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ษชษดษข!!
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๊ฐษชสsแด แดแดสsแดษด แดแดแด !
its officially been about two weeks since ive seen nika and i feel like im actually gonna die. ever since nika got drafted i've been seeing her less and less.
the most i've gotten to see her is through face time and it breaks my heart having to go to sleep without her by my side. the comfort that no blanket could ever give.
right now im here at my dorm literally crying my eyes out over her. am i being dramatic? absolutely not, i just miss my girlfriend like any normal human being would.
over the past two weeks i haven't even realized how much i had been distancing myself from everyone, including nika. i didn't mean to isolate myself, it just happened and i don't think i can go back.
long distance is not my specialty and nika getting drafted shows it. i've been wanting to go to one of her games, but moneys been tight being a college student.
i got sucked out of my thoughts when i got a message from nika
"๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐? ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐? ๐ข๐ฏ๐ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐๐ง'๐ญ ๐๐๐๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ." i read her message and sighed, i can't even bring myself to answer her text.
i left her message on read not having the energy to respond or explain myself. i hate this, i hate everything about long distance. i just want to feel the warm embrace of my girlfriends arms.
i've been distancing myself from nika as well, not because i don't want to talk to her, but because im afraid of losing her. i've gotten so in my head thinking shes gonna find someone better than me while being in seattle that i've been closing myself off from being to afraid that im gonna lose her.
i got snapped out of my thoughts when i got a facetime call from nika. i eagerly grasped my phone and picked up the call.
"๐ฐ๐ก๐ฒ ๐๐ข๐๐งโ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ง๐ฌ๐ฐ๐๐ซ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ญ๐๐ฑ๐ญ? ๐๐ก๐๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ ๐จ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ?โ i could hear the worry in her voice, along with a slight hint of annoyance.
"๐ข ๐๐จ๐งโ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐ง๐ฒ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐, ๐ข ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐๐ก ๐ข ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐๐ค, ๐ข ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐๐๐ซ ๐๐ฐ๐๐ฒ." i said in desperation, i truly missed her so much.
i heard her sigh a bit as she responded. "๐ข ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐๐ก ๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข ๐๐๐ง'๐ญ, ๐ข ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ฒ ๐จ๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ, ๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ." hearing her say that almost broke my heart into a million pieces.
"๐ข ๐ง๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ฌ๐๐ข๐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ. ๐ ๐ง๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฆ๐๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐๐ง๐ฒ ๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ญ." i say to her the annoyance in my chest rising.
"๐จ๐ค๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฌ๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ. ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐๐ฌ ๐ข๐ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ข ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐๐๐ซ ๐๐ฐ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ. ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ญ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฌ๐ค๐๐ญ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐๐ซ๐๐๐ซ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ข ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐." hearing her say that was it for me. i couldn't take it anymore. i never blamed her for any of this and she knows it as well.
"๐ข ๐๐ฆ ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐ง๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ขโ๐ฏ๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ฐ๐๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐ง ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ขโ๐ฆ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ข๐ญ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ! ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐๐๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ข ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฆ๐!" i started raising my voice out of instinct. i never meant to but it was just the heat of the moment.
"๐๐จ๐งโ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง ๐ก๐๐ซ๐. ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ข๐ ๐ข ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ข ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐. ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ๐ง'๐ญ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฆ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ." my chest started to feel heavy with all these emotions surrounding me.
"๐ข ๐๐จ ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐ ๐ง๐ข๐ค๐, ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ซ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐๐๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐ข๐ ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฒ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ!" tears threatened to spill from my eyes, spilling my heart out just to earn another sigh from her.
"๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ, ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ- ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ ๐จ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐๐ ๐ฒ/๐ง. ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ ๐จ๐ง๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐. ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ." before i could respond she hung up leaving me alone with all of my thoughts.
i plugged my phone onto the charger and curled up into a ball in my bed hoping it will all just pass by soon
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by the time i woke up my eyes were all puffy from crying the night before. i got up and started brushing my teeth when i got a knock on my door.
i quickly finished brushing my teeth and opened the door. there was no one there but i looked down and picked up what was left.
it was a bouquet of red and pink roses with a note attached to them. i closed the door to my apartment and sat at on a stool at my kitchen counter as i grabbed the note and read it.
"๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐โ๐ก๏ผ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐โ ๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๏ผ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐โ ๐๐๐โ๐ก ๐๐๐ค ๐ ๐ค๐๐ โ ๐ ๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐กโ ๐ฆ๐๐ข โ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๏ผ๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐๐๐๏ผ ๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ค ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐โ๐ก๏ผ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ค๐๐'๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐ก."
๐ฟ๐๐ฃ๐๏ผ๐๐๐๐ <3
i smiled as i finished reading the note as i carefully set it down as i rushed to pick up my phone and sent a quick text to nika.
"๐ข ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐๐ฌ๐ฌ๐๐ ๐, ๐ข ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐๐ก ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ. ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐๐ฑ๐๐ข๐ญ๐๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐. ๐ข ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐๐ก ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฎ๐๐ค, ๐ข ๐๐ฉ๐จ๐ฅ๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ณ๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฒ ๐ข ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ ๐ข ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐๐ซ๐๐ข๐ ๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ."
i pressed sent and now it was time to wait for the game to start. i decided to do some chores around my apartment to waste time till it started.
by the time i finished mopping the game finally started. i quickly turned on my tv and started watching the live stream. once i saw nika appear on screen i swear my smile couldn't have been wider.
i watched her play throughout the whole game and she was amazing. at the end of the 4th quarter she scored the winning basket. i quickly jumped up in joy as she started celebrating, as the camera panned over to her she quickly ran to the bench to pick up a poster board and held it up to the camera.
I โค๏ธ๏ธ MY GIRLFRIEND
i swear i almost passed out when i saw that i put my hands over my mouth in shock not expecting her to do that. she flashed a smile to the camera before going back to her teammates to finish celebrating and finish off the game by high-fiving the other team.
forget everything about last night, nika is my happiness and joy and i know that i am hers too. no argument will ever get between us we'll always figure it out.
nika and i were meant for each other and no amount of arguing is ever going to change that, and tonight just proved that.
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OMG Itโs Youโฆ (Part 6.5)
YouTube! Fem reader x Stray Kids
Summary: Y/Nโs YouTube channel is taking off after her reactions to Stray Kids MV Godโs Menu. Now sheโs making videos nonstop along with working a full time job. What would happen if she got offered a job of a lifetime and met the boys of her succession?
โ ๏ธWarningsโ ๏ธ: cursing, crying, confusion, fatigue, Lee Know coming in clutch, Chan admits to being jealous of reader (let me know if I missed anything)
๐ท๏ธ: @laylasbunbunny @weirdowithaphone (Taglist open)
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Third Person POV
Y/N never thought sheโd ever be called into the conference room at her own job. Especially when sheโs being surrounded by people who she didnโt recognize and knew they werenโt from the States. Yet, here they were on one side of the table while she was on the other side with a stack of papers in front of her. With the word โCONTRACTโ written across it.
โSo, what do you say? Would you like to work with us?โ
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Y/Nโs POV (One week ago)
I had been staring at my computer screen for too long. Knowing I wasnโt getting anywhere, I pushed away from my desk and collapsed on my bed. I never felt exhaustion this bad like I did now. So much as happened during these past few weeks that I feel like I canโt keep up. Maybe I need to start from the beginning.
Flashback (Two weeks prior)
Pulling up my camera, I press record and wait three to five seconds before starting. โYโall.โ I huff, still trying to catch my breath. โWhen I made this address, I was expecting to get some packages here or there. The post office called me and told me that I need to come pick up my packages now. Because they were overflowing. I thoughtโฆ.You know what, let me just show you instead.โ I pick up a huge draw bag of packages inside. โI have three of these and thatโs not including these.โ I grab a basket of letters or other small packages. โI had to take my grandfatherโs truck because my car was too small to fit everything in it. I honestly thought that I wasnโt going to get this much stuff. Hell Iโm afraid that I wonโt be able to get through all of these before they call me again saying I have more waiting. I told yโall I donโt need anything, I already have too much.โ I start looking around my room. โWhere the hell am I going to put all this? I have no room, ugh.โ I turned back to the camera. โI love yโall to death but this is way too much.โ
Looking around, I let out a big sigh. โIโm grateful honestly. Donโt get me wrong, Iโm not mad or upset. Iโm more surprised than anything. I donโt want yโall to waste your money on me. I rather you keep that for bills, food, clothes, etc. Though at the end of the day, I canโt stop you from sending anything.โ I sit down in my chair, worn out since those bags were heavy. โI know I made a promise to all of you that I will record everything that I open, but then again I didnโt expect to get this much fan mail. Iโll do my best to record what I can. Hopefully. What I canโt, Iโll try to out Thank You letters.โ I laugh a little to myself. โI feel like Iโm digging myself a hole. Making all these promises and talking about sending out letters. I just donโt want to let anybody down. I want all you to know that I appreciate everything that you do and I donโt want any of you to feel left out if I donโt show me opening up your package or letter.โ
I get up and grab one of the big bags. โIโve got to record an upcoming video, but as soon as I can I will record myself opening up some of these packages. I could do a livestream of me opening some of them too. Iโll have to see how Iโm feeling that day. Either way I love yโall and I hope you have a great day. Bye!โ I turn the camera off and I instantly drop my shoulders and head. โWhy do I do this to myself? I knew I was in over my head when I did this.โ I look down at all the stuff people sent. โWell, I better get started on the album review before I worry too much about these.โ
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Third Person POV (Before Y/Nโs video above)
The boys had been worrying/stressing over what to send to Y/N. Chan had convinced the rest of the boys to send a gift and a letter from each of them so that she would know who itโs from. Some of them knew exactly what they wanted to send, others couldnโt make up their minds. Each one decided that they would all send their stuff at one time so hopefully she would get them all around the same time. Lee Know walked into Felixโs room, seeing the Sunshine himself writing a letter. He knocks on the door to announce his presence.
Felix turns to his older Hyung. โHey.โ Lee Know grins, and Felix responds back. โHey.โ His Hyung sits by him. โHowโs it going?โ Felix drops his head on his gaming desk. โTerrible. I canโt think of anything to write.โ Lee Know observes him before replying back. โYou donโt have to think about it so much. Just write what comes to your head.โ Felix scuffs. โEasy for you to say. You donโt overthink everything like I do.โ Felix runs his fingers through his hair. โNormally I could already know what Iโd want to tell someone. Right now, Iโm coming up blank.โ Felix frustrated with himself, pulls on his hair.
โDo you want to see what I wrote?โ Felix turns to his Hyung. โI donโt want to copy what you wrote Lee Know Hyung.โ Lee Know smirks. โI know. I wrote two of them, in case you couldnโt think of anything. Theyโre not the same letter. Here, take it.โ He pulls it from his back pocket. โYou can always rewrite it in your own hand writing if you want.โ He gets up to leave before turning around. โWeโre sending them out tomorrow, so have it ready by tonight.โ Felix nods his head smiling. โThank you Hyung.โ Lee Know returns the smile. โYouโre welcome.โ
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After Y/N had recorded and edited both versions of the review for Oddinary mini album, she sent one to JYP and saved the other for when the release date comes. She decided sheโd take a small break before she would start recording herself on opening fan mail. She had to waited a couple of days before she got the chance to record herself again.
โHello Lovelies and welcome back to the channel! So today we are going to start opening some of these packages today since I have so many. I will fair warn you, Iโm bad with names so if I donโt pronounce your name correctly, donโt get mad at me.โ I laugh lightly. โThese will probably be different videos since I know Iโm not going to be able to open all of them in just one video. Okay letโs get into shall we?โ
Little did Y/N know there were eight boys who were waiting for her videos to come out. They wanted to see her reaction to their gifts they gave her. When the day finally came, they all gathered around a TV watching her. โWhat in the world is this?โ She pulls out a package and sees thereโs no name on it. Itโs also from a PO Box address, but itโs from Seoul, South Korea. She looks at the camera with a questionable expression on her face. Pulling out her scissors and cuts the package open. The first thing she grabs is a letter with her name on it. She opens it and what she does next makes all the boys happy. Her jaw drops, โThereโs no fucking way. This cannot be real.โ She looks at the camera, back to the letter then back to the camera again. She swallows slowly before speaking.
Dear Y/N,
Iโve been following your videos since you reacted to our MV Godโs Menu. The guys and I have been quite the fans of yours. When we saw that you created a PO Box, we knew that we wanted to give you something from each of us. We hope that you enjoy everything that you get and thank you for always supporting us through our journey.
Signed,
Lee Felix
She tears up a little bit and she wipes her eyes immediately with her hands. โSo that means youโve seen me make a fool out of myself this entire time. Damn. Well at least you know this is the real me. What you see is what you get. Now you just made a lot of Stays very jealous.โ She laughs and points at the camera. โYโall donโt come after me now.โ She puts the letter to the side and opens the package more so she can see whatโs inside. She pulls back and starts laughing really hard. โFelix, have I ever told you how much I love you? Because I really do. Hold on everyone, Iโm about to show you what he got me.โ She pulls out a container of brownies he made along with the recipe on top. โI knew the package looked weird but I know understand why. He said that he had to use vegetable oil to preserve them while being shipped.โ She looks at the camera and smiling. โThank you Felix, really. I will definitely enjoy these.โ She puts them off to the side and grabs something else out of the package, she turns it over to see a little bracelet with him skzoo on it. โOoh , I love that. Thatโs very precious.โ๏ฟผ
She turns to look at her other bags. โJust so Iโm not constantly thinking about the other guysโ packages. Iโm going to see if I have them all, so I can open them one after the other. Iโm quite nervous now. Especially since I know theyโll be watching this video.โ The boys canโt help but smile at her. She searches through the bags and manages to find all of them. โThis one looks promising.โ She had grabbed Hyunjinโs and carefully opened it. What was inside made her gasp. It was a painting of flowers in a glass vase. The painting itself was kind of mute, but had pops of colors on the flowers. โThat is so beautiful Hyunjin, I love it. Did I ever tell you that my grandmother is an artist herself?โ Hyunjinโs eyes widen hearing that statement and the boys do too. She steps out of view and calls for her grandmother.
Her grandmother comes into view. โOne of my fans painted this far me.โ Her grandmother complements the painting and Hyunjin lets out a breath he didnโt know he was holding. He had also given her some facial mask since he knew she enjoyed those more than makeup. Each member gave her a letter with similar words to Felixโs with hopes that they will get to meet her one day. Since they knew she didnโt like very expensive items they went for more sentimental value ideas. Seungmin had given her a book that he enjoyed reading and even went out of the way to get her a box of tea he liked. I.N. gave her their Oddinary album book and an unreleased box of photo cards. Changbin had given her a couple of their shirts from the Oddinary merch collection. Han had gifted her a new light stick with a Quokka keychain.
Y/N thanking all the boys for their wonderful gifts had finally reached the last two members. If anyone ever asked her which two she would consider as her biases, she would tell them Chan and Lee Know. While she loves all of the members equally, those two (including Felix) stood out the most to her. One package is bigger than the other, but only by a little. Both feel soft like a pillow and sheโs torn over which one to open first. She almost forgets that sheโs being recorded. โI donโt know which one to open first.โ She laughs to herself. โI have a feeling that thereโs more clothing in both of these. I guess Iโll go with this one.โ She grabs the slightly smaller one and cuts carefully. Inside is a hoodie and not just any hoodie, one sheโs very familiar with. She pulls the letter out and opens it. Sheโs glad she knows how to speak and read Korean, otherwise she would have to use her phone to translate.
Y/N,
I normally donโt like sending things to people, but for you I will make an exception. Your channel has brought me comfort on days that are hard. I never realized how much they meant to me until I unconsciously found myself looking up your videos. I want to give you this, to have on your bad days. To know that youโre not alone and have people who care about you. I have included a small bottle of my cologne that you can spray on it when my smell starts to fade. I also included a special Leebit plush that hasnโt been released yet. Thank you for being your true self and making others happy.
Sincerely,
Lee Minho
Y/N had tears rolling down her face, but she didnโt go to wipe them. Lee Know didnโt know whether if he went too far or if his gift wasnโt good enough. But she turned to the camera and smiled at it, hoping Lee Know could see her. โ๋ฆฌ๋
ธ๋ ์ ๋ง ๊ฐ์ฌ๋๋ฆฝ๋๋ค. ๋๋ฌด ๋ง์์ ๋ค๊ณ ์ ๋ณด์ดํด ๋๋ฆฌ๊ฒ ์ต๋๋ค.โ He smiled right back. โ์ฒ๋ง์์.โ She grabs a tissue and wipes her face. โOkay this is the last, then Iโll end the video here.โ She opens the last package and inside is black jacket with white writing on it. Her eyebrows scrunch together as she looks at it. Once she realizes what it is she looks at the camera with her hands on her hips. โChristopher. Now I know damn well that you better not have spent a lot of money on this jacket. Donโt act like I donโt know my clothing brands, I know just how much this cost and itโs too much.โ She shakes her head like a mother would when sheโs disappointed in her son. โGood grief. What am I going to do with you, mmhm?โ She pulls out the letter and opens it.
Dear Y/N,
I wanted to be honest with you from the start. When Stays first talked about you and how much you were like me, I didnโt know how to feel. I felt like someone was trying to copy me. It didnโt help that the rest of the guys absolutely adored you and talked about you constantly. You were always somewhere in my head, and I couldnโt get you out. I tried but it only seemed to make it worse. It wasnโt until I found you crying your eyes out that it all changed. Iโm not saying that you crying is what made me change my views about you, but it made me realize that youโre a human being like me. Seeing you upset made me want to comfort you. You were holding my skzoo to dear life. I let my emotions control my thoughts of a person without getting to know who they were. I wanted to give you something to remember me by. This jacket is actually mine, and I also included something to spray on it when the smell starts to fade. Thereโs one important item in here that I want you to have. Itโs not mine but itโs a replica. I want you to have it and remember that not also are you by our side, but we are by your side too.
Sincerely,
Bahng Christopher Chan โค๏ธ
Y/Nโs emotions were all over the place. He was jealous of her because he thought she was copying him. But it changed when he realized that she was a kind person all along?? Chan was definitely feeling the heat from not just waiting for her response but also from the looks on his members faces. They see her pull out a bracelet. Itโs the same Stay bracelet that Chan wears. She finally spoke up. โWow, um I donโt know how to feel about this. I for one appreciate you being honest with me. I donโt understand why you would be jealous of someone youโve never met, but then again I donโt see things from your point of view. I mean I guess I could understand, if you have people who say that Iโm exactly like you. Though thatโs not entirely true. Um, Iโm kind of at a loss for words right now. I donโt hate it, believe me I donโt. I love the gift, I love all of them. The letter just kind of makes me want to ask, where did I go wrong?โ
She looks back up at the camera before continuing. โIโm willing to look past this, as long as you and I can both get along together. And to Stays, please do not go bashing Chan for any reasons. I better not find any of yโall being mean to my boy. Iโll find you.โ She points her index and middle fingers to her eyes then to the camera. As if saying โIโm watching you.โ โI could see that if it were the other way around, Iโm sure that he would react the same way as me if I were him in this situation. But outside of that, I greatly appreciate the gift Chris. Thank you.โ
โThank you all for watching! I hope to have more of these videos up soon. Until then, I will see you next time. Bye!โ
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Present day
Which brings Y/N to today. When she arrived at work, the overhead boss told her that the CEO wanted to see her. She started replaying everything sheโs done and nothing stands out. The only thing she could think was something outside of work that had to do with her channel. After her Oddinary review went up, she had received a call from an out of country phone number. She didnโt answer as she didnโt know anyone outside of the States. Maybe besides the email she got from JYP, but there wasnโt a phone number listed.
She had let it go to voicemail, hoping that if it were important that they would leave a message. They left a message and what she heard stunned her.
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ํ์ธ์, ์ ๋ MNet Digital Studios์์ ์ ํ๋ฅผ ๊ฒ๋๋ค. ๋๋ ์ฌ๊ธฐ ์
์ฅ์ ๋ํด y/f/n๊ณผ ์ด์ผ๊ธฐํ๊ธฐ ์ํด ์ ํํ๊ณ ์์ต๋๋ค. ๋ค์ ์ ํํด ์ฃผ์๋ฉด ๊ฐ์ฌํ๊ฒ ์ต๋๋ค. ์๋
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(A/N: I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I kind of threw some things together hoping that theyโd work. Wasnโt really sure what I wanted each member to gift to the reader, but I hope it makes sense. Anyways thereโs more to come!)
((A/A/N: I forgot to add the translations in.
Blue- โThank you so much Lee Know. I love it so much and I will take very good care of it.โ
Green- โYouโre welcome.โ
White- โHi, Iโm calling from MNet Digital Studios. Iโm calling to speak with Y/F/N about a position here. If you could please call us back. Bye.โ ))
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The gates to Arcadia were never meant to be closed. Towering spires made of dreams and that which time had forgot wove together to make a barrier of unfathomable weave, thick with want and desire. Deadly in its seduction for things one could never obtain, it swallowed trespassers in a maze of there own fallacies. A price was never to high to escape. Few did.
The gates were meant to form a thorny warning to those who seek the keeper of dreams, a being so powerful it was known only as the Wyld. The world had once headed the Wyld, its call seductive, promising everything if you were willing to sacrifice. Its places were sacred, its laws ever changing and absolute. Then man decided they didn't need to fear, they had fire, they had stone, they had the power to combine, adapt. The adaption was, as all dreams knew, the issue.
Humans forgot where the adaption came from. They made up names for it. Names they controlled. Names that did not change. And then, to the determent of all, they tried to control the dream itself.
All the fragile human world suffered, and still they did not know why. They did not understand the agony of nightmares unchecked, of trying to reach thrugh the glittering spires of unpronounceable things.
They did it because they forgot there place. Mortals, all mortals, die. Death is not to be feared. Only the unmaking, where one is considered to the very smallest thing. One was ether adjusted, or broken. Broken things went into the belly of the Wyrm. Adjustments were painful, but worthy of the time. The unmaking of a being touched everything except the first dream. Even then, the first dream was not immune to the sundering.
When humans forgot mortality and empathy, when they filled the land with excuses, the gates closed, and the dream - that ephemeral thing exploring the world its own matter created - was broken into many beings.
Immortality could no longer remember its own name. Its cost was horrendous. It broken form glittered into pieces. Those locked in Arcadia were called elves by most, fey by some who knew better, but they had an older name. Something so horrifyingly pure it resonated in the spirit of everything.
Those unfortunate enough to be stuck in the material world lost much of there sparkling power. They diminished, until at last they too became bound to the cycle of remaking. They would live lives only they knew, and they would live as mortals; they would die. They would be torn apart in the great belly of the Wyrm, finery shredded for parts to bolster other failing dreams. All there parts would come out the other end as glittering bits for the Wyld to mold, the Weaver to put together. The cycle would begin again.
The noble fey - those dreamed elves for there ever glowing beauty - were not so fortunate on the material side of Arcadia. They had but one life, and if the mortal shell died... Otherwise, they were functionally immortal. They did not age, or loose control of there bodies and minds such as humans did when the end was near. For this they paid dearly.
Boredom, that horrid, soulless ennui, would normally take a fey into a depression spiral the likes of which bolstered less scrupulous mental health professionals to great wealth. At worst it would sleep the soul inside the fey until it could be awoke by something that called to its very essence. Unless you were a noble. A noble made sure they had someone to talk to. Someone to get them out of there hideous spiral before it caused them to die. No one wanted the shame of dyeing of boredom. Literally.
Which, Victor thought, was exactly why it was a very good thing he was on the correct side of Arcadia. It had been eons since the gates of Dream had cracked open just that tiny bit. Humans had learned to touch the sacred shield. Or, as they called it, the moon.
The day the gates opened just that touch, most of his people stayed put, fear etching there perfect visages. Victor had moved. He had gathered the Lord of the Winter Sun, dreamed from all the things that made mortals worthy of exhalation, made them heroes, and set out to see just what had become of that ever exciting place where things constantly moved and dreams were slow to change. Maybe the place would allow Victor to smile, to feel something other than cold duty.
The mortal realm had smelled. Bad. It was wet and dry, and it consumed things with its fleshy bits rather than sipping the nectar of its spirit to sustain. It had an abundance of everything, and so many broken beings, Victor began to wonder if it was worth peaking thrugh at all, let alone the day trip. Then, tragically, the doors to Arcadia began to shut again. He was propelled bodily thru the thin cracks still remaining, landing as a most elegant heap on the other side. But the doors were closing faster than they had opened, and his trusted knight remained on the wrong side of the gates, his dark eyes seeming to say it was okay. This is what he was made for. To protect.
He was the Hero, and Victor was the Winter King. When it came down to it, Victor mattered more to natures balance than a mere dream of humanity, no matter how many tales had been woven into the Hero's being. Victor knew this. Victor could rationalize this. Victor was made of wondrous things, and all of them cried out in broken agony. He could feel something inside crack. He knew what fate waited for fey on the material side of the gates. How was he going to face what waited for him in the Shimmering Cascade? How would he face Yuri?
His cousin was going to gut him.
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theOrEticalLy . if I opened commissions at some point. would there be. a smackerel of interest . ??
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I really need to start looking into whatโs been causing my psychosis since my fucking toddler years but I have so much shit going on rn I donโt know if I have the energy too. Hhhh
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Just discovered the tag Character Death Fix
So Inazuma is no longer dead in my Usatello Single Dads AU, because she's a badass swordsman and totally survived having Jei yucking it about in her body and she's Usagi's cool and pretty friend switches between silent solidarity and teasing the hell out of him like all his other friends
Usagi deserves more friends! And this AU was made to give him things I believe he deserves!
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the way we handle medical leave in the states even for people with good benefits is cruel
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Heard a Full-Grown Adult who was sitting behind me on the train tonight genuinely say โI donโt know why people are worrying about the cost of livingโ and honestly even if he was joking, Iโm amazed his girlfriend didnโt dump him on the spot
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megumi's teacher โ gojo satoru x reader
tags/warnings: fluff. fem!reader. gojo beefing with an eight year old. 700 words.
ever since megumi started the second grade, it's been (l/n)-sensei this. (l/n)-sensei that.
gojo picks up megumi's favorite ice cream, only to be scolded by the young boy. "(l/n)-sensei's favorite flavor is strawberry, so that's my favorite now!"
gojo tries to help him with his math homework, and it's "(l/n)-sensei did it this way. that means you should too!"
gojo reaches down to tie megumi's shoes for him, before his hand is promptly smacked away. "(l/n)-sensei said big boys tie their own shoes!"
honestly, gojo is starting to feel a little jealous. megumi's known you for what? two months?
he's been raising megumi for the past few years, but does that earn him an ounce of the adoration the young boy seems to have for you?
apparently not, though he perseveres nonetheless.
he and megumi are spending the afternoon out in the city and they stop at a small bakery for lunch.
while megumi is distracted looking at all the sweets behind the glass counter, the bell on the door draws gojo's attention.
his eyes fall upon a pretty young woman. actually, you might just be the prettiest woman he's ever seen.
and of course, a smirk forms on his lips when he catches you looking his way. he's puffing out his chest, running a hand through his hair.
he's always had a certain effect on the ladies, and he's never been more happy about that until this very momentโ
"megumi?" you call from a few feet away. the wide smile adorning your face makes you look even more radiant.
while gojo visibly deflates, megumi's head whips around at the speed of light. "(l/n)-sensei!"
oh.
gojo very quickly comes to understand why the boy is so enamored by you.
megumi launches himself at you, while you crouch to meet him with open arms.
"i'm so happy to see you!" he practically sings, clinging to your neck.
you chuckle at his enthusiasm. "i'm happy to see you too, 'gumi."
gojo clears his throat, hoping that megumi will take the chance to introduce you two, but he is completely ignored.
"what are you going to get? i'll buy it for you," he states proudly, despite having zero money of his own.
your gaze shifts to gojo for the first time, and having your attention even just for a brief moment takes his breath away.
"that's very sweet megumi, but that's alright." you ruffle his hair when he pouts at your words, standing back up. "who's this?"
"oh that's just gojo. don't worry about him," he states with a wave of his hand.
the white haired man gawks at him in response. the nerve on that kid! he silently decides megumi will be losing dessert privileges for a week. no, two.
you stifle a giggle before offering your hand to him and introducing yourself as megumi's teacher.
he repeats your name, taking satisfaction in the way it sounds rolling off his tongue.
"that's a pretty name," he compliments, trying to recover from megumi's dismissal. "heard a lot about you. in fact, the kid never shuts up about you."
this earns him a glare from megumi, but gojo is too preoccupied with the shy look that crosses your features to notice.
gojo insists on paying for your order, a show of appreciation for taking such good care of megumi in class. you chat with the pair of them for a little while longer before eventually excusing yourself.
"thank you again, gojo-san. i'll see you on monday, megumi!"
just as you're turning on your heel, gojo calls your name and you look back at him expectantly.
"when, uh," he struggles, scratching the back of his neck. "when do i get to see you?"
nice.
"oh! well, parent-teacher conferences are only a few weeks away! i'll look forward to seeing you then," you answer sweetly, misunderstanding the meaning behind his words.
you bid them goodbye once more and they both watch your figure disappear down the street.
megumi turns to look at gojo smugly. "weeks? that sounds like a really long timeโ"
"shut it, kid."
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SMILE, YOU'RE ON CAMERA. | YUUTA OKKOTSU.
๐ฒ เฃชโโก๐ โ synopsis. when taking care of your university finances proves troublesome, the universe grants you your very own savior. but itโs gonna cost you.
๐ฒ เฃชโโก๐ โ cw. smut, college au!yuuta / bimbo reader (obvi), filming, lots of porn referencesโฆ a lot, virginity loss, praise, oral n fingering, slight obsession, pussydrunk yuuta, unprotected love making, yuutaโs rich and unsettling. mdni <3
๐ฒ เฃชโโก๐ โ word count. 5.3k
๐ฒ เฃชโโก๐ โ dolled up! omg, yuuta? i meant to have this out a few weeks ago but got caught in a little writing slump :( nevertheless, hereโs to a new year and a new fic! yuutaโs been slowly creeping his way up my favs list , tehe !! as always, please reblog / comment if you enjoyed this , itโll fill me with joy. thank u โก
youโre a pornstar.
albeit, an amateur one with heaps to learn regarding the ruthless industry, but the weight still stands.
the details in which you came to the jarring conclusion were muddled with the convoluted steps that it took for you to get there, murky in your bubblegum-filled mind. all you knew was that yuuta okkotsu was a force, a gentle one, to be reckoned with.
it mustโve played out once you returned to your campus dorm beyond the dusk of midnight, under an unmitigating fatigue from the twelve hour waitressing shift just prior. through abhorrent patrons and the lack of a spendable paycheck, the excruciatingly long night barely made you enough money to even think about buying those dollish pumps youโve been yearning for. how cruel.
in between working and haphazardly handing your earnings over to university fees and textbooks, you just couldnโt seem to make ends meet.
you would curse the day you took it upon yourself to branch away financially from your parents under the guise of growing up, since now itโd be a blessing to have even a cellphone bill paid off. whatever the issue seemed to be, lady luck was truly never bothered enough to be on your side.
fortunately for you, though, it was that same arduous night, you had been huddled against your stuffed animals in bed, mindlessly scrolling through the various social media apps on your phone; switching from sites like instagram and twitter to youtube then right back to instagram all over again, only to be met with an offer dusted in pink glitter that caught your eye as if it were made for you.
โstars needed โ will pay upfront.โ
it was a shoddy story post, one that could be clicked past and forgotten forever โ yet, a brisk reminder of your situation in the form of borrowed, used textbooks with pages missing or vandalized, and todayโs horoscope that said to take risks; you did exactly that, aiming a swipe up that would ultimately rid you of the worries of yesterday.
there were no reasons as to why you couldnโt be a star. certainly, you had the face for it, and you were told by multiple charmers that you were beyond beguiling to get anything you could ever ask for. what dismay could possibly unfold from contacting .. yuuta okkotsu .. about his offer?
hm, thatโs funny. the name rang familiarity as it seeded in your mind.
must be one of yuujiโs friends.
itadori yuuji, your best friend of three years now. out of all the time youโd spent together, you came to realize that he could get along with anyone, despite their true intentions. he spoke highly of his friends as well, which earned him a sacred spot in your heart that couldnโt be replaced by anyone.
itadori had briefly mentioned in a ramen-fueled frenzy that one of his peers were โso insanely talentedโ and that youโd definitely get on with him. but when you asked for validity on that vague claim, all yuuji seemed to respond with was a mere โjust meet him, youโll see.โ
from your recollection, the acquaintance he was boasting about, as if it was his own personal victory, was none other than your yuuta okkotsu. he was meek, stuck to a close-knit friend group consisting of maki and toge from your physics class, and the one time you ever spoke to him was to ask about yuujiโs whereabouts, to which he responded that he went back to his dorm after gojo-senseiโs lecture.
he seemed, normal. average, even. that surely had to be the case since your memory was hazy on his being otherwise.
it was true, though, yuuta was gifted. in a way that transcended words, skillful towards visual aesthetics, and careful with the craft. he would spend most of his freetime fumbling with a camera or recording the works of the mundane. overtly, heโd grown such a strong passion in the field of videography in hopes to capture the reality of humanity, the authenticity within intimacy โ what could he possibly need a โstarโ for?
shadiness aside, you were in a tough spot, willing to do whatever to free yourself from the financial burden that was jujutsu technical university. with a swift swipe in tandem with the soft tapping of the pads of your thumbs on the keyboard, you were taking yuuta up on his offer.
within seconds, he responded back with his address and an appropriate meet-up date to start the project.
if only you were aware of how drastically your life would change from here on out.
a cluster of days had passed since you last got into contact with yuuta. he had told you to meet him at his place, claiming it would be more efficient than traveling to an unnamed destination with pounds of heavy photography equipment.
where you stood currently, was in front of the bare oak of his front door, hand wrapped in a loose fist as you knocked gently on the wood. a quick moment had passed by before you took initiative to raise your fist and knock once more. before your touch could meet the wood, a muffled โcoming!โ chimed beyond the door. from what you had heard on the other side; the scuttling behind the door and jingle of the lock, yuuta had opened the door soon after.
with his hand rubbing away the goosebumps that stood at the back of his neck, he beamed. cordially, warmly.
โyouโre actually here. hi,โ
upon first glance, yuuta had a distinct look. he stood tall, not tall enough to matter or incite intimidation, and although he wore a black button-up (a bit formal for an occasion as casual as today), his lean build shone through under the thin fabric, ripples of veins dancing up his forearms. what you couldnโt miss, however, were the grey eyebags under his emotionless navy orbs, as if heโd forgone weeks of sleep.
yuuta okkotsu was unsettling.
โhi,โ your voice sounded as a sweet croon, dulcet enough that you could barely hear it yourself as it escaped in a breathy breeze. his smile grew softer in response, that monotonous gaze in his eyes fizzling away into something of serenity. โcome in, please,โ yuuta held the door open wider for you to tread past, caught up in observing the bunch of fabric that hugged tightly around your ass, then closed it gently behind you once you stepped completely inside. he silently cursed at himself for ogling โ he truly didnโt mean to stare. youโre just a lot prettier up close. โi was just getting set up. you can have a seat if youโd like.โ
as youโd expect from any guy your age, his place wasnโt much to gaze at, nor did it have much personality. in a corner to your right was a houseplant, that of the fern variety, and a few steps deeper into the abode was the living room, where yuuta resumed his fumbling with the transfiguration of his tripod.
you decided to sit on the couch across from him, taking in the bleak sight of his home. you would have almost believed it was unlived in had it not been for the scattered midterm review papers decorating his coffee table. it was obvious he had money from the endless rows of space that surrounded the two of you, although a candle or something would be nice.
he peered away from his tripod to look through the viewfinder of his camera, ensuring that the lens was functioning properly. he grew pleased to see the image of you distracted in fiddling with your thumbs reflected back at him. โare you nervous?โ his gaze fell upon you through his own eyes, a concerned expression harboring his features.
you were pulled out of your muse of unfamiliarity to direct your attention to the sound of his mild voice, returning a smile to his that eased the worriment trapped behind dull, blue eyes. โn-not really, i donโt think.โ
his lips curled up once more at that, in fact there wasnโt a time so far that you hadnโt noticed him without his signature smile. โhere, let me help with that,โ reaching into his pocket, he pulled out his phone, tapping away at the screen before ultimately turning it back off and settling it back into its place in his pocket.
your phone vibrated beside you, screen lighting up with a bold alert.
[YUUTA OKKOTSU SENT $1000]
before you had a chance to even process the significance of the notification, he started back up,
โi hope i got the right information, wouldnโt want your hard work to get in the wrong hands.โ the tilt of his head in tandem with a chuckle resonated sheepishly, and he returned to watch you through his camera lens.
he was right. the money did soothe your nerves.
โiโve barely done anything yet.โ a ditzy giggle followed soon after your sentence, a sound that yuuta couldnโt possibly ignore. you were already starting to pull at his heartstrings.
โand youโve done it so perfectly,โ his praise left you flustered in that moment and you bit down softly on your lower lip to keep your smile at bay. โthank you, yuuta.โ
you wouldโve never guessed that your introverted classmate had enough experience in him to be such a flirt, or have your cheeks heating up with fervid affection, no less. but maybe yuuta was just like that; maybe this had been natural.
โno, thank you.โ his thumb hovered over the record button just as his eyes met your gaze over the brim of the camera. โwould you like to start now?โ
he took the nod of your head as confirmation to press the record button, finally getting started with the project.
you blinked blankly at him as he tilted his head and flashed a warmhearted grin. โhow old are you?โ was his first question. he had asked while rolling up the sleeves of his shirt. as he did so, you took notice of the silver ring donned around his finger.
he couldnโt have been married, no?
keeping your answer as vague as possible for the sake of matching his comforting warmth, you responded, โtwenty-something.โ he let out a satisfied huff of air as he nodded and moved onto his next query.
โand whatโs your major?โ
with the question barely having enough time to linger in the suggestively tense air, he added, โyouโre very beautiful, by the way. do you mind taking your dress off for me?โ
as much as it shouldโve alarmed you, you were swayed by his toothachingly inviting timbre, its gentleness pulling compliancy from you in a matter of a few mere words. you only shook your head, forgoing the short piece of fabric that clung to each curve and dip of your body while your nipples hardened under the glacial, artificial breeze of his home. once the silk pooled at your hips, that, along with your panties were dropped onto the floor, leaving you bare and vulnerable under the camera โ and yuutaโs watchful eye.
he swallowed thickly at the sight, remaining as respectful as he could despite the monster growing in his pants; his eyes locked right back onto yours as if heโd get striked down for moving them even a millimeter south. โare you a virgin?โ he queried, opting to move his hand from awkwardly at his side to fidgeting with the button at his shirt, ultimately undoing it and revealing another inch of skin at his heated chest.
from the nature of what you had signed yourself up for, you were hesitant to answer his question. of course you needed experience to be a star, and with you lacking the preconceived ability, you could kiss your $1000 goodbye..
yet he looked at you with an expectant gaze. no traces of malice in his eyes or frustration from your quick witted silence, but merely, with patience. and in that moment you couldnโt find it within yourself to lie.
โi am,โ out of shame, you curled in on yourself, hoping that the sofa would engulf you, and your feelings, crossing your arms over your bare chest as if itโd create a wall of privacy behind your own humiliation. โis that okay?โ
yuutaโs being only grew warmer at the response, you figured heโd be hot to the touch by now, from searing pleasure or unshakeable cordiality, you wouldnโt know. โyeah, thatโs okay,โ it came out breathier than he wouldโve liked, a telltale sign of his aching desire. โthatโs more than okay.โ
truth be told, he had never met anyone as enchanting as you. you looked up at him with such trust in your eyes that it daunted him โ fear that the assurance he wielded from you would shatter beneath him, and heโd be drowning. in a sea of his own wistfulness. now that he had you, he couldnโt let you go.
you were on to make a breathtaking star.
now feeling less coy than before, you relaxed your head into the palm of yuutaโs hand. you hadnโt noticed how long heโd been stroking at your cheek, or when he closed the vexing proximity between the two of you, all that mattered in that moment was the roll of his gentle vocables flowing through your ears and the thumb of his that graciously caressed your cheek.
you came to realize that he was much more handsome this way as your eyes toured his own, then down to the sliver of sweat-sheened skin peeking from underneath the black veil of his shirt, then down to hisโฆ
heโs so fucking hard.
confined against his slacks was his cock that leaked an ample amount even while it was untouched. you could make out its silhouette, something girthy, perhaps heavy, but nothing like youโd expect from yuuta. uncharacteristically huge.
โyuuta.โ you whispered, mainly to yourself, as your mouth began to water at the sight, and his cheeks dusted pink once he realized what you were fixated upon.
โdo you wanna,โ he started up but faltered soon after when your lidded gaze flitted back up towards his. never had he felt so weak before, it was as if youโd casted a spell on him. โdo you maybe want toโโ he paused to avert his own gaze and embarrassment. โโput it in your mouth?โ
he couldโve sworn he heard the increase of his heartbeat in his ears when you crinkled your brows, pretty face forming into an even prettier pout.
โbut iโve neverโโ
he stopped you before you could start, interjecting his own voice of reassurance.
โitโs okay. iโll guide you,โ taking his camera off its stand and moving the rest of the configuration elsewhere, he held it in one hand to better capture the scene unfolding before him. โjust try your best for me, okay?โ
โokay.โ when he returned your concern with a small smile, you took it upon yourself to undo the arrangement of his pants, carefully hooking your finger into the elastic waistband of his briefs and pulling down just enough for his length to spring free.
for what felt like minutes, you marveled at his sheer size, wondering how anyone of his nature could possibly be hiding something like that. it curved upwards with a prominent vein or two running up the underside while it continued to leak, so much so, that you had to collect it all at the tip with your finger.
the tip? flushed the prettiest pink youโd ever witnessed and was as bulbous as it was mushroomed, you knew youโd have a bit of difficulty trying to fit into your mouth. it seemed to twitch under the fanning of your breath to which yuuta let out a whine of pure impatience.
โcan i..?โ your words trailed off when you involuntarily found yourself pressing chaste kisses along the length of his cock until they met with his sticky tip; a recreated scene from the various porn videos youโd seen. the sensation sent a jolt of palpable pleasure through his being, yuutaโs dark hair curtaining over his eyes while he made a damn good attempt at silencing his moans, with his teeth sunken into his bottom lip.
your eyes kept watch at his wavering expression while you wrapped your hand at the base of his length and began to pump slowly, yet another thing you had learned through the fascinating world of porn.
โsuck it,โ it was clear to you that yuuta had grown desirously impatient from your teasing, looking down at you with a hint of hunger in his beautiful orbs. โplease?โ
you took his words as an incentive to finally give him what heโs been leaking for, wrapping gloss-sheened lips around the thick inches of his tip, accommodating for the stretch with a dulcet whine that reverberated deeply within him. had you not been caught up in building the gradual bob of your head, he wouldโve kissed you, left you with smeared lips and a tongue that ached for only him upon seeing the sinful sight of innocent eyes fixated on his own. youโre beautiful. truly, to die for.
caught all on tape to be watched over and over again.
at the bliss, yuutaโs lip parted open, alotting for a slur of groans turned whimpers to tumble past. โyou- youโre already doing, so good.โ he praises, the words floating on his breath. his free hand finds itself back at your face, thumbing the warmth of your hallowed cheek while he captured the moment behind his lens. once you came to a comfortable rhythm, you couldnโt stop yourself from dipping your fingers between your thighs to ease the evergrowing ache in your core. in fact, youโd been like this since the moment yuuta spoke a word to you, lightheaded and malleable โ what heโs beginning to love most about you.
your digits collected slick at your entrance, the immeasurable amount of essence that youโd pool providing ample leeway for you to sink three fingers inside, pumping at the same rhythm in which youโre sucking yuuta. soft fingertips curling against your gummy walls werenโt enough, though, and when he had caught notice of your weakening resolve, his hips involuntarily bucked into your mouth.
โsorry, โm sorry,โ he began, with a choked moan. โjust- so close, so fucking close. c-can you take me in deeper?โ
the hum of assurance that sounded from you sent vibrations coursing through his cock, from tip to base. had you not been preoccupied with chasing your own high, you wouldโve missed the pitchy moan he let out just after. with your palm now pressed up against your clit while you worked in tandem to pleasure the nub and your greedy hole, you attempted to swallow another stubborn inch of him.
simultaneous with the bobbing of your head, he matched your pace, abdomen flexing when the white-hot pleasure became too much and he could feel it in his ears. he wanted so badly to throw his head back, completely lose himself in bliss, but he had a job to do. he wouldnโt dare let the sight of your glassy lidded eyes and glossy lips struggling to wrap themselves around the stretch of his dick go unfilmed, unseen.
as his tip continued to prod the back of your throat and your fingers aided you in relieving the discomfort from your cunt, you found yourself just dangling off the dangerous edge of your release, strokes away from making a mess โ and yuuta did too.
it wasnโt long until his head started spinning, legs got weaker, and his core coiled tighter; all the signs of a mindblowing orgasm, and blew his mind, you did. โbaby- y/n, if you keep doing that- i might cum.โ what he was referring to was the way you fondled his balls in the warmth of your soft hands, yet another trick you had learned from porn. โi donโt wanna cum in your mouth but if youโ,โ
a jumbled slew of curses flowed from his lips as he did the inevitable, shot his load deep down your throat, gently thrusting his cock in shallow strokes to jettison every last remaining drop. the taste on your tongue was nothing like youโd be warned of before. yuuta wasnโt bitter, he went down easy.
hell, youโd use his cum as a condiment for desserts if you could.
in a matter of moments, your own high had washed over you like cold water over a heated body, much needed and refreshing. once he hesitantly pulled out from the heat of your mouth, cock still hard and twitching for more, he gently pushed back strands of loose hair behind your ear.
โcan i see?โ
you held out your cream-slickened fingers, sopping with your juices as yuuta proceeded to catch how they dripped on camera. he then took your palm, with the cadence of a knight kissing the back of a princessโs hand, and slipped the soiled digits into his mouth. his tongue lavved around your index and middle fingers while he hummed satisfactorily at your taste. โyouโre just as sweet as i imagined.โ he smiled, finding amusement in your post-orgasmic, dazed state.
โdo you do this with a lot of other girls, yuuta?โ you queried, taking the time to scan your eyes over his face. it was as if he seemed to get more attractive as your time with him went on. he tilted his head slightly, finding your question endearing. โyouโre my first, actually.โ yuuta responded softly, as if his normal speaking voice would be too heavy on your delicate ears.
you jumped at the chance to tease him as he did you, placing your thumb back over the slit of his hard-on and lightly rubbing; which resonated within yuuta as a tonal mewl. a little smile pulled at your lips when you got your perfect reaction. โcan you be my first?โ
โiโd love to be,โ he took your request with unadulterated honor as if heโd been tasked by the deities above to serve you. โjust- just lay back for me. i promise iโll take good care of you.โ
and that you did; conforming to his call of request with such compliance it made his heart swell. you had positioned your body to rest languidly against the seat of the sofa, shaky legs hesitant to spread fully while your hand roamed up your sternum to find solace in kneading your tits.
he couldnโt deny how beautiful you looked, laid out for him as such. how had he been so lucky to be the only one to have the opportunity to marvel at the scene? with a steady hand, he faintly trails his hand up the expanse of your inner thigh, a silent beckon for you to open your legs wider. involuntarily so, your body had accepted his presence and allowed for the spreading of your thighs.
what youโd come to notice with yuuta was that he was watchful, observant. he seemed to pick up on every detail, even the minuscule bits that were most likely to fly over anyone elseโs head, had been taken into account. itโs probably why heโs immensely proficient at what he does. not once had he allowed himself to miss the labored heaving of your chest, or the sheen of sweat thinly coating your body โ the twitching of your clit when he stroked featherlight touches at the nub. he couldnโt call himself a true cameraman then.
his fingers had collected remnants of your previous orgasm before they worked in tandem, both middle and ring, to prod at your sensitive hole, slowly sinking themselves in. it was almost embarrassing how quickly your greedy cunt swallowed him in, as if itโd been waiting for his touch for years now. โy-yuuta, โm still sensitive.โ you crooned in response to his digits exploring your cavern, plush walls gripping him with such tautness that heโd found it difficult to even curl his fingers.
his own mind spun (and cock leaked) at the thought of that same warmth around his length, and when you called his name, all he could think about was how pretty youโd sound moaning it. he wouldnโt mind if you were sonorous, if the neighbors would hear, if inumaki who lived downstairs would come knocking with a mouthful of complaints, if the whole world knew his name; because in that moment, yuuta okkotsu was yours.
yuuta okkotsu was in love.
after some shallow pumping, enough to have your legs attempting to enclose around his arm, yuuta had pulled his digits out and replaced the lost sensation with the fat tip of his cock stroking your slit up and down.
โiโm gonna put it in, okay? if you want me to stop, tell me. if i'm going too fast or slow, let me know.โ
he perused your face for a hint of an answer, seemingly nothing going on behind your vacant, large eyes. your initial response was curt, an ode to the simplistic nature of your mind. โmhm.โ
how endearing you were to him, just a unadorned reaction weakening his being, causing his heart to figuratively crumble within its confines against his ribcage. he had searched for a heartier answer, something tangible to hold on to, because, lord knows how terrible heโd feel if he took your indication the wrong way. โcan you be vocal for me, please?โ
you nodded your head. โiโll let you know, yuuta.โ
with a carefulness that only came from the most benign of beings, he had sunken the first inch of himself into your awaiting heat.
he was paused when your hand dashed to his lower abdomen, futilely pressing against the skin.
โwaitโโ you huffed wantonly. โโโs too big.โ
his eyes wavered with concern, hidden under the veil of pure arousal. in yuutaโs case he had dreamed of a compliment as self fulfilling as yours, for his thoughts of being average were shattered upon first inch. โshould i stop?โ
you shook your head, reveling in the light of his attentivity towards you and your body. โno,โ you moved your hand from his abdomen. โdonโt stop.โ
one of his arms rested beside your head, helping to prop him up over your body while he dropped his head down to watch the way your bodies connected. gradually, the sight of his length slowly sinking inside, stretching you out further and further until he was in to the hilt flooded his vision. yuuta had caught on to your labored gasps, merely growing harder from your honeyed voice like music to his ears.
he then lifted his head, strands of inky, out-of-place tresses falling over his face and partially covering the depth of lingering eyes, that lingered for a second too long, causing that shuddering sensation you had once felt when you first met him to reappear. he held his camcorder beside his face, an all too cheerful grin masked over his features. โiโm all in!โ
creepy.
there was no doubt that you hadnโt felt full. he practically spilled over with how much girth he possessed and throbbed innately within your walls. the swell of your tummy from just how deep he was, was enough to tear away at his composure and drag his length back before driving his hips in at a force unrecognizable to him. the yelp you had let out from his eager thrust dwindled into a blissful moan. โsorry, so sorry.โ he whispered, unable to take his eyes off the faultless assortment of breathtaking features that was your face, eyebrows creased together, parted lips and eyes squeezed closed as if youโd been focused solely on the pleasure he was giving you.
his next thrust stroked softer than its predecessor, having no remnants of eagerness but instead, the nuance of a man thatโd been simply smitten.
the meticulousness of his ministrations coursed through your body wondrously, each push and pull lathered in lust, savored to be remembered for the rest of his time on earth. it was as if heโd known your body for years, knew every dip and fold, every swell and mast, aware of what exactly it took to leave your body hungry for his touches.
youโd grown comfortable in the pace at which he set, your mind hazing over each time the blunt tip grazed along your gspot. he peppered kisses along your jaw and down your sternum, the fanning of his warm breath against your chest doing the minimum in stiffening the peaks of your breasts. shootable footage forgotten, yuuta took your mound into his mouth, teeth gently rolling against your nipple which caused you to tighten around his cock in response, the sweetest mewl heโs ever heard from you tumbling from your throat.
โat least take me on a date first, yuuta..โ the wittiness of your voice had earned a stifled smile from him, finding utmost admiration in the suggestion. heโll be sure to take you up on your offer, just as you had done for him.
when you felt the familiar coil within you starting to build up once more, you dipped your hand down to rub at your clit in tandem with the increasing vigor of his strokes. the sensation was all too foreign to you, too pleasurable that you couldnโt keep your sounds at bay. โโm so close, g-gonna cum!โ you had warned, yuuta pulled away from your tit with a soft pop. he chose to rest his head at the juncture of your neck and shoulder, mindlessly chanting the words like a mantra.
โi love you, i love you,โ his pace faltered, growing sloppier by the second. โlove you, love you so much.โ
intoxicated by your heat, your scent, just you being you, and being so perfect โ yuuta was pussydrunk. incredibly so. never in his life had he ever felt as high as you made him. you were an angel, sent to him from heaven, to defile and mark.
quickly, your release surged through you in torrents of ecstasy, nothing that youโve experienced before, coating yuutaโs cock in the glorious essence of you. โcumming!โ you cry, to no avail particularly since yuuta wasnโt wholeheartedly aware of the situation at hand. his mind was clouded with you, just as you were full of him, wincing in the aftershocks of your fervent orgasm and convulsing around his length with need.
it wasnโt long before his own ununified thrusts came to a sudden close, signifying the warm spurts of cum painting your insides, filling you entirely to the brim and leaking down your ass from riding out his high.
โgod, i love you.โ he whined, pressing faint kisses to your neck, unable to peel himself away from your fervid body. coming to your senses, his words finally resonated for you. โwe only just met.โ
he pulled himself up, opting to look down at your flushed face with a vague hint of confusion on his face as he tilted his head. โhave we?โ
โwe have.โ you nodded.
to yuuta, heโs known you his whole life. you were the light of his existence, the fire in his heart. had he managed to confuse you with someone else? surely, that wasnโt the case.
once he pulled out of you, he made sure to capture the moment that you leaked his seed on film, but in that time, borrowed jealousy had filled his soul. he couldnโt share the tape as he had planned, no one else deserved to see you in the same way he did. no one.
he tucked himself back into his pants, leaving you bare and oozing for just one second to fetch a warm wet rag to clean you up with. when he came back, you noticed just how chipper heโd gotten, if that were even possible. โyou were amazing,โ he smiled, gently wiping your folds pristine. โiโm so grateful you came to me.โ the smile you returned matched his own, โthank you, you were- really good too.โ
he perked up, eyes moving from between your thighs to your face. โreally?โ and when you nodded to him, you could see the apparent relief flow within his being. โyou know,โ he started. โiโm very interested in you.โ
you tilt your head, jutting your lips in a cute pout. โinterested, how?โ
the camcorder that now resided on his coffee table, unpresumebly documenting the scene on display was picked up by yuuta, and turned off. he grinned softly, eyes shutting from his ear to ear smile.
โmay i take you on a date?โ
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giving older bsf toji a bj cs u dont have any money on u for gas ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ตโ๐ซ
oh mi gosh. dis is absolutely so filthy โnd absolutely perfect for him . dis is how grimy he is in my mind.. (modern au where toji is RICH $$)
โtoji.โ
โhm, darling?โ you look upon the questioning man sitting besides you, one strong hand that guides the steering wheel of your own car. he insisted to drive, and in what position would you say no? youโd never pass up an offer to be passenger princess.
โi-i forgot.โ
โforgot what?โ
โforgot money for gas, toji.โ
โare ya dumb sweetheart? goinโ tโget gas n the one thing ya forgot is gas money?โ
โโm s-sorry toji, can you lend me? please? promise i wonโt forget next time!โ
he scoffs, knowing well that he wouldโve paid nonetheless. but watching you nervously scramble yourself together, anticipating a response from him is too adorable, he thinks.
โyeah, but ya gotta pay me back.โ
โcourse i will! gonna give it back as soon as we ge-โ
โno sweetie. not with money.โ
your head turns slow to the man, already shooting you a evil-intentioned smirk. his free hand comes down to scarce over the evident bulge that pokes through his sweats, indirectly instructing you.
โwith your mouth, honey.โ
he chuckles when your face flushes red, how unexpecting.
with over 3 years of close friendship, the man had assumed that you at least wouldโve noticed; his stares that pierce into your skin, touches that linger a little too long, and the constant absence of your favorite panties. what a naive little thing you were; he loved it.
if you didnโt know his true intentions then, youโd definitely know now.
โcโmon, yโwant me to fill it up right?โ
โt-โ
โthe tank sweetie. the car. donโt you want gas?โ
you huff when he chuckles at your flustered expression. your small fingers dance across his bulge, his own hand messily slipping under the band of his sweats, releasing himself. he canโt help the smile that spreads across his face when you gasp, fawn like eyes that immediately shoot up to meet his gaze.
โs-so big..โ
โmm, you think so?โ he teases.
his hand slithers to the back of your head, fingers playing with one or two strands of your hair.
โcโmon, be good..โ
he smiles at you coyly, desperate even, and it makes your heart and your cunt clench.
with slight pressure from the manโs hand, you find yourself lowering onto the tip of his cock. your puffy lips press against the warm slit, an immediate groan that spills from his lips,
โno action recently?โ you tease, facing him with a slight smile,
โshaddup princess. yer lucky youโre cute.โ
you snicker, separating your slicked up lips to wrap around the thick of his cock head. your tongue presses against the slit once again, tasting the sweet substance that coats his dewy slit; more that spews from the teasing licks.
โdonโt t-tease.โ
you hold yourself further onto his cock to accommodate his length, a light gag that elicits from your throat. tears brim in your eyes when you feel your jaw begin to ache, but the needy man pays no mind when he begins thrusting into your warmth.
oh and when he feels a warm tear fall onto the skin of his thigh, he nearly cums.
โheh.. there you go, see? ya can do it.โ
you hum around him, the light sensation that drills right through his sensitive cock.
โg-gunna cum. shit.โ
and with a few shallow thrusts, his cum brims. itโs warm, and thick, but you swallow without a second thought. you pull yourself off to meet your eyes with his, vision daisy and face flushed with a sweet pink once again.
โhah.. gonna have to fill you up, darling. weโll worry about the car later, kay?โ
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"sure thing"
pairing: target!gojo x assassin!fem!reader
summary: you've been hired to kill the satoru gojo. how will you pull it off... and what will you do when he figures it out?
content: MDNI (18+ only), nsfw, darkish content (all is well in the end), no established relationship, assassins/organized crime, blackmail, mention of a โsuicide missionโ, attempted murder (uhhhh), hidden identity, intended use of sex as a means to an end, mating press, unprotected sex, p->v, creampie, oral (fem!receiving), praise, pet names (gorgeous/sweetheart/baby), slight aftercare.
a/n: me ๐ค describing gojo as having dimples
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โWho?!โย
No fucking way. Thereโs no way he just said what you think he said.ย
โYou heard me,โ he scowls. He glares at you from across the desk. His seat is one of those cushy little office chairs, of course. Yours is plasticโ cold and hard.
โAre you fucking insane?โ you hiss. Thereโs no other explanation for what heโs asking you to do. Heโs lost his fucking mind.ย
โWe have a client willing to pay big money for this. Big money for just an attempt,โ he answers.ย
You laugh, but thereโs absolutely nothing funny about this conversation. โOh, Iโm sure you do. Probably because heโs practically invincible. Iโll never even lay a hand on him.โย
Your โbossโ, for lack of a better term, only scowls harder, the wrinkles forming near his eyes etching deeper in his skin. โWell, youโd best find a way to make it work. Youโre taking this job. Thatโs final.โ
You scoff. Maybe you should recommend he see someoneโฆ โNo. Thereโs no way. Iโm not doing this.โ You stand, grabbing your bag and slinging it over your shoulder. โGet someone else to go on your suicide mission.โ You take a couple strides toward the door before two very large men move to block your path.ย
โNot so fast,โ your boss calls. You pause, eyeing up your competition. You could definitely take them if you needed to. You sense only a very faint amount of cursed energy coming from each of themโ not even enough to make you blinkโ but something in your bossโs tone makes you turn back.ย
โYes?โ You cross your arms over your chest, fingering a blade hidden in your breast pocket.ย
He fiddles around in his pocket, pulling out a cigarette and lighting up right there in his office. You donโt try to hide the way your nose scrunches up. โYou want to do this job.โย
Your eyes narrow. Something tells you youโre not going to like what comes next. โAnd whyโs that?โย
He takes a long puff, letting the smoke flowing out of his lungs with a slow exhale. โBecause otherwise that little brother of yours is gonna beโฆโ he pauses to give you a smile that makes your stomach churn. โHmmโฆ a lot smaller, shall we say? Maybe in several limb sized pieces?โ
You think your heart stops. Time halts as ice runs through your veins. Nobody knows about your brother. At least, they didnโt.ย
Your bossโs smile grows even wider. In all your time as an assassin, youโve never wanted to kill someone more. But you know you canโt. Just an attempt on his life will end your brotherโs.ย
โDonโt worry. Heโs all tucked away and safe at home where you left him.โ Just a tiny piece of your heart thaws with relief. โBut try to run with him, or run yourself, and he wonโt be safe much longer.โ Your pulse pounds so viciously youโre sure everyone can hear. A bead of sweat rolls down your neck. โNow, will you accept the assignment?โย
Your jaw clenches. He got you. In all these years of working for him youโve been careful, meticulous about hiding every piece of your personal life to avoid situations just like this. But he still got you. He got you.ย
โYes,โ you breathe. You have no choice. You will either kill Satoru Gojo or you will die trying.ย
โGood,โ is all he says, and then youโre being escorted out of the office wondering where the hell you went wrong.ย
~
Itโs been three weeks since that fateful meeting with your boss. True to his word, your brother has remained unharmed, but you see his lackeys lurking around every corner. Neither you nor your brother are truly safe and you never will be again unless you can pull this off and then put together some plan to escape your bossโs clutches.ย
Youโll fail. You know you will. The thought eats you up inside with every waking moment.ย
Youโve done your best to learn every possible piece of information about Satoru Gojo in the past two weeks. You know you canโt tail him closelyโ heโd pick up on your cursed energy and notice your incessant presence, so youโve had to study from a distance with only minimal moments of proximity. You know where he works, who he works with, what restaurants, bars, and clubs he frequents and what days of the week he tends to visit. You know what his order is at his favorite ramen restaurant, where he lives, what time he wakes up. Hell, you know what fucking brand of dish soap he uses. He lives a surprisinglyโฆ predictable lifestyle. He makes no attempt to switch up his schedule or cover his tracks. In any other situation heโd be every assassinโs dream, but this is Satoru Gojo and Satoru Gojo doesnโt need to worry about assassinsโ assassins need to worry about him.
It took you the first week to come up with a plan. You had no clue how you were going to get close to him, much less kill him, and his infinity technique was going to prove particularly problematic. How were you supposed to kill him when you couldnโt even touch him? You had to get him in a situation in which he would willingly let his guard down for you.ย
Youโd been on the subway when it hit you. Sex. Youโd get him to have sex with you. If you could get him to take you home, heโd have to turn infinity off for at least a short time. That would be your time to strike.ย
Youโd spent the next two weeks primping yourself. Youโd bought the most expensive dress youโd ever owned, got a mani-pedi, whitened your teeth, and spent a small fortune on makeup. Considering your circumstances, you thought your plan was quite a good one. You knew when heโd go out to the bar with his friends, which bar heโd go to, how long heโd stay, how heโd get a taxi home. You also knew when youโd arrive, how long youโd stay, and how youโd get a taxi with himโ everything planned perfectly to best catch his attention. But for all your planning, there was still one thing you didnโt know. What kind of woman did Satoru Gojo go for? Someone submissive? Teasing? Aggressive? Playful? In all your time tracking him youโd never seen him take somebody home. It struck you asโฆ odd. He was Satoru Gojo, renowned for his power, wealth, and good looksโ surely he had women falling at his feet. Maybe he was just a little moreโฆ selective. If that was the case youโd have to be even quicker on your feet when you finally met him. And that time is now.ย
Youโre in your bathroom, checking your makeup one last time before heading out the door. Your brother sleeps soundly in the room down the hall, safe for the time being. Youโve contacted a friend, one who is at least willing to try to get him out ifโ whenโ you fail. You doubt it will be enough.
You make your way to his room. A quick peek inside reveals heโs snuggled up with a plushie elephant that he carries around like theyโre attached at the hip. You creep inside, a sad smile on your lips. This may very well be the last time you see him. You brush a stray lock of hair from his eyes and press a kiss to the crown of his head. With one last whispered โI love youโ, youโre out the door. If you linger, you wonโt be able to goโ and you have to. For him.ย
The streets of Tokyo are cold tonight, like the weather knows what youโre about to attempt, like itโs preparing for death, for failure. For your failure.
The club you arrive at is upscale, and one where youโve already tipped off the bouncer to let you bypass the line. You hear a few groans from the people behind you as you saunter straight inside.ย
Youโre conscious of every little move from the second you step inside. At any moment, he could see you and it could make or break your entire plan.
You press your shoulders back. You have a planโ stick to it.ย
You make your way over to the bar, weaving your way between groups of people who are somewhere between giggling a little too loudly and tripping over their own feet.ย
You find a free space at the bar and lean up onto your elbows, your eyes screening the bartenders. You smile when you see a familiar face.ย
โHey, Dean,โ you call.
He turns and the sight of his friendly green eyes sets you a little more at ease.ย
โOh, shit. Hey!โ He slings a towel over his shoulder and comes to stand across from you. โYouโre back,โ he says. You nod and smile softly. Ever since youโd determined this would be the place youโd been coming periodically, chatting up the bartenders. The last thing you needed was to stand around in a corner alone with seemingly no friends. That wouldnโt attract anyone, much less Satoru Gojo.ย
Out of all the bartenders, Dean was your favoriteโ and youโd been oh so happy to learn that his schedule put him on every Friday night.ย
โYeah. Long day at work.โย
A smile pulls at his lips, but thereโs a hint of sympathy in his eyes. โThe usual, then?โย
You nod solemnly. โThatโd be great. Thanks.โย
You watch him prepare the drink for you, feeling a little bad that itโs all a lie. Thereโs no bad day at work, you didnโt just happen to come in here one day and strike up a conversation with him. All of this is premeditated, planned, and it feelsโฆ lonely. It feels lonely to know that on what is probably your last night on earth you are surrounded by people who only think they know you.ย
โSo, anything new happening?โ Dean drops your drink in front of you and you have a feeling itโs filled with a little more vodka than heโs supposed to put in there.ย
Your eyes shift around the bar as subtly as you can manage. As much as you want to seem like you fit in, you also need to find Gojo. Itโs a fine balance.ย
You shrug. โYeah, I guess I just feel like a lot of things are going to be changing for me pretty soon.โย
His brows pull together and the look he gives you is one of genuine interest and concern. It makes your heart wrench. โHow so?โย
You swallow. โDunno. Justโฆ everything.โ
Thereโs a moment of silence and then the tapping of a finger on your glass. โDamn, girl. Drink up. You need it.โย
You canโt help but smile. You have a feeling that Dean would have been a good friend of yours in another life.ย
You take his advice, though, and bring your drink to your lips and force a smile. You canโt be mopingโ not tonight.ย
The next twenty minutes are spent with Dean. Even when heโs making other drinks heโs still chatting with you, still being a goodโฆ friend. You dread leaving your little haven at the bar. The time is coming when youโll have to seek out your target.
Youโre shocked when itโs the other way around.ย
โHey, gorgeous.โ Thereโs a light brush on your shoulder and you turn. It takes all you have to keep your features schooled and calm. Satoru fucking Gojo just tapped your shoulder.ย
Nothing prepared you for how handsome he is up close. All those days of research, of tracking and tailingโ none of it does the real thing justice. Even with those stupid sunglasses insideโฆ heโs fucking beautiful. โIโll pay for all of your drinks tonight if you let me skip this hideous line,โ he whines.ย
You give yourself no more than a second to recover. You school your features into a smirk. You glance at Dean with an โis this okay?โ look. He just smiles and shrugs.ย
You turn back to Gojo, bracing yourself this time for the beauty youโre about to face. You meet his gaze and know you could get lost in it. โBe my guest.โย
His smile nearly blinds you and his dimples nearly make you pass out. Still, you keep your cool.ย
โYesssss!โ He looks like a puppy just offered a bone.ย
He spills his drink order to Dean and itโs far more than could possibly be just for him. Heโs here with his friends, then. Probably the blonde man who always looks too tired to be here and the girl with the brown hair who always seems like sheโs just along for the ride.ย
You bite your lip to hide a laugh when he orders himself two strawberry daiquiris. Somehow you still catch his attention.ย
โWhat?โ he pouts. You canโt help but feel a small stirring of surprise in your gut. Heโs far moreโฆ relaxed than youโd expected him to be. Heโs almostโฆ childish?ย
You press your lips together and shake your head. Youโve reached the point where your research canโt take you any further. From this point on, itโs up to you to discover what Satoru Gojo likes in a woman.ย
You debate how to answer. Play coy? Tease him? Stay silent? Any option could be as correct as the next. You didnโt know where to startโฆ so maybe youโd just start by being yourself.ย
โJust, umโฆ not the order I was expecting,โ you laugh. Itโs halfway genuine. With the way heโs acting, itโs hard to remember that heโs the most powerful man alive.ย
His pout only intensifies. โWell, whatโs your order?โย
His question is answered when Dean sets another cosmopolitan in front of you. You laugh. โNever said I was judging, just that it wasnโt what I expected.โย
Another smile tugs at his lips and something stirs in your gut that you try your very hardest to ignore. This was a job. There was no room for actually enjoying it. This man was probably going to kill you later, in a matter of hours.ย
Thereโs a beat of silence, and then a slight shift in his demeanor. He leans closer and you see a twitch of his lips. Your heart jumps.ย
โYouโre a sorcerer,โ he says.ย
You hold back an exhale of relief. You thought he might be onto you. If he is, heโs choosing not to reveal it yet.ย
You nod and take what you hope is a casual sip of your drink. โAnd youโre Satoru Gojo.โย
A brow arches high enough for you to see it over his sunglasses. โYou know who I am?โย
You force a chuckle, smirking despite the pounding of your heart. โWho doesnโt?โย
Youโd decided long ago to tell him that you knew exactly who he was. It would seem more suspicious for a fellow sorcerer to have no idea what the Satoru Gojo looked like.ย
He flashes you a smile full of white and stupidly fucking perfect teeth. โThatโs true, heh.โ You press your lips together to avoid a smile. Not too humble, thenโฆย
โSo, whatโs your techniqueโย
You shoot him a glance that questions his sanity. Asking a sorcerer what their technique isโฆ is personal. Itโs not information you give out to a rando at the barโ even if it is Satoru Gojo.
โWouldnโt you like to know.โ You take another sip of your drink, trying your hardest to remain somewhere on the border or interested and casual.ย
โBet I could find out.โย
That makes you turn fully, angling your body toward his. โOh yeah? You challenging me to a fight?โ You smirk and shake your head. โIโll pass.โย
He pouts again, but you see a hint of a smile peeking through. โAw, come on. Thatโs no funโฆโย
You chuckle and take another sip of your drink. Youโre not sure youโre sipping just for appearances anymore. You think you probably just need a little liquid courage to see this thing through. โSorry. I value my life.โย
You watch as he slides his sunglasses down the bridge of his nose, just enough for you to get a glimpse of whatโs behind. You nearly choke again and this time you donโt manage to hide your nervous swallow when he smirks.ย
โYouโre so sure youโd lose?โ His voice is teasing now and you hate that itโs actually having an effect on you. Job, job, job, just a jobโฆย
You clear your throat. โI like to think Iโm not stupid enough to think that I could win.โย
His eyes are blueโ so fucking blueโ and you feel like heโs seeing straight into your soul. Can he see? Can he see your filthy intentions? Your plotting? The rottenness of what youโre going to do? โWhat if I promise to take it real easy on you?โย
Your drink is forgotten now. Youโre lost in what heโs sayingโ in him. โNo thanks.โ Your voice is growing lower and you feel like thereโs some magnet forcing you to lean into him, to seek his warmth.ย
โSo you like it rough, then.โ The trance is broken and your blood runs hot. Holy shit. This man is flirting with you and you hardly even had to try. He's trying to take you home. Little does he know, youโre a sure thing.ย
You watch as he throws back the rest of his strawberry daiquiri with a pleased โahhhโ at the end. When he turns back to you his eyes have a certain spark in them that makes your thighs press together. โYou wanna dance with me?โย
Fuck. This is going too well to be real. But youโre not about to pass up a good deal.ย
โWhat about your friends?โ you ask and eye the several untouched drinks still left on the bar. Itโs riskyโ giving him an out, but you canโt seem too eager.
He follows your gaze only to bounce his eyes straight back to you. โIโm sure theyโll get a look at ya and understand.โย
The smirk heโs giving you is making electricity shoot straight between your legs. Damn. You really wish you didnโt have to kill himโ or at least try to.ย
When he extends his hand you only hesitate for a second. Your heart leaps when you feel his skin on yours, knowing heโs let infinity down. He pulls you onto the dancefloor and itโs not long before heโs running his hands all over youโ groping your ass, pinching your thighs, nipping at your neck. Pretty soon the dancefloor evolves to a dark corner of the club with his lips on yours and goddamn heโs a good kisser. Youโve got your fingers in his hair and his hand way too close to your boobs when he whispers those fateful wordsโ โletโs get out of here.โ
You can only hide your swallow and nod before heโs pulling you through the crowd, leaving the club behind. He hauls you both into the backseat of a taxi and the doorโs barely closed before heโs all over you again. You think you hear the taxi driver mutter something about โstaining the seatsโ but youโre too far gone to give a shit.ย
Fuck, he feels good. Heโs kisses you like heโs starved and your lips are the fountain of fucking life, like heโs never felt something so good and now he canโt get enough. And, god, heโs handsy. Youโre forever grateful to your past self for discreetly hiding your blade in your braโ he would have felt a holster on your thigh at least ten times over by now.ย
He groans when you arrive at what you know is his apartment building, though you donโt let on that you recognize the place in the slightest. The look on his face makes you think heโs feeling actual physical pain at the prospect of having to peel away from you for even a second. Nonetheless, he tosses a wad of cash at the taxi driver and pulls you straight inside.
He canโt even wait for the elevator to come, groping your waist right there in the lobby and then when the elevator finally does come, shoving you up against the metal wall a licking stripe across your collarbone.ย
You canโt deny how nice it feels to be so desperatelyโฆ wanted. Never once has a man made you feel this wayโ so consumed by him, him, him. Once again you curse the universe that youโre here with a mission other than getting laid.ย
You find yourself giggling when he pulls you out of the elevator and presses his palm to a fucking scanner to get into his apartment. You try to pull yourself together, but when he laughs with you, you canโt help but melt into him a little more.
As soon as the door clicks shut behind you, heโs got you up against another wall with your legs wrapped around his waist and his face buried in your neck. His sunglasses are long gone and you pull at his shirt, popping the buttons straight off the fabric until you slide the shirt down his shoulders and onto the floor.
โThat was Versace,โ he whines.ย
You plaster your lips to his. โI donโt care.โ All he does is chuckle.ย
โSo gorgeousโฆโ he breathes and your head slumps back against the wall, giving him better access to the soft skin of your neck. Any minute now. Any minute heโs going to start stripping your clothes off and youโre going to have to let this charade crumble. You donโt want to. Heโs practically worshiping you. Itโs perfect, itโs amazing, and you donโt want it to end.ย
His fingers dig into the flesh of your ass and suddenly youโre moving againโ moving, moving, moving until your back is bouncing against the softness of a mattress and youโre fucking giggling again like a lovesick idiot. Maybe youโd had a few too many sips of those cosmopolitans.ย
Heโs smiling as he crawls over you and the sight makes your heart flutter with both lust and terror. Lust because heโs so fucking beautiful and terror because you know that any moment now youโre going to attempt to end that beauty forever.ย
A lump forms in your throat and you try unsuccessfully to swallow it. You have to do this, have to try. Thereโs no other way, no other option. Not for you.
Your thoughts must not have been as perfectly concealed as youโd thought because he quirks a brow. โSomething goinโ on up here?โ His lips slide across your temple in a touch that feels far too tender for a hookup. โDonโt worry, baby. Itโll fit.โ He snickers at his own joke before burying himself in your neck. His hand slides down your side, pressing you up into him until you can feel every curve and cut of his muscles.ย
You bite your lip. Youโve already slipped enough for him to notice your nervesโ you canโt let it happen again. You have to do it soon. Now. As soon as you see an opportunity you have to strike. You have to.ย
You arch up into him, scratching your fingers down his back, trying to seem as invested in the moment as you can. He gets greedier, leaving open-mouthed kiss down your neck, across your collarbone. You nearly freeze up when he kisses low into the valley of your breastsโ as low as your dress allows. Then he moves over your clothes, kissing down your stomach as his hands rub your thighs.ย
Now. Now, while heโs not looking.
You slide a hand into his hair and another up to your chest, trying to play it off like youโre touching yourself. You sneak your fingers into your bra, feeling the cool metal of your blade glide across your thumb. Now.ย
You fist your fingers in his hair, holding his head down as best you can while you arc the blade toward his neck. Just one good hit, pleaseโฆย
You think youโre going to strike trueโ youโre so closeโ and then a firm hand wraps around your wrist, stalling your attack just as it was about to land.ย
Fuck.ย
He doesnโt look up right away, but you hear him sigh, feel his hot breath fanning over your thighs and stomach. When he finally does look up itโs with the eyes of a teacher whoโs disappointed his student didnโt do their homework.ย
โCome on now, baby. I was really hoping youโd forget about all this and we could just have a good night togetherโฆโ Heโs pouting, whining, like a child whoโs been told he canโt have dessert before dinner. Your shock stills you long enough that he easily maneuvers the blade from your hand, throwing it with a thwack into the wall to his right. It lands perfectly.ย
This is it. Youโre going to die now. But not without a fight.ย
You spring up from the bed, kicking him a couple times in the process. Youโve missed your only chance. Now, if thereโs even the slightest chance of escape, you have to take it.ย
You bare feet hit the carpet. No time to find your shoes. You dart for the door and hear him groan behind you. For a second you think you might actually make it, but you should know better.ย
He appears in front of you, straight out of fucking thin air, and his pout has transformed into something a little more sinister. โCome on, gorgeous. Letโs talk it out, yeah?โย
You take a shaky step back, but you know itโs no use. Heโs got you. Itโs over.ย
You swallow and lift your chinโ you at least want to die with a little dignity. โJust make it quick. Please.โย
He sighs again and slides his hands in his fucking pockets, like this is just a stroll down the street. He stalks toward you, forcing you back until youโre pressed up against another wall. This motherfucker really likes walls.ย
His pout shifts to a smirk that borders far too closely on a grin. โOh, no. Iโve always had a thing for taking it slow.โย
You nearly snort. He certainly hadnโt had a thing for taking it slow just a minute ago. His arms cage you and your world grows infinitely smaller until itโs just him and those blue-ass eyes staring you down. Some distant part of you thinks you might not mind if itโs the last thing you ever see.ย
โDamn, I really thought you might give it up and just let me fuck you,โ his pout returns. โSo disappointingโฆโ he sighs.ย
Your lips part. โYou knew?โย
That lights his face up like a Christmas tree. โSensed you tailing me these past few weeks. Started on theeeeeโ 21st, no?โย
Fuck. Youโd been so careful. Youโd only tailed him in public spaces, where your energy would be more diluted by the crowds. Youโd stayed far enough away that he should only have caught mere glimpses of you, even suppressed your energy. He should not have been able to sense you. But he was Satoru Gojoโ things people were not supposed to be able to do came easily to him.ย
But you have one thing on him.ย
โThe 18th,โ you whisper. โStarted on the 18th.โ
Thereโs a beat of silence and then his smile is growing wider, wider, wider, until itโs practically blinding you. โWell, shit,โ he laughs. โYouโre pretty good.โย
You let a tiny smile slip through your terror. โI try.โย
His eyes travel up and down your body, his pout slipping away to a frown. โWhat to do with youโฆ hmmโฆโ You lift your chin, taking shallow little breaths through your nose. Youโre looking death in the face, but youโd never thought it would be so beautiful. He sighs. โI guess I could let you go.โย
You freeze. He notices.ย
He quirks a brow, another smirk sliding across his lips. โWhat? Didnโt think that was an option?โ You stay silent. No way heโll let you go. Itโs a bluff. A cruel trick. โItโs not like you could try again, gorgeous. I know your energy now and what you look like. Sorry, but your chance is gone.โ That was fine by you. Your breaths come a little heavier, hope pulsing in your veins. โButโโ shit. โLetting you go is soโฆ boring. Especially after where we left off, yeah?โย
Your jaw drops. โYou cannot seriously be suggesting that weโโย
He cuts you off with a kiss, one that makes your toes curl in the carpet and your stomach clench in anticipation.ย
โOh, yes I am,โ he chuckles. You feel his hand sliding down your hip, cool and calculating. โI know you werenโt faking the whole thing, gorgeous. Nobody makes out like that when theyโre faking it.โ You feel your cheeks heat. โAnd nobody gets this wet-โ his fingers snake beneath your skirt, pressing to the wet patch on your panties. โWhen theyโre faking it.โ You gasp and reach out, hands clasping onto his shoulders for support. He only chuckles. โNo worries, gorgeous. No need for any more faking tonight. Iโll make sure itโs all real.โย
Somehow youโve got your legs wrapped around his waist again and youโre headed to the bedroomโ again. Itโs like a replayโ a redo.ย
โLetโs keep it less killy this time, yeah?โย
Your back hits the mattress, your body bouncing lightly on its softness before heโs crawling after you. Itโs simultaneously the best and worst deja vu youโve ever experienced.ย
His hands slide down your body again, fingertips hooking beneath the hem of your skirt and shimmying it up your thighs until your panties are on full display.ย
โShit,โ you breathe. Heโs moving so fast, like heโs desperate to go further, to get his greedy hands all over your bare skin.ย
You canโt say you blame him. You feel the same.
His thumbs hook under the fabric of your panties and you know itโs over for you. You can feel his warm breath skating across your thighs, feel the calluses on his hands scraping against your skin. You reach a hand down, tangling it in his hair, and you nearly faint when he smirks and looks up at you with those blue fucking eyes.ย
โI think Iโve seen this film before, sweetheart.โ He tilts his head, resting his cheek on the plush of your thigh. โNo more knives hiding anywhere, yeah?โย
You clench your jaw, trying to control your pounding heart. You canโt believe youโre doing this. Why are you doing this? You wish you had a better answer than heโs beautiful and sexy and just a glance at him makes you want to rip his clothes off and climb him like a tree.ย
โSilent, hm? Guess Iโll just have to check myselfโฆโย
Heโs pressing up the hem up your skirt, more, more, more, until heโs pulling your dress straight up over your arms and running his hands down your bare sides.ย
โNone thereโฆโ His fingers cup your breast and you gasp, unable to contain your shock and the jolt that just rushed through you. He traces the outline of your bra. โYou had the last one in here, no?โ Your chest heaves under his touch, pressing the flesh of your breast up into his fingers. He smirks. โBest check again.โ You feel an arm slide beneath you back and then your bra loosens before itโs completely gone.ย
Thereโs a beat of silence, of admiration. He gazes down on you and you see his snark falter for just a moment, replaced by a sparkle in his eyes. It makes your skin heat. His fingers brush the swell of your breasts, thumb trailing down over a nipple. You arch and gasp again.ย
โFuck. Quit teasing so much.โย
He chuckles and the sound washes over you until it settles in your bones. โSush. Iโm not done checking for weapons yet.โย
You scowl but before you can even move to open your mouth heโs sliding your panties down your legs, hooking them around your ankles and tossing them somewhere on the floor.
His tongue darts out to wet his lips and you watch him settle himself down between your thighs, eyes never once leaving your center. โDonโt see any knives here, either, but maybe I should double-checkโฆโ he breathes.ย
He hooks your legs over his shoulders and you shudder, your breaths shaky. Fuck. You were supposed to kill him tonight but if he keeps going like this youโll be the one deceased.ย
He meets your eyes when he takes the first long lick along your folds. You swear heโs smirking.
Your head rolls back and a pathetic sounding groan slips past your lips. You hadnโt realized how much heโd worked you up. Just the slightest touch feels like heaven.
His tongue nudges at your clits and your legs clench, tightening around his head. He laughs into your cunt and his warm breath skates up and over your tummy. Your fingernails scrape his scalp.
โI think you like this, gorgeous.โย
Each word sends little puffs of air against your folds. Itโs driving you crazy. You stare down at him, letting a smirk pull at your lips. Your eyes dart over his mouth, wet with your slick, and you donโt fail to notice the way heโs struggling to hold your gaze, eyes flickering back down to your cunt every second. Your smirk grows. โI think youโre liking this, too.โย
He licks another stripe, from you pulsing hole to your throbbing clit, and this time heโs the one groaning. โDamn right I am.โ
He eats you out like he kisses youโ like a starved man, like heโll die if he stops for just one second, like he canโt live without your juices on his tongue.ย
You whine and bury both hands in his hair, tugging desperately when his lips wrap around you clit and suck. Itโs so much, too much, and yet itโs just right.ย
Your hips buck and squirm, but heโs got his fingers pressed deep into your flesh, holding you down to take whatever he gives. You think you see heaven when he slides two fingers into your walls, curling them into that gummy spot that has an unbearable heat building deep inside you.ย
โS-Satoru-โ you stutter and you hear him moan and mutter into your cunt like heโs unwilling to leave it for even a second.
โFuck, yes. Say my name, sweetheart.โ Who are you to deny him? You whisper, whine, and whimper his name with every thrust of his fingers, every lick of his tongue. Itโs delicious. Every so often he swaps his mouth and hand, thrusting his tongue as deep inside you as he can while his fingers rub dangerous little circles on your clit. Whenever things get a little too filthy he laps his tongue across your entire cunt and along your inner thighs, cleaning up every stray drop. You donโt know how much longer you can last under such a complete and total assault.ย
โS-Satoru, โm gonna-โ He licks a thick stripe through your folds that makes your sentence end in a whine, his lips settling to suckle on your clit again.
God, itโs messy. Itโs fucking disgusting. His whole chin is covered in spit and slickโ and you love it. โCum for me, baby,โ he breathes.ย
You donโt need to hear much more. You let the heat inside you release with a whine, thighs trembling on his shoulders. Your walls pulse and throb around his fingers, sucking him in and never wanting him to leave. His tongue continues to rub lazy circles around your clit, working you through your high and making it last so long you think you might pass out.
Warmth spreads from the top of your head to the tips of your toes and your muscles tense and clench with each pulsing throb. You swear to god you see fucking stars.
It seems to go on forever, leaving you limp and shaking when the last waves finally slip away.ย
He presses a final kiss to your clit, one that makes your hips jolt from the overstimulation before heโs lifting himself up. โWow. That looked like a big one,โ he chuckles. He runs a soothing hand along your thigh and you donโt even have the energy to give him some sort of snarky reply. Thereโs hardly even a pause before something shifts in his eyes. โLetโs see if we can get one thatโs even bigger, yeah?โย
Before you can even process what heโs said you feel strong hands slide under your thighs, pressing them tightly to your chest as he settles himself close to you
You grasp at the sheets, hearing the clinking of a belt buckle and then the familiar pitch of a zipper being undone.ย
โFuck,โ you mutter. Heโs big. Long and pretty and with a perfectly flushed tip. Your eyes are rolling back just thinking about having him inside you.
A strong hand smooths along your thighs, folding you in a way that feels more vulnerable and exposing than anything youโve ever done before. He pauses for a beat, just staring down at you silently.
โGorgeous,โ he finally mutters, and something in your heart squeezes. His hand grips your hip firmly, holding you in place and you gasp when you feel him prodding at your entrance. Itโs pathetic. Youโre pathetic. Big bad assassin turned simpering little bitch over some good Gojo dick.ย
โJust relaxxxxx, baby.โ His hand rubs soothing little circles into your side and itโs so divinely distracting that it catches you by surprise when he starts pushing into you. You gasp and he only chuckles. Asshole.ย
Heโs bigโ really big โ and the stretch is somehow both painful and perfect. You groan into the air, struggling to take him. Every inch feels like it must be the last, but then thereโs more. Your walls clench around him on instinct, trying to force him out.ย
โFuck, baby. What did I say about relaxing?โ You hiss when his hand skates down your tummy to rub messy circles on your clit. The relief is instant and you moan when you feel him slide in a little further. โThere we go. Good girl.โย
He continues feeding his dick into you, inch by inch, until his hips finally press to yours and you think you can feel him in your fucking throat. You hear him exhale, like itโs a relief to finally be fully inside you, like heโs been waiting for ages.ย
You expect him to not hold back, to let himself go and pound into you relentlessly, but he doesnโt. He only leans down closer to you, settling in when he starts a pace of slow, sensual thrusts. His brows pinch, his eyes hardened in concentration.
โAh, fuck. Youโre so tight.โย
You want to shoot something back at him, but youโre hardly remembering to breathe with how deep heโs sliding into you. Instead, you just end up holding him tighter, your eyes fluttering shut.ย
Lips dust across your cheeks, just below your lashes. โKeep your eyes open, gorgeous. Wanna see you.โย
You blink, thinking that itโs a notion that feels a little too intimate for a hookup. Regardless, you do as he wants, opening your eyes and holding his gaze.
A smile splits his lips and he presses his forehead to yours, picking up the pace of his thrusts. Itโs not long before the sound of skin on skin fills the room and youโre both panting. His breath skates across your skin, hot and heavy, hitching with the groans and whines that spill from his chest. You canโt help but pull him closer, raking your nails down his back hard enough to leave marks. The action makes him emit a noise you can only describe as a desperate whimper. โFuck, baby. Yes.โย
His lips press to yours in a kiss thatโs all desperation and teeth and tongue. You kiss him back with equal intensity, your body rocking with each heavy thrust. Heโs pounding into you now, frantic for more, more, more of you. You want him to take it, take all of you.ย
A familiar heat pinches in your stomach and you know it wonโt be long before heโs pushing you to another release. His dick drags in and out of you, prodding at the gummy spot inside you with every thrust and brushing so deliciously against your cervix that you canโt stop the moans spilling from your lips. It has you seeing stars again, has you clawing at him and panting into his mouth.ย
โSatoruโฆ harder,โ you breathe. You need moreโ more of everything, of him.ย
He groans. โYou got it, gorgeous.โย
His hips slam into you and itโs so perfect that you canโt help but whimper beneath him. It only gets worse when you feel his fingers on your clit again, hand pressed between your bodies. โCum on my dick, baby.โ Your eyes roll back, that coil inside you rolling tighter. You feel his muscles tensing and shaking above you and you know heโs close, too. โWhere do you want it?โ he asks, and from the pinched look on his face you can tell exactly where he wants it. You know youโre an idiot for feeling the same.ย
โInside,โ you breathe. He groans so loudly it rattles in your ears.
โThatโs my girl,โ he says, but itโs nearly a whisper with how strained it is. His hand continues at your clit, rubbing perfect little circles that make your legs tremble where theyโre pressed against your chest. Your jaw hangs open, but you donโt dare close your eyes. Satoru is still holding your gaze intently, desperately, like he needs to see you. The thought throws you over the edge.
You cry his name, clawing at his shoulder and shaking like a leaf as you feel yourself gush and pulse all over his dick. For the second time that evening you feel the heat inside you swell and burst, washing through you in waves that nearly consume you whole. Itโs a struggle to hold his eyes, to not let them roll back into your skull and give into the pure ecstasy of your highโ especially when heโs cumming, too. You can hear him moaning in your ear, feel him twitching inside you, feel his hot cum coating your walls and thereโs just so fucking much of it. You swear he cums for a minute straight before he slumps down onto you, burying his face in your neck as you pant.ย
Youโre shaking and so is he, breaths heaving in and out. Reality slowly starts to seep back in, even with his dick still softening inside you and his cum leaking down your thighs.ย
You tried to kill him. You failed. You had sex. Now what? Would he really let you go like heโd said he would? You wanted to believe it, but life hadnโt taught you to be that trusting. You should move, untangle yourself from him and escape before he has time to change his mind.ย
โYou assassins are always thinking so hard,โ He mumbles into the curve of your neck. โMaybe you should try to relax for once.โ
You swallow when you feel him pressing his lips to your throat, trailing up to your jaw. Itโsโฆ tender, gentle, and it feels so nice. You canโt help the way you melt into the touch a bit. You feel him smile into your skin. โThere we go.โ
His hand settles on your waist, rubbing soothing little circles that send a jolt of urgency up your spine. No. Youโre enjoying thisโ being close to him, laying here with him, breathing him in. Thatโs not what this is supposed to be.ย
You tense again, shifting to get away from him, but he only sighs and presses his weight onto you.ย
โCome on, gorgeous. No need to leave so soon. Just stay for a bit, yeah?โ He nibbles at your jaw, but it doesnโt work this time. You have to go. Youโve failed your mission. You donโt know what that means for your brother. Youโd never thought this would have an ending besides your death.ย
โI have to go,โ you mutter, pushing at his chest.ย
He chuckles, but you donโt miss the strain andโฆ hurt? โGot something more important than trying to kill me?โย
You clench your teeth, trying once again to shove him away. โYes, actually.โย
He finally pulls back to meet your gaze, brows slightly pinched. โLike what?โย
You push in earnest now, anger and panic rising in your gut. You have to go, have to check on your brother, have to figure out what youโre going to do. โThatโs really none of your business,โ you seethe.ย
You go for another shove, but strong hands clasp around your wrists, pinning them to the bed. His expression has gone flat now, serious. โActually, I think itโs completely my business. You going to report your failure? Should I expect another assassin soon?โ
You scowl, tugging at his grasp and trying to free yourself. โYeah, probably. Heโs an insufferable idiot. I told him it wouldnโt work and it didnโt, but I donโt doubt heโll send another.โย
His face cracks, his brows pulling together again. โIf you knew it wouldnโt work then whyโd you take the job?โย
You struggle again, less angry and more desperate now. โBecause heโs got my fucking brother at gunpoint and Iโve got to figure out how the fuck Iโm going to save him!โ you shout.
Thereโs silence for a long momentโ a long, uncomfortable beat of itโ and then his expression softens into somethingโฆ tender. It sends a chill up your spine. Satoru Gojo was never supposed to be tender with you, and thatโs all heโs been.ย
โIโll save him,โ he says. Your heart jumps and his grip on your wrists loosens, allowing you to slip free.ย
โWhat?โ you breathe. He sits back, allowing you to prop yourself up into a slightly less vulnerable position.ย
He exhales slowly, but you donโt miss the way his hand settles on your bare thigh, a comforting weight. โIโll save your brother and then Iโll take care of your boss.โ A smirk creeps across his lips. โWhat? Donโt think I can do it?โ
You stare blankly, lips parted. Thereโs no doubt he can do it, but thatโs not the question swirling in your mind.ย
โWhy would you help me?โ Youโd tried to kill the man. You couldnโt make heads or tails of a reason why heโd go out of his way to help you.ย
He chuckles. โWell, in case you didnโt know, Iโm a hero of sorts.โ You have to fight not to roll your eyes. โAndโฆ thereโs something I want from you.โย
There it isโ the catch. He wants something. You have no idea what you could possibly have to give him, but youโre willing for it to be just about anything. You narrow your eyes. โWhat?โย
He grins, but you can see the glint of mischief in his gaze. His hand slides further up your thigh, up your side, over your shoulder, until it rests at the nape of your neck and his face is only inches from your own. โWhatโs your number, gorgeous?โ
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Rockstar!Eddie Munson x Best Friend!Fem!Reader
wc: 19.2k (it wasn't intended to be this long)
+18, best friends to lovers, rockstar eddie, mentions of drug usage (not abuse), slight mention of steve x reader, jealousy, self-consciousness, reader feels insecure about her body, mentions of skin texture (cellulite, adiposities, stretchmarks, floppiness, sagginess, etc), smut, love making, p in v (protected), fingering, just pure absolute fluff.
Plot: You've been in love with your best friend ever since you can remember, and the hope of ever confessing vanished slowly as he signed a record deal and became a rockstar. His flings were now models, and singers... how can you even compete? Their perfect and smooth skin against your cellulite and stretchmarks? Their bodies completely perky?...But your rockstar kind of explodes with his feelings, out of jealousy, and shows you just how much you don't have to worry about that.
a/n: absolutely self indulgent. thank you to all the beautiful friends that read this, and were in the middle of me making this happen. i love you @munson-blurbs @andvys @ghost-proofbaby @pastel-pillows @the-unforgivenn @littlesubbyflower !
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ORANGE PEEL SKIN
Being best friends with a rockstar was not something you ever thought youโd be.ย
But you have been friends even before his fame took off before his songs were known. Before his band got called into a prestigious studio back in L.A to record their first-ever demo album. Before his life got turned into a life of luxury and parties. A life he always didnโt believe he would get, but he worked hard to get it, manifested it, and now he is the leader of his rock band.
Corroded Coffin.
With the same three friends from High School, and he was the shining star of it all. He insisted on his bandmates, Jeff, Gareth and Grant to trust him, and they did, ending up with this record deal, and they will forever be grateful to him.ย
Now, you, well, you werenโt in the band, but Eddie invited you on tour sometimes, because thatโs what being his best friend got you. You often insisted for him not to waste money on your trips, plane tickets, hotel room, and pleasantries, but he never listened. He showered you with gifts whenever he could.
He got you the latest cellphone, designer bags, and clothes, some perfumes, but he never fails to buy you the one thing you like the most in every country he visits, and itโs tiny, yet he always smiles when he gives it to you. Magnets.ย
You collected them in your fridge, amazed to see every place heโs been to, knowing that the boy that lived in the small trailer in Forest Hills now brings you magnets from all around the world. The boy youโve known since you moved to Hawkins. The boy that tried to teach you DnD in the woods at the back of his trailer, but your fourteen-year-old self didnโt care for games. Yet you loved listening to him.
Because youโve been in love with Eddie Munson ever since you can remember.
But that love is impossible, now more than ever. He never gave the indication he felt the same, and sure you two were close, mentally, emotionally, and physically. You always sit on his lap so he can play with your hair, or you two would greet each other with kisses on the cheeks, or simply hold hands as you two watch a movie together.
Now Eddie being a rockstar, well, you have no chance whatsoever. He had a fling with Miley Cyrus, and you remember it clearly. It was a simple drunk fuck, but it was enough to make you realize that you are certainly not his type. Then he hooked up with another model, and you found out because you saw it on a gossip instagram page.
Your heart broke in pieces when you saw it, knowing the boy you loved for so long so out of reach, yet so close thanks to your friendship. Even if in pain, you could not let him go, not that easily. You just loved him so much, but even you knew it had to be stopped at some point. It couldnโt go on. You will die from a heartbreak sooner or later, and you have to avoid it.
But he makes it difficult, and even more so now that he is taking a break from tour to visit Hawkins so he can see his old friends and Wayne, including you. Itโs been four months since youโve seen him in person, only talking with him through phone and video calls, but very little. He was always busy or going to parties or meeting other bands and singers.
And even if that hurts you, you will never stop loving him. Not really, not ever.
โYou okay?โ
Your thoughts got cut off as you shook your head to look at Chrissy who was looking at you with a worried look on her face. Your best friend knew about your feelings for the metalhead, and Chrissy has held you many times on nights where you just cried your eyes out because of every call, of every picture, of every rumor you heard of him.ย
โYeah, I am just nervous I guess.โ You responded and Chrissy only nodded in a slow motion towards you. You looked around to see everyone gathered in Steveโs backyard, the sunset giving perfect orange hues as Wayne started the fire for some burgers, and Dustin was getting the cooler with beers alongside Mike.ย
You couldnโt believe these boys were almost twenty. You didnโt mind that they drink some beers at this age, because who didnโt drink alcohol being below twenty-one? But did time pass by this quickly? When did it happen?
โIf you say so.โ Chrissy mumbled as she pressed a hand on your shoulder for reassurance. You couldnโt be more grateful for a friend like Chrissy. You really donโt know where you would be if it werenโt for her. Probably crying in every possible corner Hawkins had to give.
โWill you two stop being lazy asses and get the drinks from inside?โ Steve yelled and you just rolled your eyes, while Chrissy flipped him off, Robin and Nancy laughing while putting up some balloons and preparing the music. You and your best friend walked inside to get the glasses and the sodas for the night.ย
โHe seriously needs to stop acting like a mother.โ You groaned as you piled up the red cups in your hands, hearing Chrissy snorting behind you as she took the sodas out of the fridge.
โAnd yetโโ And she suddenly went silent. You started hearing cheering from outside and you shut your eyes very tight, wincing slightly at the impending pain that your heart will feel at seeing him. You could already hear his electric voice, all enthusiastic and happy, and it made your heart jump three feet up.
You heard your name being called by Chrissy and it made you open your eyes so you could take a deep breath in, slowly turning around to finally look out the window to see him, your breath being knocked out in one single glance.ย
His hair, tied in a bun, scruff on his chin and jaw, curls falling on the sides of his face as he hugged Dustin tightly, swirling him around while the rest of the band greeted everyone else. You didnโt want to be a bitch to the other three, but your eyes could only see Eddie. Only Eddie. A tight tank top with ripped sleeves reveals tattoos that linger across his arms and hands. Black ripped jeans with chains hanging from his waist, and a piercing on his nose, a hoop that glistened with the orange hue of the sunset.
You took a deep breath trying to calm your accelerating heart, trying to not let the blood go all the way to your cheeks, to your body, as you looked at him. Itโs not like when you two talk on video calls, it cannot compare.
Chrissy cleared her throat, making you snap out, looking at him with a wild look on your face. She chuckled softly as she walked outside and you immediately heard Eddie cheerfully yell her name, and she was yelling to be careful with the bottles in her hands.ย
โYou can do thisโฆ You can definitely do this. Just keep pretending, everything will be okay.โ This was always what you told yourself before seeing him in person. Even at school. You often wondered if you would ever stop these feelings of yours, but even if there was a possibility of them stopping, how do you reach that?
You took another deep breath, getting hold of the stack of red cups you had bought for today, and you rolled your shoulders, once, twice, and finally stepped out into the garden. His back was towards you, so it gave you time to put the cups on the table as you looked at the back of his head. He was talking with Jonathan as Dustin walked over to hand him a beer.ย
You could hear his laughter, and you wanted to stay there, yet you also wanted to run away. So far away. But you couldnโt do that now, not when Dustin told Eddie something and then pointed towards you, making him turn around and his brown eyes finally caught onto yours.
Every thought of running away evaporated because thatโs what Eddie does to you. He turns you into putty, into his slave, into a submissive prey that will do whatever he commands. Just with him looking at you, and flashing a smile your way as his eyes light up with yours. A smile was immediately drawn to your lips, not pretending, because you loved him, and you didnโt have to pretend to be happy to see him.
Because you were. Extremely so.
He handed the beer to Dustin in a quick manner as he started rushing towards you, making your legs work as well, meeting him halfway in order for his arms to open wide as his smile worked all the way up, face lighting up as he sees you, and you just canโt help the extreme happiness that invades you and fills you the moment he wraps his arms around your frame.
His perfume, his scent, the smell of the shampoo of his hair, everything was engulfing you as well as his hands pressing all over your back, while your arms wrapped around his shoulders, your nose digging into the crook of his neck. He chuckles when he feels your breath on his skin, and you are unaware of the shiver that runs through his spine at the feel of it.
He pulled away with a grin on his face, and thatโs when he finally took notice of how you had a different hair color, you two had talked through video call two weeks ago, so it was a very recent change. He straightened up to grab hold of one strand as he raised a playful eyebrow up.
โA new style, Kitty?โย
That damn nickname. It stuck to you when Eddie and you had a school show back in middle school, and he was spared from acting, but you were disguised as a black cat. He made fun of you, of course, but thatโs what made you two grow close to one another.ย
You fought the heat that was rising up on your cheeks as you giggled and looked down to the floor, giving him a short nod.
โYeah, wanted to try something new.โ He gave a nod to you and you raised your head up to look back to his eyes once more. He was looking at you with fondness as if you were the only light in his path at the moment.
โYou look beautiful.โ
It wasnโt the first time Eddie complimented you, but it wasnโt easier each time he did it. Your heart always leaped at his comments, always raising a little bit of hope inside of you that you didnโt know if it was healthy or not. He was just your best friend, and your fantasies are just that. Fantasies.
โT-Thanks Edsโฆ I hope this whole rockstar career didnโt make you a wuss with alcohol.โ You tried to lighten the moment and it worked as he laughed wholeheartedly at you, shaking his head.
โYou are not going to beat me at chugging beer. Last time you almost puked!โ
โWeโll see.โ
You did not win. You just wanted to see him have fun and laugh as the foam of the beer got out of your nose as you choked on the drink.ย
It was a nice night, warm, and the buzz of the alcohol was not too great, just enough to feel funny but conscious. It was nice having Eddie here, and you could notice it around the whole group. Dustin couldnโt stop nerding with him about DnD, and Robin was telling him about how she managed to get Chrissy on a date.
You were laughing with Mike as he explained to you how Nancy almost caught him and Will in the closet and you couldnโt help but wince because you still saw these two boys as little teenagers, and it was weird imagining them in this situation.ย
But it seems someone was bored.
โNow that we are older, can you PLEASE play Never Have I ever with us!?โ Everyoneโs gazes turned to the redhead that had the beer in her hand, moving it from side to side and everyone couldnโt help but burst out in laughter because ever since these kids tried alcohol at the age of fifteen, theyโve been trying to play these games with all the grown-ups.ย
โOkay, you guys are old enough. I donโt want any ews, or ahs, okay?โ Steve replied and Dustin rolled his eyes at him.
โSame goes for you, Steve.โ
And yeah, he was right, because it was going to be weird listening to these kids talk about their experiences with all of you. But whatever, Eddie doesnโt come often, might as well have fun with it.
You all sat around, and you were in between Chrissy and Jonathan while Eddie sat at front in between Robin and Dustin. Max cleared her throat, signaling that she was about to start, and all of you tried to stop the giggling at the whole situation.
โIโll start. Never have I everโฆ kissed someone of the same sex.โย
Steve, Nancy, Jonathan, Dustin, Lucas, and you didnโt drink. Everyone else did. You knew Eddie had kissed guys before, experimenting. The one that everyone turned to look at though, was Steve.
โSeriously Harrington?โ Eddie asked, completely surprised and you snorted into your beer as Steve looked at him with an eyebrow raised.
โWhat? I never had the curiosity.โ Eddie shrugged and took a sip of his beer as Robin came next.
โOkay, okayโฆ Never have I everโฆ done harder drugs than weed.โ
โLow blow Buckley.โ Eddie said as he took a sip of his drink, Jonathan followed right behind, making Will look at him with his mouth wide open.
โWhat!?โ Will yelled at his brother, who only laughed as he wiped his mouth.
โMy best friend is Argyle, what do you expect?โ And Will only rolled his eyes as Mike chuckled and patted his boyfriendโs shoulder to calm him down. You cleared your throat as you knew that Eddie had tried many things thanks to the connections he now has with the famous environment he is in.ย
You remember when he once video-called you telling you he felt like shit because he took two lines of coke for the very first time. One would think that an ex-dealer would have tried stronger things, but not Eddie. He never was fond of them, yet, he felt pressured to do so that night.
โOkay, my turn. Never have I everโฆ puked all over a friend.โ And the bastard wiggled his eyebrows your way, and you cussed at him on the low, taking a sip of your drink, as well as Robin with an embarrassed look on her face while Steve winced in disgust.
โNot fair Eddie.โ You whined at him and he could only laugh. It was the first time youโd ever gotten drunk, and it took two glasses of fireball and coke for you to barf all over your best friend as he tried to get you out of the party. It was humiliating, yet Eddie held you tight and reassured you that everything was okay.
He took care of you the whole morning afterwards, telling your mom that you crashed at his place because you were tired, even if his place and yours were five minutes away.ย
โMy turn.โ Dustin said with a smug look on his face and Steve took a sharp intake of breath, and you could only groan. โI didnโt even say anything.โ
โCโmon Henderson, what do you want to know?โ Chrissy laughed as she saw Robin rolling her eyes at her but with a small smile on her lips. Dustin smirked and straightened up.
โNever have I ever slept with anyone in this circle.โ
Will and Mike groaned as they took sips of their own drinks, same as Max as she flipped Dustin off and Lucas laughing while shaking his head. Jonathan and Nancy also took sips of their drinks, Steve, as well, Robin and Chrissyโฆ
And you.
Causing everyone to look at you in disbelief.
โWhat?โ Your best friend said with a mocking laugh, thinking you were lying, but another person winced in the circle as Dustin let out a victorious laugh, raising his fist up with a pump.
โI FUCKING KNEW IT!โย
โDustin.โ You groaned as you clenched your eyes tightly and Dustin shook his head, while everyone looked at him.
โNo, I was right, and you two fucking lied about it!โ He screamed and Eddie was looking back and forth between you and Dustin, not knowing what was going on.
โYou two?โ Jonathan asked and then, everyoneโs eyes turned to one of the single males in the group who had his hand running in his hair with an exasperated sigh.
โYeah Dustin, we lied.โ Steve finally responded.ย
Everyone, except for Dustin remained silent as the curly-headed guy let out a scoff with a shake of his head.
โAnd you thought I wouldnโt figure it out.โ He said with a smug look on his face and you couldnโt even look up from embarrassment, but a voice made you snap out to finally make you talk.
โKitty?โย
Shit.
โWhen did this happen?โ Robin asked in disbelief and you sighed, finally looking up from your glass, trying to not look at your best friend who was piercing his gaze through your skull, making a shiver run down your spine.
โA month ago.โ Everyone almost screamed at the confession and you sighed with a roll of your eyes.
โHOW!?โ Mike now asked and Steve cleared his throat, a chuckle then escaping his mouth.
โWe were drunkโฆ blasted off drunk.โ Eddieโs mouth was on the floor right now, and you could see the betrayal that was slowly plastering on his face, making you wince inwardly. You didnโt tell him. You didnโt want to tell him, and now he knew, and you felt the lump of guilt forming inside your throat and guts.
โWait, was it after the barbeque?โ Will asked this time and Dustin chuckled with a nod to his head, making you and Steve glare at him.
โYep. I forgot my phone, and imagine my surprise when I heard moaning throughout the house and her car was still parked outside.โ Everyone except for three people gasped at the situation, making Dustin proud of his discovery. โSteve told me it was another girl while she slept in his parentโs bed.โ
โIt was believable.โ Steve retorted, making you scoff at that.
โIt was fucking dumb Steve.โ At your response, everyoneโs heads snapped at you while Steve looked at you with an offended frown on his eyebrows.
โIt wasnโt! He is just too nosy! And let me remind you, you jumped my bones first.โ Gasps and whistles were now heard in your circle of friends as your mouth dropped to the floor, looking at Steve with anger in your face.
โI did not! You were the one who started it!โ And to be honest, you could hardly remember that night, you were depressed and angry, and Steve was pent up. Thatโs all it was.ย
โOkay, I donโt remember who did, weโll just say we are both to blame.โ Steve raised his cup up towards you with a sheepish smile on his face, making you roll your own, but a smile was on your lips as you raised your cup as well and took a sip from it.ย
โWell, thatโs something I didnโt know.โ You almost choked as you looked towards your best friend after the confession you blurted out. He had a piercing gaze towards your way, a glare, anger behind his eyes with his arms crossed over his chest. The air immediately tensed and you werenโt the only one who felt it.ย
Everyone else was looking somewhere else than in between the two of you. You knew you were in the wrong for not telling him anything, but you really didnโt want him to know about it. It was a one-time thing that would never happen again, so you really didnโt see the need to do so.
Steve also noticed the tense air, clearing his throat to talk once more.
โOkay, my turn, right?โ
ย And the game went on, but not with the same cheery atmosphere as before. You were quiet, and Eddie was angry, passing on his turn whenever he had to say something. You barely included yourself in the game, your mind racing with nervousness and guilt from not telling your best friend you slept with Steve.ย
Once everyone finally decided the night was done, you helped Robin and Chrissy try to tidy up Steveโs kitchen the best you could. You didnโt want to face Eddie, the alcohol in your system was long gone thanks to the dread of facing him alone at some point in the week. You were washing the cups as Robin and Chrissy started giggling and you sent them a wink as they rushed out and up the stairs to one of Steveโs rooms.
โSo they left you on cleaning duty.โ Steve entered the kitchen with empty bottles with a groan as he threw them in the trash. You giggled and shrugged, finishing to wash the last cup.
โThey are in their honeymoon phase, let them be.โ You turned off the water from the sink as you felt Steve stand next to you with his arms over his chest.
โBut chicks stain sheets, and I really donโt want to hear them having sex. Why canโt they go to one of their houses?โ You rolled your eyes as you dried your hands with one of the hand towels that was hanging from the ovenโs handle.ย
โPut some headphones on, suck it up like a man.โ You giggled and he followed with a chuckle only for the two of you to be interrupted by a clear of throat and some keys jingling.
โSorry to interrupt. Letโs go home.โ Eddie was leaning against the door frame of the kitchen, swinging his keys around his middle finger with a piercing gaze thrown your way. You looked at him in complete confusion, tilting your head.
โIโ I came with my carโโย
โLetโs go home.โ It was stern, angry, and fed up. It was a command. He wanted to talk, and you knew that. Your heart hammered in your chest as you sighed, giving Steve a look and he gave you a reassuring nod with a worried frown.ย
โYouโll pick up your car tomorrow.โ The brown-haired man said as the rockstar rolled his eyes, walking out of the kitchen. You gave Steve one last look before following Eddie out and then towards the front door.
The black matte Jeep Wrangler standing at the front in all of its glory, and it sometimes makes you miss his old van. The one the both of you smoked weed in between school periods, after school, and on the weekends. The one where you laid at the top to star gaze, completely high off your minds.ย
You heard a click, snapping you out as you saw him lighting a cigarette while walking, opening the passengerโs door for you, but not waiting for you to get in. He rounded the car to go into the driverโs seat, making you gulp thanks to your nervousness, not knowing where the night was headed.ย
You slowly got inside the car, closed the door, and buckled your seatbelt properly, trying to keep your heart out of your throat as it threatened to come out. His eyes were unreadable as they stared forward, making the engine of the car roar as he rolled the window down for the smoke to leave the interior.ย
And then, it was quiet. Not even music was on.
He was driving, one hand gripped on the wheel while the other stuck out of the window with the cigarette in between his fingers. You didnโt know where to look or what to do as you played with your fingers on top of your lap, looking out the window.ย
What were you supposed to say? Should you wait for him to say something? Or is he waiting for you? Is he waiting for a sign so he can start talking? You donโt understand why the air is so tense between the two of you, itโs not like you murdered someone, it was justโ
Whatโ
โHang on, are you not taking me home?โ You asked as you looked at the exit that would take you to your apartment complex. You received no response, making you look at him who was still looking ahead of the road, flicking the cigarette out the window as his other one clenched onto the wheel.ย
You knew where he was taking you, back to his apartment in Indianapolis. It wasnโt a long ride, but it was half an hour away, meaning you would have to stay silent for the whole ride, and it was making your gut turn uncomfortably.ย
Eddie and you never fought, and you for sure never received this kind of treatment from him. The only time you can remember something like this happened, was back in middle school when you didnโt tell him you had your first kiss with Richard Pax. It was in spin the bottle, and you were embarrassed about it.ย
He didnโt talk to you for a whole week until he saw you crying and understood that you were just ashamed of it, and you couldnโt even face Richard for how nervous you were. Eddie apologized to you, and held your hand afterwards, telling you to not consider that your first kiss, that it should be special and one you wanted.
You could feel your phone pinging, and you looked down to see Steve messaging you if you were okay, that Eddie didnโt look happy at all. You sighed as you opened your messages to type a reply back only to get a scoff from your partner inside the car.
โYouโre with me right now, at least put the phone down.โ Your eyebrows pinched together at that answer, looking at him as anger started rising up inside of you.
โYouโre not even talking to me, you have no right to ask anything from me right now.โย
โMmm.โ
The air was now filled with anger, you could feel it because you were the one enraged now. Who did he think he was? Acting pissed just cause you didnโt tell him one thing? You were betting he didnโt tell you many things that he does at the parties he attends or the tours he does with his bands.ย
Hypocrite.ย
You texted Steve back, aiming the screen away from Eddieโs gaze.
And thatโs how the thirty minutes passed by till Eddie finally got the jeep inside the underground parking lot of his building. You unbuckle your seatbelt, stepping out of the car at the same time Eddie did. The doors slamming echoed all over the immense space as Eddie headed towards the elevator, pressing the button to call it down.ย
You were angry, nervous, anxious, confused, not understanding why Eddie was acting this way at all. You couldnโt even look at him as the elevator finally reached the floor, and he got in. You hesitated for a few seconds, but it was no use as he held the doors open with his broad hand.
You stepped in, and he pressed his floor, the metal doors closing in front of you. The small space was suffocating you. You could hear his angry and heavy breathing. Maybe you can play it off with a joke or something. Make the air a little lighter, trying to make the tense moment go away, but the distant look in his eyes made you think twice about that.ย
You were fidgeting in your place with your purse in your hands. The elevator kept going up until it reached the penthouse at the top. It was over the top, but someone who didnโt have anything growing up, wants the best of the best when he has the opportunity to do so. So Eddie wanted the best of the building of course.
The elevator doors opened and he walked out first, walking towards the double doors of his home, typing in the password in his security lock. You heard the beeping of the numbers being punched in, and you groaned, walking out of the elevator as he opened the front door of his home.
You walked in right after him, taking in the scent of his cologne as he walked further in. You closed the door behind you and it automatically locked in place. It wasnโt that big of a penthouse, not really, and he filled it with his own stuff, his mugs, his records, his guitars. It was Eddie, even if itโs not the trailer back at Hawkins.
You waited for him to talk, only to see him walking away towards the hallway, going towards his bedroom, making you frown in anger. You followed him, stomping next to the couch where you dropped your purse, not caring for it anymore.
He was in front of his king-sized bed with black covers, taking his jacket off, not giving you a second glance. You clenched your jaw at how immature he was, all because you didnโt tell him one thing in your life. Just one.
โAre you gonna talk to me now, or are you going to keep being a little child?โ His mouth dropped at your words as if he couldnโt believe you were talking to him that way. He slowly looked up at you, standing in the doorway of his room with your arms crossed over your chest.
โMe? Why donโt you talk sweetheart? Why didnโt you tell me about you and Stevie?โ And your anger started bubbling up again.ย
โWhy does it matter!? I was drunk! And it was a while ago!โ You answered as you waved your arms around in exclamation.ย
โIt matters cause you are my best friend, and you didnโt tell me you slept with one of our friends! Itโs important shit!โ Okay, you could see a little bit as to why he would be mad at you. The difference as to why you would not get mad at him for not telling you stuff like this, was because you would end up hurt if he did.
But he doesnโt end up hurt, because he doesnโt feel the same as you do.
โEddieโโ
โAnd with Steve! Why the fuck did it have to be him!?โ Now this part, you didnโt understand.
โWhy does it matter if it was with Steve?โ He was pacing now, and you couldnโt help but feel confused by his attitude. Why is he so agitated over this? You didnโt tell him you slept with Steve, while drunk off your mind, big deal. He let out a scoff as his hands ran through his face, completely pissed, his nose flaring as he breathed heavily.
โFuck Kitty, itโs not fucking fair!โ You could see his hands shaking as he grunted at each step, and you were now worried. Did you do something you didnโt have to do? Was there something you didnโt know about Eddie and Steve? Some kind of pact or something of the sort? Did you mess up the friendship?
โWhatโs not fair!? Eddie, you are not making any fucking sense, andโโ Your words were cut off as two strong hands held onto your cheeks, and your best friendโs face was inches away from you as he talked through his teeth.
โIt is not fair he got to have you like that. It is not fair he had the chance of having you first. It is not fair he got what Iโve been wanting, for fucking years.โ
And your words were knocked out of your lungs, as well as your air.ย
There was no way he said that.
Because why would he?
But he just did, didnโt he? You werenโt deaf, you heard itโ
โWhat?โ Your voice was so small, and Eddie noticed, wincing slightly as he pulled away from you, letting go of your face and you immediately realized you spoke, and that he might have taken it as rejection butโ what is going on?
You were frozen in your place, looking at how he backed away, running his hands all over his face as he started pacing back and forth, not even glancing at you as he took a few breaths in. You on the other hand, felt your heart in your throat, beating constantly, furiously, feeling as if you were going to pop a vein here and there for how strong you felt the pumping of your own blood course through your whole body.
You saw how he started to slow down his pacing, standing in one place, a meter or two away from you, and his eyes found yours. You could feel fear, sadness, and embarrassment in those eyes, all in one place, in those irises.ย
โIโ I really didnโt want to do thisโฆ this wayโฆโ He scoffed at his own words and shook his head with a fake chuckle on his lips. โFuck, I didnโt even know I was ever going to do this.โ
You were just speechless, feeling your eyes burning because it all led to what is obviousโฆ But he never showed it in his life, so you donโt understand, it is not processing in your head as it should.
โDoโฆ what?โ It was a choked whisper, the best one you could master at this moment because your throat was just closed up, non-working. Your brain was a jumbled mess as it tried to put a puzzle together that you never thought was there to begin with.
His eyes darted towards you and then out the window as he licked his lips, thinking about his next words carefully.ย
โYouโ You are my best friendโฆ The fear of losing you is greater than any other feeling I hold inside.โ He was struggling, you noticed the nervousness, the twitching of the tip of his fingers as he scratched his cheek.
โYou wonโtโโ
โYou canโt say I wonโt lose you. I say these three words, and I wonโt be able to go back, and you wonโt be able to either. Iโve been holding them back for ten years, I can keep going if it means I get to keep you.โย
Three words. Three. Are those the same three words you hold dear? Those three words youโve been fighting against for so many years? Three simple words but yet that can cause so much pain if you donโt receive them back?ย
Could it be?ย
Your mouth opened and closed, and you felt a tear rolling down your cheek, it was inevitable, and you saw how Eddieโs shoulder slumped down, his eyebrows knitting together in the middle in a frown. Sadness.
You had to speak. You have to fight the thrumming of your heart and the warning signs your brain is throwing your way to stop you. But Eddie and you already share one feeling. Fear. So what if there are other feelings you both share? Equal feelings?
โS-Say those wordsโฆโ You pushed, you needed to make sure, you needed to hear them, you needed that happiness you never thought you would get with him. He shook his head once and twice, biting the inside of his cheek.
โNo. I wonโt. I canโt lose you Kittyโฆ I canโt.โ Your heart was ablaze because of nerves, of impatience, and of hope. You took a shaky breath in, your fist clenching and unclenching in order to hold back your own words.
โIโ Please say themโฆโ And as Eddie looked at you, you could see how his features softened and relaxed into a surprised expression, as if looking at you let him solve a riddle in his head. His adamโs apple bobbed up and down as he looked at you, swallowing, and you felt your bottom lip trembling, your eyes burning, your body almost shaking with anticipation.
You saw how his chest moved up and down in a quick manner, giving away how heavy his breathing turned. Your eyes were connected to his, trying to let him know, trying to make him have that courage to make the first step you are not confident enough to take. And then his shoulders relaxed, his features doing the exact same, and as he looked at you with glossy eyes, he opened his mouth to finally take the leap.
โI love you.โย
Silence overtook the two of you as the words sank. He loves you, and not as a friend. He loves you as a woman. He loves you as a partner. He loves you as much as you love him. He loves you. He loves you.
A sob ripped from your chest and you slammed your hand on your mouth, feeling new tears streaming down your face, but a smile was hiding behind your palm as you choked on another sob. Eddieโs face turned into a worried one as he took a step towards you, his hands ready to reach out for you and then you started giggling.
You couldnโt believe this. Were you that blind? Were you this stupid? Or maybe it was the two of you? Why were you the only one to blame when he also held these feelings for so long? Youโre best friends for a reason, and this is the greatest example of it all. Pining for eachother since teenagers, evolving into love, and never giving any hints of it to one another. Not even flirty compliments, or insinuations.
You couldnโt help yourself as you kept giggling, eyes closed as one hand was over your mouth while the other gripped your stomach. Eddie was absolutely worried now, thinking you were losing your mind. All these years, you two could have done something about your feelings, but your insecurities fucked up your brains because, if it hadnโt, maybe one of you would have noticed something.
โThis is so fucking stupid!โ You yelled out loud, still laughing and Eddie only frowned as he straightened up, his arms crossing over his chest.
โNice to know my love for you is stupid.โ That made you stop laughing, only to look at his pissed-off frown and for you to burst into laughter again. The tears never stopped coming down, feeling your heart flying into the sky as you also felt the need to bang your head against a wall, repeatedly.
โIโ I promise itโs not that!โ You were trying to calm down, taking deep breaths in and out as you kept watching him. He wasnโt laughing, just staring at you with a hint of sadness, anger, and confusion. All together, which only prompted you to snort, another laugh threatening to come out. You raised your hand up to stop Eddie from lashing out. โSorry!โ
โSorry? I confess my love to you and you laugh in my face. Do you even know how hurtful and disrespectful that is?โ You could feel his words holding some truth, but you knew he was also finding the situation kind of comical. You waved your hands in front of you, small giggles escaping you still.
โYou donโt understand, I canโt believe we are this stupid.โ You snorted at the word and Eddieโs arms uncrossed, tilting his head to the side in wonder, an eyebrow raised up in question.
โWhy are we stupid?โ And you couldnโt help but start laughing again as new tears rolled down your cheeks, happiness just exploding from every part of your body.
โI mean, we were in love with eachother all these years, and we never knew? We really are fucking stupid Eds!โ Your giggles stopped after those words came out of your mouth. Your eyes slowly found his as a ringing in your ears started being really loud, almost hurting you. His eyes were wide, incredulous, his arms dangling on the sides of his body.
โYouโ Youโre in love with me?โ His mouth was agape, staring at you with a perplexed expression as you felt your heart about to combust, only for him to start cracking up as well, slamming his hands over his face, his laughter bouncing on every wall of the room, and you couldnโt help but join him in it.
You both now know you are idiots, absolute fucking morons and you cannot believe you wasted all this time being only friends when you could have been more. The feelings were one and the same. The jealousy. The anger. The hopelessness. The yearning. The happiness. The need. The love.ย
He let his hands drop from his face, a last shake of his head as he looked back at you. Your giggles slowly stopped, and you wiped the tears away from your eyes. This was real now. This was happening for you, for him, for your future. He took a step forward and the nerves were back all together.ย
โCanโt believe we didnโt see it at allโฆ Iโ honestly didnโt think I would ever have a chance after you signed that contract Edsโฆโ You averted your gaze towards the floor as you took various breaths in, trying to control yourself again, center your mind back into reality, and push the shock away. He sighed at that, shaking his head once more even if you didnโt see him.
โI never thought I had a chance. I just thought and still think you are way too good for me sweetheartโฆโ He cleared his throat as you frowned at that and looked up at him to hear him better. โI honestlyโฆ I had a bit of hope when I signed the contract. I thought I would finally beโ good for you.โย
Your heart stopped and sunk into a deep sea, going to the darkest bits. Eddie felt that way with you? That he wasnโt good enough for you? That he had to be someone else in order to feel that he had a chance with you?
โEdโEddie, I didnโt care for thatโฆ I still donโtโ I thought that you were the one out of reachโฆ Iโ What chance would I have had with a rockstar thatโโ You didnโt want to finish that phrase. It was too embarrassing, but how could you not? How could you not compare yourself to all the women Eddie had after signing that contract? The models, the singers, the influencersโฆ It was impossible not to do so.
He seemed to realize the doubt on your face because his features softened as he took a step closer to you, the tips of your shoes touching as he stood right before you. He scratched his cheek as he tried to find the next words.
โWellโฆ we arenโt out of reach anymoreโฆ are we?โ And your eyes found his, your heart in your throat as he licked his lips and you knew what was supposed to happen now. Butโ
โWhat if itโs weird?โ He blinked two times before tilting his head and you wanted to drown in embarrassment.
โWhat would be weird?โ His voice was a tone lower than before and it made you tremble a little, goosebumps rising on your skin.
โWellโ We know eachother since we were tenโฆ What if you find it weird to kiss me?โ And it almost looked like Eddie could not believe what you were saying.ย
โSweetheartโฆ Iโve been dying to kiss you since I can even remember.โ You couldnโt help but feel your cheeks burn up, looking down with a small smile on your face. He bit his bottom lip and cleared his throat, making you look up at him once more. โWeโll just see where it goes, how about that?โ
You were afraid of that because what if it really happened that he would back out cause he felt it too weird for him? Or what if you werenโt of his expectations? What if you let him down? But you would never know unlessโย
โOkayโฆโ The word โnervousโ runs a little short of what you were feeling. You had your own expectations of this moment, but you knew he would fill every single one of them and exceed them. Now for you? You werenโt so sure.ย
โTrust me Kittyโฆโ He gave you a nervous, yet charming smile as he finally invaded your space and leaned. You closed your eyes and waited, feeling your whole body about to collapse. You expected his lips on your lips, but you felt them on your cheek. You opened your eyes with confusion plastered in them to see Eddie grinning.
โEdsโฆ?โ
โWeird?โ You giggled at that, feeling your nerves slowly leaving you.
โNope.โ He smiled as he guided his lips towards your other cheek, placing another kiss there. You two have shared kisses on the face before. Cheeks, foreheads, noseโฆ All innocent, and now, the kisses had a completely different meaning.
โHow about that?โ You rolled your eyes at him and shook your head, and your heart was already thrumming with impatience instead of nerves. His smile faltered a bit but it never left as he finally leaned towards your lips. You took a deep breath in, closing your eyes at the same time he closed his.ย
And finally, your lips touched for the very first time.
It was small, nervous, testing, but it still sent an electric shock down both of your bodies. Simultaneously. Your lips fit perfectly against his, and it felt right. It felt so right. He pulled away too soon, but his lips hovered over yours as he opened his eyes to look at you. You looked at him through your lashes.
โNot weirdโฆโ You mumbled and he only hummed, his own heart exploding. He tilted his head to the other side and pressed his lips against yours again, this time a little firmer than before. You felt your body craving to wrap itself around him, but you two were testing this new development. You had to be patient, but from the looks of it, it seemed Eddie was also enjoying it like you were.
And there was no lie in that because Eddie felt like he was combusting from how much he felt his body flush. He felt sweat on his fingertips and he just wanted to hold you in his arms, but just like yourself, he needed your green light. He slowly pulled away from that peck, a soft smack being heard in the room as you two looked at eachother again.
โWeird?โ He asked in a whisper, and you shook your head desperately as you felt your eyes becoming glossy with need as you looked at him.ย
And he dove in. This kiss was harder, deeper, and his hands finally reached out to hold your waist, pulling you closer, and you responded by raising your arms in order to wrap them around his neck, flushing your chest against his, and finally, your lips moved against eachotherโs, and it felt magical.ย
It felt like that puzzle piece you thought you would never find, but it was hidden in a very small corner, underneath a carpet. His arms wrapped around you, one palm on the small of your back and the other right in the middle. You felt how hot your body was getting but you couldnโt stop yourself, needing more and more from him.
He deepened the kiss even more, pressing you into him, wanting to feel more of you. Your heads moved from side to side, and he was going to be greedy and ask for more. His tongue darted out to lick your bottom lip, making your heart jump and a small gasp escaped your throat, but you opened your mouth to welcome him in.
And you two sighed in pleasure as your tongues clashed together, having a taste of eachother for the first time. You tasted like strawberries and beer thanks to your lipgloss, mints, and the alcohol you two had earlier in the night. He tasted like you always imagined he would. Tobacco, and this kind of minty taste that must be from the flavor sphere inside the filters of his cigarettes. Beer was also mixed in, and one of your hands couldnโt help but scratch the back of his neck for more grip, making him groan into the kiss.
You were surprised by the noise, but a moan escaped your mouth and into his as your breasts rubbed against his chest and his tongue danced with yours. You felt yourself sweating with anticipation, the track of time disappearing as you two melted more and more into eachother, but air was soon needed and you two broke apart, panting onto one anotherโs lips. His eyes were staring into yours and he gulped as he spoke again.
โTold you. Not weird.โ He sounded breathless, and you could feel his heart thrumming in his chest, in fact, you didnโt even know if it was yours. You chased his lips and gave him a soft peck, your eyes half-lidded in bliss. He gave you a cheeky smile as he talked in a low voice. โAlready canโt get enough of me Kitty?โ
You were flustered, burning, but you wanted to show him how much you wanted him. So you kissed him again, deep, long, and slow. It was loving and filled with the emotions you wanted to shower him with for the past ten years. You pulled away with a small smile on your face as he stared at you, a little taken aback.
โNever going to get enough of you.โ And you could see your best friend, this insane rockstar, blushing a deep red on his cheeks and you couldnโt help but giggle. โYouโre red!โ
His cheeks lose the color, just slightly, and his eyes squint at you, annoyance displayed in his features. Your smile fell down and before you could even speak, he bent down slightly in order to hook his arm around your waist and throw you over his shoulder as he stood up again. You screamed at that movement, your legs flailing a little bit as he walked towards his room.
โCocky little shit.โ He chuckled and in just one minute you were facing the floor, the other you were facing the ceiling as his mattress hit your back, making you bounce slightly. You felt butterflies flying all around inside your stomach as you raised yourself on your elbows in order to look at him.
His eyes were dark as he scanned your body, the dress you were wearing hitched up a bit on the middle of your thighs and before you could say anything, he leaned forward to help you take your sandals off. His fingers grazed your ankles and a shiver ran from your calf to the top of your head. You saw how he took each boot off with the help of the tips on the heels. He looked at you and then finally got on the bed, crawling on all fours on top of you, prompting you to lean back onto the bed.
Your breathing was fast as you looked up at him. Those brown eyes that have been with you since kids, and now, those eyes were looking at you with hunger, but was it really new? He leaned his body down, a bit closer, still not wanting to press his chest nor hips against yours.
โKittyโฆ We donโt have to do anythingโโ And you cut him off there with a shake of your head. He might have gotten the wrong idea because of your possible shocked facial expression.
โNo, noโฆ Iโ I want toโฆโ He tilted his head with doubt as he inspected your face which only became hotter and hotter at the intense stare.
โYou donโt sound too sure. We donโt have to do this nowโโ
โEddie, I want toโฆ God, I want toโ I mean, have you seen you? I have a hidden maxi-size poster of your half-naked rolling stone cover just because your pelvis showedโฆโ He snorted at your bluntness but seriously, it was the hottest youโve seen Eddie look. The V shape with the happy trail going downwards, just where the edge of the cover ended was enough to make you have so many fantasies in the lapse of a minute.
โAlright. Good to knowโฆ So, is it just nerves? Cause, I am nervous tooโฆ I mean, itโs youโฆ I built this up in my head a thousand times and itโs finally here and honestly? I am kind of afraid of busting in my pants.โ You giggled at that, wholeheartedly too and he just kept smiling at you, brushing some hair off your face. You stopped laughing and gulped as shame crept all over your body.
You can trust him. Itโs Eddie, and he loves youโฆ He will understand you, thereโs no need to be scared. The nervousness and anxiety of laying yourself out there to him didnโt calm itself down though, but you had to reassure him that it wasnโt him at all, nor the fear of it being weird.
โIโ I justโฆ do you mindโฆ having the lights off?โ
And that seemed to throw Eddie back. His eyebrows came to the middle in a confused frown as he looked down at you, trying to understand you. You looked away from him and you felt your eyes glossing over as more embarrassment came over your body.
โKitty, Iโ Why do you want them off?โ He will respect you, always, but he wants the answer out of your lips to make sure he hadnโt done anything to make you think he didnโt think you were at least pretty, but he always complimented you. Obviously, friendly compliments, not telling you the actual amount of things he wanted to say to you.
โUmโฆ Iโ Wellโฆ umโฆ I am different from all theโ flings you had in the past two yearsโฆโ You couldnโt look at him. You sounded so stupid, so little, but you had to be honest with him. You donโt want to have a terrified look on your face just because you pushed yourself to do it with the lights on. Eddie blinked a few times, his head shaking softly.
โCome again?โ You cleared your throat, feeling as if it were closing up slowly. You have no smooth skin or toned body.
Adiposities, cellulite, stretchmarks, stretched skin, textured in every place you could look at.ย
โIโmโฆ nothing like those girlsโ those bodies, I donโtโโ You didnโt want him to look at your body. You arenโt insecure, not alwaysโฆ but you know who Eddie slept with, and the insecurity with him is on another kind of level.
Eddie was stunned as he looked down at you. You compared yourselfโฆ and maybe all this time you had been doing so, and he never noticed. Were you hurting in some kind of way? Was he the reason you werenโt confident enough to talk to him about your feelings towards him?ย
You gulped as you looked at him when you didnโt receive any answer. He seemed concerned, deep in thought, and you wondered if you had already driven him away with just your mere words. You opened your mouth to talk but he was faster.
โYou think you are inferior to them?โ His eyes were filled with confusion and some type of sadness, making you frown with worry, but he kept talking before you could even ask. โSweetheartโฆ Kitty, oh my godโฆโ
You blinked a few times, trying to understand his facial expressions that were changing every second. From angry, to confused, to incredulous, to sadโฆ you werenโt understanding what was going through his head.
โWhat is it?โ
โWhat is it? Fuckโฆ I donโt want to be blunt, but I feel like if Iโm not you wonโt understand one single bit of whatโs going on in my head soโฆโ He cleared his throat as a blush spread on his cheeks while looking down at you. โYou have no idea how many times I popped a boner with you.โ
That was not something you expected to hear, not right now, and certainly not from him.
โWhat?โ He groaned followed by a sigh as he kept hovering over your body. You could feel the heat of his body radiating towards yours, and you could feel your blood rushing to your face, or probably your head.
โWhat I said. I popped a boner many times, even when we were at your house watching Sleepaway Camp and you had those pajamas on that had kittens all overโฆ I covered my crotch with a pillow.โ He chuckled to hide his nervousness but your mind was still trying to work out what he was saying.
โIโ Pajamas?โ He looked into your eyes and he gave you one slow nod.
โAnd donโt let me get started on the pool parties. One piece, two pieceโฆ Even when you didnโt even take anything off, and fuckโ This sundress? I had to tuck myself when a little bit of wind helped me see the back of your thighsโฆ Just the back of your thighs darling!โ He was exasperated now, his eyes wild as he rambled but your mind had shut off.
You? You got him worked up? Today? And before? Even when in the most clothed situations? He looked your way?ย
โReallyโฆ?โ Your voice came out smaller than what you intended but you couldnโt help it. You were feeling emotional, this revelation trying to sit in your brain as it tried to push the possibility of Eddie actually being attracted to you after the women heโs been with away. His eyes softened and he moved a hand towards your cheek to caress it in a soft manner.
โReally. You drive me absolutely insaneโฆโ His eyes turned slightly darker and you noticed the air around the two of you change, shift into something that made you feel a little light-headed. โWill you let me show you just how insane you make me?โ
And your body went limp at his question, a hunger in the eyes of your best friend that you never thought would ever be directed to you.ย
But maybe those eyes were always there, just not when you were looking. Glances he stole at you at prom after picking you up himself and going together. His eyes scanning your body when you appeared in a long shimmery dress for one of his first award shows, something that made people speculate you two were dating, but then the paparazzis did their job to dismiss that.ย
Feelings mixed with pure desire and lust that felt wrong to even experience. He watched you become a woman right before his own eyes, growing up together, graduating together after two failed attempts on Eddieโs part, and even with the different future paths, you a veterinarian and he a rockstar, you never lost touch.
But nowโฆ now there is no need to feel guilt. No restraints because the line was already crossed.
So you gave him a slow nod despite the nervous look on your face. Is there a possibility for Eddie to want you just as much as he says he does? More than Megan Fox? Than that chick from that rock band that opened his shows and that is exactly like him and a better match? How is there even a chance?
Your thoughts came to a halt as you felt his face lowering in order to take your lips with his, your mind short circuiting as the kiss wasnโt shy at all like the previous one. It was instantly deep, passionate, and desperate. Teeth almost knocking with eachother as your heads moved from side to side, your arms wrapping around his shoulders wanting to feel him closer.
He chuckled into the kiss, and he pulled away with a soft smack of the lips, a confused whimper escaping your lips to then gasping when his head ducked even further and his kiss was now on your neck, on your pulse point.ย
โYou have no idea how much I have wanted to mark you. All the guys that flirted with you, or were your hookupsโฆ I just wanted to mark your neck so that they would back off.โ He mumbled on your neck and your eyes widened at that, your thighs rubbing against eachother below him for some friction.
And you would be lying if you didnโt think of doing the same. The roaring of the word โMINEโ whenever a girl got close to Eddie back in school was insanely big inside your head. But as the years went by, that voice only got softer, slower, until he told you the first fling he had after the contract was signed. That voice said a few last words before disappearing, โMaybe he is not mine, and never will be.โ.
But nowโ Itโs back, and stronger than ever.
โThen mark me Edsโฆ Butโโ And it was risky, but you wanted it, you needed it, you needed everyone, absolutely everyone to know he is yours. โOnly if you let me mark you back.โ
And his kisses stopped, surprised by your boldness, the jeans straining a little more to the point of it being almost painful. Is he going to get yelled at by Joyce and Wayne? His two managers? Most likely. Does he care? Not a fucking chance. Not now, not ever. A smile formed on his lips as he mumbled against your skin.
โDeal.โ And his lips pressed again against your pulse point. You were afraid of your sounds, but a moan almost got out when his lips pressed pecks until you felt him sucking on your skin. He was going to make sure to brand you as his. For real. His breath was heavy as he inhaled with his nose, loving the taste of you and how your nails dug into his nape and the other pair onto his shoulder.
He repeated it, three times to be exact, leaving you with deep red marks that went downwards a bit. He pulled away to look at his art, a smile on his lips as he saw how dazed you already looked as you tried to level your breathing back to a normal pace. You looked beautiful like this, and he was opening his mouth in order to ask if you were ready to keep going, but you broke silence first with a giggle.
โIt tickled.โ His heart only clenched a bit more at you, thinking that you couldnโt look cuter, or more endearing than you were now, but you always surprise him, donโt you? He smirked as he leaned forward, nose touching with yours, making your giggles stop completely.
โCan you stop being adorable for a second? Iโm trying to be sexy here.โ You really didnโt know if you had a face anymore because you just felt it combust in flames. He chuckled at watching your expression, even if his own matched with yours. โCan I keep going?โ
You gulped and slowly nodded, but his eyes started tracing your neck and going downwards. You wondered what was going on and then they finally landed on your sundress. His hand raised to press against your waist and his eyes met with yours once more, pupils completely dilated with desire.
โEddie?โ
โKittyโฆ Can we keep the lights on?โ Your heart stopped at that, your hands clenching on his shoulders and you felt your whole body break into a cold nervous sweat.
โIโ I thought we were still going to keep the lights offโโ And he shook his head, his eyes looking down towards the top of your sundress, a feral side of him coming to light and that he never thought he wouldnโt be able to control it when it came to you.
โWeโll do whatever you want butโ Baby, I want to see the body Iโve been craving all these years. I want to see every detail, even a freckle I might have missed, or a mole in a place that I never thought I would see beforeโฆโ You saw how his eyes traveled all over your body, the hand on your waist giving a press every now and then when his eyes landed at particular places.
You could feel it, even in the midst of your anxiety, that desire that wants to eat you alive, inch by inch, and your own need grows from it. His eyes are not lying, his body language is not lying, his touches, his words, his overall energy, are not lying to you. He wants you. Eddie wants you and has always wanted you.ย
And that brings you an ounce of confidence. Even if small, it was enough to take the first stepโ
โOkayโฆโ And his eyes snapped back towards yours, his uneasiness overlapping with his excitement.
โNoโ No, we donโt have to do something you donโt feel comfortable with because of my selfishness sweetheartโโย
โYouโ You promised you would show meโฆโ And if you didnโt do the lights now, they would be on at some other point, wouldnโt they? You just had to rip the bandaid off. His head started turning, trying to see which was the best way to show you his true feelings, and he decided on a different approach than what he thought would be the most appropriate one.
He got a knee between yours, nudging on them. You looked down in surprise but followed the queue and parted your left leg away, very slowly, afraid of the sundress driving up even more than before. His eyes werenโt leaving your face though, needing to see your reaction as he pressed his knee against your right leg as well.
Your heart rate picked up, and the butterflies in your belly probably ate your stomach up at this point. You swallowed your nerves as you parted your right leg as well, and he was finally able to get his knees between your legs. He took a sharp courageous breath, letting a nervous sigh out, and pressed his hips against yours.ย
You gasped and an electric current shot from your core to every single end nerve of your body. His bulge was harshly pressed against your center, and he groaned at finally having some friction against the strain. He was hard. He was rock hard for you.
His lips found yours in a soft peck, only to then kiss the corner of your mouth as he rolled his hips against yours and for the first time in the night, a little moan escaped your lips. The press was delicious on your clit, but it only was building your need for him, slowly, clouding your mind, your sight, your thoughts.
He groaned onto your skin, almost a growl, as his kisses traveled further into the crook of your neck. His hips kept rolling, getting a little lost in it all, drunkenness from finally having you hitting him at full blast. He sucked on places he hadn't before and he nibbled on the soft skin, making another moan escape you which only makes him twitch.
โYou are the only one Iโve ever truly wantedโฆ In every single possible way, you can imagine.โ It was a low mumble, but it was enough for you to be able to hear it and for your arms to wrap around him, nails digging into his back, grabbing onto the black shirt, pulling on it at every roll of his lower half.ย
He pulled away from your neck and raised himself on his knees, making your arms fall back down onto the mattress. He crossed his arms, reaching for the hem of his shirt and immediately ripping it away and throwing it across the room.
Your eyes widened when you saw his torso, his belly, the happy trail you have fantasized about so many times with, after that stupid magazine cover. His chest, which only had that skull and spider back in high school, was now littered with many random pieces, as well as his arms, even his hands.ย
He was gorgeous, perfect, and has always been to your eyes, but now he is not only that but shining as if he were polished gold. Your eyes were all over his belly button and the V shape on his hips, not noticing the eyes that were looking at you with a smirk on his lips. Your eyes went downwards to the bulge on his pants and your eyes widened as you propped yourself up on your elbows to look at it better.
โHoly shit, I thought you were bluffing Eddie!โ It wasnโt exactly a bulgeโฆ His dick was so hard that you could see the outline of his length as it pressed sideways against the restrictive pants. Andโ
โWhenever I said I was big, I meant it, and I also repeated it so many times to see if you showed any interest!โ He almost yelled in a high-pitched voice which only made you giggle only to stop when you noticed his eyes scanning your every inch, making you gulp loudly. His hand reached down, fingers playing with the hem of your dress.
You two had seen eachotherโs upper bodies, but in completely different situations. This wasnโt some nice summerโs day at a pool. He will see everything, and he wants to properly scan you, touch you, feel you. Butโ Fuck, the images of all those women pop in your head again, comparing yourself to them, their bodies, their futures, their ambitions, and their wealth.ย
You close your eyes tightly, waiting for the tug of the shirt in order to help him by lifting your upper body from the mattress, but his fingers let go of the dress, and that warm touch suddenly appears on your cheek. You opened your eyes to meet his. He was giving you a small reassured smile as he looked down at your face, pupils that gave you safety and filled you with warmth.
You noticed his fingers were slightly trembling and you realized that Eddie was just as nervous as you were. He leaned down to press a soft kiss on your lips, making you moan in delight at feeling him this close once more. He chuckled in between and pulled away moments after in order to talk again.
โI compared myself with Steve today.โ And your eyebrows raised at that in surprise.ย
โWhat? Why?โ He couldnโt help but scoff at your question and he kneeled back up in between your legs, letting you prop yourself up on your elbows. He motioned all over himself and then looked back at you as if it were obvious.
โI am not exactly like him, baby. Steve has no tattoos, wears sunshine clothes, rich boy clothes, listens to pop music, and is a tidy guyโฆ I am nothing like that sweetheart.โ You were shocked at those wordsโฆ Eddie? With who he is now, doubting himself?
โB-Butโฆ youโ you didnโt have to worryโโ
โI know that nowโฆ so let me show you just how much you donโt have to worry either. Pleaseโฆโ He was looking down at your face, waiting for a response. Your heart soared into the sky at those words, and despite your nervousness, there was a side of you that trusted Eddie blindly, and it was whispering to you that you should let him. Let him show you what he means by all of that.
So you slowly sit up and cross your arms in order to grab the hem of your dress and before you could say anything or stop, you yanked it upwards, throwing it to the side. Your eyes were not looking at him, not wanting to see the reaction to your body. A body he is not used to having anymore. Itโs not firm, or perky, or smooth, markless, spotless. Itโs full of those.
Instead, you felt fingers on your chin that made you lift your head up so you could look at Eddie once more. He was smiling softly as he leaned and kissed you, softly and gently. You felt yourself being lowered again, back hitting against the mattress, while one of his hands pressed onto your waist and the other helped with the leverage of moving you down.
His lips broke apart from yours and your body was burning from the small interaction only for a cold sweat to invade you as you saw him straighten up again and his eyes locked on your body. The visible part of your breasts above the cups of your bra, your shoulders, your tummy, your hips, and you needed to cover your body, or at least your face to not see his reaction.
But your eyes caught onto the twitch of pain in his eyebrows as he groaned softly into his throat. You could see his jaw clench, and a vein in his neck popping out slightly as he swallowed hard.ย
โEdsโ?โ
โIโm sorryโ I canโt hold myself back, Iโm sorry.โ And his hand quickly went to his jeans, unbuttoning them and zipping them down, a sigh of relief coming out and then, with an almost animalistic growl, he lunged back down on you, his lips taking yours in a ravishing kiss. Hot, rough, deep, moving at a quick desperate pace. You were thrown off at the intensity but quickly reciprocated as the butterflies in your belly exploded in retaliation.
His kiss only made the fire worse and you wrapped your arms around his neck to have something to hold on to as you raised your hips up to meet his, needing some kind of friction. You moaned into the kiss when his bulge rubbed against your clothed pussy. He grunted and bit your bottom lip gently as if to reprimand you for the action.ย
His lips traveled south and you expected them back on your neck, but they kept moving, kissing on your collarbone, and then the top of one of your breasts. You gasped and arched your back slightly as his hips kept rutting against yours, slow but still very needy. His lips went to your other breast only to then continue down, kissing your chest and downwards to your tummy, his hips leaving yours as he moved down, sending shivers all over your body and you could feel the goosebumps rising up on your skin.
His hands were now gripping your hips, fingers digging on your skin, dipping into it as if he were clawing into something to keep himself centered. His lips traveled all over your tummy, and your waist, groans leaving his mouth as he bit onto your side, a nibble, causing you to jump. He was being soโฆ needy, and desperate, something you never experienced before.ย
He moved upwards again, his lips not leaving your skin, but his body moving up again as one hand traveled all the way towards your back, making you arch it upwards a little bit. You felt his fingers play with the clasp of your bra and he kept kissing over the cups of it, making you mewl a little as you felt yourself clench in anticipation.
โEddieโโ
โPlease, let me see moreโฆ Please, sweetheart?โ His eyes were cloudy in the darkness of lust as he raised his head up, chin resting on your chest with his mouth hanging slightly open. You gulped a bit but you felt a certain power in you that you didnโt think you would feel with him. Some kind of confidence rises up inside your chest.ย
โYeahโฆโ You fully arch your back so he can have more movement to snap your bra open in one movement. You lay back down once he takes his hand out and immediately it grabs onto the strap of your left shoulder to push it down, surprising you by how quickly he was moving, as if he werenโt thinking anymore, just acting.
He makes a cup move out of the way, revealing your perked-up nipple, making you flush a bit in embarrassment but also in arousal, as you feel the cold air hit it a bit. You canโt even think far enough that his lips circle around it, your nipple being sucked into his mouth as his tongue presses on it. His hand was roughly grabbing onto your breast to keep it still and you squirmed beneath him as pleasure filled your senses.
You let a moan out when his teeth grazed the tip of your nipple, and his own satisfaction showed when a groan got stuck in his throat. His hips started moving against you again, the shape of his dick rubbing deliciously against your heat, over and over, destroying your underwear each second it passed but you couldnโt care less.ย
With a โpopโ he let go of your left nipple in order to raise up and rip your bra off your body finally. Now, without the elastics of your bra, you know your breasts are not in perfect shape, gravity, changes of weight, and the years doing their job with your skin. The stretch marks pronounced around the nipple area, which made you a little self-conscious only for that thought to be thrown out the window when Eddie talked once more, almost in a whine.
โThe most perfect pair of tits Iโve ever seen baby, so fucking perfect, jesus christโฆโ You felt a wave of embarrassment at the dirty talking. You will have to get used to how it makes you feel coming from your best friendโs mouth. But he sounded so delighted as if he were drunk, staring at them, back and forth, trying to decide if he should go for the other neglected nipple but then his eyes hit your surprised ones, and you see how they widen in realization.
โAโ Are they?โ And he covered his face with one hand to cover up his reddened cheeks.ย
โI uhโฆ Yeah, I justโ Fuck, I said that out loud, didnโt I?โ And you couldnโt help but giggle, making your breasts jiggle a bit at your laughter, his eyes flickering to them instinctively.ย
โWell, glad to know thatโฆโ And you honestly were. No one has ever looked at you the way Eddie was doing right now, so desperately, wanting to ravish you but waiting for you to give him the green light to do so. The fire inside of you and all over your body needed to be extinguished, and you also had to show him how eager you were for him, your own patience after ten long years wearing thin.
You sat up, looking up at him as your fingers hooked on his boxers and jeans. He licked his lips nervously, his eyes scanning your face as he gulped harshly, his hands moving to go over yours and help you drag down his clothes.ย
Your head slowly moved downwards when you felt his bulge forbidding you to move the boxers even lower, prompting you to stretch the elastic even more and your eyes widened when you finally saw him. His cock slaps against his belly, and your face must be one of awe because Eddie had to clear his throat to center you back to reality.
โUm, you okay there?โ He tried to say it with a hint of comedy, humor, but he was nervous, just so fucking nervous.ย
You two know eachother since kids, and even with that thought in mind, it doesnโt feel weird to be right here with you like this, knowing what the two of you were about to do. But maybe you donโt think the same. Now seeing him completely naked might make you rethink what the two of you were doing, thinking about the past, about whatโ
He hissed in surprise when he felt your hand over his shaft, your thumb pressing onto his red leaking tip, causing him to lock eyes with you again. You were smiling up at him, an innocent little grin that stirred the lust inside of him and renewed it. He was big in your hand, that you were slowly moving, lazily, feeling the warmth of it on your palm.ย
You wanted to dart your tongue out, feeling like being a little filthy, show him how eager and needy of him you were. You were looking at the tip, your eyes clouded with desire, and your mouth started to open, only for Eddieโs hand to press on your cheek to make you look up at him.
โAs much as I would love for you to make one of my many wet dreams about you come true, I donโt want to lose the small bit of dignity I have left.โ You tilted your head in confusion at that only to be pushed back onto the mattress, making you bounce on it, opening your eyes after you gasped to see Eddie taking off his clothes, and almost falling off the edge of the bed in the action, making you snort, covering your mouth after he sent a glare your way.
โIโm sorry Eds, butโ I think you just lost that dignity you mentioned.โ You giggled and he growled as he crawled over you, his finger hooking into the elastic of your underwear, yanking it and letting go so it hit against your skin, making you yelp at theย
little sting.
โDonโt mock me now.โ Your giggles stopped when you met his dark eyes, just looking down into yours, his head tilting to the side. โCan I keep going or are you going to keep laughing at me? I am on a mission, Kitty.โ
Your eyebrows frowned in confusion as you stirred a bit below him. Before you could ask, his face went back to the crook of your neck where he could continue with the soft featherlight kisses and as you were about to close your eyes, you felt his fingers playing with the elastic of your underwear once more, making your breath hitch.
You felt him nibble on your pulse point at the same time his fingers sneaked in, a little bit of self-consciousness filled you when you realized you hadnโt shaved properly, just trimmed, and maybe those women he slept with had the laser hair removal you cannot afford. You opened your mouth to apologize but the words were stolen away when his index finger grazed your clit softly, yet perfect.
โEddieโโ You breathed out, and he only gave a low humming with satisfaction as he felt how wet you were for him. He was twitching, wanting to rub himself on you to relieve himself a bit, the friction very much needed butโ he wanted to do this. He wanted to make you come undone underneath him, show you just how good he could be for you, how eager he is to give you pleasure.
His middle finger pressed on your clit, a little harder now, slow and lazy circles being done as your breathing turned into held in moans, and whimpers as your hands gripped his shoulders, nails digging into his skin. Yeah, mark him. Mark him. He wants you to mark him, just like he always had wanted you to do.
โSo fucking perfect for meโ Iโve always known but fuckโโ You whimpered at his words, trembling underneath him as he kept rubbing you, deliciously so. His mouth left your throat to then peck your collarbone and shift a bit lower, his back arching so his lips could land on your left nipple.ย
His middle finger ran through your slit, coating it with your wetness before slowly starting to nudge inside. At the same time, his mouth started sucking and flicking your hardened nipple with his tongue, causing you to throw your head back onto the pillow, a strangled moan escaping your lips, making him smile with victory against your breast as his finger was engulfed by your warmth.
He couldnโt help but groan at the feel of you, reaching deep, his dreams and imagination out of the window as you gave another whimper when he pulled his finger out, only to plunge it inside again, easily. He needed to worship you. He wanted to make you cum on his fingers, on his tongue, many times, putting you first above everything, needing to hear you moan his name repeatedlyโฆ but your breathy moans make it hard to be patient.
He pulled out of your cunt in order to rub his ring finger along his middle one now, rubbing fast-paced circles on your clit, making your hips jerk against him. He had to bite his bottom lip as he raised himself a bit to look down at your face. Your eyes were clenched as moans started coming out of your mouth, embarrassment no longer in you about those. He groans at the angry twitch of his dick.ย
He licked his lips as he slowly started pressing both his fingers inside of you, stretching you, preparing you. You gasped when he got them inside of you in one move, eyes opening to see him looking down at you with a fucked out look on his face. Your eyes were teary because of the pleasure, face, and body burning up in a thousand degrees.ย
โEdsโฆโ You called him out as he pulled his fingers back out and then in again, the palm of his hand slamming against your clit, making your back arch at it as he kept repeating the action, his pace increasing. You could hear the squelching now, making you slightly embarrassed but the pleasure he is giving you right now completely overshadows it.
โYeah, baby?โ You whimpered at the nickname, loving the way it sounded in his mouth, the nickname you always fantasized about. Imagining his voice saying it to you in random moments, but mostly in these kinds of situations, where he was slowly breaking you apart.
โP-Pleaseโโ What were you begging for? You didnโt know. You werenโt that talkative during sex, butโฆ you wanted Eddie to know, or hear you, anything. Just let him know you were feeling good. You gasped a moan out when his fingers curled, the squelching becoming even nastier, filthier, but he was hitting that spot that you sometimes have a hard time figuring out. โO-Oh fuckโ!โ
โFound it.โ He said with a smug smirk as he saw how you clenched your eyes again, moaning louder, one of your hands shooting out to grip the sheets while the other dug into his bicep, tightly. Your legs were shaking as he kept going, his fingers just making you clench around him, your pussy being filled and satisfied.
โIโmโ more, more!โ He was surprised by your words, not knowing if you were normally vocal or not, but fuck if it wasnโt hot. He groaned as he leaned down to your right nipple, engulfing it with his teeth and giving a soft pull, pressing his palm against your clit in order to move his hand up and down. His fingertips rub your G-spot while the heel of his hand rubs against your clit.
Your eyes widen at the new feeling. It was raw, rough, desperate, and he moaned against your skin as you started fluttering around him, the pressure building in your belly like never before. It was going quickly, a fire that was spreading, not letting you run away. You were almost crying out his name as you kept trembling underneath him. He pulled away from your nipple in order to hover over you, his nose nudging yours.
โYou close, love?โ You whined at the nickname as your hips met the thrust of his fingers. He gave you a soft kiss, the opposite of what he was doing in the lower part of your body. The elastic band was stretching and stretching, your belly contracting at the pressure. Your moans came out in sharp breaths, chest heaving up and down as now both your hands flew to his shoulders as your back arched against him.
โYesโ Yesโ Eddie, Eddie, babyโโ And the elastic band snapped while Eddie moaned at the nickname, the first time you called him that and not his name. Your walls clenched tightly around his fingers and he moaned with delight as you spasmed underneath him, his dick threatening to finally shoot his seed, not being able to hold it back anymore, but he held back, with all of his strength.
Your moan was loud, satisfaction rushing all over your body as you trembled, legs giving up almost. You felt his fingers still moving, helping you ride it out, until you slowly calmed down, a few twitches of your legs here and there. It was probably the best orgasm you receivedโฆ for now. He slowed his movements as he stared down at you, a pleased smile on his face as you opened your eyes to look at him, your breaths heavy.
โSo? How was that?โ He cocked his head to the side as he gave you one more thrust and you whined at the overstimulation, your hips moving away slightly and he got the clue so he pulled his fingers out of you. You looked at how he took his hand out of your underwear, the wet fingers grazing your pelvis slightly and you looked at how he raised his fingers to his mouth and your eyes widened.
โYouโโ You couldnโt even finish your sentence when his fingers entered his own mouth. No person had ever done that to you. So eager to taste you that they licked their fingers with so much delight. He moaned at the taste and he cursed at himself for not going down on you. But maybe he can have a small tasteโฆ
โCouldnโt help myself Kitty. Needed to know, and I am gonna grow addicted to it, I can already tell.โ He raised himself back up on his knees and you looked down to see him still hard, and you winced with embarrassment.
โLet me do something Eddieโโ He shook his head at you, his fingers digging into the elastic of your underwear, pulling it away. Your face flushed as you raised your hips up andโ He will see it. What if itโs not pretty? What if thereโs something he doesnโt like? Or too bushy, or maybeโ
But as soon as your underwear is off, and you lay bare beneath him, he canโt help but tremble as his hand reaches his length. The number of times he had imagined you like this, thereโs not even a way of counting them. Itโs years of imagination, of dreams, of songs he wrote about your body. Songs you might not even know theyโre about you.ย
You didnโt know what to do as he stared down at you, wanting to close your legs but he was in between them. Your eyes widened when he scanned your body and he started to slowly stroke himself, just soft grazes. Was he touching himself by just looking at you? Did he do that before? Were you the protagonist of some dirty dreams he had?
He suddenly moves backwards, just three small movements with his knees, away from you. You tilt your head as you raise yourself on your elbows to look at him. His body bends down and your eyes widen when his eyes cannot leave your center, wetness all around, and he just looks drunk.ย
โIโm sorry, canโt help myselfโฆโ It was his soft mumble as he gave a pointed lick in between your folds, and you groaned as your hips bucked towards him. He moaned as he gathered some of your juices, gulping them down and straightening again.ย
Your eyes locked again, and the need was worse than it ever was before. The desire burning you both alive. It prompted Eddie to move quickly from in between your legs, his knees guiding him slightly to the side so he could reach over and open the drawer of his night table. You turned your head to watch how he took an unopened box of condoms.ย
He cursed when he couldnโt open it from how nervous he suddenly got. He was finally going to get what he had always wanted, and now that itโs hereโฆ His thoughts were cut off when he felt your soft hands engulfing his, taking the box in your grasp, thumb pressing onto one edge to pop it open.ย
He gave you a smile, a fond, caring one, and took the box once more, pulling a foil out. He moved again, his hands gripping your knees that had closed slightly, reopening them with a tut as he placed himself in between. You looked at how he ripped the foil open with his teeth, throwing it somewhere, and then rolled the latex over himself.ย
Your heart was on your throat now, knots of nerves inside of your belly, needing to simply detangle or explode. He looked down at you and crawled on top of you, his forearms coming to rest on either side of your head in order to support himself over your body. His nose nudged yours, a hum vibrating in his throat.
โYou okay princess?โ He asked and you sighed in delight, giving a small nod.
โYeahโฆ you?โ
โIโm fucking nervous.โ He admitted, no playfulness in his tone and it surprised you. โBut I am also very excited.โ
And you decided to be the one to diffuse the tension a little bit this time. You raised your hips and rubbed your center along his shaft, coating it with your wetness, making him groan and raise an eyebrow at you. A smirk played on your lips as you looked at your best friend.
โI can feel that alright.โ And Eddieโs lips turned into a smile, his eyes filled with love just as much as yours were. One of his arms left the mattress to get in between you two, grabbing onto his cock, and rubbing the tip of it against your folds and clit, making you whimper.ย
โBratty little shit.โ And his hips pressed in, his arm returning to the same position as before, and your mouths fell into an โoโ shape, a choked breath in your throats as he slowly thrusts himself inside of you, inch by inch.ย
Electricity ran all over your body, on every nerve and artery, from the top of your head to the tip of your toes. You could feel it everywhere, every single thing in the world making sense for some reason. You didnโt care about anything else but him at this moment. Him and how he felt as he slowly filled you, finally, after so long. Your legs raised up, thighs pressing against his sides as the heels of your feet dug into his hips.
He moaned when half of his cock was already inside of you and he cursed when he felt himself twitch. He had to hold it back for a little longer, he needed this to be perfect. He needed to make this last, though, he knew this wouldnโt be the last time. He hoped it would be the first time of many.
His lips desperately pressed against yours as his hips kept pressing in, deeper and deeper and you wondered how much you could possibly take as he stretched you open, your wetness making it all a little easier. There was a small pressure, a little sting at the sudden intrusion but it was still so delicious.
Your arms wrapped around his shoulders as you kissed him back, hands moving to his hair and you remembered the bun he had on. It was a little loose, and you wanted to see his mane all over his face, just like the Eddie you had been pining for since high school. You needed to see him like that as he made you scream his name.
Your fingers dug into his ponytail and started to yank, trying not to rip his hair when doing so. He winced a bit in between the kiss and you giggled, having some trouble in freeing his hair. He groaned and pulled away from the kiss, his hips stopping as his arm reached up and swatted your hand away in order to take the hairband off himself.ย
You heard a few hairs being ripped out and you winced at the sound but he didnโt care as his curls fell down. Your eyes softened as you finally saw your Eddie. You loved his hair up, butโฆ his hair down just reminded you of the first time you looked at him with different eyes. It was when it was getting longer after deciding to never let anyone give him a buzz cut ever again.
โHappy?โ He asked and you giggled, his hair now all over his face and shoulders, falling on your face as well, making your cheeks tingle. You moved your hands to gather it up and pull it all over to one side only. He shook his head at you, fond eyes and a smile directed your way. โYou shouldnโt have taken it off. It will be a little bothersome.โ
โI wanted toโฆ Your long hair is one of the things I love the most about youโฆโ He tilted his head to the side as his eyes filled with confusion.ย
โMy hair?โ
โYeahโฆ When you decided to let it grow, itโs when you turned intoโฆ you.โ You smiled up at him, eyes filled with love and stars and he could see them all as his heart combusted inside of his chest.ย
He can now truly absolutely believe that you were meant for him. No woman could make him feel the way you do. You love him with everything in you, he can see it in your eyes. You have loved him before his fame, and he cannot be more grateful to destiny for bringing you into his life. He will never be able to say thank you enough.
But his feelings made his body twitch, a sudden electric shock sent to his whole body as his hips moved by themselves. Your smile slowly vanished as your mouth fell into a breathless moan, eyes widening as he stared down at your face and how it slowly contorted. He needed to be fully inside of you, his feelings making his body take what it has been craving for so long.
You gasped as your head was thrown back against the pillow when his hips suddenly slammed against yours, making him bottom out and fill you entirely. He was big, a definite stretch, but god it felt wonderful. Right. Meant to be even as your back arched against him, his lips falling to your exposed neck, groaning against your skin as he kept himself from moving, letting you adjust and for his mind to help him not end this as soon as it started.
Your nails were digging into his shoulders for some grounding, your mind and heart racing and you felt everything a little too much. You gave a small groan as you pressed your back against the mattress once more, and his face raised up from your neck in order to look down at you.ย
โI love you.โ His words were not new, not anymore, yet they made your heart skip many beats now. The butterflies in your stomach exploded and you gave him a small smile. You opened your mouth in order to reply only for a moan of yours to occupy where your words should have been as his hips moved backwards and in again.ย
โIโ I love you Edโ ah!โ You couldnโt even finish it correctly because as the first letter left your mouth, his movement quickened just a bit. His hips swayed back and forth, moving slowly still but you felt the drag of him against your walls. His face lowered, his elbows on each side of your head, his forearms and hands holding onto your head, fingers running through your scalp as he used that hold to keep himself up and for his hips to move faster.
His lips were against your cheek, and now the hit of skin against skin started being heard and you felt your whole body flush in embarrassment, or pleasure, or a mix of it all. Suddenly his breath hit your ear as he groaned at each thrust of his hips. He felt too good, and you felt your mind drifting away, further from consciousness, until you heard his words again.
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
He kept repeating them in your ear at each thrust his hips made, his fingers on your scalp as his chest rubbed against yours. You moaned when you felt his tip just graze your g-spot but not quite there yet. Your nails ran from his shoulders and down to his back, scratching him, and your eyes opened when you realized you hadnโt done your part of the deal yet.
So you nuzzled your face in the crook of his neck as your nails dug even deeper into the skin and your mouth opened. Your lips latched onto his skin and he groaned, hips stuttering slightly at your possessiveness of him. He could feel the burning in his back and now, the one on the side of his throat as you marked him in two places of his body.
You knew he liked to get shirtless in his concerts, of course you didโฆ And he canโt wait to show everyone, his fans, his band members, his team, his staff, what you did to him. What you are to him. What he is to you. To finally show everyone who owns him, in body and soul.
He felt you nibble, suck, lick, kiss, and he knew it was going to be a big mark, just like the one he left you. He pulled away from your ear and raised himself up on his hands in order to look down at you. Your eyes were glossy, just like your lips which are also plump from all the kissing youโve done to his skin. He wants to devour you, a fire that had always been there, but now it was scorching hot, almost painful.ย
So why hold back?
His hips draw back and strike against yours in a forceful thrust. It was deep, so fucking deep, that he couldnโt help but groan, almost growl at your tightness. A choked moan escaped you from the surprise and the sudden punch to your spongy spot. Your eyes met his, now clouded in a dark cloud of pleasure, hints of love and devotion here and there, but you could see that he needed to ruin you, take what is his.
Your fingers are on his biceps now as he literally, absolutely, starts railing you into the mattress, like a madman, as if it were his first time ever. Reckless, sloppy, harsh, but still perfected. The bed made the both of you bounce, helping the movements, and your moans turned into whimpers and cries of his name.
โEddieโ!โ You didnโt even notice that drool was coming out from the corner of your mouth, not noticing how long you had your lips parted for your moans to come out. You saw how intensely he was looking at you, as if he were to try to remember each trace of your face. Nervousness invaded you as well as some kind of self-consciousness, not knowing if your face was scrunching too much due to the pleasure, making your eyes avert away.
โOh no, Iโm having none of that.โ You felt his hand grip your jaw and turn your head so he could look at you once again. Your cheeks were on fire, and you could swear tears were beginning to threaten to leave your eyes. His hair was all over his shoulders, moving at the pace of his hips, sweat on his forehead and tattooed chest. He was gorgeous. He was so beautiful that it hurt.
Your moans were still coming out steadily out of your lips until his hips shifted, just slightly, and his thrusts were now in a more upward direction. Your G-Spot was being punched by the tip of his cock and your belly was turning deliciously at each movement.ย
He wanted to prove himself. He wanted to prove to you that he is the only one you will ever need, that he is the only one that can make you feel this good. He took his time fingering you in order to know where your spot was correctly. He has a lot to learn about you, and you about him, but there will be other times for that.ย
For now, he just wants to see you come undone underneath him.
โF-FuckโFuck!โ Your right hand was holding the wrist that held your face, while the left one was still gripping his bicep. You wanted to scream, the pleasure being too much yet not enough, trying to reach that high once more. A smile appeared on his lips, and you dared to say that it looked evil, cheeky, snarky, cocky.
โWeird?โ And that bastardโ He was mocking you. He was mocking you for ever thinking that this would feel weird for the both of you, considering the years of friendship. You growled a bit at him, a warning which only made him chuckle as he kept pounding into you, a particular drag making him groan.
โS-Shut up!โ And oh you sounded so amazing like this. Breathless, needy, frustrated, pleasuredโฆ It was a mixture of everything, and he needed more as he felt his dick twitch inside of you. He hasted his movements and you could only whine in question as your confused, glossy eyes looked up at him.ย
He groaned with displeasure as he pulled out of you and let go of your face, kneeling up and moving backwards slightly. His hands came to your hips, and he motioned for you to the next position he desired, which made the blood completely leave your body.ย
He wanted you on all fours. He would have a perfect view of everything. Every single spot of texture, every stretchmark, all of your celluliteโฆ just everything. And the lights are still on. Fuck theyโre still on. Your hands were not fast enough to stop him from using his strength in order to turn you around on the mattress, your legs flailing as you were now on your belly onto the mattress.
You opened your mouth, embarrassment already too deep, afraid of even turning your head to look at him. You didnโt want to see the scrunch on his face when he looked at your skin. You are no professional model, and you certainly donโt have the money for all the treatments they can afford on their skin.ย
But what you didnโt expect was the ferocious bite you received on your left ass cheek, making you yelp. He was behind you, his hands digging on your hips in order to pull your ass up, getting you to press your knees on the mattress and finally be in a formal all fours. You were almost shocked at how easily he manhandled you, at how quick he was. You slowly turned your head over your shoulder and you clenched at the sight.
Eddie looked drunk as he looked at your behind. He was even stroking himself as he looked at you, careful to not roll the condom off. You were stunned, hands and knees on the bed as he kneeled behind you. One of his hands came to rub your left ass cheek, to then give it a slap, causing you to whimper and jump at the action.ย
โEddie!โย
โFuck, look at youโฆโ His hand left his dick, and now both of his palms were engulfing your ass, pressing tightly, digits digging urgently into the skin as his face leaned downwards in order to kiss the small of your back and then one cheek. Your face was on fire, but you didnโt know if it was embarrassment or shame anymoreโฆ you felt loved. You felt like a goddess. Eddie was making you feel like an absolute goddess.
A bite landed on your right ass cheek this time, gentle but enough to grab some skin and pull gently. He groaned desperately, needing to swallow you whole. You werenโt aware of the state you put him in. He was feral. You were perfect, so fucking perfect and he was gonna make damn sure you knew this.
โEddie pleaseโฆโ You whined one more time and he gave a small nibble to your ass cheek. He can bite on them a bit more later on. He straightened up and guided the tip of his cock to your sopping entrance, and pushed right in once more. Not slow, yet not fast, just easily.
The two of you groaned with relief as he thrusted a few times, before fully bottoming out inside of you. He growled into his throat as he took a deep breath in and closed his eyes. He is not going to last long, but he for sure was not going to end this without you clenching around his cock.
His hands are now on your waist, gripping your skin in order to guide himself in and out of you, the smacking of hips now echoing once more around the room. He looked at how your ass jiggled underneath him as his hips hit you. He was smirking, a small smack landing on one of your cheeks, making you yelp in between your moans.
He felt you clench a few times, and he cursed into the sky as he had to get a hold of himself so he wouldnโt spill too fast.
โShit, youโre so fucking tight Kittyโ You gonna cum for me?โ A dumb โUh-Huhโ was heard from you as you nodded as best as you could. Your arms and legs were trembling, the squelching of your juices with his thrusts a little too loud. It should shame you, but itโs the whole contrary now. You want him to know just how wet you were for him. How good he is making you feel right now, emotionally and physically.
โY-Yeah Eds, yeah, pleaseโโ And you didnโt have to ask twice. His right hand left your hip and guided it underneath, reaching your clit with his index and middle finger. You gasped as your belly suddenly turned at the attention. โFUCK!โย
โI know baby, I knowโฆโ You whimpered at the nickname as his fingers moved on your sensitive nub, while his dick kept hitting your spot in a perfect rhythm. Your mouth was open, sometimes moans came out, sometimes only drool, but you couldnโt close it. Your pussy clenched around him, making him wince and curse under his breath. โFucking shitโฆโ
โBaby, babyโโ You were warning him and he nodded with determination, his dick twitching inside of you until he saw stars at the same time you did. โEDDIEโ!โย
Your walls clenched tightly around him, your legs trembling as your belly exploded with bursts of heat. He didnโt stop the rubbing of your clit, making you choke some moans out, wanting to move away from his grip, but he held you tightly in place so you wouldnโt stop the ride of your orgasm.
โFuck, fuck, fuckโ holy shitโ!โ And he groaned loudly, almost whimpering at how hard he came inside of the condom. He gave a few hard thrusts at each spurt of his cum, making you whine at the last strides of your own climax. Soon, your walls slowly unclenched, legs trembling ever so slightly, and his hand left your clit.
The two of you were panting, completely breathless from the lovemaking that just occurred. He took a sharp intake of breath as he slowly pulled out of you, making him wince and you whimper at the loss of him. You immediately flopped on the bed, face hitting the pillow. He chuckled a bit hoarsely and took off the condom, tying it off and looking around.
You turned your head in order to catch him in time, a frown appearing on your face as you turned to your side so you could point a finger at him.
โDonโt you dare throw it on the floor.โ He raised an eyebrow at you and then a fond smile appeared on his lips. The two of you were covered in sweat, your breaths slowly leveling out again, a sight he never thought would occur.ย
โYou gonna boss me around in my own home Kitty?โ You rolled your eyes at him and he smiled, getting up from the bed on wobbly legs. โWoahโโ You covered your mouth in order not to laugh, but he only glared at you as he straightened up once more.
โSorryโโ
โYeah, I wanna see how you get up from the bed. Come on.โ You shook your head and immediately crawled underneath his sheets, covering yourself completely, and hiding from him. He chuckled at that and threw the used condom on his trashcan to then almost sprint to the bed and jump on top of it, making you bounce and yelp on the side you were on.
It made the sheets move away slightly, uncovering you from the waist up. Eddie looked down at you. Your hair was a mess, your makeup smudgedโฆ but fuck you were so beautiful. All of you. And you were now his.
โYouโre meanโฆโ He chuckled at you and got inside the sheets as well, wrapping his arms around you and flipping you on top of him, making you giggle.
โIโm anything but thatโฆโ He bit his lip and then cleared his throat as nerves filled his body once more. He was a rockstar, yet you made him more nervous than any concert he ever played in his life. โKittyโฆ I wantโ I want you. Like, I want this to be official.โ
And that was the other part of this love that you were afraid of. Official? With Eddie? You?
โIโโ You gulped as shame coursed through your body. โI amโ no one, Eddieโฆ I am not famous orโ I mean, you might lose fans if we come out as officialโฆโย
And when you looked at Eddieโs eyes, you saw them become doe-eyed, a sad frown appearing on his eyebrows, as he looked at your face. A hand came up to push a strand of your hair behind your ear, making you sigh.ย
โBaby, Iโve been wanting you for god knows how longโฆ I donโt care what happens to my reputationโฆ and if my fans are truly my fans, they should be happy that I finally got the chick Iโve been singing about for the past two years.โย
Your heart felt like it melted with his words. Your eyes were tracing his face, the shape of his eyes, his nose, his lips. Every expression he did out of happiness or excitement, was because of you now. He definitely loves you, doesnโt he?
โYouโ Will you show me which songs were the ones about me?โ You smile cheekily at him, and he raises an eyebrow at you, grips your hip slightly in warning and you canโt help but giggle.
โYes, only if youโre mine.โย
And this wasnโt the last youโve seen about the lack of confidence, you knew that. But there is something you are definitely, most certainly, confident about. Eddie Munson loves you, with everything in him, and wants you desperately.
โDeal.โ A cheeky smile appears on his lip and you give him a pointed frown. โApologize to Steve.โ
And his smile faded, tilting his nose up.
โNever.โ
Youโve got one cocky little rockstar of a boyfriend.
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a/n: orange peel skin is what we call the skin when it looks pitted, formed by cellulite most of the times.
i hope you all enjoyed this little thing (not so little)
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Good Vibrations Part One
Hello, it's me, back at it again with another Steddie AU.
Anyway, if I were tagging this AU, these would be the most important ones: Deaf Steve Harrington; Tooth-rotting Fluff; Getting Together
If you wanna be tagged in future parts, just let me know!
As always, if you see any typos, no you didn't ;)
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Steve has blown through three pairs of hearing aids in the past year. The first pair had lasted a few years and needed replacement because of normal wear and tear. The second pair was sacrificed during that fight with Jonathan. He hadn't been wearing them, but they'd been in Steve's pocket, and he'd landed at just the right angle to feel them shatter. The third pair was taken by the Russians because, despite Robin's shouting and cursing at them for being dumbasses (and this was before she actually knew what they were for), they accused him of recording their kidnapping and torture.
Honestly, he wouldn't recommend fighting Russians and Billy and Mind Flayers and driving while nearly totally deaf.
The funniest part of it all, though, is that Steve doesn't even use hearing aids regularly. He normally only wears them at home. The pair lost to Jonathan were present because, well, that whole day had been a lot for Steve, and he needed the comfort of knowing he could stop reading lips the moment it became too exhausting for him. The pair lost to the Russians was because he'd been getting ready to tell Robin about being deaf. She'd already clocked the weird things he does (well, weird to her, normal to Steve), and he figured letting her in on the big secret would bring them a little closer.
Of course, that didn't go the way he expected. Robin thought he was confessing love and decided to beat him to the punch. That's how he learned Robin is a lesbian, and Steve couldn't let her be the only one admitting to something like that, so he told her about being bi and his long-standing, hopeless crush. And being deaf. But the bi with a crush thing seemed more important in the moment. She took it in stride, it brought them closer, and then Robin asked if Steve could teach her sign language.
Which meant that Steve had to learn sign language because he never had. Between not wanting to feel even more different than he already did and trying to convince his parents that, really, everything was fine and he didn't need to go to a special school for deaf and hard-of-hearing kids, he'd never learned. Learning it had somehow felt like an admission of weakness, and that was the last thing he wanted. But he learned for Robin, and they stumbled through sign language together, creating new signs only they knew.
But that's all in the past now, and Steve is working his ass off at Family Video to afford a new pair because he refuses to ask his parents for money. If he asks them, they'll come back, and that's the last thing he wants. They don't need to have all their worries confirmed that Steve is helpless, and he doesn't want them anywhere near Hawkins "Hellscape" Indiana.
So. Working his ass off, taking extra shifts, and babysitting the kids as much as he can to make up for the whole Friends and Family Discount he gives their parents. He's exhausted, but he gets to recharge somewhat during his lunch break.
About a ten-minute walk from the Family Video is a record store, which Steve has started visiting daily to just breathe. The lone worker in the store is usually too busy listening to her own music to pay Steve any attention, letting him wander and try to determine which records will best serve him.
Steve drifts over to the rock and heavy metal section, hoping to find a new album but unsurprised when he doesn't. He browses through them anyway, moving past Metallica and Black Sabbath and Iron Maiden. He already has all of these albums on his shelf at home. He has the cassette tapes for them, too.
But he really wants something new. He likes the novelty of experiencing unfamiliar vibrations through the speaker, letting them thrum through his fingertips and into his bones. It's fun and relaxing, and after all the bullshit he's been through lately, he probably deserves something relaxing.
After glancing over a few more familiar albums, Steve sighs and glances at the counter by the door. The lone worker is standing there, headphones over her ears, and idly flipping through a magazine. She's chewing gum, and Steve braces himself for the sheer hell of trying to read her lips without making it obvious he's reading her lips while she's got something in her mouth to disrupt the normal shape of words and sounds.
But he has to try. Steve takes one more deep breath before walking over, shoving his hands into his pockets when he comes to a stop at the counter. The girl raises a hand, motioning for him to wait, so he stays quiet as she finishes reading her page. She flips to the next one before looking up, not making any move to pull her headphones off.
"Hi. Do you have any new rock or metal albums coming in soon," Steve asks, feeling the vibrations of speech in his throat and hoping his words aren't too loud.
They don't seem to be. The girl doesn't flinch or pull back. She just looks him up and down, taking in the polo shirt and the nice khakis and the Family Video vest he forgot to take off before leaving. Finally, her neck and shoulders jerk slightly, and Steve knows she's huffed in annoyance. "No," she says, the word clear enough in the shape of her lips for Steve to know it immediately.
He frowns slightly, his fingernails digging into his palms. Steve wouldn't mind just leaving now, but something keeps him there. He just...he really wants new music. He needs something new. "Are there gonna be any shows nearby?" he asks.
The girl rolls her eyes and says something, her mouth distorted by gum-chewing. Steve can barely make out the words "you" and "check" from her response. Thankfully, it's accompanied by a vague gesture at something behind him. Steve looks over his shoulder to see a bulletin board with flyers plastered across it.
"Right. Thanks," he says, nodding to her before walking over. The flyers are all different colors with various fonts that scream for Steve's attention. Some of them are for bands, some are advertisements of garage sales or instruments in need of a new home, and others are just business flyers from stores nearby.
He's seen the bulletin board before, but he's never actually paid attention to it. Steve has always been laser-focused on browsing the records. But now, Steve carefully reviews each flyer advertising shows. Some are for comedy shows, which he immediately dismisses. One seems promising, but then he sees how far it is, and Steve definitely can't do an overnight trip like that.
Finally, Steve sees a flyer advertising a show at the Hideout later that week. It's close enough that he won't be out overnight. The place is kind of seedy, but Steve figures he can find some corner near the stage to hide. Or he can bring Robin and let her help him navigate any potential social situations. He tugs the flyer off the board, gaze lingering on the "Corroded Coffin" emblazoned across the top.
He knows the band. Of course, he knows the band. He's extremely familiar with their singer. From a distance. Honestly, Eddie Munson probably doesn't have the best impression of him, but Steve's heart never really cared about that. Because Eddie is like everything Steve wants to be: he's loud and unafraid of being so, he doesn't care about his image and how others perceive him, and he looks like his laugh sounds beautiful. Steve wouldn't know if he's actually right about that last point, but Eddie throws his head back when he laughs, eyes crinkled and hand over his stomach like his muscles ache.
His mouth suddenly feels dry, but he's also filled with unprecedented courage. Steve has graduated (barely), and that means a significantly lower chance of running into Eddie during the day if watching the show somehow goes wrong.
Steve folds the flyer into quarters and stuffs it into his back pocket. He'll be overly aware of it being there until Robin starts her shift and he can show it to her, but that's okay. He throws a quick thanks over his shoulder as he leaves the shop, glancing up at the bell he can't hear that signals the door's opening. He vaguely remembers what bells are supposed to sound like (he'd heard a few before losing the ability to hear them), but he doesn't let himself dwell on it.
Instead, he focuses on the trip back to Family Video, keeping an eye on the road to watch for any cars he wouldn't notice otherwise.
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When the final bell rings, Eddie Munson can't get out of class fast enough. He'd been packed for the last five minutes, and he slid out of his seat the moment that first peal rang out. He has a gig to prepare for, and every second counts. At least, each second counts until he notices something (or someone) that could prove entertaining for a while.
He spots Dustin alone near one of the exits, and Eddie decides to relieve the kid of his isolation. He waits until he's behind Dustin to shout, "Henderson!" and throw his arm over the kid's shoulders, ignoring the way he jumps like he'd been expecting an attack.
"Holy shit!" Dustin shrieks, jerking back to look up at Eddie. "Don't do that, man, you're gonna give me a heart attack."
Eddie snorts, waving away Dustin's concern as he continues toward the exit. The general flow of students trying to get out helps him along, and Dustin doesn't seem to realize they're actually moving until they've gotten into direct sunlight. "You're fine," Eddie says, "Anyway, whatcha doing all alone, Henderson? Lose your way?"
"No, I have...stuff to do today," Dustin says, shrugging as he blinks to acclimate to the sunlight.
Oh, yeah, way too cryptic for Eddie to not dig for more. "Stuff? What kinda stuff? Got a hot date? Going shopping with your mom?" he asks, and then he gasps dramatically and moves to stand in Dustin's way. He puts both hands on his shoulders and very seriously says, "Be honest, Henderson, you're seeing another DM, aren't you?"
Dustin stares at him for a few seconds before rolling his eyes and shrugging his hands off. "Who else in this town DMs?" he asks, "Other than Will, I guess, but he's still working on a campaign."
"Fair," Eddie concedes, "so, whatcha really doing?"
After a few seconds of getting nudged by the students around them, Dustin sighs and says, "I have chores, okay? But that doesn't sound cool to say, does it?"
Fair. Eddie nods in agreement and moves out of Dustin's way, continuing to follow him. "So, what, your mom picking you up today?" he asks.
"No, Steve."
"Oh, the famous Steve."
Dustin nods, looking over the parking lot before pointing to one end. "Yeah, he's awesome," Dustin says as Eddie follows the direction of his finger.
And standing there, leaning against the hood of his car and looking to the side where a group of trees is swaying in the breeze, is Steve Harrington. Steve "The Hair" Harrington. King Steve. The worst thing, Eddie thinks, is that Steve looks good. His hair is still perfect, of course, and his stupid little striped shirt is pulling against his biceps and riding up just enough for Eddie to see a tiny sliver of tanned skin above his jeans. He looks a little tense, but Eddie chalks that up to him being back on the campus after already graduating.
"Harrington? You've been talking about Steve Harrington this whole time?" Eddie asks, his voice a little strained, "How the fuck do you know Steve Harrington?"
"He's my babysitter," Dustin says, his voice implying that much should have been obvious, but Eddie wants to grab his shoulders and shake until his head rolls off.
Steve Harrington doesn't babysit. He doesn't know nerds that talk about D&D. He doesn't drive nerds around. At least, he never did in high school. Granted, Eddie never actually talked to Steve, but everybody knew that Steve Harrington was too cool for, well, anything that wasn't the typical jock and popular guy shit.
As he's thinking about the last time he saw Steve Harrington (in the halls, while the guy had bruises and looked worse for wear), they get within shouting distance. And Eddie has zero impulse control when Wayne isn't around, so he doesn't think before shouting, "Hey, Harrington!"
Next to him, Dustin whips his head to glare at Eddie. And Steve Harrington doesn't fucking react. He just keeps staring at that group of trees like it's the most fascinating thing in the world. "Dude," Dustin says, grabbing Eddie's arm and yanking harshly, "don't shout like that."
Eddie frowns, anger beginning to simmer in his stomach at the complete lack of acknowledgment. "Why are you upset with me?" he asks, gesturing at Steve as he continues, "I'm not the one being a douchebag here."
Dustin opens his mouth, about to say something, only to snap it shut once more. He frowns like he's just realized he can't say something, and huffs with frustration. "Just...just don't do that," he finally says, keeping a hand on Eddie's arm and dragging him across the parking lot. And, yeah, something is definitely weird here.
Instead of just walking up to Steve, they make a large arch until they're within Steve's line of sight.
Eddie watches as Steve notices them, seeing Dustin first and pushing off the car. He relaxes for a split second until he sees Eddie and his shoulders tense again.
Great.
Once they're close enough for Eddie to count the moles above the collar of Steve's shirt, Dustin grins and says, "Hey, Steve." But it's odd, because Eddie has never heard Dustin talk this slow or this carefully, like he's doing his best to enunciate his words.
Steve flashes a grin and ruffles Dustin's hair. "Hey, twerp, you're late," he says. He then glances at Eddie, his grin becoming a little smaller, and says, "Hey, Munson."
Wait. Steve Harrington knows Eddie's name? And he called him by it? He said Munson, not Freak. Eddie stares at Steve for a few seconds before nodding. "Harrington," he says, "how the fuck did you become a babysitter?"
Is he just imagining things, or is Steve looking at his mouth? Like, really intensely. He's definitely not, because Steve looks up after a few seconds with a raised eyebrow. "I needed some extra cash. Also, don't swear around Dustin. I'm the one who gets in trouble when he curses in front of his mom."
Something about the words makes Eddie grin. Never in a million years would he have guessed that he'd be talking to Steve Harrington. And he would have laughed you into Mordor itself if you suggested their conversation would be about Dustin Henderson swearing in front of his mother. "What's his mom do when he swears?" he asks.
Because he can feel the conversation veering into something potentially embarrassing for him, Dustin lets go of Eddie and starts pushing Steve toward the driver's side of his car. "Okay, we gotta go. So many chores, so little time," he says, his voice back to that normal speed and enunciation.
Steve frowns slightly, looking down at Dustin and tilting his head just slightly. "What?" he asks. Instead of actually answering, Dustin just makes some vague gesture with his hand and looks at the car. "Oh, right. Go ahead and get in the car. And, uh, see you later, Munson."
"Is that a promise?" Eddie asks before he can think better of it.
Steve pauses, looking at Eddie's mouth with a slight scrunch to his nose. He seems to be considering something as Dustin scrambles into the passenger seat, watching them with narrowed eyes. Honestly, Eddie is surprised he's not blasting the horn to hurry Steve up. Finally, Steve comes to a decision and meets Eddie's eyes again. "Your band has a show tonight, right? At the Hideout? I was planning to go. So, yeah, I'll see you then, I guess."
And with that, like he hasn't just fucking rocked Eddie's world, Steve Harrington gets into his car. He makes sure Dustin is buckled before waving at Eddie and pulling out of the parking spot.
Eddie finds himself waving back, staring dumbly at the car as it pulls onto the street. It only hits him a few seconds later that Steve Harrington is coming to his show. At the Hideout. His metal show. A Corroded Coffin gig at the Hideout.
Holy. Shit.
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Special Delivery (Spencer Reid x F!Reader)
Description: Something's different about Reid and no-one knows what. However, a surprise delivery to the BAU may just have the answer...
Warnings: Food references, mentions of mental health, mentions of medical procedures, references to smutty behaviour, Spencer being adorable
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โOk. Am I the only one whoโs noticed somethingโs different with Reid lately?โ Morgan remarked, watching as the said boy-genuis made his way across the bullpen and over to his desk.ย
โYeah,โ Emily hummed, watching the young agent over the rim of coffee cup. She had to admit it - as much as it annoyed her - Morgan was right; Spencer has definitely been acting different. If anything, she was surprised it had taken them all this long to say anything.ย
Normally, they were all over each other the moment they noticed anything even remotely different about each other. Hell, sheโd barely taken a step off the elevator, after getting an extra few inches cut off at her latest haircut, before the team were quizzing her about possible life changes and whether or not they needed to be worried about her.ย
It was a hazard of working with profilers for a living; it was almost impossible to keep anything a secret. No wonder they were all intrigued and slightly confused by the fact that none of them had been able to pinpoint what was going on with their friend.ย
The most notable difference was the gradual disappearance of the dark circles under his eyes. Reid also seemed happier in general, less quiet and reserved when talking to others, and it was starting to make agents talk.ย
Morgan and Emily stood up straighter as JJ walked over to join the unofficial gossip session. She took one look at the pair and knew immediately what they were whispering about.ย
โAre you talking about Reid?โ
โOh yeah,โ Morgan grinned, โmy moneyโs on him having finally found someone.โ
Emily choked, seemingly as a result of inhaling her coffee at the grand statement. โWhat?โ
โOh, come on, Miss โsuper spyโ. Just look at him,โ he teased. โHeโs been distracted. Heโs all goo-goo eyed and heโs been leaving this place at a normal hour. Likeโฆ tell me that doesnโt scream โI got a dateโ.โ
โWhat? It could be loads of things. It doesnโt have to be a date, right JJ?โ
โHeโs probably just happy. Weโve all been getting more sleep lately and our paperwork is non-existent at the moment,โ JJ murmured, reaching past the pair of them to grab for the coffee pot. She was clearly doing her best to try and put this line of questioning to rest. Sheโd always been the first to protect the younger agent she now saw as a little brother. โBesides, we all know heโs not interested in dating, he hasnโt been sinceโฆ. Well, you know.โ
Morgan groaned. โBut what about the secret texts, JJ!โ he protested, ignoring the look Emily shot him in return. โHeโs been glued to that phone of his and keeps giggling like a school kid. Then thereโs the lunches! I know heโs always been organised and likes things a certain way, but damn. His lunches have been like next level - and actually healthy? And I swear heโs had jello like every day.โ
JJ rolled her eyes. โYouโre basing your profile on jello? Is that it?โย
โWell, no I meanโฆ did you not hear the part about the texting and the taking secret calls and the fact he didnโt come out for drinks last night-โ
โ-Canโt we just be glad for him? Whatever is going on, itโs good for him. Letโs just drop it, ok? Heโll tell us when heโs ready if thereโs anything to share.โ
โJJโs right,โ Emily echoed. โReidโs just โฆ happy. End of.โ
By the way Morgan frowned it looked like it definitely was not the end of this conversation, but he never got the chance to argue. In fact, he was interrupted as the main doors opened next to them and a rather lost looking receptionist hurried through.ย
Normally, this wouldnโt have been worth noticing but all three of them spun around at the sound of him calling out the name, โAgent Reid? uhโฆ Is Agent Reid here?โ
โOh, uh, here!โ Spencer shouted, soundly vaguely like he was taking roll call. It didnโt help that he shot his arm up in the air too, almost falling off his desk chair as he lurched to his feet and hurried over. โThatโsโฆ thatโs me - and itโs Dr Reid, but it doesnโt matter. How can I help?โ
โOh, uh, thereโs a Y/N at reception for you,โ the unfortunate messenger managed, gesturing back the way theyโd came. โI told them to wait whilst I came to check with you as theyโre not on your visitor list-โ
Spencer didnโt even let the poor man finish. He was already racing for the door before the man had even made it to the end of the sentence. Needless to say, the others were quick to follow, with Morgan smugly boasting โtold you sooooโ as he went.ย
There was no way on earth they were missing this and considering Hotch and Rossi hadnโt arrived yet it wasnโt like they were about to get their asses handed to them for missing their briefing either.ย
Despite the amount Spencer had told you about the BAU, you were still surprised by how different the FBI offices were to what youโd imagined.ย
The offices were larger and the sheer number of people walking about in suits and carrying a side arm made you feel even more nervous, and that was already a problem considering you were stood there wearing neon blue scrubs, embroidered with jungle animals on the pocket.ย
You were like a walking, flashing sign, screaming โoutsider - does not work hereโ.ย Thankfully, you werenโt going to be there long. You were only swinging by on your way to work, hoping to catch your utterly perfect - and utterly forgetful - boyfriend, before the start of your shift.ย
Speaking of Spencer, you had only been standing there for possibly five minutes when you saw him barreling through the doors towards you.ย
โHey, Spence-โ
โY/N? Honey? Whatโs going on?โ he gushed, hurrying over and taking your face in his hands. You could see his wide eyes frantically scanning every inch of you, looking for some kind of problem or sign that you were not ok. โIs everything alright? What are you doing here?โ
You felt your cheeks warm at the sudden display of concern, very much aware of the scene your wonderful boyfriend was making. Spencer wasnโt normally the most affectionate in public, preferring to save those rare moments for when the two of you were alone. The fact he was so worried about what might have brought you to the FBI on a Tuesday morning was touching and made your heart swell.ย
โIโm fine, Spence. Donโt worry-โย
โThen what are you doing here?โย
โYou forgot something,โ you soothed, pulling back and reaching into your satchel. It was impossible to miss the way his face reddened as you pulled out a neatly labeled Dr Who Tupperware by way of explanation. โIโm here because you were in such a rush this morning that you forgot your lunch.โ
โOh.โ
โYes, โohโ,โ you teased. โI couldnโt exactly let you go hungry so I thought Iโd drop it off on my way to work. I donโt start till later as Iโm covering Ameliaโs shift as sheโs visiting her sister in Boston, so I thought Iโd swing by.โ
Sure, Spencer was an adult and you could have let him just buy something from the cafeteria or order something in for lunch, but considering how much effort he had gone to to cook with you the day before you felt bad letting it go to waste.ย
Heโd been so proud of the way the recipe had turned out, following the instructions and your guidance with extreme precision and care. The result had been a rather tasty looking dish - and it had the added benefit of being healthy too. You were always worried that Spencer seemed to think fast food, like Pizza, was a food group. Then again, he had been forced to be an adult pretty fast and had been in college so young that it wasnโt a surprise that no-one had been there to teach him about cooking and eating right. He had been too focused on his studies to even think about anything else. ย
It was something he had been working on since youโd got together and now cooking had become one of your favourite date night activities. It didnโt hurt that you often ended up spilling food all over yourselves and needing to shower together - it was just a lovely bonus. In fact, your screensaver was now a picture of you and Spencer, covered in flour, and beaming ear to ear.ย
โThank you, thatโฆ thatโs so nice,โ Spencer stammered, โbut I feel bad. You didnโt need to go out of your way and bring it to me.โ
โAs I say, itโs on my way to work. Itโs no trouble.โ
โWell, still-โ
โHey, pretty boy!โย
Spencer froze.ย
โYou gonna introduce us to your friend, or what?โ
Spencer opened his mouth but instantly closed it again. You knew by the way he rolled his eyes and began muttering under his breath that whoever had shouted that had definitely been talking to him.ย
You couldnโt help but giggle. โPretty boy, huh?โย
โDonโt ask,โ he whined, taking a deep breath as you looked over his shoulder and saw a small group of people now making their way towards you. โI should probably mention that I wasnโt sure how comfortable you were with me mentioning you, so I havenโt told anyone about us yet and those idiots are some of my team and I would say โrunโ but theyโre all faster than me.โ
โAhโฆ I see. So Iโm guessing that one is Morgan?โย
โYes.โ
โWell, no time like the present,โ you cheered, turning and waving at the approaching trio. โHi. Nice to meet you. Iโm Y/N - Spencerโs girlfriend.โ
โWow. A girlfriend?โ cooed Morgan, reaching over to pull you into a hug before the other two could stop him. To their credit, they looked slightly embarrassed by the display but they were clearly too interested in your identity to care. โAnd a doctor to boot? Didnโt know he had it in him. Iโm Derek Morgan.โ
โOh, I worked that out. Itโs good to finally meet you all.โย
The others were quick to echo the sentiment, with JJ and Emily quickly introducing themselves in tandem. They were also quick to invite you inside the office for some coffee, but thankfully you werenโt lying when you said you had to get to work.ย
โYou know how it is. People to take care of, medical cases to solve, lives to save - same old, same old. All Iโm missing is a snazzy badge and I could be an FBI agent.โย
โHa ha.โ Spencerโs smile was genuine as you stole a kiss before making a dash for your car. However, you could see the nerves in his eyes at being left alone to face the great inquisition that now awaited him following the discovery of your existence. You were pretty sure the entire BAU would know about you before it even hit lunchtime. โIโll see you later, ok?โย
โOf course. Just let me know if youโre coming home or if youโre off saving the world in another state - otherwise I canโt promise I wonโt eat all the leftovers before you get back.โย
He chuckled. โWill do.โย
With that, you bid the others goodbye, making sure to agree when they asked (more like insisted) that you came to their family dinner on Friday night at none other than Rossiโs house. The rest of the team were going to be begging to meet you after this, and they were all bringing their families along too.ย
If Spencer wasnโt comfortable with you going you were pretty sure the team would believe it if you said youโd got called into a last minute surgery, but youโd check later when you both returned to the apartment you now called your home. Either way, you were going to have to make something to take with you, just in case.ย
As your grandpa had always said, there was no quicker way to someoneโs heart than through their stomach.ย Or, as in Spencer's case, with an unlimited supply of Jello...
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