'Is this like an Alice in Wonderland thing?' Leo called out, paddling towards Sensei and trying not to swallow water as he moved. 'Did you cry all these tears?'
'The mindscape does love a good metaphor.' Sensei called back, and he sounded fucking wrecked.
old dead bones that don't get theirs (death wish sidefic by @remedyturtles) was written to kill me, specifically, personally, actually. i still think about it Constantly
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It's late at night and I'm really tired and consumed with thoughts of Solomon being such a...lonely existence. Alienated from humanity whom he continues to protect despite the way they treated him. Clinging to said humanity despite being told by almost everyone that he doesn't act "human-like" at all. Lacking social awareness because of his limited interactions with others.
Being forced to learn things on his own to survive, practically raising himself and filling in the gaps of his whole being by mimicking what he sees in others to feel even a semblance of what he thinks a person is and should be. Like a patched-up blanket with scraps of fabric he'd taken from different mosaics of people he made connections with over his long life. He's a reflection of humanity and what being a human is despite barely feeling like he was human in the first place.
An unwilling observer, wanting a place to belong in the very domain he protects. By that I mean he doesn't merely want to watch over others, but form connections with them. But because his experiences are hard to relate to, he's easily misunderstood. He's doomed to a life of people just barely tolerating him for being who he is. For being born the way he is.
I guess that's why I get even sadder when I see him smile. Had he learned to smile to be more approachable to others? To be more friendly? Did he become so accommodating and eager to please because of that? Why does it feel like he always seems like he's on the verge of giving up or had already given up even before he expressed his willingness to be closer to MC? His learned helplessness really hurts. He only fights back and shows anger and intense emotions when it's for the sake of others. He's incredibly attentive and thoughtful when it comes to others but could barely even prioritise himself.
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Dogstock are typical of what are often deemed the ‘evil’ races in many other fantasy works. They were created by some higher force to be slaves, they are carnivorous by nature, they resemble animals other than human in dentition and build. They growl and bite and walk behind.
The Uhasr (a dogstock culture) are descendants of such slave-infantry that was abandoned when the empire that used them to capture the steppes decided the land wasn’t so profitable after all, and more pressing matters drew their attention elsewhere. Like tools left spent on the ground, the unneeded, excess dogstock were left to survive on their own in Hochkiskuph. The native peoples, of course, did not welcome them any more, or see them any less as oppressors when the hand released the lead. To the Hochkiskuph peoples, the Uhasr are a predatory ghost, an echo that consumes them even in absentia. To the Uhasr, one human is much like another, differing in number and equipment, but never in essence. Uhasr are a species of wild animal with a human face. Humans are prey on two legs. Humans smoke and poison uncovered dens on principle, Uhasr abduct and consume men and women and children all the same.
A common trend I have noticed in media which aims to humanize monsters, is that it often relies on passivity. Humanity is contingent upon kindness. The monster that is A Person only so long as they are a harmless thing at heart, something which can be understood and befriended. Their violence is reluctant, their hearts noble. Grace is a concession to the dominated. Only the toothless beast, declawed and pinioned and caged, is one which has earned its personhood. The ontological enemy supersedes the ontological man.
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Be careful with adrenal supplements it turns out that shit makes you produce adrenaline and my ass got paranoid that I had mad cow disease (I'm a vegetarian) and I almost threw up realizing a bear could fit through my window if he wanted (I live in a major city)
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SAGAU except they're aware of what goes on when you go into the character menu???
Particularly when they pray as you hop onto the artifacts menu to raise em, whether is for for them, another character to which some might try to purposely mess the rolls up bc oops! looks like they can't use that now! :) guess they'll have to wait., or just to make space for more bc HOW IS YOUR ARTIFACT STORAGE FULL ARE YOU OKAY??? Σ(・∀・;)
Whenever you raise their artifacts they kinda feel bad if it rolled into the wrong subs when you raise it with them and would either apologize or say that it'll roll better on the next one, they know it will!! (it did not 😔)
That or they don't bc they felt silly and wanted to spite you so guess you gotta do a few more runs to try again teehee 😗👉👈 they eventually roll a ridiculously amazing artifact at some point, but just this once!
(or y'know the opposite where there's always this one character you always use to raise artifacts bc they always get the best rolls and best subs? yeah imagine them celebrating w you at how good the stats rolled too!!)
Kinda like how if you try to make gear in tkrb there's a chance of it shattering (therefore failing) instead of being able to create one and when that happens the character you brought with you for those will say things like "oh no, it broke! i'm so sorry :(" or "i-it's okay!! let's try again...!" or you just flat out hear sobbing noises bc your new feather low rolled all 5 into defense FLAT 😭 BASICALLY THAT YEAH
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I wanted something to draw, and my brother has been trying to get me to watch hazbin hotel (he won), so anyways, vaggie bc I love women
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this was so self indulgent but I got hit hard w the insom Peter as a dad thoughts last night and had to doodle some stuff, mainly Pete just giving his baby her own web (silly string) shooters bc honestly he would lmao
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and here's the last of my new character refs that i'll be posting for awhile, in need of a bit of a break now lol
here's a 2 for 1 this time :]
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