#like. DISTANTLY. its

[brother-emperors]

DO NOT BE AFRAID

this is combining Ovid's Heroides and the Excidium Troie because I can't stop thinking of Hermes telling him not to be afraid. what the fuck!! Ares is wearing the crown that Paris gave him.

I have. thoughts. about Paris. he's almost got this Troilos parallel in my mind, that the event that defines him in detail exists in a lost narrative that we don't have (the Cypria), but everyone else knew. the event that defines Troilos is his death (murdered, butchered by Achilles, the violence of which haunts everything after. Achilles, child killer, you can't escape that!), and the event that defines Paris is the Judgement. what's a lost text but a kind of grave!!

idk I don't think that Paris before the Judgement would recognize himself after bc when you become god touched, it rearranges your guts. you become transformed in the worst way possible! how could you recognize yourself! but I also think that all the Parises after the Judgement would recognize each other because that event is so locked into the trauma of war and the scar it leaves on the land, it's like a scar on the narrative too. it exists like this forever, over and over again, so you exist like that forever too. Troy collects grief and despairs.

Troy as trauma: Reflections on intergenerational transmission and the locus of trauma, Andromache Karanika

and Paris is like. a miserable little god/corpse-puppet or something, like a match for the gods to throw onto gasoline.

The Excidium Troie + Ovid's Heroides:

Excidium Troie, trans. Muhammad Syarif Fadhlurrahman

Ovid, Heroides 16 (trans. Harold Isbell)

a collection of things regarding Paris that made me go 😬 but under a cut bc this is getting. very long.

The Divine Twins in Early Greek Poetry, Corolla Torontonensis

Iliad 24 and the Judgement of Paris, C.J. Mackie

Elegy and Epic and the Recognition of Paris: Ovid "Heroides" 16, Elizabeth Forbis Mazurek

Ennian Influence in "Heroides" 16 and 17, Howard Jacobson

Paris/Alexandros in the "Iliad", I. J. F. de Jong

#long post #paris of troy #komiks tag #like. DISTANTLY. its #the iliad #drawing tag #listen i know it's fun to dunk on paris. but im a chronic killjoy. i know its cringe. mea culpa etc #i would love. I WOULD LOVE. to draw a comic and not have the commentary notes be longer than the comic itself #unfortunately i like to read and i cannot stop talking about things that i read. so this will not be changing. #ngl i keep hearing the last line 'my brother says you are a just judge' as 'and brutus says he is an honorable man' and that's smth for sur #god i wish this was shorter but then i remember it could've been longer bc i started drawing this while watching #some excellent korean horror but then i looked at myself in the mirror and said 'no. get your shit together.' #but that show is what sparked this. the themes. god i love shows. a round of applause for tv shows. #in a different world theres a version of me that didn't exercise self restraint and there's 30 screen caps from a horror show here too #it’s all greek to me

[iaminatree]

michael mell gets bullied by an evil supercomputer.png this is not a michael gets squipped au btw lol i just wanted to draw smth silly. anyways i love this guy forreel <3

cropped ver.

#be more chill #bmc #bmc fanart #michael mell #bmc michael #hellooooo bmc fandom #(my voice echoes distantly along an empty hallway) #yeah idk be more chill pops up in my head every year or so and i go mentally ill #this time specifically i randomly thought of that sick as fuck bakunawa au #like dawg that one og fic was my first ever favorite fic on ao3 #(bmc is the first fandom i even looked up on ao3 too) #soooo yeah i reread it and its one of the few things in this world that nostalgia didnt rose tint #its still banger i still love that fic to itty bitty bits #anyways uh rant over. bmc will never let me leave. help.

[cleromancy]

actually i think it fucks severely that tim stole jasons suit specifically to be unwell in it and told people he would stop wearing it when bruce got back and then he didnt stop wearing it when bruce got back

#stole is a strong word considering jason left it in a dumpster #but like #this is his emotional support cowl? #i think its good for jason serial outfit thief to have his own stolen a little bit and i think he should get to grab n shake tim like a+ #chewtoy about it #like simultaneously mad and also distantly realizing that tims not at all alright in the head about him #dc #queued from my drafts #jaytim #jaytim text

[jacksprostate]

(Part 5, previous)

I end up in the cafeteria, staring at nothing. Mastication is the first step of eating. After getting food. After bringing it to your mouth. After the food has leapt into your hands, you can bring it up to your teeth full of cracks and holes, and you can fill them with pulverized chicken and rice and assorted steamed vegetables. And you swallow. And you’ll do this until you die, whether that’s in three, five weeks, or when you’re seventy-eight. Four days or so, if you don’t drink water. I wonder if Tyler has water, locked in the cage of my mind. I wonder if hallucinations need food, or if there’s some other sort of nourishment he needs. That I haven’t been managing to give him. I know he’d like to chew.

Maybe Tyler was onto something, walking around feeling like a bigger dick than God himself.

That night, I sleep like the dead, and I dream of it, too. The movie set of Paper Street yawns above us. I’ve got Tyler in my hands, his hair tight between my fingers as I fuck his throat. I’m curled over him. I’m giving something up. I’m more powerful than I’ve ever been. Tyler Durden has tears in his eyes and my cock in his mouth, and he’s not biting down. Not yet. There’s a heat to the world, and maybe it’s not ever. I feel drunk. He’s quiet.

We’re at fight club, a crowd of howling monkeys around us, and I won. Tyler’s on the ground, looking at me with pride over his shoulder. I’m pulling him apart and sinking inside. I’m fucking my best friend into the concrete. He’s not making a sound.

We’re in my cubicle. I have a large knife, and I’m gutting Tyler like a fish. And I’m burying my dick in him, and he smiles at me. His intestines writhe as I pull on them, hauling his body to me with each thrust. They want back in. I want back in. He’s warm to the core and cooling.

On top of the Parker-Morris building, I’m fucking a hole through Tyler’s shaved head. A cock is your gun, your gun is a cock, an explosion in one direction and I’ve blown mine though his skull. Pulling the trigger, over and over and over. His brain droops out of the hole. Twitching as cum and blood oozes out. Little bits of bone stick to his fried neutered testicle scalp. Rocky mountain oysters. I can see the head of my cock poking out when I fuck in. Out. In. His eyes are empty on me as I move my hands from his jaw to his temples and dig my fingers in. His brain is like plush velvet. It’s better than his throat. Better than his ass. Better than his guts.

Tyler could not cut a hole in himself better than the one I made for him.

I wake up with a rash on my dick from the pillow jammed under my crotch. They don’t bother with high thread counts, here. Might as well be steel wool.

I eat.

I take my pills.

I’m led to the visitation room.

Marla calls me, her voice floats to me through the aether to come out tinny on the telephone.

“Have you heard from Tyler recently?”

Out of the grave enough for speech and she already wants to butt back in.

I want to tell her, I don’t have any words for her. No messages. I’m sorry. My jaw could have rotted off, for all the use it is, and I stay silent.

“I found this new support group. You’d like it. Tyler could be your boyfriend.”

I’m the only one who’s left. Only Marla and I would know the truth if I smeared it like that.

I want to tell her that I hope she’s having a good time, in the real afterlife. That she’s not stuck some place like I was. I don’t want to ask about it. I don’t think we’ll be going to the same place. Marla might not be a good person, but I’m worse.

Regret and remorse don’t mean shit when you can barely even feel them. It’s cruel, how I’m keeping her ghost around. I was haunting her until death and I can’t even stop after.

#fight club #my writing #se7en #se7en (1995) #a little shorter but making headway #i feel like this has to be a strange read getting it all distantly from each other. it tempts me to rush it but finishing it early would be #super lame. oh also my first day went gr8! #anyway this fic keeps getting longer.... #i cant wait to share some of my own thoughts on this too once its done #ive got my own idea of things of course. i love hearing others tho so i cant share until its all done...

[ladycauthon]

I'm rereading aSoIaF for the first time in like 10 years, and just read the Red Wedding and it's much more effectively written in the book than in the show. That could be said of most of the scenes tbh but whatever, the first four seasons of GoT are still good I guess.

However, I'm confused as to why the show had Talisa at the wedding and killed her off when in the book Jeyne isn't at the wedding? I can't remember the books that well, hence the reread, but I think it's at least alluded to that she's pregnant later on and that's a pretty relevant plot point of who's the heir of the King in the North, no? I guess the show just wanted to do its own thing I dunno.

Also I genuinely hate the Talisa change. Robb's reason for marrying Jeyne is so much more consistent with what we understand as foolish Ned Stark honour code, but Robb in the show just meeting a random girl and betraying his oath.... I just don't enjoy it. I never have, but I especially hate it more again as I reread.

It's also baffling how much more sense that the Blackfish just isn't at the wedding in the book rather than the awkward writing of him in the show lol.

Unrelated to the Red Wedding, but I love book Sansa so much - by far my favourite character. Also the Jaime and Brienne relationship is slightly better in the book I think as well although I did like it in the show too.

#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #game of thrones #got #rambling thoughts as i reread i could be wronf about jeyne i genuinely cant remember #also why did they make it so ned didnt do the bedding ceremony in the show? #that always seemed odd to me in the show and i guess its because it is a change that i like distantly remembered or something

[firstroseofspring]

another interesting choice i think in the novel is that miral tells b'elanna a lot about qo'nos- the history and the stories about kahless and the culturally relevant things- but when they actually go to qo'nos, b'elanna isn't trained like the other kids- as in she's not doing the martial arts, preparing for the rite of ascension etc and i wonder if that's a concession on miral's part because clearly it makes b'elanna uncomfortable (though i feel like the novel makes it clear that b'elanna hates not fitting in no matter where it is- she doesn't want to do klingon stuff on kessik, and when they get to qo'nos she's embarrassed that she hasn't done any warrior training) or if miral hadn't thought it would be necessary for her since she clearly knows she doesn't want to go back to qo'nos permanently. anyway all this to say that miral seems a little more uh easygoing about klingon tradition in some ways than b'elanna's perspective makes it seem

#diary #clearly klingon kids start training really young because b'elanna's like 8 in that scene #but in this novel her father left when she was 5 so it may just be a concession #either way its sweet kind of because that kind of thing- it doesn't seem like something you bend on with your kids. softie miral #also theres a very sweet mention of a scene in the novel where b'elanna distantly remembers miral telling a story about a klingon hero #and johns holding her in his lap and they're both listening like. Awwwwww

[infodumped]

cig smell / tobacco smell is so fucking hot like i used to have a shower spray that smelled like tobacco and i felt so fucking sexy when i'd use it and smell like tobacco and menthol cigs all day..... also cig smell with the smell of leather godddd it's so fucking good and so incredibly hot when ppl smell like that.....

#★ #honestly my main old coat smells distantly of cigs from years of wearing it in the winter to go out to smoke #its one of my fave things to wear and it honestly smells so nice and weirdly nostalgic to me #i just love the smell of tobacco in general i think its a very masculine and sexy smell like mmmmmmm ungh moans #i would say sorry but im not sorry for romanticizing my own addictions this is my blog and i'll say it!

[suculentt]

so much guilt and shame and guilt and shame and guilt and guilt and guilt

#my family isnt even that bad!! why do i feel like this!! i have a loving household but it has turned me into something that cant ever relax #i am a live wire and i am a ghost. there is no in between. all i have are extremes. all or nothing. painfully here or distantly gone #i hate this. i hate that im like this. i want it all to be better. i need to get out of this house #sorry this makes me sound like im having a true breakdown and idk maybe i am. but its okay. its okay and im fine really #i dont want to worry anyone. i just wanted to yell into the void a bit #mumbles #negative #vent #delete later

[galpalaven]

and my PREY OC for That movie is a Korean woman who has taught herself to fight to protect her family and her village from war. here is what i have written on my lil info page for her jflkds

Sun-Yang is a warrior chosen by the Feral Predator during his first land on Earth, in which he found himself in Joseon dynasty-era Korea. After slaughtering her village, he decided that she was a worthy opponent and, in an effort to test her limits, grabbed her and transported her to the Northern Great Plains, where he set her loose to begin a new game of cat and mouse. She is found by the Comanche people, nursed back to health as she struggles to explain through the language barrier that something is coming for her and that it’s not safe here. She becomes particularly close with Naru and Taabe, as a female warrior who Naru looks up to and Taabe thinks is… well, attractive. She is the only one to believe Naru about the creature, and stresses that this is real and it is dangerous to stay. Taabe survives his encounter with the Feral Predator because of Sun-Yang playing distraction to the creature.

heavily inspired by Empress Ki even though I know these outfits are from the wrong era ;w;

#prey 2022 #prey #predator oc #i feel bad tagging it like that bc shes not a predator but its for the fRANCHISE #ki sun-yang #i want her ot be related distantly to empress ki i think...

[mbat]

okay im stressed im trying to think of a fic for wings of fire and i wont say much but i was thinking about if sunny had a dragonet but like... who would she even have it with cause shes never shown interest in anyone really and maybe she would be aro but then i looked some stuff up and found this quote from an interview thing from tui about, i think, book 9?

"I do have someone in mind for Sunny one day that I have introduced elsewhere in the series, and if they ever meet, I think they’d be perfect for each other. But it’s a matter of getting them into the same place at the same time."

THIS IS SO VAGUE AND AAA WHAT. like. who :[

anyone got any ideas? i found a thread about this somewhere once but all the options people gave didnt really make sense with her. not to mention, i dont even know if the series will continue after book 15?

i could always just make an oc and all that but idk, i thought id give a try at a canon character first maybe

#wings of fire #wings of fire sunny #i will send the link to that interview if people want sjfjf i only read that particular section of the page #my post #sunny wings of fire #wof #the fic isnt even about her but her dragonet is like... important to the story if they exist #also the options people gave were so funny sjgjsjf #it was like. 'jambu. hailstorm. reed' and its like kgnsjfjf what #jambu is fruitier than his diet. canonically #hailstorm is like. super distantly related to sunny which isnt much after 2k years but it still makes me a little uncomfortable #and reed... weve barely known anything about reed. we know hes clays brother and thats about it. #i guess that doesnt rule him out but we really dont know much about him #but like... thats only 3 options out of MANY #i might just make an oc sjfjsjfjd

[halfadoginatank]

I love the polish language because it's like 'what the fuck does this mean?' And then I learn!!! And im like 'oh wow this is so cool!' I love all that u can see the text and be like 'oh yeah thats polish!!!'

Like! Woah!!! Dude!!! Thats a cool language!!!

#polish #polish language #distantly I feel bad for not learning oh I dont know #mandarin #because im Taiwanese #but like at the same time im not really learning polish its just that I like learning some words #and this song I like sounds way better in polish so I think I can treat myself and learn some bits of it #its hard but it sounds good and I like the way I sound

[fleurmatisse]

thing abt being around online fandom since my teenage years is when i don’t like all the characters equally i feel guilty like i obsess over a couple of fucked up guys? wow bad fan can’t you see there’s a billion other characters why don’t you like them too. don’t even get me started on not shipping anything poly.

#the ‘u only like them bc u ship them’ thing has truly wormed its way in there #i also do usually like a whole cast but the tunnel vision is real #it happens with everything not just fictional characters #there’s also one ship currently that im like ‘but they’re not....equal...they’re barely together’ #but i still feel BAD bc i don’t ship it or even really find it distantly interesting #anyway. it’s almost 5 am and the cat woke me up before 3. ✌️

[kaatiba]

not being able to bend my knee at all is a very weird ache

#like i have the pain from hurting it #but i also have the very specific ache of not being able to move it bc its immobilized in the brace and how painful that is? its v strange #i have never paid so much attention to the bendiness of my joints #what a blessing it is to be able to move them #kaatiba.speaks #being a writer is like: almost throwing up from the pain of twisting my knee so bad i felt AND heard it pop #also a part of my brain distantly cataloguing everything so if i write a similar scenario i can use the experience

[confettigraffiti]

I miss talking to my friends genuinely but also I have very much overstayed my welcome everywhere and it's too late (I got VERY annoying near the end + fell out of a major interest which didn't help. my bad yall 😔) I feel like I should remake at this point and just move on but also. move on to what

#goddamn its fucking confetti again #go back #like at this point nobody wants me around because of obvious reasons but also #part of me would rather be distantly known as instead of being completely forgotten 💀 #love my inability to keep up with anyone despite wanting to so bad #either becuase i cant fucking remember or because eventually i either become intensely annoying or intensely boring #im already a fraction of how active as i was like even a year and a half ago. Would it even matter if i remade. Probably not #WORST lesbian dream of my life was dreaming about bayojeanne and having every single positive feeling i felt about them and then waking #and remembering i can never go back to that. I dont even care about bayo 3 anymore i just know i was MAD annoying #and i cant just to it even if i wanted #and then it started making me spiral about everything even unrelated to it #pain. So much pain. Lets take ibuprofen together #ok thinking about it most of everyone probably doesnt even remember me and arent actively annoyed by me so. Maybe thats better #thats probably better #uhrmm thid got long lol sorry i dont really hsve access to a place to talk anymore so i kind of just go here #bc this tumblr is filled with dead followers and so its safer snd less likely it gets seen #not to be dramatic but this must br what dying feels like lol

[twunkzilla]

Why are rural straight couples so comfortable talking about being inbred?

#rude white girl coworker was flaunting how she teases her bf for being inbred #and then was like actually we are distantly related #and its like the third or fourth time ive heard a conversation like that

[girlhorse]

I’m sure you’ve said it on your blog before, but do you groom Enzo yourself or does he go to a groomer?

I groom him myself (adequately). I'm slowly learning how to shave his paw pads & trim around his feet to the havanese standard. The only trimming allowed/expected is around paws to look neat & some of a sanitary trim, which i have shaved on him because otherwise he smells like p*ss. it's not noticeable from the sides.

He gets a bath every week to week and a half and i brush him as often as i can (trying for daily, but executive dysfunction) His coat could be better (as in, longer and more full) but we have so much sticks and burs this time of year it's causing his fur to have a lot of breakage on his tummy and legs. Not noticeable to a non discerning eye i think, though.

He's going through a coat change and his tangling has been worse/more frequent and i get quite a bit of hair off of him when I groom him but it's not a welfare issue or anything, just a pain in the butt!

I would like to get a groomer on board at some point, maybe once a month, if my financial situation ever improves. it would definitely help me manage his coat esp for the things im not quite skilled at yet. Id also like to meet a groomer that was like, happy to share grooming tips with me xD

#asks #acutely-autistic #I spend several hours a week grooming him #i would say its important to know that ahead of time if you plan to get a dog with a drop coat and want to keep them in full coat #ive considered trimming his coat down lately because of life circumstances but i like his long hair. if it gets too hard to keep up with #i might consider it #but so far im managing lol #we also do nail trims here but lol hes a butt about it and hates it. im going to get a dremel and try my best not to get his hair in it #its been done before by many and i have some mentors to help distantly