Realising again that I am a Jinx kinnie again is a ride. Realising that I have so many more abandonment issues that I thought that I’ve had before because I’ve made a friend that is my favourite person that I don’t want to let go and don’t want to see walk away and that I would do anything for. Right now with how my mind is the only thing that makes sense to me at the moment is Jinx’s character. Her paranoia, abandonment issues, attachment anxiety and possessiveness over the ones she cares about and trauma. It hurts relating to her but just rewatching it repetitively at the moment is the only thing that makes sense.
this is gonna sound very wrong but a part of me wants Jinx to die by suicide. Not like a planned one but one that arouse from a situation she found herself in. When Ekko and her were fighting and she put down the bomb she seemed pretty willing to accept her own death and had Silco not found her she probably would have bled out eventually.
Id be pretty difficult writing this without glorifying or downplaying suicide and it would be extremely dark HOWEVER I do think it could be one fitting end for this character
I dont know how to explain why exactly I would like this but something about tragedy and the ultimate price of violence and how Jinx represents both innocence and violence
Maybe it’s a certain way this idea just exists in my head and to anyone else this sounds insane idk.
I think there is a larger conversation every time you include suicide or suicidal ideation about how media can and should portray it because while I dont believe in censorship of topics art is allowed to explore I also do believe that fiction affects reality because believing otherwise is willful ignorance to how reality works. part of why im saying this is that arcane has a pg 14 rating for violence and language but depictions of suicide usually score 18 due to potentially influential content. and this is actually an important consideration for viewership ratings jdnsjsj
the other part of it is that I think choosing suicide as a storytelling device is tricky because there is a small number of narratives where it feels like a purposeful and complete ending rather than a really lazy writing choice. it has its place in tragedy but arcane very purposefully chooses not to be a tragedy - I think one of the creators described it as this whimsical hopepunk grimdark vibe and i think having an ending for a character that is very clearly just tragic doesnt mecessarily fit that. I can see it as an affirmation of agency if the story revolves around that agency being removed but jinx is a character who, while ruled by emotion and circumstamce, is also the literal catalyst for majority of the plot. every choice she makes is distinctly hers and other characters have to scramble in their aftermath. which I guess would make suicide fit into that mold but I'm thinking more about what works for her individual arc djejsj
I do think that suicidal ideation and self injury are an established part of her character but I think arcane just fits the trajectory of moving from that hopelessness more than giving into it