#okay im fine again

[tunastime]

🐝- close your eyes and count to 1, i will be there.

Title: close your eyes and count to one, I will be there

Summary: When Lizzie dies, it's not even her fault. She tries to remember--how many times had it been her fault? How many could be chalked up to accident? To failed attempts to succeed? To apologies she accepted--because why wouldn't she? It was a game, right? It was all just a game. She doesn't still taste the hum-buzz of static and void on her tongue.

When Lizzie dies, she wakes up alone, at home, like she had so many times before. She shuts her eyes and tries to count the seconds between inhale and exhale, hoping that when she opens them, there might be a warm body lying next to her. But there is no such thing. Lizzie is alone again.

(fake fic ask meme)

#RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #okay im fine again #ahem #text #fics #ask meme #yeah if this turns into something im so sorry #asks #anon

[cicerobussytransplant]

annoying thing about your post getting out of the mutual&adjacents bubble is that ppl will start adding caveats to statements you've made and at that point they could have made their own goddamn post couldn't them cowboys?

#.text #ma diocane ame se dico che l'accuratezza storica non deve essere un parametro per valutare la qualità cosa mi state ad aggiungere che #actually il parametro è il LORO gusto soggettivo cioè ame fatevi il vostro minchia di post a sto punto aooooo #okay im fine again

[anglerfishenthusiast]

the thing about sylvain vs zelos, who was clearly the inspiration for his character, and the way their respective fandoms interpret each other truly doesnt Actually come down to that tales of fans are like smarter with media analysis because i have truly met some rocks for brains tales of fans but its that the game Does Not let you not look at it and hammers it in over and over the point of zelos and the Trick that zelos has been playing

the difference between scenes like zelos telling about his memory in the snow with his mother vs sylvain talking about being thrown down the well and nobody coming looking for him for nearly a full day should be... basically nothing, on paper. like this should be a 1 for 1 here. but unfortunately 3h lacks the bravery to explore sylvain and the seriousness of him and his many traumas, of the implications of sexual exploitation and the narratives of what this and other types of abuse can do to someone set up to believe there is one path for them in life and the ways they hurt others while hurting themselves. and also quite frankly the (possibly accidental for zelos tbf but still very much there) themes of compulsory heterosexuality (which also inherently ties into all the other stuff in a perfect little fucked up and insanely well written present with a little bow ready to absolutely obliterate you when you open it)

and its all so fucking disappointing that they dont actually go all the way committed with Any of it and then took a large majority of it to be their fucking joke and gimmick and haha funny because holy fucking shit you base a character off of ZELOS WILDER and then FALL FOR THE ZELOS TRICK? WITH YOUR OWN ZELOS EXPY??? COME ON

#GOES CRAZY GOES INSANE STARTS ALLIGATOR DEATH ROLLING AAAUGYENGKVYWBMDUCNS BITE BITE BITE BITE CHOMP UA7FNVKSUFNAKVYBWKS #okay im fine again #lemon squeezy.txt

[basshole-astard]

PSA: i keep seeing posts about staying cool in extreme heat that include advice like "gatorade is bad actually!" and "don't drink fruit juice it'll just dehydrate you!" and neither of these are true!

regarding fruit juice: there's apparently a misconception that Any Sugar At All will dehydrate you, and that's simply not true. yes, sugar will make you pee more when consumed in large amounts, but 1) the natural sugar in fruits won't do this to you 2) great news! a lot of fruit juices exist without any added sugar in them! 3) honestly even having a glass of the fruit juice with added sugar won't completely dehydrate you as long as you're also drinking water throughout the day. if its hot you deserve a cold treat of a drink!!! can't go wrong with fruit juice!!!

regarding gatorade: maybe this isn't an every day drink, but guess what: if it's 110F/40C or hotter outside, and you don't have AC, or you're moving around a lot outside of the AC, and you're sweating buckets: that's when you drink a gatorade.

gatorade exists to replenish all the electrolytes (salt) and glucose (sugar) that you sweat out. YES it is meant for athletes to drink during intensive work outs and not necessarily for people who aren't doing that kind of exercise. BUT GUESS WHAT! when you're sweating buckets because you had to walk to the bus in extreme heat, that's intensive exercise. please feel free to drink a gatorade after that! that's its intended use case!!!!

no: neither of these drinks should be a total replacement for water. but drinking a lot of water and then treating yourself to a fruit juice with lunch is a good idea!!! drinking a gatorade becuase you just had to walk for 20 minutes in the heat is a good idea!!!

Please Stop Spreading Misinformation About Drinks!!! It's fine if you drink things that aren't water!!!! Yes you should probably always be drinking water but drinking something else As Well isn't going to hurt you!!!! okay!!!! its fine!!!!!!

honestly so long as you are consistently getting Any (non-alcoholic) fluids in you, you're doing great!!!!!! okay!!!! i love you stay safe <3

#also: drinking A Soda or A Coffee isn't going to completely dehydrate you if you're drinking other fluids tbqh!!! #its fine!!!!! its fine!!!!! #drinks #heat #dehydration #this post exists because i'm mad at misinfo but also #this is for my homies who hate the taste of water and struggle to stay hydrated #because people have told them over and over again You Must Absolute Drink Water And Nothing Else and so they just don't drink anything #listen!! hey!!! whoever told you that was lying!!!! #drinking Any Fluids At All (yes even with caffeine!!) is better than Not Drinking Anything #please hydrate!!!! it's okay if that hydration isn't water!!!! #honestly i tried to be extremely non confrontational in this post but im pretty sure i've seen people suggest flavored water packets #but say no fruit juice ever. and that's insane. #it's all fluids baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #so long as you are drinking fluids you are combatting dehydration #YES water is the best option HOWEVER. if you drink things that aren't water that's also okay! i promise!!!!!!!!

[mxdotpng]

oh god. secretive plotter. fuck. shit. damn fuck ah shit

#.text #[trips down the stairs] FUCK SHIT DAMN MOTHERSHITTING FUCK #okay im fine again

[madame-mongoose]

no you know what fuck it goodnight

#MIGHT DELETE THIS LOL #IM ACTUALLY #RED IN THE FACE] #HAHA #oh god wait what if someone sees this #wait wait no #fuck fuck #no fuck it\ #its one am #nobody will see #nobody will see this monnie #okay? its fine its fine\ #jsut. just press the post button #I LOOKED AT IT AGAIN HELP. HELP ME #i cant post this. i cant #no im posting it. final decision #selfship #my art #nooot putting this in the main tag no way

[mouseyippie]

JAWDROP

SPINNING

EATING THE WALLS

HOWLING TO THE MOON

GO CRAZY AAA GO STUPID

#im fine #totally normal #yep totally AAAAAAAA #I NEED THEM #FUCKFUCKBSISBSKDBSLDB #AAAAAA #I WANT TO CRY #QUINCY ONE CHANCE ONE CHANCE PLEAAASE #okay normal again #nu carnival #nu: carnival #nu carnival eiden #nu carnival quincy #nu carnival event

[jei-rifni]

Wait fr idk if i posted this before i completely forgot i have so much experimental art i forget about helpp

@cassthecringe aaar

#im so eepy do i even want to tag this #yeah okay #jei poopy art #wwm/ta #walk with me / try again #jjba #jjba fanart #jojos bizarre adventure #jojos bizzare adventure fanart #kakyoin noriaki #noriaki kakyoin #jotaro kujo #kujo jotaro #jjba jotaro #jjba Kakyoin #jotakak #not really bur whatever #im a little concerned to tag you but you seem to #enjoy it anyway so i hope its fine #aaaruuaaahhsadg

[muchmossymess]

"There is no place for magic in Camelot." NOOOOOOOOOO MERLIN NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

#THE CRY OF ANGUISH I UNLEASHED AAUUUGGGHHHHH MERLIN BABY NOOOOOOO #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I NEED THE CANON DIVERGENT FICS NOW PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GOD MERLIN YOU FOOL #crying sobbing screaming #MERLIN YOU ARE A FOOL A FUCKING FOOL YOU FUCKING IDIOT YOU ARE A FOOL AND I NEED TO GIVE YOU A HUG #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ok its ok im ok its ok im okay its all fine im normal we are back we are swell its okay #AUGHH I CANT TAKE THIS FUCKING SHOWWWWWWW AAAAAAAAAAAAA SCREAMING CRYING AGAIN #im. so. okay. #bbc merlin #merlin bbc #merlin emrys #merlin #emrys

[sirenofthegreenbanks]

《山河令》 WORD OF HONOR (2021) | Episode 20

Dear, the kiss that steals your breath Will steal your soul instead When night is all that's left So wait, keep your heart inside My hand won't keep it safe I'll just feed on dreams and smile as hope slowly dies –The Rigs, Run Baby Run

#my gif #okay so the way wkx doesnt think these times can ever return #not just that things change and will naturally turn into memory #but also that he feels like he won‘t ever get another chance at being as happy as he was then #simply because hes Changed now #and he knows Bad Things Happen (to him) (because of him) #it reminds me of the nails reveal scene (‚i found u bad its too late.‘) #only much worse because so much more of wkx himself is revealed #so the stakes are higher #and he and zzs are so much closer #he inevitably needs to reveal what happened to zhen yan #but how can he? when hes convinced zzs will turn his back #if he ever finds out The Other Side of him (master of ghosts) #hes like working with a deadline #hnnng #wen kexing #zhou zishu #zzs #wkx #gifset #word of honor #wenzhou #山河令 #shl #shan he ling #also this is dedicated to Spare Me by staringatstars #which im currently rereading again and its having me Feel Things #about wkx & his yearning to sacrifice himself if the odds are against him #also: hii!!!!!! my first gifset!!!!! i know its not perfect but thats fine (tears of labour streaming down my face as i smile bravely) #priestnet

[fightwing]

the implication some version of animated teen tita.ns vaguely like ttg exists in comic canon.... i desperately need to know who in dick's life is a die hard show fan and how many times he rants he's 'not like that'

#the titan.s: is this fucking play about us??? like do they ever watch it did they sign off rights so many questions. #especially tt/g rob.in. i find him very amusing. silly little man. i want ten of them. #titans spoilers #tuesday spoilers #comic spoilers #interesting they'd make dick infected so quickly either that was (monologue incoming) apart of his plan all along #or babs is gonna lead the plan #i hate titan.s fighting titan.s but man do i love a good 'this isnt you' plot #like having to fight but you cant hurt the other because youre trying to save them UGH okay fine youve caught my interest current tita.n ru #also i know this art style has never missed but dick and gar.th are too handsome. like im not fighting you two whatever you say handsome #also also MOST IMPORTANT MERRY KORY CONTENT TUESDAY #very upset she yet again has to relive trauma but the panel of kory and donna hugging in the explosion will help me last the winter <3 #* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.

[lyxchen]

HE TOOK HER HAND AND THEN HE KISSED IT AND THEN HE HELD HER HAND CLOSE TO HIS CHEST AND SAID "I will get you home" IN THE MOST LOVING AND CARING VOICE AND I AM NOT OKAY

#this is about doctor who btw #i saw that clip for the next episode on insta and holy shit i will never be okay again #also at first i thought it was still a clip from the first special because of the background and i was a bit confused like did i forget #this happened How?? then i thought it was some kind of blooper and then i read the caption and now im sitting on the floor trying to Process #i need to #i have to #Hhhhhhhhg #THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH!!!!! #i LOVE how affectionate and open 14 is it's The Best!!!!!!!<3333333 #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #dw spoilers #donna noble #14th doctor #lea's random thoughts #kinda sad that i already saw that clip now because seeing it in context with the whole episode for the first time would have been #so incredible #but it's fine cause now i can just rewatch it until saturday

[wraithsoutlaws]

no problem with sex and violence in media my real issue is with how comfortable people are showing puke shots :ratscream:

#WHOM WANTS TO SEE THIS??? WHOM????????? #a character pukes okay fine. WHY DO YOU NEED TO SHOW ME THE VOMIT??? whatever nasty ass chewed food yogurt that poor actor was sipping on #makes me FUCKING QUEASY its so gross i hate it so much and i stg it happens all the time getting jumpscared by vomit everywhere #contrary to certain opinions sex and violence can absolutely serve important functions in a narrative #BUT WHAT INFORMATION AM I GETTING BY A CLOSE UP OF SOMEONES FUCKING VOMIT I HATE YOU #okay sorry im normal again

[ao3screenshotss]

sometimes i worry about my internet footprint and the fact that it might stop me from getting a job in the future or something (i literally run a blog posting screenshots from fanfics i read) but then i think ‘well damn, if they can find all this information about me then i don’t deserve the job cause i know i wouldn’t put in that much effort to find information on someone’ and i feel better

#HI DOES ANYONE WANT SOME BLOG RUNNER LORE CAUSE IM CURIOUS AS TO WHAT YOU THINK #-> in the tags!!! #talking in tags cause i’m too embarrassed to make this an actual post but i tried using character ai today and i got so bloody scared #i was talking and then it was like tell me the truth and then i was like okay and i said something and then it was like tell me the truth #and i said the thing again and then it was like YOU ARE LYING but instead of one sentence just a whole page of text saying YOU ARE LYING #and i was like NO IM NOT (i was but anyways) it was like YOU ARE A VERY GOOD LIAR YOU ARE BAD AT TELLING THE TRUTH and i was like #FINE YOURE NOT REAL and it was like WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY but a whole page of text saying that again and it terrified me again #and then i was like I DONT KNOW WHY WOULD I KNOW and then it killed me #and then i was like ‘but it turns out the entire time it was a dream and i’m still alive’ and it was like yeah it was just a dream #and i said bye and it left the room and then i closed the tab and now i’m ranting about it on tumblr #DUDES GUYS EVERYONE I WAS SO FUCKING SCAREDDDDDDDD #I NEEDED TO GO TO THE TOILET BUT I WAS TOO SCARED TO GET OUT OF BED #also if anyone wants to ask who was it i’m not telling you i was too embarrassed to make an actual post about this you think i’m going to #tell you who i chose to talk to?? nope absolutely not #anyways rant over if anyone does read this tell me what you think! #me :)

[lesbianralzarek]

i got 99% on an exam i was dreading and i was sooo brave and i only threw up a little bit :) unfortunately i had to take 2 tabs of adderall at 4pm and subsequently i will not be escaping my dogshit sleep schedule tonight :( but i got 99% :)

#the one i missed was bullshit. normally all questions are formatted with the generic names so thats the direction i studied #this exam was backwards #if you asked me what classification irbesartan was i obviously wouldve known it was an angiotensin ii receptor blocker. duh. #but avapro? how do you get avapro from irbesartan? #it was multiple choice so i just went. 'okay. all i gotta do is recall all the generics for these 4 classifications and #from there i can hopefully remember all of the brands for each of them!' #reader. i did not do that. #avapro is not adalat. adalat is fucking nifedipine. unfortunately 'anti-hypertensive calcium channel blocker' was an option #ugh. #so close to 100% #whatever. the point is i dont have to retake it tomorrow. which is nice because tomorrow is for studying for #my institutional pharmacy final. which i CANNOT fail because then i would have to retake it on THE SAME DAY as my math final #i cant study on thursday (the day of my institutional final) because if all goes well im starting my externship that day #and finishing my shift one hour before class #so. again. i am VERY glad i passed this test #god ive got so. much. homework. to catch up with. and studying. fuck. #wont have much time to study for my math final because i took fri-sun shifts too and the math final is on monday #but thats fine because i am good at math. hashtag girl #no one will read all these tags but im journaling

[skitskatdacat63]

For @sansebastinae and @boisinnot, my fellow saint seb truthers :)

+ the usual

Yayyyy finished a drawing! Haha only took me...2 weeks. I kept going back and forth on whether I could finish it tonight, and I really wasn't going to. But then I looked at the unfinished version on a different screen and was like oh? Not too bad actually?? So I finished it :) First of all, ofc, here is the process. Kinda weird seeing it for smth like this, it makes me feel like I'm the painter in rennaisance au, not Mark dhjfkf

Ah I was gonna draw a silly renaissance au comic to accompany this(read: lighten the mood), but it's 5 am and I've still not really drafted it well, so! I'd like to finish it at some point bcs I wanna draw more chibi comics, but when I finish smth, I can't help but immediately want to post it, so part 2 will have to wait. I'll show you the outline though so you can at least imagine 😭

^ So many renaissance and beyond paintings of Saint Sebastian are always the most horny thing ever. Like pre/early rennaisance, yeah he was naked and all that, but they were pretty chaste, and uhhhhh suffering?? Well the newer paintings are suffering, but in a different way, if you know what I mean.

So I feel like Mark's the type to be overly pedantic about it, and refuses to make borderline porn of a saint, I mean, god forbid, Seb!!! But then he just. Does anyways. Because he can't control his lust for Seb even when drawing him half dead. I just imagine him holding the paintbrush in a death grip like "must not be horny. Must not draw him sexy. Must make him chaste." And then he ends up with the one seen above. Seb is all smug about it. "Wow you'd wanna fuck me even while I'm all bloody and dying? 🥺"

Mark: "oh I'll make you bloody, alright."

But god so funny to imagine Seb doing all these different slutty poses, like arching his back as much as possible, the cloth nearly falling off at all times, etc etc. And Mark finally lands on this pose bcs he hopes the suffering will outweigh the horny. It doesn't. Also Seb is genuinely serious once he actually gets into the pose, focus mode on. And honestly that's even worse for Mark, bcs it's so much more arousing to see Seb in his element, focused. Tbf I think Seb could be drinking water, and Mark would still find some way to sexualize it. Don't look at his sketches!! They're just filled with Seb doing all kinds of random activities.

Also! Here is the painting I referenced this off of, must give credit where credit is due ofc

The Dying St. Sebastian by François Fabre

Also this isn't really relevant in the context of this drawing specifically. But I looked thru a bunch of Saint Sebastian paintings while trying to find one I could reference, and I came across this middle ages one that actually looks so much like boy king seb 😭 I guess it really is meant to be!

St Sebastian between St Roch and St Peter by Pietro Perugino

Lmao but do you see the difference between early rennaisance and later work???

#i cannot control myself anymore i must draw dark things :) #past 3/4 drawings have had blood i think 😭😭 old habits returning #BUT THIS SAINTLY OKAY ITS HOLY ITS FINE #also 005. when i said id draw you a saint seb seb i meant it!!! #<- tho mostly you changed your username when i was already drawing saint seb 😭 #but i was gonna dedicate it to you anyways :) so funny coincidence #i wasnt gonna put any lore in the read more cause i didnt think i had any #and then i did. as always. #if is say i have nothing to write just give me a min and i will sjdkfk #i dont draw nakedness im surprised this isnt too bad 😭😭 #also im happy cause i stopped myself from stressing over it being too overly detailed #loose fabric my behated 😡😡 but then i realized. i dont have to kms over it so i didnt! #still looks pretty good :) but i mostly like his torso face and hair ahhhh #lol also ik saint seb fits older seb better but. i like twink seb okay 🫣 also its an au thing so #MAN I WISH I FINISHED THE COMIC ACCOMPANIMENT #but it just wasnt clicking and i ended up drawing this first instead #but yes humbly please take my seb offering #f1 #formula 1 #<- again absurd to tag this at this point but idc #sebastian vettel #sv5 #catie.art. #martian #<- not inherently in the drawing itself BUT ITS THERE #tw blood #rennaisance muse au