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I will always remember that scene where Brian sees Justin admitted to the hospital after Justin was bashed. I once read a quote from a director that said to always keep the camera rolling for 30 seconds after you call cut. That’s what they did. There’s a close-up of Gale and he was so in his own sorrow that his nose and eyes began to pour. I don’t think he was even aware they called cut.

#the moment everybody knew #queer as folk #gale harold

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And here is another post about me resonating with Brian while rewatching and literally binging this show because I'm sick and have nothing else to do. In my defense, I skipped some stories because they didn't interest me when I first watched, so I won't be sitting through them all over again even if 6 years have passed.

I've just started season 5 and it's where Melanie and Lidsay make their separation public. Everybody knows now and Michael is shocked and unbelievably mad because his daugther now has a home with separated parents. Michael yells at them, storms out and we can see later how he complains to Brian who knew all along. So now, Michael is even more angry but Brian is so brutally honest about it, I admire it. Because he says "it has nothing to do with us, it's their relationship". Once again a moment when Brian Kinney says what I thought all along. Michael has a right to be shocked, they are his friends and Melanie and Lindsay have been together for 10 years at this point but JR is not Michael's daughter. Yes, he is her biological father and yes, he gets to see her anytime he wants, but no, in my eyes, he is not the father. It's a family falling apart but it's not his. He shouldn't step in and mess with Melanie and Lindsay because they have to figure it out themselves. Even if their children are a part of that chaos and even if it's his biological daughter, he shouldn't get too involved. Brian knows the line he shouldn't cross. Gus might be his son but he has two mothers, so Brian has limited rights, just as Michael.

I like the way Brian just slaps everyone with the truth. It's similar to the way I think, I just oftentimes don't say it out loud because just like in the show, people judge you for it. Brian even got slapped by Debbie one time and for emotionally-driven people like Michael, saying those brutally honest things and showing them the line they should never cross, it just feels insulting. Brian doesn't care when to talk soft and when not, he just always doesn't give a shit and I absolutly love and admire that.

#queer as folk #he is very logic which doesn't always work #that's basically what i was trying to say

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I randomly started a rewatch of queer as folk, starting in season 3 when Brian and Justin get back together. Ted's downfall and spiral into addiction still kinda triggers me but it's also interesting to watch all the characters deal with it in different ways. Anyway, I went on to season 4 and just finished the episode of Vic's death. It's tragic, it's sad, it reminds me so much of the day my grandfather died two years ago.

It's just funny how much more I understand and resonate with Brian now. I think the first time I watched this show, I was about 14 years old, so I resonated with Justin and his rebelliousness. Other people didn't seem to understand him or they did but he proved his point the wrong way. For example, Justin joins this group who patrol around the city to protect the queer community from any harm. It makes sense for him to be so invested in that matter, especially because he himself was a victim of that violence. But he meets the wrong people and hangs around a guy who clearly has some childhood trauma paired with anger issues, so it's the right motivation but the wrong people and it goes to some extremes until Justin has a very intense moment with the person who attacked him and decides he went down the wrong path. I never saw it this way, I didn't fully understand the conflict and motivation behind those drastic actions. I didn't see how big of a problem Justins "new friend Cody" was. But now, I'm 20 and I see how Justin's intention isn't wrong but the outcome is.

The same with Brian, I didn't really understand Brian and I found him very charming but extremely rude. I particularly remember the episode of Vic's death because everyone gathers to be there for Debbie whose world just collapsed and Brian says they shouldn't be too sad because these last 4 years were a gift. Vic was already close to death 4 years ago but his condition stayed stable ever since and he got so many moments the doctors never promised him. So, the death is sad but they shouldn't "cry about it". And even if Brian says this with a neutral facial expression, I think them all judging him for saying that and asking what "bullshit" this is, is unfair because I think he's right. It's just the way he said it that is wrong. When I was 14, I didn't like what he said, I didn't understand how this could in any way be comforting or something you say to someone who just lost their brother. But now, I lived through my own grief and it is actually comforting to know that the person who died was thankful for all those years it wasn't over even though the doctors said it would be. I agree with what Brian said but nobody else in the show does.

Anyway, growing up, I resonate with Brian and am annoyed by Justin which was the other way around when I was 14 which is kinda funny

#queer as folk #a classic #i will rewatch it again in five years #let's see what changed by then

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The german actor Dieter Hallervorden is in Queen of Tears?! It's such a funny but confusing crossover...what is he doing there? And his lines are so weird too... not a very smooth dialogue on that part. Obviously a forgettable character but I doubt I will forget his appearance since it is so out of the blue and out of context.

Many people in Germany know him for a movie called "Honig im Kopf", roughly translates to "head filled with honey", about a grandpa developing alzheimer's and it's simply about how his family deals with it, what the challenges are and how much he loses himself as well. As sad as it sounds, it's a bright movie, there are funny scenes but there are also ones to cry about. It's a really good movie

#queen of tears #i laughed out of surprise #i mean earlier mikael from the tvd universe was there #both such confusing guest appearances

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I'm falling for Queen of Tears, I'm crushing so hard on Hyun-Woo. He is such a sweet husband in moments when he just acts without thinking about their situation. The story develops into a very different direction than I thought and I love it so far. I like how we can see there's history between them. They actually feel like a married couple and I feel like they really were in love but things happened and just like other marriages sometimes do, they fell apart over a miscarriage. They grieved differently, they lost touch, they felt like strangers so suddenly and stayed strangers ever since. It hurts but it's still visible how they still kind of believe in their marriage. Especially Hae-in, she's not confident about their relationship but she is confident about their marriage and I like how the show differs between the two and I like how these two still feel like they belong somewhere with the other even if it's awkward. And when she asks if he would come with her to get treatment, he says he obviously will which shows how entitled they still are. Yes, in the end, she went there alone but that's a slightly different thing because he didn't know she was leaving.

Also the scene at Sanssouci is just beautiful. I cannot say how much it touches my heart to see them stand in front of each other and just cry. And what do you mean he brought her sneakers all the way? What do you mean there's a kissing scene with the sunset? What do you mean he drew her a new lifeline since hers was too short? I'm whipped.

The scenes of her getting the treatment, how lonely, desperate and how much pain she bears, it got to me. Having had my own portion if chemo (healed ever since, it's been 18 years), and even though I was really small and young when it happened, I relate on a very different level. I know how scary it is to be surrounded by so many clinical rooms, how they puncture the spinal cord, how it feels hopeless. But it's all here in this show and I like how it's not overly dramatic. It's just how it is and it's not nice to receive treatment of any kind on that medical level. I just like how it's shown and how the show deals with it.

#queen of tears #kdrama #sanssouci #kim soo hyun #kim ji won #i can't wait for tomorrow #i hope eun-seong kind of vanishes

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OKAY, episode 12 is WILD...

It escalates more than I thought and judging from the last scene, none of them will make it (hypothetically). Truly amazing performances, I gasped more than once, it's all so extreme but it makes a lot of sense for things to go down that road. The stakes were so high all the time, something very, very drastic needed to happen in the finale. Still, I'm shocked at the turn of events and I think we all collectively agree that White deserves better.

The show does such a remarkable job at introducing relationships in flashbacks because there's not much room for relationships to grow since there are many other things that need to be told. Phee and Non's relationship was essentially introduced in flashbacks over the span of 10 minutes. Tee and White's lovestory lasted 8 minutes and I felt it. The scenes are so precise and even if they've been given so little time and normally that wouldn't be enough to feel them falling in love. But I wholeheartedly believed the lovestories and I felt so much empathy. I still don't get how the show manages to pull off those sequences that the audience can feel everything within 5 minutes many shows fail on throughout their entire runtime. It's truly amazing.

Personally, I think the twist at the end makes perfect sense even if there may never be a second season because it feels unfair to think Phee, Jin and Tee make it out alive while everyone else has to die. Yes, Phee is the protagonist and yes, it makes sense he's with Jin but it looks too much of a coincidence that these two are alive together. It's incoherent with the show, it doesn't work because the show is never ranking the characters from worst to best. Everyone did something to Non, everyone neglected him in certain situations, everyone abandoned him. From that logic, either everyone lives or everybody dies. So the twist at the end, that they in fact did not escape, makes totally sense. It all started when Por died. He died and everyone kinda knew, if he didn't die, they all would live as well. It feels like they're all fighting to get out despite knowing they won't. And I think it's what makes this show so great because the audience knows too, so the ending is not surprising. We all knew once Por died, no one is going to make it out alive. That's the point. And I absolutly love it. It's a brave take and people will hate it but it's so damn cool.

#dff #dead friend forever #i'm still mildly shocked #i has tears in my eyes when white died #because he truly doesn't deserve this #episode 11 gave so much perspective about tee i was surprised #but really i'm glad i waited like 3 weeks to watch this #i paused multiple times #the stakes were so high

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I think I'm finally over the Non episodes. It triggered me so much, I had to pause and I think it's been long enough (three weeks), so tomorrow I will watch the last two episodes.

I want to know about White even though I can't really bear to see Non's face after all that happened. His decisions and things just kinda happening really got to me because it's so easy to find the wrong people and it absolutly scares me how easily he is trapped in something so dangerous. Because when did we get here?! What happened that he fled? And of course I, as the viewer, know the answer but it's too damn real and I'm thinking about it again.....

I think it's safe to say that I find DFF a very fascinating and really good show but I won't ever watch it again. I will recommend it to everyone and they will watch it without me lol

#dff #dead friend forever

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Dead Friend Forever ep 10

I'm not sure how much I buy this version of events by Phee. It seems...too easy. But maybe it's because that would mean there is/are no other person/people involved (i.e. Non and/or Keng and/or White) and that would be disappointing. Nah, I'm holding out hope that this isn't the actual true events.

Yes, that IS the head of another person there with Tan and Top!

So Phee really did tell Jin everything...and then Jin admitted to posting the video...and they're ok with each other. They've found some 'comfort' in both being as bad as the other I guess.

I hate (LOVE) that I can't tell what is real/truth and what is part of the revenge plan 👀

So Fluke is finally including himself in saying 'we' hurt Non. *insert growth!gif*

How can they always act so cool about being in the middle of nowhere in the woods. You can literally die by being lost and walking in circles.

Again, I still don't know why Jin needs help to walk when it's his shoulder that's hurt 😂 It's like these actors and acting coaches have never been injured in their lives to know what it's like.

Haha yes! Someone else IS there and making other marks in the trees to fuck with Jin (and Phee?) 👏🏼

Top could get his arms out of those ropes easily, that's either a really sloppy filming error or these boys need to learn how to restrain someone better.

Oh White has the gun now does he? 👀

And how did Jin just fall over nothing? Oh I get it, the axe needs to be left there for someone to pick up later, right?

I don't think I've mentioned this yet but I can't stop thinking about how the end of their film is Jin running alone out of the house, implying he' a lone survivor, so I wonder if we'll get some kind of subverted parallel of that at the end of this nightmare for them all (which I don't think will be the ending of the series but I might be wrong - I don't watch horror so I don't know what 'beats the show needs to hit').

So everyone knows who's who and what's been happening (sort of)...and of course Fluke goes for the gun, which I guess needed to happen to take focus away from the Tan/New revelation.

Yes! Make Tee talk! Let's get new info!! And I want to know what Fluke did!!!

Of course Top can just stand up 🤦🏽‍♀️ Aaaaaand he's dead? Just from one shot to the stomach? (The severity of gunshot wounds vary greatly in bl -> we had Chart survive two shots to the back yesterday and Vegas survived multiple shots to his torso a few years ago but Top just keels over and is dead just like that? Oh! unless the gun has no live bullets but the drugs are making people think the gun/bullets are real???).

MOAR FLASHBACKS 🤓😍

So Khun Keng IS dead. I wonder how they got the photo of him and Non then...maybe photoshop?

OH MY GOD THE TRAILER FOR NEXT WEEK LOOKS SO GOOD.

Damn, I wish I hadn't caught up. Now I have to wait a week and I have a VERY busy wed-mon coming up with work 🤦🏽‍♀️😭

#no but i kept laughing at phee helpin jin walk with a dislocated shoulder like he broke his foot #and top getting out of the ropes looked like he had risen from his dead bed lmao #i don't think he's dead wouldn't that be too easy? #maybe the drugs made him faint because of the shock....? #dead friend forever #dff the series #i cannot wait for the next ep #i NEED answers

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I finally caught up on DFF after being absolutly traumatized by Non and Keng's bizarre relationship and keeping some distance for a week. Now that the Non flashbacks are over and there's only Phee's perspective, I'm not that triggered and I can enjoy the show.

It's so funny to me how they are all so unhinged

Tan is supposedly the villain who actually beheaded someone....?! Jin posted Non's video. Phee told Non to die. Tee is the whole reason Non's family suffered. Top is high, laughing with red eyes, being an absolute maniac. And Fluke just shoots Top...I'm screaming inside with everything that's going on. I'm waiting for White to do something, with all the characters being no better than the other, White sure is unhinged as well.

But even though the characters do so many shitty things, the writers do a phenomenal job at showing different perspectives. For example, Por is a rich asshole and he's the one initiating the bullying and I'm not saying this as an excuse at all, but the scenes with his parents are suffocating. His friends are in his shadow even if he doesn't want them to be. Everything is about politics when he's just in high school. You can see he's not happy, again, it doesn't justify anything. I'm just saying, the different aspects of life are shown.

What I still find very interesting is the whole dynamic of the group. Por and Tee are the driving force even though they aren't the best friends. Tee and Top are the best friends but if you think about it, Top never actually initiated anything. He's someone who just goes with the flow. Whatever Tee asks of him, he does and whatever the others do, he does as well. I don't think I remember anything being his idea...

So, we have Por, Tee and Top. I kinda get their dynamic but I still don't understand why Fluke and Jin are there too. Why are they friends with them? Fluke and Jin are the ones who don't act on their thoughts but they question the others. I think they don't even trust them entirely (even before the fashbacks start). I cannot seem to find an answer, I don't understand it because they are so different and they are so overlooked. So far, Jin and Fluke have been the ones who didn't stirr drama in the past but take action now. Especially Fluke, who seems to be needing some therapy... But really, why are Fluke and Jin friends with them?

Also, I hate that I like Phee and Jin together. I shouldn't like any character at this point but somehow these two are not the worst characters and they have such good chemistry...

#why do i see so many people liking tan/new? #cause i never liked him #and the whole halucination stuff is strange #and concerning #dead friend forever #dff the series

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Phee: torn between the past and the future

Phee is a deeply interesting, complex character. We know a lot about him, despite not seeing him on screen for a few episodes and not knowing about his background for a while.

This post got long so I'm putting in a break!

We know that Phee is a boy who falls in love fast and hard.

He's empathetic, and wears his emotions on his sleeves.

He's a caretaker.

We know that despite wanting to know what happened to Non, Phee also can't help trying to think the best of the group he's joined. Even trying to see another point of view when Tan calls Por a liar.

His position as of episode 9 in the story is really interesting... and also heartbreaking, in it's own way.

Phee has one foot in the past, unable to move forward, but his eyes toward the future.

In the past, he'd been in love with Non. Deeply in love. First love, arguably puppy love, but love nevertheless. That relationship ended in heartbreak for them both - Phee feeling as though Non had betrayed him by lying to him and sleeping with someone else (obligatory note that Non was groomed so we shouldn't label it as cheating, I'm just saying from Phee's POV). He was angry and hurt, and he said something awful in that moment that he didn't mean.

Afterwards, Phee is angry. He's hurt. He doesn't know what to do, so he goes to his dad for advice, and his dad tells him that he needs to talk to Non to understand why he'd done it, and move forward. In that moment, Phee doesn't know if he wants to make up with Non or not.

But eventually he takes his dad's advice to at least talk to him, and figure out why he acted the way he did. But by the time Phee is ready to hear from Non, Non is already gone.

Phee is now facing a slew of questions, and a lot of emotions. Where is Non? What happened to him? Did he really run off? Was it the friend group that did something to him? Could I have helped him if I hadn't been so angry? Did my last words make everything worse? Is he still alive? If he's dead, what will I do?

Phee is caught in a situation that many people find themselves in, at some point or another in life. Where a relationship (friendship or more) ends, but you get no closure. He's caught between wishing he knew what happened, feeling guilty, wanting to get Non back so he can talk to him and get answers... while also being basically out of the relationship entirely because he and Non broke up, and never got back together.

Then, Phee meets New, and it's easy to agree to his scheme. For the two of them to switch schools, infiltrate the friend group that was around Non, and see if they can figure out what happened to him. It's easy to say yes to New, because that's what Phee wants more than anything. Answers. He wants to know what happened to Non, but he also wants to know more than that. Why Non did what he did. If they can work it out and get together again. There's so many questions plaguing Phee's mind, and the lack of answers makes it impossible for him to move forward.

But then, at the same time, life moves on. It's been months since Non vanished already (the start of a new school year and it seemed like the old school year was still in session when they finished the movie, so at least a few months). Phee finds himself with a new group of friends. And while he's suspicious of them, he also has fun with them.

Phee isn't the type of person who can wholeheartedly condemn others. He doesn't have Tan's ability to write them all off as assholes.

Time passes, and Phee moves on. He removes the bracelet he once wore, even before he started classes at the new school. Perhaps he did it because he didn't want to give away his connection to Non - but he didn't have to. It was a simple red bracelet. No one in the group would've seen that and connected him to Non. I don't even think Jin would've, though Jin would've noticed it and wondered about it I'm sure. But Phee took it off anyway.

And, later, Phee takes Jin to the spot he once took Non. He takes him to Phee's special place.

While he's there, he's reminded of Non. He talks about Non. But the way he talks about Non is fond and distant. More of a nice memory, than something that's actively haunting him.

And you can tell by the look on Jin's face that Jin can tell. He knows what what Phee is talking about was in the past. Otherwise he wouldn't look so happy (considering we know he has a jealous streak). And Jin definitely wouldn't have seduced Phee if he got the vibe that Phee still liked someone else.

And then, that night, Phee sleeps with Jin. And perhaps Phee was thinking of Non in those moments, but I highly doubt it. Because I don't think the boy who told Non to "get lost and die" over perceived cheating would sleep with someone else while he's still in love with Non. That, and there's the soft look on his face the next morning...

Phee has moved on. His feelings have changed. He wants to find out what happened to Non, but honestly if it wasn't for his connection to New, I'm not sure how much longer Phee would've kept looking. He's young. He's found a new love. That doesn't mean his love for Non never mattered, or doesn't still impact him in different ways. It just means he's healed, and is looking to the future. That's normal for grief and loss. It becomes part of us, but eventually we learn to live with it and continue our lives.

But the past keeps pulling him back, in the form of New, and news about Non. First when New calls him out for sleeping with Jin and asking if he's cheating. Phee's response might be partially a lie and partially the truth. But he's at least lying to himself about why he did it.

I think Phee saying he loves Non is true - he probably does. In a distant way, of someone he lost. He has fond memories of him. He misses Non, too. But I think what he's telling New - and telling himself - about it being "just the same" is the lie. Phee is in denial that he's catching feelings for Jin. He's in denial about the reasons he did it, and he knows that. Because despite sleeping with Jin and flirting with him, he never asks Jin about Non.

Then he gets another reminder in the form of a news article about Non.

Google translate on the right.

That article brings it back - the anger, the grief, the rage. At himself, for what he said to Non. At Non for the lies he told - the reminder of Non sleeping with Keng. At the situation that he found himself in. He's yanked back to the past again, and all the guilt that comes with it.

And in that moment, he shoves Jin away. He lets the guilt and anger win as he draws a firm line. He denies his feelings, denies that he feels anything at all for Jin, and returns to his mission: to find out what happened to Non.

But in that moment, he doesn't realize that he's lost his future. Because he loses Jin. Jin won't speak to him, won't return his calls, gives him the cold shoulder. Won't even smile at him for the next two years.

Phee tries to talk to Jin, two years later. He hasn't moved on from Jin. Because he's trapped in the same friend group as Jin by his goal: learn more about Non. He can't leave the group to get away from Jin. No space. Which means neither he, nor Jin, are able to heal from what happened. Jin is now trapped in the past, just as much as Phee is.

Phee can't abandon New, can't abandon the mission they set out for, because it means abandoning every question that he still wants answers to. It means abandoning Non, once and for all. But in clinging to the past, he can't move to the future either. He can't choose Jin, but he doesn't want to lose him entirely.

In the present, Phee is still caught between the past and the future. The past being what happened to Non and New's scheme to learn information. And the future, his feelings for Jin that he can't deny anymore, that he can't run from. But that he also can't give in to, because of everything with New.

Phee's character is in stasis. He wants to grow. He wants to move on. If he didn't, he never would've caught feelings for Jin, much less slept with him. But he can't. Because of a sense of duty - to Non, who he failed to help, failed to protect. And now to Non's brother, who can't give up looking for him. And as long as New is looking for Non, Phee has to as well, or it means abandoning the very last piece of Non he has left.

But he's also torn, because while he's working with New on his scheme, he wants to protect Jin, the person he loves now. Perhaps even because he couldn't save Non, so now his redemption will be saving Jin?

This scene could be a plot by Phee to get Jin to open up, using his own tears and guilt in that way, but I do think his concern for Jin is real regardless.

I think Phee's final arc in the show will be having to choose, once and for all, between the past (Non and by extension New) and the future (Jin). I'm not sure what he'll choose yet, because there are still many unknowns and thinks that both Jin and Phee don't know about each other... but I hope that he can learn to choose the future. Because if he chooses the past, he'll never in his life be happy (though if Non is alive there's a possibility he could eventually learn to be happy, but I think the chance of that is low). And I think he deserves that, even if he's made some mistakes.

#i love the idea behind Phee's character so much #everyone can understand the inne conflict #and i truly hope he will chose the future #because first loves mostly don't stay and it's good to not fight to much for it #even if non would come back there were still so many years in between #it wouldn't be good #dff the series #dead friend forever

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"Let's talk about Chu" is actually really good

I honestly started this show out of boredom and because it only has 8 episodes, so it's easy to watch. The first episode feels like they just want to show how controversial the show is because there are several sex scenes but once the story really starts, it's really interesting. It kinda starts out as something like Sex Education but it ends up talking less about sex and more about people's different relationships.

The main cast is the Chu family which consists of the parents and their three children. There are two daughters (Ai and Wei) and one son (Yu Sen), everyone equally faces challenges and they all kinda manage. Sometimes, it feels like they really just manage but struggle to live. It's about everyone finding their happy place or reestablishing it.

There's an old marriage (the parents) and a young marriage (oldest daughter) facing the same issues. The partners seemingly have lost interest in each other, there's no intimacy physically and mentally. It's interesting and at times very sad to watch their marriages falling apart. Especially Wei's marriage, when they argue about irrational things that obviously root in distrust and disappointment. I could relate to her very much and I really like how the show points out that both are part of the problem.

The son - Yu Sen - is stuck in a weird relationship and his partner is really unlikable and doesn't want to come out to his parents. They eventually break up, who was sad? I wasn't. It marks the start of Yu Sen's arc where he meets a random, very extroverted guy who takes him to places and makes him feel alive. Honestly, I felt alive too, the guy named Yueh has a certain charm nobody can ignore. It goes so far, even though no commitments have been made, even though they shouldn't matter that much to each other, Yu Sen goes looking Yueh in the countryside, meets his grandma and helps him through his grief. It's sweet and shows different sides of the characters, my absolute favourite part of the show.

And then, there's the protagonist, the youngest daughter Ai. She and Ping-ke are friends with benefits and by the way he looks at her, one can immediatly tell he really likes her. But she sets boundaries and rules, so there cannot be more to it. They stay pretty consistent, she has something with two other guys but both don't give her a sense of love. Ping ke's still there and he sees his chance of persuing her for real. We find out there's actually a reason for those boundaries rooted in Ai's childhood and Ping-ke is there to comfort her after she remembers it again. I kind of like her but at the same time she's a bit frustrating because she doesn't have that much of an arc until episode 6, so I don't have much to say about her. I like Ping-ke's arc of starting to be independent and not living off his family's money. I could relate to a certain point. I can understand the sheer want of having something on one's own. He wants to be respected and actually do something, so he goes out and does it. I love it.

Anyway, great show, go watch it on Netflix. The story gets better and better the longer you watch and every character's arc is very valid and consistent. There are different sides to every story and the show does a really good job at showing both. Noone is right or wrong, it's sometimes frustrating how real it feels lol

#let's talk about chu

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At this point (episode 8), DFF scares the shit out of me. It all got so tense and I thought this couldn't get any worse but then Mr. Keng shows interest in Non and I feel sick. This is not a love triangle, this is a love rectangle where Phee gets hurt for staying by Non's side, Mr. Keng bones his underaged student and Jin watches it all unfold.

There are many aspects to Non's character and his story, so I feel everyone of us can relate or understand him. He has anxiety and severe depression, he gets bullied, he feels like a burden and he's involved in something way too big, too risky and too deadly. I watched all of this with rising discomfort especially since Phee showed up and I fear what Tee will do. It just makes me question how mean desperate people can be. How on earth is bullying and making someone else take the blame and the inevitable downfall in any way satisfying? How can somebody be so ignorant? I truly fear Tee, he is capable of too many things.

But what really made me scream and made me run away from my screen is the sex scene of Non and Mr. Keng. Truly, it makes me want to vomit and it raises deep concerns. It brings back memories about my school days. I had this very young teacher who reached out to students, one of my closest friends included, by sending them d*ck pics and stuff like that. So, watching this unfold and searched intimacy actually getting answered by the student makes me so uncomfortable that I needed to get some distance.

It feels too real - it actually is too real. And Non's personality feels too normal. Everybody knows someone like that, everybody had someone like him as a classmate, everybody knows how much these kinds of people tend to be naive or how easily they get attached to someone who shows interest because they don't have anyone else. We all know somebody like Non and it's truly horrorfying and disturbing to watch his life get out of hand. I'm actually scared what's going to happen and I'm scared how realistic it will feel

#i watched two episodes in a row #i see it wasn't a good idea #i need distance #dff the series #dead friend forever

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I'm currently watching episode 6 of DFF and I have to say, I dislike Jin more and more. He's always like "Non is right", "he has a point", "Non is smart", "Non, are you okay" but when it comes to actual confrontation, when the tension rises, he NEVER takes Non's side or helps him. It's only as long as nobody else sees too much and it makes me so mad because Non believes it. Non believes Jin actually cares but Jin only cares when they are alone. Nobody needs people like that. By doing nothing, Jin is also a bully

#dff the series #dead friend forever #i essentially dislike everyone except for Non and Phee #also nothing much happened between them at this point #i don't know what's gonna happen

[watchinglikeafangirl]

I made the fatal mistake of trying to solve an equation that was shown in DFF in a classroom. To be fair, I used my calculator that says it's 4/3 but Non says it's 1/7...and he's apparently right.

And it bothers me a lot and I can't move on

Edit: I actually had to ask my computer and it turns out the two written equations on the board are not the same. I thought the second equation was a shorter version of the first one. While the answer to the second one was asked, Non answers the first one.

I feel like I should have seen that but I didn't, so I feel a bit stupid but actually, Non is the stupid one here

#as someone who studies engineering i cannot accept not knowing the right answer #i love maths and i'm frustrated #dead friend forever #don't mind me

[watchinglikeafangirl]

It's so funny to see posts about DFF full of spoilers but I'm still not able to connect the dots lol

#i'm in ep 5 #i don't understand what's going on #the screenshots of the newest ep look like a completly different series #dff #dead friend forever

[watchinglikeafangirl]

And Babe doesn't even get mad. He just cries happy tears and accepts the fact the funeral and grief were all for nothing. He's not even THAT shocked 🙄

#pit babe the series

[watchinglikeafangirl]

Go watch dead friend forever

I just stumbled upon an edit of this currently airing show produced by be on cloud and I've become a fan. It's a bunch of Teenagers in the woods and it's some horror-mystery-romance. But please don't watch it if you have a problem with graphic violence. There are scenes that hit you without warning. I'm not talking about jumpscares or people being slaughtered but you would essentially forget why they are freaking out so much until something fucked up happens out of the blue.

The horror element is not there all the time. It's a lot about the friendgroup and some secret and how they all cope with stress. The characters really work together, it actually feels like a group of people who've known each other for a while. There's some good chemistry there.

Also, I just started watching because that edit was about Barcode and Ta who played Porchay and Macau in KinnPorsche and their dynamic is pretty funny because of that.

#dead friend forever #i wrote this post to recover from a certain scene lol #it kinda shocked me how graphic this show decides to be #it's so subtle but so effective #plus i've never actually watched horror #so it's something entirely different