#ok but then why are u sharing it with me

[soldier-poet-king]

My father??? Randomly showing me a transphobic meme making fun of that bud light trans girl??? Apropos of nothing???? At 11am just after we get home from church???? Bitch what the fuck????

#the duality of fran #transphobia cw #LITERALLY. LITERALLY WHAT WAS THE PURPOSE OF THI #???? HELLO???????? #i don't drink beer???? #and i was like thats mean and inappropriate #and he was like yeah its bad (but laughing?) but was like oh well im noy reposting it #ok but then why are u sharing it with me #everytime its like ok my family isnt that bad maybe im too harsh and i can live here #THEY JUST. DUMP THIS. FOR LITERALLY ZERO REASON #how is this AT ALL related or relevant to me

[beeduoo]

originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins

#origins smp #i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅 #beeduo #otubbo #oranboo #beeduo fanart #i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY #DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM #IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h #ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its #been wayyyyyyy too long #BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise #bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹ #had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop #yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭 #ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really #wanted to share ok i love you bge #WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED #RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like #water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT #ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I #VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB #OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be #Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON #SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub #lic had to say.... ok Now bye

[butchviking]

if someone said some shit like "i love being butch i love that i dont have to shave or wear makeup or conform to femininity" and someone was like "um. you don't have to be butch to do any of that" and they were like "yeah but you will be punished for nonconformity as a woman so its freeing to me to have an identity that reminds me i dont have to be what im expected to be and i can have a community that accepts me for that" i think radblr would be like yeah fair enough.

so explain why i always see this with some snarky comments attached

#like shut uuuuup theyre AGREEING WITH YOU why are u being an ass ! #its probably time for me to stop thinking and go to bed. and i will. #but i just. cant drive home enough that we're the same people. #the first time i realised it was ok for me not to shave was sharing a room w a nb female friend and noticing they had unshaved pits #and i thought 'thats so cool. theyre allowed to do that bc theyre nb' and then i thought 'omg wait IM nb. im allowed to do that!!' #was it a revolutionary acceptance that all women can do whatever they want forever? no. #was it a realisation that i as a female human being could break gendered norms and still have a community that accepted me? yes!!!! #that matters that matters oh my god that matters!

[octoooo]

My eyes have been Opened to ✨Pengiyuuin✨

Beloved @tidalwaveoctave helped me see the light (look at their Pengiyuuin) <3

The mental image of a penguin unsheathing a blade is so fucking funny like

🐧 <- That,,with This -> 🗡️?? Genius & Silly

Some doodles

Was attempting Bearded Vulture Kyojuro, still working his anatomy out but the Rengiyuu bird love was <3!! & I Had to draw it

Tanjiro & Nezuko are currently penguins for the adorable convenience (,,,Giyuu warming them I—the thought was too cute)

^ THAT COULD BE PENGIYUUIN WITH THE KAMABOKO SQUAD AAAAA

#[casting Pengiyuuin Adoration Lvl bajillion] #You Will love him #I’m at a loss for how much clothes I give them that’s why there’s naked giyuu mentions lmao #uhhhh #furry au? #idk I just wanna practice furry art w/ kny but I’ll probably share whom I’ve drawn so far #just realized aside from Tide & Nero I haven’t told anyone of this OOPS #gonna break it to yall now: Sabito is a bunny #did u expect any different ? #ok tangent time but like— #Sabito being bunny coded but Trying to be fox coded reminds me of the: #‘born to shoujo forced to shounen’ #Sabigiyuu shoujo au ? #demon slayer #kny #octo’s art #lmao

[sunshades]

One thing about canto VI is like. I see so many people predicting it'll be about Fighting Evil Wife or Breaking Codependent Toxic Relationship and I just kinda think that would suck? If the major theme isn't grief AND love and the way both are seen as like Kinda Weird/inappropriate in the setting of the city. Then I'll be very sad.

#bell.txt #not putting it in the tag i dont wanna spam but yes limbus posting yes girls will be thinking about mortal regret #LIKE. LIKE. remember the discourse on twt about how like it was bad writing that yi sang didnt mourn dongbaek etc #and like that was the thing right. thsts not a thing you do in the city. that was part of why roland (who takes lots after wh's themes) #was so exceptional. that is the whole thing about the sickness of the city #to say it in comedia literary criticism terms: sins are split between wrongly-directed love and excess of love with sloth (lack of love) #being an outlier. i think heatho and generally og wh is about excess of love and not wrongly-directed love. it is the thing that lasts #all the way to the other side. it is the shared coffin and meeting again in the next life #i think itd be AWFULLY disappointing to get some boring boring 'they make each other worse' take. being APART due to societal pressures #makes them worse and horribly lonely. death makes them worse baby. so in my mind thats it #we get to see cathy die or still be unreachable in some way and then in very roland style we get furioso mode #and then the ending is about recognizing the love that has in fact been there all along and carrying it with u. and hoping to reunite some #where some other time. NO more slander of that awful girl. YES to the comfort of the memories. #me typing over my foscolo notes like i can surely post about heathcliff really fast and not write a novel in the tags (unaware) #i have more thoughts about this in regards to ruina with xiao and some stuff from leviathan but in the meantime. listen to my ramblings boy #ALSO. considering that implication. he feels for her what queequeg feels for ishy. ARGHH. RIPPING MY HAIR OFF #ok actually its been enough hours to not spam ppl I'll tag it now for blog org. i should maybe have a tag for posting specifically #limbus company

[dateamonster]

btw toralei/clawdeen truthers i Understand now

#ungodly screeching #monster high #the movies characterization of toralei is so compelling to me especially as a foil of clawdeen #girl why were u stroking her hand like that? 'we share the moon'? ok d*ke #also cleo and toralei being bitchy at each other was so good i missed that energy fr

[cerealmonster15]

listen people can have their differing opinions that’s cool I just Personally Feel Like it’s just so mean to be yelling that feedback such as likes on posts and a kudos on fics are “useless”. What do u mean. Why. are ppl not expressing their feelings in a way that makes them comfortable ? ?

Like I Understand i guess in the sense of you don’t get to hear peoples opinions. I also feel kinda lonely and stuff when it’s quiet feedback but calling anything useless sounds so WEIRD to me ??? What is the goal. And also yea they do something still I’m pretty sure????

Take ao3. Isn’t sort by kudos an option on there? If your goal is to be seen more or whatever then if people are looking for high kudos fics, then people giving ur fic a kudos isn’t useless yeah??

And then tumblr. People keep saying “likes do nothing here there’s no algorithm” or whatever but that’s not really fully true. On your standard dashboard, sure, likes “don’t do anything” to move a post around on there. BUT that’s not the only place people find posts. If u are looking in the tags for posts, im p sure the default is to sort by popular posts. That’s, as far as I understand, a TOTAL NOTES count. Likes are included. Likes help ur posts her higher in that “popular” zone. I have several posts that have ended up in there in some small ship tags BECAUSE of all the likes, which does still have people seeing those posts now and then when they’re in the tag.

AND I’m pretty sure it’s a similar mechanic for the for you page. I’m sure we think people don’t use that feature but I’m pretty sure people do/ maybe new users. This is more of a theory on my part lol buttttt. I’ve noticed a few rare times where I’ve made an addition to a reblog on someone else’s post, there will be a stretch of time sometimes where random people that Do Not Follow Me keep liking/reblogging the post via my addition. WAY more times for it to just be a stray person wanting it from my addition without comments under (and I don’t think people do that when they’re only liking the post lol). And the few times I’ve accidentally had my for you tab on, I believe it does show via other people’s reblogs lol. So that’s just my way of saying total note count INCLUDING LIKES probably does put posts in peoples eyes on the for you tab / my experience tells me people do use that feature so it’s not just sitting there dusty lol.

Anyway I like mostly understand why people want reblogs and comments, like I do prefer them too bc I like when people tell me what they r thinking (however sometimes people do not add their thoughts in the tags either and that is just how it is!). And I also understand some people maybe just don’t know that others like that kind of feedback and need to hear it first to feel encouraged. I think I just personally do not like the tone that a lot of posts have when they talk about it. When ur calling likes useless bc idk it’s not the right kind of feedback u wanted so it’s inferior ?? 😭😭😭 I also feel like that intense vibe like, idk if this makes sense or if other people felt it too, but it negatively shifted my own perception too? Like. I thought likes were fine. But now with how intense people are about them and not meant if likes bc they just don’t count in ur eyes, now when people like instead of reblogging, I just think of all those posts and I’m like “hmm ok is my post bad did I make a bad post bc everyone says the likes aren’t good so if I’m getting likes I made A Bad Post. It’s Pity Feedback” <- which is SO unhealthy and also tbh has a lot more to do with my own issues that are just getting influenced here so it’s not all on those posts lol. I just Also Have Extra Issues 🫡

Ok jeeze I don’t wanna sound soap boxy tho so I’m NOT letting people rb this aJsndjfcjfjfjcjfj and ppl can absolutely have different feelings and opinions about the situation it’s fine. this is just. how I feel ✌️

#I don’t wanna invalidate how ppl feel about it #and I hope ppl won’t invalidate how I feel either lol … #it just makes me SAAAAAAD it bums me out #I dont wanna feel like it’s all a numbers game #I just wanna share sillies :( #IT JUST FEELS HARSH!!!!! #sometimes I like a post so I can reblog later with tags #but I don’t always remember to do it #and then I’ll see a post that’s like #YOU HAVE TO REBLOG DONT LIKE AND RUN #and then I’m like well. I was gonna like and come back #but o don’t want u to get mad at me #but I don’t have time to add tags rn #so I guess I will just not interact at all ???? #it’s way too stressful. why are there RULES 😭😭😭😭 #and this is all coming from someone who reblogs and comments like mad. I go crazy #I am not a likes and kudos only person lol #but. it is in defense of them. don’t we all share our love differently #is that a crime 😭😭😭😭 #ok I’m fully distracted I gotta go bye

[sukugojo]

different anon here, i came here wanting to clarify something but i saw that your reply took the words out of my mouth HAHAH it's funny seeing some of us shippers sharing the same braincells and having similar opinions. love this small community but i hope it gets bigger (wake tf up people!!! are 15 consecutive canon suspicious homoerotic chapters not enough for people on the international jjk fandom to finally start shipping them?!)

the something being that i don't sense any malicious hateful intent coming from either gojo or sukuna. this is a rare enemies/rivals trope imo. like their whole theme is about teaching love and trying to maybe come to a mutual understanding despite fate cruelly putting them on the opposite sides, as they are really just different sides of the same coin. and that's one of the many reasons why i love this pairing. it's not easy to find a non-toxic enemies/rivals dynamic portrayal in media so i'm glad that jjk is an exception.

p/s: i'm an extremely introverted person so unfortunately i won't have the social battery to continue this conversation, but thanks for reading my ask! i really want to interact more with my people bc yall are lovely and have great tastes but socializing drains me so much

YES YES ANON, they really don't hate each other at all. one thing i was thinking about is how gojo doesn't seem to think of sukuna as this malicious Evil thing that other sorcerers (rightfully) make him out to be. he... really hasn't been shown to harbor any ill feelings towards sukuna, even after all he's done.

and their fight is playful, they're playing, they're having fun, it's recreation. sure the fate of the world is at stake here, but that's not what it's about for them at all.

there's not hate, not even dislike, it's simply. well to steal canon's words. love. an overwhelming sense of pleasure, of satisfaction, of fulfillment.

and i LOVE that u mention "despite fate cruelly putting them on the opposite sides" bc YEAH YEAH, that's part of the tragedy of them. there's too many factors outside their own personal satisfaction at play.

and i think there is also a bit of a paradox in there. they're looking for someone with whom to share that solitude that comes at the lonely top. but... that's something i don't think to be possible. sure they're equals, that's the thing, but at the same time, their existences clash just by definition. bc there can't be two strongest. there can only be one.

both can't live at the same time. if one lives, the other can't live by definition.

no one understands them bc they're the strongest, but once they find someone who might be able to—and who does—dont they stop being the strongest?

#sukugojo.post #(but also scratch all that. we are not gonna think about that bc if either of them die i will be inconsolable they can't fucking die bc tha #would make me. incredibly sad. OTL) #gege should just have them marry each other. why can't they just be TWO strongest why the fuck not. The Strongest husbands. #a true power couple #got kinda sidetracked there haha but yeah! i feel we all just a share a collective braincell that gets passed around hkdfjhsd #'are 15 consecutive canon suspicious homoerotic chapters not enough for people to finally start shipping them?!' SAY ITTTTTTTTTT #and i think what sets them apart is that they're rivals on OPPOSITE sides who are not laden with hate. #bc there's a clear cut good-evil dichotomy. we have the good guys and bad guys who are against each other and whose goal is to stop e/o #sukugo are on opposite sides but still hold no sense of hate or disdain or anything for each other. #there's simply regard and expectation and (i'm sorry for saying it all the fucking time but it's true) love. #dhsjfdfs it's almost like they operate on a completely different plane to the others (which well yeah they kinda do as the strongest) #they don't particularly care about that whole thing. #they only care about their position as strongest and what the other can give them in regards to that #jjk #sukugo #gosuku #u know i mentioned once in a post i made in my main blog how gojo only speaks of sukuna in a cheerful reverent way #which was half just me being shippy but this made me think about that #bc ok that could be said to be simply his way of being BUT we DO see gojo show disdain for people he dislikes. very clearly. #he speaks super ill of the jujutsu world higher ups. but he doesn't ever extend that dislike to sukuna #who's u know. the Embodiment of Evil #while gojo may be an outwardly cheery person when he doesn't like u. u WILL know. he's actually quite honest there #and he shows respect for sukuna. considers it an honor to be sukuna's rival. #(tho he IS still a fucking brat <3) #god sorry i will shut up now cshfhaskdjsakffs #alas!!! it's really alright anon i totally get it. u dont have to answer. that's kinda the great thing about asks haha c: #but if u ever wanna talk more about them well the askbox is always open :D #GONNA END THIS BY SAYIGN THAT I AM SCARED I AM NERVOUS ABOUT THE NEXT CHAPTER AAAHHHHHHHH

[lordiavolo]

to be like frank here, redemption is an ever going cycle. when youve been the problem, the toxic ex, the abuser, you have to know you will have to apologize for that for the rest of your life. you will always have to live with the guilt and conscience of knowing how you hurt that person, or mutliple people. and you have to constantly CHOOSE to not repeat that behavior, and its not easy.

when you meet a new friend the topic of who you used to be will come up eventually, and if you have changed youll be honest with who you were. you cant run from it. you cant try to round the corners and make it seem like the other persons fault, or like it wasnt as bad as it was. its really really scary. because everytime you open up about it, its not just the wound of guilt but its also the fear that theyre going to look inside and not like what theyll see.

but you have to keep moving on and you have to keep being honest. and you have to remember that everyone is applicaple for redemption, you just have to work for it and admitting you were wrong with no buts is the first step.

#anyways cna u tell im kinda going thru it LOL #ive always been a toxic person thats why ive sort of secluded myself from society i avoid human contact w non household members as much as #possible bcuz i feel honestly like im a ticking time bomb that just hurts everything i touch #i dont think its fair to have to have someone deal w my shit when its such an emotional turmoil so even though i want friends im making my #peace w the fact that i like honestl dont really deserve rhem? ik this seems MOPEY but its like this is my geniune non like baiting thoughts #i was an abuser in high school and in an abusive relationship where for the first half i was the perpetrator. i hit my ex and u know i dont #even have anything to add to it other than it was fucked up. i was selfish in bed and sex addicted and sometimes did anything for my fix. #i will and cannot lie about my past as being a shitty person. its scary to say and post but i have to be honest thats who i was that IS a #part of my history as much as i wish i could i cannot erase. #i dont rly even know what to add here honestly. just watching mias vid got me thinking u know #there is more to this story ofc the same ex i was abusive to was also abusive to me it was just split into segments. like i was the problem #for the first year and a half then it switched to them but its not rly rhe best place 2 share that story when im talking about my mistakes #im not trying to detract here i just want 2 get this shit off my chest again. ive talked about it before but not since remaking a few times #anyways i dont have any excuses well i mean i can pull a bunch out but im not going to cuz at the end of the day i shouldve known better #than to be a bitch when i knew i was being a bitch u know? #being the bad guy is a constant struggle where u will have to really really fucking fight yourself tooth and nail to change and i want to be #that person. i want to be someone who can be 100% honest about how shit i was to myself and others (which i do already do to my friends) #hopefully this makes sense idk anyways if ur struggling with being abusive or toxic im here for u. u can get through this and you can be a #good person it is within ur hands i promise u #ok love u goodnight #personal

[francy-sketches]

hotd mamma mia au. Discuss

#.txt #best movie ever btw mamma mia haters kill yourself #cher viserys so true #does your mother know with aemond and alys. litcherally them #not with like. alys as rhaenyra's bestie just. unrelated #hotd cast i will pay you 10$ to recreate mamma mia 1 and 2. please #actually scratch that just the last scene from mamma mia 2 is enough #with the sparkly outfits ofc #uh ok so who are the husbands hm #laenor is the gay one ofc. harwin is the hot blonde one. the other one is daemon bc i dont like him #ok that's mean sorry daemon #'um why isnt daemon the hot blonde one' because!!! that's the real dad. i think. #she actually has too many love interest lmao. no place for u crispy sorry #alicent can be one of the besties just add homoerotic subtext #ok the real problem is. the kids are too boring to pull off the lay all your love on me scene #wait no. lay all your love on me jace and cregan version. I see it #pledge your loyalty to our side -> dont go sharing your devotion #luke and joffrey downgraded from jace's brothers to his besties/backup singers. sorry #they dont do much anyway

[daydadahlias]

i dont say this to be rude at all but have some of y’all considered that the reason slash writers keep our stuff on ao3/tumblr is because we want to separate the content we’re creating from the actual people we’re writing about and talking about our work on public platforms where 5sos can see them was never our intention? there’s a legitimate reason I’m not talking about my fics on twitter or instagram (because they’re pretty much the only social media 5sos actively use) so can you guys please respect that decision and not openly publicize my work in places I didn’t originally intend it to be?

#like i love that people talk about fics #but i dont know how to explain that i dont want 5sos to be exposed to my content #and i get talking about it and being vague like 'oh i like this story' but #the second u start dropping names and actual scenes it gets really uncomfortable for me #I certainly don’t want to speak for all slash writers but #I know many of us are on tumblr for a reason #and that’s because this is a safe space to discuss things #and people should not be bringing our stuff outside of this please #please be careful when dropping full names of fics on twitter and ao3 author names and such #on a platform that 5sos can see #like I don’t want to say ‘don’t talk abt the fic!!’ but I do want to ask y’all to be a little more careful when you do #I’m not inherently bothered by people talking about fic on twitter #but if you’re dropping the phrase ‘scene 14 my fave lashton fic’ I need you to Stop doing that and I’m dead serious #uhm also kind of a weird side note but why r u guys talking abt fics on public platforms that authors aren’t on #like can u just. talk to us? #I don’t. really enjoy going on twitter and seeing people talk abt me without talking To me #especially if those people aren’t leaving comments or anything? #just kind of sad to see fic being turned into an consumer culture instead of what it should be #which is sharing stories and getting to talk to people abt it #ok sorry if this is too negative byeee #and I’m not saying this on twitter bc im scared of it hehe #and I just kind of want to say it sigh #I’m not gonna Stop people from doing it #bc I don’t want to dm people on twitter and go ‘stop being publicly nice to me pls’ #but it’s just. smthn to be aware abt #if u have twitter and also tumblr

[t4tbedehopmar]

SLAPS MYSELF and as we say in spain borrón y cuenta nueva

#um um HI my day was ok! we're leaving the beach tmrw finally so i'm happy :] #i've also been playing acnh as if my life depended on it. idrk why tho dkfhjsj #OH OH ALSO i'm very hyped for the crazy:b solos! and the me/kohaku swan card leak i saw :o gonna share it in a min wait #hugging u all lots btw i missed u guys sm...... :c

[mockiery]

Llewyn and Wes with their cat, Half-Pint. Comm by @guruan <3

(close-up and more about my OC Wes and their story under the cut) [ID in Alt]

Wes Tiernan is a bartender at The Auld Triangle, an Irish pub in Greenwich Village. We meet him in February, 1961, shortly after the events of Inside Llewyn Davis, when Llewyn drunkenly wanders into his bar and gets himself kicked out. Later, he returns to the Triangle and meets Wes for the first time. They get to know each other as Llewyn begins to come back more and more (to spend time with Wes, of course).

Wes is a trans man, and is closeted. He's charismatic -- he knows the scripts and the right words to say to his patrons like the back of his hand. He loves hooking up with people, and people love hooking up with him. During these hook-ups, he's incredibly focused on his partner, and his partner alone, not letting them touch him -- in part to hide his being trans.

Wes is also biracial; Irish and African American, but white-passing. He grew up in the rural South with folk, blues, and gospel music as an essential part of his life, and lost touch with it after leaving his hometown to move to NYC. Llewyn helps him get back in touch with music in a way he hasn't been in years.

I've written quite a bit for them, but it's out of order and a little all over the place. I'm trying to write some of the early stuff chronologically now, and if anyone is interested, I might get around to posting some of it on ao3.

Wes is the most fleshed-out and real-feeling OC I've ever written, and writing him and Llewyn is a genuine delight. I've been having the time of my life creating him and their story the past couple months, and I am always down to talk about them, so don't be afraid to send asks! When it comes to writing, I thrive on people enabling me lol.

(Note: Some of the stuff I've written for them is pretty spicy, which is new for me! Eventually they have a pretty active sex life, but it's a lot later in their relationship, so if I end up sharing more, that won't show up for a while. Either way, I'd keep it on ao3 and/or tag it on tumblr appropriately, just so you know!)

#wes oc #llewes #llewyn davis x oc #llewyn davis #original character #kier speaks #kier writes #llewyn davis x original character #also thanks to mike fruit god tiptapricot for the IDs and the help with this post and literally all the llewes stuff i've made #oh their ship name is llewes btw #i have some stuff tagged as that with vibes if u wanna take a peek lol #gonna share more art of them made by my beloved spouse pizzee and potentially lil bits of my writing soon so stay tuned lol #OH! i have a playlist for them i might post a link to or smth. fr i'm not joking about them having consumed me the past couple months #this is where i have been and why i haven't written for mk lol SORRYYYYY #anyway. to reiterate i love them and i love my enablers who made this possible <3 #fr send asks and talk to me about them however and whenever ok they're my guys. guys of all time. gays even.

[saetoru]

i think about what alhaitham’s childhood must’ve been like and i honestly make myself very sad thinking about it

#idk i feel like #he always says he doesn’t care what ppl think of him and that he’s happy to keep to himself #but i feel like a small part of that is stuff he says to convince himself he’s fine w having no friends 🥲 #like bffr every kid wants a friend idc #he definitely wanted a friend as a kid #i’m convinced he was a bullied kid #i think it’s not a very unique hc tho im sure so many ppl think that too #but isn’t that just so :( #idk like i imagine his grandmother encouraging him to make friends like ‘once they get to know you they’ll love u like i do’ #and then no one likes him 🥲 #and he’s just like why what did i do ? in his head #if a kid is like 6 ur not gonna convince me like #oh yeah he’s cool w not having friends he’s just like that he likes keeping to himslef #no way. i don’t believe it for a second #so he’s just like ok who needs friends i can thrive and lead a simple life without that nonsense anyway as a way to cope and it just sticks #i mean sure he’s introverted and he prefers to keep to himself #yeah ok. but he definitely does not want to die alone and never have anyone he can share memories w and so i feel like #for someone to reiterate so much that they prefer solitude so strongly and hold rationality above all else #even when they’re clearly someone who makes decisions that are more or less morally guided #there must’ve been a very lonely and melancholy past there #and every time i think ab it #i get sad #and don’t even get me started on his grandmothers death #idk every time i think ab alhaitham #he just seems so heartbreaking and tragic in a very very normal way #not some elaborate brother betrayal or dead friend from the hands of a god #or being abandoned by ur mother and betrayed by humans 283774 times in a row as u search for ur purpose #just a normal sad story of dead parents and not fitting in and having no one and losing the one person who loves you wholly #and it makes me so sad bc it’s the most realistic sad past of all the characters and nothing can convince me that’s not what his past was #and it makes my heart bleed for him

[sodafrog13]

i think a lot abt biker and jacket's relationship for someone who does not like them together romantically

#and talk abt them a lot for that matter fgdfgfgd #idk!! i just think that there's like. possibilities there y'kno #like there's a reason why i made a playlist for them. bc if you know me then you know me making ship playlists and like #actually sharing them. is a little unusual. bc i have others that aren't hlm related #but this is the first time i've felt strongly abt them (the playlists) enough to actually share #which makes sense for beardjacket and jacketgf since i post abt them a lot #but for biker&jacket (esp consdiering that it's a ship playlist /meant/ to not be romantic) it's like. god idk how to say it properly #like there's tragedy there. if u kno what i mean. just inherently #like there's a reason that of all my jacketshipping playlists the biker&jacket one has the most amount of songs w no words (5/10 of them) #bc to me their relationship isn't built on affection/any sort of real attraction. it's built on understanding. #on needing this person in your life even if it isn't good for either of you because not having them there would just make things even worse #bc the beardjacket playlist also has a genrous amount of songs w no words (4/10) but i have specific reasons for having them there #the main general ones being /comfort/. and longing. bc that's what those songs meant to me personally #w the biker&jacket one i have straight breakcore songs on there (bc to me biker/jacket means breakcore) and a 25 minute ambient/vpw track #as well as release by M|O|O|N and it's ok you're ok by bonjr bc to me all of those songs are like #like regardless of how i personally feel about them they're not meant to be. satisfying? ig?? like they're meant to be unsettling in a way #i'm essentially trying to encapsulate how games like hlm and firewatch make me feel #like. like this is how it's supposed to be. even if it's not what anyone wanted #anyways. i need to keep studying. #the trash speaks

[usingthisurlsomewhereelse]

promo a remade selfship blog? ♡

(PR*SHIPPERS / AGEUPPERS DO NOT INTERACT!!!)

hiiiiii im val (they/them) i used to be @lesbianpikachuu but that blog was dying so i decided to make a new one ^_^ id rlly appreciate a promo hehe<3u can visit my carrd for my full abt, dni, fo list, etc!! also i follow from @deltaepisode so if u get a follow from that blog thats me ^_^

my romantic fo is yoomtah zing from epithet erased and my main platonic fo is ace featherstone from pokemon reborn<3observe Two of them

(source for ace art: @crimcrimart)

please note that i do Not share yoomtah whatsoever; if u romantic fo her, follow anyone else who rom fos her, or ship her with anyone other than me then do not interact. please ask to interact if u platonic fo her either. im also Very iffy abt sharing ace even if theyre "just" a friend and id rather not interact with anyone who romantic fos them, and please act to interact if u platonic fo them too.

im looking forward to making more friends and actually posting on here hehe pls feel free to talk abt yoomtah or ace with me whenever<3also talk to me abt ur fos too i just like talking lol ok i think im done here i dont wanna make this too long aaaa pls follow me i want to be ur friend<3

#self ship #self-ship #self insert #self shipping #self-shipping #self ship community #self-ship community #wlw self ship #wlw selfship #wlw self-ship #nonbinary self ship #nonbinary selfship #nonbinary self-ship #autistic self ship #autistic selfship #autistic self-ship #oh my god why are there so many ways to spell selfship Im done #ok hiiiiiiii pls rb this thanky u i need more friends here<3 #love letters from val #typing out my Very strict sharing boundaries makes me feel like people will think im crazy i promise im nice</3