#my energy come back to me

[poetrypage-for-anewage]

You claim you want to be free

We were something but now we're not

So something is what we won't be.

You picked me out the front door and didn't change the lock but you didn't ask for my key

You want the whole world to see,

Look at you so pretty and free.

Your after the clout fake emotions to spout,

Look at you so pretty and free.

Look what will never be

Your true feelings under lock and key.

You know what I see is your dishonest to me

Your escape is your fate

As you go on your next date

Your making it come to be.

Show nothing but fake is a huge mistake

Stop living OnlyFor clout

Will you ever let your true self back out?

Your living so free next time you think of me,

you'll get what I got,

all that's left is an after thot.

-H.OG.

#poetrycommunity #moving on #existence #theartofbeingalone #nolongerwaitingforyou #sad poems #shattered dream #let it be #no longer you snd me #my energy come back to me #emotional poems #heartbreak #the end #the beginning #numb #nothing to say #my poem #original poem #my poems #tumblr poems #poetic

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

most of you will not understand the agony of this outfit. but hey here's fantasy au Howdy!

rambles:

yes. i know. he looks like a gunslinger. but I think it'd be funny if Howdy shows up and he minorly tweaks the genre simply by Existing! plus, he has to make himself useful beyond being a traveling salesman - he doesn't have a scrap of magic in him! so! alchemist gunslinger!

due to much of this "final" outfit design being Miguel's (@indigopoptart <3 thanks for your help homeslice <3) influence, i have less to say than usual! i'll talk about the things i Kept from the first terrible, terrible draft!

i wanted him to have full-coverage gloves because One, gloves fuck, & Two, shooting gloves! plus, he regularly works with dangerous materials! gotta keep his hands as safe as possible! speaking of his guns, they were a Ton of fun to draw. i wanted to make them ornate... Howdy seems like he'd enjoy nice things? fancy stuff perhaps? anyway the guns have his tavern "logo" on them!

the "second safety" mentioned triggers a magic-oriented mechanism that allows him to piece the guns together! they "unfold" into a big ol clusterfuck of a powerhouse weapon! unfortunately, using this immediately breaks the guns and they have to be repaired, so it's a "break glass in case of emergency" ace up the Neighborhood's sleeve!

i like to imagine that his bandolier, while cool, stresses everyone out a little bit. each bullet is full of pressurized weaponized magic. If they break while on the bandolier, well! Howdy would probably be very much Royally Fucked! i also drew the bullets too large here, so imagine that there's a lot more than shown and they're a lot smaller. I didn't realize this mistake until right now! oopsies!

i want to keep elements of the canon outfits in these fantasy ones. hence why his vest is striped and blue, he's still got the reddish brown pants, and! why his cloak clasp is shaped like a tie! and why the inside of his cloak resembles his apron!

i like to think that Howdy got his magic pack by swindling some poor soul out of it! when the buckles are undone, it unfolds into a vendor stand that looks Much different than the tiny scribble provided! said scribble is there to ah... what's the word. Demonstrate? get the point across? it's actually quite a nice stall! he has space to sell, and a workbench to tinker on! the pockets on the bag actually do function as pockets, though.

#'why does he have a ponytail' yeah i dont have an excuse for that one #im projecting my mullet & mullet-esque hairstyle loving self i suppose! #he's just like me now.... #< nah im jesting! my back floof isnt nearly that long! #anyway howdy my absolute beloved <3 #hes so funny. i love thinking about him #in general but also this is an au post! thinking about That! #i love it when he comes along on adventures #everyone is having downtime and he's on the side of the road handling volatile materials and bothering passersby #its a good thing he's coordinated! probably! #he's coordinated right? ehhhh i have faith that he is #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #ohhhh i should draw him with his hood up... #OHHHH I SHOULD DRAW A LIL FANTASY AU RAINY DAY THING #< i say this as if i have the energy! #its been low lately... very low... #i love being tired and drained for literally no reason!

[sualne]

orange and blue guys

#one piece #monkey d luffy #trafalgar law #my art #described in alt text #ive been busy then tired then busy n tired so ive been doodling mindlessly while i get some energy back to draw properly the papacroc au. #somehow. i ended up drawing(sketching really) a 8 pages lawlu comic. drawn in my 'nobody shall ever read this' style (aka: badly.) but i do #want to show some of it. not all of it. cause its got an embarrassingly earnest convo happening in it. so maybe i'll just show the kissing #page because thats much less personal djkfdjf. i should draw more stuff like that tbh. didnt expect op to be the manga that gets me to draw #fellas being tender n silly which each other but alright. i want to go back to the croco au tho. fist at cloud: energy come back to meeee

[unexpectedbrickattack]

babpy.

#pizza tower #peppino #arts #mine #happy pride; heres a little otter for u #hes like very early 20s here #happy and unbothered before the Horrors happened #it is NOT his 30s bc he needs to exude raw dilf energy by that point #but for now he is anxious and sweet and awkward #not that i dont draw him like that already but its like 10x here #its PALPABLE #okay mwah i will hopefully come back w more than just sketches that mean nothing skjfsdjkfdhfhsk #i have LITERALLY been on this commission for WEEKS i need someone to take me out back and put me out of my misery i swear #im going to finish the lines TODAY like i cant be this person i cant keep coming back to this fucking comm w no progress ill simply Die #its like singlehandedly preventing me from doing anything else; its making a mental block waaaaaaaau #but i feel like i am breaking through it today. at least i HOPE i am sdkjfsdjkfjsdkf #um if u are still here ilu. send me some anons; i want to be chatty but the messages i have feel like i need to respond w essays #and i literally. cannot. #at least until i get my head screwed on properly again

[ddruxyart]

At this point the bully has become the bullied but he keeps coming back for more??

#whitney the bully #dol whitney #dol #degrees of lewdity #dol fanart #ddruxyart #artists on tumblr #my art #Sorry Fem!Whitney lovers I dont have a solid mental image of her yet so yall gotta make do with this Masc!Whitney #I know I said that I prefer to create character designs that work for either sex/gender bc I focus on capturing their feel & personality- #-but there ARE some exceptions and yes; Whitney is one of them. Alex is the other but I havent had the energy to do their fem version #At this point my games Whitney HAS to be into it with the amount of times he comes back for more- #- I'm really curious what his friends thoughts are on that #The lil chibi is my oc turned pc; Dee. They would be in a real unhealthy relationship if the game would allow her to do more to him #Dee; absolutely incredulous: I THOUGHT YOU AT LEAST WERE NORMAL ABOUT ME WHEN IT COMES TO THE BULLYING #He specifically has those snake bites so that he can lick the blood off of them

[platykool]

im back

#bungo stray dogs #bsd #fyodor dostoevsky #nikolai gogol #bsd fanart #my art #what do you mean I wasn't gone #but I think it's been a while since I've posted anything #I'm slowly getting back to making elaborate drawings in color and all not just doodles #well these are doodles but #It's been a long time since I've really allowed myself to take the time to properly draw #I didn't have the time to really get seriously into it because of school #the school drained me of all my vital energy I'm not even being dramatic this time ugh #uuuh it's been a rude end of school year but now I have time #I will be able to rest and I really want to get back into drawing #the motivation is slowly coming back I think #so have these for now ! I'll post some other stuff later #take care everyone <3<3

[spielzeugkaiser]

In the spirit of one of my christmas traditions (funny how that evolved) I have crawled out of my hiding spot for some christmassy prompts!

Give me a bunch of characters and I'll draw them under a mistletoe 🌿

#all characters and fandoms are fine hit me up! this is going to be a silly little quick thing #is this me being back after like 3 months right out of the blue? yepp #I didn't see it coming either I feel like I crawled out of my GRAVE I am a zombie #but I am gentol touche #that christmas tradition!! #maybe I can slowly get into drawing like that again but I have no hopes that it will stick #but I can't just lie around I cannnnnnnnnn'ttt #and I have no energy for something big :') #(looks at that lettenhove christmas comic that lies in my folder since like. 2021??? idk) #ONE DAY (maybe)

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[puppyeared]

Little brother

#in other words. one of the shows producers finally gave context for wukong staring at the stone #apparently he was trying to find MK by ripping thru memories but the scroll kept returning him to the same spot #so he didn’t know MK is a stone monkey either. also confirmed that MK was born from the stone BUT that doesn’t technically make Swk his dad #although bodhi does mention that MK was born from the same stone egg unless he was speaking metaphorically. or that was a translation error #idk man I’m waiting for the dub to come out. shrugs #I do like the idea of wukong being more like an older sibling to MK. even if not technically #I feel like there is dad energy there but older sibling just makes me go ‘ah yea that makes sense now’ #I do have to say I fucking hate perspective and I never want to do it again #edit: ok fuck wait I went back bodhi said he wasnt born from the same egg as Swk. but still #my art #myart #doodles #Lego monkie kid spoilers #lmk spoilers #monkie kid season 4 #monkie kid #lmk #Lego monkie kid #lmk season 4 spoilers #lmk s4 spoilers #lmk s4 #lmk sun wukong #lmk monkey king #sun wukong #lmk MK #technically #lmk xiaotian

[emily-mooon]

You know when I hear people say they want more messy relationships in ST, I’m tempted to point my finger to the corner where Stonathan sits.

#to me they have toxic boyfriendism energy #why do you think I made them the way they are in my st bbc ghosts au #I will admit that I’m not really into messy relationships myself but stonathan is a special case where I will consume it #like look at it this way #the ex of Nancy caught kissing her boyfriend who once beat him up in an alley back in 83’ #there is drama there and I hope next season I get some good ‘stonathan shenanigans in stupidity’ moments #and have Steve and Nancy be snarky exes that gifts me back s1 stoncy friendship dynamic #and then Jonathan has a boyfriend and a girlfriend who fight for the right to wear the yellow sweater and the black denim jacket #it’s the fine wine of ST enemies to lovers stories #and it’s sad to see that barely anybody wants to drink it cause it’s sooooo good #note that I will be using the saying ‘stonathan shenanigans in stupidity’ whenever I can after s5 comes out cause it rolls off the tongue #amazingly #stranger things #stonathan

[romidoes]

— my heart is yours to take

#first of #don’t look at mickeys face too much he looks nothing like him #second. shoutout to my friend for helping me firigung out how to make this happen #cause i had no idea how to put the arrow in it and stuff #SO the idea behind this comes from the picture/performance #rest energy #by #marina abramovic #it should be like— them getting married and stuff right #ian has the bow bc you know mickey suffered a bit during the whole wedding thing #and mickey is trusting ian letting him point at his heart #bc he’s taking risks by loving him #bc mickey is *sensitive* and he gave his all for ian #thank you for coming to my ted talk now i shall be back reading fanfics and their scenes on youtube lol #if you have fic recs wink wink #gallavich #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #noel fisher #cameron monaghan #shameless #shameless us #ian x mickey #mickey x ian

[liquidstar]

This is such a tangent btw but on the topic of guilt tripping and reblogs... I remember a few years back there were some terrible fires in Greece (and again this year, entire island villages are gone now) and at that time I had family who were caught in them. I can't describe the desperation I felt with these horrible things happening to my family and loved ones in my country. And I remember being frustrated and desperate with how no one around me in America really seemed to give a shit. I remember blogging asking people to PLEASE care please share something please reblog this link for mutual aid please think about the stories and fires etc etc etc. And the thing is I was very much in a state of grief myself, maybe not every word or action was perfectly reasonable, because I don't realistically expect everyone everywhere to care about every tragedy in the world. You can't. Emotionally it's just not possible, especially with all the stuff going on in the states rn too. Yeah it's a lot. It's not like I blog about every tragedy that ever happens either. I understand.

HOWEVER what I also remember was at this time there were a couple mutuals very clearly making vagueposts along the lines of "remember not everyone has the energy to care about everything in the world uwu" while I was posting about family who died and family who were drifting in the ocean for hours as their homes and loved ones burned. Listen. You have to understand sometimes that when a person in grief and frustration with things going on in their countries and communities impacts them very personally beg you to care... It's coming from a place of needing to see that care in the world in general. They're not holding a gun to your head Specifically saying you have to reblog the posts, if you don't have the energy just ignore it.

You don't have to go out of your way saying "um actually I can't care about the horrible stuff you and your family and your country are experiencing rn. I'm too busy focusing on my own stuff so can you be quiet or more reasonable with your grief thanks." Like. Just keep it to yourself then??? Have some fucking sympathy for other people and understand that maybe it's not always logical. The same way you don't have the emotional energy to think about every tragedy in the world, people who've been impacted by them often don't have the emotional energy to handle that alone and may seek somekinda community or solidarity. Idk. It's not about forcing shit on you sometimes it's not about you

#part of me thinks the 'we don't have time to care about everything all the time' has set us back a bit because it gets used as an excuse #bc most of the time no one is like asking you to become a hardcore advocate for every cause ever they're just saying like #hey reblog this donation post. and like I'm going to be real how much possible emotional energy is that really taking from you #compared to the actual activism the statement was meant for and such. like come on #surely less than complaining about people having the gull to ask you to give a shit right? #you can still have sympathy for multiple things without necessarily devoting a lot of your energy to said things you know? #doesn't mean you have to surround yourself with them to become the perfect most progressive activist or whatever #but you can like. idk. express sympathy or condolences in passing every now and then. like people normally do. idk #instead of being like 'how dare you ask me to care! there's issues in my own country i have to blog about!' are you for fucking real #but yeah enough time has passed that i can think more rationally about this and now know that that was a careless response #exactly the type of people you were afraid of being the representatives of the worlds apathy in your greif etc #but there are also people who do care is the thing #and obviously for the record I'm not mutuals w the former anymore bc like Christ

[phoenixmetaphor]

Day 4 - Real-life Captain America

#chreonweek2k23 #chreon #my fanart #leon kennedy #chris redfield #day 4 - real life captain america #how DARE you come for me where i live like this #honestly would have done a more serious take but i didn’t have the time #they’re going to a costume party #and leon is being super low effort #and chris has chosen that time honored classic costume: slutty captain america #i literally did this exact comic but it’s actually just steve and tony #and i only feel slightly bad about that #anyway i guess everyone be glad you are spared my 10k meta essay about chris being a lot like steve rogers #chris has big steve rogers energy #right down to the part where he thinks he can stop someone from being drunk and sad if he yells loudly enough #you don’t have time to be sad the world needs to be saved #get back on the horse champ #ok i’m done for now

[moongothic]

Hey so also have Sir Crocodile brainrot and have recently reread Impel Down. This is probably nothing at all but it made me question the artistic choice made. Like we dont see Crocodiles full face until Luffy recognizes him. Before that tho he joins in on Jinbei & Ace's convo about Whitebeard and is shown to (non-)react to Boa Hancocks visit. But we only get his face in shadows or see the hook. Which. Why. Oda we know what he looks like and who the guy with the stitches on his face and the hook is. WHY OBSCURE HIM.

My friend, this is what we call a "cocktease"

Okay jokes aside, yes it was an artistic choise. More specifically, a storytelling technique Oda masterfully used to build up hype and excitement to Crocodile's eventual reveal and re-introduction into the story.

So thanks to Ms Goldenweek's cover story (which ran back during Water 7/Enies Lobby) we already knew Crocodile along with Daz, Bon-chan and Galdino had all been sent to Impel Down, when we also learned about Impel Down, Marineford and the Gates of Justice (+ the giant whirlpool between the three locations) to some extent. ((Now of course, if you were an anime-only then you would've had no idea about the former BW members being in Impel Down. And even if you had read the manga you still would've had to actually pay attention to the cover story and its lore, and not forgotten all about it))

So even before Luffy decides he's going to head to Impel Down to save Ace, we know Crocodile's going to be somewhere down there. The second Luffy arrives there, we are immidiately reminded of the fact when Domino mentions Crocodile taking the traditional "bath" new inmates take at the entrance. And as we descend deeper and deeper into Impel Down, with those cuts to what's happening down at Level 6 every now and then, as well as with the Baroque Works Countdown, Oda time and time again keeps on reminding of us of Crocodile's looming presence in the background. This is all absolutely deliberate. Crocodile was arguably the most iconic (maybe not most popular but iconic) One Piece villian at the time, if given an opportunity of course the readers wanted to see him again. But just letting us see him right away would be anti-climactic, and distracting from what's actually important (Ace, and Luffy getting to him as fast as possible). So keeping him hidden could serve multiple purposes:

For one, Crocodile doesn't get to steal the spotlight from the other characters (at least not too early). We can focus on Luffy, Ace, all the new Impel Down characters and the other returning characters in peace, while Crocodile waits for his turn. Another thing is that Crocodile's presence being downplayed gives off the impression that perhaps him being there isn't that important to the story. Thus, him teaming up with Luffy to break out isn't such an obvious twist (and so when that happens, it's ever more hype as a result)

But indeed, the most important part is that by teasing us constantly through out Impel Down, Oda creates hype. He makes us the readers excited if/when we might get to see the bastard, even if it was just a quick little cameo. So when Luffy finally reaches Level 6 and we finally do get that reveal, everyone loses their fucking marbles over the HISASHIBURI DANA MUGIWARA when we finally get to see The Motherfucker Himself. (And indeed, then getting to see him fight alongside Luffy is cool as fucking hell, completely unexpected and absolutely delightful)

But there's also another thing building up to Crocodile's reveal does. Compare his original introduction to the re-introduction

Compare Crocodile at the height of his power and influence, to the absolute rock bottom he has hit. No longer happily laughing while looking down on people (literally), he's filthy, he has given up on life, with sunken eyes and a hollow look on his face, only moved by a thirst for petty revenge (/an opportunity to go out with a bang). He doesn't even get the whole page for his grand reveal anymore, he's been shuffled to the side so the plot can progress on the same page.

Oh, how the mighty have fallen.

And to some degree, this is kind of meant to be a shocking realization to the readers. That this is not the same Crocodile we remember from Alabasta, that Crocodile died when Luffy defeated him. This is just the husk that remains, a shadow of what was once there. It's a sad sight, and probably not what the readers who loved Crocodile The Villian wanted to see. It's not the epic Return of the (Evil) King they wanted. And that juxtaposition helps, because Crocodile doesn't return into the story as a villian, but as a frenemy/ally-on-thin-ice. And that idea is easier to signal to the readers in a lowkey manner when you do his re-introduction like this.

So yes, Oda refusing to show Crocodile's face until Luffy found him was 100% a deliberate artistic choise. This is fantastic storytelling

#Moon posting #OP Meta #Sir Crocodile #Also yes part of the reason Crocodile's re-introduction doesn't take up the whole page is just how Oda has changed as an artist #And how his paneling/page layout had evolved over the years #ALSO ALSO back in Alabasta Crocodile's Grand Reveal taking up as much space as it did made sense 'cause he was The Final Boss of The Level #Where as in Summit War he's just one of the MANY players in the up-coming chaos. He wasn't as important #AND it was a re-introduction of an old character. Compare to like Iva-chan who got a much more Grand Reveal as a brand new character #But my key points still stand #(Yes that line was anime-only but to be fair HISASHIBURI DANA MUGIWARA is an iconic line so let me have this) #(I was laughing quite hard when a while back on Twitter there was a meme of people sharing anime quotes that live in their heads rent free) #(And a considderable amount of people responded with THAT QUOTE SPECIFICALLY) #((Personally the OP quotes that live in my head rent free are all pretty much Luffy quotes)) #((''I will surpass you'' and Luffy SCREAMING ''OF COURSE'' at Usopp when getting the energy to beat Lucci are just. Yeah)) #((I love Mayumi Tanaka so much its unreal))

[chiropteracupola]

he's got a hairstyle and he's already planning mischief!

#today's art adventure #normal men innocent men very small men #two big wins tonight: finished this and also the tumblr tag suggester is BACK hooRAY #he is going to get more of a trim/heat-styling/maybe some gel in the coming days because my melony-drink energy has worn off #and if I use the scissors on him at this hour I shall do something I regret #I want to stay up and drawwwwww but the lack of sunlight is already taking its toll on me #consequently I shall admit to hearing the siren call of my Bed instead

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go