#such a dumb problem to have I swear

[dahldahlbills]

im really excited to start stone ocean but i also don’t think im ready to start it akfhjs I already know I’m gonna get super attached to a bunch of new characters, meaning I’ll only be adding new blorbos into the rotation which can get really overwhelming and im still processing golden wind I just… there’s too many emotions rn lol

#i cant wait to meet jolyne and I’ve already spoiled myself for some stuff so I just wanna rip off the bandaid #but Idk if I can handle it rn akfhjs #such a dumb problem to have I swear #but it physically HURTS okay??? #‘sorry i cant let myself watch this bc it makes me too emotional’ I need a fucking life #but yeah I can’t remember the last time I’ve been this messed up after a piece of media #like jjk was p bad but it still wasn’t anything like this #jellie can attest… I’m not doing well lmao #blahblahbills #jojo posting

[penheadie]

a comic based off a shitty headcanon that's sure to get me killed by the fandom

I'm not really one of those people who's waaay big into speculating what character's sexualities are because that's honestly the last thing on my mind, but I just really wanted to draw this before pride is over. I remember Zeddyzi mentioned something about once Stone maybe being demi and I hope to god it's true so that we get some more of us asexuals in the house, but also because I think it would be funny to add to the comedic element of making the most over-simped character in ramshackle be on the ace spectrum as part of the irony.

Ramshackle and it's characters belong to the lovely @zeddyzi

#sketch #doodle #ramshackle #comic #fanart #stone #skipp #vinnie #headcanon #asexual #demisexual #Vinnie would be asking as a serious question #vinnie can't make those certain stoner jokes anymore ig #extra headcanons Skipp is pan/ace and Vinnie is bi thank you #it's okay I swear if Stone doesn't turn out to be ace I don't have a problem with it #don't mind my spelling errors I'm just dumb as well as my humor

[maddy-ferguson]

women will literally accuse women and esp lesbian circles of "not unpacking ""man-hating""" alleged ""misandry" sweetie xo" getting offended ppl aren't appropriately uplifting how "men are amazing and awesome and attractive and i won't be shamed for thinking so" as if appreciating men is a real counter opinion than blame whatever gave women of every sexuality instance to be jaded weary cautious and tired and who'll complain every now and then and continue on with her life until she dies putting up with patriarchy. just welcome to the "woke" internet where misogyny's over and "man-hate" "shamed for not hating men" is worth springing to defences for

yeah i've only seen people talk like men's rights activists and think they're being unbelievably progressive on tumblr it's kind of fascinating. like i can see how seeing people hate on men could mess with people and stuff but you can't demand men appreciation posts that's literally the whole world outside of idk your tumblr dash (or even on your tumblr dash because fandom misogyny from people who think they're not misogynistic at all is really something). men get praised for "babysitting" their own kids like be serious? it's very let men be masculine

i don't think being like men are soooo gross and we hate them is actually constructive and it can definitely veer into transphobia (you'll always be a man/"a male" and thus a danger to women/why would you ever want to become a man they're the enemy and the bane of society etc) and homophobia relatively quickly?

but the way people ON TUMBLR ""combat that"" is often so off to me like if the most basic feminist principles offend you then i'm not really sure where to go from here. i remember seeing a post that was like "men aren't your enemy. they're your friend/brother/father/colleague/neighbor" with a lot of notes and like i don't know how to tell you this but that's literally who's most likely to harm a woman, the men she knows?😭 and obviously not every system of oppression is exactly the same but would you say the same thing to someone criticizing white people like...just very weird

i think women who are attracted to men and dating them making jokes about how they only tolerate being attracted to men because they have no choice and especially the whole i'm bi so i love every woman and only find 1 in a 1000 men attractive (very often said while in a relationship with a man) thing is obnoxious and annoying for like everyone who has to hear it lmao but also when women who date men make jokes about it (not about them being ugly or unattractive or whatever but about them being bad partners in general) it's like. what else are they going to do like you said they're gonna endure patriarchy for the rest of their lives and as girlfriends/wives/mothers they go through the most it's very bleak? idk. it's not like you can date a better man yourself out of patriarchy

of course men aren't a all as bad as the worst guy you can imagine and they're not all out to get you or whatever but saying things like "men don't all benefit from the patriarchy rich men benefit from the patriarchy but jake, 23, is not oppressing you" is like. kind of insane. jake, 14, was oppressing me like have you never interacted with boys in school😭 and it's not like it was entirely their fault we all have to outgrow misogyny it's just you know society etc but some of them never outgrow it lmao and just...the takes you see on feminism on tumblr are astounding i hate it here

#and like i do think that young guys who feel bad about themselves only having people who make them feel worse and who actively make them #worse like incels and idk youtube algorithms to turn to is a problem but like. again it's the same thing as white people who feel bad about #being white to me in a way like are women and GIRLS supposed to coddle them and say it's gonna be okay you're great even when they're #like actually harming them by being misogynistic to them? that's already what they're taught to do always #the notes on that male loneliness epidemic post i reblogged a few weeks ago still haunt me like OH MY GOD #and if you think misogyny isn't as prevalent anymore you're very naive. and probably misogynistic yourself #i'm not even sure young men being more feminist is true (well it's probably true when you compare it to like the 50s) but even #when men ARE like yeah women shouldn't have to do everything i can help with chores (the use of the word help is already a red flag lmao) #when you look at what they actually do they still do way less like i don't have links because these are tags on a tumblr ask but i read #somewhere that men think chores are 50/50 when they're only doing like 30% of the work? like it just seems hopeless #sometimes i'm happy and then i think about the mental load #sorry for not uplifting men 24/7 you can just hang out on the steve harrington tag or something there's actually a lot of people doing that #when someone said um does the ronance fandom not seem terfy to you...because of a post that was like can the lesbian ship ronance #be about the lesbian ship ronance not about steve A MAN #like you can't make this up #i meant it when i said the average tumblr user would benefit from being exposed to more misogyny like i swear they forget it's even a thing #like obviously they wouldn't BENEFIT from it lmao but their posts wouldn't be as dumb and that would benefit me🙏 #ask

[spicyicymeloncat]

Bit of an opinionated rant but:

Idk why everyone is so upset over the Zelda timeline and the Zelda continuity or whatever. I like the huge spaghetti mess that is Zelda lore. I like that the developers don’t give a fuck about consistency. I’m glad it gives them the freedom to make whatever the fuck in their games.

Is it perfect? No. Could it be better? Of course!

But isn’t half the fun of being a Zelda theorist, playing with the puzzle pieces yourself? For me personally, it doesn’t matter if Nintendo never had this grand master plan of the Zelda lore. It means everyone can come to their own conclusions on the origin of the heroes or the magic or the different groups of people. And that’s kinda by design.

#idk #i have seen one too many Zelda takes that I personally disagree with #sometimes people have valid criticism and sometimes their problem is that they lack imagination #there’s so much ‘well it’s not as good as [insert their fav zelda game]’ or ‘they should’ve done it just like [xxx Zelda]’ #and like sometimes those games that they’re saying are so much better have like exactly the same pitfalls #or the person complaining just lacks the imagination to think about what couldn’t happened in the timeline #it’s literally up to player interpretation if you hate a game you can just idk decanonise it if you want #hhh #idk idk #gonna unfollow some people bc I swear half the Zelda content I see is ppl shitting on totk #and yeah it’s not a perfect game and it’s not my favourite and I’ve got complaints too #but it really feels like ppl are complaining because it wasn’t exactly how they envisioned it #like besties if you wanted it to be like any other Zelda then play those other zeldas instead #like totk is not even making my top 5 probably just bc I enjoyed other zeldas more #but imo people are being annoying about it #i mean that with love I’m not trying to pick a fight I’m just idk venting into the internet about dumb video games #Mayhaps I’ll delete later #loz #whatever I’ll just go back to playing the funny hatsune Miku game #i just watched a lesbian wedding in that game #it’s sunny somewhere

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

the urge to punch ignorants is strong today

#random #personal #vent #a bunch of morons keep making fun of this one kid #cuz their behaviour is abnormal #these idiots keep making jokes at their expense #i swear i would ram them into the nearest brick wall if I didn’t have noodle arms #i also got made fun of for asking questions in class #if they find questions dumb that’s a them problem #I want to actually learn something #i’m so done with these morons

[prince-strife]

every time i see someone talk about how bad AOS is and how it’ll never live up to TOS i get so sad. like i was only 5 when the first AOS movie came out, and my mom liked it, so i liked it, and i grew up watching the first two movies. into darkness is still a big comfort movie for me and i like to watch it whenever i’m bummed out.

i didn’t even know TOS was a thing until i was like, 16, and when i tried watching it i just could not get into it. idk.

#i literally have no idea where i was going with this #i swear i had a point #whatever #i have nothing actually against TOS and people obviously have a right to not like AOS because it doesn’t live up to the original #but chris pine and zachary quinto will always be my kirk and spock #i honestly love them so much #i’m just dumb and autistic and get defensive at the drop of a hat #i’m like this in real life too. i can’t stand when people criticize the things i like #it’s a ✨problem✨ #ramblings of a madman

[cinnabeat]

re:mind costs 30 fucking dollars............

#im gonna replay kh3 and im gonna Pay Attention #i WAS planning on playing re mind too and i will but god damn thirty fucking dollars #also while i do understand how the disney worlds and the attraction flow make sense in the context of the story #like the sleeping realm theory like i see why they would do that #and by didney worlds i mean basically replaying the whole movies with sora as a background character #rather than an actual driving force that has an affect on the preconceived plot #like i see why its like that from a narrative point of view #but as a real person playing the game its just really annoying having so much disney shoved into my face #yes its dumb to be saying that about a game thats literally disney but Anime but at least in previous games its like #like i said sora has an ACTIVE affect on the stories like things play out differently maybe a bit similar but at least not beat for beat the #same or even its not set in the movie timeline at all just before or after the stories or somewhere in the middle #the point its not a retelling its like those fix it fics where someones like what would happen if this person was here instead #and i like dthat! made it very unique and enjoyable and not make me feel like i was watching a movie in the middle of a game #and like i said i can see why narratively having sora in the background and unable to truly influemce the stories bc ultimately it was about #the people and THEIR relationships and not some outside force (heartless) causing problems #like i get that but good god was it tedious and annoying and just ugh #i swear hearing fucking let it go in the middle of the game was so annoying i cant even remember what the point was of it like character wis #wise for sora i mean like idk what he gained from that bc i just checked out #like thats truly my one complaint about the game is just all the disney. it was only confusing for me bc i did NOT pay attention to the plot #at all which is not a fault of the game. also the attraction flow was useless to me like just plain annoying man like literaly disney advert #advertisements i hated it #michi tag

[airlockfailure]

Cluster Headaches: What are they and how do I cope with them?

Cluster headaches are called such because they occur in cycles. This means I can go weeks, or months even without pain, but then experience near constant agony when I'm in a cycle. They're believed to be caused by a problem with the hypothalamus, which is responsible for things like your "body clock" or circadian rhythm, hence the cyclical nature of these headaches.

My clusters usually occur in late spring, through summer, and end with the arrival of frost. A beautiful summer day for you is a terrible day for my brain. The higher the humidity, the worse I usually feel, but active storms usually bring relief.

I know a cycle is going to begin because I become incredibly agitated. Emotionally, I may cry the entire time I'm awake, and may wake myself up crying. Physically, I may pace, and thrash, and shudder my muscles to try and relieve the pain I know is coming. (The closer I get to experiencing the actual pain of a cluster headache, I usually become so irritable, I start cursing and throwing things in response to problems I wouldn't bat an eye at outside of a cycle.)

When the pain arrives, it comes with one side of my body (most often the right, but it switches back and forth) becoming red and overheated. My nose clogs up on that side, and my eye weeps. Usually, one side of my mouth produces more saliva than the other, and I may have to urinate more often (I don't always notice this problem). Usually, my lymph nodes react on whichever side of my body is affected, and my joints become very sore and tender.

The pain itself is like a screwdriver, or an iron poker is being driven through my eye/eye socket. This pain is not possible to relieve with NSAIDs or ice packs or heating pads. Although I have found ice is distracting. Distracting from pain is not relieving it.

In the pre-pain irritation stage sound, light, and smell bother me much in the way they might bother someone who experiences migraines. Cluster headaches are not migraines, though. Post irritation full pain stage, sound, light, and smell don't affect the severity of the headache. I WILL be in pain regardless of what external stimuli are around me. I cannot go lay down in a dark room. That makes it WORSE. I need to move. I need to be busy. I need to claw my face off. I will pace. I will deep clean my apartment. I will cook a thousand cookies. I just need some form of physical distraction from OW. Sometimes tapping my knuckles against my skull is enough for a little while (TAPPING, not hitting).

Cluster headaches are sometimes referred to as suicide headaches, because they make you want to take your head off and punt it across the street. They are also called alarm-clock headaches, because the pain is sudden, and wakes you up at night. I have not experienced this. But that may be because people report these headaches waking them between 1 and 3 am and I am usually already awake then.

Cluster cycles, because they are linked to your body clock, do not have triggers. However, alcohol can fuck up your body clock and make you enter a cycle. I do not consume alcohol at all because of this risk. Messing up my sleep schedule does cause me to have cycles more frequently.

The number one affective treatment for an "attack" is to inhale pure oxygen for 15 minutes. Why does this work? Fuck if I know. I don't do this. I'm not lugging portable oxygen with me at work and getting caught on all the machines and mechanisms. You can take anti-seizure meds to try and prevent cycles from happening. Why does this work? Fuck if scientists know! They are injected or inhaled through the nose, and don't work very well anecdotally. You can try nerve blockers for your TMJ nerve (because that mother fucker is somehow involved??!) or try deep brain stimulation. FKSFHFKHSF

So, I do not treat my cluster headaches. I live in agony and wait for autumn and winter to come back and debate moving to the arctic. When I was first diagnosed with cluster headaches, I was on experimental natural medicine. It was based on the ergot fungus, which is now showing even more promise at being affective treatment for cluster headaches.

I'm hoping once I have a new doctor, more will be able to be done to help me. I'm exhausted. But one of my bosses actually did research cluster headaches after I had to leave work and educated himself about them, so that's a win in my book.

#swearing #cluster headaches #chronic headaches #airlock talks personal shit #chronic pain #health #medicine #hello yes #i have problems i don't like the treatment options for #which is dumb #i know

[asakamasanobu]

i created this compilation for myself last year (or more like last month tbh) and was so excited to post it once it hit 2023 but then i forgot to post it here and it’s already a third into the month now but IT’S FINE I CAN POST IT ANYWAY ……. MY PRIDE AND JOY MY RICCHAN STOMACH ISSUES VIDEO …..!!!!!!! hell ye

#it’s so dumb ITS THE DUMBEST THING TO MAKE BUT IT MADE ME SO STUPIDLY HAPPY THROUGHOUT IT #made rewatching so much fun too …… there’s only four instances here but whenever it happened i was like #O H MY GOD RICCHAN STOMACH ISSUES CLIP IT CLIP IT #there’s actually also two other instances of him touching his stomach in anguish that i considered adding but like #i ended up leaving it out bc it’s too long of a vid already ;w; man makes so many grumbling noises when talking about his stomach #i love him tho ….. i hope i can hit another thousand views this year #ricchan stomach problems the pinned mental health ricchan video of the year #i say this in every other post i swear but he just makes me so happy like life is hard and i am living it but then i think of him and just #ah ….. ricchan …….. ricchan you make life worth living and fighting for …….. i’ll work hard for you baby oh god #okay i hope posting this video works …… never posted shit on tumblr before so if i have to repost after typing an essay in the tags #you’ll never see me again goodbye

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Ok roommate update just bc she throws a tantrum doesn’t mean she gets her way! Housing isn’t making me sign off on a new agreement bc she signed the first one and had ample opportunities to say she wanted things changed as we filled it out

#housing just hates her so bad actually. and I mean. i was going to be like hey she signed off on it that’s on her #but housing did it for me! it’s amazing. she’s moving out after this semester #speaking of housing hates her. my 2 friends here r really good friends with a bunch of ras (mine included) and the other day one texts me #and she’s like. ur roomie is so irritating my group chat is going off about it. so she came to visit to show me the exchange #for context roomie called the ra on call to cry about her key getting stuck in the door #if the key isn’t flat it doesn’t come out of the door. she knows this. bc it happened so many times the first week she moved in #so housing knowing her says ok we’ll help but you’ll have to pay the lockout fee. and then the key magically works! #so later when me and my friend r home she rings the doorbell and I thought it was my ra #and then it’s her. and she’s like my key is stuck :(((( #and I look at it it’s on an angle. so im I give it a half hearted pull and im like call housing #bc I knew she’d have to pay a lockout fee and I (along with many ras) think she should pay a ’ur wasting my time fee’ #but my friend takes one look at it pulls it out to make her look dumb #which. in my personal opinion doesn’t do anything bc she plays dumb #and she’s like to me could u have gotten it out? and I’m like yeah I could’ve but I shouldn’t keep having to fix problems you can fix urself #and she gets all huffy and she’s like sorry for being such a burden to you #and it’s like. girl. you act like an idiot for attention. and the second there’s consequences you back down #but god knows not without trying to guilt trip someone! she’s draining the last bit of my humanity #i have never met someone so universally hated it’s crazy #i swear she’s only transferring next semester bc she burned every single bridge here #also? that little fit she threw a week or two ago? hasn’t spoken a word on it since. I’d wager it’s bc housing told her it’s on her #the other night she tells me. ‘oh by the way. you’re allowed to make noise tonight. I’m staying up all night’ and I’m like. allowed??? #what r u my mother??? I’m gonna make sound in my apartment. I’m soo sorry you call every available number every time theres a breeze outside #and the day my friend was over! ‘you’re allowed to stay past 1am if you want. I’ll be up all night’ my friend who cannot hold her tongue #goes oh allowed? are you my mother? thanks mom! #objectively hilarious but she probably shouldn’t have said it #u might think I just sound super mean but I have 0 tolerance for bs and she’s made of it #she’s drained every single bit of niceness in my body after her little tantrum #and also reading the texts she’s sent to my ra about me <3 #that’s the update bc I hit 30 tags 🫠 #soup talks

[excavatinglizard]

I'm working on writing a chunk of dialogue by pacing my room and rambling out loud and my sister keeps coming in and asking who I'm talking to

Sorry, I'm just the vessel for two gay idiots to work out their issues, I don't make the rules

#dumb shit I do #writing problems #the gays are fightinggggg #let's go sapphics. Have correct and sexy opinions on the nature of war #let yiron swear 2k22 #this shit is at 7k words lets gooooo #I've only written three things longer than this in literally YEARS

[panopti-cunt]

I kinda hate having high schoolers in my college classes not bc I think they don't belong there or bc theyre too young for grownup talks but because I always feel like a dick for calling out their neoliberal bullshit after the fact but am incapable of letting it go in the moment

#one of the kids said something about how puerto rico choosing to remain a commonwealth is dumb they should just accept #statehood and like i swear i tried to take three deep breaths but the minute i got done i was animatedly #talking about hawaii #its fine that the kids have inarguably bad takes thats what youth is for the problem is the confidence with which they state them #as basic fact and then get their feelings extremely hurt when other people disagree and expect to be defended from the mean old grown ups

[guideaus]

I think its wild u could be perfectly polite, simply establishing a boundary and the other person will get offended

#personal #me: no thank you i am not interested. please stop messaging me. thank you. #them: uh okay lol. didnt think youd have an attitude problem #its bc its online too. like i swear if this was real life... #like how am i using all the best manners words and theyre still offended... #should i be like 'for the last time shut the fuck up you dumb bitch' 🤔 #i am so nice you guys you dont even know #but also im gonna lose it #like. how do they think their behavior is ok then getting upset at me for addressing it #HHHH #act normal!!!!

[virigaymez]

i can never have a conversation with a european again i stg. i just had a romanian friend tell me she hopes the US doesn’t have a civil war because that would be “egocentric” because the US needs to protect romania etc. from russia and can’t be distracted by fighting with itself. girl i understand the US is unfortunately a massive global force and therefore people have to worry about our involvement or lack of involvement in things. however. can’t imagine ever going up to someone and being like “i hope people in your country don’t start killing each other in earnest because that could badly effect ME”

#sorry for posting this on this blog but i cannot be posting on main #also as my skam blog this is my designated european relations blog lmao #she also said the us needs to leave women alone and realize that other people are having problems #and the example she gave was drought and starvation in european countries #like we don't have that shit too #i'm so #and she started lecturing me on separation of church and state i #like girl i KNOW i'm not DUMB #if i have to hear one more european tell me what's wrong with the US i am going to implode #and i'm saying this as someone who has concrete plans to move to a european country to get the fuck out of the US #so likely i will just be imploding #anyway am i overreacting or is this definitely a weird thing for her to say to me #oh AND she said americans don't understand we're sliding towards dictatorship because we haven't been taught history #like 1) yes i was the US is not a monolith and #2) i think the coup attempt made it pretty clear actually #i'm dying inside #i understand the US sucks ass and i hate it too but the first time i see a european have one atom of empathy for the actual human beings who #live here #i swear i will weep tears of joy

[badcompanys]

guess who made a new muse page with a whole buncha fresh faces. 

it’s me. i’m the dumbass who can’t stop making muses.

feel free to send memes or come talk dynamics with me on disco! 

#* just for funsies. / out of character. #i don't have a problem * twitches * i swear. #they're all just dumb bitches in my bayou of stupidity.

[exopelagic]

I AM A CODING GENIUS

#coding assignments due in circa 10 hours. it is 2am #I started roughly 12 hours ago and I’m almost done #I also managed to do in 5 minutes the thing my friend has been struggling with for a month <3 #the problem is that I’m really good at figuring out how code SHOULD work so solutions like that are easy as hell #but making it actually happen? well. #I spent about two hours swearing at my laptop bc these two dumb rasters would not be set to anything except TRUE/FALSE #they would NOT let me change the values for any reason at all and the internet failed me #I think it is time for us as a society to acknowledge that stack overflow sucks actually this is one of my biggest red flags #I despise that site it completely sucks more often than it’s helpful #that might just be bc I’ve done an obscene amount of work with spatial data at this point and spatial data is hell <3 #anyway I’m procrastinating now even though it’s 2am bc I’m feeling confident I can finish this now so the urgency is gone #it will return in maybe 30 minutes bc I said I’d go to bed at 3am but man. these assignments have been the WORST #aaaaaanyway I’m in the hyper stage of tired yknow. the chocolate I just ate probably isn’t helping #so ready for this to be done but unfortunately that means I gotta do it #might as well do as much as I can now I guess so I can get it finished early tomorrow #can clean it up a bunch tonight if I finish it quick too #okay pray for me. I’m already on 5 hours sleep bc I was up until 2 doing the other one yesterday #luke.txt #man my flatmates are ASLEEP now probably wish I was asleep #2:36 update: can confirm I am a genius bc I think I just solved my problem from earlier too