i have a question abt ur fic— why does harry neglect james so much? i thought at first it was because james seems to be the only one who has his stuff together but after the recent chapter i feel like he’s gone through the most…
i feel so bad for him
OMG MY SECOND FIC ASK???? AND ITS DAYS AFTER DEATH (tries to be normal).
hey so thats rlly funny u ask that bcuz the next chapter will give u more insight! im gonna try have it up by the end of the week!! it will be in harry’s pov right after james’ attempt, and will give more of an insight as to why harry is distant with james. a lot of it is due to how guilty he feels. to him, james’ experiences and mental degradation feel like a testament to his shitty parenting, and harry fluctuates between ignoring the issue and drowning in the guilt of it. so he tends to latch onto people he feels he hasn’t fucked up, and can get away with projecting a shinier version of himself (eg. lily and teddy and NOT ginny, james or albus, who make him feel the worst parts of himself whether intentionally or unintentionally). so even if james is not directly picking fights with him like albus or ginny, the shame still lingers because james has been through so much.
yes, james has undoubtedly been dragged through the trenches 😭🙏
i could talk about my characterisation and mental state of my harry for paragraphs but i feel that will defeat the purpose of this fic if i overexplain before i can properly show it in my writing. i hope this cleared some stuff up though!!
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this interview of foudeqush saying ludwig göransson asked her to write con la brisa as if she was describing the sun to someone who had never seen it (time stamp 08:25 — sub "él me dijo escribe una canción como si tu quisieras explicarle a la alguien que nunca ha visto el sol como es el sol") gives so much more depth to the song than i initially thought (and i had a lot of thoughts lmao)!
when she sings:
it has the intensity of your eyes
it burns more than fire and it reflects on broken glass
and
amongst the shadows, my love, you are the brightest sparkle
how beautiful, how beautiful
that's why, my love, you remind me so much of it
the "it" she's talking about is the sun! the "you" are the talokanil!* and that just adds so much more gravity to k'uk'ulkan bringing the sun to his people in the depths of the ocean 🥹
despite the horrors he encountered on the surface the day he buried his mother, the beauty of the sun and the sky is still seared in his mind. it breaks his heart further that he cannot share it with his people, but he is a god, is he not? he will create a sun for his people, a promise, a hope, that one day they might — without fear — behold the sky with their own eyes, feel the breeze kiss their skin, no matter if he has to burn the world for it.
he pledges just as much in the following lines:
i will give my whole life
to get you out of the gloom
i will break with your penitence
in this world that's falling apart
give me a little bit more time
'cause my last breath i will give
to show you the entire sky
in the clouds, with you, i will [lie] down
and
i promise one day you will open your eyes
and you will appreciate the reddest tones the sky has to offer
and perhaps, to the talokanil, the afterlife is not the underworld — after all, are they not already living in it? — but in the sky, in the wind, in the breeze. their battle cry "líik'ik, talokan!" ("rise, talokan!") — when their whole lives have been spent in the depths, being pushed further and further into the dark and the cold by the threat of discovery by the surface world — thus ironically takes on a heavier meaning.
and we blend in with the breeze
and we sail with the wind
the mentions of the breeze and the wind in the song may also be in reference to zamá (aka tulúm, the ancestral lands of fen's people) being home to the temples of the god of the wind (el templo del dios del viento) and the diving god (el templo del dios descendente) — both associated with kukulcán.
bonus!
this excerpt from miller (1974) gives us a glimpse into the worldbuilding that went into talokan:
"the incredible green blue color of the sea off the east coast symbolized rebirth" — the talokanil "died" and were reborn, one physical manifestation of this being their blue skin.
"representations of umbilical cords attached to newborn figures are prominant (sic) at tulum"; "the diving god shown prominantly (sic) in the inner building if structure 25 is also shown associated with the cosmic umbilical cord" — the film does focus quite a bit on the umbilical cord during the birth of k'uk'ulkan (the diving god).
"round structures are associated with kukulcan" — and what else is round? 😉 (the sun. i mean the sun. also, as far as i can tell based on repeatedly pausing the con la brisa movie clip, talokan appears to be built like a hollow globe, with the talokan sun rising from the bottom center point.)
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* i'm using the official english translation for accessibility and bc the original spanish is more vague about the "it" and uses the singular "tú" for "you" and its associated conjugations ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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