#like me and think i’m normal

[starbuck]

i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’

#i don’t know how to explain this to normal people 😭😭 #for the record my coworkers didn’t directly question me on this #but i think i have vastly overestimated the amount of the population who is aware of like. Films. #NOT claiming that i have seen a lot - but i’ve mentioned three *REALLY* well-known films in the past four days #and got blank stares each time #the one of them was a REALLY good reference too… someday my top-notch association skills will be recognized #my first act as Mansion Acquaintance of the [redacted] Director will be to force everyone to watch a 40s romcom i didn’t even like #i’m getting off the point #the POINT is that It’s About The Catharsis

[mangozic]

archivist be upon ye

#relistening to tma again #i think the last time i’ve drawn anything related to it was like may 2020 #god it’s been a while #have been listening to the magnus protocol and my god it’s so good #but heres good old jonathan as a treat #the interest has been in deep slumber for the past 4/5 years only periodically coming back to life #i’m very normal about this podcast actually #on other note i also started a taz balance relisten #what’s up with me and revisiting my middle school fixations lately #anyways #if you’re still reading these tags i’m impressed i could never with my abysmal attention span #tma #the magnus archives #the magnus pod #jonathan sims #the archivist #tma jon #fanart #my art #digital art #illustration #doodle

[opikiquu]

#★ arin rambles #★ my art #art #honkai star rail #hsr aventurine #hsr #So basically me and my bestie have agreed that aven has a priv twt acc and its terrible #yheres only like 1 follower (and its topaz) shes sick of it cuz he posts at the dead of night and its such drastic changes #Like he’d post ‘Sometimes I think about how I’m older than my older sister now.’ #and hes So Sad #and then like 12 minutes later post something like ‘staring at ratio’s cleavage rn not listening to a word hes saying’ #Also ratio isnt allowed to know abt it cuz hes gushing about him constantly like a schoolgirl #anyway so this is Not That. this is the trash he posts though #ignore that one normal cat it was genuinely too cute i didnt wanan erase it .

[insert-game]

it’s the autistic masking isn’t it

#that must be why i feel so grumpy and tired #massive L #i want to not make eye contact with anyone and sort some beads while listening to white noise in a room with carpet and i sit on the floor #and i am not expected to Speak #i don’t even know how to fully like describe masking but its like #i feel like i do a lot of things only because they’re expected and i have to make myself do them or else people will think i’m weird #in online spaces i think i just mask by being kind of overly nice in a customer service kind of way and i just really really want people to #like me and think i’m normal #i want to go outside and collect rocks and look closely at the little flowers outside and sit on the ground and just observe the outside #but i feel like if i do that people will look at me and think i am weird #i feel like so much of me is surpressed for others’ comfort #🥲

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

one time on another platform when i was super new to self shipping i was like. how can you believe your f/o loves you back? and someone replied “don’t they bring you comfort? that is their love for you”

#i think about that. so so so so so so often #has given me more comfort than literally anything else ever when it comes to self shipping #it computes to me yk? that’s how they love you back.. by being a proxy for your happiness.. augh. #like. augh. aaaah #f/o #normally i’m rlly cynical about everything but this works so so so well for me idk idk #self ship #self shipper #self ship community #f/o comfort #f/o positivity #.f/o positivity #f/o community #oc x canon #f/o x s/i

[stuckinapril]

I genuinely love not having a crush like I’m not over here feeling physically sick over some mid guy being dry to me I’m literally chilling

#Spring semester of last year was so bad bc I was unironically into 3 guys at once and they were all #Being dry and cryptic to me #And then before that in 2022 I had my horrid situationship #I had a mini obsession arc in dec 2023 over someone but now there hasn’t been anyone since #And my palette is so cleansed #When a girl is like I miss having a crush I’m like you’re literally a masochist #There was very briefly a girl I thought I had a crush on when I realized I’m bicurious but #I haven’t put effort into talking to her bc the idea of pursuing anyone makes me wanna claw my eyes out #I’m pretty sure I ghosted her by like just not responding to her last messsge actually #Not on purpose but more so bc I realized I was feeling the same anxiety I felt whenever I had a crush so I was like #Yeah I’m dropping this for now #I’m also always the most present for my friends when I don’t have a crush so idk #Like I don’t wanna be consumed by anyone I just wanna chill #The solution to not having normal attraction to people is just to not be attracted to anyone at all #I fr cracked it #I always just crave the butterflies out of it and never an actual relationship anyway #But they’re so not worth it #Which is why I always get bored of guys who’re forthright like oh ok you actually WANT something…. U don’t wanna just have fun #Not for me #I think the guys I’m into and I typically diverge in the sense that neither of us wants a relationship but they just wanna fuck me #And I more so just want the butterflies experience / to playact couple for like a couple months but nothing too serious #Which is why it never works #Like it’s not that it doesn’t work bc either of us wants a relationship it’s more that what we want out of the situationship is different #So lame #Ok this was a lot but I literally came to this epiphany while writing these tags

[kotdish]

I’ve always been a blu scout has freckles truther✊

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #lil pootis #sniperscout #speeding bullet #sniper tf2 #scout tf2 #my art #sketch #TRYING to be normal about them mb #I quite like yellow I’ll be first to admit #I’m actually question my choice of yellow because it’s such a sunny colour for a such a somber scene #but ig it serves to contrast the blue. I didn’t lean the yellow towards orange because the blue is more purple (indigo ig) #so that’s why orange was really unappleaing to me… you could argue I’m even less normal about yellow it’s something I like to think about

[mo-mode]

Okay but the camper in the wheelchair either has a super tricked out celestial-bronze plated magical flying wheelchair with wings gifted by Hermes himself, or Chiron just gave zero shits about how inaccessible the outside world is because there is no way she’d survive a cross-country road trip while being chased by monsters in a normal wheelchair. If they offered me up for a quest like that, I would have wheelied my ass tf out of there. She chose a long-range weapon for a REASON

If the wheelchair IS tricked out, however, then I require a scene where her magical chariot-wheelchair hybrid flies her up above the big battle as she takes out monsters with flaming arrows, or the show is ableist. I don’t make the rules—

#i have not stopped thinking about this #like if it’s a normal wheelchair then Chiron’s feeding her to the wolves #but if it’s a MAGICAL wheelchair then we’re being robbed of quality magical wheelchair content #me watching Chiron offer her up for a quest like WHO PUT MY GIRL THERE STOP BRINGING HER INTO SHIT SHE DOESNT DESERVE THIS #reblog for magical flying wheelchair #my theory is the Hephaestus cabin made it for her #do you think the Hephaestus cabin made Chiron’s too? I think I’m onto something #the ableism is a joke btw obv #percy jackson #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo tv show #percy jackson tv show #pjo spoilers #percy jackson the lightning thief #pjo series

[luminarai]

Attempting to get the beast used to a dental hygiene routine is… well, it’s going.

(She stayed that way for a solid 8 seconds despite hating being held belly up so I think it’s safe to say that Mim is not beating the ‘tiny speaker playing elevator music instead of a brain’ allegations any time soon.)

#cecil blogs her life #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #Mim the cat #cats on tumblr #cat art #comics #black cats #she’s actually pretty good about it normally - like she doesn’t enjoy it but she lets me do it without too many complaints #ofc I make sure to do it as quickly as possible and give her lots of dental friendly rewards lmao #she’s currently sleeping on top of me so I think I’m forgiven #I don’t believe she has any current dental issues so it’s mostly preventative #esp bc we don’t know exactly how old she is or what her life was like before I adopted her #this is probably seven different kinds of heretical but anyway #shout out to Tom my childhood priest who once told me not to take the bible literally after I asked him where the dinos were supposed to #fit into genesis. incredible. anyway I’m a non believing heathen now so meh #who cares #these tags are a RIDE wtf cecil

[devildom-moss]

DiaLuci x MC dynamic

Lucifer: I would burn the world to the ground for you.

Diavolo: And I would build shrines to you atop the ashes.

MC: I wouldn’t ask that from either of you. Besides, I can’t offer you anything that extravagant in return.

Lucifer: My dear, you’re wrong. You underestimate the value of the peace you bring us.

Diavolo: Your affection is a comfort we cannot do without.

#sorry the last request had me thinking #you cannot convince me that these two would not be like that #lucifer #diavolo #gn!mc #obey me chat text #obey me #also I am convinced that Dia and Luci flirting with each other would just be the first two lines #dialuci #I’m fine. I’m normal about this #obey me lucifer #obey me diavolo #lucifer x diavolo x mc

[housecow]

Girl please stop romanticizing obesity, it will literally kill you eventually (and I know it’s not the first time someone says it to you). Like are you even ok? Romanticizing being immobile & being humiliated on the street? Why would you even aspire to this? For some attention of questionable men on this app? Girl they don’t deserve you. This message comes from a place of concern, it is not intended as an insult. You said you want a career in the future, maybe focus on that, I’m not sure how possible it is do all that while being immobile or having whatever condition.

omfg 😭 i apologize for writing little stories to get myself off, i guess?? lmfao. i have a fetish. i state clearly in my bio that this is what to expect. sorry im horny posting anonymously on tumblr.com ???? stop being weird when u don’t even belong in these spaces

#this is so silly #like i really have any choice but to focus on my career #and i’ve literally said before that i don’t plan on reaching immobility #i really doubt i could. i have tummy issues and am literally allergic to garlic #and i’ve also definitely stated before that what i do requires me to have some level of fitness #permits went thru and i have. a massive project out in west TX in september #also. why does this person assume i’m not doing it for myself?? #i was fat before posting here. and i will be fat after #i love my body and i’d love it even more if i was bigger #but i’m fine where i am and i’d be fine losing 50lbs too #tho i don’t wanna be under 200lbs bc that’s where body dysmorphia starts #i am predominantly attracted to fat women so. let me be that pls lol #anon. we have one life and i’m genuinely blessed to have attraction to smthn outside of the norm #this variation is normal within a population and i will have a normal life despite what ppl like you think #talk #ask

[seagull-scribbles]

“Ain’t turtles supposed to be endangered?”

“Only the ones who can’t do this!”

#TMNT 2012 #raphael hamato #casey jones 2012 #is your bestie really your bestie if the first time you laid eyes on them it wasn’t immediately on sight #rasey #it’s not ship art but also I want it in my rasey tag so #I am having so much fun drawing in the canon style I am but god did I need to do something in my own style again #it’s like when you get made to wear a fitted dress and everyone tells you you look nice and it’s perfect #but you feel self conscious and constricted and it’s not something you’d ever wear #I love learning from studying the different styles but I also miss just editing the designs and going off model #altering the brushes and colours to suit a vibe #this is messy gritty wrong and imperfect but that’s what made it fun and easy and I’m so happy with this you can all bite me #also this is the return of flat ass Casey #Lou jitsu’s moral enemy and opposite lmao #I am so normal about Raph and Casey honest #I don’t constantly think about the way he slams Jones on the car bonnet #just a normal short chunky dude with his lanky toll bestie that happens to have the worlds flattest ass

[bicheetopuff]

(Ch. 336)

You know, this panel has always made me a little curious. Every other time we saw Izuku sparring with Katsuki (before the war started at least), he’d use blackwhip to defend himself, hence ‘catch-a-kacchan’ so I found it weird how Izuku didn’t even try to grab Katsuki. For like 100 chapters prior to this, he used blackwhip for everything and would eventually just leave it out incase he needed it quickly kinda like how Hawks utilized his feathers (when he had them) so I kinda just made a mental note about how weird it was that Izuku chose to evade instead of defend when he easily could’ve.

I also found it weird how quickly Izuku wanted to change the topic along with the distress on his face. I thought it was just a cheap and ooc way of explaining Todoroki’s new power quickly but, since it’s now confirmed that Izuku has PTSD about Katsuki’s sacrifice, what if Katsuki’s cluster move triggers that trauma response too?

The next time we see cluster used with Izuku present, Izuku actually does respond with blackwhip.

(Ch. 404)

He doesn’t use it in defense though, he uses it in almost possessive way by securing their hands together with it. But also, he doesn’t speak for this entire chapter. It could be explained away by the side effect of using gearshift and him not being able to breath but before now, he’s been more focused while in distress and was also speaking just fine before. Though, in these panels, and through the entire chapter, he seems almost delirious and in shock. He’s not even reacting to the lack of oxygen anymore.

He even starts ignoring Shigaraki in these moments. He’s stunned and mesmerized but now I’m starting to question whether he’s amazed or scared out of his mind for what might happen. With that uncertainty, all that I can say confidently is that he’s distracted.

(Season 7 ep. 4)

Arguably after chapter 404, he stops thinking straight and, honestly, gets a little sloppy. A few chapters after this, is when gets danger sense stolen and starts getting truly injured. He makes the decision to give away OFA and loses his arms. He reverts right back into his “I don’t care what happens to me” mentality that his class has been trying to get him to grow out of for a while.

He wasn’t mentally prepared for something to go wrong in this fight. He wasn’t mentally prepared to be pulled away, leaving Katsuki with Shigaraki. I thought it was just iffy writing that he’d mentally regress after Katsuki woke up instead of before but, it honestly makes a lot more sense now. He cared about what happened to himself because he needed to stay alive to ensure Katsuki’s revival. Once Katsuki woke up and he watched him fight AFO, he started being reckless again. He went back to viewing himself as nothing but a vessel for OFA because he believes OFA is the only thing that can beat AFO, hence why he trusted the vestiges when they said “we can fight him from the inside” (which I think was a silly decision. It’s noble in theory but it amounted to nothing because Izuku can’t win in this regressive state of self sacrifice anymore. Or at least, he shouldn’t since it’s such a big part of his arc.).

And now, with the most recent chapter with most of his classmates present it seems like he’s regretting that decision because he’s being reminded that people care about him. They showed up to support him regardless of already being hurt because he can’t win on his own. Eri mutilated herself to help him and if that doesn’t tell him that fighting without the intent of not dying is stupid, idk what will.

(Ch. 421)

He was about to just throw himself back into the fight with the same mindset as before if Aizawa didn’t stop him. He looks frustrated because he realizes the weight of what he’s been doing and how looking up to AM and the previous vestiges shouldn’t be his role models right now considering all of their fates. He’d just be continuing OFAs curse like Katsuki’s been worried about for a hundred something chapters.

In conclusion, this post was very unfocused but I can’t wait to see Izuku kick ass and for Katsuki to show back up because with the impact he’s had on Izuku, I DESPERATELY need them to talk. Most of this post may have very well been a stretch but, let me be delusional please.

#bnha #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #bnha 421 #also rereading some of these chapters made me realize that katsuki changed fate just like Izuku did when Nighteye looked into the future #I think we’re all being far too normal about that #oh Katsuki’s gonna show back up btw #he literally has to for what’s happening to make sense #same with iida and Uraraka #bakudeku #bkdk #I’m sorry but this last memories episode chemically altered my brain and made think of Izuku’s character so much #he’s just a kid #bnha meta

[sugarcoatedrattrap]

happy siblings

#bobs burgers #calvin fischoeder #felix fischoeder #I have t h o u g h t s #normally I’m not into like character pasts or family histories #but it plays into their dynamic really nicely and honestly makes me more interested #hot take but I don’t super wanna know more about their parents #more interested in just how they were as siblings as kids or just younger adults I think that’d be neat

[stuckinapril]

i’m literally so bad at telling stories bc midway through i’m always like “no one really gives a fuck about this” and i want to shut the fuck up. how do people do it

#this ALWAYS happens like i’ll be telling someone something and in the back of my mind i’m like do you even really care #logistically i think people do care but my assumption is always in bad faith idk why #i do really care but anyone who knows me knows i get very engaged in knowing what people are up to #which i don’t think is the default for most people #is this normal. is this anything #p

[delta-piscium]

the real reason Steve brings a date to a high school basketball game for a high school he doesn’t even go to anymore is because the one time Nancy went with him the team won and his sports superstitions kicked in and he can’t just risk Lucas losing because of him not having a date, so he will take on the burden and ridicule of being the guy who graduated and drags new dates to games all in the name of not upsetting the delicate intricacies of rituals in sports

#i am so obsessed with him bringing a date to that game like i think about it constantly #because like wasn’t it a first date? or at least one of the firsts? absolutely insane behavior to me #okay i can see it being normal if it’s just ‘we’re both going wanna go together?’ buT that’s less fun to me #also weird sports superstitions steve is so real and true to me #god i love sports people with their little rituals i’m obsessed #coming out of the woodworks with this absolute mess of a post like i’m sorry this is all i have #it is 6am and i have not slept so i apologize for if my wording is messy here #stranger things #steve harrington #dels stranger things thoughts