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theshimadaslovers · 10 months

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Hiii!!! How are you?

First I want to say that I love everything you write, and that I am a complete SIMP of your story "Cakes for Reaper".

And second, I wanted to know if you would be willing to write an Inspired By Art with this image...

If you don't want to write it thats okay too, I send you a lot of hugs and kisses🥰❤

AAAWWW Thank you so much! I saw your repost! This is so sweet! ❤❤ And I love that pic so much ;^; I'm so glad that IBA is working! 🌹💪

Obs; I GOT 2 VERSIONS (Maybe more?) FOR THAT IBA 😈

IBA - INSPIRED BY ART

VERSION 1

A FRIEND

Summary: Genji is trying to make Hanzo make new friends after got into Overwatch. Both were sitting at the garden of a big house in a mountain that Overwatch stays on the weekends when there's no mission.

Hanzo- I don't need friends, Genji. Let just meditate, please!

Genji- But you neeed!

Hanzo- But I don't want too!

Genji- I don't fucking care if you want or not! You neeeeed!

Hanzo- Friends doesn't help in anything! How many times you came to me as kid complaining about your "friends"?

Genji- Hey! Some of them was nice!

Hanzo- "some" of them?

Genji- Everybody had once a fake friend! The FFF!

Hanzo- ....F...F...F?

Genji- Yeah, is for Fucking Fake Friend.

Hanzo- *sighs* right...friends are headaches.

Genji- Hey! What about...Tracer?

Hanzo- Talk to much.

Genji- Mercy?

Hanzo- Just talk about medicine.

Genji- Wha...? Ok...aaah, Brigitte?

Hanzo- Nice but...wait, why you're only picking the girls?!

Genji- Ok ok! Rein?

Hanzo- Too loud! Energetic!

Genji- If you keep looking only to those things you'll never have one! This is obvious! Cassidy?

Hanzo- Can you just stop?!

You- Guys? *looking at both holding a tray* Are you guys fighting again?

Genji- No! He's just a stubborn!

Hanzo- *frozed after looking at you*

You- *laughs* Of course he's a stubborn, Genji, he's your brother *approaches and put the tray with tea and cake between them* You're the same.

Genji- I'm not stubborn, come on! *silence* just a little.

You- Is a family thing *chuckles sitting together* I bring some cake that I made it...by the way, what are you guys talking about?

Hanzo- Genji want me to have friends...*roll eyes*

You- You don't have?

Genji- He said that "No! I don't want friends! I hate people!" *making a funny impression*

Hanzo- I don't sound like that and I didn't said that I hate people!

You- *chuckles* I'm not your friend, Han?

Hanzo- I...I don't want to sound rude but...I don't know if I should.

Genji- You know what? Deal with him, y/n...*pick up the cake and the tea* I'll eat in peace. *get out of there* What I stubborn dickhead....

You- *looking him go* So....*back to Hanzo* Why are you so afraid?

Hanzo- I'm not afraid...I just don't need that friendship stuff.

You- Well...you're a lonely wolf, aren't you? *smile*

Hanzo- Hm...I guess I am.

You- You know a lonely wolf can't survive for too long, right? He needs to find a family.

Hanzo- *sighs* I survived until now...I like my solitude.

You- I like mine too...*sit close to him looking at the view* But, sometimes I need someone to spend time together, gossiping...make fun, playing games... is cool. Is not with everyone, of course, is only with who makes me comfortable.

Hanzo- ...*look at you* Like me?

You- Yes.

Hanzo- But...why?

You- Because your aura is good and comfortable to stay around.

Hanzo- *chuckles* Sometimes, you sound like Zenyatta.

You- *laughs* Maybe I'm spending too much time with him!

Hanzo- Keep spending...he's a good master. So...I'm...a comfortable zone?

You- For me, yes. You're a good man, Han. I hope someday you have that knowledge of yourself.

Hanzo- Good...*sighs* After all I've done, how could you?

You- Hanzo, this is past...*sighs looking at him* Stays where it belongs, in the past. The memories, traumas, can be worked out.

Hanzo- I was a terrible human being, y/n! I killed people and my bro-! *looked away closing his eyes* I harmed so many innocents...I was in a mafia! My family...my reputation...my honour...

You- Dosen't matter now, Shimada...What matter is what those traumas made you be who you're now! You changed...you fought for so long. You deserve to be loved. *hold his hand making him look at you a little lost in how to react* You. Are. A. Good. Man.

Hanzo- What makes me that man?

You- *smiles* You want me to say it? Well...you love to help and care, you're gently, patient, helpful, a golden heart man. Is a man that, I knew, since the first time I saw you, I knew how broken that man was. You're broken, Han, but doesn't mean that you're villain or good, you're just human. Be broken is being human.

Hanzo- *looking at you listening to every word*

You- The Hanzo Shimada of ten years ago is not the same one now. Everything that happened there, doesn't matter now.

Hanzo- But...I killed my own brother...*you could see his eyes watering for your surprise*

You- It wasn't you...You told me your side of the story and I promise one thing to you, Han, my friend... it wasn't you. They did that, they must die for that! You didn't have a choice.

Hanzo- I...! *look away*

You- *smiles* Hey, you trusted me to tell your story, you darkest secrets...this is friendship, you know?

Hanzo- *look at you again*

You- Why me, Han? You could have told that to anybody.

Hanzo- *silence*...I...trust you. That's all.

You- Are you sure?

Hanzo- ....*cleans throat* You...Is...! Is just you. I like you.

You- *giggles* I like you too, Hanzo, that's why you're my friend! And...trust me, ok? *put the hand on his shoulder* I'll be here even in your darkest times. I'll never disappoint you.

Hanzo- *blush looking at you* Arigatou...*sighs* I didn't knew that you think like that.

You- I only express my feelings and thoughts when needed.

Hanzo- When I...said...that I like you I...I mean it. *blushing harder and hold the cloth of his pants*

You- Oh...! *blush* Wh-what? Really? Wait! You mean...! Lo...ve?

Hanzo- I guess so...?

You- Well, maybe is just a admiration?

Hanzo- Maybe...*looking away*

You- So...when you look at me, what comes in your mind?

Hanzo- *sighs and close his eyes* Hm... I can't tell, is a mix of feelings. I can't pick one.

You- *laughs* It's ok...but I like you too, Hanzo, for real *kiss his cheek* Remember, I'll be here, always *gets up* And eat the cake.

Hanzo- *looking at the view while you go away*... *look at the cake...it was his favorite one, the white strawberry cake* ....!!! *hide his burning blushed face km his hands(pic)* She's so cute...! Why my heart is so stupidly fast?! I want to marry her! Oh my dragons...! I hate her for that....! *sighs and go back to normal* ....*giggling and slap his face* Stop it! Idiot! *silence and look at the cake making him smile again* Well...I guess I finally gain something meaningful in my life...love. *pick up the cake*

I can't wait for the version 2 💪 hope you like it!

#she/her #overwatch #overwatch x reader #fem!reader #overwatch fanfiction #overwatch x you #hanzo shimada #hanzo x you #genji shimada

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nctyena · 1 year

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Sleepover

Time: After NCT 2018 Emphaty Era (before We Go Up)

Warnings// Mentioning of usage of alcohol uunderage, not proofread, lmk if there are more

"Where is she?"

"I don't know. She texted me a few minutes ago. I guess her manager got suspicious."

"God. I knew we couldn't make it."

The two boys' conversation was cut with the door sound.

"Yena!"

Hearing the girl's name they made their way to the others.

"Where have you been?"

"I couldn't get rid of the unnie. She was about to call your manager."

While Yena was settling her stuff all the boys gathered in the living room.

After all the promotions and performances they couldn't spend time as they used to. Since Yena, Haechan and Mark weren't staying in the dorm with others it didn't help them either.

So Mark came up with an idea. Having a sleepover without managers sticking around or without the other members. Just the dreamies. It wasn't easy to convince their managers so they lied a bit.

"I'm glad you made it noona."

"Me too. It's gonna be our first sleepover right?"

"Yeah. At least the first time with eight of us only."

"Thanks to you Mark."

She blew a dramatic kiss. Mark faked a disgusted face.

Jaemin gasped and drove everyone's attention.

"Guys! We don't have an adult with us right now. You know what that means right?"

"Jaemin, I am the adult here."

"Mark hyung can you stop? What were you saying Jaemin?"

Mark pushed Haechan's shoulder.

"Anyways, I'm saying that we can do whatever we want."

Seeing the expression on his older member's face he kept talking faster.

"Hyung listen to me. You won't be with us like this God knows for how long. Please let us enjoy this night. Let's have a voting to decide. Please. Please."

"Oh my God! Okay okay."

"I'm glad that I'm on the same side with him. Jeez breath Jaemin."

Jeno nodded to show his agreement.

"Don't push the limit though, okay? What do you want to do?"

"Let all of us suggest one thing. Starting from the oldest."

"Hyung?"

"Okay, I want to watch a movie all together."

"Boring."

"Also I want to beat Yena."

"Hey! You just said not to cross the line. I'm your little sister."

"Anyway. Renjun your turn."

"Let's write a song together. We can even sing it. Mark hyung can help us."

"So you want us to cry. I like it."

"It's my turn."

"Go on Jeno."

"I want us to have a battle. It can be a wrestle game or dance battle."

"Yes let's wrestle. I've lived enough."

"Yena don't be dramatic."

"Yeah... I can beat some of you."

Before the arguments start Mark stopped them.

"Moving on! Yena what's your's?"

"I want to try alcohol."

"We don't have anything to drink."

"Mark is old enough to buy some."

They all turned to look at him. After some convincing and begging Mark accepted buying only one bottle of soju.

"It will be a light one. I can't deal with your drunk asses."

"After we drink, I want to play truth or dare."

"Are we really going to do that?"

"Yes Jeno, we are doing this."

"Jaemin?"

"I want to have a real sleepover. Let's sleep in the living room. All of us."

He looked at Yena as if asking for her opinion.

"It's fine for me. But I'm definitely sleeping next to Jisung."

"Jisung and me, you mean."

She shrugged. Mark shoke his head while smiling.

Chenle and Jisung said that they didn't have any ideas since they made a good list. They first had some food to eat. Eight young teens started their sleepover. That night was going to remain as a normal and simple one in their minds. Since they couldn't have those kind of laid back times often.

Around four a.m Jisung, Renjun and Yena were already asleep. Then they ended the night like they planned. Sleeping all together in the same room. It wasn't the most comfortable sleep they'd had but it was one of the most peaceful one for sure.

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cosmicbrowniefan · 2 years

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this is for the ship game! i didn't originally plan on participating but the way you have written all of the answers has been beautiful so here we go!!

my pronouns are he/they

i'm 5'6

my hair is dark blonde, but definitely a warm shade! almost ginger depending on the lighting

my eyes are blue and my skin is quite fair (i also blush super easily)

i'm a bit chubby but also kinda muscular? like a dad bod i guess

i have dimples and glasses as well as a few piercings (3 ear piercings and a septum piercing)! i also have 3 tattoos

i just generally indentify as queer, i'm comfortable being shipped with anybody!

i'm introverted

i've been described as funny and caring, also extremely sarcastic haha,, i've also been told that if i was a colour i'd be yellow!

my hobbies include everything music related as well as reading and being a nerd

DO enjoy: stars, nighttime, the ocean, tea, long walks, the moon, long conversations, alone time, dogs (!!!!!), swimming, jumpers, calm and peaceful activities, listening to people rant about their interests

DON'T enjoy: crowds, hot weather, running, thunder, noisy environments

i ship you with...

will byers!

how you met: you got a job for a summer at melvald’s general store (same place joyce works). joyce was a really sweet woman, and she talked about her two sons and her daughter all the time. you had just moved to hawkins and when she asked how old you were, she got very excited to tell you that you’d be in the same grade as her son will and her daughter el. you thought it was sweet how excited she was, and it would be nice to be somewhat familiar with someone at your new school. one day, you were stocking shelves at work, and you heard the bell on the door and some kid walked in, loudly asking for joyce and saying that he couldn’t find his d&d books and she wasn’t picking up the store phone and he absolutely NEEDED them tonight. he rounded the corner into the aisle you were in and you looked up to meet his eyes. he immediately stopped talking and turned red. you just kind of smirked at him and gestured to the next aisle over. he muttered a thank you and went over to see his mom. and that was how you met mr. william byers.

his first impression of you: will was intimidated by you initially. not in a bad way, you just looked so cool and badass and put together and he was super intrigued but also beyond terrified to make a move. he thought your tattoos and piercings were really attractive but also that made him slightly terrified because how the HECK did you tolerate all that pain?? however, when you guys started talking, he realized that you were really just a big teddy bear and he immediately got more comfortable with you.

how you got together: so one of will’s favorite habits is to go to local pet shelters and play with the animals like once a week. he wishes more than anything that he could take them all home, but since he can’t, this is the next best thing. well, when you found out he did this, you insisted that he take you next time he went, so he did. the first animal you guys visited was his favorite dog there, a really old golden retriever named plankton (yeah, after spongebob). will couldn’t help but blush and smile at seeing how cute you interacting with him was. you caught will staring and asked him what was up, and will, suddenly getting a burst of confidence, said, “would it be totally crazy if i kissed you right now?” and yeah. it wasn’t totally crazy. and that’s how you guys got together :)

what he likes most about you: will likes just how much you appreciate and love life. you can find the good in anything and everything, but you’re not a toxically positive person. he loves hearing you talk about what you love, and the idea to him that he’s one of those things that you enjoy so much just has him head over HEELS. physically, he loves your tattoos and piercings. you just look so badass and it is DEFINITELY making will feel some kinda way.

what you guys enjoy doing together: you guys like going on drives at night and finding random parking lots to hang out in. while you’re there, you both vent about your days, or just talk about anything you really want to. a lot of times, will brings his sketchbook and will draw quietly while he listens to you talk. sometimes you guys also just blast some feel good music and lean the seats back and hold hands, not really saying much, but never feeling calmer together.

bonus headcanon: you are 110% everyone’s favorite couple. you two are both human rays of sunshine and everyone is BEYOND ecstatic that you guys are together. let’s be honest, they were all worried that you would both end up in bad relationships or being taken advantage of for your kindness or something like that, but luckily, you were not. they were all slightly surprised when you guys got together (you just seemed to be best friends more than anything else, initially), but the more they thought about it, it totally made sense and they can’t help but just melt at the thought of you guys together.

#stranger things #stranger things ship game #stranger things ships #reader x stranger things #stranger things x reader #cosmicbrowniefan ship game #cosmicbrowniefan asks #i ship you with #i ship you with stranger things #reader insert #will byers

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sleepyhaed · 2 years

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i've come to a realization. it's a very sad sort of realization i would say but i would like to share it so that maybe someone else would suffer even just a little bit less than i have. some people believe that people die when it's their time.. and as for what i'm about to say well.. i guess it doesn't exactly go against that but i don't really agree or like that saying.. I once watched a show that I have of course forgotten the name of because my brain is an old man.. but anyways in this show this girl gets a magic lipstick from her grandma that lets her time travel so when her grandma dies she of course goes back to save her but soon realizes that she can not and her grandma is destined to die no matter what she does. i think it's like that. When someone dies, even if we had magic powers of time traveling or creating multiple universes just to try again and again to save the one we love.. we simply could not.. in the case of the death that I'm slowly trying to heal from it was their choice. I have wondered again and again and again and again and then six million times more so if someone had said the words they had so desperately wanted to hear.. if that would have truly reached them.. and in my heart I don't believe it would have. I don't think anything on earth could have made a difference once they had made that decision. I was imagining, before writing this, a situation like a video game.. of where I could sort of play and try to fix everything.. but i just know nothing would change.. I guess I'm not really sure how this is supposed to help anyone or be comforting or help you grieve really.. but for me personally i think maybe.. just maybe I can move on, even if it's one step. I'm not really a type who believes in heaven or hell or anything but I do like to think reincarnation is a thing so I hope in some life we can all have peace and love and spend a long long time together.. it'll be okay. i know things hurt a lot and grieving can take a long time. don't rush it. do it at your own pace. um yeah.. is it weird to say i love you here ? haa 😅 i hope the pain goes away soon and you feel lighter.. thanks for reading. i basically just wanted to say like it's not your fault and we couldn't have done anything because sometimes we blame ourselves for silly things or overthink things or idk.. but just know it'll all be okay. i promise.

#tw death

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stylistiquements · 3 years

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Day 1 : Soap Bubbles.

𐐪𐑂 Pairing : Sapnap x fem!reader {Playlist}

𐐪𐑂 Summary : You're being introduce to the internet in a peculiar way, it's up to you to decide what you're going to do with it.

𐐪𐑂 Word count : 1.4k | W: written part underneath

𐐪𐑂 Warning : very few swears

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.・゜゜・　　・゜゜・　　 .・゜゜・　　・゜゜・

The coffee that sinks inside your stomach brings out a grimace and a click of your tongue where the taste stains; too bitter, too acidic but you’ll drink it anyway and to the last drop; there is something about the idea of spending time with three best friends that is so made of spring and honey that you wish to miss none of it.

“Someone is lurking,” George contemplates out loud, and the call goes silent for a second as if to look for the intruder. And it would so easy to flinch, to hit the back pedal, because you almost feel like one being exposed front stage like that. But today- today is not that day.

It's not that you don't want to join the discussion, it's that it takes a second to warm up, to absorb the energy and become one with it.

And sometimes, all it takes is Sapnap to exclaim, “Panini head, my beloved!” for your smile synchronizes with his chuckles. Somehow, once noticed by the right person, life flows back naturally.

George and Dream greets you in trailing unison, like two kids forced to greet their unwelcomed aunt on a sunday afternoon.

“H-hey troublemakers,” you finally say. Your voice is still quiet, not reluctant, but rather uncertain. It doesn't bother anyone.

“I’m beating Dream’s ass at chess and he’s bitter,” Sap explains, and you silently nod, as if they were able to see you.

A long silence follows along, rythmed by clicks of mouses and keyboards and it falls in your ears like high droplets. It's comfortable. It's intimate, shared with friends only.

"We haven't heard from you in a while," Dream says. "I mean ... before the clout fiasco."

You wouldn't exactly call it a fiasco, even though you don't really like the idea of being perceived a little too closely from the eyes of twitter.com, but you do agree anyway, "I've been caught up on college essays lately."

"That sucks," George probably adds.

“Good thing you’re here, then,” Dream notes, simple as a breath. “This is a worry-free zone.”

It hovers for a second, carried by George’s approval hum.

You squint suspiciously, detective mode, at the profile pictures that light on and off before your eyes, “Thanks, dream.”

He scoffs a “sure” and you’re not sure why you sense a bit of irony stuck on the back of his teeth. You're so tempted to call him out, but you don't. Instead, you write a mental note of this odd moment.

“It’s because I told him about your three brothers and now he’s scared they’re gonna find him and kick his ass,” Sap explains as if he just read your mind.

Sometimes, there’s this thing in the air, though you’re miles away. Something like a connection. There’s this thing when you don’t need to talk for Sap to understand. Sharing one brain cell, you dismiss ironically. Probably coincidences and predictability, but it always sounds a little special, a little like something you’d wish to be out of this world, like morning dew and fairy circles. And it makes you feel safe, at home, just like snuggling up in the sheets during a stormy night. Your smile washes up the sleeve of your hoodie, covered palm carefully hiding your chuckles.

“Three older brothers,” George muses, and there’s no telling if it’s something meant for you to hear. “That’s kinda scary.”

“You better be scared, one of them is probably your FBI agent,” you tease mindlessly, though there's nothing scary about those three grown men.

“I’m British, Bunny,” he points out. Whether the exasperation in his tone is fake or genuine, that, you can’t tell, but you play it cool, grin carved so deep it almost hurts. Dream’s wheezes rise and fall in the background.

“Say that to his face then,” you outbid smirkingly after a second of silence, heels growing into the carpet to make your chair spin slowly left and right, so breezily.

“I’d praise you for the rest of my life if you-Oooooooh your ass is wacked. Your ass is so wacked, dude. You fucked up so bad,” Sapnap chokes out between strings of giggles.

“Oh no, my streamer is losing his game?” You theatrically pout. “My streamer Dreamwastaken, have you met him? Guess you don’t need any of my brothers to kick your ass.”

“Okay yeah- no- it’s not my fault if your- they’re distracting me, okay?” Dream defends.

Slowly, the energy lowers again and the call remembers peace as Dream admits defeat.

“I’m not playing against you anymore,” he mumbles through greeted teeth, your hoodie shelters a muffled giggle. “Let’s talk about y/n’s twitter fame instead.”

“Let’s just not-” you mutter, both because seeing Dream lose at something is a miracle that has to be witnessed once and because you’re somewhat reluctant. “Let’s just not talk about that.”

“Yeah, sorry about that. I had no idea it would draw this much attention to you,” Sap admits.

“Well, you talk about her all the time it was only a matter of time before twitter finds out,” George taunts and you secretly smile, listening to the way your best friend tries to defend himself, mind flooded with the last memories you have of when you were able to see those chuckles for real.

“Yeah, Quackity already told me you guys talk behind my back,” you fakely muse. “That’s totally fine, I don’t wanna know what you guys are talking about at all.” It’s a lie, obviously, the idea creeps upon your mind with assumptions you can’t quite get a grip of nor let go.

“You and Quackity talk?’ Sapnap asks, hint of surprise, and you hum.

“Or rather, he talks to me. He keeps calling-.” Shit. The forsaken word traps itself into your mouth. It’s too silly anyway.

“Come on, just say it,” Dream pushes as if he knew too much, more than you even do, and your cheeks flush mindlessly. You don’t notice.

“Dream, quit it!” You demand.

“Quit what?”

“You talk as if you knew more than anyone did.”

“Maybe I just do,” he coos, so dream-like.

Oblivious or careless, Sapnap asks, “Is Quackity bothering you or something?”

“He-" you begin but stop to look for the right way to put it, "He triggers my flight or fight response.”

"I mean, duh," Sapnap probably rolls his eyes.

"But I like him. He's funny."

After a second of silence, George says, “Well that was unexpected.”

“Not so much, I think we’re both chaotic neutral people.”

“What is that neutral chaotic thing anyway?” Dream is confused.

Roll up your sleeve girl boss because now is your time to shine! You offer your best dream smp alignment chart to the classroom. They're speechless, but they listen carefully.

"Then you're more chaotic good than neutral. You're too sweet anyway," Sap says.

"I'd even say lawful good," George debates.

"That's because you haven't seen Bunny during her crazy cat hour."

"True," you note.

"She'll go absolutely batshit."

“What?" George burst between confusion and surprise. "We've never seen you like that."

"A lady never reveal her secrets," you retort. No one answer.

It leaves a second for your mind to enjoy peace. For your eyes to lay on c!tubbo on lawful good and think true, then on c!dream on chaotic evil and think also very true. You huff and it's like a wave; as sarcasm leaves your breath, an idea comes in.

"Sap, check your DMs," you request.

Surrounded by the evening lull, Sapnap’s laugh pops like soap bubbles, "God, you’re so stupid. Why can't you just marry me?"

“So, is it Sapnap approved?” You chuckle lightly to prevent Sapnap’s morning fresh laugh to fill your chest and leak everywhere.

“Just press ‘send tweet’ please,” he confirms with leftovers of a smile in his voice.

"George, get me out of here. They're doing it again," Dream whines.

"Doing what?" He asks, unbothered.

"Act like they're alone in the convo. Just get a room." And you don't get to stand up for yourself that you and your best friend are actually sent to another room.

"Well this one is chaotic evil confirmed," you mumble as you roll your eyes but the vibes are much peaceful, much more comfortable in here. "So ... hi."

"Hi," he chuckles in return.

Maybe that's for the best; a moment that needs to stay a little timeless, secretive and special. It hasn't happened in so long, you don't even remember the last time it did.

"I'm glad you're here. I miss you, you know?" He says, and it's hard to not feel so bittersweet about it. It's hard when longing involves a craved touch, a real smile and an eye contact. Your shoulder sinks in the chair a little harder.

"I miss you too. I'll be here soon," you promise. And soon couldn't come any sooner.

But the conversation, soft and free, will wash up any worries, as always, and you'll end up talking about everything and nothing, about streams and planned videos and college and god knows what. As long as it makes the two of you happy and smiling. Just like the old days, you'll both think and it's fair to say until the evening turns into night and night turns into fatigue.

"Are you sure you're okay about that clout?" He asks once again. "I know you don't like being exposed like that."

"Yeah, yeah don't worry too much about it. I'll try to make good use of it."

"I'm sure you will," he murmurs, but oh boy did he not know what was about to come until you two meet.

.・゜゜・　　・゜゜・　　 .・゜゜・　　・゜゜・

Taglist : @open-minded-chip-101 ; @itsoakaa ; @gaysludge

A/N : so first of all it has come to my attention that 129 days from now on is actually my birthday so that's a weird coincidence lol. Hi how are you guys?? welcome to the first part I hope you liked it. I'm fairly new to the mcyt community and that's the first time I write for them, so bear with me. Feedbacks are always appreciated. Until next time (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc)

#sapnap smau #smau #mcyt smau #sapnap x you #sapnap x reader #sapnap x y/n #sapnap series #129 days #mcyt x you #mcyt x reader #sapnap fluff

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imthatchishiyasimp · 3 years

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Loses and promises

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hi!!! I'm back hehe

It took me a long time to wrap my head around this idea, but I think I like how it turned out. I've been busy with work and I didn't get to post anything this week, I'm sorry.

Also: BIG THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT, THE LIKES AND REBLOGS AND FOLLOWS!!! I didn't, in a million times, thought you would like this THAT much. I really appreciate it, love you so much.

Without further ado, enjoy the read!!

TW: Blood, death and injuries are both mentioned and described

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I knock on his door, hard and fast. Jumping in one foot, I try to keep my balance while I tie my trainer. I rest my back on the door to prevent the obvious fall, and I finish tying the shoe. Except the door suddenly opens and I fall backwards pretty fast with a little scream.

“What the fuck?” He says, catching me by the shoulders and stepping back. “What do you want?” The question rolls with scepticism as he turns me around to face me.

I arch my eyebrows and point my finger to my wrist, simulating the time in a wristwatch.

“Already?” Chishiya hums and crosses his arms. “I must have lost track of time. Have they already made the teams?”

“Yup, and guess who’s going to annoy you for the rest of the night…”

He makes a face that’s supposed to look bothered. And he sure is bothered, he hates having to deal with me during games. But I can see through that. He’s not the only one that hates pairing in games; I do too. Not only because he’s annoying and always acts like he’s the only one worthy of winning, but because I would hate to be involved in a heart’s game with him. I know he would do anything to survive, anything, even if it kills him. And I would too. And he knows it.

“We are leaving in a few minutes. Get ready, you lazy ass” I turn around and head to my room to finish getting ready. I hear his breathy laugh just as he starts closing the door of his room. I might need something to protect myself, or something to get rid of people. Who knows what we will be facing tonight.

The car is full of people and smells like alcohol, drugs and sweat. It’s disgusting and I try to get my face as far as it can go through the window.

“Will you stop moving? It’s pretty uncomfortable and I hate the smell as much as you, so either you make me a place in that window or I throw you off my lap” Chishiya says, calmly and quietly near my ear. My hair blows as his breath leaves his lips and chills run through my body, keeping me so still that it seems as if I turned into rock.

Indeed I am in his lap, and indeed I have been moving. But just because I want to breathe fresh air. Just because of that. Sure. No reason behind.

I laugh, in silence, but I laugh. There were too many people in need of refilling their visas, so we had to pair in greater groups. And I was so not gonna sit in the laps of the horny people overbooking the Beach. So , after a huge fight, I made Chishiya sit under me, in exchange of looking for white hair dye.

I move just a bit more to play with him and I feel him tense under me, his hands coming to my hips. “Okay, okay, I’ll stop” So I move to the edge and get comfortable on his knees, leaving him a small place on the window to put his face.

We watch as the city moves in darkness, leaving behind flashes of light holding game’s arenas. I can hear distant music and screams, gunshots and creepy sounds. Maybe it’s real, maybe it’s my imagination, but I would swear on my visa that they won’t stop when the sun comes up. It’s been so long that even when I close my eyes I can still listen to the people dying in their games. I try to silence them with other things, and sometimes it works, but I’m getting tired of it.

The doors of a forest garden awaits us as we arrive. It’s a closed part of the outskirts of the city, enclosing a private area huge enough to get lost wandering around.

The tables at both sides of the door have the phones and some weapons. There’s no limit entry and it looks like there might be enough phones for the lot of us. There are five other people alongside Chishiya and I. I only know two of them: Hiro, the cook at the Beach, and Ume, a bookish girl that’s always lounging in the silent rooms. The rest look kind of familiar but I don’t remember talking to them.

I get off Chishiya’s lap with a hop and take a phone off the table. It beeps with the facial recognition and just says to wait ten minutes to close the entry.

“Want to bet on the game?” Chishiya asks, nodding to the doors.

“Probably a physical, given that we are so far from the city. So I would say a spade one” I guess. It looks like we will have a big arena, and probably something to run from, if we take into account the weapons.

“Looks like your brain hasn’t died yet” He moves before I can get him with a punch.

“REGISTRATION HAS CLOSED, THERE ARE A TOTAL OF 7 PARTICIPANTS. THE GAME WILL NOW COMMENCE”

All of us gather at the entrance, some of us already with weapons in our hands. I’ve chosen a blade big enough to protect me and some small knives hidden in my top and trainers. I don’t like guns and they run out of ammo quite quickly.

“DIFFICULTY: EIGHT OF SPADES”

“GAME: LABYRINTH”

“RULE: YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO CONTINUE IF YOU DON’T PASS THE TESTS. YOU MUST START ALONE, BUT YOU ARE NOT FORBIDDEN TO PAIR ONCE STARTED THE MAZE”.

“CLEAR CONDITION: FIND YOUR WAY AROUND THE MAZE AND SUCCESSFULLY OPEN THE EXIT DOOR. YOU CLEAR THE GAME WHEN YOU GET THROUGH THE EXIT DOOR”.

“TIME LIMIT: 2 HOURS”.

“AFTER THE 2 HOURS HAVE PASSED, THE MAZE WILL BE SHUT DOWN WITH NO EXIT”.

The doors open and we enter the maze. There are several “starts” written on the floor at the entrance of different passages. The walls are so high that I can’t even try to guess what’s at the top. It’s too dark to see more than a few meters from your hands, and the cold is starting to get annoying.

The seven of us position ourselves one next to each other on the central passages and we wait. No sound can be heard, no light can be seen. It’s creepy as hell. I look sideways and I spot Chishiya lowering his hood and lifting his sleeves. He totally hates running, but you can bet he’s gonna give it all.

“GAME START”

Without hesitation, I sprint into my passage.

I’ve been running non stop since the beginning, and this maze is big as hell itself. People always tell you to stick to the left or right and you will get to the end, and that I’ve been doing. But just when I could. There are so many traps around, it’s like they didn’t think we could survive this, so they threw everything they got.

From knife floors, poison ponds, holes… My feet are done for the day, my legs are bathed in blood from the knives and spikes, and I feel kinda dizzy because of the poison gas. But I keep running. The time is halfway gone, and I don’t think I’m even close to the exit.

I haven’t heard any of the other players since the start. I’m a bit worried, and I keep going back to their faces at the car, at the entrance and the moment I lost sight of them when I started running. Will I see them again? How many of them? Will someone make it?

I turn to the left and get thrown to the floor with a nudge on the nose.

“Holy fuck!” I scream in agony, holding my bleeding nose. I would bet my visa on it, it’s broken for sure. Oh God it hurts too much. My face feels heavy and it stings deep inside.

“Jesus, where the hell are you going without looking? Are you stupid? You could have met some kind of trap, idiot”

I look up and catch a glimpse of white hair. But just a glimpse, because the whole rest of Chishiya is covered in ashes. The bastard just stays there, looking down at me without offering a hand. Totally expected that, to be honest.

I get up and punch him straight in the chest. He howls and gets away looking angry. “You deserved that, you totally smashed your elbow on my face on purpose. You were just waiting there to punch me”

“What the fuck? Why would I?”

I study the situation and try to look for lies, but it’s a lost cause with him. “Shut up and start running, we have a long way to go”

So both of us pair up and keep on running together, helping each other in a few traps to minimize the damage. We still get burned and sliced, but we manage to stay together for a good twenty minutes.

Until we don’t.

We are on an empty corridor surrounded by bindweed. What I thought was going to be a calm and peaceful section turns into a nightmare. From nowhere, ropes start to come out and try to catch our feet, arms and trunk.

Both of us jump and get down to escape from the ropes, sometimes getting too close to the bushes and winning new bruises everywhere. The strength that these things have is incredible and intolerable. It feels as if my bones are breaking under the knots. I grasp Chishiya’s hand to keep from getting sucked into the wall, and he takes me out of it. His hand grips mine with a strength I didn’t know he possessed, and I dwell on the feeling of his cold and soft fingers around mine, enjoying the safety his presence gives anywhere he is.

Lost in his eyes, which are making sure I’m not caught into any ropes anymore, we get pulled away in an instant and Chishiya disappears from my sight into the wall, his eyes not leaving mine.

“No! You bastard! You don’t get to abandon me here! Come back!” I scream into the bushes. I slice the ropes with my knives and get away from that corridor as fast as I can.

My face still hurts from the nudge, and my arm feels funny. Both my legs are covered in bruises and cuts from the ropes and the falls. I’m a mess. Everything hurts. Everything is a mess.

I go back to the feeling of finding him. Maybe I didn’t dwell on it, but I felt safer, I felt relieved to have some company; I felt happy to have him there with me, to back me up and get me through difficult things. Will I see him again? Is he okay? Will he be there?

“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. You better be there when I get off this fucking maze, or I will search for you to cut you into pieces” I whisper to the night, running again, looking behind me from time to time to check if he’s behind me, stoping just before a turn to prevent another hit. He totally did that on purpose.

I step into a two paths corridor. Both of them are covered in darkness and I can’t say which one looks better. Not wanting to lose any more time, I take the right one, although it doesn’t take me long to return. The blood covers the floor and gets sticky when I step into it. I bend over to see what’s in front of me and gulp down seeing the body of Hiro full of insects eating him alive.

He’s whimpering in pain and coughing blood, moving just a bit, probably paralyzed. I don’t know when he catches me, but his eyes get full of tears and he mouths a silent plea, tears streaming down his face and mixing with the blood. I remember when I met him, asking for a bite of something after a run through the city and hungry enough to eat whatever. He made me a simple sandwich, but I swear it was the best one I have ever had. He stayed in the kitchen with me, talking about his life and asking too many questions. Ever since then, he’s always been there when I needed to disconnect from the games, from the people, from the world. Always with a smile and a new recipe to try.

Now all that is left is pain and suffering.

Getting as close as I dare, I whisper a silent sorry and goodbye before ending his suffering. I run away and don’t look back at all, his face and pain engraved in my mind.

When I get to the exit I almost scream in relief. It’s a big door made of small bars with a big “EXIT” written in red above it. The time is almost up and I can’t see anyone here. The place where I came from is not the only way of getting here, there are three more corridors ending in this place.

The thing is, the doors are closed, and they have a huge key hole in the middle. I look around and I spot a key shining on the top of the door. It’s hanging by a thread, laughing at me from up there.

I scoff, tired as I can be, and I stop in front of the door. Guessing from the place where it is, I must need to climb through the door and it doesn’t seem dangerous at all, but I still don’t trust it. Checking the time I decide that I can’t risk it on trying to search for another way of getting the key, so I grasp the bars.

The heat burns through me and paralyzes me in the spot. I feel as if my hand is going to come off right now. I let go of the door and caress the palm of my hand, blowing air as kindly as I can, tears streaming down my face of the pain.

“FIVE MINUTES LEFT”

“I hate this. I hate it so much” Curses leave my lips as I get higher and higher, once again at the door and burning my hands and feet in the process. I can’t feel it anymore, I just know it’s painful and it’s going to leave ugly scars. I grip the key and rip it from the thread and throw myself to the floor, not caring to limb down properly.

The floor meets my back and I roll over. I would have stayed there, I swear. I was done with everything. My whole body was hurting, my mind was going blank and kept screaming.

“Tsk” I hear some rustling near me and then a foot nudges me on the back of my head. “Are you alive there?” I moan in response and turn over, glaring at the clever smirk of Chishiya. “Do you mind handing over the key? I’m in desperate need of a shower”.

“I don’t know, would you mind stopping hitting me on purpose?” I mumble through moans of pain.

He sighs and bends next to me, placing his face just above mine, our noses almost touching. I can feel his breath, the quick rhythm it still has, the cold and the smell of sweat and toxic reaching me.

“For the last time, I did not hit you on purpose” He whispers looking straight at me.

“How do I know you’re telling the truth?” I question. You won't ever know with him.

“Trust me, if I had hit you on purpose, I would have done it a lot harder”. His eyes hold that smart look, the condescending vibes all around him, but I think I can see worry and relief and…

“Oh fucking hell, yes! You guys made it! We are saved and alive and… Oh God, two minutes left, tell me you know how to open that door or I will kill myself right here” One of the guys we came with sprouts from a passage, holding Ume’s limping form and followed by another guy who’s gripping a tourniquet around his arm. I’m glad to see most of us are alive after that hell.

Chishiya takes the fey from my hand with caution to not touch the burnt parts of my palms and fingers. He quickly pushes the key into the lock and pushes the door hard.

I don’t know why, but I was scared of it not opening. Silly, I know, but after so many games with tricks at the end, I didn’t know what to expect. The phones beep immediately, and I struggle to get up to a sitting position.

“GAME CLEAR”.

“CONGRATULATIONS”.

Relief flows inside all of us, dropping to the floor and crying happy tears. Is it really a win? It doesn't feel like that anymore. I think I've lost some things inside those walls and darkness.

I thought I was hurting, but in just a second, all the injuries I have, start to really hurt and the pain makes me close my eyes and shake like crazy. I might need a whole week of rest after this.

Arms come from behind me and take me up. I’m lost in the sudden change of position and it takes me a while to realize Chishiya is holding me in a bridal style. He quickly gets ahead of the rest, not caring to check if they are following us, and heads to the place we left the car.

It’s a long way until we get there and I nod off a few times, resting my head and hiding in his soft tingling hair, taking his scent apart from all the other ones. I don’t dream at all, it’s all blank, but I wake up startled looking for Hiro or Chishiya, afraid they’re not here anymore. I get sad and I cry silently when I remember Hiro’s body and scared face, pleading for mercy; and I sigh with relief when I feel Chishiya holding me tighter after I wake up shaking, crossing our eyes and making me feel safe with just a look.

“Don’t ever disappear like that again. Don’t even dare. Promise me” I angrily say after one of my nightmares. He doesn’t say anything, and I don’t need him to. He just needs to know. I pretend I don’t see the almost imperceptible nod he does once I return to put my head on his chest.

The ride back is a blur. We have more space now that two of us are missing, but it’s heavy inside. I keep next to Chishiya, him holding me while I rest and sleep in between nightmares. None of us has said anything since we left the forest. We are all relieving our paths along the maze, the things we saw and the hopelessness we felt, the fear of being left there forever.

The sunrise marks our arrival at the Beach. People there are waiting for the cars still gone and they welcome us with joy and worry. We are rushed to the medical room to get checked up on, and although I try to walk there, pathetically I must say, I can feel Chishiya is ready to ame me in case I fall. He leaves once An puts me on a bed and starts treating my wounds.

But I know he will be back. He always comes back. He promised.

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Be safe and take care!!

#aib #alice in borderland #chishiya #chishiya shuntaro #chishiya x reader #fic #oneshot #reader insert #shuntaro chishiya #spades game #imawa no kuni no arisu #imawa no kuni no alice

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watchinglikeafangirl · 3 years

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Kiss Me Again - first reactions

Out of boredom, I started watching Kiss Me Again also because I've already watched Dark Blue Kiss. I saw many people saying both shows should be seen as two seperable things because some important details got lost on the way of making spin-off.

Let's see how much of a difference there actually is. From what I've heard, Pete is going to be very different. Anyway, here are my first reactions during the watching process:

Episode 1

Oh well, Pete is so different. He's a whole other person here. He's the typical cool guy who just wants to show off but at the same time, he's a bit socially awkward and I love it. This faked boredom and annoyment are only there because he doesn't know what to say when Kao is around and especially when they are alone because the atmosphere is just weird between them. Acting all annoyed is his way of socializing and I like it because I believve we all have weird tactics to try to lighten the mood or find a topic with peopl we don't know. Here, Pete is "annoyed" to look cool but I guess, he does this because he tries to find something they both can agree on and annoyment is the simpliest way. You can easily agree with people on negative emotions concearning a topic, so it's the easiest choice to pretend to be annoyed. What's funny here is that Kao is really not impressed by it and already knows Pete just wants to be cool. I think, Kao just doesn't like Pete in the beginning because he sees Pete is just pretending and is never true. I guess, that's why he will fall for him later, because they will probably have real talks and bonding moments.

Episode 2

Okay, Pete and Kao shared an awkward kiss and now things are even more weird. Here's one difference to the Pete I know from Dark Blue Kiss: he's not honest. Now, whenever Kao wants to address the kiss, Pete gets defensive and aggressive. Yes, it's probably because of his confusion but in Dark Blue Kiss, Pete always addresses everything - even the uncomfortable or negatively loaded topics - but not at this moment.

And also, I know, Pete is not the nicest person at this moment but he is really respectless. After the kiss, he stares into Kao's eyes in surprise, pulls away and then wipes his mouth in disgust more than once. As if Kao's lips and the taste of them are dirt on his lips and that's so disrespectful. Kao is obiously hurt by it and I would be too. Of course, you are allowed to not like a kiss but reacting so disgusted is very harsh.

Episode 3

And now, Pete is bullying Kao by isolating him from the group. He makes the others believe Kao doesn't like them, so he will end up being the king of the group since Kao is not the kind of person who talks about such things and just accepts the circumstances.

The scene between So and Sansuay in the parking lot was obviously not right bahavior on So's part because Sansuay was clearly uncomfortable being pressed against another car. She had no way out and I love the random dude walking by and just checking if she is okay. No romanticizing. Just a statement that this behavior is wrong.

Episode 4

Pete and Kao now claim to be "annoyed" of each other and all the other ones are still left wondering what the real problem is.

But at least, Pete confides to Sandee and confesses he only gets angry because of the kiss. I mean, we as the audience understand him better but I just find Sandee's frustration very amusing. Pete is obviously not realizing his feelings and is just helpless. Sandee is such a mood.

Until now, I really don't like R at all. He is pushing Sanwan around and invades her ersonal space all the time while saying he cares. Dude, if you care, don't force her, don't drag her into your car and especially don't kiss her when she doesn't want to.

Episode 5

Its just my speculation but I'm pretty sure Pete is bisexual because he has an ex-girlfriend (we know of) but seems to be attracted to both gender and he's not the kind of guy who falls for the personality or character of someone. The gender matters to him, I would say. But it's nice to see a bisexual character because mostly shows want to tell me that people are either homo- or heterosexual but there are obviously many other sexualities in between. Living in a gay relationship doesn't mean you define yourself as homosexual, real life doesn't work like that and I like they give us a character who is neither homo- or heterosexual.

What's going on with the men in that show? WHy are there so many red flags? Except for Kao, Mat and Sun, everybody pushes the women around and invades their personal space in a very uncomforting manner. Are they all going to "change"? I don't know if I will be able to believe them...

Episode 6

Mat's mother wants Sanson to "turn her son straight"? Okay, just gonna leave that there because I don't have words how wrong this thought is.

Oh, the scene which I saw many gifs of, happened. But I thought Pete and Kao would spend more time laying in the grass. I though this was a very romantic scene. But it's just a second long. But who cares, their relationship took a next step. They stop fighting and come to some sort of agreement (the agreement being that fighting is pointless). But somehow this scene feels like they broke the ice and finally found peace.

Episode 7

And again, a scene I've seen very often: the hospital. But it's really sweet they all went there because of Pete and wait all together until he can go home. That's real friendship and I think this show portrays their friend group really accurate because they are so natural with each other. They are a bunch of people thrown together who bond over weird fun talks at night and getting home drunk. Even though they are so different, they are loyal and trustworthy. It's heartwarming to see a group of friends be portrayed like this because mostly in shows, the protagonist has one really good friend and just a few people they know but are not very close to. but a group of friends is exactly this and it's rare on TV because showing a whole group bonding is difficult and also because they dynamic is totally different.

Episode 8

Kao (giving me the chills): Mint, even if he doesn't like you back, it doesn't mean you are not good enough. No matter how beautiful you are, no matter how good you try to be to him, if he's not into you, he's not the one for you.

I can't believe So gets away with stealing Sansuay's phone. She will never know it was him. I don't know what to think about him.

Epsiode 9

Sun flirting with Kao over coffee makes me cringe so much right now. This is uncomfortable and not as romantic as Sun may think it is. And then, Kao is scared Sun meant him, this is uncomforting to watch. Also, I really don't think Kao and Sun are a match. It doesn't fit at all and I hope it will be over soon.

What? Wayu wants to rape Sanwan? Did I miss something? How did we get here? I thought this was a warm show for teenagers. Now there's rape? I could deal with the sexual harassment even though that was not fine to watch, but rape? I'm confused how we got there? But of course, R saved her.

Not Mork casually cleaning his gun...

Episode 10

I love the fact Pete and Kao just quietly accept the fact they spend a night together. It happened and they can't change it. They don't even mention it and I'm relieved there's no "don't ever tell anybody" or something. It just happened and that's it. Nothing further to dicuss about it. Also, they made pretty clear already they have certain feelings for each other. The wuestio now is just how they are going to deal with this and if they will be in a relationship.

Kao: I will stop seeing other people when things between us become clearer.

Episode 11

I can't believe they actually address the bullying I mentioned before. Kao is very right when he says Pete needs to earn his trust because of the past. This is just right because you can't forget the past just because of romantic feelings. If you don't address the other person made you feel ad, you won't be able to move on from that and relationships are about trust, so I find this very mature and good for both of them. Pete needs to understand he hurt Kao in the past and can't just change his mind over night and Kao will say yes right away.

A planned engagement? Isn't that a bit old-fashioned? Sanwan and R don't know each other at all and why would their parents decide this for them. It doesn't look like it would be good for family's business or something. This seems so random.

And Wayu tries to rape Sanwan again? How? Why? And what is wrong with Sindee for initializing this? But of course, R saves her again.

Episode 12

Oh Mint. I always had mixed feelings about her and now i know for what reason. Is she fine? Making someone feel bad for leeting her go by threatening she would hurt herself is not healthy or normal or anything. That's a serious matter. No wonder, Pete feels like his life is messed up and is extremely stressed about it. And then, Mint woders why he's not comfortable at all and doens't see Pete just let her stay out of fear her threat might be the truth. Because he's a nice person. But Mint is just crazy and plays mind games.

I've never seen a drunk kiss be that cute and meaningful. They are just pure. Now, I really know why people love Pete and Kao so much. I already fell in love with their dynamic in Dark Blue Kiss but seeing the beginnings of their relationship tops that. This script is too good. They both know, the kiss meant a lot and I like they are way past the regretment state. Or at least, they don't regret the kiss. They regret they are not in a relationship which makes the atmosphere afterwards more sad and hurt. Again, they are so mature about this.

Mint took a picture? I can't with this woman.

Episode 13

Why did tehy not report Wayu? They are covering up a crime. And Sanwan doesn't seem to be traumatized which makes me wonder a lot. She is more than fine and I'm not buying Wanyu's apology at all.

And now Mint send the picture to Pete's dad. Does she have no shame? It's not her right to out Pete. That's a thing between Pete, his dad and Kao. Mint has and nothing to do with it and shouldn't have ever. She took Pete's power away by letting his dad now. Things were in Pete's hands and I hope Pete will tell mint very clearly she had no right to do that and her behavior is wrong.

Wow, Pat has guts. Telling your best friend you like them even though you know they don'yt like you is very brave. I love Mat being so cool with it because it's obviously a hard moment for Pat to outlive.

Episode 14

I love Pete's dad. They both were so scared but he doesn't say anything and I like what he says. He talks with them like they are adults (which they are) and doesn't talk to them like they are kids who don't know anything. They don't need to be lectured by their parents. They are adults already and make their own life decisions. I like very much he has this calm talk with them and then drops the topic.

Sanson being the first to confess fits very good because mAt is alway the wuieter one of them. This scene is so bittersweet and Sanson is so vulnerable, it hurts my heart. If it stays like this, then it would be a strong statement of the show because not everything works out in the end. You can try, you can ask, but in the end, maybe your efforts were all for nothing.

Finally, Pete calls Mint out. But he forgives her?... But at least, he doesn't want to be her friend any more.

Of corse we have happy endings all over the place.

#kiss me again #dark blue kiss #pete x kao #suddenly phupha and nam(atoats) are there #why doesn't prize just leave?#and what is boss (2gether) doing there?#can somebody please report him?#i still like rain #and mork #and i still don't like sun #but pete and kao are so pure #i can't

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threshrshark · 6 years

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5 things I love

@omnicninjas tagged me and gave me an excuse to gush about things I love so I'm gonna do it even though I post here like once every 5000 years! y'all are welcome

my friends - ok so seriously like....if not for the people I've bonded with and gotten to know, I wouldn't be anywhere near as happy or experienced so much growth as I have. I'm extremely blessed to know so many amazing people that I just click with and can have a conversation with whenever about all the ridiculous goings on/send bad memes to and it brings so much light to my life!!! Some of these individuals that I'm close to have had a ridiculously wonderful effect on my life and helped me grow so much as a person, and are basically family to me now (Eva, pres, brandon, ash, kat, luna, steven, my twitter family, etc) and I love all of them so much!!!! You all are so lovely and I enjoy each of you for who you are and your influences on me has made my life so much better. Eva is probably the most extreme example because she's my best friend and we get each other on another level. We're "as close as closeness gets" and probably the ideal for best friends, and even though we're basically the exact same person, the minor differences between us help keep us from melding together into one person. I love her so ridiculously much and she means more than I could ever say, basically. She's the best mom ever!

video games - video games have always played a huge role in my life for as long as I can remember? I've never not been interested in games. Whether it was just watching my parents play something (some of the closest moments growing up with my mother was watching her play banjo kazooie) or getting to play something myself (sonic 2 was the first game I ever played), my life has almost always revolved around the worlds and stories I experienced via games. Video games are the reason I took up hobby drawing and writing when I was younger, and were a huge refuge for me when my home life was difficult. Almost everyone I've made friends with over the years has been through games, and I never get tired of talking about them! There's a reason 2/3 of the tattoos I have are video game themed lmao

animals - this is vague and silly bc "everyone loves animals Emil, chill" but like ....I'm so attached to animals overall. There's so many cute and interesting and pretty and cool as hell species out there and I've always loved learning about them and how other animals work compared to people? Every species has quirks about it and subspecies have so many small distinctive things that makes them cool and different and it gives them so much personality!!! Sharks are a clear favourite to me and have kinda become part of my identity but I really love all felines, a variety of canines, sooooo many lizards and snakes, and lots of fish/cephalopods/etc (oceanic animals in general I guess?). My two cats are my world and I love them so much, despite them being troublemakers a lot of the time LOL (they're basically just fuzzy children, after all)

expressing myself - so anyone that knows me kinda knows I'm big on dyeing my hair and fashion, and that showing who I am to the world through my appearance has become kind of key to who I am in the last 5/6 years or so. And that's incredibly true! Figuring myself out and becoming comfortable with myself is something I've done through my outward appearance as a kind of way to get in touch with myself way more and understand myself properly, and it's helped me grow a lot as a person! I started questioning my gender originally because I was never completely comfortable with the way I was appearing to people, and learning that I'm a boy was partially fueled by discoveries like this. Getting in touch with who I am and who I want to be is always going to be a process, and I'll probably never be completely satisfied with it, but that's okay. Figuring things out and making myself as much of me as I can on the outside brings me a lot of peace and confidence, and I have a lot of fun with it.

affection - this is something that apparently been a key part of who I am as a person since I could like....walk but I just really love expressing how much I love people/things/activities & receiving affection!!! In kindergarten I was almost suspended because I would go around and hug my friends and tell them how much I loved them (the teachers were the only ones that disliked it, nobody got hugs if they didn't want one) and like....I'm still very much that openly affectionate with others! Not only physically of course, but telling ppl how excellent they are and how much they mean to me has always been central to who I am as a person! I like to think it's one of my good points, even though it might be slightly irritating to some. I try not to go too hard with it, and not go there at all if it isn't welcome. It also means that if someone gives me a real good hug, pets my head, or cuddles with me I'll just turn into a puddle of bliss lmao

Okay I kinda went hard with this, whoops. I'm supposed to tag 10 ppl or something but I'm just gonna tag @oiiseaux @faeriin @ardunkothe @brokenpaws @sigilyph @ownedbythevoid if y'all wanna do this then go 4 broke!!! (I would tag eva but brandon tagged us both lol)

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Okay, so I love your writing! I hope I've made that clear through my fangirling cx I seriously recommend you to everyone! I was wondering if I could ask for something involving Ignis playing an instrument with his s/o. A duet maybe? Anything you're feeling inspired to involving Ignis and music, I'm sure would be lovely. (I love your writing. It has to be said again! cx)

Ahhhh thank you so much for your request and your support. I’m mad blushing that you recommend me so highly. Thank you so much. You already know this, but you offered me a chance/ excuse to write one of my favorite headcanons with Ignis and that’s of him playing the Koto. Highly suggested watching/listening: this video and also Cafe Au Lait Days by Hanafugetsu (opens to spotify)

It was alittle-known fact that the Citadel boasted the best acoustics when it wasraining. Though, you supposed with all its grandeur and political power, soundquality was the last thing on the mind of the architects who build the palace. Itwas a happy accident though, one that you didn’t expect you’d come to admireuntil you experienced it for yourself.

The rainmuted the loud, bustling noises of the city and its surroundings just enoughfor music to echo through the halls and straight into the hearts of anyonelistening. It was during the rainy season that you discovered yet another thingthat you loved about Ignis Scientia.

It didn’tsurprise you when you found out that the grand palace had had curated all sortsof musical instruments, native and foreign for entertainment purposes. WhenIgnis had first shown you the room where all they were kept, you gasped ingiddy glee when you saw familiar instruments from where you came. Lovingly, youhad caressed the long length of the koto and gently played at its taughtstrings when you came across it in the back of the room. Not surprisingly, thefirst time you had seen it in that room, it had been hidden in the darkestcorner and a thin layer of dust had gathered across its surface. The rest ofthat afternoon, you had begged for him to let you spend time in that room totake care of the neglected instrument.

What didsurprise you was when you found out Ignis had been teaching himself how to playyour favorite instrument after that day. You would later come to also find outthat it was also the day he had silently fallen in love with you as you gentlybrought the instrument back to life with tender touches and soft whispers of encouragement.

You haddiscovered his secret one day when you were trying to look for him during hisscheduled free time. Knowing how stressful his job was, you tried your best tonot bother him during the work day. However, you had your own secret you wantedto share with him.

You hadbeen learning how to make the baked goods you had often told him about fromwhere you came from. There were nights when you'd be homesick for the soft bunsfilled with custards and sweet creams and tell him in detail of the things youmissed so much. Insomnia was beautiful, but there were times that it was sodifficult to find things that reminded you of home at times. Often, those boutsof homesickness would end with him holding you tight for the rest of the andapologizing for things that he had no control over.

He hadattempted to learn how to make what you had dreamed and craved, but reverseengineering something he had never had was difficult to say the least. So, youtook it upon yourself to learn how to satisfy your cravings by making thedamned things yourself. After much trial and tribulation, you had finally madea successful batch you had made and you were eager to share your small victorywith him. Basket full of bread in hand, you asked around for his whereabouts,only to find out that no one quite knew where Ignis when he had free time.

Well, Iguess it's a surprise game of hide-and-seek then. You thought to yourself while wandering around the citadel,keeping your eyes peeled for Ignis. It's not like his job makes him leavethis place often...

After awhile of wandering, the telltale notes and sounds of a koto floated and echoedthroughout the quiet corridors. You quietly gasped when you came to therealization that you were not imagining things. You didn't think you'd hear thesound of something so foreign to many, but familiar to you, in a place likethis. Curiosity overtook your need to see Ignis and you followed the softmelody through the hallways to find the source of the music.

Windedas you were after scouring what felt like half the citadel, you finally foundwhere the music was coming from. Part of you had expected it to be a recordingthat someone had decided to play on a whim. Instead, you found Ignis gentlyplucking at the strings of your favorite instrument in the hall saved forentertaining guests. He was seated behind the koto, fingers dancing across thestrings with a look of peaceful concentration on his face. Though the room waspoorly lit, what light that did come through the windows made him seem to glowfrom his seat. You dared not to breath for fear of breaking the serene magicthat he held in that moment.

The songhe played was an old one. One that you had hummed often at home and listened toon repeat when it rained on days like this. It was a song of comfort that youloved dearly from your homeland. Hearing it live for the first time in yearsbrought tears to your eyes and you couldn't stop a soft sniffle when the songcame to an end. He looked up from his spot when he heard the sound and smiledrather sheepishly.

"Iwas honestly hoping to keep this a surprise for you when I was more proficient,but I suppose I was found out."

"Howlong... Have you..."

"Afew years now."

"CanI watch you play?" You breathed.

"Ah,I must admit, I'm rather embarrassed that you'd ask this of me when I canbarely hold a tune" He let out a low chuckle and shuffled to the side abit. "It is dreadfully hard to learn how to play."

"Iknow, but it sounds like home." You murmured. "So, will you play itagain, for me?"

"Ofcourse."

Hisfingers danced gracefully across the strings, plucking notes and a tune youknew the words to. The ivory picks on his fingers would miss the correct notesat times, though you were too lost in your thoughts to really notice.

Throughthe thrum of the rain, and the faint smell of old books, you were transportedback home. Before you knew it, you were singing along to his notes, thenostalgia washed itself over you as you were wrapped in a blanket of comfortmade from music and rain.

Throughthe milky grey sky and constant pitter patter of rain, you sang a song of windchimes accompanied by the sounds of home and love until the sun set.

When therain stopped and there was no music left to play, you entertained Ignis for therest of his working hours with stories of your home that filled his office withthe scent of freshly baked breads filled with custard as sweet as his love foryou.

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