That moment when you write a fic and go. Oh Shit, This is so fucked up. I know someone will like it, and it's the most in character you've written and you just go ... I can't possibly post this under my username but also. Wanting others to acknowledge your terrible ideas, turning into a work of art.
Pronouns that you only use around other trans people. The good pronouns, kept in the cabinet with the good plates, just for special occasions with people you like.
Yeah, today is a bad pain day, I've slept almost all of today. Not to mention both my hips hurt so bad I've been laying in bed for the past 2 ish hours unable to sit up
:D
(just wish my fuckin 馃崈馃攲 wasn't such a cunt, so I could actually deal with the pain )
Early mornings on watchpoint Gibraltar, sitting atop the training grounds looking out at the ocean with Genji
I got there first, 3 fingers of whiskey and a cigar. (Angie was still trying to get me to stop)
Genji showed up, wearing my hoodie and carrying a blanket.
We sat there watching the sun rise even if it was a cold morning. Not talking just watching the sun and ocean.
Peaceful and quiet.
I remember a sleepy morning, or maybe it was a late night?
(I wrote this down a while ago during a depressive episode)
I feel like I'm missin' the one person keepin' me tied down, keepin' me from runnin and leavin the only stable place I have.
Missin' the feelin' of cold metal and warm skin.
Missin' the soft, thin, black hair,
Missin' the scarred skin of my spark (lover)
Memories of laying in a king sized bed with a black comforter, sheets all messed up and never bein' fully fixed
Curled up as we slept, or talked about our days, or problems
I remember Genji had hearin aids towards the end of overwatch, he would take them out if he was mad at me, and if I tried to sign he would huff and turn away or cover his eyes.
I would always end up gettin' back on his good side by gettin' him snacks he wanted, sometimes I did just have to give him space.
(on those days I would put a hoodie, some snacks and a sorry note by his door)