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[fullmetalscullyy]

dearest emma could you bless us with some protective/arguing royai like the kind of “why would you put yourself in danger!!” “to protect you” “that’s my job!!” vibes 🥺🥺 if you would be so kind and inclined 👀

u bless me with the most stunning of prompts. i only hope i can do it justice 🩷

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summary: and i bear it willingly // for you

rated: t | words: 2274 | tags: royai, post-canon, ishval, post-ishval, guilt, survivors guilt, romance

“I will not have this argument with you again, sir.”

Her response is calm. Measured.

Professional.

Riza knows he hates it. Knows he despises how detached she sounds about her own life. In reverse circumstances, she would feel the same regarding him.

But things are different.

She lost the privilege to put her life above anyone else’s in Ishval. Whereas he has to continue on, to make it ahead of the others and usher in the change they need.

This is her burden to bear.

She watches as the frustration bubbles out of him. It manifests in a multitude of ways. Ways she’s been attuned to for years. Since they were children. Now they are alone and the team has been dismissed for the evening, he ejects from his chair. He turns his back on her and Riza watches as he runs a hand through his hair. It disrupts the strands and leaves them sticking up in all directions. Even with him facing away, Riza can picture the way his eyes tighten with strain. How his jaw tightens as he bites back words he so desperately wishes to voice but won’t – whether it is due to professional reasons, Riza is unsure. That is the only mystery hidden from her now.

She knows.

Riza understands.

They once had an eerily similar argument beneath the streets of Central. It’s almost like déjà vu as she stands here now, but there is a startling difference between them. There always has been. He is the most important piece. The valuable player which cannot be sacrificed – while she is the one who can.

(In her eyes only, it seems.)

That is irrelevant, he would insist. Because to him, she could never be something to throw away. To him, she is the most important thing.

The most precious thing.

Riza remembers the tears, the impossible promises he whispered in her ear as she lay there, dying –

She remembers how he told Havoc he’d see him at the top after he lost the use of his legs – and how that vision came true. How determined he was to see it happen.

Perhaps….

No.

Their wants and desires, no matter how burning and all consuming they can feel sometimes, were forfeited when they stepped foot on the eastern sands in Ishval. They count for nought nowadays. After everything, they are irrelevant. Just pawns in a game which he needs to be the figurehead of. To ensure no one lives through what they did. To ensure such a rise to power cannot happen again, even as they now know the truth of what was behind it.

And really, the assignment today was easy. Easy for them, as a team. There was no real threat. But things still turned slightly south. And Riza knows after almost losing her the way he did beneath Central, Roy still struggles with the concept of it, and that stray bullet today sparked a new bought of worry. A new slew of worries. Nightmares. She knows he still fears it even though they both know they have no right to.

But in the end, they’re both human at their core.

Monsters, but human beneath all of that and all they have committed.

So, Riza understands his worry. His concern. She sympathises with it, because Riza knows if their positions had been reversed, and it had been him who’d thrown himself in front of an attacker on her behalf, Riza would be just as angry. Incised.

Scared.

In the silence of the office, the feeling permeates the room.

When the Colonel turns around –

No.

When Roy turns around –

The weight of everything settles upon him. The threat of her loss. The perceived misjudgement on his end.

“Why would you put yourself in danger?!” All his feelings burst forth from him, now they are finally alone. Without abandon and without hesitation. Anger. Fear. Helplessness.

And of all the questions, that’s what he leads with.

“To protect you.” Riza answers him evenly, but on the inside, she is quaking. For she too had almost lost it all on the Promised Day. Herself… And him. When he’d passed through the gate, she’d never felt fear like it. And as she recognises his struggle, his strife, she cannot help but relate to what she’d once felt too in a similar situation.

True, debilitating fear.

“That’s my job!”

Silence fills the room.

It sucks all the air from the room.

…

As her superior, yes, it is. He has a duty of care.

But…

It is she who is the bodyguard. The expendable one.

The less important one.

They’d been through this.

“Sir –”

“I ordered you to live, Lieutenant,” he interrupts. Tone demanding. Sure. Solid. As he always is and as Riza had always admired of him.

He rarely interrupted her. In fact, Riza couldn’t remember a time he ever had before. Even as excitable as he was as a child. He was always ready to listen and let her speak – a novelty Riza had never been offered before him.

“I ordered you not to die.” His eyes are as hard as flints as he stares her down, unflinching in his resolve.

“Sir, it is my job to protect you. That has never changed,” she offers softly. “That has always been my duty to you.”

“Yet, I still gave you an order, Lieutenant.”

He was determined in this, it seems.

Riza feels…

She doesn’t know.

She understands, and yet, how can she do her job, the position she signed on to do, if he is always going to berate her every time for it? Especially now, with the added history from within those cursed tunnels on top of it?

There had to be some give somewhere.

Riza doesn’t know if he’ll ever be able to see that option, but it doesn’t matter. For both their sakes, for the sake of all they forged ahead to accomplish, it has to happen. There has to be a relent, otherwise they’ll both be stuck in this office until the end of time, going back and forth with one another.

So, ever the dutiful soldier, Riza accepts his berating. His harshness (which is really his worry). She should demand better, Riza knows this, but what right does she have, really? He can’t reach his goal without her, and she can’t do it without him.

A never ending, impossible cycle.

One of them has to give eventually.

Riza has learned that over the years most of all. Otherwise, they’ll never progress.

“Of course, sir.” She dips her head low in acknowledgement and shame. Even if she can’t wholly, truly, admit her own fault to it, it is the only way forward for them. So he can achieve their goal. “Apologies, sir.”

He offers nothing further. Riza says nothing either.

She isn’t particularly finished in her work for the day, but exhausted and needing away from this office – and all the knows she inherently must sacrifice, despite it going against her deepest and most hidden, unvoiced fears – Riza acquiesces and collects her things.

And she leaves.

*             *             *            *             *            *             *

A knock sounds at Riza’s door late that night.

She isn’t expecting anyone. Her training over the years dictates she collect her gun and watch the shadows, but Hayate’s ears perking up, accompanied by a happy smile, his bark and a whine, indicates it’s a friend.

His best friend, actually.

Surprise laces Riza’s blood as she peers through the peephole, then opens the door.

Her Colonel smiles at her.

“Forgive me, Lieutenant,” he murmurs quietly. “I owe you an apology.”

He owes her no such thing.

Silly man.

Still, this is a conversation for private walls. Not the confines of the hallway of her apartment building.

“Come in, sir.”

As she takes his jacket Hayate jumps around him excitedly. His second favourite person in the world is here with him, so how could he not? As Riza ushers her Colonel through to her living room Hayate follows on his heels obediently, never letting him out of his sight as he gazes adoringly up at Roy.

“Would you like a drink?”

“A water would be lovely, thank you.”

Hayate is in his lap, receiving constant pets, when Riza finally hands the glass to him.

“You say you owed me an apology?” Riza ensures she inflicts enough confusion into her tone once she’s finally settled into the corner of her couch, knees tucked beneath her.

Roy nods. “I was harsh with you earlier today.”

“You were fair. It was understandable.”

“No, I was unfair. I was selfish.”

Riza shakes her head, already exasperated. They’re already jumping into their back and forth, it seems. “Sir, no.”

“Lieutenant.”

When he says her rank like that… As if it is her name. Like a caress, deep within the night. Where only sleep and warm sheets keep them company.

“I was unfair.”

Riza opts for silence, letting him speak.

“I…” Roy clears his throat. “I still struggle with you leaving me. In any kind of capacity. As you can probably imagine. As you have admitted to me you feel similarly in the past. Which is why I issued you that order. Which is why I feel like…” He laughs quietly to himself. Bitterly. “It may have saved your life. If I am so naive to think so. But sometimes it is nice to indulge.” He lifts his eyes to meet hers. And the emotion within them is stark and bare. “I cannot live on without you, Riza. That is why I was so harsh today.”

The whole room grows still.

Unfair? Perhaps.

But Riza knows fear intimately. It knows no rules, no boundaries.

“I was terrified.”

He admits it so shamelessly to her face.

It is always a hidden thought within Riza’s mind. After all she’d witnessed on the Promised Day, it sparks a thought of… something, a hope, but never something to this magnitude. It is difficult for her to reconcile those types of thoughts to her entire being… That she may hold that sort of magnitude, worth, importance, to another… And yet, this man across from her, after all they’d endured, admits it so easily to her. Shows it so easily too, in his actions within their workplace. Simply because he cannot openly voice it in public.

She was the expendable one. As a child. As an adult –

Not to him. Never to him.

“I apologise. I was unnecessarily harsh.”

“You never are. You are always kind, sir.”

Far kinder than she ever deserved.

He blinks at her, before a laugh leaves him. “Kind,” he echoes.

A hint of bitterness laced within.

“Yes, Roy,” Riza replied earnestly. “You always were. Always are.”

He appears to infer what she means behind her words. Realisation washes over him, and he nods.

“I always wished I could be more.”

…

Maybe if things were different…

“I know.”

Riza knows.

If everything was different, she would have taken matters into her own hands by now.

“I would have married you, you know.”

Riza is stunned into silence. He’s never spoken so brazenly before.

“I would have saved up every cenz I ever acquired and approached your father for permission to do so.” His face turns up towards the ceiling as his hand runs soothingly down Hayate’s back. The pup is drowsy with the attention from him. “Even if he said no, forbid it after my defection to the military, I would have found a way. I would have forsaken my path and opted for one he approved of… I think.” His smile turned wistful. “Regardless, I would have returned for you.” His eyes were burning like hot coals when he turns to face Riza. “You always were, and always are, everything to me, Riza Hawkeye.”

She is left in a stun. Her throat runs dry. Eyes pricking with heat, but nothing falling.

He has never admitted it to her so openly before.

There have been inklings, of course. Hints she could have easily picked up on, because how could not have? But…

The mention of it causes her heart to swell.

Makes it ache.

…

For what could have been.

For what they could have both had together.

…

But now…

He loves her.

As he loves him.

Quietly. Supportively. In a way that they will both endure to ensure the other lives. Survives. Sees their joint goals realised.

Together.

“Really?”

“Of course.”

His reply is instantaneous. The words barely left her mouth. It is as if he’d bottled them up for years beforehand, ready to let them loose at the earliest opportunity.

Despite the age-old fears which wage wars within her mind, how could Riza argue or doubt his quick words? The determination in his face? The resolve within his eyes?

“Forever?” Riza whispers it, despite herself. Like an uncertain child.

But Roy indulges her, as he always does. As he always understands her.

“Yes.”

“Together?”

“Until the end of time, Riza. Should the universe permit it.” His gaze meets hers, filled with absolution. “I would never leave you. Not willingly.”

Her heart soars.

Threatens to burst from her chest.

“And I too, Roy. Forever.”

His smile softens. He leans forward, closer to her on the couch. He is now hovering over Hayate.

“So, live then, Lieutenant. That’s an order. So we may live together.”

Upon her couch, in the privacy of her own home, his lips are but a breadth from her own.

It makes her breath hitch.

“Forever.”

Riza smirks at him. “It shall be my honour, sir.”

Before she kisses him.

likes and comments are much appreciated!! :)

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#royai #royai fic #royai fanfic #megthemighty #ask #writing prompt #emma writes #also i'm far too deep into my cups to properly edit so if u see any mistakes..... no u don't :)

[musing-and-music]

hey! i know you’re a fan of both royai and havolina and was wondering if you would share any thoughts on how the two couples would interact with each other 👀 do they approve of the other couple? is there anything they’re jealous of when they see the other? would they ever go on double dates and if so where?

thanks in advance!

Hey! Thank you for the ask, that really interesting questions, and they give me matter to think!

I think they might first interact as colleagues and friends, especially when they don't know yet about the other couple. Jean and Rebecca would be the first to go public, since they don't have the hierarchic component between them. I don't think they would go on double dates, that would be a bit awkward for them.

Riza is be happy for Rebecca and Jean, but she first asked her friend how serious she is about her colleague, because he's suffered enough in his past relationships and she wants him to be happy. Rebecca is suspicious about Riza and Roy's relationship at first, and repeatedly asks Riza if the General (that's when they go public) hasn't coerced her into it. But when she sees her friend more relaxed, she relents and often teases Riza about her dates with Roy. Roy is glad for Jean and Rebecca, though he's not close with her. He only wants their relationship not to impact Jean's work ("look who's talking, chief! I saw you with the Captain the other day! And let me tell you..."). Jean just lives with the idea that his superiors are officially together, and is glad the tension in the office isn't as high as before, when their relationship was secret.

Rebecca is sometimes jealous of the trust she sees between Roy and Riza, while Riza can be envious of the freedom Rebecca and Jean have, especially before they could be official.

#ask #megthemighty #royai #havolina #headcanon

[lanfan01]

I ALMOST CHOKED WHEN I FIRST SAW THIS POST BY @megthemighty So i had to add riza to it 🤣🤣🤣

(a very quick sketch)

#fullmetal alchemist #fullmetalalchemistbrotherhood #fullmetalchemist #riza hawkeye #fma riza #fmab riza #fma roy mustang #roy mustang #royai

[davidtennantgenderenvy]

My ten most “literally me” characters

Feel free to comment what this says about me or smth I guess

I tag: @alwaysleadstoyou, @justagingerwithredhair, @megthemighty, @flyingfluse, and @abeehiltz1159!

#sense and sensibility #marianne dashwood #whisper of the heart #shizuku tsukishima #beauty and the beast #belle #downton abbey #edith crawley #my so called life #angela chase #good omens #aziraphale #fullmetal alchemist #winry rockbell #phineas and ferb #heinz doofenshmirtz #my hero academia #izuku midoriya #she loves me #amalia balash

[dearreader]

alright hello!

a month or so back i was sent these asks in september telling me about a series that @megthemighty did on what taylor swift albums are fullmetal alchemist characters! and the anon wanted to hear my opinions since my brand is just liking taylor swift and enjoying fullmetal alchemist a completely normal amount (you can trust me, i promise). and i thought the idea was very cool and wanted to share my thoughts on each album! so after working on this for two months (don’t ask) i finally finished the list!!

i also went off on this at times because i would either word vomit about an album/song or a character and ended up making something that’s INCREDIBLY long. so i decided it would be best to post it one at a time in a chain post style (so i don’t like overwhelm myself or others). so i’m going to slowly chain post over the ne t few days this with each album and character! so without further ado:

Taylor Swift (Bonus Track Version):

Winry Rockbell

- debut has some of taylor’s best lyrics to date and can cut glass (cold as you still gives me chills)

- the primary theme of the album is about who will i become and first loves while also having a common theme of radio and music being used to describe love. which is important to taylor’s character as she was obsessed (and still is) with country music, so her saying “his smiles like the radio” is her evoking a specific feeling of her listening to music on the radio and sharing that to the audience that when her boyfriend smiles it makes her feel like she’s listening to her favorite songs on the radio. i definitely over explained it but it’s a very sweet and beautiful line to describe how in love you are with a person and how they feel to you

- this idea, while drastically different from winrys loves and goals, radiates her character though

- both winry and taylor had big dreams ever since they were young and went out into the world to make it a reality still at a young age. for taylor, she was able to release her first album at 16 and would later win album of the year on her second album (which i don’t think people realize is FUCKING INSANE TO DO ON YOUR SOPHMORE ALBUM AND IT BEING A COUNTRY ALBUM). similarly though, winry starts working at her family’s automail shop when she’s young, already being ed’s full time mechanic at the age of 14, and later takes up an apprenticeship in rush valley and gains a loyal customer base very quickly for her time there. for a girl that young to achieve something like that is INSANE. she’s already got her dreams met at the age of 15 and it can only go up from there for her

- but tying back into the primary theme of the album being “who am i and who will i become” and how that resonates with winrys character. winry is trying to not only find herself in her youth but also how to help ed and al after their accident. her life was shaken after it and she’s doing everything she can to help them. if y’all would let me quote a song here, she’s “just a girl trying to find a place in this world”

- also songs like TDOMG, Tim McGraw, Invisible, Mary’s Song and so many others can be read as edwin coded as they’re about a young love that sticks around but not always seeing the other as a potential option until it’s to late, or maybe it isn’t. you’ll never know until you tell them

- at its core debut is just a young girl getting to follow her dreams and do what she loves while not knowing what the future will hold for her. which fits winry going to rush valley and her story arc. she doesn’t know what will come but gets to chase her dream very young and only grow from there. especially in the wake of ed and al since her world was shaken and she didn’t know what would or could happen to them or her. she doesn’t know what will come but gets to chase her dream very young and only grow from there.

#kelly babels #fullmetal alchemist #winry rockbell #taylor swift #fullmetal alchemist (taylor’s version) #kelly has a hyperfixation #i’m going to just drop this and post the second part in the morning cause i’m shy and anxious 👍

[littlewitchbee]

this or that

thank you so much for the tag @rowanisawriter 💕✨

no pressure tagging - @dreadfutures @kazsama @fullmetalscullyy @wingsofescape @aicasey @soufflegirl @dearreader @megthemighty and anyone else who'd like to do this 💕 template under the cut :)

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indoor plants or gardens // cloud-watching or star-gazing // water or fire // paperback or hardcover // running or hiking // sleeping with socks or without socks // fruit or vegetables// hanging plants or succulents // dark wood or light wood // handwritten or typed // instagram or pinterest // braids or pigtails // dc or marvel // books or movies // oceans or meadows // forests or fields // sweet or salty // ice cream or chocolate // hoodies or sweaters // long hair or short hair // piercings or tattoos // summer or winter // boots or sneakers // cars or motorcycles // curls or straight hair // castles or cottages // sunny days or storms // reptiles or birds // disney or nickelodeon // strawberries or watermelon // essay or posters // phones or laptops // glass or stone // dark or light // photos or painting // circuses or theaters // reading or writing // dogs or cats // poetry or novels // monsters or ghosts // thrift shops or libraries // fiction or non-fiction

#tag games #ty!💕

[firewoodfigs]

tagged by @tsaritsa and @fullmetalscullyy to share some snippets of a wip!! since ao3 is down i figured i’d try to share a little more (whatever i could cobble together, really 😆)

college au:

august ch. 2:

a snippet from a wee something i’ve been working on for @nightofnyx8 👀:

and finally this thing from??? idk what to call this but i’ve been trying to consolidate my poems into an anthology of sorts so we’ll see how that goes!!

tagging @roseofbattles @x-rainflame-x @beware-thegemini @lantur @jedidragonwarriorqueen @nightofnyx8 @megthemighty @eomma-jpeg @onthearrow @dairogo @waddiwasiwitch @musing-and-music and whoever wants to do this!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻💜💜

#wips #writing #royai #royai fic #royai fanfic #poetry

[tsaritsa]

First thank you for all the amazing Royai you’ve written! Is there a particular Royai fic (or two) you’re looking forward to writing? Is there a particular Royai fic (or two) that you’re looking forward to reading? I know anything you share is amazing!

hello and ty friend! of all the royai wips i have chilling in my scriv files, the two that i'm the Most Interested rn is a piece in very early days i'm calling better the devil you know which is a piece from grumman's pov about realising who riza hawkeye actually is, as well as my subsequent chapters for and delivered a crime.

idk what it is about grumman that i'm so interested with rn -- meddling family? the rejection of some found family? some weird succession vibes???? but there's Something Going On There. i like how he provides an outsider's pov to royai, and how his interest don't always align neatly with theirs. it makes for more tension i think, espe when he is saying one thing and then doing another. cognitive dissonance? or perhaps he's well aware hehehehe >:))))

right now i am literally sitting down to read a couple of fics bc i am trying this new thing where i deliberately read fics and then comment. it's so easy to consume fics -- i don't wanna even look at what my history says about astarion/tav rn -- but usually i'm reading them right before bed and i'm not at all in the mood to use my brain enough to make legible comments. i find it espe hard on my phone, but on my laptop i have a cool add on that lets me highlight and insert text into the review box and so anyone who's got comments from me int he past year will be familiar with my literal live reaction comments as i work my way thru the writing.

first fic is God Forbid by @aicasey -- they had me at military ball and whispered confessions (royai week 2k24???? maybe) and so i am going to devour all 4359 words and then vomit out some comments that i hope make sense.

after that i'm inhaling @megthemighty and her megaminded brain that brought us a posse ad esse. fics that are royai but basically just a study in riza and how she experiences the world are my all-time fav. i know without even having read it yet that i am gonna be wanting the second chap immediately.

#ask #i am reading them rn but i'm qing this for tomorrow morning bc ~visibility yakknow #pls send thru royai recs too pls!!!

[beware-thegemini]

Get to Know Me Better tag

thanks for the tag @firewoodfigs :) Can't believe its been over a month since I got to crash your NYC poetry reading! It was so much fun!!! Definitely enjoyed getting to act like a shameless tourist in the city for a day

Three Ships: Royai, Zelink, inexplicably the entire MLB love square

First Ever Ship: Ten/Rose (?!!) My first introduction to fanfic was Dr. Who fic in 2010, courtesy of one of my sister's basketball camp friends. It was a time.

Last Song: Durufle's Requiem, King's Choir 2016 recording (I'm learning it via osmosis to sing it in November, and it's also lowkey my favorite requiem thanks to all the research I did for When Thou Shalt Come To Judge the World By Fire)

(last real music song: Suicide Saturday by Hippo Campus)

Last Movie: At home: Pride and Prejudice '04 (Yes, I also love the 90's BBC miniseries. No, I'm not picking a favorite) In theater: Oppenheimer

Currently Reading: Paradise Lost (for class) and Nabokov's Speak, Memory. I've been bad about reading fic recently and there's so much I've been meaning to read!

Currently Watching: Netflix's One Piece, The West Wing, and My Adventures with Superman

Currently Consuming: Ginger Kombucha (and a back log of leftover chicken noodle soup because how else do you fight off nasty colds?)

Currently Craving: A honey-lavender latte that just got shifted off the menu at my local breakfast joint. Also craving dumplings. Blaming the ginger kombucha for that.

Tagging: @littlewitchbee @dairogo @aicasey @megthemighty @stand-on-the-horizon @aliflower88 and whoever else is interested!

#tag meme thing #get to know me better

[chryseis]

I was tagged by @megthemighty (thank you btw! 💕✨️) to post some wip things, so here we go!

during the second chapter of an epitaph won't make you whole:

I've had the idea of people snarkily referring to Mustang's office as such for ages, but I could never find a way to incorporate it organically until now. Anyways, this will open the second chapter, and I believe it sets the tone for it, as well.

later dialogue snippet from epitaph:

Obviously this will be more fleshed out, but this little interaction will happen in chapter three or four, when Ed decides to throw his lot in with Mustang (more or less uninvited).

wip that is saved in google docs as 'riza's temp boyfriend':

I've had this half-finished in my drafts for ages. It's from the pov of a very nice man that Riza begins to date in East City. Their relationship starts off well, but he can't help but notice she has a strange relationship with her boss, not to mention the tattoos and scars on her back. Things start to really sour for him after she continues to stay by that Colonel's side after what happened to poor, poor Maria Ross........

scrap that I don't have a place for yet #1:

This was cut from the last chapter of come from the holy fire, but I really like it, and would like to find a place for it at some point!

scrap that I don't have a place for yet #2:

This is also cut from holy fire. It was in my initial draft for Riza’s chapter, but when I decided to set it post-Promised Day, I referenced Roy's meat aversion in Madam Christmas' chapter, instead. It's an idea I'd would like to continue to explore, though!

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I'm going to tag @zahroreadsthings, @anniecrestaodairs, @the---king, and @willowingends (only if you want to do it! 💘)

#this was fun!! #my writing #royai #riza hawkeye #roy mustang #tag game

[fullmetalscullyy]

time after time for the way it was verse, but instead of after the series im curious about pre series 👀👀 a year or two before royai got married, how did they fall in love??

meg my love!!! thank u for indulging me in my wee au hehehehe

........ i had An Idea and it ran away from me. idk what happened idk where the last 30 minutes went lmao but here u go!!!! does it make sense?? .... !

a wee story about how i like to imagine young royai fell in love in my wee au

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for roy it starts quietly. it sneaks up on him, builds slowly, but when it hits he's like. "huh. yeah... of course!" because he loves her quiet, unseen and unheard passions. from her gardening to her astronomy. she's so knowledgeable on so much but never gets to share it, and roy lives for the moments where he manages to get her to speak of them. he adores how her eyes light up and she looks so happy. it makes him happy. and he grins from ear to ear in his elation and smiles softly at riza, marvelling at the way her cheeks flush pink under his attention. there's a tiny ember of hope within him she may feel some inkling of the same way as him... but he can be patient. he can tell she's not ready to acknowledge anything, so he waits

he'd wait an eternity for her

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for riza, roy is the first person really in years who's showed her any kind of attentiveness and kindness. he listens to her and what she has to say (everything she has to say) which is the most important thing to riza, even if it is shocking and overwhelming. she's not used to such scrutiny, but roy kindly lets her speak as if it is the natural course of things and allows her to use her voice - a drastic change for riza, "trapped" in that house with the quiet, but looming presence of her father, and their monotony

he throws a true spanner in the works of her life.

sometimes (most of the time) it's not appreciated. not in her daily routine, as it has the potential to throw her completely off kilter. riza doesn't welcome that

while she's bemused and baffled about his attentiveness, she immediately develops a crush, even as she doesn't trust him - creating more confusion and frustration

but roy is consistent, patient, and never withdraws his attention and care, like she expects him to, even when she snaps at him. he's surprised and hurt, she's jumbled and defensive, but they're only young. they don't understand these big feelings properly and ultimately, for riza, he's the boy from the city who stole her father's attention. who diverted what should have been hers, away from her. her father dotes on him more than her, and she grows to resent him for it despite everything...

but they grow older. as everything changes personally, her feelings change too. that pesky crush is still there - it flares at the most inopportune times. like when he smiles so brightly and laughs at whatever she's said, even though riza didn't think it was all that funny. roy's belly laugh always fills the room, causing her stomach to flutter as she witnesses his amusement. his joy.

(riza thinks the way his eyes dance as he looks upon her as he laughs is one of life's greatest wonders)

the crush is unexpected when it makes its appearance again, but riza has come to expect it. embrace it.

it's always there

it becomes a comfort

(something to trust in)

and roy continues to act the same way. he brings happiness and laughter into her life, something it was sorely missing while she practically lived alone. and as understanding dawns, riza realises her feelings may be true. real.

its scary

she doesn't trust it. she thinks it's only because roy is the only boy she's ever known, properly

but when one of the boys at school tries to make her smile and laugh, and as they share a quiet moment together at their end of year dance (before they leave school forever), where he kisses her cheek bashfully... riza feels nothing. there's no spark. no blush. nothing like the things she feels when she's around roy

no increase in heart rate

no fluttering pulse

no heat spreading out from her heart and down to her belly

no stomach flip.

realisation dawns

riza realises what she's feeling must be true. if she feels nothing for the boy and everything for roy... then what he makes her feel is true

she really does feel something towards him

it just made sense.

and the journey, figuring it out and allowing herself to embrace it and trust in it - in him - makes her happier than she ever could have imagined

#i blacked out and wrote this what happened #don't ask me what it says LMAO just know i was v i b i n g #does it make sense??? yes. completely <3 (i'll let u be the judge of that lol) #anyway THIS WAS SO FUN #the way it was #emma writes #megthemighty #ask #ask meme

[musing-and-music]

i wanted to give a shout out for putting asoiaf content on my dash! i haven’t read the series in forever but might reread bc i love seeing the analyses and art you reblog 💙

Aww thank you!! 😊 I like to see that many of my FMA mutuals also like ASOIAF! And there's so much good content for ASOIAF enjoyers!

I'm re-reading the series, but I'm slow (only halfway through AGOT since March). I enjoy rediscovering things, though, like the events in King's Landing with Ned, or Dany's journey

#ask #megthemighty

[nightofnyx8]

Provide at least four spoiler pictures and/or gifs for a current WIP without any context (thanks @goneadrift for the tag, this is such a cool idea!)

Tagging @firewoodfigs @megthemighty @whateversawesome and @fullmetalscullyy

[amesscott]

Portwell Fanfic List

[Part 1]

Post-Season 3

you never got the love i know you want (am i just what you settled for?) by: laurenswriting

EJ Leaves the Building by: taygeta

Chocolate Gives Me Heartburn by: Aroundthewaygirl

Together Forever by: Asexual_Enjolras

Seven Summers by: Aroundthewaygirl

One Last First Time by: Aroundthewaygirl

Flashbacks and Echoes by: taygeta

bad guy by: dreamlessfavors

Everyday of Our Lives by: taygeta

pancakes for dinner by: dreamlessfavors

I knew you’d linger like a tattoo kiss by: taygeta

call it what you want by: dreamlessfavors

reconciliation: fingers crossed (rose's version) by: mind_writing

Cruel Summer by: Aroundthewaygirl

It Starts (Again) With Us by: Aroundthewaygirl

Alternate Universe (AU)

This Just In by: MoonymyLove

i want you to know, don't be afraid (it's only us) by: ElixirBB

permanent mark by: mar_writes_things

It's never too late to come back to my side by: mar_writes_things

Stay, stay, stay (I've been loving you for quite some time) by: mar_writes_things

Beating Like a Drum (And It's Coming Your Way) by: Aroundthewaygirl

My sister's roommate by MoonymyLove

Shot of Something Stronger by: Aroundthewaygirl

The Wedding Date Pact by: Aroundthewaygirl

My Showerhead Is Very Impressed With Me by: JLM_Dream

Maybe I'm A Fool by: chocolatesouffle

Basketball Diaries by: Aroundthewaygirl

The moon is the reflection of your love by: MoonymyLove

Not Another Hallmark Holiday Movie! by: Aroundthewaygirl

a pirate's life for me by: dreamlessfavors

Almost Gone by: JustoWrites

chocolate frogs & nimbus 3000s by: dreamlessfavors

Canon Compliant

Season 1

It Feels So Right To Be Here With You by: sabstar

Christmas Raincheck by: Jellybean96

mum's the word by: thstarsofsilver

Season 2

Maybe He Needs That Romance by: chocolatesouffle

Everyone Sees by: chocolatesouffle

Familiar by: Write_To_You

you took the time to memorize me, my fears, my hopes, my dreams (5 Things EJ Caswell Learns about Gina Porter) by: areyounobodytoo

stuck in my own head but you pull me out by: future_out_of_focus

daylight by: scoutshonour

to keep her warm by: MegTheMighty

The Heartbreak Club by: covestone

It's Not Living If It's Not With You by: jenipottinger

Meet Me In the Space Between by: Aroundthewaygirl

how can i go home when you’re all i wanna know? by: capulets

My Comfort Is You - A Portwell Oneshot by: palisadec

Can I Have This Dance? by: palisadec

so baby, bye, bye; wish you the best by: raganalightwood

and that's what you missed on high school musical: the musical: the series by: dreamlessfavors

the theater kid group chats by: dreamlessfavors

Post-Season 2

Prom Pieces by: taygeta

this is the golden age (of something good and right and real) by: burning_daylight

you keep his shirt he keeps his word by: mar_writes_things

There's Something 'Bout the Way by: Aroundthewaygirl

So Much Better by: sabstar

just the two of us (we could make it if we tried) by: skystarscapes

the duke sweatshirt by: dreamlessfavors

a night to remember by: dreamlessfavors

Mine - A Portwell Love Confession by: palisadec

build-a-bear by: dreamlessfavors

you say that you never felt this way for anyone by: raganalightwood

Take me back in time to when we were unbroken by: Jiaras_daughter

This Night Is Sparkling by: palisadec

Season 3

Discount Harry Styles by: MoonlightShines (Thatkillervibe)

love story by: dreamlessfavors

root beer and first kisses by: dreamlessfavors

Non-Canon Compliant/Canon Divergent

Season 1

so it's you by: AlwaysSleeping

so lonely before, i finally found (what i’ve been looking for) by: pixel_perfect

you make me better by: lesbianbey

Season 2

she's a butcher with a smile by: riptidejoy

Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all! by: MoonymyLove

play pretend by: thstarsofsilver

Season 3

our last summer (i still see it all) by: skystarscapes

When I Say Softly, Slowly by: Aroundthewaygirl

Deserves a Quiet Night by: Aroundthewaygirl

wherever you are, i am by: megs27

fixer upper by: dreamlessfavors

The Most Perfect Night by: Jellybean96

Can I just, say something crazy? (You're the best girlfriend) by: megs27

bad blood by: dreamlessfavors

Say That Again: A Portwell Summer Camp Story by: taygeta

A Win for Team Wonderstudy by: Jellybean96

How Deep Is Your Love by: taygeta

The Making of Frozen: The Musical: The Series by: Aroundthewaygirl

The Show Must Go On by: taygeta

Never a Maybe by: megs27

looking at you, my heart loves the view by: Jellybean96

Solace by: chocolatesouffle

What If: A Post-Show Breakup by: taygeta

Always Be My Maybe by: Jiaras_daughter

the slaughter at camp shallow lake by: dreamlessfavors

Future

Taylor Made Me Do It by: Aroundthewaygirl

Love You Like a Love Song by: Aroundthewaygirl

Let It Go by: redlyncentral

Forgetting For Awhile: A Holiday Fic by: taygeta

there is so much more inside me now by: ash_ish

Portwell Celebrates the Holidays by: Aroundthewaygirl

Christmas Wishes by: Aroundthewaygirl

you were a home for me when I had no one there by: wondereternity

Of All the Things My Hands Have Held (The Best By Far Is You) by: Aroundthewaygirl

camera roll by: Aroundthewaygirl

I Try To Capture Every Minute by: redmeanslove

We Can Dance on Clouds Forever by: bex2313

Just Another Chance to Fall by: Aroundthewaygirl

First Times - A Portwell Proposal by: palisadec

Third Time's the Charm by: Jellybean96

Could You Hold Me Without Any Talking? by: palisadec

here and now (it's time for celebration) by: pbeatrixx

#hsmtmts #portwell #ej caswell #gina porter #gina x ej #fanfiction #ao3 #text post

[royaidaydreams]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

Extra, Extra (58k)

Fullmetal Alchemist Newsies AU Only a sliver of sunlight had risen over the Manhattan skyline. A new dawn for a new day hawking the headlines. Across the city the printing presses thundered with The New York World’s morning edition. Global news, national news, local news -— from bombastic front page stories to minor articles — the newsies Roy (The Colonel) Mustang, Riza (Hawkeye), Maes (Loverboy) Hughes, and new pipsqueak Edward Elric shouted the headlines and sold it all. Until one day they decided to make the news. Written for 2021 FMA Big Bang

I cannot begin to tell you how much fun I had with the FMA characters and turn of the century time period in this fic. This story is the definition of writing what you want to read. I adore it so much.

2. Dream a Little Dream of Me (3k)

Five times Roy and Riza slept beside each other.

This was the first fic I ever wrote for Royai and FMA.

3. Chaste Kisses (3k)

Roy and Riza kiss during difficult times in their lives. The kisses are soft and tender, reminding each other they are still alive, still beside each other, and more often than not, an apology for tragedies they could not prevent.

The angst. *chef's kiss* Hughes' funeral is my favorite section in this fic, some of my best writing.

4. Excuses (2k)

Roy and Riza move to Central and unofficially become roommates. They don’t live together, but they do.

What do you mean this isn't canon? It totally should be. Soft domestic royai warms my soul.

5. Stay With Me (4k)

The concussion rendered Roy's most dear subordinate unable to work, much less boil a kettle of tea until the doctors cleared Riza for active duty again. He planned to take care of Riza, as long as necessary, until her mind heals.

I love writing for holiday gift exchanges and fulfilling the prompts that others ask for. Hurt/comfort isn't a genre I write often, but it was pretty fun.

Tagging: @scienceoftheidiot @firewoodfigs @waddiwasiwitch @megthemighty @writing-royza

I may never have spoken to any of you, but I think you and your writings are lovely.

#my fanfic #royai #ask

[littlewitchbee]

10 CHARACTERS / 10 FANDOMS / 10 TAGS

ty for the tag @wingsofescape 💕

1. Riza Hawkeye - FMA

2. Gale - BG3

3. Ciri - The Witcher

4. Agent Scully - The X Files

5. Asirpa - Golden Kamuy

6. Anders - Dragon Age

7. Dale Cooper - Twin Peaks

8. Ahti - Alan Wake/Control

9. Cindy the Skull - Disco Elysium

10. Magdalene - Pentiment

No pressure tagging @megthemighty @dreadfutures @kazsama @dearreader @fanimalcreations @soufflegirl @fullmetalscullyy @firewood-figs and uhhh anyone else who'd like to do this 💕

#tag games #I instantly forget everything I've ever seen played or read every time i get tagged in one of these 😅