sweet nothing
tags: songfic, established relationship, no dialogue (kinda? its italics not quotes), taylor swift songs
wc: 2.2k
i spy with my little tired eye, tiny as a firefly, a pebble that we picked up last july.
the beach has always been you and sae itoshi’s safe place. there are no prying eyes, no bloodthirsty paparazzi, no nothing.
its quiet. the way it should be, you think. it takes you back to simpler times, times when sae stood a chance against the overwhelming tide of devoted fans.
you two had been here before. actually, the two of you had been to dozens of beaches before. but this one is special.
this particular beach lies barely an hour away from sae’s hometown, barely an hour away from junior high football fields filled with overgrown grass and memories. if you two wanted, you could visit sae’s parents this very day.
but you two don’t want to. and that’s not the only reason that makes this beach significant. some ways down the shoreline, past the well-populated sands and discarded sandcastles, there’s an outcropping of rocks.
by themselves, the rocks aren’t necessarily anything to gawk at. but they’re where sae told you he loved you; where you heard sae laugh for the first time. you lean into his solid form as you reminisce. his arm gently wraps around your shoulders.
it had been a hot, almost scorching day in july. the two of you had somehow escaped sae’s overbearing manager, sprinting down the burning sand holding nothing but each other’s hands.
you were the first to need to stop, of course. sae could have likely ran down the entire beach if he wanted to, but you weren’t even close to that stamina level. you had doubled over right by those rocks, clutching your side like you would never breathe again. (you did.)
while you recovered, he collected an assortment of pebbles, kicking some an outrageous distance away and skipping the rest into the water. it was glaringly juvenile, the way he narrowed his eyes and felt each rock for that perfect shape.
you had watched him until he told you to stop. with a smile, you joined him in the endeavor to skip one rock five separate times before it could sink into the dark blue waves. (neither of you could do it in the end.)
when the sky began to bleed into pinks and reds, you climbed onto the largest rock there, sae watching your movements warily. you told him to come on, get up here and he did, rolling his eyes all the way. the two of you watched that sun set, dipping below the horizon until all that was left of it was the rainbow of colors left in the sky.
you looked at sae and told him you loved him.
you never even gave him a chance to respond, immediately diving into the cooling sea in a whirl. you’re still not sure why you did it, why you had seen his mouth open and decided you couldn’t bear to hear his answer and would prefer getting your clothes wet.
he had jumped in after you with barely any hesitation. he didnt need to - you were surprisingly quite the swimmer - but he did, arms wrapping around you, legs kicking toward the surface.
you opened your eyes through the hazy and stinging film of saltwater and saw sae laughing. you doubt if anyone (well, maybe rin years and years ago) had ever seen him like that before. his laugh was just as beautiful as him, and it had gotten you to laugh as well.
when all traces of laughter had ebbed away, he met your eyes and told you you were an absolute idiot. and then he told you but i love you and then you two were kissing in the sea, tasting the salty tang of seawater on each others’ lips. (he tells you later the salt came from your tears. you refuse to believe him.)
his manager almost killed you when you both returned dripping wet.
his manager might still kill you today, you think. you’re pretty sure sae was supposed to be in some tv interview twenty minutes ago. but he doesn’t mention it, and you don’t want to break this peace anyway.
the seagulls swoop over your heads, and you whisper another i love you into the world.
they said the end is coming, everyone’s up to something. i find myself running home to your sweet nothings.
sae itoshi knows he’s talented. he knows that there are millions of people that would kill to be who he is currently: a football genius with clubs throwing money at his feet in hopes he’ll bless them with his skills.
but he doesn’t need all the fucking bootlicking. he has one goal after all: to be the number one. there's nothing he can gain from the interviews his manager pushes him into, the photo shoots they make him stand for.
sae wonders what would happen if he were to suffer some career ending injury. would japan still love him? or would they tell him it was his own fault, his failed responsibility of becoming the best?
despite anything and everything that could happen to him, despite the way the money grabbing ceo’s want to milk every last drop out of him, there exists one certainty in sae’s life.
you love him.
you tell him so just about every day, in person, a phone call, or even a hasty three letter text message.
and he loves you.
it's the one thing that will forever stay constant in his life. it's more predictable than shidou asking him for just one chance, more predictable than rin being able to flawlessly score a goal using sae’s passes.
he doesn't have to think about it anymore. he calls you right after practice ends and right before it starts. he presses a kiss onto your lips every morning before his run and another when he comes back home.
you greet him with nothing but a smile and a missed you. you ask him about his day, and he actually enjoys doing the same to you. you answer him happily as you run your fingers soothingly over the knots in his back. he lets you talk and talk, words barely ever leaving his lips.
neither of you hold any expectations from the other. there’s no criticism, no frustrating questions that leave him irritated and snippy.
its just a relationship. an exchange of mutual trust and affection. its the promise of forever, the assurance that nothing will ever change.
so when you laugh near him with a flush in your cheeks, sae thinks that's all he could ever need.
on the way home, i wrote a poem; you say “what a mind.” (this happens all the time.)
the car is silent. you stare out the window, watching the trees blur by. it's been a while since you've felt so…melancholy. something about the way the scenery leaves as fast it appears makes you sad.
sae asks if you're feeling okay from the driver's seat. its not often you get the chance to drive together, but you're glad for every extra minute. even if it means he can tell when you're feeling off.
you're honestly not sure what to respond with. you shrug, a quiet just thinking leaving your parted lips.
he slows the car down, shooting you a look that tells you you better find a better response. you look at him helplessly in turn. it's just so strange to think about, isn't it? the trees they blink by in a matter of seconds will continue to grow for centuries, while you and sae will be gone from the world. you and him will never get to see the beauty that blooms on earth after your lives.
sae looks at you in disbelief. he’s never heard you be so cynical before, and it’s quite uncharacteristic. you give him a smile and turn back to the window with an exhale.
four turns later, he tells you that you’re unbelievably idiotic and shouldn’t be so negative. everyone knows they’re doomed to die from the start, so why get so moody about it? you’re both in the prime of your lives; at least give him another fifty years to show you the entire world before you start complaining about being in the wrong generation.
you laugh and tell him that it’s a promise, that he’ll let you drain his bank account if it means you get to see some architectural miracle.
he grumbles that you’re already taking all his money, but gives his agreement anyway. (it’s not like he would ever actually have financial problems in this lifetime anyway. all those sponsorships and games won makes sure of that.)
thirteen minutes away from your home, you murmur out a thank you and sae squeezes your hand three times in reply.
outside they’re push and shoving; you’re in the kitchen humming. all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing.
when sae asks you to marry him, he does it in your shared apartment before you've even had your morning coffee.
there’s no fanfare, no obnoxious cheering and photography. he just looks at you from the bedroom door- looks at your messy bedhead, the way you sway from side to side as you insert one of those coffee pods- and gets down on one knee. he doesn’t even have a ring yet, for god’s sake. it’s still in his nightstand drawer besides a photo album.
it takes you much longer than it should to process. you blink at him with wide wide eyes and the cofeemaker starts pouring behind you but you just stand and stare. sae doesn’t get nervous often, but this might be one of those times.
finally, after what feels like hours, you ask if he couldn’t have at least waited until you brushed your teeth, if he was going to even get you a ring, and takes his hand.
he shrugs and admits that it’s in the bedroom, and you push him away with a screech of do it again.
so sae begrudgingly shuffles back into the bedroom, smiling at how you frantically pat down like your hair like people are watching.
a minute later, he kneels down before you for the second time that morning with a velvet box in his hand. he opens it slowly, revealing the much too expensive ring in it.
you gasp with enough surprise that it really does feel like a first proposal, but he can see the laughter twinkling in your eyes.
sae slides the ring onto your finger carefully. it’s a perfect match (he made sure of that), and sits snugly next to your knuckle.
you stare at it- and him- with stars in your eyes, and coffee overflows past the cup and onto their kitchen floor with a tap, tap, tap.
and the voices that implore, “you should be doing more,” -to you, i can admit that im just too soft for all of it.
the public doesn't like it. when do they ever like anything? but they especially don't like how he refuses to let a single reporter on the church grounds, how he almost cancels the whole thing and flies you to vegas instead.
it's rin that convinces him to stick with the goddamn proper wedding, surprisingly. because you deserve it, the younger itoshi hisses out into sae’s ear.
and sae knows he’s right. rin has the tendency to be right.
so even though he knows you wouldn't care where or how they exchange those rings, he stands at that altar, the smell of roses soothing his nerves.
when you walk down that aisle, you’re the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen. all other senses are drowned out by the sight of you, all rosy cheeks and long lashes.
he swallows, hard, when you finally reach your place at the altar. the officiant announces the exchange of vows, and sae braces himself.
the first sound out of his mouth is a hoarse whisper of nothing. he coughs immediately to clear his throat, and your lips twitch upward.
sae stands up straighter (his spine is already ramrod straight), and starts again.
he’s spent the last month and a half poring over these words. he wants- needs you to know how deep his feelings for you are. he needs you to know he would never hurt you, how he would fall from grace just to feel your touch.
so when sae concludes his vows with a dedication of all his future wins to you, he’s almost proud to see tears glimmering in the corner of your eyes.
and then you begin your vows, and he thinks he's been sorely outdone. every one of your words go straight to his heart like an arrow, and he can feel himself bleeding out.
but you revive him over and over again with each confession of love, each tiny moment shared, and he somehow falls even deeper in love with you.
when you finish, sae itoshi realizes it's hopeless. for the rest of his life, it will always be you. no other person will ever hold his heart in the palm of their hand like you do. even football pales
in comparison to the thought of forever with you.
and you two kiss, husband and wife, and he realizes that’s perfectly fine with him.
a/n: happy 50 followers !?!?! this is a songfic so its a diff writing style than my usual stuff, but this kind of writing will only be for songfics.
reblogs and feedback appreciated!
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seven sentence sunday!
managed to get some writing in today despite the fact that it was my little cousin’s birthday (and i got to spend it with him! which is so crazy to me!! after 15 years away from my country and my blood family it’s so insane that i get to be here for sunday dinners and birthday parties i could cry /positive)
so here’s a snippet from what i wrote today :)
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as always, this is from fwb (wtbtf) and it’s considerably longer than seven sentences
“Yeah, sure. You treat me like that and see if I’ll do the dishes when we get home. You know how many knives Christopher goes through while making sandwiches? I’m gonna make you deal with all of those by yourself.”
Buck’s fingers keep brushing through his hair. Eddie feels Buck step around them, until he’s standing behind Eddie and pulling him back so he can lean against his legs.
“Mm, not true. You’ll do the dishes anyway.”
“Yeah? What’s in it for me?”
Eddie opens his eyes, looking up at Buck only to find him already looking down at him fondly. His cheeks are still as pink as they were before, but it’s not from the sun anymore. All because of Eddie. The bees are back, making his chest feel like it’s on fire. It would be really inconvenient if he became insecure of his sexuality now. A gay crisis is the last thing he needs, especially when the promise of fucking Buck is so close he can practically taste it.
He can freak out about the gayness later. He needs to make Buck come on his cock at least once before he dies.
“You know what’s in it for you,” Eddie murmurs, just loud enough for Buck to hear.
Predictably, his cheeks get pinker. Eddie wants to mouth at his neck, wants to taste the salt of his sweat there, wants to watch his flush get deeper as Buck throws his head back—loose and giddy as he ruts up in search of some friction on his cock.
Eddie would give it to him, because he likes teasing Buck, sure, but he likes how he looks when he comes even better. The perfect oh of his mouth, the furrow in his brow, the way his whole body tenses right before he comes entirely undone.
eddie is slooowly but very surely starting to pine!! (the bees in his chest bc i had to figure out a way to describe butterflies that wasn’t obviously and inherently crush-like)
tagging @oliverstaark @gayhoediaz @henswilsons @souschefdiaz @buddiefication @eddiediass @eddiediazisascorpio @eddiescowboy @swiftiebuckleys @buckleysibs <3333
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