#only watched from afar

[bleedingivorydraws]

How it feels to be new in the DMC fandom:

#devil may cry #dmc #devil may cry 5 #dmc5 #Nero #Dante #Vergil #playing the games since 2005 but never really dipped a toe into the fandom #only watched from afar

[thetotofactory]

help.

First days on Tumblr and I'm already overwhelmed. Y'all are scary confident in saying what you want.

Over here im rewriting this very post for the third time. pls god dont eat me alive thank u.

#im scared #newbie #i was bored so i made this #only watched from afar #now im here #idk what im doing

[sunlit-mess]

I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.

#messyr #doodle #vent art #idk what im feeling but im just really tired- pessimistic and agitated lately #overthinking stuff about growth as a person LMAO. Envy that builds inferiority then dissolves into insecurity ew #ive yet to accept the truth that it will never get better- so i can only be there for others until i watch them go. #And I walk back to the same cage where I grew- bc the cage is all I know. I'd watch from afar and wait- wait for what? Idk #Genuinely happy and proud to those who worked hard for that success-- an ugly thought whispers to me thinking why cant I have the same #well- people w the same situations as me- knows how unfair life is so we work twice as hard. but sometimes... It's-- not enough. #And to an unfortunate fate- it'll never be enough. and it feels as if you amount to nothing. #I've been stuck for so long- I'm convinced enough that I cannot be helped. Still I cling onto the tiniest spark of hope. #bpd #abuse mention

[linusbenjamin]

Person of Interest | 1×08 // 3×16

#person of interest #poiedit #tvedit #poi spoilers #harold finch #john reese #rick dillinger #nikolatexla #this makes me so emo. he finally found the 1 #this whole rinch story is so 'invisible string by taylor swift' coded #finch watched reese from afar letting go of the man he was supposed to kill. he saw sth in him that no one could #and he tracked reese for months until it all came crashing down around him #he waited him for months to come undone bc it was the only way to get him...

[duusheen]

#ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 legacy challenge #ts4 screenshots #Cole has been coming to visit her #and I'm not sure if Jay approves 😂 #but since he has no say in the matter anymore and returns to the city in two days he can only watch from afar like this 😠 #he's making holes in cole's back 😂😂 like who tf are you #mir's trying to see under Cole's hat because he's inviting her on a date btw 😏 #what are you going to do about it birdie? 👀 #pollock legacy #gen4 #miracle holm #jay pollock #brisa pollock #luna pollock #ts4

[carlyraejepsans]

my art doesn't really have the kind of style that lends itself well to video edits but if you ever want to include it in one for whatever reason please please PLEASE let me know and send me a link i would love to see it i would cry with joy

#video editing is one of those arr forms i never ever ever got the hang of and only ever admired from afar #so it's like watching magic happening

[gomzdrawfr]

royal events

#to watch the king from afar #keeping a distance not because of space or duties #because I know I can't have you #and knowing it never gets easier #only harder #ayeeee finally some angst for this au #gummmyart #doodle #my oc #my oc art #cod oc #cod oc art #[oc]Raven #Raven[oc] #PriceRaven #royal au #royal guard Raven #king Price

[biocrafthero]

My mutuals are all so cool but i am so Scared

#rambles #sorry I don’t do well in social situations #I prefer to watch y’all have fun from afar #only a few mutuals know my discord and it’ll stay that way for a long time

[dawnlotus-draws]

A loneliness like morning frost.

#dsmp fanart #dsmp #c!tubbo #c!tubbo fanart #dsmp tubbo #YEAHH drawing my boy again. literally drawing him makes me so happy #gosh the current arc on the brain loop is snowchester and for me personally overall the feeling of loneliness was more pervasive than the #domestic fluff. Both of them were equally important to each other - the loneliness and the love #but between the lore streams I can only imagine what kind of chill that house held. especially those last few months #with cranboo dead - their ghost slowly fading away - ctommy watching ctubbo from afar invisible #I downloaded two Snowchester Zines awhile back - and each of them had Drastically different tones. I LOVED both. #one made me warm and the other cold. The one called Safeguard does an amazing job of depicting the haunting feeling of Snowchester #anyway. ahem. yes I’ve still been drawing and stuff just have not been on tumblr so much. see ya guys next post <3 #dawnsart

[rayssion]

au wherein,

Pilot James Potter tries to save his plane from a storm but unfortunately crashes in a deserted island.

Out of 187 on the plane only 9 survived. James himself, flight attendant Remus Lupin, Musician Sirius Black, Sirius Black's younger brother Regulus Black among other collage students Barty Crouch and Evan Rosier, business woman Lily Evans, and two other women on vacation Dorcas Meadows and Marlene McKinnon.

All wounded and in bad shape. Through the next days they attemp to survive relying on instincts and knowledge from the strange depressed kid.

One thing James knows, without Regulus Black they won't stand a chance.

#adventurous au? why not #Regulus couldn't sleep one day and James was on the watch #the two had a fight only to end up with their first kiss #by the fire and under the stars listening to the ocean waves from afar #so cheesy guys #regulus black #james potter #jegulus #starchaser #the marauders era #marauders #dead gay wizards #pilot #pilot au #lol

[blitz0hno]

Me pondering: kids are capable of going through and understanding complex problems and their feelings should be taken seriously when it counts.

Me practically: who are all these annoying fucking kids in the milgram fandom and why are they posting the worst takes and most irrelevant bullshit I've ever seen ever???

I think these are valid to coexist.

#haterposting sorry lile kids like amane? #w ACTUAL maturity and intelligence? yes hear them out!! #some 13-year-old posting drivel about “ships” when it's completely irrelevant #or missing the point of very complex plot points bc they are Literally Not The Age Demographic and Actually Dont Understand It? #im SO SORRY i am not gonna b mean to anyone but I WILL HATE THEM FROM AFAR #GO BACK TO BNHA OR DANGANRONPA U ARE ACTUALLY MAKING THE SPACES LOWER QUALITY BY BEING HERE #like obviously it does not matter at all lmao kids will do whatever #i was watching bojack horseman at 13 thinking i was So Smart i don't get to talk #but to be fair i NEVER missed the point as bad as some milgram kiddies in the YouTube side of the fandom #like no “wrong” way to enjoy things but imo they legitimately need to enjoy something else #but literally if your only takeaway from this project is “omg ship cute characters silly” #but you still insist on joining discussion spaces? god please leave #I DON'T HATE MINORS I DON'T DISCRIMINATE i just think the minors who legitimately have nothing to add should shut the fuck up #sorry livechat got me wildin lmaooooo idc that much but like it's a weird contrast #cuz my general genuine feelings for most situations is “yeah listen to kids' perspectives wholeheartedly” #but like ONLINE kids who post about nonsense that has nothing to do with what others are trying to discuss? godddd they legit need to leave #nothing against shipping either long as ur not Gross #(coughbitchesshippingwholeadultawunderagecharacterscough) #but if that's ALL YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT there are way better fandoms for that leave the milgram creators aloooone lmao #minors who actually Think about shit this does not apply to you obviously lol #if ur smart ur smart if you contribute u contribute #but like try to let urself be a kid sometimes too lol

[blushft]

NEVER trust a mindverse "fan" who doesn't know about the extended universe

#i will not gatekeep i will just be upset to myself from afar. you know. #what do you MEAN you dont know who stark is. or ryan or arlen #“mindverse fans” who only watch fm and glean the other characterizations from fanworks..😒😒 #dont even get me started on the people who dont even watch fm but want another gordon for free-man-verse so they just make him bigot gordon #sorry for the weird hyphens this is NOT allowed in free-man-verse tags #ianriley

[unopenablebox]

every now and then one of my mutuals starts getting into something that one of my other mutuals has had a like self-directed home dissertation level of obsession with for years, and i still don't know anything about it either way but it's very funny learning what a normal trajectory of somebody experiencing it would be like

#it's not that i know anything myself it's that i never paused to consider what someone learning about it for the first time would say #rather than the incredibly involved academic inside baseball dispute-connoted remarks from which all of my knowledge is derived. #actually at least one of you is the first mutual on one topic and the second mutual on another topic. a lot of my tumblr friends are way up #on extremely specific long-running humanities research controversies in some way or other i guess. that does track. #imagine you only know about pastry technique from watching someone from afar as they beef with everyone else on earth about like #the exact air humidity ratio you should have for [whatever at this point i ran out of pastry knowledge to use in this example] #and then out of the blue someone else starts being like. hey i just learned to laminate croissant dough! #and it's like. i can't do that either. but the way you're mostly saying words i know or can look up is deeply uncanny to me. #box opener

[soaplantro]

you all want to rearrange Bridget’s “Guts”? well she has none

#bridget #the town inside me and everyones voice only im not there just watching from afar

[funkbun]

i think it's interesting seeing how ppl can easily jump into a new fandom like every other month, while i'm here only really being Involved like... two fandoms throughout my six-ish years of being on this website

#for me there's a difference between making artwork for a type of media and actually being in the community for that media #so yea i've drawn a lot of stuff for different things i enjoy #but the only time (at least on tumblr) i've been In a Fandom was for a cartoon I Will Not Name for a little over 2 years #and now the Funny Bug Game u all know and love directly after that #i wouldn't say im in the rw fandom cause it gotta be completely honest. i dont want to be associated at all with that fandom lmaooooo #no hard feelings but im just doing my own thing with these scugs and only watching from afar

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone