#just another therapist rant

[the-therapist-is-ace]

A Danganronpa hot take! It's been a while. (Spoiler for all V3)

I... am confused about something, and maybe someone can answer me.

Why the hell is Kokichi called the "uncooperative one"? By the fandom I mean, because in the game I get that everyone used him as the scapegoat...

Literally why?

In Chapter one, he encouraged everyone to go through the road, until he notice everyone is exhausted. Then he's saying "stop. We need rest, and you need to stop strong-arming everyone" to Kaede. Which, maybe came a bit harsh but true. He IMMEDIATLY form a plan for everyone to meet at the dining hall for breakfast -something that they will be doing until the end of the game- and once there, force everyone to talk about the resentment and hurt feelings after what happened at the road yesterday. After the First Blood Perk motive is anounced, and Monokuma get destroyed, he makes everyone forget about the motive to not have people think too hard about it.

The next day when the time limit is announced he immediatly propose himself as sacrifice (not outright said but Miu picked the hint pretty clearly) to make sure no one else die.

In Chapter two, he takes it upon himself to make everyone acknowledge how they feel about Kaede's trial but is getting harshly shut down. And when the motives videos are introduced, he makes a plan for everyone to watch them together so they can take action in case someone got theirs and is plotting murder. He even go as far as to get more or less everyone kidnapped by manipulating Gonta (which of course isn't great) but is, again, getting shut down and PASS OUT for his troubles.

He even make everyone aware of what Kirumi was trying to do (manipulate everyone to riot on her behalf so she can run away) He gets insulted for his troubles.

And of course, how can I forget to mention him warning everyone about Maki, who is an assassin, and so a huge threat to EVERYONE. And... he's getting choked for his troubles with nobody reacting.

In Chapter three, he's kind of... well he can't do much. Because the student council is half the class, and he can't afford to have the half of people who doesn't want to get involved with the motive turn against him. His hands are tied there. But even so, in the investigation for Angie's death, he's asking Shuichi to come along because having a detective be a part of a sketchy seance is probably the best option if something happens at said-seance. (And something DID happened.) After the double murders, he force himself to stay conscious DESPITE A CONCUSSION so he can pass vital informations to Shuichi and Maki.

In Chapter four do I really have to explain? He made a plan to either, a) if you believe his mercy killing theory: save everyone from more suffering -ie: more murders and trials- and the horrors of the outside world, or b) if you think that's a lie: avoiding everyone to die because of an unsolvable trial. Because if Miu successfully killed him, she would have been able to destroy evidences EASILY consdering she is the one controlling the simulation.

And for both explaination, he asked Gonta's help. He build a full plan which NEEDS his cooperation.

And lastly in Chapter five... Literally he worked together with Kaito for his own murder to try to end the game.

Hell even in CHAPTER SIX so when he's ALREADY DEAD he's leaving hints behind to help the others!

So, my question is: HOW THE HELL IS HE UNCOOPERATIVE?! He's literally one of the people who tries the HARDEST to make everyone cooperate!

#danganronpa v3 killing harmony #danganronpa killing harmony #drv3 #kokichi ouma #just another therapist rant

[uncanny-tranny]

The most infuriating form of sanism is this idea that mentally ill people/people with mental disorders are just too stupid or too unenlightened to know how to be a proper, well-adjusted person

So many therapists have ignored signs of my unwellness simply because they assumed I was just... being stupid, and I just needed educating about why I'm acting disordered (apparently, mental disorders stop disordering you once you are condescendingly told why you're just disordered and dumb, who knew (sarcasm)).

Like, I could tell them that I knew my behaviour wasn't "rational," wasn't "reasonable" to do or believe and I'd still be treated like I was so dumb I needed hand-holding and scolding about why I'm acting disordered.

I truly wish that people would be able to take the idea of guidance and stop twisting it into "I am superior and enlightened and the people I am trying to help are stupid and wrong and beneath me!"

#mental health #mental health advocacy #ableism #ableism tw #sanism #sanism tw #yes therapist i was aware that using 1/3 of a bottle of detergent for a medium-sized load of laundry isn't rational... #...and that it could wreck my clothes and my washer (which is why i brought it up in the first place. because i knew it wasn't right)... #...like that's an example and it's SO infuriating just how high of a horse some professionals (and even laypeople) put themselves on... #...like when you stop viewing patients as PEOPLE who need guidance and start viewing them as essentially helpless idiots you have a problem #and that problem should either be addressed or you should leave the practice utterly if you're a licensed professional #call me crazy but i don't think this attitude is conducive to the PATIENT'S well-being #the PATIENT is the person who matters. the PATIENT is the most important part of this ENTIRE interaction #the instance i was thinking about in this tag rant fucking *destroyed* my trust in that therapist #because it just told me that i wasn't being seen as a *person* but as an *issue* #and regardless of if that was their intention i still don't think it was appropriate #you can have the *best* intentions and still be ignorant and say/do ignorant things. even with the best intentions #having 'good intentions' does not absolve you of harm or absolve you of the capability TO harm #another reason i Do Not Like CBTherapy

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

one thing they dont tell you abt not expecting to make it to this point is how it fucks up your plans for the foreseeable future

#sorry for getting depressing i just need it out because i dont want to talk with my therapist about it yet and i cant tell my mom #but like.... i was never expecting to make it to my birthday. for the the lasr #2? #maybe even 3 years #especially last year and now and like #now its like 2 months away and i. dont know what i want again #we just go to ihop because my sister likes it #like i tried to get ideas with my mom and i. dont have any #i cant do anything i used to think was fun and i dont have anything i. Want now #i can do presents. just give me a budget and i can work that out #but fucking. plans? i just. i just. i dont want anything. nothing seems special or important anymore #it all feels like another day. and i just. god i dont even know what cake i want. #can i even have cake? it'll just give me a headache anyway #and like..i guess its in part to how i can barely visualize anything in the future nowadays #i cant be happy for something a month ahead anymore. not even something in a week #and i just. god #personal posts and stuff idk #aethers rants #cw vent #tw vent #cw sui ideation #alluded to. i guess

[feralshadowdemon]

Chuuya, drunk and ranting about his past to Poe: THEN HE STABBED ME-

Poe, sweating, thinking the rant would just be about Dazai: Oh that's deeper than I wanna go

#poe didnt sign up for this he thought this would just be another dazai rant #he was wrong #the port mafia cant afford therapists so instead chuuya goes to poe #poe didnt sign up for this but he's doing it for his bestie ok #bsd #bsd chuuya #bsd poe #bsd incorrect quotes #legend says poe then created a group therapy session w other port mafia members to help them cope

[moththegremlinchild]

i am a fucking idiot, that is the conclusion im coming to recently.

#vent/rant #WHOS UP FOR A STORY ABOUT HOW IM THINKING ABOUT MY EX AGAIN #its fucking tiring at this point #like 'oh im over her' and then a month passes i have a random memory of her and we're back to the bullshit #i fucking hate this i fucking hate myself for putting myself through this im stupid im a fucking idiot god fucking dammit. #aaaaaaaaaaaaa #it started from like a little memory of a thing #aaaaaaand then it escalated to me writing another longass message to them #this time i sent it #they didnt read it yet #i think she doesnt use messenger anymore #maybe for the better #i want to fucking die #stupid idiot ass fucker <- me #guess who went through our old dms again too #if it wasnt for the fact that im not a grass toucher id kms by now #its always getting worse between the therapy sessions scheduled. #it gets worse better again and tbh im fine again when i go to the session #and my therapist thinks im fine and i think im just gaslighting myself into thinking im unwell mentally #two weeks since the therapy session #*gets mentally unwell* #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #its not a good day my friends. it is not.

[pinegreentea]

Why why why

Am I self sabotagin so much again? I'm onto you, brain, you might be winning now...

#personal #like im scared of sleep again and instead of taking my sleeping meds i just stay up til 5 in the morning #and other things #tbh not doing great my dudes #my therapists say i should consider getting hospitalised again #but i really dont want to. like really really do not want to. #and i usually accept hospitalisations when its kinda already too late if u get what im saying #and my therapists say i should consider just going so I'll prevent another crisis #which makes sense but.. still nah #anyway #mental illness #actually mentally ill #actually schizo #actuallytraumatized #actually clinically depressed #actually autistic #actually schizoaffective #rant

[sunsetcorvid]

congratulations on surviving this long and thanks for making the effort to do so

fifteen years of life its wack yo like damn i can my permit now?? i can get some sort of job now???

been through some shit, the last year has not been the greatest but it's getting better i think. finally got some meds for stuff, starting an online school to help with my mental health, had some motivation to get a lot of art done within the last few months. its nice, i guess.

thanks for this message, dude. hope you're having a good day/night. :) 💜

#it feels wack too because i dont feel older #i dont know if anyone's supposed to really #i feel like i passed the age of 15 years ago but i didnt i just developed a more mature mind at a younger age #it feels more waiting for things than preparing for it #another rant for my therapist i suppose lmao #heys guys im aging wow! #explodes #anyways sorry for the sentimental shit and all that stuff its like 2 am and my brain is stilled a bit wack from how much ive been sleeping #and the sinus infection #good night yall i will officially celebrate my birthday in the morning #gonna get sushi mmm #miles answers #birthday

[ilostyou]

I think the girls who talked shit behind your back have no life and nothing of value to contribute to human society. If you can't summon basic empathy for your fellow person then what are we even here for.

Fuck them, they're the problem. Their "If I don't understand it then it's wrong" attitude will come back to bite them sooner or later. You are so much better than them and I hate to think about you being hurt because some rude assholes decided to gossip.

hskdnskd to be fair i am positive they have a lot to contribute!! which is almost why i’m more shocked that they had such a hard time comprehending the Why behind what they were talking about (something a friend was experiencing and feeling) and not being able to empathize with it more - i guess i’m glad they’ve never had to deal with it themselves yknow. i absolutely agree though that they’ve got a lot to work on if this is something they couldn’t wrap their heads around properly

#asks #i mean for gods sake to be transparent they’re in school to become therapists lol i was SHOCKED to hear them talking like that #and nothing wrong with talking shit with your friends i get it. but i can’t grasp how they … couldn’t get where their friend was coming fro #like that was the shocking part to me. and then yknow the part where they made it out to be kind of silly #imagine someone saying they don’t feel so safe in one city and wanting to move to another one bc of that and your response being #i mean like … that’s weird that you feel that way. and also maybe it’s your fault #like. ??????????????? #and yeah maybe i’m way more in tune with this bc i have experienced similar to the friend in question #and i know they wouldn’t say that stuff in front of me if they. had seen me lol #but like. hello???? where is your basic bare bones empathy for people #and to be clear these are not like friends of mine they’re random people i overheard LOL #i am just kind of appalled xo #sorry that was like a mega rant i was not expecting to go on and on

[transgaysex]

my emotions are all over the place

#wind howls #i feel like i am in a state of a mild anxiety attack. #perhaps i am anxious. huh. #atsv left me feeling weird which isnt a bad thing and i know that Specifically will pass. it happened with totk as well #but the travel to the movie and back were not great #so now im not feeling great. my body hurts and i feel vaguely sick. #i think a big part of it is me just. ranting to my boyfriend abt those events and my sibling listening in on me and texting me abt it #i think. that really really bothered me. my own privacy is very important to me. and i hate when it feels like thats taken from me #next time ill just text from the get go i guess. but also im just upset still. #i dont know how my sibling expects me to take their side in an 'argument' when the other side is my 11 year old baby sister. #and its not even an argument. its my baby sister just being a child and my sibling taking offense to her being a kid. #and like. its not even a case of me liking one of my siblings more than another. this is a case of 'youre being needlesly cruel to a kid.' #and somehow they havent realized by now that a kids wellbeing will always be more important to me than literally anything else. #especially when the kid is my own baby sister. #i dont like getting into arguments with my sibling because theyre strong and confrontational but also theyre just 18. almost 19. #theyre an adult ! but they still have all their teenage immaturity and fragility. #which obviously they refuse to acknowledge. because of the aforementioned immaturity and fragility. #genuinely if i had to pick anyone in my family that should talk to a therapist first. it would easily be my sibling. #i hope they get better soon for their own sake because i love them but my patience is running thin.

[caterpillarinacave]

i may be the most content starved person in some of my fandoms

#if you think youre lacking content well boy let me tell ya #the author hasnt mentioned my blorbos name in years and was totally happy to throw away his character #both my main blorbos got their characters tossed away for the sake of another character the creator and fandom likes better #plus the fandoms care very little for my favorite and at best no one talks about them at worst just assinate their character to heaven #all i ever have going for me is special interest juice and boy oh boy oh boy #boy boy boy #that juice has been evaporating for literal months #and it is getting genuinley distressing for me #usually when my life is particulary sucky and i am exhausted my health is declining im carrying half the world on my back #because i certainly dont have the time to lose my shit #and as a therapist friend ranting in some tags on tumblr is frankly going to far for me #surprised i didnt delete all this by the time ive posted it #anywho this is fine #i would punt to some special interest juice but noooo #and this time of course I have to gain weight #love that. love being shamed for being all of 150 pounds

[akinachiri]

being tested for a disorder then not being able to be given a medical diagnosis just bc u dont meet a singular criteria is so..... yea

#akina mumbles #random thoughts idk #its like 'yeah u prob have it but sorry cant give u a diagnosis' #insanity #like i think its prty clear i have DID/OSDD but. cant be given a diagnosis bc i need to be observed with those behaviours by a therapist #for like. 2 yrs #i think its been over a yr since we were given a working diagnosis #at the end of the yr wed prob qualify for it #the signs started like a yr before the working diagnosis btw #autism is another one #i might get retested tho at some point #ok rant over i just felt like complaining kinda #this isnt a vent tho #/leo

[autistic-shaiapouf]

You know. I think I might just go home and watch some ants until the job stuff no longer bothers me

#10x the work for a dollar more it is NOT worth it; i may have to pick up hours at another store #i just like the people I work with (excluding my manager) and would be so upset to leave them #but i know they'd support me; especially the coworker i went to the opera with U_U #I'll talk to my therapist about it bc this is getting to be a load of shit actually. this is a retail job #i am not putting in this level of effort; i can feel when the mental exhaustion starts taking its toll and can also #feel joint pain every time i bend down to pick something up or put something back #i just dont know how to go about this; exit strategy asap U_U #hoatm rants

[whimsycore]

Still thinking abt not knowing my skirt had a slit in it so I wore pants underneath and my mom made a joke to her friend who was taking a picture of me like “remember she’s Muslim….very modest” like because the woman wanted me to show off the slit (???) Why would you say that are YOU not Muslim ? How can you say that to someone you forced into full hijab while not wearing it your goddamn self.

#like this is becoming an I hate my life blog again but like #i can’t go to a therapist abt it #I’m stuck here a #like ??? #also it was a pretty flowy skirt and if I’m facing Straight #you wouldn’t see the slit anyway like for me to intentionally stand like that would be weird #but like…if you’re Muslim would you even say that to another Muslim? #that’s like as a black person saying something moderately racist to laugh with your white friends #this woman isn’t Muslim #my mom is giving appropriator because no fucking way #this is after her 10 minute monologue abt Ramadan +Zakat like. whenever she’s near non Muslims she’s constantly mentioning she’s Muslim #but when it’s just us she’s eye rolling or calling Muslims terrorists in roundabout ways like #literally let me leave I cannot stand being here #how dare you say that to me after giving me a full Arabic name first/middle/last #putting me in a mosque for years #and then forcing me in hijab while not having a community around us #Hala talks #blacklist me ranting it’s gonna be a full day #then she said sleeping during the day #was haram during Ramadan I disagreed with her because like there are Muslims in like Iceland and the sun is only down an hour #and I could tell by the way her friends and thier kid reacted that it’s like I thing that I’m ‘disrespecting her’ and that ‘children don’t #know how to talk to thier parents’ #it’s a common thing I can tell that they all believe that im just a bad kid and she’s the hard working mom or whatever because she calls all #our conversations arguments #I’ve heard her do it multiple times and I called her out #and now they’re offering to help me drive but they’ve been brainwashed by this woman to believe all her kids hate her for no reason

[hirokari]

it's all fun and games until you realize you're supressing your own memories when playing omori

#deadass at this point #i know very well my brain does it so easily up to this point #everytime my sister brings up a name of someone who'd traumatized me one way or another #i just straight up . go blank #and then she mentions some random moment that'd apparently happened with them #i wouldnt recall it AT ALL. #i realized this a little earlier this year after sunny expressed concern for me lol #but its until now when i play omori— a game that depicts coping mechanisms like repressing and avoiding problems when i realize i do it too #man this shit got me thinking #i should go see a therapist but . shits expensive haha #♪ mari rants! #♪ mari games! #♪ mari talks :: omori!

[voulezloux]

prageru has made a documentary about detransitioners called detrans where they tell the story of two individuals (one who was ftm and one who was mtf) about their journeys through transitioning and then eventually detransitioning

as a trans person it breaks my heart to see the 1% of people who regret transitioning be the booming voice of trans healthcare. transitioning regret rates are SIGNIFICANTLY less than the overall regret rate of all surgeries (14%). but you don’t hear about joe who regretted his knee surgery determining the availability of others getting knee surgeries

it’s all fear mongering and i know it is. and the stories of the individuals involved paint an inaccurate picture of what it is truly like to try and medically transition (at least in america). funny how when someone speaks out about detransitioning, it’s always about how easy it was to get access to hormones, to get signed off on surgeries. one said that they met a therapist once and they signed off on hormones that session. that’s simply not the case

for those unfamiliar with the hoops you have to jump through in order to medically transition, a brief summary. (this is just my experience, not everyone’s experience is like this. this is also in america pre anti trans bill passages)

i had my first appointment with a trans clinic in january of 2017. they told me that, in order to be signed off on HRT, i had to go through therapy and get a letter from my therapist saying i am of sound mind, i am stable enough to handle the changes my body will go through, i have stated my feelings on my gender and they have remained consistent, and that i am aware of what starting hormones would mean. it took me (personally) 6 months to get this letter, and i started hormones on july 28, 2017. at the clinic, at my initial appointment and at the appointment i got my HRT prescription, i was given a paper that stated everything that could potentially happen with me starting testosterone. these things included your voice deepening, potential hair loss, facial hair, and bottom growth, among other things. before they sent off my prescription to my pharmacy, i had to sign this paper stating they told me the side effects of taking testosterone, i knew the risks of starting HRT, and i am assuming the risks in order to medically transition.

the following year, i had started the process of top surgery. i met with a surgeon and we discussed in great detail what the surgery would be like, the possible complications i could go through, what recovery would be like, and the possibility of having revisions done. my surgeon told me in order for my top surgery to be approved, i need two letters from behavioral specialists to say the same thing as what my HRT letter said. i am of sound mind, i am stable enough to handle the major change in my body, i have consistently stated my feelings on my gender, and i am aware of what top surgery entails. my doctor in the trans clinic and my therapist both gave me the referral letters required for surgery, and i had surgery halloween 2018. i got a revision done the following july, which i didn’t have to get signed off on. the revision was an outpatient procedure and my top surgery required a 3 day hospital stay.

i can’t speak on traditional bottom surgery for trans men, as i have no interest in getting that. however, what i consider to be my bottom surgery is a hysterectomy and oophorectomy. prior to coming out as trans, i had horrible periods. i bled for three months straight, i was put into the ED once while on the pill, and was eventually put on DEPO to fully stop my periods august 2016. somewhere between halloween 2018 and the beginning of 2020, my trans doctor at the time took me off DEPO, as being on HRT as long as i had at that pointC my periods should have stopped. unfortunately, i started spotting once the DEPO was fully out of my system. consulting with my ob, who i fucking love and will forever be grateful for, we decided that it would be best for me both medically and mentally to have these procedures done. because i was only 22 at the time of surgery, my ob had to advocate for me heavily in order for the board to even approve the surgery. while i don’t remember having to get a letter from my therapist or trans doctor for these procedures, i know it’s not uncommon for these types of surgeries to require letters. this was also during the beginning of the pandemic so everything is kind of a blur. however my ob did end up getting approval for me to have the surgery and i had it done july 2020.

the point of me explaining this is to say that actual trans people, the 99% who do not regret transitioning, have to do so much to just even get approval for medical transition. these two individuals are telling a false narrative to what the actual experience is for trans people in order for the general public to think their experiences are everyone’s experiences. it’s disheartening to see that a vocal minority to overpowering the equally vocal majority in terms of how they have access to their healthcare.

i know in other places, it’s much harder to get approval for medical transition. and malpractice can happen. but we shouldn’t make it harder for people to access life saving healthcare because there’s a 1% chance they’ll regret it

#o posts #transphobia tw #prageru tw #medical talk tw #my head hurts and i’m tired #being trans in america is exhausting #sorry for the rant i just had to get it out somehow #and i don’t see my therapist for another 2 weeks

[the545]

i must not text the ex. texting the ex is the mind-killer. texting the ex is the little-death that brings total obliteration--

#sorry to all of the dune fans. #i don't really want to text him #and i'm waiting another month or so at least to process the breakup before reaching out per my therapist's recommendation. #idk man. it's significantly easier to miss the relationship when i'm not under the intense daily duress of being in it. #i think i want to try to be friends with him. i appreciate that he's (finally.) giving me the space i asked for during the breakup. #i'm still in love with him a little and i'm mostly worried that i'm gonna try to get back with him if i open the door to friendship. #and just. we're not good for each other like that. #i think about what i want from a relationship and it's not anything he could give me. #anyways. #always grateful to my friends for looking out for me while i quietly lose my shit post-breakup. i'm genuinely blessed with em. #sorry for the tag angst i promise i'm doing better than this rant makes me seem <3 #it speaks