#my autistic ass right now

[lymooniee]

IM STIMMING SO MUCH FROM THE PURE AMOUNT OF JOY THAT SONIC PRIME IS FEEDING US RN. LIKE IDC SONADOW OR NOT I LOVE JUST LOVE SHADOW AND HOW HES SO UGH JUST EVERYTHING I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIMMMGMGMM

I'm not delusional and I'm so completely sane.

If he's not gay for sonic explain this.

(im just dumping out my random pics i have atp HAJXJAH--)

Going insane my head full of thoughts rn

#my autistic ass right now #its going crazy #hi i love shadow if that wasnt obvious #sonic prime #shadow the hedgehog #ramble #sth #im SCRAAMINGNGN #head full #sonadow #if shadow isnt gay why does he repeat sonics name 24/7 #if shadow isnt gay why does he sacrifice himself constantly for sonic #if shadow isnt gay why does he stare at sonic so lovingly #i could provide even more evidence

[theonewhowails]

silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

#my art #cotl #i am looking into your soul with my huge autistic eyes. read this fic right now. blease #hksfdjghdfghldkfg im sorry it just fucking kills me that for the first 4ish chapters narinder is just. so nasty #like all the followers are like There He Is. The Leader's Favorite Guy. and its this filthy half-dead cat that hasnt bathed in 10+ years #like he has hardly eaten the entire time he's been mortal and he looks like absolute dogshit #and their unbeatable normally serene and gracious leadergod is hovering around his stinky ass like omg nari hiiiiii #its fucking hilarious to me. and also heartwrenching bc this fic does also get into how hard it is to be alive when uve never learned how #gonna draw the twins desperately bringing him soap later i just had so many things i wanted to draw for this

[bagadew]

A detective who regularly investigates weird and inventive murders decides to start a blog…

Unfortunately rather than writing about his job, he decides to write about his interests: a collection of the most boring subjects known to man.

#welcom to this #my stealth death in paradise post that anyone can enjoy #I know next to none of you watch death in paradise but this is genuinely a through line they have going right now and it fucking rules #my guy (a man with four friends) started this week’s episode complaining that only four people had read his blog #and by the end of the episode even his massively supportive friend group don’t seems to be able hack it anymore #because by the end of the episode being read by one lone fringe weirdo #Nevil I of all people love and support your autistic ass but more people will read your blog if you mention your work some times #that said I would quite like to know if he told the blog that the environmentally friendly mosquito repellent didn’t work #or if he’s pretending it did for the sake of his public image and the hope of getting brand sponsorship #death in paradise

[malinaa]

an out-but-still-private bisexual house would just be so funny with 13 bc he could call her slurs and she could call him slurs and everybody would look at house like he's the plague bc 13's bisexuality isn't a secret and one day kutner would probably say that she can file a harassment claim and house can add the 'im literally queer' card alongside his 'im a cripple' card and the team would just sit there with a headache

#shows #house md #greg house #remy hadley #text #tais toi lys #lys lb: house #‘sorry a bisexual autistic disabled man is bothering u take it up with my lawyer’ ‘house u don’t have a lawyer on retainer’ #‘that $50k cuddy puts away for my legal expenses should do the trick’ ‘for the HOSPITAL house. not for you being an ass’ #‘and some people would say im an ass *in* the hospital. guess where we are right now’ [pause] ‘that’s right. a hospital. now get!’ #*

[shelli-gator]

Journey Beyond Sodor goes SO FUCKING HARD I'm so autistic about this you have NO idea I'M UNWELL

James was so so good SO FUCKING GOOD AND FUNNY and he's REALLY OUT HERE looking out for his little buddy but also being so fucked off about it.

#the songs go so hard too #SOMEBODY HAS TO BE THE BEST #that was SO funny james woke up and chose violence #ass checks him too like REALLY? #bullying him #but when its crunch time he's rolling up his sleeves looking for someone to fight about this WHERE IS THOMAS #what have you done with my little shithead friend?! #i'm having the time of my life #i'll do a more in depth thing on this later i'm just frothing singing screaming #ttte #james the red engine #journey beyond sodor #thomas the tank engine #ttte james #i'm so autistic right now help #please talk to me about this #i want to climb james like a fucking jungle gym

[fruitquake]

i love my mum for lying on my behalf about plans i don’t have so my dad doesn’t spring some last-minute plans on me

#that man loves to make last minute ass plans and like ??? sir i am too autistic for this #and i can hear my mum through the window rn telling him that i have ‘a lot of plans right now and don’t have time for more’ #bless her honestly

[headaching]

god i love that gordon ramsay has at least 3 different shows that are basically all the same

#he keeps that narrator booked and busy let me tell you #and they’re always so formulaic. it’s like he made them for my autistic ass specifically #can you tell im on a gordon ramsay kick right now #gordon ramsay

[blueseraphim]

INFINITE IS BACK

SHUT UP AND LOOK AT HIM.

IM BARKING LIKE AN ACTUAL DOG, SCREAMING, CRYING, LEVITATING OFF THE GROUND.

#sonic the hedgehog #infinite the jackal #sonic forces #sonic channel #*Dr Stone voice* HE'S BACKKKKK #MY AUTISTIC ASS IS SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW #JSHSJSKSJSNSJ #AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #he is absolutely slaying the prince look #and he's singing too wow such talent

[houseofache]

i am in literal shambles with euclid and all of the fucking tiktoks i see theorizing that the band is going to be disbanding after december someone talk me down from this ledge because i literally just got into sleep token what do you mean they're done

#im actually in pain #i wish i was kidding #but this band has been the only thing i've been listening to for the last two weeks #and my autistic ass is in fucking shambles because i love them so much and they're a huge hyperfixation right now #sleep token #euclid sleep token #sleep token vessel

[the-light-finds-its-way]

After sleeping on just straight mattress without covers and just some blankets, all for the past 6 months, I finally had the energy to put on sheets, a new pillow case, and a bed skirt. I even changed my pillows I've been using for... Uhh... 4 years now?

Gods I'm so comfy. Holy shit. I feel like I'm in Valhalla.

I put on my Star Wars Grogu bed sheets, World of Warcraft Arthas/Lich King pillow case, and Destiny 2 blanket (there's a soft throw kitten blanket and a weighted blanket underneath that one, though).

I showered for the first time in a week. I took care of myself. And now I lay in a very clean bed with fresh everything, in just a pair of clean boxers, surrounded by my favorite things. Destiny, WoW, cats, Star Wars.

Let nobody tell you you're too old for something. I'm 24. And I buy exclusively bed sheets from the kids sections for themes like Minecraft, Star Wars, Transformers, Animal Crossing, and so on. After this pic, I filled my bed with soft plushies for my favorite videogames and series, and I will hug them as I go to sleep.

Live your life however you want. Nobody is getting hurt by harmlessly enjoying yourself and indulging in your favorite things. It's your time, and you must use it however you want. Don't let society tell you that you have to grow out of things you love just because they don't approve.

Be yourself. Love what you love. Don't let anyone take your happiness away.

#mun is a titan #not destiny #my autistic ass is so content right now holy fucking hell #executive dysfunction is a hive god but damnit im the young wolf and i will slaughter that bitch and turn it into a gun #then fight the other smaller executive dysfunctions with said gun

[iwantyoursexmp3]

hey guys turns out when you engage with your autistic interests you end up being emotionally fulfilled and mentally recharged and happy

#why I’m saying ENGAGING WITH SPECIAL INTERESTS IS NECESSARY CARE #didn’t read or write bc I got too excited about cds but it’s okay I have the weekend #and trust I am going to daydream and perhaps autistically post my ass is unmasked right now GOOD THING

[sunshinequeer]

I hate you tiktok, I hate you tiktok, I hate you tiktok

#'oh i have actual diagnosed ocd' #'?? you dont do -autistic trait-'? #'yeah thats a different thing' #and then the genuinely ACTUALLY fucking believe that im lying and theyre right AND THEYRE MAD AT ME ABOUT IT #'they like to lie about having ocd' #im going to obsessively and compulsively shove my foot so far up your ass #mo moans #i literally didnt tell ANYBODY for YEARS for THIS REASON #every intrusive thought joke #every time someone attributes other neurodivergency traits #every time someone says 'oh you have ocd like me because i like things tidy' #i actually can only interact with other people with ocd that have known for awhile now #and we will never discuss it #but by god will i never have to explain myself just to not be believed #or WORSE #to be believed for my Actual intrusive thoughts #ever again #rant

[alexanderpearce]

there is nothing i love more than watching movies over and over and over and over again

#this is me with bunny and the bull right now but this is also about repo! the genetic opera which ive watched i think 15 times at this point #like my ass is autistic but theres just something about knowing a movie soooo well #watching it alone or showing it to friends... when i get a new favourite movie i usually watch it again two or three days later #i love it i love knowing things #shut up ulrike

[theygender]

My gf and I have talked about hypothetically opening up our relationship at some point in the future which would make me very happy as a polyamorous person, but I just realized that if that actually happens and I have to go back out on the dating scene I'm gonna have some trouble bc now that I'm more outwardly butch people are gonna expect me to make the first move and I have never made a first move in my entire life

In all of my relationships but two the first move was made by the other person, and I wasn't even the person who made the first move in the other two. In the first one the girl chickened out on her plans to ask me out and then our mutual friend who didn't realize that that had happened outed her by asking me what I said afterwards, and in the second one me and the other person both went to the same friend on the same day to talk about our crushes on each other and then she made us talk about our feelings

I met my current girlfriend on a dating app, and the first time she tried to ask me on a date she wanted to take me to the theater so she asked me if I had seen the new beauty & the beast movie and then instead of realizing that she was asking me on a date I said that I'd already seen it and gave her a negative review of the movie. And then when she asked me on a date again a few weeks later I had to ask to make sure it was a date when I got there 😭

...And that reminds me of another event in high school where a girl I liked took me to the mall and we walked around holding hands the entire time and then afterwards I had to get one of our mutual friends to ask her if it was supposed to be a date bc I was too nervous and also stupid 😭 Another girl that year asked me to skip class with her and told me that if I flashed my pretty smile at the teacher I could probably get away with it and I had to show the text to my friend to ask if she was flirting. I'm gonna die out there on my own 😭

#rambling #the friend i showed the message to was the same one i made ask the other girl if it was a date #and he didnt even answer he just raised his eyebrow and stared at me like 'really?' #god im just. remembering how stupid i was in high school now #there were two other crushes that i had who may have potentially liked me back and i may have even been told that by multiple people #but i was so deep in my self hatred and also stupid that i didnt think it was possible for them or anyone else to like me 😭 #they both were friends of mine and they eventually stopped talking to me completely and i couldnt figure out why #and now i hope its not bc they they thought i was leading them on. bc i wasnt. i was just a massive idiot #you have to explicitly tell me that youre interested in me or want to go on a date or whatever or im not gonna get it #and tbh. that didnt even always work #my first major crush in high school was on a girl who told me directly multiple times that she was into me #but i was even DEEPER in my self hatred at that time #(and also only just figuring out how social interaction worked bc she was helping my autistic ass learn) #so i just. assumed it was a joke. bc no one could have possibly been interested in me and definitely not such an amazing person #i guess at least i have a scrap of self confidence now and im brave enough to ask for clarification now #and if i specifically ask someone on a date at least i would know for sure its a date? #and it could either be lame or cute but i could ask for permission to kiss them. it worked for my gf #i cant interpret signals for shit 😭 #i dont even have a valid reason to be thinking about this right now lol its not like i have permission to date anyone else romantically yet #but ive been watching clone high with my gf and abe keeps misinterpreting joan directly saying that she wants him in increasingly dumb ways #and i just keep cringing bc i realized that that was me ahdjsksl.... #only difference is in my case it was never bc i was ignoring them for someone else. it was ALWAYS bc i was an idiot #literally i would be there pining for them and every attempt they made would go right over my head #you have to be morosexual and very persistent to date me 😭 or tell a mutual friend whos very persistent ig lol #i know we are All useless lesbians but i think i deserve a medal or smth #ill hang it on my corkboard next to the souvenir that one of my crushes who i didnt think liked me back got for me in high school #which was a plastic license plate that said 'babygirl' on it bc that was her nickname for me 😅 #god i really hope people didnt think i was leading them on. imagine someone thinking im a player flirting with a bunch of different girls #without ever making things official. when really if i found out for certain any of them were interested in me i would have died of shock 😭 #and if we WERE in fact flirting i wouldnt have realized it. i was just SO scared and SO stupid 😭😭😭

[kindnessoverperfection]

I can't stand being open about negative emotions, but covering them up feels like a fucking knife to the chest.

I think it's because the system is autistic and misses social cues / boundaries, so Grey has overshared and accidentally put too much on people in the past.

And from a combination of autism trauma + abuse & us not actually knowing the line between healthy sharing/support and Too Much, my brain processed it as "if you admit you're having a hard time or ask for support, they won't love you"

#ed mention in tags / #some social rules actually are useful and are good to mind. #i just need to take away the emotional association with ''if you break this social rule you're unlovable and deserve abuse and you should #be deeply ashamed" #if it's a valid rule then i should follow it because it's healthy for all involved. not because i'm terrified and have a deep hatred of #myself. #it reminds me of the concept of intuitive eating. except... idk if our autistic ass actually has a natural feel for things when applied to #social situations #which ig is why i based my identity around perfectly following social standards. that's all i have if i want to be accepted. #venting/seeking support in moderation + being there for other people + focusing on others not just yourself + other stuff i cant #think of right now... these are all healthy #in the same way that sugar in moderation + vegetables + exercise are healthy #but my associations aren't with health. they're with threats. so it's hard to approach and mentally process in a healthy way and it's #hard not to take ''''healthy'''' stuff so far that it destroys my life

[venusmages]

This is only tangentially related to the last post but it came to mind, does anyone else think the tone indicator thing or w/e is weird and probably doesn’t help the people it’s supposedly meant for, or worse is kind of condescending

#like as an autistic bitch that misunderstands things constantly #I don’t know what / (insert letters here) means #and even if I do it Does Not Really Help #I am a grown ass adult however and can extrapolate on my own #I don’t need you to go ‘no baby it’s ok I’m speaking to you seriously right now’ #like if you speak to someone and they misunderstand just?? explain? it takes Two Seconds