#maybe I should just quit

[there-will-be-a-way]

It's frustrating that no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to make social interactions work the way they're supposed to. Even when I think I'm doing well at having a conversation, I get to hear that I need to talk more, talk more about myself, ask more questions.

I'm scared to take up space and I have barely anything to talk about because my life either was too boring or too traumatic to share anything about it.

I'm giving 130% and it's still not enough. I always get told to act different. To be someone else.

- Stranger

#'you need to talk more about yourself' is something i hear almost as often as 'you are the calmest / most quiet person I know' #personal posts #maybe I should just quit #and then there are situations where people I used to be close with slowly (or abruptly) become strangers and I can't figure out what I did #wrong #because no one tells me and when in the past I asked for clarifications I just got scolded #so why bother #I want to live in a cabin in the woods and only keep the people who don't make me question myself over and over again

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

it took one day from me taking a break for someone to get pissy

#more and more #i'm starting to realize #maybe i should just quit #and drop off the face of the earth #i had my fun #but it's not fun anymore #i'm just not okay rn too #so my thinking is being destructive

[whalesforhands]

real picture of me looking at all of you who made my works that exclusively have nsfw/spicy content my top.

am i just a porn writer to u 🥲??? is my fluff not up to par??? 🥲🥲🥲🥲

#nvytalks #thank you for the notes but my other talents feel undervalued #maybe i should just quit

[bolontiku]

Fun Updates!!!

Hello my friends! As we know there has been a new update to our favorite hellsite, YAY! *insert jazzhands* and wonderfully enough I can no longer update/ edit/ link my stories.

So, idk what to do

I will keep my tag list (tho I am pretty sure that is not reaching 90% of those on there), not adding to it, but I guess all I can do is ask that you follow my library and possibly my Ao3 if you haven't already (no pressure)

It's honestly getting so discouraging lol

This is my Masterlist 2.0 which has links to everything. For the time being Ao3 and the library will be the only way to see new stories from here on out. (Am I repeating myself? Sorry)

#chaos journal #updates #library #Ao3 #new stories #new challenges #maybe i should just quit #lol #where is Wade when you need him to fu-

[theold-ultraviolence]

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#these days but mostly this month I´ve been thinking about #how #no matter what I do or how many times I try to boost my own works my writing just doesn't seem to take off #no matter what I do #and I wonder if I should just give up and quit it already #I know I'm gonna finish Fear of the Dark but #maybe I should just quit #the irony is that I have the most ideas about Eddie and it's the character I've found most relatable and easier to write for #but those works just don't take off for some reason and I'm tired of putting the extra effort trying desperately to get more engagement #I'd said already that Fear of the Dark and the spooky stories were gonna be the last thing but I was kinda wanting to keep hanging in there #but man #idk if I want to anymore #I thought for sure the Spooky ficlet fest was gonna be hit and it ended up flopping so miserably

[feywhimsy]

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#feeling BAD y'all #i was so excited to plan my affiliate anniversary stream and literally no one showed up today 😭 #idgi. am i not engaging enough? funny enough? #streaming just seems to make me feel bad most times now #which fucking sucks because in theory i love it #but i am a social creature and if no one shows up to hang out then it just. makes me feel so bad #what's the point #maybe i should just quit #moxie.txt

[ohcrapwhatisit]

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#hahahaha guess who had a mental breakdown in his car on the way home from work? #me babyyyyyyy #I told my mother about my bad day and she said I shouldn’t complain people might begin to see me as a problem #as if she doesn’t come home and complain about her work problems too #I just want to come to a resolution and not have a bad work environment #hahahaha #maybe I should just quit

[lucabyte]

you dream of devouring your friends whole

#the 'it' and 'that' sif is referring to is the act 3 loop hangout but i enjoy being vague in dialogue it feels natural. tee hee. #serious time means everyone gets noses btw. sorry about the slow metamorphasis back into my usual style from my mimicry #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat loop #isat act 5 spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat siffrin #in stars and time fanart #isat fanart #sifloop #YES IM TAGGING THE SHIP. THUMBS UP. READ INTO THAT HOW YOU WILL BECAUSE IT WAS ON MY MIND WHEN DRAWING IT AT THE LEAST #aaaaaanyway. my personal reading of loop is. how do you say... flowey-esque. to invoke a fellow antagonistic timelooper. since imo #they do seem even fuuurther gone than sasasap sif was when we saw them. and BOY DOES LATEGAME ISAT SIF HAVE SOME INTRUSTIVE THOUGHTS #so uh. who's to say what happened in there. since we know start again isnt quite congruent as loop never beat the king. #i wouldn't blame them for going maybe a little mad. just a lil #it is important to me that loop is. perhaps a bit haunted. AND THAT THEY GET THROUGH IT!!! but they are haunted #lucabyteart #anyway uhhh. probably should put a cw for implied cannibalism?? #cannibalism mention

[fuitygummy]

failed attempt at drawing leaves 583 dead and 736 injured

#and one girl just absolutely devastated #maybe I should just quit #never draw ever again #I’m clearly not capable of doing it anyway #another epic fail in my miserable cringe life

[xlucygraysongbirdx]

I'm patiently waiting for my plot for my wip to just come together, but it is not and it has never taken me this long to piece it all together, h e l p

#wip: mirror mirror #sequel to (if only you would) take my hand #there are hints in there as to what happens #but i can't seem to make it properly work #maybe i should just quit

[puppyeared]

i like him

#somebody needs to keep me 8 metres away at all times or else ill start chewing on him #i just want everyone to know if i end up making a character who happens to resemble harvey in any shape or form #it probably wasnt a coincidence 😐and it will happen again #if i remember maybe ill try getting stardew when it goes on sale.. my friend showed me her farm and she named her chicken after doja cat #or maybe it was nikki minaj i cant remember. and she also said smth about monsters and passing out if you stay out after a certain hour #idk how accurate tht is all i know is the funny fucked up grandpas bed #i read somewhere that harveys supposed to be in his early to mid thirties and i dont have a problem with it but i think itd be very funny #if hes actually younger than he looks hes just a med school postgrad lmao. idk how well that headcanon would hold up since ive #never played the game and idk how often ppl talk about his age or if itsjust an implied thing. i just think its really really funny #im trying to get into the habit of drawing poses so im using reference images to try and build up muscle memory #i found some cute pictures of two ppl playing by the sea shore and it reminded me of xin and sailor so im gonna draw em like that #i havent drawn em in so long..... maybe i should update xins reference since i changed their lore quite a bit #myart #my art #doodles #stardew valley #stardew #sdv #sdv harvey #kinda wanna see him whimper a little bit. as a treat

[quadrantadvisor]

Alright new Jason Todd headcanons in a dpxdc setting:

Danny is a "liminal" ghost, rather than a "half" ghost. He's alive and dead at the same time. (He's like Jesus Christ (in the church denomination I grew up in), fully ghost and fully human.) Danny, in human form, can go through a ghost shield, because he IS a living human.

Jason, however, is a reanimated corpse. He isn't a ghost, wouldn't have a ghost core, etc, he has a normal human system that runs ON ectoplasm. Jason CANNOT go through a ghost shield, because he is always an ectoplasmic entity. Danny can go through the Fenton Ghost Catcher and be split into a ghost and a human; if Jason went through the ghost catcher, he would straight up die.

(For my purposes I'm gonna say that Jason became an ectoplasmic entity upon his resurrection, but wasn't very stable. Dunking in the Lazarus pit stabilized his system but also poisoned his ectoplasm.)

I do think that Jason could learn certain ghost abilities if he learned to harness his ectoplasm, especially if they detoxed him off the Lazarus waters. He's probably already enhancing his stealth and strength in ways he hasn't really noticed. I think he's held back by the amount of physical matter he's lugging around, so maybe he couldn't fly, but I'm imagining temporary invisibility, or intagibility of like, a limb at a time. Maybe he can't walk through walls, but in a fight he can dodge by instinctively making the targeted part of his body intangible.

#i saw someone call jason a 'revenant' in a fanfic once and that is juicy as hell so I'm stealing that- that's what he is in this au #Jason's ectoplasm does react to other ectoplasmic entities so they can sense eachother #but for ghosts he's fucking weird because he doesn't have a core for them to resonate with or w/e #danny would probably think that he's another halfa/liminal at first but the more time they spend together the more that doesn't add up #so I know that I'm trying to give Jason ghost powers but honestly this whole thing is kind of a bum deal for him #he gets all of a ghost's weaknesses and barely any of the benefits #honestly I'm conceptualizing this as more of a disability than a superpower #discovering that youre less alive than you thought you were and you're technically just a walking talking corpse running on supernatural goo #is fucked up and creepy and upsetting! #and it's something that he would have to come to terms with before he could start exploring what new opportunities it might give him #and i think that's really interesting #it's part of why I love messing with Jason in dpxdc stories so much #danny is fully ghost and fully human and he never feels like he fits in anywhere already #Jason is not quite human and not quite ghost so you can imagine how that would go for him #anyways i think they should be best friends and visit frostbite in the realms to make sure jason is healthy and also they should maybe kiss #and listen to the black parade together and talk about dying and stuff #danny fenton #jason todd #dp x dc #dpxdc #danny phantom #dc #batfam #my rambles

[vohanna]

A collection of silly Ted Lasso sketches I made forever ago (like, while S3 was still airing) but never posted

#ted lasso #maybe i should do something with some of these theyre quite cute if i do say so myself #also this was before i figured out how to draw jamie just fyi #trent crimm #dani rojas #isaac mcadoo #keeley jones #rebecca welton #jamie tartt #roy kent #colin hughes #fanart

[fruitsofhell]

I used to be one of those guys when I first joined the Kirby fandom, but everytime I hear a discussion of the series writing that starts with "So the Lore is InSaNe-" and not like, "Kirby has a fun writing style that takes advantage of its cute exterior to tell cool stories that reward player's curiosity and leave lots of room for imagination-" I cringe so goddamn hard.

I kinda just hate that people approach things that encourage investment when they don't expect it as inherently absurd. Like it is fun to joke about how absurd Kirby lore can be, but it really often comes with an air of disrespect or exhaustion rather than like, appreciation that these games are made by people who want to tell interesting stories when they could easily make as much money just making polished enough fluffy kiddy platformers. And when it's not met with exhaustion, it's met with - like I said before - that tone that it's stupid for a series like this TO have devs who care about writing stuff for it. Which is a whole other thing about people not respecting things made to appeal to kiddie aesthetic or tone.

Maybe the state of low-stakes YouTube video essays just blows cause people play up ignorance and disbelief for engagement, but like I STG I hear people use this tone for like actual narrative based games sometimes. Some people don't like... appreciate when a game is made by people who care a shitton in ways that aren't direct gameplay feedback. And they especially don't appreciate it when it comes from something with any sense of tonal dissonance intentional or not.

Anyways, I love games made by insane people. I love games made by teams who feel like they wanna make something work or say something so bad. I love that energy, especially when invested into something that could easily rest on its laurels or which obviously won't be taken seriously. I love this in a lot of classic campy 2000s games, I love this in insanely niche yet passionate fanworks, and I love it in the Kirby series and its writing. Can we please stop talking about it like it's an annoyance or complete joke?

#shut the heck up #kirby #kirby lore #fandom #midnight rambles #im quite talkative today cause my rambling bestie is busy #im also bitter cause im too burnt out to make the things i want to properly express my adoration for this series #but i can waffle about it ig #ive been relying on prose and essay ro express myself a lot in leiu of my usual creative outlets... #i always wanted to make a video edsay series about kirby lore with this expressed ethos #maybe i should just start with essay-essays somewhere #still need to replay all the games for that first though #more streams coming up eventually i swear #tag talking #i read a cool analytical article today that had the same tone as a video essay and i was like 'ah thats the origin of the essay part' #so now i wanna explore that world more of article game and media journalism and such

[magistralucis]

this is the first Space Marine I have ever painted Please Be Kind 😭🤣... during housecleaning I unearthed this old mini my fiancé had as a child and long story short I made him into a teacup, please welcome Brother Connoisseur of the ~*~*~Albertus Regius~*~*~ Chapter

#warhammer 40k #adeptus astartes #space marines #miniature painting #miniature #freehand #royal albert #freehand is so hard!!!! as much as i love gold edged china i think it was a mistake starting with that aesthetic #should maybe have done a more muted gold and not retributor armour everywhere #even better: i should have just gone with pure blue and white porcelain like my ancestors would have deemed rightful 😂 #on a more serious note: does anyone know what era/edition/year this dude comes from? i am a baby fan i know little about astartes #he is not a big space marine he is objectively (i.e. next to a ruler) about 32mm tall and his backpack design is obv. old #there are some other minis we found of the same time period and i will also chinapaint them i think. but later #also discovered some plastic + metal style thousand sons they must be quite old. and smol

[journeytomonkiekid]

I’m still sick so I decided to brush up on my Pokémon….

Here’s Wan Ji’s team if she had Pokémon.

Rufioh would be an Arcanine but it felt weird putting him on a Pokémon team.

#Braixen cause it just suits her vibe #Eevee cause she is figuring herself out and is a Jack-of-all-trades #Zorua bc it reminds her of Mac #Riolu is actually one I would change to Arcanine or maybe like….smth Meowscarada. #I should have given her a Meowscarada now that I think abt it #anyway #Riolu was because she is kind of inexperienced but learning to fight #Mienshao for her fighting style #and Ninetales but Alolan bc she’s a Huli-Jing but not quite ‘right’