#okay only one regret

[greyias]

Now, @grumpyhedgehog in no way whatsoever asked for this, but somehow I still took it as a challenge to create a Fuckboy outfit for Draike. I think I nailed the assignment pretty well, given the outfit constraints within game.

#oc: draike highwind #guns out #doing the lord's work #with zero fashion sense #yes i spent actual cc's for that dye #no regrets #okay only one regret #the game needs more wide leg pants #i wanted to give him jncos but bell bottoms had to do :( #also if i could add a cap worn sideways that would almost complete the ensemble #that and audacious gold jewelry #i was going for that mid 2000s douchey white boy look #you know the one #grey's silly swtor tag

[uncanny-tranny]

Your influence in this world doesn't need to be all-encompassing and World Changing. It can be small ripples. It can be gentle and easily missed.

Let yourself do small things. So often, people have this idea that to do "good things," it must be a grand gesture that changes every little thing. Honestly, that can be so intimidating and scary. We weren't meant to carry the world by ourselves. We each contribute, often in small ways, often in ways that aren't seen by everybody. But the people you affect might just take that kindness you gave them and let it light them home. Let yourself be that in whatever way you want. You don't need to carry the world alone.

#positivity #encouragment #encouraging words #ngl i gave a customer a lot of food for free because i could tell they were down on their luck and they deserve to eat #and i hope i contributed to them realizing this world will cherish them and they aren't forgotten #because it's scary not knowing if you can eat or drink or if you will be safe enough to sleep and while i don't know their story... #...does it matter if i do? i will do whatever i can to make sure the people around me are well-fed and taken care of #i think small things like this are honestly what make this life worth living #i don't think i would want to be here if it were not for moments like these #it's never not worth it to do what you can/are comfortable doing #and i hope it can come back around to reward you tenfold <3 #i used to labour under the idea that Changing the World is the only way you can 'be good' #and that made me scared to do small things like this. and i partially regret that. but i don't blame myself or anybody else who feel... #...the way i did. doing 'good things' can be scary and intimidating and it's okay to be uncertain or fearful. it's okay; i promise <3 #i just wanted to remind somebody that you don't have to change the world in one fell swoop. it's okay to Just Be #i love you (platonically) if you have read this far. i hope you do something kind for yourself #you - too - deserve good things. you deserve kindness and satisfaction and wonder

[witheredbouquet]

drawn for the dragonyule gift exchange on twt, so glad that i could join this year! thank you for hosting, saint starfall ♥

i hope that everyone has a wonderful dragonyule & a happy new year!

#dragalia lost #dragalia lost fanart #fanart #dragonyule gift exchange #my art #if you saw this already no you didn't LOL #sorry i don't post/use tumblr much and i messed up orz #my recipient was ritte! i dunno their socials or anything so i can't tag/link em - but i hope they it c: #food is based on stamina consumables in dragalia lost! chibi beast volk is based off his dragalia mini comic appearance! #anyway. been a while since i've taken the time to “finish” up a piece (and well. have the time to draw at all) so i'm glad i could do this! #i think i'm proud of the final result even though i still have lotsa room for improvement #(desperately trying not to nitpick things and ultimately regret posting this urghghghhhng) #one of the first times i've drawn food! i feel okay with the result hehe #learned that there's a more active DL community on tw*tter for fanart and stuff and i've never been more tempted to join shjdakfasa #plus so many zines are twitter only and i can't see most of the posts without an account #but yeah no thanks just tumblr is overwhelming enough LOL #anyway happy dragonyule/happy holidays to anyone reading this! we've made it through another year—i couldn't be more proud of us!

[cuubism]

exactly how and where do the Endless have their family dinners? hosting it in any one of their individual realms seems fraught with power dynamics, that's right out. it has to be on neutral ground. so... the human world then? meeting in a human restaurant would also prevent a fair degree of antics and fighting, as they can't be revealing all their Endless powers to a bunch of random folks.

this is all to say, i invite you to imagine Endless family dinner at Olive Garden.

#the endless #the sandman #listen it would be a BLAST okay #first of all NOBODY is dressed appropriately for the venue #desire looks like they're going to new york fashion week #dream ALSO looks like he's going to new york fashion week but in a completely different way #delirium looks like she's going to burning man. destiny just came from larping lord of the rings #despair may or may not be wearing bedsheets #and poor death in true eldest sister vibes is the only one presenting a reasonable front #destiny ends up ordering for everyone and the server is like uh is that okay? and they're all like yeah that's what we were gonna order :/ #delirium gets bottomless mimosas eventho its a. dinner and b. she looks 16. but no one is willing to stop her #death orders a whole bottle of wine for herself because that's the only way she's getting through this #it takes exactly 1 minute for desire and dream to start sniping at each other #desire *on their 3rd long island ice tea* i bet i can manipulate that guy over there into proposing to his date #dream *dead sober and regretting it* i bet i can make him dream of BREAKING UP WITH HER #(meanwhile the poor guy's having a stroke from these conflicting influences) #desire: well then i bet i can make him SCREAM about how he HATES HER #dream: well *I* bet i can make him STORM OUT OF THE RESTAURANT AND NEVER RETURN #desire: oh yeah you know all about that don't you #dream throws a drink at their face #desire picks up a CHAIR and hurls it back #death wishes she could collect her own life and leave for the sunless lands #delirium is in the corner like: manipulating one guy is easy! i bet i could get someone to burn down the whole restaurant! :D #before they inevitably get kicked out desire shoves 8 servings of breadsticks into their purse #the olive garden may burn down later in a tragic accident #who knows #and that night bizarre numbers of people dream of having shitty family dinner at a mediocre chain restaurant #for reasons unknown!

[fictionadventurer]

I thought that it was stupid that Brandon Sanderson had the narrator of Tress of the Emerald Sea call all the unnamed sailors "Dougs" when he could have just called them, you know, sailors. But then I started using the term. Turns out having a word for "yes, we know that realistically all these individuals have unique identities and personalities, but they're not the focus of this story so we're going to treat them as faceless background characters" is surprisingly useful.

#random thought of the day #because i was thinking way too deep into the portrayal of the nurses in artful dodger #and getting a bit worked up at how they're shoved aside (as usual for medical dramas) and not treated as real people #and then i was like 'calm down they're just dougs in this story it's okay' #(and then the next ep had one of the nurses call the girl a witch and i was like 'oh they remembered they have feelings. good work') #(and i felt even better) #incidentally despite my one and only post about that show being an angry nursing rant i am enjoying it #the girl's stupidly modern face and extreme entitlement are annoying #and i did skip part of ep ii because i'd just prefer not to watch relics be the butt of the joke #(even though they looked to be heading a slightly-less-offensive route than expected) #and ep 3 is going more soapy and melodramatic and less fun #but i do like that they have a 'young idealist versus experienced fatalist' dynamic going #soundtrack is fun #anachronism stays mostly on the fun side of the scale #fagin is shockingly amusing (i had expected more of a 'creepy blackmailer holding the past over his head' instead of 'chaotic criminal dad' #and i like that they're showing some restraint #(the deciding factor in watching it was my extreme surprise that a historical original was tv-14 instead of ma) #so we'll see how long it lasts but for now i'm not regretting the decision to watch

[sailforvalinor]

Val Is Pretty Sure She Might Be Losing Her Mind, more at 11

#okay so y’all. do you happen to remember Alcott Boy? the guy I had a crush on from school last year (or really the whole time I’ve been in #college honestly) who had Opinions on Little Women #yeah him. anyway I thought I was over my crush on him but GUESS WHAT it’s back and worse than ever #like I only have one class with him that’s once a week but guys guys I feel like I’m LOSING MY MIND like. I’ve never felt the urge to #actually go up to a guy and say ‘hey do you wanna go out with me?’!! like I would never actually do that but the urge is most definitely #there??? and it’s not even that he’s cute (although I mean I think he’s cute) but he’s really really intelligent and funny and very notably #always willing to bring up his faith in class discussions (and this isn’t really the campus for that) and I’ve always admired him for that #(this is also the boy that looked at something I wrote in fiction class and said ‘that’s it that’s what love is supposed to be like!!’ LIKE #) and I genuinely don’t know what to do #like should I be concerned that I feel this strongly so soon after The Boy?? should I be concerned that this might just be limerance??? #my roommate has been offering to talk to him for me and ask if he’s single and is it insane that I’m actually considering it??? #like if I’m going to now is the ideal time—I’ve already had my class with him this week and spring break is next week #and I’m certain he would never make me feel bad if he didn’t feel the same. but if he did wouldn’t he have said something by now? I don’t #know I don’t know I don’t knooowww #but I graduate in two months and I don’t want to regret it for the rest of my life

[gaymersasuke]

"this is a declaration of love"

#sasuke #narusasu #my art #so like u know how we say sasuke didnt get his freaky hashirama cell arm bc his arm is a reminder #of everythinf he's done and everything naruto has done for him #and it ultimately is a form of self flagellation #which is rly valid bc yeah freaky cell arm #what if it was more like #'our destroyed hands are holding in the aether that we created' #and 'our mollecules are one' #that kind of super unhinged way to express affection #so sasuke keeps his arm amputated as is as a token of love #i prefer to think of it that way #because i dont like thinking of sasuke being consumed by guilt and wasting his days on a 'redemption' that will never come #because he's the only one that decides when he's redeemed #and he will never get to that point #and its OKAY!! to have regrets i think its very sexy of sasuke to regret some of his actions (towards naruto) #thats jsut human nature and it makes him the well-rounded three-dimensional character that i love #bottom line #: every day sasuke wakes up without an arm. it's a declaration of love

[babykittenteach]

2023 in review! I made an effort to try more things and it worked mostly (at least for TV and movies). New things, new-to-me things, and new installments of old things all had characters to love even if I didn't necessarily feel fannish about them, and I'm hoping 2024 does, too.

#but yeah no I had a lot of fun with some of these #mp100 is now fully going down as one of my favorite works of art ever. i mean it. i'd stick it on a shelf with discworld. #trying Nida Manzoor's work was SO GOOD like if edgar wright knew how to make girls lovable I meant to only try one episode of WALP #and then I marathonned it all in one night right into the sunrise and I do not regret it #(look I love edgar wright but) #i had my issues with GO2 and Fionna & Cake and HxH (which I finally tried yes I am late) but still they had babies in them #one piece and the last of us did like major progress for proving those mediums *could* be adapted and not suck so seriously kudos #I didn't go into Barbie expecting it to Solve Capitalism and The Patriarchy so I appreciate what it did do #Nimona was just gorgeous #Across the spider-verse is so good it's hard to say anything about it #Peacemaker is obnoxiously good and Chris's breakdown near the end really got me #Bottoms & Marry My Dead Body & Ying-Yang Master: Dream of Eternity are just fun okay don't think about it #the strange planet show was sweet and peaceful to watch #and even with a 40% budget cut OFMD has my heart and ed is The babygirl of all time for me #thanks for reading these tags if you did and I hope you have a good new year #art i'm proud of

[quaranmine]

i need to do some more work At Work today,

#listen. okay. idk which one of you anonymously recommended murderbot to me a few weeks ago but i finished system collapse this morning #and im supposed to do work now?? unbelieveable #i am also leaving like 15-30 mins early for a hair appointment #and the only meeting i have is in 2 mins so #idk it's just a dead day #but it's one of those dead days where i MAY regret not doing things because i DO have things to do....

[hotasfahrenheit]

It's spicy, but I can't stop eating it.

[All The Liquors, Episode 3]

#is this how i feel about spicy food all the time? yes #did watching this scene on my lunch break directly influence what i ate for dinner? yes absolutely #did i forget to tell my partner to order the milder korean fried chicken instead of the spicier one? also yes #did he tell them even so to make it only level one spicy and it was still almost too much for my baby spice level tolerance? yes once again #i'm trying i'm really trying but fighting against my white person no spicy upbringing has been a very long battle but i continue to fight #okay but also ji yoo is so cuuuute #i wanna pinch his cheeks and put him in my pocket #continuing my free viki trial binging of shows with this one and no regrets #all the liquors #all the liquors the series #kim jun hyung #mia gifs things #mia gifs drama things #mia gifs all the liquors things #mia watches things #korean bl

[july-19th-club]

huge guy tiny girl is potentially the worst of the contemporary romance scene tropes but i have to admit that in the halycon days of samruby i did kind of get into it a little bit

#mostly bc modern tinygirl is like. sooooooo delicate and quirky #ruby's a weird lying little freak . little miss knife apocalypse ride em cowboy . i regret to say there's an appeal #not like. for ME. but for somebody #okay maybe for me. not like AS tinygirl just as like. a third party who's only here to hatefuck #and it goes without saying but ONLY in 2008 . there's an expiration date on this fantasy but that's why it works in the first place #there's a hungry stupid sweaty violence practically oozing off the screen & it would be delicious exactly once and then immediately get old #what i mean is. samruby is only compelling because those two were visibly salivating every time they were on screen together #but girl why . he shouldve been a work fling babe . that should not have been the one you settled on #tragic! extremely annoying and irrelevant couple were desperately sexy thirteen years ago

[rosieethor]

No one:

Not a soul:

Not a single solitary person:

My last remaining brain cell: DOWN DOWN DOWN BY THE RIVER

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #the years i've lost to character creation #no regrets #okay one regret though and it's this fucking song #when will i be free of these lyrics i only have room in my head for like one thing and this cannot be it please i'm begging

[helianskies]

ugly maths.

i hate maths, right. i don't usually like numbers, and if i do like numbers it's gotta be an 8 or a 48 and nothing else.

thing is, i've recently caught myself doing maths again. ugly maths. the kind of maths that, really, i've been trying to avoid as much as possible because, well, it's ugly!

you... wanna see?

okay, fine... but don't say i didn't warn you!

ugly, see? look at all those numbers! not a 48 in sight!

huh? what's that? you don't see what i'm on about? oh... oh! hang on, lemme just—

better? yes? no? no? okay, what if i—

mmh, yes. ugly numbers. see it now? can you see why they're ugly?

here, i can make it worse.

these numbers are ugly. the maths they make me do is ugly.

now i'll level with you: the worst ones by far are the yellow numbers. the maths they make me do it the ugliest.

why ugly?

because it makes me ugly.

those numbers turn me into not only a suddenly number-obsessed fool, but a fool who also cannot understand these numbers and what they mean and why i feel like they reflect on me and my ability.

87, 75.

the thoughts are as follows:

• the orange numbers are big, so why are you being ugly about the yellow ones? you should be happy with what you have. so many nice big numbers! not everyone receives that.

• is it that there are two different audiences for these two different fics? perhaps. they are quite different works, with different appeals, and different themes. maybe you are reading too much into it.

• why are you obsessing over numbers anyway? you don't like maths! you left maths behind when you were 16, put it down!

okay, okay, fine! i'll put the maths down. right here, in fact!:

that 87 was an 83 at the start of the year. the 6161 it is attached to was a 5453.

4, 708.

ugly maths.

the 75 is a nice number. in fact, compared to 87, it is beautiful, radiant, enchanting. at the start of the year, 75 was 48. wow. now that is one sexy number!

27.

mmmm.

6161, 1061.

5100.

87, 75.

12.

mmmm.

you know, my most favourite comment left recently on a fic of mine was 2 characters long: :(

it made me :)

well, actually, it made me >:) because it was left in response, presumably, to one of the key scenes in a new chapter which left the exact impression on someone that i hoped it would.

they must be the only one who reacted like that, though.

1.

have i mentioned that that 87 and 75 include author responses?

i won't try to do more maths, there. it might not end well for me. the maths is making me tired enough as it is, and i have an early start tomorrow.

oh! but, that being said, i have another set of ugly numbers to show you, so keep 87 and 75 in mind.

ready?

838, 245.

(want a hint? the green numbers!)

838, 87. 245, 75.

9.6, 3.3.

ugly maths. it's ugly again, see? i don't like it. i'm seeing numbers within numbers within numbers, and i can't seem to stop!

the numbers make me ask new questions:

• why is it not good enough?

• people seem to engage more with one fic over the other, so shouldn't you prioritise?

• is all this maths this really good for you?

no, it isn't.

i want to avoid ugly maths. ugly maths makes me want to tear my hair out. it makes me want to start from scratch. it makes me want to grab someone and scream. it makes me want to cry and press a button that has tempted me many times before when the numbers become too ugly to bear.

ugly maths turn me into an ugly person.

ugly maths make me obsessive, paranoid, anxious, regretful, vindictive, spiteful, alone.

i hate maths. i hate numbers, just like, it feels, the numbers hate me.

#helia rants #cw vent #i'm okay but i'm not #this has been playing on my mind over the last couple of weeks #it's aimed at the sky rather than anyone here #i know i'm not the best myself as commenting. i justify it to myself by affirming i don't read much. which i don't. #since the start of the year i have tried to comment on everything i have read #bearing in mind i may also dm someone rather than comment because i want to scream and ramble about their fic more personally #that being said. i know i'm not the only one who finds themselves doing ugly maths #and in turn starting to feel uglier too #i don't like looking at the numbers #i was doing well at the start of the year #but as i open my drafts and look to a new chapter and at the notes i wrote #i can't stop myself from opening the fic. from seeing where it's at. from seeing if it's changed. from checking my inbox to see if... #if only... #what it's meant is that i've come to a point where a fic i loved has become exactly that: a fic i loved. past tense #the other fic is still a fic i love. but i know deep down that that is tied to the numbers too #i hate that this is what i've become #because i have tiny fics. fics with 50 hits and maybe 1 comment. and i love them. i still love them #but when it comes to the big ones. the multi-chapters. the hefty fics. after a point all i see are numbers #and those numbers have come to determine both my happiness and fulfilment as a writer #and so i am ugly. i am sad. i am pathetic. #and i don't know how to stop. #helia's stuff #this was meant to save back into my drafts. i was editing tags. tumblr decided it should post. so... so be it. #also this is not an attention thing if anyone dares go 'oh but you're a good writer uwu' i might do something we'll all regret #this is also not a 'ffs comment on my fics will you 😒' hell no #it's just about me. and my issue. and my unhealthy relationship with these fucking numbers. #gotta get this shit out of my head somehow :)

[boyfridged]

not to be that person but catwoman (1989) and batman: year two both have not only a more authentic and genuine, but also inherently more interesting depiction of catholicism than any books with helena ever had. and i’m saying it as someone whose one of favourite comics is cry for blood. the truth is that helena’s catholicism has never been anything more than a stereotype. i do not mind using catholic themes just for aesthetics, but i feel like sometimes people forget that there are some motifs that are just much more fun if they preserve the original nuance and actually serve a function in the text.

#i��m sorry i’m so tired this is not directed at anyone in particular but i’ve seen so many people being pissy at jason fans hcing him #as catholic #because ‘helena is already catholic’ #okay. i was not aware there was only one person in gotham who could be catholic? #or in dc universe even #+ jan just pointed out in dms that it’s a v usamerican thing. i regret to inform you that catholicism is nor a unique trait. #but i’m happy to inform you that dick is also catholic. to me.

[suffarustuffaru]

hi again i ranked every parent i could think of in rezero based on parenting skills + how much they give a shit

#i forgot to add the dude thats now married to garf's mom but he would go in 'seems alright'!! #ALSO LIKE GARFS MOM... THE POOR WOMAN.... SHES LIVED SUCH A ROUGH LIFE LAJSLDFJ I HOPE SHE'LL BE OKAY... but also yeah um. rip fred and gar #bc their mom dipped. like to find garfs dad yeah but like. girl :((( but also the implications of How she had fred is. :((( honestly. maybe #for the best that that woman lost her memories. #fribal (theresias uncle) is only ranked that high bc he at least shows REGRET for his actions.... he apologizes to theresia as he dies.. #the juukuliuses all seem like they were alright. rip daisy and klein though they died in that flood when julius was a kid ;-;;; #alviero is only present for like one scene in a side story but like. he seems alright. he def cares given he and his wife took in julius #after julius's parents died. and also alviero and maria have been taking care of joshua and julius... so they DO care but i dont think #alviero was perfect just judging off of. you know. how julius and joshua have turned out lajdslfjs. alviero is so gaslight gatekeep girlbos #and like overly concerned with how he comes off to others that you can see where joshua and julius got that shit from HAH. #heinkel is only up that high on the list bc felix's parents and roswaal exist. like its very hard to beat that LMAO T^T #and yeah rem and rams parents did not give a shit about either of them ngl. #rezero #WAIT I FORGOT TO COUNT RYUZU. SHOULD I HAVE COUNTED RYUZU?? PROBABLY RIGHT???

[scare-ard--sleigh]

okay so speaking of the finale i didn't have time to finish anything new but i rounded up my favorite archer fics for your viewing pleasure, all are rated E <3

💥 no light, no light / 8.8k / While Archer's in a coma, Cyril builds himself a whole new life (for better and for worse.) Messiness predictably ensues when Archer returns. / cyrling

💥 you are everything i want (cause you are everything i'm not) / 4.5k / Archer and Cyril hate each other and are stuck sharing a hotel suite. There's only one bed. / cyrling (vicious hatesex edition)

💥 part of that dream / 7k / There’s an aspect of Fabian’s life that he keeps very secret. / fabicyril, dilf fabian cinematic universe

💥 out of network / 5.9k / Takes place right after 'out of network' (13x05). Cyril has some things to say about Archer's relationship with his therapist. They talk about their feelings later that night. / cyrling (feelies hours)

💥 Prelude, Fugue and Riffs / 3.9k / Takes place before 'fugue and riffs' (04x01), though it's slightly au. Bob and Linda take Archer in after he discloses that he needs a new identity and a place to stay. Tension develops between Bob and Archer, which they happily explore. / insert bob/archer portmanteau here

💥 best friends / 4.3k / Takes place right after 11x05 ("Best Friends.") Cyril helps Archer with his post-coma dry spell. Aleister may have had a point. / cyrling (h/c edition)

💥 like a heathen clung to the homily / 5k / Sterling dresses as a priest for the gang's latest mission. Cyril has some feelings about it, which they explore. / cyrling (priest kink edition)

💥 nothing will feel the same (because nothing will be the same) / 16.5k / This takes place during and then immediately after mission: difficult (12x08.) Life after the Agency takes a toll on Archer. He finds comfort in places that are both novel and very familiar. / cyrilanarcher

#archer fx #archer #sterling archer #cyril figgis #fabian kingsworth #<- sorry for being annoying i'm just like oh GOD it's ?? over now??? and i always got little surges of hits and such when the new seasons #came back so uhhhhhhh >> #another chapter of 'nothing will feel the same' is coming btw;; I've been working on it :' ) #like it's finished as is; it doesn't Need any more story to be finished but there's more i want to say #there's probs also gonna be more 'part of that dream' bc I've been itching for more of cyril and eileen #also there's even more on my ao3 these are just my faves . #i feel like writers aren't Supposed to pick faves but 'no light' is one of my favorite things I've ever written lmao. i hope we get even #just a Little Something about cyril's feelings about archer's coma like god that's SO JUICY !!! #my only regret about that story is not finding out about him dressing as archer for halloween sooner bc oh my GOD ??? #okay anyway anyway talk to me about archer fx haha i have things to say <3