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i just wanted to pop in and say i think about you guys every day, and im really sorry that i haven’t responded to messages and asks in so long, let alone post anything.

ive been gone so long that it’s intimidating to try and pick up where i left off, even though in my heart i know it’s not that serious & you guys are such genuinely kind people, and that im not obligated to post anything. but i WANT TO SO BAD is the thing!!!!! that’s why it makes me upset!!!!!! because i miss you, i miss it here, but something in my brain is keeping me away, and at least for now, i still feel like i need to listen.

so, while im saying sorry to you, im saying sorry to me too, because it’s not fair to deny my desire to be here while simultaneously shaming myself for not being here 😭 pick a struggle goddamn

idk, if you’re still reading this, thank you. this feels kinda ridiculous to even post and i know i think about myself too much lmfao but i think about you too, constantly. i hope you’re all doing so well and i can’t wait to be back up to my old shenanigans when it feels right for me <3

#i heard one of my old fic inspo songs earlier and promptly burst into tears 😭 it’s been on my mind a lot #i have so much more to say but i think that’s enough. i think im thinking about myself too much (in perpetuity) #i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) if you even care!!!!!!!! #one last thing before i go…….why the fuck does tumblr look like this now

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blowing you a kiss

returning the favor❣️

#i know im still gone but happy first of august my loves #and thank you for sending this beloved it fills me with joy <3 #asks #mutuals #thinking of you all and loving you from afar btw. forever and always #if you even care!!!!!

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*guy who hasn’t posted in 8 weeks voice* um. hi for the love of god hello

#i miss you i miss you i miss you imwgonna throw up #i went to absentee mutual island and it was full of mirrors 😔 #god do you guys even laugh at that meme anymore ive been gone so long #probably but still #just wanted to pop in and say im okay! but going through a really bad depressive episode and i feel like all my energy is going toward #the baseline obligations of my job and surviving. i don’t want tumblr to feel like an obligation but sadly that’s where im at rn #but i don’t want you to worry about me! im okay!!! #and if you’ve sent me a message/ask well. i love you dearly and im so sorry i don’t have the spoons to interact rn #but i’ll be back as soon as i can! im moving soon and taking time off at the end of the month for a trip #ily guys so much and i hope everything’s been good <3 mwah mwah #side note ive only been gone for 2 months why does tumblr look completely different hello

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so, hey, please be my finale.

when u and your best friend go on a friend date to the carnival and ride the ferris wheel and the fireworks go off and she’s smiling and maybe you’re just a little bit in love

#ough they are so……..OUGH #this is everything i absolutely love your style #mailee #art

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TODAY IS YOUR DAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECK MY BELOVED you are so amazing and so lovely and i absolutely adore you (and may or may not have a friendship bracelet i need to send you,,,) aNYWAYS you are such a wonderful person and i am SO happy that i can call you a friend MWAH here are some cakes <3

[the hashtag cake is bc you always have the best tags <3]

COREY im crying this is so sweet 😭 i love the cakes omg and the hashtag cake because of my tags?? im so honored <3 and honored to know you and honored to be someone who receives friendship bracelets from you 🥺 THANK YOU BELOVED i hope you’re doing so well 💞💕💖💗💓

#asks #mutuals #I LOVE YOU GUYS 🫶🫶🫶 #also the advil cake YEAH

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happy birthday!!! 🥳💓🎉 i hope you have a wonderful day today and i'm sending you virtual hugs and cake <333

THANK YOU GRACE ilysm and im giving you a virtual hug back and also a slice of cake 🥳💕

#asks #mutuals #🥰🥰🥰

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omg babe hoziwr tickets

yesss my mom did in fact get me hozier tickets 🥹🥰 i had already reconciled not going because i saw him on tour for his first two albums but when i mentioned to my mom that i wasn’t able to get tickets she was like 🫣 let me see what i can do. im soooo grateful 😭

#she also got me cookies because she’s incapable of not physically giving me something on my birthday 🥺 #i can’t wait until the album comes out!!! #asks #anon #<333

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omg beck happy birthday!!!!! i hope it's filled with many treats and good moments 🧡🧡🧡

kath my love!!!!! thank you so much, also didn’t i miss your birthday?? happy late birthday, i hope it was magical 🧡😚

#mwah i missed you guysss #asks #mutuals

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Hello Bestie!!!! i wrote down in my calendar that today is your birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! (if im wrong and past me messed it up as usual you can consider this your all inclusive love shot of the day <3). I hope you've been doing good and that you will enjoy a little treat, I hope you'll spend the day with people who matter and I hope you'll get some sunshine to warm up your face, today and all the days that will be. I hope you'll have some time to live quietly and loudly all the same, and I am sending you lots of love- I don't think I need to elaborate on that one, you already know 💚 Anyway I'm mentally hugging you so hard rn btw. Thank you for gracing the dash with puns every now and then & thank you for your quality tags and your non stop support, you're an icon. I hope you'll get to spend a shrimple day in the sun 💖🦐

MY BELOVED PENG, i can’t begin to describe the feeling i get reading that my birthday is marked on your calendar (and you absolutely got it right 🥺), to know that i exist to you not only in the tumblrsphere, but in your real life every day thoughts has me tearing up.

you are such a sweetheart for sending this and the other messages we’ve exchanged, i feel truly blessed to have met you here :’) you inspire me to be better, and i can’t thank you enough for all the love and kindness you continue to throw my way. tysm for this, my day’s already off to a great start 🥳 love you friend 🫂 and i hope you have an amazing day as well!

#wahhhhxkfhskfjwkjdd ILYYYYY this is so….. #i woke up in the middle of the night and saw this and started crying im just #THANK YOU i can’t say enough what this means to me! #mwah!!!!!! #asks #mutuals #fave

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ive been a hozier fan for a decade and my mom still pronounces it like “hosure”

#we’re going to dinner tonight and i think she’s gonna tell me she bought hozier tickets for my bday :) #hozierposting

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if a character is under 13 years old i dont care what they did i dont care who they murdered or annoyed they are just little to me. tiny little. small. take my hand little guy i can take you to gamestop none of your haters will find you there

#jinx arcane #pretty sure she’s at least 16 but this still applies to her btw

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uwu

#hiiii thanks bestie #asks #anon

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You inspire me to study hard and get a good job so I don't end up like you in tumblr at 25. No offense uwu.

You just fucking uwu’d - you’re ending up in the fucking gutters

#turning 26 tomorrow who wants to uwu me

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what is your holy trinity of fruits

#blackberry watermelon apple ❤️‍🔥 #strawbebby honorable mention

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what did they do to notes omg let her out of there!!!!

#she’s practicing her mime skills <3

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would you rather end world hunger or have 100 pieces of yummy candy?

#willy wonka

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touch starved but for physical violence

#me when im craving a knuckle sandwich