#like for the love of god

[aspiring-artist-em]

Crimson Rivers, is it back? What now? Does that mean Zar is back?

So, like a normal, sane reader, when I get an AO3 notification, I immediately drop everything and check it out. In my little tiny brain filled with angst and smut, I was thinking that it was maybe a chapter being updated, or maybe someone I love replying to a comment I left about how their writing is so fantastic and giving them vivid descriptions of how I wish to burn it into my brain because how good it is. Turns out, that was not the case.

It was a fucking notification about Crimson Rivers being posted.

I sat on my bed, and just stared. My brain wasn’t working. I was halfway though a bag of chips that my dog really wanted and staring at an email that bizarrestars fucking posted Crimson Rivers.

And Best Friend’s Brother.

And Just Lovers.

And all of those fics I was dying to read were back. All the fics that had me frothing at the mouth with want and the insatiable urge to consume everything he put back out into the world. And so, I followed the link in my email and oh my god-

They were back.

All of them. 

Every single one of their fics was back up and I was fucking psyched because I have an AO3 account and I have access to it again. Me, along with many other fans of his works and readers in this fandom, texted friends and loved ones. We smiled and downloaded the files, swearing that we will never lose those works again. 

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So, like a normal, sane author, when I get an AO3 notification, I immediately drop everything and check it out. In my little pea brain filled with ways to torture my readers and ways to get them off through my words, I was thinking that maybe someone had kindly left a kudos on my work, or maybe even comment on it. All my works are ongoing and to be honest, I was a little scared to open my email because what if it's a negative comment? What if it’s someone telling me that they hate me because I’m sick and twisted, writing the filth I do. What if it’s someone telling me that they hate how I made a certain character bisexual because in their mind, bisexual women can't also be attracted to women? What if it’s someone telling me that the trauma I write about is misrepresented and that I am an awful person for romanticizing it when I swear I’m not, when I know that I’m drawing from experience. What if it’s someone saying the aforementioned trauma is too dramatized, and that the way that I write it as something to be worked through, doesn’t fit their “one kiss and all the bad memories go away” narrative they have in their head. What if it’s someone telling me I should be ashamed, telling me that I am disgusting, telling me that I shouldn't write what I write even though I have hyperlinks embedded in my fics and even though I have additional warnings per chapter and even though I have so many tags the plot is given away. Turns out, that is not the case.

It was a fucking notification about Crimson Rivers being posted.

I sat on my bed, and just stared. My brain wasn’t working. I was halfway though a bag of chips that my dog really wanted and staring at an email that bizarrestars fucking posted Crimson Rivers.

And Best Friend’s Brother.

And Just Lovers.

And all of those fics people were dying to read were back. All the fics that had people online frothing at the mouth with want and the insatiable urge to consume everything he put back out into the world. And so, I followed the link in my email and

oh my god-

They were back.

All of them.

Every single one of their fics was back up and I was filled with fucking dread, because all I could focus on is how there’s a shiny new prongsfoot fic right there on the top of their page, the first thing people will see. All I could think about is how they talked about people not respecting their wishes with their fics  and how people on the internet are fucking relentless. All I could think about are the videos I will see with people complaining that they can’t read it because they don't have an AO3 account and people attacking them for the two chapter prongsfoot fic right there, and how people fucking idolized the guy, putting him on a pedestal and hailing him as the “best fanfic writer ever, right there along with misskingbean (who may or may not be Taylor swift (I swear, Taylor is NOT misskingbean))”All I could think about is the exit he, and MANY OTHER authors made because people got ahold of their work and were fucking rude about it. All I could think of is someone who was practically pushed off the internet for doing what he loves so well that people started hating when he wrote what he wanted to write, and how now, he’s back and honestly, it scares me a little bit because he didn’t deserve the hell people put him through.

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Crimson rivers, is it back? What now? Does that mean Zar is back? Short answer, yes, yes, and yes. Long answer, yes but only if you have an AO3 account and ONLY IF people can be fucking nice this time around and maybe remember that zar is a fucking person with fucking feelings and something called a fucking mental health to take care of. Authors have feelings too, we aren’t some mindless fic generator. If you want that, go to chat gtp or some shit. We put our hearts and souls into our work and share it because we want to put it out there, not because we want to get bullied.

Now, I know what you're going to say, “oh, but I just really loved the guy, he was like the second coming of christ with his words like I just really wanted to read more because I loved him so much, like I forgot he was a human because I just loved him and a little love never hurt anyone.” 

But like, that’s also really fucking problematic and actually obsessive. Just think about it. Like this guy is a person and like, maybe you shouldn’t treat him like he is anything more OR ANYTHING LESS. Like honestly, he probably didn't start posting his work to gain fame, like this was probably really unexpected for him. AND EVEN IF HE DID, IT DOESN’T MEAN YOU GET TO TREAT HIM LIKE A FUCKING PRODUCT GOD DAMN. Like, this is a PERSON. Imagine if your best friend or little sibling came to you and was talking about people putting enormous pressure on them and being obsessed with everything they do and how they feel like they have to be perfect and please everyone because if they don't, they’ll get harassed online and like, it’s genuinely damaging their mental health. Like, imagine if that happened to you. What would you tell them? Well, hopefully, you would tell them that those people are fucking obsessed and that they need to take a break and maybe, just maybe remove the works so they could put their mind to rest, because that’s better than this. Like come on everyone, can’t you fucking see the problem with that? Idolization and bullying go hand in hand and the poor guy has been though enough. 

Also, remember, be kind to the guy and like, idk, treat him with fucking human decency? Don't deadname him maybe? Don't like, idolize him? Don't get mad when he writes what he wants to fucking write because you don't like it? And maybe like, respect his wishes? It should be pretty fucking simple tbh, but apparently it's a difficult task for some of you. He isn’t a fucking god and maybe like, before you comment, actually sit there and reflect on what you are going to say to him.

SO MAYBE, BEFORE YOU COMMENT SHIT, REMEMBER THAT ZAR’S, (and, for the record, every other author’s) MENTAL HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN A 800K WORD STORY ABOUT DEAD WIZARDS. LIKE PLEASE, YOU CAN FUCKING LIVE WITHOUT ONE SPECIFIC FIC WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY OTHER FICS OUT THERE, AND SO MAYBE LIKE, REMEMBER TO RESPECT THE AUTHORS WHO WRITE YOUR STORIES.

MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, BEFORE YOU SAY SHIT, THINK ABOUT WHY HE FUCKING LEFT IN THE FIRST PLACE, DEAR GOD.

#bizzarestars #Marauders #marauders era #Sirius Black #Remus Lupin #James Potter #peter pettigrew #regulus black #jegulus #wolfstar #crimson rivers #just lovers #best friend's brother #respect authors omg #like for the love of god #hp marauders #a message to the fandom #zar #Lily Evans #marlene mckinnon #dorcas meadows #mary mcdonald

[ssaronance]

by the time s5 of stranger things comes out, im gonna have to watch it from my retirement home

#like for the love of god #just pay your writers #stranger things

[plantboiart]

Can grizzlyplays please stop making ttrpg characters designed to hurt me specifically

#like for the love of god #what did i ever do to them #just roll with it #jrwi #jrwi show #grizzlyplays #kian stone #dakota cole #arthur bennett #rumi apotheosis #jrwi elena #jrwi kian #jrwi dakota #jrwi arthur #jrwi rumi #plus like all the sad riptide npcs #this fucker just wants to cause pain and suffering

[genshin-side-piece]

Did... Did Neuvilette have a WALKING STICK in the trailer?

#genshin impact #genshin #I already want him #Hoyo didn't have to go this hard #like for the love of god #chief justice neuvillette #genshin neuvillette #genshin impact neuvillette #neuvillette

[just-a-lil-otter]

I hate when those boys at school think it's funny to disrupt class and act stupid and annoying as hell

Like no, you aren't funny. You look stupid. Please sit down and shut the fuck up so I can do my shit in peace and get outta here.

#like for the love of god #please shut up #they arent even funny its just stupid #annoying ass mfs

[napsaps-archive]

i'm seriously crying over how people think being queer & nd = not racist like being white + queer and/or nd ideally means you'll have a greater understanding of racism and its impacts and the discriminatory treatment people of color face on a daily basis and a system-wide scale, and will be more sympathetic to it and will join the fight against it, but it certainly doesn't mean you AUTOMATICALLY cannot be racist. like if you genuinely believe that, there's something deeply fucking wrong with you

#like for the love of god #go outside. talk to other human beings. pray for some fucking compassion and COMMON SENSE #// discourse

[commonpigeon]

my filling broke and fell out of my mouth i swear to god if i have to have a root canal or a tooth removed in the same month as my mum dying...

#like for the love of god

[emmyrosee]

#I HATE BEING INDECISIVE #LIKE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #I WAS A WRITER IN COLLEGE FULL TIME #I HAD COMMISSIONS #I WROTE SELF INSERTS CONSTANTLY #WHY CAN I NOT PICK ONE CHARACTER EVER??

[wlwgang]

Call me stupid but would it not have been easier to try and convince like six moderate republicans to vote for Jeffries and get a fucking move on

#and then we could have avoided the whole making government-altering concessions to white supremacists thing #like for the love of god #I was gonna tweet this but I’m applying for jobs so. here you go #mine

[bandzboy]

honestly if you aren’t able to be critical of your faves when they fck up then you are not stanning them in a healthy way let me say that

#it’s just not healthy at all #these people need to reevaluate themselves #bc omg… 🚶‍♀️ #every time i see people be critical of the ppl they stan #and the other people in the fandom are like well they are just haters #and not real fans or wtv #like no besties if anything you aren’t the real fans #bc you sweep things under the rug and leave your morals at the door #LIKE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #tris.txt

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

#talk tag #IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still) #(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'') #GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!! #one time i saw that a ​person wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi. #they are TWIN BROTHERS. #not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this. #just horrible #also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you

[lauriemarch]

bless this iteration of Percy Jackson for genuinely believing, for at least three seconds, that he is the second coming of Christ

#you fell in love with God? like… Jesus? #lil king fr #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #walker scobell #sally jackson

[hansoeii]

head empty, no thoughts. just turtleneck crowley

#that was his superior look no one can argue with me about this #literally THE crowley look my god #SHE LOOKED SO GOOD WITH IT #like my god #whoever decided to put david in that turtleneck deserves a raise #TURTLENECK CROWLEY!!!! #LOVE OF MY LIFE #kiss aziraphale again but with the turtleneck it'll work trust me #anyways #good omens 2 spoilers #i guess???? #good omens 2 #good omens #good omens fanart #good omens 2 fanart #crowley fanart #crowley #david tennant #neil gaiman #my art #digital art

[souldagger]

you'll have one joke post complaining abt old misogynistic scifi blow up and years later you'll still get people reblogging it with tags like "why i don't touch scifi." hey. im at your door with a pile of scifi in my hands. i'll lovingly read ursula k le guin or octavia butler to you aloud myself. let me in let me in please please please please hello

#[throws up and dies] #.txt #books #man im really glad that the version of that post that mostly gets spread around these days #is the one with the 'for the love of god not all scifi is like that heres a bunch of scifi reading recs' addition 😭😭😭

[randomprose]

the "tumblr community invents a whole mafia movie apparently directed by martin scorsese with an official soundtrack, movie posters, screen caps, and all enough to make one question if that movie really did exist at all like a mandela effect" was not part of my 2022 bingo card

#goncharov #this website is on a whole new level of unhinge jfc #love how this turned out tho #and the commitment to the bit #it's like one big inside joke that everyone is in on #oh god imagine how confused the digital archivist in the future will be #like #was there or was there not a movie called goncharov??? #did martin scorsese direct it really?? where is it then?? #and they'll never find it #text