#never been chosen

[tsaun]

I watch way too many rom coms. I think it started because I don't believe in love, or at least I don't believe in love for me. Love is what happens to other people. It's reserved for books and movies and TV and poetry, not a guy like me who dreams more than he lives. Love is reserved for the doers, and I'm certainly not a doer. So I'll live vicariously through some characters on a page or a screen, and I'll dream. Because that's as close as I'll ever get to love in this lifetime.

#feeling unloved #unlovable #unwanted #nobody cares #tw depressing thoughts #why #i hate this #i feel alone #unrequited affection #never been chosen #never asked

[jehanthepoet]

I think it's worth noting Nara isn't just "Kristen with money." Kristen is an inherently very powerful cleric. She's a chosen one, she created multiple gods, brought a god back to life, brought HERSELF back to life, etc. On that nat20 in sophomore year she was the ONLY ONE who could lift Kalina's curse. Tracker casting the same spell couldn't have done it.

Nara is Kristen with money, but she's also Kristen without that inherent talent. She's Kristen without miracles. She's someone impulsive where it's not just that she lacks follow through (like Kristen), but where that initial impulsively is also less successful.

And, most importantly, I think it's worth noting that without those inherent successes, she's someone Tracker can feel a little superior over.

#i ama kristen apologist firat and everything else secons #but like #since their first conversation its been bothering me that it seems like Tracker felt threatened by Kristen's success #and now that Kristen's hit a bumpy patch Tracker can feel safe in feeling like it was inevitable #(and maybe it was! who knows!) #but Nara was never as successful as Kristen #and so tracker gets to be the unchallenged chosen one #kristen applebees #tracker o'shaughnessey #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy

[ganondoodle]

totk cataclysm event wasnt just a great (but utterly missed) opportunity to change the map in techincally little ways that has drastic consequences both in stakes and in gameplay (like i mentioned before, flooding the gerudo desert would have meant devastating consequences for its ecosystem- like imagine little islands of sand still poking out, acting as a sort of last doomed refuge for sandseals- but also cahnged the entire gameplay of it, good chance to introduce some neat new ways to surf on water like a new ridable creature or an ice shield freezing a path while you surf on it, the gerudo being forced to save the city from drowing in various means or now living on the roofs, trying to adapt by building boats ect - also call back to older games?? since totk loves that so much ..-, vah naboris serving as the savest refuge being high above the water, even if non functional; similarly takign away ALL water from the zora region, gaving it all dry out would imemdiately turn into something way different and could mean death for the zora- forcing them to move to the lower parts of akkala for example- maybe vah ruta is still halfway functioning bc the faith the zora have to mipha, dorephan and sidon is, while not enough to keep it fully functional, but enough to generate some water so the most stubborn or brave zora set up around it like a last oasis; i know its somewhat done with death mountain but the gorons dont really suffer from it bc their only problem is a drugged rock that makes them mean and lazy ..- what about collapsing or exploding it, leaving a large crater that over the course of the game could start to grow with plant life since vulcanic earth is so fertile- some never seen before ones that was dormant in the lava and now that its cooled off is springing to life, which might seem good at first but for the area and its wildlife means loss of their habitat; the rito freezing over, but actually having to move, maybe into the tabantha canyon, building their new makeshift homes in between the walls of it- generally just switiching things around a bit would have done so much wihtout having to edit every last detail ((seriously tho, how did this game take so long given that botw took similar but they did that ENTIRE main map as detailed as it is AND made it all coherent with itself and its themes- im ranting again ..)

-but it ALSO would have been the perfect opportunity to introduce new weather types created by the sudden change in environment, somethign like a super strong wind that slows you when walking agaisnt and lets you jump much farther when with it- a darkness thing that clouds the world in utter darkness with only little light getting through anything that is caused by mushrooms from the udnerground invading the surface and their spores snuffs out all light (which could explain the weird darkness in the ruins from botw too!!), or just simply mist! making everything misty changes the entire feel of any environment drastically- you could make vertain enemies spawn only in certain weather conditions, lessening the repetive overuse of them; and that is only on the surface- what if the sky had sunbeams so strong it sets anything on fire if you dare to leave the shadows- to comabt it get a armor with a giant hat!! the underground could have been filled with different environments in the first place, but then of course thered be those dark spores of mushrooms, an entire forest you have to carefully travers other wise making them release their spores and make it all more difficult, glowy mushrooms, MORE glowy mushroms, theres so many weird ass shrooms IRL you could take inspo from!! maybe soemthing like a forest of kelp, long flowy plants obstructing view and making you anxious by any movement- there could be one thats a mimic or infected with miasma, slightly off color and its knobs are malice eyes that open only if it thinks you cant see it

(also for the idea of taking botws stuff and recontextualizing it, the guardians or shrines, now non fucntional, could be infected my miasma sometimes, maybe randomly to keep you guessing- an overgrown shrine suddenly lifting itself up with hands clawing at you when you get too close or do sth wrong to distrub it- similar with guardians tho the effect might be less since you know them as a threat already- or sth i mentioned in another post, a tower being used as a weapon by a gigatic miasma monster- the one in the gerudo region with the bottomless pit for example, perfect for an arena for you to run around in the spiral while its swinging at you etc etc)

JUST taking what botw had and mixing it up, expanding on it, even if technically little change, it could do so much but in the actual game death mountain and rito is the only ones that saw anything of a change like it, and it largely .. didnt change anything or was reversible easily, and had no actual consquences that meant anything, neither stakes nor environmental or narratively (the gerudo felt like it at first but its also largely reversible, its just kinda .. adding a bit of city)

i hhhhhhhhhhhhhh have so many thoughts still, i am just better at holding them back .... also dont wanna annoy lmao

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #ganondoodles rants #totk #loz totk #i still want to do the rewrite #but man wheres the time #i will never not be salty about totk #“YOU WERE THE CHOSEN ONE” #i wanna yell bc it could have been ... so good

[casualavocados]

Evan— Buck. Buck…That is—that's what people who know me—that's what they call me.

#911edit #911 abc #911 #evan buckley #maddie buckley #eddie diaz #911net #evanbuckleysource #evanbuckleyedit #userelio #alielook #uservito #usernik #tuserhidden #userjjessi #*cajedit #*gif #this is a 'never feeling like enough but being enough anyway and gradually learning that' gifset #the way eddie called him 'evan' was like he was calling to buck's childhood self and telling him that even then he was important #(which parallels the way tommy calls him evan so i included the second gif after he just came out to eddie and is loved anyway) #who he is and who he always has been and who he will be is worthy and enough #he is loved anyway and held up and supported by the people who matter most then and now. #'you never give up' and buck breaking the glass to wake up from his coma. choosing to go back for himself #'you were made to save someone' and he saves his sister he saves his chosen family over and over and over #and he also saves himself

[canisalbus]

I find little Machete being happy over bread baking to be so endearing, especially because I can imagine a world in which helping with baking was one of the few childhood joys he had (due to the lack of art of him happy as a pup), and then remembering the art you did months back of modern Machete making a souffle, I can see reincarnated Machete being drawn towards baking in his free time due to those residual feelings from his past life.

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#aww dang #it's funny you remembered the souffle and made that connection #I didn't even think of that but it's very fitting #to be fair the part of his childhood he spent as an oblate in the monastery was relatively worry-free and uneventful #small children are good at making their own fun it often doesn't take much to make them happy #Machete was nervous and sensitive as a kid that's just part of his innate personality but that doesn't mean he was miserable all the time #things started to get difficult when he was old enough to start his apprenticeship #and his master was way harsher than he was prepared to handle #answered #lunalemures #his life would've been less turbulent if he had chosen to stay in the monastery and become a monk instead of pursuing a clerical career #baking bread or tending the library #with bland regular meals twice a day and bedtime at 6 pm #but he would've never met Vasco of course

[wildstar25]

MiqoMarch Day 26 - Faith

Though she is constantly reminded of her status being blessed by the goddess- Hydaelyn's chosen, as they called it - Arsay maintained a reluctance to allow her fate to be subject to the will of any higher being. Instead it is her friends, her family, whom Arsay puts her absolute faith in. Their bond is the greater gift by far.

#miqomarch #miqomarch 2024 #ffxiv #scions of the seventh dawn #ffxiv scions #ffxiv gpose #WOL posting #Arsay Nun #Hydaelyn's chosen was one of the only titles Arsay never really vibed with #which is for the best since her faith in hydaelyn was honestly on the rocks for a while and even worse after that one reveal in shb #arsay is a summoner and a primal slayer so like #she sees things like gods through that lens mostly #that gods aren't like a set being that exists on some separate plane of reality #they are a myth brought to form through aetheric manipulation #primal summons have always been influenced by the emotional and mental state of the summoner #it is their will that ultimately determines how their god acts when brought forth into the world as a aetheric construct #in the end its the believer in control not the god they believe in #so arsay chooses to believe in her friends and her friends believe in her! #thats how she finds strength in even the most desperate of situations #and yeah arsay admittedly had a bit of egg on her face when the twelve show up and are like well we are actual guys #in her defence literally how was she supposed to know

[neilphen]

Paul McCartney and John Lennon on longing  -

1. A moon or a button by Ruth Krauss 2. The Long and Winding Road: The Beatles (Lennon-McCartney) 3. Dead Poets Society (1989) dir. Peter Weir 4. Paul McCartney at Glastonbury 2022 5. Euripides, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides: tr. Anne Carson 6. A Meeting by Wendell Berry 7. Stand By Me (1986) dir. Rob Reiner 8. Paul and Linda McCartney interviewed by Joan Goodman for Playboy magazine 1984 9.  The Triumph of Achilles by Louise Glück 10. Brokeback Mountain (2005) dir. Ang Lee 11. Famous Blue Raincoat by Leonard Cohen 12. I Loved My Friend by Langston Hughes

#its mclennon day fuckers get ready for me to be insufferable and crazy!! #mclennon #the beatles #web weaving #guys will be so crazy and its because they are making multiple mclennon web weaves at one time #anyways #happy mclennon day to all who celebrate #:] #stop tagging that the one photo is fake it was chosen for a reason #pls understand why i would pick photos that are doctored for this. moments that shouldve been but never were.....pls get the point #mine

[fromtheseventhhell]

Zutaras are really the original self-insert, "we understand the story soooooo much better than everybody else" girlies and they just never moved on

#anti zutara #no offense to anyone who ships it and follows me but I'm so over the shipping wars of this show that aired almost 20 years ago 😭 #at some point you guys are gonna need to hang it up cause there's a sequel series and these people are married with children like... #we get it if you were Katara you would've chosen Zuko but guess what?! you aren't and need to stop projecting onto her #the pretending to care about Katara is what really gets me cause she's never even implied to have romantic feelings for him #or vice-versa + it ignores her anger towards him and how long it took her to forgive him + rightfully so #criticizing the writing for Kataang is one thing but turning around and shipping Zutara while doing so is crazy work #ship it if you want but please stop pretending it makes more sense when both Zuko and Katara have their own separate romances 😭 #love how people have to age Aang down + infantilize him and erase Mai to make it work but sure it's the better option #stop erasing Katara's arc and development just to claim that Aang brings her down when she's been a bad-ass since season 1 #reducing her arc to that ONE moment with Zuko and ignoring all of her other development just to prop up a ship is nasty #Katara isn't a reward for Aang and she sure as hell isn't one for Zuko stop belittling her like that #if y'all didn't watch ATLA when you were 12 and think Zuko was cute this ship wouldn't even exist #thinking about that post that said the writers /pandered to dudebros/ like we all weren't children the delusion is crazy sdfssdfsdfsd #also seeing AANG of all characters getting whacked for a ship...please get a life and stay away from him #antizutara

[hajihiko]

Your tag saying Mikan is gonna have it rough has me worried. She’s already been through enough! I mean they all have but especially her! I don’t even want to imagine what her haunting is like!

there's no metric for suffering so it's not like she literally has more bad than the boys. I just mean that, to me, things pertaining to childbirth and the menstrual cycle is horror in itself so it hits harder

#It just feels more. Invasive idk. Especially for someone like Mikan whos been physically disrespected SO much #Especially when the source of horror is her first 'true' 'love' #I mean eaugh it's giving me Heebie jeebies just thinking about it #I guess it's a case of. I can't imagine a haunted eye or arm. #But the consequences of something Inside Your Body that you No Longer Want? I can imagine that better #But that's getting into serious dark territory even for me #Not saying any of this is inherent horror btw it's just bad TO ME and also I feel like we shouldn't deny the horror of- #-that specific part of a body being treated as if it doesn't belong to you. You know. #Hey man I would have never chosen this narrative but this is what canon said and I'm just thinking the horror to it's end as comes natural

[pallanophblargh]

We still have this little critter, and she has successfully healed from her spay.

She rejected her homemade cone of shame (rolled up soccer socks courtesy of J) so we got her a proper baby shirt. It’s shocking we got her into it, and that she tolerated it as well as she did. She may be a shit, but she’s a good kid at heart. Maybe because she’s so stinkin’ cute.

It is probably wishful thinking, but her manners seem to be getting better. She still hasn’t been formally introduced to Zelda, but we can already tell she’s a little bully, so keep your fingers crossed because it would kinda suck to rehome her.

(It’s doubly hilarious because I’m the “no more cats can’t deal argh!” sort and this lil shit just HAD to choose OUR yard as the place to hang out in.)

Mammals are so utterly frustrating!

#Frida #cat #stray cat #tortoiseshell #tortie #she’s obnoxiously cute and sometimes that’s annoying cause I want to make sure she learns some good manners #she still likes to bite #but it’s mostly play biting and she’s slowly learning we find it rude #I’ve never been good at training animals and that’s all on me #Zelda’s backstory is she was borderline feral as a kitten when J found her #so she’s special and hates everything but j and me #she’s chosen me as her person which is really odd #I just don’t want Frida beating up on Zelda because Zelda is a coward #the shirt was adorable and it kept her from getting up to shenanigans #build a bear lookin’ ass #she fell asleep on me multiple times so at least she’s a cuddlebeast #when she’s not doing parkour off the walls #honestly she isn’t as much as a disaster as she could be so I am grateful

[crossdressingdeath]

Orin: The little lordling has been whispering in your ears? He always knew how to tumble and twist your mind matter, leave you knotted in his cords.

I'm fascinated by the implications of this line. Especially with the patch 6 crumbs suggesting that affectionate mind games was a fairly big part of Durge and Gortash's relationship, or at least big enough that Gortash missed it. Like... was Gortash actually manipulating Durge, or was it all part of a game that Orin wasn't part of and didn't understand? I love the idea of Orin thinking Durge was a victim of Gortash's manipulations (and possibly turning on them because of it) when they were actually in on the whole thing from the start and having fun with it. It fits well with Orin's anger at having to follow a plan that involves restraining herself and her assassins when Durge helped create that plan and Bhaal presumably signed off on it. All evidence suggests that Durge and Orin weren't particularly close, and Durge definitely didn't confide in her; it makes sense that she didn't understand Gortash and Durge's relationship and just saw her idiot sibling letting a Banite manipulate them because she couldn't see that they were as much a part of the game as he was! So of course she assumes that he manipulated them into agreeing to a plan that involved not killing; why would Durge ever trust Gortash's plans enough that he could convince them that it was the right course of action? But then of course... they did trust him. And if Orin had trusted that they knew what they were doing instead of assuming they'd fallen under Gortash's thumb and stabbing them in the back the Chosen might actually have won.

#bg3 #orin the red #obsessed with the fact that gortash and durge's relationship set this all in motion and also doomed the chosen's plan #it would never have been possible if they hadn't trusted each other enough to go for it! #but their affection for each other was so clear that orin stabbed durge in the back over it and that ruined EVERYTHING

[tsaun]

Yeah of course it's nice to be needed, but it would feel nice to actually be wanted sometime

#i feel alone #tw depressing thoughts #friends #life sucks #battery is always low #always alone #never been chosen #never asked

[chrollohearttags]

I used to think something was wrong with me bc I despised relationships, love, etc. and I never had a true relationship in the typical sense. I’d be so hard on myself, thinking I wasn’t attractive enough or sum. so glad I let that shit go lmao.

#cherry chats 🍒 #aro dysmorphia be kicking my ass sometimes #esp when I see couples out #but then I wise up and realize I would be miserable dating fr #I’m not attracted to these ppl #I’ve never been chosen or picked anyways so why would I miss sum I’ve never had lmao #I’m perfectly content and fine with fictional selfships #sorry I’m just feeling yappy #like baby imma just break your lil heart sorry #aroace #aromantic

[2dumb2furious]

Rick Riordan understood the assignment on this one a little too well when he planned out Nico’s story

#thinking about titans curse Nico will never not make me want to cry #he was just such a sweet 10 year old obsessed with his little card game #he found everything about camp half-blood so interesting #then Bianca died and so did that whimsical version of himself forever #Him burning his mythomagic cards in the following book is so sad #imagine who he would’ve been if Bianca never went on that quest and they had instead chosen Percy #nico di angelo #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #pjo hoo #bianca di angelo #the titans curse

[mafukasa]

Dear doppelgänger, who, oh who are you?

#prsk fa #project sekai #fanart #prsk #tsukasa tenma #wonderlands x showtime #wxs #aris art #got this vision as i was tiering pandemonium and dear doppelganger got chosen in multi #then i looked at the new kasalim i had as the leader while the song was playing in bg and suddenly thought Wait. #never been the same ever since.

[arabela25]

Non-qualifiers of semi-final 1

Dance (Our Own Party), The Busker - Malta 🇲🇹

Aijā, Sudden Lights - Latvia 🇱🇻

We Are One, Wild Youth - Ireland 🇮🇪

Tell Me, TuralTuranX - Azerbaijan 🇦🇿

Burning Daylight, Mia Nicolai & Dion Cooper - The Netherlands 🇳🇱

#eurovision #eurovision 2023 #esc #I hope latvia pushes on because this wasn't bad at all and they've been very unlucky #malta and azerbaijan seem to be going in a interesting direction and I hope they carry on #the netherlands need to rethink the process #and ireland has to scrap the entire selection process #throw it in the trash!! set it on fire!! #there will never be a good and competitive song chosen through the late late show #(also there is a place in eurovision for generic anthemic songs but they have to be performed well. they need to sound good and look good) #(this didn't) (a real struggle to find a decent moment to gif and this wasn't it but I was trying for so long so I settled)