#niall i love you but your choices are so strange <3

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loving you's a bloodsport by @rosesau l 106K l Royalty AU l Soulmates

harry is a bratty prince, louis is a guard who works in his palace, and niall is the only who's got his life in control.

as someone once said: this is not a love story, but love is in it. that is, love is just outside it, looking for a way to break in.

Fearless by @suspendrs I 97K I Childhood Friends I Famous/Not Famous

“You’re my best friend, Louis,” Harry says, barely above a whisper. Even if he was yelling, Louis wouldn’t be able to believe his ears. “And I know it’s been a while, but you’re still the person I consider my best friend,” Harry says.

Louis blinks, and then blinks again. “I honestly cannot say the same, Harry,” he says.

Or, Harry left home without a word after high school, and a lot can change in ten years.

Kill Me/ Heal Me @millionlittletings I 92K I Royalty I Dystopia

The kingdom of Scotland hasn't been in peace for decades now. In the heart of the country lies the rivalries, hate, and struggle of power. Amidst the chaos, five young men discover the meaning of life, friendship, love, hate, and heartbreak through their journey. Louis, who is struggling to find a place where he belongs. Niall, who will protect what belongs to him with his life. Zayn, who is learning to navigate through life. Liam, who knows when to use his heart and when to use the brain. Harry, who is set to kill anyone who will come into his way of finding the truth about his mother. From dealing with their personal issues to finding out the real culprit who changed the course of their lives, these five men are set to uncover the deepest and the darkest secrets of the kingdom.

adjudication @bottomlinsons I 75K I Royalty I Arranged Marriage

Harry's been engaged to Princess Charlotte of Ryde for as long as he can remember. He's come to know her, to love her, through the letters she's sent him over the past three years.

But when the wedding finally arrives, Harry quickly learns that nothing is as it seems. With his crown and country at stake, Harry must decide who to trust in this strange new land. And the sly Crown Prince of Ryde doesn't seem inclined to make things easy.

The Devil In My Brain by larryshares I 74K I Devil Harry

“Jesus Christ!” Louis yells as he jumps back in reaction to Harry once again popping up out of nowhere.

Harry doesn’t even flinch.

“Quite the opposite.” He jokes, holding out one of the drinks for Louis to take. A freshly sizzling vodka Red Bull; his favorite.

Louis’s initial reaction is the thought you remembered.

His rational brain says, “No thanks.”

“Louis.” Harry says it like a concerned parent, the tone of it matching the way his mum used to say Boo Bear, you have to eat your vegetables to grow up big and strong, and that ignites something feral within him.

“Satan.” He counters, same tone coupled with a glare and a pair of arms crossed over his chest.

-

Louis used to be good friends with Harry, until he woke up alone and immortal with no one to blame but The Devil himself.

Under your skin, Over the moon by @indiekissy I 35K I Royalty

If there was one thing Harry didn’t expect the day before his uni graduation, it was for his long lost grandmother to show up and tell him he’s actually a prince thats next in line to rule Genovia. He also didn’t expect to fall for his royal advisor, who happens to hate his guts. A Princess Diaries AU.

robbers and cowards @adoredontour I 33K I Enemies with Benefits

“If I didn’t know any better, I’d almost think that you’re enjoying yourself.”

The familiar voice immediately gets Louis’ blood boiling, shoulders tensing as he calmly spins around, trying not to draw any suspicion to the pair.

“You don’t know me at all,” Louis spits, managing to maintain the polite smile he’s been wearing all evening. “You’re just some asshole who always ruins my nights.”

“If I keep ruining your nights, why do you keep going home with me?” Harry asks, taking a sip from his own wine glass.

“I don’t go home with you by any choice of my own,” Louis says. “I think you’re annoying and I have no idea how I keep ending up in your bed.”

“You end up in my bed because you knock on my apartment door at two in the morning.”

Louis wants to punch the smirk right off of his face. “Maybe you should move,” is what he says instead.

or a modern day robin hood au where louis and harry (don’t really) hate each other but they hate greedy billionaires more

Strong Enough by @jacaranda-bloom I 20K I Exes to Lovers

“So…” Liam starts, and Louis instantly knows where this is going. He’s actually glad it’s Liam that's dragging the subject out from the shadows and into the light. Louis turns to face him, mirroring his position on the couch and nods, ready for him to continue. Liam takes a deep breath. “Have you spoken to Harry recently?”

Five years after Vertigo goes on hiatus, the band comes back together for a benefit concert. Can Louis and Harry work through their complicated past, or are some wounds too deep to be healed?

solid as a stone (when everything is gone) by @onlyforthebravee I 20K I ABO

“Why’d you take me with you?”

Louis startles at the question, the car almost swerving off the road in the process. He holds his breath as he waits for the twins to wake up and start wailing, but they don’t. They keep sleeping on peacefully, covered in the family blanket.

Harry’s looking at him with an unreadable expression.

Louis takes a minute, mulling it over. He answers quietly. “I hate to say it, but as much as we hate each other, I can’t bear to leave you alone to deal with this whole thing all by yourself.” and I wouldn’t be able to bear it if you died, he adds in his mind.

or, it's the zombie apocalypse and Louis is stuck with Harry, with whom he shares a complicated relationship.

once bitten and twice shy by @pinkcords I 19K I Christmas Fic

This time as his stomach rolls, there’s no doubt about it. He’s going to vomit. And if he does, it’ll be on Louis’ shoes, a nice little parting gift to go with the embarrassment he’s caused the both of them. “I’m gonna throw up,” he says just as Louis turns to look at him, blue eyes swimming with shock and confusion, and asks, “Is that true?”

Or, in a rush of bravery only senior year can bring, Harry confesses his feelings in a letter to his neighbor and best friend, Louis, only for the entire school to hear it and laugh him out of their small town in Wisconsin. Ten years later, Harry's a successful lawyer at Columbia Records, coming home for Christmas for the first time since he departed for college. He plans to work his way through the trip, eat his mom's cooking, and avoid everyone from his past for as long as possible. The only problem is best laid plans hardly ever go as intended.

Equals by onlythebravekat I 12K I 1970′s AU

Louis and his family work for the Styles and live on their property. Louis has dreams of traveling the world and never having to associate with Harry in any way.

The Boxer by heyidkyay I 4K I Uni AU

At the age of twelve Harry’s life is turned upside down. After a traumatic experience, he leaves school and finds comfort in boxing. Six years later and Harry finds himself facing some of his former demons.

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Capratone, The Asteroids & The Metronoids (for Beginners)

Tracks & Traces #13: I’ve been planning to write about the music of Capratone, The Asteroids and The Metronoids for sometime and have finally gotten around to it (somehow its been almost 3 years since the last T&T). The link between these bands is Andrew Lyster (now living in Brussels) and as I will explain, he kindly answered some of my questions for this hybrid Tracks & Traces. Since originally publishing this piece Richie Kelly of Capratone has also similarly added valuable information I would never have been able to share otherwise. Usually I just depend on my memory, the records, press cuttings and any surviving notes I took  from the times but as I got deeper into the story there were too many question marks about line-ups (pre-Capratone), the issue of a possible ‘lost’ Capratone album and don’t even get me started about The Metronoids!  At time of writing most of this music is hard if not impossible to find streaming online and I couldn’t even locate any band photos or videos either. Which is all the more reason to write a piece to mark their existence and hopefully spark a revival of interest. When I was putting the finishing touches to the article I did discover there is now at least some music from The Asteroids on YouTube. Not long after I originally shared this piece, Joss Moorkens of Capratone sent me two band photos, the first line-up (L-R: Fiachra, Joss, Andrew) and as a four piece with Richie Kelly (below).  

I first saw Andrew Lyster play (vocals/guitar) when I caught The World of Pugh in a venue I only went to once, Dillinger’s. Like many things from those days it’s long gone but it was a bar with a small stage (up some stairs?) somewhere off Dublin’s Capel St. (18/3/94). As I totally forgot who was in the rest of the band I’ll let Andrew take up the story.

“The World of Pugh was the first group where I wrote songs. I think it started around 1993. Originally it was Keith Swan on drums and a fellow called Brian McEleney on bass. Then in 1994 I brought some songs in and Brian took off to be replaced by Niall Brown (who was also the singer and guitar player for The Moustaches). Niall played bass for World of Pugh in the form where we had songs and did gigs.”

I’m sure someone like Joss Moorkens (then drumming with Tucker Suite) had told me about TWOP and the name had struck me (there was a very cool hand drawn flyer for the gig). They played bottom of the bill with Tucker Suite, Budge and Schroeder’s Cat, all part of a very exciting little scene at the time. Less than two weeks later I happened to see TWOP again on a bill with The Moustaches at a house party on Middle Abbey Street. The Moustaches, who sadly never released anything, were also part of this same scene (in my mind anyway). As I recall, this latter show was on the second or third floor of a semi derelict space in which a friend of both bands was living as a caretaker. Andrew has now told me that he and Keith Swan actually lived there and it was where TWOP rehearsed. I remember sitting on an old mattress and really enjoying the atmosphere (a cymbal was tied to a rafter). I do remember that TWOP had a real sense of humour on stage with some crowd involvement going on. They never had any releases but might well have recorded something (I’ve also heard tell of an unreleased album by The Moustaches!). This would be the last time I saw them play, perhaps it was even their last show? It would be another year before I would see Andrew onstage again.  

While researching this piece I did find an Irish band family tree which shows that Andrew, Joss, Fiachra Lennon and Brian Gough were in a band called Mudshark (1991-92), which was not actually their first band. Again, Andrew gave me some more information which I thought was worth sharing and clarifying about these early days.

“Brian Gough (later in Mexican Pets) had been in an even earlier band than Mudshark with me called The Foots. This band only played one gig in a pub in Dun Laoghaire in 1991. Our friends had to listen to the music from the street because they were too young to get in. After The Foots broke up I think Brian went on to another group called Harvey, and then Tucker Suite with Greg Barrett (later in Joan of Arse) on bass initially. Greg then did Schnorbitz with Joss, and had a cool band called Giraffe Running.”

Andrew’s next band would be Capratone (vocals/guitar) along with Joss on Drums and Fiachra on bass. Regarding song-writing Andrew told me, “For the most part I would write the songs and we would try to make them better by all writing our own parts through rehearsals. One or two were group written from stuff that happened in rehearsal.”  I first saw them in another venue off Capel St. supporting Schroeder’s Cat at Behan’s Bar (previously The Fox & Pheasant) (3/4/95) and again just ten days later at The Plough with (surprise surprise) The Moustaches and Schroeder’s Cat. I would get to see this line-up play quite often on local bills until Sept ‘97 (more on this later). I recall they also played a short tour around Ireland with US band The Make-Up (April ‘97). 

In early ‘96 they tried to record an album with producer Marc Carolan. Andrew told me it was to be called, “Le Plus Roll, because we felt our music was more Roll than Rock. I can’t pin down the exact date of the recording, but my guess is that it was in 1996. We had 2 days in a studio somewhere in Rathgar. It was a 24 track ADAT studio. I think it had a Soundcraft desk. The highlight equipment-wise was an incredible Ampeg bass stack that belonged to some professional band. Its sound was so authoritative and great that by the end of the long first day’s recording, when I had crawled into bed, I was woken up a couple of times by LOUD auditory hallucinations of Fiachra’s P Bass blasting through that thing. Marc, and the three of us all worked really hard for the two days, we did manage to record and mix all the songs we came in with, but I think the short time-frame worked against us capturing the right aesthetic. The means of production were expensive to rent and we couldn’t afford to record even in a project studio like that for more than a day or two.”

Luckily, one of the songs, ‘Homeward’, ended up on the Irish band compilation album, Zip Up Your Boots For The Showbands (1996). I always loved this intricate and explosive song and a whole album like this would have been quite something. The only place online you can hear it now is on a radio show I made for Dublin Digital Radio about bands that played in Dublin’s Attic venue. I must point out the musicianship of Capratone, it may not have been so obvious in the more noisy Tucker Suite but Joss was such an amazing and distinct drummer and both Fiachra and he so easily locked together. They created a lot of space for Andrew’s vocals and guitar for these catchy and very inventive songs to really flow. 

At some point in late 1996 Richie Kelly joined (on right in pic) on guitar and they played as a four piece. At some other point Andrew left but as the band continued things must have been going really well musically. According to my notes the last two times I saw Capratone play was at the start of September ‘97, supporting The Sewing Room and Luggage at Dublin’s Mean Fiddler and then a headline show in The Funnel venue at the end of the same month. This doesn’t mean they stopped playing of course but for whatever reasons I didn’t see them again. Things don’t stay static, I did get really into electronic dance music and clubbing the following year but continued to see guitar bands as well but gigs would clash, allegiances, circumstances and tastes change, choices have to be made. 

At some point this second line-up hooked up with Dublin label Folkrum Records (run by Dan Watson) and they recorded a mini album, The Art of Go, which was released in early 2000 (CD only) and produced by Simon Kenny aka Si Schroeder. At that stage Joss and Fiachra were still in the line-up with Richie and Eric Sexton (on guitar). I wasn’t sure if any of Andrew’s songs survived after his time with the band (on the Capratone page of the old Folkrum website he only gets thanked for the name) so I needed to ask him about it, “I didn’t write anything on the LP called The Art of Go. There was a strange overlapping series of line-ups in Capratone but when I left I think Richie Kelly (who was a recently arrived guitar player joining the original 3 piece) took on the song-writing job. As far as I know those Art Of Go tunes were all of his making. Richie went on to make a few attempts at recording subsequent line-ups of Capratone.” According to Joss’ short biog of the band on Last.fm, by the end of Capratone the line-up had changed completely from the original one. 

Since I published this piece Richie Kelly has been in touch and has kindly provided more detail about joining the band and how his role and the line-up evolved. “I saw Capratone in 1996 and was blown away. Even before the show ended, I wanted to join but that seemed unlikely. It turned out that Andrew’s song-writing was taking a new direction and he had decided to add a second guitarist. We were connected through an extended friend group and apparently word had gotten to him that I was as enamoured with The Beach Boys as he was. We bumped into each other and started talking music and I must have auditioned and joined the band shortly thereafter. At some point I brought a song to the band and we added it to our set (with my vocals). I started contributing more so when Andrew decided to stop playing, we just continued. We added Eric Sexton, a friend and former bandmate. The Art of Go was recorded by Simon Kenny with basic tracking done over a weekend at a large room in Joss’ father’s business. Simon and I continued vocals and overdubs at his flat in Donnybrook.”

Surprisingly none of this music has made it onto YouTube or anywhere else online that I could find. It can be bought on Discogs, which is how I got my hands on it about two years ago. In my opinion it works really well as an EP, with a few really engaging tracks but with some filler too. The best for me would be ‘Clozer’ which sounds like a lost classic and musically is a more full bodied version of the band heard on ‘Homeward’. ‘Free Jazz’ is pleasingly upbeat and cruises along on Beach Boy vibes. They do sound quite American (Pavement and bands of that ilk) at times (as did Capratone mark 1) but this was very much the sound and influence of the times, everything still comes down to the quality of the song-writing. The band broke up a good while later, sometime in 2003 without anymore releases. At some stage Richie Kelly moved to Brooklyn, New York and started a similar sounding band there but with more brass, Sport of Kings. He even re-recorded ‘Free Jazz’ and made a video for it. The influence of Brian Wilson is clear on this song in particular, they cleverly re-use The Beach Boy’s ‘Cool, cool water” line in the song (also present in the original version). Apart from some positive reviews of their only EP, Logic House (2011), there is little sign of the band online either but at least you can check out their excellent video for ‘Free Jazz’ (see below). I did find just one image of Capratone at this time on the Folkrum website, which I have enlarged below. Richie is the golf club carrying member. 

In my original piece I wasn’t sure what happened to Capratone next so Richie can take up the story, “The Art of Go attracted the interest of Shifty Disco, who released all of the Elephant 6 stuff in the UK. We set about making a full length for them which we were calling Aviation High. Simon Kenny was initially set to record but was so busy with other projects, I asked Andrew to do it and he agreed. Drum and bass tracking took place in a studio in Dublin. Andrew and I indulged our love of tinkering at his family home while recording my parts and mixing. The result is a pretty high fidelity Capratone record. Shifty Disco preferred the super compressed Capratone of the previous record and passed. We trudged along with some line-up changes after that. The most stable line-up though was myself, Cian Synnot on drums, Fiachra McCarthy on guitar and Michael Stevens (of Groom and many other excellent bands) on bass. As Joss said, no original members were left by the end of Capratone. I believe we kept the name simply because we couldn’t come up with a new one, apparently I have a problem naming things. When I ended up opening music studios and practice spaces in Brooklyn after moving there, I asked Joss if I could use the name of his label Scientific Laboratories because I loved it so much and couldn't think of an alternative.”

I think it’s well worth including here what happened with Richie’s next band Sport of Kings. “My love of fidelity only increased as the years continued except my focus switched from The Beach Boys to Steely Dan. I because obsessed with doing an indie rock version of their music and Sport of Kings took that direction. The initial line-up was drums, bass guitars and Fender Rhodes and then we added a horn section and a drummer from NYU’s Jazz Program who were incredible and took things to a whole different level.”

“After our Logic House EP, we made a full record (15 songs to be called Queer Theorem) with Michael Leonhart of Steely Dan as producer and occasional synth/horns/vocals contributor. This was essentially a dream come true for me. Initial tracking was done by me at a studio in Brooklyn and painstaking overdubbing, vocals and mixing was done by myself and Michael at his mixing room in the city. Ironically, we recorded yet another version of ‘Free Jazz’ with Michael. I’m not sure why I keep rerecording it but it might have something to do with Andrew and I finding out Brian Wilson used to record ‘Proud Mary’ every time he went into a new studio to check the sonics. I think I now have 4 completed versions!”

“I put an enormous amount of effort into Queer Theorem but it took so long that by the time it was ready, many band members were so in demand by big artists that they had little time to give. Keeping a 7-piece band of amazing musicians afloat proved too difficult and I disbanded the group rather than trying to recruit new musicians. I had also taken that level of fidelity to its conclusion and I returned to looser music after moving to Portland, OR.”

The next ‘band’ Andrew founded was solo project The Asteroids. I don’t think he ever presented it live but there was just one release, an exquisite three track 10″/CD, Moonlight Music For Beginners, which was released on Joss Moorkens’ Scientific Laboratories label in 2000 (the same year as The Art of Go). You can listen to what has to be my favourite song, ‘Nine Lives’ at link below (the other two songs can helpfully be found on the same channel and I’ve linked them here). According to the sleeve notes it took two years to record, with I assume Andrew playing all the instruments and doing the programming etc. I was sure to pick this up on vinyl at the time and have cherished it since. The amazing paintings on front and back were by the artist Niamh McGrath.

‘Nine Lives’ is so laid back, rich in instrumentation but for me it’s all about Andrew’s vocals (Alan Kelly of The Last Post also provides additional backing vocals). The lyrics prove to be the real earworm for me, “Who is the man, who has done this to you?” with an unexpected lyrical twist at the end. The song has somehow burrowed its way into my consciousness and over the past 20 years has been liable to play in my head at any time. ‘Return Of The Moonlightman’ is more sparse and based again around the vocal arrangement, a second deeper voice (John Parkinson) enters the fray about halfway and it goes to another level with a lovely gradual close. ‘The Great Escape’ is dominated by a really warm organ sound that pulls you along. This one in particular reminds me of Brian Wilson, one of Andrew’s touchstone influences. It’s one of those releases which has dated really well in my opinion and is pretty much unknown I think (I don’t know how many were pressed or sold). There was so much promised with this release and frankly it’s something of a shame it was not followed up at the time. If Andrew had been signed or whatever then things might have happened differently but like all of the bands I’ve written about in this series, we’re lucky to have what we have and the music will last forever. You can still find it for sale on Discogs and it can be played and purchased on iTunes and Tidal. There was one other song from this period, ‘Lunar Doo Wop’, released on a compilation CD included free with the first Foggy Notions magazine. I vaguely remember it but can no longer find my copy (the title tells us all we need to know!). 

Sometime in 2005 or later I bumped into Andrew and he gave me a CD from his latest group The Metronoids. It was a two track disc in a plastic wallet (no cover artwork or personnel details) called Petroleum. Today this doesn’t even exist on Discogs never mind anywhere else! Until I asked Andrew about it I wasn’t sure if this had simply been a promo but he told me there was artwork etc. The reason I probably never saw it for sale is that I left Dublin in 2005. For a bit more information I had to dig into the data on the CD itself and found that the track names are simply ‘Petroleum 1 & 2′ and for what it’s worth the genre on iTunes comes up as Blues (not sure how this gets assigned). It’s a pleasant listen (the more spirited second track is my favourite) but it surprised me very much to find it was all drums/percussion and obviously nothing like what he’d done before. This would be the only release under the name, which I imagine is pretty rare to come across.

I obviously had to get Andrew to explain The Metronoids to me, “This was a project I really enjoyed. Done in 2004/5 with Joss and Marc Hayes (drummer from The Moustaches, Boxes). It was always a real pleasure to be in a room with those two guys. I think we did a handful of rehearsals and one recording session. The idea was drum improv within premeditated structures. All three of us played drums. I think I got the notion to do a project that required a different kind of listening from my love of the CD called Guitar Solo by Annette Krebs.” 

I wasn’t aware of this at the time but Andrew, Joss and Fiachra briefly reunited as The Lamps in 2005 but as far as I know while there were some live gigs there were no releases. Since then Andrew has told me he is currently working on two new music projects, “One with Fiachra Lennon is called Fig/Astro, it started in 2018, we should be finished an LP this year. He wrote a bunch of instrumental tracks and sent them to me. At his request I turned the instrumentals into songs, and the productions are evolving from there with both of us working on it via WeTransfer. He is a real natural musician so the songs have  a very solid foundation. It was refreshing to write songs this way from track to song, rather than from song to track as I had always done previously. My own LP has been in the pipeline since 2009 when I wrote a load of songs and set out to record them in-the-box. Some of the songs went through over 20 productions. Working on a finite group of productions over a long period, under the microscope of Digital Audio Workstation has really allowed me to discover how to do my own thing. The work on this solo album takes a lot of focus.” 

After Capratone Joss would go on to play with Joan of Arse and The Dudley Corporation and guest on many other releases, most of these can be found on his impressive Discogs entry. When I was doing my research for this piece I was excited to find an old Souncloud page for The Asteroids I never knew existed, it has two unreleased tracks which date from about 2014 but Andrew said the music since then has been become more abstract. Fiachra meanwhile has a bulging Soundcloud page full of his own demos that is very worth exploring too. Both of them are also on Twitter, The Asteroids and Fiachra. It will have been a long time coming but I’m looking forward to the next new releases from both these artists. 

Sometimes the best things take time.

Stephen Rennicks

#capratone #the asteroids #the metronoids #andrew lyster #fiachra lennon #joss moorkens #richie kelly #folkrum records #the art of go #moonlight music for beginners #sport of kings #the world of pugh #dublin #music #1990s #2000s

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Next-Door Neighbours: Chapter Nine

A Liam Fanfic, A Niall Fanfic, MA Rating

New neighbours, new drama. Sometimes what you need is the last thing you’re looking for.

CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 ||

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1- This fic is written by Julie ( @paynesqueen​ ) & Livia ( @horansqueen​ ) 2- Julie will write the odd chapters and Livia the even chapters 3- This fic will have romance, drama and smut.

Chapter Nine by Julie (paynesqueen)

Louis was the first one to wake up the next day. He wasn’t really surprised; Julie had drunk way more than she usually does. He had tried to cheer her up, but even if he could get a smile from time to time; he knew that she was still focusing on whatever happened with Liam. He looked next to him where Julie was still fast asleep and thought it was funny how they ended up sleeping in the same bed countless of times over the past years and never once had it felt like this; like two best friends sharing a bed.

They had always been best friends except before, it was with benefits. Sleeping and sex had always mixed between them, but now neither of them wanted it; he wanted to do all of this and more with Livia. He knew that he needed to do something about it, but he was just not sure how to approach it with her.

He knew she wasn’t looking for a relationship at the moment and there was the matter of Niall. He wasn’t a fan of sharing her attention with the Irish lad. He was trying to find a way to get her all to himself away from any distraction so he can show her how good he could be to her. He knew she wasn’t indifferent towards him even if her interest was split in two with Niall, but he just needed to get her to focus on him in a context that was not friends with benefits or group outing. He needed them to be alone for him to get her to see what they could have or at least try. He knew that there was no guarantee that she would choose him in the end, but he was mostly scared that if she didn’t, he didn’t know what to expect of the aftermath which is probably why he was always postponing doing anything concrete about it.

He heard Julie groan next to him and he looked at the brunette as she turned on her back, her arm covering her eyes.

“Can someone turn off the sun please?”

He chuckled and got up to close the curtains as she sat up with much difficulty. The aspirins and the water next to her were going to be needed for sure. He handed the glass and the two pills which she swallowed quickly. He lay back next to her and closed his eyes wondering what they could do next.

“I’m his neighbour.”

Julie’s voice made him open his eyes, mostly in confusion.

“Uhm... What?”

“Last night I went to see Liam and he told me that he got back with his girlfriend and when he introduced us, he introduced me as his neighbour and not his friend. I mean, I know our relationship was complicated to define, mostly because of me, but still, I thought I had at least earned the friend title.” She explained.

“Are you sure it’s the only thing that bothers you about the situation?”

She shrugged as if she didn’t want to answer, but went on; “Louis if nothing happened between me and Liam, I can only take the blame for it. I push him towards her if nothing else. I anticipated it even if I underestimated just how much it would affect me, but still, I just felt like in the past few weeks spent together, we had developed a friendship at least.”

“He probably didn’t expect you to show up.” He offered. “But tell me something. Do you think that you not giving him any chance is a good reason to go back to his ex? I mean, things not happening between you two is one thing, but going back to her because of it... It’s just wrong.”

“It might not be the reason he did, Lou.” She retorted. “They have history which is something that you pointed to me quite a few times. He still loves her and meeting with her probably just reminded him of it.”

He had his doubts but he decided not to push it. He could tell that it was important to Julie to believe that Liam chose out of love.

“I’ll get over it eventually.” She added. “So what about you? Any progress with my sister?”

“Not really.”

“Have you tried to do something?” She retorted. “Look Louis, I know how you feel for my sister and I know she could be happy with you, but if you don’t do anything, you are going to miss your chance. I know you hate that I keep reminding you of this, but it’s time you finally do something about it.”

“It’s hard to have her focus on me when Niall is also on her mind. I never feel like I can have her to myself with him so close.”

“Ask her to go away on a weekend. Your family has a cottage so go there and just be with her. Make her focus on you.” She offered. “I can’t promise you that she’ll pick you, but at least if she doesn’t, you’ll know you will have done as much as you can to show her that you want to be with her.”

“I could do that.” He agreed. “Yeah, I’ll do that.”

“Good. One of us should have a chance at getting what they want.” She exclaimed.

“You could still. You could tell Liam how you feel. I mean, unless you want to go back to being the ice queen you have been for the past few years.”

“No chance of that happening. That guy torn down my walls after just a few weeks knowing him and torn them down really bad. I’m not sure I’m capable of building them back up. I’m not saying I’m ready to go and connect with someone right away, but who knows, maybe someday.” She replied. “And telling Liam is a big no no. I won’t do that him especially if it’s like a fluke.”

“A fluke? I highly doubt that, love.” He laughed. “For him to be able to break through your walls like this, what you feel for him is too strong for being a fluke like you said. I won’t go as far as love, but it has a potential to head towards it. I think you should tell him; especially before he gets too invested in his relationship with his ex, because you might actually really lose any chance of finding what you could have with Liam.”

“Yeah that’s not happening, Louis.” She repeated. “He needs to give them a second chance.”

He could tell that it was hard for her to even say it. He held her against him and for a while, they just cuddled in silence. It was strange how they were both yearning for someone that they didn’t know if they would ever have.

“I’m also scared just so you know.” He said out of the blue, but as Julie squeezed him tighter, he knew that she understood the meaning.

+++

Liam had knocked on Julie’s door the next morning, but Livia told him that she wasn’t home yet. He nearly asked her if she knew where she was, but he decided against it. He simply asked Livia to tell her sister to give him a call when she came back.

He then went to see Niall because he needed some advice and he was the one person in this building that knew him best.

“I have some time for you.” Niall said when he asked to come in. “But just so you know the moment Livia text me, I’m out of here.”

“I’m glad you two have patched up whatever was wrong between you.”

“You and me both.” He smiled. “I mean, there are still some issues, but at least she’s talking to me. I don’t know what she has planned for today, but as long I’m spending today with her, I’m good. So what did you want to talk about?”

“About Lisa and me.”

“Oh... What about you two? Aren’t you happy you guys got back together?” He asked him.

When Liam had first told Niall, he knew his best friend wasn’t agreeing with his choice much. To him, Lisa wasn’t deserving of a second chance.

“Sure.”

“You should tell that to your face.”

Liam sighed; “It’s just that I thought I knew what I wanted until Julie knocked on my door last night and then doubts settled in.”

“Li... Let me ask you one question. If Julie hadn’t put the brakes on any kind of future you two could have together, would you have gone back to Lisa? I mean, be honest with yourself. I’m not saying you don’t love Lisa, but maybe you went back for the wrong reasons.” Niall stated.

Niall had a point and he didn’t want to answer that question because he had made his decision and he couldn’t just go back on it. It wouldn’t be fair to Lisa and it would feel like he was just playing with her.

“Look, Payno, I can tell that you made your decision and all that, but in the end, is it worth sticking to it if all three of you are miserable?” He added.

“I have never been in this kind of situation before. It’s hard to tell which solution is best for me.” Liam admitted.

“Well, no one said relationships are easy and believe me; that is something I know about.”

Liam could only agree. He just didn’t like the feeling he felt right now. He hated to think that he went back to Lisa for the wrong reasons or that he may have hurt Julie. Niall’s cell rang and with the smile that appeared on his face, he could tell that it was from Livia.

“I guess that’s my cue to go. Thanks for the chat, man.” Liam said getting up.

“Anytime, Li. But think about what I told you. I may sound like one of those romance books my mom loves so much, but the unknown can be scary but more often than not is worth plunging in.” Niall chuckled.

“Yea, you do sound like a romance book just about now.”

He said goodbye to him and headed towards his own flat. He waited all day for Julie to come and knock on his door. He wanted to text her, but he felt like that she might not answer him. Most of the day was spent trying to sort the pros and cons of either staying with Lisa or moving on and he didn’t feel like he was making any progress.

He decided to grab a bite before going to knock on her door in hopes she was home. He had just walked out of the building when he saw turning the corner with Louis. He had his arm around her shoulders and a pang of jealousy went through him. He knew that it was platonic, but he felt like Julie wouldn’t even let him do that again.

“Thanks for last night. It was really what I needed.” He heard her thank Louis.

“Always, love.” He grinned at her and as he looked up, he noticed Liam standing there.

Julie looked up and took notice of him too and he felt like she was looking through him and he didn’t like this. Julie and Louis looked at one another and she just nodded at him and he hugged her before walking away. Then it was only Liam and Julie standing on the sidewalk and it was awkward; something that had never happened before.

“I’ve been waiting for you all day.” He finally told her to break the silence. “We need to talk.”

“What do you want to talk about?” Julie asked him.

She was avoiding his stare and he hated it. He wanted her to look at him like she did before and he knew it was selfish because he chose someone else, but he couldn’t help but wanting it.

“Us.”

“There’s no us, Liam.” She replied. “You’re with Lisa and I’m your neighbour Julie.”

“Wait, what?”

“That’s how you introduce me to Lisa last night. I mean, we are not friends so I don’t think there’s an ‘us’ to talk about.” She answered him. “You couldn’t even tell me about a decision you took days prior last night.”

“I’m sorry about that, I was surprised to see you there and I wanted to tell you about me and Lisa, but not like this.”

She didn’t say anything and he hated that. He wanted her to say anything about what she thought of his decision. It shouldn’t matter, but at the same time it did. He didn’t know what he would he do with that knowledge, but he needed it.

“Do you think it was a mistake?” He finally asked her. “Me going back to Lisa.”

“It’s not my place to say, Liam.” She answered. “It’s your life. You know better what you want than anyone else.”

“Stop this. Stop acting like this isn’t changing anything or that you don’t have an opinion on it. You do so just fucking tell me.”

“What do you want me to say, Liam? That it hurts, it does, but I can’t blame you. You have history with her and I blocked any chances of us going any further. So the choice was pretty damn clear to make. You went with your heart and I have to accept the decision, especially since I did nothing but push you into that direction.” She exclaimed.

“But what if...”

“Don’t finish that sentence.” She exclaimed. “Don’t do this, Liam. You made your decision so stick with it.”

“Sometimes we make the wrong ones though.”

“It doesn’t matter, Liam. You took it for a reason and you should remind yourself of it instead of searching for reasons to get out of it.”

“I love Lisa or at least a part of me still loves her, but that doesn’t mean that going back with her is what best.” He argued. “I’m not sure I took the decision with the right reasons in mind, Julie. We weren’t really talking and I think it might have influenced my decision.”

“Liam, I can’t be the one to tell you if you chose wrong because you went with your heart. No matter what excuses you’re trying to tell yourself, I feel like you mostly feel confused because we do have some sexual tensions between us and we didn’t give into them so and these tensions are actually feedings your doubts.”

“Is that what you think of me? That I only wanted sex with you? If you do, then you probably don’t know me at all. Julie, I really liked you. Heck, I still do.” He nearly yelled. “I can admit that much. Can you admit to yourself that you also like me?”

Because yes she said it hurt her that he chose Lisa, but she hadn’t said those words to him. She had never told him once.

“I do like you, Liam.” She said. “But it doesn’t change anything. It shouldn’t be changing anything.”

“Like hell it doesn’t change anything. If I would ask you out now, would you say yes?” He asked her getting closer to her.

She just stared at him without saying anything. He could see the wheels going crazy in her head and he wondered what she was going to say.

“I-I need to go.”

“Please don’t go. We need to talk about this Julie. No matter the income, we need to talk about this.”

She knew he was right, but she wasn’t able to think clearly at the moment. She was so close to ask him to choose her after all; to forget about Lisa and give them a chance, but she couldn’t do that. She couldn’t be that girl that gets between them. Maybe a part of her feared that he would regret his decision if he chose her too. But she needed some time to think it through. She needed time to get over her feelings about the situation and see it through more rational thoughts.

“Li-” She sighed. “I can’t. I just can’t...”

And he did it; he did the thing he wanted to do since he met her. He pulled her against him and crashed his mouth on hers.

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[wokeuptired]

thank you to jessica @nightingiall for tagging cole from screaming color in this character tag! i answered these questions post-patience, so if you haven’t read either story, these are definitely spoilers, but hopefully they’re the sweet kind that will make you want to read. :)

you can find screaming color here and you and i need to have a little patience here.

i am tagging eriza @booksncoffee for brooklyn, @imsrybitw for sienna, and @marisa-writes for rollie, and clearly i need to read some new stories so please send me recs!

Rules: Choose a couple of favorite photos/gifs of your character, copy and paste the questions down below, answer as if you’re the character that’s been tagged, and then tag some characters/authors you would love to see answer next! (BTW, you’re also allowed to tag an author again if they have more than one character you want to answer these questions!)

1. If you weren’t doing what you’re doing now, what would you be doing instead?

i can’t imagine any other life for myself. near the end of a movie i love, “about time,” the main character decides that even though he has the ability to travel back in time, it’s best to just live each day as it comes, in real time, and not get hung up on the past or the present. as a mum i’ve learned to focus on only what i can control. 

2. If you could change one thing you did or didn’t say in the past, what would it be?

see my above answer. i think i would’ve loved on alfie more, though, before he got too big to be embarrassed of me. 

3. What’s one personal secret you haven’t told a soul?

i don’t have one. secrets are much less romantic than we make them seem.

4. If your mum texted you right now, how would that make you feel?

strange. hopeful at first, skeptical soon after. since auden was born, my therapist has helped me realize that my mum chose not to be in my life for no fault of my own. i am not responsible for her choices. 

5. Have you pictured your future? If so, what does it look like?

my future is pancakes on sunday morning and children’s days at the museum and falling asleep with my head on my husband’s shoulder while he grades papers on the couch. 

6. What is your Zodiac sign and do you agree with it?

a libra, i suppose? i don’t put much stock in it. 

7. Do you use social media? If so, what kinds of things do you post? If not, why not?

not really, no. it clutters my mind, and my mind is usually cluttered enough with other things. 

8. Who’s the most important person to you?

niall has been my most important person since the first time i fell asleep in his dorm room during uni. there was no coming back from that—not that i’ve ever tried.

9. What are your interests and hobbies?

i like poetry when my husband reads it to me and stories about paintings and i’ve been knitting a scarf for about three years, does that count?

10. Have you ever been in love? Why/Why not?

i hope the answer to that one is obvious by now. if it isn’t, maybe i’m much worse with words than i thought. 

#fic: screaming color #ch: cole jacobs #cole is such a throwback #I wrote screaming color in 2015 #can y'all believe??

[angelsfalling16]

The Thin Line Between Pretending and Actually Loving You - Chapter 3

Chapter 1 || Chapter 2 || Read on ao3

Summary: Simon and Baz try to act like boyfriends when they meet Dev and Niall for dinner.

Word Count: 1889

A/N: I know that this is a couple of days late, but when have I ever been able to keep a schedule while posting? I've been really busy and am struggling to find time to write, so this has been a bit difficult. And this chapter is kind of short because I technically cut it in half, but I'm going to do my best to get the next part up asap.

Also, this fic probably won't get finished by Christmas, but it's okay. This fic technically goes past Christmas, so my goal is just to get all the way through the Christmas scenes by then. I think that will be better than trying to rush this, so I hope you all are okay with that. Thank you for reading!

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Baz

This dinner is a disaster. I don’t know why I thought that Simon and I could actually pull this off. We barely know anything about each other.

Yes, we managed to spend one not unpleasant afternoon together, but that does not mean that we suddenly have the ability to get along. Or that we would somehow be able to act like we are in a relationship.

I guess I just wanted to believe that he and I would do well as a pretend couple because I also wanted to believe that we would be good as a real couple. (Not that that would ever happen. Sometimes it’s just nice to think about it.)

Alas, Simon and I do not make convincing boyfriends at all. And Dev and Niall can obviously see through it.

I don’t know how to act around Simon like this. Actually, I have never known how to act around him, not even when we were living together.

You should always act like yourself around your significant other, but that is difficult when I am in love with him but pretending not to be while also pretending that I have feelings for him and am in a relationship with him.

It is all very complicated, and it makes being near him that much more difficult, so every time he attempts to casually touch me, I nearly jump out of my skin.

I’m not used to being this close to him. I always made a point to keep at least three feet of space between us at all times, unless we were fighting. And even that was risky. Simon is gorgeous when he gets angry. His eyes flashing and cheeks heating up made my skin flame. (I’m disturbed. I know.)

Dev and Niall keep asking questions that I don’t have the answer to because I don’t know anything about Simon. Maybe I never really did.

From what I’ve heard over the past half hour, he recently moved back to town to pursue a career as a grade school teacher. (I thought he wanted to go into child services, but I suppose something might have changed.)

Then, he starts talking about the two of us. And our supposed relationship. As he talks, I realize that he is really good at spinning a tale.

He tells them that we ran into each other at a coffee shop and that we got to talking. (True.) Then, he couldn’t stop staring at me, and he knew that he had to find an excuse to spend more time with me. (Not true.) He says he wishes that he had gotten up the nerve to do that in college and that he’s glad that he gets a second chance to do this right.

When he says this last part, he turns this soft gaze on me, and I struggle to remember that none of this is real. He’s just really good at putting on a show. Better than I am anyway.

“Do you have any plans for Christmas?” Dev asks him, almost out of the blue.

Simon shakes his head, turning his gaze down to the table, and I find myself wanting to reach out to comfort him. “I don’t have any family here, so I plan to spend the day alone in my flat.”

Once again, I want to ask him what happened on his search for his birth mother, but this would not be the appropriate time to do that.

“Why don’t you join Baz and the rest of our family? We always have a big family gathering, and I’m sure that they wouldn’t mind another person. Especially someone who means so much to Baz.”

I try not to glare at Dev when I say, “I’m sure that Simon wouldn’t want to spend Christmas with a bunch of strangers.”

“But he’ll be with you, right? It will be your first Christmas together. Don’t you want to spend it with each other?”

They are trying to corner me, to get me to admit that Simon and I aren’t really a couple, but I won’t give in that easily.

“Yes, of course, but—.”

Simon’s hand lands on my leg, just above my knee, and he squeezes it lightly, effectively shutting me up mid-protest. I clench my jaw, forcing myself to not react strangely to his touch or push him away.

“I would love to join you for Christmas.”

“Great.” Dev’s smile is mischievous.

He definitely knows that something is up, and this is way of trying to pull the truth from me.  He is trying to make it so that I either make a fool of myself or have no other choice but to admit that this whole thing was a ruse.

Well, I am not going to let that happen. I am going to find a way to convince them that Simon and I are a real couple.

On the way to drop Simon off at his house, though, I give him an out.

He only agreed to this one dinner. I don’t want to make him keep this up if he doesn’t want to.

“You don’t have to come to Christmas,” I tell him. “I can find a way to get you out of it.”

“I honestly don’t mind, but if you don’t want me there, I understand. We aren’t really dating, and like you said yesterday, we aren’t even friends.”

I glance at him out of the corner of my eye, but he’s staring out the window. I sigh, feeling guilty. He doesn’t have anywhere to go, and here I am, basically uninviting him from my family gathering.

“Alright, you can come,” I begin, making it sound like it’s a hardship so as not to let on how much I would enjoy him being there. “But first we need to get a few things straightened out.”

“What do you mean?”

“Dev and Niall are suspicious. That’s why they invited you to Christmas. To try and call our bluff. But they won’t stop there, so we have to try to be the most convincing couples ever.”

“How are we going to do that.”

“By getting to know each other.” Something we never did before.

“Okay. So, we just start telling each other things?”

“Yes. Maybe. I’m not sure yet, but I will come up with something before Christmas.”

“Do you really think it was that bad?” He asks quietly.

I tear a hand through my hair and fight the urge to look over at him again.

“No, it was just weird.”

“Yeah, I guess it was. It’s weird without you trying to start an argument with me.”

I crack a smile at that, the corner of my mouth turning up just slightly.

“It’s been nice, though,” he adds softly, and I have to struggle to hear him over the radio, which is already down pretty low.

I want him to say more. To tell me what about it was nice. Simply not fighting or being friendly with me.

But then I turn onto his street, and he’s climbing out of my car.

“I will call you,” I tell him before he closes the door. “So that we can get to know each other.”

He nods. “Okay.”

“Thanks for this by the way. I’m sorry that you got roped up into more than you probably bargained for.”

“You can make up for it later.”

“How?”

He shrugs. “I’ll think of something.”

If I didn’t know better, I would think that he was flirting with me. He closes the car door then, and I wait until I see him open up the door to his apartment before I pull away.

I’m not even surprised when Niall’s car is sitting in my driveway when I get home. I pull up behind him and step out of my car, walking towards my house without even glancing in their direction. I leave the front door open for them before heading to the kitchen to make some coffee.

It has just begun brewing when I hear two pairs footsteps enter the kitchen behind me. I wait another moment before turning around to face them.

“Hello, boys.”

“No Simon?” Dev asks, pretending to look around even though he saw me get out of my car alone.

“He doesn’t live here. We just began dating a couple of months ago.”

“It seems more like you just met a couple of months ago. Almost like he was a complete stranger.”

“He was my college roommate.”

“The one you hated?” Niall asks.

“We decided to start over, and as you can see, it’s going quite well.”

“Give it up, Baz,” Dev says, shaking his head as he leans against the kitchen counter.

“What do you mean?”

“It’s obvious that you two aren’t a couple. You could have picked up a random guy off the street, and that would have been more convincing. It was like you two don’t even know how to act around each other.”

“We just don’t like acting all couple-y in public.”

“Is that why there aren’t any pictures of you together on any of your social media?”

I probably should have thought about that before now. Of course, they would go looking for pictures of my new boyfriend. They would want to find out everything they could about him before meeting him. I am really not good at this whole fake dating thing.

“Yes,” I say nodding. “That’s exactly why. He is more of a private person, so I am trying to respect that.”

They obviously don’t believe me, and I’m not sure that there’s anything for me to say that could convince them.

“Why are you doing this?” Niall asks, his voice softer than I expected it to be. “If you really don’t want to date my friend, that’s fine. But why pretend?”

“I’m not pretending. I really like him.” For once, I’m not lying to them.

“It didn’t seem like it tonight.”

“It’s still new. We’re still trying to work out some things, but we really are a couple.”

“And you want this to work?” I can see his doubt start to dissolve. I must have said something right.

“Yes. I’m going to do my best to make it last.”

“Alright,” Dev says, nodding once. “We believe you.”

Somehow, something I said has convinced them. For the first time since I told them I was seeing someone, it seems like they actually believe me.

Maybe this will really work.

Simon and I will go as a couple to my family’s house for Christmas, and then we’ll stage a break up before it is even time for

I will pretend to be so heartbroken that Dev and Niall won’t even consider setting me up on a date for a while.

It’s the perfect plan. Simon and I just have to find a way to convince them that we really care for each other.

As soon as Dev and Niall are gone, I start planning out how we will accomplish this. It should be easy enough. I’ll just show enough of my feelings for Simon without him figuring out that they’re real.

The issue is going to be with finding a way for Simon to convince them that he has feelings for me. That is going to be a little trickier, but I think I have an idea.

#snowbaz #snowbaz fanfiction #simon snow #baz pitch #carry on #wayward son #rainbow rowell #christmas fake dating #my writing

[blouisparadise]

It’s been a while since our first A/B/O fic rec was created and because a ton of amazing A/B/O fics have come out since then, we decided to make a second part to this list. These are all alpha Harry/omega Louis fics (of course).

Happy reading!

Edit: We’ve added a third part to this rec list, which can be found here!

1) We’ll Stumble Through Heaven | Explicit | 6504 words

Louis likes to be a good boy for his alpha.

2) The Unsuccessful Promise | Teen & Up | 7152 words

At the end of the previous school year, Louis swore to everyone that he would return in the fall as an alpha. He made this promise especially to his arch-nemesis Harry Styles, who has already presented as an alpha himself.

Unfortunately over summer break, the worst thing possible happens: Louis presents as an omega. Now school is back in session and he has to return and face the consequences of pre-determining his status.

3) Something To Prove | Explicit 9425 words

Louis is the first and only omega to work at Red Valley Medical Center. Despite being more than qualified, he still faces prejudice for his career choice everyday. From patients refusing his treatment to condescending alpha doctors intervening with his work, practicing medicine in Boston is more challenging than Louis had ever thought it would be.

4) Night Out | Mature | 9741 words | Sequel

Symphony hall was the first place Louis had felt at home in this city, and he always had the box to himself. Until tonight.

5) Enjoy The Ride | Not Rated | 11103 words

The one where Louis, an omega more than tired of being treated as lesser than alphas, is forced on a road trip by his beta besties only to meet Harry who might just be the alpha he never knew he wanted.

6) Overwhelming | Explicit | 13261 words

Louis is an omega attending university to get his degree and most definitely not waste his time with unimportant things such as finding a mate. Harry is the alpha who manages to unwittingly mess up that plan.

7) No One Else Will Do | Mature | 13237 words

It takes Louis’ early heat for Harry and Louis to figure things out.

8) Anybody Have a Map? | Not Rated | 13873

The one where Louis met Harry in NYC where they bonded as fellow Brits in the large city. Years later, with Louis’ upcoming heat, maybe it’s time for their friendship to become something more.

9) If You Want More, Then Here I Am | Not Rated | 14558 words

The one where Harry and Louis are soulmates, but they can’t quite seem to get on the same page.

10) Just Let Me | Mature | 14714 words

The party was going well. So well, Niall had already sworn undying love to one multi-tiered chocolate cake, two friendly corgi-poodle mixes, Zayn’s hair, and the entire population of Los Angeles. So well, Zayn had only laughed and ruffled Niall’s hair and not even twitched towards a cigarette. So well, nearly everyone had spilled far past the boundaries of the night’s original plans, extracting bottles of vodka from the cabinets and losing a lot of clothes. Harry had proclaimed that he was finally going to throw a small and very grownup dinner party and of course here they were three hours later, fifty people half-naked in the pool. Soon to be full-naked, if Louis had to guess. Everybody in LA loved a heated pool. Everybody loved Harry.

11) Baby Honey | Explicit | 14744 words

When the next great war strikes, all alphas have to ship out. Alex leaves a little more behind than some of the others.

12) Never Understood What Love Was Really Like (But I Felt It For The First Time Looking In Your Eyes) | Not Rated | 18431 words

The one where Louis meets Harry at 14 and things don’t quite go as planned.

13) I Didn’t Fall For You (You Fucking Tripped Me) | Explicit | 20681 words

These days Louis tends to steer clear of dating alphas. He’s dated too many knotheads in his time, and he’s ready to just focus on school and his friends and his pet monitor lizard, of course.

Too bad the alpha next door won’t take a hint and stop using the worst pick up lines of all time on him. He’s really got to stop laughing with him–and talking to him and walking to class with him and letting him bring him coffee and tea and gifts for his lizard and watching Netflix together and…

14) Out Of The Wild | Explicit | 21502 words

Louis has spent most of his life as a wolf in the wild, Harry has spent most of his life as a human in the city. Their worlds collide during the audition process for the hottest new singing competition. What happens next should have expected.

15) Mark My Word (We Gon’ Be Alright) | Explicit | 35524 words

An A/B/O AU featuring an oblivious Harry as the pack leader, a pining Louis as his second-in-command, and an entourage of friends and family who are a little too good at keeping their mouths shut.

16) Worth Dying For | Explicit | 44906 words

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Louis says, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms over his chest. In the center of the table, a set of three glossy photos stares up at him, mocking him.

“A security detail is non-negotiable, Louis, you know this,” his mum reminds him, tapping the middle photo with two fingers.

Louis doesn’t look back down at the pictures, gesturing towards them wildly, over-dramatically. “This is not a security detail!” he protests. “This is a lanky college student. In what world do you hire someone like this kid to protect me?”

17) I Found A Love For Me (Darling Just Dive Right In) | Explicit | 46652 words | Sequel

Louis, an omega with very little control. Harry, an alpha with a lot of emotion. Neither of them have any idea what do to with this little thing called love, but they’ll be damned if they don’t put up a good fight.

18) I Want You So Much (But I Hate Your Guts) | Mature | 83648 words

AU in which Louis gets accepted to play for the Manchester University Alpha-Beta Football Team. The only problem: Louis is actually an Omega. He is determined to make it big in the football world, though, and he can’t do that bound to an Omega team. With the help of a faked doctor’s certificate and some pretty strong suppressants he is ready to fight for his dream.

That Harry Styles (Alpha, second year and youngest football captain of the A-B team in ages) doesn’t seem to like him complicates matters, though.

19) Where You Lay | Explicit | 86035 words

Note: There’s a small implied BH mention.

When Louis's upcoming heat threatens his success at his new dream job, he asks the best (and only) person he can think of to help him through it: his best mates' best mate, Harry Styles.  Harry reluctantly accepts, and together the two navigate a strange friends with benefits relationship that quickly turns complicated.

20) A Taste Of Desire | Explicit | 104414 words

A Victorian ABO where Harry is the owner of the most successful cotton mill in Manchester, and Louis is an opinionated social activist about to disrupt Harry’s world.

21) Falling Into You | Mature | 143109 words

In the grand scheme of adolescence and boyhood, Harry was still working himself out, so far with little luck. But four things he could say for certain: 1) he’d been at the top of his class all through primary and secondary school, 2) he was the shittiest alpha to ever walk the earth, 3) Liam Payne never let him forget it, and 4) he’d been in love with this boy, Louis Tomlinson, ever since he was fifteen years old.

22) Cold Little Heart | Teen & Up | 194740 words

Louis is a soft omega with an abusive past and an alpha child. A few months after getting a divorce, Louis meets Harry, an ex-military alpha wolf that offers him something odd.

In exchange for teaching him how to cook, Harry will babysit his son, Abraham. Louis really could use the help.

Check out our other fic rec lists by category here and by title here.

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[memoriesthatkeepyounear]

150 Random Questions

1.) What’s better, having high expectations or having low expectations?

 Low lmao

2.) Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?

 junk food

3.) Describe your perfect man/woman.

Tall, funny, weird, silly,serious,optimistic,driven,adventuous, list goes on

4.) Thoughts on school dress codes?

they’re honestly stupid and degrading but some are necessary

5.)Any strange phobias?

Not that i can think of

6.) At what job do you see Donald Trump best fit?

6 feet underground 

7.) Who was your first crush?

NIck Jonas lmao

8.) Who was your first best friend?

Girl named Morgan don’t remember her last name.

9.)What is one weird thing about you?

I hate when I have an uneven amount of tattoos.

10.) Top 5 TV shows you like to watch?

11.) What are your favorite boys names? Degrassi, Greys Anatomy,TVD,Black Mirror

12.) What are your favorite girls names? Marley,Tasha idk i dont really have any lol

13.) Do you have any tattoos? If so, what are they? Yes, there’s too many to name each one lmao

14.) Do you plan on getting (more) tattoos? If so, what do you want to get as of the moment? yes many mor, next one is an alien head with a space ship and UFO.

15.) Do you have any piercings? Do you plan on getting more? i mean just my ears and eh maybe

16.) Do you like hugging people?

eh i could live without hugs tbh lol

17.) Think of ANY person on earth right now.  Who did you think of? you don’t want to know (CB)

18.) Do you have an iPhone? yes iphone 8 plus

19.) What is the worst thing that could happen in your life right now? losing one of my jobs lmao

20.) Do you watch anime? no

21.) What brings true happiness? music,traveling,friends,concerts.

22.) What is the most expensive thing you’ve ever paid for? honestly, i dont know i dont remember

23.) If you could have any job in the world and get paid millions of dollars a year for it, what would you be and why? tour manager or selling merch for a band

24.) Do you want children? If so, how many? honestly no but if i had to have children probably 1 or 2

25.) Name and describe someone who you feel most comfortable around. I’ll just name them, Pape, Chase, Michele, Destany,Chris,  Zion, Mary,Tori, Alyssa

26.)If you could invent a holiday, what would it be? Corbyn Besson Day just because LMAO

27.)Would you rather have summer weather or winter weather all year round? This isn’t a choice but spring weather

28.) If you could make an alien race, describe what they would look like. they would look like an alien racing, obviously.

29.)  What was the first thing you learned to cook? Grilled Cheese

30.) Describe your sense of humor. I’m funny as fuuuuck. I’ll send memes, stupid random shit i can think if, anything.

31.) What is the key to happiness? Surrounding yourself with positivity, and trying to find the positive out of anything negative that happens. Not worrying what other people think of you except yourself. Surrounding yourself with good people

32.) How many phone numbers do you have committed to memory? Whose numbers are they? One of my sisters, both my parents, thats about it lmao

33.) Name three songs that make you want to dance. Dazed adn Confused-Jake Miller, Mojo-Round2Crew,something different-wdw

34.) What job did you want to have as a child? Vet Technician

35.) Do you have any talents or skills? My talent is getting all the rings in the ring game on toontown

36.) What was the worst punishment you’ve ever had? I got grounded for a month-dont remember what i did tho

37.) Did you ever do anything weird as a child? Oh im sure i did.

38.) What is your dream car? a car that doesn’t break down

39.)  Describe something that made you laugh this week. probably something corbyn did or sue or my friends

40.) Did you have a dream last night? If so, describe it. Yes and i”d rather not lmao

41.)  Do you ever have repetitive dreams? Describe it/them. oh yes and u don’t want to hear that either

42.) Describe the worst/ scariest dream you’ve ever had. I’ll always remember this--I was younger maybe like 11 and it was that my dad went psychotic and my sisters and her friends snuck outside and tried to get away but he found us, threw us in his car and had my neighbors at the time help him kill us idk bro it was wild. thats the short version.

43.) Describe the best dream you’ve ever had. there’s so many and no thank you

44.) If God himself gave you a choice of either having unlimited money for the rest of your life or finding your one true love starting tomorrow, which one would you choose (keep in mind, you are still able to make a ton of money if you choose love, and you are still able to meet your soul mate if you choose money)? probably finding my one true love-thats worth more than any amount of money

45.) If you could do anything (and I mean ANYTHING) right now without consequences, what would you do and why? honestly i dont know

46.) Do you have any recipes that you know off the top of your head? What is it/ what are they? yes, how to make whipped cream lmao 

47.) Do you have your license? If so, do you have a car? no

48.) Have you ever had a near death experience? yes

49.) Do you personally know anyone that has been to prison? yes

50.) Have you ever been in a physical fight?

yes.

51.) When you get out of the shower, do you towel dry, blow dry, or air dry your hair? depends, if im not leaving the house i towel dry and then air dry but if i have to look good i blow dry.

52.) When you go to the movies, what snacks and drinks do you take with you? candy, popcorn, soda or an icee

53.) Do you like going to the beach? If so, do you like to stay dry or go in the water? If not, why? i like goigng to the beach adn going in the water, i hate sand

54.) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

sometimes.

55.) If you could have a superpower ASIDE from being invisible or being able to fly, what would you have? reading minds.

56.) If you were able to live for however long you wanted to (i’m talking thousands of years without aging), when would you choose to die? in this moment tomorrow lmao

57.) What do you think happens after you die? the light you go into is really the light when ur leaving the womb and your soul goes into a baby just beig born

58.) Do you believe in aliens? yes

59.) Do you believe in ghosts? yes

60.) Do you believe in spiritual things like ouija boards, tarot cards, and crystals? Do you believe they are portals for evil entities to enter the mortal world? yes

61.) If you could make one mythical being real, who/what would you make?

i dont know

62.) Do you get tan, or do you burn? the first time i tan, i burn the rest of the time i tan

63.) Describe your shower routine. I get in, shampoo, shave, rinse, conditioner, exfoliate sometimes, and body wash then rise hair and get out

64.) Do you enjoy school? Why or why not? Im not in school

65.) In your opinion, what is the worst way to die? struggling 

66.) Do you get carsick, sea sick, or airplane sickness? no

67.) What’s one memory that you wish you could live again and again? probs seeing one direction lmao i miss them

68.) What were some of your stuffed animal’s names from when you were a kid? scraper-he was a dog i still have him

69.)Do you have any pets? no

70.) Describe your daily wardrobe. homeless

71.)  Describe what your daily wardrobe would be if you were rich. beautiful,with the trends

72.)  Create a character right now.  Give them a name, age, and character description. Jessica Arkansas from Ohio, 22, makes youtube videos, fun when drunk,funny,works alot, drinks alot, smokes weed sometimes, love making people happy.

73.)What was the last thing you bought? Aromatherapy sleep lotion and shower gel from bath and body works.

74.) Have you ever bought a CD? What band was it for? uh yes I have many CDs, jonas brothers

75.) Describe your perfect ice cream sundae. the traditional one

76.) If you could make ANYTHING happen right now with no cost, trouble, or obstacles, what would you do? make corbyn besson fall in love with me

77.) What are some of your favorite physical activities to do? hiking, walking, going ton the gym

78.) What were some of your favorite shows as a child? Dragon tales, The Amanda show, hannah montana, thats so raven, wizards of waverly place, jonas,little bear, oswald. theres much more

79.) Describe how you would survive the zombie apocalypse. I wouldn’t

80.)What are some things you shouldn’t say at work? anything unprofessional

81.) If you were told that if you killed someone, you would save 100 people, would you do it? depends who the person im killig is (if its ****** or ********* then absolutely)

82.) How’s the weather right now? cold

83.) What is the background on your cell phone right now? its flowers that gnash tweeted one time when he released the broken hearts club

84.)Is it better to work at a job that you love or a job that pays well? a job you love.

85.) What do you have within arms reach of your bed? my stuffed giraffes.

86.) Have you ever been fired from a job? If so, why? no

87.) Have you ever won a trophy, prize, or medal? If so, for what? yes many, for soccer

88.) Do you have any posters, pictures, or art hanging on your walls in your room? If so, what are they? I have 1 poster and its corbyn and then i gave 2 2019 calendars one is jake millers and the other is a friends tv show one and i have hats on tacs hanging, poloroid pictures and a giant s for my name

89.) Are you afraid of the dark? If so, why? yes, because the dark is mf scary

90.)What is something that you’ve never done but would like to try? sky diving or parasailing

91.) If you could choose three famous people or characters to be friends with, who would you choose and why? wdw bc why not and they cool, the cast of friends because they are me and i love them, niall horan bc hes the loml

92.) Do you smile at strangers when you pass by them on the street? sometimes

93.) Do you have a favorite TV commercial? If so, what is it? no

94.) Do you like your handwriting? no

95.) Cable TV or Netflix? netflix

96.) What are your favorite smells? beautiful day from bbw

97.) Do you consider yourself physically strong? no im a weak ass bitch

98.) Describe a time where you said something really rude or mean, whether intentional or not.

oh there are mnay times im a bitch

99.) Do you ask strangers to pet their dogs? yes

100.)What is your most embarrassing moment?

wasn’t even my fault but when a group of drunk girls mauled me down a flight of stairs in front of people and DIDN’T EVEN NOTICE LMAO also whe I tripped at my high school graduaton going to get my diploma.

101.) Has anyone really close to you ever died? If so, who was it and how did you handle it?

yes, my uncle and i did not handle it well.

102.)  Describe your plan of action if you were home alone and you heard someone break into your house.

Lock myself in a room and call 911 or fight them lmao

103.) If you were to be born again, would you want to be born male or female?

probs male

104.)  What shampoo do you use?

the cheapest one i can find

105.) Guess the meaning of this word: ulotrichous.

I dont even know where to start lmao definitely a phobia for something maybe

106.) Do you let messages (phone, email, text, social media, etc…) build up, or do you have to look at them right away?

texts i let build but everythig else i dont

107.)  Where is the nearest McDonalds to your house?

on the other side of town like 5 mins away

108.)  If you had $1 billion and you had to spend it in exactly one week, what would you spend it on?

makeup, concerts tickets, plane tickets, clothes, alcohol,food.

109.) What is the best thing you’ve ever eaten?

pasta for sure

110.) If you could go on a trip around the world with up to three people, who would you bring (they can be people you know personally or famous people).

Michele, Zion, thats about it lmao

111.) What expletive/ explicit phrase do you say most often?

fuck off i guess

112.) What is your personal definition of success?

happy with yourself, your job, your life as a whole

113.) How was your day today?

it was good, tiring.

114.) What is the closest Big City you live by?

hartford or probably new york

115.) Have you ever been in a car accident?

no

116.) Do you hide anything from your parents?

yes

117.) If you could possess one talent, what would you be able to do?

sing or dance.

118.) Ugly and smart or beautiful and stupid?

ufgly and smart

119.) What is the worst thing you’ve ever seen in real life?

i dont know

120.) Use only 3 words to describe how you want your future to go.

happy, imperfectly perfect and promising.

121.) QUICK! give me a few things a brick could be useful for

hitting myself in the head

122.) If you could make a dream society, describe it in great detail where it would be, who would be in it, and what rules there would be?

somewhere warm, my friends/favorite artists, no negativity, everything is free, the artists who live there HAVE to perform every other weekend.

123.) If you could make any animal miniature, what would you make and why?

giraffes so in can have one as a pet,

124.) What are your favorite candle scents?

salted caramel, flannel, vanilla bean noel, champagne toast, hot cocoa and cream,endless weekend

125.) If you HAD to have one plastic surgery, what would you get and why?

something to make me skinnier

126.) Do you prefer to hang out with the same sex or the opposite sex?

opposite--less drama.

127.) If you could make a charity, what would the profits go towards? How would you raise money for it?

animals,homeless people, children

128.) Describe the body you wish you had.

just a flatter stomach and thinner thighs

129.) If you were a famous director, what would your next movie be about? Describe the plot, characters, and possible title.

probs a romcom or a romance movie--to tired to make a plot

130.) If only women were to rule the world, how different would the world be by 2050?

very probably better tho

131.) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?

jack and coke.

132.) Do you have a problematic friend?

doesn;t everyone?

133.) Are you more spontaneous or more of a planner?

spontaneous

134.) If you could change your full name, what would your name be?

idk

135.) What is one song that describes your life?

probably wait for you by jake miller or invisible by anna clendending

136.) What is one show you’ve been meaning to watch but can never find the time for?

all of the ones in my list

137.) Do you find it easy to drop toxic people from your life that you’ve known for a long time?

yes

138.) Do you like children? Why or why not?

yes bc they’re cute af and funny and honest

139.) What is your zodiac sign?

pisces

140.) Do you like to dance? Do you dance often? In front of other people?

when im drunk

141.) Name some of your favorite colors.

blue

142.) Have you ever shoplifted? If so, what was it?

yes random stuff from walmart lmao

143.) If you could speak three additional languages, what would they be?

spanish, italian and french

144.) Have you ever been in legal trouble?

eh

145.) Have you ever had surgery?

yes twice.

146.) If you could change 2 things about yourself, what would you change and why?

my body and my face bc uglyand fat

147.) What do you want done with your body after you die?

cremated

148.) What three physical features do people compliment you most on? What do they say about them?

my hair, eyes and outfit sometimes.

149.) If you could have your own business, what would you do?

something that requires me to travel

150.) What current friend do you have that you’ve known the longest?

Angelica--known her before we were born 

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[astudyinfreewill]

love is strange

aka: lazy mornings at the barns, smitten teenagers, and old-fashioned love songs; aka (pt. 2): ~3k words of pure, unadulterated adam/ronan fluff inspired by song lyrics, because that’s just what my life is apparently??? aka (pt.3): a reimagining of that one scene from ‘please like me’. yes that one. u kno the one. thank you to @ethicalmadness​ for betaing this last minute!! <3

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During the summer, it wasn’t often that Ronan woke up after Adam. He was used to weird sleeping patterns, and Adam was in perpetual sleep debt during the school year, so now he made up for it by sleeping in whenever he didn’t have an early shift at work.

That morning, however, seemed to be one of the exceptions, Ronan making his way downstairs to find Adam sitting at the kitchen table with a book, no doubt trying to get a head start on the coursework for his first semester at Columbia. He stopped for a moment at the foot of the stairs to savor the sight: Adam in loose sweatpants and an old t-shirt, hair still mussed from sleep or from running his hands through it, sitting in Ronan’s home like he belonged there, because he did belong there. Ronan’s heart skipped a beat in his chest, then another two when he realized Adam was wearing one of his old t-shirts (Adam always claimed he just grabbed whatever was closest, but Ronan was certain he did that to him on purpose, the little shit).

“Morning,” he greeted, stepping into the kitchen, making sure to approach Adam from his right side.

Adam looked up, closing his book but keeping one long finger inside to mark his place. “Mornin’,” he replied, his smile as soft as his rolling accent, which always liked to make more of an appearance early in the morning or late at night.

“Sleep well?” Ronan asked, reaching down to mess his hair up even more.

“Mhm. Like the dead. That mattress is a dream.” He paused, tilting his head to one side. “Wait, was it a dream?”

Ronan snorted. They had recently moved to Niall and Aurora’s old bedroom, because as spring rolled into summer and the days turned hotter, it was getting impossible for them to share Ronan’s old twin-size bed without waking up all sticky and sweaty (and not for one of the fun reasons). When Ronan had complained about the excessive heat, Adam had offered to go back to Declan’s room, but Ronan was damned if he was sleeping on his own again. He had had a taste of what it was like to wake up to Adam, and he wasn’t giving it up if he had a choice.

He’d thought it would be weird to sleep in his parents’ room, but somehow, it was better for it to be put to use; it had always felt too empty, a gaping reminder of Niall’s absence first, then Aurora’s. And, to be honest, the mattress was amazing.

“It’s entirely possible. Or it could just be a good fucking mattress. How come you’re up so early, then? Every other morning, it’s like I wake up next to a log.”

Adam raised his eyebrows at him, with a small smirk: “Oh, I’m sure it is.”

“Wow, so clever,” Ronan drawled, sarcastically. He chose to ignore the fact he could feel his cheeks warming up, or the way Adam’s smirk only grew larger in response.

“I know, right,” Adam replied modestly. “Anyway, I woke up because I was thirsty and when I was here… well, food just seemed like a good idea.”

“Imagine that,” Ronan deadpanned benevolently. It was Adam’s turn to blush. His perennial appetite was something of an awe-inspiring thing, but Ronan knew all too well why he was always hungry, and didn’t mind one bit. In fact, he took every available opportunity to feed him.

“Chill out, Parrish. You could use some more meat on that skinny ass anyway,” he teased, making a big show of eyeing him up and down.

Adam leveled him with a look. They both knew exactly how he felt about Adam’s ass. It was just about the same way Adam felt about his.

Ronan cleared his throat. “Want more coffee?”

“God, yes, please,” Adam moaned, dropping the staring contest. (Which may or may not have been exactly what Ronan was after. When trying to distract Adam, coffee was almost always effective.)

As Ronan went to the counter and started making a fresh pot of coffee, he spotted a plate by the sink, covered in pieces of toast. They were arranged in shapes that resembled nothing known to the human eye, but were very clearly intentional nonetheless.

“Opal?” he guessed.

“Yeah,” Adam replied wryly. “You really need to teach her not to play with her food.”

“What makes you think she listens to me?”

“It’s more of a blind hope, really,” Adam sighed. “She’s got to listen to someone.”

“She listens to you, for some reason.”

Adam looked like he wanted to say something, but bit his tongue and reopened the book instead. Ronan was fairly sure he knew what Adam had almost said: I’m not always going to be around. Which was true, but Ronan did not like to think about it, if he could avoid it.

“Where is she, anyway?” he asked, trying to change the topic.

“Out in the fields? I guess? She told me to tell you she wasn’t gonna be around for lunch. Probably gonna eat more sticks or something,” Adam smiled, amused.

Ronan clucked his tongue. “Look at her, all emancipated already. They grow up so fast.”

He moved back to the table, bringing the fresh pot of coffee and some buttered toast for himself (and for Adam, despite the fact Adam had ostensibly eaten already).

“Anyhow, before you decided to make a crass sexual innuendo,” he started, in his best Gansey voice, “I was just saying that you’re very still when you’re asleep. That’s all.”

Adam snorted at the impression. “Yes, well, I’m not used to moving around much in my sleep,” he said, predictably reaching a hand out to steal a corner of Ronan’s toast (to Ronan’s part-smug, part-endeared satisfaction). “Haven’t exactly had the most luxurious beds. If I rolled around too much, chances were I’d be sleeping on the floor.”

Ronan had spent enough nights at St. Agnes, either beside Adam’s bed or inside it, to know that was true; and he’d only been inside Adam’s parents’ trailer once, when he’d helped him move out, but the bed was even smaller there.

“Well, better get used to it, Parrish,” he grinned, reclining back into the chair and crossing his arms behind his head arrogantly. “You’re living the high life now. That good ol’ king-sized bed life.”

Adam looked at him with the same weird hesitance as before, but this time, he actually said the words. “Well, until I leave for college, at least.”

Ronan stopped leaning back into the chair and planted his elbows on the table instead, mock-arrogance and grin both gone. He started tearing a piece of toast apart with glowering concentration, and realized belatedly it was exactly what Opal had done with hers, and what Chainsaw did with anything she could get her beak on. Maybe it ran in the family.

“Ronan,” Adam said quietly, gently.

“Why do you have to say shit like that?” Ronan said, staring at the table.

“Because – it’s the truth? And because I don’t want you to – I don’t know – forget that it’s happening, and then be disappointed when it’s time for me to leave.” Adam sounded genuinely regretful, which did nothing to ease Ronan’s bad mood, because Adam was also, in some ways, completely right. Ronan did try his best to ignore that this newfound bliss was only going to last until the end of the summer. But just because he tried to bask in denial, it didn’t mean he was successful.

“You think I can actually forget that? That I don’t think about it every damn day?” he spit back despondently, but it came out sounding more forlorn than biting, which perhaps was for the best.

“Okay. You’re right. I’m sorry.” Adam’s voice was quiet, but earnest. “I just want us to be okay. And I think about it too, you know.”

Ronan looked up at him, with all the skepticism he could muster. “Please. You can’t wait to go to college.”

“Well, yeah,” Adam acknowledged, simply, meeting Ronan’s eyes head on. He had never compromised on that, and never would, and if Ronan was being honest with himself, he loved him for it. “But that doesn’t mean I’m not gonna miss you every day.”

“Smooth-talking bastard,” Ronan replied. He knew Adam knew that was what he needed to hear, but he also knew that Adam meant it, and that was enough to dissipate his bad mood. “Eat your toast.”

“It’s your toast.” Adam poked Ronan’s bare foot with his socked one, a tentative peace offering.

“Then eat my toast,” Ronan drawled. “I’m gonna make more anyway.”

So they ate toast, and they drank coffee, and Ronan told Adam what he had dreamt, and Adam told Ronan what he was reading about. It was all so utterly domestic, it made Ronan’s heart ache in all the best ways. This is it, he thought to himself. Whatever happiness is, this is it.

They sat in comfortable silence for a while, Chainsaw coming down from her perch to peck at the cold remnants of toast. Ronan got lost in the hypnotic motion of stroking her feathers, like he used to do when she was just a fledgling. When he looked up, Adam was gathering the dishes and mugs and taking them to the sink, but not before Ronan had caught him staring with unabashed fondness at him and Chainsaw.

“What,” he deadpanned.

“I keep telling you,” Adam shrugged, slightly embarrassed at being caught out, “you look like a supervillain petting his familiar. Pretty darn cute.”

“Supervillains aren’t cute, Parrish.”

“Well, I guess you’ll be the first one, then.” And there it was, that cheery smile, all cheeky uncomplicated happiness. Ronan sometimes wondered if his heart would ever stop accelerating when he saw it. So far, the odds weren’t in his favor.

Restless, he got up and joined Adam at the sink.

“You don’t have to do the dishes, you know.”

“I know. I don’t mind.”

“I can do them,” Ronan insisted.

“You made breakfast.”

Ronan rolled his eyes. “I put bread in a toaster.”

“And made coffee.”

“Whatever. You’re supposed to be taking it easy, remember? You’re the one who insisted he still needed to work two jobs through the summer, not me.”

“Well, aren’t you glad you have such an independent lover?” Adam joked.

It was a joke, Ronan knew. They’d only recently gotten used to the idea of referring to each other as boyfriend, and Ronan suspected Adam was riffing on an unfortunate joke Henry had made when they’d moved in together, something about Adam becoming Ronan’s kept mistress, which had resulted in Gansey wincing, Blue making an indignant noise, and Ronan chewing him out furiously (Adam, curiously, had been silent; as he later explained to Ronan, not because he agreed with it, but because for once in his life, he didn’t feel like he had something to prove to anyone, and he had five different Ivy League acceptance letters on his desk to testify for it).

So. It was a joke. Which really did nothing to explain why Ronan’s mouth went dry and his stomach flipped in a funny way at the word lover.

“That what you are, Parrish?” he heard himself say in a small, rough voice before he could stop the words from coming out. Oh God, what. The fuck are you doing.

Adam looked at him curiously, wrist-deep in soapy water. “Um. I guess? Wait.” He looked up at Ronan more closely, eyes slightly narrowed. “Do you… like that?”

Ronan’s cheeks felt very warm. “Uh, no?” he scoffed, disdainfully. Too obvious. Try again.

“Like what?” he shrugged, the motion not at all natural.

Adam turned off the tap. He’d caught on, and there would be no shaking him. “Y’know. That word. Lover.”

“Don’t be ridiculous, Parrish,” he said, trying for haughty and missing by a mile or two. His cheeks definitely felt even warmer now, and Ronan could feel, with horror, the blush creeping down to his neck.

“You do,” Adam said, delightedly. “Oh my God.”

“I don’t,” Ronan insisted, then remembered he didn’t lie, huffed, and glowered at the ceiling instead. “So what?”

“Oh, nothing. I just think it’s adorable–”

“Fuck you, Parrish–”

“--and that if I’d known, I would have used it sooner and more often–”

“You’re such an asshole.”

“Yeah, but takes one to know one, right?” Adam grinned, unrepentant. Ronan had definitely been a terrible influence on him. Or maybe they’d just always been more similar than he’d been willing to contemplate. He chose to storm out of the kitchen anyway, cursing his fair complexion and ignoring the fact he could definitely still hear Adam chuckling in the kitchen. He could wash a hundred dishes for all Ronan cared.

He threw himself on the couch in a manner he hoped conveyed at once annoyance and superiority, and pretended to be very invested in the latest dream object he’d produced, a small painting of a landscape where the weather conditions changed if you shook it.

After a few minutes of sulking, he saw out of the corner of his eye Adam coming out of the kitchen and heading for the desk where Ronan’s computer was hooked up to the speakers. Ronan almost asked what he was doing, but Adam already knew his password anyway, and to acknowledge him was to give up the moral high ground, so he just shook the painting again, ostensibly very interested in the pictorial representation of hail.

Apparently, Adam had been fiddling with his Spotify account, because moments later, the sound of a guitar riff filled the room, and of course.

Ronan threw the painting down. He had hung out at Boyd’s during Adam’s shift often enough to have gained more than a passing knowledge of classic rock.

“Oh, extremely funny, Parrish. Really, extremely fucking funny.”

Adam evidently thought so too, because he laughed and then started to seriously, honest-to-God lip-sync to the song.

Right, that was the last straw. Ronan got up from the couch, ready to storm out of another room, but Adam quickly caught up with him and grabbed him by the wrist, then ran his fingers along his forearm, and okay, maybe Ronan could stay a couple minutes. Whatever.

“You getting your kicks out of this, Parrish?” he asked, trying to sound as bored as possible.

Adam grinned and casually rested his arms on ronan shoulders.

After you’ve had it, you’re in an awful fix, the song crooned, talking about love. Ronan was inclined to agree with the singing duo, because obviously he was as fucked as them, as evidenced by the way his arms decided of their own accord to snake around Adam’s waist.

Were they– swaying? Was this what high school proms were like?

And really, what the fuck was this morning?

Feeling equal parts surreal, foolish, and contented, he readjusted his loose hold on Adam, letting his hands rest at the small of his back. Adam’s hands, he could feel, were laced behind his neck, making him conscious of every point of contact.

Your sweet loving is better than a kiss, Adam lip-synced, half-humorously– but only half, Ronan couldn’t help but notice. Somehow, he felt much more inclined to forgive him now – and even more so when Adam quickly caught his lips in-between lines, gently tugging at his bottom one.

When you leave me, sweet kisses I’ll miss, the song went, and Ronan swallowed hard, refusing to even pretend-sing that line, but still feeling it in his chest.

They swayed along the next riff, the motion somehow incredibly awkward and oddly satisfying at the same time. He cringed. He knew what was coming next.

Sylvia?, Adam mouthed, directing his flirtiest look at him.

Yes, Mickey, Ronan mouthed back, rolling his eyes as far back in his head as he could to convey his spite.

How d’you call your loverboy? Adam asked, undeterred, doing his best impression of a smooth 50s blues singer, which wasn’t very smooth at all. It was kind of adorable, really.

Come here, loverboy, Ronan relented, getting into it a little more, because really, what kind of boyfriend would he be if he let Adam make a complete fool of himself all on his own?

And if he doesn’t answer? Adam mock-demanded, delighted to see Ronan playing along, eyes lighting up with amusement.

Oh, loverboy...? Ronan mouthed back, smiling and fluttering his eyelashes, because honestly, two could play at this game (and he was reasonably sure Adam had a thing for his eyelashes; he’d brushed his lips over them too many times for it to be a coincidence).

And if he still doesn’t answer? Adam insisted with a smirk, but Ronan was close enough to see his ears go pink, even under the tan.

I simply say–

Without entirely meaning to, Ronan found himself lip-syncing this part with more conviction than the teasing warranted, looking directly at Adam.

Baby, oh, baby

My sweet baby, you’re the one.

It was meant to be just playing along, but Ronan could feel the truth of those words heavy in his chest, the way he always did when he allowed himself to think about his feelings for Adam. To think about how he couldn’t ever imagine being with anyone else, hadn’t ever imagined being with anyone else; how Adam really was the one. He felt exposed, and breathless, and weirdly vulnerable, considering they were still just clumsily swaying in the living room to cheesy 50s rock. Suddenly he wanted very much to be staring at the ground, his ribs feeling too tight for his heart.

But Adam seemed to pick up on it, because he held Ronan’s eyes, stopping him from looking away, and sang the last line out loud. “Baby, oh, baby,” he crooned quietly, slightly off-tune, Southern accent mellowing out every sound, “my sweet baby, you’re the one.”

It could have been a joke – certainly it could be easily passed off as one – but it didn’t feel like one. The final strains of the song died out around them, and they were still swaying a little, arms wrapped around each other.

You’re the one.

Ronan swallowed. “Will you really miss me when you’re away at college?”

“Of course I will, lover.”

“You little shit,” Ronan laughed. Adam’s eyes were shining with amusement and fondness and something else that Ronan was not quite going to name, but felt reverberating in his chest, pounding against his ribcage.

“I’ll miss you too,” he said, instead of those more dangerous words, words better left for the summer nights, when he didn’t have to worry if he was blushing all the way down to his chest.

“I know,” Adam said. “So let’s make the most of the time we have.”

That, like many of Adam’s plans, was a smart idea. Ronan sat down on the couch, tugging on Adam’s hand to make him follow.

“Come here, loverboy,” he called, waggling his eyebrows suggestively.

Adam laughed, and went.

#trc #the raven cycle #adam parrish #ronan lynch #pynch #my writing #mp #i'm just gonna hide now and ignore how ridiculous i am. ok. good. goodnight

[jimins-crooked-tooth]

Ask Game

nobody asked me any of these questions because u all h8 me but I wanted to answer them anyway so here we are (^:

1: Name: Mia (: 2: Age: 19 3: 3 Fears: spiders, people crawling and being chased in horror movies, my dog dying someday 4: 3 things I love: my dog, park jimin, Speezy Freezes 5: 4 turns on: boys listening, empathizing, learning from their ignorance, and advocating for important causes. K I N K. get u a freak like that ^^^ 6: 4 turns off: being talked over, mansplaining, greasy hair, bad smell 7: My best irl friend(s): @jaemamba, @namjoons-broken-toe, @mark-biased 8: Sexual orientation: bisexual 9: My best first date: going to my university’s football field at 1:00 in the morning with my dog, running around with him, and then driving to Speedway to get Speedy Freezes 10: How tall am I: 5′4 11: What do I miss: my best friend 12: What time was I born: i was born at 5:18 on 6/18 13: Favorite color: red 14: Do I have a crush: i fell in love with my eye doctor yesterday. does that count? 15: Favorite quote: “We are what we repeatedly do; excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.” 16: Favorite place: this is hard. mt favorite destination type place is antigua, guatemala, but my favorite place to be is anywhere with my dog (: 17: Favorite food: scalloped potatoes 18: Do I use sarcasm: me??? noooo, never. 19: What am I listening to right now: dope - BTS 20: First thing I notice in new person: teeth and hair 21: Shoe size: 7 1/2 US size 22: Eye color: green 23: Hair color: brown 24: Favorite style of clothing: sweaters 25: Ever done a prank call?: when i was in, like, middle school. OH! also american airlines when they were being unhelpful little douche-dicks this summer when they lost my luggage in france ((((: 27: Meaning behind my URL: um i’m in love with jimin’s crooked tooth 28: Favorite movie: monster’s inc. 29: Favorite song: leave me lonely - ariana grande 30: Favorite band: BTS 31: How I feel right now: tired and hungry 32: Someone I love: park jimin 33: My current relationship status: i’m in an exclusive relationship with food 34: My relationship with my parents: eh 35: Favorite holiday: christmas and thanksgiving 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: i have a tattoo of mine and my brother’s hands in a pinky swear on my right side, a tattoo that says “i belong deeply to myself” on my left side, a big tattoo of athena on my left thigh, and my dog’s paw print on my right foot.  i have my ears double pierced and my nose pierced. 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: i’d love to have nipple piercings but my boobs are reeeeally big and that increases my risk of infection and irritation, so i probably wont get it done. and the next tattoo i want is a bow behind my ear 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: fandoms 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: i don’t think so, we just don’t talk 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: lololololololol no 41: Have I ever kissed the last person I texted? i would hope not 42: When did I last hold hands?: like a week ago with my best friend 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: it depends on if i put on makeup or not.  no makeup = 15-20 minutes, makeup = 30-40 minutes 44: Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?: i think so. i’m losing track of time so it’s hard for me to remember hahahaha. 45: Where am I right now?: at my apartment. 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: i don’t drink so quite honestly, i don’t know who it would be helping me 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: loud 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: no 49: Am I excited for anything?: i’m excited for to make a new character for d&d 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: yes(: my best friend Martin, but he lives thousands of miles away in normandy, france 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: more often than you’d think. i’m very good at it. 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: two days ago i hugged some family members after visiting 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i would not care in the slightest lol 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: i don’t think so.  i usually keep trustworthy people close to me and untrustworthy people away from me. 55: What is something I disliked about today?: i accidentally slept in waaaaaaaay too late. 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: park jimin 57: What do I think about most?: my dog 58: What’s my strangest talent?: i have a few. i memorize license plates, i can name every color in a 64 pack of crayola crayons, and i can look good in any pair of sunglasses 59: Do I have any strange phobias?: yes. people crawling and being chased in horror movies. also, people touching and grabbing my wrists/being restrained 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: in front of it. 61: What was the last lie I told?: “my dog locked the door, not me.” 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: i’m just gonna say facetimeing because it’s kind of a mix of the two 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: yes and yes 64: Do I believe in magic?: no 65: Do I believe in luck?: yes 66: What's the weather like right now?: snowy snowy snowy 67: What was the last book I've read?: everything, everything 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: yes 69: Do I have any nicknames?: mi and higgie smalls 70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?: when i broke my arm in 7th grade.  i was playing soccer and i was the goal keeper and somebody from the opposite team kicked the ball and snapped my arm in half. 71: Do I spend money or save it?: a mix of both 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: nope 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: yes, a pencil 74: Favorite animal?: giraffe and puffins 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: watching mulan 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name?: i asked my roommate and he said “faust” so i’m gonna go with that lol 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: serendipity and lie 78: How can you win my heart?: food and dogs 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: sneezed on the beat, and the beat got sicka 80: What is my favorite word?: serendipity 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: @got7-markjinson, @yeoldalayhehoo 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: “fuck donald trump” 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: not that i know of 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? teleportation so i could go anywhere in the world for free! 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? “are you happy?”  86: What is my current desktop picture? sehun lookin’ all perfect, as always (’: 87: Had sex? no 88: Bought condoms? no 89: Gotten pregnant? no 90: Failed a class? no  91: Kissed a boy? yes 92: Kissed a girl? no)))): 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no omg too cheesy 94: Had a job? i’ve had 4 95: Left the house without my wallet? yes 96: Bullied someone on the internet? i more-so fight with people on the internet, not bully. 97: Had sex in public? never had sex, so obviously not hahaha 98: Played on a sports team? yes! growing up, i played soccer for 7 years 99: Smoked weed? nope 100: Did drugs? nope 101: Smoked cigarettes? nope 102: Drank alcohol? i hate alcohol 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no 104: Been overweight? yep 105: Been underweight? nope 106: Been to a wedding? yes 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 5 hours? i think you mean 5 TIMES 5 hours lmaoooo 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? YES. WHO HASN’T???? 109: Been outside my home country? yes! 3 times(: i’ve been to guatemala, mexico, and frace 110: Gotten my heart broken? eh, not really 111: Been to a professional sports game? yes 112: Broken a bone? yes! 2 113: Cut myself? no 114: Been to prom? yes, twice 115: Been in airplane? yes, soooo many times 116: Fly by helicopter? no, but i would love to do it sometime! 117: What concerts have I been to? omg there are so many. in order: taylor swift, kelly clarkson, one direction, demi lovato, bastille, lana del rey, marina and the diamonds, one direction (again), ed sheeran, the 1975, ariana grande, and then i’m going to see harry styles and niall horan this summer! 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yes because i’m fckin GAY 119: Learned another language? i’m studying spanish and korean 120: Wore make up? all the time lol 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? NO BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY QUESTIONS ABOUT SEX 122: Had oral sex? NO 123: Dyed my hair? nope 124: Voted in a presidential election? yes, just 1 125: Rode in an ambulance? no 126: Had a surgery? yes 127: Met someone famous? yes, i met lea delaria fro oitnb 128: Stalked someone on a social network? UM ALWAYS??? 129: Peed outside? yep 130: Been fishing? yep but it’s soooo borning 131: Helped with charity? yes 132: Been rejected by a crush? all the fucking time (^: 133: Broken a mirror? i dont think so 134: What do I want for birthday? for park jimin to acknowledge my existence ((((((((((((((((((((((((:

why am i such a noob????

#I Hate Myself #welp #there's just about everything you need to know about me hahahaha

[whats-a-michaelclifford]

fun dare do all the fucking questions

YOU LIL RASCAL

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.

Rock Me - 1D, Heartbreak Girl - 5SOS, Jasey Rae - 5SOS Cover, Break Out! Break Out! - ATL, Valerie - Amy Winehouse, Beside You - 5SOS

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

PHIL LESTER

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

“In truth, I wasn’t being good out of love or respect for their…” - Buffering: Unshared Tales Of A Life Fully Loaded by Hannah Hart

4) What do you think about most?

Getting out of my dumb ass town. 

5) Ever had a poem or song written about you?

No, pft I wish

6) Do you have any strange phobias?

Besides clowns? 

7) What’s your religion?

EHHHHHH?????

8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Tanning or helping with the yard

9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

5SOS or 1D

10) What was the last lie you told?

I’m single

11) Do you believe in karma?

Yeah bitch you best believe

12) What does your URL mean?

Honestly though, what IS a michael clifford

13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

Weakness? Loving too much… Strength? Being able to love????

14) Who is your celebrity crush?

In mainstream media? Michael Clifford. In non-main stream? Phil Lester

15) How do you vent your anger?

Writing

16) Do you have a collection of anything?

Books, lots of them

17) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

Decently, she could use some work tho

18) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

Hate? Yelling. Love? My friends laughter

19) What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if I never met my best friends? OR What if i just don’t go back to college?

20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Yes and yes

21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

Right arm? Bookcase is out of reach. Left arm? My lamp

22) Smell the air. What do you smell?

My house?

23) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

Haunted house with clowns

24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender?

Niall Horan, Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, Michael CLifford, Luke Hemmings, Calum Hood, Ashton Irwin, Alex Gaskarth, Troye Sivan, ect

25) To you, what is the meaning of life?

Fuck if I know. I’m just trying to survive mijo(a)

26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Yes and I once bumped a pole but never crashed

27) What was the last movie you saw?

ROGUE ONE: A STAR WARS STORY 

28) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

Broke my big toe

29) Do you have any obsessions right now?

Youtubers always

30) Ever had a rumor spread about you?

Uh, not that I know of

31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

Yeah, depends tho

32) What is your astrological sign?

Capricorn

33) What’s the last thing you purchased?

Toilet paper and eggs

34) Love or lust?

Love

35) In a relationship?

Sí

36) How many relationships have you had?

Counting this one 3

37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

Fuck if I know

38) Where is your best friend?

Their both in school

39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

Cuddling my girlfriend, WASUP

40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

At times yes

41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

GET FUCKING FIRED BISCH

42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

A) No B) Make the most of it C) YES

43) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Any 1D or 5SOS song. So many good memories man

44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Actually liking each other

45) How can I win your heart?

Buy me books, let me talk about things i love even if you don’t care ( shout out to my girlfriend @alltimeblowz who hears me constantly talk about Star Wars, Yuri on Ice and DanandPhil waaaaaayyyyyy a lot)

46) Can insanity bring on more creativity?

Sure, look at every wonderful creation out there

47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

Back in 6th grade when I joined band. Best years of my life

48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

To quote Dan Howell, Pinof 7, “UGH”. No but really just something really nice

49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word “heart.”

Heartache on The Big Screen by 5SOS i’MSORRYYY

50) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?

Purple

51) What is your current desktop picture?

Well I have 4 different ones. Dan, Phil, a Tatinof Picture, and a screenshot ofmy instagram in Grace Helbig’s video

52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

Probably D*nald Tr*mp……….*cough*

53) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

Won’t know till I hear it

54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

I can motherfucking do something I don’t know WHY THIS ONE SO HARD

55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

MEETING GRACE HELBIG OR PATRICK STUMP

56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

There’s a couple but wouldn’t that alter time

57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Hey Halsey or Michael HMU

58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

England

59) Ever been on a plane?

Yeah when I was tiny

60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities.

Halsey, Michael Clifford, Niall Horan, Zoe Sugg, AND SO MANY PEOPLE ARE SO HOT

….I DID IT!

#anon #long af #good things

[kjemiskromanse]

things no one cares about but here we go

1: Name

Inger

2: Age

21

3: 3 Fears

Mice/rats, birds and losing a limb

4: 3 things I love

Music, coffee, writing

5: 4 turns on

Cologne, dimples, nice hands, being nice/a good personn

6: 4 turns off

Being rude to people without any reason, arrogance, playing the victim, bad personal hygiene

7: My best friend

Not gonna say their names without their permission lol

8: Sexual orientation

Bi

9: My best first date

Never really been on a really good date

10: How tall am I

167 cm

11: What do I miss

How fun it was playing The Sims 2 when I was 12 lol

12: What time were I born

Who knows lol

13: Favorite color

I don’t really have one

14: Do I have a crush

No

15: Favorite quote

"If a man talks shit then I owe him nothing”

16: Favorite place

Oslo

17: Favorite food

Taco

18: Do I use sarcasm

Yes

19: What am I listening to right now

Camila Cabello

20: First thing I notice in new person

I don’t really know

21: Shoe size

39

22: Eye color

Green

23: Hair color

Brown

24: Favorite style of clothing

I have like 15 different styles lol

25: Ever done a prank call?

Yes

27: Meaning behind my URL

It roughly translated means “fucking hell” in Norwegian lol

28: Favorite movie

"The Wolf of Wall Street” or “Dunkirk”

29: Favorite song

Sing of The Times by Harry Styles

30: Favorite band

Little Mix

31: How I feel right now

OK

32: Someone I love

My best friends

33: My current relationship status

Single af

34: My relationship with my parents

With my mom it's cool

35: Favorite holiday

Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

My ears

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

A couple of different tats, no piercings

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

I don't remember

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

I reported him for being high on the job (as a nurse), and to the board of our uni for being high at school, so you could say he hates me at least.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

Does snapchat count?

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

No

42: When did I last hold hands?

Idk

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Depends if I’m doing my makeup or not

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

No, it’s winter and I’m single lol

45: Where am I right now?

Home

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

My friends 

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Depends

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

With my mom

49: Am I excited for anything?

Seeing Harry Styles and Taylor Swift in concert next year

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

No

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Often

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

I think I hugged my sister yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

Idc

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Yeah

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I was at work lol

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Louis Tomlinson or Harry Styles

57: What do I think about most?

Idk

58: What’s my strangest talent?

I am pretty good a keeping a straight face

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

I don't like clowns

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Idk

61: What was the last lie I told?

Idk

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Phone

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Nope

64: Do I believe in magic?

Nope

65: Do I believe in luck?

Nope

66: What's the weather like right now?

Cloudy

67: What was the last book I've read?

Something for uni

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

No

69: Do I have any nicknames?

No

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?

Idk

71: Do I spend money or save it?

Spend

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

No

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

Yes

74: Favorite animal?

Wolf

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Scrolling tumblr i think

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

Bruh idk

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Adore You by Harry Styles

78: How can you win my heart?

Basically be Matt Casey from Chicago Fire

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

stop your crying it’s a sign of the times

80: What is my favorite word?

Idk

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

That’s a secret hehe

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Stream Don’t Let It Break Your Heart and Adore You

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

Nope

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Super speed and mind compulsion

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

Idk

86: What is my current desktop picture?

Harry Styles’ nude photo from the Fine Line shoot because why not lol

87: Had sex?

Yes

88: Bought condoms?

Yes

89: Gotten pregnant?

Nope

90: Failed a class?

Nope

91: Kissed a boy?

Yes

92: Kissed a girl?

Yes

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

No

94: Had job?

Yes

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Yes

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

Kinda

97: Had sex in public?

No

98: Played on a sports team?

No

99: Smoked weed?

No

100: Did drugs?

No

101: Smoked cigarettes?

Yes

102: Drank alcohol?

Yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

No

104: Been overweight?

No

105: Been underweight?

Yes

106: Been to a wedding?

No

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

Yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

Yes

109: Been outside my home country?

Yes

110: Gotten my heart broken?

No

111: Been to a professional sports game?

No

112: Broken a bone?

No

113: Cut myself?

Yes

114: Been to prom?

Yes

115: Been in airplane?

Yes

116: Fly by helicopter?

No

117: What concerts have I been to?

Macklemore & Ryan Lewis 

One Direction x2

5sos x3

Little Mix

Harry Styles

Niall Horan

Halsey

The Scheen x2

Freddy Kalas

The 1975

Demi Lovato

Tokio Hotel

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

Yeah

119: Learned another language?

Yes

120: Wore make up?

Yes

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

Yes

122: Had oral sex?

Yes

123: Dyed my hair?

Yes

124: Voted in a presidential election?

We don’t have presidential elections in Norway

125: Rode in an ambulance?

No

126: Had a surgery?

Yes

127: Met someone famous?

Yes

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

Yes

129: Peed outside?

Yes

130: Been fishing?

Yes

131: Helped with charity?

Yes

132: Been rejected by a crush?

Kinda

133: Broken a mirror?

No

134: What do I want for birthday?

Money I guess

#text

[interstellarinfinity]

I found another one of these

I found another questionnaire from a few years back so imma answer it now again (and I only answered ones that changed lmao)

1: Full name

Then: Madison Now: Madison

2: Age

Then: 16 Now: 19

3: 3 Fears

Then: thunderstorms, spiders, school Now: spiders, death, ending up alone

4: 3 things I love

Then: bands, books, God Now: Ivan, my sisters, music

5: 4 turns on

Then: don’t get turned on but… intelligence, good hair, beautiful eyes, sense of humor Now: Hands, lustful eyes, sweatpants, and this is super specific but Ivan has a grey shirt that makes me go nUTS for some reason

6: 4 turns off

Then: smells weird, rude, obnoxious, bad taste in clothes Now: rude, attention seeker, constantly correcting, thinks they’re always right

7: My best friends

Then: mikie, hannah, ellen, tom, lauren Now: Sophi, Ivan, my sisters

8: Sexual orientation

Then: straight/asexual Now: bisexual and not ace

9: My best first date

Then: haven’t had a good first date Now: my first date with Ivan (it was a breakfast date!!!)

10: How tall am I

Then: 5′1 Now: 5′1 & 3/4

11: What do I miss

Then: a lot of things Now: Ivan, my lyco friends, DPA, Ivan, Sophi, Ivan, Ivan, did I mention Ivan?

12: What time were I born

Then: 8:20 P.M. Now: 8:10 p.m. (I asked my mom and I was wrong before wtf)

13: Favourite color

Then: pink Now: pink

14: Do I have a crush

Then: YES Now: yeah cause bf

15: Favourite quote

Then: I have many Now: The greatest value in life comes from loving yourself for who you are

16: Favourite place

Then: Disney World Now: wherever Ivan is

17: Favourite food

Then: thin mints Now: mac and cheese and nugs

18: Do I use sarcasm

Then: yes Now: ofc

19: What am I listening to right now

Then: take flight by lindsey stirling Now: La Llorona from Coco (I can’t stop listening to the album help)

20: First thing I notice in new person

Then: hair Now: how they act with others

21: Shoe size

Then: 61/2-7 Now: 7

22: Eye color

Then: greenish/hazelish Now: they change a lot but primarily green

23: Hair color

Then: dirty blonde Now: dark blonde/red/brown

24: Favourite style of clothing

Then: sweater, leggings, combat boots Now: t-shirt, capri jeans, and converse/toms

25: Ever done a prank call?

Then: no Now: omg when I’m drunk yes

27: Meaning behind my URL

Then: starry night cause I love space, niall bc niall Now: idk it sounded cool

28: Favourite movie

Then: big hero 6 Now: Coco

29: Favourite song

Then: moon trance Now: I Miss Those Days by the Bleachers

30: Favourite band

Then: one direction Now: one direction

31: How I feel right now Then: happy Now: tired

32: Someone I love

Then: *** Now: Ivan

33: My current relationship status

Then: single as a pringle Now: happiest relationship I’ve ever been in

34: My relationship with my parents

Then: fantastic Now: fantastic (surprise)

35: Favourite holiday

Then: christmas Now: halloween

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

Then: none Now: traditional ear piercing

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

Then: cartilidge piercing and the cancer constellation tattooed somewhere Now: just the cancer constellation tattoo and a rose tattoo bc sorority

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

Then: it sounded fun Now: it sounded fun

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

Then: no Now: he can go to hell

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

Then: heck no Now: heck yeah

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

Then: no Now: nope

42: When did I last hold hands?

Then: back in january with my ex Now: two weeks ago with Ivan :(

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Then: like 20 minutes Now: if I’m not trying, 10.  if i’m trying, an hour max

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

Then: no Now: nope but I NEED TO LADOINFAD

45: Where am I right now?

Then: my couch Now: my bed

46: If I were drunk; can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

Then: no one i don’t get drunk Now: either my big or Ivan cause they’ve both had to do it

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Then: reasonable level Now: both depending on mood

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

Then: my mom yes Now: my mom yes

49: Am I excited for anything?

Then: disney world in 11 days Now: for Ivan to come back from Mexico

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Then: yes Now: yes

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Then: 1/8 of the time Now: never

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

Then: today Now: a few days ago

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

Then: i wouldn’t care Now: there will be blood

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Then: no Now: no idea

55: What is something I disliked about today?

Then: i have a migraine Now: people suck at work

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Then: lindsey stirling Now: niall horan

57: What do I think about most?

Then: someone Now: Ivan

58: What’s my strangest talent?

Then: picking up stuff with my toes (WTFFFFFF) Now: forgetting everything I’ve learned from a semester in an hour

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

Then: i’m afraid of thunderstorms Now: i have trypophobia?  does that even count?

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Then: in front of it Now: still in front but I enjoy photography

61: What was the last lie I told?

Then: … Now: that i don’t have sex LMAO

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Then: neither Now: facetime!

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Then: ghosts yes, aliens maybe Now: both

64: Do I believe in magic?

Then: i like to think it exists somewhere Now: there’s magic in love tbh

65: Do I believe in luck?

Then: not really Now: not sure tbh

66: What’s the weather like right now?

Then: sunny and breezy Now: cloudy night

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Then: the elite Now: i’m in the middle of turtles all the way down 

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

Then: yes Now: yup

69: Do I have any nicknames?

Then: maddio Now: maddio, mads, poopsy (thanks Ivan)

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

Then: almost breaking two of my fingers on two seperate occasions Now: ripping both my knees open, my hand, and my cheek

71: Do I spend money or save it?

Then: spend it Now: SPEND IT HOLY SHIT I CAN’T SAVE FOR SHIT

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

Then: no Now: nope

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?

Then: yes my blanket Now: my jolly rancher plush (work perks)

74: Favourite animal?

Then: penguin Now: penguin

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Then: sleeping Now: probably watching youtube

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

Then: no last name, he’s like madonna Now: doofensmirtz

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Then: i have many Now: hold on forever by rob thomas

78: How can you win my heart?

Then: just be kind and be honest with how you feel Now: same as before (wow past me had some wisdom)

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

Then: idk Now: i got no idea

80: What is my favorite word?

Then: don’t have one Now: ?

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Then: *middle finger emoji* Now: fix yourself and love everyone

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

Then: idk maybe one in tennessee Now: LIKE 5 IN TENNESSEE LMAOOOO

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Then: reverse time Now: stop time for everything around you and the people you’re with

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

Then: idk Now: anything about my sex life if my mom asked

86: What is my current desktop picture?

Then: 1d concert picture Now: collage of my friends and family and me boy

87: Had sex?

Then: no Now: HELL YEAH

88: Bought condoms?

Then: no Now: yup

89: Gotten pregnant?

Then: no Now: nope

90: Failed a class?

Then: no Now: ALMOST LMAO

91: Kissed a boy?

Then: yes Now: yupp

92: Kissed a girl?

Then: no Now: when i’m drunk i do lmao

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

Then: i wish Now: yeeeeees

94: Had job?

Then: no Now: i have two right now

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Then: yes Now: i literally did this on the way to work the other day lMAO

96: Bullied someone on the internet?: no

97: Had sex in public?

Then: hell no Now: oops

98: Played on a sports team?: sorta

99: Smoked weed?

Then: no Now: hehehehhehe yeah

100: Did drugs?: no

101: Smoked cigarettes?: no

102: Drank alcohol?

Then: like sips but not a whole glass or shot or anything Now: YUP I LIKE THE ALCHY

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: no

104: Been overweight?: yes

105: Been underweight?: yes

106: Been to a wedding?: yes

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: yes

109: Been outside my home country?

Then: no Now; does canada count

110: Gotten my heart broken?: yes

111: Been to a professional sports game?

Then: yes Now: just went to my second one last fall!

112: Broken a bone?: No

113: Cut myself?: yes

114: Been to prom?: yes

115: Been in airplane?: yes

116: Fly by helicopter?: no

117: What concerts have I been to?

Then: one direction/5sos twice Now: 1d, 5sos, lindsey stirling, twenty one pilots

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

Then: ;) Now: uh yeah

119: Learned another language?

Then: halfway Now: ALMOST HALFWAY WITH SPANISH AGH

120: Wore make up?

Then: i wear it everyday Now: i fucking love makeup

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

Then: no Now: lost it AT 18

122: Had oral sex?

Then: no Now: hell fucking yeah

123: Dyed my hair?

Then: no Now: a lot in the past 6 months lmao

124: Voted in a presidential election?: no

125: Rode in an ambulance?: no

126: Had a surgery?: yes

127: Met someone famous?: no

128: Stalked someone on a social network?: yes

129: Peed outside?: yes

130: Been fishing?: yes

131: Helped with charity?: yes

132: Been rejected by a crush?

Then: not yet thank god Now: yup it sucks

133: Broken a mirror?

Then: no Now: i didn’t but my roommates bf broke mine lmao

134: What do I want for birthday?

Then: many things Now: my boy :(

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

Then: one kid, a girl, named aristotle Now: a girl and a boy and idk names

136: Was I named after anyone?: no

137: Do I like my handwriting?: sometimes

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?: my skip it

139: Favourite Tv Show?

Then: house of anubis Now: stranger things

140: Where do I want to live when older?

Then: in a city Now: anywhere that’s not the USA

141: Play any musical instrument?

Then: viola and piano Now: viola, violin, piano, ukelele

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

Then: falling on the conastoga trail while attempting to exercisse Now: burnt my arm cooking

143: Favourite pizza toping?: extra cheese

144: Am I afraid of the dark?: yes

145: Am I afraid of heights?: no

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

Then: no Now: not yet 

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?: yes

148: What I’m really bad at

Then: giving advice Now: focusing

149: What my greatest achievements are

Then: ??? Then: landing my past three jobs, being a part of a sorority, maintaining a 2.5 gpa

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

Then: that I’m annoying and a bitch Now: that i ruined their life 

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

Then: buy EVERYTHING Now: pay off my loans then go travel the world

152: What do I like about myself: my eyes

154: Something I fantasise about

Then: a lot of thing Now: being with Ivan forever

#holy SHIT THAT TOOK FOREVER #WOW #my post #about me

[survey1000]

40. 100 Questions

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up. You’re My Better Half - Keith Urban Need You Now - Lady Antebellum Pound The Alarm - Nicki Minaj We Came Up - Tim Hicks What You Do To Me - Dan + Shay Almost Famous - Eminem 2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Eminem 3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. ‘Almost Adulting’ by Arden Rose “Unless you are contemplating doing meth. Don’t do meth.”   4) What do you think about most? The past 5) What does your latest text message from someone else say? “I have a few people like that too”

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on? With 7) What’s your strangest talent? Don’t have one 8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence) Girls are mostly bitches and boys are easier to get along with 9) Ever had a poem or song written about you? Not that I know of 10) When is the last time you played the air guitar? Been awhile lol 11) Do you have any strange phobias? I hate having eyes on inanimate objects looking at me 12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? Not that I can remember lol 13) What’s your religion? Christian 14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Walking 15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind 16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? Nickelback hands down 17) What was the last lie you told? Don’t remember 18) Do you believe in karma? Yeah 19) What does your screen name mean? Nothing that I know of 20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? For weakness I would say probably biting my tongue when I shouldn’t and for my strength I would have to say being understanding 21) Who is your celebrity crush? Ashton Irwin 22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Nope 23) How do you vent your anger? In many different ways, which most are never really the best lol  24) Do you have a collection of anything? Books and CD’s 25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Phone 26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become? In some ways 27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? People smacking when they’re eating; music 28) What’s your biggest “what if”? What if I stay at this dead end job for the rest of my life? 29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yes and I believe that there’s definitely a possibility 30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. Right; a night stand Left; a wall 31) Smell the air. What do you smell? The clothes detergent 32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? My middle school 33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East Coast 34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Niall Horan 35) To you, what is the meaning of life? To create yourself 36) Define: Art. People have different opinions 37) Do you believe in luck? Not really 38) What’s the weather like right now? Rainy 39) What time is it? 3:22pm 40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? Nope, in drivers ed at the moment 41) What was the last book you read? The Black Witch 42) Do you like the smell of gasoline? No it gives me a headache 43) Do you have any nicknames? Shell and Meech(y) 44) What was the last movie you saw? Good question lol 45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? Probably when I sprained my wrist 46) Have you ever caught a butterfly? Nope 47) Do you have any obsessions right now? Not really 48) What’s your favorite music genre? Rap 49) Ever had a rumor spread about you? Plenty 50) Do you believe in magic? Sure 51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? Depends 52) What is your astrological sign? Pisces 53) Do you save money or spend it? Both lol 54) What’s the last thing you purchased? Ice cream 55) Love or lust? Love 56) In a relationship? Nope 57) Are you a virgin? Yup 58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue? No, my tongue is pretty short lol 59) Where were you yesterday? Drivers ed class 60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Yup 61) Are you wearing socks right now? Nope 62) What’s your favorite animal? Penguin 63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? Idk I haven’t found it yet haha 64) Where is your best friend? At their homes I’m guessing 66) What is your heritage? A mix between Native, Acadian, and European (Irish) 67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping 68) What do you think is Satan’s last name? I don’t think anyone from the Bible really had last names 70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? The one that aren’t bitches 71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? I’m getting fired lol 72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? Well my family and friends more than likely b) What do you do with your remaining days? Good question, probably cry lol c) Would you be afraid? Well yeah 73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love. Love 74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? There’s a few 75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? Uh no lol 76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Trust, loyalty, and love 77) How can I win your heart? Not too sure 78) Can insanity bring on more creativity? Well that’s why I’m creative haha 79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? To get the help that I desperately needed 80) What size shoes do you where? Anywhere between 8-9 81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? Well my name would be nice 82) What is your favorite word? Fuck 83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart. Broken 84) What is a saying you say a lot? Fuck it 85) What’s the last song you listened to? Its Time - Imagine Dragons 86) Basic question: what’s your favorite color/colors? Purple, blue, and green 87) What is your current desktop picture? Roses 88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? LOL 89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? There’s quite a few 90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? Well if they’re not doing anything, I’d probably go back to sleep 91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? Teleportation 92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? Graduation 93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? Middle school 94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? Ashton Irwin 95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Ireland 96) Do you have any relatives in jail? Not any that I talk to 97) Have you ever thrown up in the car? Not that I can remember 98) Ever been on a plane? Nope 99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? Get a fucking grip 100) Give me your top 5 favorite singers/bands Eminem, 5SOS, Nickelback, Luke Bryan, and Avril Lavgine

#survey

[casuallycasualturtle]

Prince Harry... FULL

It was Valentines Day and as every year for the past 3 years you were excited because you had the most amazing man in the world to call yours. You were also excited because for once you had a surprise for him. Both of you being 21 and ready to settle down and have a family. You both decided it was the right time. That was your surprise you wanted to propose to Harry and give him a gift. The “gift” being a baby. You couldn’t believe so quickly that it had happened. But it’s not like you were trying to prevent it either. You had taken a test and went to the doctors two weeks ago and they had said that you were ten weeks, so you weren’t that far along. It was still shocking to you though. You couldn’t believe a baby and a wedding all at the same time.  You were sure Harry would be just as excited and for that reason you couldn’t wait to tell him. It was just now 7:30!so he should be home any second to be getting ready so he could take you out for Valentines Day, he loved spoiling you. You were already dressed, Harry had laid out a beautiful outfit for you and a scarf and boots with a note that said “Dinner is at 8:30 put this on and be ready by 8.” You wondered which restaurant he was taking you to because he knew your favorite and it would also be the perfect place to share your surprise. So as you were thinking about everything, Harry walks through the door with a big bouquet of flowers with another note attached that reads “Baby, You’re Perfect.“ you couldn’t help but cry because of how sweet all of his gestures were. He grabbed you in his embrace and asked “what’s the matter babe.” “Nothing is the matter.” You say, “it’s just, I wonder everyday what I done to deserve someone as amazing as you.” “I wonder the same thing when I come home and I get to sleep next to the most beautiful woman on the planet.” He says, making you cry again. You both in each other’s arms, he kisses your forehead. “Babe, I’ve got to go get dressed if we’re going to make this dinner reservation.” He says. “Hurry back love.” You say as he’s making his way upstairs. You think to yourself as he is making his way upstairs to the shower. Harry never took to long in the shower, his hair took the longest and it only took about 5 minuets. He had become accustomed to rushing in the past years. So it only took him about 20 minuets tops to be completely ready. But you wondered if your baby would have long brown hair like his or short, red hair like yours. You wondered if your baby would have more of the Styles family features or your family’s. Either way you couldn’t wait to meet your little guy or gal. Harry was making his way down the stairs and you couldn’t help but smile. He goes to the front door and opens it for you and says “My lady” while he extended his hand all butler like, which made you giggle. He knew just what to do to make you laugh and smile and always made it a point to do so. Walking out of the front door and to the car he also opens the car door for you, and waits until you are all in to shut the door. Quickly you rummage through your bag to make sure you had the box with the ring and the test. Coming around the drivers side Harry notices you rummaging, “Do you have everything?” He ask “Yes love, all ready to go.” Reassuring him. On the drive to the restaurant he grabs your hand with one of his to hold while he drove with just one. In no time it felt like, you were already at the restaurant. It was your favorite, as you suspected but you were totally fine with that, it made this moment that much better. Harry went to the hostess and she showed you both to your table. Sitting for just a moment he ordered both of you food. “I think we are both going to have the chef’s choice.” Harry said. You always loved when he done that. It was all the little things that he was doing that reassured you the choice you were about to make was definitely the right one. So you reached in your purse without him seeing and you began, “Harry there is something I need to ask you..” “Is everything alright love?” He ask. “.. Yes, everything is perfect actually which is why I want to ask you this..” You continued. You stood up and walked toward him and got down on one knee and opened the box and said “Harry Edward Styles, will you make me the happiest woman alive and marry me.” “He stands up and pulls a box out of his pocket and says “Only if you do me the honor of marrying me." He says. You stand tall and he puts the ring on your finger and, you put the ring on his and you grab his face and kiss him. This had to be the craziest thing, you both having the same idea, and neither of you saying anything and making this so funny. Definitely a proposal to remember. The whole restaurant cheering along while taking photos and video. Sitting down, “There is something else too Harry.” You say. You reach in your purse again and grab the other box and he says “what’s this? A gift? but babe my gift to you was the ring.” “Just open it and you will see.” He opened it, inside you wrote a note that said “Our greatest adventure is just beginning.” “What’s this mean babe?” He realizes as he reaches inside the box and finds the test. His face showing awe. “I’m going to be a father?” He says with tears in his eyes. “Are you mad?” You ask him “Darling, mad is the furthest thing from what I am feeling right now.” He says. “I could not be happier than I am in this moment here with you, the mother of my child, my fiancé, my everything.” Bringing tears to your eyes again. “Have you told anyone yet about the pregnancy?” He ask. “Well I have to confess, I did tell 2 people.” You laugh. “I told Your mum and Gemma.” As those words escape your mouth, Harry’s cell rings. “Speak of the devil.. It’s Gemma.” You both laughed as he answered the phone. “Hey Gemma.” He answered “Thank you very much, I know your going to make the best Auntie and mum is going to make the best Gran.” He responded. “Okay, we will be over later, we are eating dinner now.” He tells Gemma. “Right, Bye and see you soon.” He hangs up the telephone. “Why do we need to go see your mum and Gemma?” You ask. “Well they just said they wanted to see us.” He says. “Hmm strange, you think they have something up their sleeves?” You ask “Well let’s go see shall we.” He reaches for your hand and you both stand and walk toward the door and out of the restaurant. On the drive to see Anne and Gemma you had that gut feeling that they were up to something. You asked Harry “Are you sure you don’t know what your mum and sister are up to?” With a suspicious look on your face. But Harry was very cheeky and was quiet good at keeping secrets. “I don’t know, honestly babe.” He has his poker face on. You pull up to Anne’s house and you see Gemma’s car in the driveway, just Gemma’s car, so nothing strange yet. You get out of the car and walk toward the door, you knocked to let them know you were there and then walked in. Not a soul in the tv room, kitchen or bedrooms. “I’m gonna go check the den” Harry tells you. “Okay, I’m just gonna go to the toilet quickly.” You let him know. You find your way to the toilet, you finish washing your hands and you see a note on the counter that reads “make your way to the den.” So you did as instructed, you just knew Harry was up to something, like he knew which room to check. So walking to the den you hear a voice whisper “she’s coming” standing in the doorway of the den you turn the light on and everyone jumps and says surprise. Balloons, streamers, noise makers the whole lot, There was Gemma, Anne, Lottie, Fizzy, Lou, even Louis and Niall and Liam showed up. You couldn’t believe it. “What is this for you guys?” You say in shock. “Well we just thought we would celebrate you and Harry and this new life that you all are starting.” Gemma says stepping forward “You know, I’ve considered you a sister for quiet sometime now.. I just wanted to show you how much I love you.” Gemma embraces you and kisses your cheeks. “We love you darling and wanted you to do something special for you.” Lottie speaks out. “Yes, we’ve never seen Harry so happy and this is also our way of saying thank you for being so good to him.” Niall interjects. Harry makes his way to the front. “Well the plan was to was to propose here with everyone present so since that isn’t gonna happen, I would just like to say.. Thank you everyone for celebrating both of these momentous occasions with us and thank you for being family.” “Yes, thank you all, you have no idea how much this means to us.” You say. FF: 4 MONTHS It was about 7 am when you woke up. You couldn’t believe just two weeks ago you and Harry found out that you are bringing twins into this world. A little boy and girl at that. It was sure to be a challenge but you wouldn’t change it for anything in the world. You were ecstatic to be on this journey with Harry. “How are my lovelies this morning?” Harry says coming down the stairs not long after you, as he smelled the breakfast you were cooking for him. “We’re all good in the womb today love.” He walked over to you and kisses you on your forehead and then kissed your belly. “You know, I’m glad the boys and I took this hiatus, if it wasn’t for that then you and I wouldn’t be here right now.” “I love you so much.” You tell him and you kiss his lips. “Hey, I was thinking about doing a film night, you know just you and me in our pjs and with some Chinese takeout and cuddling on the couch, what do you think?” You ask. “Sounds like a good way for me to get to spend quality time with my 3 favorite people.” He says. So you both sit down to the breakfast table and eat and Harry offers to clean up while you go and get cleaned up. You go upstairs and get showered and everything, even a fresh face of makeup. You come back down and Harry had everything cleaned up. “This is why you are the most amazing man on the planet, thank you so much babe.” You exclaim. “Anything to keep that beautiful smile on your face.” he says sweetly to you. “How about you and I go to the store and pick out films and get some sweets for when we get a sweet tooth?” You ask just to see if he would say yes, because you know he hates any type of store. Well I guess I should go and get used to making those quick trips.” He says, and you both start laughing. “I was just joking love, but you are more than welcome to join me if you want.” You say to him still kind of tickled at this whole moment. Harry decided he wanted to go. You get to the store and the quick trip went better than expected, Harry done well and was helpful when it came to picking the films and candy, which you didn’t expect because he usually just tells you to pick up what you like since he doesn’t usually go to the store with you. You get in the car ready to leave, heading home. Then you realize what time it is, it’s just now 1:00. Since the film and Chinese takeout was going to be dinner, you both decided to grab a light lunch a soup and salad from Olive Garden, another of your favorite places. Harry goes in and orders the food to go so you didn’t have to wait for anything. You get home and sit at the table and start eating your lunch. You get a phone call from your Baby doctor and he ask you to come in as soon as possible he had something he needed to share with you. “Okay we’ll be there straight away.” You tell Harry what the doctor said a little frightened. “I’m sure there is nothing to worry about Love, don’t worry.” He says trying to calm you down. You both finish your lunch, and Harry drove you to the doctors, you were kinda scared so you sat in the passenger seat and Harry holding your hand just like always. You put your other hand on your belly rubbing and saying, it’s gonna be okay babies, it’s okay. Mummy and Daddy are here.“ You arrive at the doctors and they take you back almost immediately because there was no one else to be seen. You sit for a moment waiting on the doctor and he walks in and ask how you are “I guess we’re okay, unless you have something that says otherwise.” You say, still scared. “Well it’s not anything bad I promise, every time you come in the babies have good heartbeats and their fingers and toes and all is well.” He reassures you. “What does concern me however is your small stature and if you will be able to deliver them normally. We need to discuss the possibilities of a cesarean.” The doctor says. In your mind you are relieved because you thought it was much worse than this, you couldn’t bare it if you had done something to unintentionally harm your twins or if anything was wrong with them. “Well I guess we have to do what we have to do, right?” You say relieved. “I have to say doctor, you gave us quiet a scare, we thought something terrible happened.” You say relived again. “I am truly sorry about that dear, but we can’t make these types of telephone calls we have to pull you into the office for these types of discussions, you know just in case you have any concerns or questions.” He says apologetically. “It’s okay, we were just concerned that’s all” Harry interjects. You could tell he felt a sense of relief as well, the entire time he had such a tight grip on your hand and as the doctor was speaking you felt it loosen. “Oh and one other thing.” The Dr. said Harry’s grip tightened. “Well you know we’ve been saying you were about 6 months right? Well turns out you are measuring about 7 and a half months which is right at 30 weeks.” You both look at the Dr. kind of confused. “Don’t worry, this is very common when carrying twins, that just means you will probably deliver earlier than expected, which is why the cesarean was brought up, because like I said with your stature it will be difficult to deliver normally so we need to get your appointment scheduled.” “How soon does it need to be scheduled?” You ask the Dr. You are shocked to hear that you will be having your twins sooner than expected but as long as they are healthy it’s fine with you. “Well how about 2 weeks from today, how does that sound?” The Dr said looking at his appointment book. “That’s rather quick don’t you think Dr?” Harry asked very nervous again and his grip still tight “I mean it’s not gonna hurt the babies?” He ask. “Oh no no, they should be perfectly fine, their measurements, heartbeats and everything are good and they are developing very well.” The Dr saying this made you and Harry feel better. “You know I’m very surprised that you didn’t go into labor earlier. Most women that carry twins usually deliver around 24-28 weeks.” He said. “You’ve done everything you were supposed to do, and nothing you weren’t so don’t be worried, your twins will be just fine.” The Dr reassures you again. You got home from the doctor you and Harry sat on the sofa feeling a bit better that you knew nothing was wrong with the twins. But, a bit more nervous knowing that you would have them next month. You hadn’t had a baby shower and, the nursery wasn’t ready. You only had 2 cribs and dressers. You had thought of a theme of music. Music notes and little guitars and stuff like that. Considering who their father was you thought it was fitting, but you just hadn’t gotten all the stuff to put it together. With knowing this you call Gemma. “Hey Gemma, what’s are you doing?” “Great, why don’t you and Anne come on over Harry and I have something to tell you guys.” “Okay, see you soon.” You say hanging up. “What’s going on Babe?” Harry asked puzzled. “Well considering the babies are coming in two weeks and we don’t have the nursery ready, I figured your mum and sister could help us work on some of it before our alone time tonight.” You said. “Oh, yeah. With the news today I had almost forgotten about that.” He said “I was a little scared today in there thinking that maybe something was wrong. I thank God everyday that you are happy and healthy and so are the twins.” You leaned over and kissed him on the lips and laid your head in his lap. “I love you so much.” You say to him sweetly as he plays with your hair. Seconds later the doorbell rings, you know it’s Gemma and Anne so, you and Harry both tell them to come in. “Okay so why have we been summoned to Casa De Styles today?” Gemma says in a  joking tone. Giggling you say. “Well, we’ve been to the doctors today and they’ve said I’m farther along than we’ve thought, I’m actually 7 and a half months along, and we have scheduled a cesarean for two weeks from today.” You announce “Oh my Goodness, we have to plan you a baby shower then.” Anne says in shock. “That’s why we’ve brought you here so you can plan that and to see if you both wanted to help me set up the nursery.” Harry tells them. “Well of course we will, What have you’ve gotten finished so far?” Gemma asked. “We only have cribs that need to be set up.” Harry says. “So if you ladies want to go shopping for decor while I set up the cribs that would be fine.” He continued. “Are you sure Harry?” Anne asked. I don’t mind to stay back and help if you want while the girls go shopping.“ She offered. “It’s okay mum, go. I know you would much rather shop than put up cribs. I’ll be fine.” Harry insisted. You, Gemma and Anne arrive at Target to see if they have what you are looking for. Of course they do. You find everything from music themed lamps, decals and bedding and you even found some canvass art. You were gonna keep the room painted white so you didn’t need that. “Wow I can’t believe we practically found the whole nursery in one store.” Gemma says excitedly. “I know I am shocked myself. I thought we had more time to do this, I’m sorry girls.” You say apologetically. “Dear, it’s fine. We are glad that you came to us and asked us.” Anne reassures you. “Now let’s go to the baby clothes so we can find these sweet little ones outfits to come home in.” She continued. Looking at the baby clothes, you got emotional. You couldn’t help but think that soon you would be a mother to not one baby, but two babies. That soon, you would be holding them in your arms. This truly was the happiest time in your life. “What’s wrong love?” Gemma asked concerned. “Nothing, it’s just, I can’t believe I’m about to be a mother to twins and that I have the most amazing people in my life to share this experience with.” You say wiping tears and smiling. “Aww, well I honestly couldn’t have picked a better mother to my niece and nephew.” Gemma says and gives you a hug. “Or to my grand babies.” Anne interjects. Still feeling silly for crying you pick out outfits for the twins to come home in and you all three head to the checkout. Getting ready to leave you texted Harry and asked how it was going at home. He replied with a smiley face emoji. You get back home and see a familiar car. You walk inside and head upstairs before you start helping Gemma and Anne to bring the other things in. You were surprised to see Louis sitting working on a crib. “Louis what are you doing here?” Not that you minded but you were just confused. “Harry needed reinforcements so he brought in a real man.” He laughed. “Haha very funny Lou.” Harry came up from downstairs. And kisses you from behind “Hey babe, did you get mostly everything for in here?” “More like everything. Your mum and sister are bringing it up now.” You said excitedly. “I can’t wait for you to see it.” “As soon as we get this crib finished we can put it all in here.” Harry says. “Yay, I’ll go let them know.” You kiss him and run downstairs. Seeing Gemma and Anne unbagging everything. “Okay girls, Harry and Louis are working on the last crib and when they finish with it we can move everything in.” You tell them excitedly. “I thought that was Louis’ car outside.” Gemma said laughing. “I knew Harry would need help.” Anne said laughing as well. “Oh well, at least they are getting them built.” She continued. “Okay ladies, it’s all yours.” Louis says coming down to sit on the couch. “Let us know if you need any help or anything.” Harry says doing the same. They both got comfortable and turned the tv on. “Yeah, Harry well let you know if we need anything.” Gemma said teasing him. You all three make your way to the nursery. You stand at the doorway and get emotional. You couldn’t help but picture your babies in their nursery and in their cribs and rocking them to sleep and changing their diapers. “Aren’t they beautiful.” Anne says getting chocked up herself. “How cool of a story is it going to be to tell them that their uncle Lou and Daddy built these for them. Gemma said. “Okay, ladies lets get started.” You said as you started with the bedding and Anne with the canvass art and Gemma with the decals, another touch was to put the curtains up. You found some beautiful curtains with music notes on them, then putting sonogram pictures on the dressers along with sweet music boxes that Gemma had picked out. You all take a step back and look at the masterpiece you had created in less than 3 hours. Then all of a sudden, you felt something dripping down your leg. “Umm you guys..” You say with a frightened look on your face. “what is it dear?” Anne says. You all three looked down. “Dear God. Harry, Louis, hurry the babies are coming.” It took them both literally two seconds to get up the stairs. “It’s okay babe I got you.” Harry says picking you up, frantic. “Mum, Call the hospital, Gemma, go start the car, Louis , go to our bedroom closet and get the bags.” You were just kind of frozen, because you were in such shock. Thank God for Harry because he knew exactly what to do. He carried you down the stairs and to the backseat of the car. Gemma already inside with it started as instructed. Anne was also in the passenger seat she had just hung up with the hospital. “Okay, we are on our way, thanks.” Gemma was already halfway down the road. “Babe are you okay?” Harry asked still frantic. “I guess we’ll see when we get to the hospital.” You say still kinda in shock and frozen. You pull up to the hospital emergency entrance, there are nurses there waiting with a wheelchair. “Her water broke about 5 minuets ago. We got her here asap.” Harry said. As they hurried and wheeled you to a room, they got you all hooked up to fluids and everything and things seemed to calm down a bit. Harry, Louis, and Anne and Gemma all sitting waiting with you. The time now 6:15. Harry walked up to the head of your bed and kissed your forehead and said “well looks like we won’t be ordering Chinese or watching that film tonight huh.” He kinda laughed. Moments later the Dr walked in and said “well looks like this will be sooner than sooner, since we’ve got you all hooked up, I’m gonna go ahead and start prepping for your cesarean so we get these babies out into the world.” He says calmly. “Since your water broke not long ago we have a little time before you actually have to deliver, this being your first pregnancy an all.” He continued. “Thank you Dr” you said smiling. “I shall be back in about an hour and we can take you to the operating room.” He said as he leaves the room. “Well isn’t that a way to calm someone down, using words like operating room.” You said lightening the mood in the room. Everyone laughed. “Alright guys, gonna go make some phone calls and update everyone.” Louis announced “Do you mind if I do that?” He asked you. “Of course not, let them all know that everything is fine and the second the twins arrive that we will let them know, and that they are more than welcome to come visit.” You said feeling calmer about the situation. “Okay, I’ll be right back then, I’m sure they will all be excited to hear this news.” He said leavingg the room. A few moments later, Louis stepped back in saying “looks like the troops are on their way, I called Lottie and she said she is gonna rally everyone up and they will be in the waiting area.” “I can’t believe this is actually happening, I can’t believe my niece and nephew are on their way.” Gemma said excitedly. “Please don’t corrupt my kids Gemma.” Harry said laughing. “Give it a year and I’m sure we’ll all have had a part in corrupting them.” Louis jumped in. The Dr came in with some nurses, and asked “well, are we ready?” “As ready as I’ll ever be doc.” You said. “Let’s get you down there then.” The Dr said. The nurses came in to wheel you out in your bed so you didn’t have to walk. Harry followed. “We will see you guys when you get back.” Anne said and everyone waved. The Dr got you to the room and prepped for a second and gave you an anesthetic. Harry leaned down and kissed you again and said. “It’s all going to be alright love. As you drifted to sleep. You came too, and Harry still standing next to you in a blue hospital suit. Not his usual attire so you giggled and it hurt when you done that. So you stopped. The nurses came in with your twins and said congratulations mummy and daddy. One nurse holding your daughter gave her to Harry, the nurse holding your son gave him to you. As they wheeled you to recovery. Everyone was still waiting as they were before. As you came in they all stood up. “Everyone we would like to introduce you to Miss Evie Mae Styles at 5lbs 4oz and 19in long” Harry said smiling with tears of joy “and Mr. Jackson Avery Styles at 6lbs 7oz and 22in long” You said looking down at your son. Everyone in the room was just smiling looking at you and Harry admire your twins. “Louis, go get the others I’m sure they are dying to meet the twins.” You said still admiring your son, your little boy. “Here, let’s get a a picture of you and Evie and Jackson.” He set Evie in your arms you were in awe of how beautiful your twins are. Evie had one of your features your red hair, other than that she looked more like Harry. They both had his ears, and dimples and nose, being newborn you couldn’t tell what color their eyes would be yet. Harry snapped the picture. While you weren’t looking then showed you. It made for a great photo. “Harry won’t you get up there so I can get a family shot of the four of you.” Anne said admiring the twins. Harry sat on the bed and took Jackson from you. Then Anne took the photo. Again, neither of you looking. “What a beautiful family.” Anne continued. “Mum would you like to hold your grandson.” Harry said. “I can’t believe you would ask such a question, of course the answer is yes.” She said holding her arms out for Jackson and Harry handed him to her. he turned to you and took Evie, you knew what he was doing, you handed her to him. “Gemma would you like to hold your niece.” He asked. “Obviously I do, since she is gonna be my best friend from now on.” She laughed. You nudged Harry and he took out his phone to get a photo. Then Louis walked in with everyone. “sorry guys, I had to explain to the staff that we are all one big family, they about didn’t let us through.” He brought in Niall, Liam and Lottie, Lou, Fiz and the band.“ The whole lot of them. You smiled. "Well if they have any further questions tell them they can deal with me.” You said. “They may think I’m crazy but I want all of you in here. You are all such a big part of mine and especially Harry’s life that we would be heartbroken if we couldn’t share this moment with you all.” You said. Everyone walked inside said congratulations to you and Harry and gave hugs and kisses. They all got to hold the babies and by that time it was really late so everyone decided to go home and rest. Some assuring you that they would be back tomorrow. At the end of the day it was just you and Harry left in the room. Your perfect little family of four. The dr came in one last time. "Congratulations you guys. I told you everything would be okay.” He said with a smile. "Now is there anything I can do for you all before I get ready to go.” He asked. “Actually Dr there is one thing you can do, let’s step outside.” Harry said. You just knew he had something up his sleeve. You gave a suspicious look. He was holding Evie and handed her to you. “Don’t worry, you surprised me with the greatest gifts in the world today, so I have something for you.” He said as he kissed you on the forehead, then headed out the door. A moment later Harry came back into the room and took Jackson from you. “What are you up to babe?” You ask curious, but never took your eyes off of Evie. “You’ll see.” He said with a smile but playing with Jackson. About 30 minuets had passed when the dr had returned with Chinese food and the film that you and Harry were going to watch at home tonight. “Did someone order Chinese takeout and a film.” The dr said as he carried in the food and a movie. This being the most emotion filled day of your life of course you started crying and at the same time you were happy. "I believe the lady did.” Harry said to the dr. Harry walked up and grabbed the stuff from him and set them on the bed. Then walked up to you and kissed you again. Gentle and sweet and you still had the babies in your arms so he gave them kisses as well. He proceeded to grab Jackson from you and said “This was without a doubt the craziest most emotional and best day of my life.” He said “I am truly the luckiest man in the world right now. I am blessed with two healthy, beautiful children and I have the most amazing woman I could ever ask for by my side.” He continued as you were still letting out tears. You said “This is why I love you so much, you are always surprising me.” you kiss him again and smile.  The dr still in the room, he says.  “Now you kids have fun now and again congratulations.” As he left the room, and you and Harry were left alone with your Chinese takeout and the film and your twins. FF: 4 Years: "Mommy, I love you so much.” You loved to hear those words from your daughter Evie.  You and her were sitting on the couch watching Saturday cartoons, something you used to do as a kid.  “I love you too sweetie.” as she gave you the biggest hug. “when are daddy and bubby coming home?” she asked you.  Harry had woken Jackson up early yesterday because he wanted to take him on a father son bonding camping trip.  They went away just yesterday but Harry said they would would be back today.  Let’s face it, too long in the woods with a 4 year old isn’t the best ideal, you thought to yourself laughing. Just then you heard the door open and Jackson ran through the door.  “Mommy, I missed you.” he said as he ran into your arms and you spun him around. “oh mommy missed you too baby.” “Where is daddy?” you asked him curious “Right here babe..” Harry said. “Daddy..” Evie ran up to him. “Hey, princess. Where you good for mommy?” he asked her.” “Yes, mommy bought me a toy because I was good.” she said proud of herself. “That’s my girl.” Harry said as he picked her up and kissed her cheek. He put Evie down and then she and Jackson ran up stairs to play “Come on bubby, I want to show you my new toy that mommy got me.” she said excitedly.  Harry walked up to you grabbed you and kissed you like he hadn’t seen you in years.  "I missed you love.” He said. “I missed you too.” You said. “I can’t wait until tomorrow, and you are mine forever.” He said. “Love, I’ve been yours since the day we met.” You said and smiled. Tomorrow is the day that you and Harry had planned to get married. You had wanted to get married after the twins were born but you were a new mom to two babies and were very stressed even though Harry helped you in every way possible. It was just not the right time for planning a wedding. Now the twins were older and you had time to plan things, you were going to let Evie be the flower girl and Jackson be the ring bearer. You had thought about your maid of honor and other bridesmaids you certainly wanted Gemma to be the MOH and you chose Lottie, and Fiz as the bridesmaids. Another family affair you thought. Harry had obviously picked Louis as his Best Man and Niall and Liam as his groomsman. Everything was almost set, you just had a few last minuet things to do tomorrow. You had the Caterer, the photographer, Lou was going to be your beautician, your dress was perfect and Louis was going to pick up the tuxes tomorrow. The only thing that needed to be done was setting the reception hall, which someone else was going to do so today, you didn’t have a worry in the world. It was still early in the day so you and Harry decided to take the kids for brunch. You packed up some food and you all got into the car and you took the kids to the park so they could play too. You wanted to spend the day with Harry and the kids since tomorrow was going to be so hectic. WEDDING DAY! The day was finally here. The day that you and harry planned to say in front of everyone that you loved each other and that you wanted to spend the rest of your lives together.  Today was going to be perfect.  You and Harry spent the night apart last night so that he didn’t see you until you walked down the aisle.  harry had stayed with Louis and and the guys at Louis’ flat. he had taken Jackson with him.  You and Evie and all the girls had stayed at the flat that you and Harry shared together.  It was six in the morning and you and all the girls had decided to go to breakfast.  IHOP sounded really good and you all agreed to eat there.  Very quickly you all ate and headed back to the flat so that Lou could do everyone’s hair and makeup. While sitting, Gemma says to you, I never thought I would see Harry with some one as perfect for him as you are.”  and the tears started from both of you. “ from the good and the bad you both have always been there for each other, and I am so happy that today you officially become apart of our family.”  she said as she hugged you.  “Gemma you are truly the best sister and I am forever grateful for the friendship that we share, I promise to continue to take care of your brother for the rest of my life.”  "I know you will darling." Lou had finished with you and you stood too like into a full length mirror, you with your hear as beautiful as ever and makeup flawless, and your gorgeous Vera Wang dress with a sweetheart neckline. The time to be at the chapel was at 1:00 and it was now 12:15 and everyone was just about finished getting ready so all you had to do was load everyone up and get them to the chapel. You arrived there at about 12:30 which gave ample time for everyone to get situated and in their places and be ready for the music to start. The song you had chosen to walk down the aisle to was "A Thousand Years" and it couldn't have been more perfect. The clock struck 1 and it was time for the music to start and for you to walk down the aisle and meet Harry. First, it was Gemma with Louis. Then, Lottie with Liam and Fiz with Niall. It was finally your turn, as you stood at the end of the runway you couldn't help but lock eyes with Harry. You stood in front of him and the minister began. "Harry Edward Styles, Do you take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, to love and to cherish, in sickness and health, for richer for poorer, for as long as you both shall live." You looked at Harry and he looked at you and said "I Do." "Do you (YFN) take this man to have and to hold, to love and to cherish, in sickness and in health, for richer for poorer, for as long as you both shall live." "I Do." You say. " Harry, You may now kiss your bride" He lifted you vail up and gave you a sweet kiss." By the power vested in me I now pronounce you husband and wife." "The minister said. "Ladies and gentleman it is my honor to present to you for the first time ever Mr. and Mrs. Harry Edward Styles." Everyone gave a standing ovation, as you walked out of the front doors of the church where Harry had a limousine waiting for you. "Harry, how did you plan this with out me knowing." You said in shock." "You know I would do anything for you". He says and kisses you agin, and leads you down the steps to the limo. You couldn't wait to live Happily Ever After with your Prince Charming.

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