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animeomegas · 3 years

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Omega!BNHA - dying from a broken heart

Anon: I don't know if you do, but some aus say that a person can't sruvive after their mate dies, like they die from a broken heart. Do you have that in yours, can you write who would be most likely to die mayeb please xx

(Here is the BNHA version, I hope you enjoy! <3)

Warnings: Copious grief, allusions to suicide and suicidal behaviour

LEAST

1. Midoriya Izuku – ALIVE – He is heartbroken. He cries everyday for a solid month, relying on his friends and mother to look after him. Everyone is very patient with him but that just adds guilt to Midoriya’s already fragile mental state. In the end, he decides to make sure that whatever happened to his alpha doesn’t happen to anyone else, as much as he can. He will run fundraisers for medical research, or use his platform to raise awareness for something, whatever he feels he needs to do. He keeps something of his alpha’s on him at all time and he uses them to motivate him to save civilians, after all, that person is worth just as much to someone else as you were to him. I think that Midoriya would be likely to mate again, he’s got a lot of love to give and thrives in romantic relationships, but he will never forget the person who had such a big part in shaping who he is today.

2. Bakugou Katsuki – ALIVE – He is predictably angry at first, shouting profanities at anyone who tries to comfort him, but then he just feels lost. He takes it hard, as anyone would, pushing people away for months, and working himself down to the bone. But, at one point, he decides to dedicate his hero career to his alpha’s memory, and it makes him try harder than he’s ever tried. Soon, it becomes something positive for him, he looks after himself more and strives to better himself in healthy ways. He might mate again, although he feels doubtful that anyone could ever match him like his alpha could. If he did mate again, he would never forget his first alpha. He visits their grave on their birthday every year, and if any person courting him had a problem with that, he would drop them immediately.

3. Aizawa Shouta – ALIVE – He doesn’t stop to grieve for even a moment. He pushes on, denying himself a break, ignoring condolences, cutting off anyone who tries to inquire as to how he’s doing. He’s very harsh with any students who try to bring it up. And then his friends confront him. He’s exhausted (more so than normal) and he’s not eating so they make him sit down with them. Mic and Midnight know him better than anyone, and they easily push past his defences, and he cries until he passes out. They help him go through your stuff and get enough sleep. They cook for him and cover classes for him, so he has time to mourn. His life eventually goes back to normal, but I don’t think he would ever mate again. Once was enough for him.

4. Todoroki Shouto – ALIVE – He becomes bitter and jaded, but he does not die, he carries on in the way he always has. He takes almost no time off of work, completing his job as a hero with ruthless efficiency, following the required steps like a robot. Constantly working helps keep his mind off of the fact that his mate is no longer waiting for him to come home. Eventually, one of his friends, probably Midoriya, step up and get him a specialist therapist and help him pick out a new home so he’s not constantly reminded of his mate. He learns to cope in the end, but it takes him a very long time to mate again, if he ever does.

5. Tamaki Amajiki– ALIVE (just about) – He is completely distraught and destroyed in every way. His alpha was a part of him, and now they’re dead, he feels like he has this huge hole in his chest that can never be healed. Everything becomes too difficult for him, the only reason he gets out of bed if because it’s more painful to stay in the bed he shared with you. Mirio is the only reason Tamaki is still alive after his mate dies. He moves in with Mirio who looks after him 24/7 for almost six months, until Tamaki starts to do things for himself. It takes about a year for Tamaki to go back to work and I think it would be very hard for him to move on to another mate. Not only is he still cripplingly shy, but he also now has severe anxieties that the people he gets close to will die and is averse to making any new relationships.

6. Shinsou Hitoshi – DEAD/ALIVE – Shinsou is one of the most loyal people ever. If you manage to break down his walls, he gets very attached, his alpha being the best example of that. He was so attached to the future he was going to have with his alpha that now he doesn’t know what to do. He feels like everything has been taken away from him. His life was finally something he enjoyed and then this happens? His life really is one tragedy after another. He does give up wanting to be alive, but he could survive if someone intervened to help him. He would need someone to supervise him and help him cope with the death of his mate. If he doesn’t get that, he won’t survive for very long.

7. Shigaraki Tomura– DEAD (kind of) – Your death shatters what’s left of his mental health. It twists him and breaks him more and more for every night he lies awake in an empty bed. He does not die straight away. He takes his grief out on everyone else first. He kills random people in the streets sometimes, just to try and make himself feel anything other than despair. The final straw is when, in a fit of rage, he decays most of your things. When he realises what he’s done, when he realises that he’s destroyed the only ties he had left to you, the only things that still smelt like you, he gives up. There’s no point anymore. He spends the whole night drinking. He goes to sleep knowing he won’t wake up, and the smile on his face is the first genuine one he’s had since you died.

8. Dabi – DEAD (kind of) – He doesn’t die from a broken heart exactly. He dies because your death makes him reckless. Why should he care if he lives or dies anymore? There’s no one waiting for him. Not anymore. He gets angry when you die and takes it out on as many heroes as he can. He blames heroes for your death, no matter how involved they were. It’s their job to save people, and they couldn’t be bothered to save the one person in this world that actually means something to him. He either dies confronting a random hero, or he decides he wants to die and confronts Endeavour first. He has nothing to lose, so why not?

9. (Hawks) Keigo Takami – DEAD – He has this façade as a laidback, suave playboy. But at the end of the day, that’s all it is, a façade, an act. In reality, his life is the opposite of laidback. Everything is controlled by the commission. He eats what they say, wears what they say, buys what they say, says what he’s told to say. So, when he found you, it was like this glass bubble he’d been living in shattered. For the first time, you made him care. He cared about himself, his house, his health, but most importantly, you made him care about you, and about your future together. Nothing is as precious to him as you. So, when you die, all he sees is the prison coming back to catch him again. He sees nothing but misery in his future now. Lonely, miserable emptiness. You made him realise how unhappy he was, and then changed that for him. He won’t go back to the way it was. No way.

MOST

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mr-lancers-english-class · 3 years

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Second and last part of Phic Phight 2021!

Full text below the cut. Warnings for swearing and some drinking mentions.

Mary Baker had a list. She kept it in the back of her calculus notebook. It had started as a joke, something to amuse herself with any time differential equations or taylor series got to be a bit too much. In her three years at uni, it had evolved into a full-on conspiracy theory.

Somehow, despite the multiple thousands of people who went to her school, Mary had had a class with one Daniel Fenton every semester of her college experience. They weren’t even in the same major, but there was quite a lot of overlap between astrophysics and biochemical engineering, weirdly enough, and so every September and every January, Mary found herself walking into at least one class to find Fenton already there.

The list at the back of her calculus notebook was, in theory, very simple. In practice, it was the bane of her existence, and she was sure if she could figure out what it all meant, she’d be the youngest Nobel Prize winner in history.

THAT FENTON KID: WTF IS HIS DEAL???

Doesn’t sleep??? Ever???

Frosh roomie Jake says he always went to bed first and by the time he woke up, Fenton would already be awake

Jake is an avid partyer, joined the frat with the highest DUI rate

Jake goes to bed at 2am on a good day

Got an on-campus single soph + junior year

RA 1 Beth, says he never caused any issues

RA 2 Mac, Fenton brought them fudge a lot but only late at night

Espresso dealer knows Fenton by name and order

I have never once seen Fenton in that coffee shop when the sun is shining

LIBRARY!!!

Al says Fenton is in the library studying until like 4am when they close

Al also doesn’t sleep, testimony should be taken with caution

Climber/Boulderer/Parkour

Once twice thrice Came to class through 3rd+ story window

Calc 1: 12

History of Ghanian Art: 6

Intro bagpiping: 1 (carrying bagpipes in one arm and bag on back)

Chem 1: 4

Calc 3: 10

Phys 1: 8

Espresso dealer says Fenton chills on the roof of Smith Hall

No roof access to Smith Hall per janitors + admin

Smith Hall is in the middle of a field w/ no trees

Captain of Parkour Club

Also, founded Parkour Club

There’s like two other members and they’re both from the same tiny town in the middle-of-bumfuck-nowhere Illinois

Where tf is Fenton from???

Only does work in Spooky von Haunted Library

Racist pos can go die in a hole, I will only ever refer to that hellscape by the actual fun shit that happens there

But yeah Fenton never works anywhere else

Per Al, who works the night shift there three days a week

Checked with Greg @ SP Lib and Wren @ 28th St Lib, they’ve never seen him at their libraries

Talks to ghosts?

Per Al, has convos w/ legit nothing

Finally broke down? Wish it were me

Seems to get inspired by said convos w/ nothing

No sense of danger? There’s a better way to word that but idk man

Took 20 cr first semester, 3.8 gpa

SEE?!?!? DOESN’T SLEEP!!!

Took calc 3 with Smith

Which is the dumbest move possible, Smith grades way too hard

Also, somehow pulled an A

Parkour club

Dude ends up on top of tallest buildings on campus every week

And then fucking leans over the side to figure out how to get down wtf???

HazMat

I wrote this down like a year ago and then forgot fuck

I REMEMBERED!!!

Hazmat spill in chem lab, Fenton legit didn’t realize

Finished the lab, turned it in, walked out none the wiser

Might have drank hydrochloric acid once????

Nani says so

Normally I’d trust her, but there’s no fucking way

Def downed a whole bottle of ammonia

What, cocaine not enough for you???

But yeah chem 1

So yeah actually I believe Nani he totally drank hydrochloric acid

Bear

Oh lol yeah a bear got on quad

Fucking Fenton chased it away allll bu self

Also some jakcass had paintted it fucking brught green

lol frat boys amiright?

i’m too fucking drunk for thsi rn later mary can deal wtih the bear

Walked through a wall

Okay what the unmitigated fucking hell????

Fenton just fucking walked through a wall in the middle of the math building I swear to god

I am dead sober right now, it’s fucking noon on a fucking tuesday and he just walked through a fucking wall

Dude flies

I don’t think i was suppsed to see tihs one boys

Its kinda late lol like 4am but not toooooooo late

And i mean yeah mayeb i’m a teeny weeny bit itnoxcaded

But i stg fenton jst fckng flew

Jumped oof the top of Smtih Haal

And then jst knda hovred for a hot mnt or 2

then f*cking uh flew away

look i derw a baby star

No curses in ym bok, nope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im gona go to slep now

he fcuking flies i cant deal rn

#i posted this to ao3 on time i swear #i just kinda forgot i have a tumblr #danny phantom #phic phight #phic phight 21 #phic phight 2021

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restmyheadatnightcontent · 3 years

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febuwhump day 7 - poisoning

feel like this one is actually pretty whumpy? mayeb i’m finally getting the hang of this

geraskier | 836 words | cw: poisoning, blood mention, illness

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He is burning. There is a fire burning beneath his skin. It is burning and it hurts. He has no idea what happened or how he ended up like this – the only thought in his mind is that he wants it to stop. He’s trapped beneath something and he can’t escape, it pressing down on him, and he can’t breathe – he can’t breathe. He struggles against whatever it is that is pinning him down, only to finds his limbs are leaden and heavy and his arms are unable to push it away. His hands come up to his chest to try and remove it but it just won’t move. His chest tightens – he needs to get out – he needs to get out – he’s trapped here – he needs to –

“Geralt – Geralt stop. You need to calm down.”

That voice. He feels like he should recognise it, should know its owner but all he can focus on is the furnace within him. He shifts and a pleading noise makes its way out of his throat. What he is pleading for exactly, he doesn’t know but he hopes the voice will help, that they can just make it stop.

They seem to understand his pleading as there is a sudden feeling of blissful cold, and it is wonderful. The cold seeps through his body and quells the fire enough that he feels himself drifting back into sleep.

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The next time he wakes the burning has diminished, it is still there but now reduced to embers compared to wildfire it was before. His mind is swimming, words and thoughts slipping away from his grasp before he can get any real hold on them. Somewhere, he gets the feeling that he should open his eyes, that it might help stop his head from spinning. He forces them open, his eyelids feeling just as heavy as the rest of him. When his eyes first open, his vision is blurry and he has to blink a few times before it clears. He doesn’t recognise the room, and a spike of adrenaline runs through him – he needs to get somewhere safe.

He tries to get his arms underneath him so he can push himself up, but the attempt proves fruitless and he is soon slumping backwards. Before he can summon the energy to try again, a hand is appearing and pressing gently but still firmly on his shoulder. He turns to see a familiar head of brown hair and pair of blue eyes looking down at him, and the sense of familiarity returns but the name that goes with the face escapes him.

“You need to rest, Geralt. It’s going to be alright – you just need to rest,” the face says and the words stir a memory of the same soft voice speaking to him through a fevered haze.

“Sleep Geralt.” And all he can think of as he falls back into sleep is safe. I am safe.

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He awakens this time to pain, but its presence is dulled and steady, nothing compared to how it had been before. He breathes deeply and takes account of his body. The focus of the pain is coming from his left shoulder and he glances down to see the edges of a wound, although it is mostly hidden by tightly wrapped bandages. The rest of him is just achy and tired, there is a sharp stabbing pain in his head and his throat feels raw and sore. He turns to see if there is any water nearby that he can see a familiar figure slumed in a chair next to the bed.

Jaskier is fast asleep, a gentle snore the only noise in the room. The bard looks just as exhausted as Geralt feels, with dark bags beneath his eyes and his face pale, a far cry from its usual colour.

Geralt is then hit with hazy memories of a sudden pain in his shoulder and looking down to see an arrow protruding from it; Jaskier’s panicked face as he pressed his doublet into the wound in a desperate attempt to stem the bleeding; riding hard on Roach with Jaskier’s hands wrapped around him whilst the bard muttered his concerns into his ear; arms holding trying to hold him as he wildly thrashed as the poision made its way through his body; hands stroking through his hair and wiping sweat from his brow as a familiar voice filled his ears with lullabies; lute-calloused fingers gripping his hands as he hears whispers pleads and prayers to any god willing to listen.

Jaskier will no doubt have words with him when he wakes up, furious that the witcher managed to get himself hurt in such a way, and Geralt can’t help but feel like he deserves it. He hates to worry the other man, and his throat is still painfully dry. But for now the water can wait, he will watch over the bard, as he knows Jaskier watched over him and he will let him rest.

#febuwhump #febuwhumpday7 #my fic #my writing #the witcher #the witcher fic #geraskier #geraskier fic #geralt x jaskier #love geralt cheering jaskier up #jaskier

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retrorealeyes · 4 years

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stomachache

sdfjsdkfhsk I don’t know what this is going to be. I quit twitter so I could stop being addicted and do better in school but nooooo I need attention/my words in the public eye

I have a fucking headache, fucking stomache overall I’m not doing well. (this maybe because I woke up 3 hours ago and I still haven’t eaten because i’m avoiding mother you will see below)

“Why?”

Because my mom saw my BEN SHAPIRO RAPE ART. (to clarify it was post rape or whatevr idk if it even implied rape, but there were naked people,no sex but it was implied to be about sex and not like “anotomy” or something so I cna’t play it off)

“What?” or maybe even “WHAAAAAAAT?????!!!”

Basically it was a joke with a twitter friend, I made of my own accord randomly. Lewd thing’s include

-ben shapiro has no pants

-ben shapiro has his GIANT DICK OUT (2 balls, probably not accurate, basically no references, but it’s obvious it’s a penis,no matter how crude)

-there’s a girl lying in front of him, basically naked, the outline of her showing (tits) touching his dripping dick

-there’s another girl, lying with her butt facing the outside of the drawing

None of it is “detailed or accurate” it was drawn as a joke. But it doesn’t matter. It’s NSFW and my mom had TIME to examine it and whatever other words are on the notepad. I hid it now so I can’t look at it but there’s that. And she wants to talk ABOUT IT.

Also to clarify we’re Indian which is relevant information because it tells you the following:

-we’ve literally never discussed sex,etc. she just lets the school teach me

-i “shouldn’t knwo this stuff” even though I should

-very conservative even if she votes democrat

-etc. etc.

-and ‘m not doing well in school so obviously she has full eprmission to be mad at me over anything EVEN IF IT WAS THE NOTEPAD I LITERALLY WROTE ALL MY HTOUGHTS IN AND LEFT OUT (not to the ben shapiro page) TRUSTING HTEM NOT TO SNOOP BECAUSE I’D SEVERAL TIMES RECENTLY TOLD EHR AND MY DAD NOT TO SNOOP BUT NO SHE DOESN’T CARE THAT I LITERALLY CAN’T TRUST HER WITH MY STUFF EVER AND THIS IS WHY (not this exactly but my parent’s oppressive take to parenting and my dad’s angry outburts have definetly contributed largely) I CAN’T OPEN UP TO THEM OR MY FRIENDS OR ANYBODY,,,, EVER

-i’ve primarily learnt that shit from the internet, though very accurately, I don’t want my internet access taken away because a.school b. I kinda NEED it

SO obviously I have to lay it off as a. just a joke b. not talk about it because she was snooping (which makes me seem suspicious) c. say I drew it LONG AGO and AS A JOKE d. ignore it until she forgets/realizes she cna’t question me on it (v. hard lot’s of avoiding, will probably take away my interent) or even e. I drew it intentionally to see if she’d noop, but tthat takes away my moral high ground because now it’s bait that I left out + she’ll catch my bluff

It’s possible i acted macho enough in the morning when she asked me about it, she’ll leave me and my burgeoning sexuality alone (I’M KIDDING IT WAS A JOKE NOT A HORNY THING I STG). Plus she’s nosy as fuck (as evidenced) so probably not. Plus she stole my computer after I did that, while I lay in bed, so she’s gonna be petty.

SO I guess I’ll avoid her and play up the macho (b.) and fall onto a variation combination of b& c if she presurizes me + if further pressurized uphold my moral high ground in draiwng hta t(it’s normal, a joke, it’s my stupid head pad, we learned shit in shcool) nad the fact she shouldn’t have snooped. If she asks what it is I’ll say somehting like “”naked people,, I’ve seen people draw >boy parts< in shcool as a joke”

(this story ft. the first line of CaliforM.I.A. from Black Friday)

PLUSPLUSPLUS I should be doing my hw but all my supplies except my lapttop are outside my rooma nd my mom HAD to go snoop on my NSFW ABSOLUTELY FUCKIGN SHITTY JOKE ART so I’m oretty stuck

plus I cna’t go on twitter so I have no outlet

plus i stayed in bed because mom woke we up wiht that real nice line, “I saw your art, we need to talk about it” (I forgot where this point was going but, yeah)

I need to change into normal clothes

I’m hungry

I skipped my first class just becuase I--- couldn’t after that WONDERFUL morning and last evening (which I don’t have the will to elaborate on, just assume I didn’t sleep well and that yesterday was similarly but not excessively shitty)

My crush (who I haven’t messaged back for two weeks, yes I have AVOIDANT TENDENCIES and there was no reason to avoid it i’m just a frigging bitch and YES I do hate myself I’m actually really fucking sorry and my parents [it’s implied he hasa crush back so that’s nice] would never let me date him but we can dream or whatever) called me last night apparently (I didn’t see it) and left the messgae “>:(” (jokingly) so I’m tempted to apologize and send the art i drew of him (luckily I have pictures on my comp. before my mom took my ohone away) as a sort of “will this do as sacrifice lol” IDK I’M BIG DUMB DUMB, YEAH?

i’m doing shitty in school

help

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

school

i have no motivation

I HAVE ALL FS AND I’M INDIAN DO Y’ALL KNOW HOW PRECARIOUS MY SITUATION IN BECAUSE IDFK WHAT I’M DOING

there were a few otehr things but honestly i forgot, mayeb they were like “i’ve been avoiding clubs, friends, etc. and i’m still not able to do well in school”

and i’m hella thirsty (source of the headache + my stress i believe) but i refuse to go down :disappointed face emoji:

sorry for the incessant spelling errors, this is literally a freaked out tired rant. I’m going on a walk now which involves going out of my bedroom and passing mother dearest so Imma be fuckign sick. SOrry if you read this mess this far. I hope YOU’RE having a good day, because i’m NOT.

hErE cOmE tHe fUcKiNg wOlVeS (I hear y dad go downstairs and i don’t think he’s seen IT because he claims, “I’ll never snoop if you tell me not to” but guess what? he still keeps trying snoop. so it’ll be hella worse if he has. I thought my lil sister was down but she’s up so I guess I don’t have protection from confrontation any way)

also ft. freaking out by the wrecks (proabbly) though that was mainly wednesday (2 days ago, also when I did no hw despit eit being a free day and quit twitter though I still need a coping mechanism and look where THAT got me (addicted to journaling, scrolling tiwtter and saving tweets instead of liking htem so nobody knows I’m there adn TUMBLR))

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livebiganddie · 7 years

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give this boi (me) a borger

#since i basically slept all day i havent eaten #well i ate some spinach dip with wheat thins #but this boi wants a borger #and this boi needs to save his money #so this boi gets 0 borgers #mayeb i should just go back to sleep for today #call today a lost day and move on to tomorrow #where hopefully i feel better #personal #also fun fact: my tumblr mobile wont work #it crashes every single time i try ot open it #even agter restarting my phone #ive probably tried 20 times

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justsimplyshare · 4 years

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Quiet. Connected to my goals

6.3.2020 9.52 PM Home bedroom

These days have been so crazy. OMG. It’s just a few days but I feel like I’m already exhausted. So tired of trying to carry out perceived responsibilities. my shoulders are sore. It’s just scary. I felt tense. The physical sensations are so obvious. Clenching teeth. Now I just finally feel like I have some fresh breaths again.

Expectation. I think Phuong was right. Its not about giving up all expectations but how you manage the deviations between expectation and reality.

Tutoring. Again I’m not quite sure about the goal. Sometimes it feels like I want to connect to people, want to feel effectant with the environment. Other times its like trying to fall in line, to cover feeling of guilt and shame.

Pay: Its tricky. I feel like the amount of $ I get reflect my values so even tho money is not the priority rn, I still feel compelled to get the ‘’right’’ pay.

there’s an invisible guilt and shame around that. like at this Master degree level I should do this that that. This is so restricting and blocking. I think I might have missed 2 ish opportunities. One with Hien the mom, and the second is with C Man.

Always comparing to the outside world is just so exhausting man. Maybe it’ll be so much helpful if I focus on the goal. And the goal here is not about money. Its about interaction and effectant. I mean its okay for negotiation. It made sense you want to suggest a price that you think you deserve.

Maybe the key is how you go next when you cant reach the desired negotiation outcome.

C Man is a dang tiec case. But a just little bit. Maybe the lesson:

Acknowledge that when they find you, they need you to some extent.

Its good to get real about achievement and outcome. But not too pessimistic. Because what you can do is give them some nudge to carry on with their learning. Like really try to remember Dalai Lama quote “if you think you’re too small to make a difference, try sleeping with a mosquito”

And ask yourself, what do you want to change in them? like do you think you have to make them speak like a native speaker? sorta like that. then you’re gonna wait forever

So rather than think about yourself as the ONLY source for change, maybe see yourself as the facilitator, ng lai do, ng chi duong.

You give them:

knowledge

skills

nudge (push them a bit, motivate them...)

BUT what they’re gonna do with what you gave them is 100% THEIR OWN DECISION

Just bc someone did it doesnt mean that you have to imitate it.

think about it? Did you ever come across any situation in which you finally made a purchase because someone told you they are not good enough or their products are not gonna serve you well? Probably not

this is for a good reason

finding job will be postponed to next week.

tmr is a day off for blogging, writing for Real Insights, reflection, rapping during the day or drawing. Then end of the day maybe see a video

tmr right about realistic and well connected expectations, to do list, there are little that you can do within a day than you think. spend a day thinking about that

11.19 PM

mayeb

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girlbossk · 5 years

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mayeb i should Go To Sleep

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thewolfamongussy · 7 years

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l8 nite bloggin with rhys:........ just ignore the queue completely and post about dragons a lot also ignore grmmar and spelling.. remember that rhys who asnwered an ask with capitalization and punctuation? lmao he gon e now Dark Rhys has taken over with his shitposting

#im so tired #mayeb i should go to sleep #dingo dangles

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raokurai · 7 years

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Day 980 Woops turns out trying to render late at night + getting a smaller amount of sleep is not as fun haha this is a thing i really need to be alert to do, otherwise its a slog this is as far as i'm willing to go with this pic today; mayeb i should figure out who to make a pic look good rawer strokes haha ———————————————————————— | LaCS Comic | Commissions | Patreon | deviantART | Tumblr | Twitter | FurAffinity |

#pizuart #pizudaily #pizuoriginal #rabbit #bunny #anthro #pizaru #painting #painty #it was a lot better as a sketch haha #then again #maybe i'm just tired and being overly cirtical and it will look not that bad in the morning haha

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xottzot · 6 years

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2018-09(AUG)-18th--August--Saturday---I suppose I should expect crime to occur this evening for tis the season about this hellhole.

Not saying anymore.

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Meanwhile the old shouting guy of the street is currently quieter but still loudly mutters as he keeps behind his fence in one corner of his front yard and peers at everything and everyone all the time.

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There is a false lull period for shit occuring around this hellhole since the criminal aborigials have mostly all visibly 'vanished' from the 2 linked major households, leaving another one to pick up what often causes the old guy across the road for him to yell at. But he is liable to yell at anyone and anything that runs foul of his own strange sensibilities.

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No rain, though some is liable to arrive in varying amounts at this hellhole area over the next few days and onwards, and the temperatures are cool to cold overnight to very cold.

Perfect conditions for criminals to tear about in with vehicles, as well as being overdressed in cars or on motorbikes or on foot which also aids in their identities being hidden/obscured.

I have ALWAYS SAID FOR YEARS that around this hellhole when the criminal aboriginals wane, then its 'the turn' of the other criminals to rise up...until they too wane, and then the whole damn cycle just keeps going just as it has been for so many damn years around this hell.

Some of all this shows in the crime happenings all about all over the Western Australian areas.

All that's missing so far is a major incident, which will mark the changeover of criminal 'reigns' to temporarily be handed over to the other lot AGAIN to mark all the criminal cycles being apparent again.

So far, no massively major incident YET in Western Australia locally....but it's still coming.....

At the moment as I'm writing this in the evening on Saturday, is just starting the loud sounds of hard-revving of a high-powered vehicle tearing about on the nearby highway(s). - The same shit I try not to hear but are never allowed to ignore.

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Poor Max is in a lot of pain. I've tied to give him treats with food (and also Sam), so poor Max doesn't dwell on dearest Fliss abandoning us and reneging on her promise to me that we would all be together away from this hellhole.

Even poor Sam has taken to growling much more than he ever has done before in his life. Not angry-growling but fear-growling.

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I suspect 'the imbecile' is under the spell AGAIN of someone and will suffer terribly AGAIN from doing so. - Not saying anymore about that.

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I've tried to get things (AGAIN) done in preparations for bad weather to come. I've done all that I can in my own measly way....and of course it's not appreciated at all....and I'm always ignored.

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Somebody showed me a tiny kindness today. You might think it's minor. But it was much quietly appreciated by me. It's a rare thing indeed in my shitty life in this hellhole and that's why it's so noteworthy, at least to me.

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I got very cold overnight in bed last night. I had turned off the heater so it wouldn't gobble up all the oxygen and also try in vain to save large utilities bill money. It's again off tonight. Poor Sam and poor Max are snuggled up on my bed. Poor Max is snoring and having a lot of trouble breathing. Sam is too sometimes.

The coming forecast, also inlcudes the start of 'burning offs' of tracts of bushland so as to lessen the impact and severity of out-of-control bushfires. The forecast is for a lot of smoke and the usual pithy precautions for 'those people who are affected by smoke' (which is EVERYONE), is to keep your doors and windows closed to keep out smoke and to turn off any airconitioning. So I supect the tempertures will be so that it will also be too damn hot not to have an aiconditioner running. That's usually the case in this hellhole area.

So it'll be a case of being hot and unable to get cool air and there will be tons of smoke infiltrating the damn hovel of a house no matter what is done. And anyway, there will probably be power-outages in any case, mysterious and cycled through as well as incidents of vehicles crashing into power poles and bringing them down and blacking out huge areas.

All THAT has been going on or so MANY years.......days without any power..sometimes literally weeks for some.

Dear Fliss experienced some of THAT hell when she was here with me.

And if you try to somehow get cool by using any water (even to drink), then the media hammers down upon you saying how criminal you must be for using up 'our precious water'.......

Meanwhile those rich enough with swimming pools just carry on as normal.

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Also, in the NEWS, is reports again of another season of earthquakes occuring.

Yep, they're 'seasonal'.......and they're strangely 'seasonally' and occur whether you believe it or not apparently.

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Can't get to sleep.......I had to go out today and get provisions and stock up, though I still did not get everything as I rushed about late. - Not sleepy at all. At this moment Poor Sam and poor Max are deeply and loudly snoring as they sleep on the bed. Dear Fliss should know that well.

Not a cloud in the sky, during the day or at night. Mayeb all the warmth of the day will leak off from the ground surface as is usual when there is no cloud cover and it'll be very cold later tonight and on Sunday morning.

Excuses for dressing up in black clothing for criminals which also aids them being criminal and also for being 'anonymised'......

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In the WA NEWS....ANOTHER elderly gentleman has 'gone missing' and has been wandering about far. That's the second one that's ocurred that's made the NEWS in the past few months

It looks like becomg a 'trend' in NEWS......

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Currently there's only been a few sirens about earlier, now it's 'quiet'....and of course as soon as I go to sleep, I'll awaken to sirens of course on the highways closeby.

And as almost always, nothing of any sirens going about ever makes the NEWS anymore......not even when there's LOTS of sirens and plenty of them from multiple vehicles.....

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Apparently according to the NEWS's, the 'newest' runway in Perth Airport is going to hugely ramp-up the amount of air traffic to-from Perth Airport over this hellhole area.

Duhhhhhh....ya think so !? - FFS.......

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Wherever the criminal aboriginals have temporarily gone to from the criminal households of this hellhole area, I wonder how much they are affecting innocent peoples lives and making innocents lives hell?

There's been some underreported incidents in the NEWS's. I wonder how much of that is down to THEM.

Even the local 'corner shop' seems a LOT more relaxed and more friendly since the criminals have largely been diminished...at least for now.....

As does other shopping areas and precints......

But just rememeber, that all the terrible stuff seems to go on in cycles...and it'll return......

Gosnells general area seems to have become a hotspot...for now......

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The weather is going to be wet AGAIN...but after that...there's going to be a long long long period of terrible deathly heat and utter dryness and misery.

Perfect for the criminals.

Perfect for fires to 'mysteriously' being occuring because of the usual suspects, and for innocents lives to suffer, and for poor creatures lives to suffer.

NONE of that is any fanciful prediction. It's simply what has been going on for so MANY MANY years about this hellhole and all about it.

The Police and authorities seem to have been hard at work cracking down on all this shit. Let's hope they are succesful during the terrible times to come.

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I love you dear Fliss and dearly wish to be with you. - I hope you are well. I hope you are not lying andor delusional. Poor Sam and poor Max utterly miss you incredibly more than you can ever imagine, as do I. - Dear Fliss, please please do NOT put your trust into 'fake friends'......

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lilanna25 · 7 years

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I could swear easily I was drunk that time , the way I told you things and how I came out to feel ... It was just weird. Maybe if I didn’t invite you to dance and have some shots of vodka wouldn’t take us to that point. Things happen for a reason but I can’t take one reason out of you , out of making sins with you. I wish I picked the other way around to fall in love with you , brought you flowers , sent you letters ... it’s all ruined now. It’s nowhere with the ideals I imagined. It’s all ruined and messed up. Well that’s just one side of the book. If i come around to ask you how it felt you brag on and on about it saying how from a ruined story it turned out be the perfect one. You said there’s no reason to be sad ... we are alive and have each other and that’s what I want. See you make some smart points sometimes , this mess we created shouldn’t be here , although we both know that , we still enjoy it. The way it is perfectly chained makes me wonder “Is it really happening” ... “do I really got everything I need”. I should take a shower probably or elsewise I won’t have time to sleep but who cares , it’s a marvelous feel to watch you sleep and write about you even though these letters will be lost somewhere ... but you still promised you will turn these into a book. I don’t keep going on because of that , I keep writing because time doesn’t let me say these to your face. You know that I’m obligated with work , so do you. Today was different a bit , boss said i can have some time off and I used that to buy you flowers. When you wake up you will see them my love. I promise we have all the weekend together this time , maybe we could do some fixes to our house and mayeb the garden. We will do it together i promise. I know I always say “next time” but you know how things are. We are both trying to make a better life for both of us. I went to visit your parents and I sent them what you asked , maybe if we finish early this weekend we can pay them a visit. I know you miss them. It’s so late now I probably should stop but I know these are the only one bit of a reason our love grows. Can’t wait to see your beautiful face tomorrow morning. Have patience , our time hasn’t come yet , together we can make it.

L.J✨

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