#lmao I’m so hurt rn

[lumimochi]

just saw the leaks of human!Mountain Shaper and human!Moon Carver

#mhy DOES hate men cause what the hell is that #genshin impact #genshin impact leaks #mountain shaper #moon carver #lmao I’m so hurt rn

[mattodore]

there's something about the way you are that makes me… ♪

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #i was going through old screenshots for something to post bc it's been a minute and saw this........ #i didn’t do much editing on this but those scratches were fun to make ☝️ #theo's old hair... weeps and sobs #anyway hi i keep doing this thing where i disappear for days at a time idk it's the changing of seasons or something #my bad seriously but tbf i'm not doing so hot like medically speaking rn so i can't really be online a lot atm... #or at least i can't really type that much #but i'm working on theo's birthday edit for the 28th :) my little libra baby <3 #i'll be honest... i only started working on it like three days ago bc i do love to put things off until the last minute #i'm actually still working on the poses themselves bc i have to work super fucking slow due to the State of my body lmao #i’m using vyx’s rig for them so they’re going by much faster than they would’ve before like thank god #also i remade theo’s teen sim for the edit (as well as finally making his child sim!!) and he definitely looks better now #icb i thought his eyes looked brown before… i was out of my mind for that one #um. anything else to say…….. idk my hands are starting to hurt so i’ll get out of these tags now. bye friends and lovers <3

[bilestat]

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#I wish I could stop caring as easily as her #but unfortunately my feelings are just going to constantly get hurt over and over forever #when it’s obvious she doesn’t value our friendship as much as I do #I’ve learned to stop texting beyond holidays for the most part because it hurts getting disappointed when I don’t get answers #but it really fucking sucks she saw my insta story about my birthday but couldn’t bother saying anything to me #good to know where we stand #but again: idk why I’m surprised when she has not told me directly when she: #moved to my state from the opposite coast #set a wedding date and also got married #and moved a half an hour away from me #had to find that all out from the internet #so why would my birthday matter? lmao I’m an idiot #like at least she’s remembered in past years and does answer on holidays but #she hasn’t texted me first beyond my birthday last year in like two years #anyway wish I didn’t feel like crying rn #personal #to be deleted #and I feel conceited for caring but I know it’s not #and it extra sucks to still be hurt about another ex best friend that ghosted me years ago that shares my birthday so the sadness is just #inevitable #especially when combined with the fact that my dad’s birthday is in five days #so I’m just kinda sad around and on my birthday every year

[bpdohwhatajoy]

How it feels when you see old messages where they called you affectionate nicknames

#I can’t do this lmao #the pain I’m feeling rn. #why does it hurt so bad lol #bpd #borderline personality disorder #fp #favorite person #fucked up people

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

the reason i’m not afraid of aging is because i want to be a hot middle-aged man who has a toxic yaoi relationship with another middle-aged man

#u know i used to be so afraid of aging until i realized that i want to be a dilf. now it’s kinda exciting #i realized recently that i could never picture myself living past my twenties until i pictured myself as a man #but like. i want to be a man and a woman and nothing and everything #but like. i’m cool with how i look now for the most part idk if i would want to transition physically at least not rn #and rn i still dress fem enough that everyone goes straight to she/her #and i like she/her but it hurts rn #bc some of my family has switched to they/them or it/its and it’s just so soothing #but family that knows i don’t like it still use she/her and phrases like ‘daughter’ or whatever even more often on purpose #and it hurts bc i don’t really feel the need to change the way i dress/look but i know everyone assumes she/her #when they see me in a dress or skirt. even w how very not-cis my fashion sense is #but also i fucking hate pants which is a separate thing (prob autism tbh) and even if i wore pants they’d still use she/her #thinking of changing my name to something very masc so i can confuse people enough that they’ll stop defaulting to she/her #and i haven’t told ppl outside my immediate family so idc if they use she/her but i’m fucking pissed when ppl in the family do it #anyways side note when i was 12 my ideal gender (b4 i knew about being non-cis) was a floating consciousness w no body #or a plastic-doll-like creation that’s smooth all over #… i still want to be a floating consciousness actually lmao. it would be great #back then i hated being a girl but i didn’t know there were more options and also i was socially isolated (didn’t leave home for like 2yrs) #and my mother was openly transphobic whenever the topic was brought up so that was my only real experience #but i didn’t really internalize it other than the fact that my mother would be rude if i ever happened to be not-cis and guess what? she is #anyways it’s like 2am and also i’m only awake bc i was captivated by a sugar daddy middle aged gay fic for a show i watched like 5 episodes #for 2 years ago #sorry for rambling in the middle of the night lol #gn y’all

[p-p-panda]

Random art vent lol

I get tired of constantly pouring my heart out when asked about my stuff only for it to fall flat. Like why did they even ask me to begin with??? Just to tease me??? 😭 bruh

#this is very different than what I usually post #I don’t really like doing it but tbh this has been bothering me for the past couple of months in different places I’m active in #and it’s starting to become annoying #i listen to everyone’s lore and ocs or whatever the convo is only to end up with like one reply and they die on me. AND IT KEEPS HAPPENING #IN DIFFERENT Group chats #man I’m just so tired of even lore dumping all the time at this point 💀 #it seems like when I actually have the motivation to finally open up that’s when I get ignored the most :/ #I’m probably being a sensitive baby rn so I might delete this later. only wanted to get it off my chest #i can listen to other people talk for hours then the second I speak it feels like bore everyone 😔 #i only have like 1 or 2 people that actually listen to me when it’s my turn but most of the time I’m always listening. which isn’t bad but #man #it hurts and kinda makes me wanna cry lmao #and it makes me just half ass shit at this point when people ask about my ocs/lore since I don’t know if they want a tiny bit of info or #if they’re actually intrigued :/ I just give up now #ok I’m done this is way too long ahaha #vent #it’s not that I constantly want atteion because I don’t and I love listening to other people and sometimes when I ask they don’t talk to me #but will to someone els even when I’m super invested so idk at this point #😞 #i admit I have times when I’m shy but it mostly due to not wanting to wast peoples time anymore #ok I will shut to the up #gn #it’s like 1am for me #and I really don’t want people to ask only because of this post. trust me that’s not what I’m trying to do i swear. only getting out feels

[autistic-katara]

girl help the hyperfixation’s returned but i already binged all the short angst fics featuring my Mental Illness™ in one night

#i shouldntve done that since i need to be awake today #but fuck if took me like 2 hours very tops to read everything from now to end of april last year what the fuck #also i can see i’m still the only person to have written that typa angst for kyoshi #(this is abt atla btw) #(if u couldn’t tell by my last few rbs lmao) #seriously though guys #my fellow atla fans #(specifically fellow zukka fans bcz it hits hard like that) #can we please write more short angst that caters specifically to my mental illnesses #or idk just whoever’s writing it’s mental illnesses i’m probably not the only one with this problem #i would suggest organising an event but there isn’t rlly a word for “angst/hurt/comfort shorter than 10k notes mental illness centric” #so can we just idk all write more #check my kyoshi fic for what i mean except it’s kinda bad so idk 😭 #if someone gave me an idea i’d be down to write it but i don’t have one rn #atla #fanfic #ryan shut the fuck up

[myfriendtheghost]

goodnight sweet baby :( <3

#I’m having a bad night :/ #which is pretty par for the course at this point lol #but I just feel awful #my stomach hurts so bad (I consumed far too much dairy today so that’s on me) #and I’m stressing about going back to school #because I don’t want to do math #I can’t do math #even basic math #why do I need to take math to get a broadcasting/public relations/advertising degree 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 #college is a scam I don’t wanna go back ugh #but I want a job I have a passion for yk :/ #life just sucks rn lmao I just want a break but I know I won’t get one #struggling with regret wbk wbk 🥲 #on a brighter note I fought for my life to get oogie boogie bash tickets and SUCCEEDED #I waited 7 hours and experienced crazy glitches but I did ittttt #but yeah anyway I feel like shit I hope josh is having a good night tho <3

[bass-alien]

could use some good vibes rn

#I’m feeling super sick #like my entire body aches rn #and my throat hurts so badly #and I feel like I was hit by a bus lmao

[maybeicanbesaved]

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#blah blah blah blah writing this so people don’t have to see my vent tags unless they click to view them #not a good night i’m literally shaking in anger rn lmao #pretty sure tonight i’m either gonna end up hitting my mother or hurting myself #idk which would have me feeling more guilty tomorrow #but right now? both sound like good ideas to me!!! :)) #bad time to be out of xanax

[dontcallmeeds]

I’m behind on all my WIPs and how very ao3 fanfic writer notes of me to be like “sorry but my best friend DIED and my older parents both have Covid and I might get evicted but here’s a one shot I spent 3 hours on instead, read it and cope”

#those are all unfortunately true LMAO #I have the freak helps the jock in submission plotted out for the next few chapters at least #I just don’t wanna do anything but one shots rn bc brain hurts and I forgot some of my own lore so I have to reread my fics LMAO #god I’m so behind on my Reddie fic too #one shot #one shot fic #ao3 memes #ao3 #fanfic authors #ao3 fanfic #steddie #Reddie

[chryzure]

i rlly rlly want to write ophelia reading the past of chrysi’s engagement rings (from her engagement to azure), but w ophelia’s reading code of ethics & the situation they’re in, i can’t rlly find a good reason for her to do that. but the drama could be good. so 😕

#memorie.txt #i’ll need a platonics tag for this series but i’m not worrying abt that rn #i guess i could swing it so ophelia can provide an emotional link that’ll break her/archie/jacks into chrysi’s dreams finally #….ohhhh i might do that lmao #but yeah… it’ll be vv fun to write… & rlly sad……. she misses azure so much #also ophelia got to see how hurt chrysi was by archie’s own stupidity too so 😘😋

[dahldahlbills]

im really excited to start stone ocean but i also don’t think im ready to start it akfhjs I already know I’m gonna get super attached to a bunch of new characters, meaning I’ll only be adding new blorbos into the rotation which can get really overwhelming and im still processing golden wind I just… there’s too many emotions rn lol

#i cant wait to meet jolyne and I’ve already spoiled myself for some stuff so I just wanna rip off the bandaid #but Idk if I can handle it rn akfhjs #such a dumb problem to have I swear #but it physically HURTS okay??? #‘sorry i cant let myself watch this bc it makes me too emotional’ I need a fucking life #but yeah I can’t remember the last time I’ve been this messed up after a piece of media #like jjk was p bad but it still wasn’t anything like this #jellie can attest… I’m not doing well lmao #blahblahbills #jojo posting

[gaynasa]

someone wanna interact with my tumblr like it’s 2015 again and we’re all sending each other gay anons

#I’ve lost everything that was good in my life and its v hard #I crave the validation of strangers on the internet to keep me from giving up lmao #tho 2017 is when my friends (turns out they were not friends) were sending me anonymous hate so that was fun #tbh I’d take even that rn #I’m confused and hurt and foggy all the time #sorry to rant but also I’m desperate to be heard

[roseofcards90]

ANYWAYS I will now buy Sulemio gunplas for compensation upon seeing stupid shit <3

#I just got earwax in my ear sucked out and it hurt like shit so everything for me has been taken to overstimulated level #times like 20 or something lmao #don’t mind me I’m just going through it rn guys 😭 #my posts

[morelikedoccock]

Lowkey three sheets to the wind rn but like… anyone else just reall emotional about Otto? Canon Otto’s story is so fucking tragic and intense and like, I’m thinking about it and straight up feeling a lot about it rn

#cerbin rambles #it’s midnight and I should be asleep but here I am #thinking about tragedy #like how intensely sad Otto’s story is #how sweet and hopeful and kind and good he was going into his project #wanting a clean renewable energy source for the city #and then maybe for more #and being driven by fate to lose himself to the ai he created #and the ai just buried him #buried the soft sweet hopeful kind man under a pile of single-minded drive #simply to accomplish the project for its end and not for its original greater purpose #and how at the end he manages to regain himself only to realize that sacrificing himself to right his mistakes is the only thing he can do #so he does #and breaks all our hearts lmao #but seriously I’m having feelings rn #I know all of this has been said before but like hhhhhhh heart hurts for him