#or fuck me until i don’t know my name

[b4bydo1l]

it’s desperately wanting katsuki hours,,,

#i love him #:((( #i just wan him to hold me in those big strong arms n hold me close #or fuck me until i don’t know my name #either works #just want him :(( #bakugo katsuki #katsuki bakugo #bnha #mha #bakugou #bakugou katsuki #katsuki bakugou #katsuki bakugou imagine #mdni #bakugou thirst #bakugo thirst

[siriussslut]

marlene edging you +gags +mommy kink+ innocents kink using blind folds

warnings: mommy kink, gags, blindfolds, edging, orgasm denial, handcuffs, crying, begging, slapping

masterlist

marlene takes in the sight of you, practically drooling. a gag muffles your moans as she finger-fucks you at a brutal pace. tears soak the blindfold covering your face as you writhe against the bed, wrists struggling against the handcuffs holding you back.

“mommy, please, please, please,” you beg, lips swollen and voice needy.

“please what?” she says, pressing into your clit until you cry out.

“please! please let me come, mommy, please.”

she hums quietly, as though considering it, before saying with an air of finality, “no.”

a fresh wave of tears roll down your cheeks, sobs wracking through your body.

she presses against your abdomen, fingers sliding up to your tits as she lowers her face towards your pussy. she studies the pretty pink folds, the slick dripping down your thighs, the engorged clit practically begging to be touched, before licking you gently, soaking her tongue in your desire.

she licks again, this time pressing the flat of her tongue into your clit. a whimper escapes your lips, and your hips buck into her face. she laughs cruelly. “does that feel good?”

“y-yes, mommy, so good! ‘m so close.”

she pulls away, and waits a moment, leaving you in suspense, before slapping your pussy sharply.

you gasp, hips twitching. she slaps you again.

“mommy, please.”

“aw, does my little baby need to come? does she feel too good?”

“yes, mommy, please,” you’re shaking against her.

she slides two fingers into your hole, spreading you open wide. “you can come.”

you sob with relief, releasing all over her hands.

she rides you through your high, curling her fingers inside of you. you chant her name as though it’s a prayer, “marlene, marlene, marlene, marlene,” brains fully fucked out.

#i need her to bully me #and spit in my face #and fuck me until i don’t know my name #marlene mckinnon #marlene mckinnon smut #marlene mckinnon x you #marlene mckinnon x you smut #marlene mckinnon x reader #marlene mckinnon x reader smut #marauders #marauders era #marauders smut #marauders era smut #marauders girls #marauders girls smut #marauders era girls #marauders era girls smut #smut #harry potter smut #hp smut

[sexynetra]

I am on a mission to learn how to draw can you believe these are literally only 4 days apart I’m feeling so pussy pussy cunt cunt rn

#also I know it doesn’t look like Marcia I literally today learned how to draw facial proportions I can’t fuck around too much yet #also I liquified her she wrong so it’s a lil fucked up but #I’m v proud :) #didn’t even touch hair or body or anything but that’s fine I just want to learn to draw Marcia’s face right #that’s goal one #I will not rest until I get this down #I will become the expert in drawing Marcia’s face #also do you love that I can’t remember any makeup look except the red and white one #I’ve used it for like 6 drawings of her now #anyways it’s crazy what a single 10 minute video on how to properly proportion a face can do #also I don’t know what my style is yet bc I just started so obviously that factors into things #anyways! #artist advice is always welcome critique might (will) make me cry :) #encouragement is always… encouraged 😉 #anyways I’m v happy with myself #even though I opened the canvas and lost track of time and blinked and it was 2 am #also can I just say it took me a few tries but I’m loving the lettering on her name :) #okay that’s it I’m going to brush my teeth and fall asleep #also I’m still trying to figure out all the secrets of procreatepls aid #marcia #marcia x3 #marcia marcia marcia #drag race fanart #my art #also there’s only a one hour difference between how long it took to do these that’s so funny #wow #also in my defense! #I was trying out different styles so I was trying to copy a more cartoonish style #but still :) #also it looks so warm on my phone rn bc I have night mode on but the colors are so pretty on my iPad :) and presumably here once night mode

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

the reason i’m not afraid of aging is because i want to be a hot middle-aged man who has a toxic yaoi relationship with another middle-aged man

#u know i used to be so afraid of aging until i realized that i want to be a dilf. now it’s kinda exciting #i realized recently that i could never picture myself living past my twenties until i pictured myself as a man #but like. i want to be a man and a woman and nothing and everything #but like. i’m cool with how i look now for the most part idk if i would want to transition physically at least not rn #and rn i still dress fem enough that everyone goes straight to she/her #and i like she/her but it hurts rn #bc some of my family has switched to they/them or it/its and it’s just so soothing #but family that knows i don’t like it still use she/her and phrases like ‘daughter’ or whatever even more often on purpose #and it hurts bc i don’t really feel the need to change the way i dress/look but i know everyone assumes she/her #when they see me in a dress or skirt. even w how very not-cis my fashion sense is #but also i fucking hate pants which is a separate thing (prob autism tbh) and even if i wore pants they’d still use she/her #thinking of changing my name to something very masc so i can confuse people enough that they’ll stop defaulting to she/her #and i haven’t told ppl outside my immediate family so idc if they use she/her but i’m fucking pissed when ppl in the family do it #anyways side note when i was 12 my ideal gender (b4 i knew about being non-cis) was a floating consciousness w no body #or a plastic-doll-like creation that’s smooth all over #… i still want to be a floating consciousness actually lmao. it would be great #back then i hated being a girl but i didn’t know there were more options and also i was socially isolated (didn’t leave home for like 2yrs) #and my mother was openly transphobic whenever the topic was brought up so that was my only real experience #but i didn’t really internalize it other than the fact that my mother would be rude if i ever happened to be not-cis and guess what? she is #anyways it’s like 2am and also i’m only awake bc i was captivated by a sugar daddy middle aged gay fic for a show i watched like 5 episodes #for 2 years ago #sorry for rambling in the middle of the night lol #gn y’all

[autistic-katara]

genuine question how do u stop someone from offing themself?

#suicide cw #fr tho im genuinely scared that asp soon im going to wake up to the news that he’s killed himself nd i need to prevent that #bro if ur reading this (not saying ur name but if u know me irl and use he/him assume ur him u probably are) srsly i love u(/p) ur situatio #sucks and i would kill for u please whatever u do just try nd live until u can escape from her #we can rent a house when we’re adults together or something #u can cut her out of ur life u can transition u can find a therapist who won’t be like that u can get through it #i can’t if u die tho #idk if this is cringe or not but it’s 3am and i’m 2 seconds away from my 2nd mental breakdown of the night so yk #don’t kys pls :( #ryan shut the fuck up

[stealingyourbones]

Re: you are playing half-life

1) GOOD IT'S GREAT, needs a bigger fandom outside hlvrai. Also maybe look into Black Mesa- the fan made modern remake that is *absolutely beautiful,* one of the few games that would probably actually be worth $60, but is actually only $20, and is a faithful recreation with modern technology.

2) siren pups are called houndeyes! Headcrabs are probably p obvious, but also, the squid face dogs are bullsquids, and the three-armed aliens are vortigaunts!

3) pleas don't slander my boy Barney Calhoun like that he's just a security guard not a cop and in fact is canonically, actively anti-cop/anti-facist in HL2 please he doesn't deserve to have his game rejected like that PLEASE LOVE MY BOY-

Ok im sorry that's all I'm done I'm just passionate about these games I hope u enjoy them ok bye <3

!!! Oh bro you’re so good!! I absolutely LOVE people talking about things they’re passionate about and have a bunch of facts to share!!!!

I KNOW THE NAME OF THE HOUNDEYES NOW!!! Today is a good day :)

I shall play Blue Shift then fuck yeah!!! Was just about to start Half Life 2 so I’m glad I found that out beforehand and play everything in series! I’m absolutely gonna check out that fanmade game that sounds so cool!

As a kid I was pretty much fully isolated from video games as a whole and honestly it’s been a BLAST playing games that are spoiled or well known for many but completely unknown for me! I finished playing the Portal series a few weeks ago and MAN I now know why it is on such a high pedestal!! The games are wonderful and the characters are absolutely iconic. Currently going through well known earlyish PC games, the Doom games, Portal, Half-Life, and slowly chugging my way through chronologically so I can see how video gaming as a whole progressed and evolved! It’s so neat! It’s really hard trying to play a few games though, lots of games expect you to know a lot of stuff so I have to watch lots of videos to make sure I’m not forgetting a Super Important button that does a Super Important Game Mechanic. It’s so cool tho!!!! I’m having such a great time!!!!!!! Thanks for the ask my guy!! :D

#bones replies #if ANY of y’all have reccomendations for games PLEASE tell them to me!!! #y’all I didn’t realize games were so expensive it’s WILD but understandable for like super well crafted and long games but WOW!!! #is cool tho! #first game I ever played on PC was Manual Samuel to get a feel for controls… my biggest mistake #Half-Life #half life is such a blast and it’s funky and fun!!! #I’ve only accidentally broken the maps twice but both were fixable by reloading saves #the F6 key is a lifesaver dude #I’m so bad at games because I really don’t understand what I’m doing but I’m having so much fun!!!! #took me 37.6 hours to finish Half-Life on hard! google says it should take me 12 hours #but I’m getting better!!!! #tutorials that half life games give you beforehand are SO nice dude!!!! it’s really cool because I don’t know shit #I’m rambling but dudE #that fuckin god raspy ass bitch suitcase man with the green portals #idk who he is and I’ve made it my MISSION to not search up his name until I’ve fully completed the series bc- #people go INSANE when I describe him as the crusty dusty suitcase motherfucker and I want to keep myself in my Unknown State because- #I want the true comedy of whatever I’m saying to hit me then. #i don’t care WHAT that suitcase fuck is. he’s a lil bitch who owes Gordon rent money from sending him to stasis without closing his lease #I’m super excited about these funky vide of games if u can’t tell

[laniidae-passerine]

Honestly I think Dean Highbottom has some shit to answer to as well. The mockery, the derision, the outright admittance that he was hoping Coriolanus would fail and the Snow family would continue to suffer. How someone who loathed the Games still treated a young man with cruelty because of the past, because of social divides that would be so easy to tear down. In the end, it wasn’t just Gaul who shaped Snow into the man he became. So bitter and hateful. So incapable of compassion and forgiveness. Just like his father. Just like his Dean.

#like yeah there were a lot of things questionable about Snow even before he was chosen as a mentor in the games #but like. damn. you didn’t even consider the idea he could be better than his father did you? #the way kindness could have unravelled some of the hate in Snow’s heart #listen to me tell you the horrible things your father did. listen to me tell you that you can be different. you are not the past. #the divides between us do not truly exist. look at the weapon in your hand. it is real. and it can do real damage #but if you never hate someone - if they never fool you into letting violence into your heart - they can never make you use it #it breaks my heart. how could you hate a ghost so much that you’d kill a child. I don’t know. but the Dean does. and so does Snow. #the cycles run and run until somebody stops. and burns some bread. and shares berries. and takes an arrow. and says no more. I love you #it is difficult. it could hurt me. it could be the very last thing I do. it may not even serve me well. but I love you. I love. always. #how pathetic hate makes you. how strong love makes you. like staring at the Dean and staring at characters like Haymitch #like two substance abusing men who know the system inside out. who are complicit. who are victims. both embittered and angry. #but one saw a child and decided to punish him for the past #and the other saw a child and decided - okay. it’s been 23 years. my heart hurts. I want to give in. I want to hate you. I want to not care. #I’m going to care anyway. I’m in so much pain. It’s killing me. I’m going to care anyway. about you both. it won’t be perfect. but I care. #and I’ll be here through hell. and I will fuck up. so fucking badly. because I’m still addicted and angry and god knows I have suffered. #god knows these hands are bloody and they always will be. but I will keep coming back. I will keep trying. I will still love. #and in the end I will write names in a book that belongs to you and I will find a little bit of peace in a house where the sun shines #and the geese make ridiculous noises in the yard. and love will have seen me through. #HAYMITCH YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS I LOVE YOU MY IMPERFECT DARLING #dean highbottom #coriolanus snow #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #haymitch abernathy #thg #abosas #suzanne collins #SHE WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

[ssruis]

Aside from the noble platypus I also feel like rui would really enjoy these animals:

Mola mola/Sunfish

Anteater

Echidna

Kiwi

Kākāpō

Axolotl

Horseshoe crab

Gibbon

#i have reasoning for all of these beyond ‘they look funny’ trust #mola mola are just. so fucking weird man. they’re so odd. their back fin grows back on itself? they’re so rigid it reduces drag #but they ‘swim’ really slowly? they swim similar to how a bird flies. just sideways. largest bony fish. they bask to get enough warmth #to allow them to dive super deep to forage for food (cold blooded so they’d be fucked without doing that) #anteaters are interesting. did you know they’ve (the giant ones) killed jaguars and humans before #because they walk on the knuckles to keep the huge knives on their feet sharp and their threat response #is basically just ‘swipe blindly (poor vision) at whatever comes close until it stops coming back’ #echidnas are fellow monotremes (only ones besides the platypus) and are just as strange #they also have electrosensors (~2000 compared to the platypus’s 40000) and a similarly low body temp #(second lowest of all mammals after. u guessed it. the platypus) and are actually decent swimmers despite looking Like That #kiwis are weird beasts. #massive eggs compared to their body size. rely more on scent than sight because their eyes are so tiny and under developed. #kākāpō are the heaviest parrot and also the only flightless parrot. they also kinda resemble owls face wise? and they’re green. #evolved with no natural predators and are currently being fucked over by invasive rats #axolotl is self explanatory #although to give a fun fact the wild type is naturally brown. the fun colored ones would be easy prey in the wild. #& they’re capable of going through metamorphosis (like how tadpoles -> frogs) if exposed to the necessary hormones #but they don’t produce it on their own #horseshoe crabs despite having crab in the name are more closely related to spiders/ticks/scorpions than crabs #& gibbons are included because 1 I’m biased towards my favorite animal 2 only species of lesser ape. live in family units. #tbf I think he’d like all apes and probably prefer orangutans/chimps but I’m saving you the extensive lecture on great apes #here at ssruis we strive to be educational. #biology cool. despite me dropping out of the program (treated as premed at my college and I could NOT do chem let alone orgchem/physics) but #i liked biolab/the units abt animals ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #rui

[whumpy-wyrms]

i was watching the amazing world of gumball earlier and there was a character named Anton and it made me instantly think of your Anton and i just needed you to know that

REAL. i’ve said this before but tawog is literally where Anton’s name came from. i do this thing where whenever i see a name i like and might use for a character in the future, i write it down in my notes app to save for later and i must’ve done that during my very intense four month long tawog hyperfixation in 2022. so when i was looking for a name for Anton (during the same exact time), i saw that name in my notes app and just thought it suited him! Anton is technically named after a piece of toast from the amazing world of gumball and i think that’s really funny

i actually just rewatched the Anton episode after i got this ask and. GUYS LOOK AT THE FUCKING SYNOPSIS

“ANTON’S LITTLE TOASTY BODY DISINTEGRATES DURING A SWIM CLASS” I’M SOBBINGGGG THAT’S SO FUCKING FUNNY (in the context where i think of my Anton whenever i hear his name because he is the only thing i’ve been thinking about for the past 8 months straight ANYWAYY)

it’s funny too because that episode is all about CLONES of Anton. there’s just a bunch of Anton clones running around and dying over and over again and that honestly isn’t too far off from how things were like in tllr before Anton got Dew /hj

anyway i am watching tawog again rn look what you’ve done. i will be watching this all night. it’s literally my favorite series in all of existence (lie. tma) Rob and mr small are gonna make me go insane again i’m gonna write another 70k word tawog fanfiction again because of you (/lh /j) anyway i love tawog very much i’m happy my followers have taste

#ask #tllr ask #anton oc #if you’ve never seen tawog and you watch that episode just know that it’s not my favorite and i honestly didn’t care much about it until #i named my anton anton #there’s much better episodes (every single episode rob and mr small are in) #the void… the nobody… the nemesis… the bus… the disaster… the rerun… the ex… the spinoffs… the future… #the. fhe fucking . inquisition #i listed off all of those episodes from memory by the way that’s how normal i was and am about rob #the inquisition pissed me off so much that’s why i wrote that unfinished fanfiction that will never see the light of day #not because it’s bad but. because the writing is pretty bad. #the fanfic was still my favorite thing ever during that time don’t make fun of me… #i’m gonna go write tllr now. i’m almost done with chappy 16 and have anton on the brain (when is he not) #JUST KIDDING my friend texted me as i am typing this. i am going to hang out at the laundromat 👍👍👍👍

[francesderwent]

Lockwood & Co gives us a male lead who is only ever called by his surname, who never lets anyone get too close, who doesn’t reveal his true self. over the course of five books, he starts letting one person in—he actively chooses to let one person see him and know him for who he really is, he brings her along for the things that he would normally have done alone, he lets her carry some of his suffering.

never, once, does she call him by his first name.

#every day I come on here and tell you something about Lockwood & Co that I find hilarious #but in my defense #it’s very very funny #I am the QUEEN of sudden true naming!!! I will find an excuse to add that to a fic when it has nothing to do with the source material!!! #I will make my characters call each other by ANYTHING other than their first names #all for the sake of playing that as a trump card further down the line #but Jonathan Stroud? was like ‘no fuck that shit his name is Lockwood’ #AND I DON’T KNOW IF I DISAGREE WITH HIM #the thought of Lucy calling him Anthony makes me DEEPLY uncomfortable #I must think on this more. I must consider the circumstances under which true naming would work #I mean could this be a crack fic? YES #she’s sort of trying it out and he hates it but he’s like *weakly* yeah that’s fine!! but she hates it too #but she’s backed herself into a corner now and doesn’t know how to stop #until George overhears it once and is like ‘are you fucking POSSESSED?????’ #Lockwood & Co

[icecr3amcak3]

the fact i haven’t been railed or even jacked off in days is making me go absolutely feral.

#lamb bleats #i just need someone to fuck me so hard i’m sobbing and then keep going! #i need to be forced into multiple orgasms until i don’t even know my own name! #this is homophobic !!

[cream-and-tea]

LAY ME DOWN. (tentative) chapter 16 excerpt. 1’252 words. unedited. featuring: pallas’s private reflection on an old train of thought. pretty lengthy discussion of feelings surrounding a deadname. vaguely implied dysphoria. oops all queer kid emotions.

[Transcript under the cut]

quick my english assignment isn’t looking. post pallas genderthoughts.

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At five years old Pallas had come to The Library with a name sewn into the tag of their jacket, they were thirteen when they went to the Director to have it struck from the book and a new one written in. 

Back then the conversation had terrified them in its finality, they’d written out a script and spent hours practising it in the mirror to iron the waver from their voice. It can be done, it had often been done before, it is a fact of life that even true names could be outgrown and replaced, they were still new to their lesson’s with the Director but she had no reason to deny the request; from what they knew she never had before. That wasn’t what had scared them. It was that once it was done it would truly be done, over, ended. It was putting down in ink and paper that aimless blob of a feeling that seemed to expand in their chest like boiling water whenever they looked in a mirror to long, giving the nameless a name, catching it between their fingers and sanding down the endless bubbling expanse of it into something hard and round to tuck under their tongue like a baby tooth. 

What’s in a name? They had never been overfond of Shakespeare even though Nina ate and breathed it, but they still remember latching onto that line at nine, already hungry in a way they had only just begun to place. A rose by any other name would still smell as sweet. 

In their first years at The Library they had never spared much thought towards the name they had arrived with, they understood vaguely that it was important, that it couldn’t be given out to strangers or else bad things would happen, that it’s existence in the pages of of the ledger was, in some unknowable way, tied to their existence in The Library. But that was the sum of it, they payed mind to the name when it was spoken the same way they payed mind when told to make their bed or brush their teeth in the morning; and in the meantime played an everevolving game with Nina on who could come up with the best alias to give out to the teachers and students that surrounded them. One of them would come across a new name in a story, or a tonguetwisting word in a dictionary, or a new animal neither of them had heard of before, and make a race to claim it as their “name” and be called by it first. They went through tens and twenties of different names in a week, trying to one up each other with the newest and grandest and prettiest ones they could find, keeping the originals folded in their pockets like rare trinkets, taken out only occasionally to be marvelled over and then quickly squirrelled away so as not to be overused. What exactly they had been called, words like he and she and you, didn't seem to matter so far as they knew to respond when they were said. 

It only began to matter once Pallas realized belatedly that it did matter, once they began attending serious classes and learned that words carried meaning beyond what was conjured in the moment by a child’s mind. Words carried weight, they carried history, words set boundaries and above all they defined. There was a word for everything and everything had a word and those words had lexicon and roots that spanned back centuries and were impossible to untangle. It was at once expansive and suffocating, both freeing and constricting, and they remember hardly being able to breathe under the impossible scope of it all. Narrow and yet endlessly wide. Sure, you could be anything you wanted, but you still had to be something at the end of the day. 

Afterwards they began to dissect and analyze literature the same way they began to dissect and anaylze their own reflection. They knew the science of a human body, skeleton and musculature and nervous system, but this was another thing entirely. Suddenly things they hadn’t cared about before, hadn’t noticed before they forced themselves into being known, began to topple out before them like dominos. The sudden feeling of wearing clothes far too small for you and only realizing once you go to breathe and find the collar tight around your throat. There had been something they’d missed, a crucial number skipped over in the equation, something wasn’t adding up. 

The worst of it was that Nina, who until then had almost been able to read their mind in their matching idiosyncrasies, didn’t seem to be able to see this in its fullness the way they did. She would listen and chew the inside of her cheek and ask questions and assure them that whatever they ended up doing was fine by her as long as they were happy. But it wasn’t the same, and she was smart enough to know that. That, above all else, could not stand.

So, naturally, it became an obsession. They tried to concentrate on other things, but the discordant feeling stayed, that itch under their skin they couldn’t shake, an edge almost like hunger sawing slowly away at the back of their mind. They took to rolling their first name over and over in their mind, thinking on it more than they ever had before. They lay on the floor and stared up at their hands, flexing them, closed their eyes tight and tried to name every part of their body from the ground up before considering the whole. Before being he or she had carried the same nonweight as everything else, so long as they knew which word it was correct to turn their head towards when someone was talking about them, and the original name had been the same. After they stared at themself in the mirror and and repeated it until it didn’t sound like a word at all anymore, trying to link the sound coming from their mouth to the face looking back at them, but in those moments both seemed to belong to a stranger.

They read viciously, constantly, they read with the desperation of a drowning man clinging to the last plank of his sunken ship. They found more words, more definitions, and caught themself staring at the blank spaces between the lines. They looked at the marble busts lining the fourth floor hallways and pressed a finger to cool stone lips, traced the sweeping curves of carefully carved brows and icy smooth cheeks. They wrote out the name on sheets and sheets of paper, wondering if pen and ink would reveal something they hadn’t yet been able to see and they had crouched in the bath with water up to their mouth, hair spread in inky plumes around them, and thought about how most ancient Greek statues had once been brightly painted but time and meddling had worn that away until nothing was left but bone white. Scoured and scraped clean. They thought of how anyone could possibly define that, and held their hand up to the light to see the tiny blue veins run through it like mycelium strings. 

And Pallas, thirteen and starving, thirteen and holding the whole what and who and why of themself in the palm of their hand, had curled the pale arches of their fingers into a fist, and pictured an endless, spinning, black hole.

#you know that post that’s like ‘grew up blissfully unaware of the concept of Gender until the world Lucifered me and made me bite the apple #of awareness and then everything felt Wrong’ #yeah. holding pallas up and pointing #this is probably going to get cut or shortened in editing but that is a future crème problem #i just needed to write it SOMEWHERE #anyway sometimes the transgenderism is also the mortifying ordeal of being known <3 #pallas said my gender is don’t care don’t fucking ask and also ancient greek statues #also obligatory joke about the Director and ‘i can excuse murder and brainwashing but i draw the line at transphobia’ #she actually truly just couldn’t care less but it’s still funny #pallas: hey i think i want to change my name in the magic book #the director. not even looking up from her paperwork: sure knock yourself out kid #pallas: also i think i might not want 2 kill people anymore #the director: you fucking what #wip: ghost story #creme does a writing

[readingwriter92]

Finished watching John Mulaney’s new stand up on Netflix and it immediately reccomended night agent??? Those two things seem very different. But since I think I was seeing gifs sets of it on whump blogs i just went. Fuck it. And decided to start.

I’m enjoying. Yep.

#consensus? I’m enjoying. and also fuck. another book I might be adding to my reading #in the last two weeks I now what the Lockwood and co books. maybe the night agent one. and the books will Trent is based on #like. mmmmm and I have so many books ALREADY to read so. good decisions for sure #I Will say I’m enjoying this whole. I’m going to start shows bc tumblr/whump blogs keep showing it to me. except I start them on a whim and #don’t actually look into what they’re about #like. I started Lockwood and co with absolutely no clue what the plot of #started the first episode and went oh! is this about ghosts? #night agent I could kinda assume #but I did go. fuck it. I don’t want to know main dude’s name until someone. says it. then I laughed when I found out it was Peter #anyways this is what I’m going to do in a few weeks when I finally get bored and decide to watch Ted lasso #i don’t want to know what it’s about. I have no clue and I won’t research it #I know there’s fic. and I’m aware tumblr likes to tell me about it in gif form #but other than that. no fucking clue. maybe sports? I feel like I’ve seen photo of soccer #but that might be a diff show #I know I follow people who are in that fandom but #idk I’ll give it a try. I’ll watch basically any tv from absolute garbage to masterpeices basically equally so #I’m the woman who’s still obsessed with the ten ep minority report show 2015 like. I have no standards and enjoy most things

[rogueolight]

i went thru hell rendering this 😭😭😭😭

#1 on the left uses they/them #n the one on the right uses she/her :3c #oc #original character #original characters #ocs #me On my way! to draw my ocs togehter #even though they have no name 2 sentences of backstory #and no relationship. #until now. #they are friends #i don’t actually know what i’m doing when it comes to shading and lighting #so if you guys have any tips for the future i would appreciate it ☠️ #also name suggestions probably #when ur just a silly little lesbian who dresses like an old fashioned prince #n ur coworker wont shut the fuck up even tho they’ve only said like #two sentences #in their life #before

[buck-yyyy]

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#year and a half. #i’ve got a year and a half until i can bind my chest and go by max and learn to depend my voice and have a whole new fucking start #where i don’t have to worry about old friends from middle school #or about my parents finding out by one of my friends slipping up #i can tell a few people or i could tell everyone and whichever one it ends up being i’m going to be fucking FREE #i love my parents dearly and i know they’d be supportive but they’d be hesitant and i am so SO afraid still #and even if i did tell them i’d still want them to call me my birth name and she and their daughter #because maybe i’m not a girl and maybe that’s not i want to be to the world but it’s who i am at home and i think that means something #so i know it’ll be okay #but i’m still terrified #but in a year and a half i. will. be. free.

[pallases]

submitted my first app 😖

#😭 didn’t plan to start this early but they said to do it by tonight and now i am worried abt when other companies want their apps in. i #should have asked them #i don’t think they all want them in now tho bc one of them told me she doesn’t start responding until january which. probably means i can #wait a bit right?? i don’t know 😭 #personal #the engineering chronicles #feeling pretty okay abt how today went actually one employer told me i have a very high gpa and that she thought she read it wrong and #another i was talking to abt how even though they’re not a primarily medical company they do do medical stuff and i named and spoke abt the #things they’ve worked on and he seemed impressed by that knowledge. so #really worried tho bc. there are hardly any medical places my school has approved to apply to for this and companies that dont do medical #stuff don’t want biomedical engineering interns even if everything but my electives is the same as an ee’s coursework. bc we’re not going t #stick around for them to hire post grad. like ppl from these companies are straight up telling me not to bother applying or that they don’t #accept apps from ppl in my major etc. which fucking sucks especially since in ADDITION to that the vast vast majority of the companies #that Do have medical stuff going on are mechanical or manufacturing based not electrical. like. what do you expect me to do here #there is one company (the one the guy seemed impressed w me abt) that does electrical and coding stuff and i am really really interested in #them. but as i said the medical stuff is not their main focus and they’re more an all around place. and they also won employer or the year #or whatever a couple years ago. which means Everyone is going to be applying to this company. ugh