#kinda personal

[corde-love]

I think it's very acephobic of things to go bad for me on international asexuality day

#asexuality #international asexuality day #asexual #kinda personal #corde-love is pissed #also its a crime acephobic is not a word according to my autocorrect

[catatombi]

this one is just feelings and grieving lost abilities   (sorry for bad quality)

#narinder #cotl narinder #cult of the lamb narinder #cult of the lamb #cotl #kinda personal #chronic pain narinder ftw #catatombi

[underacalicosky]

I’ve had a stretch of days where I feel like I’m failing in every aspect of my life. Can I trouble you for your fluffiest obikin headcanons to help cheer me up?

#kinda personal

[luckydog251616]

Akitoya headcanons (kinda based of situations that happened?)

-Akito is very into a music genre, casually sends Toya his 21+ hour long playlist. Toya doesn’t bat an eye

-Akito: *Sobbing on call while watching music videos* “The music videos are so amazing and relatable and-“ Toya: *Is listening while trying to figure out how Roblox works*

-Akito is very “Laberdoodle energy” while Toya is definitely the more calm one

-Petnames>>>> (Toya is very basic, sorry not sorry. Akito is the type to be creative and call his bf his “Subway footlong”)

-“Hello my Subway footlong, no cheese, no mustard, extra onions, with bacon” “…pardon?”

#lucky 🐾 #akitoya #the brainrot is real #sorry toya #kinda personal #ish? #shitpost??

[chongoblog]

It can be easy to feel like you’re failing because you haven’t yet reached the truly idealized version of yourself. You probably still have a ways to go before you’ve reached the best that you can truly be as a person. And part of what makes it such an alluring goal is that you will know once you’ve reached it. And when you do, the joy you will feel will be absolutely immense.

But that doesn’t mean you can’t do some of the things that your idealized self would do.

For a somewhat personal example, I’ve been apprehensive about all of the big changes in my life, and I had had visions of what I wanted it all to look like that I would be able to accomplish if I just got better. I imagined waking up on Saturday morning, turning on the TV, letting music play from Youtube, looking around at a fully furnished living room and kitchen, and making myself a grilled cheese sandwich. Something about simply imagining this brought me to tears. After months on months of depression, having a vision of a positive future that felt attainable was powerful. I knew that vision was what I wanted. It was the goal.

But the issue with that is that I wanted that to be The Moment. I wanted to commemorate making that grilled cheese as The Finish Line. The Grand Finale of recovery, with fireworks and lasershows.

I seem to keep forgetting that changes don’t happen overnight. The finish line is blurry and unclear.

So right now all I have for furniture right now is a couch and a hutch for the TV, which doesn’t connect to Youtube. No dining room table yet, but plans to get one (how else will I play DnD). I’m not there yet. Depression has still been taking it’s toll.

But I still made some grilled cheese on a Saturday Morning.

And you can get a firework or two out of that.

#this one is a ramble #this last week has been something else #in a good kind of way #but yeah grilled cheese made me start streaming again #kinda personal #ok to rb #long post

[diegos-loose-teeth]

Last post for a while! Long story short- I’ve realized I was letting the whole Adachi fixation negatively affect me. Gonna take a long break and focus on the things that really matter to me. Thank y’all for the fun times and community! Take care!

#tohru adachi #p4 #adachi #kinda personal

[kickdrumheart68]

✨️

#relationships #friendships #love #feelings #energy #reciprocated #found on facebook #goals #need this #kinda personal

[9musesandanoldmind]

Update

I urge everyone who still wants to keep in touch to subscribe to my newsletter . I still am posting some on Insta but the newsletter really is the guaranteed place to know from me and I believe will just become more relevant with time. Right now I really don't feel like keep updating this place, which is a huge blow after 10 years... Sending hugs to everyone~

#newsletter #kinda personal

[craniodedragao]

I am just a old ass bitch or people around me don't know WTF Astro Boy is? Idk I find that very odd.

Tezuka's works are so underrated for some reason, kinda frustrating personally.

I have a special attachment with Tezuka's works, I was going to say one of the reasons but I don't want to take the mood down.

#bla bla bla #astro boy #osamu tezuka #ramblings #kinda personal

[corde-love]

something that my non-polish mutuals may not understand is that the word polish sounds a lot like "poliż" which in polish means "lick!" so everytime im tagging posts with "polish stuff" im giggling uncontrollably because i am that immature

#i also love the alliteration of this post #polish stuff #language #kinda personal

[simakai]

I survived the eclipse, I'm not blind and it was overall very cool. I got a bit emotional during the 40 seconds of total eclipse. My phone couldn't catch the eclipse itself of course, but my mom had a pierced little cardboard and we can see the croissant shapes pretty well on my skirt while it was still partial. :)

#kinda personal #total solar eclipse

[underacalicosky]

I’m having a full-on panic moment. The screen on the 2008 Macbook is black and I can’t get it to come back on 😭 I think it may have breathed its last breath and taken my WIPs to the grave with it 💔

#kinda personal

[soullessjack]

very random sentimental post but since it’s supernatural day and whatever I figured it was owed or something. its 3am so this may not be very well said also.

cw brief mention of suicide/suicidal ideation

supernatural is not a show that can be cased as objectively good or objectively bad. it has high rises and concrete-crack falls as a result. It’s a show. I don’t have to elaborate on that, you guys know what I’m saying. but when it’s good, it’s good, and sometimes it’s so good that it can unfortunately impact your life in a positive way forever, which is what I wanna talk about here m. I began watching spn in 2014 when I was ten years old. my brother used to watch it and suggested it to me when I was like 8-9 since we both shared an interest in scary things. my parents had recently divorced and I was recently experiencing the first and biggest uprooting of my life as I knew it (as an autistic person I am not very good with changes — unless I’m made aware of them and given time to adjust on every level, which was not the case for the divorce).

I was in a new house, a new neighborhood and in public school for the first time ever (formerly cyber schooled until 4th grade). I was maladjusting to say the least, and needed something to escape into. that one show my brother suggested to me happened to be it, and it worked. spn kept me grounded. I watched it on the bus, after school, after me and my sister were tucked into bed, etc. It was my everything. i didn’t realize it until recently that it had become a special interest. and i was never fully suicidal, but I had ideations or at least considerations of it in the vaguest sense that my 10yo brain had of it. but watching sam and dean struggle through the absolute worst and to hear dean say they’d always keep fighting, that was something I could live for. knowing that they could brave situations m far worse than my situation, even fictional, meant the world to me.

It gave me hope that I could get through it. alongside that, I was raised Christian and always questioned the logic of it all (autism jumpscare). while not exactly traumatized by religion or raised strictly with it, I still have a complicated relationship with it to this day (and a special interest in theology now so yay me). basically, spn helped me realize that I was agnostic. the way its main heroes were so deeply flawed enough to become villains and still come back, the (imo) unique perspective in which angels were corrupt and demons could be good guys, all of that allowed me to see past the rigid binary Christianity often perpetuates and discover such a rich and interesting perspective for a story. Moral grayness is not something that’s very well defined in media as of late I feel, but I’ll stop there before I start somewhere else.

overall it’s just been a series that’s been there. it’s a special interest. It’s opened up my life in so many little ways. my other interests, my favorite music, and a handful of my own original stories and characters are deeply inspired by it. I’ve met so many friends and even a partner through it. I started it when I was 10, in 2014. I’m 19 now and the year is 2023. I’ll be turning 20 in February. it’ll have been almost a decade of having supernatural in my life, for better and for worse, and for all its high rises and concrete cracking falls, I’m glad to have it. As I’m glad to have everything that it wound up giving me.

thanks supernatural for ruining my life 🫶🫶

#cal.txt #kinda personal #you can reblog this I don’t rlly care lol it’s not a huge thing #spn #supernatural #supernatural day #September 13th #today is also my dads birthday btw #so I was like. Yeah I’m just supposed to be here I think #always keep fighting #spn fandom #spn family #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #jack kline #team free will #tfw2.0 #yeah :) #taking a break from being a hater to being a nostalgic reminiscer and lover #i rember

[achillidiot]

tfw when your having an internal crisis and the only thing that is helping is boyfailure starscream

#tfp #tfp starscream #kinda personal #but also not??? #kill me #lol #shitpost #but only half of a shitpost

[arcsin27]

Frustrated at the lack of monster pov monsterfucker fics, making self insert whumpers…

I think there is something sinister within me

#bruh #kinda personal #random thoughts #tmi? #whump #monsterfucker #sinister #i have a need to be a feral beast that kills ig #killing and biting

[junkh3ad]

Layne Staley is the only singer i come back to time and time again no matter how many years it’s been. I wish he was here, i wish he knew how influential he was and i wish he had gotten the help he needed. Mike Starr’s retelling of his last time seeing Layne always sends chills down my spine and i completely get why Mike blamed himself for all those years. How couldn’t you? Your best friend died and you were the last one to see him, you tried to help but risked losing him if you did, but you lost him either way.

I always think about what could have happened if Layne got the help he needed. Maybe he’d stop blaming himself about Demri, Maybe he’d still be making kick ass music. Maybe he still would have died.

I had no way of knowing him, i was 3 when he died! But i miss him every day. Any video i see with him makes me so happy, he was such a great guy by the looks of it and from the stories i’ve read. Layne Staleys been the center of my heart for so long, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

#alice in chains #Layne Staley #Mike Starr #my beloved layne <3 #90s grunge #seattle grunge #grunge #kinda personal #i miss him so much #demri parrott #🌧️ rainy talks