#suicide cw

[fallowtail]

Hetty who dies scared and alone with a cord permanently around her neck, who has nobody there to teach her the ghost rules, who has to learn by herself that the telephone cord is now physically part of her body and she can never be rid of it, it will always be there digging into her, a constant reminder of what she's done, the mistake she made for the sake of her son, who spends a year alone watching the aftermath of her choice thinking she’s permanently doomed herself to a purgatory of isolated punishment, trapped in an even worse solitude than the one she had in life, having to watch the fallout of what she's done until the day that the boys escape from the hole and come up from the basement and save her, breathing companionship and love into her afterlife, and suddenly for the first time she's not alone. I’m FINE

#cbs ghosts #cbs ghosts spoilers #suicide cw #transferring some of my twitter posts over to tumblr because i want to be active in the tag even though i can't draw anymore #z #i get all my ghosts thoughts and feelings out with friends so i always forget to post on tumblr lol #gotta...try to do that more....

[cryptovexillologist]

Encountered today: a math professor wearing a shirt his grad students made for him, depicting him as a Moomin saying “I will literally kill myself if I don’t mention the orthogonal group”

#suicide cw

[chongoblog]

#elon #suicide cw #twitter can be sillay

[t4tails]

if sun dies im killing myself 👍

#og post #liveposting #suicide cw

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

was I the asshole for telling my followers to sabotage a hispanic artist?

(13 <– to find this)

this happened awhile back but I'm remorseful and I want to know if I was the asshole or if I'm just overthinking.

I (24NB) had a pretty big TS fan account on twitter (I said "had" bc I'm no longer active). her music saved me from suicidal ideation, helped me get rid of my anxiety, and overall it was always very comforting to me. her music accepted me for being non-binary when most of my irl friends didn't. I felt like I belonged.

in recent years a certain hispanic artist started to get famous and well known and tbh I don't know how or why, all he sings about is his dating life, his sex life, how much money he has... unlike TS who crafts feminist masterpieces. this guys music wasn't my cup of tea and I realized he already had more views than her on youtube and he was the number one artist on spotify for a few years so um. I was honestly VERY angry that taylor's hard work was gonna go to waste again because of a man. so long story short I told my followers to sabotage this hispanic artist and also encouraged them to stay away from/talk less to their hispanic friends for awhile. as far as I know most of them agreed with me.

my wake up call was being accused of being a set up account (a set up is an account made by someone who is not from a fandom pretending to be in order to make said fandom look bad) after that post of mine was shared on reddit even though they censored the @. since that day I stopped being active on that account, tbh because I was ashamed of myself. I feel like an asshole but my closest friends from within the fandom constantly tell me a real fan is not ashamed to show love and support and that what I did was genius. so the worst part is despite being remorseful I still somehow feel like I'm failing her and the fandom.

was I the asshole?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[incognitopolls]

We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

#polls #incognito polls #anonymous #tumblr polls #tumblr users #questions #polls about relationships #submitted dec 9 #suicide cw #suicide tw #tw suicide #suicide mention #mental health #tw suicidal ideation #suicidal ideation cw

[comradesummers]

i know we talk a lot about how buffy is the "came back wrong" queen and she is, but we need to further appreciate how insane it is that she came back wrong specifically by not coming back wrong. because the concept of "coming back wrong" implies an external change to the self that is entirely beyond the control of the person who changed. buffy wants to have come back wrong because then she can finally allow herself (for the first time in like seven years) to direct her guilt and shame and self-loathing towards something other than herself. the horrific realization, then, isn't that she came back different—it's that she came back the same. that the same girl who bravely sacrificed herself to save her sister's life is also a depressed, traumatized, suicidal wreck, and that she already was all of those things before she died. that's some galaxy brain shit right there. no one's doing it like her.

#this is basically what i wrote in the tags of the latest came back wrong poll that i reblogged but longer #i just realized i had a lot to say about this #because buffy was truly insane for this #buffy summers #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #suicide cw

[couriersixty]

regrettably might really like this show

#fallout 2024 #fallout #fallout spoilers #am i pirating it. yes! obviously! #but it captures the fallout tone i love relatively well #even if i have certain bones to pick #suicide cw #SIDENOTE she actually really does look like kyle maclachlan. it works. #tv #its so goofy and violent <3

[rslashrats]

#suicide cw

[pixiecaps]

Heres a portion of Maxo’s ending monologue and some meta commentary.

q!Maxo: And what if I stay? At least they won’t have that planned out. How can I be so stupid? Of course, they know about the bomb. They literally know everything, see everything, its an all seeing eye, of course. They already knew about my plan.. But there’s a plan they don’t know. And it’s that I’m going to stay here. It’s over. Besides, I’m a danger to everybody, I’m turning into a code. I know now that I’m not the only one but at least it’ll be one less, right? It’s the desperation of not being able to do anything against the Federation. They always get away with it, man. They always get what they want. I don’t- I don’t know why I’m even still walking. … They’ve taken my bomb and stolen my idea and now they’re exploding it. They don’t care. At least, we found a way to escape. (Timer runs out)

cc!Maxo: (Closes game) And like that is how he dies. “Are you coming back as a ghost?” As of right now I am not thinking about returning as a ghost. (Plays sad music) Rest in peace qMaxo. Rest in fucking peace. I did all I could chat. I did all I could. … If I had reached the boat I would not have gotten on. I think what I would’ve wanted is to reach the boat, say goodbye to everybody, and die. But I suppose due to the timer the bomb blew up before that could happen. … So I’ve died. That is how it goes. This was the only thing I could do that the Federation could really not control. Killing myself.

cc!Maxo: (When a chatter mentioned the people who didn’t reach the boat) Chat I only know that I’ve died, it’s what I wanted for my lore. That I would’ve stayed there with the atomic bomb. In a fantasy world like the QSMP, of course I could revive, finally turn into a code, or whatever but for the moment all I know is that I’m dead. And I don’t have anything else scripted, from this moment on I’m dead and thats final. Thats the reality, and thats why I’m not… happy because I will for sure miss the QSMP. But since I personally take roleplay very seriously, for me there is no going back. I am dead. I cannot return as cubito Maxo. I can return as a spirit that haunts Roier once in a while, periodically, I could, I could but qMaxo is dead. It’s sad, I’m not super happy because obviously I spent a really great time on QSMP but by my own lore, man, I couldn’t do it any longer. I couldn’t handle returning to Quesadilla Island knowing I couldn’t do anything against the Federation. If I made a fucking atomic bomb and the boss of Purgatory goes and says, “Oh you have an atomic bomb? Okay. In fact, that’s a good idea. Let’s explode it, run to the boat, returning again to the island that you were in, because thats likely what will happen, and you’ll continue suffering.” I can’t do it anymore. I’ve lost Trump, my son, I’ve lost- I no longer trust people who can kill each other amongst themselves, by the lore.

cc!Maxo: The players themselves are super fun people and I’ve had a good time. What makes me feel shame is that, that I can’t roleplay with them anymore. To say it one way or another. Well, there could be things in the future the admins offer but as a player it makes me feel shame. Also, while it is true that recently I hadn’t been logging in a lot, the times I did I had a good time. I did a lot of cool things with these people.

cc!Maxo: I lost SOFIA, I lost.. everything. Everything that I’ve done, every idea that I had thought of for myself and others has been taken by the Federation. … I think that the Federation has so much control that is impossible to do anything against them. And everything you do against them they’ll use to further confuse the people. … For me I will no longer play [as qMaxo] because I am dead, that’s serious to me, I’ve decided my character has died in an explosion. Another thing is that I could occasionally log on as a spirit or something. If they allow me that then great! But if dying means not being able to play on the QSMP anymore then so be it. … This was necessary for the roleplay. … I didn’t die thinking, “Wow I found the answer.” I didn’t want to die because I found any type of answer. I died because of desperation. To say, look man I couldn’t find any answers.

Maxo mentioned it did leave him with a sour taste in his mouth that he didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to everybody since he ran out of time. So a chatter suggested he does canonical pre recording goodbye video to everybody. He said he’d likely consider it and do it so that his character gets the chance to tell the other characters goodbye and that he’s gone.

Rest in peace qMaxo, the original founder of the Theory Bros, and someone who gave his all to escaping the island no matter the cost.

#qsmp #suicide cw

[roguemonsterfucker]

If I see a single person celebrating this, it's on fucking sight.

No.

He doesn't deserve death.

He deserved to lose all the credit he got for the content he stole.

But he doesn't deserve to die.

He doesn't deserve to be told the world would be a better place without him.

He's a human fucking being and he deserves love and acceptance and comfort.

I really hope the note was just a ploy for sympathy and attention because I want for him to be okay. I want for him to be able to move on from this and live his life.

#james somerton #suicide cw #i feel sick to my stomach #i really hope he's okay #i've been worried about him from the start of this

[pterygoidwalk]

heterosexual afterlife partners

#suicide cw #guns cw #jean vicquemare #harry du bois

[benzatthanin]

BEETLEJUICE 1988 | dir. Tim Burton

#filmedit #movieedit #beetlejuiceedit #horroredit #horroredits #cinemapix #dailyflicks #holidaysource #filmgifs #userbabysitter #horrorwomensource #userstream #tvandfilm #moviegifs #beetlejuice #horror #* #suicide cw #self harm cw

[helloanthy]

06.09.2023 💜 today's anthy!

[saionji voice] nooo dont kys aha ur so se[gets shot]

[ID: the first image is a drawing of anthy from revolutionary girl utena. she is wearing her school uniform. she is smiling as she holds a gun up in front of her face, as if taking a selfie with a phone. a chuchu keychain, along with a fuzzy pink pom pom and bow is attached to the hammer of the gun. anthy is holding her other hand under her chin, posing gracefully.

the second image is a text conversation between jelly and munke. jelly says, "also this is totally unrelated but this is very anthy core". attached below is a shutterstock image of a blonde person holding a gun up in front of them as they smile and pose. munke replies with a keysmash and says, "stop / im using this as a drawing reference". jelly says, "please do ill die laughing" in all caps. end ID.]

#hello anthy! #anthy himemiya #revolutionary girl utena #少女革命ウテナ #9.23 #2023 #🙈 #📽️ #suicide cw

[t4tails]

tumblr poll simulator

HOW DO YOU FEEL?

happy :)

sad :(

angry >:(

notes: #um wheres the option for only a little sad but not entirely happy either #like nobodys ever really happy

#how is angry winning i hope everybody who votes angry kills themselves

#my abuser was sad once so i have horrible memories of this subject yet will still talk about it in the tags of a strangers post online

#wheres the horny option

#og post #suicide cw

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if I told my sister I think she should put down her dog?

(cw: animal death, animal erection mention (I shit you not), suicide mention)

So, I (21nb) have a sister (Amelia, 23f). She’s been living with a friend for the past two years, but she still stops by the house every now and then. Most of the time, it’s just to drop off her dog (Max, toy poodle, 16?m) so that we (Dad and Mom, 63m and 55f, and Jamie, 25f) can dogsit him while she’s at work. We’ve already got three dogs of our own, and because both of my parents work full-time (and Jamie works from home part-time), I’m usually the one who has to take care of him during the day (along with our other dogs).

Unfortunately, because Max is an older dog, he has a lot of health issues. He’s mostly blind, fully deaf, and he has intense separation anxiety. He also bites when he’s startled, which is often because he’s deaf and blind. So most times he’s over he’ll pee in the house because he doesn’t know he’s inside, we’ll have to carefully pick him up and put him in the backyard so he can do his business, then stand outside with him so we can keep him from getting lost in a bush or bumping into a tree or freezing to death because he can’t find his way to the door, then we have to carefully pick him up again to bring him back inside. After that, he’ll often walk around the house while screaming because he can’t see or hear anyone and he thinks we’ve abandoned him. It’s hell to deal with, and I’ve had breakdowns on several different occasions while trying to deal with my other responsibilities and also keep him from screaming 24/7. When he’s not aimlessly wandering and screaming, he’s asleep in his dog bed for most of the day. It’s depressing to watch him so sad and unmotivated. He doesn’t know how to be a dog without her.

Recently, Amelia’s been dropping him off more often and for longer stretches. She works retail, so I can understand that her schedule is fucked most of the time. But she’s also been dropping Max off because he’s so overwhelming for her to deal with. He has the same issues when he’s at home with her, but he’s also like 10 times more energetic when she’s around (and he screams when she’s around but not holding him or giving him attention), which is hard for her to deal with after three days of back to back shifts. She’s called my mom before to ask us to take Max for a night just so she can get some sleep.

The most recent time Amelia dropped Max off, she said that he’d been having painful prolonged erections, and that we’d probably have to wipe his penis down with a damp washcloth to get it to go back in. Now, I’ve had dogs for most of my life, I’m not exactly a stranger to having to wipe down doggy nether regions (hell, I’ve dealt with so many clingons you could call me a starfleet ambassador). But having to do that for a blind dog who’s known to bite when he’s startled? Just the idea of having to hold him while someone else wipes makes me want to cry tears of frustration. I’ve already got two scars from him biting me, I’m not aiming for a third.

With all of his health issues, I’m convinced that it’d be much more humane to put Max down now rather than letting him (and quite frankly, everyone who has to take care of him) suffer indefinitely. But at the same time, he’s Amelia’s rock. She’s struggled with depression and anxiety all her life, and she was even hospitalized for severe suicidal ideation two years ago. She’s told me herself that some days, the only thing that gets her out of bed is having to take care of Max. I’ve had a dog like that before, and when he passed suddenly, it destroyed me for months. I’m worried that if Amelia did have to have Max put down, it might lead to her being hospitalized again, or worse. I can’t keep living with him, but at the same time, I can’t expect her to live without him.

TL;DR: my sister’s dog has many health issues that require special care, and I’m responsible for babysitting him while she’s at work. my sister has mental health issues, and taking care of her dog is both incredibly stressful for her and one of the few sources of joy she has. I believe it’d be more humane for everyone if she puts her dog down, but I also don’t want to take away one of the few things that makes her happy. Would I be the asshole if I told her I think she should put down her dog?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #pet death cw #suicide cw