#kinda need positivity rn

[rollercoasterwords]

like sorry but if ur actually seeing an increase in students using chatgpt 2 write essays 4 ur class why is ur first thought "oh they're being lazy" & not "have i structured this class in a way that makes this student feel the need to rely on chatgpt?" especially bc the majority of college students are overwhelmed taking multiple classes working part-time jobs caring for family dealing with health issues etc etc like there are soooo many reasons a student might decide to use chatgpt that are not just "laziness"!! consider:

the student didn't have time to complete the assignment without chatgpt -> have you created an environment where students can ask for extensions without judgment? do you only give out extensions for "emergencies" or "valid reasons" (<- subjective measure)? if so, why? what purpose do these strict deadlines serve? [think about how this overlaps with students who may have "had time" but were overwhelmed for other reasons; what kind of environment have you created for these students, and does it best serve their learning?]

the student didn't feel they had the ability to write an essay of good enough quality to receive a good grade without chatgpt -> how are you grading students' work? what grading scales have you utilized that made this person feel as though they're incapable of succeeding? do those grading scales prevent them from succeeding? if so, why? what educational resources did they or did they not have access to before entering your class? how might that change considerations about how you grade? [think about how this overlaps with students completing coursework that is not in their first language and whether your grading standards are truly equitable for these students]

the student didn't feel that they could understand the material and therefore couldn't complete the assignment -> again, have you created an environment where this student can come to you for help? how are you presenting and explaining material? what opportunities have you provided for students to seek out additional resources and support with understanding? is this assignment and its correlated grading scale designed to accommodate a variety of skill levels, or is it designed with "the best student" in mind?

the student actually just doesn't care about this class and doesn't want to do the work -> why don't they care about this class? what other classes or work are they prioritizing, and why? to what extent are you willing to accommodate students who simply will never view your class as a priority, but need to complete it to earn a degree--and how is that need tied structurally to a university that serves primarily as a class barrier? what role do you play in that university structure, and is it a role you want to play?

at the end of the day if your goal is 2 prioritize student learning that means being flexible & adapting your grading scales, assignment structures, class policies, etc. to accommodate students at their level of learning for their own purposes. like if the choice is between having a student get a zero on an assignment for "cheating" versus working with that student to create an alternative assignment which they can complete & which engages them with the course material on a level they can manage then to me it seems like a pretty clear choice between "no learning" and "some learning."

#sooooo much hand-wringing in my 'leftist' university dept. rn abt ai & i'm just like um. u guys will never believe what i think abt this lol #unfortunately not in a position where i can actually outright say this 2 the profs bc i need 2 be viewed as 'playing by the rules!' #but like. sorry if i'm ur ta & ur syllabus policies kinda suck then i am going 2 make my own policies under the table.... #anyway. it is genuinely so frustrating how students who 'get caught cheating' for 'using ai' are treated as like. these scheming villains #instead of students who need additional support + empathy !!! & like. worst case scenario ok ur student IS an evil schemer sure #well wouldn't u rather have a policy that accidentally gives grace 2 a student who doesn't need it than denies it to a student who does??? #ranting and raving #txt

[todayisafridaynight]

mine's done a lot of sexy things in my opinion but top five to me still is asking daigo if he wanted to prioritize The Family or one man Not In The Family

#snap chats #you know what i mean. that rggo story I Think That Was Very Attractive Of Him #i simply understand why daigo was like 'fuck man .............. kinda right with that ................ wanna get married--' #but no cause real shit daigo ily and its very cute that you love kiryu so much #and i get it i do. i live for daigo's idolization of kiryu it makes for delicious drama and many emo spiralings at 1AM #i just really appreciate mine being able to speak up. from his position. yk what i mean #like mine's relatively green to the yakuza atp and this is the first time he's personally going out with his boss but not just His Boss #THE Boss and he still sees value in being like 'idc if you're my superior i need you to really evaluate your values rn for the whole org' #its so sexy of him ........ love a man who can cut the bullshit when he gotta ... #ESPECIALLY in regards to kiryu cause like .... kiryu ily and ily because youre messy ... i just need others to call you messy too ... #its also just so good because it's exactly the type of thing daigo wanted from companions #people who could look at him beyond his name and money and status and tell him what he needs to hear ... its very yummy ... #so yeah thats one of my top five sexy moments thanks for watching im gonna kick my feet and think about mine #he's such an epic character ......... i wish i had blender so i could spin his model for an hour #ill just have to settle for doing that in my brain

[ecoamerica]

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[e77y]

Trying to fix my resume ☝️🤓 Small problem: I sound like a loser no matter what

#not really lol. I have a lot of experience in this field #for someone my age anyway #but like. idk 😭 I wanna get out of journalism I HATE journalism #I’m applying for publishing internships and idk I just wish I had more publishing experience…. #a lot of my extracurriculars are music related and idk if I should include them or not #just to fill space ig #bc I have only ever had one singular job #and one other piece of experience as editor in chief #idk maybe I just feel this way bc I’m using Harvard resume templates #and so I’m seeing everything that’s on a Harvard student’s resume 😭 like damn. I hope they’re not applying for this internship.. #it’s based in NYC so I doubt I’ll get it? but like? idk how many applicants they get??? hm #there are also lots of different internships with the same company all listed rn so idk #I have until the end of the month to fix this shit hehahah #hopefully my cover letter will better demonstrate my relevance to this position #bc all of my journalism experience feels kinda irrelevant on paper. editing news is VERY different from editing communications research lol #ellyposting #🤓posting #<- kinda. it’s about work not school but I did start doing this (researching internships) for a class #and now I’m kinda invested bc I need an internship in the next year anyway… I could get it over with over the summer #idk. if I get a job this summer I will make a job tag like. jobposting. workposting. perhaps hellposting if it sucks really bad (again 🥲) #that’s why I’m scared of another internship. even though the last one was paid and so is this one… people are straight up abusive to interns #😅😅😅😅😅 AUGH. SCREAMS PUNCHES WALL etc #okay goodnight :3c

[lilgynt]

i’ve been clean of self harm for like. a year or so. which not a big deal cause ive done that before and longer it never really felt like an addiction addiction till like junior year ish i was crazy back then but anyway haven’t done it in a year or so mainly bc self harm for Me was usually a way to get emotions out and or keep the memory of an event when my brain couldn’t/ wouldn’t and like last year of my life main problem was the dad situation which. def could self harm to but felt unfair bc like damn that ain’t his fault i don’t want to make a memory out of something he can’t control and is like. infinitely worse for him

#personal #reading a kinda whump fic but damn if i’m not like ha! i did that!  #kinda bad #that hit most the shit on the nose #anyway it got me randomly thinking #i know i have a weird perspective on my self harm and the resulting scars #it never felt like. something that needed to end or even had an end point #there’d be times i do it and times id stop rinse and repeat #it still feels like that #and then for the scars honestly neutral to positive about them #which maybe it’s bc they’re pretty inconspicuous and don’t cause problems for me #but they just feel like markers of my body #while the actual real life earned scars are more loved they’re fine #did not escape relapsing into ana tho ✊😔 but eating dinner rn so #eating disorders nah eating dis order

[meebles]

i wish i knew how to not take things so personally. rationally i know that it’s completely valid and genuinely a good thing for people to have different opinions about characters and ships and whatever and it’s not that deep etc. and yet there’s still this irrational part of me who just wants to give up writing completely because am i doing this right? are they in character? am i using too many “overused” fandom tropes? am i interpreting this completely wrong? even when i believe i’ve done a lot of thinking and retrospective and tried to genuinely understand these characters and their motivations

idk man i just want to have fun, and i know a part of that is just doing my own thing and not worrying about what other people like and not getting worked up about it. but it’s hard sometimes.

#mia.txt #sorry maybe i need a break from this website #but i’ll probably just be over it tomorrow #not saying that everything needs to be positive because people are allowed to complain about things #but idk it feels kinda bad when people act so superior over fandom shit that really doesn’t matter #sorry i know i’m rambling and i’m not articulating myself well i just feel kinda terrible rn

[sluttyten]

After I eventually finish this Haechan fic (s2g I don’t know why it’s getting so long 😂) and after I finish the rest of unholy, I’m gonna force myself to keep to a word minimum and just write something short because I can’t keep doing these long fics 😭

#I do this to myself lmfao #NONE of these things were meant to be this long but for some reason?? they are #I’ve got 4 parts to the Haechan fic rn #and it’s 71.5k in length and I’m not done #it’s definitely slow burn by the way #and I could cut that word count by like a quarter probably except the way that I wrote it I feel like adds an additional layer to the story #so I want to keep it in but I don’t technically really need that quarter/third of the story #but it adds to it!! I still don’t know how I want to post this either #obviously not in one big chunk because that’s fucking daunting to see a one post fic that’s like almost 75k #and the order I want to post it in because I can kinda change the order up from the way that I wrote it #all I know is that this fourth part I just finished has to be fourth #but the first three are kinda sorta? interchangeable #and now I have to write the fifth part but idk exactly how I want to write it #but I’m almost positive it’s gonna be the final part #but the fourth one is 25k by itself 😂 #this is what I mean tho #I need to write a nice short 5k piece #or several like 5k and under smutty things about various members #I like to think I can just squeeze these out but then damn it takes me like two or three months because I just keep adding onto them and #evolving the story as I write it smh #I gotta go I need to keep writing and also eat dinner

[ungalobrando]

I'm thinking about moving to another blog... like I'll leave this one up for Jojo related stuff but I'd like to set up a new personal

#since i deleted ellievates in my bpd rage #and i kinda need something positive rn #i might as well #my mtl blog sets me off a lot lately #i don't wanna keep accidentally triggering myself so i'm taking a little break from checking it

[shittygothbitch]

Holy shit

#a good one!! #was able to get to the cages today and try out the gloves i got #they're not batting gloves just weight lifting gloves #and omg #the way the grip stopped slipping #was insane #went from dinky lil base hits to fence shots #didn't get the chance to pitch today #but it's getting cooler finally so it's gna get a bit easier #now i just need a practice partner #a baseball buddy #as of rn it's a kinda lonely hobby #I'll keep gushing about it tho #and who cares if nobody sees or cares it's in the world! #trying this being positive thing directed at myself rn #let's keep it going #also i NEED to work out more #so i can play more baseball #😤

[our-inspire-verse]

"That's not how systems work. You're taking this too far. You don't know what its like to feel so out of control, to have memory blackouts, to wake up years later, to have someone in your system grieve someone they didn't know was dead."

Bec. Becayse... hecause i didnt talk about experiencing it? Or. Because i said that i like my system or that i have a majority positive experiences over negative ones?

Because i did. I absolutely have been thru every single one of these things and I've had multiple people talk down to me as if I'm stupid and perpetuating false information, or just simply being super disrespectful. I never assume, i never make blanket statements, and i go forward knowing that everyone collectively is new to studying this stuff in a modern way, though its been around for a while.

All i want is to demedicalize a part of the community (because OBVIOUSLY some will have need for the medical part) and be honest about myself, and listen to others being honest about THEMSELVES.

Systems are. Extraordinary. Every single one of them, and every individual within them. Talk about your experiences, be annoying. Talk too much. Talk only about the good. Talk about how you adore them. Talk about the bad. Talk about any part of it you deem important even if others think its silly, or cringe, or wrong or bad or stupid or anything else. Whatever YOU think of it, it must be.

I promise you aren't the only system experiencing whatever it is you're experiencing and that there is a community for you. Find the people who will listen, and speak.

#system babbles #mild rant? #idk im vaguing again but like. fuck off this is literally my tumblr blog thats what we do here. #we diary post. #im angry still bc im literally going thru some of this system stuff rn like being a system is so fucking hard and their words are ringing in #my skull. from multiple people who decided i was toxic for being myself in this new age. my new way #anyway please goD god damn it like. just be nice fr like wht why why why stopppp splitting yhe community up so much #literally please god damn relax fuck we're all literally just surviving i had such a nice evening with my headmates #we're going the fuck through some stuff rn and we really need our community but we keep. being reminded. of things. #actually plural #osdd system #did #dissociative disorder #system positivity #kinda personal #kinda negative #idk posting bc ✌😚✌ im just really frustrated rn

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

something something "at least thats what youre all telling each other" - "no we have a very good idea of what our enemies are up to" the master knowing everything about the doctor from forgotten pasts to denied desires vs the doctor oscillating between unwillingness and inability when it comes to believing anything the master tells them is true

#idk im not even watching dw rn im watching the spy thing #they need each other in the place that they are like spies do #something something the master understanding their positions better than the doctor does #'it's possible he became a double agent. or even a triple' #whose side was he on really #whose side is a spy on really #yours you hope but you can never be entirely sure #they know everything you know bc you trained them #they can change allegiance without moving at all #feels kinda like an open wound #like attaching your countrys circulatory system to anothers #and just kinda hope that works out to your advantage more than the other guy

[pepprs]

my onboarding has been a complete and total fucking mess it’s so stressful i want to just explode. lol

#purrs #finally got on payroll but can’t submit my time sheet bc my last student / intern timesheet WHICH SHOULDNT EVEN BE THERE bc i was in my #transitional position!! is still in my timesheet center and i already filled out a docusign time sheet for that pay period so i shouldn’t ha #have to worry abt it but i can’t submit any timesheets until that blank one gets removed by someone in payroll but a lot of ppl are on #vacation so im like wtf lol. im now on the first day of my 4th week and still haven’t gotten the email to sign up for benefits which iwwas s #supposed to get in my 2nd or 3rd week and i literally need to make appointments and figure out what im paying for counseling. still haven’t #found a carpool bc that fucking asshole wants to charge me $100 for a months worth of rides which i think is overpriced personally and also #he creeps me out but i can’t search for another carpool bc there isn’t a group for staff / faculty to like ask questions and this guy was #supposed to be my connection to helping me find staff / faculty in Columbia but instead he just inserted himself and it’s like i kinda hate #you and don’t want to ride with you but i literaly don’t think i have a choice. and then ofc my supervisor decides to leave RIGHT NOW so its #like i have to go out and find a ‘cultural contact’ who can get me acclimated to staff life bc she was supposed to do it and now she’s #fucking off to ****** so i have to replace her while ALSO taking her place w a whole bunch of work stuff AND being on the search committee w #which is launching this week. and im just about to punch something. this process has been so turbulent and frustrating i just want to be #settled in and instead km hitting roadblocks every step of the way and ppl including my close colleagues are still tagging me in my student #email when they don’t have to and they KNOW i hate it and want to have my staff email show up as much as possible. lol. ughhhhhh #i keep telling myself it’s like stars. my student star has gone out but the light takes time to travel to earth and it’s gonna keep hitting #for a while and im gonna have to deal w that. but in a couple months time god willing it’ll feel better. meanwhile i have completely paused #my quest to earn my permit and find a place to live bc i just can’t handle it rn and also im isolating myself again lolllll. so things are n #not good and im scared my counselor is only gonna give me 30 minutes like last time and spend most of it talking… we’ll see. i have more #thoughts but if i don’t go now i will be late for work lol 😃✌️

[immortal-enemies]

The terrifying realization that I ship Lucie and Jesse more the James and Cordelia atm

#all my criticisms of those two (lucie and jesse) still stand #but like also i think i love them?? #as i much as i love james and cordelia (and believe me i DO) cordelia needs to get her shit together #and by that i mean this girl keeps EVERYTHING a secret #when people talk about jordelia miscommunicating they really mean cordelia but they don't wanna say it #and yeah it's just like a FLAW Cordelia has and im not upset about that #but as a relationship it gets tiring so easily #and ghostwriter just kinda owns my heart rn and i think im happy abt that?? #who am i?? #anti cordelia carstairs #DAMN THAT HURT TO WRITE #but like im not anti cordelia and if you don't know that by now you can kindly exit the tumblr <3 #but these aren't positive about her so just to be safe? #jenny.txt

[horrible-oracle]

hhhhhhhh i just need to kinda rant or vent ignore this

#uhhhh i just feel sorta annoying to my friends rn or one of them at least #shes in away on spring break rn but i keep texting her when i wanna talk abt smth from my life or whatever #like im generally very relient and used to telling some ppl a lot abt myself and whats happenjng and what im up to and i think sometimes im #being too extra abt it and its probably not very healthy and also i dont really like that said friend much... but we got closer recently #before i found out things abt her that kinda make me wanna distance myself from her but i dont really have anyone else to talk to #like i just constantly or quite often feel the need or urge to share stuff abt my daily life... but should i actually do that #that puts me in a weird position #i feel like that friend has been colder in her replies lately #and theres this one thing that i want to talk abt with someone and get some idk emotional support and encouragement... #but im not sure if im too annoying #and if im being tmi all the time #im so weird i have almost zero social experience and understanding of cues i had no irl friends for a very long time and i was so so #isated and now i have a few friends but somtimes its not enough .... and i feel so weird idk #im probably overthinking #idk #evgesha's thoughts

[fooltofancy]

might throw up actually.

#not to be that dumb bitch who needs validation but @ my mom please pick up your phone i need someone else who knows me and my situation #more intimately than the internet where i complain #to tell me that giving up and moving back to sd is okay #i don't want to move back to south dakota #but like. the options are moving back to south dakota #or continuing whatever is happening here because i can't figure out here #at least if i'm working for pbs again i won't 1. hate my job 2. hate who i'm working for or 3. continue to destroy my hands #also i will just have. kinda space to figure out a number of things i don't even have space to think about rn #MOVING HARD THOUGH the apartment i was looking at previously is still listed but that makes me nervous lmao #there are so few properties that allow pets in verm because college town and that's fair #but god #i dont think i can move without lenore ): #will actually die #probably it will be lenore and sophie because i don't want the baby to have to be by herself #the worst part actually splitting up the cats #horatio will be so sad lenore is his pillow #but wyvern loves kiel and i don't think i can take him #idk if i can do this dude idk how to live #very much did not expect that position to open up so soon #though based on how training that man went. not particularly surprised. kinda surprised he lasted as long as he did

[orcelito]

Bodies r so fucked up lmfao. It'll b like "I know you're having a rough night staying up too late thinking about things and you're FINALLY going to try to sleep, but how about I give you the semi-annual return of the worst pain of your life Right! Now! To make sure you get even less sleep than you were already gonna get :)"

#speculation nation #negative/ #it is the 28th and it is NOT gonna b a good one!!! apparently!!!! #my leg kinda hurts too but it's nothing in comparison to the stabbing chest pain lol #i already took my meds. now im just holding myself in a position that doesnt hurt as bad. #literally so fucked up. me being like 'ok if i sleep Right Now i will get 7 hours of sleep' which isnt as much as id like but it's Okay #and then i turn over and it's like. pop! the dull pain ive been feeling pretty insistently today is STABBING #it's. better. than it was. im okay. #but god my cartilage is so fucked up and i just gotta live with this i guess lmao #i need to go to the doctor about this again. i really do. #oh great news now my arm is aching 🙄 the cold aches acting up in leg and arm And the chest pain #at least the back pain isnt too bad rn. that wouldve been truly unfair lol #sorry i keep being pathetic on main. it will happen again.

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@fuckshitassbitchcockballs looking @ u with my autism eyes (affectionate)

#ok listen sometimes gayposing is hardbecause sometimes Brain thoguhts go Brbrrrbrbr #I DONT MEAN That im having bad thoughts rn bc im NOT im okay rn i just like. u know. The BRain Fog #BUT STILL IM JUST HRRGH!!!! ogurohghgh!!!!!!!h hnnrrgh!!!!!! (positive) #i wanna hrgrj ... ... k. . . . kis u.... .... . . .. .. rite NOW #i wante to give u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kises on ur litol face mmmwa maw am mwa mwe mmweeh mwah mwaaaah mweme #i wanna jus like !!!! cup ur face n jus give u kises ALL over bro i just hrhgrghjbkjgdnjkkjbhjhjbn!!!!!!!!!!!! #u ar my skrunkly my blorbo my WIFEY my BABIE #aughgh i juts love u thas all.................................... u Truly ar my beloved.............. an i kis u................ mwe mwaah! #alslso bestie i showered earlier so now my hair is all poofy and fluffy n curly (kinda) so u should come fluff it an scrub it!!!!!!!! #i want headpats and my hair played with Now i have Chronic Headpat Deficiency Disease which means I Need Constant Headpats Please #ourrhgh i juts hrhrghouhogugh !!!!!! horuhghhgoug #im juts sitting here waiting for it to be summer already bc i wanna come see u so BAD augh #IT KIDNA SUCsk that it had to be pushed back to like late july instead of mid-late june but eh what can u do #moms gotta work n thats the only time shes able to take off 2 weeks from work BUT. but but but. later is better than never sooooo . >:) #i just !!!!!!!!!!!!! bro while im there with u i wanna go out skating n stuff n jus hrgrgrgrgrghrghdhgbgjndgklkhklkmlkmhjnhjn yk what i mea #like bro im gonna b THERE with u and we can ............. holde hans an kis....... an snugl in ur bed toegthr #and i can........ steal ur hoodies......... n lay under ur weighted blankys.......... n go snrrrrk mimimimi in ur arms............. #im not joking abt stealing ur hoodie btw i kno its gonna be the middle of summer while im there so i wont Need One but. heehee :) #if one of ur hoodies suspiciously goes missing after i leave then u know why <3 is mine now i stole it >:))))) #UNLESS U DONT ACTAULLY WANT ME TO STEAL ONE OF UR HOODIES IF U DONT WANT ME TO THen i wont is okay #i just...... a heem heem...... u ar biger an chubbier and taller than me so therefor ur hoodies will b Big an Oversized an comfy cosy...... #AUGH i feel like this is getting rly long im gonna stop it here bc i feel like if the tags are too long then they'll get cut off H #BUT AWAWAWA GOODNITe honie i lov u verey much........ go seeppy go cossy now!!!!!!!! goonite i luv u!!!!!!!!! :] <3333