#not totally identical to the real one but whatever lol

[chiosblog]

GUYS ajdjsofnksnsks

I met a real celebrity today WTF

Look how majestic it is 💓

(but not much comfortable inside tho 😂)

#SCREAMING #GOING FERAL #BA where are you?? #i spent a solid 15 minutes staring at it #i even had my murdock jacket on what a day lol #not totally identical to the real one but whatever lol #trust me when i say i made some unholy sounds in front of a bunch of people #im sure at least one of them looked at me weird lmao #I totally did not expect that gosh #what a gorgeous unexpected early bday gift 😭💛 #literally all I wanted was seeing BA van so im sooo happy rn #this year started pretty good #i cant stop giggling #and grinning #and spinning #the a team #BA van #im going insane

[banamine-bananime]

AITA for trying to save my friend and keep the rest of my asshole friends safe from their bad decisions?

I (M26) just went through this real shitty breakup. So basically, my ex C (M lmao man fuck if i know his age idek if knows it. or has one i guess) has this god-fucking-awful habit of deciding to solve every problem by dying about it and/or fucking off without so much as a word to the people unfortunate enough to give a shit about him, except maybe his sister (unhelpful for the rest of us because she also inherited the "fucking off without a word" gene. man fuck this whole family for making me care about them. whatever). Also, killing himself inside peoples brains thats like a whole hobby for him. like okay either ghost us OR kill yourself in front of us altering the trajectory of our lives forever PICK ONE like a NORMAL person.

Okay wait im not explaining this well. So years ago C and W (M37 now) were partners but C was, uh, in a really bad place mentally (S is telling me this is more diplomatic to say than "crazy af") and that situationship ended as badly as a situationship can end. I mean W's told me he pretty much had his sense of identity as someone separate from C totally destroyed by that for a while, which like, in hindsight its kinda an accidental dick move that our team made him take C's legal identity, but in our defense a) the fuck were we supposed to know?, b) tbf he really did need it not to go back to prison, c) it's not like C was using his identity, on account of the fucking off and effectively-dying-as-a-solution habits, and d) i mean. i gotta admit it's also pretty funny in a really fucked way.

aw shit derailed on a tangent again

recently its just like, we just get so focused on one thing its hard to remember anything else, you know?

S is so good at getting us back on track though. thank god because you would not believe the number of irons weve got in the fire to keep track of, its ridiculous. (i love making my partner be the planner in the relationship lol. highly recommend being a passenger princess in the body sometimes. fuck massages, i'm telling you THIS is what you need after a long day getting shit DONE and taking care of everyone else's messes)

So I met C 6 years ago, right out of basic, when we were privates stationed at the same base. middle of nowhere. shit, this is gonna be hard to explain, just realized i should use different names for C to keep them straight. I knew "A" and W knew "E", i didnt meet E until years later. theyre alters and also the same guy but also not the same guy. dont worry about it if you dont get it bc ive dated both of them and i dont think i do. my life is stupid.

Bunch of bullshit happened, A ghosted (lol. you'd be high-fiving me if you knew him) and then found a problem to solve by dying. you get it by now.

Then i meet E, E encounters a problem and tries to die about it round one (i guess round two, after exploding in W <- LOL. you should be high-fiving me right now), E's sister drags him back to the land of the living, E ghosts, W and i start dating, W tries to martyr himself and disappears because i guess E rubbed off on him (dude i am on a fucking roll. you should be high-fiving me out of pity for my glamorously miserable soap-opera life if nothing else. homophobic not to), our team gets W back, E strolls back like he has no idea why im mad at him, we fight about it, makeup-makeouts about it, and E tries to die about it round two: in my brain boogaloo.

So thats how S and i meet. oops, guess i never introduced S? Feels weird to have to introduce ourself twice, people dont really meet us separately anymore LOL. S (M, ageless) is also C's alter, my partner in life and badassery and brain and body. and obviously freaky sex stuff, that goes without saying but i'm saying it anyway to brag. the swish swish to my stabbing people who really deserve it. Not really interested in your opinion on our relationship, it's not what i'm asking about. we're aware its not conventional, because we're not fucking braindead. Im so sick of all the "oooohhhhh this isn't healthy", "he's a male manipulator and youre codependent i know bc i learned psychology from tiktoks by girls with green hair", "why are you wearing your ex-boyfriend's armor colors while wearing his dead ex-boyfriend's armor while dating and sharing a brain with your dead mutual ex's alter", "have you considered going to therapy instead of a quest against death itself" blah blah blah. If youre so bored you need to judge our life then just get your own 🙄🙄🙄

we've been really on that sigma grindset the last few weeks. S has got our sleep optimized down to a tight triphasic 3.46 hours and we're minmaxing the fuck out of the rest of every day. Biohacked to shit over here. too much to do, so we have to make there be enough of our time to do it. who else is gonna? my teammates? the REDS? we're half batman half babysitter to a gaggle of idiots who can barely be trusted to wipe their own asses, let alone fight their own battles and make decisions like "wah wah wah A is dead let's just give up and cry about it or whatever".

Don't even get me started on W. Oh youre all about character-building wake up and grind self-improvement and taking leadership until we're making decisions you dont like, i guess. WHATEVER. this is why we dont listen to you.

its hard, okay. like, you cant understand the sheer fucking stress were under trying to keep all our plans going smoothly while keeping these guys safe while they're basically actively trying to unravel every carefully-laid thread and also strangle themselves in them. im probably going prematurely grey and also losing some time. its hard to remember when we need to hold back and use the kiddy gloves. i really didnt want to come to holding - uh, we'll call him MC (M25) - by the throat, passed-out. he's like a brother to me, been through thick and fucking thin together, so yeah, i feel really bad about that, my bad, we were the asshole there, but like, maybe stop throwing yourself in the way? like run out into the road you're gonna get hit by a truck no matter how hard they slam the brakes. mfw the conses quence. but im NOT asking about that. everyone's been on our dick about "please god stop doing all of this" and abandoning A and trying to break us up way before that, and THAT'S what im asking about

Anyways tl;dr are we the asshole for getting shit done when it takes methods that all our monday morning quarterback friends dont like

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OP has offered the following explanation for why they think they might be the asshole:

it really was a dick move to dangle my teammate's limp body in a chokehold even though it was basically an accident and also not even directly relevant to the question

OP has offered the following explanation for why they think they might not be the asshole:

okay but we're right

#red vs blue #rvb restoration #lavernius tucker

[our-abinary-experience]

let's talk about anti-xenogender bigotry, as it often reveals a lot of how people see gender, and especially nonbinary gender.

this post in particular is inspired by a reddit post i found by accident when i just wanted to download the xenogender flag (lol).

the post was shared by a trans woman who claimed that xenogenders aren't genders and thus not valid. she made sure though to say that she totally supports nonbinary people.

her first point on why xenogenders don't exist was that how valid a gender is is determined by its societal support, and since xenogenders are only supported in "fringe extremist "trans" spaces", they aren't real.

firstly, interesting that any trans person who supports xenogender people gets their trans card revoked. we're no longer trans, we're "trans".

secondly, hinging the validity of a gender on the amount of social support it has directly contradicts with her supposed support of nonbinary people. maybe she happens to live in the most nonbinary-friendly place ever, but overall, the very concept of nonbinary gender does not have a lot of societal support. so, according to her logic, nonbinary people are inherently less valid than binary people. some might even say that only fringe extremist "trans" spaces support nonbinary people. and, while trans itself is not a gender, if we add gender modality to the mix, then binary trans people don't exactly have massive societal support either. as a trans woman, does she consider her womanhood less valid than cis women's? basing the validity of a gender on societal support doesn't make any sense because there actually isn't a single monolithic society, and the societies that have historically recognised and celebrated more than two genders have been forcibly binarised by white european colonisers. did nonbinary gender become less valid over time and now it's slowly gaining validity as support for us is slowly growing? none of her logic in this makes sense. her rhetoric is inherently exorsexist and binarist, not just against xenogenders but basically against any nonbinary gender which she claims to support, and against cultural genders too.

the "societal support" argument completely falls apart because it means that every marginalised identity of any kind is inherently less valid and less real. she's revealing her bigotry here: it's not really about societal support, it's about which genders she arbitrarily decides are real and valid.

her second argument why xenogenders are not real was that any gender that exists outside of a triangle of male, female and genderless doesn't exist. you can only slide between those, like being hallway between male and genderless or in the middle of all three, but not outside. this is the classic gender trinary of male/female/agender and it's how i used to see gender as a baby enby.

firstly, gender isn't bound to whatever spectrum you personally decide is acceptable. there are many ways to be outside of that triangle besides xenogenderness. this logic basically says that the only valid way to be abinary is to be agender. not even abinary men or women exist in that logic, since the concept of abinary doesn't exist besides agenderness.

so, how can someone say she supports nonbinary people while saying a whole lot of us aren't real, even the ones who aren't xenogender, simply because she, as a binary person, thinks she has the right to decide what the gender spectrum looks like and whose gender is real and whose isn't?

all her points on why xenogenders aren't real also apply to multiple or all nonbinary genders. especially coming from a binary person, it reveals a huge ignorance to the nonbinary experience as well as a very narrow view of gender.

we're all in this together. clearly, exorsexists can't tell the difference between someone who is xenogender or someone who is, for example, ilyagender, or maybe even someone who happens to be within that gender triangle but within that have a gender that is not socially supported, like proxvir.

this is all the more reason for all of us nonbinary people to stick together and not draw lines in the sand about which nonbinary gender is valid and acceptable. if something harms one of us, they always end up harming all of us in some way. we're in this together.

#abinary #our abinary experience #actually abinary #xenogender #nonbinary #enby #exorsexism

[moonyinpisces]

re: your last post, i would really love to get this ask answered but i can understand if you don't (and i definitely do not expect this to be answered publicly), but is there a post that i can read in which you've explained your "love and sex are connected" stance? i ask because i'm so curious to read your thoughts about it, coming from someone who agrees with that thought, i'm just curious about the specifics of what do you mean when you say that (for example: does that mean that by definition asexual love is platonic and not romantic? is there space for asexuality or aromanticism in this idea? i think that love and sex are connected and that there still are people who are asexual and can have partnerships, so that's why i was curious about more details on that).

sorry for bothering you and thank you in advance if you answer my question 🩷

you're totally fine! i hope it's cool i answered it publicly, i think it's a topic that a lot of people shy away from. luckily, i have little to no self preservation. i'll just re-explain my stance here 👇

i think just inherently, if we call a piece of media a love story it implies sex. this is a fact no matter how deep you worm your way into internet culture and try to convince yourself otherwise. now that doesn't mean sex is going to happen, or even be mentioned--that has to do with the rating/presentation of the media, not the media itself (one time almost a year ago i mentioned this same topic and someone specifically cited the little mermaid as ace rep. and i was like in the sequel they... literally have a child? and then the person blocked me lol)

now can love be platonic? absolutely. can people have love for others and not want to fuck them? yeah, i would say a majority of love experienced globally is the platonic/familial sort lol. but a love story is only platonic if it's designated as platonic, meaning that at its root, the implication is sex. if i want to divorce sex from the romance, i have to explicitly define it as such. meaning if we call, for example, good omens a love story, that implies sex and sexual attraction unless the canon ever explicitly tells us differently. a love story includes sex unless it can prove it doesn't, that's just... the nature of being a human being living in a human society lol

and i think that's a scary concept to people who have labeled themselves as sex-repulsed without digging into WHY they feel that way in the first place. but i think further than that people are too bogged down in connecting their identities with fiction to the point that the work becomes divorced from fiction, so you have huge swathes of people claiming characters as whatever they want external to the canon in order to feel secure in their own identity. fascinating subject, too dense to get into in a tumblr ask haha

i think at the crux of it what i need people to understand is characters are not real people, they do not have aspects deeper than what we're shown in the canon. characters are simply functions of the plot. like take two characters in a love story. sure, if these WERE real people, TECHNICALLY someone could say "they can have sex and actively want to have sex and be attracted to each other and still be asexual!" which. uh, sure, but if a mouse said that about a kia sorento, etc etc. like that potential reading has so little bearing on the story that i know it's just pulled out of someone's ass so they can manufacture deeper meaning and "representation" out of the media they consume because they're not getting that representation elsewhere. which sucks! but! just because something COULD be canon doesn't mean it IS canon and in our current climate of media illiteracy, that's the unfortunate trend to how people are choosing to consume media. self-first rather than story-first, internal vs external, individual vs collective. you can go on and on.

and of course. of course. you can negate ALL of this by just telling me it's not that serious and media is consumed in the preferred method of the consumer, that's what it's meant for. i am fully self-aware i come at this like i have two english degrees. and for that fact, rest assured i will always be deeply deeply uncool

#hope that helped explain a bit about what i mean #at the end of the day i think words have meaning that that has made me public enemy number one #ask box

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

hi, sorry if this isnt a good blog to send this to i just dont know where to turn atm (if this isnt a good blog to ask for help plz lmk where would be better, soz). im 22 and figuring out im sapphic & im trying to join online lesbian spaces but everyone seems so anti-babydyke and im starting to notice that being a lesbian is more about discourse and infighting than it is about wanting to kiss a lady. i thought it was about kissin ladies and thats what i want but how do i make other lesbians not hate me? i feel like all of the other lesbians expect me to have a PhD in lesbianism before i call myself that, before i consider a femme attractive, its like i have to pass thru all these hoops to prove myself even to other queers that im a real lesbian because i can name every lesbian historical figure. again super sorry if this is a bad blog to send this to i do not have a clue who to ask about this or anything im totally lost rn lol (genuinely sorry for literally being that annoying baby dyke ppl complain about rn. ignore me if you want im not gonna be tilted. thx for listening

This isn’t a bad blog to send this too. I’m just genuinely sorry you are going through this and I’m sorry if I don’t have a way to help. But I’ll try my best!! And maybe some more people in the comments will be able to help in ways I can’t.

But just know I’m sending you lots of love and that there isn’t anything wrong with you. At the end of the day, regardless of whatever else is happening, your sexuality really is just simply who you are attracted to. And that’s okay. You are enough ♥️♥️

(I’m also going into this assuming you are at least 18+, so I apologise if I’m wrong on that )

Firstly , you aren’t just seeing things. There is definitely a lot of infighting in the community. Like a lot. I would say it’s typically more intense and in your face online then it is IRL, but I’ve also seen IRL gay groups go really deep off the end with with this stuff.

From what I have read and from people I have talked to, this has sadly sort of always been a thing. We just have different waves of it and different things it might be focused on based on the time period and the world events affecting that at the time. I think in general it’s a very human thing that allllll groups do, but when you are in a marginalised, oppressed and small group of people it can feel a whole lot more concentrated and obvious because there is less room for it to go.

Again, this is just based on conversations I’ve had and things I’ve read, so take it with a grain of salt. But there has also been misunderstandings, disagreements and different beliefs on what things are , what they mean and who should do what in the community. Ranging from politics to fashion to marriage to sex to identities around butch/femme and what it means. For one piece saying something you have another saying something different.

This can cause a lot of confusion and infighting amongst people. A lot of tension at times. And because of trauma a lot of people tend to want to be around people with similar alignments in understanding and belief.

A lot of things can affect that like age , location etc.

But none of that is a reflection of you or your worth or your sexuality. And there ARE people in the same boat as you. Even when it doesn’t feel like it.

There have been waves in the past of some women using and or claiming lesbianism to be a response to sexism. We are currently living in the time after that. And because of that a lot of opinions and thoughts and actions taken place are in a response to that wave. Be it people trying to push it , denounce it , confused by it or hurt by it.

I think this has lead to some of the scaffolding of the current culture we have today.

I understand that need and drive for community and the horrible feeling that can come along when the said community feels like it is in shambles. I feel that way a lot too. And I’m sorry I can’t take that away.

I feel like I’m rambling at this point I’m sorry.

I just want to say though there is nothing you have to prove to anyone. We all figure this stuff out at our own pace. Anyone who treats you poorly for not knowing something or just genuinely not showing interest in it is on them. Your lesbianism doesn’t mean you owe anyone an opinion or a certain way of dressing or feeling. The only person you owe is yourself and that is to show kindness to yourself and be around people who respect you and love you for the wonderful lesbian that you are.

EDIT : I just re-read and you said you are 22 I’m so sorry I missed that 😩

#I’m so sorry if this wasn’t helpful #I think I went more off on my idea of why and less on how to fix it #but I’m sending you lots of love #I hope you have a wonderful day ♥️♥️ #asks #anon #answered

[holdoncallfailed]

do you ever think about the parallels between damon and graham and paul and john? the childhood best friends and inseparable creative partners, one is the pusher for the dream, and the other one is the arty emotional live wire, the jealousy, competitiveness, emotional breakdown, and dissatisfaction/unhappiness with their dynamic. eventually, one gets a new creative partner, and the wedge becomes a chasm. yet only one of them got the opportunity to fully reconcile while the other was robbed of it.

of course, they're not the same, and the level of success does make for a lot of that separation. but I see how much time and effort it took for damon and graham to rebuild their relationship, knowing it couldn't go to what it once was but still working to repair it. glad they did, especially when you hear paul say that one should never put off telling someone you love them.

yeeeesss this has been a point of great interest for myself and certain other rpf scholars on this site (hi @elena-ferrante). watching paul in get back really reminded me of damon lol...i think it's interesting that part of the tension between d&g and j&p is that the domineering control freak "spokesman" member of the pair comes across as the one calling the shots but is in fact so full of admiration for and places such a high value on the opinion of the other that he becomes sort of deferential to him... i think they all struggle(d) with their identities and public images being intertwined. but i also think that there is/was more love between them than we could possibly understand from the outside. i really sincerely think that john and paul would have reconciled if they'd been given enough time.

speaking more broadly to your point about the wedge & the chasm: i think another thing about why bands are so interesting and why they capture the public imagination is that they frequently present this homosocial fantasy of companionship that is very much rooted in an adolescent configuration of life , i.e. hanging out with your friends all the time, doing whatever you want, responsible for only yourselves, obligated to each other out of a shared passion. and that lifestyle is not compatible with The Institution of Adulthood, i.e. stable career, marriage and family-rearing, which still feels compulsory—if not totally inescapable—for most people in [heterosexual] society. a band can be a world unto itself but it is not the real world. there are soooooooooo many examples of bands falling apart once a member gets married and/or commits to a new creative partner because that development inevitably ruins the fantasy on which the band was built, consciously or subconsciously. the real world comes careening back into focus...and you can't ever get that old life back once you've deviated from it.

i think the assumption within heterosexual society that homosociality is something that one "ages out of" is very pervasive (and homophobic, natch, but we don't have to get into that now). that homosocial relationships—or even friendships more generally—are always ultimately secondary to romantic relationships (specifically marriage) is something that i think a lot of people struggle with as they move further into adulthood (i know i am lol). it just happened on a much more drastic scale for these guys because of their fame.

also so much of the stuff in this post is very damon & graham coded...

well anyway let's all kill ourselves.

#Anonymous

[southieparkie]

Hot Take Bunny Headcanons and Responses to Common Bunny Arguments that Really Aren’t Even Hot Takes Now That I’m Reading Over Them But Whatever Lol.

I’m gonna start off with some good ol’ headcanons.

Butters is a short king and Kenny is a tall king. That’s just how it is.

I headcanon that although Butters is fairly secure in his identity as an AMAB, he still finds comfort in, and even encourages, feminine pet names. Kenny calls him “princess,” “wife,” and very jokingly, “babygirl”

Butters smokes. Kenny is a stoner. Argue with ya mama. Also Kenny gets pissed sometimes because Leo gets lipgloss on his blunts and it just throws off his mojo. But he can’t stay mad at him for long <3

Bunny is a pretty couple. I don’t care they just are. Kenny has a very pretty face, very charming and very handsome. And Butters. Butters is fucking gorgeous. All of his bullies in elementary school got ugly. Him, though? He got his glow up.

I am a huge fan of flirtatious Butters. LIKE. HUGE FAN.

Bunny is ADHD x ADHD couple I’m correct I’m correct I’m correct.

I actually really like the idea of rebellious reckless Kenny. Like, that’s my shit right there. Because if he is, and he gets hurt, that gives Butters an excuse to doctor him up and be all fluffy with him.

Vic Chaos is Dr. Mccormick’s sugar mama-

Fuck y’all “Buttercup” is an adorable nickname. Nicknames in general are just adorable.

All of my other “hot-take” headcanons are inappropriate. So I’m not gonna talk about them-

What I wanna do now is take a minute (or twenty) to talk about common discourse-starters in the Bunny fandom.

But first, I wanna reiterate one more time. When I say butters is gnc, he is a gnc CREATUREEEEE. He is hyper-femme (me fr). He has meltdowns about his trauma, then covers his tears with makeup (me fr), he expresses his feelings through his sewing machine (kinda sorta me fr), has the best outfits in school (me fr), and will key your car :)

But don���t assume that I also believe he’s a meak, powerless, washed up little baby just because I headcanon that he’s gnc (If you automatically associate femininity with any of these traits, I’m gonna give you the nastiest side eye.) Butters, from what I can understand, is a slick little guy. He’s shady, he’s a gossiper, he’s prone to snapping at people, and I’m happy (<- lying) to admit that he has this weird jealousy relationship thing going on with women. Personality ≠ Hair and Makeup and feminine outfits. Those are two totally seperate things.

Protective Kenny

In terms of Bunny, people say that Kenny would not be Butters’ protector/save his little meow meow from the evil Stephen-Wephen. I’d like to argue that both of these aren’t outlandish ideas. They just need to be done right in order to seem legit.

Protective Kenny is such a real and accurate headcanon because…that’s who he is! That’s what he does! He protects his little sister from their questionable foster home and strange new school, he protects his friends from Cthulu’s clutches by stating that he’ll die for good if it means that his friends would be safe, he voluntarily goes to hell to protect the fucking world!

Question, if this boy is willing to sacrifice so much to make sure nothing harms who/what he loves, why is it so jaw-dropping to say that he would do so for his boyfriend?

I do get that this headcanon can be trivializing because, yeah, it does kinda bolster the whole “meak little overly-dependent meow meow” pretense onto Butters. Yes, Butters most likely will stand up to his parents one day all by himself, but what happens when Stephen inevitably responds negatively? I feel like Butters would double down after seeing Stephen’s reaction to being yelled at. Because snapping and delivering one loud, detailed, emotional monologue triggered by years of hurt, anger, and mental disintegration isn’t going to magically undo the complience, discipline, and obedience Stephen has drilled into his head.

Butters is going to back down and go back to obeying his father because it’s instinctual. And because of that, he needs someone to step in and encourage him to not fall into this headspace. He needs someone to let him know that what he feels isn’t disobedience, it’s his conscience recognizing that this is bullshit. And if that backfires, then yeah, Kenny’s gonna take matters into his own hands.

Now, the dramatic dinner table scene that ultimately leads to a shootout between Mr Stotch and Kenny while Butters watches on in fear while pissing his pants, and then Kenny shooting Mr and Mrs Stotch dead and running away with Butters to California (or vice versa) is kind of a stretch. But to defend the people who may see it as one big showdown: it’s South Park! You think these characters are going to sit over cups of tea and have a civil conversation? No! Sure, you’re allowed to dislike that outcome and dislike the fact that people write it in fanfics, but you can’t really blame authors for writing it this way because the source material is batshit insane. Think about it this way, if Matt and Trey were to write a scene where Butters stands up to his father and Kenny is there to back him up, do you think they would either:

A) Write it like this: Butters blows up at his dad, his dad retaliates, they eventually settle down and have a reasonable conversation, and then everything is fixed…

B) Write it like this: Butters blows up at his dad, his dad retaliates, Kenny steps in, Mr Stotch attacks him, they get into a gunfight with lasers and condoms rain down from the sky and Mrs Stotch flashes her tits and there’s totally unsubtle political commentary in the form of a satirical new character nobody cares about and Holy Shit, is that Joe Biden on a bicycle?!?!

Idk. I’m neither Matt nor Trey. So anyway, Kenny is a protective boyfriend.

Stephen-Hates-Kenny

I honestly don’t think Stephen would hate Kenny as much as Bunny fans think he would. Although he’s a crude kid and one that’s mysterious and questionable when it comes to making money, it’s not like he’d be outright vitriolic towards him at first sight.

What I think does happen is that Stephen starts to dislike Kenny because he can tell that Kenny has an obvious influence over his son. If his son doesn’t meet the standards that he aggressively sets for him, and he knows that an outside force is disturbing that process, then yeah. I would assume that Stephen wouldn’t like whoever that “outside force” is because that person is taking control away from him. Not because he’s poor, or a manwhore, or even because Stephen and Stuart may or may not dislike each other. It’s simply because he’s no longer allowed to manipulate and warp his son into what he believes should be the standard, because Butters is starting to think for his own and not living by the ideals and harsh life lessons his father is instilling in him.

Homophobic Stephen Stotch

Okay, this one has takes that I both agree and disagree with. Some Bunny fans think that Stephen would be totally homophobic and unsupportive of his relationship, others believe that he wouldn’t care much in that regard and even support him. Both sides just seem fundamentally weird? To me? I don’t think that he’s homophobic, per se, but I definitely don’t think he’d support it full out.

The main evidence people use in this debate to prove that Stephen isn’t homophobic is the fact that Stephen Stotch…is literally gay himself. He has a history of going to gay bathouses and watching explicit gay films. So yeah, if this is a thing, then how would he be homophobic? Easy answer. Stephen doesn’t seem all too proud of himself for his behavior. In the same episode, he expresses to his wife that he doesn’t want to be this way. So yeah, he’s fruity, but in a “Catholic gay man is ashamed of his wicked ways and wants to undo his sins before God” way, or whatever the hell.

But that isn’t it, there’s another piece of evidence that argues that he is homophobic, and that’s the infamous “Butters Bisexual” episode. When Butters is almost tricked into sexually gratifying Cartman, his father walks in. Petrified, he sends him away to a gay conversion camp. Pretty harsh stuff, and pretty telling of where he stands in terms of homosexuality, specifically when it pertains to his son. At the end of the episode, though, he…accepts? His son for being bi-curious. And then the bi-curiosity is no longer explored nor mentioned or alluded to for the duration of the show up to season 26.

I feel like another vital piece of evidence that happens to be forgotten when having this conversation is how Stephen responds to Butters getting into a relationship period. He doesn’t seem apalled by his son getting a girlfriend at all, leaving us with the conclusion that Stephen isn’t against the prospect of his son finding a partner. But it still leaves a few questions unanswered, the main one being If Stephen is okay with a straight relationship, what would his reaction to a gay relationship be?

In my opinion, I really think it’s all a matter of perception and interpretation. The problem in this discourse isn’t exactly the idea of Stephen being homophobic or supportive. (either interpretation is backed up by canon, so it’s a matter of choice really) The main issue that people take in this aspect of Bunny is the extremity of either interpretation. Rampant Homophobe Stephen Stotch kicking his son out and murdering his son’s promicuous boyfriend v.s Accepting Healing Understanding Stephen Stotch who loves his son and embraces his son and his boyfriend with loving, caring arms. Neither of these are accurate responses to the supposed scenario of Kenny and Butters dating to me.

Raging Homophobe? No.

Accepting Ally Parent? Not exactly.

Closeted Gay Man who renounces his own homosexuality as well as his son’s? Yeah, that’s probably it. But IMO a combination of both sides of the discourse can be accurate and interesting if explored with nuance and an extra dose of consideration. I’m down with either.

Womanizer/Cheater Kenny

Uh. Idk. I do think it’s a little strange that people translate “10 Year Old Boy is exposed to sexual content and infatuated with it” to “He will grow up and get around with many girls (and maybe many boys).” Ultimately, though, it isn’t something I have extreme hatred towards, moreso something that I just. Scratch my head at. And don’t really have any need to talk about. Then again, it’s not a headcanon that has no evidence to back it up. Kenny does pursue sexual encounters even at a young age. He spent what I’m assuming to be multitudes of money to buy a concert ticket and condoms, and then he sat down and watched over an hour of said concert, solely to get a BJ from Tammy Warner. So, yeah, maybe he is seeking out stuff he shouldn’t be seeking. Plus, when you take puberty and hormones into consideration, Kenny might find himself persuing a few sexual encounters as a teenager.

One scenario that I see in Bunny fics a lot that really doesn’t make sense to me is Kenny selling himself for money. Like, yeah, okay, that headcanon is also backed up by canon. He was offered $20 (I think?) to give a popular radio host a BJ. But idk? I feel like that’s something the fandom should talk about more.

Cheating Kenny just pisses me off. Like, what? The most loyal character on this show would not cheat on any of his partners, and he sure as hell wouldn’t cheat on Butters. And you can play the “it’s for angst purposes!” card all you want, but out of all of the angsty shit both of these characters go through, you wanna take the easy way out? Yeah, no. We’re not even gonna go there.

Going Native

“Going Native had no particular moments that would ever allude to Kenny and Butters becoming a thing!”

Yeah. Exactly. That’s kinda the point of crackships. You don’t need any pivitol moment to justify the ship, you just need two characters, an Ao3 account, and a broad imagination. Besides, Going Native develops Kenny and Butters’ friendship. And where there’s friendship, there’s also potential for a romantic relationship!

Angst vs Fluff

I’m sorry, but if you base a ship’s validity/quality on the angst-to-fluff ratio, I just think that’s rather silly. People often make the claim that Bunny is a boring ship because it’s too fluffy and every time I see that take I just have to internally face palm. Isn’t that…good? Isn’t fluff a good thing?

I think the reason people don’t like overly-fluffy ships is because fluffy content in general mostly consists of nothing but cuddling, dates, wedding, domestic endeavors, and overall cuteness. Nothing about fluff makes you think, and that’s the point.

What drives them away from all of that is the obvious lack of sadness. It’s showing only one side of the story. In some cases, people wanna see a breakup, trauma, another breakup, an impromptu suspected cheating arc, character development, some more of that good old trauma, and then you can get to the cuddling. Kind of like a reward for using your brain and analyzing the characters first before portraying the romantic and silly stuff. But if you specifically enjoy the cuteness of the cuddling, then you’re neglecting to mention the characters’ dramatic backstories and placing a magnifying lense on only their good, loving qualities. Which isn’t inherently bad?

Like, yeah, I like angst too. Sometimes, I need to see my babies hurt so that I can see how they cohesively decide to move forward as a couple. Cool, three-dimensionality. But what if I just want to see Kenny and Butters rub their noses together like cute baby cows in love? What if I wanna see them awkwardly fumble and cutely make mistakes in an effort to make their first date the most perfect evening of their lives? Shit, what if I just wanna read about them having a pillow fight and playing footsies under the covers? Wanting either of these things is not a bad thing to want.

Now it’s very plausible that I’m just running my mouth here and people simply want to read about character depth in fanfics. That’s fine! We all have our preferences! But when you start disliking a ship simply because the popular consensus among the ship’s fanbase is that it’s fluffy, then I just think that’s a little silly.

In my opinion, yes! Bunny is a very fluffy ship! However, with both of these characters having a history of trauma and abuse on them, chances are you’re not going to get fluff 100% of the time. There will be fights, there will be hardships. Hell, if people are bold enough to portray such a thing in fanfic, and if it’s done in a way that is tasteful and in no way romanticized, then there may even be some abuse or manipulation thrown in there as well. It’s not a crazy concept, the cycle of abuse is a real-life thing that real-life couples struggle with.

Whether or not these struggles are portrayed is up to the author of the work. But if you don’t see any of that in Bunny fanfics, then you are capable of being the author that takes that risk and writes about it in your own fanwork!

ok thats all i can think of im gonna go drink some apple juice now

#south park #sp #leopold butters stotch #kenny mccormick #sp bunny #kenny x butters #friendly reminder that as i am posting this it is STILL bhm #which means i am correct and immune to criticism about this post /j #/j

[xxlovelynovaxx]

Since we're doing controversial opinions:

If your external identity is different from your internal identity, I think that's fine.

If you want your external identity to match your internal identity, I think that's fine.

I'm a transhumanist. I believe in total bodily autonomy and people being able to alter their bodies to the extent that will hopefully be physically possible one day in the future.

Whatever your identity is, I will believe you. It doesn't matter if you were born that way or not, if you became that way or are trying to become that way.

If you feel you "want to be" an identity that causes me distress and suffering, more power to you. Maybe I can trade you for one I could cope with better lol.

It's not bad to "want to" be an identity if that identity is bad, and saying only people who already are that identity the "right" way can feel that way is just saying that people who don't have a choice can SETTLE for accepting their own identity.

You're not some "privileged predator invading real [identity] spaces", whether your external identity is actually privileged or not, in the same way that neither trans women nor trans men, or neither endogenic nor tulpagenic systems, are not invading "real" women's or system's spaces.

The experience of individuals who, for whatever reason, have a disconnect between their bodies and sense of self, from therians to people with BIID to more, is not identical to those whose bodies match, but both are marginalized. This makes "privilege" and "oppression" far more complicated, much in the way marginalized gender experiences do.

I don't trust anyone who is against bodily autonomy or assumes that genuinely held identities are "harmful" or "in bad faith" and use recycled bigotry to justify your reasoning. You are not safe if you stop accepting and start attacking whoever is considered acceptable to attack or that has an identity you haven't even bothered to try to understand (not that you need to understand to accept).

[deke-rivers-1957]

ECU High School AU Part 1

Yes I'll explain this mess in order of film release lol.

Clint - Clint's like the Cady from Mean Girls where this is his first time in a traditional school. He was homeschooled on his family farm his whole life. His three brothers were so much older than him so he never had any friends. Total freshman material as he looks to everyone around him for guidance. Vince would pick on him for being the new kid in school but Clint doesn't let it bother him. He wants to be friends with all the freshmen and looks up to the upperclassmen.

Deke - Deke was abandoned at a firehouse's baby hatch with no identification or birth certificate so no one knows how old he is. He was in an orphanage until he got adopted by his foster parents. His foster parents are so religious that they named him Deke, short for Deacon. They could only afford used cars so Deke's car would be the equivalent of a 1996 Chevy Impala. He secretly loves old cars from the 80s and wants to buy a 1987 Chevy Corvette convertible one day. His foster parents decided that it would be best to have him remain a sophomore instead of having him skip grades. Vince would pick on him for not having real parents which makes him very insecure about himself.

Vince - He's the Regina of the ECU characters. Ever since he became a popular influencer, he got a big head but a ton of money which he thinks makes him popular with the girls. He picks on all of the underclassmen and even some of the other juniors. Danny's the only senior he can boss around since he knows he can get away with it. He doesn't have any real friends because unlike Chad and Scott, Vince only ever uses his money to get the poor kids to do whatever he wants and doesn't respect anyone. Deep down he wants to have friends and a loving girlfriend, but he's got such a new money mentality that you have to act snobby to show you're rich.

Danny - He got held back a year because he's so poor he had to work instead of focusing on school. Danny's the closest person at ECU High that Vince has to having a friend as they were born in the same neighborhood. They both worked on Vince's videos which got him that influencer status to begin with. He only lets himself get ordered around by Vince because he always hopes that Vince will give him money. When he's not around Vince he really tries to help out the underclassmen and hopes that Vince would go back to being his friend instead of a boss figure. He used to be good friends with Chad, but when he dropped out Danny found himself relying on Vince's money to support the family.

Tulsa - He's that boy in Junior ROTC who takes it so seriously you get annoyed by him. Also doesn't help that he's an Eagle Scout and is so by the book that he'd be seen as the teacher's pet and hall monitor. Tulsa's only a sophomore so he's always looked down upon by the school's "Mean Girls" and hated by his own peers. He wants to act as the freshmen's big brother (especially Clint's) by giving them advice, but he just comes off as preachy and annoying. Josh is the only one who always listens to him.

Pacer - While he wasn't homeschooled, he'd struggle with his identity. He's been picked on before for being mixed race, so he thinks that everyone's automatically gonna pick on him. He'd go into high school as a freshman not knowing how he should label himself, since high school is usually all about labels and cliques. The "Mean Girls" would look down at him because of this on top of him being poor. Clint was the first kid that Pacer trusted as soon as he met him. He realized that Clint isn't prejudiced or judgmental about him so Pacer actually considers him to be a friend.

Glenn - His parents were so problematic that he was taken out of his home and went through multiple foster homes. He is peak "troubled youth" and has been to juvie at least once before finally going to a loving foster home. He wants to be a good kid now that he found better parents so he takes his education very seriously. Despite being in different years, he really respects Deke and can relate to not having a good relationship with his biological parents. Vince would pick on him for being "trailer trash" and a bookworm on purpose since he knows Glenn's on probation.

Chad - Chad was one of the school's best swimmers and even had a chance at becoming a junior olympic. His parents are rich and works with Scott's parents often making them close friends. They both want to prove that they can do things without their parents money and look down on Vince for being so vain. However, since Chad was never as smart as Scott to go to college, he drops out in his junior year to open his tourist business. As much as Chad wants to strike out on his own, Scott still sends him money whenever he can to support his business. He still keeps in touch with Danny and realizes that Danny's situation was worse than he thought.

Toby - Toby would 100% be that kid who'd get held back a year or two before he officially gets diagnosed with a learning disability making him an 18 year old sophomore. Toby would also be on the autism spectrum making him Vince's biggest target of bullying, but he still wants to be friends with everyone. He'd join the wrestling team, but would need regular physicals since he was diagnosed with Scoliosis as a child. He's very good friends with Walter G. and Jodie as they're both athletes, but he's not very popular with girls (no one realizes that it's because Toby's asexual and therefore doesn't care about dating).

Walter G. - He's the star quarterback of the football team. He started off as the project freshman backup, but after a couple years became one of the top high school prospects in the state as a junior. Just about everyone likes him and he always treats the underclass with respect. He'd totally stick up for Toby when students pick on his disabilities. He would always go to his and Jodie's wrestling matches if he didn't have a game that night (there's something about watching the blonds wrestle that excites him, but Walter still can't tell for sure if he's gay or not).

Ross - He's that senior who you're not sure if he'll graduate or drop out to work full time. His parents recently died, so being 18 he needs to work whenever he could just so he could afford food as he wouldn't be able to go to a foster home. Him and Danny would be great friends as Ross would try to get Danny to stop doing whatever Vince asks him.

Mike E. - He's got big dreams to be a pilot like his dad. He makes money babysitting and his favorite kid is a young girl named Sue-Lin. He'd be that type of kid who crushes on the teachers and the nurses, but he still cares for his friends. He's got a protective instinct where he's one of the only freshmen who isn't afraid of Vince.

Mike W. - He dropped out of high school in his senior year after a tragic accident killed a good friend of his. The grief of losing his friend was so great that Mike ended up moving to Acapulco and took up odd jobs. He still keeps in touch with his parents and wants to go back to graduate, but he knows that for the time being he needs to travel alone and think about his life path.

Josh - Similar to Tulsa, he's that type of kid where being in the Boy Scouts is his only personality. He's the only one that actually respects Tulsa's authority as the hall monitor. He's the younger cousin of Jodie and thinks he's too rude and crude to be friends with.

Jodie - He's the star champion wrestler of ECU High and has been since freshmen year. Him and Toby have a friendly rivalry and wrestle each other all the time for fun. Jodie doesn't like Josh as he thinks Josh is that lame freshman who wants to be the teacher's pet and can't think for himself. However, he's so friendly to people who are different and doesn't care that Toby has special needs or if a guy comes out as gay (he's actually bisexual himself). If you pick on his "kin" he's gonna attack you which has gotten him suspended before. He's the big brother figure that the underclassmen actually listen to and completely scares the life out of Vince.

Part 2's coming out soon.

#ecu discussion #ecu high #this took me way too long to make lol #elvis fandom #elvis film

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sorry for spam liking/reblogging ur swap au LOL. but i saw u asked for swap au asks and i have plenty of questions so:

would light and l end up dating in the swap au? would it be fake dating like canon yagamane or real dating like canon lawlight? if they do date do you think they’d be open about it or would they consider it too much of a risk to their kira personas? what would be soichiro’s reaction, and misa and the task force’s opinions?

does l like light’s blond hair or does he prefer his natural hair? and what does he think about his outfits (canon l was so horny for light even when my guy was wearing khaki everything and like. brown suits. what would he think of light wearing goth fits with tons of accessories (inc chains) and skirts and stuff 😭)

how comfortable do you think light and l would be with mikami and kiyomi discovering their kira identities, on accident or on purpose? because they’re still pro-kira, right? on that note, how comfortable is light with mikami and l with kiyomi? what does light think of mikami being in love with him (i assume he knows, lol)?

is light’s fanbase more international or national? and what’s his relationship with his fans like? what does the general public think of him? what do other celebs tend to think of him? and speaking of other celebs, have light and ryuga hideki interacted? ik you said light is more of a performer than an actor but if he’s acted at least a little, was one of his roles a romance movie with ryuga hideki like misa in canon?

how do ryuk and l get along? are they buddies like canon ryuk and light? and how do light and ryuk get along when they meet in this au? does light play video games with rem like he does in canon with ryuk?

do any of them have pets? i could totally see light with a giant fluffy cat.

does l act similarly to canon, eating lots of sugar and sitting weirdly and stuff? his fashion style seems a little more similar to canon light’s, is it just for appearance’s sake or does he find it comfortable? does misa still like gothic and occult stuff? is light still a huge nerd?

what’s light’s relationship with sayu and sachiko like?

how did l find the death note (sorry if u already mentioned that)?

sorry for spamming you with so many questions, ik it’s a lot but i started writing them and just kept thinking of more as i went lol. i love the swap au, it’s so fun, and your art style is literally so gorgeous i’m obsessed with it.

have a good day <3

THIS IS SUCH A BIG ONE I THANK U FOR UR SERVICE 🛐🛐

light and L probably wouldn’t end up openly dating though they’d definitely flirt terribly and they may date in private. they definitely feel. a certain way about each other. but both are far too smart to draw suspicion to themselves by dating. misa probably sees it coming because their frustrations were very similar from the start and they have similar opinions about the government (even if she thinks light is harmless and L is kira). soichiro is a different story because he’s likely wary around L anyways. L doesnt like the police even if he’s working on the case by recommendation and when light waltzes in and makes contact he knows immediately that L is the type of person light would get involved with to make him uncomfortable. he still refuses to acknowledge whatever light is going through isn’t something he’ll grow out of.

i’m not sure what hair color L likes better! he definitely thinks light is attractive but he’s still primarily attracted to his intelligence. im sure L is. Completely Definitely super Normal about light’s fashion choices…. (no one believes him)

L wouldnt be comfortable at all with kiyomi discovering shit because he’s a very secretive lone wolf as always and wouldn’t want her messing anything up for him or light even if she’s a supporter, but he gets along with her just fine as a person. Mikami likely knows fairly quickly light is kira 2 because light tells him. they’re best friends and mikami is his manager so light probably manipulates mikami’s feelings for him as he does with misa in canon (without dating him) but sees him more like another rem. he’s a friend, but definitely not “anywhere near his league”.

i imagine light’s fanbase is more international! japan is pretty rule driven and strict so like ado’s “usseewa” he probably gets a lot of people in japan disliking his music and talking controversially about it but internationally in countries that have a more rebellious outlook he’s the coolest guy around. his relationship with his fans is not unlike his relationship to his peers in canon, he charms them and talks to them and looks cute and genuine even if it’s an act, but he’s a bit of an outcast among his peers who think he’s a bit of a freak or a mental case. and also- funny you mention hideki 💀 i never did decide on this but it had crossed my mind

i talked about ryuk and L in an ask i answered a few minutes ago so ill go more in depth on the others! light and ryuk get along much the same as misa and ryuk did, but ryuk thinks light is far more entertaining than L so hes a little more enthusiastic. when it comes to rem i think he would play games with her! he probably treats her a little like a big sister or almost motherly figure since he doesn’t have one so rem becomes very protective of him

light doesn’t have a relationship with sachiko since she’s dead which causes a lot of the friction, but his relationship with sayu is a lot closer than canon! he basically had to look after her himself when their dad often wasn’t available and she thinks he’s super cool and thinks the world of him while light is pretty protective of sayu in return because it’s always been the two of them against the world

I figured L would find the death note pretty similarly to light because he’s already in japan himself.

I LOVE QUESTIONS SO DONT BE SORRY!!! IM SO GLAD U LOVE THE SWAP AU BECAUSE I DO TOO… AND TYSM 🛐🛐

have a good day yourself too!

#death note swap au #asks

[cozymochi]

DOES TIA Do any school club stuff? Does she have one she admires, likes? Dislikes?

THANKS I LOVE TIA LORE DUMP EXCUSES!! SHE IS OFFICIALLY in the Newspaper Club 😩, but not out of actual interest. It’s just a means to assist in documenting her school life as she’s supposed to do. It’s her credit, I guess. Honestly, they don’t really get into the logistics too much, so I wouldn’t sweat the details here either. I imagine Crowley just shoved her (and Grim) in there.

Though despite being in that club, Grim says he’s in the “Gourmet Club.” But that’s just self-proclaimed only 😩 that club doesn’t actually exist, it’s just an excuse to eat food after classes are done. (Tho im pretty sure this is actually true, I have no basis for this though, just a hunch, but my hunch hasn’t been wrong yet.) I’m sure his “club” has a lot going for it considering the sole member lives with freaking Tia, an already gifted chef. Besides, they count as one student. If Tia is officially in the Newspaper Club, then so is he via technicality.

Since cooking is an art she’d probably be more drawn to the “arts” clubs. It’s hard to say if she admires any though, given I think she can have a one track mind at times. I don’t think she really gives herself the opportunity to be interested in them beyond surface level. Which kinda sucks, cuz she might be missing out on new things to experience or be invested in. She’s not a sports person either, but nearly all her closer friends are in sports clubs, so she’s often present to see tourneys, games, whatever if they have any. Which btw, this is definitely a shift from how she’d be back in her home world, cuz if her friends there ever invited her to anything or ask her to do something like that she’d’ve just shirked it in favor of focusing on her long term goal (as per her Tiana allusions, cough cough. And now she may never see those friends again :’3). She still kinda tries to shirk going to these things because… habits, y’know. I’m not entirely sure she has any opinion on sports clubs themselves, again, that one track mind can sorta. Y’know.

The only club Tia would actually want to hypothetically be in is a Cooking Club because god forbid she stray from the path she set up for herself. Though, I am not sure if one is confirmed to actually exist at the school. The Master Chef/Culinary Crucible special class DOES though, so I don’t know. I DREW THAT! …If Tia wasn’t so serious sometimes, I don’t think she would be totally opposed to just joining in on the “Gourmet Club” thing. She loves food too.

Total aside, I like to imagine that the Newspaper Club is sparsely populated with a few guys (probably 3) who just don’t even talk to each other lol. They all do different things without exactly collaborating because it’s NRC. No one reads the newspaper anyway!! Internet exists, as everyone points out. Club time for Tia is sitting in a classroom and perusing her ghost camera photos and organizing things. Or just… think. Worst case scenario she and Grim are completely alone in that “club” and it was a dead club that only got resurrected cuz it was convenient for the bird man and happened to line up with Tia’s documenting school life thing. Honestly that feels real. She’d rather be doing anything else though. It’s not like clubs were a school requirement back home unless you wanted to look more rounded on some applications. Clubs weren’t exactly on her radar either, it was saving money to get into her own school of her dreams. So dividing time for a club and hanging with people was mostly off the table.

I think Tia is still trying to figure herself out though. A lot of her identity so far is still solely based around her long term career goal and hardly considers much of anything else if it doesn’t tie into that somehow. The whole “being transported to another world” thing is just an obstacle on the path right now. Omg I wonder if she’ll be forced to go through life changing stuff, learn lessons, and go with the flow on top of being forced to confront any internal demons that up until now she’s been burying from watching other guys completely collapse from doing so, plus… other typical things of the genre!!! 🫣🫣

…it’s an in-joke that I think she low key enjoys the picture taking. The cast is very pretty.

#cozy ask #twstposting #tia dumarais #THATS RIGHT!! THE FROG IS TWISTY WONDERLAND ITSELF. #if ur wondering why i keep saying non defonitive words like ‘i think’ its because #i also wanna just learn about her this goes along #i speculate on my own kiddos like lol

[lightlycareless]

Hi! I’m a big fan of works and they’ve inspired me a lot to start writing fanfiction again(specifically Naoya lol). It’s been probably over 10 years since I’ve written fanfiction(Although I do write my own original works) and I’ve been horrified to write fanfiction again after how my first fanfic was treated when I wrote it as a kid(the criticism was valid but they were mean af about it). So I was wondering if you have any tips you could share about writing fanfiction and how you balance characterization as well as character growth for a character like Naoya who in canon does not really have any? I hope this makes sense. I’m willing to elaborate further if it doesn’t but if you don’t wanna answer this, it’s totally fine too-💚

Hi!!! Omg thank you so so much!! I'm so flattered :')))) akgakjgjakjgujka I never thought i'd be in this position, idk, like, I was the one that looked up to others you know?

but aaaaah thank you so much for your lovely words 🥺❤️

Now onto the good stuff hehehe.

So, I guess the best way about characterization, at least what I think has helped me (and how I handle it? excuse me if it doesn't make sense hahah) is trying to first analyze the environment in which said character grew in, how it affects him, and how it has affected people in real life. (cause at the end of the day, reality surpasses fiction)

For example: with what little we got from Naoya in the manga (extras included) I can easily say Naoya is not liked, thus, he’s very lonely. The type of person that surrounds himself with “yes-people” because of what they represent, not because of who they really are. Of course, the older he got the more cold/resentful he became, but even then, I was sure that he always craved what he never had in his life, a family. Love. Appreciation for who he is. All humans want that, we’re social people, we live in societies for a reason. We need to have companionship, either through partners, or friendships.

I also get the idea that, even when he was supposed to be the next heir, no one really wanted him. Like, he got the job because “There was no one else” to do it, not because he was the best candidate. I have no doubt that if Naoya failed his weird plan of getting rid of Megumi, or whatever he did he didn’t become heir anyways, he wouldn’t know what the hell to do with his life, an identity crisis would certainly be on his way.

Anyways, in order to get inspiration I tend to hear lots of podcasts about people and their peculiar stories, true crime even, it’s how I concluded that Naoya is definitely a womanizer not because he likes the act (I’m sure he does) but because he craves attention, and he needs it whenever he can. That kind of stuff, you know? A lot of psychology stuff too, it helps you understand what traits a lonely person can inhibit, their actions, what different environments do to different people, so on and so forth.

Also, reading other stories is certainly very inspiring/productive too :> I can easily say that Naoya and his family is based on the Todoroki’s from bnha: prodigy child, rest of the children are neglected, some of then even jealous… it just made sense. And I’m sure there’s more examples like that. There’s no shame in getting inspired by other works, as long as it’s not a carbon copy, you know?

In the end, I guess the best way to do characterization/character growth is to do lots of brainstorming, in the sense of: what is the environment that this character grew in? the problems he can face in such place, the reaction, his main goal, what he’s doing to obtain it, and so on. Developing these things will make the pieces slowly fall into place when it comes to making a character’s background/growth/personality 🤭it’s really fun, more so when you have a blank canvas to work on 😏

Well, I hope it was of any help!! I really don’t know how else to describe how I do these things, I just spend most of my time daydreaming and such. But still, if there’s anything else you’d like for me to further explain, just let me know and I’ll do my best ❤️

Take care, and hope you have a wonderful weekend!!

P.S. Don’t let reviews discourage you from writing fanfiction!! I know everyone has their opinion, but at the end of the day it’s your work, and if they don’t like it, they can write their own!! 🥺 so cheer up!

#ask

[rocketturtle4]

Eclipse Episode 10

@thegalwhorants @wen-kexing-apologist @plantsarepeopletoo @grapejuicegay thanks for holding my hand

Of episode 11? Yes I fecking am.

Thoughts in brief (lol) I started taking these while I went fyi so they may feel a bit different from the previous lots idk

The way Akk changes his WHOLE POSTURE when Not!Max says the school motto is telling me everything I need to know here

with bonus award mention! Scholarship goals yada yada

GUYS THUA WAS SHAKING (I've done him dirty)

"What happened today has shaken me, whatever I used to uphold or believe in...has changed" - Thua

Okay so I still think he stole the diary and instigated the protestors but I am less convinced he's behind the other stuff but then WHO IS? also the message after the fire made me think it wasn't him too

Chadok thinks its Akk, is it actually Namo???

Everything about Akk and Ayan on the beach

"Mes managed" "Your time and his are different"

Then the fricken bedroom scene????????

CAN I PLEASE RELATE TO ONE CHARACTER AT A TIME, AKK IS TAKING UP TO MUCH SPACE FOR AYAN TO DO THIS TO ME

and Akk agrees, and he's SO HAPPY but it's not been dealt with yet right he hasn't grappled with his identity

See this is what I mean, he hasn't let go of anything yet he's trying to carry it all and he's going to break I can FEEL IT (I am ALSO PROJECTING WAY TO HARD ONTO AKK IF YOU WEREN'T AWARE - This show basically opened up my DO NOT READ journal from feckin highschool and put it on my screen AH)

THROUGH THE FRICKEN BARS

OTHER PEOPLE NOTICED TOO

AND NOW THEYVE RUN AWAY AHHHHH

for the record I also thoroughly enjoy all the Khan Thua stuff that is going on, it's SO GOOD. It's just that because EVERYTHING IS GOOD (AND I AM PERSONALLY DYING FROM AKKS EVERYTHING) I keep forgetting to mention them

He's SO CLOSE AAAAA

And now they're both at the protest

WAIT DID THUA NOT KNOW ABOUT KHAN being bruce wayne???

"Stop the Suppalo curse" LIKE I STILL WANT TO KNOW WHAT THE CURSE IS AND WHERE IT CAME FROM?

Can I please go back to my regularly scheduled unrelateable highschool characters because this:

Is TOO MANY RELATEABLE CHARACTERS

OH MY GOD KHAN SAID IT

Good on Thua for clarifying about the kiss

Yay theyre together, WHY DOES EVERYTHING FEEL SO OMINOUS

NO NO NO NO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

at least Ayan is hearing this

reference to the armband and upholding the honour AHHHHH

oh god Aye came in

He's So scared

But THEN AYE JUST LEFT

oh he's gone after Chadok, I get the urge but it's NOT GOING TO WORK

That ship has sailed teacher chick

The breath Ayan takes to try and regulate yelling at the female teacher

THE HUG

Ayan: "I'm worried about you Akk" YOU AND ME BOTH

OH GOD AKK DON"T PUT ON A BRAVE FACE

AYAN IS TRAUMATISED ALREADY OKAY

is he finally going to tell him about his uncle????

OH GOD NO, He did but AKKs Crying HeLP

the neCKLACE

"right now you need it more than I do" CAN I HAVE AN AYAN PLEASE

OKAY real quick

if they use Akks attachment to Ayans uncle to break the schools hold on him without causing him to have a total breakdown I will be okay with this

Next episode doesnt LOOK scary but I AM STILL SCARED

Still confused whether the necklace WAS the uncles or if it was GIVEN by the uncle

Is everyone on the same side now?

Is anyone going to clue Wat in about the fact that his two besties are now in gay relationships? (Like he'll be chill but he should be told)

How much pressure is teacher chick under?

ONTO EPISODE 11

I'm just planning to react again fyi probably with less screenshots

#The Eclipse #rturts is wondering #the eclipse the series #roc reacts to the eclipse

[hopper-wheeler]

every season el goes on a journey of self discovery away from mike and learns new important things about herself and the world and then she comes back to mike and they still love each other so much and every season people say “el needs to be her own person and go on a journey of self discovery away from mike to learn new important things about herself and the world!!!!!” like y’all it’s been four seasons of her doing exactly that. and mike and el just always love each other even more afterwards and have an even deeper connection each time. when will these people realize it’s okay to just not like a ship you don’t have to make up faux-feminist reasons to act like it’s morally wrong or whatever. you can just. dislike it lol

“I hate mileven bc I care about el! all she cares about is mike!! she’s solely dependent on him!!!” woah wild how they missed so many of el’s plot lines and character arcs while they were so busy “caring” about her

(sorry for dumping this in your inbox lol I just wanted to get it out there to someone who probably gets it, I hope you have a good day!)

don't be sorry, it's totally okay to vent here! and i do get your frustration all too well.

one of the things that bugs me the most about the hate mileven gets, aside from it being wholy underserved imo, is the way people keep trying to find reasons why it's problematic or badly written to justify their dislike. it's okay to just not vibe with a character/relationship. that's fine. it's actually a lot more respectable than whatever this is.

but people would really rather be annoying and waste their time on something they don't even like just to try and come out on top. as if instead of not shipping a couple of 15-year-olds they're actually standing up for women everywhere or something.

which is really funny when the woke takes these people tend to come up with are actually some of the most misogynistic, ableist takes i've ever seen.

"el needs to be her own person."

so women can't be in a relationship and be in love with someone and still be their own person.

"she's too dependent on mike, she needs him too much."

so women wanting support from the people they love makes them dependent and therefore weak.

"el doesn't even have any real world experience. she can't even talk properly and doesn't even know what clothes she likes. she shouldn't be in a romantic relationship. and it's weird that mike likes her. seems predatory idk."

so anyone who's been through terrible abuse and struggles because of that, has a difficulty with speech and understanding social cues, and/or is still developing a sense of identity shouldn't be allowed to make their own decisions or be in a loving relationship. and it's weird for someone else to take a romantic interest in them unless they're taking advantage in some way because no way would anyone just... love them for who they are.

great. that's actually very gross of you.

and don't even get me started on the canon erasure. it's like 90% of people didn't even watch this show. i'm tired of people claiming mileven needs to be given breathing room when they're the only couple to have been separated in some way every season. you can say whatever you want about st, but one thing the show has done since day 1 is give el, the character, plenty of agency. el is not stuck in hawkins. she's not stuck with mike. she chose that. she chose her family and we saw her do that, every step of the way.

so yeah anyone who says "i love el but mileven..." is full of shit. if you actually loved el you'd respect her choices and want her to have the people she loves by her side, supporting her.

#asks #anonymous #mileven #mike x eleven #ableism tw #anyway i hope you have a good day too 💙 #text

[stabgore]

vampies scream (‘96) headcanons !! ⟡₊˚

just a lil dump for me to keep track ! this is mostly gonna be billy + stu since they’re giving me brain rot lately :3 alsoo, feel free to reblog, reply or whatever ! :D i’d love to hear ur hc’s too :3

BILLY ⟡₊˚

he/him + some neoprns (im unsure which ones at the moment but i just know he uses them.)

bpd haver ! mostly a projection hc but he definitely experiences all subtypes to some sort of degree. (fp is stu..)

total mama’s boy. huuuge daddy issues. (projecting)

i fear this man is 100% autistic. his special interest is horror movies for sure, the way he quotes them so easily? autism.

loves loves loves deftones and radiohead !!!

TRANSMASC . nobody can disagree w me on this one and if U do you will be taken around back and shot <3 /nsrs /j

he can drive, he has his license, but he just prefers not too. wether this is to do with road rage or something else he Hates driving.

adding onto the last one; when his dad is being an asshole he often turns up at stu’s house with this Look and he immediately knows whats up and doesn’t ask any questions while grabbing his car keys. they drive for a while, often stopping in an empty field a bit away from town and just sit in silence as they look at the stars.

anger issues !!!! when something sets him off he is impossible to calm down, you just have to ride it out. as soon as he is back in a clear state of mind he is ashamed of his behaviour and apologises constantly; especially to stu.

has a half sibling that he didn’t know anything about until his mother left.

cat person . i will not take any disagreements

BILLY WEARS GLASSES BUT HE MOSTLY USES CONTACTS (BOOOO)

— ★ —

STU ⟡₊˚

has this whole surfer cool guy vibe going on but this man does not know how to surf. he took lessons as a kid but he is So imbalanced he just falls off the board almost immediately.

he has ADHD !!!!!!!

i feel like stu has quiet BPD — often bottling his emotions up until he finally bursts.

this man has such big brother vibes, i know he has an older sister in canon but he just reminds me of the middle child yknow?

HUUUUUGE dog lover . if he sees one across the street that man is running across the road just to pet it. i wouldn’t be surprised if he keeps treats on him 24/7

stu gives me Big kenergy . i cannot explain it TvT when he gets arrested (which is surprisingly a lot cus lets be real he’s a dumbass) he for sure smiles and poses for the mugshot.

— ★ —

STUILLY ⟡₊˚

(this one is silly but its kinda cute soooo…) i think if they did get away with the final murder and survived they’d definitely move away together, get new names and identities and live happily in a cute apartment or something with dogs and cats :3 they know theres something between them but they honestly cant be bothered to do anything about it lol

#scream #scream 1996 #headcanon #headcannons #stu macher #billy loomis #constantly editing and adding!

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

reading/watching/listening jan/feb 2k23

books

little weirds, jenny slate - if i'm being totally honest i think if you're not already in love with jenny slate this book might come across as cloying or twee. but luckily i am so i found it delightful

watchmen, alan moore - so good it's stupid. it's funny because i decided to reread this after having reread sandman in the fall and falling in love with it all over again, and while sandman is for grown-ups and that's part of why it's good (unlike the netflix show which is for babies which is why it's not), reading that one i was like, god, i was so profoundly lucky to discover this exactly at the age of fourteen, the perfect age to encounter it. with watchmen, i admired and am glad i read it in high school (if nothing else it informed and gave context for my understandings of... a lot of cultural discussions over the years lol), but i enjoyed it much, much more as an adult - the emotional landscape of it is just entirely textures unknown to the very young. like most things that have gotten insanely famous, the boiled-down cultural osmosis blurb on it is not quite inaccurate but it leaves out much of the appeal: its inventiveness, the intricacy of its construction, the way it feels expansive while being incredibly taut. and its compassion - its worldview is dark but very humane; rorsharch is pathetic and monstrous but there's a sadness in his story, too. i don't ever want to know what alan moore thinks about sally but revisiting her as an adult i found her believable, even familiar, her scenes with laurie a surprisingly real snapshot of a generational divide between women with different relationships to patriarchy.

language at the speed of sight, mark seidenberg - a (readable and accessible, though i glossed over a bit in the parts about their neural network experiments) book about reading, recommended to anyone interested in the literacy pedagogy stuff i babble about here sometimes. there was a chapter on the history of writing that perversely made me love the english language even more, but obviously my favorite part was the bit near the end where he talks about how ed schools suck because they are antiscientific institutions whose goal is not the transmission of knowledge but the socialization of young teachers into a particular ideology and identity role, which is 10000% true.

movies

the river (1938) - love a WPA doc

top gun - cult spokesperson and human trafficking apologist tom cruise is in fact one of the great jaw-clench actors of our time. no one before or since has put on a pair of sunglasses so well. at one point during this filmé - i think it might have been during the silhouetted kissing scene, which has such bizarre lip choreography it's an ingenious way to get around tom cruise's inability to convincingly portray sexual attraction for a human woman - i turned to @onihcinimkcin and said, "who is this movie FOR?" because i had always assumed it was very much a boy movie but it turned out to be filled with girl stuff like a sex scene with billowing curtains out of an eighties music video and tender homoeroticism. then i remembered about boys and planes and was like, well ok. (he said it was a shounen anime, which also tracks.) great to see a movie from when movies knew how to light scenes that took place at night. a fun fact about the plot of this film is that at the beginning of the story the captain or whatever states that the top gun program lasts five weeks, which means that maverick develops a rivalry with iceman, seduces his professor, falls in love, gets investigated and cleared for his best friend's death, goes through all five stages of grief, rediscovers himself as a pilot and a man, and befriends his former nemesis, all in the span of five weeks. this movie contains two separate scenes with the joyful terrible singing of BFFs. baby meg ryan's HAIR? my favorite part was when the shirtless volleyball scene happened where all the boys were playing with all the other boys and the soundtrack was playing "playing with the boys" because they were playing with the boys.

top gun: maverick - the title of this movie is so funny because it sounds like a standard sequel concept where it's like "top gun but now top gun guy is Going Rogue" but then i watched top gun and that's just literally his name. top gun: tom cruises. not as bonkers as its predecessor but tom cruise, an evil human being, has gotten better at the acting part of being a movie star in the past quarter-century, and that sound design/editing in the canyon sequence, when it's the big climax but there's no music, just howling wind? good shit! get those technical oscars babe! it is also funny that the mission is to destroy an enemy base and we literally never learn who the enemy is. they have to go to "the border" the border of WHERE? the movie will not tell you. the border of narnia for all it cares. THE border. "we want a war movie without the actual war, even more than the first time." sure. it has been a long time since i laughed at a movie as hard as i laughed when tom cruise and babygoose were fighting in the snow-covered forest and tom cruise said "no I was supposed to save YOU! what were you THINKING!" and babygoose said "YOU TOLD ME NOT TO THINK!" and tom cruise just stared at him dumbfounded and furious because he's right. his improvements in his craft, i should mention, do not extend to romantic scenes; he and jennifer connelly (i never notice this shit but DAMN, i swear she looks younger than she did in a beautiful mind and not in a good way) literally lie in bed ostensibly post-coitally together and it's like, aw, how cute. they're friends in a culture where they have platonic naked sleepovers.

werewolf by night - i've been watching a lot of marvel content over the past several months because it's good dumb background noise for mindless-ish work stuff. i don't know that this was the worst thing i watched? but it was definitely the most pointless. i can't believe they dragged gael garcia bernal into this.

guardians holiday special - WHATEVER, I THOUGHT THIS WAS CUTE. "mantis and drax want to fix christmas for peter so to get him the best present ever they kidnap kevin bacon" is a perfectly delightful concept. this is the kind of dumb shit i wish marvel would use their extended universe and cosmic playground to do more often, instead of boring terribly shot action scenes but now it's got that other guy in it too (the better parts of she hulk also landed here, although that show suffered from the problem of just not being good or well written or interesting at all).

guardians of the galaxy 1 & 2 - rewatched them and was confirmed in my belief that they are really underrated in the typical marvel rankings and that in particular they have more functional screenplays than almost anything else in the universe. 2 in particular was fun to revisit after hatereading the dreamer trilogy because it's a story about how peter turns out to actually by birth be more special than almost anyone and yet he should still kill his shitty dad so he can go off and have adventures with friends; there's also a whole other plotline about how his shitty dad-figure redeems himself but does so by committing a genuinely sacrificial act of love after delivering a sincere apology that acknowledges his wrongdoing. these are not high bars to clear but they work dramatically, they're better at this stuff than e.g. anything that happened in shang-chi, and, again, they made me appreciate that maggie stiefvater is so deranged james gunn seems well adjusted and wise by comparison. grim! "if you kill me you'll be just like anybody else" / "and what's so wrong with that?" is one of the best exchanges in a marvel movie ever and the only compelling moment to come out of a villain battle outside of, like, the killmonger stuff and a special little bonus present to me (a person who hateread the dreamer trilogy).

mikey & nicky - holy shit, what a fucking movie. i mean like a real fucking film. this essay says it all better than i could (and is wonderfully written to boot).

shakespeare in love - no one ever talks about this movie anymore except to complain about how harvey weinstein bought its best picture oscar, stolen away from saving private ryan. i can't weigh in on that because you couldn't fucking pay me to sit through saving private ryan, but i am here to say in the year of our lord 2023 that shakespeare in love absolutely fucks. i don't think i ever knew it was co-written by tom stoppard, but before looking that up i was already thinking how much more deliberately shakespearean the screenplay was than i could appreciate in eighth grade: attuned to the rhythm and musicality of its dialogue, and then also the crossdressing, the clowns, the indifference to historical realism, the bawdiness, the banter. the scene where will extemporizes on his lady love's imagined virtues to an increasingly displeased viola in disguise reminded me of the thing in the romeo and juliet essay i'd read about how romeo enters the play almost a parody of the petrarchian lover, enamored of an impossibly pure woman who can never be his, and finds real love in juliet, who unlike the addressee of a sonnet can talk back. there's a whole riff where shakespeare is on the couch at the apothecary's talking about how he's got writer's block and making a series of phallic double entendres involving his pen. gwyneth is fine. this movie's cast is INSANE btw, we all know judi dench won an oscar for eight minutes of screentime but like, geoffrey rush is in it? colin firth? imelda staunton? BEN AFFLECK? it's a movie that's incredibly fond of its subject without being in love with itself, riffing affectionately on the neuroses and vanities of writers and actors alike (the actor playing the nurse, asked what the play's about: "well, there's this nurse..."), luxuriating in sumptuous period costuming, bringing to life an impossibly sexy affair, letting itself believe in this brief perfect love. also it rightly understands that act 3 scene 5 is THEE scene of all scenes in romeo and juliet despite being less famous than both the balcony scene and their sonnetized meet cute. in conversations about the current blockbuster takeover you hear people complain sometimes about various kinds of movies that no longer get made and it struck me this was a perfect example: a genuinely smart, sexy movie for adults sparing no expense to look gorgeous at all times, but one that's also gleefully silly and horny and fun. it's a beautiful-looking period piece that won an oscar, but it's not what people think of as oscar bait; it's concerned above all with wanting the audience to have a good time. i feel the bard would approve.

tv

criminal minds: evolution - prentiss calls herself "mommy," tara is bisexual now, rossi says "fuckhead." they understood the assignment 100/10

ms. marvel - not amazing in the grand televisual landscape, but the best of the disney plus offerings, and the least ugly, most competently shot thing marvel has ever put out by far. the colors are cute and nice to look at and frequently we get camera decisions with clear purpose! the bar is low but the floor beneath it is littered with every other stupid thing they've done. the lead was adorable, too, looking forward-ish to see her with brie larson this fall and hoping she gets to stretch her wings on something worthy.

theater

a strange loop - so, funny story: i kept seeing ads for a muscal called a strange loop and thinking "oh, like the closing track of liz phair's seminal album exile in guyville, the song which inspired nineteen year old me to get a tattoo - wait, no, no one would name a broadway musical after a liz phair deep cut, they must be talking about the same concept she named the song for from some book i've never read." like, every time i saw this ad i had the exact same conversation in my head. then like a month before it closed @unbornwhiskeyy texted me to tell me that liz phair was playing in the lobby of a musical they were about to see and i was like SAY WHAT NOW? so obviously i had to go. anyway: delightful, rude, funny, sharp, genuinely provocative which is hard to make it to broadway with, fantastic ensemble work, a certain inherent thrill in seeing a broadway musical that won a tony and a pulitzer about being black and queer and broke, like, how did you get away with that? i don't know that it totally lived up to its own ambitions but i liked how hungry it was, how much you could feel it trying - it reminds me a little of reading white teeth in that way, a debut that arrives not quite fully formed but impressive nonetheless, and that you can feel kicking at the door to be let in or die trying. i thought the whole time i was watching it that i admired it and was enjoying it but wasn't exactly emotionally connecting the way it wanted me to, but as soon as the house lights went up i started to cry.

music

the one who wanted more, cheese on bread - i was like obsesssssssed with their second album, the search for colonel mustard, back my late teens/early twenties, and was thrilled to discover via spotify that they'd reunited a few years ago for a third outing, one which is as funny and melodic and clever and cool as their last. "party dance" references lil kim and kimya dawson in the same verse; if that appeals to you, i would recommend.

i also spent like nine million hours in january listening to the world/inferno friendship society's red-eyed soul which is still after 16 years a perfect album to me.

podcasts of note (i'm not gonna list like every random self-help interview i listen to or every one-off episode about a fitfluencer lying about creating custom plans turned christian vlogger married to a guy who lost his police job for being too racist and violent but it's the scamfluencers episode on brittany dawn)

behind the bastards - still trying to fill the YWA shaped hole in my podcasting heart. this comes close vibes-wise - conversational explainers of dark topics - but i haven't decided yet if i like it enough to listen to any of the episodes about people i'm not already interested in. the host is funny and clearly a smart dude but he has a new guest every episode to listen to him do the explaining and they are so far mostly dull and unfunny and not particularly insightful or smart (another critical YWA thing that makes it so special despite its many many flaws - michael and sarah are both fun to listen to when they react to things, and my exploration of the podcast universe has taught me this is NOT a common gift).

#medialog #medialog 2k23