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sitp-recs · 11 months

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Hi!! Do you know any fics with sex scenes that seem more comfortable and routine ig? I'm thinking of ones similar to the scene in Wild that you talked about recently, where they are obviously attracted to each other but it's not super intense or anything, it's more like they're taking their time and having fun? Idk if that makes sense😂

Hi there! That makes total sense, love myself some organic and fun smut 🤌🏼 I guess that’s something a bit personal but I really like the easy intimacy from these fics:

Tense by Faith Wood (E, 3k)

Harry and Draco have sex. Very, very slowly. Seriously, this is, like, 3K of penetration.

Student Digs by Lokifan (E, 4k)

Harry’s living in *student accommodation*. Just the phrase makes Draco shudder.

Lucid by dracoladon (E, 4.4k)

Harry's not sure what makes him harder; listening to Draco talk about astronomy, or shagging Draco so thoroughly that he can't talk at all. Both, probably.

Matched Set by astolat (E, 5.7k)

“No one asked you to look, did they?” Draco said, eyes glittering and intent on Harry’s face—like he’d just wiped off the years and turned back in time to when their greatest ambition in life had been to knock the other off his broom in front of the school and grab the Snitch first, before they’d both gone to war and come back with scars.

Up The by @shiftylinguini (E, 7.5k)

“I feel I need to point out,” Draco kissed gently over Harry’s Adam’s apple, “that this is the most Gryffindor approach to conception that could possibly exist.” Or: Harry's had madder ideas.

Born Slippy by dracoladon (E, 8k)

Harry finds that it's less 'one tequila, two tequila, three tequila, floor' and more 'one tequila, two tequila, three tequila, decide Malfoy's quite fit, actually, and decent company after your friends traitorous abandonment, floor.' With Malfoy lying next to you.

break the bad luck in my life by seaworn (E, 11k)

Draco and Harry are both brooding on Christmas Eve.

An Act of Kindness for One Harry Potter by a Sympathetic Draco Malfoy by 0idontknow0 (E, 15k)

As Draco leaned on the wall to wait for them to get dressed, he could not help feeling like he had done a very kind thing by disrupting them. Someone should give Potter a better rogering than that sorry sod had.

Waiting By An Open Door by Femme and noeon (E, 29k)

Draco starts following Potterwatch secretly during the War. He wishes Potter would come save him too. But that sort of thing only happens in fairy tales, and Malfoys don't get fairy tale endings, do they?

Wild, orphaned (E, 92k)

“No,” Harry said, by way of greeting. Malfoy’s blonde head rose slowly, carelessly. “Get out.” “I feel as though we’ve already established this, Potter,” Malfoy responded. “And I feel that what we established was that you telling me to get out of places really doesn’t make me more likely to vacate them.”

#asks #anon #Drarry reclist #organic sex scenes

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tigerbears · 3 months

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Ok, going to add to the "Trans Noelle antlers" discourse.

First, disclaimer this is all just for fun and stuff not telling you that Noelle is or is not trans, just had some thoughts after thinking what causes antlers to grow.

Let's go through the debate cycle again.

"Noelle is trans because she has antlers." "Noelle is a reindeer and both male and female reindeer have antlers." "Male and Female reindeer loose their antlers at different times"

I want to add another step to that cycle.

"Would HRT affect when Noelle sheds her antlers?"

From this paper, testosterone lowers when male reindeer are about to lose their antlers, but those that are castrated (and thus dont have any T in their system) actually keep their antlers over the winter in the long run. The study also shows that hormones like estradiol are likely what lets female reindeer keep their antlers into spring.

Now this can mean many things for Noelle. If Noelle is on HRT, she would likely have a similar Antler cycle to IRL female reindeers if she like cycled her hormones or something.

(Basically similar to how some folks try and change their hormone doses to match a menstrual cycle, except for Noelle this would be a yearly cycle and not monthly.)

Or, maybe Noelle doesn't cycle her HRT, and in that case idk what would happen. Maybe she'd lose her antlers later then male reindeer, but earlier then female ones. Maybe if its high enough it would keep her antlers for longer, or prevent them from shedding or something? Idk I just skimmed the article and I feel like I'm already doing to much to research a lesbian deer girl from a video game.

Even if Noelle was on puberty blockers, then she'd at least keep her antlers for the winter, like male reindeer without testosterone.

(Also, if Noelle was a deer and not a reindeer, then hormones/blockers would likely prevent her antlers to grow in the first-place once they've been shed.)

I have only just learned (in April) that this is inaccurate for deer. If Noelle was a deer and started blockers before growing antlers, the above is correct. If she started blockers after developing antlers, she'd still grow antlers, it's just they wouldn't leave the velvet stage and wouldn't naturally shed.

I have no clue what HRT would do though because I don't think scientists have injected male deer with estrogen. (COME ON SCIENTISTS DO IT FOR SCIENCE!)

Now I guess there's one more question, if Noelle is trans, would she be able to access HRT or puberty blockers?

Well, Rudy at least supports her identity, so he likely wouldn't have any problem with Noelle medically transitioning.

If Mayor Holiday was transphobic, and had the authority to keep Noelle from gender affirming care like Hormones or blockers, you would think she'd also put her hoof down on her daughter presenting femme too. (and Rudy might have something to say if his transphobic wife tried to prevent his daughter from transitioning.)

Money likely wouldn't be an issue seeing as Noelle's mom's the mayor, (and has been for awhile) and even then the large ornate gate at their house makes me think that Holiday's are on the richer side.

Only way I could see Noelle being trans and not on Hormones or Blockers is either if she for some reason didn't want them, or if Hometown is located in some transphobic country or municipality that banned trans-kids from accessing gender affirming care, and the latter honestly seems a little too depressingly real for a Toby Fox game.

(Insert something plagiarized from Shadow of Roserade's video on UT/DR's queer joy.)

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Now, dispute all this arguing and stuff I think there's one factor we're ignoring here; we're assuming that reindeer monster biology and IRL reindeer biology are analogous.

We don't know how monster reindeer antlers work. Maybe all reindeer monsters have them, but they don't shed them so we cant use antlers to determine if Noelle is trans. Maybe AMAB reindeer monsters grow antlers, their permanent, and Noelle got hers before medically transitioning meaning she'd need like "antler reduction surgery" or something to remove them when she's older.

All the above theorizing means is that if Noelle has a similar antler cycle to IRL female reindeer, it doesn't mean she's cis because HRT can affect that.

There's no way to confirm if Noelle is or is not trans unless like more concrete evidence shows up in later chapters, like estradiol tablets in Noelle's room or something.

The most we've got is unused sprites for Noelle's room in queen's mansion that show pill bottles (Shown earlier in this post). This is still not enough as we don't know what these pill bottles are. They could be anything from anti-depressants to medicine for Rudy! (also the fact the sprites we're never used.)

TL;DR, there's no way to tell if Noelle's trans or cis, and trying to track when her antlers shed is futile as HRT would likely effect that.

I'm still going to pretend she's trans though as I love the headcanon for no particular reason. (spoiler alert, the reason is I'm trans!)

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genderkoolaid · 1 year

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Hi! I pondered today the post you've reblogged asking people to examine their biases in how they perceive transmascs. My thought was only vaguely related, as it was more related to bisexualism. I hope it's not an issue. I'd like to share it, as I respect you a lot. (Thank you lots for introducing me multigenderism! I didn't knew it was an option and I'm exploring a little! :3)

Specifically I was thinking about the erasure of men perceived as feminine from mlw relationships. There's this... assumption, that feminine men are almost inherently (OOF) unable to be attracted to women? (Putting aside fandom bias to ships involving women in the first place.) What's up with that??I cannot quite put it in the words properly but... it just doesn't sit right with me. Idk, it feels... emasculating? Like, being a femme is a vibe, a presentation, etc, but if it's a femme man it's still *very much a man*. This + typical bisexual erasure and overall assuming you can clock people's sexuality on appearance alone... Probably more that eludes me. I'm still grappling with it. Idk, there's probably much more to say here but... it's upsetting emotionally to me, personally. I'm an afab woman (maybe more) so please, *please* take my input with a grain of salt. It's just that I love men. I adore them. I want to learn more about them, learn their struggles, help them if I can. I might love them even more out of spite when biphobic people scorn at it bc it's not queer enough. Here's the catch: My type specifically is femmes. As a femme woman. So ironically my longing towards men always felt more "broken" and "unachievable" then towards women. Bc for years it felt like... femme men would never want me, by the virtue of who I am. With what body I was born and feel at home in. Idk where I'm going with this at this point. I guess I too wish people would examine their biases. In this case towards feminine men. For the sake of all men, trans, cis, femme/butch... and people who love them. Emasculating men hurts everybody. Even women, such as myself. I hope I haven't at any point sounded as equating "feminine men" to "transmasc", btw! I do NOT believe transmasc are feminine! If at any point I was coming of like that by bringing both in one ask I'm sorry! Here I'll conclude. I still have much to learn thought. I still grapple with naming the issue at hand I would deeply appreciate men insight here. Have a nice day :3

I actually posted an article written by a femme bi man talking about this topic a while back!

This is very much an issue. The way I interpret the different ways biphobes react to bi men/women is that its related to how patriarchal gender roles operate. All bisexuals are targeted by the idea that they are either "really" straight or "really" gay because of binarism. Women are resource objects, so cishet men's access to them needs to be preserved; therefore, bi women must be REALLY straight. Men, on the other hand, are competitors, and queerness is one of the major ways men are seen as failing that competition; as a result, bi men must be REALLY gay because their attraction to men(/feminine presentation, if they are femme) means they could never successfully compete at manhood. (This is ofc just a general trend; sometimes people, especially queers, will insist a bi woman must be really a lesbian esp if shes butch, and cishets may insist a bi man must be really straight especially if hes masc/butch).

I identify as bisexual and as a femme man, although I'm not sure if I would consider myself attracted to women as a man (multigender sexuality is weird but fun!), but know there very much ARE femme bi men out there who would love to be in a relationship with you. I think a lot of mlw who have a preference for femininity have experienced this, queer or not, because there is so little visibility for GNC men who are attracted to women- and because there are women who are queerphobic about the idea of a woman dating a GNC man.

#m.#ask box #antimasculism

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rocksanddeadflowers · 1 month

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Sorry if this starts a new thread but I am thinking so hard about the crew Jonny traveled with to Europe.... On average a voyage like that would take 6-10 weeks, if the weather treated them well. (It could even take longer, in the 1600s it would've been around three months even, but travel advanced a little by the Beauty and the Beast era obviously.) I'd assume the trip took at least two months, if not more, and Jonny was probably there for most of it if, when the ship went down, he was close enough to shore to wash up. (Also, need to talk about how so not fun being washed up from a ship wreck likely is... That boy is gonna be battered and bruised and broken, broken bones and cuts are so likely considering the waves and probable shore being more rocky than sandy, and he could've easily developed hypothermia and/or pneumonia. Just to throw in more angst or hurt comfort stuff with the realism.) Point being, he probably had a chance to get close with some or all of the crew.

Idk what kind of sailors these are, to be specific. I'm kinda ruling out government officials or any type of warship or military vessel, obviously. It was probably a type of merchant ship (meant to transport goods and sometimes passengers), and Jonny just stowed away because he was terrified hated the idea of being caught after killing his dad and stuff. I do think the idea of it being a pirate ship (it was likely during or right after the golden age of piracy when this all happened) is extremely funny, mainly if the crew was very chill. Also, while a merchant ship is more likely to me, a very chill pirate crew might have less qualms about a trans masc murdering twelve year old than a typical merchant ship crew (possibly, at least. Maybe the merchant crew it very cool, maybe the pirates are genuinely assholes instead). Also, pirates probably pose as normal merchants plenty.

Thinking specifically about Jonny knowing he's a boy, but never being allowed to change or express that with his birth parents. Everyone he killed (including his father) could've easily been when he was more femme presenting, so running away, he might now have a better chance as presenting more masculine, and it's kinda helpful to have a new identity when you're on the run from the law. Also, whether it cool pirates or very anti government merchants, the idea of certain crew members knowing this and helping him pass better is just..... gonna tear my heart out. (Picturing he had long hair that he messily chopped away at with a knife, and later on a crew member offering to clean the cut up a bit.... and it does kinda grow out during the trip but Jonny doesn't mind...... idk chewing and tearing at that.)

Just thinking about Jonny developing a close relationship with some of the crew... Feel like some of the crew members might not be the greatest but Jonny gets close with a select few on board. Just thinking about that only for it to be torn away before they reach land. Idk pissing myself off over something I made up in my brain... (its entirely possible for other people to survive the wreck, too, but how likely is it that Jonny knew they survived, or that anyone else knew Jonny did, you know?)

I dunno just going insane. Tagging partners in crime er writing @blazeismyname and @unsat-and-strange for y'alls thoughts

#the consequences of creation and love

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little-miss-dilf-lover · 3 months

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I do feel bad for all the spam from last night, so I'm just gonna write everything in one message 💺 anon

Firstly, I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM!! It was only us at a train station, he was talking on the phone with lem while holding a briefcase in his right hand. We realized the train we have to take is on another platform and we have to use an escalator to get there. But THIS MAN thought "screw that" and started walking there on the railway track while a TRAIN WAS COMING?? The train stopped before it could it him (somehow??) and in true Tan style, he started arguing wirh the train driver (while still on rhe phone with lem) I think my brain combined the fact the ideas of Tan and the train story.

I have no idea if I sended those last night because I found them in my notes this morning so if I did and I don't remember I'm sorry !!

(About whole Morioka scenerio) I already send in two requests so I'm going to save that one for next time!! "just turn it on dnd and his calls go to voicemail" Oh you know we are in for it when he gets home (why does this kinds go well with my smut request?)

Also something I wanted to add : I was so obsessed with the idea of him in our floral stain gown that I forgot about the plaid pj bottoms, they are my favorite so we matching!!

About the him shaving idea, sorry I didn't know if I should add that or not, I got that idea because atj looked like a baby when promoting the movie in Seoul. I would be so sad I'll give him the silent treatment for a few days 😭😭

Reading "my man is texting me" got me blushing like a tomato. I'm alwaye talking about how he refers to us as his wife, the wife and missus, so we also refer to him as my man and my husband!!

I wanna send in more of my own text convos if that's okay, they are so fun to write!!

+ also yes about the femme fatal vibes

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😭😭 it’s all good !!

1- YOU HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM??? OMG IM SO JEALOUS

hate when my brain merges different things that you thought about in the day (but not if they’re good obviously) I had one last night/this morning that I was brushing my teeth and the paste was fluffy and was like expanding foam and was choking on it, all bc when I brushed my teeth before bed I used too much and it was kinda chunky and made me feel sick 😭😭😭😭

i had a small dream about him a couple times but it was a while back and now I can’t remember

2- you’re all good, you sent them in 😭

3- 😭😭😭 it always suits well with tan (I’ll try to worm that in somehow if I can for your request)

4- RIGHT???? I love the idea of him idk answering the postman in the morning and wearing something of yours bc it was the closest/ first thing he could see. then it became a habit of wearing our gowns and stuff. and for us his plaid bottoms and a hoodie (all his)🫠

5- HAHAHA no no don’t worry about it, I just meant that it always messes with me and makes me think they’re a stranger bc facial hair is a big part of someone’s face. “I can’t even look you in the face. you look so naked without it” or “I miss your stache:(“ or “haha baby face” I think it’s bc I have a thing for facial hair and id be freaked out not seeing it on someone that’s always had it (I think that makes sense)

6- hehe right??? he deserves to be spoken about possessively too 😭😭😭 (not even possessive but you get what I mean)

7- ofc yes!! send them in

💓💓

#ask #💺#tangerine #tangerine headcanon

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sigynpenniman · 1 year

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okay I really gotta have a moment here but like. I do not understand how I existed this long without being obsessed with Gerard Way but I’m never gonna fucking be the same again and it’s because. because they keep saying and doing such simple silly things that feels like it’s been pulled out of my heart I was so worried when I realized the secretary was getting deader I was genuinely getting worried it was going to get like. Scary zombie. and it was something that was going to upset me for like a week but nope. just cute. sexy. creepy but in a way that I want to run towards. someone tweets Gerard and they respond with “yeah but I’m afraid of doctors.” That silly little breakfast picture from the hotel where he’s dressed LIKE ME and literally looks like he’s borrowed my whole gender my whole hyper specific weird gender that I genuinely thought I was the only person in earth who had. sort of neutral and vibing but high femme for fun. their body reminds me of mine, not completely obvs but there’s features that are. So similar. Their legs and thighs look like mine. the sense of feeling beautiful that gives me seeing the similarities in myself and the person I myself am drooling over the euphoria that gives me and THEN that interview that was posted earlier where they’re talking about their daughter dressing up as undertale character, the bit immediately AFTER that the hosts are like “so you love Halloween, do you do Halloween horror nights and haunted houses and stuff?” and Gerard’s like NOPE those things where people jump out at you are a nope they freak me out too bad. And I almost cried. I’ve spent my whole little life carrying my weird little problems with scary shit and haunted houses and things with me and no one understanding and it’s caused me SO MUCH MORE social anxiety than you would believe I live in fucking Orlando “do you wanna come to horror nights” comes up. much more than you would think. But I love some creepy stuff. It’s kind of arbitrary what I love and what I don’t. and then here’s Gerard Way oh he of the horror movies and the zombie contacts saying nope, can’t do it. Too scary. It’s so specific and yet it’s so similar to my experience idk man I’m just so fucking emotional because they’re just out there vibing and they keep doing and saying small little things that speak to some incredibly specific weird thing I’ve experienced and all of the sudden I feel warm in my heart because I am not alone and. Yeah. I never thought I would be so emotional about Gerard Way and yet here we are they make me feel like I am being gently held all of the time the happiness and joy this has brought me is just. unreal. it’s so nice in Gerard World. I love it here in Gerard World. Everyone should come join me in Gerard World

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girltober · 6 months

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Girlfit! Gamer socks/armthings and a sundress might not go well together on paper, but I like this fit a lot 🩷 girls just have so many more customisation options to pick from. And you know what they say, you gotta Get Railed in a Sundress 😜

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So! Girl Month is two thirds over... whats the state of affairs?

Its been a little while since I last posted anything substantive bc well... girltime has been normalised. In the first week I was very strict about wearing only "proper" girly clothes, not even using my normal dressing gown! But as time passed I've allowed myself to wear more unisex clothing - for better or worse. In general Girl month has become less... exciting and wild and more a mundane part of life. I go out in girlmode and don't think twice about it.

I've been on E nearly 2 weeks now with no effect, which I guess I expected but its a little disappointing. My nips don't feel any more sensitive than usual which is lame.

Sidequest 2 and 3 have not been completed, but I'm planning to complete 3 tomorrow which I'm looking forward to (shes soo hot). And I forsee myself completing 2 also bc like... cmon, how hard can it be?

Girl month has also been a little bit of a slut month for me- which has honestly been kind of the best part lmao. I mean my bodycount is still 1, but I've really enjoyed wearing revealing clothes, going out with my girltreat in, and thinking a lot about being a... well a free use fucktoy 😳.

Maybe I'll make another post trying to delve into the psychology of it, but I guess long story short... horny guys are gross, but horny girls are hot. That might only be true in my own lesbian*(?) head but I feel like its not just me who feels that way. Idk theres a lot to unpack there. Being a girl made me feel more confident being a pervert is what I'm saying, for better or worse.

(*For this month(?))

But to the main event: gender.

I started this month with the view that i was doing this for shits and giggles and nipple-orgasms.

I was planning to walk out of this having unlocked Cis+, as a BoyChad like Finnster who can walk through the Valley of Girl and not flinch at the feminine shadows cast over me.

But...

Rrrrrgh.

*deep sigh*

I guess... I'm probably not cis.

Yeah yeah I know the guy who volunteered to dress as a girl for a month for no reason is actually trans big surprise, someone call the pope, who could have seen this coming yada yada.

I will say that I'm not sure that I'm a girl either though.

I enjoy dressing up femme, and I get a little hit of dopamine whenever someone calls me Charlotte or uses she/her pronouns, but...

(Wait typing that sentence in real time just made me realise that i might just be a girl after all uuuh nvm continuing with my original point)

...I don't necessarily... feel like a girl? Like I mostly forget I'm a girl and then occasionally I think "oh yeah I'm supposed to be a girl rn. Or maybe... I just AM a girl for this month? Oh nice I'm a girl I guess sweet" and then carry on with my usual activities.

Although even that sounds pretty trans hmm.

(Good thing I successfully turned off Pop-ups or this post would be unreadable with the amount of Transgender XP I've gained lmao)

Does anyone remember that one comic? Its like the car driving "PENIS" face one except the thought is "im a girl". This is nonsense to non-tumblrinas I'm so sorry, if anyone finds the comic I'm thinking of please send it to me.

Anyway, i may not be a trans girl, maybe I'm nonbinary or maybe genderfluid or bigender or something else... but M** left Plato's cave when he became me/Charlotte, and I/she can't imagine going back in there and forgetting. Wearing a dress is just too much fun to quit lmao.

I definitely think i just don't have a very strong sense of gender in general- I've boymoded for family events and doctors appointments and felt no discomfort or dysphoria- but being a girl recreationally is just more fun!

I might do Boyweek in early november to try to solidify my gender opinions, but for now... my gender is almost certainly queer and i can't wait to find out what I become ^^.

Thank you everyone for reading and supporting me, thank you all my friends for being chill about this and thank you M & L for supplying me with E and thank you Y for being the madlad who took E for lols in the first place and MASSIVE thank you to the one who took me opshopping and opened my mind to polyamory and made this whole experience... just so much more comfortable and fun.

Oh and thanks to the random internet people who followed along too- Its been really cool to see this break containment in little ways!

Uuuh anyway this might feel like a very final retrospective post but I still have a couple of girlweeks left in girlmonth so I'll keep y'all posted with my future girlfits and antics!

Love y'all! ❤️🩷💜

#girl month #girltober #transgender #genderqueer #girl #gender #girlblogging #girl month nsft #girl drugs #hey guys did you know that in terms of male human and female pok-*sniper takes me out*#girl fit #i censored my boyname not bc I have strong feelings against it but just for internet privacy reasons lmao #yes i picked the vaporeon gif for that reason lmao

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bluesadansey · 1 year

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miss katherine pierce for the character asks. 🙏🏽 and/or cordelia chase!

Hi sorry this took me so long!

Katherine Pierce

three facts about them from my personal headcanons: 1) this seems obvious but she’s bi 2) this isn’t super hc-y it’s more like the show is inconsistent about what’s up and I have a set idea, I do believe that she genuinely was in love with Damon at a point not just Stefan and Elijah 3) idk… Kat isn’t really a character I get into heavy hc territory with a lot

a reason they suck: well she is an objectively terrible person but not in a way out of the ordinary for this verse and she is a villain lol. I guess technically the thing I don’t like about her char sometimes is when they lean too hard on the more misogynistic aspects of the femme fatale trope in how she’s written

a reason they are great: she’s just a fantastic character and villain imo she consistently makes thing interesting every dynamic and storyline she’s in has a little something extra because of her, I love that she’s incredibly clever and competent and tenacious in her pursuit of survival above all else also she also has the best lines.

a reason I relate to them: I don’t really relate to her… actually I can relate to her hating being human in s5 being human is bad enough going from vampire to human sounds terrible lmao.

(what I consider to be) the top tier otp/ot3 for that character. I really enjoy basically all her ships but I do have a favorite and it’s Katherine/Caroline <3 they check a lot of my boxes in terms of just what I enjoy in ships. And for ot3 I’d go for Katherine Caroline and Stefan I do ship and have feelings about all 3 dynamics and they had good moments as a trio in s5.

five things that never happened to that character that I believe should have happened: 1. I really like the majority of her arc in s5 and the concept of the body swap with Elena but I wish the reasoning for it wasn’t so Stefan-centric… I wouldn’t call it ooc necessarily but I don’t think it was good enough for her idk I would alter some of the specifics of her last couple of eps in s5 2. more interactions between her and Bonnie especially it would have been nice for Katherine’s relationship with Emily to come back up as a thread and that to impact how she interacts with / connects with Bonnie 3. I feel like at times she should have kind of had more space in the narrative to express how Klaus impacted/traumatized her over the years. 4. No Queen of Hell storyline 5. Scenes with Hayley + more scenes with Rebekah

five people that character never fell in love with and why:

1.Klaus—the obvious answer is him chasing her and trying to kill her but also I feel like probably before that and just in general they’re both characters who put on masks a lot of the time, and they’re really similar in a lot of ways maybe too similar for them to develop the soft spot to fall in love with each other.

2.Matt—Katherine finds him hot for some reason but he hates her too much for it to be a StefanElijah situation.

3.Kol—Is there ever anything stated in canon about their dynamic? Have they ever interacted? I feel like the dynamic would be sort of Datherinelight I think she’d have fun with him in a similar way but wouldn’t get intense about him the way she did with Damon I think despite herself.

4.Bonnie—Julie was too cowardly to let them interact much.

5.Rebekah—Same thing.

Cordelia Chase

1.three facts about them from my personal headcanons: 1) her first kiss was with Harmony they were “practicing” 2) ats doesn’t ever go very deep into Cordy and acting but I like the idea that it is genuinely something she’s always kind of wanted to pursue but it would never have been her plan to primarily pursue it before her dad went bankrupt, I think once that happened she figured she had nothing to lose and decided to go for that when her mo is usually the most practical option. And when she actually finds her place in Angel investigations it’s something practical that you could argue does occasionally involve theatrics xd so I think that’s the perfect medium for her. 3) Because Cordelia can be really caring and protective when it comes to people close to her, I think she really holds the way he treated Harmony against Spike. She also definitely holds other things against him related to Angel (I don’t think in the canon timeline she ever learned about spuffy which is unfortunate I love Tara’s reactions but Cordy’s would have been stellar too.. but like that’s not a factor here) but I like the idea that Harmony’s treatment is a sticking point for her.

2.a reason they suck: the classism ig it’s hard for me to care when it’s directed at Xander though sorry

3.a reason they are great: I think a lot of what I love about Cordelia is definitely in how Charisma played her rather than the writing for her in either show, she just channels so much… well charisma lmao no pun intended into this character and also so much complexity, you get the feel of her as such a fully fleshed out person right away even though the writers didn’t seem to see her that way. In terms of just personality traits she has that I really dig I like that she’s not afraid to be honest and herself, her confidence, the fact she’s smarter than given credit for not just book wise but she’s a really pragmatic thinker and problem solver, her ambition and her capacity to be loyal and caring and protective even if she isn’t the most compassionate person ever at first. I also just love how funny she is which also goes along the lines of Charisma is so good at being her.

4.a reason I relate to them: as a teenager when I first watched I related to her ideas about brutal honesty now that I’m older I don’t do much. I guess ambition and I can be materialistic

5. (what I consider to be) the top tier otp/ot3 for that character: Coffy probably edges out Cangel for me but just barely I love both of those ships so much. I don’t really have a set ot3 for her I could ot3 her with Angel and Buffy (probably the only way I’d find BA interesting tbh), also could see Cordelia Angel and Gunn or Cordelia Fred Gunn. Or Cordelia Fred Lilah there are options

6. five things that never happened to that character that I believe should have happened: 1. She should have lived 2. She never should have had that arc with Connor and I like Jasmine but I’d either scrap the Jasmine arc or have her exist in a way that had nothing to do with Cordelia 3. she should have been present on the show for all five seasons and Cangel should have been endgame (there aren’t a lot of Buffyverse ships I feel strongly Should be endgame because I tend to be attracted to messy ships like Spuffy Weslah etc. where I don’t necessarily think a conventional happily ever after would fit the ship and satisfy me, but Cangel is the buffyverse ship I think fully deserved that) 4. She should have gotten to talk to Buffy again at some point in the later seasons! Had some crossover scenes! The Willow one she did get also could have gotten into a lot more detail about the parallels and anti parallels in their arcs 5. She never should have been blonde. I realize that was more things that shouldn’t have happened to her in a way but I feel that’s valid.

7.five people that character never fell in love with and why:

1.Doyle — other than the lack of time I don’t think she ever liked him that much outside of him being sort of there for her at a vulnerable time in her life

2.Harmony — I think Cordelia cares for Harmony but she always very much thinks of her as not on the same level as her, not an equal with the ability to rival her the way she treats Buffy even arguably Willow or Anya but definitely Buffy. There’s not enough mutual respect in their relationship to lead to Cordelia falling in love But I think in a world where post Harmony vampirism they got a chance to work on their relationship a lot over time that could look very different.

3.Willow —- Just too much built up animosity from over the years even pre series but if they’d been in a life or death situation together like with Cordy and Xander I’m sure they would have made out and hey maybe they did make out in that closet in School hard.

4.Wesley — obviously the main thing is they met/started flirting when she was a student and the age/power difference. I also think Wesley personality wise is too… not her type I think Cordelia tends to be most attracted / emotionally drawn to people who have a genuineness about them kind of in line with her policy re: tact and honesty, and Wesley is so repressed and has such a convoluted sense of identity that just doesn’t strike me as something Cordelia is into. Even Xander was more genuinely himself around Cordelia and I think that appealed to her (unfortunately).

5.Faith —- They repel as two shadow selves to the same woman do. They also just didn’t get to interact enough because the writers are cowards like with Katbonnie and Katbekah.

Thanks for the ask 💕

#s speaks #asks #btvs #tvd #katherine pierce #cordelia chase #ats #my meta

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Hi Jude! I'm so anxious about my first appointment... stuff came up and I had to change locations and providers (still informed consent but not planned parenthood anymore). But! Otherwise I'm really very excited.

Your drink sounds really good. I love lavender in all forms but I've never drank it :0! I wish there was a cafe close to me! Alas. Country boy pretty much right now.

Has your day been good? I hit post limit? How are classes? (I assume they've started back up for everyone by now?) Find any new music? I found a song byyy The Ooze(s)? I think. It's short but SO good and loud and I could play it on repeat for HOURS!!!

Hi elias!! i saw u hit post limit, i admire ur devotion to #cecilsweep but you have killed my dash today oh my god 😔 /j (ily keep doin what ur doing, but holy shit dude) im so excited for you to start t! im sorry about the rearranging, it was the same way when i started- its always difficult to set stuff up at first!

I adore lavender in pretty much anything. My family are absolute freaks when it comes to how much tea we consume so we order several flowers and herbs in bulk, lavender being one of them and i make lavender syrup all the time when im home. It’s rlly tasty in coffee, but has a reputation of its own for being the east coast gay drink lmao, and is often overpriced. i live within walking disatance from four local coffee shops so im a bit spoiled lmao!!

my day’s been good, i woke up at like noon as most weekends start for me, i have some observation hw to start on (i have plenty of time tho.) but im pretty excited since i adore the professor im taking observation II from and he is nice enough to allow me to use color in all my assignments <3 Usually ur supposed to just do b/w charcoal but thats so fucking boring oh my god and this professor is a huge fan of my color work so he knows how much a chore b/w is for me. I’m thinkin of maybe drawing my hrt? idk i have to think abt it but i thought it would be fun.

as for music, on my way up to college on tuesday dad and i listened to the one pansy division cd we have like 3 times in a row and i havent rlly gotten over it yet and have been listening to their cover of liz phair’s ‘flower’ on repeat ever since. im honestly surpised we dont own more pansy division, my dad’s seen them a few times and theyre on one of his fave labels (lookout!) so it’s kinda odd we only have the one cd. but yknow, streaming is a thing, im just a snob and like physicals a bit more. I’ve been scouring bandcamp as usual for more twee and have been rlly digging a band called the harriets from osaka i believe, who have all of three songs out but i really like. I also bought a few of the max levine ensamble’s albums on bandcamp, theyre available on streaming but bandcamp doesnt have the sound limits other streaming services have and that band is best heard LOUD thru headphones. (i think some bands sound better when u can barely discern the sound LMAO) Theyre a pop punk band from dc that i started listening too exclusivly bc one of their members (spoonboy) is genderqueer and i wanted to hear more genderfuck type music. (tho pansy division is fufilling my every need for more songs abt gay male femmes rn oh my god. Listen 2 their cover of femme fatele, it makes me grin so hard. ) I’m on an honest search for queercore thats not like. how do i describe it? like neo-hardcore? like yknow, the very harsh and almost electronic hardcore thats popular rn but doesnt totally resemble older hardcore. I found a few bands i liked (DUMP HIM is pretty good, i also like yonic boom, which i searched for hours to make sure they weren’t terfs and can confirm they have at least one trans member if that helps a little👍) i also have learned that trying to find music that isnt hyperpop or death metal in the transcore tags on bandcamp is pretty impossible, tho i keep trying! what can i say, im a dude driven by horrible production quality, lts wild to me how polished some hardcore sounds nowadays when the main reason i like it is bc its grainy and harsh and hard to listen to. My love for twee but disdain for modern indie follows suit with that, if it doesnt sound like it was recorded on a budget of one dollar i dont want it!!! (with a few exceptions, i still cant shake my power pop infused childhood.) oh god that last paragraph is probably unreadable but yknow. autism

thanks for sending me an ask ily💖💖💖💖

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I’ve had a busy week back to being fairly slutty after my surgery recovery. I’ve been asked to write about it.

I was out late Wednesday night at a local queer bar turned soccer bar that the local LGBTQ+ crowd continues to take over. I go there when I don’t want to get bothered. Sat in the corner, not really too dressed up, but still put together looking.

I go out for a cigarette at one point and this guy who really isn’t my type approaches me. Beard, wide & muscled, dressed in a way that made me mistake him for the soccer crowd. He starts talking to me about I can’t remember what, respectfully, and we kinda keep bumping into each other all night.

I was there til last call and he asked very forward if I’d like to go to his place. The fear I felt was real but. I figured why not take the chance. I drive us to his place, he has an amazingly well behaved dog, we sit & watch tv for a bit.

He asked me at some point about the gender stuff. He’d initially mistaken me for someone trans femme, which is always weird to me. Not the first time. He quickly fell easily into preferring to call me “girl” when I told him that I don’t care at this point what I’m called. But god I’m glad he leaned that way.

Both cross faded so took a min to get us to the bedroom but after several false starts making out I told him I’d like to see his bedroom. Puts his hands all over me, we mostly undress, and he goes to tease my pussy with the head of his cock.

Or so I thought. He just slips in raw and my eyes rolled into the back of my head. I like to think I’d have protested if I wasn’t fucked up, but idk that I would have. He was very thick, and he gently fucked me missionary, eventually turning us to our sides, me facing away. He’d gone soft here but he was still in me and it felt really good to feel him getting hard again. He took me doggy, I deepthroated him enough I was sore in the morning, and finally he got me on top of him.

He had me ride him but he would hold my hips down just right… grind me against him so that my clit would rub just right and I went wild. He didn’t finish. Said he has depression and sometimes can’t. I definitely felt bad, but I’m working on trusting people when they say they’re okay. He has not texted back much, but I told him I’d do it again.

Last night I was going out dancing. Saw a little live music on the front end. Saw someone with the sickest Sisters of Mercy jacket. DJ played and I danced alone.

I’d gotten wind of friends having a bonfire, which half the time means orgy for these friends. I left earlier than I intended to as I was kinda curious what was going down. But when I got there it was the host & his wife and that was about it. I was worried I’d be keeping them up, but they did their best to convince me I wasn’t.

I’ve slept with the guy-friend, but not his wife. His wife always struck me as someone that would be uninterested in me but the back rubs turned into a cuddle puddle turned into mutual oral and hand play and that was really fun. It’s actually been years since I’ve been directly involved with a woman, too. At one point I showed her how two AFAB folks can share a hitachi as well and wow that’s always good…

Night doesn’t end there though. I then went home, still hoping to get fucked. I’d set something up for a guy to come over, even stay over. But go figure, he turned into a ghost… so online I went and found a guy, gave him my address, and had him over. He introduced himself when he got here.

We smoked a little weed, went to my bedroom, and he was somehow even more impressive than Wednesday guy size wise. He had me go down on him and I did the best I could considering. He went down on me as well, wasn’t bad with his mouth. Guys tend to have an easier time with the bottom growth. We’d already agreed we were okay with no condoms.

He must have had a bit of a dry spell before me cause the fucking didn’t last more than 10 mins. But he’d done a good job with his mouth and hands and just the gentle grind against my clit when I’m fucked… Clearly he tried to pull out cause we didn’t talk about birth control at all, but I’m pretty sure some got in me. The rest painted my vulva and dripped onto the bed.

Drove him home, shared a cig, gave him my number. I’d fuck him again too.

#mine

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lem-cup-rev · 2 years

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4.2 | The Valley of the Lost

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power (2018)

🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

Talk about every episode being great in a completely different way!

Every episode of this show kind of feels like fanfiction of the other episodes, and this one more than ever with its extremely fresh madcap playful energy. This time, the characters were silly and over-the-top in a way I really liked. I think it had more bite to it! The characters had more conflict and rough edges, rather than trying to be valid and charming during their sitcom hijinks. It honestly felt very different from any She-Ra episode in my recent memory. But it also clearly had some of the stuff I loved from even the first few episodes, when I was praising the writing’s childishness.

Speaking of, if there was one annoying eye-rolling line, it was the way Bow contrived to hide the missing ship from Glimmer. I guess that trope is just one of my personal legos that the show is just gonna keep stepping on.

It was wild to have Perfuma relevant again! I think she essentially hasn’t been since her introduction. These writers have such a great sense of the comedy of her. The way she speaks exclusively in pleasantries but her frustration is extremely close to the surface. Her little arc was really fun, and the writing and acting just constantly had so much punch that it never felt too simple or contrived. I think her crisis of self-confidence could easily have been frustrating to me in a different episode – like ‘really? she can’t help save the world because she got mad at plants?’ It could have been a mismatch of childish and serious tones. But here, the tones were balanced so nicely that I knew the childish and serious stories would mesh perfectly instead of grating. Also, I love the way she didn’t get good at cactus tops but discovered their roots! I love cute little parables with an unexpected twist!

Coming in, I had no memory of Perfuma and Huntara interacting, but now I hope they get married and are in every scene from now on. The butch-femme electricity is insane.

It was pretty bizarre to have Glimmer extremely chipper right after that last episode, but I really liked her background plot of having FOMO. I love when the thoughtless competitive jock streak strikes up in Adora, I feel like that hasn’t been part of her character since like the Sea Hawk episode. Idk if I have anything to say about Bow, as usual, but he also channeled the fresh, energetic vibe and was a pleasure to have in class. The gag of his pad ringing like a cell phone also struck me as so fanfiction-y in the best way – like, it’s never worked like that before and that modern thing has never been part of the setting, but it’s a charming idea that is used to play with the existing character dynamics.

I. Like. Double Trouble! On my original watch, I hated them. I was like “Wait, this is the nonbinary character we get? Their only personality is flamboyant drag queen?” Though of course, Jacob Tobia just is like that in real life, so you can’t say it’s not accurate representation. My friend and I even coined the trope Double Troubling for when a character loudly demonstrates their own gimmick even though no one else in the scene is engaging or making it feel part of the world.

But this time I find them fun! I think their theatre thing is pretty creative and charming and didn’t really feel tacked-on so far. Also, I honestly didn’t know they were Catra in the battle, even though nothing could be more clearly set up. Good stuff, DT!

We better get some shit episodes in here soon, or all my star ratings are gonna be the same!

Next time: The most cutest widdle pwincess.

#review #no spoilers #episode #5⭐️#she ra and the princesses of power #spop #she-ra and the princesses of power

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hadtochangemyurlquick · 2 years

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did it ever feel weird at first when you started going by Gus? im starting to come out but am v v anxious about asking my loved ones to call me by a different name

it still feels weird and i'm still starting. honestly, w my fam they all know i go by gus but they don't call me gus. my little nephew does but he's also too small to talk. so. i'm actually waiting for them to just. call me gus? god idk it's so fucked it's not a good system.

so i work at this grocery store and everyone there calls me gus and they're all very nice and good to me and on the application it was just like: "preferred name?" so i put gus and everyone was fine w that my manager goes by tavo when his name is george so there's already the precedent. nobody knows i'm trans they think i just go by my middle name which, the truth? i guess?

once my sister came by and called me by my first name and then they called me by my first name for a bit until i told them not to bc i go by my middle name and then they stopped? but that wasn't a fun day.

my sister today called me gus without prompting for the first time ever today so i hope everyone just gets the message and does it without asking. i don't wanna have to ask for it which i know is dumb. i just want them to do it. but they've asked me a lot if i want them to and i've told them it's fine which isn't an answer so i can't fault them for not reading my mind.

my gf has always called me gus, and my friends all called me gus. that one took quite a bit of bravery and a little bit of weed, but i eventually told them what i needed or what i really did was let them know i was now going by gus w new people and that i would let them know when i was ready. and then i texted our gc being like "gus time <3" when i was high and they got the message.

whenever i run into a friend who doesn't know i'll usually just be like "it's gus now" and they'll be like, "okay, pronouns?" and i'll be like ":(" and they'll be like "???" and i'll be like ":////" and then i start talking about my girlfriend or this new pancake recipe i'm messing with. the first couple times it was really really hard. like. impossibly hard. i'm hanging out with a straight friend of mine soon who doesn't know. i've known her since kindergarten and i'm terrified of telling her. but i'm gonna, bc i've known her since kindergarten. i'm hanging out w a very christian friend of mine soon too and we haven't seen each other in three years bc she's been in germany and then texas for school and i'm really nervous about that too. but i will bc ride or die, yk?

listen, sometimes i'm really nervous about the name gus. but my old name wasn't working. and it's okay if it doesn't feel right bc nothing feels right and that's okay.

my cis friend the other day was like: "when are you gonna change your email, it still uses your old name and it's really confusing in my head to email you things."

and i was like: "more confusing in my head babey. when are you gonna take the harry potter stickers off your laptop case"

and like, that's cis priviledge right there. they aren't confused about their names or pronouns so if they're confused about mine it's just something they have to deal with. on the other end of that, however, is me giving them grace for not knowing the answers to questions i have barely begun to ask myself.

Anon, the reality is there is no answer. i hate to say it but that's the brutal truth. to quote stone butch blues, pg. 275:

"'I do need words, Frankie. Sometimes I feel like I'm choking to death on what I'm feeling. I need to talk and I don't even known how. Femmes tried to teach me to talk about my feelings, but it was their words they used for their feelings. I needed my own words—butch words to talk about butch feelings.'

Frankie pulled me tighter. Tears welled up in my eyes. 'I feel like I'm clogged up with all this toxic goo, Frankie. But I can't hear my own voice say the words out loud. I got no language.'

Frankie opened her arms wider, took more of me in. I leaned my face against her arm. She offered me refuge, the way I held Butch Al years ago in a jail cell. 'Frankie, I've got no words for feelings that are tearing me apart. What would our words sound like?' I looked up at the sky. 'Like thunder, maybe.'

Frankie pressed her lips against my hair. 'Yeah, like thunder. And yearning.'

I smiled and kissed the hard muscle of her biceps. 'Yearning,' I repeated softly. 'What a beautiful word to hear a butch say out loud.'

i think another piece of it is that our genders aren't stagnant, you know? like i can have a name in college and shed my skin and grow into a new person with a new name whenever i want. it's my name.

I lost someone close to me and they had so much in common with me and i so badly wanted to sit with them and talk to them on a street curb and figure it out with them and they put a bullet in their head so maybe i didn't know them that well how did they even get a gun.

i wish i could just say my name is gus and not worry about so many things but i am filled with anxiety it rattles around in my fingertips and types out this missive to you and the answer you're looking for is yes. i am nervous. i feel weird.

tomorrow i will also feel nervous and weird.

one day i will be very old and regret i wasn't even braver than i feel i am trying to be.

today i regret not doing this all in highschool when i first started wanting to. Tomorrow morning i will buy myself a binder. you have my word.

#gus writes #gus gender #gus answers #i have none of them babey #but i would love to to talk them out with you #hopefully this helps #here is me pushing the stone butch blues agenda

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mxbutchtwink · 2 years

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1 through 6, 32 and 36 for the pride asks? And Happy Pride!!! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️💖

1. Gender and pronouns?

I don't think there's a name for my gender, but genderfluid is the best fit I have rn. I use any pronouns, though my relationship with he/him and she/her are complicated at times. I prefer vae/vem/vaers over all of them :)

2. Romantic orientation?

I'm Aromantic! And not interested in romantic relationships at the moment

3. Sexual orientation?

Bisexual or Pansexual, attracted to all genders, also VERY T4T lol

4. Past labels you've used?

A lot ahaha. I've identified as a man and a woman in the past, switched to nonbinary a couple times, thought I only liked men, thought I only liked women, thought I was asexual, I've made up my own labels before because none of the preexisting ones seemed to fit. Identity is hard, name literally and label I've probably considered it before. I'm a bit of a mess but it's helped me figure things out (a bit).

5. How long have you been using your current labels?

I don't know exactly, but a little less than a year I believe? I thought I was nonbinary when I started my current job and I've been there for a year now.

6. What made you realize your current label fits you?

There's still a lot about genderfluidity that I don't really understand, but when I realized that I didn't have to be feminine to be a girl or masculine to be a man that was a game changer for me. Most genderfluid people are presented as a gender conforming man one day and a gender conforming woman next and that's just not how I felt at all. Sometimes I'll have girl days and I'll wear a hoodie and jeans or a typical "butch" outfit, sometimes I'll have guy days and wear eyeliner and a crop top, sometimes I'll have days where I am gender conforming, the line between man and woman gets blurred a lot and I find there's a ton of freedom in that. Nonbinary is a very important label to me be I didn't feel like it exactly captured my experience, I feel like I fluctuate between different ways to be nonbinary a lot. Maybe there's another label that would fit me better but genderfluid is the closest I've found so far.

32. Something you wish people understood about your identity?

Honestly I wish people understood and were more accepting of neopronouns. Not just for me but for everyone, there's so much history behind them that's really beautiful and I wish I had a group of people irl who were supportive and comfortable using them. The thought that I might never actually get to use my pronouns anywhere outside of niche lgbt spaces is really depressing. It's one of those things that I try not to think about too much, and I know it'll get harder for me as I get older. There are a lot of bigger issues in the community, and I hope one day we can all safely and unapologetically be ourselves.

36. Do you align with any gay subcategories? (Butch/femme, bear/twink, etc.)

You know it's actually funny because I have both butch and twink in my username lol. I identify with aspects of both labels, with twink it's the smaller body type and being femme, and I like that butch describes masculinity that's not reserved for men, they're both really cool subcultures. Idk if I'd really consider myself a part of one of the other, as I'm not involved in the communities (and I'm pretty sure they wouldn't accept me oof). Maybe being a butch twink is a community on its own idk. If you're a butch twink let me know let's start a club baby!!

Thank you for the questions this was really fun :)

#asks #pride

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unhinged ask time:

a/b/o opinions on the Ferrari, McLaren, and Williams garages

just poured a second mason jar let's get this bread. i am here to SPEAK MY TRUTH!!! (and also with the caveat that i am the most easily convinced person on the planet when it comes to the Dyanmics [here referring to both a/b/o dynamics and also in general how mfs be interpersonally relating] so like. my opinion will be different as soon as 11:30pm EST and Definitely by whenever i finish the next a/b/o fic i read. very recency bias influenced). also click clacking on my laptop drunk occasionally pausing to sip on my wine is SO FUN i feel very uhhh typewriter-using drunken noir writer i just need a cigarette and like. a femme fatale

carlos - i mean . alpha is the go to right? (i have no idea actually) omega carlos would be FUCKING INSANE tho actually my god those eyes... a crime. alpha but more than a little down bad (sub alpha carlos would be . BONKERS actually tho)

charles - well we all know the go to here. and i dont disagree lol. assigned pretty boy by internet. can i be honest here for a sec. i do fuck with a good bitching fic (MORE ON THIS LATER) (there's a batman fic w this premise that makes me more insane than you could even fathom. well actually two. im realizing i read a truly absurd amount of porn) so like in theory alpha charles... also i kind of think beta charles would be kind of hilarious in a . u r so omega coded and yet... kind of way. sluttin it up anyways

lando - I SUBSCRIBE TO ANYTHING FOR THIS MAN!! small freak alpha? yeah alright. big-handed sharp-edged omega? yeah i got u. altho the whole obsessed-w-being-smaller thing is Soooo chewy w/in the context of being an alpha ykwim.... i do think he is too freak-coded (or what did that person on tiktok say. "h*rny") to be a beta.

oscar - my guy is also malleable. i lean towards alpha i Think? although i am being influenced by thinking ahead to my logan answer lol. he's just very in control but in a way that is fundamentally a little sharkish to my brain. but also like i have distinct memories of some truly bonkers omega oscar fics... im still gonna say alpha i think. beta feels like both a cop out and like im calling him boring. and i dont think he's like. blank is the wrong word. perfectly stationary all the way down... i think he's got this mildly hidden Hunger that doesn't lend itself to beta designations... altho idk a Hungry beta would be kinda . something to consider...

logan - alright my brain was fundamentally reset by . hold on im gonna find this on ao3 bc it was truly life changing. i'll come when you call me a little bitch. (alpha logan who is a big fan of getting dicked down by alphas) except in the process of searching for this . i discovered that of my five bookmarks tagged w both logan and a/b/o. there are 2 alpha logan fics. 2 omega logan fics. one false-front-of-beta-truly-omega logan fic. and i love them all dearly. technically this should be a 3-2 vote for omega but like. i think logan can be spun in many different directions !!! also lowkey beta logan feeling like he's constantly on the outside of whatever the fuck is brewing... kind of chewy in an emotional conflict sense. anyways final vote very tentative sub alpha logan.

alex - alpha i think . world's most disdainful and unclockable omega? but probably alpha. sorry i ran out of steam i don't have an essay for him. i really really really enjoy alex in alpha4alpha fics tho

#ask #i... am not tagging this w the drivers. lol.#does this satisfy? do u disagree anon #pls lmk some of these i was truly Pondering On

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Episode Five: "i will not relent!!! u will like me!!!" - Bethany

Hairie

I am not happy with the tribal council but I am also not entirely mad. I’m sad to see Chelsea go. Someone flipped from ex Tromoya and I have a strong feeling it was Zach

I partially feel guilty for not choosing Chelsea for tribe swap. She was my alliance and now she’s gone.

Esteban

idk what to expect on this round. I am hearing that bethany is rallying the non-women again and staining my name that I did pushed aj and trinica that much on idol hint. Wth! I would never respect that move. But good for you. Now you are givigng me much time to think and a fire to probably play the game still til the end.

Raffy prob is neutral on which way he wanna go with either bethany’s story or i. Brandi profess that she wanna work with me and she thought jayjay would love too. Jayjay is so welcoming on me and said the same way that she wants me to stay on the game and she is skeptical about bethany and that it make sense she is saying she is like pulling all the ladies again in this new tribe and on her own words she said, “let vote bethany out the first time we will get a chance.”

Hairie, i am still in doubt of him. Idk where he is on this thought process but i told him my truth may it be wrong or not but i am not lying to what i felt is right. 😅

Tyler hopefully he is still on my side. He told me that bethany was caught on the act when she confirm that there is a non-men alliance when tyler was confronted her lying that jinx leaked that information.

On the lighter note: i look horribly crazy in my lip sync. And please let that video just stay here in this ORG. 🙈🙈🙈

Late confessionals (strike 1)

Sorry been very busy lately.

We’ve won the music video challenge. Kudos to tomoya 2.0 for giving all the effort and it is worth it.

The vibe went positive in the camp. People sharing thought about have kore advantages so we can win another round of challenge.

I am loving this tribe more than the old one. I hope we will not see the tribal earlier before merge happens.

So far i feel like jayjay and brandi had my back and tyler too. Hoping hairie too. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

That tie vote of the hidra tribe is crazy. And chelsea going home i hope will give the og tromoya a chance for us to infiltrate the group.

Cheetos we are holding on. Take care!

Jayjay

Im pretty shocked that it was Chelsea who got voted out this tribal council! I’m sad to see her go she was such a great person! Wondering how the dynamics and alliances are working over on hidra considering I thought the vote was going to be for a male with the info I got from ex hidra team members.

Arvin Bentonon

Oh noooo! My survivor cool mom was voted out. Now I'm in the bottom.

I really want Julia to be the gesturer. I think in the music video, Julia showed everyone that she communicates well with actions by giving us nice clean movements.

I told Julia that it's either one of us should be the gesturer. So I nominated her in the GC and seems like everybody is on board with it. I'm just so afraid that if one of the rest of them would gesture, they might throw the challenge by confusing us. So I really need to try hard and guess what Julia is trying to act. Just in case they want to throw a challenge, to even out the numbers.

Raffy

Is it weird that I don't really want to win this game? I thought about it and realized that I just want to have fun and meet the newbies. My feelings will probably change sooner or later. But, for now, I'm content with going whichever which way.

Tyler Frazier

So I’m growing a bit concerned about my relationship with Esteban. Prior to the swap he mentioned wanting to work with Raffy and that plus the fact he was able to seemingly instantly integrate himself into the old Tromøya makes me feel like I’m no longer a main priority for him

I'm honestly pretty hyped for charades. I feel like it's the one in which we have the most even odds. I'm honestly so proud of the femmes and thems alliance rn. Highlight of last round was Zach "uniting" us. Anyway just a short confession until I can give a larger one after the challenge

Raffy

I found an idol! That climbing gear finally came in handy haha. In any case, I think I'll keep this to myself. No use telling everyone and having me be a bigger threat than I already am. Though it does make me question just how many idols are in this game.

Brandi

I’m really hoping to just ride the tromoya train and stay low until the merge - tribal is scary

Arvin Bentonon

I have to made up an advantage, like a legacy advantage if they will believe it, I will be saved by this vote.

Trinica

At this point, Jay's gotta be sick of seeing us at tribal. AND YET.

These advantages/disadvantages are really killing us. We came so close to winning charades!! Julia honestly did an amazing job, and I told her that she doesn't deserve to go home after that performance. I hate to send Arvin home, but I'd feel awful sending Julia home after how well she did.

There are no more idols to be found in the game anymore, which is nerve-wracking. Arvin or Julia could very well have one, so this next vote is going to be tricky. And I'm assuming we've as well as lost the next challenge because AJ and I both landed us with 10% disadvantages. It's not looking good for Hidra (but when is it ever...?)

Esteban

When you thought you don’t care anymore and that you are gonna voted out early then here comes the gods of the seven kingdoms blessing you a safety. Congratulations to tomoya 2.0. raffy did well tbh

Champ

So nervous about losing a challenge! I need to make sure bethany and Tyler stay in this game! If we lose I’m assuming Esteban tyler or bethany will go, and I really want to make it to merge with my entire tribe! Once we merge I feel like I’m in a really good position to make it far

Hairie

We won ... AGAIN! I'm so happy that we did. On top that, the idol or idols has been found and someone or a couple of someones has it. The game is elevating yet again!

Tyler Frazier

So I have the weird sword advantage which would be great if I was certain I’d make the merge but…I’m not. I mean if things go really wrong and Bethany Champ or I get booted then obvi it can be played (I think for them im gonna need to re read) which will be great if we can get out of our current position

Bethany

slayyyy tromoya wins again!!!! im very happy with that because i still dont feel safe here lol but im hoping esteban is starting to see the light and is going to not immediately try and flip on tyler and i

so tyler, champ, and i have a little trio going called brayden's angels which is so cute and tyler and i went idol hunting together today and everything that was good was sold out so like no slay EXCEPT for the 100 coin item

tyler and i had 70 coins combined so we decided to go beg champ for her money too and ms girl is way too loyal and just handed them right over

so tyler bought the sword and it forces a battleback if one of us is eliminated once jury starts which is so fun i love it and im excited because im usually good at comps so that would be perfect if i get voted out lolol

hopefully we can keep the winning streak going and then at the merge i can reunite with all of pink venom and play both sides mwahaha we will see though not trying to get ahead of myself, i just want to try and keep social gaming when we don't have tribal because i don't think tyler is trying as hard with people but it's hard when they leave me on read all day *cough cough* jayjay. but i will not relent!!! u will like me!!!

Arvin Bentonon

Right now, I don't want to talk too much. I just really want to enjoy the process, and maybe someone would talk to me and possibly save me from this vote. The former old hidra tribe thinks I'm running the show with the former tromoya already because I want to talk to almost everyone of them. Now I'm definitely in the chopping block.

Esteban

i don’t know if i am only one of the few people who is happy that the hinting is over. Respect to the host and the fun twist but i still stun a back to basic game where it seperate people who are playing a social, strategic and amazing game to those who are just hoping for luck. 😅.

Do you agree?

Now that it is all over let the survivor back to basic game start! Sorry i was born to play back to basic games. 😂😂😂🤞🏻No more hiding.

So bad news and even worse news lmfao. We lost the challenge, all idols in the fucking idol hunt have been found, and now idol hunt is closed. Which means we're probably losing up till and into the merge. I can only hope the other tribe has a bunch of disadvantages. We're most likely going into the challenge after next with a net 20% disadvantage unless someone was able to find something. I have my 10% AD at any time, but I will not be using it when we'll still be in the negative and probably still lose.

This next challenge is going to be a 24 hours challenge. What does that mean for AJ? If you guessed zero sleep, you'd be correct!! No matter what it is I'm going to do my absolute best to get us to win it. We NEED a break at some point, honestly, and if it weren't for the advantages we would have won that last challenge. Being on a losing streak isn't fun, but we'll get through it. We always do.

Jayjay

The last charade challenge was a lot of fun. I think Raffy killed it being the gesture, you could tell he definitely gave it his all! Super proud of our team and winning all these challenges. Tromoya strong forevaaaa!!

Hairie

Solidifying my number 1 and we gonna make it to final 3 I’m confident!

Strong feelings that either Arvin or Zach going home this next tribal. I’m also thinking Julia might have flipped more so than I initially thought it was Zach. I could be wrong but my guts telling me just that.

Zach🤠

Cant believe we’re going to tribal again. Not a slay. Love that our little panic alliance has stuck together after that one vote to save my ass. AND we have an in with AJ. I have no idea how Julia and Arvin still trust AJ after that last flip, but here we are. I asked Julia why not try to take me down today and she explained to me how similar our games were and how she thought that made us closer and stronger together. And I agree. I can really see myself going a long way with AJ and Jinx.

Arvin Bentonon

I'm not going home without a fight.

Julia

Welp I was blindsided last time and it’s my time to go here. I tried so hard during charades but it wasn’t good enough and I’m heartbroken

jinx

imma keep it so real right now i will ride and die for my alliance but i think we might be the …bad guys…like…we’re really about to be THAT majority alliance huh….erm….chile anyways…did anyone have the chicken?? the chicken was lovely! like we’re girlbossing gaslighting and gatekeeping but at what cost? anyways. i swear if pink venom is reading this post season ITS ONLY BECAUSE WERE A MAJORITY ALLIANCE MAKING THINGS BORING 😭 but we’re a majority of minorities….like WIG!!!!! taking the power back!!!! but are we taking too much??? who’s to say! anyways no jinxcast this round simply because i aint got shit to say! saving it for my actual journal. love y’all! xoxo gossip jinx

Toni

Theme: Anxiety and Alliances

Hello World.

What a shaky Tribal we had on Sunday. We were still strategising by the initial tribal time - thank god it was delayed. The feeling of having my name out there is a feeling I did not enjoy. If anything had gone wrong I would have gone home. The game is getting harder. I started this game confident in my gut feeling but even though I've never been on the wrong side of the vote I can feel my anxiety rising.

I'm grateful for the alliances I've built here and over on the other tribe but the game is getting harder. You do genuinely connect with some of these people and it starts to creep into your heart when you choose to vote them out. We're voting Julia out today and even though I initially misunderstood her I've recently really connected with her on our mutual love for the WNBA. I'm sad. I do have to stay true to my word and loyal to my alliance. Still I'm sad.

Signing off safe but sad.

Can't remember if I've submitted one of these this round or not. Better safe than sorry so I'm doing that now. We're betraying Julia which is sad because I do really like her, but there's been some good points made for her vote out. Julia when this comes out ily, sorry for my vote

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