#oh god im so anxious

[dont-cognize-my-existence]

hi!!,,, uh

i felt like my blog was pretty empty, and then i thought hm what would make it less empty, so, art!! it's literally one of the first time i post art online and i chose tumblr and genshin please do not question my choices

i just think they should be happy!!! and i feel like Kazuha just keeps adopting those sad people to chill with him. oh your friend died? while you clearly hated him? you think humans are inherently bad? come, cuddle with me

it's only modern au cuz i wanted to give Kazuha a hoodie

#genshin impact #genshin wanderer #genshin scaramouche #genshin kazuha #genshin heizou #shikanoin heizou #kadehara kazuha #fanart #uhhh how do i tag this #first fanart #just gentle and sleepy #i love them so much #modern au #scars because kazuha gets into scuffles sometimes #oh god im so anxious #i can't be bothered to make backgrounds have mercy #i stole their toes also #they got barbied #heikazuscara #heikazu #heiscara #kazuscara #i don't know if those are official tags i just don't want anyone finding that when they didn't ask for it :(

[lionydoorin]

narcissists are too focused on themselves to realize they're being played.

click on the image for better quality cause tumblr fucked it up 🥰

#highkeu freaking out over posting this one im so anxious #this is what happens when my style plays w realism 😁 #rly proud of this one! #i also tried a new painting technique and oh mu god it was so fun #it's kinda messy and and i could've rendered and smoothed it out a little more #but it's meant to be more of a practice #expect better things in the future! 🥰 #gonna finish my other two wips in this style and then i don't know #im probably never gonna draw something this pretty again i've peaked #eleanor levetan #drea torres #fucked up soulmates #drea x eleanor #eleanor x drea #idk which tag the cool kids use #do revenge #do revenge fanart #do revenge netflix #fanart #ma ur arting #im so proud im pinning this on my profile for a while

[arsbones-kw]

I CAN'T-

#I HAVE BEEN GIGGLING HYSTERICALLY FOR TGE LAST TEN MINUTES #IM SO EXHAUSTED FROM MY UNI STUFF #I just needed to draw something silly #but im bad at drawing silly #and i had no ideas #then i saw this- #oh gods i can't #springtrap #emperor belos #william afton #philip whittebane #I'm sorry for your mental damage #five nights at freddy's #fnaf #toh #the owl house #belos toh #id in alt #pls tell if i made it wrong #im anxious

[craycraybluejay]

Ah. So he wasn't even worried so much over the fact that they killed someone together. He was terrified of losing his sister. The core agony of the trauma was the fear of losing her and the anxiety of his life falling apart because of a mistake. Damn.

#character analysis #sibcest #yandere #codependency #the coffin of andy and leyley #'theyre going to take you away from me' #hold on i need a minute #i need a minute #sobbing screaming throwing up #the power of love #NOW i think i get why andrew comes off as stand-offish and super anxious #he does love his sister. he just worries so much about losing her that he acts Like That #aw oh my god #awwwww #im gonna cry #hold on #i just need a minute

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

You ever think about what's gonna happen when the Welcome Home website updates in December? Hopefully, at least for what I think, we'll get to see the fabled Julierella! Or any visual parts of the show in general. Probably something fit for the holiday spirit.

Maybe wondering about their relatives and loved ones living outside the neighborhood, and the fact that the residents haven't left to see them in some time.

Stuff like that! Maybe even some new recipes!

i try not to think about it or i'll become so nervoucited that i'll get nauseous

#the fact that its a psychological horror brings my excitement #from 'ohhhh i cant wait!!!' #to Im Genuinely Deeply Nervous AND Deeply Excited. #welcome home stresses me the fuck out but... in a good way? somehow??? #still i dont wanna think about whats to come or my entire day will be lost to pacing & staring at a wall w/ a racing heart #it probably will be housewarming themed - if thats still the in-universe version of christmas for the neighborhood #but yeah! so stoked im anxious! yeehaw! #whatever happens im going to go absolutely fucking Feral #also theres an element of 'i cant even imagine. anything could happen. things will happen that ive never even considered' #rambles from the bog #yk actually a thought ive had #is if i start streaming. before the update #maybe... i could stream the update. #yk me and any of you who join checking it out for the first time and looking for secrets #could be fun! if! emphasis on if!! #could be nice. cause like... idk about you guys but i dont have irl friends to sit down and check it out with #the updates are fun but a little lonely for me! its just me in my room wishing i could share the First Time Excitement yk yk #just. something for me to consider aiming for! #oh my god i just realized ill probably be working #i swear to god if the update drops while im at work im just gonna quit and walk out the door #ohhhh now im nervous about that happening... heres hoping it wont... #lmao who am i kidding! given my luck's track record that absolutely Will happen

[jorrated]

i cant believe my semester starts tomorrow and ill need to go back to pretend to being neurotypical.

#i assume by the amount of art i post people know im kinda neurodivergent #but im so anxious about drawing in public/where people can see #so basically i cant draw the whole day and it drives me actually insane it feels painful #aaauggghghgh ghghhhhhghgaaaaa[ #ill need to go back to interact with people i dont wanna intereact with and go to a classroom that has a funky smell #and the ac is never in the correct temperature #and people are alwasy talking. and the professors repeat stuff too much or say shit thats too obviuous #im whining. drama ass bitch moment. #but its so real #the first week is always the worst cause i gotta readjust #and just. learn to be okay with that god forsaken building and people #oh well!!!!! #at least ill see my friends more

[anglerflsh]

ooooh in god if I have to see that "Autism on TV/Autism in real life" post one more time. Someone here is going to have their feelings hurt and then argued about only with logic and it won't be me

#[.txt] #'autism isnt about misunderstanding emotional topics or social cues and coming across as mean on accident because of said misunderstanding!' #'its about being so sad and so anxious and never ever hurting someone's feelings on accident' shut the fuck up oh my god shut the FUCK up. #im TIRED of this I really am #complaining tag

[bewby]

heart eyes.... (*♡▽♡*)

#han jisung #stray kids #skz #*seven.gif #ANYWAYS IM HEADING TO BED SNORK MIMIMIMIMI #THIS TOOK ME A BILLIOOPN YEARSRSRRSS #still too anxious to use tracking tags HSDHJFHDF i: ( #oh god these look . ass Why are so blurry. #HWY ARE THJEY SO BLURRY

[ka3l]

#pixel art #me #artists on tumblr #neet #webcore #guess who jsut flaked on a very major medical exam #it was a ct scan and i rescheduled it so its not that big but also oh my god im so stupid and anxious

[skitskatdacat63]

Speaking of ocs, I have no idea why I deleted this drawing off here. I think I hated it when I finished it, and now I looked back on it and I'm like, this is pretty okay??

#also I hate how you guys have literally sent asks for my oc game(thanks!!!!) #but i still feel this weird 'oh god im being so annoying' ickyness #will i never be freed from the prison which is my own head #im like ah i need to draw ocs more :) its comforting #and then i start drawing them more #and my brain starts clawing itself abt having not drawn any fanart in a bit #tbf i dont really have good ideas for either 😭😭 #but thank you guys for supporting my recent endeavors :) #even if i still feel anxious abt it. all your asks have made me feel very soft <3 #but yah idk i try to engrain in myself: my blog i do what i want #and then i still get insecure abt being annoying. but you guys dont care :) so i need to stop caring #idk i think people could literally yell at me that im not being annoying and id still have to go lay in the dark + #and have an entire self monolog to myself abt how im a plague upon this world #catie.art.

[donnyanne]

im going a lil Kuckoo bc i wanna draw shit!!! so bad!!! but no ideas!!!! 

but remembered past me shared and posted a WIP of something and i wanna kiss and thank past me. posting here to try Sealing my fate 

#sleepytime slate and lucy??? oh when have i done THAT before #(god even my other recent gtish post was sleepytime.....) #but yeah i need to draw bc it always used to help distract me from the usual #im anxious so im gonna puke!!!!!!!! #phase :(

[bunnihearted]

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity?? #im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!! #so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss.... #and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

[scimitar-and-longsword]

Hey hope you're well :) Currently at the airport to Italy and then later this week Greece and I'm wondering what your headcanons are about Nicky and Joe when flying :) like who's there three hours early and who arrives ten minutes before take off? xD

Oh my goodness, have so much fun in Italy and Greece! I'm so jealous!

Ok this is such a fun question.

Joe is definitely the early one and Nicky is very lackadaisical about getting to the flight on time. "Yusuf, you need to calm down, we're never late."

I think Nicky falls asleep right away on long flights and Joe can't sleep for the life of him on planes. It's so hard for him to sleep on planes that he gets a little frustrated sitting next to Nicky who sleeps through everything.

Nicky tries so hard to stay awake because he knows Joe gets a little nervous on long flights, but something about the white noise lulls Nicky to sleep every time. Joe doesn't blame Nicky, he just wishes he could sleep through it as easily.

Nicky is very good at planning for this though. He always makes sure they have books and charges phones with movies downloaded. He's always pointing out the in flight movies and snack selection to Joe. So when he does inevitably fall asleep Joe has lots to focus on. "There's a TV Joe!"

I think when the others are there Nicky sits with Andy and they both peacefully sleep, while Nile and Joe are up trying to distract each other talking about art.

Booker sits by himself because he somehow keeps Andy and Nicky awake by talking too much. And freaks Joe and Nile out more by talking about all the things that could go wrong with the plane... Oh Booker.

Once they land Nicky does get a bit more anxious about losing luggage. Joe is just so relieved to be off the plane he doesn't even care. "Nicky, we only had two bags. It's fine, the Uber will be here in 5 mins." "No Joe, I'm sure we had 3 bags!" (They only had 2)

#oh my god its been so long since ive done a #the old guard meta #feels good to be back lol #meta #the old guard #joenicky #joe #nicky #andy #nile #booker #Joe may or may not be based on my own experience lol #im an extremely anxious flier #and my traitor of a partner always falls asleep lol #ask #anon

[dalroti]

My body will be like *takes 6 months to gain 1 kg* *loses it in 2 days*

#i have suchh a weird relationship with weight i have just realized this recently #my mother used to call me fat when i was young even though I've been underweight like forever #mostly jokingly because i am a snack enjoyer. but also not jokingly. a topic for another time #but i really internalized that #when i was living with my roommate who had a weighing scale i was in constant constant dread #like if i went from 45 to 45.9 I'd sweat and go like oh god i am fat oh god i am fat i won't eat for a week #but also i hate when people try to show concern about my weight #like it feels so invasive #and my friends who have seen me eat know i eat a whole ass meal even bigger than men #so it's not like im unhealthy i eat my veggies i eat my fruits #my body doesn't like gaining weight #and admittedly i prefer thar #but not my fault #recently my poor nerves... #they have made eating very hard i am deeply anxious

[hegrowth]

looked at my next class. I was super excited for it because it's my first art class, but it's an introductory class, so I was expecting like. beginner level stuff. no, my final project, due in week 7 of this 8 week class, is to draw a realistic self-portrait alongside an object that relates to who I am. what the fuck ? :,D like. am I crazy or is that a wild fucking expectation for a beginners art course ?

I was expecting stuff like... composition and using shapes and linework, not studies of abstraction and contour ? I DON'T HAVE SKILLS, WHAT IS THIS SUPPOSED TO BE BUILDING OFF OF EXACTLY ? an introduction to art in which I am asked to create a realistic self-portrait. okaaay. like. I was already self-conscious but now I'm even more so :,D I don't have skills, I thought this class was going to help me build them...

#《 ° selkie.exe 》 oh im trash just not approved trash #° personal ! #sorry just SCREAMING god im so nervous about this class now #also if there are any artists out there that have insight or whatever to provide for this idk like. is this reasonable ? #am i just being overly anxious ? is this how art classes are normally ?

[giorno-plays-piano]

AAAAAAAHHHHHHH I FREAKING HATE TEENAGERS MAKING OUT IN THE HOTEL'S POOL

WHERE ARE YOU PARENTS YOU LIL SH*TS

#im sorry im so anxious #i cant stand public displays of affections of that caliber #please please get a room #or maybe just stop if you're really just kids #oh my god i should've rented an apartment