#maybe it wont be busy at work

[michaelwatt]

Me, having been out all day at the vets, running errands, dealing with stupid drama, getting hair dyed, and not getting to my room till 4am knowing damn well I should be asleep bc I have work in a few hours:

My brain: yknow what? Let's draw some gays

#im so tired but i just wna #draw #and watch youtube #but grooooaaaaansss #maybe ill start a sketch and work on it later #maybe it wont be busy at work #tho i do gta clean the frickin coffee daiquiri machine #groans once more #beau/lyn speaks

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Jazz becoming the next big Gothem villain is such a solid concept. Theres so much to explore.

She targets corrupt mental institutions. Corrupt companies who destroy their workers state of mind so they wont quit. She attacks landlords who make it impossible for people to live comfortably.

She is the staple anti-hero of anyone struggling to get back on their feet. People should have to work three jobs just to afford a crappy one bedroom, no utilities, half bath, in crime alley apartment, with a roommate.

Shelters should be aiming to gain a profit instead of using the donations to support others.

She is tired of these big name heros leaving children to clean up messes. She has watcher her own brother wither away to a shell of his former self trying to make a change and she is sick of it. Hell she herself is a child but if this is what it takes, then this is what it takes.

Enter from the left The Manipulator™️

Feared by all corrupt. People think she has mind control or something. When she targets someone they make almost a full 180 in their ways. “She will do anything to get her way or to make people into what she thinks they should be. And she mist be stopped” cries big business.

In reality she is the worlds best damn psychiatrist ever to be known. She doesn’t force anyone to change but gives them the choice to be better. To see how much more they can be. And it terrifies them. Helps them find themselves again and to move past their troubling pasts. No force and no mind control. No manipulating. No one but those who she has helped know the truth but when they tell the truth it only fuels the fire of her being controlling.

Theres one thing also fuelling the flames of mind control. Thats the fact that every single major hero to go after her can’t. Any who approach her find themselves no long near her. Superman just wants to talk, well she doesn’t, and he is then back in his city?!? Batman is stalking her to figure out how to deal with her but once he gets too close he suddenly finds himself in the batcave?

At first they think it’s teleportation but time is passing? Theres video feed and tracking of no they just went back themselves. No response from them the whole trip. As if possessed. (Lmao it’s just good brother danny pranking his sis a little by making her seem all powerful but also protecting her anyway he can. Or could be Dan instead)

#danny phantom #dp x dc #dpxdc #jazz fenton #manipulator? I hardly know her hehehehehehe these jokes are peak for me atm #jazz snaps and does some changing of the world #vlad is funding her because hes scared of her #no good tags today boiz I gotta call my mom and the hot water is gonw #yes yes I know I know I said I hate my mother but I am a good boi and will bring her lunch today so she eats #plus my sistet never leaves the house so im offering to take her too so maybe she can get some sun light #oh I got a promotion at work too btw #not the one I wanted but meh it’s something right? #gonna be working mon-fri 10hour shifts so ill be a bit busy sorry #got a catboi danny post in the drafts for you later though so u wont starve I guess #who am I kidding plenty of dpxdc posters for yall I aint gotta be worried #oof that makes me sad kinda so im a dip

[weisbrot]

oh ballet au you stil got me, after all those years 😌✨💛🩰

#les mis #enjolras #grantaire #my blergh #exr #lm my blergh #work in progress #if i get real busy drawing maybe i wont have to go to the dentist tomorrow??? please ahahah #wanna post more unfinished and messy things again just to get out of the perfectionist mindset. #what is anatomy? we dont know her here. im just vibin #ballet au

[willowser]

OKAY ACTUAL LAST THING AKFBRIWKAK but obviously, you keep your family life very private and your daughter is almost never seen in public bc that's how bakugou likes it, he doesn't talk about his family all that often bc he wants to keep it all close to his chest, and maybe he even gets a bit more shredded than usual by the media about it, as he already has a "reputation", but —

one day, a video that you took gets leaked, and it starts out with her sitting on your lap, chilled, relaxing, shaking some little rattle toy in her hand. and then the front door opens and you can see her peek her little head around like she's looking out, and then she's making some little humming noises and scooching off your lap and waddling away to stand in the middle of the hallway. and then katsuki comes into view and he stands there looking at her, glancing at you, before saying something that's too low to catch on camera, and then your daughter is squealing out some gibberish behind her chupie and running as fast as her little chubby legs can take her so he can pick her up and give her a kiss on her fat cheeks !!!!!

#the internet probably BLOWS UP OVER IT #starts a whole conspiracy about there being a fake bakugou #LMAOOOO #it gets taken down immediately but obviously the internet already has it #but every so often the video will disappear for a little bit until someone reuploads it #but for the most part bakugou's agency works their ass off keeping it down #puts a lot into perspective for people regarding him #maybe starts a conversation about the privacy of heroes and their lives #he's not happy about it LOL but it's a cute video regardless 😌😌😌 #then people spend ages trying even harder to ask him about his family and he's all 'dont ask me about this shit 😒😒🔪' #'aint ever been anyone's business and it wont ever be' #OKAY GOING TO BED IF IT GET BACK ON HERE PUT ME DOWN #cw children #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: dad bakugou

[theminecraftbee]

Normally, traitors aren’t frog-marched to the Emperors themselves, regardless of what rank of information they had. These aren’t normal circumstances, though, Techno bemoans to himself. For one, the man is refusing to speak anything but French and a tiny amount of broken Bayesh. For another, on being made, he immediately handed over about three folders of classified information then loudly waited for handcuffs to be put on him.

Phil is lounging in his throne; he’d never been one for propriety. This leaves Techno to be, uh, the actually serious one. The one adorned in uniform, sitting and glowering down. It’s lucky that the traitor isn’t a pigman, because Techno isn’t actually great at glowering, but humans are weird about pigman facial expressions so he should be fine?

The traitor stands before them and grins. In perfect Bayesh, he says: “Finally. It took way too long for you to catch me, bitch.”

Techno pauses. He stares. In Piglish, he barks to his guards: “Everyone out. It’s Leader business.”

They file out. They’ll be waiting outside. Phil straightens in his seat and reaches for his own sword.

Techno, laboriously, drags his hand across his face. He switches back to Bayesh. God, does he regret being fluent in multiple languages sometimes. “What are you doing here, Tommy.”

“Showing you your intelligence weak points, fucker. Do you know how easy it is to slip Bayesh spies in here? I was smooth. A smooth customer. I was hearing classified milkitary secrets—”

“You were caught within two hours,” Techno says.

“That’s—that’s just what you think, innit?” Tommy says. Phil laughs. He’s the real traitor here.

“Tommy. I don’t wanna have to cause an international incident, but I’ve had a really long day, so if you just tell me who hired you to run a spy op, and why you decided it was a good idea to run it yourself, instead of sending one of your experts…”

“No one,” Tommy says.

“Hey, don’t lie you little shit. Techno might not want to start an incident but I don’t care,” Phil says. He grins and holds up his sword. “You wanna wake up in a jail cell and reveal some secrets? We may all be Leaders but it won’t stop torture from hurting.”

“What the fuck, Phil,” Tommy says.

“No one’s torturing anyone. We’ll just bomb them later if we must,” Techno says.

“And I wasn’t lying. It’s—can I take the wig off by the way? It fucking itches.”

“I despise you.”

Tommy takes off the black wig, revealing his blonde hair. “Anyway, I don’t want to work with you guys either, so I figured I’d get your attention by like, acting like we’re enemies and stuff. Got hired for espionage enough back in the day to pick up that much.”

“Who the fuck wanted you as a spy?” Phil asks.

“Fuck you,” Tommy says and doesn’t elaborate.

“Please just tell us what you want,” Techno says. “Please. I can’t handle this much you at any given time.”

“This needs to be Leader to Leader,” Tommy says, and something heavy laces his words. The hairs on Techno’s arms stand up.

“You coulda asked,” he says, in one final desperate bid for normality.

“No, I couldn’t have,” Tommy says. “I think Chip’s dead.”

Techno doesn’t notice that he’s standing until he is.

“What?”

“Yeah,” Tommy says. “Yeah. And, uh, I fucking. Need your help to figure out what happened. Before we get blamed. And I know, politically, you’ve got no reason, but if we don’t figure out—”

Techno sits back down, heavy.

“I know you understand Piglish. Let me talk in my native language. Phil.”

“Yeah, mate?”

“Go get the stuff.”

Phil’s eyes darken. “Right. That. Well, I’ll be back.”

Tommy’s voice, for the first time since Techno met him as a newly-minted Leader, standing on a wooden bench and yelling about executions, is small.

“You believe me?” he says.

“Why else would you come here?” Techno asks. “Not like we like you.”

“Good, because I’m shit at infiltrations. Would have been embarrassing if you, like, didn’t know your enemy well enough to know that,” Tommy says. He’s saying something else underneath it. Techno is neither good enough at Bayesh or at Tommy to guess what.

“Let’s work out an excuse to make a treaty. And you tell me everything.”

#smp earth #WELL THAT'S A TAG I HAVEN'T HAD TO USE IN A WHILE. #a bee fic #anyway have you ever had to excise a story hook that's appeared in your head? #anyway: in which business bay gets framed for murdering chip and unfortunately as much as tommy would like the notoriety #he can't afford to let a guy who could kill chip just run around. also no one believes him. #so he goes to the antarctic empire hoping to ruffle enough feathers to at least get them out of the way #and technoblade immediately goes 'oh god something that incredibly stupid WOULD happen to you. oh no.' #AND THEN THEY ARE FORCED TO WORK TOGETHER TO CATCH THE GODKILLER #for the record. i probably won't write this. #if you're in a certain server with me please ignore how much i've been going 'but i COULD write bedrock bros' recently i PROBABLY WONT #anyway. i thought maybe you all would like this. the worldbuilding is like. ADJACENT to empires earth? with a lot of months in-between #like it definitely has influences from when i was doing the empires earth stuff.

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[paradoxical-machine]

Ugh I'm in a horrible art block today, I really want to work on this retexture but everything i make has just been blegh

#paradoxical talking #i feel stuck on the face #its what everyone is going to see first so it has to be good #but it cant be too busy #and it has to match the body #ugh this is horrible i just want to be finished with this already #i really wanted to get some work on it done today #cause im gonna be busy the next couple days and wont get a chance to work on it #but its just not happening #maybe the couple day break is what i need #maybe itll refresh my perspective. or whatever

[real-life-cloud]

I found an old fidget spinner and I've been using it (it's been very nice ^_^) but I forgot !!!! It's glow in the dark !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#the sky speaks #literally incredible #its nice for restless energy tho i hav so much of it rn i wanna hop skip n jump #just saw my mom a couple hrs ago #it went good ! #shes doing okay in the rehab place. better than the last place she went to but theres atill been drama #and theyre pretty understaffed #but nice :) #my weekedn is PACKED!! #tomorrow i work at the zoo then friday im going to fright night #then saturday is visitation for mom again and afterwards is thomas and carries bday party #then Sunday im going to thomas and carries AGAIN to play minecraft togwther #OH and friday i also am going to my moms job #next weekend is packed too dear gdo #and i wanted to open commissions gdi. not gonna happen for a while im afraid #maybe in december ? #ive barely been drawing #too busy #not enough energy to be creative. mainly been playing chill games and reading fanfic ij my downtime #oh i also had my last session w my therapist today! shes having her baby soon so i wont see her til after the new year.... kinda sad tbh #i came out to her as trans last week and we talked abt it some today tho!!! it was rly nice i had never talked abt it out loud before #felt lighter afterwards. she told me to write down everything so i can organize my thoughts better when i tell my parents #bc i wanna tell them at some point. i RLY want a breast reduction dear god. and ive gone back and forth on hrt. still contemplating it #sometimes dad will call me his 'favorite son' as a joke when i help with like. yard work or handy stuff. makes me happy #he sorta knows im gender fluid but not totally? #im juat rambling at this point. goodnight everybody 😴

[littlestarlex]

hearing my political influencer roommate say "I won't promote Biden because he hasnt called for a ceasefire to the genocide, but I am still voting for him" is so genuinely tone deaf and stupid and it alone convinced me I am DEFINITELY not voting for that stupid motherfucker (I already wasn't going to, but it confirmed I was making the right call)

the sentiment I keep hearing is "as long as it isn't Trump" but it's so frustrating to think, for some people, Biden is as bad as Trump, for some people his lack of action on major policy change has altered their lives permanently in ways than will never be undone

"well Trump is going to enact a national abortion ban, doesn't that scare you?" sure, but I'm scared right now for the very real people currently unable to get the Healthcare they need because of loss of roe v. wade, for some people that ban is already in place and they're facing very real consequences of it as we speak

I'm scared for my friends, my family, myself, and all the people I may never know who are being impacted RIGHT NOW by the democratic presidency we're currently under

just because I am not currently impacted does not mean it shouldn't be a priority, just because it doesn't directly impact me doesn't mean I should just let it go

they cannot have my vote just because they're blue, just because they pacify us with small scale wins while continuing to fund the very things that keep us from being in a position of power

shit in the government can take a long time, I get it, but clearly they can move quick when it's something they all want, like ripping the power from the people and silencing voices that want genuine change

they all want the same thing, just because democrats aren't up there screaming on stage doesn't make them any less evil than republicans

#me #rant #usa #usa news #usa politics #genocide joe #we need to be on one anothers side #because they certainly arent looking out for us #so i will continue to listen to voices that have been repeatedly repressed #and i will continue to listen to stories from people currently living in the hell that is the US #and i will continue to share all the bullshit that we partake in #willingly or not #both on our home base and on foreign soil where we have no business being #because im sick and fucking tired #this shit has gone on far far too long #if it takes a trump presidency for my stupid ass roommate to realize thay democrats cant win on solely being democrats #then so be it #maybe we can get on the same page once we are more directly impacted #because she just cannot get it through her thick skull that she is complacent as long as it isnt her #and thats some bullshit #sorry im literally so mad she acts so intelligent but quite literally hasnt taken one moment to consider that theyre pacifying her #with small administrative policies that ultimately wont achieve anything greater because theyre not meant to #and its working #she is being pacified #shes letting them treat her like an idiot #and she is one #and i cant believe people follow her for her political nonsense #especially because she is v clearly racist but says because it's not on her platform its okay #like girl...this is why you are textbook white woman liberal #listen to marginalized people outside the fucking echo chamber you reside in

[sparklygraves]

#pynch vibes #julien baker #i mean cars and gay and religion and i dont need your help i need you to leave me alone #i can finally be ok and not the way i thought i should #maybe when you get off of work could u meet me? #we could go barreling down main street #you could try watching while i run through the high beams... #if i didnt have a mean bone in my body id find some other way to cause you pain #i wont bother telling you im sorry for something that im gonna do again #when i could spend the weekend out on a bender #do i get callous or do i stay tender? #i dont need a saviour i need you to take me home #i bloody my hands till you hear me #ive no business prayin #im finished being good

[comrade-bastard]

I hope it brings everyone joy to know the Feline Community Network (the group I got Miles through) have moved to a nicer, more visible location with more room for the cats (: there's even little windows for them to sit in and watch people!!!! They were at risk of closing in 2023, but I'm glad they're doing well enough financially to keep the work up, especially as we move into the colder months.

#i wanna start volunteering there in 2024 #i miss miles a lot but i think working with cats will help maybe #theyre a no kill rescue shelter that works specifically to take care of EVERY cat in the Northwest Indiana region #they have a special section of their business for cats that will NEVER be adopted out #but wont be killed in shelters!! #for clarification: they work with local veterinarians to ensure qol #and if the cat is fatally ill/suffering #they do proceed with euthanasia #but for cats with 'behavioral' issues or otherwise healthy but unadoptable cats: they get to live at the sanctuary!! #like theres a chronic bed pisser there (Poundcake 💜) that was gonna be put down #but they were like 'yeah we'll just wash his bed every single day. its fine. we will make sure hes not in unsanitary living conditions' #but they didnt euthanize him bc like. hes a bed pisser bc he got declawed on top of having Not Great Owners #and although he doesn't do it as often he still cant be adopted #but i love going there and seeing him and all his friends (: #they do let u just show up to hangout with the cats btw. its like a free cat cafe

[dogcollarpunk]

cant sleep yet and going through my google docs and getting slapped in the face by a bunch of old ideas

#beef trimmings #fantastical wild west au I literally never worked on but it lingers in my mind... #I need 2 find the song that got hyped on it #I probably wont work on it bc I am. always busy #but maybe I can find the motivation for one drawing #it was Chasing Twisters by Delta Rae #smth with outlaw turned sheriff hangman and cole coming back from the dead to semi-haunt him

[treesbian]

i feel insane i feel so insane. i feel so goddamn fucking insane. feels like my sisters won't allow me to even be civil to them anymore every interaction ends up with all 3 of them insulting me and when I tell them shit like "you're being mean" or "i don't think that criticism is coming from a place of love" they just try and justify themselves and insult me more. no one is on my side but I'm so so convinced that if an outside party came and observed what was happening they would see i'm being bullied. maybe i am insane. maybe there's a reason no one is on my side. i know i'm not perfect but goddamn. i love them so much and it feels like they hate me. i can say the world's most neutral statement ever and one of them'll have a snide and insulting comment about it and then everyone acts like i'm being unreasonable if i react. and again if i call them out and i say "you're being mean. do you not see what you're doing? you're being mean." they all just get excused bc apparently me having a hard time with filtering what i say and having debilitating executive dysfunction is "traumatizing" and their bullying is a trauma response. and they won't let me even fix my behavior bc if i say something that contradicts my past behavior they'll be like "oh so NOW u care about that. you don't actually care 🙄" can i do fucking anything. can i do fucking ANYTHING.

(through gritted teeth) my big sister's coming back from washington next week. next week she's coming back from washington. i think she'll be able to recognize what's happening, right? like if they do it in front of my parents then they'll probably do it in front of her too. but ofc my parents don't care. they are actively against my side in this.

#talk tag #the other day my godsister said i love myself more than anything else and the only thing i actually care about is being right #and i said 'you're being mean.' #and she just said 'it's true :/' #also in that conversation i got accused of ruining birthdays #apparently. my baby sisters birthday was ruined bc i called her a hypocrite about smth to do with juice... #like she was getting on everyone else for drinking some kinda juice and then she asked me to get her some of that same juice #and i made a joke calling her a hypocrite and that apparently ruined her birthday. #i didn't mean to hurt her feelings and i am sorry that i did. but. hm. #and then i apparently ruined my little sisters birthday bc i defended polyamory as a valid relationship type that can work out #and be committed. but everyone got mad at me bc they think commitment and exclusivity are the same thing #so polyamory apparently is inherently non commital and can never work out for everyone involved bc of that. but that just... isnt true #and i was calm the whole time i was making my points. ppl being angry when they argue doesn’t make their points less valid but i think #'polyamory is fine and works for a lot of ppl u just gotta communicate' is SUCH a silly take to get mad at. mind your business!! #they get very mad at me very often and it is usually bc i said smth to the tune of 'don't be a dick' #and sometimes it's for literally no reason and they get angrier when i react #my big sister's coming home soon. she'll be home next week. maybe she'll see. she at least wont be actively against me. lmao

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

saw your post about fluids and immediately downloaded an epub and read the entire thing in an hour and a half's sitting (i'll buy a copy or something like that to support the author when i get back to my laptop) so tjat was interesting. definitely keeps you hooked i didnt even realize i was almost done witj it til the last 2 chapters

first of all i cant believe ive influenced someone to read this nasty ass book, thats kinda epic and i hope you uh. liked it???? idk if one could really "like" fluids but i agree with the pacing!! a very quick read where things also go to shit real quick as well lol. i feel like i have a lot to say on this book like how when dahlia met stacy and you find out stacy is actually lauren but dahlia is just like in memory loss central due to trauma. that was crazy OR WHEN THEY DO THE SAME EXACT THING TO ANOTHER DUDE IN THE SAME EXACT BATHROOM. like bruh. that was fucked UP

i know may's other book Girl Flesh isnt as extreme so i think i may enjoy reading that ever so slightly lol. when reading fluids i kept doing this thing where i would stop and just. look around the room. to take a break. there sure is a lot of various Fluids in that book

#anyways im glad someone in my internet circle has also read this haha #would be willing to do book club with u florence #i actually thought about doing a book review on fluids where i critique things i didnt like and just talk about how i felt about the book #cause i feel like theres a lot i have to say and also i want to give ms. may some critical analysis on her art #and also to document my reading!! id like to read more and i love media analysis and talking about media #i probably wont cause. busy with work but maybe sometime! #ask

[caruliaa]

girl u r so misery irony poisoned and playing further and further into tht mindset and spending time with people with tht mindset bc u blatantly hate being vulnerable and open to the point of pushing away someone whos told you time and time again tht its okay to be open and vulnerable with them and that theyd be with you as long as it took for you to be vunerable having lied to them by saying vulnerable things and acting vulnerable in ways u didnt even mean then taking them back after pushing them out of your life without ever having the courage to admit the obvious reason that its that you have issues with being vulnerable that you have to work on in order to have proper relationships with others its insane

#taylor swift was right. guess maybe i am better of NOWTHAT !! WEDONT !! TALK !!! #do genuinly feel sad for them tht the “important men who think important thoughts” (to keep up with the song theme sorry im insane) #tht theyre surrounding themselves with now ik r like .the type of ppl always mocking things that are too ''cringe'' or sincere #and making self deprecating and including them in self depreciating jokes nd encouraging them to make them about themself #bc ik just gonna make them like. more miserable !! but yk they where the one tht decided theyd rather be miserable and ''cool'' instead o #vulnerable and they decided they dont want me around so its not my business anymore ! i guess i dont have a say now that we dont talk #i wish i cld help them to work thru this but i offered to multiple times saying despite how difficult it might be id be there #and they said no and ykw. there are things and people out there #more deserving of my time and energy than someone who does that. and the one thats most true about looks me back in the mirror each day #so i shoud probably put a lot of that love and energy into them bc theyre someone who really deserves it !!! #okay done . enjoy youre miserable irony poisoned cringe life [REDACTED EX BEST FRIENDS NAME] bc the best thing abt it #is gone and wont come back unless you try to be better !!! #flappy rambles