie #my brain won’t shut up #i'm scared #I'm getting bad again #actually autism #autistic things #autistic adult

[soft-serve-soymilk]

Pav playing SDV in 2017: Marries Alex bc he is the closest thing to a normal person in this tiny town

Pav playing SDV in 2024: SEA BASS I’M COMING STRAIGHT FOR YOU

#I mean look at him he’s got the Inigo vibes -> 🚬😔 #also I like emo people in hoodies 🩷🩷 #Also I can surely say it runs like a dream even with mods. 0 lag 0 stutter 0 crashing (looking at you cb!!!!!!!!!!) #I would say absolute perfection if it wasn’t the final nail in the coffin for the spicy pillow (read: swollen lithium-ion battery) #in my laptop 😭 the chassis is barely holding on I’m scared 😓 #wise adults of the tumblr provide ur guidance 😭 #do you think it will be one of those things my dad will say ‘shit happens’ to and deal with it accordingly??? #the last thing I need is to spontaneously combust at school (or even worse inside my room) #I am ProhibitedTM from acquiring new devices so :/ strapped for options #I mean this laptop is 4 years old minus it’s brief decommissioning where I had the other one #So it’s probably at end-of-life bc of programmed obsolescence #😔😔😔 #absolutely terrible timing. why can’t these things happen when I have an income 😤

[ink-asunder]

DHMIS Rant

I feel like the DHMIS series was created to conform to a guideline of "things to have in your show for preschoolers," and then the creators did everything according to the instructions but wildly wrong on purpose. Like, "Have a scene where one of the characters turns to the audience and asks them how THEY feel about this episode's topic," "if you're teaching a lesson about a type of wrongdoing like bullying or lying, show one of the characters lying or bullying someone, then show them learning to not do that," etc.

In the Death episode, Yellow Guy's behavior constantly reminded me of the episode of Sesame Street where Big Bird learns about death. The thing they have in common is that the characters are used to show how children may think and feel after the loss of someone they know. The thing DHMIS DOESN'T have, however, is other characters HELPING Yellow Guy deal with his feelings. In the Friendship ep, it's kind of like a bullying episode, except all of the characters are absolutely terrible, and then at the end, they DO learn and change, they just aren't any better.

I genuinely love children's media because of how it has to be crafted very carefully to help developing minds. I look at children's media critically not because "is this storytelling good enough for me" but because I want children growing up to have media that is willing to teach good core social and intellectual skills, even if said skills are basic and such educational value is *beneath* adults (peak "it's not made for you," btw.)

So naturally, seeing a show for adults fully aware of and intentionally parodying these aspects of children's media unironically *delights* me to no end

#/gen #/positive #i love shows (both for kids and adults) who have this kind of self awareness and run with it #the c4 show kinda reminded me of gumball in several ways? but that's maybe another post for another day at this point #dhmis #don't hug me i'm scared

[pepprs]

the mortifying ordeal of today being a potluck day.

#purrs #delete later #it’s been 3.5 years since i last was at one and somehow it’s exactly as miserable as it was before if not worse. also why am i being fucking #guilt tripped into doing this and participating in it. im fucking 24 years old. i should get to choose how to spend my time. i should not be #a prop to make my mom look good for running the perfect vegan family. like it sounds like a cartoon but i don’t fucking care about being #vegan and i never did. i just got scared into it and i fucking resent being a prop put on display and unable to do what i want because i #have all this shit in my head about what’s healthy and what’s not and what will make my mom and her community ashamed of me. i fucking hate #these potlucks i hate having to be fake nice to the people who go to them who are so annoying and revolting and i hate being fucking TWENTY #FOUR and forced into doing things i don’t want to do because im afraid of my mom and afraid of myself. my weekends are precious. my choices #are precious. i am not a child anymore. i do not exist to make her look good or feel better about herself. my thoughts and choices are my #own and i own them. i do not want to have anything to do with this and i never did. people are going to get all in my face and im going to h #have to act like a kid again and make myself small and it’s so EMBARRASSING i am an adult!!!!!! im a late bloomer but im an adult. and i get #to choose my life and i get to rebel if i want to. but im not brave enough and we have to go in an hour 30. fucking hellllll #like the fact that my family hosts these. and it’s seen as a FAMILY thing when it’s just my mom. 💀💀💀💀 like please let me have my own life a #and interests and spend my time the way i want to. lol #food #ask to tag

[dilfcherricola]

My parents talking about how they’re planning on being out of the country on Election Day and Inauguration Day but very pointedly not including me in their plans. Like. Thanks this is exactly where I want to be during possible political unrest: alone in my house or alone at work.

#like I don’t want to leave. for the record. this is where I live and I like it here #but bro I do not want to be alone here?? #I recognize I will be 24 by that point fully an adult #but idk I’m still your kid you can’t just run cuz you’re scared and leave me here with the things you’re scared of #shush up jj #personal

[bl00dw1tch]

Ive been having lots of talks lately with my mom abt politics n the state of the world, Good conversations to be sure, and theyre great bc we both make good points and can compare different experiences and all -- but good God the fact that she's still seems to have. More subconscious faith in the moral integrities of the nebulous concept of a government or corporation More than she has faith in the the moral integrity of the nebulous concept of our societal peers. She talks about it like the Second a group like that is founded, its set of ethics just Miraculously appears out from the ether + just happens to Always be morally sound by default. I cant seem to find a way to word things that with like... idk. Help it Click that those corporations are still run by People and are therefore just as fallible 💀 technically More so but she's convinced capitalism is Never going to go away so she doesn't care about the whole "company's and governments in power, as they exist today, Have A Monetary Incentive To Lie To Us As Much As They Can" thing cuz shes such a damn pessimist and assumes All people have been doing that Forever 💀💀💀 SIGH it's nbd i just needed to put it in words bc its been on my mind on and off

#horse.txt #vent // #not extremely sad just like. huffy. #i love my mom to pieces but. man. we all have our issues ig 😔 it would just be nice if she wouldn't talk to me about how #the world is only every going to get worse within my lifetime #with a shrug and a laugh like 'what can ya do?' like ma. to your own adult child's face? when im already clearly upset with the state of #the world? not when im trying to talk about the kind of changes that other people are proposing we make to our overall society? #she gets so bitchy at me for always complaining but never Doing anything to change the world #but then She complains and agrees with me?? and then ALSO denounces all the Suggestions i tell her abt bc 'oh that would never work lol' #and then when i ask her 'ok well what would You do?' and she go well i think we need to get rid of credit cards and the debt system we have #and im like ok sick!!! keep going!!! #and then she goes OH but we cant get Rid of the debt system Completely bc people still need to borrow from lenders to get houses n cars #and im just. MA #shes been stuck on this metaphor of America being 'a house' #and she says all the ideas of overthrowing the government and replacing it with Anything else would be 'burning it down' #and that if America is already On fire then we should just put it out and try to rebuild it #like 1.) America is not a House it is a Cult. America is a group of people on an area of land. not a fucking House. #2.) THERE ARE PEOPLE RUNNING AROUND THE CULTHOUSE WITH FLAMETHROWERS AND GUNS TO SCARE AWAY AND/OR KILL ANYONE WHO TRIES TO PUT IT OUT. #ITS GOING TO BURN DOWN ANYWAY