#aaaaaaand then it escalated to me writing another longass message to them

[moththegremlinchild]

i am a fucking idiot, that is the conclusion im coming to recently.

#vent/rant #WHOS UP FOR A STORY ABOUT HOW IM THINKING ABOUT MY EX AGAIN #its fucking tiring at this point #like 'oh im over her' and then a month passes i have a random memory of her and we're back to the bullshit #i fucking hate this i fucking hate myself for putting myself through this im stupid im a fucking idiot god fucking dammit. #aaaaaaaaaaaaa #it started from like a little memory of a thing #aaaaaaand then it escalated to me writing another longass message to them #this time i sent it #they didnt read it yet #i think she doesnt use messenger anymore #maybe for the better #i want to fucking die #stupid idiot ass fucker <- me #guess who went through our old dms again too #if it wasnt for the fact that im not a grass toucher id kms by now #its always getting worse between the therapy sessions scheduled. #it gets worse better again and tbh im fine again when i go to the session #and my therapist thinks im fine and i think im just gaslighting myself into thinking im unwell mentally #two weeks since the therapy session #*gets mentally unwell* #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #its not a good day my friends. it is not.