#like. near the beginning of the month

[welcometogrouchland]

It's either coming up to my period again OR I've just developed a disease where I get misty eyed at even the most banal sequences and scenes in ghibli movies. I was crying during the early parts of ponyo

#ramblings of a lunatic #ponyo is not a very emotional movie i just kept being like #OUGHHH LITTLE BABY...LITTLE BABY HAS TO TAKE CARE OF HIS MOM WHILE HIS DAD IS AWAY AT SEA...OUGH LITTLE FISH GIRL #nothing as bad as when i was crying during every scene in kikis delivery service tho lmao #i still haven't seen very many ghibli movies but they're all pretty wonderful #i had another art exam today so i think I'm gonna chill for the rest of the night now that's i watched the cute fish movie #I'll watch something new soon (i am eyeing that movie ever after 👁️👁️ sorry i still can't kick the fairytale spinterest revival rn) #but until then I'm gonna have fun #be silly hehe #I'm also at a weird place with my toh hyperfix where like. i went through intense pre-grief (is that?? what it's called) #like. near the beginning of the month #just being so so sad about it ending and the inevitable fandom dwindle that'll come with that (OBJECTIVE WORST PART!!!) #but that pre-grief was so intense that now I'm at a weird place of peace with it #once the shows over I'll probably start being able to actually like. watch and read other things now hsbdjdhfk #but i imagine it'll stay my main interest (to u guys. I'm more complex irl) for a good while (i wanna make more art i wanna try writing!!!) #just with other stuff spliced in as it comes (i wanna get back on reading sailor moon. maybe check in on deltarune again) #(TRY and get back into tlt again. hell maybe I'll check in on comics again! who knows) #but tbh as long as i find toh on my dash i doubt I'll ever really leave it behind lol #again- a relatively positive fandom experience plus a deep connection with the work is a recipe for me being Not Normal forever #I'm. making less sense as this goes on #anyway. you get it! I'm a big cry baby but also I'm at a state of peace for the moment. yeehaw

[goliig68]

I'm really concerned about old xian's health. Sitting behind a computer for long period of times can cause serious damage to your body especially your neck, back, shoulder and wrist. And many comic artists and mangakas are suffering from it after drawing for many years and old xian has been drawing for more than 7 years. I remember they used to update every seven days and more regularly, but now they're taking longer breaks, and it's taking a longer time to get a new update, and recently it seems like old xian takes a break after updating two chapters.

I hope old xian take break as much as they need, I don't want them to hospitalized from over work😥🙏🏻

#19 days #old xian #I don't know when 19 days will end #I don't even know If we're near it or no #But there's still so much to unfold to say we're close to the end #19 days is like one piece lol💀 #One piece started on 1993 and now it's 2023 #So 26 years💀 #I wonder if 19 days will continue for 10 years later #Or it will end 4 or 5 years later #With the way old xian is going with the plot is really hard to tell #If you've noticed at the beginning of the story the weather seemed hot and characters wore short sleeved shirts #But now they're wearing long sleeved and more clothes #So does it mean the weather is getting cold and probably they're nearing the winter? #or maybe nearing the end of school? #I know it seems like at the story just three weeks passed but I guess we had some time skips #So maybe it's not just a few weeks maybe it's few months #at least i hope

[doodlingwren]

Dropping some updates :) Currently I'm still very much busy, sorry for the wait <3 I'll be back as soon as I finish my exams and assignments!

#wren text tag #currently one exam is done AND GONE #the one I thought I was going to take at the beginning of June has been once again moved #to guess what July in the same week of that other exam #I still have to complete the portfolio and that goddamn short for class #visually I thought “yeah let's overfixate on this for the next few months” in the very vague hope to finish it by May and then be FREE #I was obv lying to myself #sorry if I'm still inactive <3 but I am very busy 😞😞 #and tired. Mostly tired actually #HOWEVER I've been cooking stuff ☝🤓 #like... I planned things for future stuff... I have ideas... I will abuse the power of creating drawings in the near future #Alright <3333 see you all in a bit

[zahnffxiv]

hrothtober day 29: future there's no telling what really awaits us in the future. but over the years i've been lucky enough to face things alongside some allies who've become dear to me. so… if things can continue like this, i guess i've nothing to fear!!

#ffxiv #hrothgar #gpose #hrothtober #hrothtober 2023 #well. this is the one i was planning since near the beginning #i got asked if i was gonna do another sentimental shot like last year's treasure so #i guess that's becoming another theme i fit into the month somewhere #this is the second time i worked on a shot with a bunch of characters in it and i didn't really plan it out that much in advance #which i have learned i probably want to do #anyway. these are fourteen players i've bonded with in ff...fourteen #only two of them haven't been a part of my seven-year long static but one of them has subbed here-and-there #and the other has subbed a couple times but was also part of the group of us that were able to go to fanfest 2023 #part of me wishes i could've included more but... fourteen felt right

[shadowglens]

lilah growing her hair as a form of healing, as proof that her body is capable of growth and life after so much death. lilah gaining weight slowly, in bits and pieces, over the years as a symbol of her life becoming stable and safe. lilah's skin becoming more suntanned, less death-pale, as a sign that she has fought back against the cursed blood in her veins. for a few years at least, lilah looking healthy and content and happy.

#oc tag #ch: lilah mahariel #all of this is before she starts hearing the calling near the start of dai 😩 #but we will ignore that fact for a little bit ok? ok? 😭 #she never quite shakes the marks of the taint from the eluvian #her brown eyes are still streaked with quicksilver #her veins are still tinged black rather than blue if you look close enough #she's still littered with scars #but she gets 10 years or so of relative peace #before she starts getting the faintest inkling of her calling #a normal warden has 30ish years alistair had always said #but what about wardens who were tainted and on the verge of death when they completed the joining? #who's blood was already pumping with blight long before drinking darkspawn blood from a chipped silver goblet? #i imagine it at least shaves the life expectancy in half #at /least/ #she gets 10-11 years before it begins to come for her #or at least - before the dreams start to get worse again (like they were during the blight) #the singing ... the singing comes later when she and fenarel are long lost to the west #if she'd left it be i imagine she would've got to about 15 years give or take 6 months before it claimed her for good

[poptartmochi]

however.. it's not just blorbo thoughts that haunt me with that song... it's teacher thoughts too! 🤯

#for the past few months I've been going back and forth about whether i want to teach middle or high school #and this is nowhere near a deciding factor #BUT... consider the following with me.. performing one version as a mass piece at the beginning of the year with the full choir and then. #🤌🏻 #at the end of the year doing the other with just the seniors because they have become the old man who will never again pass this way 😭 #i feel like dickau's would be better as a mass piece because of it's more relaxed rhythms. the chords sound fuller than macdonald's which #would probably sound nicer with all hands on deck! and then macdonald's more rhythmically challenging arrangement would be cool for the #seniors 😁 but this is to my untrained and pretty rusty ear so 🕴️ we'll see how i feel when i go back to school #another idea I've entertained is giving each class a like. Challenge Song their freshman year and recording it‚ then reprising it their #senior year and letting them compare their performances to reflect their growth as musicians.. i think that would be really cool :] #i dont think i could conduct the bridge builder with that in mind though.. id start crying lol! but i think it is fundamental as a choir #student to watch your director cry in the middle of a song+ continue on as if nothing was happening #but anyhow idk man.. the idea of working with high schoolers to really build up their musicality and prepare them for the world is very #appealing to me but you can't be a musician without the foundations which i could establish in middle school #and foundations are very fun to teach as well!! but foundations can be taught in a beginning choir course or during summer camp #so 😩 #the music i want to direct is all satb which suits high school better. but is it selfish to choose which way to go based on what music you #like? 🕴️🕴️ the contemplations man.... anyhow i have a lot more growing and learning and Studying to do before this will even matter #can't prepare kids for the world when I've scarcely explored it myself! #sriracha.txt

[lesflaya]

“People don’t actually speak that way in real life” ok well maybe i love the theatre maybe I love the DRAMA

#Madi.txt #seriously like I know people don’t talk like they’re in therapy or like they’re on a stage but maybe it’s fun to watch people perform #maybe characters performing is more interesting to me than a realistic depiction of day to day #obviously it depends on the media but #pmmm is one of my fav things ever because of its descent (ascent?) from day to day into a grand performance art #like the beginning is realistic in its portrayals of how young girls talk to each other (as much as anime can be tbh.I have my issues W it) #but once you near the end and ESPECIALLY once u hit the movies the way characters speak to each other and act becomes like an old play #with all this flowery prose and metaphor #and it’s such a great transition that fits within the story itself so you barely even notice the transition #(unless you watch it ever like 5 months like I do) #it’s SUCH a treat #anyway I should go see a play irl again

[birlwrites]

my shortest prose work on ao3 is 253 words. my longest will cap out around 450k if we're LUCKY. oh god 😭

#well if it caps out around 450k then it'll probably only take me another 2 years to finish writing it #and then we move on to THE NEXT PART OF THE SERIES #this crisis is mainly because i didn't get much sleep we'll be fine everything will be fine #that math isn't mathing though. hang on #40 chapters = 150k #450k = ~120 chapters #now if i updated absolutely every week without fail that would take me a little over 2 years to post #we're already nearing 10 months in but at the beginning i was posting every other week iirc #ok maybe the math is mathing #all i can do is just keep swimming #like i can make predictions but the important thing is. write it #we've already gotten this far we just need to do this again x times until the series is completed #dark lord wip

[agents-are-dicks]

If my cat doesn’t rip open her stitches it’ll be a miracle

#how do cat owners do this??? #like girl you just had major surgery- chill tf out #it’s already bleeding slightly #thankfully we have a semi cheap emergency clinic near us #we just gotta make it nine more days #we’re getting two of the boys fixed next month but I’m beginning to think one at a time is best bc I can’t take this anxiety

[paradigmsofbrittaperry]

okay so the day before Red (Taylor’s Version) dropped, I told a guy that I didn’t want to be his girlfriend while in a Zaxby’s drive thru and then had to kick him out of my apartment before midnight because he wouldn’t get off my couch and kept talking about how I was a turning point in his character arc. the day before Midnights dropped, I had a meeting with my former major’s department head about quitting an internship that had been falsely advertised and was essentially a warehouse job instead of a digital marketing position, and he tried to bribe me into staying in the program by offering to call in favors to give me the best internship he could find without the need to interview for it. quite frankly, I’m terrified to see what’s gonna happen to me the day before Speak Now (Taylor’s Version) drops.

#like literally what's gonna happen #i've had two bfs this year and broke up with one of them near the beginning of this month #so a break up isn't on the table rn #most of my friends have s/o's so i don't think anything's gonna happen there #however comma there's a specific thing that could happen with a certain specific situation that would be catastrophic enough to fit in #will update you all if nothing happens or if i have the craziest day of my whole entire life #bri speaks #taylor swift

[currentlyonstandbi]

getting strangely emotional over my physio saying that unless something else happens, we don't need to see each other anymore

#not to sound corny but i think its because i genuinely feel indebted to them #like the me of 2 months ago had basically given up on recovery #i was willing to accept this as the new normal for the rest of my life and live with having fucked it all up in my 20s lmao #looking back on it now is crazyyyyy #i mean im not 100% recovered and i dont think i ever will be #thats just the nature of the injury #its still going to have flare ups and there might be a limit now on what my body is capable of as a result #but its nowhere near what it used to be #and i gotta look at the positives too. core strength has never been better because that was all i could work on in the beginning #and my running has improved massively because it was one of the few activities i could manage #im optimistic i guess. im hopeful but also at the same time absolutely terrified of going backwards #personal

[icewindandboringhorror]

just out of curiosity I saved all of my worldbuilding slideshows as plain text then copied the text into a text editor that actually has a word count function, and it was too long to even put in one document without getting an error gfhvhvh... total is 323,390, and this doesn’t count the additional ones I’m not done with yet but am waiting on... these are just the like 5 slideshows I’m working on turning into videos... e v i l 

#NO WONDER IT TAKES me so long to film edit and record all of my reading these powerpoints.. I'm like.. basically making an audio book of #novel length text #actually looking it up a lot of novels are like 80.000 - 150.000 words so this is like.. maybe 2-3 novels #read audibly then edited in video and so on and do forth #*so forth #Which like . I know this. I'm aware of this. that like.... I have typed a lot of text about my world and stuff like that #but just knowing in your head that its a lot vs. seeing actual numbers is like .. oughh #especially knowing that it's all stuff to read out loud or whatever and make into videos. #If I counted all the other random stuff like documents on my computer or whaterver that I'm not actually using in anything at this point... #anyway still not making much progress on the slideshow reading videos at the moment since I've been feeling sick still and #Having Problems as always unfortunately. but it's something I still really really want to get done near the beginning of the year #at least so its not an everlooming burden task of like.. insurmountable purportions #I just have to chip away at recording bit by bit lol. #on top of all the other things. I still have costumes I want to do and etc. T o T #I wish health problems didn't throw off my productivity so much but.. alas.. my body cannot cope with pain signals and stuff well #even a minor problem sends it into Uh Oh mode and then I can't focus on anything else. I am.. trying.. though aaaaa #slowly working through my 'to get done before 2023' todo list . even though it's already nearly february lol #maybe I'll finish the list by march hjbhj *** #Being usually about 2 months behind on my goals sounds about right.

[bunathebunny]

suddenly a lot of bad things are happening to me at work i'm worried about my job

maybe i should start job hunting again. just in case...

#like... 2 months is kinda new right??? #very sus that 2 months is considered not new?? #like i just joined near the end of aug and now it's only the beginning of oct?? #probably should renew my cv

[47-protons]

Someday i will figure out how to put into good words a thing i have had ping ponging in my head since i figured out that tazercraft was two guys and not a mysterious sixth user that i just COULD NOT find

#had pac had mike and was going ????? so that makes Five who the hell is TAZ3RCRAFT (< bc i did not Know Them they were New i have since- #-figured it out we're good) ((hasty 3 E to. dodge maintags. godbless)) #they are. i Get It. together since you were kids i have known my best friend since we were itty bitty i Cannot imagine a life without them #they're planning on leaving the state. i adore my state i am a kansan first and foremost america does not BEGIN to enter the picture #my heart mind and soul belong to the plains and my State. but if Al wanted to leave (and they do) i am Going. i think i could last... Maybe #six months. tops. before i'd start to wither away a little bit emotionally. #i don't think i've Ever gone a full six months without seeing them in person. maybe MAYBE during covid. maybe. because i still had to work #and i'd drive by their house and honk sometimes. #sorry. hi. unlabeled extremely close ''genuinely makes me believe in the concept of a soulmate'' relationship w someone you've had for as- #-long as you can remember? yeah. yeah. yeaheyahyeah #i am shaking hands w their characters across the barrier between fiction reality languages and culture i am Shaking their hands hi I Get It #the time i almost died one of my first memories After is holding Al's hand. second to that is the feeling of being Soaked- #-and also the concrete was Really warm on my shoulders and i didn't like it. we love near drownings <3 #((i was 8 it's been ages i'm fine))

[glow-in-the-dark-death]

A Week (He Will Take You)

~

Danny moved to Gotham for school, while there he noticed that Gotham's ambient ecto was really murky for lack of a better word.

This didn't really affect him too much besides a mild headache every once in a while but that also just might be stress from all his school work so maybe not.

Anyway

This murky ecto seemed to effect the people who lived there or more importantly the ghosts,

They were visible to the human eye like most ghosts back in Amity but instead of looking very much like a ghost they still looked like humans if a bit off putting.

They all seemed to be continuing their normal lives as if still fully alive, with the people around them none the wiser.

Danny noticed this and began approaching them to figure out what was going on.

Apparently the murky ecto in the city had made it so that they were strong enough to still continue a somewhat normal life but not be able to cross over to the GZ.

In other words they were stuck in Gotham

Danny was the Ghost King so he could easily fix this problem, all he needed to do was give them a bit of pure ecto for around a week to fully stabilize them them then he would just open a portal into the GZ and they could cross over with all their things also transferring into the GZ for their new haunt.

Unfortunately this looked rather worrying to an outsider,

Imagine you're used to your neighbor being very outgoing so you and others see them a lot suddenly this man seems to appear in their life out of nowhere an at exactly one week, your neighbor and all their belongings in their home disappear no trace to be found.

You tell people and they begin saying the same story they knew someone and them a man with black hair and blue eyes appeared in their life, then they and all their things disappear in exactly one week.

Of course the police in Gotham do the bare minimum so they're no help.

But it starts to begin a trend, especially online.

"Oh careful or the blue eyed man will make you disappear in a week"

This of course after time catches the bats attention, Gordon had already given them all the information he had.

"Young adult early twenties, dark hair, blue eyes"

That was it.

The bats look into it and from their point of view Danny is a serial killer.

But they can't find the connection between all of his victims, they range from young children and the elderly from different backgrounds absolutely no connection,

Worrying enough he doesn't just make one person disappear he has taken entire families up to over a dozen, without anyone figuring out how he's doing it or why at all.

The disturbing thing also being that he seems to take everything in their home, leaving it like it has always been empty

Like no one had been living in it.

People have tried to take photos of Danny get some kind of evidence of his existence, but when they try to do it, it either comes out completely corrupted or their devise simply shuts down fully.

Danny of course has no clue what is happening he's just happy that he's able to help so many ghosts, and is trying not to fail his exams.

~

Danny leaving the house he just helped: "That went easier than I expected!"

Neighbor peeking from the window: "Shit it's that guy! "

~

Red Hood marching down into the cave: " The fucker took many from my territory without me even realizing it!"

~

Tim: "I'm pretty sure his kill count is nearing the hundreds and he just started like maybe 4 months ago, this is bad."

Barbara: " I think I got a theory, this matches up with the new school year beginning so maybe their not a Gotham native which narrows down my suspect list."

Bruce: "Hn."

Tim: "Yes thank you B for the insightful commentary"

~

Danny trying not to fall asleep while on his way to class: "Strange I keep seeing shadows following me, oh well must be the stress!"

Bats who are pretty sure Danny is the killer: "Has he done anything suspicious yet?"

~

Just an Idea

#dp x dc #danny phantom #dc x dp #dpxdc #batman #danny fenton #dp x dc crossover #dc x dp crossover #prompt fill #story prompt #prompts #writing prompt #dp #ghost #ghosts

[nandermoenthusiast]

life is kicking my ass this year

#text pots #like theres so much growth happening all at once but my anxiety levels are constantly at un unbereable level #i also sleep very little at night and am always exhausted #and i hate that there is so much i cant do right now #i just want this period of my life to be over so i can like. chill and blog and journal and do all the things i usually do #i havent posted anything on here in 2 weeks and i hate it #i havent journaled in months and i hate it #idk man im just always always reeling from all the things i have to do in my free time #first of all emptying my grandmas house to go live there and you gotta decide between paints and find a place for all the forniture you #dont want or her billion paintings on the walls and then buy a sofa and a bed and maybe some shelves for your books but its all so #overwhelming and you dont like. you dont even really know where to begin #because emptying it is the most important thing but your dad gets choked up every time you try to do anything substantial #and i just feel so tired so so so so tired #in the meantime like i have had a dream of resuming driving for like 5 years and i finally started again ive been driving for 4 months #but god its so challenging #and its really hard for me sometimes to see pedestrians in some of the most downtown crossings like sometimes i feel they are just showing #up out of nowhere ! and it makes me so paranoid #ive had to brake suddenly a few times and it almost gave me a heart attack #im so afraid to hurt someone even though i drive real slow near crossings like im barely moving #so I wouldnt really hurt anyone but. yk im just anxious about accidentally bumping some pedestrian #and the lack of sleep is not helping me #and god i just wanna be done with all of it #mostly the house #please please please i need to be done i am stressing myself so much #im sorry to barge in after two weeks where the most i could do was like posts i see on my dash and leave them in my likes to be rbd later #when ill feel better #and even then like. even when i have some shred of free time #im so tired i just wanna stare at the ceiling #or obsess over which lamp or credenza to buy or which shade to get a piece of furniture #i hate myself ♥️ also this probably wasnt the best time to start going to the gym but im doin that too ✌️