#ngl part of me kinda wants to make myself throw up but i know i shouldn't do that

[ripdragonbeans]

Fun thoughts

TW: bulimia

#ngl part of me kinda wants to make myself throw up but i know i shouldn't do that #but i know that could trigger a relapse in my bulimia #hahahahaha love jt #even if im throwing up bc im sick it just makes me wanna throw up even more even if i don't need to #hahahaha it's the one mental illness that my parents didn't catch #bc i was v good at hiding that one #I'm not gonna make myself throw up bit lete twll you the desire os there #im hoping i can just run it off #bean speaks

[hoonichi]

kinktober ‘22 - day three

pairing: heeseung x fem!reader

words: 1k

warnings: impregnation, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it!), dirty talking weewoo

a/n: i am still sick but i already feel terrible for missing a few days of kinktober so i forced myself to write this 😼 it’s honestly..not that good ngl, kinda sappy euehej, don’t ask me abt the ending

kinktober ‘22 masterlist

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“heeseung!” you squeal when he spins you around and suddenly your back is pressed against the wall. you instinctively push him away but who are you to go against him?

heeseung has that glint in his eyes which tells you he’s up to no good, “you riled me up in the car and now you’re trying to get away from me?” he scoffs, and the sounds of him unbuckling his belt fill the room. your eyes dart down to his hands and you look at how swiftly he undoes the belt and then they’re back to roaming your body, “let’s make babies tonight, y/n” heesung whines into your ear. him being needy is definitely what started your little fiasco in the car but you truly didn’t expect him to say that.

“a-are you sure..?” you stutter, partly because heesung is already sucking on your neck.

“yes, fuck yes, please let me” he groans into your neck and you shiver.

without a second thought you’re leading him to the bedroom, struggling halfway when heesung keeps trying to kiss you every second he gets.

to say the least, his earlier proposition already made you salivate at the thought of him filling you up fully and you wanted that just as badly as heeseung. fuck it, you were ready.

once you somehow finally reach the bedroom, heesung pushes you down on the soft covers of the bed and climbs on top of you.

his fingers work fast on unbuttoning your flannel and exposing your lace bra, “fuck, you planned this, didn’t you,” he says, diving straight into your boobs. he traces his tongue on the lace before biting down on the material and sliding your bra down, all while maintaining eye contact. you whine at the sight because he looks so unbearably hot right now.

“i did but i didn’t think you wanted to breed me,” you grin, latching your fingers in his hair and pushing his face closer to your breasts.

“ugh when you say it like that…,” he nuzzles his head in between your breasts, kissing your skin. soon he lifts himself up by his elbows and smirks at you, “let’s go to the main event then, shall we?”

“can’t wait,” you smirk and watch as heesung lifts himself up from you just to dispose of his shirt and then his hands go back to the earlier unfinished part of his jeans. he finally takes them off and is left with only his boxers.

quickly you get up from laying down and kneel in front of him, reaching for his lower part and palming his already very hard bulge. heesung throws his head back and lets out a low groan, placing his hand on top of yours and speeding up the process. it’s almost like he’s humping your hand.

“you’re so needy today, heeseungie,” you wet your bottom lip with your tongue as you look up at him. heesung gulps because you look so unbearably hot, palming him all while maintaining the eye contact.

“your fault,” he mumbles quietly, retracting his hand from yours and slipping out of his boxers. his cock springs free, almost hitting your face. you salivate at the sight and place your hands around him, giving him a few hard pumps. heesung watches as you place your lips around his tip and let your tongue lick off all the precum there is, “i want you, so bad”

you release his cock with a pop and smile, “then take me, heeseung.”

you lay down back on your back and heesung positions himself in between your legs, “i know that i was the one to propose to fuck you raw but.. you still sure about that?” he asks before he can push himself in.

“yes, heeseung, i love that you’re so considerate but please put it in alreadyy,” you whine, not being able to deal with your hormones anymore. heesung doesn’t look assured yet so your hands reach for his face and you pull him closer before placing your lips against his, “i love you and i want a future with you, so p-please..”

with that, heeseung is thrusting into you and a surprised moan escapes your lips. all the worried thoughts slip from heesung’s mind as soon as your warm walls tightly hug his member, making him want to ejaculate on the spot.

“fuck,” he lowly groans, “you will look so good with my baby,” he says while caressing your tummy, almost able to feel the lineage of his cock sliding into you. you bite down on your bottom lip, drawing out blood. what heesung is saying immediately goes straight to your core, “all filled up with my cum”

you cry out when his thrusts begin to get quicker, continuously hitting that one spot which makes you squeeze around him every time. heeseung holds your hips in place, practically ramming into you while your nails dig into his back, leaving marks for him to discover later on.

“i-im close,” you mumble out, alerting heesung but he already knows by the intensity of how much you’re clenching around him. he nods, also approaching his high. it takes him a few more thrusts until you’re both cumming simultaneously, loud moans and groans being heard in the room.

heeseung still keeps on slowly thrusting into you even after his high, milking his cock into your pussy. it soon begins to hurt from the sensitivity and you scrunch up your face but heeseung is already pulling out, and now you feel empty.

you watch with hooded eyes as heesung pulls out his now limp cock, his fingers going straight to your pussy as he spreads your lower lips and watches as the cum spills out. you think it’s awfully sexy when he does that but heeseung wouldn’t be heeseung if he didn’t ruin the moment, “this is so hot, let me take a pic”

you gasp at his words, “heeseung!,” you take what’s left of your energy and throw a pillow at him, missing terribly, “absolutely not!”

#enhypen smut #enhypen heeseung smut #heeseung smut

[hypaalicious]

Why I think Nocturne is way better than the OG Castlevania series

Sorry, when I try to shut up about this show I be like

so here’s my unsolicited, highly biased word vomit that will contain spoilers at the end (but those will be under a cut) so read at your own risk! Okay, leggo

It’s actually diverse.

One thing about high fantasy is that it’s almost always Eurocentric. Even if it’s not set in Europe, the characters are gonna inexplicably have British accents because we associate that with high fantasy. We’re gonna have European style “old” clothing choices. And if everyone isn’t white, they might as well be because they’ll only throw in a couple ambiguously brown side characters and call it a day. Or if they make a main character a POC then best believe everyone around them will be white.

Nocturne, tho? Oh, you can tell it’s made with more than just a sprinkle of representation. They didn’t just make Olrox indigenous, they tied his Aztec lineage in beautifully. Annette was a slave but it’s not flattening her character because of it. Drolta came to slay but even she has her authentic background. Which leads me to my next point!

The Black characters especially are done tastefully.

Like… don’t get me wrong. I love Isaac. He was the only reason I stayed tuned into Castlevania past season 1, LMAO! But his backstory felt like straight trauma porn cooked up by a non-Black person who wanted an excuse to see a Black man whipped for character development.

Zodwa Nyoni wrote some episodes for Nocturne and she put her FOOT in it. When it came to addressing Annette’s time as a slave, her connection to the Orisha through her bloodline… I was gobsmacked at how accurate everything was and now I know why LOL! Like, for me, it’s always gonna be hard to see slavery in fiction but I can’t say shit bad about how it was tied into everything in this show. Annette’s ancestors play such a huge part in her growth and it just warmed my heart to see a Black girl whoop some colonizer ass without it feeling hamfisted. 🥹

The token relationship is the cishet one, everyone else is gay asf

I love that trope flipped on it’s head, ngl LMAO! I, by default, HC everyone as bi anyway but MAN was it nice to see Olrox and Mizrak speedrun enemies to lovers and a hint of Drolta’s devotion/gayness to Erzsebet.

I know the majority of my fictional character thirsting leans male but don’t get it twisted; I jump for JOY for gay shit in media 😂 The only reason I don’t thirst as hard for female characters is because I prefer my men fictional but my women real.

That being said, this series sent me into bi panic and I’d like to be manhandled in a room by Drolta and Olrox.

Nocturne’s first season plays out neater than the OG’s first season.

Like… okay. My main beef with the OG series was that after they defeated Dracula, the rest of the show felt like a meandering fanfic. Sure, there were a few badass moments, but the energy kinda faltered for me and I was bored with a lot of it. I hope they don’t do the same with Nocturne; they left off at a nice cliffhanger which builds anticipation for the next season and… idk it feels more cohesive already? They coulda speedran kicking Erzsebet’s face in like the OG trio did to Dracula but I’m so glad they left us a lil something to look forward to.

Alucard’s glow up >>>>>

I’m chronically online but I’m so glad I went into this series blind because the way I GASPEDT when he showed up at the end

Like damn for the past fifty-leven years he was in that castle by himself going “do I wanna talk to Sypha and Trevor plushies again or do I wanna make myself even more of a bad bitch?” Then he chose the latter, went to the salon, got his hair bleached platinum along with some sew in extensions for volume, beat his face with Fenty, and said “sorry Drolta but there can be only one vampire baddie on this earth and hunny I’m TAKIN IT”

He looks more like his video game design this way too, which I love! I hate that he took out Cuntress McSlay tho 😔 Drolta I will always love you!!

Mmkay. Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to start a cult to Olrox real quick. Erzsebet ain’t the only god walking the earth and I feel he just needs good marketing!

#I don’t know what to do until season 2 😩 #there’s just so much I want to see but I have to WAIT #Annette is badass now but I know her character development bout to go CRAZY #her and Richter gone have biracial babies just watch!! #wonder what her ancestors gone think about her being with a colonizer tho 👀 #ah well Richter will treat her right I know it #oohhh I bet her locs will be down her back by the end of this series #Richter better get his long hair too!! #castlevania nocturne

[sometimes-i-write-4-you]

Part of the convocation (part 2) -Miguel Diaz x reader

A/N: I was today years old when I found out I never posted the second part. I am so sorry I feel kinda bad ngl.

"Look, Tory, it was an accident. I only attacked cause I thought it might be you" I explain to her, even tho I don't owe her anything. "Really? Cause it's not what I just heard her tell Miguel" Tory says, and turned her back to me, walking away. "What? What the hell. Tory, hey, come back-" i call, but she ignores me. I can almost hear her little laugh, enjoining as things around her crumble. I hate that bitch, but she is not my biggest worry right now.

"You didn't actually hit her, on purpose, right?" Hawk asked  just as confused as me. "Of course not! I have nothing agains Sam, were not even In rival Dojos or anything!" I half-full at him. He looks a bit offended, but he quickly shakes it off. "Why would Sam lie to Miguel like that, I mean, there is no way he will buy it, right? You are the least violent person in, you know, Eagle Fang" Demetri says, highlighting the fact that compared to his Miagi-Do friends, I am very, very violent. "I don't fucking know" I say, anger slipping into my tone, "but I am not letting her get away with it". 

I make my way to the cafeteria, red in my eyes. Sam can suspect me, that's one thing, but making up shit about me so she can stay in Miguel's good graces is a whole other thing. I could feel my blood getting hot as the anger was bubbling inside me. I shook my hands in an attempt to calm down, fighting the urge to clench it into a first and punch that girl.

I entered the cafeteria and walked straight to Miguels usual spot. He was there, sitting with Sam. "I didn't know that the best defense Miagi-do teaches is 'bitch on, bitch off', Sam" I said. It's good right? Those past few minutes I've been thinking of a punch that is with words and not an actual punch. Sam looked at me, doe-eyed, fully preparing to deny her lies in front of Miguel. "Sam, what is she talking about?" Miguel asked, confused, and then when he got no response, he turned to me. "(Y/n), what is going in?" The words left Miguel's lips, and I looked at him, and then at sam. "Well, your girlfriend here-" I started, but I just couldn't. He'll be so hurt. If he'll see Sam for who she really is, he'll be mine, but I'll be just as bad as her. This is playing dirty, I think. I can't be the one who breaks his heart. "Is a lovely girl, and I am so happy for you two, that you found each other" I say, and with that I go away, as far as I can. My legs carry me, and before I know it I find myself at the Dojo. I throw my back to the side and kick if my shoes, getting into position across from the punch bag. "Stupid" I call out, punching the bag with my right hand, "fucking" I call, throwing another punch with my left hand, "morals" I scream, and kick the bag.

"I figured you'd come here" I hear a familiar voice. "What do you want?" I sigh as I keep punching the bag. "I want to know why you didn't tell me what happened" Miguel replied. I look at him, he's still in his school outfit, and he is leaning at the wall right next to the entrance.  "What do you mean by 'what happened'?" I ask him, playing clueless in order to avoid the subject. "Sam" he said, "she snuck up on you, questioning your morals and my loyalty" he explained, "not very cool of her". I let out a small laugh and punched the bag once again. And again. And again.

"Your stance is a little off" Miguel finally said something. He pushed himself off the wall he was leaning on and came close to me. 

"You need to like, raise your hands, you place one like so" Miguel said as he corrected my stance. "You need to have your hips turned, alright, it's all in the legs. Strong base" he continued, grabbing my shoulders from the back and turning me to him. He posed himself across from me to show me how it's done. I mimicked his pose. "Now throw a punch" he said, and so I did. He blocked it, and i recognized the movement as "wax on, wax off". "That was great" he smiled at me, "you know what wasn't great?" He asked, "you hiding the the run-in with Sam from me" he answered himself. I sigh.

"Look, can we just let it go? It was a misunderstanding, that's all" I say, walking away from him to grab my water bottle. "No, it wasn't just anything, (y/n), I saw you at the school, you were pissed, and rightfully so" he said, following me. "Yeah, I was pissed she lied about it and made me the bad guy, when in reality, there wasn't any bad guy in this story" I say, and started chugging some water. I can't have this conversation with him, at least not right now. "Hawk told me the truth, (y/n), Demetri said you looked like you were about to attack Sam for real, but you didn't" Miguel kept going. "Yeah, that'll just make her right" I say, holding myself back from confessing I just didn't wanna hurt him by hurting her. "She shouldn't have lied to me like that" Miguel says, "and at first, I didn't realise why, cause the only thing that she got out of it was me thinking less of you, and why would she want that?" He asked, "I mean, that's the only reason I believed her at first, it sounded so unlike you, but she had no reason to lie, except she does" Miguel continued. I looked at him, slightly confused, "yeah, the reason being she wants you all for herself and can't respect the fact you have female friends" I said, not caring how mean it sounds. "Yeah, I guess, but also, it's you. She sees you as a threat, and I get that, after everything that happened with Tory-"

"If you chased me all the way here to ask me to forgive her, then you are more than welcome to leave" the words escaped my lips before I could stop it. Tears were starting to form in my eyes, and no way in hell I'm letting him see me cry. I spun back in front of the punch bag and punched it hard. "I came here to say that i- look, she's right to see you as a threat. You are a pretty girl who I hang out with a lot, and have more in common with, and is sweet, and kind, and funny, and…" Miguel goes on and on, until he stops and fires his eyebrows. "Gee, how didn't I see that before? You are far more right for me than her" he sighed, "I guess she felt… she felt like she can't compare". I looked back at him, confused. "What are you talking about Miguel?" I finally say, but he stays quiet. "Miggie? I say, breaking the silence with a nickname in Hope's he'll talk. "Sensai.." I try again, but instead of breaking his silence he breaks the distance between us and pulls me in for what felt like magic, but was just a kiss. One that should not happen. As much as kissing him back felt right, I pull away. "Miguel, not to say I don't want this, but, uh, we really shouldn't. You're with sam, and I.. I am not a homewrecker" I say.

"No, no, I should have mentioned it before, I broke up with her" Miguel said. I want to smile, but I swallow the urge. "And why is that?" I end up asking. "Because I realised… I realized her jealousy of our connection is, well, it's justified. I like you, a lot, and I… I think, sam realized I like you as more then a friend before I did, you know, I was so convinced it's her I'm in love with, after all I've been through in order to get back to her.." he started rumbling, and I started to get upset. "What do you mean?" I sigh. "I mean that… look, I don't know what I mean, I just like you, as more than a friend, and I… that kiss felt pretty good, you know? And I… I don't know what to think or feel and this is so strange for me, cause like…" he tries to explain, but I'm done waiting. My instincts are telling to just leave him here, but for some reason i find myself pulling him back for a kiss. He kisses me, and the magic is back on. "Finally" I think, and I guess i thought out loud. "Finally what?" Miguel asks in between kisses. "I guess I… I was into you for a while" I admit, pulling him closer. I could feel how his lips curve into a smile against mine. "How didn't I see it before?" He asked himself, pulling away, hands resting on my shoulders. His brown eyes looked right into my eyes, shining in a way I never saw before. "You just.. saw me as part of the convocation" I said, and he smiled at me. 

#cobra kai x reader #cobra kai fanfic #miguel diaz cobra kai #miguel diaz x reader #miguel diaz #cobra kai imagine

[nattyontherun]

🦷 Is there a chapter, scene, or WIP you're dreading to write (but is necessary to your plot)? Share a snippet or tell us about it!

ohh fun question! i have a bunch of WIPs lying around ngl, though since I've become busy with work, a lot of them I've put on the "back burner" save for like... two. Anyways!

Since ik you follow me mostly for my KKSS fic, we can focus on that!!

When it comes to writing, although I do make "skeletons" of my fics, so a very summarized bullet point list of what I want to happen, I actually plan out chapters as they happen? The minutiae is all very up in the air as far as planning goes, all I know, really, is the ending and the major shakeup's I wanna incorporate.

In the case of To Oblivion, my current (and very definitely LONGEST) WIP in the docket, I kinda have a very specific but ultimately small... anxiousness... towards a scene i've planned for the next chapter, and a much, much broader, definitely more potent dread towards the fic as a whole.

In terms of specifics? I have this scene planned where I'm going to introduce two "new" characters, one of whom will be important to the plot, from a perspective of a canon character I don't actually know (as is, and how to write) that well. I'm not sure that I can pull it off exactly correctly, and my refusal (and really, lack of time) to go cavern crawling through canon to figure things out isn't doing me any favors. Considering I could very much say the same for Sai, and that worked out okay-ish last time? Well, it's an AU anyways so!! I'll figure it out!!!

As for the broader dread... I cannot overstate this: to oblivion is NOT kind. HF is like the best most squeaky clean fixer upper version of this "AU" that i coulda come up with and to oblivion is far and away from that.

I'm gonna be blunt, I have a very certain view of the world and my views reflect very much in the way I write whether I intend it to or not,,,, so I'm kinda leaning into that for this fic, really allowing my thought process to shine through. I'm not interested on making the characters sympathetic so much as believable in how they act and react to the story as it unfolds.

Part of this dread, I'll admit, is simply because I'm not really good at plots? Actually I'm awful at them lmaooo, I don't do the /overarching and makes sense/ sorta narratives, I've just never found the inspiration to go at those so long when all I really wanna do is throw characters at each other so they can cry dramatically about their lives or whatever.

The other part is just that Naruto is a very old IP with a very old fandom and it's because of this that many of us here have a very fixed view of how characters are like, whether that's canon or simply our interpretation of them. I don't think I'm gonna be making a lot of people happy with how I plan to let the story play out - in fact, I restricted the comments from chapter one FOR A REASON! I just... I do not see a world where we finally get to the crux of why I even wrote this fic, and everybody reading will just be fine and dandy with how I make things play out.

If you think that one Shisui-POV fic /Like Stars/ is challenging and frustrating,,,, to oblivion will set your eyes on fire :\

I say this not to scare of readership but I really don't want ppl coming into the fic thinking I'm deadset on a warm, hopeful ending like I was with HF. While we're not heading towards an unhappy or even Bad ending, I just feel like it's important to set the expectation that I wrote this fic not just to challenge myself and the characters but also those who decide to read it to see my perspective of where canon went wrong with the framework of the Uchiha massacre and Konoha's handling of it. It's gonna be very hard on not just Sasuke and Shisui but Kakashi as Hokage, Naruto, Sakura, Shikamaru, Sai and basically everyone who'll end up showing their faces in the fic.

Hopefully it's digestible?????????

#fanfic #ao3 fanfic #kakashi hatake #uchiha shisui #hearthfire verse #sasuke uchiha #shisui uchiha #META? #ish #answering your writer-y questions #this is long and winded and I'm sorry for blabbing so much #to oblivion #that one ambitious fic where le writer attempts #read: ATTEMPTS #to address the uchiha massacre #and konoha's handling of it #in a post chapter 698 world #like a FOOL

[wooahaes]

I just finish of reading the last two parts and omg, I'm in love with the way you write!! 😍😍😍

Wonwoo is falling HARD! Is so cute the way he always have to refrain himself and remind himself that they are only friends, and how his friends support him and want to see him happy, even Seungkwan with his extraness, kept it low so he wouldn't be uncomfy.

And the OC, NGL, as a chubby girl myself I know how it is to not expect to no one to look at us "thar way". But I'm glad that you don't portrait her as a overly insecure, introverted and kind of depressing as I see in A LOT of fics out there, because even when you aren't one hundred percent comfortable with your looks you can dress up in a cute way and have a bubbly and bright personality and be a amazing friends and being a happy person I general. This is what makes me enjoy this story so much, she is such a relatable character.

Kinda hoping to Junghoon see the way Wonwoo look at her and mostly important make her believe that she can be likable and loved just the way she deserves.

aaaAAAA THANK U???? brb gotta cry (my natural response to praise of any kind)

i got kinda rambley so i'll throw everything under a readmore sdkfhds

wonwoo down bad and it is my personal pleasure to write soft, falling-in-love wonwoo. him SOFT and i just like the idea that every single one of his friends would hardcore support him talking to his crush since they've been encouraging it vaguely for a while (even if not all of them know who it is!!). boys supportin boys thank u

yeyeye!!! i get that entirely!! i think its very important to me that mc isn't defined by being a chubby woman? shes insecure sometimes but not entirely because of her body, y'know? like deadass part of it is "i feel inferior bc of my body" but its also "jiyoung is rly smart and a lot more fun and lovely, who wouldn't be in love w her tbh?" since i think insecurity can really come from anywhere. for me it'll always have a little "no ones going to look at me bc of my body type" but i do get tired of reading insecure chubby readers who think no ones going to look twice at them. like, yes it does happen--but it doesnt help to keep reading it over and over, if that makes sense?

ultimately: im a chubby girl. i do not constantly think abt my weight like some fics seem to push, if that makes sense? it's important to me to not constantly harp on "your round stomach" and whatnot because that's not what defines me and it's not how i think about myself. its usually me going "i am squishy and soft hehe >:3" to my friends on my good days hehe so mc/the oc typically tends to not like... focus in on her own body like that.

but im glad sunny is relatable hehe shes honestly the person i wish i could be sometimes tbh! also i wanna dress like her SO bad in general. give ME the pretty dresses n cute clothes... and also the wonwoo but hes optional

without getting to into it, i sort of have plans for another fic where the chubby (fem) reader Does sorta get insecure n a little depressed buts like... directly due to the plot going on lol like i said!!! it happens but it gets kinda tiring to Only read that kind of chubby reader fic :(

without spoiling anything... i think it's important to know that even if junghoon sees it (which, after that study group scene, he definitely does), it's not going to make a difference for whether mc fully acknowledges it. she's got her heart set on setting wonwoo up with jiyoung sooner or later. it's def gonna have to be something she realizes on her own. hoony will be there for her, though. for better and for worse.

also take this line if u want it from the first part that'll get posted sunday:

fhksdjhf sorry i like to share things hehe

#wooahaes.ask #nothingbutadeadesceane #thank u for the long ask tho!!! i always love hearing feedback <3

[chlorophyllium]

Since I'm spending this labor day weekend alone, I decided to wear a sock packer for the funsies for the whole day. (Not really funsies, just thinking about my gender and stuff and wanted to try something for longer that I brought me a joy when I first tried it)

Maybe I didn't have it the right spot, maybe I didn't properly pack it, but the joy wore off after like ....ten minutes? And it turned into:

(Moves from chair)

"oh bulge being bulge. Adjust"

(Shrugs and moves on to housecleaning)

"Oh bulge being bulge. Eh. Adjust."

...which ngl isn't too far off from how I feel with my current genitals. Its fine, not euphoric or dsyphoric, but just more like a "oh okay. Anyways-". It was underwhelming in the way that I just accepted it and moved on doing what I was gonna do anyways.

However this does kinda tie into the thought I once had about that I wish I could be like a Mr. Potato Head; I could attach and remove whatever parts I want depending on what I am feeling that day. If its a titties and penis day, I have the titties and peen. If its a vagina only kinda day, then only that. (Or if you are me in kinder you almost always attach the gray diamond math shapes to the aviator hat to make him a bat hybrid)

These parts feel more like are accessories that in a way the dresses, hats, and boots in my closet are. Its not like my hair where if its not there, I don't feel myself and I feel wrong without it and wholeheartedly love it.

The next step is to look into diy binders and feel that out, but I'm pretty sure its going to feel underwhelming as well. (I have sports bra that flattens me a bit and I just roll with it. Its also meh)

All this to say that when exploring gender, so far its coming up to being a "woman or something that parallel?" but with optional parts. Not a man, but I don't know? adjacent? inspired?

Kinda like the Mr. Potato Head. Any combination or no parts, its still Mr. Potato Head. Whether I flatten and/or pack, bleed and/or bulge, or none, I'm still me. That me is a woman* (parts may or may not be included, sold separately)

Anyways I'm just throwing this on here in hope I can comprehend my gender beyond my kindergarten favorite toy.

#chloroposting gender edition #like seriously chat idk what is going on but in a way i also dont really care??? #like i am having a little confusion but am also not? #schrodingers gender crisis #i wish i could explain this any other way beside mr. potato head because its so silly #but im also not super serious about finding the answer so it weirdly works??? #gender #<- legit no clue how to tag this and i dont want to hurt/piss off any other communities

[maiverie]

MAI 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 I MISSED YOU SM BAE 💗🙏🏼

BUT ITS OK BC I FUCKING LOVED BITE BY BITE

SPOILERS AHEAD ‼️‼️

IK I ALWAYS SAY THIS BUT YOUR WRITING IS SO VARIED AND DIFFERENT EVERY SINGLE TIME WHICH MAKES YOUR WORKS SO READABLE ?? IF THATS A WORD WITHOUT GETTING BORED 😻🙌🏼

YOUR CHARACTERISATION OF HEESEUNG AND YN 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️ LIKE THE WAY ITS JUST SIMPLE SENTENCES ABOUT THEIR APPEARANCES OR A FULL ON BACK STORY

IT. FUCKING. HITS. 😍🙏🏼

ITS THE SIMPLE DIALOGUES AND PHRASES THAT MAKE THE STORY FLOW SO SO WELL 🙌🏼

ALSO THE WAY YOU DESCRIBED HEESEUNG ???? 😃🔫 PLS KILL ME RN BECAUSE YOU DID NOT TALK ABOUT HIS FUCKING HOT UNDERCUT , I WANT TO THROW UP BC HE IS SO GOOD LOOKING, AND U MAKE HIM TEN TIMES HOTTER 🤓☝🏼

AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE BAY BOY X KINDA SHY GIRL TROPE SO WHEN YN IS ALL FLUSTERED 😫 >>>>> ITS SO CUTE AND ITS THE START OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP WHICH MAKES IT BETTER

AND ITS REALLY COOL HOW HEESEUNG REMEMBERS HER BUT SHE DOESNT ???? 😺 AND ITS A REASON FOR FLIRTY HEE 🙇🏻‍♀️ LIKE IM DYING

SOME THINGS I REALLY FIND COOL IN THE STORY :

YN TAKING HAEMATOLOGY ??? LIKE VAMPIRE GIRL TALING A COURSE WHICH INCLUDES BLOOD 🤨 NGL I FEEL LIKE THEIR MOGHT BE A REASON BUT WE WILL SEE ☝🏼

THE PART ABOUT HOW HEESEUNG WILL DIE WITH BITE MARKS , LIKE ARE THEY FOR KILLING HIM OR ACTUALLY SAVING HIM ???? 😃😃

YN WANTING TO SAVE HEESEUNG FROM THE SPIKED DRINK 😍 MY GIRL HAS FALLEN IN LOVE AND ITS SO FUNNY THAT SHES OBLIVIOUS TO HEESEUNG ALR KNOWING HER BEFOREHAND

HONESTLY I WANT TO SAY WAYYYYY MORE BUT THIS ASK WILL BE TOO LONG ☹️ AND IM PRETTY SURE MY REBLOGS EXPLAINED MYSELF PRACTICALLY COMBUSTING WHEN I SAW THE UPDATE I THINK U SAW IT ?

BUT I REALLY ENJOY YOUR WRITING MAI AND IT MAKES MY DAY 💕💖💗💞💗💓💗💗 LIKE PLS

ALSO KINDA SAD THAT YOU SAID I WOULDNT LIKE IT , HOW COULD U 😡 /J

WAIT RI LOML WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS 😭😭😭😭 NAURRR IM GEN SOBBING AT THIS U R FR THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE 😭😭😭😭😭 MY VERY OWN MISS SUNSET ☹️💖💓💞

IM RLLY GLAD U NOTICED THAT I TRY SMTH DIFFERENT EVERY TIME ☹️☹️ like w open sesame i wanted smth super crack-y ,, then w triage smth more heartfelt and personal …. W BBB I WANT FUCKING CHAOS ‼️‼️‼️ HSJDJDKS NAH BUT FR IM RLLY GLAD U DONT MIND THAT IM TRYING DIFF STYLES AAA i would hate to be known for just one thing so ☹️💖

U LITERALLY FLATTER ME TOO MUCH AJDJFKSK AAA IM ACC SOBBING RN TYSM FOR ENJOYING THE WRITING 😭😭😭 I HAD SM FUN BRAINSTORMING THE BACKSTORIES FOR EACH OF MY CHARACTERS SO BE PREPARED FOR A LOT ‼️‼️ also you’re so real like fr shy girl x bad boy >>>> and flirty forward who dgaf abt consequences hee >>>

ALSO HSJDJDKS YEP THERES DEF A REASON WHY SHES STUDYING NURSING / HAEM ‼️ AND YEP HEESEUNGS DEATH CURSE IS DEF A MYSTERY JSJFJSK ICANT WAIT TO SHARE THE BACKSTORY BEHIND THAT 😭😭 AND FR SHE ALR TALKING ABT SAVING HIM AND HIM BEIGN GORGEOUS LIKE 🙄🙄 girlie i know who u r.

anyways NOOO DONT EVER BE WORRIED AB LONG ASKS SERIOUSLY TYSM LIKE SOSOSOSO MUCH for ur feedback and endless support fr u r gen one of my faves around here so i’m rlly happy u enjoyed BBB 😭🫶🫶🫶 vvvv honoured to receive feedback from a fellow writer too HEHEHE CANT WAIT FOR MORE OF UR WORKS?? I NEED TO BE FED PLS TYSM????

#ask #@ : flwrshee ♡ #THANK U LOMLLLL 😭😭😭😭 HOPE UVE BEEN WELL AAAAA #(—BBB🔗)

[bylightofdawn]

So my mother stopped by and kidnapped me to 'return' a few things which turned into a multi-hour, multi-store trawl where yes, she did return a couple of items and then bought MORE shit. I mean, the walmart trip was fine, she needed dog food and then she needed new sheets for the new bed she hasn't even bought yet. And then we found out Tuesday Morning is closing down which is kinda lowkey sad because that was a part of my childhood. My grandma loved that place, so does my mom, so we went there and got more shit and then it was off to Kohls. Theoretically to pay off her Kohls card but more shopping happened. She and her husband got their tax returns. How the fuck do they get like 5K between the two of them on retirement/social security and I as a single person working 40 hours a week get like 500 bucks?

She made the fatal mistake of asking me to start ordering her some vans tennis shoes which they didn't have in her size as Kohl's that she wanted and then stopped halfway through because she has ADD so I ended up purchasing them as a mother's day gift which she doesn't know about. It won't get there in time but she legit stonewalled me when I asked her what she wanted for mother's day.

All this to say I didn't get home till after 8 and I've been trying to edit but I've only managed the first pass through. This chapter is definitely NOT getting posted today. Which, that's fine. I also ducked out and bought a couple of pork bahn mi for dinner and lunch tomorrow while she was at Kohls.

I really want to finish editing this chapter but NGL I am in a lot of pain and am struggling to keep my eyes open at this point. Fuck waking up at 8am. I did it for years but hell it's so hard to go back to waking up early. And 8 is the max, I don't know how people can wake up at 6am. My insane brother wakes up at like 4am or 5am. I don't know how he does it. Of course, he's a nutter who is working full time doing 12 hour days at the hospital, has a wife and kids AND is putting himself through his masters program so that crazy fuck is operating on 4 hours of sleep a night for the past four years. I don't know how he does it. It exhausts me just thinking about his lifestyle.

I really want to finish editing this chapter but NGL I am in a lot of pain and am struggling to keep my eyes open at this point. Fuck waking up at 8am. I did it for years but hell it's so hard to go back to waking up early. And 8am is the max for me, I don't know how people can wake up at 6am.

Yeah I think I'm just going to admit defeat and throw in the towel tonight, I'm getting nothing meaningful done here. Depending on what time I wake up tomorrow I might do a second run through before work or over lunch. Or if not, I'll just do it on Sunday. It's not like I have this firm promise of which day I will post stuff. And I hate to say it, but like other people, the lack of people really interacting with my work is a tiny bit demoralizing. Sure, I'll get some kudos but no one really seems to be commenting so it definitely feels a bit like I'm just putting my stuff out into the void.

Which, a big part of me feels like you should write fanfiction expecting praise or comments. But another part does appreciate, I guess, the acknowledgment or validation I'm not just writing for myself, if that makes sense? I dunno, it's a weird thing to try and put into words.

#life of el #el writes #fanfic related musing #this is a hot mess of a post #wow I rambled about a lot of different stuff

[dont-followthisone]

There’s a First Time For Everything~Jeongin PT.2

Warnings: sub!jeongin, dom!reader, unprotected sex (please use condoms bro), riding, slight overstimulation, mommy kink, he gets called pathetic and a slut once, gets edged once.

I feel like his moans would be like this ngl🥲

Sorry this took SO fucking long I literally just my creativity for AWHILE 😭. Not sure if I mentioned it in the last one but you’re Seungmins best friend in this (story?)

Part 1 here

“Make me cum first and I’ll think about letting you cum.”

“H-how do you want me to make you cum?” He questioned nervously.

“You’re gonna fuck me Jeongin but you don’t get to cum until I’ve cum first.” He looks shocked, nervous, and scared all at the same time.

“Are you sure y/n? You know I’ve never done this before wha-what if I can’t make you cum.”

“Don’t tell me you’re doubting yourself innie.” You say taking your panties and climbing on top of him. “Poor baby has a big cock and don’t know how to use it.” You fake pout.

You line him up with your hole, slowly sinking down. Making him let out a high moan. “Oh m- y/n go slow. Please go.. slow.”

“Why? Is it too much baby? You too sensitive?” You tease him sliding up and down at a steady pace loving the sound of his moans. “Come on innie you can take it.”

“You feel ahh- so good y/n!” His hands find your waist and grip tightly as his head falls against the soft pillows of his bed.

“Mmm you feel really good too. I’m gonna go faster baby.” You put your hands on his chest and bounce a little faster. His mouth hangs open not being able to process any words at the moment, only letting out “ahhs” every few seconds.

“It’s.. it’s so g-good.” His eyebrows are furrowed and he lets out a cry. “Go slower… I can’t- I’m getting close. Slower. Mommy please go slowww.”

“We’re barely 5 minutes in and you’re gonna cum already? How pathetic! Poor little virgin innie doesn’t know how to control himself.” You scoff. “If you cum before me I’m gonna keep going to get myself off since you can’t make me cum first Jeongin.”

“Mommy mommy please slow down I’m so close- so close.” His hips thrust up a few times before you pull yourself off of him. “I- I said slow down not stop.” He pouts making you laugh at him.

“You’re so cute honey. You know… I kinda wanna ride your face and not let you cum baby.” Boy we’re you being mean to him.

He hesitates to say something. He lets out a whine before speaking. “I’m sorry mommy I’ll try not to cum.”

“Good boy innie.” You slide back down on him and begin to pick up your previous pace. “Remember. Try not to cum.”

“Mmm how do you think Seungmin would react seeing you under his best friend hm? You think he’d like that? Seeing you be so submissive for me. I’d possibly let him join us.” You lean forward and pull on his hair making him thrust up into you and hit your sweet spot. “F-fuck. You like when I pull your hair? Gosh you’re such a slut innie.”

“Yes yes yes. I love it y/n, please do it again.”

You tug on his hair again and again, each time get lets out a whine. Hearing his whines can make you cum right on spot. He sloppily thrusts every tug you give him. “Ahh- please tell me you’re close. Please mommy, ah I’m getting close.”

“Mhm. R-rub my clit like this.” You take his thumb and put in against your clit, letting him rub circles. “Yes. Yes like that.”

“Gonna cum. Please, can I cum? I don’t think I can hold it mommy please please please. Feels so good.” He throws his head back letting out a lot more whines.

“Go ahead baby.”

Before you even finish your sentence he’s cumming. His heads tossed back, moaning loudly, gripping your hips and shaking. “Thank you thank you mo-mmy.” You continue riding him trying to cum yourself. “I-it’s too s-sensitive.” He pushes on your waist trying to get you to stop.

“I’m cumming.” You moan, still riding him through your orgasm.

Even though he’s being overstimulated, he can’t help but stare at you as you cum. “You look so pretty when you cum mommy.”

“Thank you, you look even prettier baby.” You say and lean down to kiss him.

“Do you think Seungmin heard?” He asked shyly and slightly out of breath.

“I’m not sure. Let’s go find out.”

#straykids smut #sub!idol #sub!jeongin #skz #virgin!jeongin

[sunaswife]

Summary: It’s been five years since you’ve seen your ex, Rin. He’s still not over you and you’re not over him. When he finds out you have children he thought he didn’t have a chance. Then he finds out they’re his? All of a sudden you’re teaching Suna how to be a single dad.

🔪: Y’all my heart 🥺 ngl I kinda cried as I wrote this

Warnings: Fluff, angst I guess, drama, and cuteness twin overload

Previously Up Next Masterlist

Chapter Twelve

“Hi hi are you our grandma?” Rini said with wide eyes, you, Rin and Kauru were outside grabbing the last of the groceries and talking. It was like his mother was frozen in time, they looked exactly like her son when he was a kid, when she was still learning how to raise a tiny human.

She finally realized she was a grandmother because the looks were uncanny. “Yes I’m your grandma.” She replied and she kids ran and hugged her legs. “It’s nice to meet you, we’ve never had a grandma before but we promise to be good grandkids for you.” Rini said and Akira nodded. “What do you mean you never had a grandma before?” She asked the twins, they didn’t see the glint in her eyes. She needs all the information she can get to show her son that she’s not a good mother and he can fight for custody.

“Momma doesn’t talk to her parents. They’re mean and think she’s a dispointment.” Akira chimed in. Obviously the kid met disappointment which made sense. If Rin was a girl she’d probably do the same thing.

“Hey guys guess what grandma got!” Rin walked in, his hands full of groceries. He placed them down and pulled out the pack of the frozen Chuupets. The kids eyes widened and they ran to their dad to hand them a chuupet. “You are only getting one because you haven’t eaten dinner yet.” He said and the kids nodded. After he handed them the chuupet, they ran off. “How’s everything mom.” He looks down to see the shorter woman. “Could be better without your dog and your ex.” She answered and Suna frowned.

“At least try to get along with her? Please. She’s the mother of your grandkids and hopefully we can be together again.” He said hopefully and her eyes widened. “You wanna get back together with her.” She said almost disgusted and Rin sighed. “Yeah mom.” He replied. “You’re gonna regret it.” She hummed and Rin rolled his eyes.

“Excuse me..um...Mrs.Suna..?” You peered from behind the wall you somewhat heard their conversation but that’s a talk for another time, “What.” She raised a brow and Rin facepalmed. “When was the last time you checked the oil of your car? And your brakes?” You asked. “I don’t know. Usually we take it to a mechanic, but we’ve been busy raising someone else’s dog.” She said and eyed her son. “Mechanic? Rin nor Kauru don’t know how to do that?” You asked. “I have a sports car, no way in hell I’m fucking it up.” Rin replied.

“Is it okay for me to change the oil and the brakes? I would hate for you to get into an accident.” You asked. “Accident? You’d probably tinker with my car so I’d crash the next time I use it.” She crossed her arms over her chest. You were beyond confused, “Mom, stop.” Rin scolded and she rolled her eyes.

You left the car as is but made a mental note to ask Kauru for permission to add more oil and fix her brakes.

Other than that conversation you haven’t spoken to her the rest of the day. What bothered you was that she didn’t try to get close to the kids. You sat on the small picnic table in the backyard while Rin was throwing a chew toy across the backyard while his dog, Chewy chased it eagarly. When Rin came to the back yard he whistled causing the dog to turn its head, it stayed frozen as if not believing his owner was truly there. But eventually Rin called him and his ears perked up and he began running and whining at the same time. He tackled Rin and he fell back. Chewy licked his face and Rin was giggling with a big stupid smile on his face, you smiled lightly at the scene and Akira tugged onto your leggings to tell you that Rin was crying.

Your eyebrows scrunched in confusion and turned again to see Rin and then you saw it. The way he held on to his dog and a small tear streamed down. “Who’s a good boy? Are you a good boy?” He talked and Chewy’s tail wagged. “Alright bud, sit.” He commanded and he sat obediently. You could hear a tapping noise but it was because Chewy was so excited to see his owner. “Chewy meet your brother and sister.” Rin introduced and you started laughing. “What do you mean he’s our brother? He’s a dog.” Rini pointed out, “Same difference.” Rin shrugged and you covered your mouth to stop yourself from snorting.

“Okay get close and tell him to shake. Then shake his hand.” He instructed, Rini was first and gasped when Chewy obeyed. Earlier they got around to playing but they didn’t know their dads dog—I mean brother was trained. Akira did the same thing and she giggled. “Alrighty, Chewy. Meet your new mom.” He introduced you and you stepped back. “Nope, not my son.” You waved off, “Are you really gonna leave him motherless.” Rin pressed, “Yeah mama, he’s our brother you can’t be like that.” Akira whined.

“I just never really liked dogs.” You admitted, “Me neither but he’s my best friend.” Rin said softly. You looked down at the brown dog with curly hair. His tail wagged as his tongue sticker out so adorably. Now you understood why Rin named him Chewy, he looks like Chewbacca. “Nice to meet you, Chewy.” You reached your hand out to pet his head but he jump and rested his paws on your stomach, causing you to lose you balance and fall back. Before you could fall and die from embarrassment, No one other than Rin was there to catch you. “I’m sorry he doesn’t really do that. He’s just too excited.” He said from behind and helped you up. “No it’s fine.” You said and you both stayed quiet.

“So are you gonna continue holding on to my waist or..?”

“Fuck..sorry.” He apologized with flushed cheeks and let go. The kids began scolding their dad’s potty mouth and you hated that feeling in your stomach from when he pulled away.

Rin’s mom looked from the kitchen window and gritted her teeth while scrubbing the pan a little too hard. “Good job, Chewy.” Rini and Akira quietly praised and continued to play with their new brother.

****

“Finally we can talk.” Rin’s mom said and sat at the head of the table, you and Rin both gulped and Kauru sighed. He just wanted to nap. “Okay I can tell without a doubt that those children are Rintarou’s. And it’s nice that they don’t look like you.” Rin’s mom spoke up and you gasped. “If you’re here just to fight then don’t even open your mouth.” Kauru told his wife and she gave a glare. “Okay first of all. Why didn’t you tell my son you were pregnant.” She crossed her arms over your chest and you cuddled with your fingers. “Well Mrs.Suna...like I said over the phone. We had just broken up and I was hurt and afraid. I wasn’t sure if he would support me in keeping them—“ “Well how could you know if you didn’t speak up?” She interrupted but you ignored the jabs she threw. “I also wanted him to continue on with his career, stress free. I guess at the time I still loved him a lot that I didn’t want him to suffer with me. Or else I could have easily filed for child support.” You said and Rin frowned slightly.

“That’s not a good excuse. Rintarou has missed out on so much because you were selfish. You just wanted Rin to go pro for the money.” She accused with a pointed finger. “Mom—stop!” Rin immediately said and Kauru raised his finger to stop his son. “Karin do you know that for sure?” He asked his wife. “Yeah. All she does is party and drink. I think the kids are unsafe under her care. All of her money is wasted on her fake breasts.”

“Ma’am I can assure you that these are real. Ask your son.” You waved off and she gasped before she could open her mouth to utter more stupid shit you said. “With all due respect Mrs. Suna, you don’t know me. You don’t know how I raise my children, you don’t know what I do for a living and you don’t know what I’ve been through. Please before judging me, see how I treat my kids and how I treat your son. I have been nothing but respectful and the least you could do is treat me like a proper guest.” You argued back but she just ignored you and went through her iPad.

Why does she have an iPad? She flips the device over so you and the two Suna men could see and Rin almost spit out his drink. Karin told Kauru to look away and your mouth hung open as she swiped photo after photo of you in revealing lingerie. In some photos you’re wearing a gag and in others you’re chained up but it’s all modeling for Jamie and her line. You looked at your stomach and thighs and you could see those stretch marks.

Even though the world has seen these pictures, you can’t help but feel nervous when Rintarou is looking at them. You weren’t the same athletic girl from highschool, you gained weight, developed stretch marks, and you hate working out. You know you’re beautiful, that’s why you asked Jamie to not edit the photos of you she posted on the web. Your stretch marks and tummy were there for the world to see. But their comments or praise didn’t matter. The only person’s opinion that matters is Rintarou’s. Which is ridiculous to say but, some part of you still wants his approval and to be with him.

“Is this a good example to show your daughter? You want her modeling and showing off her body like a filthy wh—“ “Enough!” Rin smacked the table and stood up. You flinched as well as she did and you began to cry. “You make it seem like I should be ashamed of myself...”

“You should be.”

“Have you told them why we broke up?” You turned to Rin and he saw the tears streaming down. He wanted nothing more than to hold you in his arms and say that it’s okay. “No..” he shook his head and you sighed. “You won’t understand unless your son tells you what he did. Everything I did for myself and my children was for a reason. Now if you’d excuse me, I need to go, it’s time for their history lesson.” You wiped your eyes and left the table. Quickly you grabbed your bag with all their supplies and you met them outside. “Come on, time for school!” You called with a fake smile and red eyes. The kids understood to not argue and to just obey.

You sat on the picnic table with your two kids across from you and Chewy was laying on the bench right next to you, with his head on your thighs. “Mama...” Rini interrupted your thoughts, “Yes baby?” You asked and looked up from their lesson plan, “I love you, and you’re the best mom in the world.” He said with a small smile. “I love you more than Rini and you’re the bestest momma in the universe!” Akira chimes in and you chuckled. “I love you guys to infinity and beyond, forever and ever! It’s called unconditional love.” You said and their eyes widened. “Unconditional love...” akira hummed and you nodded.

“Hi Kuroo-san is everything okay?” You asked as you made your way to the patio outside. It was already time for the kids bedtime. “Y/N I’m sorry for informing you last minute but one of the commentators for tomorrow’s game is in the hospital so we were wondering if you could fill in.” He spoke calmly. “I—oh gosh I’m all the way in Hyogo..when does the game start?” You asked.

After going back in forth for tomorrow’s game you hung up after respectfully telling him you weren’t interested in going out on a date. You rubbed your face and looked at the time. The trains have already closed for the day, so you’d have to take your car.

“You good?” Rin asked as soon as you walked back inside. “I need to go in to work tomorrow. Another commentator is in the hospital. Nobody else can fill in.” You said and his eyes widened since it’s a very long drive. “Oh how fantastic, leaving your young children overnight to go work—“

“I’m taking them.” You interrupted the witch and her eyes widened. “What do you mean you’re taking them.” She asked. “They’re my children and I don’t want to leave them with you. I’d rather take them and ask Jamie to watch over them and I’ll come back the day after tomorrow.”

“Y/N...” Suna snapped you out of your rambling and you turned your head to see him. “I’m here now, remember? You don’t have to do this alone anymore. I can take care of them and watch them. I’ve done it before.” He assured. “I’m sorry but I really don’t want them near your mom.” You explained your reasoning. “Tomorrow we’ll be at Kita’s farm all day. They’ll be fine.” He said and patted your head. Without even realizing, you leaned forward and wrapped your arms around Suna’s torso, his face flushed and he wrapped his arms around your shoulders. “Thank you. It means a lot.” You mumbled in his chest.

“It’s my job, partner.” He chuckled and you pulled away. “Fist bump?” He asked and presented his closer fist, you giggled and nodded. “Fist bump.” You did the same and your knuckles met. Rin’s mother scoffed and rolled her eyes, walking away to her room.

You took a deep breath as you crossed lanes on the freeway going back home. You wanted nothing more than to stay with your kids or take them with you, but you can’t control everything yourself anymore. You gonna trust Rin.

You made it home by five am since the drive was eight hours but you made it in seven by speeding and automatically fell asleep in Rin’s bed. You decided to take the pull out bed in your office when Rin moved in and he slept in your old master bedroom. But you were too tired to pull it out so you slept in your old bed. You couldn’t help but notice how the pillows smelled like Rin.

His scent definitely changed, he doesn’t use the old spice fragrance from highschool. He now uses something more expensive and more subtle yet manly at the same time. You definitely needed to know what the scent was so you could buy more for him on a birthday or something.

You woke up at around 13:30 to get ready and leave by 15:00. You showered, did your hair and wore the white button up with the green dress pants and a green blazer on top. You slipped on some hot pink heels and some subtle jewelry and made your way. You called your kids and they said they were having a blast, they really missed you and wished you and their grandma were there and you couldn’t help but roll your eyes.

While Rin’s mom stayed home, her husband worked and Rin took the kids out, she began thinking about the day before.

“You won’t understand unless your son tells you what he did. Everything I did for myself and my children was for a reason.”

Rin’s mom was obviously confused and still annoyed at you. But then Rin sat her down after breakfast, the kids were outside and Kauru was already gone. He explained what he did with his friends and Karin couldn’t help but feel disgusted. If she would have been more involved in his teenage life then she could have prevented this. Prevented minors drinking, prevented her son getting sexually involved with you, and preventing an innocent girl getting hurt.

In reality you should have thrown a full can of coffee at Rin instead of an empty one. You should have cursed him and made him pay child support. That’s what she would do straight up. But you’re not her, and you explained why you did what you did. And she began to understand. “You have a lot of work to do in order to get back in her good grace.” She told her son. “I know I know..” he said softly. “That’s why we’re starting as friends. And eventually I wanna be with her romanticly and marry her. I want to be the man she can rely on and trust again.” He said and her mom smiled.

“I understand, I’ll make sure to apologize when she returns. And I’m rooting for you.” She said and Rin smiled. “Thanks mom.” She stood up and grabbed her bag, “I’m not in the mood to cook. How do burgers sound?” She asked Rin and he nodded. “There’s a place down the street that’s pretty good. I’ll be back in a few.”

Rin’s mother wanted to repent for her actions and she tried thinking of a proper way to apologize. She went into the restaurant to order and everywhere she saw, it explained that the food was made with peanut oil. But that’s what gave it the flavor. That’s why it’s so delicious. She happily payed for the food completely oblivious that her grandson was severely allergic to peanuts.

She arrived home and rounded up the kids. She gave them a kiss on the head and smiled as they showed her their drawings that she could keep. Rin’s mom passed around the burgers so Rin couldn’t see the bag that promoted the peanut oil being a main ingredient and the kids munched.

When Rini took the bite his eyes widened at the deliciousness. Bite after bite and his throat began to feel weird, as well as his stomach. He took a sip of the lemonade and he couldn’t swallow it properly. He began to cough and Rin patted his back confused and he face turned red.

“Rini are you choking?!” Akira asked scared and Rini shook her head. “My stomach hurts—“ he coughed and Rin’s eyes widened. “Oh shit.” He quickly ran upstairs to his old bedroom and looked through the bag with Rini’s inhaler and other vitamins. He saw the epipen and ran back out quickly unscrewing it. Rini’s face was turning purple and he continued to cough. Akira was crying and Karin didn’t know what to do. Rin fell to his knees and slammed the pen on his sons thigh. “Are you okay bud. Stay with me please.” Tears prickled his eyes. He seriously fucked up.

Rini’s chest heaved up in down as he tried to catch his breath. Rintarou instructed his mom to call 119 and an ambulance soon came and took Rini away with Rin in the ambulance. Akira was stuck with her grandma driving to the hospital.

Karin was so confused at the situation. And she was worried for her grandson. She tried her best calming the little girl who held the green pig plush and the fox plush in her arms. “Is Rini gonna die?” Akira pouted with watery eyes. “Of course not. Everything is gonna be alright.” She assured.

While all this was going down, you were talking and laughing as you talked about Sendai frogs and their intimating demeanor. You felt a weird feeling in your chest and felt like something was wrong. Your purse and phone was stuck in the lounge locker so you didn’t see the 20+ phone calls and messages you received from Rin.

He was afraid and didn’t know what to do. He really wished you were here by his side. He couldn’t do this alone and realized this is what it’s like being a single parent.

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#suna rintarou fluff #haikyuu suna #suna rintarō #miya atsumu #miya osamu #suna x reader #haikyuu!! x reader

[runefactorynonsense]

Part 2 of Margot's first RF5 day:

* Ngl I kinda like the cutscene idea, even if the models the game uses (similar to Pokemon Arceus imo) are a bit clunky, not made for animation. But it's a tiny gripe. I like watching actual movement, though! It's so nifty to see characters interacting.

* Okay, when characters were originally introduced, I rolled my eyes at Murakumo. I also wondered if his appearance would set him up to be this gruff, tough looking, loner dude. But. I love how much of a goofball he is?? Immediately, he's revealed to be a freaking puppy? Big softie? Okay, I am impressed. I love the big softie guy trope

* My birthday is August 7th. Normally I make my birthday Summer 7. Imma be bold. I adore winter, so now my birthday is Winter 7. [Watch me forget.]

* "An organization dedicated to protecting people." Sounds like a useful thing to rise up after the invasions, and earthmate genocide-- I wonder when in the timeline this is? [Rhetorical, no spoilers pls.] And what it's in response to/what it's gained power from since?

* I am GREATLY enjoying Lucy's skepticism of me. I enjoy folks thinking I'm a threat. (Just imagine if an Earthmate WAS.) Yes. Let me be a wolf in wooly clothing.

* In comparison,"This one's no threat" somehow feels hilarious coming from a child's mouth. What do you know, kiddo-

* Me, an idiot, not realizing the items stack as I work to clear the field-- Me, running back for each stick- Me, not remembering I can throw things- Me, actually laughing at myself when I accidentally pick up 2 rocks, freeze, and realize how much time I wasted.

* "EARTHMANIACS." I WANT TO USE THAT AS OFTEN AS I CAN FROM NOW ON.

* The music in what has become my room- I like. It's a nice, soothing bg tune.

* "YOU ARE A BRAT, ALICE." -Margot, 2022, who doesn't want her character to go to bed yet. No. Let me run around 1st night. But alas. I am forced to sleep.

#Margot plays Rune Factory 5 #RF5 #Rune Factory 5 #spoilers #RF5 spoilers #Rune Factory 5 spoilers #starting this game was like dropping a million pingpong balls in a room. my brain was EVERYWHERE #EARTHMANIACS #AS WELL #I CANNOT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I LOVED THAT AND REGRET NOT GETTING THAT SCREENSHOT #If someone sees a screenshot with that line PLS send it to me #I need it for proof forever #[ and I'm too lazy rn to restart a game to get back to there ]

[heckinhacker]

Rakan x Red Panda Vastayan!Fem!Reader - You’re welcome.

word count: 916

requested: yes! by my friend behind anon: "Can I get Rakan x Reader? I mean fanfic, where they fall in love after Xayah abandon Rakan for her goal // the reader is female and she's vastayan sth like ringtail or lesser panda // she met him in the piltover's pub!!" note: I usually make reader gender neutral, but it was specifically for my friend so yeah...sorry--

addictional information: /tw alcohol , /tw break up (on canon character's side, is that a trigger? ;;)

A/N: I'm not really the proudest of this work. I am still fighting with writer's block, so I intented to make a longer one-shot about it, but it became a short one, it doesn't even have 1k words. Kinda dissapointed in myself ngl...

Rakan sighs, looking around pub in Piltover. As expected - everything looks modern’ish, interior is classy, music is jazzy and people are not making that much of a mess around. Mostly drinking, talking normally and joking around - sometimes even dancing, there is a section for that. Even though dancing is something special to his kind - dancing was the only resolution to his actual problem. His heartbreak. Xayah was really busy with whole rebellion thing and it’s really not that he did mind. She did. She knew deep inside that he never was in rebellion for the case - he was there for her. She knew he needed her and he was in pain seeing her struggle with pressure and duties - so she ended their relationship for their own good. She got more space to focus on the main task - he got more space for romantic topics, even though it hurts him now. They didn’t even have a fight about it. It was...generally calm conversation. Even though Rakan cried, she made her point clear - and he agreed. Xayah was always smarter than him, so he knew she may have a point. It hurt, but they seperated their ways. He promised he’ll check on her, she agreed to that, and they became friends. Maybe distant ones, but still, they’re not on ex to enemy relationship, which made him slightly happier.

Slightly.

He could swear that when she ended their relationship, some part of him went missing with her going away. She just took one piece of his heart and vanished from his life.

It hurt.

That's why he danced as long as his legs allowed him, sometimes took a break to sip on his drink. Just to throw everything out of his system. Every negative feeling - he wanted it gone, but longer he danced, longer he felt emptiness in his chest. He had nothing better to do.

He had another break now. He was taking deep breaths because he tired himself by dancing, his thoughts consumed by sad stories. Then a very nice looking girl came by. She had fluffy fail and small, round ears on top of her head. She smiled kindly at him. He would notice another Vastayan earlier, she must've come by a few seconds ago. - Are you okay? You seem sad, kind stranger. - How can you tell I'm kind? - You look like someone reliable, not sure if I'm right. I'm eager to get to know the truth, though~ One's on me!

She called a barman and asked him to refil Rakan's glass, to which he sighed with...relief? - Thank you... - You're welcome. - she said confidentely, asking him now what was wrong. Instead of answering, he asked instead... - What is your name? - I'm Y/N, and you? - Rakan. I'm Rakan. And they talked a little, but he excused himself and went back to dancing, just so he can go back to thinking what was going on and what will happen with his life now.

This one dance took him longer than others, so more people came by, some admired his moves, some ignored him, some even wanted to give him money, but he just got invested into his own thing.

So when he heard some arguement, and key words "stupid animal!" flying around pub, he stopped his motions just to see.

There was that girl again - Y/N - hiding her face as some drunk males threw ugly names at her, just because she was different. Just beacuse she was smaller. It was a good suspiction though. Noone said a word towards him. That's why he stepped in.

- Gentlemen, I beg for your attention. Leave a lady this instant, or things might get violent. - Rakan started, carefully approaching the group.

- And you are?! Her little boyfriend, or something?

- Hrm... - he mumbled, word 'boyfriend' ticking his nerve. He still wasn't over his break up with his...actual wife. - Please, think thig through. I don't want to hurt you.

- Animal like YOU, hurting ME? Hah! - he laughed, too full of himself.

Rakan sighed deeply, making first moves preparing for battle dance. One moment he shows his pretty feathers to those drunkards, another they're sent flying up, Rakan slapping them with his feather cape ocasionally. After they dropped on the floor with loud thump! Rakan looked at other vastaya with kind smile.

- Are you okay...?

- Th...-she stuttered. - Thank you...

- You're welcome. - Rakan patted her back, leading her to bar's direction.

When they sat down, Rakan bowed his head slightly.

- I'm sorry for the mess, boss. - No, no. They deserved it. Any drinks for you two?

And they drank a little more - this time Rakan not leaving her side.

Rakan promised that he'll walk her home. Silence was comfortable, Rakan humming some calm, cultural song of his people. When they were here, she asked him in full honesty: - Do you have anywhere to go? - Uhm...no? Not really... But I'm used to sleep in the wild, it's okay! - No, listen. Come inside. You're after drinking some alcohol, you won't be that aware of your surroundings. Let me do it as a... - No, Y/N, it's okay.

Then she placed her hand on his shoulder, and at this moment he decided to let himself in for tonight. - Let me. Thank you so much for tonight, Rakan...

- You're welcome.

#hacker writes #fanfic #league of legends #league of legends x reader #league of legends rakan #league of legends rakan x reader #lol rakan #lol rakan x reader #rakan x reader #rakan

[alpacaparkaseok]

Inside “The Pact”

Hello! For those of you that followed along with The Pact, I received a few questions and requests to get an inside look. I’ll link the post here that explains a bit more about what this is gonna be about. 

We’re gonna break this down into sections: first will be answering your questions about The Pact & the characters. Then I’ll show you guys a little about my notes & decision making process (which is very obscure because I just tend to keep a hypothetical tab open in my brain most of the time lol) as well as some pictures of my ideas!! 

Thanks for requesting such a fun thing to do now that this series is over. It’s been fun to look back!

Q. What song did the boys dedicate to y/n?

A. “Her” || This is a sad song, but I felt like it fit so well with how the boys had to hide a part of themselves (their feelings) away for the sake of the pact!

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Q. Did the boys get mad/how did the boys react to Jungkook’s kiss?

A. Jungkook was a little shocked, and felt extremely guilty on the drive back home. He wasn’t sure if he could stand to tell his hyungs, but he also knew he couldn’t lie to them. Naturally, the second he walked in the house and everyone saw his face, they knew. It was just quiet, everybody was a little hesitant to say anything/bring it up because they were all upset. Only Jimin has heard all of the details of JK’s kiss, whereas the others are simply aware that he kissed her and that’s that.

Namjoon was the most upset, although he didn’t say anything. He just sat there on the couch and did the jaw-clenching thing he always does. Yoongi just tried to change the subject and ask about other aspects of the date. Taehyung was actually pretty pissed, especially because he’d been so good about refraining from kissing you even when you’d asked for it. Hobi had a chat with him later that night and calmed him down. Jin wasn’t angry so much as he was worried that he missed his shot & couldn’t stop replaying his date in his head.

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Q. Who fell for y/n last?

A. Namjoon. He’d had a little crush, and that’s why he was willing to go along with the pact. But it hit a point less than a year ago when he fell hard and fast. (you called him in the middle of the night when he was on tour and he realized that your sleepy voice is possibly the most beautiful thing he’s ever heard) The boys noticed and as a result teased him endlessly about it, because he doesn’t quite know how to navigate his feelings. 

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Q. Who did the boys bet on? (We already know that Jimin bet on Yoongi and won lol)

A. Namjoon bet on JK, Tae bet on Hobi, Hobi bet on JK, Jin bet on JK, and Yoongi bet on Jin, and JK bet on Namjoon (because we all know JK would pick Namjoon lol)

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Q. Didn’t y/n ever date other guys? How did the boys react?

A. hahaha ok I actually would have such a fun time writing this Yes, she dated around a bit. For the first year of the pact, she had an on again, off again bf. It wasn’t very serious, and she always made that clear to the boys. They still hated the dude. After they broke up, she only went on a few dates here and there. Didn’t really seriously date. (except for that one time she went on vacation and had a fling, but everyone has decided to forget that) They just smiled and supported her, although Tae was always very clear that he didn’t like any of the guys she dated. 

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Q. In Namjoon’s date, who was the 1950′s author mentioned?

A. Agatha Christie, the queen. 

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Q. How did y/n meet Jimin? (he was the one that introduced her to the rest of the group)

A. She was a PR intern for Lee Hyun. Jimin and Lee Hyun are close, and they crossed paths fairly often until Jimin decided to invite her to hang out. 

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Q. What is y/n studying in school?

A. Public Relations (which will honestly come in handy with her new relationship lol)

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Q. Where was Jin in the last chapter when y/n came to the studio?

A. Agh how could you ask me this and bring back all that pain?! Jin was at his brother’s restaurant for some much needed R&R. He ended up staying the night with him, not wanting to go home just yet and have to face his decision.

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Q. Who would you personally choose to end up with and why?

A. KIM SEOKJIN. Date #5 was basically for me lol. Like, unapologetically wrote that for myself. Not just because he’s my bias, but because I personally felt like I could picture myself chilling on that couch watching Dateline with him. And it was beautiful. 🤧 Also, while Jin can be loud and goofy, he’s an introvert. I’m an extravert with introverted tendencies, so I just feel like his date would have been the most comfortable for me.

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CREATING THE PACT - AN INSIDE LOOK AT MY NOTES

First thing’s first, I have an on-going page in my notes on my phone which is FILLED with ideas & half-formed thoughts. Before I began writing The Pact (or even Spooked, for that matter), this happened:

So you can see that I had no idea what I was doing lol, but I thought that it would be cool. Mainly I wanted an excuse to write OT7 and display all the members in a sweet light. Also, we see that not all of these actually made it into the series. (Tae w/ the family)

BUT THEN, “SPOOKED” HAPPENED, AND A GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY POPPED UP 

ngl, I cracked up when I looked back at my notes and saw this. 

“Sweet Gloria what am I doing to myself” 😂😂 this was when I was pushing “Lost & Found” out and planning for Taehyung’s series (which is why so much is blocked out on my notes, because it’s riddled with spoilers lol) so I literally had no idea why I was jumping into another project as I was already super busy. That’s why I scheduled it for just Saturday’s! (and also why I sometimes posted super late at night lol)

As you can see, Seokjinnie’s date was literally always on my mind. From the very beginning. Which is odd, considering the fact that he didn’t end up being endgame. wow it’s like he’s my bias or something

Occasionally I’d take breaks from hw and work on getting to know how the boys were with y/n. Quotes and poetry serve as a great source of inspiration, and I assigned a quote to each member. (notice the little stars by Jin, Yoongi’s and JK’s names lol, they were my top three as I’m sure you’ve noticed by now)

There were a couple of things that I didn’t think of adding until I was reading through your theories and got an idea of what you needed to push the series in the right decision. i.e. bringing Gina back to explain that she closed the door in Spooked. 

I have a whiteboard in my room that I use to map out what I need to do that week for whatever series I’m working on (as well as jot down ideas for new series, which I why this photo doesn’t show the whole board haha) 

So here’s a peek at my thought process for writing about how the pact was formed. Sorry if you can’t read it haha

NOW, the last few questions you guys had:

Q. Did you ever change your mind while writing the pact?

A. Yes! I actually originally intended for Hobi to have written the note. It fit very well with how angry he was at first and how worried he was during the date. But by the time I'd gotten to Jin’s date I kinda knew that he wouldn’t be that petty but Jin would haha

I also planned on Yoongi kissing y/n on their date. It was supposed to be on a rooftop somewhere, which we know didn’t happen. In fact, I didn’t really intend for their date to be so disastrous until I was coming closer to having to write it. I think I was a mess, so the date was a mess lol

I had no idea what I was doing for Tae’s date until I wrote it, all I knew was that there had to be a museum. The rest I just made up as I wrote and hoped that it made sense. (also, for some reason I hated the museum portion of the date. Idk why, but it just felt so stark to me. still don’t like it lol)

Q. When did you know how it was going to end? 

A. That’s a....difficult question lol. Honestly, I thought of just doing an audio recording and uploading it because it I didn’t really know how to put it into words, but then I realized that most people probably wouldn’t wanna listen to that lol. So here we are. 

I had the ending scene in mind before The Pact even became a thing. I knew I had a series that I wanted to end with baking cookies. (weird, I know.) It didn’t exactly go how I planned, but I remember having the thought while writing Spooked (when I thought I was just writing a one shot) that it would be nice for y/n to be with Yoongi. I just instantly felt like they had a connection, when he was the first one she went toward. From then on out, I always kinda kept Yoongi in the background. 

I had a crisis about halfway through (right before Jin’s date) when there were a bunch of people rooting for Tae, because he hadn’t even been on my radar. But then Jin’s date went much better than I thought it was going to/received better, so I think that got me back on track. 

But from the beginning, Yoongi was #1. (I wrote this in the back of my Career’s notebook lol) when I was trying to figure out for myself who wrote the pact. 

So yeah! There you have it! Just an FYI, I had to physically restrain myself from throwing caution to the wind and making Jin endgame. Especially when so many of you were on board. :( However, the survey helped because Yoongi was the majority of votes (closely followed by Jin & JK) and that showed me that we were still on the right track! 

Ngl, my brain stopped working around Wednesday of last week, so writing the finale took FOREVER because nothing would compute. But I’m so happy you guys enjoyed it and reached out to me about it! This really is like a part-time job most days, and I really felt like this series paid off. 

Hopefully I covered everything! To end, here's the most satisfying part of every project for me:

Thanks guys!

#the pact stuff #b:rants #about me #bts fluff #bts dating au #ot7 bts #bts x reader #ot7 bts x reader

[shoichee]

potential juicy part 3: when they meet akashi again at the winter cup, reader, who now "hates" him, disrespects him to his face + pretends she doesn't care. but after kuroko reveals the whole story the night before rakuzan game, she's forced to confront the truth + they go all out against him (and win ofc) so akashi, now back to being akashi, confesses to reader, ig reader finally tells him what happened? (did i just write a wholeass fic in your askbox i am so sorry) btw tysm for the part 1!!

LMAOO THE WHOLEASS FIC SENT ME HELPP you snapped off in your request i can only deliver justice.... did i just listened to some KNB openings on repeat to manifest myself to pretend I’m the characters so I can accurately write them?.......... n-no...... part 1 here and part 2 here ^^ AND part 4 here

Akashi x f!Reader (but 99% g/n)

Part 3 

[Teiko!manager Headcanons]

shortly after Rakuzan’s victory against Shuutoku, the Rakuzan starters were walking together in the hallway to their lockers when you were blocking the way, hogging up the vending machines in the middle of the hallway to buy your teammates refreshments and snacks and then shoving them into your small backpack

Hayama impatiently yells at you to scram and Mayuzumi gives his own condescending comment, and you immediately looked up to see the infamous team

you instantly freeze up when you see Akashi in the back of the group just wordlessly staring as usual, and you just stay at your spot completely still for a while

“... Girl! Are you even listening?! Are you dumb or deaf?”

“That’s no way to speak to a girl!”

“Ow! But Reo-nee…”

“Maybe she just needs to eat? She’s probably hungry.”

“Ugh, no one else is like you, you know!”

“Tch.”

Mayuzumi merely frowns before he casually looks behind to see a rather intense aura emanating from Akashi, which is quite rare considering that you were a nobody compared to him and you weren’t someone who threatened him in any way… unless that was actually the case? but he merely observes from the shadows

“Move. You’re in the way.”

you incredulously stand up straight from his words and point a finger at him:

“I-I… I can’t believe it! This is the first thing you say to me after all this time?! Everything that happened at Teiko… was… was all your fucking fault! I hope the final game becomes your own downfall, you fucking jerk! And I hope I never see you again after tomorrow night.”

by now, you were hyperventilating from shouting at him, and the teammates were stunned… and absolutely fearful, their gazes darting back to Akashi to see his chilling gaze at you, looking quite calm

“How laughable. You haven’t changed at all, (y/n). You can believe in Seirin’s basketball all you want, say all you want, but it’s all pointless. Rakuzan will achieve victory like it always has. Now step aside.”

you only gape your mouth as you furiously huff and aggressively grab your packed bag and run, but as you dash away, you slightly stumble from the dizziness you felt from the emotional stress

ngl, Reo and Nebuya kinda pitied you watching you run

when you were gone from his field of vision, Akashi merely tells them to move onto the lockers and acts like nothing ever happened

you’ve practically convinced yourself that you truly hated Akashi for hurting Kuroko and destroying teamplay at Teiko… but in truth, you were only using him as a scapegoat to get over your unrequited feelings for him // of course the deepest part of you knew that the adults were responsible, and you knew that Akashi fulfilled his role of captain to the very end (while you meanwhile still had lingering feelings of self-doubt in your work ethic all this time)

while you were extremely happy for the Seirin team for making it to Winter Cup finals, you were so ashamed to even have the fleeting thought that you wanted Seirin to lose in the semi-finals so you didn’t have to face Akashi again

the late evening before the game tomorrow, Kuroko was in the mostly empty stadium, mostly because he wanted to reminisce about the old times before he faces Rakuzan tomorrow

it was a very unfortunate coincidence that Akashi was also there to survey the court for a moment before the game tomorrow

both of them held a long moment of eye contact before Kuroko decides to call him out

“Akashi-kun.”

“Tetsuya.”

“Have you ever had fun playing with Rakuzan?”

“To think that I had a fleeting thought of you asking me a different question this time. I can never understand how you’re fixated on such a pitiful ideal.”

“... Then… have you always felt this way even since the beginning of Teiko?” Akashi merely narrows his eyes at Kuroko

“Get to the point.”

“I’ve just been… wondering, that’s all.”

“Then I will not dally here further just to have a reunion about the past.” Akashi turns around to leave and walks a few steps before Kuroko calls out to stop him in his tracks

“... I want to ask you about (y/n)-san.” He merely watches Akashi slightly turning his head around before continuing. “What do you think about her?”

“She was Teiko’s head manager. How else did you think my opinion was, Tetsuya? She, just like Daiki, just like everyone else, was an asset to achieving victory. I will not repeat myself again.”

“Akashi-kun, with your Emperor Eye, surely you would’ve noticed something was amiss with (y/n)-san for a while now.” Akashi turns completely around with an impassive gaze

“Broken plates can still function fine. It’s no different with Daiki.” Kuroko grows furious for your sake

“H-How… how can you say that? Do you know how much she’s overworked herself and collapsed throughout these past months for the sake of our team? Did you even know how much of our own 1st-string players were belittling her despite her continuing to give it her all? She cared for our team—she cared for you! She didn’t even want to let you know what was going on behind your back to not burden you any further—and for you to only chalk her up as a tool—”

Akashi is slightly taken back at the sudden info dump/confession from Kuroko, struggling to process the new information… but his face gives little away; Kuroko continues on:

“We’re going to win tomorrow. I swear that Seirin will win against Rakuzan.”

“... It will be intriguing to see you try.” Akashi turns to finally exit out, leaving Kuroko simmering in his thoughts alone (excluding a few janitors) for a few minutes before he exits the stadium himself

in seeing you again the next day, Kuroko immediately notices how antsy you got and even offered to give you the massages to get rid of your own stress knots AND YOU INSTANTLY FEEL WARM BECAUSE YOU TAUGHT HIM YOUR TECHNIQUES SO LONG AGO, AND HE STILL REMEMBERS

you confide in Kuroko as he works out the knots, confessing that you don’t want to be there at the final game but you didn’t want to be selfish and ditch the team, especially since everyone made you feel like you mattered to the team (and you told him about your incident with Akashi yesterday too)

Kuroko shares his own fears and unresolved feelings to you to show that you weren’t alone in feeling uneasy (although he doesn’t share the info that he met up with Akashi)

wholesome friendship moment #753358

the talk made you made up your resolve, and you tell him that you were going to be there at the front bench to support Seirin like you’ve always done, but you do make a request for him to make an excuse for you in case you chicken out and flee mid-game or something

Kuroko agrees and to make you feel better, he proposes for you to focus on him throughout the game so you don’t have to look at Akashi; he knows you still harbor feelings for the Rakuzan captain

while the Seirin starters were warming up, you opted to survey the building interior to find the best route around… just in case if you wanted to flee // you meet Kaijo’s team by coincidence, and Kasamatsu ushers the rest of the team forward to leave you and Kise alone

Kise affectionately ruffles your hair and wishes you and Seirin good luck but also notices how anxious you look; this idiot slaps your back to calm you down LOL

“(y/n)-cchi! What are you so nervous for?”

“Ow! What the hell?”

“O-Ow, ow! I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to hit that hard—can you please let go?!”

“It’s been a while since I shoulder-locked you, huh…”

“Well, I certainly don’t miss it! You’re so cruel!”

and you only give him an all-knowing look at his “cruel” comment, and Kise panics again at his usual poor word choice… but you merely laugh at his distress

unintentionally, Kise does end up being the one to help you clear up the bundles of nerves… he’s still really worried for you because he definitely can see how you’re still hung up on Akashi

at the same time, when Seirin was watching Rakuzan team members do perfect layups, getting nervous about the game, you were a nervous wreck in your own world at the bench, triple-checking everything and giving massages to Teppei to relieve his knee pain for the time being

throughout the game, Akashi does throw a casual glance at you here and there when no one’s really looking, and meanwhile, you’re incredibly fixated on Kuroko (doing what he told you so you wouldn’t be tempted to look at Akashi)

a lot of your attention was on Furihata anyways because you were focused on massaging particular areas to reduce the physical stress exerted on them during the game

part of Akashi wants to go all out and win this game not only to prove you and Kuroko wrong, but also to impress you, but that’s something his true self feels (who is dormant in his subconscious) rather than his current self… but it’s still there

the moment you broke was when the Akashi you knew and liked finally returned to the court, and you immediately excused yourself to the empty infirmary room to bawl your eyes out and put yourself together; you tell yourself that it’s just another tactic of Akashi and return to the game right when Seirin makes their game point

Oreshi gave 100% in battling against Seirin but occasional glances constantly were shot over to Seirin’s bench to look for you, but you were gone at the last part of the game until at the very end

after the team lineups and trophy distributions, you immediately run outside of the stadium for crisp night air, heaving in as much as you could to try to prevent your body from having any funny ideas of dying on the spot

“... (l/n)-san.”

from his voice, you knew it was Akashi, and you debated on running as fast as you can but the current state of your body didn’t make it a viable option; you opted to stand still quietly, your back still facing him

“(/n)-san,” Akashi softly says again, slowly walking up to you and stopping four meters behind you to give you reasonable space in the confrontation

“... I hate you, you know that? Didn’t I tell you that I didn’t want to see you again after this game?”

“Kuroko disclosed to me what happened.”

“He what?!” In your shock, you whirl around to face Akashi, only to be stunned to see his gentle eyes filled with guilt and worry

“... I want to give you my sincerest apology for everything I’ve done and for what I didn’t do for you. In seeing how the Generation of Miracles had their talents bloomed substantially at a rapid rate, I had believed chasing for absolute victory was the only way to hold us together. Teamwork was nigh impossible given that we had no equal rivals from the outside. Even if that was the only plausible option to take as captain, I still failed Teiko’s other members, including you. To think that I was foolish in letting go what was most important to me.”

he gives a deep bow, further shocking you of your wits

“I…” You pause before you frown. “What did Kuroko even tell you?”

Akashi tells you exactly what Kuroko said and you immediately deny it

“Th-That’s… I only worked hard to get better, so I wouldn’t get left behind. Our old teammates were a testament that I was lacking, and I tried hard to catch up to everyone. I only collapsed due to my own irresponsibility. No matter how much I tried, I could never reach up to everyone’s level, even until now.”

“That’s not the whole truth isn’t it, (l/n)-san?” You widen your eyes at his statement, worried about the insinuation of his words

Oreshi now was not the same Oreshi back in Teiko; he’s now much sharper when it comes to you; he senses that there was something else amiss

“Why didn’t you tell me about what happened back at Teiko? Did you feel that you couldn’t rely on me as a captain?” Akashi sounds hurt… really hurt

you, taken back, immediately were quick to answer:

“N-No! If anything, I… I didn’t want you to look at me in a lesser light if you ever found out that our members started losing faith in me, and I… I wanted to be dependable like everyone else on the team! And if I was reliable, you would be able to depend on me like you used to in the very beginning…”

“(l/n)-san,” Akashi mumbles with upturned brows. “You’ve always been viable to me and the team. Why do you go through such lengths?” Your tears burst forth uncontrollably before you choked out:

“Because I liked you! You were so accomplished and reputable…! I had always th-thought that deep down, i-if I kept improving myself, that you’d notice me in the way I saw you!” Both you and Akashi widened your eyes at what you just said

well shit, maybe now is a good time to run? but before you even had any other ideas, Akashi steps forward to gently clasp your wrist

“... How do you feel about me now?” You obviously hesitate and look down at your clasped wrist, tears still streaky on your face, and at your silence, Akashi continues. “If you truly despise me… I understand. I won’t bother you anymore after tonight… But please believe me (l/n)-san, when I say…”

he moves from your wrist to your hand, taking his other hand to bring up both your hands in a delicate clasp

“... that I’ve always been fond of you, ever since the beginning.”

“You’re lying.”

“I am not, (l/n).” To prove his point, Akashi places a tentative ghost kiss on his hands holding yours, wary in trying not to overstep his boundaries in case you didn’t want your hands to be kissed by him; he leaves his lips there before he murmurs

“... How can I make it up to you?” You feel his soft breath reverberating through your own hands, and it felt so sincere

“Well… for starters, I want to know the Akashi outside of basketball…” He lets go of your hands and gives a small smile

“Then it would be more appropriate to call me Seijurō, don’t you think?”

“Ah… then… you can call me by my first name too.”

“(y/n)... please don’t hesitate to come to me when anything troubles you.”

“I’ll try.”

“And please don’t overwork yourself. It’s not good for you.”

“I’m not making promises.”

“I do hope that in time you’ll come to realize that you’re an extremely talented person… quite a force to be reckoned with too.”

“Was the second half an innuendo of some sorts?”

“You don’t meet someone everyday who wouldn’t hesitate to cuss out the Rakuzan captain while pointing at his face.”

“I…! I’m sorry! I spoke out of—” He puts a finger to your lips with a teasing smile before he grows serious

“I must also apologize for my cruel words…

… I hope that you would find it in yourself to forgive all of my own misdeeds.”

“Yeah, yeah,” you mumble. “Maybe that will happen sooner than later because I do… like you.”

“It’s nice to hear a confirmation from you.”

“Stop acting like you got me figured out, Seijurō!”

“I wouldn’t dare, (y/n).”

bonus: imagine the shock from Seirin and Rakuzan to see you two DATING (when that eventually happens), like Hayama is losing his entire MIND over this it’s SO FUNNY LMAO // Kuroko and Kise are so smug and happy for you two it’s very wholesome

The… end?

UPDATE: sike, by the time you read this, there is a part 4 epilogue

#knb #knb x reader #knb headcanon #knb headcanons #knb teiko #teiko #akashi seijuro #akashi x reader #akashi seijuro x reader #kuroko tetsuya #kise ryota #kise ryouta #rakuzan #teiko middle school

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ＲＥＱＵＥＳＴ: Hi!!!! I was wondering if I could request hcs for how dabi and hawks would celebrate their S/O’s birthday? 

HEY HEY!  Fuck i love this idea i think its so goddamn cute

Ｇｅｎｒｅ：fluff

𝙒𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨: cursing (as always we know I have a potty mouth)

𝘗𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘴: they/them

AN:

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Okay we know this bird man is RICH 

He makes that money okay

So when your birthday shows up?

From the moment you wake up,,, 

Holy shit

He’ll have breakfast in bed with you 

(Btw he took the day off )

He’ll have chocolate covered fruit and your favorite drink in stock at all times

Literally hires a butler so that when youre cuddling he doesnt have to leave

During breakfast in bed, you watch your favorite show and your legs are over his, all tangled in the blankets

You stay in bed for as long as you want, all day, for an hour, literally hawks just wants you to have a good day

If you do get out of bed, you guys walk to your favorite shopping place, whether it's thrift shops, the mall, outlet malls, etc.

You fucking name it and he’ll fucking get a limo for you guys

He would fly you guys, but he doesnt wanna scare you cuz sometimes it can get scary and he would rather jus be able to relax his big ol wings

SHOPPING TIMES HEHABJF

Will blow a load of money on anything you fucking want

A random ceramic goose thats supposed to be for cookies?

Yes

One left shoe of a worn down combat boot that doesnt fit either of you?

Throw it in the cart.

Or if you dont want clothes, you can walk around the fancy part of japan and window shop or get really fancy clothing and walk around and mock others

Because he’ll do that with ya any day

Near lunch time, you’ll go to a really cool restaurant.

It looks like a massive hotel, and you and the bird man eat on the highest floor, on a glass balcony.

Its only you and him eating there, the only others the people that are working there.

You can order anything, from a single burger to a fucking shark

But if you can’t order without a menu, you can get one from the waiters

The menu is changed to all of your favorites, via hawks requests.

He also preordered drinks, just a soda doe

Although youre at a fancy place, count on hawks to get you guys sodas there

You vibe there for a little, eating, drinking , laughing.

“Birdy, no. I don't think you can eat that. But if you want. I can eat it to see if I’ll choke or somethin’.”

After lunch, you go and walk around a park, the place where your first few dates took place. 

You reminisce on the old lovey memories, and just its fucking beautiful

There are sakura trees, flowers, ponds (ft. frogs and lilies), literally a fucking cottagecore type dream okay?

You sit there in that park, sitting on a blanket cuddling.

You stay there, and just talk and talk.

Around 5 pm, you start to wander with him. You wander around the city hand in hand, and just explore. 

If you have a quirk, he’ll try to pressure you into using it somehow

(eventually you do)

And cause chaos wich is fun

After causing chaos to innocent civilians(safely), you wander back to your house somehow

Hawks makes dinner, as you dance around the kitchen with him to music

You prance around the whole house, singing along with hawks and his terrible voice.

You eat dinner on your roof, his red wings wrapped around you.

Suddenly

Hawks realizes something

“Oh wait oh shit. Happy birthday birdy!”

BRUH THIS BITCH DIDNT EVEN TELL YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY?

No, but his actions speak louder than his words.

You sit together as the night grows cold.

He squeezes you tight and hums the song of happy birthday to you as you fall asleep in his arms.

Your head rests on his shoulder, hands grasping his as you sleep.

He carefully picks you up, and wanders to the bedroom and sets you down.

He places a blanket over you, covering your body and he climbs in after.

He cups your cheek and kisses your forehead.

“Happy birthday birdy. I love ya.”

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god hes so fucking pretty fuck god i would pay him to step on me jrkkadfg

GOD THIS BURNT BITCH

He has the balls he will wake you up in the morning

Like full ass

He may be a satly, scarred bitch

But he’ll kiss your face over and over, until you wake up.

When you do wake up, he’ll whisper happy birthday to you like the cute bitch he is

“Hi, happy birthday doll.” 

I dont feel like hes not a big party person like hawks is,

Hes more of a 

I wanna do things myself for you, while teasing you all day to show you i love you to pieces

If you dont get out of bed he’ll full ass carry you to the living room of your apartment and throw you on the couch 

So then you can watch him make breakfast

Hes a proud man

He’ll sit next to you on the couch while you guys eat together

Your both just kinda vibing on the couch, legs thrown over each others

The good cush

Yes after breakfast he will make out with you kfnjajkf

N e way

He will hold a marathon, either of your favorite anime, tv show or movies

He may complain, and hes totally a fucking talker like shit like this

“Hes going to fucking die wh-WHERE IS HE FUCKING GOING?” 

Ngl you guys lose track of time and get so immersed into your shows and stuff 

You guys are so fucking hungry at the end, but neither of you want to cook

And are too hungry to eat

So you order take-out and just fucking wait

Both of you are ovedramatic for a bit and roll around on the floor groaning

Eventually Dabi just fucking scoops you up in his arms

And just starts parading around with you

Like literally you can like hit his back, and he’ll just fucking walk around with you over his shoulder like a fuCKING BAG OF FLOUR BRUH

He’ll answer the door like that, but the dude at the door is so taken back Dabi doesnt even pay and just closes the door on him

So free food

He’ll set you down on the couch again 

And then you guys will play fight, and before long 

Its just s kissing fight

This bitch is affectionate behind closed doors

You guys eat sitting on the floor, wrapped in a blanket continuing your journey into your shows

Eventually he’ll fall asleep, his head in your lap and you’ll follow soon after.

“Goodnight Dabi, thank you baby.”

#hawks #hawks x reader #hawks headcanons #hawks x reader headcanons #mha takami keigo #keigo x reader #keigo headcanons #takami keigo #takami x reader headcanons #keigo takami headcanons #takami keigo headcanons #dabi #dabi x reader #dabi x reader headcanons #dabi headcanons #mha #mha x reader #mha headcanons #mha x reader headcanons #bnh #bnha x reader #bnha headcanons #bnha x reader headcanons