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Hi, this is me. i am a 15 year old girl just trying to get through high school…. or homeschooled. (explained later) i’m sure you can look at this photo and think wow she looks like a normal person, regular teenager taking a selfie, well hey you’re right i am, lol. 6th grade, i went to my very first junior high, i had friends, drama, and hard times not as many as i thought i did… i got bullied a lot but i also didn’t always stay away from drama, i’ve always been that type of girl to stand up for someone no matter what, which yes made others mad at me… im not saying i am perfect or i’m innocent, i am saying i got bullied, just like any other kid, am i right? 7th grade comes, i am not even in the middle of the school year, same old thing drama, drama, drama… that year sometime in November, i burnt my hand with a grease fire had to get a skin graph so i went homeschooled for a little bit… didn’t actually do any school work, but i went homeschooled because i would be missing to much school aka truancy because my surgery and i couldn’t walk because i got skin removed from my leg, i know gross right! hHahah, but a few days before burning my hand i had made a post on the social media website called Instagram i’m sure you’ve all heard of it, and made a post about a teacher bashing him because he had talked bad about me in class and me being the naïve 13 year old i was i made a post “roasting him” and well…. someone showed my school, which i got AEP, aka a school where you go for 30 days because you did something really bad… i didn’t ever go because a few days later i burnt my hand and i got unenrolled, so 8th grade i go to a new school… i made friends super fast, even a best friend! well….. her best friend didn’t like me for no reason, i guess she was mad me and her best friend where getting close, and drama has just stirred basically, so they didn’t really like me anymore, because i had stood my ground and defended myself, over the whole situation. they where pretty liked around school, word gets around, over something SO DUMB, so a lot of people start not liking me, i would ignore it, well my ex best friend we had faded she went there she was my bestf in 6th grade me and her had got into a bad argument because i got a really close friend and she thought i had replaced her and she was mad, and i had told her mean things as she did me. well she went to my new school (8th grade) and she was bestfriend with this girl, who DID not like me because my ex bestf had told her i “bullied” her, which must i say i defend anyone and don’t stand there and do nothing when i see someone getting bullied, but on to the story, the girl was well, popular… and i had asked why she didn’t like me and all she did was go off on me so we argued, well few weeks pass by and we’re outside for the car rider, and she is giving me the meanest looks, so finally i gave one back and said “what” and she had said something so i told her to basically shut the fuck up, and well i guess people didn’t think they was appropriate, so then even more people didn’t like me, it got to the point where i went to the counselor, and she had done nothing really about it, i then started talking about the girl who had been my first friend there but then stopped because her bestf, well… me and these people where talking about how she turned on me and this guy who liked her said something and was only talking to me so i was like… but these girls where saying stuff too and the girls where like no we weren’t, so i took the blame, & finally they wouldn’t stop so i ran to the counselor and cried and all this right, i was getting so mad because she would just not handle it right, so i screamed and slammed her door and walked to the office and my mom then walked in, she had a meeting that day i forgot about so she goes to the meeting and they had told her that i couldn’t go there anymore because i had AEP on my record i didn’t complete, and they where like a charter school so they didn’t have that, i was truly happy leaving that anyways. i couldn’t take it anymore. so then after that i go to this very very small school i didn’t have problems there… people gave me hard time but i got over it and made a few friends, i then left because my (ex) best friend had moved back home to a town 10 mins away from mine and we wanted to go to the same school together so we did, and trust me i’ll make a whole post about her( you know she’s my EX best friend though) well i’m at this new school and they tell me i have to go to AEP, so i go… well for a few weeks… then i finally gave up… i couldn’t go anymore, it was too hard i couldn’t do it i was being stubborn and ect, plus i had to ride a bus that would pick the students up and take them 45 minutes away to a AEP school, and i had moved during that time 45 minutes away but we didn’t say anything because my sister still went to that school, so every morning i would have to wake up EXTRA early and well i just couldn’t do it anymore. finally my mom couldn’t do the drive anymore with work and everything and moving she couldn’t keep driving us so far or my sister… so we switched schools again in are town, i’m fixing to get to the interesting part, 9th grade worst year of my life, so far…… i go to this new school everything is going great, it’s an okay school, At first. well this 19 year old didn’t like my sister for no reason she told my sister because she was a “basic bitch” & threaten to fight her and all her friends gained up on both of us, and basically bullied the shit out of us, 2 months go by i make a bestfriend, we both went to a football game and had became super close and then hung out all the time along with two other girls who where sisters, we where all best best best best besttttt friends, plus my sister, we where the friends most people wish they had, at first, we did everything together, had crazy times, the sisters bestfriend was a guy who i had a crush on, senior guy, asked for sex i said no, but he spreader rumors that i was obsessed but who really cares, i laughed it off and me and him and all of us hung out, me and him had our up and downs, but that’s not my point right now, so we are friends from around October to January 2nd, the day we returned from christmas break, well a few day before christmas break ended… the sisters and the boy i was so called “obsessed with had gone to a party, that my sisters ex was at so we had decided to call the cops on the party as a joke Not knowing the sisters where there, i’m gonna call them the twins because they’re twins. well me and my sister and my ex best friend had decided to call the cops on this party being dumb teens not knowing the twins where there ( we had told them we where gonna call on the party and gave them the adresss) and they replied "omg” and laughing emojis, so we didn’t think they went i guess they didn’t read the address, cuz i wouldn’t ever had called the cops on the party if i knew they where there.. well we call the cops, and that night one twin calls me and say they’re running from the cops and i didn’t think it was the party i called on (she got away) no one got in trouble, and it was all good… the day we come back to school January 2nd 2017, i had known now they had went to the party i called on and i had told them it was me who called and they where perfectly fine with it and laughed mainly because they didn’t get caught, so i was like oh okay, good, i’m sorry anyways. we moved on, to the next day the so called guy i was obsessed with didn’t like the fact we did what we did soooo, he went on snapchat, ratting me out to everyone and my sister and my ex bestf and roasting on all of us, and i went off on him and the twins right then and there turned on us, and where just starting to be mean and rude, and the next day it got worse at a basketball game they wouldn’t even talk to me, so i finally then leave and 3 days later, it’s the weekend, and they go on twitter and start so much shit with me, and we’ll threaten to fight us, and it wasn’t just them it was there friends and and there friends and so i had already had enough, they back stabbed me and turned on me, i had enough and freaked out and said COME FIGHT ME ( i’ve never been the fighting type i’ve always been against it, and i’ve always been afraid of people when it comes to fist to fist) but there comes a time when no matter how afraid you are of someone or something and it gets too bad you have no choice to defend yourself and fight back the fight, no matter how scared you are… and that was my mind set at the moment, they come to my house and my mom being the mom she is, she yelled at them telling them to stop and leave her house right then and i screamed and cried why did y'all do this to me WHY DID THE 19 year old NOT LIKE US FOR NO REASON, WHY DID MY SO CALLED BESTFRIENDS BACKSTAB ME AND TURN ON ME, remember the very first bestf i made at the beggining of 9th grade year, well soon enough she joined the bandwagon to hate us too… when i say i did nothing to this whole school, i mean i did NOTHING but call cops on a party, that only 3 people from the school went too, but the whole school wanted to hate us because other people hated us (aka me and my sister and my ex bestf who lives in a different city) but 30 people jumping on us on twitter threatening me, saying if i come back to school i’d see, or they wanna bash my head in, i know y'all are thinking “she must have done something for them to be doing all this” nope, called on a party, 3 people didn’t like me then it excalated, i guess people didn’t wanna be that one person who liked us, so they followed the bandwagon, it got so bad i cried i cried and i cried went to the cops, did i mention how my principle hated me because i didn’t have very good attendance me and him always bumped heads i went to him for bullying before and i got in just as much trouble for going to him for help as the bullies did and so when this huge thing happen i didn’t wanna go back to him again, and i was scared to go to lunch so i walked out of school, and got introuble, when all i did was spend my lunch down the road, where No one new where i was, with my sister. my principle had once told me, “you might as well get out of my school and do something else because you can’t make up these hours from missing so much” well motherfucker i made those hours up, and got the credits i needed, and proved him wrong but he basically told me to drop out…. well back to the twins and everyone back stabbing me and everyone hating us, my mom had mentioned emailed the principle several times about it, and he replied … “ you’re daughter has 45 days of AEP for missing to much school, same with my sister, and my mom couldn’t believe he wasn’t doing anything about the bullying an the reason we where missing is cuz i was too scared to go to school, and couldn’t go back, so then my mom said NO, that’s BULLSHIT, she unenrolled us and now i’m homeschooled, and i don’t get a HS experience, never again. they ruined it for me, over a call over a party that had nothing to do with anyone from that school, at that time i lost all my fiends but 1 and he lived 45 mins way, the one who helped us call… he’ll be the next one i talk about. life has been more hard then all that, more drama, more bullying, more fighting, me getting told to kill myself or that no one would care if died "maybe my family” or i’m fat, ugly, don’t go to school which i do, or i have a weird body. i sometimes wanna give up, and end it all, but i think again right now i have a bestfriend i’ve been best friends with for 9+ years off and on and i have so much fun w her doing awesome stuff snd i’m like i don’t need anymore friends, life has been hard. i’m so insecure over my body, and every fiends i’ve ever had had backstabbed me, and i’ve forgave them each and Every fucking time. this is the end of my “school” life experience.

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