#like i can not handle this stress

[hotdadlicense]

im looking after my nieces and have been counting down the minutes until my sister get home cos they're being little shits and my sister just txt saying shes gonna be another hr. girl you are killing me

#think its only been a Long Morning cos my sister has been building this house for three years and has only just moved in last week #and so everything's New and Don't Fuck It Up #and elkies literally already spilt her drink twice and knocked over a plate of blueberries #spilt chips everywhere #like i can not handle this stress #m #text

[raccoonscity]

Make Me Choose: Best Remake → Resident Evil 4 Remake (asked by @hereticstations)

#hereticstations #reviledit #residenteviledit #gamingedit #resident evil #resident evil 4 remake #video games #mine #*gif #ash's 4k celebration #*mmc #~premium #body horror tw #flashing gifs tw #fire tw #guns tw #death tw #i must stress this: i excluded re1 remake because it's my favorite RE game and will win anything it's up against #and i just wanted to pick from the three recent/modern remakes #anyway i liked re4make the best bc what it adds and changes makes a lot of sense and supplements the original #which is ironic bc i was very against re4make when it was leaked #you can really tell capcom was playing favorites with how they handled their remakes #oh and i love the parry mechanic and i hope it returns in every game forever

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Frank! fantasy flavor!

rambles:

i really wanted to blend that monk-class inspiration w/ Frank's personal vibe... i like to think that i Succeeded!

i turned his tie into a sort of brooch since, yk. bowties aren't all that Fantastical. they miss the style. also i think they'd be more comfortable with something smaller since he's very active and needs a wide range of maneuverability

i bet Eddie or someone wheedled them into adding the leather shoulder pauldrons - leather to keep it a bit more flexy, and also. it just looks Cool!

figuring out what would replace his vest was tough. i didn't want them to be entirely unprotected, but i couldn't give him straight armor. though i will admit! a sort of tight-fitting crop top was Considered! but i landed on a gambeson vest as the best fit - comfortable, flexible, a Vest, while providing some level of protection! also, gambesons are quilted, which fits Frank's diamond-checkered vest!

ive already mentioned that one of my favorite outfit things is Flowy Pants Tucked Into Boots, so... that choice wasn't very character driven. except the boots are a tall ankle wrap - for that extra stability and strength! their shoes are pretty flexible and are only a few steps away from being slippers.

and the half-skirt - open skirt? - thing (still don't know what its called) is purely some self indulgence. i think Frank looks great in skirts!! also imagining him Throwing Down w/ the added flair of the skirt... damn. it'd probably help confuse enemies too - what're they gonna do next? who knows! the skirt is in the way and adding extra Movement!

i like to think that his knife is either in a sheath attached to the back of the belt, or they have it on their thigh (under the skirt) like Wally's bag. he probably never uses it... punching is the way to go for Frank methinks. it's probably reserved for cutting ropes and fruit

speaking of punching.... wrist wraps! inspired by boxing gauze! pads his knuckles, keeps his wrist compressed, its the best choice for physical combat. though the wrapped knuckles probably always have blood showing through anyway... or no yeah it's mostly other people's blood...

as for scars - Frank probably has quite the collection! i imagine that they've been picking fights since a young age, and in such a dangerous world he probably got hit a Lot until they learned how to hit back. and hit back Well. still, i wanted to give him a cool face scar with a very lame backstory - a book with a crisp, sharp spine corner fell off a high shelf and bonked them in the face at juuuust the right angle <3 he probably stays very fucking quiet about it which makes everyone think there's some intense traumatic backstory behind it. there isn't. Frank's just embarrassed.

closing note: i imagine that Frank has zero magic. literally none. cannot wield it for shit cannot utilize it. he's just like Howdy fr

#im Very happy with this outfit ngl #they probably know a bunch of different fighting styles... #and then stitches them all together into a Frankenstyle #get it? frankenstein's monster + frank + style - yeah yeah i know im hilarious #he probably stresses everyone tf out with how gung-ho they are in a fight Without Much Protection #like yeah gambesons can cushion blows and depending on the quality can lessen or even stop arrows / stabs #but frank's is a Vest. yeah it covers his vital organ area but like. their face? arms? legs? its free target practice #everytime eddie sees frank throw himself at an enemy w/ magic or Much Bigger Than Frank #he has about 100 heart attacks #catch him sprinting to cover's franks ass. they need it #frank Will look at someone way above his pay grade and go 'yeah i can take em' #(and that's why they consistently end up under poppy's healing wing) #julie unfortunately is on the same bullshit as frank #so if frank takes on someone he cant handle - so will she. without blinking! #though when she (or anyone else) tries it that's when frank goes 'are you crazy?! dont fight them they'll kill you' #frank has common sense when it comes to other people <3 not themself <3 #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #ah yes and the tiny knife... the glorified cheese knife... #even sally has a nice dagger and she's got some Powerful magic on her side #meanwhile frank is bringing fists to a gunfight smh #tryin ta think of a backstory for him for this au... #im thinking... he was either an orphan or his parents straight up Ditched him as a kid... #and he was taken in by a... fuck im missing the word. monastery? or something? #whatever it was it was run by somewhat spiritual people that raised & trained highly skilled/disciplined fighters #with the intent of 'you will fight for good blah blah blah' #maybe frank would sneak out and thats how he met julie? and he taught her some combat skills maybe... #& then he wound up running away w/ her or somethn #or he completed his training and went out to be a Soldier For Good but wound up following his own path & moral compass... idk

[vivi-the-sky-kid]

Psst

Ya wanna know my technique for getting around 17.5 candles a day without going Everywhere?

Geyser -> Brook Candle Cake and Light Farm -> Grandma -> Sunset Turtle

Then just do:

Whatever realm has the treasure candles for the day

Basic Vault (focus on the candle cakes)

Village of Dreams and Hermit Valley cakes

And then maybe the bouquets from Performance, the cake in Wind Paths, and then the cake in Starlight Desert (since the path to it is right next to the one in Wind Paths)

Super fast and doesn't take too much effort aside from getting to the timed events on time and dealing with Vault

#sky children of the light #also make sure to grab the cakes n big plant in sanctuary #i cannot stress enough how thankful i am for those shared memories and spaces in vault #that get you through the doors to get the candle cakes #because seeing a chibi clip through when there are 3 other people in the area #or seeing a group of people leave even when they would complete the amount needed for the door #has filled me with more rage than i can handle #also shout out to the people who put light burning shared spaces around the light farms #makes it so much easier #in general I recommend focusing on big ticket items like candle cakes and big dark plants over just fully running the whole realm

[tj-crochets]

The options with the * are the ones I've already scanned, and all but the blorbo are sewing patterns (I've already shared the blorbo sewing pattern)

#I need to go back and check if I've actually shared that cat pattern #and the octopus pattern. I think I shared that? I do not remember #I seem to be doing better with the anemia tiredness #but then I had a stress-related flare up of my various health issues #handled the first one okay but the next day had a significantly worse stress #found out if I get stressed enough two days in a row while on long term steroids #I can crash really hard before it's time for my evening dose of steroids #I have learned better! I know now that if I start shaking badly and it's not low blood sugar it's 'take the next dose a little early' time #and I knew stress doses of steroids were a thing! I just though they were for physical stressors #despite me also knowing emotional stress can be an allergy trigger for me (yes I know that doesn't make sense) #(blame mast cell dysfunction) #it was only like an hour early and I have previously talked to my endocrinologist about stress doses #I just did not put two and two together lol #I'm okay now I'm just recovering and slowly hand quilting that baby quilt

[tmascfaggot]

so generally i'm very picky about topping. that's why i don't rly call myself a switch cuz i'm so. peculiar about it. and i did some thinking on it last night and i think i kinda realized what the line is where topping becomes uncomfortable for me

there can't be anything in it for me. the dom cannot do a coy like 'oh you must secretly love this' angle or anything. that stresses me out. i'm doing this purely as service. and i mean that lovingly! i wouldn't be doing it at all if they weren't someone i was comfortable with!!! but the ONLY pleasure i derive from topping is seeing how good they feel in response, especially if they've expressed a sort of 'oh i've needed this' type of mood abt it

like genuinely and for real when i am topping i am just a toy. like fully i am an object. my enjoyment doesn't need to be considered. this is for YOU it's for you and you alone do not factor me into this okay

#like don't get me wrong i DO like it. it's not like i'm not feeling good about it or anything #i just get majorly stressed when any kind of like.. actual topping focus is put on me #if that makes sense #i can handle humiliation/dergradation and/or praise during it but. it cannot be about how i'm feeling #it can be about what i'm DOING but that's it #this is just another means of making a dom or just someone i'm sleeping with feel good #even a like “ohh do you like being my toy” yes but don't talk about that now. don't look at me. this is about YOU #this probably says smth abuot me but idk what it is #edit it CANNOT be suggested that i'm taking a dom role either. that WILL give me a panic attack #anyway #signal broadcast 📺

[chucktaylorupset]

its been a million years.  percy has gone from young millenial to squarely gen z.  i think that while he’s up on that mountain demanding the gods pay their fucking child support, he should tell hera at the top of his sixteen year old pipsqueak lungs that polyamory is a thing now and she doesn’t have to define her marriage the traditional way if she doesn’t want to.  she’s the goddess of all marriages!  that includes these modern ones too!!

hera is like zeus would you agree to an open relationship zeus is like SOLD i have been trying to do this for years, completely neglects to read the fine print that this goes two ways before signing on the dotted line for this deal with the prada wearing devil because fundamentally, zeus is an asshole

hera starts hooking up with committed married couples and having SUPREMELY powerful demigod children.  they are all her favorites and she lavishes them with powers and gifts and attention.  she has, unlike the other gods, no millenia of experience with mortal children to temper her reaction, and so this whole move honestly causes more problems than not.

meanwhile hades and persephone; poeseidon and amphirite; dionysus and ariadne; all of them have been trying to talk to hera about this thing for DECADES and then perseus fucking protagonist powers jackson comes in and turns a quarter of a century into wasted work.

#my post #pjo #it's very key that zeus is big butthurt about this #and that most of the olympians are ethically nonmonogamous thanks to some great work done by either aphrodite or eros #back at the end of the 1900s #being a child of hera is extremely weird because you're not prepared for it like most single parents of demigods are #also most of heras partners come out okay but ALL of them are 'blessed' to never be divorced which uh #can have some variability in terms of results #gods are complicated kids #a lot of hera demigods come up with parents who have very healthy relationships and pass on those emotional intelligence skills! #and then they start coming into their powers and suddenly they inherit a girlboss pta mom who will speak to the manager #and WILL support them taking over the world cause it's what they deserve. if that's what they want <3 #most of them are emotionally healthy enough that they don't even Want to take over the world but uh. they sure are offered that as option #if they want to #hera kids have the Oposite problem of a lot of demigods who have gods practiced in loving mortal kids #they're like i cannot stress how much we Do Not Have To Prove Ourselves to her #we have to be very careful about wanting things she will just handle them to us also #once we get married we can't divorce she would either kill us or it would Be A Thing for the rest of our lives #it's... very stressful to be a child of hera #they mostly try to befriend the chill party kids because they need to catch some Chill

[adwox]

the two most decorated soldiers of the offputting wars

#mega man zero #copymega #cxpy #mmz omega #omega #megaman #mmz #i go to neo arcadia to defeat the threats effecting my found family. i see very confusing and unsightly pda from these two. i leave #in the first image cxpy is complaining about how he feels no one trusts him to handle situations / sees how responsibile he is #and he is just GOING OFFFF WITHOUT EVEN MEANING TO #i think cxpy is a generally dissatisfied reploid cause i mean how could he not be. but complaining feels wrong to him #but (do not @ me abt this being ooc cause i do not care.) omega just has this energy to him that makes cxpy rant and be very open #its like. he can only be honest with himself around omega. everything else about cxpy is solely built on lies. quite literally #omega isnt really even listening either tbh but it doesnt Matter. hes just there cause it feels funsies to hold cxpy in his big strong arms #like a giant stress ball #theyre so cruel and unusual theyre so perfect. to me in my mind. #anyway No im not even halfway done mmz3 ill get there when i get there. #>mine_>art

[antidotefortheawkward-art]

Realized that in my Immortality Speedrun AU, even though Zhu Bajie and Sha Wujing likely wouldn't have had the opportunity to get thrown from Heaven since they'd be working overtime at their posts, Ao Lie very much would still have the opportunity to land himself on death row as a prince, so.... Sun "An enemy of Heaven is an ally of mine" Wukong gets a roommate for buddy comedy reasons

[ID: 1. An illustration of Ao Lie and Sun Wukong. Ao Lie is in his princely attire, but notably disheveled. His green outermost robe is hanging half open, with burnt and ripped hems. The red sash at his waist is hanging in tatters as well. His hair is loose down his back and he's holdining a sword in his right hand. Sun Wukong is in his human disguise, wearing an open checkered daoist's robe. His white inner robe is not tucked into his pants and a red dudou is peeking out from underneath it. He's staring at a book in his left hand while chewing on a piece of willow, his right hand scritching his chin thoughtfully.

2. A sketched comic, with Ao Lie in teal and Sun Wukong in orange. In the first panel, Ao Lie bursts into a cave in a rush. In the second panel, Sun Wukong is sitting on the floor of the cave next to a table, looking at Ao Lie at the cave's entrance. SWK says, "Uh. Hi? This cave is already occupied." In the third panel, Ao Lie attempts to pull otu his sword in surprise, crying out "Stay back!" before he's interrupted by Sun Wukong casting a freezing spell "定!". In the fourth panel, Sun Wukong has a cheerful but annoyed facial expression as he approaches the frozen Ao Lie. He says, "LOL Nice try, punk- Now what the hell are you doing in my cave?", then, "Wait a min-". In the fifth panel, Sun Wukong is looking up at Ao Lie with a surprised and incredibly amused expression, exclaiming, "Wait- You're the Ao kid who managed to set his father's palace on fire underwater!". Ao Lie looks back at him with a tense expression, saying, "Please don't tell me you're gonna hand me in." To which Sun Wukong replies, "Hell no I won't!"

3. A sketched comic, again with Ao Lie in teal and Sun Wukong in orange. In the first panel, Sun Wukong is reading some plans in the foreground and Ao Lie is in the background. Sun Wukong says, "Xiao Long, could you head out and fetch me some lingzhi? I'm fresh out. In the second panel, Ao Lie responds, "I'm a prince who has an active warrant out for his arrest, and you're just some rogue brewing illegal immortality. Wouldn't it make more sense to go out yourself?" In the third panel, an unimpressed Sun Wukong presses a basket to Ao Lie's chest. Sun Wukong says, "I've got arrest warrants for crimes you wouldn't even imagine. Plus, it's my magic and my cave keeping you hidden, so pull your weight, Princey." Ao Lie rolls his eyes and has his hands up in a mock defeated pose. End ID]

#my art #journey to the west #jttw #xiyouji #sun wukong #monkey king #bai longma #ao lie #immortality speedrun au #sorry for only doing silly au doodles lately </3 normal jttw is still my bread and butter but ough #AUs are like junk food for me. fun and thoughtless and not filling but still taking the place of what i really should be doing instead </3 #bc thats all my tired brain can handle during this mad dash before winter break 😭 #ANYWHO #this ao lie still has long hair bc the moment he heard 'death penalty' he booked it the fuck out of there #its kinda hard to see but the tips of his horns are also discolored and desaturated :> #bc ive always envisioned sea dragons' horns as coral so stress = dying coral #also ao lie gets increasingly 👁️👁️ at swk the longer he's around him bc #this is the most unassuming man in the world. #yet he's powerful enough to be willing to harbor a heavenly fugitive #and keeps insisting that he's on the run for something more heinous than what ao lie's on the run for #yet ao lie has never fucking heard of him in his life #he gets increasingly unhinged theories as to who swk is #'a follower of shen gongbao? a disgraced or dismissed disciple of some high-ranking god?' #'whoever he is he's gotta be old as hell to be this powerful' #idk what swk's fake name is yet </3

[trans-cuchulainn]

What is your favorite animal?

to hang out with, guinea pigs. they're great. i find them weirdly calming. and i love that baby guinea pigs look exactly like normal guinea pigs but tiny. 10/10, no notes.

i also really enjoy penguins, but i don't get to hang out with them much. ditto owls.

#i really enjoy looking at wild animals like deer and waterfowl and baby rabbits #and i like visiting my sister's cat when i can #but i wouldn't be able to handle having a cat or something of my own. it would stress me out #MAYBE one day i will get guinea pigs but it's looking less likely #(buying a flat that doesn't have its own garden and therefore ruling out the possibility of my own garden any time soon) #answered #original-post-locator

[bunnihearted]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[jimmyspades]

#that's so crazy someone filmed this video of me and my husband having this private moment that's wild.. #oh to be his red haired girl. gd #james spader #alan shore #boston legal #* #favorite #I love these so much partly bc I've come around on lorraine and partly bc they are not even dating here lollll he is just. Like That #inimitable romantic gentleman. gentle hands his fingers softly drumming against her wrist his breath on her cheek #he's so happy to hold and be held. to guide and protect and be stable and needed #he couldn't even speak to her at the start couldn't control himself at all and now this! #a contrast from the first holiday party in blegal when he's such a petulant pain in the ass. still sexy ofc. just incessantly lecherous #he's mellowed a bit just a tiny bit. matured just a shiver. he's found a place to belong and be himself #a lot of stress and pressure is coming to a head he's got a lot of serious things on his plate. but he can handle them all #umm where was I even going with this. my sweet gorgeous man. touching his chest and lips and the back of his pretty neck while dancing #i love u allie bear

[furiousgoldfish]

'unsure if the trauma is going on right now or if I'm just reliving it and projecting in on the present situation that isn't so horrible but triggered me' situation

#i'm in it right now #the nightmares are awful #trauma #trauma aftermath #trauma symptoms #it feels like the world is falling apart and ending and i am in danger and about to die or be killed #but is it really this or am i just terrified of standing up to injustice #or is it the stress of staying silent that is doing me in #i can barely handle this

[yardsards]

living in america is literally just like. yeah i could probably benefit from inpatient mental health services but honestly the resulting medical bills would just make me want to kill myself even more

#eliot posts #i'm not in active danger of hurting myself don't worry #just experiencing some Ideations #but i have a long mental list of reasons not to act on those ideations so i'm safe don't worry #ironically one of those reasons is ''i couldn't afford the medical bills for a failed attempt'' #suicide mention #suicide tw #tw suicide #american healthcare my beloathed #dogshit private insurance my beloathed #also ironically one of the (multiple) contributing factors towards this fresh wave of ideations is a medical bill i got yesterday #it's nothing too ruinous but it is A LOT like would utterly wipe out my savings level #my parents said they can help me with it (as much as i hate accepting things from them) #and as soon as i mentioned it my very sweet cousin just. sent me the money it would take to cover it #with a ''yeah i trust you'll pay me back once you get a good job like looking at your major you'll be making a lot eventually'' #and i've already requested an itemized bill as well as the paperwork for the hospital's financial assistance program #(tho idk how much assistance i'll actually be eligible for bc i'm still legally a dependent) #so hopefully i'll be able to get that bill cut way down #it's just eugh it's so stressful and i had a full on panic attack on the phone with my insurance company yesterday #and my brain's fav response to crushing stress is just ''well we wouldn't have to handle any of this if we Just Fucking Died! :)''

[abtheb]

April 28, 2023

Despite everything, it's still you.

#me #ive cut back on lifting a lot due to injuries and struggles with my joints and instead picked up lane swimming in march #i had never used a public pool in my life and never swam with intent before #it was new and kind of terrifying but i needed to move my body again in a way that didnt cause pain #the first few times were pretty rough- i couldnt swim well or hold my breath and struggled with the repetitive motion and breathing #one day beams of sunlight shone through the airy space and large windows and cast shining watery reflections on the pool's bottom #i had been learning water caustics for 3d art and i loved to watch them #its gotten a lot easier now and i can let my mind wander and enjoy the sensations instead of worrying about drowning #the cool water on my skin #the muffled amniotic sounds of bubbling fluids #the mosaic tiles and patterns #the sunlight and caustics #every time i go its a social stress test- but I've gotten better at handling it and it helps me connect with other people in a tiny way #i dont know what the future of my body's training will look like as i plow into middle age #but im proud of myself for doing something totally new and finding joy in it

[qvincvnx]

the fanfiction that post was about was actually what i would consider fascist apologia, it's just that i'd been growing increasingly annoyed by the fascism over the course of reading and the thing that made me throw my cartoon hat on the ground and stomp on it was the outright statement that all indoor plumbing was invented in the 1860s and that no one else had had flush toilets indoors before then.

you are correct that this is a "bad reason" to stop reading the fic but actually i should have stopped reading when i noticed fash dogwhistles. tell me again why i'm obligated to be nice to fic authors who do all that hard hard racist work for me on their own time. if i have to sit through their antisemitism for 20k words before throwing in the towel they can handle me complaining they did bad research IN PRIVATE ON MY BLOG without naming and shaming? in a way that is a joke? HELLO. camel! straw! etc!

#the fact that i didn't go into that fic's comments to call it a white supremacist masturbatory aid was a miracle only brought to you by #POSTING ABOUT IT ON MY OWN BLOG. thanks! #sorry about HOW BAD MY TEMPER IS it's the end of term stress. #my point here is : you literally know absolutely nothing about why i stopped reading a fic based on a like 2-sentence post i made. #i can handle my own reading fine.