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warmau · 7 years

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{Special College!AU} Mark Lee

major: children's education

minor: creative writing

sports: was invited to the schools hockey team because he’s good on skates, but turns out mark lee isn’t all that good at contact sports (that and taeyong got so worried about him mark just decided to join badminton club instead)

clubs: book review with doyoung - but more than anything he just likes to hear doyoung talk lol, secretly part of a magic the gathering thing but only sometimes,,,,like ,,,,, once a week shh

when mark was applying to colleges, a lot of people were telling him to pursue majors he didn’t really like

“be pre-med!” “do law!” “business is the only place were there’s real money!”

but mark knew what he wanted to do with his life,,,,,he wanted to be a teacher

and even though people would always assume his shy, easily embarrassed attitude around others would be hard to overcome if he was like a highschool teacher or something

mark knew that he could do it - plus he’d always kind of wanted to be a kindergarten teacher,,,,,kids were always just so much more creative and interesting

and one of the things people had told mark since he was pretty young was that he was a natural born role model

from breaking up arguments between kids on his home block, to encouraging his friends to do their best, just being laidback and so easy to talk to - yet still working his hardest

so why not put that to use,,,,,,sure it might have been corny to say outloud but mark wants to inspire kids and be someone they can really learn from,,,,

even though he’d never admit it aloud because for some reason he’d know someone (johnny) would fake cry and clap about his emotional speech

which sOMEone (johnny) does a lot,,,, like mark will go “if anything, we can all agree on pizza for lunch” and johnny will wipe a fake tear and be like “the hero we always needed,,,,”

mark sometimes wonders why he’s friends with such dramatic people,,,,,,,,actually a lot of people wonder that

because mark is popular, people just see him as this approachable, adorable guy and he totally is

which is why taeyong is always sweating over the fact that mark is TOO nice,,,,,he doesn’t want mark to get in any trouble

ten is always like taeyong please, mark is a grown man he knows-

taeyong: mark - don’t talk to strangers on the internet, mark have you ever heard of catfishing, mark did you know your computer could be HACKED

taeil: someone please distract him ,,,, like sicheng spill some coffee or sneeze on him so he’ll stop

but mark has known his closest friends for the longest, and he’s got this sense of loyalty that’s seriously unbreakable

it’s one of the many things that is so great about him,,,,honestly how can someone be so genuine and nice,,,,,,,

mark’s roommate jaehyun sometimes finds mark sitting up at like 2 am - desk lamp on - scribbling notes down

and he assumes he’s studying or something,,,but mark also has another goal - he wants to write a kids book

although his drawing is sub par,,,,,ideas for the book have always been floating around in his head

and even if it’s 2, 3, 4 am he has to get up and write a good one down

he never shows them to anyone though,,,,because it’s sort of a secret the only person who knows is another bestfriend of his, haechan, whose still in high school

mark would totally pen pal haechan if he went away to college - don’t argue with me on this

as a children’s education major,,,,there’s a program that allows mark to TA in an actual school for a bit - only half a semester but it’s something he’s really looked forward too

there’s two TA’s per class and mark gets assigned to a first grade homeroom

which is where you actually first meet,,,,,

you get there super early, afraid you’ll be even a second late and make a bad impression - the anxiety of working under a teacher you don’t know makes you a little sweaty

and as you slide down the wall outside classroom 127, catching your breathe because you bet you ran here

you look at your phone and sigh,,,,,,,7:05,,,,,you’ve got another 25 minutes

it takes you a while to realize,,,,but there’s someone else in the hall with you.

across from your room,,,,sits a boy - he looks vaguely familiar but he seems just as nervous as you are

glancing at his watch and tapping his foot, eyes wide with wonder when you finally meet each others glances

embarrassingly, he scrambles up to his feet and so do you

“h-hi,,, im mark. im with 127,,,,”

he awkwardly stretches his hand out to shake yours and you notice that he avoids direct eye contact again,,,,,,,,it’s kinda cute

you introduce yourself back, telling him you’re with 127 too

there’s a short pause and then he blurts out “do you think the kids will like us?”

out of all the things to be worried about,,,,it’s somehow fitting of mark’s biggest fear to be of his impression left on the kids

something about his question makes you feel ,,,,, like there’s something different about mark

something almost pure,,,,,,

you smile “i hope they do.”

at 7:30, you and mark hear the padding of little feet. the excited voices and sounds that could only mean one thing - class 127 is on its way

the teacher, a kind looking older women, brightens up when she sees you two

quickly, you and mark politely bow and introduce yourselves. she seems so happy to have you two and you mentally high-five yourself in relief

you catch mark’s eye and he pretends to wipe a sweat from his forehead which makes you giggle

as the kids pile into the room, taking their seats the teacher has you and mark write your names on the board

beside yours, you put a smiling face and notice mark pick his chalk back up to add a flower beside his

mark goes first, introducing himself by his full name

one of the kids shouts “mr. lee!!!” and mark almost turns bright red,,,,,,,,making it hard for you to keep a straight face

the introductions go smoothly and the teacher sits you at one table full of kids and mark at another

the day goes by exceptionally well, all the kids seem fond of you - clinging to your hand and feeling comfortable enough to share favorite toys or books with you

during recess, one of them was feeling tired and had plopped themselves in your lap - which you were fine with,,,until they almost fell asleep

tbh there was only one kid who was a bit rowdy, sometimes too loud and too physical with other kids

but you could see mark had no trouble handling him

actually,,,,you were kind of shocked to see how diligently mark had committed himself to helping this kid - even on the first day

and when school was over, mark even took the time to wait by the kid till his parents arrived

it had only been the first day and you were already growing attached,,,,,,,,,you knew time would fly with the kids

but for some reason, as you walked to the bust stop to catch it back to campus,,,,,,you could only think about one of two things; all the cute kids or,,,,,,,

mark

the first couple of weeks are a piece of cake really, the teacher was so knowledgeable and sweet plus the kids had accepted you that you couldn’t believe this was a college program

like you were getting credits for this,,,,, you had even told mark at some point “this makes me want to be a teacher even more!”

he’d smiled, agreeing and added that if anything - this class was probably the best class you two would ever have

at the end of one day, you and mark had stayed back to clean up and when he’d asked if you were taking the bus back you could feel a small flutter in your heart

“yeah i am, i wanted to go get some dinner to take home and then go back to the dorms to study.”

mark seemed hesitant for a moment, but then you decided it couldn’t hurt to make a first move - “do you want to eat with me and then we’ll catch the bus together?”

mark’s shoulders seemed to relax, he agreed and you guys finished tidying up the room before locking up for the teacher

“im on a budget for dinner though, i hope you’re not like super against fast food,,,,”

you mumbled, walking the streets with mark by your side, backpack slung over one shoulder

“that’s ok, i usually don’t eat dinner anyway. i live off ice-cream and bread my friend taeyong hates it,,,”

mark chuckles and you shake your head “you gotta eat, keeping up with kids is hard”

mark smiles, following you into the mcdonalds that you find cramped between two cafes

you order a burger meal and mark just gets some fries, you frown and he just shrugs “im serious, i don’t really eat dinner”

you settle into an empty booth and start eating, for while it’s silent till mark asks you cautiously if you can tell him something

you look at him, the fluorescent bright lighting in this place makes it hard not to focus on how cute he is - you can see his smooth his skin is, and how bright and big his eyes are

you swallow and snap out of it, “sure, what is it?”

mark mentions the rowdy child from your class,,,,,he plays nervously with the edge of his ear and goes “do you think he’s ok,,,,,,,sometimes i notice that he’s pretty thin. im worried about how much attention he’s getting at home.”

you maul it over for a bit, leaning back in your seat. it is true,,,he is one of the smaller boys in the class,,,,and sometimes when kids are loud it is a cry for attention,,,,,

“maybe,,,,,but we can’t jump to conclusions. i feel like if something was going on the teacher would have already known,,,,”

mark’s eyes that had clouded over a bit with seriousness brighten when you say that

“i never thought of that, but you’re probably right,,,,,,”

you lean over, stealing a french fry from his tray and mark crinkles his nose “hey!”

you laugh and tell him that when he gets back to his dorm he better have some actual dinner

you and mark part ways on campus,,,you guys still have regular classes on the days when you’re not at the school so you know you won’t see him till you’re back with the first graders

for some weird reason,,,,,even though you just saw him,,,,,you kinda already wanna see him again

when you finally do - you learn that the class is going to be having a fun outing day to the park on friday

you and mark grin at each other, just as happy as the kids are to be getting out of a classroom

that following friday,,,,,,,you come in to see a couple of parents in the room with some kids. one of them is the father of the boy mark was worried about

mark appears at your side and you can see he’s watching him too,,,,,

in reality if something is up, what can you and him - two college students - really do

but at the same time,,,you get the feeling that mark won’t let it go,,,,,,

you want to say something, but you feel a small hand tug on yours and ask if you’ll take them to the bathroom

you look at mark one more time, but with that you have to do your job

the park is fun - the kids are all energetic and you’re pretty sure you and mark have played hide and seek 435342 times

when finally the boy mark was worried about joins in, running right into mark’s hands

his father is talking to the teacher,,,,,a look of sadness is apparent in his face

and you look over at mark who frowns

at some point throughout the day, when the kids have settled down for lunch

mark is seated beside the father and the kid,,,,,,,they’re talking so far away from the group that you can’t hear a thing

but when lunch is over, mark rejoins the group while the father lifts up his son and they walk out of the park

the teacher tells you two they had an emergency, but your eyes flick over to mark who looks more distraught than ever

after a while, the day comes to an end,,,,,you and mark gather all the kids together but the teacher lets you two off early - the parents and her can handle them from here

but you and mark don’t leave the park, instead he calls you over and you sit beside him on one of the swings

the autumn afternoon is chilly, but mark seems so lost in his thoughts that you hope whatever the father of that kid said,,,,,isn’t too bad

“he’s sick.”

mark starts off, the dread in his voice makes you feel just as bad

“is it really serious?” you ask, already knowing the answer

mark bites his lip, but nods

you drop your head and whisper that that’s horrible,,,,,

sitting beside each other,,,,you and mark silently think the same thing - no one so young should suffer

but finally, mark gets up as you hear the creak of the swing

he doesn’t say where he wants to go, but just asks “will you come with me?”

it’s already getting dark when you and mark get out of the subway, you’re in the busier part of the city - the streets crowded with people in stores, restaurants, cafes, and arcades

mark weaves through the crowd easily, but you lose sight of him a couple of times

you don’t want to be separated so at some point you reach out and grab his hand

mark looks back,,,,,and you’re scared he’ll let go but instead he only squeezes it tight and keeps going

you end up out back of a bustling arcade, there are old claw machines and mark points to one of the toys inside

“he really likes that cartoon, i want to get him something before the program is over,,,”

mark looks over at you and scratches his neck,,,,, “do you think that’s a bad idea-”

you dig a couple of coins out of your pocket and dump them in the slot with a smile “no. i think it’s great.”

neither you or mark has all that great luck,,,,,tbh you both SUCK at this game

but neither of you wants to give up,,,,,you can’t,,,,,,,

and finally,,,,,,,you get it - “mark, mark the claw got it mark!!!”

he rushes over, putting his hands over yours on the joystick of the game

muttering under his breath,,,you two carefully move the claw together till it’s right over the opening and with a press of a button

the toy drops and you and mark break out into celebration

you high-five and then before you know it,,,,you wrap your arms around each other

and it’s so nice,,,,,mark is the type that pulls you in close and it’s so,,,,,warm

but also short lived because you both push away in embarrassment,,,,

you grab the toy to break the awkwardness and turn to mark “mission complete!

mark gets both your bags off the floor, slinging them over his shoulder as you two walk back toward the train

when you’re back on campus, mark asks if you’ll keep the toy safe for him till you guys see each other again

you agree and think that this should be the right time to say goodnight,,,but for some reason neither of you do

“c-can i,,,,,,,,,,do something?”

mark stutters,,,,clearing his throat and you look up at him “sure?”

he shifts a bit and adds that he needs you to close your eyes for this

clutching the toy to your chest you do so,,,,waiting

until you feel it, mark’s lips pressed against the side of your cheek

he pulls back and when your eyes flutter open you can see the blush on his cheeks

“was that for helping you win the toy?”

you ask sheepishly and mark nods,,,,but then stops

“it’s also because i ,,,,,,,,like you so,,,,”

you can’t help the smile that grows on your face when he says that,,,but you hide it behind the toy

“i like you too mark lee,,,,,,,,”

like a puppy, his eyes widen and he stares at you for a second before a goofy grin spreads on his face too

“o-ok awesome,,,well uh,,,,but um,,, good night for now,,,”

you nod “good night mark lee,,,,,,,,”

you want to turn around but then you hear mark’s voice

“i,,,,want to ask you out on a date,,,but i need to think of a good one-”

“this was a good one. i liked this one.”

you say, referring to the time spent today. mark grin’s even larger

“ok,,,,,well then ill plan another one soon.”

you agree and turn to walk toward the dorm,,,,,when you’re at the door you turn to see mark is still there. he waves and you feel your heart flutter again

the last week of your program comes fast,,,it’s emotional because you’ve grown to love all the kids and you know mark has too

even the teacher gets worked up,,,saying you two are one of her best TA duos,,,,,,, “it’s even cuter that you two like each other!” she adds and you and mark almost melt into puddles of blushes

it’s also finally the day mark gives his favorite kid the toy,,,,,,

when he does - the look on the boy’s face is something you can only see on christmas

he practically tackles mark with a huge hug ,,,, the fact that he’s much smaller saves mark

but the scene makes your heart wrench,,,especially when mark promises to come back and visit him and the boy mumbles that he never knows how long he has

you and mark both pass the program with flying colors, you both get pictures with the whole class and with all the kids who run about to hug you two and say goodbye

and it’s heartfelt,,,but it just reminds you and mark why you chose your majors

walking to the bus for the final time, mark takes your hand

which kind of surprises you because,,,,he’s never been big on public pda

“have i ever told you i wanted to write a children’s book?”

mark asks and you gasp because it’s news to you

“about what?”

“i had a lot of different ideas,,,,but i think ive picked one i really like. i want to write a book about a fearless kid, who can overcome anything.”

you stop in front of the bus schedule and you rub mark’s thumb with your own

“do you know the main characters name?”

mark shows a hint of a smile,,,,, “i do.”

the name,,,,,,,,is the same name as the boy from class 127

when you get back to campus, mark shows you some of his other ideas and small sketches that he’s done

“im no artist,,,but im sure i can find someone to help. jaehyun’s pretty good though he won’t admit it.”

you smile,,,,looking through mark’s messy notes and stick figure panels

“i think it’ll be great, mr. lee”

mark scrunches up his face, playfully poking your arm at the nickname you haven’t forgotten from your first day in the TA program

when it comes out that mark is dating you,,,,there are mixed reactions

taeyong has 100 questions for you, yuta is devastated that mark is in a cute relationship first, jaehyun is super happy, ten is a little too happy, johnny goes ‘your growing up, son’ with another fake tear, taeil and sicheng congratulate you and haechan sends mark like 30 texts demanding to konw every last detail of how it happened

at some point you ask mark how he deals with this,,,chaos

but he just whispers “grin and bear it”

you guys stay in contact with the 127 teacher, getting updates about this kids along with cute photos and stuff

you and mark both ask about updates on the boy,,,,who thankfully isn’t doing any worse. apparently everyday he brings the toy you guys got him with him to class

mark turns out to be super low maintenance,,,to a point where people jokingly go “are you dating or just existing next to each other?”

which isn’t ,,,, like a bad thing

you and mark just don’t like to flaunt it with pda, couple items, instagrams full of each others faces

honestly you two keep it comfortable and simple,,,,

your dates are classics like the movie theater, picnics, walks through the city, even just sitting in the library together typing away on your computers or listening to headphones is enough

because what attracts you to mark is his work ethic,,,,and who he is as a person and what he’s passionate about

so you don’t need much,,,you’re just happy being able to support him and see him grow as this amazing person

and mark feels the same way about you

even though he gets cherry red whenever you give compliments or cheers of support,,,,,in his own way he gives you those too

and so what if doyoung is like “mark, take them somewhere exciting. i heard they’re opening a haunted house downtown in time for halloween~~~!!!”

you and mark would rather chill in his dorm, eating ice-cream out the carton playing video games than getting high blood pressure at a haunted house

(except you totally both go and mark lee gets so scared that when he comes out of there you’re like ‘mark, look some white hairs’ and he’s like honestly i love you but this isn’t funny we almost dIED)

haechan actually really takes a liking to you, because you both - in very loving ways - known how to tease mark lee

although pda isn’t mark’s thing he does like it when you rest your head on his shoulder

you could just be tired in study hall, wearing a sweatshirt and pajama bottoms - curled up at his side or you could be falling asleep on the bus ride home,,,,,,having you close like that makes mark happy

because he knows you’re safe - and that’s the only thing that matters

actually,,,,even though couple items make mark cringe a bit, he’d still probably buy you matching hats because when does mark like not wear hats

he’d be like “im going to convince you that hats are the best” and you’ll be like “but hats don’t look good on m-”

mark: “hats make anyone cute, and you’re already cute, they make you double cute ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, don’t tell anyone i just said that”

if mark is eating bread again and taeyong comes around, you always hide it for him and you and mark just smile like angels up at him

and taeyong knOWS something fishy is up but you two are sooooo darn adorable

but also you text mark to eat dinner until he sends you photo-proof he did

“if you write a book and they turn it into like a cute cartoon movie - i want to voice a character”

“i,,,,haven’t even written the book yet,,,,”

“mark lee - i know you’re capable of it and you will do it. just promise me i can voice someone.”

when no ones around mark will kiss you, but it’s always fast and just a little peck

and you have to pull him back in by the collar or something because c’mon no one is watching,,,,,

the amount of times you’ve done something cute like peck his nose and mark has hid himself behind a book is uncountable

face masks with mark while you’re quizzing each other for tests

jaehyun told you mark sleep talks and once said he’d like to marry you

and you were like oh and mark was like “jeffery, i will ship you to canada where the moose will get you”

^the most threatening thing mark lee has ever said. probably

you both like cold weather,,,,and tbh am i saying hot-chocolate dates in cozy sweaters ,,,,,,,, hell yES

i think mark tries to hide it,, but he’s just as excited about holiday’s as little kids are hehe

you have this habit that if you’re talking about something and mark scrunches his nose, you scrunch yours

and he’s like hey!!! that’s my signature face and you’re like you gotta kiss me to get it back!!

(he does kiss you ,,,, after pulling up his hood to hide you two like pleASE mark lee,,,)

sometimes, you and him volunteer together instead of going on dates and johnny is like that’s wild,,,,yall are like mr and mrs obama and mark is like that makes no sense and johnny is just like i love my giving children

you and mark looking at each other like what is happening

skyping mark’s family and everyone keeps wanting to talk to you and mark is like hi hello im here it’s me your son - ok fine i get it my s/o is cuter than me,,,

cuddling!!!! is super rare but also super amazing!!!! and mark is embarrassed for the first 5 minutes but then it’s just holding you close, lazily looking at you scroll through your phone and then mumbling “i love you,,,” into your hair

mark secretly tries to get better at claw machines to impress you on dates to the arcade

totally tries to be subtle,,,,but you can see from the corner of your eye that he’s staring when you’re just reading or fixing a strand of your hair

tbh mark lee has major heart eyes for you,,,,,,,,,as described by ten

mark actually teaches you to do more chores and you’re like babe,,,,whY and he’s like a messy dorm is horrible we’re basically living in small closets

he’s the kind of boyfriend that just makes you a better person,,,,it’s really refreshing

you guys have inside jokes and sometimes it’s hard to hide so you have to bury your face in mark’s arm or something to not laugh out loud and sometimes he has to bury his face in your hair

“haechan wants us to take more photos together”

“ok, let’s take one!”

“ok come over he- why are you wearing my maple leaf sweater”

“to show support for my boyfriend :-)”

mark keeps finding little notes in his bags and books from you, reminding him that you love him and he keeps them all in a small tin jar

sometimes he doesn’t know how you’re so cute - it seems impossible

holding hands under the table when you and all of nct is out for lunch???? yes

(does doyoung catch you, but just wink and pretend he didn’t much to mark’s utter embarrassment- also yes)

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1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 ... 98 cause I’m kinda lazy ❤️

thanks @poetcastiel!! i’m feelin lazy today so im just doing the ones i want because thIS IS WAY TOO MANY AAAA

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? preppy, tomboy, or sportswear are DEFINITELY my aesthetics

10. game you were best at in p.e.? dodgeball or badminton! i was one of the cool popular kids in my pe classes because i was good at everything. i used to have a squad actually and we still text even though it’s been 5 years now

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? toast and eggs or a slice of pumpkin bread!

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment? the book thief by markus zusak or the prestige by christopher priest! the book thief was assigned tho, the prestige i chose to read for an analysis.

21. obsession from childhood? there were other obsessions besides warrior cats?

28. five songs to describe you? iggy pop - real wild child olly murs - troublemaker little mix - wings britney spears - lucky jojo - how to touch a girl

29. best way to bond with you? by leaving me alone until i beg for attention because i am literally a cat

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? mr bojangles~

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing? my older brother used to be OBSESSED with this meme and he’d quote the line to us or send it to us in texts whenever it was popular:

37. suitcase or duffel bag? i like both! but i normally travel by car so i use duffel bags more often. my mom loves vera bradley so she buys me lots of really pretty prints :)

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? jean jacket or cardigan! i love to look put-together and like a million bucks hehe

44. favorite scent for soap? lavender or mint!

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? ugh, i like them all, like really REALLY like them all. i have fandoms in all 3 genres. but you know what...superhero :/

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? just a tshirt lol. my sis bought me a black graphic tee with all the eeveelutions on it for christmas years ago and it’s been my favorite shirt ever since. i try to make good use of it by wearing it every day! and it’s just long enough to keep me warm during the night

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? a cherry or an apple! those ones that are pink on the inside, the pink pearl apples? that’s me bc i’m special even tho i look like everyone else bc my nlog complex is like soooo huge

49. what saying or quote do you live by? “use the talents you possess, for the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except the best.” ~ henry van dyke

52. favorite font? imprint mt shadow my beloved <3

54. what did you learn from your first job? that i don’t want to work in retail when i’m 30. i hate my coworkers.

55. favorite fairy tale? there are a lot that i love, but i think my favorite has always been the little mermaid because it’s what i want for myself one day. even though ariel was weird af and the furthest thing from a normal human being, eric still fell head over heels for her, and that’s always given me hope someone will do the same for me. i also love the second movie because i’ve always wanted to have an adventure like melody did, i rewatched it so much as a kid for wish fulfillment lol

56. favorite tradition? my family’s christmas tradition is to go out and have lunch at the back porch on christmas eve and then watch scrooge (the albert finney christmas carol movie) late at night with chips and dip!

58. four talents you’re proud of having? i’m proud of how good i am at tennis, i’m proud of my skill on the piano, i’m proud of my talent for maths, and i’m proud of my talent for writing!

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? obviously a harem are you fucking STUPID? what kind of a question is that? i want my beautiful bishoujo boys to all line up and ask for my hand in marriage ok but actually i’d LOVE to be in a fantasy/adventure anime. NOT an isekai by any means because i would never leave my family, but if i could be born into a fantasy/adventure anime? that would be a dream come true.

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.? “mistakes ought to be forgiven. recurrent folly should not be, and would not.”

62. seven characters you relate to? marinette dupain-cheng - miraculous ladybug max mayfield - stranger things annie january/starlight - the boys katarina claes - hamefura arya stark - game of thrones luna lovegood - harry potter feng lan/prince - 1/2 prince

66. favorite flower(s)? magnolias and hibiscus flowers! i love hibiscus flowers because i inherited my love for florals and bright colors from my dad and he loves to wear hawaiian print shirts all the time so they remind me of him. magnolias are very important to me because we used to have a lot of magnolia trees in my childhood home. there was one specific magnolia tree that separated my house and my neighbors’ house and i used to climb it every single day. we also buried my first cat beneath a magnolia bush :(

67. good luck charms? idk how to describe it but it’s this little metal toy helicopter i got from my grandfather. the axis is detached from the copter itself and spins on a screw that you can balance on top of the copter to make it spin on its own. my grandfather used to keep it in his office where he read the newspaper in the mornings, and when my family and i visited him i always stayed in the room right next to his office so he would be the first person i greeted every morning. after he passed away a few months ago i took the helicopter home with me as a memento of him because i miss him so much

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? it takes as much force to bite off your finger as it does to bite off a carrot. that’s one of my favorite facts i’ve ever learned

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? overhead lights

93. nicknames? mar online. irl, i just go by my real name unless people ask to call me marcy, which i normally let them because i don’t care and it means they like me lol. my mom is the only person i let call me cellie because it’s her special name for me :)

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chanelvenus · 7 years

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i got tagged by the babe @beebeecee !! thank uuu

im nt tagging anyone but if u wanna do this go ahead and tag me so i can read it !

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water stay hydrated kids 2. Phone call: my bf when i freaked the fuck out on saturday lmao 3. Text message: my roommate i complained abou howt amazing this one masters program is and how i need around 27000€ 4. Song you listened to: bang yongguk - yamazaki 5. Time you cried: don't drag me but i shed a tear when i said goodbye to my bf last time i visited bcs im not used to not being around him 24/7.......... HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: yah kinda 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah 8. Been cheated on: god no 9. Lost someone special: no? im blessed 10. Been depressed: nothing diagnosed 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: black pink red IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: oh hell yeah 16. Fallen out of love: not really 17. Laughed until you cried: last week actually 18. Found out someone was talking about you: maybe i don't remember 19. Met someone who changed you: YAH 20. Found out who your friends are: i guess? i really love the friends i have rn 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yah

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i recently cleaned it lmao so everyone 23. Do you have any pets: nah 24. Do you want to change your name: my name is cool ok 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: NOTHING it was lit 26. What time did you wake up: 8:30am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching memes on youtube i think 28. Name something you can’t wait for: having a new job aka €€€ and the new semester !! im gonna have some lit classes 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: mid July 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: id love to have more cash lol literally all my problems right now are money related 31. What are you listening right now: ........ german battle rap bye insight job (<3) vs emmax 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yah 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my bank account 34. Most visited Website: youtube Tumblr asos

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: a few 36. Mark/s: ??????? 37. Childhood dream: being a lawyer by e 38. Hair colo(u)r: platinum blonde 39. Long or short hair: shorttttt 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Keanu reeves ! always ! currently its 2017 Keanu but soon it'll change to late 80s again i can feel it 41. What do you like about yourself: i have many different interests so i can talk to all kinds of ppl ? 42. Piercings: ears two holes on each side, wanna get two more tho 43. Bloodtype: ask again when i donated blood in a few weeks 44. Nickname: none really 45. Relationship status: taken 46. Zodiac: LEO 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: i like Brooklyn99 ? sex and the city??? 49. Tattoos: im planning a few 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: at the beginning of august i got nose surgery ? 52. Hair dyed in different color: yah i bleached this shit out of it 53. Sport: used to do swimming badminton n shit 55. Vacation: im planning Paris rn 56. Pair of trainers: i literally collect sneakers what u want from me. my favorites are my reebok insta pump over branded in black/white?? i want airmax 95?? MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: just had toast 58. Drinking: still water 59. I’m about to: eat something chocolate-y and do the dishes 61. Waiting for: the exams to be over, the semester to start ?? 62. Want: money 63. Get married: ya 64. Career: i am a philosophy and art history student do u really think i got any career plans... WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: depends 66. Lips or eyes: lips 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: both is ok as long as its not too dramatic 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 71. Sensitive or loud: ???? what 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: what kind of question is this

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: nah 75. Drank hard liquor: nooo 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nah 77. Turned someone down: ya 78. Sex in the first date: nope 79. Broken someone’s heart: i hope not ? 80. Had your heart broken: kinda??? 81. Been arrested: omg no 82. Cried when someone died: i always cry. 83. Fallen for a friend: yeah DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: sometimes a lot sometimes not at all but overall i know ill be fine 85. Miracles: ya 86. Love at first sight: yes :( 87. Santa Claus: hfjskhfkjsdf 88. Kiss in the first date: do u really have to believe in this... 89. Angels: something like that ya OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: i don't do the best friend thing 91. Eyecolor: muddy green 92. Favorite movie: OH BOYYYYY ?? maybe ?? fight club the social network tasm2 ?? BILL AND TED??? the devil wears Prada????? idk !

#tagged #god this is LONG

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forteleijon · 7 years

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allllllllllllllll the asks

1 How old are you?202 What’s your eye color?brown3 Which country do you come from? United States4 Favourite season?Winter5 Do you paint your nails? (what color?)Sometimes, midnight blue by sinful colors is probably my favorite, but I likemost things that are sparkly.6 What’s your favourite eye shadow (color?)Not well versed in it but dark things are p ight.7 Which (brand) kind of shoes do you usually wear?Idk, Filas? New Balance? I just wear what I can trash around in.8 Carpe Diem or Carpe Noctem?I like the night, but work is trainging me to be people of the day.9 Would you rather wake up early or late?Early, late means I’d have to rush and possibly skip a shower10 Where do you want to go for vacation?Maine, or the Dr Pepper bottling plant/museum in Waco Texas11 Do / did you have a pet?I have a cat and a dog currently, and the cat is the light of my life.12 Can you fold an origami?nope13 Have you learned how to knit?nope14 What’s your favourite book (recommendations?)?The series Unwind by Neal Shusterman is excellent, also Dragon Maid the mangais fucking amazing.15 What’s your favourite movie (recommendations?)?I’m Biasd, Resident evil will always be my favorite movie, but most of thefound footage genera is where I’d call home, if you want any reccomendations,or my thoughts on a film, feel free to ask. Also the Purge Series is my fuckin Jam16 What’s your favourite show (recommendations?)?Ok, Madoka Magica, Yuki Yuna is a Hero, Preacher, Yugioh VRAINS, and NeonGenesis Evangelion.17 Do you cook often (what kind of meals?)?I cook when I need to, and I make a pretty darn decent stew18 Do you bake often? No, im not good at baking apparently.19 Do you often think of outer space? Its one of my favorite things to think about, given the state of the planet.20 Do you like to watch shooting stars?Kinda? I don’t see many21 What’s your favourite kind of weather? Snowy af to the point I just get to stay inside, but not snowing hard enough toward off a snowy walk around town, I love the snow.22 What’s your favourite fruit?Raspberries23 Are there posters put up in your bedroom?a few, a giant Nikki Minaj, a Dexter poster(good show, give it a watch, an IndependenceDay poster, and Multiple Yugioh and pokemon related ones. Also a Resident Evil poster.24 Do you have patience?Depends on the people testing it really.25 Which one do you prefer: card or board games?CARD GAMES ON MOTORCYCLES, HANDS DOWN. defenceposition.26 Which one do you prefer: cake or muffins?Muffins27 Which one do you prefer: taking a bath or showering?Showers28 Which one do you prefer: candles or christmas lights? Im partial to candles but its kinda a toss up29 Which one do you prefer: raspberries or strawberriesBoom. Done, raspberries30 Which one do you prefer: cats or dogs?Cats by far31 What’s your MBTI?INTP, the Logician32 Which kind of magical creature would you choose to be: a) zentaur b) fairyc) mermaid d) witch Tempted to say mermaid, but probably Witch or Fairy, coinflip there.33 What’s your zodiac sign? Aquarius34 Which one would you choose (sports) : a) soccer b) basketball c) badmintond) ice hockey Ice Hockey, its so much fun to watch and I still don’t know whats going on.35 Which one would you choose (school subjects): a) english b) history c) mathsd) PEEnglish36 Which one would you choose (plants): a) cactus b) apple tree c) orchid d)daisyCactus37 Which one would you choose (animals): a) dog b) peacock c) tortoise d)zebra Dog, the rest are too high maintenance.38 Which kind of magical pet would you choose: a) dragon b) unicorn c)hippogriff DRAGON39 Name a fandom you’re in (it doesn’t have to be a book/series/movie fandom -bands etc. is possible, too)PM5K, DFD, Stranger Things, Dragon Maid, Resident Evil, pokemon, and Yugioh40 What’s your hogwarts house?Slitherin, but at the same time, ive never watched or read the books, just tookthe test on pottermore years ago.

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nyneas · 7 years

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All of them

1 How old are you? 192 What’s your eye color? hazel? brown with a green ring on the outside3 Which country do you come from? MURICA4 Favourite season? prolly winter but i also like early fall5 Do you paint your nails? (what color?) no, im really lazy, tho i do love nails6 What’s your favourite eye shadow (color?) i prefer nude palates, cause they are so hard to mess up7 Which (brand) kind of shoes do you usually wear? converse, but im slowly making my way over to actual sneakers again8 Carpe Diem or Carpe Noctem? as a professional night owl, none because im not a productive person9 Would you rather wake up early or late? id rather wake up at 9-10. but i never do. and it sucks10 Where do you want to go for vacation? anywhere tbh. hell even just a bunch of road trips works for me11 Do / did you have a pet? two fish! bippy my blue betta, and francis my red/white crowntail betta12 Can you fold an origami? yep. the only pattern i have memorized is a trex13 Have you learned how to knit? yea! i dont finish anything, but its really fun14 What’s your favourite book (recommendations?)? not my fave, but i just listened to an audiobook for the infernal city and i love it15 What’s your favourite movie (recommendations?)? either the lord of the rings or land before time. kinda weird i guess16 What’s your favourite show (recommendations?)? game of thrones is top notch and im sad that the couple i was rooting for didnt happen17 Do you cook often (what kind of meals?)? i mean microwave hotdogs at home n cup noodles at work. soooooo18 Do you bake often? if i have time n money i would. i love baking19 Do you often think of outer space? forever and always20 Do you like to watch shooting stars? YEET. THEY THE BEST21 What’s your favourite kind of weather? either warm, but cloudy with a light breeze, or heavy rain22 What’s your favourite fruit? pomegrante23 Are there posters put up in your bedroom? not rn cause this room has paneling half way up the wall. but me elderscrolls maps are hanging up. normally the walls are 100% covered24 Do you have patience? yes i do and its the only reason im still employed25 Which one do you prefer: card or board games? depends on the game. ive been more partial to card recently tho26 Which one do you prefer: cake or muffins? muffins. all the way27 Which one do you prefer: taking a bath or showering? showering. baths are creepy and i dont wanna touch the walls28 Which one do you prefer: candles or christmas lights? have you seen my closet?? candles29 Which one do you prefer: raspberries or strawberries UHHHHH30 Which one do you prefer: cats or dogs? cats. dogs kinda scare me. cept madison. she is my fave dog31 What’s your MBTI? whatever the outgoing art one was. idk32 Which kind of magical creature would you choose to be: a) zentaur b) fairy c) mermaid d) witch VAMPIRE. THIS ISNT A QUESTION ITS A FACT33 What’s your zodiac sign? pisces!34 Which one would you choose (sports) : a) soccer b) basketball c) badminton d) ice hockey am i watching or playing? but prolly badminton cause im ok at that35 Which one would you choose (school subjects): a) english b) history c) maths d) PE history all the way36 Which one would you choose (plants): a) cactus b) apple tree c) orchid d) daisy why not all of them tbh? i love plants. they are like fish but less responsibility. just not the apple tree. bad vibes there37 Which one would you choose (animals): a) dog b) peacock c) tortoise d) zebra PEACOCK38 Which kind of magical pet would you choose: a) dragon b) unicorn c) hippogriff dragon39 Name a fandom you’re in (it doesn’t have to be a book/series/movie fandom - bands etc. is possible, too) i guess the biggest one is elder scrolls40 What’s your hogwarts house? i think slytherin. idk anymore

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vegils · 7 years

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im... a sucker 4 surveys hey!!!

1: What is your name and does it mean anything?

marinella, someone told me it means “traveller” but i highly doubt that i like the break down of my name more marina, meaning “of the sea” and ella for “guiding light”

2: How long have you known your best friend?

my best friend sweetlana!!! been my good friend!!! for 7 DANG YEARS!!!

3: What position do you normally sleep in?

i sleep in fetal/yearning position and i think the description of the personalities that sleep in fetal/yearning position is very accurate

4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school?

mmm i hung out with a lot of different people in high school i went through several cliques in the span of my four years i hung out with “popular” people, artsy groups, anime nerds, and drama people

5: Who was your favorite teacher in high school and why?

my biggest inspiration was my speech and drama teacher!! i love u miss macuha!!! one time i was crying about her leaving and she grabbed me by the shoulders and told me to never back down and keep doing what i’m doing and that some day i’ll be a great performer and i bawled on her lap she’s an angel and to this day her words still haunt me!! i never felt the reward a teacher reaped from seeing a student reach their full potential

6: Do you wish to travel a lot?

because im so young i do think about travelling a lot but it makes me sad to think about never being able to travel and i have gone to places but i wish i could see other grander countries i never had the opportunity to see

7: Did you participate in any sports while in school?

um...... i played badminton lmao

8: Show a sample of your handwriting:

how tho

9: Have you ever given blood?

apparently if ur anemic or have history of anemia then u can’t donate blood which makes me sad if i could i would!!!

10: Do you like the way that you grew up?

besides all the fun i had i wish i grew up more confident i am a very doubtful person and i grew up in a pretty hostile home and it felt very scattered and broken to me and i just wish those situations were different, other than that i think i am lucky to grow up ok

11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not?

i like all of my sisters but they can get very frustrating at times i think we stand better now than we did as kids

12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends?

i met sweetlana on the strokes tumblr tinychat back when they had a roaring fandom and we discovered that we’re both from chicago and we’d talk about silly things and we lost touch for a while but then we reconnected and she’s so darling!!! she would show me her paintings of the blues brothers and we’d talk about our hopes and wishes and now i realize we’ve been doing that for 7 years!!! all we do is exchange selfies and drawings and fantasize about crushes !!!i love her! i can’t imagine not knowing her and never meeting her!

13: Name one movie that made you cry.

my girl.......... shit dude

14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither?

i’m not poetic but i like to HEAR poetry i love hearing the delivery

15: Things about someone that you find attractive?

i love people who are kind and thoughtful which is rly generic i also love the funny it doesn’t even have to be calculated jokes it can just be the way you said something or a facial expression i like people who manage to share a language with me that can’t be figured out by other people i think having a connection to a person where you can read each others minds can b creepy but also cool cuz u hang out w them so often that you can basically understand each other without much effort

16: What song are you currently listening to now?

year of the rabbit by eskimeaux

17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how?

nope

18: A random memory from you childhood:

going to chinatown and racing to the chinese zodiac signs and climbing up the stairs with my sisters, getting sponge cake and walking around the old sanrio store pointing out what i want

19: Where did you grow up? chicago

20: What was the last thing you watched on tv?

lmao we’re watching 13RW and its not for everyone but i read the book and im v invested

21: Do you think you’d make a good parent?

really!! hope id be! i mean i am cool with or without having kids but i want to be a good parent

22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person?

i already met some of my tumblr friends!! i met sweetlana and coney!!! i would like to meet @iamonmy-way when will i meet u!!!

22: What was the last dream you remember having?

my phone was hacked and it looked like internet explorer on my iphone and my cousin tried to retrieve back to normal by playing against my hacker on a boss battle level of mario

23: When is your birthday?

june 2 :---)

24: How many pillows do you sleep with?

2 and 1 reading pillow ^_^

25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses?

i’ve been wearing eye glasses since i was 6 and i’m 21 now so u do the math bud

26: What color is your hair?

black/brown

27: Name 5 facts about your appearance:

ive been told i have a nice complexion, small mouth, chubby cheeks, small hands and long torso

28: What is your favorite soda?

cream.. soda... i need to go to Hell

29: What is a strange talent that you have?

reading peoples moods online lmao

30: How’s the weather right now?

a cool and calming evening

31: Why did one of your friendships end?

this question makes me sad lmao

32: Who do you miss right now?

oops i can’t reveal who or what or when but i am missing someone

33: Why did your last relationship end?

because i realized i don’t like them that much and that i don’t understand dating I AM A VERY CONFUSED PERSON when i reflect on dating i realize i hate it so much but also crave it but when i have it i’m very repulsed

34: Are you still figuring out who you are?

yes!!! i am frustrated at myself because i don’t know who i am or what i want and i feel like it has set me back so much that i’m stagnant

35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why?

ya i had dengue fever and it was probably the most concerned i’ve seen my parents with me

36: What is your favorite restaurant?

pastaria!!! in st louis!! it’s so good!

37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong?

privilege

38: Would ever adopt kids?

not against the idea of adopting children!!!

39: What is your favorite kind of pizza?

i like spinach on my pizza

40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?

why is it so dreadful to find yourself in bed with a whole day ahead of you

41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why?

um!!! my crush!!! k*rt !!! when we played the game!! and they were teasing and attacking me during the game! ah!!!

42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

defo dinuguan (pigs blood stew)!! i dont recommend!! i just dip my puto in the sauce and call it a day! not a laman fan!

43: How do you start a conversation?

i tell them something embarrassing that’s also relateable and revealing and hope they find me somebody to be comfortable around!!!

44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately?

i hate answering this....... but joji........

45: Do you come from a family “of money?”

nah dude

46: Do you have a bucket list?

i think that’s what my life was missing tbh

47: What is your favorite series of books?

i don’t know i haven’t read a series of books in quite a long time i think i pretended to like percy jackson in high school lmao and i was such a nerd for hunger games but i don’t think anything could replace my deepest love for series of unfortunate events, the boxcar children, judy moody, and horrible harry! ooh! and amelia bedelia!!!

48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt?

i laughed rly hard last night cause patrick was so invested in 13 reasons why and my sister n i kept asking 4 justice 4 zach dempsey and patrick threw a pillow at me for saying that what zach did was severe in hannah’s eyes

49: Where do you go when you’re sad?

i slip into bed and silently cry or if i don’t need that i cry in the shower ahhh how pathetic

50: 5 random facts about yourself:

i actually am rly good at acting and i don’t think anybody but high school and college ppl know this, i’m painfully shy, i don’t like mayo!! all of my goldfish in the past have all been named variations of “Freddy” and !!! i am rly good at stitch (from disney’s lilo and stitch) impressions

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sirlucina · 6 years

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tagged by: i stole it from @silveraiichiro

tagging: you

— What was your last…

1. Drink: a mix of watermelon flavour and tangerine flavour sparkling water

2. Phone call: probably my mom

3. Text message: friend from school about how good the twice comeback was

4. Song you listened to: everyday by winner ITS LIT

5. Time you cried: i havent cried in weeks bc i started taking antidepressants lol its been good

— Have you ever…

6. Dated someone twice: i havent dated someone once

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no but also maybe

8. Been cheated on: no

9. Lost someone special: theres this guy from my childhood ive always had dreams about even though i havent seen him since grade 5 when i moved away but ive been thinking about him a lot lately and i want to try to find him

10. Been depressed: NOT SINCE ANTIDEPRESSANTS LOL

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

— Fave colours

12. blue

13. grey

14. idk black?

— In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: yes

16. Fallen out of love: no i would have to fall in love to do that

17. Laughed until you cried: probably

18. Found out someone was talking about you: like behind my back? no

19. Met someone who changed you: yes

20. Found out who your friends are: idk what this means. none of the friends ive made have ever done something to make me think something like this

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: i dont use facebook

— General

22. How many your Facebook friends do you know irl: i dont use facebook so all of them

23. Do you have any pets: 4! 2 cats 2 dogs

24. Do you want to change your name: not really but if i found a name i like i wouldnt be opposed to it

25. What did you do for your last birthday: go to canadas wonderland

26. What time did you wake up today: 9:17 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: getting my hair cut

28. What is something you can’t wait for: having money

29. What is your favourite animal: cats

30. What are you listening to right now: silence

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: unfortunately

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: things dont get on my nerves

33. Most visited website: tumblr lol

34. Hair colour: brown

35. Long or short hair:long

36. Do you have a crush on someone: no

37. What do you like about yourself: my sense of humour and canadian spelling

38. Want any piercings: nope

39. Blood type: my mom doesnt even know my blood type

40. Nicknames: vee

41. Relationship status: single

42. Sign: cancer

43. Pronouns: none. dont refer to me

44. Fave tv show: right now its one day at a time

45. Tattoos: i want tattoos so badly

46. Right or left handed: right

47. Ever had surgery: no

48. Piercings: used to have ear piercings when i was younger but it closed up and i dont want piercings

49. Sport: BADMINTON

50. Vacation: want to go to japan like every other casual on this website, but also ever since i was younger and gay for mary kate and ashley ive wanted to go to the bahamas bc they had a movie set there

51. Trainers: pokemon trainer

— More General

52. Eating: hongey

53. Drinking: nothing

54. I’m about to watch: probably kpop mvs tbh

55. Waiting for: the client my mom has to leave

56. Want: money

57. Get married: sure

58. Career: i want to be a video game developer but anything with programming is good too

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs

60. Lips or eyes: lips

61. Taller or shorter: same height as me

62. Older or younger: im ok with either but anything over a year difference is too much for me at this point

63. Nice arms or stomach: oof, both. maybe stomach

64. Hookups or relationships: relationships

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: no wtf

67. Drank hard liquor: no

68. Turned someone down: lots of boys bc im gay

70. Broken someone’s heart: probably not

71. Had your heart broken: no

72. Been arrested: no

73. Cried when someone died: yes

74. Fallen for a friend: ya

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: i try

76. Miracles: yes

77. Love at first sight: no

78. Santa Claus: no

79. Angels: idk

— Misc

80. Eye colour: brown

81. Best friend’s name:

82. Favourite movie: Cat in the Hat (live action)

83. Favourite actor: zendaya

84. Favourite cartoon: adventure time

85. Favourite teacher’s name: kam

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chinad · 7 years

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in march of spring.

Mar 18, 2017

at first dreamt of Emma Watson whose private photos leaked on web. I enjoy amazing sex with her. then dreamt I arrange my son woz to be trained by instrumental music under old traditional musician likely from QRRS art troupe which includes an old man and woman each. then in Mao's era he or we sent to western China to re-educate. we passed through dangerous Yellow River which threaten its bank area. we arrived northwestern China and planted a tree from our hometown. then dreamt I trained my son or myself badminton. I long time easily mimic serving but response speed far from satisfying when dealing or rebound. in dream I wonder if I just lack boring but heavy exercises or real expertise coached. this week again especially busy. I setup google authenticator app for our frequent google accounts 2 step verification. for sms verification less convenient and less secure in which each time informs PRC surveillance my logon. GFW heavily blocked my operation first place, once lagged me more than half hour to load an authentication code page, forced me to retreat mid way for dinner. but next day I did it again without pains. yesterday dabbog.com backend web app updated by godaddy hosting automatically, but it broke and halt the site. when I tried to fix it, I again heavily blocked. loading loops, irresponsible webpage, etc. I left its breakdown open possible vulnerable well known and went jog after dinner. in the night after dinner, I fixed it with less human pests, while again my restored sites less accessible on my dorm internet, but web proxy testifies its soundness. my facing dorm room has new residents. a young guy frequently loose its door and shown himself on the deeper bed busy in the leaking light. I doubting if he welcome visitors or exchange of neighborhood, or just convenient to spy me. but my internet these days actually under harsher surveillance and intervenes amid. but this week not all sad, I sorted our google voice assets and prepared to make good use of them. I deploy more google or google apps accounts for maintain their gvoice in use. now salary will arrive days, God dad, grant me freedom to recharge our accounts for smooth operative. grant me financial freedom for coming laundry bill to woman in dorm canteen, ￥200. I also badly need trousers with mobile pocket for my son and my own. dad God, godaddy hosting plan soon needs renewal. and I usually penniless before year end bonus. get me out of the dangerous situation, dad God, bring my cyberspace startup with my other concerns peacefully onto faezrland, our vested land from my ancestor under Holy. bring it with bliss and breeze.

Mar 11, 2017

first dreamt in highly dense space, human crowd with dense snakes. those baby snakes in every atom of air, or liquid, like spray. that's quite shockingly frightening. they didn't bite but terrifying. then dreamt my son and his mom's family. I likely returned from long journey and urged his mom to restore normal life. the woman and her mom recognized our previous marriage hopelessly sank. they arranged extraordinary a meal to farewell. when I prepare tea, I found many large strong black ants busy moving in the jar neck. its again such a shocking scene I almost lose clinch to the jar. they all likely concerns the first time handover of my laundry deal with dorm canteen woman. last week when I visited my son and brought him to shower in public shared bathroom, I found my dirty clothes a week there was not washed. the small woman several times threatened not to wash my clothes even I offered her monthly ￥150 many months but recently due to credit crisis I asked permission to indebted her. so this time I thought ripe to be more independent. I informed my son the new expense and he agreed. returned to dorm, I headed to dorm canteen where the woman in charge of preparing food materials right there for ordering. I discussed the possibility to pay her to wash my clothes. she first defied, with encouragement from the executive woman, she accept my proposal of increased ￥50 to ￥200/month. last Friday dusk, before I dined there, the executive woman fetched me the washed clothes, our first deal sealed, except my payment. for penniless, I asked the woman loan me ￥200 for visiting my son weekends. then she told me my recent months bill with canteen didn't settle, for my kid brother promised to pay remote instead of me in his last year's visit now evaded by him. I previously called him to pay my online shopping but my phone number likely blacklisted and redirected. so I never knew what's going on with him. the woman said she sms my brother but never responded. I told her I visioned I lost my brother's aid but I never equipped financially to save the situation, so I didn't probe my due payment in canteen any more. the woman disliked my answer so I promised will call my brother in the night. on jogging after dinner, I buzzed my 3rd elder sister and hope she check our kid brother's status, she accepted the task. when I went to toilet for toothbrush hours later, I saw the canteen worker woman washing there. I told her I will pay her as soon as I get my salary this month, ie. 2 weeks later. she replied no hurry cordially. God dad, I know it will be OK after all, but the situation now really draining. this week I also try web tutorial to setup selective vpn routing to escape PRC main sites' discriminating foreign ips, but so far failed. in so many programs I benefited from online communities discussions, now I have to cope it on my own for solution. I tried to contact vpn support team but out of their service scope and denied help. I also contact godaddy PRC office girl last time helped me with discount, for unknown renewal price increase, evasive conversations sucks in grudge. this week makes me sad when I last night reviewed it, but also affirm my determination to sit with them, those deny of service, and breakthrough on my own. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain my cultivation here, bring me my new family and hope of stepping out of adversity here. bring me learning ability in every stages in my life. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to better my children's life. in a few hours I will visit my son, in your mercy our joys will double.

Mar 2, 2017

dreamt of genius. dreamt my elder brothers, hometown folks, once leaders in QRRS, all turned old. I passed them who playing Majiang together and felt sad. then myself turns older and unbearable intelligent work. then a cheap soul like CCP cadre invents sculpturing on glass with color, replace paint on it manuscript or oil print. its merit is clear and vivid in 3D, but cost is material wasted once solid inscribed, not reusable. I wondered CCP administrative manner, reckless and environment unfriendly. then dream the inventor, a guy super genius: he needn't backup hardware settings, like I backup system images and important data times and relentlessly, he talks directly to hardware binary likes operates software in GUI. later he talked directly to a goat, let it be friend with me and my son. the goat hears and got it. yesterday woz's new trousers I ordered on taobao.com, for redeem my guilty in scorning him for no due respect of new broadband internet I installed him, arrived, for its deliverer, yto.com, well organized in its arena, really speedy. but what we demand, pocket for cellphone, not exists on the trousers, instead, a fake pocket without depth but just a zip for decoration. my son complained carrying smartphone in his jacket pocket can be clogging, and loathes to bring a new cheaper Chinese cellphone I prepared him all day long. returned to dorm, I tried to contact the taobao vendor. the site, taobao.com, quite discriminates its web service users, even punishing non client end app users, from geographic restriction to frequently failing web login or web im whose protocol solely supports itself. I switched 3 computers, from chromeos to android to windows, its im quits on all 3 platforms while previously it works sometimes. I lately find the vendor's mobile phone and settled replacing with new one our required pocket satisfied. I really need a cellphone pocketed trousers prices ￥80, too, but we just can't afford it now even its beneficence obvious and goodness predicts. in the night I watched a youtube documentary on world economic bubble burst emerging. that reminds my vision, Christian contrasts other poverty pestered world like PRC nowadays, or even total bankrupt wasteland, esp Islamic area, their competition lasts thousand years. government bailout grows larger and severer, esp Communist bureaucratic central predating system propagates its efficiency among fooled mouths decades smothering, but America has to cope with challenges from cheap human society's crowd, the bubble of wastes, esp eastern Asia and Islamic states. its time to show who is the chosen. now time for Trump to discipline US and get rid of cheap mob's siege. time for beautiful new One world of Christian, around Israel. time to manifest the world developmental power is not cheap human cattle's clouds, nor cheap dictation in Communism, nor terrorist Muslim. only Christian the life of prosperous, the source of plenty, the due grace God grants. time to clean the planet with AI and robots, time to rid earth off cheap human beings and beast alike terrorist, both too rampant and waste of land and air. this is new mission for Trump, also mission of my Royal China of China Empire reset ahead then lasting 1109 years in democracy and capitalism. this is salvage and gospel of the Son.

Feb 28, 2017

At first I lingered gladly in tiny houses, likely with my 2nd elder sister, likely in Japan. then found one of my 3 smartphones missing. in panic I searched everywhere. then using its GPS location found the stealer address. the 2 phone number is mathematical linked: sim card 1 number is added to number 2 card. I really can't afford losing them. then many details on exact secret on the phones and their numbers. just in panic I woke up and recognized in reality my phones all on my desk intact. back to dream I still felt the panic painful. yesterday is fruitful, I published monthly blog release. I watched amazon TV and close watch small woman unstable emotionally broke her husband career and her own life which is totally reckless and hopeless in ruins. I wondered bitch in my life, my son's mom, desperate to hurt, means what for her destiny. the tiny dog steps by steps went insane. my son after a day didn't enable his indoor WIFI, likely under his mad mother's ban. last week I got a surprising gain from QRRS, my once and long time employer, ￥1000. I immediately renew woz's 8 domains with it, left 3 expensive domains for next renewal will costs near ￥2000. God, dad, its a bit dearer since last year, but godaddy China office girl actually privileged me by contacting me and helping me finish the order with coupon unavailable public. dad God, please allow us owning our namespace as family heritage lasting millenniums. I want share them with my offspring! grant us financial freedom to pay the domain registrar. and please grant us to keep our amazon associate account. we had been ditched once for poor websites traffic. I had to mend all amazon ad code among my sites to link with our new trackID. that's too boring and heavy load to sustain. grant us minimum interactive rate amazon requires to sustain our membership of its ad associate. dad God, remove us blockage the small bitch laid between my son and me. show my son, woz, the future world he pivots. bring me sooner my Royal China to extinguish hatred rage, rip us off the dirty family of my son's mom and herself. put us in sanctuary of holy mercy, and sole independence under the dome without divided. thx for the peace in the morning, God.

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