#okay i just wanted to ramble a bit lol ^_^ there!

[astrxealis]

okay rambles but i started creatively writing in like ... 5th grade? and. oh god just a little encouragement to anyone looking to get into writing or insecure or whatnot, but HELLS, maybe it's to he expected with my (obviously) very young age and inexperience with writing then, but my writing was really. yeah. Yeah. but then i'm what... a lot older now, obviously, and my writing has gotten leagues better. i'm probably not a good example for this bcs childhood years development stuff are different etc etc BUT practicing writing more and whatnot really does go a long way :]

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my writing in 2020 is a lot different than my writing now even! especially so compared to my writing from 2010s #reading a lot of media is also really important :] i always read a lot of books BUT i only started to really read poetry since the pandemic #which were uh basically my early teenage years so idk if i'm a good example for this bcs childhood brain development and stuff (???) #BUT STILL ..... playing games like ffxiv and being really invested in the lore and writing + reading more poems and being fascinated with #more authors and pieces of literature + expanding my general vocabulary knowledge whatnot ... it all really goes a long way! #oh man i'm pretty proud of myself actually. i do love my writing. as imperfect (as all things are) it is. #i had a lot of Pauses with writing throughout my uhh relatively short life thus far since i'm NOT yet an adult and all aha but yeah! #so bless ffxiv again for bringing back my writing spirit... and other medias and whatever <3 #rn i have to thank bg3 for bringing back my Creative Spirit bcs i've been writing a lot more again and having/working on my creative ideas!! #okay i just wanted to ramble a bit lol ^_^ there! #idk my being a writer is very important to me. and my journey as one too. #i want to make a book one day! most feasibly would be to make a collection of short stories :] a bit similar to 'm is for magic' maybe bcs #i grew up with that lol neil gaiman i adore you <3 #i have a very special original world in my head but i am a little selfish and want to keep them all to myself... oops. or who knows! #anyway i have a lot of ideas and i adore writing and literature sooo much <3 #anyway. okay. leaving it here. #cheering on every writer author whatever out there !!! unless you're a sucky person of course yuck bigots but yeah ^^ <3 #huge writing inspo for me is uhhhhhhhh. thinking #ffxiv! does ffxiv count. esp drk quests. and shb as a whole. and then... edgar allan poe? neil gaiman? yeah? #can't remember anyone else good gods but i love vivid and imaginative storytelling and writing descriptively :] a bit of prose but also #quite simple in its eloquence (???) unsure honestly oh gods anyway BYE rambles over apollo signing off beep boop AGHHHHH (screams)

[disposal-blueeee]

doodles

edgar vargas and squee by johnen vasquez

scriabin by zarla-s

#vargas #edgar vargas #vargas zarla #scriabin vargas #zarla s #scriabin #doodles #YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME . . . . !!!! #well HELLO !!!! I'M BACK !!!!!!!! #i've been fine !! :333 #got a new brush . what do you think of it do you like it #okay i want to ramble about these wait a second #the first one looks a bit different to the rest because i was just trying new stuff . #if i spend a long time without drawing i'll forget how to draw and well it happened #i've changed my art style like 3 times now but i still draw side profiles the same . looks weird ugh #the mug says “ JESUS loves me BECAUSE no one else will ” btw . meta gave me the idea actually . thanks meta . #about the second one . finished that one like ten minutes ago . missed drawing todd aw #i just find their whole relationship so amusing . #like yes i went crazy for like a month and now i have a brother-husband and a kid ?! #they complement each other so well though . i love them #THE UNO ONE omg i've had that idea for like A YEAR NOW and i just drew it lol #i wonder how long it would take scriabin to notice though . #when i showed this to meta she said : “ oh wow !! edgar's finally winning at something !! ” and it's SO TRUE #wonder how he does it ! #and the last one . i got the idea when i was looking through zarla's account searching for fan art . #love it so much though they look like their lives aren't a living hell #anyways i'll probably make more of these . who knows #going back to school on monday . and of course i had to get inspiration four days before going back . #please PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL . PL #okay byeee enjoy these . eat my starved followers . EAT !!!!!

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Australian Grand Prix[Redux] - Giancarlo Fisichella, Rubens Barichello & Fernando Alonso(my personal post-race highlights)

#redoing this made me realize how much I slept on Fisi the first time I posted this race! hes so handsome!! #but then I also realized he is a victim of the first race winner curse :(( #I JUST REALLY LOVE THE RENAULT BOYS AAGHHHHH ;;; #also hehe if youve seen my og post you will recognize the rubens alonso headpat aka the moment that made me want to start posting #(its been so long since i watched this race that while making this i had to keep reminding myself that this content isnt new haha) #(its rly funny to me that i made one gif for the og post yet didnt gif anything else???) #(like okay what is this partial effort catie) #(its especially painful bcs this race has actually prob the best camerawork for this season so AGHHHH) #(thats why im doing a redux btw lol bcs this race truly deserves better treatment) #(also its crazy how much time making a post can take up i started a race and i got halfway through???) #(also maybe expect two monza posts: 2005 of course and also i want to gif seb 2008 str win since ive already watched that but didnt gif it) #oopsies sry for all the tags!! i love rambling!!! #giancarlo fisichella #fernando alonso #rubens barrichello #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #(2005: 1/19 races watched) #fa14 #renault #2005 australian gp #race posting:2005

[baalzebufo]

finally got the hang of this guy :) ironed out my style and design for him. also wanted to draw some different emotions

you messed with the wrong bug

#alloyart #beetlejuice #beetlejuice musical #betelgeuse #okay can anyone tell me is there any like. canon to the name 'lawrence betelgeuse shoggoth' #i know about lawrence but. where does the surname shoggoth come from? #if its a fan thing thats fine its a fun name! im just like. I feel like I missed a vague detail or off-hand line lol #its a cute full name ill probably keep using it but i just wanted to know from folks whove been around this longer than i have haha #anyway! i really loved drawing the spicy boy there. red beej is so cool #i like to keep him mostly human in my designs but i think a little bit of that demon comes out when hes very mad #also i didnt make my purple beej quite as sad and sopping wet as id liked to #but. i struggle to draw sad guys so! i need practice #anyway. sorry for the tag ramble wow. tldr; I Love Him A Lot

[babacontainsmultitudes]

*waving awkwardly at whoever happens to be walking by* Just a little heads up (since I guess I feel weird not giving any sort of notice?) that I’ll be making a point to be on here much less going forward (not disappearing, I’ll still be around, but probably only popping in now and again)… At least for now! Summer is always a difficult time of year for me, to be honest with you, and being chronically online definitely won’t help with that. So… Yeah! As per usual feel free to @ me to make sure I see something (y’all can also dm me lol no need to be shy). 💜

That’s it! Again just felt like leaving a little notice aha… Anyhoo, y’all take care and be safe :] ✌️

#BUT for the little handful of people I chat with on Discord- #I very much do want us to stay in touch and encourage you to message me liberally about literally whatever #Rat… Countless… Fey… I mean you know who you are I think #Cal you’re included in that implicitly too haha ik we don’t talk directly all that much but we’re friends and we really oughta keep intouch #Anyhoo that’s it yeah! #Like I said #summer can be pretty rough for me #On the one hand I have a very romantic view of summer #On the other- it tends to be when I’m most prone to falling into depressive episodes #Alsoooooo- I have to admit that while I’m very grateful for this fandom and all the cool people in it that I’ve met #I often kinda miss when listening to it was more of a thing I did with myself if that makes sense?? #Well now I have a few closer friends that I absolutely still want to talk about the show with- #But overall yeah I think at least for the next bit I want to go back to enjoying the show without all the fandom stuff attached #Well. AHA I’ll still be around like I said just- okay this is such a long ramble for nothing LOL typical Baba… #:3 Listen take care and don’t be shy if ya genuinely wanna keep in touch is all #💜

[c0nfuised]

SPOLIERS FOR EPITHET ERASED PRSION OF PLASTIC AND RAINCODE:

For the first image I had just finished listening to Prison of Plastic Chapter 7 in a discord call and I was in shambles (Molly's breakdown and the monolouge about how adults were just as clueless as kids really got to me man) and as a small reward I got gifted a star for making it through probably one of the saddest if not THE saddest chapter of POP. In that EXCAT SAME WEEK (other two images) I decide to play Raincode cause I was enjoying the game and needed some small comfort after chapter 7 broke me. Sadly enough the chapter I was on was Chapter 4, again one of the saddest chapters of Raincode. Not only is Yakou the culprit BUT instead of his soul being ripped out he gets hugged by Shinigami as kinda like a mercy kill. One last thing: I can't give enough props to the voice actors of Molly and Yuma cause JESUS CHRIST their preformances during the breakdown scenes was amazing man. My heart shattered when they were crying but the VAs did such a good job.

ok I'm done now

#epithet erased #prison of plastic #prison of plastic spoilers #rain code #raincode spoilers #I just remembered I had these images and wanted to share them. #I love when two completely different pieces of media makes me cry in the same week #I just wanted to ramble for a bit lol #im not okay

[harbingersecho]

what is misrecognition? I've been trying to look into it and it seems like its just a developmental thing where a kid/person thinks they are their reflection. I was curious if there was more to what you were refrencing. >.>

yeah that's part of it, but there's a little more to all that stuff too that I was referencing! I'm gonna try to tl;dr it w/ my limited understanding and not ramble on too bad so…

According to L/can, the "mirror stage" basically goes on for the rest of your life bc your reflection can't encompass everything that you are nor does it reflect your experience of life, and this creates a kind of disconnect/split in self-image and ego; an other self

So thru life the ego constantly misunderstands/misrecognizes itself to try and be a cohesive whole despite being split between what it understand itself to be vs what it is in physical reality, if that makes sense lol?

But it's not out of ignorance, it's just kind of... looking at things/yourself and bc you think a certain way, you attribute a false understanding or meaning to the stuff you know

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That's where the "misrecognition is not ignorance" quote comes from and why I kinda linked it to Locus + that drawing; Locus seems himself as a soldier, a gun, he's a suit of armor. Yet in the mirror he's just a man, a human being who has a choice and conscience so he has to try and fit those two things together (which is probs why he has that X on his face too lol)

He can't ignore the things he's done and continues to do so…. he "misrecognizes" that and I think that sort of stuff shows in his Chorus Journal thing for example;

"Which is the most deserving of your hate? The man who fires the gun? The man who makes the gun? Or the gun? Do you know which one I am?" COME OOOONNNN MAN IS MISRECOGNIZING HIS ROLE THE WHOLE TIME BUT HE STILL KNOWS WHAT HE'S DOING AUGGHRGRJKH

#ask #not art #locus #SORRY i said i wouldnt ramble and then i did. i tried to be brief and deleted like half the stuff lol #uhhhh. its not my fault its 7am and these french guys just talk a shit ton so just paraphrasing them takes ages okay #btw i just censored the name bc i dont want this to like end up in that guy's tag or w/e idk anything abt him lol #THANK YOU for the ask btw!! hope i cleared it up a bit instead of muddying it up even more <3 i'm not rly an academic like that but i tried

[nightmare-foundation]

Okay okay okay consider

Ozpin getting dragged out of Beacon for once bc glynda got sick and tired of him being cooped up in his tower

Ozpin and qrow going on a few short Huntsman missions together, one of them involving an unknown Grimm terrorizing a village

Ozpin n qrow going off to fight the Grimm- however the Grimm is... weirdly intelligent and separates them

Ozpin finding out the Grimm is more or less telepathic and reflects all of your worst fears, insecurities, memories, etc and is thus naturally pretty intelligent- but this one is very old, and is practically sentient at this point

Ozpin being tormented by this Grimm, having everyone he knows or knew used against him, including past lives, having himself taunt him, calling him a liar, a coward, someone who uses others for his own benefit, etc

Ozpin being tormented because this Grimm KNOWS his worst thoughts, whether fleeting or part of trauma. The Grimm knowing how many times he's killed himself, how much he has bottled up (rage, self hate, etc), what Oz has done and has wanted to do even if it was just a brief thought. The Grimm ripping into him, using every word of Ozpins against him

The Grimm literally using Ozpins own signature fighting style to fight Ozpin, beating him down with the fake version of Long Memory (like v9 ch8 but with Oz)

Ozpin being unable to fight back, not because the Grimm is too powerful (though it is strong), but because Ozpin agrees with the Grimm, that he's an awful person and deserves pain

Qrow coming in at the last second before the Grimm kills Ozpin, killing the Grimm and saving Oz

Ozpin repressing everything until after he gets medical treatment, after he gets home, when he's alone, and finally breaking down, completely alone, isolating himself

#felix (host) #rwby #ozpin #qrow branwen #ozpin but he gets the ruby rose treatment tbh #except its worse bc he doesnt have the option of suicide or willingly changing #at least not without bringing some poor kid into his war #you KNOW hed bottle everything up until hes alone #and qrow knows oz isnt okay but doesnt want to push it bc he gets it #qrow didnt see most of it but he did hear a bit so he Does know that ozpin literally fucking #hates himself #and he Gets It #so qrow decides to leave him alone #glynda trying but ultimately leaving him alone too bc she figures he might need it #but nope #ozpin just #isolates himself #constantly #i mean theres a reason why he built a tower resembling salems old tower that she was locked in #shut up i want angst #and honestly this idea is inspired by LMK season 4 lol #rwby rambles

[lesbiansanemi]

And when I thought things were finally fine and had calmed down my roommate starts sending me shelters because he wants me to get rid of my cat 🙃🙃🙃

#‘she’s peeing on my stuff 😡’ #listen I get that that sucks #but also…. we had a system in place that got her stop #I get putting cat spikes on the couches was mildly annoying but guess what #she wasn’t pissing on them anymore #and tell your bf to stop leaving your bedroom door open if you don’t want her to piss on your bed #like ????? #I know he’s stopped doing these things because the bf finds them mildly inconveniencing #sorry I’m not getting rid of my cat that I’ve had for almost four years and who got rehomed TWICE before I got her #because you have to put in a tiiiiiny bit of effort #‘she pissed on my shoes 😡’ #she has literally never peed on shoes before I guarantee you it’s because I left for a weekend and she’s anxious #fucking calm down #you could also just not leave your shoes by the door #he already rehomed our rats because he found them annoying which I feel bad about #I didn’t fight him much on that one because they were more his than mine so if he wanted to make that decision whatever #but hell no I’m not taking my cat to a fucking SHELTER fuck you #‘she drives me insane tho’ #okay well your fucking boyfriend drives me insane and you’re not seeing me demand you take him to a fucking shelter so lol #GOD this is not what I wanna deal with when I get home #and it’s just pissing me off cuz I get it’s annoying #but we’d gotten her to stop mostly and now it’s started again because of things 🙃🙃 the fucking bf is doing 🙃🙃 #so like this is your own fault and you’re expecting me to get rid of my baby because your bf can’t be assed to slightly alter #how he likes to live which is apparently being allergic to just keeping the bedroom door closed #jfc #kaz rambles

[barkingangelbaby]

dude...

#if I don't stop hyperfixating on my breathing... like... idfk how much longer i can live like this... #it's been happening since last august snd I'm so tired of it..... #it's not even only when I'm high anymore it's like... all the time #i just like.. stop automatically breathing once i think about it and it takes me *so* *fucking* *long* to start again #honestly I'm just typing this post to distract myself a bit and hopefully i just start breathing normally again but I'm still manually #breathing rn. and now im wondering what the normal amount of time in between breaths is and if I'm taking too long ?? #i tried to time my breaths with N's but she's asleep so i know it's gonna be different than mine #hoooo boy wish me luck falling asleep this is so annoying!!!! #is this ocd??? I've had several ppl in the past year tell me they think I have it but thinking about it makes me spiral #but it would explain A Lot of my thoughts n habits #anyway. I'm very annoyed with myself rn i just want to breathe normally and not worry myself into panic attacks anymore #actually very worried about how bad my stress in general has been bc there's no way it's been good for my body #ok. time to snuggle up n try to fall asleep!! im v cold rn so i have to warm up before i hug N bc i don't want to wake her with my ice cold #skin lmao. i can't wait for it to be warmer so i don't have to worry/feel bad about that lol #OKAY BBYYYYEEE if you read these tags I'm so very sorry. #rAMbles

[that-was-anticlimactic]

universe of constant spinning, every end a new beginning

“So, do you have an umbrella? That was like, your thing, right? At Claw?”

Ah—not again! He can’t keep zoning out while talking to people—especially his boss.

But… why was Reigen still here? It was late and he always got to work early. It wasn’t his job to stay and coddle his employees. “I—uh—no,” he stuttered, fingers twisting anxiously. “Mine was, uh, "is” broken, sir.”

‘Broken’ was a mild way to put it. More like it got destroyed.

[or, reigen gives serizawa an umbrella]

☔️2,651 words | serirei☔️

#corey writes:) #HOLY TRASH #no guys last year i challenged myself to write and post one fic a month so that i made sure i was still taking time to do what i enjoy #and not lose myself to school work right? aND I DID IT!!! so i challenged myself AGAIN this year and none of the stuff i've been working on #is fully done and i had time so i started this last night and worked on this on my down time during student teaching and when i got home! #this prolly isn't Great but it's short and something i've been thinking about since the minute i finished s2 sooooooo #and the brainrot has been SO real and actually tbh i'm pretty surprised that the fic i wrote isn't r.itsu centric lol but this idea would #NOT leave my head and i knew it wouldn't get super long like all of my r.itsu and kiddo ideas ijuhbgfvbhyuio #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #serirei #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #mp100 fanfic #serirei fanfic #guys it's about the m.lb umbrella scene okay #idk maybe this has been done before but also i. do not care because Feelings and i diD IT even tho its at the last minute lol #oops i need to shower i'm teaching all day tomorrow and my supervisor is coming to observe me ahhhhh send good thoughts pls jiuhygtfghuijoiu #okayyyyy i'll stop now i ramble when i am sleepy or nervous and i am Both i just don't want this fic to be bad but ig i panic a bit before #posting any fic haha gonna go shower now MWAH love y'all <333

[rockabillywonder]

diversity win! the woman hellbent on ruining the flash's life is queer

#again if you want a flag feel free to ask and i do a quick edit :] #dc comics #lisa snart #golden glider #flash rogues #pride icons #my art #i think this is the first time ive posted art with her eyes open/unobstructed LOL #at this point i should post like #a doodle dump or something since i have HEAPS of unfinished art of the rogues #starting to feel bad abt it :pensiveclown: #anyway i can see her as being bi and just never thinking about it until WAYYYY later in life and being like “ohhhh. ohh. oh. well anyway” #meanwhile len over there is having 50 crises cause his gaze lingered on micks buff arms for a bit too long and now hes facedown on his bed #trying SO hard not to think about it. and lisas in her room thinking about elizabeth taylor or whoever and being like “wrow” unbothered #okay enough rambling onto roscoe WEEE

[llumimoon]

i am so cool and normal <- thinking SO HARD abt Regular

#cal rambles #SOBS SCREAMS EPXLODES HES MY BOY HES MYFUCKING BOY I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH #i want to talk abt him so fucking bad but im trying to slowly reveal info abt this AU and im thinking abt post-doodler apocalypse stuff #for the most part at least #BUT HES JUST MY BOY I LOVE HIM SO FUCMING MUCHCGCGHHSGHHH #YEAH HES A LITTLE BIT OF A BITCH AND AN ASSHOLE BUT HES MY BITCHBOY #slams my fist on the fucking floor #nonhuman characters who think they are human and are forced to confront their inhuman nature and argue their own humanity #HES JUST SO. #HES SO MYCH MORE THAN NORMAL'S HOMUNCULUS DECOY OKAY #I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING DEARLY #this is abt the perfectly regular au btw #wait myabe i should tag that LOL OOPS #perfectly regular au #looks at u with my big wet eyes if you ask me abt regular my resolve will snap like a twig anf i will tell u abt how much i fucking love him #in detail <33333333

[cosmic-cd]

i forgot leon & charizard and red & charizard have team-up lines in pokemon masters. i then proceeded to remember my player character has a charizard too

at this point i think i need to give hazel a charizard officially because itd be funny

#cosmo rambles #i could say its the charmander leon gives you in SWSH LOL #trainer hazel is childhood friends with red blue and green/leaf because i decided that was fun- they all have color names #so its not out of the realm of possibility for her to get swept up by accident into some goofy charizard trio #red and leon shaking hands and agreeing on Team Charizard. hazel did NOT agree to this #but you must understand she cannot say no to leon's pleading eyes. and she cant say no to red standing there looking actually excited a bit #she just sighs and buries her face in her hands and goes okay fine #she isnt doing the charizard pose though the embarrassment would kill her #red and leon standing and looking cool and heroic and confident and hazel in the back just #standing there in a charizard t-shirt #blue laughs at her and hazel sics sparks on him #hazel does have an actual sygna suit but its with her kyurem LOL i need to finish drawing that i really gotta #uhhhh while im here hmm hm hm hmmm what else can i say about red blue green and hazel uhhh #hazel met them when her family went on a trip to kanto and thats when she met her pikachu sparks too #it was right before the og trainer trio went on their pokemon journey and hazels family was staying near pallet town #they ended up exchanging contact info and staying friends #well.... for the most part. hazel and blue had a bumpy friendship for a few years #they still butt heads but its like a rival thing now. a rival thing hazel doesnt want to be involved in but blue exudes pure rival energy #oh my god this is so much im so sorry. im full of thoughts

[collegeoflore]

filing these under “lines that make xarrai feel extremely normal” as well.

#this whole conversation is a lot for them. LMAO. #i have actually fully rewritten this one as a dialogue study too bc it’s like. a very important moment for them but #idk man. i wish u could argue with him more in game LOL #this convo makes me and xarrai both batshit insane tho LOL #the inbuilt banite ambition they run from but cannot shake (let him take this power and then take it from him) #vs the love for him they refuse to admit is love (this will ruin him) #they don’t WANT this power and they don’t want him to have it but they can’t shake the part of them that plots out how to get it. #but they have to be better than what made them or none of it was worth it etc etc etc i am rambling. anyway. bye #oc. xarrai #r. hold me like a knife #(for durge!xar they r much more like ‘idk if this is a good idea but i will maybe help u??’) #(canon!xar is (after they get over their knee jerk reaction of Oooh I Want It) is very directly to his face like ‘this is an awful idea.’) #realized these tags r not even about the lines in the screenshots. lol. #the whole ‘what cazador did was only wrong because it happened to *me*’ cuts them like a fucking knife tho LOL #it’s such a flagrant rejection of everything xarrai has said to him by this point. and he doesn’t even recognize it as one LOL #but xar hears that as ‘every bit of genuine emotion you’ve shown me and the trust u put in me with ur past meant nothing :) sowwie’ #‘it was only bad bc it happened to me and that means it’s not bad when ppl like cazador do things to ppl like u either :)’ #and they Know that’s not what he means. but instead of communicating like an adult they just seethe abt it LOL #okay sorry now i’m done. #lord only knows why i exclusively drop lore in the tags.

[ryderdire]

Just cried over Math for the first time in like 6 years so that’s where I’m at

#ryders rambles #personal #sorry again for posting about personal stuff so much lately It’s basically consumed my life and I’m not good #please don’t make fun of my math skills haha #I’m venting here sorry #I mean it when I say I’ve been struggling academically lately haha #im not getting my accommodations despite my effort and im tired. #im Like. #this close to fucking dropping out or somthing I just can’t do this #I don’t want or Need help from anyone online rn I just need a bit of break #technically I cried over how poorly the website I’m doing homework on is codded and then just broke down from there but whatever #like it only takes answers if it’s written in a very specific format but the teacher didn’t fucking bother to tell us what that is #so I’m sitting here trying to figure out how to type in the polynomial remainder nothings working and It’s so frustrating because this #is the right answer and I’ve checked it several times but I haven’t been given the tools to apply it properly and I know no one cares #enoguh to actually see if I know the answer so I just get it wrong #pretty apt medphor for how the shcool system treats neurodivergent people but I digress #okay to rb but leave the tags out of it lol #ry diaries