#my brain is very stimmed

[somethingaboutmint]

Quick ugly doodle of cassidy contemplating her sexuality at some dump somewhere

#fallout #fallout new vegas #fnv #rose of sharon cassidy #fallout cass #veronica santangelo #yeah sure ill tag her too #art'd #LISTEN. IF I DONT TALK ABOUT MY CASS/VERONICA IDEA I WILL EXOLODE #basically they meet thru stim and like veronicas interested but gives up the idea pretty quick cuz cass is “straight” #and cassidys like omg finally a woman around here LETS HANG OUT GIRL BEST FRIENDDD and veronica goes along with it #but after cass tries to get her to oogle at dudes with her one too many times as a bonding activity veronicas like #cass im so sorry i cant do this im gay and cass is like (brain fart) um font worry im a hashtag ALLY. #and then she mentions she also sleeps with women and veronicas like ????? that does not sound straight to me #cue cass being like pshhh whatever and then having a multi long sexuality crisis #and also becoming obsessed with veronica in a very gay way for some reason #sorry my demons took hold of me #i love dumbass bisexual cassidy you guys dont get it......or do you (eyebrow raise)

[explodingstarlight]

Thank you for drawing Aro mikey- I kin mikey and im aro, we don't get much rep so thank you!

awww no prob! i’m honestly honored by how many people got a lot of joy from aro Mikey--based on the reblog tags at least haha ( yeah i read all of them :3). from one aspec to another, i totally agree and i will gladly smack all of my faves with the aspec stick <3

bonus Mikey doodle, just for you 💚

#y'all are very sweet i hope all my fellow arospecs had a lovely aro week <3 #help i've been listening to 'best served cold' by jt music for hours on loop...i can't stop... it's dancing on my brain stem #new music stim: unlocked 🔓 #*sighs* another one for the playlist... #anyway yes aroace mikey supremacy #ask #stars speaks #rottmnt #rottmnt mikey #aro mikey #aromantic awareness week #hope you enjoyed reading all my random thoughts as you looked for relevant tags jajaja #rise mikey #e stars scribblez #me: *encounters a new piece of media* ah how lovely... #'YOU'RE AUTISTIC' 💥 VINE BOOM 💥 'YOU'RE ACE' 💥 'YOU'RE TRANS' 💥 'YOU HAVE ADHD' 💥💥💥 #no one escapes the headcanon hammer...no one 👁️👁️

[prismmxrose]

Autism creature, but.. It's POPS!!

Yippee!

#inspector zenigata #zenigata #koichi zenigata #he makes my brain go yippee and makes me stim happy when I see him #well he himself is very much autistic to me #digital art #fanart #autism creature #comfort character #comfort characters #autism coded #audhd #autism #adhd #neurodiverse #lupin the 3rd #lupin the third #lupin III #artists on tumblr

[rube-too-many-fandoms]

i go absolutely feral for winged Aziraphale and Crowley fanart

especially eden Crowley and Aziraphale

it makes my heart sing. and screech and hiss and growl like a little monster

#i stim uncontrollably for it #it makes the autism in my brain very happy #i have a stim that’s like the tasmanian devil from looney toons. like a vocal keyboard smash. that’s what i do #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #good omens 2 #crowley good omens #crowley x aziraphale #good omens crowziraphale #crowziraphale #good omens aziraphale #good omens fandom #good omens season 2 #aziracrow #azirowley #good omens azirowley #aziraley #good omens aziraley #gomens #ineffable partners #eden aziraphale #eden crowley #ruby’s good omens posts #ineffable spouses #ineffable art #ineffable lovers #good omens ineffable husbands #ineffable fandom

[ritz-stimzz]

🕸 🕸 🕸 × 🕸 🦟 🕸 × 🕸 🕸 🕸

kind of tithe themed stimboard

#AUGHHH im in my tmft phase again #i just like edgy nonsensical mildly bigoted bullshit... #one of my favorite series but i can never reccomend it to people because you HAVE to read it within the cultural context it was written in #it was written in 2002! and its trying to appeal to a very specific audience! #its not a thing where you can turn your brain off and enjoy it despite the bigotry #you have to engage with its problematic aspects because they are a fundamental part of the text... #especially in valiant? bitch! #anyways READ THE TITHE SERIES RIGHT NOW DO IT THIS SECOND PLEASE #tithe #tmft #holly black #depollute me pretty baby [my boards] #bugs #stim #stimboard #wolf #grave #dark #picture #forest #wings #camera #cemetary #night #black #brown #green #Spotify

[sadiecoocoo]

@thoughts-and-gayers you ask and you shall receive 🫡

I am terribly ill right now (it’s just a cold but I’m a baby and didn’t wanna go to school <3) and I can’t breath through my nose :]

I am in love with those two psychopaths (I’m the same age as them I’m not weird I promise [I totally am weird but not in that way]) and the only things stopping me from making an x reader is the fact that I hate writing and reading x reader fics (nothing against it it’s just not my cup of tea) and the fact I ship them so heavily i’ve pulled an almost all nighter to finish a fic abt them

#rick and morty #morty smith #evil morty #blorbo bingo #i love them #i am sick #and in misery #🎶I am in misery there ain’t nobody that can comfort me oh yeah! 🎶 #I get rlly hyper when I’m sick but also in the half dead kind of way #like my brain is very chaotic and I stim a lot but then I just can’t get out kf bed and stuff #I’m a little gremlin I know

[blorbologist]

do you think canon Percy is neurodivergent / on the spectrum? I personally hc him as such but what is your opinion on this subject? what are things that stand out to you?

Hi anon!

I do as well! Full disclaimer: I am autistic, my brother is autistic and has ADHD, and our father is probably on the spectrum as well but in vehement denial. However, I got Very Good at masking, to the point I rarely unmask and spend all my energy dealing with Social Bullshit, while my brother is... idk, super charismatic in social settings, somehow, but a nightmare with Tasks and Sensory Hell. So I usually project autism onto characters given my lived experience, but can 100% see how he has ADHD vibes as well! I think neurodivergent rep is very important, and it's great that we can see ourselves in these characters <3

I will repeat this a lot, but Percy has also undergone a fuckton of trauma. A lot of his traits that remind me of myself could be due to PTSD. His panic attacks, for instance, are things I'd slot more with PTSD, personally. You can read his character different ways (I read him as having both), and that's good on you. However, I am autistic and I like projecting My Me onto the blorbo so that's what you get.

A couple of things stand out to me:

The whole Feywild thing reminds me of a special interest. Less so in the campaign, but given how they play it up in TLOVM I really suspect it's the case. Clockmaking also seems like the sort of very specific, detailed work that'd make my brain go brrr if it was my thing, so? Is that anything?

A lot of how he is described (by himself or by Tal) pre-Briarwoods could align with a little introvert noble with no social skills and a whole fuckton of arrogance, but it also aligns nicely with an autistic kid.

Just. how many times Cass has to imply 'percy I can't handle Whitestone alone' before he gets the memo. is insane. it's either 'his autistic ass isn't getting what she's trying to say' or 'percy stop being a dick and help your sister out you KNOW what she's asking'. either way works for me! But I'd like to hope he's not intentionally shoving responsibility on his little sister and use that as an excuse.

We don't know if he had issues being touched prior to being tortured ("We didn't touch in my family"), and the trauma of what Ripley did to him could 110% account for that! But I like to slot it away into my 'on the spectrum' vibes box.

Layers. Layers. Layers! Again, another potential covariate with the fact he's a poncy noble, and has a vested interest in hiding his scars, but I am Particular about what touches my skin at a given time. I like long sleeves and pants and gloves because then it's always the same sensory things on me and not changing.

Just how slow he is to court Vex. Because maybe he's reading the social cues wrong, and he has to be Obvious about his interest too, and becomes a fancy bird giving gifts because that's the best way he can think of supporting her and expressing interest while figuring out whatever the fuck this Attraction thing is.

Perhaps just a Tal thing (I see it with Ashton too, or I did when going over the Laudna n Ashton convo with a fine toothed comb the other day), but how much he fidgets when talking. Constantly moving.

His entire friendship with Keyleth is very autism vibes. Could purely be coming form her, or shared, who knows! (I am a huge supporter of autistic Keyleth, here n there I'll sneak in a line about her stimming <3)

Might just be a Me thing, but how he turns to Vex when he's feeling big emotions and doesn't trust himself to handle them. What the fuck are these, I think this impulse to lash out at Scanlan is probably bad, dear please keep me from doing anything stupid.

Also it's very funny for me to do the 'me and the bad bitch I pulled being autistic' meme with him and Vex ngkntrjnhrt

#percival de rolo #critical role #ask #cr headcanons #cr meta #I am just one leetol autism so forgive me if these aren't Perfect. i dont wanna pretend my hcs are 100% truth or anything. #i just see a lot of me in Percy #anyways this is why I wanna write a high fic because autism + The Weeds = absolutely insane levels of stimming and brain stuff. #could go very good or very badly. and it'd be fun to write him and Kiki getting high and percy going 'wtf im stimming??? WACK' like I do

[ittybittybumblebee]

Not trying to armchair psychology you, just speaking from personal experience- it's really, really common to have autism, especially autism that is coupled with ADHD and OCD, be misdiagnosed as BPD for young people. This is most common with verbal autistic people who also suffer from abuse as a minor. The constant mental pressure often manifests as erratic thought and behavior, "strange" patterns of belief and groupings, and just a general feeling of feeling like you are Not The Same and don't know what's wrong but that Something is Wrong. Extreme stress for all of those problems can easily be exasperated into psychosis unfortunately, so a good approach involves being able to ground yourself with knowing how your mind is different, and that it is not broken. Whatever you find out, best of luck man.

thnx means a lot that u typed this out to me anon <3 i think ur def on the right track on what i could b dealing with but at the same time there has been a point where i was quite sure i must be autistic but felt i never had or experienced the same wide or specific and unique variety of stimming/stimulation issues like most autistics do and kindof let that thought slide a bit. because what sources i read had all listed those as being one of the important diagnostic criteria so that is what i understand.

having said that it could be my perception of how stimulation issues present themselves Personally has me feeling like i dont suffer them when i could still be affected in different ways that im not registering as possibly being That

#i did... i.. god i do remeber taking that online autism assesment test a long time ago and i was in the high range but i was like Hm #but its so very hard when theres all these comorbititys and similar symptoms to other things to truelly tell sometimes... #it can feel pretty confusing ! #one thing i know with clear certanty is i have absolutly have anxiety wether removed or caused by comorbitities or not #alsogoing back to the online autism assesment test i know online tests arent reliable but how far in th hole of denial due to uncertainty o #myself do i want to dig before i just start doing things to help myself for Something #basically tldr: i take everything with a grain of salt and dont jump in untill i feel quite sure #its hard to feel quite sure when ur brain and behavior is confusing #and i feel like i dont stim.. maybe i do ! but if its anything it might be so subtle that even i dont realize what it is... #i will always still keep my mind open to it because of the individual uniqueness of any thing like that.. #but the mood swings oh my god do they fit bpd #But . autism could #i Need to stop ranting on in the tags. #man #ill just let this rest for tonight and mull it over later more #lol #i could definitly go on more i always havea lot to say about my brainworks. my own analyzing . but itd go on forever #need to stop somewhere

[spacenintendogs]

Just gotta say, ur art is SO COOL!!!!!!!!!! I don't have any money for commissions rn but if I did I would definitely get one from u cause the shapelyness of your drawings??? HOW THEY FEEL SO REAL (LIKE NATURAL ABD GOOD AND WARM I MEAN??) UR SO AMAZING!!! AND I HOPE U HAVE A GREAT DAY <3333

(This is all genuine btw I'm not great with making me tone clear over text but I mean this 100%!!!)

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! (YOU are so amazing & i hope YOU are having a good day!!)

#HI i drew meeee bc reading this got me flustered wow thank u so so much #and no worries your tone is very clear to me!!! <33 #i be stimming so hard when i saw this (immediate hand flapping & teeth clenching) #i appreciate it <33 i'm so flattered u would commission me if u could 😭 #AUGH my art being natural & warm..... #i love my art having a warm tone/feeling to it it's so inviting & i'm so glad u feel it <333333 #🌹 art #rose answers #colourful-finelinersbop #my face #my brain is straight tv static rn and my heart is so full #i can't express into words how thankful & grateful i am but i am emitting so many good vibes to u #original art

[hiddenbysuccubi]

Just a question. Because I just thought of it and I do not know the answer. Ever since Jr High at the latest I've whipped my head rapidly side to side to dry my hair and as an adult I haven't much but I've done so again recently and - it's a very pleasant feeling / stimulation and is that a thing other people do

#autism #ADHD #stim #Idk the hell #just whap my brain against my skull and my hair against my face #to be fair my hair is very fine/fair and dries fluffier / with more body when towel or air dried and it just #always made more sense.... #I never put together that it kind of feels as good as hand flapping because of course I never NOTICED or started? hand flapping until #recent times either but uh #Then again I'm King of finding the oddest ways to find stimulation ever #have I stated how I used to love playing in the ocean surf as a child SPECIFICALLY for the moments a strong wave would tumble me until I wa #out of breath and my adrenaline would pump faster because I'd borderline be drowning and #then I'd climb out of the surf laughing catching my breath before going back in because #No I'm normal but ~nothing wrong with me~

[borealiszero]

sooo out of all the characters in cursed, would you say you have a favourite? i’m intrigued, also feel free to just talk about the lore if u want to!! (love all of the character designs btw, theyre really cool 👍)

Thank you so much for sending this ask!!!!! It's actually hard to say which one is my favourite but like all the time i keep coming back is Sam Chevannes!!!

Long rambling under the cut

In this world, it's a post massive colonial era plus supernatural stuff but the supernatural are banned from being spoken about because the Christian said that's not what Jesus said in the bible (they fuckin lied). One of the supernaturals are crafters, they are normal human that has honed the skill of their ancestors that it became an ability unique to them (its teacheable but we'll get to that later).

So Sam Chevannes is one of the Crafters, his are Nullifier, which means he can null other people's craft. The problem is, he is suffering from RCD (rebounded craft disorder) means that he can nullify everything including himself, which became a terminal illnes for him, forcing him to be lobg time hospital patient for the majority of his childhood. After getting it under control via a special made ward, he worked at Maciat, and organisation that worked for the supernaturals. He's in the intelligence division, due to his craft and the fact that he's very good at gathering intelligence and being invincible (he swear he didn't do this on purpose).

In my storyline, he's the best friend of the protagonist, Pyrrha Halloran. He's very loyal to her, to the point of willing to betray Maciat for her without hesitation. He's also loves kids very much, and has adopted one (it's more of Yana adopting him actually). He also was tasked with neutralising an agent of the antagonist, Mercury, but he didn't kill mercury because he promised mercury's mom to find him. He's very?? idk what to say but he has this filter on himself that he doesn't deserve anything bc he was a burden due to his illness. He was actually surprised when people love him back lmao. He's also has this very casual attitude about his dying situation so he made jokes about it a lot.

One of my favourite aspect of him that he knows he has limited emotional quote and he strives to accomodate everyone that he met according to their need. Like when mercury was illegally placed at his house he tried his best to navigate through this traumatized, freshly out of a cult assassin's needs. He's also very loving!! His love spilled out of his ribcage and he cannot hold back that he is very much love his beloveds and cannot stop showing it. Like that one moment when pyrrha said that he deserved better friends than her he refuted and said that he said that being her friend is one of the best thing ever happened to him and he hoped that he died as her friend. He also has somewhat straight to the point attitude that can either came off the most amazing roast ever heard or the cringiest thing mankind can say. Also i like that he's very on board with beating up nazis and ableist just bc he can and his coworkers have to stop him physically, even if they're the one being insulated.

His fatal flaw is that he is very loyal. He will jump into the abyss to save people he loved, and he had done so. While Pyrrha sacrifice herself for the lesser evil, sam sacrifice himself for the better future of his beloveds. He will face the horror again and again for them. This frustrated Pyrrha bc unlike pyrrha, sam can permanently die. And he's the one getting mad that pyrrha is hurt even though it will heal quickly (the hypocrisy of these two 🙄).

If he has a character arc, it would be about how he has to face that he is loved, a burden that they willingly carry because it's him!! Who wouldn't carry the burden of people they love!!! Just like how he loves them, they also love him back!!!! Get loved idiot

Random fact about sam: whe he was five, he once was convinced that he was a cat and thus began to emulate cats behaviour like meowing, scratching, hissing, pawing stuff, eating and drinking like cats. His uncle doesn't know what to do. It lasted until he found out that cats cant eat chocolate then said to his uncle that he is birn a human again and never spoke of it again. He still does it sometimes, hissing and meowing.

#[borealis.mail] #THANK YOU FOR ASKING AAAAAAAAAAA #so glad you asked cause this post made me flesh this world out more #i have so many things thinking about him but aughhhhhh hes so spinnable in my head #extra fun fact: he loves cats but is dog coded #he also sings badly but he still sings bc its his way to stim #he also a VERY good cook and its his hobby #sam chevannes #oc tag #[cursed:research] #the way all the lores rush into my brain 💀💀💀 #ALSO about the fact that he's very good at spying: he swear he didn't do it on purpose. he just happened to be at the same time and place #as it happened. if you wanna know something you could ask him #will he answer? depends tbh hes not a gossip. he just happens to know and this stresses him to no end

[nocribdoll]

Proud audhd moment: I allowed myself to stim on the train :))))))

#my brain might tell me that it makes me ugly but what if it makes me cute????? #i find other ppls stims cute you know #like some guy i post a lot about here XD #his are cute to me #so why am i any different :))) #anyway this is a very special moment #and I'm allowing myself to do hand stims in bed #bc honestly i get nervous stimming by myself #for the same reasons #but anyway I'm learning who i am so yay!!!!! #nocribtext

[queer-quester]

Bloop

#there is this like #almost vocal stim i have from dimension 20 #which is in one of the acofaf episodes #Lou wilson saying “I am feeling...unwell” #its a very funny moment #his tone and the pause length accompanied by a look to emily who just grimaces in the way that conveys a shrug #anyways v fun y good moment #and my brain loves to play that soundclip #especially when i am unwell #such as right now #like damn he rlly did get it #i AM..... unwell.

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

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#hm actually that first tag may be triggering or smth so let's get this under the cut #how many tags does it take to do that i wonder #shall we try three and hope they will be enough or #i am very. thoroughly. sick. of wanting to die #it's just so EXHAUSTING guys #usually im more distractable than this but noooo it's been most of today #just there. existing. as a appealing possibility. #doesn't help that i have an imagination neither #so many possibilities! ha. (<- bitter) #tw suicide #tw sh #and i literally lost count of the number of times i harmed today. that hadn't happened yet #i did have two meals today! which probably didn't help the harming situation. but a net win imo #im just. sick of not being normal. #and i should care more than i do about harming. logically i know i should. but i don't care largely and i barely feel the pain. #there was one i thought briefly might send me to hospital but the bleeding did stop with pressure so it was fine #unfortunately one of my regular coping mechanisms/stims (playing the piano a particular song/way/whatever) is apparently becoming a trigger #for harm? i dont know why but this is very inconvenient probably if i care #my brain is a very messed up place to be in at the moment. i wish to check out of it permanently if you please #i did think for a while i might have to call lifeline again but the worst passed #and ha! when my parents ask how im going i am vague adn they think im fine #in reality? i am psychologically drowning and getting stressed over the fact that they rae returning home soon #realistically i will probably be safer as a result but also more stresses on all sorts of different points #woot woot #.....tomorrow's sunday oh no #if im feeling then like i am now i will not be able to go to church because i will not be safe to drive. #joy comes in the morning? i hope? #if i cannot go to church my brother will probably come and stay with me. don't know if i want that or if i don't. would probably entail #telling him about the fact that ive attempted and also been harming. which i keep chickening out of telling him. yay. #if you get this far anyway yes you can probably tell i need prayers.

[hollypies]

Slides in!!!!

hi hi!!!!

hey hey do you like this style of art

because we've been doing art like this more and kinda wanna do art of your rw ocs like this but also if you don't like it: we don't wanna force a style you don't like on you

OOOONO THESE ARE GORGEOUS!!! I actually use a style like this sometimes when I do warm up doodles!!! It so so cool to look at and I love the way you all used a faded type brush!! Eating these!! Also that iterator is so pog . So swag!

Kissing you all on the head /platonic!!!!!

#holly answers #blu'sorbs! #!!! hi!!!! i literally happy stimmed off my chair when i saw you all jn my ask box oop!! #love when my friends have the same interests/hyperfixations as me!!!! rainworld in my brain!!!! #hghhg slugcat!!!!!!! beloved!! #also sky season js over soon WAGGGH i did the last quest A HEEMHEEM HGN #it felt so nice seeing them all float away like maybe!! there is still hope of happiness for them! #and back on you alls art i think its very lovely!! stylish!! i bet it tastes like hard fruit candy and crisp apples! #like a fresh gala or fuji apple.. my favorites! mwah! #love the way the snail shamans are drawn!!! i.. cannot draw them lmao

[cosmicallyavg]

trying to explain to my parents about how i think im ND is so exhausting because my dad just negates everything i say. he doesn't listen. im explaining how my brain works and he's gonna sit there and tell me that im wrong??? like wtf

#like i 100% believe that im autistic and he shuts it down so fast every time i mention it #like bro its MY brain i know how it operates stop telling me #that thats not how my brain works #its my own brain #just bc i dont 'act autistic' around you #doesnt mean i cant be #youve just only seen the stereotypes of what you believe is the only way #autism is shown outwardly #like not every autistic person acts the same #AND #just bc youve never seen me act that way #doesnt mean i dont #when im by myself or with people im comfortable with #i dont mask it as much #but bc he has shown me that negativity #of xourse im not going to act like that around him #like have you SEEN me listen to music by myself??? stim central #but when youre in the car with me i dont do it #or i do it very subtley #its just annoying #and i mwntion eanting to go to therapy and hes supportive of that #but i know the second someone tries to diagnose me with anything #hes going to shut it down even though a professional has told me xyz #idk i just hate how i am incapable of functioning in the world sometimes #and how he never listens to what i have to say about it #existing in this world is so hard when it feels like everything isnt made for you #but he doesnt want to listen #i cant wait to move out wtf wtf wtf #anyways