#nothing can ruin it for me i think

[tuningknight]

god. this username is so special to me

#text #its a reference to the tuning knights from stella glow #but its singular to refer to The Tuning Knight aka the protag aka alti #Alto*** #god alto was so life changing for me #alto and hilda.... #stella glow and its impact on my psyche TBH #im not ok #what strikes your heart profoundly at 14 never leaves you it seems #stella glow is so special #nothing can ruin it for me i think #its partially a good thing it's a swan song/standalone in a way #i fell off FE and have a strained relationship w vocaloid and dragalia died #FE is still gud i just. Meh. Not into it rn #but like. stella glow #god. from the beginning i knew it was already dead but its a console game so it lives forever #well as forever as you can get with the 3ds #idk #stellaur glow......... #i thinj experiencing it at 14 was good too #that sensitive age where certain Things fly over ur head #i feel like if i got into stella glow Now i would bevery uncomfortable #but liek #man #auoughgh ok i stip ramble now #i lpve stella glow

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

#warm up #writeblr #this one has bothered me for a bit #any time a woman does something even passingly annoying we treat it like a fucking crime #hey man. women are allowed to be annoying. everyone forever is allowed to be passingly annoying #as long as they aren't hurting anyone/thing #like u wanna know something? i find it super annoying that men don't wear seatbelts #why arent there thousands of comments on driving videos thats just like : men try not to die in a car crash challenge #''this briefly annoyed me''. okay??????? AND????????????????? go get ur self a cookie and calm down about it #ur not entitled to control other ppl's experiences and emotions just so u can maintain ur own peace #if being briefly annoyed ruins ur whole day! you! need! therapy!!!! #men try not to become immediately angry about nothing challenge: level impossible #ps author is nonbinary. we didn't even get into the gender presentation thing #the fact men think it's SEXY that my voice is on the lower end....

[cherrywhite]

Silt Verses protagonists // Returning Home

#the silt verses #hi just realized carpenter and faulkner's returning home episodes are both chapter 9 of s2 and 3 respectively #idk what to do with this info #anyway something that makes me deeply emotional about this #just the way all of them return to it #paige expecting to come home to an empty abandoned place. surprised to find what's there. seeing the land as unpredictable. #carpenter knowing of the ruin of her previous childhood home. haunted more by the people she left behind. finding no comfort in being back. #faulkner being optimistic. saying perhaps his home could be a temple one day. this is the safest place i could be he says #(and I can't help but think about faulkner leaving marks before he left his home. so that no one else could find a home there.) #(both paige and faulkner returning home when they have no where else to go) #hayward looking up at his old home fondly. there's nothing left for him there. nothing he can find that he doesn't already have. #let her have the lie of me he says.

[heartisbrave]

bottoms doesn’t need a sequel but I need another movie with the exact same cast and crew. time for gay people to have their own brat pack

#emma seligman if you can hear me i believe in your power to be gay and funny #i also just want to see this group of people make something new now that they’re more comfortable with each other #that’s the only real benefit of franchising a comedy #so i just think this would be a neat alternative #all the benefits of a sequel without any risk of ruining the original story/alienating existing fans #anyone else feel this way or am i on crack #also bottoms was so good it ruined most other movies for me #there’s nothing else like it but there should be #bottoms 2023 #stella speaks

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

new theory on what The Boundary is: the doctor's body just does that

#been reading pasteur abt............spontaneous regeneration #and been thinking abt communication #in the way of wormholes #listened to this philosophy podcast a while ago where they were discussing how the universe couldve come from nothing #and the host jokingly suggested that what makes a universe spring from nothing is maybe not an attribute of that which universes come from #the void or........whatever #but instead an attribute of /universes themselves/ #in other words things /can/ come from nothing. but the only thing you'll get is a universe #only universes can come from nothing #he didnt believe in his own suggestion but i havent stopped thinking abt it #and idk enough abt philosophy or science or cosmogony to ruin this really fun concept for me

[lucreziaborgiagf]

i don’t talk about bridgerton on here but just to clarify. i will not be having ANY eloise hate on this account. i will bite.

#eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you!! #addressing the normal talking points one by one to get them sorted: #- ​no i don’t care that eloise called pen some names after the discovery. she was devastated and furious. #she can apologise in the future but in the moment of course she said it #- ​yes pen did write about eloise as a way to save her but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t possibly ruined eloise’s life #- similarly: eloise isn’t (just) angry that she was written about. daphne also went through whistledown and it very much terrified her #so have many other women including marina #- eloise is betrayed because she told pen everything and is realising pen told her nothing #(and she’s probably thinking about any secrets she might have said to her best friend that could now be used against the ton and her family) #- as claudio said: being regency gossip girl isnt a moral girlboss thing its deeply harmful tbh #- ​pen did have reasons to become whistledown! that doesn’t mean that she’s innocent or right! #- eloise isnt now friends with cressida to spite pen lmao she’s alone and scared and cressida was the last person who offered her friendship #she has no idea how to manage society by herself #(and she needs someone to improve the reputation of her and her family) #- im also convinced she has other ulterior motives for befriending cressida. like she’s keeping an eye on her or smth #- eloise didn’t just ignore anything pen said and that’s why she only just figured it out. pen deliberately didn’t speak like lw to hide it #the moment she did eloise was like huh that’s weird she doesn’t normally talk like that. and THATS when she figured it out #- eloise just found out her best friend has betrayed her and been hiding this massive secret #but she hasn’t told anyone. not even her own family. im not hearing out any accusations of HER of being disloyal #- also pen clearly wasn’t that upset at writing about eloise bc the moment eloise and colin upset her she went straight back to it lmao #side note but no i don’t think the queen is going to name her the ‘emerald’ or anything because she’s suddenly in the spotlight #eloise is tbh the only debutante she actually consistently recognised (for good or bad) #a new dress is not going to be interesting for charlotte to change her whole tradition #tl;dr i love eloise and i will die on this hill #eloise bridgerton #bridgerton

[sciderman]

Why so pessimistic about Deadpool 3? We didnt even get the trailer so we really don't know how they will do Deadpool in mcu. We gotta have hope!

we're not getting hope! we're not even going to have cable!

#the joke for those who don't get it is that hope is cable's adopted daughter. bad dumn tcch. #though i think in the movie-verse hope is nate's biological daughter #queue spider-man voice: “you've had sex?” #just judging from what the director and ryan have worked on together previously... i don't want it. #this is going to be the mcu's ralph breaks the internet. and i don't want it. #the mcu has ruined all of their properties. all of them. there's not a shred of hope for deadpool 3 i'm sorry. i know it. #there's nothing that can save it. except cable. because he can timeslide and undo all this mess. #nate. nate if you can hear me #undo the entire mcu. use your timesliding powers and spare us. #you know neither of the deadpool movies we've already gotten are good either. they're fun but they're not good. #we are not going to get a good deadpool movie ever in 100 million years it is an impossibility.

[featherymainffins]

Me:

Still me:

A part of me nobody has ever heard of and whose thought processes are an enigma: Maybe I would fuck the new DBD killer

#dbd #dead by daylight #dbd the unknown #dbd unknown #like hello??? me??? what the hell??? #actually i get the thought process it's because people on Reddit were like 'Finally! Maybe people WONT smash this one' #and i was like 'How funny would it be to ruin that?' #like no you don't get it i need to do it for the bit. please. it'd be so funny. but like a lot of us think that because #i see people bang out the 'monsterfucker permit' reaction image in like every comment section #like we're all brave troops doing this for the bit. it's needed. it's my duty. i am nothing but god's silliest jester. #the only problem i see is that nobody can prove that the unknown passes the harknes test #that's a bit of '95 Theses on the church door' in my plans

[tariah23]

I forgive you-

#akajsjsjsjs #I mean gojo has said something lowkey kjnda racist towards Miguel before back when they’d first met if I’m being honest 😭…. like the accent #thing #like ‘why do you sound like [insert popular Nigerian guy who’s famous in jp]’ #I was like ‘now Gojo………’ #but I’m sorry this is a even more racistsnsjsjsjskssnsj #he apologized…. 🚶🏾‍♀️ #sorry #rambling #this shit has me dying I’m sorry I can’t even take this seriously I’m not even mad sjjsjsk #now gege what are you on… you trying to ruin Gojo from the grave now 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️!!! #*growls* get your hands OFF of him… #it’s kinda like how wp look at black ppl as nothing but athletes and in the medical world how doctors think that black ppl can take more #pain for some reason and that our organs are more special than everyone else’s- #it’ll always be awkward 😭

[luchsyy]

got a perfect score on my animated short film!!!!!!!!!!! (unless my film teacher lied to me)

#talks #it was one of the only two animated films in the class & i think that left a good impression #i'm so hyped. the first score i got at uni and it's a perfect score. we are so back #well he didn't write it down or anything he just came up to me and told me that in person after the seminar but LES GOOO #especially after those two entrance exams that kind of ruined my confidence #i really hope i can post it on here because i worked on nothing else for an entire month!! but i'll have to wait until after the exhibition

[hajihiko]

hey rumps, we're stood on 'loves every art you make' island.

We can see 'finds you annoying' island from here, trust us. You're the only one on it. You should just get a boat and join us.

We're willing to wait till you're ready to join us but if you ever need extra help just give us a short and we'll personally drag you here if need be

Ok I will reply to this before I sleep bc it is very sweet

I am getting to that island, I'm like more than a halfway there, I just keep looking back bc there's a lot of footsteps on the previous island (half are mine). But the encouragement is wind in sails hang on that's too sappy what I mean is I appreciate it

#It's not that I think I'm wrong. It's just like #The more I let myself enjoy things the worse it is when someone either ruins it for me or else makes me regret it somehow #<past exp shit nothing to do with anyone here #But ty fdg I do appreciate it #Idk if I can ever learn to not be anxious about what I do but I'm at least aiming for it #Not an art

[tittyinfinity]

covid precautions: smoking fat dabs all day so you hack up everything in your lungs before anything can get in there

#i do it to clear my sinuses quite often actually lol especially recently bc of allergies #weed affects me so much differently than most people it's weird #i mean i definitely get a high from it but it makes me more clear-headed and helps with my anxiety #(doesn't help with the adhd) #it's the only way i can eat bc my stomach and appetite have been ruined by 12 years of multiple medications #i can go out and do anything and interact with anybody after smoking an amount of weed that would make someone else see Shadow People #i think one of the reasons it affects me differently is bc my body lacks the enzyme to break down thc from edibles #i've tried 800mg thc in a chocolate bar once and it did nothing. which like if you smoked an entire gram of wax at once. #50mg from the same chocolate made my mom so high she was scared. #so yeah i guess it just hits me differently #maybe it's because my mom smoked weed when she was pregnant with me? #actually that would kinda make sense ngl #.bdo

[elysianymph]

hands you 🔥

THANK YOU DARLING i will use this opportunity to talk about the black family bc i find that whole situation very strange in this fandom.

people like to use sirius' running away as proof that walburga and orion were abusive parents but has anyone stopped to consider the fact that he ran away bc he simply disagreed with this family's ideals and didn't want to become the heir to a house full of pureblooded supremacist maniacs??? sirius has obvious distain for his parents but kreacher also mentions that walburga was heartbroken when sirius left. heartbroken. what a strange adjective to use for someone who fandom views as a heartless abuser. kreacher didn't say walburga was disappointed or angry that she had lost an heir, she was heartbroken over losing a son. a child. her own flesh and blood. if walburga and orion were actual heartless monsters don't you think they would've disowned sirius the moment he was sorted into gryffindor, among the blood traitors? but they didn't. sirius only gets disowned when he runs away from his duties to his family, which his parents would obviously consider the ultimate betrayal because family is everything to them.

to be clear i don't think the black family was healthy or loving but i don't think it was abusive in the way most fics show. they definitely didn't physically abuse their children or use literal curses to discipline them. if there was abuse it was definitely more emotional, manipulative. the black family kept their children isolated from the wizarding world until they couldn't anymore bc they had to be sent to a boarding school. they taught their children everything at home in their most formative years so that they could indoctrinate them into believing their fairytales. you're of superior blood because you bare our last name and you look like our forefathers. everyone else is beneath you and you aren't to associate with filth that doesn't acknowledge our superiority over them. that kind of thing that permanently damages a child's view of the world and their relationships to those outside their family (bc as we're well aware, the blacks were very much into keeping it in the family).

i'll mostly talk about the main black family here because i still have conflicting thoughts about the black sisters and their parents but i think walburga genuinely loved her children. especially sirius who was by all means the perfect heir (up until his years at hogwarts), he was sociable, talented, smart, powerful and above all confident and so so full of himself. he embodies the traits that make what the black family superior to others. regulus more or less is the opposite of his brother so there's room for more conflicting thoughts there. he isn't mentioned as particularly good in school or popular or liked at all. sirius calls him naive for believing their parents' stories and blood mania but that naïveté probably extended to other areas as well. he had a literal shrine on his wall devoted to voldemort (it you needed any more proof of how much of a loser he canonically is shsjsj). orion seems to be pretty detached (which is completely normal for the time like we're talking about 60s/70s parenting. fathers were mostly absent), he was likely more of a mentor for sirius if anything. teaching him how to handle the black family fortune and all that. i think walburga played a bigger role in their upbringing considering that was what was expected of her as a woman. she was likely their tutor before they started school, i doubt the black family would let anyone else teach their children.

i have a Lot more thoughts about them. i've talked about why i actually like walburga and how different i see the black brothers dynamic being from what we usually see in fanon in other posts. i don't think i can ever actually explain well enough how i imagine them though </3

#thank you for letting me ramble about this #ik i said i'm hating but i'm actually not 😭 hc whatever you want i just think it's interesting to explore different possibilities #especially when talking about something as complex as family relationships #in a fandom that literally makes stuff up (even when there is canon to suggest otherwise) we've backed ourselves into a box #and said 'this has to happen and nothing else can' and doesn't that just ruin the fun of this entire premise? #nymph answers #sirius black #walburga black #orion black #regulus black #the black family #hating hours 🔥

[strrwbrrryjam]

for all my grievances with tangled the series, one thing i cannot criticize them for is their songs, i mean, sure, not all of them make sense in context (let me make you proud comes to mind), the songs are spectacular, from the vocals to the instrumental, all of them are a joy to listen to, whether they are just incredibly goofy, like the buddy song, to heartbreaking, like waiting in the wings, whether its a solo, a duet or a group, they are wonderful to listen to

#i like the show. dont get me wrong. #though i cant deny there are a lot of flaws to the series n character n story decisions that dont make sense n infuriate me #and i will say imo season 1 is where its at its best. although yes flaws are present they dont. idk. ruin the season for me #but i cant say the same for the later two seasons. i mean. i had fun with s2 n liked the new characters but. a lot of it again imo is fille #but s3 is the worst imo cause the stakes are so high but they spend like 2-4 episodes actually on the main plot #n the rest is just. pointless filler. i mean. did we really need to learn more about fucking nigel of all characters #n i will say i am not a fan of cass' arch at all. i liked her in the first season n most of the second season but s3 just. ruins her for me #i also dont like how they treated euguene most of the time. he deserved to be treated better. he was the other main character in the movie #he deserved to be treated better not put in the back so as not to outshine cass n rapunzel's relationship #cassunzel this it not a critique of you. i liked the ship in the beginning to n i love the poly of cass rapunzel n euguene #n you can ship them to your hearts content. im just annoyed at the disrespect of euguene lol #can you tell that im passionate about the show. i mean. the potential was there but. they didn't do nothing with it. #im upset it couldnt be better lol #anyway what was i talking about #right the songs. the songs are spectacular (despite almost all of them not making sense in the context of the shows) #n are a joy to listen to. i love them all so much that i dont think there's any i dislike really. the songs are so so good #n are really fun to listen to. its one of the things that i can never fault the show for. they're wonderful n everyone should listen to the #even if you havent watched the show lol they're great #tangled the series #tts #strawberry speaks

[fearandhatred]

reading through my very old unpublished stony wips for the first time in years and oh my god. WHY WOULD I WRITE THIS

#fearandhatred #fearandfics #i was so obsessed with stony which is funny because i hate steve #but it makes sense. it makes so much sense #hi 18 year old me.... were u okay <3 #can you tell civil war put me THROUGH it #the sheer number of life ruining fics that were written as a result of that godforsaken movie cannot be beat #also the premise of the last two snippets was insane. if i had actually pulled off that fic i don't think i would ever shut up #can you tell it's about colour lol #alas i had no motivation to write back then so nothing i ever came up with was finished #but these are making me wish i had #sorry for saying so much shit i know i have like close to no marvel/stony mutuals here #then again i only opened these documents because i was trying to find inspiration for my good omens wip lmaoo #marvel #mcu #stony #writing

[bunnihearted]

🐰🩹🧸🏨

#i hate being in pain like this #bc it completely takes over my life. like im incapable of thinking of anything else #im incapable of relaxing or enjoying anything. i cant do important things. cant do anything else but sit still nd be in pain #it just renders me completely useless and makes me stop functioning properly #im just a hopeless mess made of anxiety nd sadness. idk why but i just hyperfixate on it and i cant 'let go' or relax or not think abt it #idk how other ppl do it.... i wish i wasnt like this bc it's awful. it's like the only thing that exist nd ever will exist is this pain 4evr #im dramatic i know but ​it genuinely feels like my entire life is over and i'll ever know is pain nd nothing will ever get better again #im so caught up in it i cant see anything else but my pain. i cant think of the future bc do i have one?? i dont know #im just not feeling good at all. and everything feels bleak and depressing and i dont want it :(( #i cant have any fun or nice moments at all and im just tired of life #i feel so fkn stressed abt all the things i need to do nd all my responsibilities and idk how i'll do them when im in this pain #i just hope it can calm down soon i just want it to be a little bit easier just a little bit #getting thru each day now is so fkn hard i barely sleep but when i do i wish i never wake up #i hate everything and it feels like my future is fucked #which makes me wanna die!! but it also makes me sad bc there is actually sm i want to live for #i dont want it all to be ruined bc i want to try to live!!!! :( #and yess im know im being dramatic but i cant help it. im weak nd im terrible at dealing w pain nd issues #im not a strong person who can withstand everything nd finds ways to live either way. maybe it's bc my will to live isnt that strong #idk. i just hate this i want it to be over. it's taking over my life nd idk how to still function like this