#just got some extremely bad news

[semercury]

I really fucking wish my therapist was alive.

#stuff sarah says #just got some extremely bad news #im not ready to talk about it publicly but any friends can message me #to those who pray. please keep my family in your prayers

[welcometogrouchland]

ANOTHER SKETCH DUMP! Featuring more of me playing with lineless art. Batman reborn era trio (dick, damian and steph) I miss you...when will you return from war. Also featuring Steph designs bc I've seen ppl dissatisfied w/ her current look, some good mom Talia, and Jason Todd poetry club. Duke is confused not that Jason would start a poetry club but that he'd have such mid poetry opinions. (ID in Alt)

#dc comics #batfamily #damian wayne #stephanie brown #dick grayson #talia al ghul #duke thomas #cassandra cain #mine #woo new art tag. please god let me keep this up all year #uhh anyway yeah! still a big backlog of sketches but i got burnt out which means i had time to collect some #i feel like my art looks. extremely different w/o lines compared to with? idk i worry that's it weird/off-putting #but hey at the end of the day I'm hardly worrying about my brand integrity on tumblr dot com #duke and cass being at poetry club is based on them canonically being into poetry and for a good while duke and jason got along well #Steph is there for both jason and cass' emotional support (unfortunately there's a design flaw. she can't do both simultaneously) #(which is fine bc cass is fleeing the scene at the idea of having to casually hang out with jason) #(they're the exact amount of similar and more importantly different that it's like putting two firecrackers together. bad) #i really like the steph mask designs... it'd be fun to do something with them but idk what y'know? #I'm just like. if we're assuming that her mask has to be different from both babs and cass then this is what I've got as alternatives #i mostly wanted to practice character interaction with the talia and damian one... and also i love them #looking at james gunns batman movie proposal. you keep your hands OFF HER MR GUNN #please if shes evil in a movie they're never gonna let her be good in the comics again 😭 #dc when you inevitably cave and do your next big reboot let the ppl finally have the son of the demon origin (w/ tweaks of course) #idk it's canon in my heart. heartcanon if you will <3 #anyway yeah uhhhhhh enjoy?

[svtskneecaps]

i should be sleeping but i do want to reiterate how much i love that our collective fan community and also the streamers are constantly like, so new members when? new language when? a teaser drops and we're all like germans???? german time????? asiatic language time??????? new faces??? new friends?? new communities????

i've said this before but it just constantly makes me feel all warm n fuzzy to see it. i'm really happy we're all so excited and united in this.

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #this was also why purg2 was great for me specifically #like goddamn was that such a chance for me (and others) to meet streamers in an accessible setting #i only really speak english and half french so this was the first time i actually got to watch any aldo and understand more than every like #tenth word out of his mouth lmfao i get SO LOST #also was extremely fun bc goddamn for a while i rly thought i just Did Not Understand French #bc hearing the qsmp french speakers i'm like. damn. i'm lost. i get lost after like a sentence or two idk i'm so bad at understanding them #but dude holy shit i had kenny on while i did work fully like 5 ft from my phone and i was FOLLOWING #I WAS KEEPING UP???? LIKE THAT WAS INSANE so shoutout kenny for speaking french i can understand i rly appreciate the confidence boost #anyway i hope hope hope to see new members soon yesyes #be it purg2 returners (i have my wishlist but the wishlist does have Everyone soooo i win) or a new language!!! OR MULTIPLE 🙏 WOULD BE NEAT #i have said before that i think it would be fun if they drop two+ languages in at the same time #have the new languages work together to do puzzles and get used to the translations before dropping the full force of like #20-30 odd streamers who are unbelievably loud and extremely excited to meet them #would mayyyybe mitigate some of the french arrival where everyone DESCENDED on them and it was SO LOUD lmfao #anyway i will now sleep it just makes me happy to see everytime i see it #i'm excited to meet (hypothetical) everyone too <3

[cashmere-caveman]

My Country: The New Age, first and last episodes & Hanif Abdurraqib, For The Dogs Who Barked At Me On The Sidewalks in Connecticut (text/audio) image descriptions in alt

#damn imagine if hui-jae was well written beyond like episode 7 or so. wouldnt that have been something. #just saying but if they had actually leaned into the parallels between these three instead of doing ... whatever weird comphet stuff we got #it couldve been so good!!!! or even if they had just let her keep her fun gender!! but no :( #im so glad hui-jae is busy being the occasional third in hwa-wol and mun-boks marriage while seonhwi raise goats in seo geoms village haha #anyway. enjoy yet another half assed post abt parallels and heartbreak in the parallels and heartbreak show <3 #also do urself a favour and check out the whole poem hanif abdurraqibs writing is insane #my country: the new age #mctna #han hui-jae #nam seon-ho #seo hwi #caveweb #actually no i still have sth to say. like im not even mad that theres comphet im just angry its so bad like??? what was that #that wasnt even half assed that was like quarter assed at best #also the hui-jae / seon-ho axis is so tragically underused #like i respect that they just fully made them both hwisexual but couldnt we have at least gotten more than some crumbs #they went from vaguely friends to bitchy antagonists to i dont even think of u at all and thats honestly so lame #tension of a wet lettuce leaf. seon-ho was the one who made the first step towards friendship in ihwaru and he also warned her abt his dad #and wingmanned hwi (took hui-jae to see hwi kick ass) like in the beginning he was the one w the people skills! #and u are telling me apart from one extremely unbelievable attempt at a love triangle w the 'last drink' scene u never did anything w them? #like so much of my grief w this show hinges on the fact that there shouldve been more Good Times before everything went to shit #to make it hit harder bc imagine the beef if seon-ho and hui-jae had been actually good friends before he betrayed hwi #them seeing each other at court as the king and queens respective confidantes wouldve been so much better like !!! #wait actually i need to stop here i can feel myself getting hangry i need to eat lunch but imagine. imagine #the good timeline where hwi just got to be fully bisexual and there were more divorce flavours than just hwi/seon-ho and hwi/bang-won... #solarpunk_future.jpeg #nam seon ho #han hui jae #<- thats just bc i never fucking know what the consensus on the romanization of everyones names is #i personally go w the hyphenated method but lots of ppl write each syllable separate and ive seen the kpop variant (written tgt) used too

[125storejuice]

So I'm legitimately getting back into things now, and I'm pretty excited ! I ended up having some more stuff happen that put me in a dark place for a while, but I am finished being in that place !! And ready to show the internet my naked body !!

#my best friend told me she didnt want to be in my life anymore lol #and my job got so horribly bad I quit #and realized that work is just extremely difficult for me #so im looking into disability again #anyway #lolol #im just happy to also be feeling better enough to to sex work things #because it is something that makes me legitimately happy !! #so hello tumblr i have missed you!! check my onlyfans for some new posts 🥰 #more to come !!! #i hope you all are doing so well!!! #how are you doing??

[spamsandsuch]

In my mind i dont think swatch necessarily hates spamton but spamton does think they hate him

#spamton #spamtonposting #swatch #swatchposting #in a sense i feel like spamton just thinks everybody hates them due to its circumstances and is extremely distrustful/disdainful to others #as a result #and especially hates ppl like swatch and the adds for believing them to be fake friends #(i include swatch in this cuz of the sweepstakes q&a) #but would swatch hold the same amount of contempt for spamton? To me not really #I think its more so that swatch is just uncomfortable around spamton due to its actions #And due to swatches personality is often annoyed by spamtons actions as well #Thought that doesnt necessarily equate to swatch hating him (or in my fanon at least… though even from a canon standpoint #i feel like swatch is more so annoyed and uncomfortable with spamton rather than actively despises them) #i think in afttp they would get more on friendly terms and become acquaintances after talking through their issues together #(but who knows i might make them friends eventually too? who knows..) #my headcanons #also sorry for not posting as much lately i got a new job recently and just been dealing w/ some personal stuff #to the point where i forget i can just posts my ruminating dr thoughts (which i used to do more often and i feel a lil bad for not doing so #as much now) #anyway thats all i dont have much else to say lol

[jabberwockprince]

modern otome games dont do it for me anymore bc even though some of them let you pick pronouns/gender, theyre still heavily written for women (which is fair, its OTOME game for a reason, i stopped being their target demographic years ago) who specifically love to be dominated and/or degrated to different degrees, most of the time being seduced/whisked away lowkey against their will, which leads me to believe modern otome are the equivalent of those books for sexually repressed wives

#thinking abt the old otome i used to play #that was the wildest fucking scenarios ever #like #oh yeah youre the sultan's new adopted daughter #you can now bang his other adopted sons. who are extremely hot and into you #or hey. youre cinderella #straight up cinderella. pick a prince to marry and avoid some royal scandal and dabble in the world of politics #to avoid waging war against the other kingdoms #or hey. you had a car accident years ago and the ptsd makes you unable to sleep at night #its been like 10 years so your bestie recommends you hire a sleeping boyfriend who just helps you sleep #so its some guy counting sheep to you and finding out about your repressed trauma and coping mechanisms and helping you thru it #or hey #a star fell from the sky #thats a guy! he says hes your boyfriend! #the gods sent him to learn to be human so he doesn't become a shitty god when he grows up #OR NEKOMIMIS AVOID BEING HUNT DOWN BY POACHERS AND HIDE IN YOUR HOUSE #like theyre all wild but softer than whatever is happening nowadays #like with what in hell is bad. or obey me. or all those other specific demon otomes #like. there was one abt dating the reaper. an angel. or a demon. and in their routes theyre saving you from the other two #but you genuinely got to know them to such a personal degree it stopped being an otome at points like #what do you mean the reaper has abandoned the concept of friendship bc everything he touches dies #so hes torn between killing you to continue this cycle or saving you to prove hes more than a bringer of death #now its just #horny.... or the MC is useless.......

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #(<- NUMBER 3!!!) I FINISHED THE ANIMATION AND EVERYTHING FOR THAT PROJECT AND SENT IT OFF! super excited!! #it looks really cute! i tried my best and im mostly satisfied of where i landed <33 #it's my little sibling's birthday today!! it's also the first official meeting of lgbt club!! (the other event was a fun lgbt mixer) #my backpack smells bad. like mildew or mold maybe? urgh its awful and gives me a headache. i might need a new one. i dont know. urghhh. #my programming homework is due today!! yike!! but other than that my personal projects with deadlines are all done! #INIQUITY NOW THAT YOU HAVE TIME ARE YOU FINALLY GONNA WORK ON YOUR SELF SHIP BLOG?? YES!! HOPEFULLY!! #truthfully i /have/ been working on it on the side. it looks decent but the colors;;; i have always been pretty sht at color picking? #i can adjust with filters but without that im like. a little not good yet lmao. gotta do some studies sometime perhaps #BUT YAY EXCITED!! ive got some rambles and doodles and a tag system and f/o info which is extremely cumbersome (affectionate)!! #also i have new fandom ocs for the latest dimension 20 campaign and im so delighted heho <33 this campaign is literally so fun. #im watching it with my sibling when its done!! OOH ALSO I FIGURED OUT HOW TO PNGTUBE AND i will likely never use it BUT COOL!! #i dont like. talk. lmao. my art streams are 1) silent 2) rare 3) only shared with my siblings. pngtuber is a little useless. but CUTE!! #i got boba tea yesterday!! sandy bought it :3 <3 and we're having pho and cheesecake later and i might plan out a little excursion today? #like i might get a treatsie. OR i'll just sit on campus as usual and get a mango smoothie and draw for a while (or work on homework.) #(lets be honest its likely the former. i might get a little back into traditional? ooh or maybe i'll practice my asl?) HEY THOUGH. #ive been thinking about making a henrey stickmn (ask)blog to practice asl? like. no plot. just henry teaching ellie and charles asl #really funny considering my Real concept of an askblog for THSC. not ace or eca; but a secret third thing (⛎) ;) #then again since when have i EVER followed through on an askblog lmao?? damb im all over the place today. we're already hitting tag limit #okay!! 3 AM!! if im going early tomorrow i gotta eep! goodnight everyone i love you!! see you tomorrow if i have the energy and time!!

[blunderpuff]

my mom hates the house, hates the neighborhood (can't walk to anything/have to get in the car for everything), can't find stuff she packed, doesn't have good places to put her stuff, her big desk doesn't fit in the "office alcove", the cat is days away from being put down and so he's clingy and sad...

MA'AM. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS DESPERATE TO MOVE. BUYING THIS HOUSE HAS BEEN IN THE WORKS SINCE JULY OF THIS YEAR. "MOVING" AS A CONCEPT HAS BEEN THE SUBTITLE OF MY LIFE FOR THE PAST 5 YEARS. YOU DO NOT GET TO BE A PISSY TODDLER NOW. THIS IS LITERALLY ALL YOUR DOING.

#the secret world of merry mac #and she keeps yelling at Arthur to leave her alone but he's fucking dying. he barely eats and he's cold and has balance issues #the poor cat is existing in his final week on this planet and she's just mad at him and taking it out on him #i have basically no furniture (none of it matched and so i didn't mind giving it away/selling it) #so that means my things are all shoved into precariously stacked boxes and i'm sleeping on an army cot #i'm depressed too!! i left a decent paying job doing something i really liked! i would have been fine moving to a different house in town!! #she wanted (1) trader joe's (2) kaiser permanente and (3) her own swimming pool #she got (1) trader joe's 2 freeways/30m drive away (2) no kaiser and (3) no pool #this is how we always move; my mom gets the itch and then we leave. it's not that she wants to move TO somwhere-- it's just AWAY from here #(wherever 'here' is) #so i spent my entire last paycheck on furniture that won't even be here for a week or more #i also hate the (brand new) fridge that came with the house. it's a side-by-side and it's simultaneously stupidly spacious #but also the space is used in such a stupid way that you can't even lay a frozen pizza flat on a freezer shelf #she also collects screws/nuts/bolts/nails/washers like a fucking magpie and so no two are the same #and she doesn't use the correct things for the job and she just put two ROOFING NAILS into the wall to hold a magnet board up #she sucks at home repair (made worse by the aforementioned WRONG TOOLS FOR THE JOB) and so everything is done #with extreme frustration and it turns out half-assed and looks bad #she doesn't wait and/or think about where she wants stuff to go so she's just spent the afternoon hanging things up badly #and the house is going to look like it was decorated by some clown who needs to hang every piece of art they own all at once #we have picture rails so we can swap artwork/photos according to mood/season/etc but no... she just puts EVERYTHING out all at once #anyway i'm so sad and tired and frustrated and angry and it feels really unfair to keep my mouth shut when she says 'i wish we never moved!

[meangoose]

goin thru it lads, pls ignore

#just got some extremely bad news about my last childhood pet being put down tomorrow #and i want to be there when it happens but my dad is giving me so much push back abt it #and i also found out that my friend's bf cheated on her so i want to go there and cheer her up but im gonna also be devastated abt my dog #and idk if i can even bring it up to my friend bc she has a lot of trauma around her own dog dying a few years ago #so i dont want to bring it up at all but also #would it be worse to hear about it or to find out that i didnt say anything and she doesnt get to say goodbye either #and its going to be hell to be around my dad because he's upset too and will definitely take it out on me #he can just be really cruel and thoughtless #the whole situation is absolutely fucked and my mom isnt even here to support me and i feel so lost and bad #ive been crying at work all day and my dad is angry that im going to take the day off tomorrow to be there but i can't NOT be there #ANYWAY sorry this is so negative

[diseasedcube]

they did not have to go this hard omg

#tye spoilers #they really said: let's have sad animation for the entire season but Kahaku can have amazing facial expressions for a second 😎 #AND IS THAT NEW MUSIC I'M HEARING #IT GOES VERY HARD TOO #...i wonder if the 'i want it to end' is a poor translation on the subber's part? #i'm pretty sure i've got official subs here #but in both the weekly and volume release of the manga #he says something more along the lines of just wanting to rest/have some relief #now he just sounds suicidal (esp with his more extreme facial expression here. manga fushi just looked exhausted) #not that I don't absolutely adore a more suicidal aspect being given to a character #especially since his earlier tone of suicidality wasn't very well emphasized in the anime imo #also good fucking god the color grading on these gifs is atrocious #my internet is being weird so i had to use clipchamp and it shows :( #ALSO I NEED TO GO WATCH HAIRO'S BACKSTORY SCENE AGAIN #BECAUSE EVEN IN THE MANGA. I NEVER REALLY UNDERSTOOD IF THAT WAS INDEED TASSETTE??? #his entire backstory doesn't make a lick of sense but sjdhgfdjsjhdegydhdiye was that actually tassette??????? #hmnbnmnbn there's three episodes left but i really think there's only 2 episodes worth of manga content #but i'm bad at estimating #like surely the next ep won't be ENDING with Bon's death right? and maybe they'd dedicate an ep to the aftermath of that #but then what..... #also i still can't tell if kahaku was lying. more just...panicked and making excuses up on the spot? #just a frantic 'it's not what it looks like i didn't mean it!!!' type vibe

[ghostzzy]

halloween party last night was so wild . y’all should come next year it was so fun…

#I’m experiencing unspeakable pain and fatigue now but it was worth it #comet trails. u kno how it is. #hung out with old friends. some of them got new genders since last time which is rly fun. #van started on fire briefly. they have minor burns but it’s okay. the end table got less lucky. the couch has some battle burns. #there were drugs and alcohol and extremely delicious snacks and treats #and it became a pajama party by like 10pm #and we watched dracula. the young keanu reeves one #and then some friends spent the night and we all got brunch this morning #and there was lite and inconsequential interpersonal drama just for spice #and it was all just. very fun. #could’ve gone so so so so so bad considering the fire happened in the first 15 minutes #but thank god no one got seriously injured and nothing important got ruined #and everything after that was still so fun and nice. 🥺 #izzy.txt

[cowboykakashi]

:|

#Alexa I am so so sad #ugh it’s stupid I’m so sick of being sad #and everyone is sick of hearing about it wah wah sad again just like yesterday and the day before ad nauseum #ugh. well tell you all the truth I’m kinda ugly and all of my new coworkers are so fucking pretty and it makes me feel like shit every day #I don’t want to assume bad things about them cuz they seem like genuinely good people mostly but I do feel like they all look down on me #for being both ugly and bad at my job like fuck dude I really got nothing to offer here other than the fact that I fucking show up #if you know me irl please leave me some fucking dignity and don’t read this I’m already ashamed enough for having feelings in the frst plac #this is so stupid just cuz I met a coworker for the first time that I am extremely attracted to that is way out of my fuckin league #and like I haven’t been interested in A Person in ? almost 2 years cuz every time I have been in the past #in the last 4 years at least it has ended poorly with me feeling like shit like no one will ever want me #and at this point honestly I can’t help but believe that cuz it’s been a long fucking time since anyone has #is it cuz I’m ugly ? is it cuz I’m weird ? cuz I have fucking nothing to offer ? #cuz I’m desperate for affection attention someone to give a shit about me fucking anything #god I don’t know but I feel like I am really and truly at the end of my rope here and I don’t know what to do with myself #shut up satan #negativity

[limewatt]

hghghhh i did a bunch of shit today i’m tired. art stores are fun to look around in though

#i went to go get a physical then got bloodwork (dominant hand :[ gonna be a pain to do shit) then i went to two art stores #i finally used some art store gift cards i was given as gifts #buying stuff without using my money is great i love this and also i feel sick at making impulse purchases for shit i know i won’t use #i got some clay and some armature wire which i WILL use even if it kills me i want to dabble in sculpting #but instead of getting tools. which i need. i got a watercolour painting set. and i know in my heart i will not use it more than once #i thought ‘surely the other store i have a gift card for will have some sculpture tools right?’ and IT DIDNT #so i got a plastic skull cause thats a logical conclusion #i knowwwwwwww this is overall a W #i finally used this gift card i’ve had for a year and started using one i just got #and i only paid 1 single dollar of my own money. 98 cents i gave a loonie. one coin i spent. i could recoup that by looking under the couch #BUT NOW I HAVE MORE SHIT THAT WILL STARE AT ME AS I TRY TO SLEEP #IM SORRY ACRYLICS IM SORRY CANVASES IM SORRY BRAND NEW WATERCOLOUR KIT #IM A DIGITAL ARTIST I HATE WORKING IN PHYSICAL MEDIUMS BUT THEYRE SO ALLURING!!!! #the other day i got suddenly inspired #i finally used some shitty clay that i’ve had for years. and it was really extremely shitty to the point that i couldn’t work with it #and attempted to make a shitty figurine. but it’s shitty and the modeling materal is shitty and it sucks real bad #but making the armature with the too thick wire i had was fun and the idea of sculpting is fun so i want to give it a chance #so i got (hopefully) better clay that’s actually clay and wire #and i’ll learn how to actually make an armature #and try real hard #probably. hopefully. #aaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck it we ball fuck it we ball fuck it we ball #the least i can do is try!!!!!!

[dirt-str1der]

1998 trigun literally wins because i was terrified that it would only be stampede and i was preemptively crying and hugging myself then the haul

#Listen to my problems #we win because when i asked told two artists i was happy to see 1998 merch they were both like Because we like 1998 better #and i got a few trimax vashes also we fucking win #that one artist who said they purposefully match every stampede merch with one 1998 merch is my fucking hero even though i didnt buy their #coasters. their extremely cute coasters. i told them if i still had money at the end of the day i would circle back but then i hit the #motherload near the end of the hall and lost all my money and more and i found the yaoi and TWO AWESOME 1998 VASH POSTERS #AND THEY WERE SO COOOOOOOL one even had the option of coming pre-peppered with bullets #i fucking win #1998 wins #i have no money now (grins) i love spending ... #some of these artists are genuinely my heroes though .... like the guy who made a little standee and gave knives a fat ass ... #it was so funny that i was forced to buy him and vash as a set theyre holding cutlery #i left wolfwood out of everything because every trigun decision i make is targeted to piss off vash/wood shippers #because i hate their ship. but also my friend and i found kv stuff at doujima which was so scary to me ... #i would respect the brevity and efficiency of having a ship name thats two letters but i hate their ship #and then my friend told me the bad news that there was at least three kv shippers at the con i thought it was just that one guy #i dont care anymore because i didnt buy anything from them despite being happy but hehe merchandise .... the designs were cute though ... #AND I SAW THREE OFFICIAL VASH PLUSHIES and two bootlegs !!!! and i brought my own bootleg everyone fucking loved him #they all wanted a picture of him in his crib because they were all so pleased that hes a baby #the very first person i saw with a plush made me take it out so they could play together and make them kiss and their friends i think were #filming and one of them went (gasp) selfcest .... and i was like (voice crack) NOOOOO #theyre funny ... thank god ! i had fun today i really did

[gillianthecat]

Why does science keep trying to gaslight me??? The cathode is NOT the negative electrode in an electrolytic cell, the electrons are still flowing towards it! It's, by definition, still reduction, so electrons have to move towards it and it is therefore a positive electrode. It's attached to the negative terminal of the power source, yes, but that doesn't make the cathode electrode itself negative! I felt like I was losing my mind.

I guess they call the whole section between power source terminal and electrode the "cathode"? And name it based on the battery side? Which is fine, whatever, I'm sure there are valid historical reasons for those naming conventions, but you've got to explain that that's what's happening! Because just saying "negative electrode (cathode)" contradicts everything taught before and makes students (me) feel like we don't understand any of it.

#hw lb #gillianthecat goes back to school #chemistry #electrochemistry #venting #i'm extremely irritable today #partly because ​i woke up late and got to lab late and was confused. and there's bad news in the world #and partly i just am for no reason #so that explains some of the vehemence of this rant #but also i am right about this being underexplained and unnecessarily confusing #i dunno. maybe i'm dumb. #maybe this is obvious so the science education world doesn't think it needs to be explicitly said #BUT IT WASN'T OBVIOUS TO ME #maybe the problem is I don't know the exact definition of ''electrode'' #I know no one cares but I'm annoyed and this is my blog so I'm going to complain