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๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ
๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ
ส€แด‡วซแดœแด‡sแด› โ˜ž๏ธŽ สœษช ส™ส™ส! ษชโ€™แด แด‡ สœแด€แด… แด›สœษชs ส€แด‡แด€สŸสŸส แด€ษดษขsแด›ส ษชแด…แด‡แด€ ๊œฐแดส€ ษดษชแด‹แด€ ษชษด แดส สœแด‡แด€แด…
ส™แด€sษชแด„แด€สŸสŸส, ษดษชแด‹แด€ แด€ษดแด… ส€แด‡แด€แด…แด‡ส€ สœแด€แด แด‡ ส™แด‡แด‡ษด แด›แดษขแด‡แด›สœแด‡ส€ ๊œฐแดส€ แด€ ส™ษชแด› (แด€สŸแดแดsแด› แด€ สแด‡แด€ส€) แดกสœแด‡ษด ษดษชแด‹แด€ ษขแด‡แด›s แด…ส€แด€๊œฐแด›แด‡แด… แด›แด sแด‡แด€แด›แด›สŸแด‡. แดส™แด ษชแดแดœsสŸส แด›สœแด‡สโ€™ส€แด‡ ส™แดแด›สœ แด„ส€แดœsสœแด‡แด… แด›สœแด€แด› แด›สœแด‡ส สœแด€แด แด‡ แด›แด สŸแด‡แด€แด แด‡ แด‡แด€แด„สœ แดแด›สœแด‡ส€, แด€ษดแด… แด›สœแด‡ส แด›ส€ส แด›แด แดแด€แด‹แด‡ สŸแดษดษข แด…ษชsแด›แด€ษดแด„แด‡ แดกแดส€แด‹, ส™แดœแด› ส€แด‡แด€แด…แด‡ส€ แด˜แดœสŸสŸs แด€แดกแด€ส ส™แด‡แด„แด€แดœsแด‡ แด๊œฐ ส™แด‡ษชษดษข แด›แด‡ส€ส€ษช๊œฐษชแด‡แด… แด๊œฐ สŸแดsษชษดษข ษดษชแด‹แด€
ษชแด› แด„แด€ษด แด‡ษชแด›สœแด‡ส€ ส™แด‡ แด€ สœแด€แด˜แด˜ส แดส€ sแด€แด… แด‡ษดแด…ษชษดษข!!
๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ
โ‡ ษดษชแด‹แด€ แดแดœฬˆสœสŸ x ๊œฐแด‡แด!ส€แด‡แด€แด…แด‡ส€
โ‡ แดกแด€ส€ษดษชษดษขs: แด€ษดษขsแด›
โ‡ แดแด€sแด›แด‡ส€สŸษชsแด›
๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฎ
๊œฐษชส€sแด› แด˜แด‡ส€sแดษด แด˜แดแด !
its officially been about two weeks since ive seen nika and i feel like im actually gonna die. ever since nika got drafted i've been seeing her less and less.
the most i've gotten to see her is through face time and it breaks my heart having to go to sleep without her by my side. the comfort that no blanket could ever give.
right now im here at my dorm literally crying my eyes out over her. am i being dramatic? absolutely not, i just miss my girlfriend like any normal human being would.
over the past two weeks i haven't even realized how much i had been distancing myself from everyone, including nika. i didn't mean to isolate myself, it just happened and i don't think i can go back.
long distance is not my specialty and nika getting drafted shows it. i've been wanting to go to one of her games, but moneys been tight being a college student.
i got sucked out of my thoughts when i got a message from nika
"๐’‰๐’†๐’š ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’‚๐’๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•? ๐‘ฐ ๐’‹๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’ˆ๐’๐’• ๐’๐’‡๐’‡ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‘๐’‰๐’๐’๐’† ๐’˜๐’‹๐’•๐’‰ ๐’‘๐’‚๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’”๐’‰๐’† ๐’•๐’๐’๐’… ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’†๐’'๐’• ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’†๐’ ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“๐’”๐’†๐’๐’‡ ๐’๐’‚๐’•๐’†๐’๐’š, ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’•๐’” ๐’ˆ๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’? ๐ข๐ฏ๐ž ๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐œ๐ž๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž๐ง'๐ญ ๐›๐ž๐ž๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ ๐ฐ๐ก๐ž๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ž ๐ž๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ." i read her message and sighed, i can't even bring myself to answer her text.
i left her message on read not having the energy to respond or explain myself. i hate this, i hate everything about long distance. i just want to feel the warm embrace of my girlfriends arms.
i've been distancing myself from nika as well, not because i don't want to talk to her, but because im afraid of losing her. i've gotten so in my head thinking shes gonna find someone better than me while being in seattle that i've been closing myself off from being to afraid that im gonna lose her.
i got snapped out of my thoughts when i got a facetime call from nika. i eagerly grasped my phone and picked up the call.
"๐ฐ๐ก๐ฒ ๐๐ข๐๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐š๐ง๐ฌ๐ฐ๐ž๐ซ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ญ๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ? ๐–๐ก๐š๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ ๐จ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐จ๐ง ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ?โ€œ i could hear the worry in her voice, along with a slight hint of annoyance.
"๐ข ๐๐จ๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐  ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ง๐œ๐ž ๐š๐ง๐ฒ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž, ๐ข ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก ๐ข ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐จ ๐œ๐จ๐ฆ๐ž ๐›๐š๐œ๐ค, ๐ข ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐ง๐ญ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ซ ๐š๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ." i said in desperation, i truly missed her so much.
i heard her sigh a bit as she responded. "๐ข ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก ๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐›๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข ๐œ๐š๐ง'๐ญ, ๐ข ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ฒ ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ, ๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ." hearing her say that almost broke my heart into a million pieces.
"๐ข ๐ง๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ ๐ฌ๐š๐ข๐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ. ๐ˆ ๐ง๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ ๐›๐ฅ๐š๐ฆ๐ž๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐š๐ง๐ฒ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐ข๐ญ." i say to her the annoyance in my chest rising.
"๐จ๐ค๐š๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ž ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ฉ ๐š๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž ๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ. ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ซ๐ž ๐ญ๐ž๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฆ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐š๐ฌ ๐ข๐Ÿ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ข ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐š๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ซ ๐š๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ. ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐›๐š๐ฌ๐ค๐ž๐ญ๐›๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐œ๐š๐ซ๐ž๐ž๐ซ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ข ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ ๐›๐ž ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐ž." hearing her say that was it for me. i couldn't take it anymore. i never blamed her for any of this and she knows it as well.
"๐ข ๐š๐ฆ ๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐ง๐ข๐ค๐š ๐ขโ€™๐ฏ๐ž ๐š๐ฅ๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐›๐ž๐ž๐ง ๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐›๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ขโ€™๐ฆ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ž๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐  ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ง๐œ๐ž ๐ฌ๐ก๐ข๐ญ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ž๐ฅ๐ฅ! ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐œ๐š๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ข ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐จ ๐›๐ž ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฆ๐ž!" i started raising my voice out of instinct. i never meant to but it was just the heat of the moment.
"๐๐จ๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ž ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐›๐š๐ ๐ฉ๐ž๐ซ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž. ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ข๐Ÿ ๐ข ๐œ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐›๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž ๐ข ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐. ๐›๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ๐ง'๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ž๐ฆ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐ž๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ." my chest started to feel heavy with all these emotions surrounding me.
"๐ข ๐๐จ ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐ž๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ง๐ข๐ค๐š, ๐›๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ซ๐ž ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ž๐š๐ค๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ž ๐š๐ฌ ๐ข๐Ÿ ๐ฆ๐ž ๐š๐ฌ ๐ข๐Ÿ ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ๐ฒ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  ๐›๐š๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ!" tears threatened to spill from my eyes, spilling my heart out just to earn another sigh from her.
"๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐š๐ญ, ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ- ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ ๐จ ๐ญ๐จ ๐›๐ž๐ ๐ฒ/๐ง. ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ง๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ ๐จ๐ง๐ง๐š ๐š๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐›๐ž๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ ๐š๐ฆ๐ž. ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ." before i could respond she hung up leaving me alone with all of my thoughts.
i plugged my phone onto the charger and curled up into a ball in my bed hoping it will all just pass by soon
โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…โ˜…
by the time i woke up my eyes were all puffy from crying the night before. i got up and started brushing my teeth when i got a knock on my door.
i quickly finished brushing my teeth and opened the door. there was no one there but i looked down and picked up what was left.
it was a bouquet of red and pink roses with a note attached to them. i closed the door to my apartment and sat at on a stool at my kitchen counter as i grabbed the note and read it.
"๐‘–๐‘š ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ๐‘Ÿ๐‘ฆ ๐‘Ž๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐‘™๐‘Ž๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘”โ„Ž๐‘ก๏ผŒ๐‘– ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘œ ๐‘š๐‘ข๐‘โ„Ž ๐‘– โ„Ž๐‘œ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘› ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ๐‘”๐‘–๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘’๏ผŒ๐‘– ๐‘š๐‘–๐‘ ๐‘  ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘œ ๐‘š๐‘ข๐‘โ„Ž ๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘”โ„Ž๐‘ก ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค ๐‘– ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ โ„Ž ๐‘– ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘‘ ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘กโ„Ž๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘กโ„Ž ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข โ„Ž๐‘œ๐‘™๐‘‘๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘š๐‘ ๏ผŽ๐‘– โ„Ž๐‘œ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›๏ผŒ ๐‘๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘ ๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘ก๐‘ข๐‘›๐‘’ ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘”๐‘Ž๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘”โ„Ž๐‘ก๏ผŽ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ค๐‘œ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘”๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘ก ๐‘–๐‘ก."
๐ฟ๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’๏ผŒ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘˜๐‘Ž <3
i smiled as i finished reading the note as i carefully set it down as i rushed to pick up my phone and sent a quick text to nika.
"๐ข ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐ž๐ฌ๐ฌ๐š๐ ๐ž, ๐ข ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐š๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ. ๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ž๐ฑ๐œ๐ข๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ ๐š๐ฆ๐ž. ๐ข ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฎ๐œ๐ค, ๐ข ๐š๐ฉ๐จ๐ฅ๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ณ๐ž ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ ๐ข ๐š๐œ๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ข ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐š๐Ÿ๐ซ๐š๐ข๐ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ."
i pressed sent and now it was time to wait for the game to start. i decided to do some chores around my apartment to waste time till it started.
by the time i finished mopping the game finally started. i quickly turned on my tv and started watching the live stream. once i saw nika appear on screen i swear my smile couldn't have been wider.
i watched her play throughout the whole game and she was amazing. at the end of the 4th quarter she scored the winning basket. i quickly jumped up in joy as she started celebrating, as the camera panned over to her she quickly ran to the bench to pick up a poster board and held it up to the camera.
I โค๏ธŽ๏ธŽ MY GIRLFRIEND
i swear i almost passed out when i saw that i put my hands over my mouth in shock not expecting her to do that. she flashed a smile to the camera before going back to her teammates to finish celebrating and finish off the game by high-fiving the other team.
forget everything about last night, nika is my happiness and joy and i know that i am hers too. no argument will ever get between us we'll always figure it out.
nika and i were meant for each other and no amount of arguing is ever going to change that, and tonight just proved that.
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OMG Itโ€™s Youโ€ฆ (Part 6.5)
YouTube! Fem reader x Stray Kids
Summary: Y/Nโ€™s YouTube channel is taking off after her reactions to Stray Kids MV Godโ€™s Menu. Now sheโ€™s making videos nonstop along with working a full time job. What would happen if she got offered a job of a lifetime and met the boys of her succession?
โš ๏ธWarningsโš ๏ธ: cursing, crying, confusion, fatigue, Lee Know coming in clutch, Chan admits to being jealous of reader (let me know if I missed anything)
๐Ÿท๏ธ: @laylasbunbunny @weirdowithaphone (Taglist open)
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Third Person POV
Y/N never thought sheโ€™d ever be called into the conference room at her own job. Especially when sheโ€™s being surrounded by people who she didnโ€™t recognize and knew they werenโ€™t from the States. Yet, here they were on one side of the table while she was on the other side with a stack of papers in front of her. With the word โ€œCONTRACTโ€ written across it.
โ€œSo, what do you say? Would you like to work with us?โ€
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Y/Nโ€™s POV (One week ago)
I had been staring at my computer screen for too long. Knowing I wasnโ€™t getting anywhere, I pushed away from my desk and collapsed on my bed. I never felt exhaustion this bad like I did now. So much as happened during these past few weeks that I feel like I canโ€™t keep up. Maybe I need to start from the beginning.
Flashback (Two weeks prior)
Pulling up my camera, I press record and wait three to five seconds before starting. โ€œYโ€™all.โ€ I huff, still trying to catch my breath. โ€œWhen I made this address, I was expecting to get some packages here or there. The post office called me and told me that I need to come pick up my packages now. Because they were overflowing. I thoughtโ€ฆ.You know what, let me just show you instead.โ€ I pick up a huge draw bag of packages inside. โ€œI have three of these and thatโ€™s not including these.โ€ I grab a basket of letters or other small packages. โ€œI had to take my grandfatherโ€™s truck because my car was too small to fit everything in it. I honestly thought that I wasnโ€™t going to get this much stuff. Hell Iโ€™m afraid that I wonโ€™t be able to get through all of these before they call me again saying I have more waiting. I told yโ€™all I donโ€™t need anything, I already have too much.โ€ I start looking around my room. โ€œWhere the hell am I going to put all this? I have no room, ugh.โ€ I turned back to the camera. โ€œI love yโ€™all to death but this is way too much.โ€
Looking around, I let out a big sigh. โ€œIโ€™m grateful honestly. Donโ€™t get me wrong, Iโ€™m not mad or upset. Iโ€™m more surprised than anything. I donโ€™t want yโ€™all to waste your money on me. I rather you keep that for bills, food, clothes, etc. Though at the end of the day, I canโ€™t stop you from sending anything.โ€ I sit down in my chair, worn out since those bags were heavy. โ€œI know I made a promise to all of you that I will record everything that I open, but then again I didnโ€™t expect to get this much fan mail. Iโ€™ll do my best to record what I can. Hopefully. What I canโ€™t, Iโ€™ll try to out Thank You letters.โ€ I laugh a little to myself. โ€œI feel like Iโ€™m digging myself a hole. Making all these promises and talking about sending out letters. I just donโ€™t want to let anybody down. I want all you to know that I appreciate everything that you do and I donโ€™t want any of you to feel left out if I donโ€™t show me opening up your package or letter.โ€
I get up and grab one of the big bags. โ€œIโ€™ve got to record an upcoming video, but as soon as I can I will record myself opening up some of these packages. I could do a livestream of me opening some of them too. Iโ€™ll have to see how Iโ€™m feeling that day. Either way I love yโ€™all and I hope you have a great day. Bye!โ€ I turn the camera off and I instantly drop my shoulders and head. โ€˜Why do I do this to myself? I knew I was in over my head when I did this.โ€™ I look down at all the stuff people sent. โ€œWell, I better get started on the album review before I worry too much about these.โ€
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Third Person POV (Before Y/Nโ€™s video above)
The boys had been worrying/stressing over what to send to Y/N. Chan had convinced the rest of the boys to send a gift and a letter from each of them so that she would know who itโ€™s from. Some of them knew exactly what they wanted to send, others couldnโ€™t make up their minds. Each one decided that they would all send their stuff at one time so hopefully she would get them all around the same time. Lee Know walked into Felixโ€™s room, seeing the Sunshine himself writing a letter. He knocks on the door to announce his presence.
Felix turns to his older Hyung. โ€œHey.โ€ Lee Know grins, and Felix responds back. โ€œHey.โ€ His Hyung sits by him. โ€œHowโ€™s it going?โ€ Felix drops his head on his gaming desk. โ€œTerrible. I canโ€™t think of anything to write.โ€ Lee Know observes him before replying back. โ€œYou donโ€™t have to think about it so much. Just write what comes to your head.โ€ Felix scuffs. โ€œEasy for you to say. You donโ€™t overthink everything like I do.โ€ Felix runs his fingers through his hair. โ€œNormally I could already know what Iโ€™d want to tell someone. Right now, Iโ€™m coming up blank.โ€ Felix frustrated with himself, pulls on his hair.
โ€œDo you want to see what I wrote?โ€ Felix turns to his Hyung. โ€œI donโ€™t want to copy what you wrote Lee Know Hyung.โ€ Lee Know smirks. โ€œI know. I wrote two of them, in case you couldnโ€™t think of anything. Theyโ€™re not the same letter. Here, take it.โ€ He pulls it from his back pocket. โ€œYou can always rewrite it in your own hand writing if you want.โ€ He gets up to leave before turning around. โ€œWeโ€™re sending them out tomorrow, so have it ready by tonight.โ€ Felix nods his head smiling. โ€œThank you Hyung.โ€ Lee Know returns the smile. โ€œYouโ€™re welcome.โ€
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After Y/N had recorded and edited both versions of the review for Oddinary mini album, she sent one to JYP and saved the other for when the release date comes. She decided sheโ€™d take a small break before she would start recording herself on opening fan mail. She had to waited a couple of days before she got the chance to record herself again.
โ€œHello Lovelies and welcome back to the channel! So today we are going to start opening some of these packages today since I have so many. I will fair warn you, Iโ€™m bad with names so if I donโ€™t pronounce your name correctly, donโ€™t get mad at me.โ€ I laugh lightly. โ€œThese will probably be different videos since I know Iโ€™m not going to be able to open all of them in just one video. Okay letโ€™s get into shall we?โ€
Little did Y/N know there were eight boys who were waiting for her videos to come out. They wanted to see her reaction to their gifts they gave her. When the day finally came, they all gathered around a TV watching her. โ€œWhat in the world is this?โ€ She pulls out a package and sees thereโ€™s no name on it. Itโ€™s also from a PO Box address, but itโ€™s from Seoul, South Korea. She looks at the camera with a questionable expression on her face. Pulling out her scissors and cuts the package open. The first thing she grabs is a letter with her name on it. She opens it and what she does next makes all the boys happy. Her jaw drops, โ€œThereโ€™s no fucking way. This cannot be real.โ€ She looks at the camera, back to the letter then back to the camera again. She swallows slowly before speaking.
Dear Y/N,
Iโ€™ve been following your videos since you reacted to our MV Godโ€™s Menu. The guys and I have been quite the fans of yours. When we saw that you created a PO Box, we knew that we wanted to give you something from each of us. We hope that you enjoy everything that you get and thank you for always supporting us through our journey.
Signed,
Lee Felix
She tears up a little bit and she wipes her eyes immediately with her hands. โ€œSo that means youโ€™ve seen me make a fool out of myself this entire time. Damn. Well at least you know this is the real me. What you see is what you get. Now you just made a lot of Stays very jealous.โ€ She laughs and points at the camera. โ€œYโ€™all donโ€™t come after me now.โ€ She puts the letter to the side and opens the package more so she can see whatโ€™s inside. She pulls back and starts laughing really hard. โ€œFelix, have I ever told you how much I love you? Because I really do. Hold on everyone, Iโ€™m about to show you what he got me.โ€ She pulls out a container of brownies he made along with the recipe on top. โ€œI knew the package looked weird but I know understand why. He said that he had to use vegetable oil to preserve them while being shipped.โ€ She looks at the camera and smiling. โ€œThank you Felix, really. I will definitely enjoy these.โ€ She puts them off to the side and grabs something else out of the package, she turns it over to see a little bracelet with him skzoo on it. โ€œOoh , I love that. Thatโ€™s very precious.โ€๏ฟผ
She turns to look at her other bags. โ€œJust so Iโ€™m not constantly thinking about the other guysโ€™ packages. Iโ€™m going to see if I have them all, so I can open them one after the other. Iโ€™m quite nervous now. Especially since I know theyโ€™ll be watching this video.โ€ The boys canโ€™t help but smile at her. She searches through the bags and manages to find all of them. โ€œThis one looks promising.โ€ She had grabbed Hyunjinโ€™s and carefully opened it. What was inside made her gasp. It was a painting of flowers in a glass vase. The painting itself was kind of mute, but had pops of colors on the flowers. โ€œThat is so beautiful Hyunjin, I love it. Did I ever tell you that my grandmother is an artist herself?โ€ Hyunjinโ€™s eyes widen hearing that statement and the boys do too. She steps out of view and calls for her grandmother.
Her grandmother comes into view. โ€œOne of my fans painted this far me.โ€ Her grandmother complements the painting and Hyunjin lets out a breath he didnโ€™t know he was holding. He had also given her some facial mask since he knew she enjoyed those more than makeup. Each member gave her a letter with similar words to Felixโ€™s with hopes that they will get to meet her one day. Since they knew she didnโ€™t like very expensive items they went for more sentimental value ideas. Seungmin had given her a book that he enjoyed reading and even went out of the way to get her a box of tea he liked. I.N. gave her their Oddinary album book and an unreleased box of photo cards. Changbin had given her a couple of their shirts from the Oddinary merch collection. Han had gifted her a new light stick with a Quokka keychain.
Y/N thanking all the boys for their wonderful gifts had finally reached the last two members. If anyone ever asked her which two she would consider as her biases, she would tell them Chan and Lee Know. While she loves all of the members equally, those two (including Felix) stood out the most to her. One package is bigger than the other, but only by a little. Both feel soft like a pillow and sheโ€™s torn over which one to open first. She almost forgets that sheโ€™s being recorded. โ€œI donโ€™t know which one to open first.โ€ She laughs to herself. โ€œI have a feeling that thereโ€™s more clothing in both of these. I guess Iโ€™ll go with this one.โ€ She grabs the slightly smaller one and cuts carefully. Inside is a hoodie and not just any hoodie, one sheโ€™s very familiar with. She pulls the letter out and opens it. Sheโ€™s glad she knows how to speak and read Korean, otherwise she would have to use her phone to translate.
Y/N,
I normally donโ€™t like sending things to people, but for you I will make an exception. Your channel has brought me comfort on days that are hard. I never realized how much they meant to me until I unconsciously found myself looking up your videos. I want to give you this, to have on your bad days. To know that youโ€™re not alone and have people who care about you. I have included a small bottle of my cologne that you can spray on it when my smell starts to fade. I also included a special Leebit plush that hasnโ€™t been released yet. Thank you for being your true self and making others happy.
Sincerely,
Lee Minho
Y/N had tears rolling down her face, but she didnโ€™t go to wipe them. Lee Know didnโ€™t know whether if he went too far or if his gift wasnโ€™t good enough. But she turned to the camera and smiled at it, hoping Lee Know could see her. โ€œ๋ฆฌ๋…ธ๋‹˜ ์ •๋ง ๊ฐ์‚ฌ๋“œ๋ฆฝ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋งˆ์Œ์— ๋“ค๊ณ  ์ž˜ ๋ณด์‚ดํŽด ๋“œ๋ฆฌ๊ฒ ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.โ€ He smiled right back. โ€œ์ฒœ๋งŒ์—์š”.โ€ She grabs a tissue and wipes her face. โ€œOkay this is the last, then Iโ€™ll end the video here.โ€ She opens the last package and inside is black jacket with white writing on it. Her eyebrows scrunch together as she looks at it. Once she realizes what it is she looks at the camera with her hands on her hips. โ€œChristopher. Now I know damn well that you better not have spent a lot of money on this jacket. Donโ€™t act like I donโ€™t know my clothing brands, I know just how much this cost and itโ€™s too much.โ€ She shakes her head like a mother would when sheโ€™s disappointed in her son. โ€œGood grief. What am I going to do with you, mmhm?โ€ She pulls out the letter and opens it.
Dear Y/N,
I wanted to be honest with you from the start. When Stays first talked about you and how much you were like me, I didnโ€™t know how to feel. I felt like someone was trying to copy me. It didnโ€™t help that the rest of the guys absolutely adored you and talked about you constantly. You were always somewhere in my head, and I couldnโ€™t get you out. I tried but it only seemed to make it worse. It wasnโ€™t until I found you crying your eyes out that it all changed. Iโ€™m not saying that you crying is what made me change my views about you, but it made me realize that youโ€™re a human being like me. Seeing you upset made me want to comfort you. You were holding my skzoo to dear life. I let my emotions control my thoughts of a person without getting to know who they were. I wanted to give you something to remember me by. This jacket is actually mine, and I also included something to spray on it when the smell starts to fade. Thereโ€™s one important item in here that I want you to have. Itโ€™s not mine but itโ€™s a replica. I want you to have it and remember that not also are you by our side, but we are by your side too.
Sincerely,
Bahng Christopher Chan โค๏ธ
Y/Nโ€™s emotions were all over the place. He was jealous of her because he thought she was copying him. But it changed when he realized that she was a kind person all along?? Chan was definitely feeling the heat from not just waiting for her response but also from the looks on his members faces. They see her pull out a bracelet. Itโ€™s the same Stay bracelet that Chan wears. She finally spoke up. โ€œWow, um I donโ€™t know how to feel about this. I for one appreciate you being honest with me. I donโ€™t understand why you would be jealous of someone youโ€™ve never met, but then again I donโ€™t see things from your point of view. I mean I guess I could understand, if you have people who say that Iโ€™m exactly like you. Though thatโ€™s not entirely true. Um, Iโ€™m kind of at a loss for words right now. I donโ€™t hate it, believe me I donโ€™t. I love the gift, I love all of them. The letter just kind of makes me want to ask, where did I go wrong?โ€
She looks back up at the camera before continuing. โ€œIโ€™m willing to look past this, as long as you and I can both get along together. And to Stays, please do not go bashing Chan for any reasons. I better not find any of yโ€™all being mean to my boy. Iโ€™ll find you.โ€ She points her index and middle fingers to her eyes then to the camera. As if saying โ€˜Iโ€™m watching you.โ€™ โ€œI could see that if it were the other way around, Iโ€™m sure that he would react the same way as me if I were him in this situation. But outside of that, I greatly appreciate the gift Chris. Thank you.โ€
โ€œThank you all for watching! I hope to have more of these videos up soon. Until then, I will see you next time. Bye!โ€
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Present day
Which brings Y/N to today. When she arrived at work, the overhead boss told her that the CEO wanted to see her. She started replaying everything sheโ€™s done and nothing stands out. The only thing she could think was something outside of work that had to do with her channel. After her Oddinary review went up, she had received a call from an out of country phone number. She didnโ€™t answer as she didnโ€™t know anyone outside of the States. Maybe besides the email she got from JYP, but there wasnโ€™t a phone number listed.
She had let it go to voicemail, hoping that if it were important that they would leave a message. They left a message and what she heard stunned her.
โ€œ์•ˆ๋…•ํ•˜์„ธ์š”, ์ €๋Š” MNet Digital Studios์—์„œ ์ „ํ™”๋ฅผ ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋‚˜๋Š” ์—ฌ๊ธฐ ์ž…์žฅ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด y/f/n๊ณผ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด ์ „ํ™”ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋‹ค์‹œ ์ „ํ™”ํ•ด ์ฃผ์‹œ๋ฉด ๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•˜๊ฒ ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์•ˆ๋…•.โ€
(A/N: I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I kind of threw some things together hoping that theyโ€™d work. Wasnโ€™t really sure what I wanted each member to gift to the reader, but I hope it makes sense. Anyways thereโ€™s more to come!)
((A/A/N: I forgot to add the translations in.
Blue- โ€œThank you so much Lee Know. I love it so much and I will take very good care of it.โ€
Green- โ€œYouโ€™re welcome.โ€
White- โ€œHi, Iโ€™m calling from MNet Digital Studios. Iโ€™m calling to speak with Y/F/N about a position here. If you could please call us back. Bye.โ€ ))
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capsensislagamoprh ยท 3 months
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The gates to Arcadia were never meant to be closed. Towering spires made of dreams and that which time had forgot wove together to make a barrier of unfathomable weave, thick with want and desire. Deadly in its seduction for things one could never obtain, it swallowed trespassers in a maze of there own fallacies. A price was never to high to escape. Few did. The gates were meant to form a thorny warning to those who seek the keeper of dreams, a being so powerful it was known only as the Wyld. The world had once headed the Wyld, its call seductive, promising everything if you were willing to sacrifice. Its places were sacred, its laws ever changing and absolute. Then man decided they didn't need to fear, they had fire, they had stone, they had the power to combine, adapt. The adaption was, as all dreams knew, the issue.
Humans forgot where the adaption came from. They made up names for it. Names they controlled. Names that did not change. And then, to the determent of all, they tried to control the dream itself. All the fragile human world suffered, and still they did not know why. They did not understand the agony of nightmares unchecked, of trying to reach thrugh the glittering spires of unpronounceable things. They did it because they forgot there place. Mortals, all mortals, die. Death is not to be feared. Only the unmaking, where one is considered to the very smallest thing. One was ether adjusted, or broken. Broken things went into the belly of the Wyrm. Adjustments were painful, but worthy of the time. The unmaking of a being touched everything except the first dream. Even then, the first dream was not immune to the sundering. When humans forgot mortality and empathy, when they filled the land with excuses, the gates closed, and the dream - that ephemeral thing exploring the world its own matter created - was broken into many beings. Immortality could no longer remember its own name. Its cost was horrendous. It broken form glittered into pieces. Those locked in Arcadia were called elves by most, fey by some who knew better, but they had an older name. Something so horrifyingly pure it resonated in the spirit of everything. Those unfortunate enough to be stuck in the material world lost much of there sparkling power. They diminished, until at last they too became bound to the cycle of remaking. They would live lives only they knew, and they would live as mortals; they would die. They would be torn apart in the great belly of the Wyrm, finery shredded for parts to bolster other failing dreams. All there parts would come out the other end as glittering bits for the Wyld to mold, the Weaver to put together. The cycle would begin again. The noble fey - those dreamed elves for there ever glowing beauty - were not so fortunate on the material side of Arcadia. They had but one life, and if the mortal shell died... Otherwise, they were functionally immortal. They did not age, or loose control of there bodies and minds such as humans did when the end was near. For this they paid dearly. Boredom, that horrid, soulless ennui, would normally take a fey into a depression spiral the likes of which bolstered less scrupulous mental health professionals to great wealth. At worst it would sleep the soul inside the fey until it could be awoke by something that called to its very essence. Unless you were a noble. A noble made sure they had someone to talk to. Someone to get them out of there hideous spiral before it caused them to die. No one wanted the shame of dyeing of boredom. Literally. Which, Victor thought, was exactly why it was a very good thing he was on the correct side of Arcadia. It had been eons since the gates of Dream had cracked open just that tiny bit. Humans had learned to touch the sacred shield. Or, as they called it, the moon.
The day the gates opened just that touch, most of his people stayed put, fear etching there perfect visages. Victor had moved. He had gathered the Lord of the Winter Sun, dreamed from all the things that made mortals worthy of exhalation, made them heroes, and set out to see just what had become of that ever exciting place where things constantly moved and dreams were slow to change. Maybe the place would allow Victor to smile, to feel something other than cold duty.
The mortal realm had smelled. Bad. It was wet and dry, and it consumed things with its fleshy bits rather than sipping the nectar of its spirit to sustain. It had an abundance of everything, and so many broken beings, Victor began to wonder if it was worth peaking thrugh at all, let alone the day trip. Then, tragically, the doors to Arcadia began to shut again. He was propelled bodily thru the thin cracks still remaining, landing as a most elegant heap on the other side. But the doors were closing faster than they had opened, and his trusted knight remained on the wrong side of the gates, his dark eyes seeming to say it was okay. This is what he was made for. To protect. He was the Hero, and Victor was the Winter King. When it came down to it, Victor mattered more to natures balance than a mere dream of humanity, no matter how many tales had been woven into the Hero's being. Victor knew this. Victor could rationalize this. Victor was made of wondrous things, and all of them cried out in broken agony. He could feel something inside crack. He knew what fate waited for fey on the material side of the gates. How was he going to face what waited for him in the Shimmering Cascade? How would he face Yuri? His cousin was going to gut him.
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carpisuns ยท 1 year
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theOrEticalLy . if I opened commissions at some point. would there be. a smackerel of interest . ??
#i have never opened them bc itโ€™s intimidating and I donโ€™t know how to price things!!#but mostly bc i work full time w a good salary so I donโ€™t really need side things to make money#like it feels selfish to suggest that people should pay me to make fanart?? When#a) I already do that for free bc i enjoy it lol#and b) there are so many creators out there who are struggling to make ends meet#and I am privileged enough to generally not have to worry about that#this would be just like extra spending money to fund my scented candle habit DHDJDN#and the clothes I just bought while trying to Discover My Vibe and Finally Be Myself (at age 28 lol)#also tbh it would likely be reinvested in other commissions bc I buy commissions fairly often lol#anyway. idk the idea of commissions always sounded cool but also guilt inducing and scary#it feels weird and silly bc it would make me have to take my art seriously if that makes sense??#like me saying โ€˜I think Iโ€™m good enough at art that people would buy it from me.โ€™ that feels so bold and like. arrogant or something dhjsjd#coming from me I mean. just a silly little guy who still struggles to draw human limbs properly#ok Iโ€™m thinking about how Iโ€™d have to make a commission sheet and put a dollar sign on my art and Iโ€™m aaaaaaa#and Iโ€™d have to execute exactly what people want and what if I canโ€™t!!!#omg ok maybe noT help lol#well im not committing to anything rn im simply. asking a question while the dash is asleep and then running off to bed seeya#i think part of me always wanted to try commissions to see if I could be a Real Artist about it ??#and potentially end up with like. Portfolio pieces ??#why I would need an art portfolio I donโ€™t know. I am an editor. What do I think I will be doing here#ppl left comments on my animatic that have been giving me crazy what if thoughts. sit down#donโ€™t look at me#ohhh swirly brain thoughts I need to sleep
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bloodheartz ยท 18 days
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I really need to start looking into whatโ€™s been causing my psychosis since my fucking toddler years but I have so much shit going on rn I donโ€™t know if I have the energy too. Hhhh
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umhuhwellthen ยท 4 months
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Just discovered the tag Character Death Fix
So Inazuma is no longer dead in my Usatello Single Dads AU, because she's a badass swordsman and totally survived having Jei yucking it about in her body and she's Usagi's cool and pretty friend switches between silent solidarity and teasing the hell out of him like all his other friends
Usagi deserves more friends! And this AU was made to give him things I believe he deserves!
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serkonans ยท 2 months
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the way we handle medical leave in the states even for people with good benefits is cruel
#the number of hoops i have to jump through. the way that my requirements for one surgery are apparently different from another surgery#even though there's nothing in the paperwork to indicate any need for that and the surgeries don't differ all that much#the way that they lost my initial letter and now i'm up against my deadline next week and they haven't even told me what day next week#so i'm worried that it's literally tomorrow#the way i am not receiving ANY pay for an entire month because of all the delays so i'm having to live off my savings#the way that every single person i've talked to has said something different about what is and isn't required#the way that for a lot of this i had to be navigating it while high on painkillers immediately post-surgery#the way that the group my employer contracts through has two different emails and names and flips between them constantly#the way that my healthcare provider does it differently than every other healthcare provider so i need special forms from them#instead of the leave group but then the leave group doesn't seem to accept the forms that they send#the way that the doctors office has seemed incredibly confused by my requests#the way that the ROI office told me they'd send over a completed form and never did#the way i literally don't even know who to call next to try and sort this out or if it's possible TO sort out#like i guess i'll call the leave group tomorrow and cry and beg for an extension. i guess i'll grovel bc it's the difference#of getting a few thousand dollars or not and i can't just be like oh well guess i won't get my short term disability pay#especially bc none of the hospitals have billed me yet and i'm getting scared bc i don't know what my ER bill is going to look like#bc they did xrays and a CT scan and they gave me a splint and a sling and a lot of drugs#so i do need the money. just sitting here like. idek what to do lmfao.#not tagging this bc i'm on desktop and i can't do the accent mark easily and idk where my phone is rn sorry
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the-busy-ghost ยท 1 year
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Heard a Full-Grown Adult who was sitting behind me on the train tonight genuinely say โ€œI donโ€™t know why people are worrying about the cost of livingโ€ and honestly even if he was joking, Iโ€™m amazed his girlfriend didnโ€™t dump him on the spot
#Poor lassie tried to explain why it's not a good thing; personally I was tempted to chuck him off the train#And I say this by the way as someone who is *not* worrying about it personally as I know I'm ok for money#but I am worrying for everyone else I know and within thirty seconds I could come up with dozens of scenarios#where the cost of living crisis would destroy even a relatively well-off family's life#Like ok say my mum had got ill when I was two instead of when I was 25#Even aside from the fact that you know the family was already ruined by the fact that she was dying#There would have been no savings to fall back on and my dad couldn't have supplemented his income#because he would have been taking care of a toddler and being a full-time carer to my mum and two dogs#And he wouldn't have had adult children to help and maybe the company would have given full pay for a while#but either way eventually my mum would have been on statutory sick pay with energy bills doubled#a mortgage repayment schedule which has become even more expensive as it was renegotiated during Liz Truss' mismanagement#Petrol bills through the roof and no option to take public transport because unreliable and rail strikes#I think he'd be well past worried at that point if not actually destitute#And my mum was a chartered accountant#Imagine the cost if she had been on minimum wage or if she had been in a very valuable but low-paid profession like nursing#And you don't even need illness to crop up for most lower-income professions anyway because everything is beyond your means#Or how about the fact that old age pensions are below living wage#I hate to use a personal example but honestly did this guy just not have any life experience whatsoever#had he never met someone who made all the right decisions but fate screwed them or were just scraping by#Was he just saying that to get a rise out of his girlfriend (I doubt this as he was then very dismissive about single mothers)#Or was he just the most callous person in existence#Calmly and unapologetically existing on a train in Scotland#Move over Scrooge; take a seat Maggie Thatcher; there's a new kid in town#I would like to scream
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strohller27 ยท 3 months
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#i am a ball of anxiety right now#I have an exam coming up that I have to prepare for and I wish I could be cool about it but I am struggling#and I donโ€™t know what the futureโ€™s gonna be like in 4 months. i have no idea whatโ€™s gonna happen.#I know what I want to have happen. so Iโ€™m just gonna keep doing whatever I can to strive for that#but like Iโ€™m thisclose to losing my composure man.#and I hate that this is how I always seem to end up.#my situations are always precarious and I donโ€™t feel stable and Iโ€™m worried Iโ€™ll never be able to provide for myself#and I hate that my main thought processes usually amount to โ€˜if I donโ€™t do [x] Iโ€™ll save money on [y].โ€™#because a lot of times it means Iโ€™m thinking โ€˜if I donโ€™t eat breakfast then I can eat [breakfast thing] for lunch instead#and if I do that I can โ€‹put off buying [product] for another week!โ€™#and then Iโ€™m distracted because Iโ€™m hungry because Iโ€™m saving money by not eating breakfast#and then I get worried that if I donโ€™t eat enough I wonโ€™t write my exams as well as I could if I were well-fed#and then I stress about where Iโ€™m gonna find the money to get enough food to fill me up and ughhh#(also I hate that Iโ€™m not in a place in my life where I can feasibly date right now#but that having shared responsibilities would make my life so much easier/my situation more secure. That shit is Not Fair.)#Iโ€™m so tired of living like this.#I need a hug
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megumi's teacher โ€” gojo satoru x reader
tags/warnings: fluff. fem!reader. gojo beefing with an eight year old. 700 words.
ever since megumi started the second grade, it's been (l/n)-sensei this. (l/n)-sensei that.
gojo picks up megumi's favorite ice cream, only to be scolded by the young boy. "(l/n)-sensei's favorite flavor is strawberry, so that's my favorite now!"
gojo tries to help him with his math homework, and it's "(l/n)-sensei did it this way. that means you should too!"
gojo reaches down to tie megumi's shoes for him, before his hand is promptly smacked away. "(l/n)-sensei said big boys tie their own shoes!"
honestly, gojo is starting to feel a little jealous. megumi's known you for what? two months?
he's been raising megumi for the past few years, but does that earn him an ounce of the adoration the young boy seems to have for you?
apparently not, though he perseveres nonetheless.
he and megumi are spending the afternoon out in the city and they stop at a small bakery for lunch.
while megumi is distracted looking at all the sweets behind the glass counter, the bell on the door draws gojo's attention.
his eyes fall upon a pretty young woman. actually, you might just be the prettiest woman he's ever seen.
and of course, a smirk forms on his lips when he catches you looking his way. he's puffing out his chest, running a hand through his hair.
he's always had a certain effect on the ladies, and he's never been more happy about that until this very momentโ€”
"megumi?" you call from a few feet away. the wide smile adorning your face makes you look even more radiant.
while gojo visibly deflates, megumi's head whips around at the speed of light. "(l/n)-sensei!"
oh.
gojo very quickly comes to understand why the boy is so enamored by you.
megumi launches himself at you, while you crouch to meet him with open arms.
"i'm so happy to see you!" he practically sings, clinging to your neck.
you chuckle at his enthusiasm. "i'm happy to see you too, 'gumi."
gojo clears his throat, hoping that megumi will take the chance to introduce you two, but he is completely ignored.
"what are you going to get? i'll buy it for you," he states proudly, despite having zero money of his own.
your gaze shifts to gojo for the first time, and having your attention even just for a brief moment takes his breath away.
"that's very sweet megumi, but that's alright." you ruffle his hair when he pouts at your words, standing back up. "who's this?"
"oh that's just gojo. don't worry about him," he states with a wave of his hand.
the white haired man gawks at him in response. the nerve on that kid! he silently decides megumi will be losing dessert privileges for a week. no, two.
you stifle a giggle before offering your hand to him and introducing yourself as megumi's teacher.
he repeats your name, taking satisfaction in the way it sounds rolling off his tongue.
"that's a pretty name," he compliments, trying to recover from megumi's dismissal. "heard a lot about you. in fact, the kid never shuts up about you."
this earns him a glare from megumi, but gojo is too preoccupied with the shy look that crosses your features to notice.
gojo insists on paying for your order, a show of appreciation for taking such good care of megumi in class. you chat with the pair of them for a little while longer before eventually excusing yourself.
"thank you again, gojo-san. i'll see you on monday, megumi!"
just as you're turning on your heel, gojo calls your name and you look back at him expectantly.
"when, uh," he struggles, scratching the back of his neck. "when do i get to see you?"
nice.
"oh! well, parent-teacher conferences are only a few weeks away! i'll look forward to seeing you then," you answer sweetly, misunderstanding the meaning behind his words.
you bid them goodbye once more and they both watch your figure disappear down the street.
megumi turns to look at gojo smugly. "weeks? that sounds like a really long timeโ€”"
"shut it, kid."
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seraphdreams ยท 4 months
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SMILE, YOU'RE ON CAMERA. | YUUTA OKKOTSU.
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๐“ฒ เฃชโ‚Šโ™ก๐“‚ƒ โ€” synopsis. when taking care of your university finances proves troublesome, the universe grants you your very own savior. but itโ€™s gonna cost you.
๐“ฒ เฃชโ‚Šโ™ก๐“‚ƒ โ€” cw. smut, college au!yuuta / bimbo reader (obvi), filming, lots of porn referencesโ€ฆ a lot, virginity loss, praise, oral n fingering, slight obsession, pussydrunk yuuta, unprotected love making, yuutaโ€™s rich and unsettling. mdni <3
๐“ฒ เฃชโ‚Šโ™ก๐“‚ƒ โ€” word count. 5.3k
๐“ฒ เฃชโ‚Šโ™ก๐“‚ƒ โ€” dolled up! omg, yuuta? i meant to have this out a few weeks ago but got caught in a little writing slump :( nevertheless, hereโ€™s to a new year and a new fic! yuutaโ€™s been slowly creeping his way up my favs list , tehe !! as always, please reblog / comment if you enjoyed this , itโ€™ll fill me with joy. thank u โ™ก
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youโ€™re a pornstar.
albeit, an amateur one with heaps to learn regarding the ruthless industry, but the weight still stands.
the details in which you came to the jarring conclusion were muddled with the convoluted steps that it took for you to get there, murky in your bubblegum-filled mind. all you knew was that yuuta okkotsu was a force, a gentle one, to be reckoned with.
it mustโ€™ve played out once you returned to your campus dorm beyond the dusk of midnight, under an unmitigating fatigue from the twelve hour waitressing shift just prior. through abhorrent patrons and the lack of a spendable paycheck, the excruciatingly long night barely made you enough money to even think about buying those dollish pumps youโ€™ve been yearning for. how cruel.
in between working and haphazardly handing your earnings over to university fees and textbooks, you just couldnโ€™t seem to make ends meet.
you would curse the day you took it upon yourself to branch away financially from your parents under the guise of growing up, since now itโ€™d be a blessing to have even a cellphone bill paid off. whatever the issue seemed to be, lady luck was truly never bothered enough to be on your side.
fortunately for you, though, it was that same arduous night, you had been huddled against your stuffed animals in bed, mindlessly scrolling through the various social media apps on your phone; switching from sites like instagram and twitter to youtube then right back to instagram all over again, only to be met with an offer dusted in pink glitter that caught your eye as if it were made for you.
โ€œstars needed โ€” will pay upfront.โ€
it was a shoddy story post, one that could be clicked past and forgotten forever โ€” yet, a brisk reminder of your situation in the form of borrowed, used textbooks with pages missing or vandalized, and todayโ€™s horoscope that said to take risks; you did exactly that, aiming a swipe up that would ultimately rid you of the worries of yesterday.
there were no reasons as to why you couldnโ€™t be a star. certainly, you had the face for it, and you were told by multiple charmers that you were beyond beguiling to get anything you could ever ask for. what dismay could possibly unfold from contacting .. yuuta okkotsu .. about his offer?
hm, thatโ€™s funny. the name rang familiarity as it seeded in your mind.
must be one of yuujiโ€™s friends.
itadori yuuji, your best friend of three years now. out of all the time youโ€™d spent together, you came to realize that he could get along with anyone, despite their true intentions. he spoke highly of his friends as well, which earned him a sacred spot in your heart that couldnโ€™t be replaced by anyone.
itadori had briefly mentioned in a ramen-fueled frenzy that one of his peers were โ€œso insanely talentedโ€ and that youโ€™d definitely get on with him. but when you asked for validity on that vague claim, all yuuji seemed to respond with was a mere โ€œjust meet him, youโ€™ll see.โ€
from your recollection, the acquaintance he was boasting about, as if it was his own personal victory, was none other than your yuuta okkotsu. he was meek, stuck to a close-knit friend group consisting of maki and toge from your physics class, and the one time you ever spoke to him was to ask about yuujiโ€™s whereabouts, to which he responded that he went back to his dorm after gojo-senseiโ€™s lecture.
he seemed, normal. average, even. that surely had to be the case since your memory was hazy on his being otherwise.
it was true, though, yuuta was gifted. in a way that transcended words, skillful towards visual aesthetics, and careful with the craft. he would spend most of his freetime fumbling with a camera or recording the works of the mundane. overtly, heโ€™d grown such a strong passion in the field of videography in hopes to capture the reality of humanity, the authenticity within intimacy โ€” what could he possibly need a โ€œstarโ€ for?
shadiness aside, you were in a tough spot, willing to do whatever to free yourself from the financial burden that was jujutsu technical university. with a swift swipe in tandem with the soft tapping of the pads of your thumbs on the keyboard, you were taking yuuta up on his offer.
within seconds, he responded back with his address and an appropriate meet-up date to start the project.
if only you were aware of how drastically your life would change from here on out.
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a cluster of days had passed since you last got into contact with yuuta. he had told you to meet him at his place, claiming it would be more efficient than traveling to an unnamed destination with pounds of heavy photography equipment.
where you stood currently, was in front of the bare oak of his front door, hand wrapped in a loose fist as you knocked gently on the wood. a quick moment had passed by before you took initiative to raise your fist and knock once more. before your touch could meet the wood, a muffled โ€œcoming!โ€ chimed beyond the door. from what you had heard on the other side; the scuttling behind the door and jingle of the lock, yuuta had opened the door soon after.
with his hand rubbing away the goosebumps that stood at the back of his neck, he beamed. cordially, warmly.
โ€œyouโ€™re actually here. hi,โ€
upon first glance, yuuta had a distinct look. he stood tall, not tall enough to matter or incite intimidation, and although he wore a black button-up (a bit formal for an occasion as casual as today), his lean build shone through under the thin fabric, ripples of veins dancing up his forearms. what you couldnโ€™t miss, however, were the grey eyebags under his emotionless navy orbs, as if heโ€™d forgone weeks of sleep.
yuuta okkotsu was unsettling.
โ€œhi,โ€ your voice sounded as a sweet croon, dulcet enough that you could barely hear it yourself as it escaped in a breathy breeze. his smile grew softer in response, that monotonous gaze in his eyes fizzling away into something of serenity. โ€œcome in, please,โ€ yuuta held the door open wider for you to tread past, caught up in observing the bunch of fabric that hugged tightly around your ass, then closed it gently behind you once you stepped completely inside. he silently cursed at himself for ogling โ€” he truly didnโ€™t mean to stare. youโ€™re just a lot prettier up close. โ€œi was just getting set up. you can have a seat if youโ€™d like.โ€
as youโ€™d expect from any guy your age, his place wasnโ€™t much to gaze at, nor did it have much personality. in a corner to your right was a houseplant, that of the fern variety, and a few steps deeper into the abode was the living room, where yuuta resumed his fumbling with the transfiguration of his tripod.
you decided to sit on the couch across from him, taking in the bleak sight of his home. you would have almost believed it was unlived in had it not been for the scattered midterm review papers decorating his coffee table. it was obvious he had money from the endless rows of space that surrounded the two of you, although a candle or something would be nice.
he peered away from his tripod to look through the viewfinder of his camera, ensuring that the lens was functioning properly. he grew pleased to see the image of you distracted in fiddling with your thumbs reflected back at him. โ€œare you nervous?โ€ his gaze fell upon you through his own eyes, a concerned expression harboring his features.
you were pulled out of your muse of unfamiliarity to direct your attention to the sound of his mild voice, returning a smile to his that eased the worriment trapped behind dull, blue eyes. โ€œn-not really, i donโ€™t think.โ€
his lips curled up once more at that, in fact there wasnโ€™t a time so far that you hadnโ€™t noticed him without his signature smile. โ€œhere, let me help with that,โ€ reaching into his pocket, he pulled out his phone, tapping away at the screen before ultimately turning it back off and settling it back into its place in his pocket.
your phone vibrated beside you, screen lighting up with a bold alert.
[YUUTA OKKOTSU SENT $1000]
before you had a chance to even process the significance of the notification, he started back up,
โ€œi hope i got the right information, wouldnโ€™t want your hard work to get in the wrong hands.โ€ the tilt of his head in tandem with a chuckle resonated sheepishly, and he returned to watch you through his camera lens.
he was right. the money did soothe your nerves.
โ€œiโ€™ve barely done anything yet.โ€ a ditzy giggle followed soon after your sentence, a sound that yuuta couldnโ€™t possibly ignore. you were already starting to pull at his heartstrings.
โ€œand youโ€™ve done it so perfectly,โ€ his praise left you flustered in that moment and you bit down softly on your lower lip to keep your smile at bay. โ€œthank you, yuuta.โ€
you wouldโ€™ve never guessed that your introverted classmate had enough experience in him to be such a flirt, or have your cheeks heating up with fervid affection, no less. but maybe yuuta was just like that; maybe this had been natural.
โ€œno, thank you.โ€ his thumb hovered over the record button just as his eyes met your gaze over the brim of the camera. โ€œwould you like to start now?โ€
he took the nod of your head as confirmation to press the record button, finally getting started with the project.
you blinked blankly at him as he tilted his head and flashed a warmhearted grin. โ€œhow old are you?โ€ was his first question. he had asked while rolling up the sleeves of his shirt. as he did so, you took notice of the silver ring donned around his finger.
he couldnโ€™t have been married, no?
keeping your answer as vague as possible for the sake of matching his comforting warmth, you responded, โ€œtwenty-something.โ€ he let out a satisfied huff of air as he nodded and moved onto his next query.
โ€œand whatโ€™s your major?โ€
with the question barely having enough time to linger in the suggestively tense air, he added, โ€œyouโ€™re very beautiful, by the way. do you mind taking your dress off for me?โ€
as much as it shouldโ€™ve alarmed you, you were swayed by his toothachingly inviting timbre, its gentleness pulling compliancy from you in a matter of a few mere words. you only shook your head, forgoing the short piece of fabric that clung to each curve and dip of your body while your nipples hardened under the glacial, artificial breeze of his home. once the silk pooled at your hips, that, along with your panties were dropped onto the floor, leaving you bare and vulnerable under the camera โ€” and yuutaโ€™s watchful eye.
he swallowed thickly at the sight, remaining as respectful as he could despite the monster growing in his pants; his eyes locked right back onto yours as if heโ€™d get striked down for moving them even a millimeter south. โ€œare you a virgin?โ€ he queried, opting to move his hand from awkwardly at his side to fidgeting with the button at his shirt, ultimately undoing it and revealing another inch of skin at his heated chest.
from the nature of what you had signed yourself up for, you were hesitant to answer his question. of course you needed experience to be a star, and with you lacking the preconceived ability, you could kiss your $1000 goodbye..
yet he looked at you with an expectant gaze. no traces of malice in his eyes or frustration from your quick witted silence, but merely, with patience. and in that moment you couldnโ€™t find it within yourself to lie.
โ€œi am,โ€ out of shame, you curled in on yourself, hoping that the sofa would engulf you, and your feelings, crossing your arms over your bare chest as if itโ€™d create a wall of privacy behind your own humiliation. โ€œis that okay?โ€
yuutaโ€™s being only grew warmer at the response, you figured heโ€™d be hot to the touch by now, from searing pleasure or unshakeable cordiality, you wouldnโ€™t know. โ€œyeah, thatโ€™s okay,โ€ it came out breathier than he wouldโ€™ve liked, a telltale sign of his aching desire. โ€œthatโ€™s more than okay.โ€
truth be told, he had never met anyone as enchanting as you. you looked up at him with such trust in your eyes that it daunted him โ€” fear that the assurance he wielded from you would shatter beneath him, and heโ€™d be drowning. in a sea of his own wistfulness. now that he had you, he couldnโ€™t let you go.
you were on to make a breathtaking star.
now feeling less coy than before, you relaxed your head into the palm of yuutaโ€™s hand. you hadnโ€™t noticed how long heโ€™d been stroking at your cheek, or when he closed the vexing proximity between the two of you, all that mattered in that moment was the roll of his gentle vocables flowing through your ears and the thumb of his that graciously caressed your cheek.
you came to realize that he was much more handsome this way as your eyes toured his own, then down to the sliver of sweat-sheened skin peeking from underneath the black veil of his shirt, then down to hisโ€ฆ
heโ€™s so fucking hard.
confined against his slacks was his cock that leaked an ample amount even while it was untouched. you could make out its silhouette, something girthy, perhaps heavy, but nothing like youโ€™d expect from yuuta. uncharacteristically huge.
โ€œyuuta.โ€ you whispered, mainly to yourself, as your mouth began to water at the sight, and his cheeks dusted pink once he realized what you were fixated upon.
โ€œdo you wanna,โ€ he started up but faltered soon after when your lidded gaze flitted back up towards his. never had he felt so weak before, it was as if youโ€™d casted a spell on him. โ€œdo you maybe want toโ€”โ€ he paused to avert his own gaze and embarrassment. โ€œโ€”put it in your mouth?โ€
he couldโ€™ve sworn he heard the increase of his heartbeat in his ears when you crinkled your brows, pretty face forming into an even prettier pout.
โ€œbut iโ€™ve neverโ€”โ€
he stopped you before you could start, interjecting his own voice of reassurance.
โ€œitโ€™s okay. iโ€™ll guide you,โ€ taking his camera off its stand and moving the rest of the configuration elsewhere, he held it in one hand to better capture the scene unfolding before him. โ€œjust try your best for me, okay?โ€
โ€œokay.โ€ when he returned your concern with a small smile, you took it upon yourself to undo the arrangement of his pants, carefully hooking your finger into the elastic waistband of his briefs and pulling down just enough for his length to spring free.
for what felt like minutes, you marveled at his sheer size, wondering how anyone of his nature could possibly be hiding something like that. it curved upwards with a prominent vein or two running up the underside while it continued to leak, so much so, that you had to collect it all at the tip with your finger.
the tip? flushed the prettiest pink youโ€™d ever witnessed and was as bulbous as it was mushroomed, you knew youโ€™d have a bit of difficulty trying to fit into your mouth. it seemed to twitch under the fanning of your breath to which yuuta let out a whine of pure impatience.
โ€œcan i..?โ€ your words trailed off when you involuntarily found yourself pressing chaste kisses along the length of his cock until they met with his sticky tip; a recreated scene from the various porn videos youโ€™d seen. the sensation sent a jolt of palpable pleasure through his being, yuutaโ€™s dark hair curtaining over his eyes while he made a damn good attempt at silencing his moans, with his teeth sunken into his bottom lip.
your eyes kept watch at his wavering expression while you wrapped your hand at the base of his length and began to pump slowly, yet another thing you had learned through the fascinating world of porn.
โ€œsuck it,โ€ it was clear to you that yuuta had grown desirously impatient from your teasing, looking down at you with a hint of hunger in his beautiful orbs. โ€œplease?โ€
you took his words as an incentive to finally give him what heโ€™s been leaking for, wrapping gloss-sheened lips around the thick inches of his tip, accommodating for the stretch with a dulcet whine that reverberated deeply within him. had you not been caught up in building the gradual bob of your head, he wouldโ€™ve kissed you, left you with smeared lips and a tongue that ached for only him upon seeing the sinful sight of innocent eyes fixated on his own. youโ€™re beautiful. truly, to die for.
caught all on tape to be watched over and over again.
at the bliss, yuutaโ€™s lip parted open, alotting for a slur of groans turned whimpers to tumble past. โ€œyou- youโ€™re already doing, so good.โ€ he praises, the words floating on his breath. his free hand finds itself back at your face, thumbing the warmth of your hallowed cheek while he captured the moment behind his lens. once you came to a comfortable rhythm, you couldnโ€™t stop yourself from dipping your fingers between your thighs to ease the evergrowing ache in your core. in fact, youโ€™d been like this since the moment yuuta spoke a word to you, lightheaded and malleable โ€” what heโ€™s beginning to love most about you.
your digits collected slick at your entrance, the immeasurable amount of essence that youโ€™d pool providing ample leeway for you to sink three fingers inside, pumping at the same rhythm in which youโ€™re sucking yuuta. soft fingertips curling against your gummy walls werenโ€™t enough, though, and when he had caught notice of your weakening resolve, his hips involuntarily bucked into your mouth.
โ€œsorry, โ€˜m sorry,โ€ he began, with a choked moan. โ€œjust- so close, so fucking close. c-can you take me in deeper?โ€
the hum of assurance that sounded from you sent vibrations coursing through his cock, from tip to base. had you not been preoccupied with chasing your own high, you wouldโ€™ve missed the pitchy moan he let out just after. with your palm now pressed up against your clit while you worked in tandem to pleasure the nub and your greedy hole, you attempted to swallow another stubborn inch of him.
simultaneous with the bobbing of your head, he matched your pace, abdomen flexing when the white-hot pleasure became too much and he could feel it in his ears. he wanted so badly to throw his head back, completely lose himself in bliss, but he had a job to do. he wouldnโ€™t dare let the sight of your glassy lidded eyes and glossy lips struggling to wrap themselves around the stretch of his dick go unfilmed, unseen.
as his tip continued to prod the back of your throat and your fingers aided you in relieving the discomfort from your cunt, you found yourself just dangling off the dangerous edge of your release, strokes away from making a mess โ€” and yuuta did too.
it wasnโ€™t long until his head started spinning, legs got weaker, and his core coiled tighter; all the signs of a mindblowing orgasm, and blew his mind, you did. โ€œbaby- y/n, if you keep doing that- i might cum.โ€ what he was referring to was the way you fondled his balls in the warmth of your soft hands, yet another trick you had learned from porn. โ€œi donโ€™t wanna cum in your mouth but if youโ€”,โ€
a jumbled slew of curses flowed from his lips as he did the inevitable, shot his load deep down your throat, gently thrusting his cock in shallow strokes to jettison every last remaining drop. the taste on your tongue was nothing like youโ€™d be warned of before. yuuta wasnโ€™t bitter, he went down easy.
hell, youโ€™d use his cum as a condiment for desserts if you could.
in a matter of moments, your own high had washed over you like cold water over a heated body, much needed and refreshing. once he hesitantly pulled out from the heat of your mouth, cock still hard and twitching for more, he gently pushed back strands of loose hair behind your ear.
โ€œcan i see?โ€
you held out your cream-slickened fingers, sopping with your juices as yuuta proceeded to catch how they dripped on camera. he then took your palm, with the cadence of a knight kissing the back of a princessโ€™s hand, and slipped the soiled digits into his mouth. his tongue lavved around your index and middle fingers while he hummed satisfactorily at your taste. โ€œyouโ€™re just as sweet as i imagined.โ€ he smiled, finding amusement in your post-orgasmic, dazed state.
โ€œdo you do this with a lot of other girls, yuuta?โ€ you queried, taking the time to scan your eyes over his face. it was as if he seemed to get more attractive as your time with him went on. he tilted his head slightly, finding your question endearing. โ€œyouโ€™re my first, actually.โ€ yuuta responded softly, as if his normal speaking voice would be too heavy on your delicate ears.
you jumped at the chance to tease him as he did you, placing your thumb back over the slit of his hard-on and lightly rubbing; which resonated within yuuta as a tonal mewl. a little smile pulled at your lips when you got your perfect reaction. โ€œcan you be my first?โ€
โ€œiโ€™d love to be,โ€ he took your request with unadulterated honor as if heโ€™d been tasked by the deities above to serve you. โ€œjust- just lay back for me. i promise iโ€™ll take good care of you.โ€
and that you did; conforming to his call of request with such compliance it made his heart swell. you had positioned your body to rest languidly against the seat of the sofa, shaky legs hesitant to spread fully while your hand roamed up your sternum to find solace in kneading your tits.
he couldnโ€™t deny how beautiful you looked, laid out for him as such. how had he been so lucky to be the only one to have the opportunity to marvel at the scene? with a steady hand, he faintly trails his hand up the expanse of your inner thigh, a silent beckon for you to open your legs wider. involuntarily so, your body had accepted his presence and allowed for the spreading of your thighs.
what youโ€™d come to notice with yuuta was that he was watchful, observant. he seemed to pick up on every detail, even the minuscule bits that were most likely to fly over anyone elseโ€™s head, had been taken into account. itโ€™s probably why heโ€™s immensely proficient at what he does. not once had he allowed himself to miss the labored heaving of your chest, or the sheen of sweat thinly coating your body โ€” the twitching of your clit when he stroked featherlight touches at the nub. he couldnโ€™t call himself a true cameraman then.
his fingers had collected remnants of your previous orgasm before they worked in tandem, both middle and ring, to prod at your sensitive hole, slowly sinking themselves in. it was almost embarrassing how quickly your greedy cunt swallowed him in, as if itโ€™d been waiting for his touch for years now. โ€œy-yuuta, โ€˜m still sensitive.โ€ you crooned in response to his digits exploring your cavern, plush walls gripping him with such tautness that heโ€™d found it difficult to even curl his fingers.
his own mind spun (and cock leaked) at the thought of that same warmth around his length, and when you called his name, all he could think about was how pretty youโ€™d sound moaning it. he wouldnโ€™t mind if you were sonorous, if the neighbors would hear, if inumaki who lived downstairs would come knocking with a mouthful of complaints, if the whole world knew his name; because in that moment, yuuta okkotsu was yours.
yuuta okkotsu was in love.
after some shallow pumping, enough to have your legs attempting to enclose around his arm, yuuta had pulled his digits out and replaced the lost sensation with the fat tip of his cock stroking your slit up and down.
โ€œiโ€™m gonna put it in, okay? if you want me to stop, tell me. if i'm going too fast or slow, let me know.โ€
he perused your face for a hint of an answer, seemingly nothing going on behind your vacant, large eyes. your initial response was curt, an ode to the simplistic nature of your mind. โ€œmhm.โ€
how endearing you were to him, just a unadorned reaction weakening his being, causing his heart to figuratively crumble within its confines against his ribcage. he had searched for a heartier answer, something tangible to hold on to, because, lord knows how terrible heโ€™d feel if he took your indication the wrong way. โ€œcan you be vocal for me, please?โ€
you nodded your head. โ€œiโ€™ll let you know, yuuta.โ€
with a carefulness that only came from the most benign of beings, he had sunken the first inch of himself into your awaiting heat.
he was paused when your hand dashed to his lower abdomen, futilely pressing against the skin.
โ€œwaitโ€”โ€ you huffed wantonly. โ€œโ€”โ€˜s too big.โ€
his eyes wavered with concern, hidden under the veil of pure arousal. in yuutaโ€™s case he had dreamed of a compliment as self fulfilling as yours, for his thoughts of being average were shattered upon first inch. โ€œshould i stop?โ€
you shook your head, reveling in the light of his attentivity towards you and your body. โ€œno,โ€ you moved your hand from his abdomen. โ€œdonโ€™t stop.โ€
one of his arms rested beside your head, helping to prop him up over your body while he dropped his head down to watch the way your bodies connected. gradually, the sight of his length slowly sinking inside, stretching you out further and further until he was in to the hilt flooded his vision. yuuta had caught on to your labored gasps, merely growing harder from your honeyed voice like music to his ears.
he then lifted his head, strands of inky, out-of-place tresses falling over his face and partially covering the depth of lingering eyes, that lingered for a second too long, causing that shuddering sensation you had once felt when you first met him to reappear. he held his camcorder beside his face, an all too cheerful grin masked over his features. โ€œiโ€™m all in!โ€
creepy.
there was no doubt that you hadnโ€™t felt full. he practically spilled over with how much girth he possessed and throbbed innately within your walls. the swell of your tummy from just how deep he was, was enough to tear away at his composure and drag his length back before driving his hips in at a force unrecognizable to him. the yelp you had let out from his eager thrust dwindled into a blissful moan. โ€œsorry, so sorry.โ€ he whispered, unable to take his eyes off the faultless assortment of breathtaking features that was your face, eyebrows creased together, parted lips and eyes squeezed closed as if youโ€™d been focused solely on the pleasure he was giving you.
his next thrust stroked softer than its predecessor, having no remnants of eagerness but instead, the nuance of a man thatโ€™d been simply smitten.
the meticulousness of his ministrations coursed through your body wondrously, each push and pull lathered in lust, savored to be remembered for the rest of his time on earth. it was as if heโ€™d known your body for years, knew every dip and fold, every swell and mast, aware of what exactly it took to leave your body hungry for his touches.
youโ€™d grown comfortable in the pace at which he set, your mind hazing over each time the blunt tip grazed along your gspot. he peppered kisses along your jaw and down your sternum, the fanning of his warm breath against your chest doing the minimum in stiffening the peaks of your breasts. shootable footage forgotten, yuuta took your mound into his mouth, teeth gently rolling against your nipple which caused you to tighten around his cock in response, the sweetest mewl heโ€™s ever heard from you tumbling from your throat.
โ€œat least take me on a date first, yuuta..โ€ the wittiness of your voice had earned a stifled smile from him, finding utmost admiration in the suggestion. heโ€™ll be sure to take you up on your offer, just as you had done for him.
when you felt the familiar coil within you starting to build up once more, you dipped your hand down to rub at your clit in tandem with the increasing vigor of his strokes. the sensation was all too foreign to you, too pleasurable that you couldnโ€™t keep your sounds at bay. โ€œโ€˜m so close, g-gonna cum!โ€ you had warned, yuuta pulled away from your tit with a soft pop. he chose to rest his head at the juncture of your neck and shoulder, mindlessly chanting the words like a mantra.
โ€œi love you, i love you,โ€ his pace faltered, growing sloppier by the second. โ€œlove you, love you so much.โ€
intoxicated by your heat, your scent, just you being you, and being so perfect โ€” yuuta was pussydrunk. incredibly so. never in his life had he ever felt as high as you made him. you were an angel, sent to him from heaven, to defile and mark.
quickly, your release surged through you in torrents of ecstasy, nothing that youโ€™ve experienced before, coating yuutaโ€™s cock in the glorious essence of you. โ€œcumming!โ€ you cry, to no avail particularly since yuuta wasnโ€™t wholeheartedly aware of the situation at hand. his mind was clouded with you, just as you were full of him, wincing in the aftershocks of your fervent orgasm and convulsing around his length with need.
it wasnโ€™t long before his own ununified thrusts came to a sudden close, signifying the warm spurts of cum painting your insides, filling you entirely to the brim and leaking down your ass from riding out his high.
โ€œgod, i love you.โ€ he whined, pressing faint kisses to your neck, unable to peel himself away from your fervid body. coming to your senses, his words finally resonated for you. โ€œwe only just met.โ€
he pulled himself up, opting to look down at your flushed face with a vague hint of confusion on his face as he tilted his head. โ€œhave we?โ€
โ€œwe have.โ€ you nodded.
to yuuta, heโ€™s known you his whole life. you were the light of his existence, the fire in his heart. had he managed to confuse you with someone else? surely, that wasnโ€™t the case.
once he pulled out of you, he made sure to capture the moment that you leaked his seed on film, but in that time, borrowed jealousy had filled his soul. he couldnโ€™t share the tape as he had planned, no one else deserved to see you in the same way he did. no one.
he tucked himself back into his pants, leaving you bare and oozing for just one second to fetch a warm wet rag to clean you up with. when he came back, you noticed just how chipper heโ€™d gotten, if that were even possible. โ€œyou were amazing,โ€ he smiled, gently wiping your folds pristine. โ€œiโ€™m so grateful you came to me.โ€ the smile you returned matched his own, โ€œthank you, you were- really good too.โ€
he perked up, eyes moving from between your thighs to your face. โ€œreally?โ€ and when you nodded to him, you could see the apparent relief flow within his being. โ€œyou know,โ€ he started. โ€œiโ€™m very interested in you.โ€
you tilt your head, jutting your lips in a cute pout. โ€œinterested, how?โ€
the camcorder that now resided on his coffee table, unpresumebly documenting the scene on display was picked up by yuuta, and turned off. he grinned softly, eyes shutting from his ear to ear smile.
โ€œmay i take you on a date?โ€
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giving older bsf toji a bj cs u dont have any money on u for gas ๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ
oh mi gosh. dis is absolutely so filthy โ€˜nd absolutely perfect for him . dis is how grimy he is in my mind.. (modern au where toji is RICH $$)
โ€œtoji.โ€
โ€œhm, darling?โ€ you look upon the questioning man sitting besides you, one strong hand that guides the steering wheel of your own car. he insisted to drive, and in what position would you say no? youโ€™d never pass up an offer to be passenger princess.
โ€œi-i forgot.โ€
โ€œforgot what?โ€
โ€œforgot money for gas, toji.โ€
โ€œare ya dumb sweetheart? goinโ€™ tโ€™get gas n the one thing ya forgot is gas money?โ€
โ€œโ€˜m s-sorry toji, can you lend me? please? promise i wonโ€™t forget next time!โ€
he scoffs, knowing well that he wouldโ€™ve paid nonetheless. but watching you nervously scramble yourself together, anticipating a response from him is too adorable, he thinks.
โ€œyeah, but ya gotta pay me back.โ€
โ€œcourse i will! gonna give it back as soon as we ge-โ€œ
โ€œno sweetie. not with money.โ€
your head turns slow to the man, already shooting you a evil-intentioned smirk. his free hand comes down to scarce over the evident bulge that pokes through his sweats, indirectly instructing you.
โ€œwith your mouth, honey.โ€
he chuckles when your face flushes red, how unexpecting.
with over 3 years of close friendship, the man had assumed that you at least wouldโ€™ve noticed; his stares that pierce into your skin, touches that linger a little too long, and the constant absence of your favorite panties. what a naive little thing you were; he loved it.
if you didnโ€™t know his true intentions then, youโ€™d definitely know now.
โ€œcโ€™mon, yโ€™want me to fill it up right?โ€
โ€œt-โ€œ
โ€œthe tank sweetie. the car. donโ€™t you want gas?โ€
you huff when he chuckles at your flustered expression. your small fingers dance across his bulge, his own hand messily slipping under the band of his sweats, releasing himself. he canโ€™t help the smile that spreads across his face when you gasp, fawn like eyes that immediately shoot up to meet his gaze.
โ€œs-so big..โ€
โ€œmm, you think so?โ€ he teases.
his hand slithers to the back of your head, fingers playing with one or two strands of your hair.
โ€œcโ€™mon, be good..โ€
he smiles at you coyly, desperate even, and it makes your heart and your cunt clench.
with slight pressure from the manโ€™s hand, you find yourself lowering onto the tip of his cock. your puffy lips press against the warm slit, an immediate groan that spills from his lips,
โ€œno action recently?โ€ you tease, facing him with a slight smile,
โ€œshaddup princess. yer lucky youโ€™re cute.โ€
you snicker, separating your slicked up lips to wrap around the thick of his cock head. your tongue presses against the slit once again, tasting the sweet substance that coats his dewy slit; more that spews from the teasing licks.
โ€œdonโ€™t t-tease.โ€
you hold yourself further onto his cock to accommodate his length, a light gag that elicits from your throat. tears brim in your eyes when you feel your jaw begin to ache, but the needy man pays no mind when he begins thrusting into your warmth.
oh and when he feels a warm tear fall onto the skin of his thigh, he nearly cums.
โ€œheh.. there you go, see? ya can do it.โ€
you hum around him, the light sensation that drills right through his sensitive cock.
โ€œg-gunna cum. shit.โ€
and with a few shallow thrusts, his cum brims. itโ€™s warm, and thick, but you swallow without a second thought. you pull yourself off to meet your eyes with his, vision daisy and face flushed with a sweet pink once again.
โ€œhah.. gonna have to fill you up, darling. weโ€™ll worry about the car later, kay?โ€
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pairing: target!gojo x assassin!fem!reader summary: you've been hired to kill the satoru gojo. how will you pull it off... and what will you do when he figures it out? content: MDNI (18+ only), nsfw, darkish content (all is well in the end), no established relationship, assassins/organized crime, blackmail, mention of a โ€œsuicide missionโ€, attempted murder (uhhhh), hidden identity, intended use of sex as a means to an end, mating press, unprotected sex, p->v, creampie, oral (fem!receiving), praise, pet names (gorgeous/sweetheart/baby), slight aftercare. a/n: me ๐Ÿค describing gojo as having dimples welcome to my second 1k followers event fic! At this rate tho iโ€™m going to hit 2k before i finish the 1k event LMAO. not that i'm complaining hehe. thank you for being patient and for all the support on my recent works! i really appreciate every ask, comment, follow, reblog, everything. they mean the world to me. check out the rest of my 1k event here. enjoy and remember that ALL AGELESS BLOGS WILL BE BLOCKED! creds: twitter template by @cafekitsune wc: 7.8k
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โ€œWho?!โ€ย 
No fucking way. Thereโ€™s no way he just said what you think he said.ย 
โ€œYou heard me,โ€ he scowls. He glares at you from across the desk. His seat is one of those cushy little office chairs, of course. Yours is plasticโ€“ cold and hard.
โ€œAre you fucking insane?โ€ you hiss. Thereโ€™s no other explanation for what heโ€™s asking you to do. Heโ€™s lost his fucking mind.ย 
โ€œWe have a client willing to pay big money for this. Big money for just an attempt,โ€ he answers.ย 
You laugh, but thereโ€™s absolutely nothing funny about this conversation. โ€œOh, Iโ€™m sure you do. Probably because heโ€™s practically invincible. Iโ€™ll never even lay a hand on him.โ€ย 
Your โ€œbossโ€, for lack of a better term, only scowls harder, the wrinkles forming near his eyes etching deeper in his skin. โ€œWell, youโ€™d best find a way to make it work. Youโ€™re taking this job. Thatโ€™s final.โ€ You scoff. Maybe you should recommend he see someoneโ€ฆ โ€œNo. Thereโ€™s no way. Iโ€™m not doing this.โ€ You stand, grabbing your bag and slinging it over your shoulder. โ€œGet someone else to go on your suicide mission.โ€ You take a couple strides toward the door before two very large men move to block your path.ย 
โ€œNot so fast,โ€ your boss calls. You pause, eyeing up your competition. You could definitely take them if you needed to. You sense only a very faint amount of cursed energy coming from each of themโ€“ not even enough to make you blinkโ€“ but something in your bossโ€™s tone makes you turn back.ย 
โ€œYes?โ€ You cross your arms over your chest, fingering a blade hidden in your breast pocket.ย 
He fiddles around in his pocket, pulling out a cigarette and lighting up right there in his office. You donโ€™t try to hide the way your nose scrunches up. โ€œYou want to do this job.โ€ย 
Your eyes narrow. Something tells you youโ€™re not going to like what comes next. โ€œAnd whyโ€™s that?โ€ย 
He takes a long puff, letting the smoke flowing out of his lungs with a slow exhale. โ€œBecause otherwise that little brother of yours is gonna beโ€ฆโ€ he pauses to give you a smile that makes your stomach churn. โ€œHmmโ€ฆ a lot smaller, shall we say? Maybe in several limb sized pieces?โ€
You think your heart stops. Time halts as ice runs through your veins. Nobody knows about your brother. At least, they didnโ€™t.ย 
Your bossโ€™s smile grows even wider. In all your time as an assassin, youโ€™ve never wanted to kill someone more. But you know you canโ€™t. Just an attempt on his life will end your brotherโ€™s.ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t worry. Heโ€™s all tucked away and safe at home where you left him.โ€ Just a tiny piece of your heart thaws with relief. โ€œBut try to run with him, or run yourself, and he wonโ€™t be safe much longer.โ€ Your pulse pounds so viciously youโ€™re sure everyone can hear. A bead of sweat rolls down your neck. โ€œNow, will you accept the assignment?โ€ย 
Your jaw clenches. He got you. In all these years of working for him youโ€™ve been careful, meticulous about hiding every piece of your personal life to avoid situations just like this. But he still got you. He got you.ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ you breathe. You have no choice. You will either kill Satoru Gojo or you will die trying.ย 
โ€œGood,โ€ is all he says, and then youโ€™re being escorted out of the office wondering where the hell you went wrong.ย 
~
Itโ€™s been three weeks since that fateful meeting with your boss. True to his word, your brother has remained unharmed, but you see his lackeys lurking around every corner. Neither you nor your brother are truly safe and you never will be again unless you can pull this off and then put together some plan to escape your bossโ€™s clutches.ย 
Youโ€™ll fail. You know you will. The thought eats you up inside with every waking moment.ย 
Youโ€™ve done your best to learn every possible piece of information about Satoru Gojo in the past two weeks. You know you canโ€™t tail him closelyโ€“ heโ€™d pick up on your cursed energy and notice your incessant presence, so youโ€™ve had to study from a distance with only minimal moments of proximity. You know where he works, who he works with, what restaurants, bars, and clubs he frequents and what days of the week he tends to visit. You know what his order is at his favorite ramen restaurant, where he lives, what time he wakes up. Hell, you know what fucking brand of dish soap he uses. He lives a surprisinglyโ€ฆ predictable lifestyle. He makes no attempt to switch up his schedule or cover his tracks. In any other situation heโ€™d be every assassinโ€™s dream, but this is Satoru Gojo and Satoru Gojo doesnโ€™t need to worry about assassinsโ€“ assassins need to worry about him.
It took you the first week to come up with a plan. You had no clue how you were going to get close to him, much less kill him, and his infinity technique was going to prove particularly problematic. How were you supposed to kill him when you couldnโ€™t even touch him? You had to get him in a situation in which he would willingly let his guard down for you.ย 
Youโ€™d been on the subway when it hit you. Sex. Youโ€™d get him to have sex with you. If you could get him to take you home, heโ€™d have to turn infinity off for at least a short time. That would be your time to strike.ย 
Youโ€™d spent the next two weeks primping yourself. Youโ€™d bought the most expensive dress youโ€™d ever owned, got a mani-pedi, whitened your teeth, and spent a small fortune on makeup. Considering your circumstances, you thought your plan was quite a good one. You knew when heโ€™d go out to the bar with his friends, which bar heโ€™d go to, how long heโ€™d stay, how heโ€™d get a taxi home. You also knew when youโ€™d arrive, how long youโ€™d stay, and how youโ€™d get a taxi with himโ€“ everything planned perfectly to best catch his attention. But for all your planning, there was still one thing you didnโ€™t know. What kind of woman did Satoru Gojo go for? Someone submissive? Teasing? Aggressive? Playful? In all your time tracking him youโ€™d never seen him take somebody home. It struck you asโ€ฆ odd. He was Satoru Gojo, renowned for his power, wealth, and good looksโ€“ surely he had women falling at his feet. Maybe he was just a little moreโ€ฆ selective. If that was the case youโ€™d have to be even quicker on your feet when you finally met him. And that time is now.ย 
Youโ€™re in your bathroom, checking your makeup one last time before heading out the door. Your brother sleeps soundly in the room down the hall, safe for the time being. Youโ€™ve contacted a friend, one who is at least willing to try to get him out ifโ€“ whenโ€“ you fail. You doubt it will be enough.
You make your way to his room. A quick peek inside reveals heโ€™s snuggled up with a plushie elephant that he carries around like theyโ€™re attached at the hip. You creep inside, a sad smile on your lips. This may very well be the last time you see him. You brush a stray lock of hair from his eyes and press a kiss to the crown of his head. With one last whispered โ€˜I love youโ€™, youโ€™re out the door. If you linger, you wonโ€™t be able to goโ€“ and you have to. For him.ย 
The streets of Tokyo are cold tonight, like the weather knows what youโ€™re about to attempt, like itโ€™s preparing for death, for failure. For your failure.
The club you arrive at is upscale, and one where youโ€™ve already tipped off the bouncer to let you bypass the line. You hear a few groans from the people behind you as you saunter straight inside.ย 
Youโ€™re conscious of every little move from the second you step inside. At any moment, he could see you and it could make or break your entire plan.
You press your shoulders back. You have a planโ€“ stick to it.ย 
You make your way over to the bar, weaving your way between groups of people who are somewhere between giggling a little too loudly and tripping over their own feet.ย 
You find a free space at the bar and lean up onto your elbows, your eyes screening the bartenders. You smile when you see a familiar face.ย 
โ€œHey, Dean,โ€ you call.
He turns and the sight of his friendly green eyes sets you a little more at ease.ย 
โ€œOh, shit. Hey!โ€ He slings a towel over his shoulder and comes to stand across from you. โ€œYouโ€™re back,โ€ he says. You nod and smile softly. Ever since youโ€™d determined this would be the place youโ€™d been coming periodically, chatting up the bartenders. The last thing you needed was to stand around in a corner alone with seemingly no friends. That wouldnโ€™t attract anyone, much less Satoru Gojo.ย 
Out of all the bartenders, Dean was your favoriteโ€“ and youโ€™d been oh so happy to learn that his schedule put him on every Friday night.ย 
โ€œYeah. Long day at work.โ€ย 
A smile pulls at his lips, but thereโ€™s a hint of sympathy in his eyes. โ€œThe usual, then?โ€ย 
You nod solemnly. โ€œThatโ€™d be great. Thanks.โ€ย 
You watch him prepare the drink for you, feeling a little bad that itโ€™s all a lie. Thereโ€™s no bad day at work, you didnโ€™t just happen to come in here one day and strike up a conversation with him. All of this is premeditated, planned, and it feelsโ€ฆ lonely. It feels lonely to know that on what is probably your last night on earth you are surrounded by people who only think they know you.ย 
โ€œSo, anything new happening?โ€ Dean drops your drink in front of you and you have a feeling itโ€™s filled with a little more vodka than heโ€™s supposed to put in there.ย 
Your eyes shift around the bar as subtly as you can manage. As much as you want to seem like you fit in, you also need to find Gojo. Itโ€™s a fine balance.ย 
You shrug. โ€œYeah, I guess I just feel like a lot of things are going to be changing for me pretty soon.โ€ย 
His brows pull together and the look he gives you is one of genuine interest and concern. It makes your heart wrench. โ€œHow so?โ€ย 
You swallow. โ€œDunno. Justโ€ฆ everything.โ€
Thereโ€™s a moment of silence and then the tapping of a finger on your glass. โ€œDamn, girl. Drink up. You need it.โ€ย 
You canโ€™t help but smile. You have a feeling that Dean would have been a good friend of yours in another life.ย 
You take his advice, though, and bring your drink to your lips and force a smile. You canโ€™t be mopingโ€“ not tonight.ย 
The next twenty minutes are spent with Dean. Even when heโ€™s making other drinks heโ€™s still chatting with you, still being a goodโ€ฆ friend. You dread leaving your little haven at the bar. The time is coming when youโ€™ll have to seek out your target.
Youโ€™re shocked when itโ€™s the other way around.ย 
โ€œHey, gorgeous.โ€ Thereโ€™s a light brush on your shoulder and you turn. It takes all you have to keep your features schooled and calm. Satoru fucking Gojo just tapped your shoulder.ย 
Nothing prepared you for how handsome he is up close. All those days of research, of tracking and tailingโ€“ none of it does the real thing justice. Even with those stupid sunglasses insideโ€ฆ heโ€™s fucking beautiful. โ€œIโ€™ll pay for all of your drinks tonight if you let me skip this hideous line,โ€ he whines.ย 
You give yourself no more than a second to recover. You school your features into a smirk. You glance at Dean with an โ€˜is this okay?โ€™ look. He just smiles and shrugs.ย 
You turn back to Gojo, bracing yourself this time for the beauty youโ€™re about to face. You meet his gaze and know you could get lost in it. โ€œBe my guest.โ€ย 
His smile nearly blinds you and his dimples nearly make you pass out. Still, you keep your cool.ย 
โ€œYesssss!โ€ He looks like a puppy just offered a bone.ย 
He spills his drink order to Dean and itโ€™s far more than could possibly be just for him. Heโ€™s here with his friends, then. Probably the blonde man who always looks too tired to be here and the girl with the brown hair who always seems like sheโ€™s just along for the ride.ย 
You bite your lip to hide a laugh when he orders himself two strawberry daiquiris. Somehow you still catch his attention.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ he pouts. You canโ€™t help but feel a small stirring of surprise in your gut. Heโ€™s far moreโ€ฆ relaxed than youโ€™d expected him to be. Heโ€™s almostโ€ฆ childish?ย 
You press your lips together and shake your head. Youโ€™ve reached the point where your research canโ€™t take you any further. From this point on, itโ€™s up to you to discover what Satoru Gojo likes in a woman.ย 
You debate how to answer. Play coy? Tease him? Stay silent? Any option could be as correct as the next. You didnโ€™t know where to startโ€ฆ so maybe youโ€™d just start by being yourself.ย 
โ€œJust, umโ€ฆ not the order I was expecting,โ€ you laugh. Itโ€™s halfway genuine. With the way heโ€™s acting, itโ€™s hard to remember that heโ€™s the most powerful man alive.ย 
His pout only intensifies. โ€œWell, whatโ€™s your order?โ€ย 
His question is answered when Dean sets another cosmopolitan in front of you. You laugh. โ€œNever said I was judging, just that it wasnโ€™t what I expected.โ€ย 
Another smile tugs at his lips and something stirs in your gut that you try your very hardest to ignore. This was a job. There was no room for actually enjoying it. This man was probably going to kill you later, in a matter of hours.ย 
Thereโ€™s a beat of silence, and then a slight shift in his demeanor. He leans closer and you see a twitch of his lips. Your heart jumps.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re a sorcerer,โ€ he says.ย 
You hold back an exhale of relief. You thought he might be onto you. If he is, heโ€™s choosing not to reveal it yet.ย 
You nod and take what you hope is a casual sip of your drink. โ€œAnd youโ€™re Satoru Gojo.โ€ย 
A brow arches high enough for you to see it over his sunglasses. โ€œYou know who I am?โ€ย 
You force a chuckle, smirking despite the pounding of your heart. โ€œWho doesnโ€™t?โ€ย 
Youโ€™d decided long ago to tell him that you knew exactly who he was. It would seem more suspicious for a fellow sorcerer to have no idea what the Satoru Gojo looked like.ย 
He flashes you a smile full of white and stupidly fucking perfect teeth. โ€œThatโ€™s true, heh.โ€ You press your lips together to avoid a smile. Not too humble, thenโ€ฆย 
โ€œSo, whatโ€™s your techniqueโ€ย 
You shoot him a glance that questions his sanity. Asking a sorcerer what their technique isโ€ฆ is personal. Itโ€™s not information you give out to a rando at the barโ€“ even if it is Satoru Gojo.
โ€œWouldnโ€™t you like to know.โ€ You take another sip of your drink, trying your hardest to remain somewhere on the border or interested and casual.ย 
โ€œBet I could find out.โ€ย 
That makes you turn fully, angling your body toward his. โ€œOh yeah? You challenging me to a fight?โ€ You smirk and shake your head. โ€œIโ€™ll pass.โ€ย 
He pouts again, but you see a hint of a smile peeking through. โ€œAw, come on. Thatโ€™s no funโ€ฆโ€ย 
You chuckle and take another sip of your drink. Youโ€™re not sure youโ€™re sipping just for appearances anymore. You think you probably just need a little liquid courage to see this thing through. โ€œSorry. I value my life.โ€ย 
You watch as he slides his sunglasses down the bridge of his nose, just enough for you to get a glimpse of whatโ€™s behind. You nearly choke again and this time you donโ€™t manage to hide your nervous swallow when he smirks.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re so sure youโ€™d lose?โ€ His voice is teasing now and you hate that itโ€™s actually having an effect on you. Job, job, job, just a jobโ€ฆย 
You clear your throat. โ€œI like to think Iโ€™m not stupid enough to think that I could win.โ€ย 
His eyes are blueโ€“ so fucking blueโ€“ and you feel like heโ€™s seeing straight into your soul. Can he see? Can he see your filthy intentions? Your plotting? The rottenness of what youโ€™re going to do? โ€œWhat if I promise to take it real easy on you?โ€ย 
Your drink is forgotten now. Youโ€™re lost in what heโ€™s sayingโ€“ in him. โ€œNo thanks.โ€ Your voice is growing lower and you feel like thereโ€™s some magnet forcing you to lean into him, to seek his warmth.ย 
โ€œSo you like it rough, then.โ€ The trance is broken and your blood runs hot. Holy shit. This man is flirting with you and you hardly even had to try. He's trying to take you home. Little does he know, youโ€™re a sure thing.ย 
You watch as he throws back the rest of his strawberry daiquiri with a pleased โ€œahhhโ€ at the end. When he turns back to you his eyes have a certain spark in them that makes your thighs press together. โ€œYou wanna dance with me?โ€ย 
Fuck. This is going too well to be real. But youโ€™re not about to pass up a good deal.ย 
โ€œWhat about your friends?โ€ you ask and eye the several untouched drinks still left on the bar. Itโ€™s riskyโ€“ giving him an out, but you canโ€™t seem too eager.
He follows your gaze only to bounce his eyes straight back to you. โ€œIโ€™m sure theyโ€™ll get a look at ya and understand.โ€ย 
The smirk heโ€™s giving you is making electricity shoot straight between your legs. Damn. You really wish you didnโ€™t have to kill himโ€“ or at least try to.ย 
When he extends his hand you only hesitate for a second. Your heart leaps when you feel his skin on yours, knowing heโ€™s let infinity down. He pulls you onto the dancefloor and itโ€™s not long before heโ€™s running his hands all over youโ€“ groping your ass, pinching your thighs, nipping at your neck. Pretty soon the dancefloor evolves to a dark corner of the club with his lips on yours and goddamn heโ€™s a good kisser. Youโ€™ve got your fingers in his hair and his hand way too close to your boobs when he whispers those fateful wordsโ€“ โ€œletโ€™s get out of here.โ€
You can only hide your swallow and nod before heโ€™s pulling you through the crowd, leaving the club behind. He hauls you both into the backseat of a taxi and the doorโ€™s barely closed before heโ€™s all over you again. You think you hear the taxi driver mutter something about โ€˜staining the seatsโ€™ but youโ€™re too far gone to give a shit.ย 
Fuck, he feels good. Heโ€™s kisses you like heโ€™s starved and your lips are the fountain of fucking life, like heโ€™s never felt something so good and now he canโ€™t get enough. And, god, heโ€™s handsy. Youโ€™re forever grateful to your past self for discreetly hiding your blade in your braโ€“ he would have felt a holster on your thigh at least ten times over by now.ย 
He groans when you arrive at what you know is his apartment building, though you donโ€™t let on that you recognize the place in the slightest. The look on his face makes you think heโ€™s feeling actual physical pain at the prospect of having to peel away from you for even a second. Nonetheless, he tosses a wad of cash at the taxi driver and pulls you straight inside.
He canโ€™t even wait for the elevator to come, groping your waist right there in the lobby and then when the elevator finally does come, shoving you up against the metal wall a licking stripe across your collarbone.ย 
You canโ€™t deny how nice it feels to be so desperatelyโ€ฆ wanted. Never once has a man made you feel this wayโ€“ so consumed by him, him, him. Once again you curse the universe that youโ€™re here with a mission other than getting laid.ย 
You find yourself giggling when he pulls you out of the elevator and presses his palm to a fucking scanner to get into his apartment. You try to pull yourself together, but when he laughs with you, you canโ€™t help but melt into him a little more.
As soon as the door clicks shut behind you, heโ€™s got you up against another wall with your legs wrapped around his waist and his face buried in your neck. His sunglasses are long gone and you pull at his shirt, popping the buttons straight off the fabric until you slide the shirt down his shoulders and onto the floor.
โ€œThat was Versace,โ€ he whines.ย 
You plaster your lips to his. โ€œI donโ€™t care.โ€ All he does is chuckle.ย 
โ€œSo gorgeousโ€ฆโ€ he breathes and your head slumps back against the wall, giving him better access to the soft skin of your neck. Any minute now. Any minute heโ€™s going to start stripping your clothes off and youโ€™re going to have to let this charade crumble. You donโ€™t want to. Heโ€™s practically worshiping you. Itโ€™s perfect, itโ€™s amazing, and you donโ€™t want it to end.ย 
His fingers dig into the flesh of your ass and suddenly youโ€™re moving againโ€“ moving, moving, moving until your back is bouncing against the softness of a mattress and youโ€™re fucking giggling again like a lovesick idiot. Maybe youโ€™d had a few too many sips of those cosmopolitans.ย 
Heโ€™s smiling as he crawls over you and the sight makes your heart flutter with both lust and terror. Lust because heโ€™s so fucking beautiful and terror because you know that any moment now youโ€™re going to attempt to end that beauty forever.ย 
A lump forms in your throat and you try unsuccessfully to swallow it. You have to do this, have to try. Thereโ€™s no other way, no other option. Not for you.
Your thoughts must not have been as perfectly concealed as youโ€™d thought because he quirks a brow. โ€œSomething goinโ€™ on up here?โ€ His lips slide across your temple in a touch that feels far too tender for a hookup. โ€œDonโ€™t worry, baby. Itโ€™ll fit.โ€ He snickers at his own joke before burying himself in your neck. His hand slides down your side, pressing you up into him until you can feel every curve and cut of his muscles.ย 
You bite your lip. Youโ€™ve already slipped enough for him to notice your nervesโ€“ you canโ€™t let it happen again. You have to do it soon. Now. As soon as you see an opportunity you have to strike. You have to.ย 
You arch up into him, scratching your fingers down his back, trying to seem as invested in the moment as you can. He gets greedier, leaving open-mouthed kiss down your neck, across your collarbone. You nearly freeze up when he kisses low into the valley of your breastsโ€“ as low as your dress allows. Then he moves over your clothes, kissing down your stomach as his hands rub your thighs.ย 
Now. Now, while heโ€™s not looking.
You slide a hand into his hair and another up to your chest, trying to play it off like youโ€™re touching yourself. You sneak your fingers into your bra, feeling the cool metal of your blade glide across your thumb. Now.ย 
You fist your fingers in his hair, holding his head down as best you can while you arc the blade toward his neck. Just one good hit, pleaseโ€ฆย 
You think youโ€™re going to strike trueโ€“ youโ€™re so closeโ€“ and then a firm hand wraps around your wrist, stalling your attack just as it was about to land.ย 
Fuck.ย 
He doesnโ€™t look up right away, but you hear him sigh, feel his hot breath fanning over your thighs and stomach. When he finally does look up itโ€™s with the eyes of a teacher whoโ€™s disappointed his student didnโ€™t do their homework.ย 
โ€œCome on now, baby. I was really hoping youโ€™d forget about all this and we could just have a good night togetherโ€ฆโ€ Heโ€™s pouting, whining, like a child whoโ€™s been told he canโ€™t have dessert before dinner. Your shock stills you long enough that he easily maneuvers the blade from your hand, throwing it with a thwack into the wall to his right. It lands perfectly.ย 
This is it. Youโ€™re going to die now. But not without a fight.ย 
You spring up from the bed, kicking him a couple times in the process. Youโ€™ve missed your only chance. Now, if thereโ€™s even the slightest chance of escape, you have to take it.ย 
You bare feet hit the carpet. No time to find your shoes. You dart for the door and hear him groan behind you. For a second you think you might actually make it, but you should know better.ย 
He appears in front of you, straight out of fucking thin air, and his pout has transformed into something a little more sinister. โ€œCome on, gorgeous. Letโ€™s talk it out, yeah?โ€ย 
You take a shaky step back, but you know itโ€™s no use. Heโ€™s got you. Itโ€™s over.ย 
You swallow and lift your chinโ€“ you at least want to die with a little dignity. โ€œJust make it quick. Please.โ€ย 
He sighs again and slides his hands in his fucking pockets, like this is just a stroll down the street. He stalks toward you, forcing you back until youโ€™re pressed up against another wall. This motherfucker really likes walls.ย 
His pout shifts to a smirk that borders far too closely on a grin. โ€œOh, no. Iโ€™ve always had a thing for taking it slow.โ€ย 
You nearly snort. He certainly hadnโ€™t had a thing for taking it slow just a minute ago. His arms cage you and your world grows infinitely smaller until itโ€™s just him and those blue-ass eyes staring you down. Some distant part of you thinks you might not mind if itโ€™s the last thing you ever see.ย 
โ€œDamn, I really thought you might give it up and just let me fuck you,โ€ his pout returns. โ€œSo disappointingโ€ฆโ€ he sighs.ย 
Your lips part. โ€œYou knew?โ€ย 
That lights his face up like a Christmas tree. โ€œSensed you tailing me these past few weeks. Started on theeeeeโ€“ 21st, no?โ€ย 
Fuck. Youโ€™d been so careful. Youโ€™d only tailed him in public spaces, where your energy would be more diluted by the crowds. Youโ€™d stayed far enough away that he should only have caught mere glimpses of you, even suppressed your energy. He should not have been able to sense you. But he was Satoru Gojoโ€“ things people were not supposed to be able to do came easily to him.ย 
But you have one thing on him.ย 
โ€œThe 18th,โ€ you whisper. โ€œStarted on the 18th.โ€
Thereโ€™s a beat of silence and then his smile is growing wider, wider, wider, until itโ€™s practically blinding you. โ€œWell, shit,โ€ he laughs. โ€œYouโ€™re pretty good.โ€ย 
You let a tiny smile slip through your terror. โ€œI try.โ€ย 
His eyes travel up and down your body, his pout slipping away to a frown. โ€œWhat to do with youโ€ฆ hmmโ€ฆโ€ You lift your chin, taking shallow little breaths through your nose. Youโ€™re looking death in the face, but youโ€™d never thought it would be so beautiful. He sighs. โ€œI guess I could let you go.โ€ย 
You freeze. He notices.ย 
He quirks a brow, another smirk sliding across his lips. โ€œWhat? Didnโ€™t think that was an option?โ€ You stay silent. No way heโ€™ll let you go. Itโ€™s a bluff. A cruel trick. โ€œItโ€™s not like you could try again, gorgeous. I know your energy now and what you look like. Sorry, but your chance is gone.โ€ That was fine by you. Your breaths come a little heavier, hope pulsing in your veins. โ€œButโ€“โ€ shit. โ€œLetting you go is soโ€ฆ boring. Especially after where we left off, yeah?โ€ย 
Your jaw drops. โ€œYou cannot seriously be suggesting that weโ€“โ€ย 
He cuts you off with a kiss, one that makes your toes curl in the carpet and your stomach clench in anticipation.ย 
โ€œOh, yes I am,โ€ he chuckles. You feel his hand sliding down your hip, cool and calculating. โ€œI know you werenโ€™t faking the whole thing, gorgeous. Nobody makes out like that when theyโ€™re faking it.โ€ You feel your cheeks heat. โ€œAnd nobody gets this wet-โ€ his fingers snake beneath your skirt, pressing to the wet patch on your panties. โ€œWhen theyโ€™re faking it.โ€ You gasp and reach out, hands clasping onto his shoulders for support. He only chuckles. โ€œNo worries, gorgeous. No need for any more faking tonight. Iโ€™ll make sure itโ€™s all real.โ€ย 
Somehow youโ€™ve got your legs wrapped around his waist again and youโ€™re headed to the bedroomโ€“ again. Itโ€™s like a replayโ€“ a redo.ย 
โ€œLetโ€™s keep it less killy this time, yeah?โ€ย 
Your back hits the mattress, your body bouncing lightly on its softness before heโ€™s crawling after you. Itโ€™s simultaneously the best and worst deja vu youโ€™ve ever experienced.ย 
His hands slide down your body again, fingertips hooking beneath the hem of your skirt and shimmying it up your thighs until your panties are on full display.ย 
โ€œShit,โ€ you breathe. Heโ€™s moving so fast, like heโ€™s desperate to go further, to get his greedy hands all over your bare skin.ย 
You canโ€™t say you blame him. You feel the same.
His thumbs hook under the fabric of your panties and you know itโ€™s over for you. You can feel his warm breath skating across your thighs, feel the calluses on his hands scraping against your skin. You reach a hand down, tangling it in his hair, and you nearly faint when he smirks and looks up at you with those blue fucking eyes.ย 
โ€œI think Iโ€™ve seen this film before, sweetheart.โ€ He tilts his head, resting his cheek on the plush of your thigh. โ€œNo more knives hiding anywhere, yeah?โ€ย 
You clench your jaw, trying to control your pounding heart. You canโ€™t believe youโ€™re doing this. Why are you doing this? You wish you had a better answer than heโ€™s beautiful and sexy and just a glance at him makes you want to rip his clothes off and climb him like a tree.ย 
โ€œSilent, hm? Guess Iโ€™ll just have to check myselfโ€ฆโ€ย 
Heโ€™s pressing up the hem up your skirt, more, more, more, until heโ€™s pulling your dress straight up over your arms and running his hands down your bare sides.ย 
โ€œNone thereโ€ฆโ€ His fingers cup your breast and you gasp, unable to contain your shock and the jolt that just rushed through you. He traces the outline of your bra. โ€œYou had the last one in here, no?โ€ Your chest heaves under his touch, pressing the flesh of your breast up into his fingers. He smirks. โ€œBest check again.โ€ You feel an arm slide beneath you back and then your bra loosens before itโ€™s completely gone.ย 
Thereโ€™s a beat of silence, of admiration. He gazes down on you and you see his snark falter for just a moment, replaced by a sparkle in his eyes. It makes your skin heat. His fingers brush the swell of your breasts, thumb trailing down over a nipple. You arch and gasp again.ย 
โ€œFuck. Quit teasing so much.โ€ย 
He chuckles and the sound washes over you until it settles in your bones. โ€œSush. Iโ€™m not done checking for weapons yet.โ€ย 
You scowl but before you can even move to open your mouth heโ€™s sliding your panties down your legs, hooking them around your ankles and tossing them somewhere on the floor.
His tongue darts out to wet his lips and you watch him settle himself down between your thighs, eyes never once leaving your center. โ€œDonโ€™t see any knives here, either, but maybe I should double-checkโ€ฆโ€ he breathes.ย 
He hooks your legs over his shoulders and you shudder, your breaths shaky. Fuck. You were supposed to kill him tonight but if he keeps going like this youโ€™ll be the one deceased.ย 
He meets your eyes when he takes the first long lick along your folds. You swear heโ€™s smirking.
Your head rolls back and a pathetic sounding groan slips past your lips. You hadnโ€™t realized how much heโ€™d worked you up. Just the slightest touch feels like heaven.
His tongue nudges at your clits and your legs clench, tightening around his head. He laughs into your cunt and his warm breath skates up and over your tummy. Your fingernails scrape his scalp.
โ€œI think you like this, gorgeous.โ€ย 
Each word sends little puffs of air against your folds. Itโ€™s driving you crazy. You stare down at him, letting a smirk pull at your lips. Your eyes dart over his mouth, wet with your slick, and you donโ€™t fail to notice the way heโ€™s struggling to hold your gaze, eyes flickering back down to your cunt every second. Your smirk grows. โ€œI think youโ€™re liking this, too.โ€ย 
He licks another stripe, from you pulsing hole to your throbbing clit, and this time heโ€™s the one groaning. โ€œDamn right I am.โ€
He eats you out like he kisses youโ€“ like a starved man, like heโ€™ll die if he stops for just one second, like he canโ€™t live without your juices on his tongue.ย 
You whine and bury both hands in his hair, tugging desperately when his lips wrap around you clit and suck. Itโ€™s so much, too much, and yet itโ€™s just right.ย 
Your hips buck and squirm, but heโ€™s got his fingers pressed deep into your flesh, holding you down to take whatever he gives. You think you see heaven when he slides two fingers into your walls, curling them into that gummy spot that has an unbearable heat building deep inside you.ย 
โ€œS-Satoru-โ€ you stutter and you hear him moan and mutter into your cunt like heโ€™s unwilling to leave it for even a second.
โ€œFuck, yes. Say my name, sweetheart.โ€ Who are you to deny him? You whisper, whine, and whimper his name with every thrust of his fingers, every lick of his tongue. Itโ€™s delicious. Every so often he swaps his mouth and hand, thrusting his tongue as deep inside you as he can while his fingers rub dangerous little circles on your clit. Whenever things get a little too filthy he laps his tongue across your entire cunt and along your inner thighs, cleaning up every stray drop. You donโ€™t know how much longer you can last under such a complete and total assault.ย 
โ€œS-Satoru, โ€˜m gonna-โ€ He licks a thick stripe through your folds that makes your sentence end in a whine, his lips settling to suckle on your clit again.
God, itโ€™s messy. Itโ€™s fucking disgusting. His whole chin is covered in spit and slickโ€“ and you love it. โ€œCum for me, baby,โ€ he breathes.ย 
You donโ€™t need to hear much more. You let the heat inside you release with a whine, thighs trembling on his shoulders. Your walls pulse and throb around his fingers, sucking him in and never wanting him to leave. His tongue continues to rub lazy circles around your clit, working you through your high and making it last so long you think you might pass out.
Warmth spreads from the top of your head to the tips of your toes and your muscles tense and clench with each pulsing throb. You swear to god you see fucking stars.
It seems to go on forever, leaving you limp and shaking when the last waves finally slip away.ย 
He presses a final kiss to your clit, one that makes your hips jolt from the overstimulation before heโ€™s lifting himself up. โ€œWow. That looked like a big one,โ€ he chuckles. He runs a soothing hand along your thigh and you donโ€™t even have the energy to give him some sort of snarky reply. Thereโ€™s hardly even a pause before something shifts in his eyes. โ€œLetโ€™s see if we can get one thatโ€™s even bigger, yeah?โ€ย 
Before you can even process what heโ€™s said you feel strong hands slide under your thighs, pressing them tightly to your chest as he settles himself close to you
You grasp at the sheets, hearing the clinking of a belt buckle and then the familiar pitch of a zipper being undone.ย 
โ€œFuck,โ€ you mutter. Heโ€™s big. Long and pretty and with a perfectly flushed tip. Your eyes are rolling back just thinking about having him inside you.
A strong hand smooths along your thighs, folding you in a way that feels more vulnerable and exposing than anything youโ€™ve ever done before. He pauses for a beat, just staring down at you silently.
โ€œGorgeous,โ€ he finally mutters, and something in your heart squeezes. His hand grips your hip firmly, holding you in place and you gasp when you feel him prodding at your entrance. Itโ€™s pathetic. Youโ€™re pathetic. Big bad assassin turned simpering little bitch over some good Gojo dick.ย 
โ€œJust relaxxxxx, baby.โ€ His hand rubs soothing little circles into your side and itโ€™s so divinely distracting that it catches you by surprise when he starts pushing into you. You gasp and he only chuckles. Asshole.ย 
Heโ€™s bigโ€“ really big โ€“ and the stretch is somehow both painful and perfect. You groan into the air, struggling to take him. Every inch feels like it must be the last, but then thereโ€™s more. Your walls clench around him on instinct, trying to force him out.ย 
โ€œFuck, baby. What did I say about relaxing?โ€ You hiss when his hand skates down your tummy to rub messy circles on your clit. The relief is instant and you moan when you feel him slide in a little further. โ€œThere we go. Good girl.โ€ย 
He continues feeding his dick into you, inch by inch, until his hips finally press to yours and you think you can feel him in your fucking throat. You hear him exhale, like itโ€™s a relief to finally be fully inside you, like heโ€™s been waiting for ages.ย 
You expect him to not hold back, to let himself go and pound into you relentlessly, but he doesnโ€™t. He only leans down closer to you, settling in when he starts a pace of slow, sensual thrusts. His brows pinch, his eyes hardened in concentration.
โ€œAh, fuck. Youโ€™re so tight.โ€ย 
You want to shoot something back at him, but youโ€™re hardly remembering to breathe with how deep heโ€™s sliding into you. Instead, you just end up holding him tighter, your eyes fluttering shut.ย 
Lips dust across your cheeks, just below your lashes. โ€œKeep your eyes open, gorgeous. Wanna see you.โ€ย 
You blink, thinking that itโ€™s a notion that feels a little too intimate for a hookup. Regardless, you do as he wants, opening your eyes and holding his gaze.
A smile splits his lips and he presses his forehead to yours, picking up the pace of his thrusts. Itโ€™s not long before the sound of skin on skin fills the room and youโ€™re both panting. His breath skates across your skin, hot and heavy, hitching with the groans and whines that spill from his chest. You canโ€™t help but pull him closer, raking your nails down his back hard enough to leave marks. The action makes him emit a noise you can only describe as a desperate whimper. โ€œFuck, baby. Yes.โ€ย 
His lips press to yours in a kiss thatโ€™s all desperation and teeth and tongue. You kiss him back with equal intensity, your body rocking with each heavy thrust. Heโ€™s pounding into you now, frantic for more, more, more of you. You want him to take it, take all of you.ย 
A familiar heat pinches in your stomach and you know it wonโ€™t be long before heโ€™s pushing you to another release. His dick drags in and out of you, prodding at the gummy spot inside you with every thrust and brushing so deliciously against your cervix that you canโ€™t stop the moans spilling from your lips. It has you seeing stars again, has you clawing at him and panting into his mouth.ย 
โ€œSatoruโ€ฆ harder,โ€ you breathe. You need moreโ€“ more of everything, of him.ย 
He groans. โ€œYou got it, gorgeous.โ€ย 
His hips slam into you and itโ€™s so perfect that you canโ€™t help but whimper beneath him. It only gets worse when you feel his fingers on your clit again, hand pressed between your bodies. โ€œCum on my dick, baby.โ€ Your eyes roll back, that coil inside you rolling tighter. You feel his muscles tensing and shaking above you and you know heโ€™s close, too. โ€œWhere do you want it?โ€ he asks, and from the pinched look on his face you can tell exactly where he wants it. You know youโ€™re an idiot for feeling the same.ย 
โ€œInside,โ€ you breathe. He groans so loudly it rattles in your ears.
โ€œThatโ€™s my girl,โ€ he says, but itโ€™s nearly a whisper with how strained it is. His hand continues at your clit, rubbing perfect little circles that make your legs tremble where theyโ€™re pressed against your chest. Your jaw hangs open, but you donโ€™t dare close your eyes. Satoru is still holding your gaze intently, desperately, like he needs to see you. The thought throws you over the edge.
You cry his name, clawing at his shoulder and shaking like a leaf as you feel yourself gush and pulse all over his dick. For the second time that evening you feel the heat inside you swell and burst, washing through you in waves that nearly consume you whole. Itโ€™s a struggle to hold his eyes, to not let them roll back into your skull and give into the pure ecstasy of your highโ€“ especially when heโ€™s cumming, too. You can hear him moaning in your ear, feel him twitching inside you, feel his hot cum coating your walls and thereโ€™s just so fucking much of it. You swear he cums for a minute straight before he slumps down onto you, burying his face in your neck as you pant.ย 
Youโ€™re shaking and so is he, breaths heaving in and out. Reality slowly starts to seep back in, even with his dick still softening inside you and his cum leaking down your thighs.ย 
You tried to kill him. You failed. You had sex. Now what? Would he really let you go like heโ€™d said he would? You wanted to believe it, but life hadnโ€™t taught you to be that trusting. You should move, untangle yourself from him and escape before he has time to change his mind.ย 
โ€œYou assassins are always thinking so hard,โ€ He mumbles into the curve of your neck. โ€œMaybe you should try to relax for once.โ€
You swallow when you feel him pressing his lips to your throat, trailing up to your jaw. Itโ€™sโ€ฆ tender, gentle, and it feels so nice. You canโ€™t help the way you melt into the touch a bit. You feel him smile into your skin. โ€œThere we go.โ€
His hand settles on your waist, rubbing soothing little circles that send a jolt of urgency up your spine. No. Youโ€™re enjoying thisโ€“ being close to him, laying here with him, breathing him in. Thatโ€™s not what this is supposed to be.ย 
You tense again, shifting to get away from him, but he only sighs and presses his weight onto you.ย 
โ€œCome on, gorgeous. No need to leave so soon. Just stay for a bit, yeah?โ€ He nibbles at your jaw, but it doesnโ€™t work this time. You have to go. Youโ€™ve failed your mission. You donโ€™t know what that means for your brother. Youโ€™d never thought this would have an ending besides your death.ย 
โ€œI have to go,โ€ you mutter, pushing at his chest.ย 
He chuckles, but you donโ€™t miss the strain andโ€ฆ hurt? โ€œGot something more important than trying to kill me?โ€ย 
You clench your teeth, trying once again to shove him away. โ€œYes, actually.โ€ย 
He finally pulls back to meet your gaze, brows slightly pinched. โ€œLike what?โ€ย 
You push in earnest now, anger and panic rising in your gut. You have to go, have to check on your brother, have to figure out what youโ€™re going to do. โ€œThatโ€™s really none of your business,โ€ you seethe.ย 
You go for another shove, but strong hands clasp around your wrists, pinning them to the bed. His expression has gone flat now, serious. โ€œActually, I think itโ€™s completely my business. You going to report your failure? Should I expect another assassin soon?โ€
You scowl, tugging at his grasp and trying to free yourself. โ€œYeah, probably. Heโ€™s an insufferable idiot. I told him it wouldnโ€™t work and it didnโ€™t, but I donโ€™t doubt heโ€™ll send another.โ€ย 
His face cracks, his brows pulling together again. โ€œIf you knew it wouldnโ€™t work then whyโ€™d you take the job?โ€ย 
You struggle again, less angry and more desperate now. โ€œBecause heโ€™s got my fucking brother at gunpoint and Iโ€™ve got to figure out how the fuck Iโ€™m going to save him!โ€ you shout.
Thereโ€™s silence for a long momentโ€“ a long, uncomfortable beat of itโ€“ and then his expression softens into somethingโ€ฆ tender. It sends a chill up your spine. Satoru Gojo was never supposed to be tender with you, and thatโ€™s all heโ€™s been.ย 
โ€œIโ€™ll save him,โ€ he says. Your heart jumps and his grip on your wrists loosens, allowing you to slip free.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ you breathe. He sits back, allowing you to prop yourself up into a slightly less vulnerable position.ย 
He exhales slowly, but you donโ€™t miss the way his hand settles on your bare thigh, a comforting weight. โ€œIโ€™ll save your brother and then Iโ€™ll take care of your boss.โ€ A smirk creeps across his lips. โ€œWhat? Donโ€™t think I can do it?โ€
You stare blankly, lips parted. Thereโ€™s no doubt he can do it, but thatโ€™s not the question swirling in your mind.ย 
โ€œWhy would you help me?โ€ Youโ€™d tried to kill the man. You couldnโ€™t make heads or tails of a reason why heโ€™d go out of his way to help you.ย 
He chuckles. โ€œWell, in case you didnโ€™t know, Iโ€™m a hero of sorts.โ€ You have to fight not to roll your eyes. โ€œAndโ€ฆ thereโ€™s something I want from you.โ€ย 
There it isโ€“ the catch. He wants something. You have no idea what you could possibly have to give him, but youโ€™re willing for it to be just about anything. You narrow your eyes. โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
He grins, but you can see the glint of mischief in his gaze. His hand slides further up your thigh, up your side, over your shoulder, until it rests at the nape of your neck and his face is only inches from your own. โ€œWhatโ€™s your number, gorgeous?โ€
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Rockstar!Eddie Munson x Best Friend!Fem!Reader
wc: 19.2k (it wasn't intended to be this long)
+18, best friends to lovers, rockstar eddie, mentions of drug usage (not abuse), slight mention of steve x reader, jealousy, self-consciousness, reader feels insecure about her body, mentions of skin texture (cellulite, adiposities, stretchmarks, floppiness, sagginess, etc), smut, love making, p in v (protected), fingering, just pure absolute fluff.
Plot: You've been in love with your best friend ever since you can remember, and the hope of ever confessing vanished slowly as he signed a record deal and became a rockstar. His flings were now models, and singers... how can you even compete? Their perfect and smooth skin against your cellulite and stretchmarks? Their bodies completely perky?...But your rockstar kind of explodes with his feelings, out of jealousy, and shows you just how much you don't have to worry about that.
a/n: absolutely self indulgent. thank you to all the beautiful friends that read this, and were in the middle of me making this happen. i love you @munson-blurbs @andvys @ghost-proofbaby @pastel-pillows @the-unforgivenn @littlesubbyflower !
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ORANGE PEEL SKIN
Being best friends with a rockstar was not something you ever thought youโ€™d be.ย 
But you have been friends even before his fame took off before his songs were known. Before his band got called into a prestigious studio back in L.A to record their first-ever demo album. Before his life got turned into a life of luxury and parties. A life he always didnโ€™t believe he would get, but he worked hard to get it, manifested it, and now he is the leader of his rock band.
Corroded Coffin.
With the same three friends from High School, and he was the shining star of it all. He insisted on his bandmates, Jeff, Gareth and Grant to trust him, and they did, ending up with this record deal, and they will forever be grateful to him.ย 
Now, you, well, you werenโ€™t in the band, but Eddie invited you on tour sometimes, because thatโ€™s what being his best friend got you. You often insisted for him not to waste money on your trips, plane tickets, hotel room, and pleasantries, but he never listened. He showered you with gifts whenever he could.
He got you the latest cellphone, designer bags, and clothes, some perfumes, but he never fails to buy you the one thing you like the most in every country he visits, and itโ€™s tiny, yet he always smiles when he gives it to you. Magnets.ย 
You collected them in your fridge, amazed to see every place heโ€™s been to, knowing that the boy that lived in the small trailer in Forest Hills now brings you magnets from all around the world. The boy youโ€™ve known since you moved to Hawkins. The boy that tried to teach you DnD in the woods at the back of his trailer, but your fourteen-year-old self didnโ€™t care for games. Yet you loved listening to him.
Because youโ€™ve been in love with Eddie Munson ever since you can remember.
But that love is impossible, now more than ever. He never gave the indication he felt the same, and sure you two were close, mentally, emotionally, and physically. You always sit on his lap so he can play with your hair, or you two would greet each other with kisses on the cheeks, or simply hold hands as you two watch a movie together.
Now Eddie being a rockstar, well, you have no chance whatsoever. He had a fling with Miley Cyrus, and you remember it clearly. It was a simple drunk fuck, but it was enough to make you realize that you are certainly not his type. Then he hooked up with another model, and you found out because you saw it on a gossip instagram page.
Your heart broke in pieces when you saw it, knowing the boy you loved for so long so out of reach, yet so close thanks to your friendship. Even if in pain, you could not let him go, not that easily. You just loved him so much, but even you knew it had to be stopped at some point. It couldnโ€™t go on. You will die from a heartbreak sooner or later, and you have to avoid it.
But he makes it difficult, and even more so now that he is taking a break from tour to visit Hawkins so he can see his old friends and Wayne, including you. Itโ€™s been four months since youโ€™ve seen him in person, only talking with him through phone and video calls, but very little. He was always busy or going to parties or meeting other bands and singers.
And even if that hurts you, you will never stop loving him. Not really, not ever.
โ€œYou okay?โ€
Your thoughts got cut off as you shook your head to look at Chrissy who was looking at you with a worried look on her face. Your best friend knew about your feelings for the metalhead, and Chrissy has held you many times on nights where you just cried your eyes out because of every call, of every picture, of every rumor you heard of him.ย 
โ€œYeah, I am just nervous I guess.โ€ You responded and Chrissy only nodded in a slow motion towards you. You looked around to see everyone gathered in Steveโ€™s backyard, the sunset giving perfect orange hues as Wayne started the fire for some burgers, and Dustin was getting the cooler with beers alongside Mike.ย 
You couldnโ€™t believe these boys were almost twenty. You didnโ€™t mind that they drink some beers at this age, because who didnโ€™t drink alcohol being below twenty-one? But did time pass by this quickly? When did it happen?
โ€œIf you say so.โ€ Chrissy mumbled as she pressed a hand on your shoulder for reassurance. You couldnโ€™t be more grateful for a friend like Chrissy. You really donโ€™t know where you would be if it werenโ€™t for her. Probably crying in every possible corner Hawkins had to give.
โ€œWill you two stop being lazy asses and get the drinks from inside?โ€ Steve yelled and you just rolled your eyes, while Chrissy flipped him off, Robin and Nancy laughing while putting up some balloons and preparing the music. You and your best friend walked inside to get the glasses and the sodas for the night.ย 
โ€œHe seriously needs to stop acting like a mother.โ€ You groaned as you piled up the red cups in your hands, hearing Chrissy snorting behind you as she took the sodas out of the fridge.
โ€œAnd yetโ€“โ€ And she suddenly went silent. You started hearing cheering from outside and you shut your eyes very tight, wincing slightly at the impending pain that your heart will feel at seeing him. You could already hear his electric voice, all enthusiastic and happy, and it made your heart jump three feet up.
You heard your name being called by Chrissy and it made you open your eyes so you could take a deep breath in, slowly turning around to finally look out the window to see him, your breath being knocked out in one single glance.ย 
His hair, tied in a bun, scruff on his chin and jaw, curls falling on the sides of his face as he hugged Dustin tightly, swirling him around while the rest of the band greeted everyone else. You didnโ€™t want to be a bitch to the other three, but your eyes could only see Eddie. Only Eddie. A tight tank top with ripped sleeves reveals tattoos that linger across his arms and hands. Black ripped jeans with chains hanging from his waist, and a piercing on his nose, a hoop that glistened with the orange hue of the sunset.
You took a deep breath trying to calm your accelerating heart, trying to not let the blood go all the way to your cheeks, to your body, as you looked at him. Itโ€™s not like when you two talk on video calls, it cannot compare.
Chrissy cleared her throat, making you snap out, looking at him with a wild look on your face. She chuckled softly as she walked outside and you immediately heard Eddie cheerfully yell her name, and she was yelling to be careful with the bottles in her hands.ย 
โ€œYou can do thisโ€ฆ You can definitely do this. Just keep pretending, everything will be okay.โ€ This was always what you told yourself before seeing him in person. Even at school. You often wondered if you would ever stop these feelings of yours, but even if there was a possibility of them stopping, how do you reach that?
You took another deep breath, getting hold of the stack of red cups you had bought for today, and you rolled your shoulders, once, twice, and finally stepped out into the garden. His back was towards you, so it gave you time to put the cups on the table as you looked at the back of his head. He was talking with Jonathan as Dustin walked over to hand him a beer.ย 
You could hear his laughter, and you wanted to stay there, yet you also wanted to run away. So far away. But you couldnโ€™t do that now, not when Dustin told Eddie something and then pointed towards you, making him turn around and his brown eyes finally caught onto yours.
Every thought of running away evaporated because thatโ€™s what Eddie does to you. He turns you into putty, into his slave, into a submissive prey that will do whatever he commands. Just with him looking at you, and flashing a smile your way as his eyes light up with yours. A smile was immediately drawn to your lips, not pretending, because you loved him, and you didnโ€™t have to pretend to be happy to see him.
Because you were. Extremely so.
He handed the beer to Dustin in a quick manner as he started rushing towards you, making your legs work as well, meeting him halfway in order for his arms to open wide as his smile worked all the way up, face lighting up as he sees you, and you just canโ€™t help the extreme happiness that invades you and fills you the moment he wraps his arms around your frame.
His perfume, his scent, the smell of the shampoo of his hair, everything was engulfing you as well as his hands pressing all over your back, while your arms wrapped around his shoulders, your nose digging into the crook of his neck. He chuckles when he feels your breath on his skin, and you are unaware of the shiver that runs through his spine at the feel of it.
He pulled away with a grin on his face, and thatโ€™s when he finally took notice of how you had a different hair color, you two had talked through video call two weeks ago, so it was a very recent change. He straightened up to grab hold of one strand as he raised a playful eyebrow up.
โ€œA new style, Kitty?โ€ย 
That damn nickname. It stuck to you when Eddie and you had a school show back in middle school, and he was spared from acting, but you were disguised as a black cat. He made fun of you, of course, but thatโ€™s what made you two grow close to one another.ย 
You fought the heat that was rising up on your cheeks as you giggled and looked down to the floor, giving him a short nod.
โ€œYeah, wanted to try something new.โ€ He gave a nod to you and you raised your head up to look back to his eyes once more. He was looking at you with fondness as if you were the only light in his path at the moment.
โ€œYou look beautiful.โ€
It wasnโ€™t the first time Eddie complimented you, but it wasnโ€™t easier each time he did it. Your heart always leaped at his comments, always raising a little bit of hope inside of you that you didnโ€™t know if it was healthy or not. He was just your best friend, and your fantasies are just that. Fantasies.
โ€œT-Thanks Edsโ€ฆ I hope this whole rockstar career didnโ€™t make you a wuss with alcohol.โ€ You tried to lighten the moment and it worked as he laughed wholeheartedly at you, shaking his head.
โ€œYou are not going to beat me at chugging beer. Last time you almost puked!โ€
โ€œWeโ€™ll see.โ€
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You did not win. You just wanted to see him have fun and laugh as the foam of the beer got out of your nose as you choked on the drink.ย 
It was a nice night, warm, and the buzz of the alcohol was not too great, just enough to feel funny but conscious. It was nice having Eddie here, and you could notice it around the whole group. Dustin couldnโ€™t stop nerding with him about DnD, and Robin was telling him about how she managed to get Chrissy on a date.
You were laughing with Mike as he explained to you how Nancy almost caught him and Will in the closet and you couldnโ€™t help but wince because you still saw these two boys as little teenagers, and it was weird imagining them in this situation.ย 
But it seems someone was bored.
โ€œNow that we are older, can you PLEASE play Never Have I ever with us!?โ€ Everyoneโ€™s gazes turned to the redhead that had the beer in her hand, moving it from side to side and everyone couldnโ€™t help but burst out in laughter because ever since these kids tried alcohol at the age of fifteen, theyโ€™ve been trying to play these games with all the grown-ups.ย 
โ€œOkay, you guys are old enough. I donโ€™t want any ews, or ahs, okay?โ€ Steve replied and Dustin rolled his eyes at him.
โ€œSame goes for you, Steve.โ€
And yeah, he was right, because it was going to be weird listening to these kids talk about their experiences with all of you. But whatever, Eddie doesnโ€™t come often, might as well have fun with it.
You all sat around, and you were in between Chrissy and Jonathan while Eddie sat at front in between Robin and Dustin. Max cleared her throat, signaling that she was about to start, and all of you tried to stop the giggling at the whole situation.
โ€œIโ€™ll start. Never have I everโ€ฆ kissed someone of the same sex.โ€ย 
Steve, Nancy, Jonathan, Dustin, Lucas, and you didnโ€™t drink. Everyone else did. You knew Eddie had kissed guys before, experimenting. The one that everyone turned to look at though, was Steve.
โ€œSeriously Harrington?โ€ Eddie asked, completely surprised and you snorted into your beer as Steve looked at him with an eyebrow raised.
โ€œWhat? I never had the curiosity.โ€ Eddie shrugged and took a sip of his beer as Robin came next.
โ€œOkay, okayโ€ฆ Never have I everโ€ฆ done harder drugs than weed.โ€
โ€œLow blow Buckley.โ€ Eddie said as he took a sip of his drink, Jonathan followed right behind, making Will look at him with his mouth wide open.
โ€œWhat!?โ€ Will yelled at his brother, who only laughed as he wiped his mouth.
โ€œMy best friend is Argyle, what do you expect?โ€ And Will only rolled his eyes as Mike chuckled and patted his boyfriendโ€™s shoulder to calm him down. You cleared your throat as you knew that Eddie had tried many things thanks to the connections he now has with the famous environment he is in.ย 
You remember when he once video-called you telling you he felt like shit because he took two lines of coke for the very first time. One would think that an ex-dealer would have tried stronger things, but not Eddie. He never was fond of them, yet, he felt pressured to do so that night.
โ€œOkay, my turn. Never have I everโ€ฆ puked all over a friend.โ€ And the bastard wiggled his eyebrows your way, and you cussed at him on the low, taking a sip of your drink, as well as Robin with an embarrassed look on her face while Steve winced in disgust.
โ€œNot fair Eddie.โ€ You whined at him and he could only laugh. It was the first time youโ€™d ever gotten drunk, and it took two glasses of fireball and coke for you to barf all over your best friend as he tried to get you out of the party. It was humiliating, yet Eddie held you tight and reassured you that everything was okay.
He took care of you the whole morning afterwards, telling your mom that you crashed at his place because you were tired, even if his place and yours were five minutes away.ย 
โ€œMy turn.โ€ Dustin said with a smug look on his face and Steve took a sharp intake of breath, and you could only groan. โ€œI didnโ€™t even say anything.โ€
โ€œCโ€™mon Henderson, what do you want to know?โ€ Chrissy laughed as she saw Robin rolling her eyes at her but with a small smile on her lips. Dustin smirked and straightened up.
โ€œNever have I ever slept with anyone in this circle.โ€
Will and Mike groaned as they took sips of their own drinks, same as Max as she flipped Dustin off and Lucas laughing while shaking his head. Jonathan and Nancy also took sips of their drinks, Steve, as well, Robin and Chrissyโ€ฆ
And you.
Causing everyone to look at you in disbelief.
โ€œWhat?โ€ Your best friend said with a mocking laugh, thinking you were lying, but another person winced in the circle as Dustin let out a victorious laugh, raising his fist up with a pump.
โ€œI FUCKING KNEW IT!โ€ย 
โ€œDustin.โ€ You groaned as you clenched your eyes tightly and Dustin shook his head, while everyone looked at him.
โ€œNo, I was right, and you two fucking lied about it!โ€ He screamed and Eddie was looking back and forth between you and Dustin, not knowing what was going on.
โ€œYou two?โ€ Jonathan asked and then, everyoneโ€™s eyes turned to one of the single males in the group who had his hand running in his hair with an exasperated sigh.
โ€œYeah Dustin, we lied.โ€ Steve finally responded.ย 
Everyone, except for Dustin remained silent as the curly-headed guy let out a scoff with a shake of his head.
โ€œAnd you thought I wouldnโ€™t figure it out.โ€ He said with a smug look on his face and you couldnโ€™t even look up from embarrassment, but a voice made you snap out to finally make you talk.
โ€œKitty?โ€ย 
Shit.
โ€œWhen did this happen?โ€ Robin asked in disbelief and you sighed, finally looking up from your glass, trying to not look at your best friend who was piercing his gaze through your skull, making a shiver run down your spine.
โ€œA month ago.โ€ Everyone almost screamed at the confession and you sighed with a roll of your eyes.
โ€œHOW!?โ€ Mike now asked and Steve cleared his throat, a chuckle then escaping his mouth.
โ€œWe were drunkโ€ฆ blasted off drunk.โ€ Eddieโ€™s mouth was on the floor right now, and you could see the betrayal that was slowly plastering on his face, making you wince inwardly. You didnโ€™t tell him. You didnโ€™t want to tell him, and now he knew, and you felt the lump of guilt forming inside your throat and guts.
โ€œWait, was it after the barbeque?โ€ Will asked this time and Dustin chuckled with a nod to his head, making you and Steve glare at him.
โ€œYep. I forgot my phone, and imagine my surprise when I heard moaning throughout the house and her car was still parked outside.โ€ Everyone except for three people gasped at the situation, making Dustin proud of his discovery. โ€œSteve told me it was another girl while she slept in his parentโ€™s bed.โ€
โ€œIt was believable.โ€ Steve retorted, making you scoff at that.
โ€œIt was fucking dumb Steve.โ€ At your response, everyoneโ€™s heads snapped at you while Steve looked at you with an offended frown on his eyebrows.
โ€œIt wasnโ€™t! He is just too nosy! And let me remind you, you jumped my bones first.โ€ Gasps and whistles were now heard in your circle of friends as your mouth dropped to the floor, looking at Steve with anger in your face.
โ€œI did not! You were the one who started it!โ€ And to be honest, you could hardly remember that night, you were depressed and angry, and Steve was pent up. Thatโ€™s all it was.ย 
โ€œOkay, I donโ€™t remember who did, weโ€™ll just say we are both to blame.โ€ Steve raised his cup up towards you with a sheepish smile on his face, making you roll your own, but a smile was on your lips as you raised your cup as well and took a sip from it.ย 
โ€œWell, thatโ€™s something I didnโ€™t know.โ€ You almost choked as you looked towards your best friend after the confession you blurted out. He had a piercing gaze towards your way, a glare, anger behind his eyes with his arms crossed over his chest. The air immediately tensed and you werenโ€™t the only one who felt it.ย 
Everyone else was looking somewhere else than in between the two of you. You knew you were in the wrong for not telling him anything, but you really didnโ€™t want him to know about it. It was a one-time thing that would never happen again, so you really didnโ€™t see the need to do so.
Steve also noticed the tense air, clearing his throat to talk once more.
โ€œOkay, my turn, right?โ€
ย And the game went on, but not with the same cheery atmosphere as before. You were quiet, and Eddie was angry, passing on his turn whenever he had to say something. You barely included yourself in the game, your mind racing with nervousness and guilt from not telling your best friend you slept with Steve.ย 
Once everyone finally decided the night was done, you helped Robin and Chrissy try to tidy up Steveโ€™s kitchen the best you could. You didnโ€™t want to face Eddie, the alcohol in your system was long gone thanks to the dread of facing him alone at some point in the week. You were washing the cups as Robin and Chrissy started giggling and you sent them a wink as they rushed out and up the stairs to one of Steveโ€™s rooms.
โ€œSo they left you on cleaning duty.โ€ Steve entered the kitchen with empty bottles with a groan as he threw them in the trash. You giggled and shrugged, finishing to wash the last cup.
โ€œThey are in their honeymoon phase, let them be.โ€ You turned off the water from the sink as you felt Steve stand next to you with his arms over his chest.
โ€œBut chicks stain sheets, and I really donโ€™t want to hear them having sex. Why canโ€™t they go to one of their houses?โ€ You rolled your eyes as you dried your hands with one of the hand towels that was hanging from the ovenโ€™s handle.ย 
โ€œPut some headphones on, suck it up like a man.โ€ You giggled and he followed with a chuckle only for the two of you to be interrupted by a clear of throat and some keys jingling.
โ€œSorry to interrupt. Letโ€™s go home.โ€ Eddie was leaning against the door frame of the kitchen, swinging his keys around his middle finger with a piercing gaze thrown your way. You looked at him in complete confusion, tilting your head.
โ€œIโ€“ I came with my carโ€“โ€ย 
โ€œLetโ€™s go home.โ€ It was stern, angry, and fed up. It was a command. He wanted to talk, and you knew that. Your heart hammered in your chest as you sighed, giving Steve a look and he gave you a reassuring nod with a worried frown.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™ll pick up your car tomorrow.โ€ The brown-haired man said as the rockstar rolled his eyes, walking out of the kitchen. You gave Steve one last look before following Eddie out and then towards the front door.
The black matte Jeep Wrangler standing at the front in all of its glory, and it sometimes makes you miss his old van. The one the both of you smoked weed in between school periods, after school, and on the weekends. The one where you laid at the top to star gaze, completely high off your minds.ย 
You heard a click, snapping you out as you saw him lighting a cigarette while walking, opening the passengerโ€™s door for you, but not waiting for you to get in. He rounded the car to go into the driverโ€™s seat, making you gulp thanks to your nervousness, not knowing where the night was headed.ย 
You slowly got inside the car, closed the door, and buckled your seatbelt properly, trying to keep your heart out of your throat as it threatened to come out. His eyes were unreadable as they stared forward, making the engine of the car roar as he rolled the window down for the smoke to leave the interior.ย 
And then, it was quiet. Not even music was on.
He was driving, one hand gripped on the wheel while the other stuck out of the window with the cigarette in between his fingers. You didnโ€™t know where to look or what to do as you played with your fingers on top of your lap, looking out the window.ย 
What were you supposed to say? Should you wait for him to say something? Or is he waiting for you? Is he waiting for a sign so he can start talking? You donโ€™t understand why the air is so tense between the two of you, itโ€™s not like you murdered someone, it was justโ€“
Whatโ€“
โ€œHang on, are you not taking me home?โ€ You asked as you looked at the exit that would take you to your apartment complex. You received no response, making you look at him who was still looking ahead of the road, flicking the cigarette out the window as his other one clenched onto the wheel.ย 
You knew where he was taking you, back to his apartment in Indianapolis. It wasnโ€™t a long ride, but it was half an hour away, meaning you would have to stay silent for the whole ride, and it was making your gut turn uncomfortably.ย 
Eddie and you never fought, and you for sure never received this kind of treatment from him. The only time you can remember something like this happened, was back in middle school when you didnโ€™t tell him you had your first kiss with Richard Pax. It was in spin the bottle, and you were embarrassed about it.ย 
He didnโ€™t talk to you for a whole week until he saw you crying and understood that you were just ashamed of it, and you couldnโ€™t even face Richard for how nervous you were. Eddie apologized to you, and held your hand afterwards, telling you to not consider that your first kiss, that it should be special and one you wanted.
You could feel your phone pinging, and you looked down to see Steve messaging you if you were okay, that Eddie didnโ€™t look happy at all. You sighed as you opened your messages to type a reply back only to get a scoff from your partner inside the car.
โ€œYouโ€™re with me right now, at least put the phone down.โ€ Your eyebrows pinched together at that answer, looking at him as anger started rising up inside of you.
โ€œYouโ€™re not even talking to me, you have no right to ask anything from me right now.โ€ย 
โ€œMmm.โ€
The air was now filled with anger, you could feel it because you were the one enraged now. Who did he think he was? Acting pissed just cause you didnโ€™t tell him one thing? You were betting he didnโ€™t tell you many things that he does at the parties he attends or the tours he does with his bands.ย 
Hypocrite.ย 
You texted Steve back, aiming the screen away from Eddieโ€™s gaze.
And thatโ€™s how the thirty minutes passed by till Eddie finally got the jeep inside the underground parking lot of his building. You unbuckle your seatbelt, stepping out of the car at the same time Eddie did. The doors slamming echoed all over the immense space as Eddie headed towards the elevator, pressing the button to call it down.ย 
You were angry, nervous, anxious, confused, not understanding why Eddie was acting this way at all. You couldnโ€™t even look at him as the elevator finally reached the floor, and he got in. You hesitated for a few seconds, but it was no use as he held the doors open with his broad hand.
You stepped in, and he pressed his floor, the metal doors closing in front of you. The small space was suffocating you. You could hear his angry and heavy breathing. Maybe you can play it off with a joke or something. Make the air a little lighter, trying to make the tense moment go away, but the distant look in his eyes made you think twice about that.ย 
You were fidgeting in your place with your purse in your hands. The elevator kept going up until it reached the penthouse at the top. It was over the top, but someone who didnโ€™t have anything growing up, wants the best of the best when he has the opportunity to do so. So Eddie wanted the best of the building of course.
The elevator doors opened and he walked out first, walking towards the double doors of his home, typing in the password in his security lock. You heard the beeping of the numbers being punched in, and you groaned, walking out of the elevator as he opened the front door of his home.
You walked in right after him, taking in the scent of his cologne as he walked further in. You closed the door behind you and it automatically locked in place. It wasnโ€™t that big of a penthouse, not really, and he filled it with his own stuff, his mugs, his records, his guitars. It was Eddie, even if itโ€™s not the trailer back at Hawkins.
You waited for him to talk, only to see him walking away towards the hallway, going towards his bedroom, making you frown in anger. You followed him, stomping next to the couch where you dropped your purse, not caring for it anymore.
He was in front of his king-sized bed with black covers, taking his jacket off, not giving you a second glance. You clenched your jaw at how immature he was, all because you didnโ€™t tell him one thing in your life. Just one.
โ€œAre you gonna talk to me now, or are you going to keep being a little child?โ€ His mouth dropped at your words as if he couldnโ€™t believe you were talking to him that way. He slowly looked up at you, standing in the doorway of his room with your arms crossed over your chest.
โ€œMe? Why donโ€™t you talk sweetheart? Why didnโ€™t you tell me about you and Stevie?โ€ And your anger started bubbling up again.ย 
โ€œWhy does it matter!? I was drunk! And it was a while ago!โ€ You answered as you waved your arms around in exclamation.ย 
โ€œIt matters cause you are my best friend, and you didnโ€™t tell me you slept with one of our friends! Itโ€™s important shit!โ€ Okay, you could see a little bit as to why he would be mad at you. The difference as to why you would not get mad at him for not telling you stuff like this, was because you would end up hurt if he did.
But he doesnโ€™t end up hurt, because he doesnโ€™t feel the same as you do.
โ€œEddieโ€“โ€
โ€œAnd with Steve! Why the fuck did it have to be him!?โ€ Now this part, you didnโ€™t understand.
โ€œWhy does it matter if it was with Steve?โ€ He was pacing now, and you couldnโ€™t help but feel confused by his attitude. Why is he so agitated over this? You didnโ€™t tell him you slept with Steve, while drunk off your mind, big deal. He let out a scoff as his hands ran through his face, completely pissed, his nose flaring as he breathed heavily.
โ€œFuck Kitty, itโ€™s not fucking fair!โ€ You could see his hands shaking as he grunted at each step, and you were now worried. Did you do something you didnโ€™t have to do? Was there something you didnโ€™t know about Eddie and Steve? Some kind of pact or something of the sort? Did you mess up the friendship?
โ€œWhatโ€™s not fair!? Eddie, you are not making any fucking sense, andโ€“โ€ Your words were cut off as two strong hands held onto your cheeks, and your best friendโ€™s face was inches away from you as he talked through his teeth.
โ€œIt is not fair he got to have you like that. It is not fair he had the chance of having you first. It is not fair he got what Iโ€™ve been wanting, for fucking years.โ€
And your words were knocked out of your lungs, as well as your air.ย 
There was no way he said that.
Because why would he?
But he just did, didnโ€™t he? You werenโ€™t deaf, you heard itโ€“
โ€œWhat?โ€ Your voice was so small, and Eddie noticed, wincing slightly as he pulled away from you, letting go of your face and you immediately realized you spoke, and that he might have taken it as rejection butโ€“ what is going on?
You were frozen in your place, looking at how he backed away, running his hands all over his face as he started pacing back and forth, not even glancing at you as he took a few breaths in. You on the other hand, felt your heart in your throat, beating constantly, furiously, feeling as if you were going to pop a vein here and there for how strong you felt the pumping of your own blood course through your whole body.
You saw how he started to slow down his pacing, standing in one place, a meter or two away from you, and his eyes found yours. You could feel fear, sadness, and embarrassment in those eyes, all in one place, in those irises.ย 
โ€œIโ€“ I really didnโ€™t want to do thisโ€ฆ this wayโ€ฆโ€ He scoffed at his own words and shook his head with a fake chuckle on his lips. โ€œFuck, I didnโ€™t even know I was ever going to do this.โ€
You were just speechless, feeling your eyes burning because it all led to what is obviousโ€ฆ But he never showed it in his life, so you donโ€™t understand, it is not processing in your head as it should.
โ€œDoโ€ฆ what?โ€ It was a choked whisper, the best one you could master at this moment because your throat was just closed up, non-working. Your brain was a jumbled mess as it tried to put a puzzle together that you never thought was there to begin with.
His eyes darted towards you and then out the window as he licked his lips, thinking about his next words carefully.ย 
โ€œYouโ€“ You are my best friendโ€ฆ The fear of losing you is greater than any other feeling I hold inside.โ€ He was struggling, you noticed the nervousness, the twitching of the tip of his fingers as he scratched his cheek.
โ€œYou wonโ€™tโ€“โ€
โ€œYou canโ€™t say I wonโ€™t lose you. I say these three words, and I wonโ€™t be able to go back, and you wonโ€™t be able to either. Iโ€™ve been holding them back for ten years, I can keep going if it means I get to keep you.โ€ย 
Three words. Three. Are those the same three words you hold dear? Those three words youโ€™ve been fighting against for so many years? Three simple words but yet that can cause so much pain if you donโ€™t receive them back?ย 
Could it be?ย 
Your mouth opened and closed, and you felt a tear rolling down your cheek, it was inevitable, and you saw how Eddieโ€™s shoulder slumped down, his eyebrows knitting together in the middle in a frown. Sadness.
You had to speak. You have to fight the thrumming of your heart and the warning signs your brain is throwing your way to stop you. But Eddie and you already share one feeling. Fear. So what if there are other feelings you both share? Equal feelings?
โ€œS-Say those wordsโ€ฆโ€ You pushed, you needed to make sure, you needed to hear them, you needed that happiness you never thought you would get with him. He shook his head once and twice, biting the inside of his cheek.
โ€œNo. I wonโ€™t. I canโ€™t lose you Kittyโ€ฆ I canโ€™t.โ€ Your heart was ablaze because of nerves, of impatience, and of hope. You took a shaky breath in, your fist clenching and unclenching in order to hold back your own words.
โ€œIโ€“ Please say themโ€ฆโ€ And as Eddie looked at you, you could see how his features softened and relaxed into a surprised expression, as if looking at you let him solve a riddle in his head. His adamโ€™s apple bobbed up and down as he looked at you, swallowing, and you felt your bottom lip trembling, your eyes burning, your body almost shaking with anticipation.
You saw how his chest moved up and down in a quick manner, giving away how heavy his breathing turned. Your eyes were connected to his, trying to let him know, trying to make him have that courage to make the first step you are not confident enough to take. And then his shoulders relaxed, his features doing the exact same, and as he looked at you with glossy eyes, he opened his mouth to finally take the leap.
โ€œI love you.โ€ย 
Silence overtook the two of you as the words sank. He loves you, and not as a friend. He loves you as a woman. He loves you as a partner. He loves you as much as you love him. He loves you. He loves you.
A sob ripped from your chest and you slammed your hand on your mouth, feeling new tears streaming down your face, but a smile was hiding behind your palm as you choked on another sob. Eddieโ€™s face turned into a worried one as he took a step towards you, his hands ready to reach out for you and then you started giggling.
You couldnโ€™t believe this. Were you that blind? Were you this stupid? Or maybe it was the two of you? Why were you the only one to blame when he also held these feelings for so long? Youโ€™re best friends for a reason, and this is the greatest example of it all. Pining for eachother since teenagers, evolving into love, and never giving any hints of it to one another. Not even flirty compliments, or insinuations.
You couldnโ€™t help yourself as you kept giggling, eyes closed as one hand was over your mouth while the other gripped your stomach. Eddie was absolutely worried now, thinking you were losing your mind. All these years, you two could have done something about your feelings, but your insecurities fucked up your brains because, if it hadnโ€™t, maybe one of you would have noticed something.
โ€œThis is so fucking stupid!โ€ You yelled out loud, still laughing and Eddie only frowned as he straightened up, his arms crossing over his chest.
โ€œNice to know my love for you is stupid.โ€ That made you stop laughing, only to look at his pissed-off frown and for you to burst into laughter again. The tears never stopped coming down, feeling your heart flying into the sky as you also felt the need to bang your head against a wall, repeatedly.
โ€œIโ€“ I promise itโ€™s not that!โ€ You were trying to calm down, taking deep breaths in and out as you kept watching him. He wasnโ€™t laughing, just staring at you with a hint of sadness, anger, and confusion. All together, which only prompted you to snort, another laugh threatening to come out. You raised your hand up to stop Eddie from lashing out. โ€œSorry!โ€
โ€œSorry? I confess my love to you and you laugh in my face. Do you even know how hurtful and disrespectful that is?โ€ You could feel his words holding some truth, but you knew he was also finding the situation kind of comical. You waved your hands in front of you, small giggles escaping you still.
โ€œYou donโ€™t understand, I canโ€™t believe we are this stupid.โ€ You snorted at the word and Eddieโ€™s arms uncrossed, tilting his head to the side in wonder, an eyebrow raised up in question.
โ€œWhy are we stupid?โ€ And you couldnโ€™t help but start laughing again as new tears rolled down your cheeks, happiness just exploding from every part of your body.
โ€œI mean, we were in love with eachother all these years, and we never knew? We really are fucking stupid Eds!โ€ Your giggles stopped after those words came out of your mouth. Your eyes slowly found his as a ringing in your ears started being really loud, almost hurting you. His eyes were wide, incredulous, his arms dangling on the sides of his body.
โ€œYouโ€“ Youโ€™re in love with me?โ€ His mouth was agape, staring at you with a perplexed expression as you felt your heart about to combust, only for him to start cracking up as well, slamming his hands over his face, his laughter bouncing on every wall of the room, and you couldnโ€™t help but join him in it.
You both now know you are idiots, absolute fucking morons and you cannot believe you wasted all this time being only friends when you could have been more. The feelings were one and the same. The jealousy. The anger. The hopelessness. The yearning. The happiness. The need. The love.ย 
He let his hands drop from his face, a last shake of his head as he looked back at you. Your giggles slowly stopped, and you wiped the tears away from your eyes. This was real now. This was happening for you, for him, for your future. He took a step forward and the nerves were back all together.ย 
โ€œCanโ€™t believe we didnโ€™t see it at allโ€ฆ Iโ€“ honestly didnโ€™t think I would ever have a chance after you signed that contract Edsโ€ฆโ€ You averted your gaze towards the floor as you took various breaths in, trying to control yourself again, center your mind back into reality, and push the shock away. He sighed at that, shaking his head once more even if you didnโ€™t see him.
โ€œI never thought I had a chance. I just thought and still think you are way too good for me sweetheartโ€ฆโ€ He cleared his throat as you frowned at that and looked up at him to hear him better. โ€œI honestlyโ€ฆ I had a bit of hope when I signed the contract. I thought I would finally beโ€“ good for you.โ€ย 
Your heart stopped and sunk into a deep sea, going to the darkest bits. Eddie felt that way with you? That he wasnโ€™t good enough for you? That he had to be someone else in order to feel that he had a chance with you?
โ€œEdโ€“Eddie, I didnโ€™t care for thatโ€ฆ I still donโ€™tโ€“ I thought that you were the one out of reachโ€ฆ Iโ€“ What chance would I have had with a rockstar thatโ€“โ€ You didnโ€™t want to finish that phrase. It was too embarrassing, but how could you not? How could you not compare yourself to all the women Eddie had after signing that contract? The models, the singers, the influencersโ€ฆ It was impossible not to do so.
He seemed to realize the doubt on your face because his features softened as he took a step closer to you, the tips of your shoes touching as he stood right before you. He scratched his cheek as he tried to find the next words.
โ€œWellโ€ฆ we arenโ€™t out of reach anymoreโ€ฆ are we?โ€ And your eyes found his, your heart in your throat as he licked his lips and you knew what was supposed to happen now. Butโ€“
โ€œWhat if itโ€™s weird?โ€ He blinked two times before tilting his head and you wanted to drown in embarrassment.
โ€œWhat would be weird?โ€ His voice was a tone lower than before and it made you tremble a little, goosebumps rising on your skin.
โ€œWellโ€“ We know eachother since we were tenโ€ฆ What if you find it weird to kiss me?โ€ And it almost looked like Eddie could not believe what you were saying.ย 
โ€œSweetheartโ€ฆ Iโ€™ve been dying to kiss you since I can even remember.โ€ You couldnโ€™t help but feel your cheeks burn up, looking down with a small smile on your face. He bit his bottom lip and cleared his throat, making you look up at him once more. โ€œWeโ€™ll just see where it goes, how about that?โ€
You were afraid of that because what if it really happened that he would back out cause he felt it too weird for him? Or what if you werenโ€™t of his expectations? What if you let him down? But you would never know unlessโ€“ย 
โ€œOkayโ€ฆโ€ The word โ€˜nervousโ€™ runs a little short of what you were feeling. You had your own expectations of this moment, but you knew he would fill every single one of them and exceed them. Now for you? You werenโ€™t so sure.ย 
โ€œTrust me Kittyโ€ฆโ€ He gave you a nervous, yet charming smile as he finally invaded your space and leaned. You closed your eyes and waited, feeling your whole body about to collapse. You expected his lips on your lips, but you felt them on your cheek. You opened your eyes with confusion plastered in them to see Eddie grinning.
โ€œEdsโ€ฆ?โ€
โ€œWeird?โ€ You giggled at that, feeling your nerves slowly leaving you.
โ€œNope.โ€ He smiled as he guided his lips towards your other cheek, placing another kiss there. You two have shared kisses on the face before. Cheeks, foreheads, noseโ€ฆ All innocent, and now, the kisses had a completely different meaning.
โ€œHow about that?โ€ You rolled your eyes at him and shook your head, and your heart was already thrumming with impatience instead of nerves. His smile faltered a bit but it never left as he finally leaned towards your lips. You took a deep breath in, closing your eyes at the same time he closed his.ย 
And finally, your lips touched for the very first time.
It was small, nervous, testing, but it still sent an electric shock down both of your bodies. Simultaneously. Your lips fit perfectly against his, and it felt right. It felt so right. He pulled away too soon, but his lips hovered over yours as he opened his eyes to look at you. You looked at him through your lashes.
โ€œNot weirdโ€ฆโ€ You mumbled and he only hummed, his own heart exploding. He tilted his head to the other side and pressed his lips against yours again, this time a little firmer than before. You felt your body craving to wrap itself around him, but you two were testing this new development. You had to be patient, but from the looks of it, it seemed Eddie was also enjoying it like you were.
And there was no lie in that because Eddie felt like he was combusting from how much he felt his body flush. He felt sweat on his fingertips and he just wanted to hold you in his arms, but just like yourself, he needed your green light. He slowly pulled away from that peck, a soft smack being heard in the room as you two looked at eachother again.
โ€œWeird?โ€ He asked in a whisper, and you shook your head desperately as you felt your eyes becoming glossy with need as you looked at him.ย 
And he dove in. This kiss was harder, deeper, and his hands finally reached out to hold your waist, pulling you closer, and you responded by raising your arms in order to wrap them around his neck, flushing your chest against his, and finally, your lips moved against eachotherโ€™s, and it felt magical.ย 
It felt like that puzzle piece you thought you would never find, but it was hidden in a very small corner, underneath a carpet. His arms wrapped around you, one palm on the small of your back and the other right in the middle. You felt how hot your body was getting but you couldnโ€™t stop yourself, needing more and more from him.
He deepened the kiss even more, pressing you into him, wanting to feel more of you. Your heads moved from side to side, and he was going to be greedy and ask for more. His tongue darted out to lick your bottom lip, making your heart jump and a small gasp escaped your throat, but you opened your mouth to welcome him in.
And you two sighed in pleasure as your tongues clashed together, having a taste of eachother for the first time. You tasted like strawberries and beer thanks to your lipgloss, mints, and the alcohol you two had earlier in the night. He tasted like you always imagined he would. Tobacco, and this kind of minty taste that must be from the flavor sphere inside the filters of his cigarettes. Beer was also mixed in, and one of your hands couldnโ€™t help but scratch the back of his neck for more grip, making him groan into the kiss.
You were surprised by the noise, but a moan escaped your mouth and into his as your breasts rubbed against his chest and his tongue danced with yours. You felt yourself sweating with anticipation, the track of time disappearing as you two melted more and more into eachother, but air was soon needed and you two broke apart, panting onto one anotherโ€™s lips. His eyes were staring into yours and he gulped as he spoke again.
โ€œTold you. Not weird.โ€ He sounded breathless, and you could feel his heart thrumming in his chest, in fact, you didnโ€™t even know if it was yours. You chased his lips and gave him a soft peck, your eyes half-lidded in bliss. He gave you a cheeky smile as he talked in a low voice. โ€œAlready canโ€™t get enough of me Kitty?โ€
You were flustered, burning, but you wanted to show him how much you wanted him. So you kissed him again, deep, long, and slow. It was loving and filled with the emotions you wanted to shower him with for the past ten years. You pulled away with a small smile on your face as he stared at you, a little taken aback.
โ€œNever going to get enough of you.โ€ And you could see your best friend, this insane rockstar, blushing a deep red on his cheeks and you couldnโ€™t help but giggle. โ€œYouโ€™re red!โ€
His cheeks lose the color, just slightly, and his eyes squint at you, annoyance displayed in his features. Your smile fell down and before you could even speak, he bent down slightly in order to hook his arm around your waist and throw you over his shoulder as he stood up again. You screamed at that movement, your legs flailing a little bit as he walked towards his room.
โ€œCocky little shit.โ€ He chuckled and in just one minute you were facing the floor, the other you were facing the ceiling as his mattress hit your back, making you bounce slightly. You felt butterflies flying all around inside your stomach as you raised yourself on your elbows in order to look at him.
His eyes were dark as he scanned your body, the dress you were wearing hitched up a bit on the middle of your thighs and before you could say anything, he leaned forward to help you take your sandals off. His fingers grazed your ankles and a shiver ran from your calf to the top of your head. You saw how he took each boot off with the help of the tips on the heels. He looked at you and then finally got on the bed, crawling on all fours on top of you, prompting you to lean back onto the bed.
Your breathing was fast as you looked up at him. Those brown eyes that have been with you since kids, and now, those eyes were looking at you with hunger, but was it really new? He leaned his body down, a bit closer, still not wanting to press his chest nor hips against yours.
โ€œKittyโ€ฆ We donโ€™t have to do anythingโ€“โ€ And you cut him off there with a shake of your head. He might have gotten the wrong idea because of your possible shocked facial expression.
โ€œNo, noโ€ฆ Iโ€“ I want toโ€ฆโ€ He tilted his head with doubt as he inspected your face which only became hotter and hotter at the intense stare.
โ€œYou donโ€™t sound too sure. We donโ€™t have to do this nowโ€“โ€
โ€œEddie, I want toโ€ฆ God, I want toโ€“ I mean, have you seen you? I have a hidden maxi-size poster of your half-naked rolling stone cover just because your pelvis showedโ€ฆโ€ He snorted at your bluntness but seriously, it was the hottest youโ€™ve seen Eddie look. The V shape with the happy trail going downwards, just where the edge of the cover ended was enough to make you have so many fantasies in the lapse of a minute.
โ€œAlright. Good to knowโ€ฆ So, is it just nerves? Cause, I am nervous tooโ€ฆ I mean, itโ€™s youโ€ฆ I built this up in my head a thousand times and itโ€™s finally here and honestly? I am kind of afraid of busting in my pants.โ€ You giggled at that, wholeheartedly too and he just kept smiling at you, brushing some hair off your face. You stopped laughing and gulped as shame crept all over your body.
You can trust him. Itโ€™s Eddie, and he loves youโ€ฆ He will understand you, thereโ€™s no need to be scared. The nervousness and anxiety of laying yourself out there to him didnโ€™t calm itself down though, but you had to reassure him that it wasnโ€™t him at all, nor the fear of it being weird.
โ€œIโ€“ I justโ€ฆ do you mindโ€ฆ having the lights off?โ€
And that seemed to throw Eddie back. His eyebrows came to the middle in a confused frown as he looked down at you, trying to understand you. You looked away from him and you felt your eyes glossing over as more embarrassment came over your body.
โ€œKitty, Iโ€“ Why do you want them off?โ€ He will respect you, always, but he wants the answer out of your lips to make sure he hadnโ€™t done anything to make you think he didnโ€™t think you were at least pretty, but he always complimented you. Obviously, friendly compliments, not telling you the actual amount of things he wanted to say to you.
โ€œUmโ€ฆ Iโ€“ Wellโ€ฆ umโ€ฆ I am different from all theโ€“ flings you had in the past two yearsโ€ฆโ€ You couldnโ€™t look at him. You sounded so stupid, so little, but you had to be honest with him. You donโ€™t want to have a terrified look on your face just because you pushed yourself to do it with the lights on. Eddie blinked a few times, his head shaking softly.
โ€œCome again?โ€ You cleared your throat, feeling as if it were closing up slowly. You have no smooth skin or toned body.
Adiposities, cellulite, stretchmarks, stretched skin, textured in every place you could look at.ย 
โ€œIโ€™mโ€ฆ nothing like those girlsโ€“ those bodies, I donโ€™tโ€“โ€ You didnโ€™t want him to look at your body. You arenโ€™t insecure, not alwaysโ€ฆ but you know who Eddie slept with, and the insecurity with him is on another kind of level.
Eddie was stunned as he looked down at you. You compared yourselfโ€ฆ and maybe all this time you had been doing so, and he never noticed. Were you hurting in some kind of way? Was he the reason you werenโ€™t confident enough to talk to him about your feelings towards him?ย 
You gulped as you looked at him when you didnโ€™t receive any answer. He seemed concerned, deep in thought, and you wondered if you had already driven him away with just your mere words. You opened your mouth to talk but he was faster.
โ€œYou think you are inferior to them?โ€ His eyes were filled with confusion and some type of sadness, making you frown with worry, but he kept talking before you could even ask. โ€œSweetheartโ€ฆ Kitty, oh my godโ€ฆโ€
You blinked a few times, trying to understand his facial expressions that were changing every second. From angry, to confused, to incredulous, to sadโ€ฆ you werenโ€™t understanding what was going through his head.
โ€œWhat is it?โ€
โ€œWhat is it? Fuckโ€ฆ I donโ€™t want to be blunt, but I feel like if Iโ€™m not you wonโ€™t understand one single bit of whatโ€™s going on in my head soโ€ฆโ€ He cleared his throat as a blush spread on his cheeks while looking down at you. โ€œYou have no idea how many times I popped a boner with you.โ€
That was not something you expected to hear, not right now, and certainly not from him.
โ€œWhat?โ€ He groaned followed by a sigh as he kept hovering over your body. You could feel the heat of his body radiating towards yours, and you could feel your blood rushing to your face, or probably your head.
โ€œWhat I said. I popped a boner many times, even when we were at your house watching Sleepaway Camp and you had those pajamas on that had kittens all overโ€ฆ I covered my crotch with a pillow.โ€ He chuckled to hide his nervousness but your mind was still trying to work out what he was saying.
โ€œIโ€“ Pajamas?โ€ He looked into your eyes and he gave you one slow nod.
โ€œAnd donโ€™t let me get started on the pool parties. One piece, two pieceโ€ฆ Even when you didnโ€™t even take anything off, and fuckโ€“ This sundress? I had to tuck myself when a little bit of wind helped me see the back of your thighsโ€ฆ Just the back of your thighs darling!โ€ He was exasperated now, his eyes wild as he rambled but your mind had shut off.
You? You got him worked up? Today? And before? Even when in the most clothed situations? He looked your way?ย 
โ€œReallyโ€ฆ?โ€ Your voice came out smaller than what you intended but you couldnโ€™t help it. You were feeling emotional, this revelation trying to sit in your brain as it tried to push the possibility of Eddie actually being attracted to you after the women heโ€™s been with away. His eyes softened and he moved a hand towards your cheek to caress it in a soft manner.
โ€œReally. You drive me absolutely insaneโ€ฆโ€ His eyes turned slightly darker and you noticed the air around the two of you change, shift into something that made you feel a little light-headed. โ€œWill you let me show you just how insane you make me?โ€
And your body went limp at his question, a hunger in the eyes of your best friend that you never thought would ever be directed to you.ย 
But maybe those eyes were always there, just not when you were looking. Glances he stole at you at prom after picking you up himself and going together. His eyes scanning your body when you appeared in a long shimmery dress for one of his first award shows, something that made people speculate you two were dating, but then the paparazzis did their job to dismiss that.ย 
Feelings mixed with pure desire and lust that felt wrong to even experience. He watched you become a woman right before his own eyes, growing up together, graduating together after two failed attempts on Eddieโ€™s part, and even with the different future paths, you a veterinarian and he a rockstar, you never lost touch.
But nowโ€ฆ now there is no need to feel guilt. No restraints because the line was already crossed.
So you gave him a slow nod despite the nervous look on your face. Is there a possibility for Eddie to want you just as much as he says he does? More than Megan Fox? Than that chick from that rock band that opened his shows and that is exactly like him and a better match? How is there even a chance?
Your thoughts came to a halt as you felt his face lowering in order to take your lips with his, your mind short circuiting as the kiss wasnโ€™t shy at all like the previous one. It was instantly deep, passionate, and desperate. Teeth almost knocking with eachother as your heads moved from side to side, your arms wrapping around his shoulders wanting to feel him closer.
He chuckled into the kiss, and he pulled away with a soft smack of the lips, a confused whimper escaping your lips to then gasping when his head ducked even further and his kiss was now on your neck, on your pulse point.ย 
โ€œYou have no idea how much I have wanted to mark you. All the guys that flirted with you, or were your hookupsโ€ฆ I just wanted to mark your neck so that they would back off.โ€ He mumbled on your neck and your eyes widened at that, your thighs rubbing against eachother below him for some friction.
And you would be lying if you didnโ€™t think of doing the same. The roaring of the word โ€˜MINEโ€™ whenever a girl got close to Eddie back in school was insanely big inside your head. But as the years went by, that voice only got softer, slower, until he told you the first fling he had after the contract was signed. That voice said a few last words before disappearing, โ€˜Maybe he is not mine, and never will be.โ€™.
But nowโ€“ Itโ€™s back, and stronger than ever.
โ€œThen mark me Edsโ€ฆ Butโ€“โ€ And it was risky, but you wanted it, you needed it, you needed everyone, absolutely everyone to know he is yours. โ€œOnly if you let me mark you back.โ€
And his kisses stopped, surprised by your boldness, the jeans straining a little more to the point of it being almost painful. Is he going to get yelled at by Joyce and Wayne? His two managers? Most likely. Does he care? Not a fucking chance. Not now, not ever. A smile formed on his lips as he mumbled against your skin.
โ€œDeal.โ€ And his lips pressed again against your pulse point. You were afraid of your sounds, but a moan almost got out when his lips pressed pecks until you felt him sucking on your skin. He was going to make sure to brand you as his. For real. His breath was heavy as he inhaled with his nose, loving the taste of you and how your nails dug into his nape and the other pair onto his shoulder.
He repeated it, three times to be exact, leaving you with deep red marks that went downwards a bit. He pulled away to look at his art, a smile on his lips as he saw how dazed you already looked as you tried to level your breathing back to a normal pace. You looked beautiful like this, and he was opening his mouth in order to ask if you were ready to keep going, but you broke silence first with a giggle.
โ€œIt tickled.โ€ His heart only clenched a bit more at you, thinking that you couldnโ€™t look cuter, or more endearing than you were now, but you always surprise him, donโ€™t you? He smirked as he leaned forward, nose touching with yours, making your giggles stop completely.
โ€œCan you stop being adorable for a second? Iโ€™m trying to be sexy here.โ€ You really didnโ€™t know if you had a face anymore because you just felt it combust in flames. He chuckled at watching your expression, even if his own matched with yours. โ€œCan I keep going?โ€
You gulped and slowly nodded, but his eyes started tracing your neck and going downwards. You wondered what was going on and then they finally landed on your sundress. His hand raised to press against your waist and his eyes met with yours once more, pupils completely dilated with desire.
โ€œEddie?โ€
โ€œKittyโ€ฆ Can we keep the lights on?โ€ Your heart stopped at that, your hands clenching on his shoulders and you felt your whole body break into a cold nervous sweat.
โ€œIโ€“ I thought we were still going to keep the lights offโ€“โ€ And he shook his head, his eyes looking down towards the top of your sundress, a feral side of him coming to light and that he never thought he wouldnโ€™t be able to control it when it came to you.
โ€œWeโ€™ll do whatever you want butโ€“ Baby, I want to see the body Iโ€™ve been craving all these years. I want to see every detail, even a freckle I might have missed, or a mole in a place that I never thought I would see beforeโ€ฆโ€ You saw how his eyes traveled all over your body, the hand on your waist giving a press every now and then when his eyes landed at particular places.
You could feel it, even in the midst of your anxiety, that desire that wants to eat you alive, inch by inch, and your own need grows from it. His eyes are not lying, his body language is not lying, his touches, his words, his overall energy, are not lying to you. He wants you. Eddie wants you and has always wanted you.ย 
And that brings you an ounce of confidence. Even if small, it was enough to take the first stepโ€“
โ€œOkayโ€ฆโ€ And his eyes snapped back towards yours, his uneasiness overlapping with his excitement.
โ€œNoโ€“ No, we donโ€™t have to do something you donโ€™t feel comfortable with because of my selfishness sweetheartโ€“โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€“ You promised you would show meโ€ฆโ€ And if you didnโ€™t do the lights now, they would be on at some other point, wouldnโ€™t they? You just had to rip the bandaid off. His head started turning, trying to see which was the best way to show you his true feelings, and he decided on a different approach than what he thought would be the most appropriate one.
He got a knee between yours, nudging on them. You looked down in surprise but followed the queue and parted your left leg away, very slowly, afraid of the sundress driving up even more than before. His eyes werenโ€™t leaving your face though, needing to see your reaction as he pressed his knee against your right leg as well.
Your heart rate picked up, and the butterflies in your belly probably ate your stomach up at this point. You swallowed your nerves as you parted your right leg as well, and he was finally able to get his knees between your legs. He took a sharp courageous breath, letting a nervous sigh out, and pressed his hips against yours.ย 
You gasped and an electric current shot from your core to every single end nerve of your body. His bulge was harshly pressed against your center, and he groaned at finally having some friction against the strain. He was hard. He was rock hard for you.
His lips found yours in a soft peck, only to then kiss the corner of your mouth as he rolled his hips against yours and for the first time in the night, a little moan escaped your lips. The press was delicious on your clit, but it only was building your need for him, slowly, clouding your mind, your sight, your thoughts.
He groaned onto your skin, almost a growl, as his kisses traveled further into the crook of your neck. His hips kept rolling, getting a little lost in it all, drunkenness from finally having you hitting him at full blast. He sucked on places he hadn't before and he nibbled on the soft skin, making another moan escape you which only makes him twitch.
โ€œYou are the only one Iโ€™ve ever truly wantedโ€ฆ In every single possible way, you can imagine.โ€ It was a low mumble, but it was enough for you to be able to hear it and for your arms to wrap around him, nails digging into his back, grabbing onto the black shirt, pulling on it at every roll of his lower half.ย 
He pulled away from your neck and raised himself on his knees, making your arms fall back down onto the mattress. He crossed his arms, reaching for the hem of his shirt and immediately ripping it away and throwing it across the room.
Your eyes widened when you saw his torso, his belly, the happy trail you have fantasized about so many times with, after that stupid magazine cover. His chest, which only had that skull and spider back in high school, was now littered with many random pieces, as well as his arms, even his hands.ย 
He was gorgeous, perfect, and has always been to your eyes, but now he is not only that but shining as if he were polished gold. Your eyes were all over his belly button and the V shape on his hips, not noticing the eyes that were looking at you with a smirk on his lips. Your eyes went downwards to the bulge on his pants and your eyes widened as you propped yourself up on your elbows to look at it better.
โ€œHoly shit, I thought you were bluffing Eddie!โ€ It wasnโ€™t exactly a bulgeโ€ฆ His dick was so hard that you could see the outline of his length as it pressed sideways against the restrictive pants. Andโ€“
โ€œWhenever I said I was big, I meant it, and I also repeated it so many times to see if you showed any interest!โ€ He almost yelled in a high-pitched voice which only made you giggle only to stop when you noticed his eyes scanning your every inch, making you gulp loudly. His hand reached down, fingers playing with the hem of your dress.
You two had seen eachotherโ€™s upper bodies, but in completely different situations. This wasnโ€™t some nice summerโ€™s day at a pool. He will see everything, and he wants to properly scan you, touch you, feel you. Butโ€“ Fuck, the images of all those women pop in your head again, comparing yourself to them, their bodies, their futures, their ambitions, and their wealth.ย 
You close your eyes tightly, waiting for the tug of the shirt in order to help him by lifting your upper body from the mattress, but his fingers let go of the dress, and that warm touch suddenly appears on your cheek. You opened your eyes to meet his. He was giving you a small reassured smile as he looked down at your face, pupils that gave you safety and filled you with warmth.
You noticed his fingers were slightly trembling and you realized that Eddie was just as nervous as you were. He leaned down to press a soft kiss on your lips, making you moan in delight at feeling him this close once more. He chuckled in between and pulled away moments after in order to talk again.
โ€œI compared myself with Steve today.โ€ And your eyebrows raised at that in surprise.ย 
โ€œWhat? Why?โ€ He couldnโ€™t help but scoff at your question and he kneeled back up in between your legs, letting you prop yourself up on your elbows. He motioned all over himself and then looked back at you as if it were obvious.
โ€œI am not exactly like him, baby. Steve has no tattoos, wears sunshine clothes, rich boy clothes, listens to pop music, and is a tidy guyโ€ฆ I am nothing like that sweetheart.โ€ You were shocked at those wordsโ€ฆ Eddie? With who he is now, doubting himself?
โ€œB-Butโ€ฆ youโ€“ you didnโ€™t have to worryโ€“โ€
โ€œI know that nowโ€ฆ so let me show you just how much you donโ€™t have to worry either. Pleaseโ€ฆโ€ He was looking down at your face, waiting for a response. Your heart soared into the sky at those words, and despite your nervousness, there was a side of you that trusted Eddie blindly, and it was whispering to you that you should let him. Let him show you what he means by all of that.
So you slowly sit up and cross your arms in order to grab the hem of your dress and before you could say anything or stop, you yanked it upwards, throwing it to the side. Your eyes were not looking at him, not wanting to see the reaction to your body. A body he is not used to having anymore. Itโ€™s not firm, or perky, or smooth, markless, spotless. Itโ€™s full of those.
Instead, you felt fingers on your chin that made you lift your head up so you could look at Eddie once more. He was smiling softly as he leaned and kissed you, softly and gently. You felt yourself being lowered again, back hitting against the mattress, while one of his hands pressed onto your waist and the other helped with the leverage of moving you down.
His lips broke apart from yours and your body was burning from the small interaction only for a cold sweat to invade you as you saw him straighten up again and his eyes locked on your body. The visible part of your breasts above the cups of your bra, your shoulders, your tummy, your hips, and you needed to cover your body, or at least your face to not see his reaction.
But your eyes caught onto the twitch of pain in his eyebrows as he groaned softly into his throat. You could see his jaw clench, and a vein in his neck popping out slightly as he swallowed hard.ย 
โ€œEdsโ€“?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m sorryโ€“ I canโ€™t hold myself back, Iโ€™m sorry.โ€ And his hand quickly went to his jeans, unbuttoning them and zipping them down, a sigh of relief coming out and then, with an almost animalistic growl, he lunged back down on you, his lips taking yours in a ravishing kiss. Hot, rough, deep, moving at a quick desperate pace. You were thrown off at the intensity but quickly reciprocated as the butterflies in your belly exploded in retaliation.
His kiss only made the fire worse and you wrapped your arms around his neck to have something to hold on to as you raised your hips up to meet his, needing some kind of friction. You moaned into the kiss when his bulge rubbed against your clothed pussy. He grunted and bit your bottom lip gently as if to reprimand you for the action.ย 
His lips traveled south and you expected them back on your neck, but they kept moving, kissing on your collarbone, and then the top of one of your breasts. You gasped and arched your back slightly as his hips kept rutting against yours, slow but still very needy. His lips went to your other breast only to then continue down, kissing your chest and downwards to your tummy, his hips leaving yours as he moved down, sending shivers all over your body and you could feel the goosebumps rising up on your skin.
His hands were now gripping your hips, fingers digging on your skin, dipping into it as if he were clawing into something to keep himself centered. His lips traveled all over your tummy, and your waist, groans leaving his mouth as he bit onto your side, a nibble, causing you to jump. He was being soโ€ฆ needy, and desperate, something you never experienced before.ย 
He moved upwards again, his lips not leaving your skin, but his body moving up again as one hand traveled all the way towards your back, making you arch it upwards a little bit. You felt his fingers play with the clasp of your bra and he kept kissing over the cups of it, making you mewl a little as you felt yourself clench in anticipation.
โ€œEddieโ€“โ€
โ€œPlease, let me see moreโ€ฆ Please, sweetheart?โ€ His eyes were cloudy in the darkness of lust as he raised his head up, chin resting on your chest with his mouth hanging slightly open. You gulped a bit but you felt a certain power in you that you didnโ€™t think you would feel with him. Some kind of confidence rises up inside your chest.ย 
โ€œYeahโ€ฆโ€ You fully arch your back so he can have more movement to snap your bra open in one movement. You lay back down once he takes his hand out and immediately it grabs onto the strap of your left shoulder to push it down, surprising you by how quickly he was moving, as if he werenโ€™t thinking anymore, just acting.
He makes a cup move out of the way, revealing your perked-up nipple, making you flush a bit in embarrassment but also in arousal, as you feel the cold air hit it a bit. You canโ€™t even think far enough that his lips circle around it, your nipple being sucked into his mouth as his tongue presses on it. His hand was roughly grabbing onto your breast to keep it still and you squirmed beneath him as pleasure filled your senses.
You let a moan out when his teeth grazed the tip of your nipple, and his own satisfaction showed when a groan got stuck in his throat. His hips started moving against you again, the shape of his dick rubbing deliciously against your heat, over and over, destroying your underwear each second it passed but you couldnโ€™t care less.ย 
With a โ€˜popโ€™ he let go of your left nipple in order to raise up and rip your bra off your body finally. Now, without the elastics of your bra, you know your breasts are not in perfect shape, gravity, changes of weight, and the years doing their job with your skin. The stretch marks pronounced around the nipple area, which made you a little self-conscious only for that thought to be thrown out the window when Eddie talked once more, almost in a whine.
โ€œThe most perfect pair of tits Iโ€™ve ever seen baby, so fucking perfect, jesus christโ€ฆโ€ You felt a wave of embarrassment at the dirty talking. You will have to get used to how it makes you feel coming from your best friendโ€™s mouth. But he sounded so delighted as if he were drunk, staring at them, back and forth, trying to decide if he should go for the other neglected nipple but then his eyes hit your surprised ones, and you see how they widen in realization.
โ€œAโ€“ Are they?โ€ And he covered his face with one hand to cover up his reddened cheeks.ย 
โ€œI uhโ€ฆ Yeah, I justโ€“ Fuck, I said that out loud, didnโ€™t I?โ€ And you couldnโ€™t help but giggle, making your breasts jiggle a bit at your laughter, his eyes flickering to them instinctively.ย 
โ€œWell, glad to know thatโ€ฆโ€ And you honestly were. No one has ever looked at you the way Eddie was doing right now, so desperately, wanting to ravish you but waiting for you to give him the green light to do so. The fire inside of you and all over your body needed to be extinguished, and you also had to show him how eager you were for him, your own patience after ten long years wearing thin.
You sat up, looking up at him as your fingers hooked on his boxers and jeans. He licked his lips nervously, his eyes scanning your face as he gulped harshly, his hands moving to go over yours and help you drag down his clothes.ย 
Your head slowly moved downwards when you felt his bulge forbidding you to move the boxers even lower, prompting you to stretch the elastic even more and your eyes widened when you finally saw him. His cock slaps against his belly, and your face must be one of awe because Eddie had to clear his throat to center you back to reality.
โ€œUm, you okay there?โ€ He tried to say it with a hint of comedy, humor, but he was nervous, just so fucking nervous.ย 
You two know eachother since kids, and even with that thought in mind, it doesnโ€™t feel weird to be right here with you like this, knowing what the two of you were about to do. But maybe you donโ€™t think the same. Now seeing him completely naked might make you rethink what the two of you were doing, thinking about the past, about whatโ€“
He hissed in surprise when he felt your hand over his shaft, your thumb pressing onto his red leaking tip, causing him to lock eyes with you again. You were smiling up at him, an innocent little grin that stirred the lust inside of him and renewed it. He was big in your hand, that you were slowly moving, lazily, feeling the warmth of it on your palm.ย 
You wanted to dart your tongue out, feeling like being a little filthy, show him how eager and needy of him you were. You were looking at the tip, your eyes clouded with desire, and your mouth started to open, only for Eddieโ€™s hand to press on your cheek to make you look up at him.
โ€œAs much as I would love for you to make one of my many wet dreams about you come true, I donโ€™t want to lose the small bit of dignity I have left.โ€ You tilted your head in confusion at that only to be pushed back onto the mattress, making you bounce on it, opening your eyes after you gasped to see Eddie taking off his clothes, and almost falling off the edge of the bed in the action, making you snort, covering your mouth after he sent a glare your way.
โ€œIโ€™m sorry Eds, butโ€“ I think you just lost that dignity you mentioned.โ€ You giggled and he growled as he crawled over you, his finger hooking into the elastic of your underwear, yanking it and letting go so it hit against your skin, making you yelp at theย 
little sting.
โ€œDonโ€™t mock me now.โ€ Your giggles stopped when you met his dark eyes, just looking down into yours, his head tilting to the side. โ€œCan I keep going or are you going to keep laughing at me? I am on a mission, Kitty.โ€
Your eyebrows frowned in confusion as you stirred a bit below him. Before you could ask, his face went back to the crook of your neck where he could continue with the soft featherlight kisses and as you were about to close your eyes, you felt his fingers playing with the elastic of your underwear once more, making your breath hitch.
You felt him nibble on your pulse point at the same time his fingers sneaked in, a little bit of self-consciousness filled you when you realized you hadnโ€™t shaved properly, just trimmed, and maybe those women he slept with had the laser hair removal you cannot afford. You opened your mouth to apologize but the words were stolen away when his index finger grazed your clit softly, yet perfect.
โ€œEddieโ€“โ€ You breathed out, and he only gave a low humming with satisfaction as he felt how wet you were for him. He was twitching, wanting to rub himself on you to relieve himself a bit, the friction very much needed butโ€“ he wanted to do this. He wanted to make you come undone underneath him, show you just how good he could be for you, how eager he is to give you pleasure.
His middle finger pressed on your clit, a little harder now, slow and lazy circles being done as your breathing turned into held in moans, and whimpers as your hands gripped his shoulders, nails digging into his skin. Yeah, mark him. Mark him. He wants you to mark him, just like he always had wanted you to do.
โ€œSo fucking perfect for meโ€“ Iโ€™ve always known but fuckโ€“โ€ You whimpered at his words, trembling underneath him as he kept rubbing you, deliciously so. His mouth left your throat to then peck your collarbone and shift a bit lower, his back arching so his lips could land on your left nipple.ย 
His middle finger ran through your slit, coating it with your wetness before slowly starting to nudge inside. At the same time, his mouth started sucking and flicking your hardened nipple with his tongue, causing you to throw your head back onto the pillow, a strangled moan escaping your lips, making him smile with victory against your breast as his finger was engulfed by your warmth.
He couldnโ€™t help but groan at the feel of you, reaching deep, his dreams and imagination out of the window as you gave another whimper when he pulled his finger out, only to plunge it inside again, easily. He needed to worship you. He wanted to make you cum on his fingers, on his tongue, many times, putting you first above everything, needing to hear you moan his name repeatedlyโ€ฆ but your breathy moans make it hard to be patient.
He pulled out of your cunt in order to rub his ring finger along his middle one now, rubbing fast-paced circles on your clit, making your hips jerk against him. He had to bite his bottom lip as he raised himself a bit to look down at your face. Your eyes were clenched as moans started coming out of your mouth, embarrassment no longer in you about those. He groans at the angry twitch of his dick.ย 
He licked his lips as he slowly started pressing both his fingers inside of you, stretching you, preparing you. You gasped when he got them inside of you in one move, eyes opening to see him looking down at you with a fucked out look on his face. Your eyes were teary because of the pleasure, face, and body burning up in a thousand degrees.ย 
โ€œEdsโ€ฆโ€ You called him out as he pulled his fingers back out and then in again, the palm of his hand slamming against your clit, making your back arch at it as he kept repeating the action, his pace increasing. You could hear the squelching now, making you slightly embarrassed but the pleasure he is giving you right now completely overshadows it.
โ€œYeah, baby?โ€ You whimpered at the nickname, loving the way it sounded in his mouth, the nickname you always fantasized about. Imagining his voice saying it to you in random moments, but mostly in these kinds of situations, where he was slowly breaking you apart.
โ€œP-Pleaseโ€“โ€ What were you begging for? You didnโ€™t know. You werenโ€™t that talkative during sex, butโ€ฆ you wanted Eddie to know, or hear you, anything. Just let him know you were feeling good. You gasped a moan out when his fingers curled, the squelching becoming even nastier, filthier, but he was hitting that spot that you sometimes have a hard time figuring out. โ€œO-Oh fuckโ€“!โ€
โ€œFound it.โ€ He said with a smug smirk as he saw how you clenched your eyes again, moaning louder, one of your hands shooting out to grip the sheets while the other dug into his bicep, tightly. Your legs were shaking as he kept going, his fingers just making you clench around him, your pussy being filled and satisfied.
โ€œIโ€™mโ€“ more, more!โ€ He was surprised by your words, not knowing if you were normally vocal or not, but fuck if it wasnโ€™t hot. He groaned as he leaned down to your right nipple, engulfing it with his teeth and giving a soft pull, pressing his palm against your clit in order to move his hand up and down. His fingertips rub your G-spot while the heel of his hand rubs against your clit.
Your eyes widen at the new feeling. It was raw, rough, desperate, and he moaned against your skin as you started fluttering around him, the pressure building in your belly like never before. It was going quickly, a fire that was spreading, not letting you run away. You were almost crying out his name as you kept trembling underneath him. He pulled away from your nipple in order to hover over you, his nose nudging yours.
โ€œYou close, love?โ€ You whined at the nickname as your hips met the thrust of his fingers. He gave you a soft kiss, the opposite of what he was doing in the lower part of your body. The elastic band was stretching and stretching, your belly contracting at the pressure. Your moans came out in sharp breaths, chest heaving up and down as now both your hands flew to his shoulders as your back arched against him.
โ€œYesโ€“ Yesโ€“ Eddie, Eddie, babyโ€“โ€ And the elastic band snapped while Eddie moaned at the nickname, the first time you called him that and not his name. Your walls clenched tightly around his fingers and he moaned with delight as you spasmed underneath him, his dick threatening to finally shoot his seed, not being able to hold it back anymore, but he held back, with all of his strength.
Your moan was loud, satisfaction rushing all over your body as you trembled, legs giving up almost. You felt his fingers still moving, helping you ride it out, until you slowly calmed down, a few twitches of your legs here and there. It was probably the best orgasm you receivedโ€ฆ for now. He slowed his movements as he stared down at you, a pleased smile on his face as you opened your eyes to look at him, your breaths heavy.
โ€œSo? How was that?โ€ He cocked his head to the side as he gave you one more thrust and you whined at the overstimulation, your hips moving away slightly and he got the clue so he pulled his fingers out of you. You looked at how he took his hand out of your underwear, the wet fingers grazing your pelvis slightly and you looked at how he raised his fingers to his mouth and your eyes widened.
โ€œYouโ€“โ€ You couldnโ€™t even finish your sentence when his fingers entered his own mouth. No person had ever done that to you. So eager to taste you that they licked their fingers with so much delight. He moaned at the taste and he cursed at himself for not going down on you. But maybe he can have a small tasteโ€ฆ
โ€œCouldnโ€™t help myself Kitty. Needed to know, and I am gonna grow addicted to it, I can already tell.โ€ He raised himself back up on his knees and you looked down to see him still hard, and you winced with embarrassment.
โ€œLet me do something Eddieโ€“โ€ He shook his head at you, his fingers digging into the elastic of your underwear, pulling it away. Your face flushed as you raised your hips up andโ€“ He will see it. What if itโ€™s not pretty? What if thereโ€™s something he doesnโ€™t like? Or too bushy, or maybeโ€“
But as soon as your underwear is off, and you lay bare beneath him, he canโ€™t help but tremble as his hand reaches his length. The number of times he had imagined you like this, thereโ€™s not even a way of counting them. Itโ€™s years of imagination, of dreams, of songs he wrote about your body. Songs you might not even know theyโ€™re about you.ย 
You didnโ€™t know what to do as he stared down at you, wanting to close your legs but he was in between them. Your eyes widened when he scanned your body and he started to slowly stroke himself, just soft grazes. Was he touching himself by just looking at you? Did he do that before? Were you the protagonist of some dirty dreams he had?
He suddenly moves backwards, just three small movements with his knees, away from you. You tilt your head as you raise yourself on your elbows to look at him. His body bends down and your eyes widen when his eyes cannot leave your center, wetness all around, and he just looks drunk.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, canโ€™t help myselfโ€ฆโ€ It was his soft mumble as he gave a pointed lick in between your folds, and you groaned as your hips bucked towards him. He moaned as he gathered some of your juices, gulping them down and straightening again.ย 
Your eyes locked again, and the need was worse than it ever was before. The desire burning you both alive. It prompted Eddie to move quickly from in between your legs, his knees guiding him slightly to the side so he could reach over and open the drawer of his night table. You turned your head to watch how he took an unopened box of condoms.ย 
He cursed when he couldnโ€™t open it from how nervous he suddenly got. He was finally going to get what he had always wanted, and now that itโ€™s hereโ€ฆ His thoughts were cut off when he felt your soft hands engulfing his, taking the box in your grasp, thumb pressing onto one edge to pop it open.ย 
He gave you a smile, a fond, caring one, and took the box once more, pulling a foil out. He moved again, his hands gripping your knees that had closed slightly, reopening them with a tut as he placed himself in between. You looked at how he ripped the foil open with his teeth, throwing it somewhere, and then rolled the latex over himself.ย 
Your heart was on your throat now, knots of nerves inside of your belly, needing to simply detangle or explode. He looked down at you and crawled on top of you, his forearms coming to rest on either side of your head in order to support himself over your body. His nose nudged yours, a hum vibrating in his throat.
โ€œYou okay princess?โ€ He asked and you sighed in delight, giving a small nod.
โ€œYeahโ€ฆ you?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m fucking nervous.โ€ He admitted, no playfulness in his tone and it surprised you. โ€œBut I am also very excited.โ€
And you decided to be the one to diffuse the tension a little bit this time. You raised your hips and rubbed your center along his shaft, coating it with your wetness, making him groan and raise an eyebrow at you. A smirk played on your lips as you looked at your best friend.
โ€œI can feel that alright.โ€ And Eddieโ€™s lips turned into a smile, his eyes filled with love just as much as yours were. One of his arms left the mattress to get in between you two, grabbing onto his cock, and rubbing the tip of it against your folds and clit, making you whimper.ย 
โ€œBratty little shit.โ€ And his hips pressed in, his arm returning to the same position as before, and your mouths fell into an โ€˜oโ€™ shape, a choked breath in your throats as he slowly thrusts himself inside of you, inch by inch.ย 
Electricity ran all over your body, on every nerve and artery, from the top of your head to the tip of your toes. You could feel it everywhere, every single thing in the world making sense for some reason. You didnโ€™t care about anything else but him at this moment. Him and how he felt as he slowly filled you, finally, after so long. Your legs raised up, thighs pressing against his sides as the heels of your feet dug into his hips.
He moaned when half of his cock was already inside of you and he cursed when he felt himself twitch. He had to hold it back for a little longer, he needed this to be perfect. He needed to make this last, though, he knew this wouldnโ€™t be the last time. He hoped it would be the first time of many.
His lips desperately pressed against yours as his hips kept pressing in, deeper and deeper and you wondered how much you could possibly take as he stretched you open, your wetness making it all a little easier. There was a small pressure, a little sting at the sudden intrusion but it was still so delicious.
Your arms wrapped around his shoulders as you kissed him back, hands moving to his hair and you remembered the bun he had on. It was a little loose, and you wanted to see his mane all over his face, just like the Eddie you had been pining for since high school. You needed to see him like that as he made you scream his name.
Your fingers dug into his ponytail and started to yank, trying not to rip his hair when doing so. He winced a bit in between the kiss and you giggled, having some trouble in freeing his hair. He groaned and pulled away from the kiss, his hips stopping as his arm reached up and swatted your hand away in order to take the hairband off himself.ย 
You heard a few hairs being ripped out and you winced at the sound but he didnโ€™t care as his curls fell down. Your eyes softened as you finally saw your Eddie. You loved his hair up, butโ€ฆ his hair down just reminded you of the first time you looked at him with different eyes. It was when it was getting longer after deciding to never let anyone give him a buzz cut ever again.
โ€œHappy?โ€ He asked and you giggled, his hair now all over his face and shoulders, falling on your face as well, making your cheeks tingle. You moved your hands to gather it up and pull it all over to one side only. He shook his head at you, fond eyes and a smile directed your way. โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t have taken it off. It will be a little bothersome.โ€
โ€œI wanted toโ€ฆ Your long hair is one of the things I love the most about youโ€ฆโ€ He tilted his head to the side as his eyes filled with confusion.ย 
โ€œMy hair?โ€
โ€œYeahโ€ฆ When you decided to let it grow, itโ€™s when you turned intoโ€ฆ you.โ€ You smiled up at him, eyes filled with love and stars and he could see them all as his heart combusted inside of his chest.ย 
He can now truly absolutely believe that you were meant for him. No woman could make him feel the way you do. You love him with everything in you, he can see it in your eyes. You have loved him before his fame, and he cannot be more grateful to destiny for bringing you into his life. He will never be able to say thank you enough.
But his feelings made his body twitch, a sudden electric shock sent to his whole body as his hips moved by themselves. Your smile slowly vanished as your mouth fell into a breathless moan, eyes widening as he stared down at your face and how it slowly contorted. He needed to be fully inside of you, his feelings making his body take what it has been craving for so long.
You gasped as your head was thrown back against the pillow when his hips suddenly slammed against yours, making him bottom out and fill you entirely. He was big, a definite stretch, but god it felt wonderful. Right. Meant to be even as your back arched against him, his lips falling to your exposed neck, groaning against your skin as he kept himself from moving, letting you adjust and for his mind to help him not end this as soon as it started.
Your nails were digging into his shoulders for some grounding, your mind and heart racing and you felt everything a little too much. You gave a small groan as you pressed your back against the mattress once more, and his face raised up from your neck in order to look down at you.ย 
โ€œI love you.โ€ His words were not new, not anymore, yet they made your heart skip many beats now. The butterflies in your stomach exploded and you gave him a small smile. You opened your mouth in order to reply only for a moan of yours to occupy where your words should have been as his hips moved backwards and in again.ย 
โ€œIโ€“ I love you Edโ€“ ah!โ€ You couldnโ€™t even finish it correctly because as the first letter left your mouth, his movement quickened just a bit. His hips swayed back and forth, moving slowly still but you felt the drag of him against your walls. His face lowered, his elbows on each side of your head, his forearms and hands holding onto your head, fingers running through your scalp as he used that hold to keep himself up and for his hips to move faster.
His lips were against your cheek, and now the hit of skin against skin started being heard and you felt your whole body flush in embarrassment, or pleasure, or a mix of it all. Suddenly his breath hit your ear as he groaned at each thrust of his hips. He felt too good, and you felt your mind drifting away, further from consciousness, until you heard his words again.
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
He kept repeating them in your ear at each thrust his hips made, his fingers on your scalp as his chest rubbed against yours. You moaned when you felt his tip just graze your g-spot but not quite there yet. Your nails ran from his shoulders and down to his back, scratching him, and your eyes opened when you realized you hadnโ€™t done your part of the deal yet.
So you nuzzled your face in the crook of his neck as your nails dug even deeper into the skin and your mouth opened. Your lips latched onto his skin and he groaned, hips stuttering slightly at your possessiveness of him. He could feel the burning in his back and now, the one on the side of his throat as you marked him in two places of his body.
You knew he liked to get shirtless in his concerts, of course you didโ€ฆ And he canโ€™t wait to show everyone, his fans, his band members, his team, his staff, what you did to him. What you are to him. What he is to you. To finally show everyone who owns him, in body and soul.
He felt you nibble, suck, lick, kiss, and he knew it was going to be a big mark, just like the one he left you. He pulled away from your ear and raised himself up on his hands in order to look down at you. Your eyes were glossy, just like your lips which are also plump from all the kissing youโ€™ve done to his skin. He wants to devour you, a fire that had always been there, but now it was scorching hot, almost painful.ย 
So why hold back?
His hips draw back and strike against yours in a forceful thrust. It was deep, so fucking deep, that he couldnโ€™t help but groan, almost growl at your tightness. A choked moan escaped you from the surprise and the sudden punch to your spongy spot. Your eyes met his, now clouded in a dark cloud of pleasure, hints of love and devotion here and there, but you could see that he needed to ruin you, take what is his.
Your fingers are on his biceps now as he literally, absolutely, starts railing you into the mattress, like a madman, as if it were his first time ever. Reckless, sloppy, harsh, but still perfected. The bed made the both of you bounce, helping the movements, and your moans turned into whimpers and cries of his name.
โ€œEddieโ€“!โ€ You didnโ€™t even notice that drool was coming out from the corner of your mouth, not noticing how long you had your lips parted for your moans to come out. You saw how intensely he was looking at you, as if he were to try to remember each trace of your face. Nervousness invaded you as well as some kind of self-consciousness, not knowing if your face was scrunching too much due to the pleasure, making your eyes avert away.
โ€œOh no, Iโ€™m having none of that.โ€ You felt his hand grip your jaw and turn your head so he could look at you once again. Your cheeks were on fire, and you could swear tears were beginning to threaten to leave your eyes. His hair was all over his shoulders, moving at the pace of his hips, sweat on his forehead and tattooed chest. He was gorgeous. He was so beautiful that it hurt.
Your moans were still coming out steadily out of your lips until his hips shifted, just slightly, and his thrusts were now in a more upward direction. Your G-Spot was being punched by the tip of his cock and your belly was turning deliciously at each movement.ย 
He wanted to prove himself. He wanted to prove to you that he is the only one you will ever need, that he is the only one that can make you feel this good. He took his time fingering you in order to know where your spot was correctly. He has a lot to learn about you, and you about him, but there will be other times for that.ย 
For now, he just wants to see you come undone underneath him.
โ€œF-Fuckโ€“Fuck!โ€ Your right hand was holding the wrist that held your face, while the left one was still gripping his bicep. You wanted to scream, the pleasure being too much yet not enough, trying to reach that high once more. A smile appeared on his lips, and you dared to say that it looked evil, cheeky, snarky, cocky.
โ€œWeird?โ€ And that bastardโ€“ He was mocking you. He was mocking you for ever thinking that this would feel weird for the both of you, considering the years of friendship. You growled a bit at him, a warning which only made him chuckle as he kept pounding into you, a particular drag making him groan.
โ€œS-Shut up!โ€ And oh you sounded so amazing like this. Breathless, needy, frustrated, pleasuredโ€ฆ It was a mixture of everything, and he needed more as he felt his dick twitch inside of you. He hasted his movements and you could only whine in question as your confused, glossy eyes looked up at him.ย 
He groaned with displeasure as he pulled out of you and let go of your face, kneeling up and moving backwards slightly. His hands came to your hips, and he motioned for you to the next position he desired, which made the blood completely leave your body.ย 
He wanted you on all fours. He would have a perfect view of everything. Every single spot of texture, every stretchmark, all of your celluliteโ€ฆ just everything. And the lights are still on. Fuck theyโ€™re still on. Your hands were not fast enough to stop him from using his strength in order to turn you around on the mattress, your legs flailing as you were now on your belly onto the mattress.
You opened your mouth, embarrassment already too deep, afraid of even turning your head to look at him. You didnโ€™t want to see the scrunch on his face when he looked at your skin. You are no professional model, and you certainly donโ€™t have the money for all the treatments they can afford on their skin.ย 
But what you didnโ€™t expect was the ferocious bite you received on your left ass cheek, making you yelp. He was behind you, his hands digging on your hips in order to pull your ass up, getting you to press your knees on the mattress and finally be in a formal all fours. You were almost shocked at how easily he manhandled you, at how quick he was. You slowly turned your head over your shoulder and you clenched at the sight.
Eddie looked drunk as he looked at your behind. He was even stroking himself as he looked at you, careful to not roll the condom off. You were stunned, hands and knees on the bed as he kneeled behind you. One of his hands came to rub your left ass cheek, to then give it a slap, causing you to whimper and jump at the action.ย 
โ€œEddie!โ€ย 
โ€œFuck, look at youโ€ฆโ€ His hand left his dick, and now both of his palms were engulfing your ass, pressing tightly, digits digging urgently into the skin as his face leaned downwards in order to kiss the small of your back and then one cheek. Your face was on fire, but you didnโ€™t know if it was embarrassment or shame anymoreโ€ฆ you felt loved. You felt like a goddess. Eddie was making you feel like an absolute goddess.
A bite landed on your right ass cheek this time, gentle but enough to grab some skin and pull gently. He groaned desperately, needing to swallow you whole. You werenโ€™t aware of the state you put him in. He was feral. You were perfect, so fucking perfect and he was gonna make damn sure you knew this.
โ€œEddie pleaseโ€ฆโ€ You whined one more time and he gave a small nibble to your ass cheek. He can bite on them a bit more later on. He straightened up and guided the tip of his cock to your sopping entrance, and pushed right in once more. Not slow, yet not fast, just easily.
The two of you groaned with relief as he thrusted a few times, before fully bottoming out inside of you. He growled into his throat as he took a deep breath in and closed his eyes. He is not going to last long, but he for sure was not going to end this without you clenching around his cock.
His hands are now on your waist, gripping your skin in order to guide himself in and out of you, the smacking of hips now echoing once more around the room. He looked at how your ass jiggled underneath him as his hips hit you. He was smirking, a small smack landing on one of your cheeks, making you yelp in between your moans.
He felt you clench a few times, and he cursed into the sky as he had to get a hold of himself so he wouldnโ€™t spill too fast.
โ€œShit, youโ€™re so fucking tight Kittyโ€“ You gonna cum for me?โ€ A dumb โ€˜Uh-Huhโ€™ was heard from you as you nodded as best as you could. Your arms and legs were trembling, the squelching of your juices with his thrusts a little too loud. It should shame you, but itโ€™s the whole contrary now. You want him to know just how wet you were for him. How good he is making you feel right now, emotionally and physically.
โ€œY-Yeah Eds, yeah, pleaseโ€“โ€ And you didnโ€™t have to ask twice. His right hand left your hip and guided it underneath, reaching your clit with his index and middle finger. You gasped as your belly suddenly turned at the attention. โ€œFUCK!โ€ย 
โ€œI know baby, I knowโ€ฆโ€ You whimpered at the nickname as his fingers moved on your sensitive nub, while his dick kept hitting your spot in a perfect rhythm. Your mouth was open, sometimes moans came out, sometimes only drool, but you couldnโ€™t close it. Your pussy clenched around him, making him wince and curse under his breath. โ€œFucking shitโ€ฆโ€
โ€œBaby, babyโ€“โ€ You were warning him and he nodded with determination, his dick twitching inside of you until he saw stars at the same time you did. โ€œEDDIEโ€“!โ€ย 
Your walls clenched tightly around him, your legs trembling as your belly exploded with bursts of heat. He didnโ€™t stop the rubbing of your clit, making you choke some moans out, wanting to move away from his grip, but he held you tightly in place so you wouldnโ€™t stop the ride of your orgasm.
โ€œFuck, fuck, fuckโ€“ holy shitโ€“!โ€ And he groaned loudly, almost whimpering at how hard he came inside of the condom. He gave a few hard thrusts at each spurt of his cum, making you whine at the last strides of your own climax. Soon, your walls slowly unclenched, legs trembling ever so slightly, and his hand left your clit.
The two of you were panting, completely breathless from the lovemaking that just occurred. He took a sharp intake of breath as he slowly pulled out of you, making him wince and you whimper at the loss of him. You immediately flopped on the bed, face hitting the pillow. He chuckled a bit hoarsely and took off the condom, tying it off and looking around.
You turned your head in order to catch him in time, a frown appearing on your face as you turned to your side so you could point a finger at him.
โ€œDonโ€™t you dare throw it on the floor.โ€ He raised an eyebrow at you and then a fond smile appeared on his lips. The two of you were covered in sweat, your breaths slowly leveling out again, a sight he never thought would occur.ย 
โ€œYou gonna boss me around in my own home Kitty?โ€ You rolled your eyes at him and he smiled, getting up from the bed on wobbly legs. โ€œWoahโ€“โ€ You covered your mouth in order not to laugh, but he only glared at you as he straightened up once more.
โ€œSorryโ€“โ€
โ€œYeah, I wanna see how you get up from the bed. Come on.โ€ You shook your head and immediately crawled underneath his sheets, covering yourself completely, and hiding from him. He chuckled at that and threw the used condom on his trashcan to then almost sprint to the bed and jump on top of it, making you bounce and yelp on the side you were on.
It made the sheets move away slightly, uncovering you from the waist up. Eddie looked down at you. Your hair was a mess, your makeup smudgedโ€ฆ but fuck you were so beautiful. All of you. And you were now his.
โ€œYouโ€™re meanโ€ฆโ€ He chuckled at you and got inside the sheets as well, wrapping his arms around you and flipping you on top of him, making you giggle.
โ€œIโ€™m anything but thatโ€ฆโ€ He bit his lip and then cleared his throat as nerves filled his body once more. He was a rockstar, yet you made him more nervous than any concert he ever played in his life. โ€œKittyโ€ฆ I wantโ€“ I want you. Like, I want this to be official.โ€
And that was the other part of this love that you were afraid of. Official? With Eddie? You?
โ€œIโ€“โ€ You gulped as shame coursed through your body. โ€œI amโ€“ no one, Eddieโ€ฆ I am not famous orโ€“ I mean, you might lose fans if we come out as officialโ€ฆโ€ย 
And when you looked at Eddieโ€™s eyes, you saw them become doe-eyed, a sad frown appearing on his eyebrows, as he looked at your face. A hand came up to push a strand of your hair behind your ear, making you sigh.ย 
โ€œBaby, Iโ€™ve been wanting you for god knows how longโ€ฆ I donโ€™t care what happens to my reputationโ€ฆ and if my fans are truly my fans, they should be happy that I finally got the chick Iโ€™ve been singing about for the past two years.โ€ย 
Your heart felt like it melted with his words. Your eyes were tracing his face, the shape of his eyes, his nose, his lips. Every expression he did out of happiness or excitement, was because of you now. He definitely loves you, doesnโ€™t he?
โ€œYouโ€“ Will you show me which songs were the ones about me?โ€ You smile cheekily at him, and he raises an eyebrow at you, grips your hip slightly in warning and you canโ€™t help but giggle.
โ€œYes, only if youโ€™re mine.โ€ย 
And this wasnโ€™t the last youโ€™ve seen about the lack of confidence, you knew that. But there is something you are definitely, most certainly, confident about. Eddie Munson loves you, with everything in him, and wants you desperately.
โ€œDeal.โ€ A cheeky smile appears on his lip and you give him a pointed frown. โ€œApologize to Steve.โ€
And his smile faded, tilting his nose up.
โ€œNever.โ€
Youโ€™ve got one cocky little rockstar of a boyfriend.
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a/n: orange peel skin is what we call the skin when it looks pitted, formed by cellulite most of the times.
i hope you all enjoyed this little thing (not so little)
always reblog your artists
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Good Vibrations Part One
Hello, it's me, back at it again with another Steddie AU.
Anyway, if I were tagging this AU, these would be the most important ones: Deaf Steve Harrington; Tooth-rotting Fluff; Getting Together
If you wanna be tagged in future parts, just let me know!
As always, if you see any typos, no you didn't ;)
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Steve has blown through three pairs of hearing aids in the past year. The first pair had lasted a few years and needed replacement because of normal wear and tear. The second pair was sacrificed during that fight with Jonathan. He hadn't been wearing them, but they'd been in Steve's pocket, and he'd landed at just the right angle to feel them shatter. The third pair was taken by the Russians because, despite Robin's shouting and cursing at them for being dumbasses (and this was before she actually knew what they were for), they accused him of recording their kidnapping and torture.
Honestly, he wouldn't recommend fighting Russians and Billy and Mind Flayers and driving while nearly totally deaf.
The funniest part of it all, though, is that Steve doesn't even use hearing aids regularly. He normally only wears them at home. The pair lost to Jonathan were present because, well, that whole day had been a lot for Steve, and he needed the comfort of knowing he could stop reading lips the moment it became too exhausting for him. The pair lost to the Russians was because he'd been getting ready to tell Robin about being deaf. She'd already clocked the weird things he does (well, weird to her, normal to Steve), and he figured letting her in on the big secret would bring them a little closer.
Of course, that didn't go the way he expected. Robin thought he was confessing love and decided to beat him to the punch. That's how he learned Robin is a lesbian, and Steve couldn't let her be the only one admitting to something like that, so he told her about being bi and his long-standing, hopeless crush. And being deaf. But the bi with a crush thing seemed more important in the moment. She took it in stride, it brought them closer, and then Robin asked if Steve could teach her sign language.
Which meant that Steve had to learn sign language because he never had. Between not wanting to feel even more different than he already did and trying to convince his parents that, really, everything was fine and he didn't need to go to a special school for deaf and hard-of-hearing kids, he'd never learned. Learning it had somehow felt like an admission of weakness, and that was the last thing he wanted. But he learned for Robin, and they stumbled through sign language together, creating new signs only they knew.
But that's all in the past now, and Steve is working his ass off at Family Video to afford a new pair because he refuses to ask his parents for money. If he asks them, they'll come back, and that's the last thing he wants. They don't need to have all their worries confirmed that Steve is helpless, and he doesn't want them anywhere near Hawkins "Hellscape" Indiana.
So. Working his ass off, taking extra shifts, and babysitting the kids as much as he can to make up for the whole Friends and Family Discount he gives their parents. He's exhausted, but he gets to recharge somewhat during his lunch break.
About a ten-minute walk from the Family Video is a record store, which Steve has started visiting daily to just breathe. The lone worker in the store is usually too busy listening to her own music to pay Steve any attention, letting him wander and try to determine which records will best serve him.
Steve drifts over to the rock and heavy metal section, hoping to find a new album but unsurprised when he doesn't. He browses through them anyway, moving past Metallica and Black Sabbath and Iron Maiden. He already has all of these albums on his shelf at home. He has the cassette tapes for them, too.
But he really wants something new. He likes the novelty of experiencing unfamiliar vibrations through the speaker, letting them thrum through his fingertips and into his bones. It's fun and relaxing, and after all the bullshit he's been through lately, he probably deserves something relaxing.
After glancing over a few more familiar albums, Steve sighs and glances at the counter by the door. The lone worker is standing there, headphones over her ears, and idly flipping through a magazine. She's chewing gum, and Steve braces himself for the sheer hell of trying to read her lips without making it obvious he's reading her lips while she's got something in her mouth to disrupt the normal shape of words and sounds.
But he has to try. Steve takes one more deep breath before walking over, shoving his hands into his pockets when he comes to a stop at the counter. The girl raises a hand, motioning for him to wait, so he stays quiet as she finishes reading her page. She flips to the next one before looking up, not making any move to pull her headphones off.
"Hi. Do you have any new rock or metal albums coming in soon," Steve asks, feeling the vibrations of speech in his throat and hoping his words aren't too loud.
They don't seem to be. The girl doesn't flinch or pull back. She just looks him up and down, taking in the polo shirt and the nice khakis and the Family Video vest he forgot to take off before leaving. Finally, her neck and shoulders jerk slightly, and Steve knows she's huffed in annoyance. "No," she says, the word clear enough in the shape of her lips for Steve to know it immediately.
He frowns slightly, his fingernails digging into his palms. Steve wouldn't mind just leaving now, but something keeps him there. He just...he really wants new music. He needs something new. "Are there gonna be any shows nearby?" he asks.
The girl rolls her eyes and says something, her mouth distorted by gum-chewing. Steve can barely make out the words "you" and "check" from her response. Thankfully, it's accompanied by a vague gesture at something behind him. Steve looks over his shoulder to see a bulletin board with flyers plastered across it.
"Right. Thanks," he says, nodding to her before walking over. The flyers are all different colors with various fonts that scream for Steve's attention. Some of them are for bands, some are advertisements of garage sales or instruments in need of a new home, and others are just business flyers from stores nearby.
He's seen the bulletin board before, but he's never actually paid attention to it. Steve has always been laser-focused on browsing the records. But now, Steve carefully reviews each flyer advertising shows. Some are for comedy shows, which he immediately dismisses. One seems promising, but then he sees how far it is, and Steve definitely can't do an overnight trip like that.
Finally, Steve sees a flyer advertising a show at the Hideout later that week. It's close enough that he won't be out overnight. The place is kind of seedy, but Steve figures he can find some corner near the stage to hide. Or he can bring Robin and let her help him navigate any potential social situations. He tugs the flyer off the board, gaze lingering on the "Corroded Coffin" emblazoned across the top.
He knows the band. Of course, he knows the band. He's extremely familiar with their singer. From a distance. Honestly, Eddie Munson probably doesn't have the best impression of him, but Steve's heart never really cared about that. Because Eddie is like everything Steve wants to be: he's loud and unafraid of being so, he doesn't care about his image and how others perceive him, and he looks like his laugh sounds beautiful. Steve wouldn't know if he's actually right about that last point, but Eddie throws his head back when he laughs, eyes crinkled and hand over his stomach like his muscles ache.
His mouth suddenly feels dry, but he's also filled with unprecedented courage. Steve has graduated (barely), and that means a significantly lower chance of running into Eddie during the day if watching the show somehow goes wrong.
Steve folds the flyer into quarters and stuffs it into his back pocket. He'll be overly aware of it being there until Robin starts her shift and he can show it to her, but that's okay. He throws a quick thanks over his shoulder as he leaves the shop, glancing up at the bell he can't hear that signals the door's opening. He vaguely remembers what bells are supposed to sound like (he'd heard a few before losing the ability to hear them), but he doesn't let himself dwell on it.
Instead, he focuses on the trip back to Family Video, keeping an eye on the road to watch for any cars he wouldn't notice otherwise.
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When the final bell rings, Eddie Munson can't get out of class fast enough. He'd been packed for the last five minutes, and he slid out of his seat the moment that first peal rang out. He has a gig to prepare for, and every second counts. At least, each second counts until he notices something (or someone) that could prove entertaining for a while.
He spots Dustin alone near one of the exits, and Eddie decides to relieve the kid of his isolation. He waits until he's behind Dustin to shout, "Henderson!" and throw his arm over the kid's shoulders, ignoring the way he jumps like he'd been expecting an attack.
"Holy shit!" Dustin shrieks, jerking back to look up at Eddie. "Don't do that, man, you're gonna give me a heart attack."
Eddie snorts, waving away Dustin's concern as he continues toward the exit. The general flow of students trying to get out helps him along, and Dustin doesn't seem to realize they're actually moving until they've gotten into direct sunlight. "You're fine," Eddie says, "Anyway, whatcha doing all alone, Henderson? Lose your way?"
"No, I have...stuff to do today," Dustin says, shrugging as he blinks to acclimate to the sunlight.
Oh, yeah, way too cryptic for Eddie to not dig for more. "Stuff? What kinda stuff? Got a hot date? Going shopping with your mom?" he asks, and then he gasps dramatically and moves to stand in Dustin's way. He puts both hands on his shoulders and very seriously says, "Be honest, Henderson, you're seeing another DM, aren't you?"
Dustin stares at him for a few seconds before rolling his eyes and shrugging his hands off. "Who else in this town DMs?" he asks, "Other than Will, I guess, but he's still working on a campaign."
"Fair," Eddie concedes, "so, whatcha really doing?"
After a few seconds of getting nudged by the students around them, Dustin sighs and says, "I have chores, okay? But that doesn't sound cool to say, does it?"
Fair. Eddie nods in agreement and moves out of Dustin's way, continuing to follow him. "So, what, your mom picking you up today?" he asks.
"No, Steve."
"Oh, the famous Steve."
Dustin nods, looking over the parking lot before pointing to one end. "Yeah, he's awesome," Dustin says as Eddie follows the direction of his finger.
And standing there, leaning against the hood of his car and looking to the side where a group of trees is swaying in the breeze, is Steve Harrington. Steve "The Hair" Harrington. King Steve. The worst thing, Eddie thinks, is that Steve looks good. His hair is still perfect, of course, and his stupid little striped shirt is pulling against his biceps and riding up just enough for Eddie to see a tiny sliver of tanned skin above his jeans. He looks a little tense, but Eddie chalks that up to him being back on the campus after already graduating.
"Harrington? You've been talking about Steve Harrington this whole time?" Eddie asks, his voice a little strained, "How the fuck do you know Steve Harrington?"
"He's my babysitter," Dustin says, his voice implying that much should have been obvious, but Eddie wants to grab his shoulders and shake until his head rolls off.
Steve Harrington doesn't babysit. He doesn't know nerds that talk about D&D. He doesn't drive nerds around. At least, he never did in high school. Granted, Eddie never actually talked to Steve, but everybody knew that Steve Harrington was too cool for, well, anything that wasn't the typical jock and popular guy shit.
As he's thinking about the last time he saw Steve Harrington (in the halls, while the guy had bruises and looked worse for wear), they get within shouting distance. And Eddie has zero impulse control when Wayne isn't around, so he doesn't think before shouting, "Hey, Harrington!"
Next to him, Dustin whips his head to glare at Eddie. And Steve Harrington doesn't fucking react. He just keeps staring at that group of trees like it's the most fascinating thing in the world. "Dude," Dustin says, grabbing Eddie's arm and yanking harshly, "don't shout like that."
Eddie frowns, anger beginning to simmer in his stomach at the complete lack of acknowledgment. "Why are you upset with me?" he asks, gesturing at Steve as he continues, "I'm not the one being a douchebag here."
Dustin opens his mouth, about to say something, only to snap it shut once more. He frowns like he's just realized he can't say something, and huffs with frustration. "Just...just don't do that," he finally says, keeping a hand on Eddie's arm and dragging him across the parking lot. And, yeah, something is definitely weird here.
Instead of just walking up to Steve, they make a large arch until they're within Steve's line of sight.
Eddie watches as Steve notices them, seeing Dustin first and pushing off the car. He relaxes for a split second until he sees Eddie and his shoulders tense again.
Great.
Once they're close enough for Eddie to count the moles above the collar of Steve's shirt, Dustin grins and says, "Hey, Steve." But it's odd, because Eddie has never heard Dustin talk this slow or this carefully, like he's doing his best to enunciate his words.
Steve flashes a grin and ruffles Dustin's hair. "Hey, twerp, you're late," he says. He then glances at Eddie, his grin becoming a little smaller, and says, "Hey, Munson."
Wait. Steve Harrington knows Eddie's name? And he called him by it? He said Munson, not Freak. Eddie stares at Steve for a few seconds before nodding. "Harrington," he says, "how the fuck did you become a babysitter?"
Is he just imagining things, or is Steve looking at his mouth? Like, really intensely. He's definitely not, because Steve looks up after a few seconds with a raised eyebrow. "I needed some extra cash. Also, don't swear around Dustin. I'm the one who gets in trouble when he curses in front of his mom."
Something about the words makes Eddie grin. Never in a million years would he have guessed that he'd be talking to Steve Harrington. And he would have laughed you into Mordor itself if you suggested their conversation would be about Dustin Henderson swearing in front of his mother. "What's his mom do when he swears?" he asks.
Because he can feel the conversation veering into something potentially embarrassing for him, Dustin lets go of Eddie and starts pushing Steve toward the driver's side of his car. "Okay, we gotta go. So many chores, so little time," he says, his voice back to that normal speed and enunciation.
Steve frowns slightly, looking down at Dustin and tilting his head just slightly. "What?" he asks. Instead of actually answering, Dustin just makes some vague gesture with his hand and looks at the car. "Oh, right. Go ahead and get in the car. And, uh, see you later, Munson."
"Is that a promise?" Eddie asks before he can think better of it.
Steve pauses, looking at Eddie's mouth with a slight scrunch to his nose. He seems to be considering something as Dustin scrambles into the passenger seat, watching them with narrowed eyes. Honestly, Eddie is surprised he's not blasting the horn to hurry Steve up. Finally, Steve comes to a decision and meets Eddie's eyes again. "Your band has a show tonight, right? At the Hideout? I was planning to go. So, yeah, I'll see you then, I guess."
And with that, like he hasn't just fucking rocked Eddie's world, Steve Harrington gets into his car. He makes sure Dustin is buckled before waving at Eddie and pulling out of the parking spot.
Eddie finds himself waving back, staring dumbly at the car as it pulls onto the street. It only hits him a few seconds later that Steve Harrington is coming to his show. At the Hideout. His metal show. A Corroded Coffin gig at the Hideout.
Holy. Shit.
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Special Delivery (Spencer Reid x F!Reader)
Description: Something's different about Reid and no-one knows what. However, a surprise delivery to the BAU may just have the answer...
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Warnings: Food references, mentions of mental health, mentions of medical procedures, references to smutty behaviour, Spencer being adorable
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โ€œOk. Am I the only one whoโ€™s noticed somethingโ€™s different with Reid lately?โ€ Morgan remarked, watching as the said boy-genuis made his way across the bullpen and over to his desk.ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ Emily hummed, watching the young agent over the rim of coffee cup. She had to admit it - as much as it annoyed her - Morgan was right; Spencer has definitely been acting different. If anything, she was surprised it had taken them all this long to say anything.ย 
Normally, they were all over each other the moment they noticed anything even remotely different about each other. Hell, sheโ€™d barely taken a step off the elevator, after getting an extra few inches cut off at her latest haircut, before the team were quizzing her about possible life changes and whether or not they needed to be worried about her.ย 
It was a hazard of working with profilers for a living; it was almost impossible to keep anything a secret. No wonder they were all intrigued and slightly confused by the fact that none of them had been able to pinpoint what was going on with their friend.ย 
The most notable difference was the gradual disappearance of the dark circles under his eyes. Reid also seemed happier in general, less quiet and reserved when talking to others, and it was starting to make agents talk.ย 
Morgan and Emily stood up straighter as JJ walked over to join the unofficial gossip session. She took one look at the pair and knew immediately what they were whispering about.ย 
โ€œAre you talking about Reid?โ€
โ€œOh yeah,โ€ Morgan grinned, โ€œmy moneyโ€™s on him having finally found someone.โ€
Emily choked, seemingly as a result of inhaling her coffee at the grand statement. โ€œWhat?โ€
โ€œOh, come on, Miss โ€˜super spyโ€™. Just look at him,โ€ he teased. โ€œHeโ€™s been distracted. Heโ€™s all goo-goo eyed and heโ€™s been leaving this place at a normal hour. Likeโ€ฆ tell me that doesnโ€™t scream โ€˜I got a dateโ€™.โ€
โ€œWhat? It could be loads of things. It doesnโ€™t have to be a date, right JJ?โ€
โ€œHeโ€™s probably just happy. Weโ€™ve all been getting more sleep lately and our paperwork is non-existent at the moment,โ€ JJ murmured, reaching past the pair of them to grab for the coffee pot. She was clearly doing her best to try and put this line of questioning to rest. Sheโ€™d always been the first to protect the younger agent she now saw as a little brother. โ€œBesides, we all know heโ€™s not interested in dating, he hasnโ€™t been sinceโ€ฆ. Well, you know.โ€
Morgan groaned. โ€œBut what about the secret texts, JJ!โ€ he protested, ignoring the look Emily shot him in return. โ€œHeโ€™s been glued to that phone of his and keeps giggling like a school kid. Then thereโ€™s the lunches! I know heโ€™s always been organised and likes things a certain way, but damn. His lunches have been like next level - and actually healthy? And I swear heโ€™s had jello like every day.โ€
JJ rolled her eyes. โ€œYouโ€™re basing your profile on jello? Is that it?โ€ย 
โ€œWell, no I meanโ€ฆ did you not hear the part about the texting and the taking secret calls and the fact he didnโ€™t come out for drinks last night-โ€
โ€œ-Canโ€™t we just be glad for him? Whatever is going on, itโ€™s good for him. Letโ€™s just drop it, ok? Heโ€™ll tell us when heโ€™s ready if thereโ€™s anything to share.โ€
โ€œJJโ€™s right,โ€ Emily echoed. โ€œReidโ€™s just โ€ฆ happy. End of.โ€
By the way Morgan frowned it looked like it definitely was not the end of this conversation, but he never got the chance to argue. In fact, he was interrupted as the main doors opened next to them and a rather lost looking receptionist hurried through.ย 
Normally, this wouldnโ€™t have been worth noticing but all three of them spun around at the sound of him calling out the name, โ€œAgent Reid? uhโ€ฆ Is Agent Reid here?โ€
โ€œOh, uh, here!โ€ Spencer shouted, soundly vaguely like he was taking roll call. It didnโ€™t help that he shot his arm up in the air too, almost falling off his desk chair as he lurched to his feet and hurried over. โ€œThatโ€™sโ€ฆ thatโ€™s me - and itโ€™s Dr Reid, but it doesnโ€™t matter. How can I help?โ€
โ€œOh, uh, thereโ€™s a Y/N at reception for you,โ€ the unfortunate messenger managed, gesturing back the way theyโ€™d came. โ€œI told them to wait whilst I came to check with you as theyโ€™re not on your visitor list-โ€
Spencer didnโ€™t even let the poor man finish. He was already racing for the door before the man had even made it to the end of the sentence. Needless to say, the others were quick to follow, with Morgan smugly boasting โ€œtold you sooooโ€ as he went.ย 
There was no way on earth they were missing this and considering Hotch and Rossi hadnโ€™t arrived yet it wasnโ€™t like they were about to get their asses handed to them for missing their briefing either.ย 
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Despite the amount Spencer had told you about the BAU, you were still surprised by how different the FBI offices were to what youโ€™d imagined.ย 
The offices were larger and the sheer number of people walking about in suits and carrying a side arm made you feel even more nervous, and that was already a problem considering you were stood there wearing neon blue scrubs, embroidered with jungle animals on the pocket.ย 
You were like a walking, flashing sign, screaming โ€˜outsider - does not work hereโ€™.ย  Thankfully, you werenโ€™t going to be there long. You were only swinging by on your way to work, hoping to catch your utterly perfect - and utterly forgetful - boyfriend, before the start of your shift.ย 
Speaking of Spencer, you had only been standing there for possibly five minutes when you saw him barreling through the doors towards you.ย 
โ€œHey, Spence-โ€œ
โ€œY/N? Honey? Whatโ€™s going on?โ€ he gushed, hurrying over and taking your face in his hands. You could see his wide eyes frantically scanning every inch of you, looking for some kind of problem or sign that you were not ok. โ€œIs everything alright? What are you doing here?โ€
You felt your cheeks warm at the sudden display of concern, very much aware of the scene your wonderful boyfriend was making. Spencer wasnโ€™t normally the most affectionate in public, preferring to save those rare moments for when the two of you were alone. The fact he was so worried about what might have brought you to the FBI on a Tuesday morning was touching and made your heart swell.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m fine, Spence. Donโ€™t worry-โ€ย 
โ€œThen what are you doing here?โ€ย 
โ€œYou forgot something,โ€ you soothed, pulling back and reaching into your satchel. It was impossible to miss the way his face reddened as you pulled out a neatly labeled Dr Who Tupperware by way of explanation. โ€œIโ€™m here because you were in such a rush this morning that you forgot your lunch.โ€
โ€œOh.โ€
โ€œYes, โ€˜ohโ€™,โ€ you teased. โ€œI couldnโ€™t exactly let you go hungry so I thought Iโ€™d drop it off on my way to work. I donโ€™t start till later as Iโ€™m covering Ameliaโ€™s shift as sheโ€™s visiting her sister in Boston, so I thought Iโ€™d swing by.โ€
Sure, Spencer was an adult and you could have let him just buy something from the cafeteria or order something in for lunch, but considering how much effort he had gone to to cook with you the day before you felt bad letting it go to waste.ย 
Heโ€™d been so proud of the way the recipe had turned out, following the instructions and your guidance with extreme precision and care. The result had been a rather tasty looking dish - and it had the added benefit of being healthy too. You were always worried that Spencer seemed to think fast food, like Pizza, was a food group. Then again, he had been forced to be an adult pretty fast and had been in college so young that it wasnโ€™t a surprise that no-one had been there to teach him about cooking and eating right. He had been too focused on his studies to even think about anything else. ย 
It was something he had been working on since youโ€™d got together and now cooking had become one of your favourite date night activities. It didnโ€™t hurt that you often ended up spilling food all over yourselves and needing to shower together - it was just a lovely bonus. In fact, your screensaver was now a picture of you and Spencer, covered in flour, and beaming ear to ear.ย 
โ€œThank you, thatโ€ฆ thatโ€™s so nice,โ€ Spencer stammered, โ€œbut I feel bad. You didnโ€™t need to go out of your way and bring it to me.โ€
โ€œAs I say, itโ€™s on my way to work. Itโ€™s no trouble.โ€
โ€œWell, still-โ€œ
โ€œHey, pretty boy!โ€ย 
Spencer froze.ย 
โ€œYou gonna introduce us to your friend, or what?โ€
Spencer opened his mouth but instantly closed it again. You knew by the way he rolled his eyes and began muttering under his breath that whoever had shouted that had definitely been talking to him.ย 
You couldnโ€™t help but giggle. โ€œPretty boy, huh?โ€ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t ask,โ€ he whined, taking a deep breath as you looked over his shoulder and saw a small group of people now making their way towards you. โ€œI should probably mention that I wasnโ€™t sure how comfortable you were with me mentioning you, so I havenโ€™t told anyone about us yet and those idiots are some of my team and I would say โ€˜runโ€™ but theyโ€™re all faster than me.โ€
โ€œAhโ€ฆ I see. So Iโ€™m guessing that one is Morgan?โ€ย 
โ€œYes.โ€
โ€œWell, no time like the present,โ€ you cheered, turning and waving at the approaching trio. โ€œHi. Nice to meet you. Iโ€™m Y/N - Spencerโ€™s girlfriend.โ€
โ€œWow. A girlfriend?โ€ cooed Morgan, reaching over to pull you into a hug before the other two could stop him. To their credit, they looked slightly embarrassed by the display but they were clearly too interested in your identity to care. โ€œAnd a doctor to boot? Didnโ€™t know he had it in him. Iโ€™m Derek Morgan.โ€
โ€œOh, I worked that out. Itโ€™s good to finally meet you all.โ€ย 
The others were quick to echo the sentiment, with JJ and Emily quickly introducing themselves in tandem. They were also quick to invite you inside the office for some coffee, but thankfully you werenโ€™t lying when you said you had to get to work.ย 
โ€œYou know how it is. People to take care of, medical cases to solve, lives to save - same old, same old. All Iโ€™m missing is a snazzy badge and I could be an FBI agent.โ€ย 
โ€œHa ha.โ€ Spencerโ€™s smile was genuine as you stole a kiss before making a dash for your car. However, you could see the nerves in his eyes at being left alone to face the great inquisition that now awaited him following the discovery of your existence. You were pretty sure the entire BAU would know about you before it even hit lunchtime. โ€œIโ€™ll see you later, ok?โ€ย 
โ€œOf course. Just let me know if youโ€™re coming home or if youโ€™re off saving the world in another state - otherwise I canโ€™t promise I wonโ€™t eat all the leftovers before you get back.โ€ย 
He chuckled. โ€œWill do.โ€ย 
With that, you bid the others goodbye, making sure to agree when they asked (more like insisted) that you came to their family dinner on Friday night at none other than Rossiโ€™s house. The rest of the team were going to be begging to meet you after this, and they were all bringing their families along too.ย 
If Spencer wasnโ€™t comfortable with you going you were pretty sure the team would believe it if you said youโ€™d got called into a last minute surgery, but youโ€™d check later when you both returned to the apartment you now called your home. Either way, you were going to have to make something to take with you, just in case.ย 
As your grandpa had always said, there was no quicker way to someoneโ€™s heart than through their stomach.ย Or, as in Spencer's case, with an unlimited supply of Jello...
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