#itself is harmful.

[lllsaslll]

I hurt so so bad and the fear of the diagnosis I will get....

#idk what theyre gonna tell me but the top 3 options in my brain are the top worst #i just...at this point i just want to feel like a functioning human again. #but legit the thing it probably is.. there is no easy solution #ive watched my dads body eat itself alive. attacking him from the inside out spending days in excrutiating pain... #and that im probably on my way to that life too... u.u i think he was about this age when he was diagnosed #tho i know a friend and theirs doesnt seem as horrible...their medication actually seems to work for them? idk #idk and even worst is that theres no instant answer and fix #if any of the 3 things i think it is is true...then it starts a longer process of figuring out a treatment...treatment that #itself is harmful. #i need a nap. i need sleep. if i dont then ill continue to feel the pain and cry. #but im stuck sitting here...pretending like im okay. pretending like im working.

[zytes]

dusk over skyline drive; 2.14.24

#I emit trace amounts of harmful radiation; that’s why my pics always Look Like That #this road is a few miles away from where El Chapo is kept; ADX Florence #just a fun fact abt that. and the road itself was constructed by inmate labor in 1905 #that old county jail is still operational; and the present-day supermax prison is just few miles away #my art #aesthetic #art #artwork #webcore #internetcore #abstract #artists on tumblr #photography #weird aesthetic #weirdcore #americana #southern gothic #rural gothic

[naamahdarling]

You know, I don't think medical professionals should even be allowed to label a patient as "noncompliant" in their record. I'm putting it on a shelf until they learn not to be assholes.

#or any ofher weasel word they come up with to circumvent that #i don't think they get to judge whether or not patients are unreasonable until their profession cleans itself up #and stops being wildly harmful #if rhey can label me noncompliant I should be sble to label them ss uncooperafive if they refuse to respect me #using the term 'complisnt' is dehumanizing to begin with #they are absolutely NOT the bosses of patients and it's time they started acting and speaking like it

[fandomsandfeminism]

I'm so *tired* of trying to follow bigots down their rabbit holes of nonsense to scream reason at them. Showing them the logical fallacies, the contradictions, the lack of evidence, the misinformation in big block letters. I'm so so so tired of approaching hatred as though it is just ignorance, as though if you can walk them through the logic, they'll deradicalize.

You're hurting people and that's bad.

That's it. That's the whole debate. Attacks on reproductive freedom, attacks on queer folks, profit first health care, 2nd amendment nuts,all if it.

You're hurting people. That's bad. You've come up with a thousand buzzwords and talking points and twisted little arguments to tell yourself that it's good, but it's not and that's it.

It doesn't matter how you define a woman or if the founding fathers would have supported AR15 ownership or if the primary purpose of sex is conception or whatever dumb little arguments get thrown around. People are being hurt and thats bad. That's the whole issue and I'm so tired.

#i know i know #the discourse is to arm the audience not convert the other side #but today i am tired of arguing the same nonsense again and again #when what should matter is that people are being hurt and tour justifications for that harm arent more important than the harm itself

[july-19th-club]

house md wildest show on earth. a main character outright assassinates a known dictator, a moment that would be the very beginning or the mid-series crisis in any other show - an act which creates a power vacuum in a foreign nation already filled with child soldiers and genocide, and it's literally only brought up again throughout the season because that guy's wife divorces him over it. and occasionally to explore his relationship with who he is as a person and a catholic after having deliberately taken a life for what he calculates as the greater good, but mostly it's about his divorce

#i no longer think wilson is the most divorced guy ever #sure he's been divorced more TIMES than chase #but the things he's been divorced OVER are way more normal #it is so nuts like . chase. bobbie. rob. bobert. what happened next. in the country i mean #like the president is dead. does his regime crack down extra hard on the ethnic cleansing? #does the power vacuum give the opposition a chance to step in? #how much of what the president said about the people he's wiping out having been in a similar dictatorship in the past is true? #does the nation descend into civil war? is the president's death the excuse the us or england or whoever is waiting for to step in #and assume ad hoc governance thus destabilizing the region even more? #all because one guy in one hospital decided the math was in favor of his killing a guy if that guy was going to order more killings? #absolutely NEVER explored. yeah do no harm and the morals we share with our partners are important #but christ alive. the aftermath of the assassination could be a whole show in and of itself and im pretty sure it just never comes up #house is a show #house md #q

[stuckinapril]

choice feminism is not actual feminism and will do nothing to help push women out of the shackles we have been subjected to

No I understand this. It’s completely duplicitous to pretend that women choose things in vacuum, when in reality a lot of their decisions are influenced by the patriarchal system we were born into—makeup being a byproduct of it. I’m all for women going against the grain and existing in public without feeling the need to put makeup on.

There does need to be a push against rigid beauty standards, but putting a woman down for adhering to them just isn’t the way to me. It doesn’t mean I think every choice is inherently feminist and shouldn’t be questioned. It just means I’m mindful of not infringing on other women’s autonomy w my opinions. Besides, experiences w makeup are so different… one woman could just be wearing it bc she’s artsy and just likes the way it looks, whereas another could be wearing it bc she understands that it could help her up the corporate ladder. I wouldn’t dream of calling either of them anti feminist for doing it.

Is that ideal? No. Should it should be questioned, analyzed, changed for the better? Again, bc I don’t want my words to be twisted—yes, it should be. I was never trying to say it shouldn’t. All I was stating was that I don’t think policing women on whether or not they should wear makeup is the answer. I rly don’t. I’m not prepared to call a woman who wears makeup anti-feminist. I’m not prepared to shame a woman for wearing makeup or getting plastic surgery. I’m just not. That is not the same thing as promoting choice feminism. Like I know this isn’t the critical thinking website but being accused of being pro choice feminism for simply supporting other women being happy is crazy

#being a woman is hard enough as it is. I’m not going to dunk on a woman for being born into a system rigged against women #it doesn’t mean I think every choice is feminist. it just means I’m mindful of how I approach conveying that #being supportive but also critical of modern society & wanting for change can all coexist #and it’s genuinely worthy of note that makeup in and of itself is neutral #a person’s intentions w it determine whether it inflicts harm or not. #some people use it to hide; others use it bc they like how a lip gloss looks. why can’t we approach these things w the nuance they deserve? #and also be respectful and compassionate while we’re at it??? #ask

[uncanny-tranny]

What to say to somebody if they have a queer identity you "don't agree with":

Nothing

No, literally. Nothing.

#lesbian #gay #bi #bisexual #trans #transgender #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and what do you do if sayong nothing doesn't satiate you? you should just walk away and invest in your own worries/delights #policing another person's identity will *never* satisfy you ultimately. you will leave the interaction emptier than you came #isn't it worth it - then - to not invest your energy in that way? #is it not worth it to worry about your own self? #like yes i have come across queer people with a very interesting identity but i could never... #...sit down with them and pick then apart piece by piece and DEMAND an explanation... #...what am i a cop? hell no! fuck that noise. i'd rather die #and i would rather just accept people who are harming none. an identity by itself is harmful in the same way a piece of paper is (ie not)

[mattodore]

it takes a lot out of me to remember myself. i turn my face away from it and my body cracks open, spilling glistening hot viscera onto the floor for the audience to coo at. scenes flash behind me—dark corners, the breeze from the window, the floorboards creaking, a shift in the air. close to me, you look over my shoulder. you tell me, “you kept yourself so still when you were younger.” i want to ask how you know that. how do you know? but you reach out to touch my open body, press my hand to your chest, hold my face. it’s in your eyes. you were a boy once. just like me.

#cw self harm #cw injury #cw blood #simblr #the sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 edit #river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #a burning house to live in #🦇 #the link in the caption is to the full version of this image if anyone is curious about the actual details in this edit....... #i'm beating tumblr with so many hammers rn btw #the caption itself is pretty long but i didn't want to cut any of it to make it easily digestible bc theo isn't easy to digest anyway #i don't even know where to begin with this edit... #he's getting up from his knees in the first pose and then limping in the second and slowing to a stop in the third #the first pose is actually meant to be in reference to the sunflowers memory from his 60 questions... :/ #his teenage self is definitely the one i put the most work into every step of the way... it's a time for him i don't really talk about #but it's definitely the years that shaped him the most as a character and well... theo doesn't really confront his past #but matthias mirrors theo in a lot of ways and through matthias theo meets himself again #hm. yeah. also doing the lighting from scratch was interesting. the light source here for theo is matthias and vice versa #if you look at the higher quality version of this and zoom in you can see that theo is actually crying pretty blankly in the second pose... #the blood running down his knee came out really well... wish you could see it in the post version :( #also i made a pose where theo is held up in matthias's arms hiding his face in his neck which is attached to this pose set but idk. #decided not to include that picture... plus i'd have to edit it first which would've been... so many more hours. #but anyway... theo's birthday was on the 28th but there were. circumstances. waves hands. so now we're posting this two days late. #in the same vein as matthias's birthday edit from april: here's to the first person to ever show theo love.

[greensaplinggrace]

the darkling says “fine, make me your villain” because he is. what’s not clicking

#shadow and bone #grishaverse #sab #aleksander morozova #the darkling #pro darkling #sab meta #‘he acts like he isn’t the villain’ like yeah I guess if you want to examine it without any deeper analysis #when the statement itself is actually fascinating to put into a narrative context and analyze the means by which certain steadfast roles #are enacted throughout the books #and the larger implications of character want/desire and leading goal vs world state and perceived morality #largely due to prejudice and war time sentiments #as well as the individual harm caused and the way it’s significance becomes questionable when placed in stark contrast #to the broader political and socioeconomic climate #which doesn’t even take into consideration individual character roles and the doylist analysis of their relative functions as ideas #instead of entire personalities with depth #when you give an idealistic character a goal larger than life with a tactical relevance over a moral one #within a story that also centers around a broader goal of ‘saving the world’ as well as personal trauma #and attempt to liken both to the same moral equivalence and significance #then try to pit them against each other #especially when your narratively condemned villain desires more than anything to protect the masses and be loved for it #showing a fascinating level of genre unawareness. yet displaying a relative awareness to the role he has been unwillingly cast as #because he is both at odds with the genre but not with the general moral tone of the story and it's discordant messages #that rely on the pov of a character that fundamentally cannot understand him #because of his place in the story #and cannot understand the world state #because of her place in the story #you are going to get statements like this #sure yes. he ‘says it like he isn’t the villain’ #but come on. we can do better

[buqbite]

73rd Demon King

#I like to think that he wields them like a kind of swirl that.. swirls around him #but the harm it does to him is especially clear by the story twisting itself around his neck like a noose #Eventually it would strangle him and slowly carve more and more pieces out of him (his story) until he's just a mess of story fragments #:) #orv #omniscient readers viewpoint #orv spoilers #kim dokja #orv kdj #demon king of salvation #my art

[chrollohearttags]

never thought I’d see the day that people would be angrier about a rap bar than they would about actual child predators but here we are lmao.

#also saw where megan kanka’s father is talking about suing meg for the name drop #which nobody can tell him how to feel #but it’s not going to end with the result he thinks it will #also I can’t help but shake the feeling that it has something to do with onika #bc everytime she gets ate up she starts recruiting people to attack others character #I just hope ppl realize thiis is far beyond rap beef and that actual ppl are being harmed bc of this lady’s actions #and I hope mr. kanka doesn’t get caught up in that web either #but then again…it could be bc of another reason #no disrespect but 🌚🌚 #yeah #even though everybody is gagging over the song #it’s also educated a lot of ppl on the law itself and opened up their eyes to it #this isn’t the first time that this stuff has been mentioned in songs #an indie rock band literally used his child’s picture on the cover of their song #there’s like two other tracks called amber alert that I am aware of #and hell even one of my fav artists put the heavens gate cults pics on their artwork #so I don’t think he realizes that it isn’t something he can sue over #what would be tragic is if somebody in his life or nicki’s camp is stirring the pot and pushing him to do so #he takes it to court and they remove her name from it altogether #cherry chats 🍒

[kingscythe]

jmart and jongerry can coexist I think. They are like plants to me

#unlike anything and jon*lias #That there is a WEED #an INVASIVE SPECIES #that is HARMFUL to the DELICATE ECOSYSTEM it has WRONGFULLY inserted itself into #get that shit out of here #jongerry #jon sims #gerry delano #the magnus archives #gerry keay

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao #feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy #danbles #and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth #or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities #or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to #or whatever else #i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy #I’M certainly not going to #but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer #and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc) #i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where #i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything #but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on #it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way #idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences #even negative ones are valuable to me #but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem #maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem #fuuck guys ​i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀

[saltintheseaa]

monster/mononoke/mushishi- holy trinity of life-affirming anime w loads of religious subtext abt a wandering doctor whose goal is to eliminate the harm caused by supernatural entities

#srsly comparing these three is so interesting to me #also they’re all named after the being that the doctor is hunting down #three diff religions- taoism buddhism christianity #loads and loads of generational trauma #rly dark like can get super grim but the message is that you must live #and all ultimately pacifistic in their approach to the creatures they are seeking #where the goal is not to eliminate the creature itself but find the root of the harm and resolve it #naoki urasawa's monster #mushishi #mononoke #diary

[buttercuparry]

I just realized that Arya's wrath at Chiswyck for recounting the cruel gangrape of the innkeeper's daughter is as much about justice as it is personal. She had seen the soldiers assault girls while on the road to Harrenhal and she was terrified for herself. She had seen them cut one of the girls down when she resisted and she, herself was threatened with rape by Rorge. Before Jaqen offered her 3 boons, she felt helpless and weak, reduced to a squeaking mouse from a ravenous wolf. It was traumatizing, it was humiliating, it was a prison that she had been forced into.

So the soldiers laughing about raping Layna, brought all of it back up, it made her see how little her fear ( and Layna's fear) mattered to these men, how little the violence meant to them. It was a joke to these soldiers while Arya felt her fire die everyday. It makes sense why Chiswyck would be the first name Arya would give Jaqen and I am so fucking proud that she did.

#arya stark #the fandom needs female characters to be docile and demure before it can allow them to called victims #if a female character has an active storyline which allows her to retaliate against all the hurt caused to her #the fandom deems her not sympathetic enough #she is then put to court and her violence against the violence heaped on her is measured and judged #and she is deemed broken if her violence is not contained within acceptable bounds #these tags might not have much to do with the post in itself but fandom pretends not to see Arya's trauma #she is deemed self sufficient not needing protection not worthy of protection and for some reason physically capable to counter every harm #and therefore safe even when stuck in an active war zone #and yet people fantasize about her death #arya is strong enough to be safe from rapists but somehow she will die with needle clutched in her hands #she is at once above any trauma any harm and yet too broken to have a family

[springs-hurts]

Do you remember when the Dragon said 'A half cannot truly hate that which makes it whole.'

AND DO YOU REMEMBER HOW ARTHUR WAS TAUGHT MAGIC WAS EVIL HIS WHOLE LIFE AND YET COULDN'T HATE IT EVER TRULY?

Do you remember how after years of suffering, thinking magic is evil, he accepted Merlin? Asked him to hold him? Because I can't-😭😭😭

#arthur really couldn't hate it fully #because he was a good person #and because his other half was magic itself #arthur and merlin #remember when Arthur defended gwen? in episode 3? #didn't deny her magic #but said #she didn't do any harm #remember when he told his father he'd be a fair and just king??? #I'm crying #king arthur #arthur pendragon #show should have given you the character development #continuity #you deserved #golden prince #Albion's king #you deserved to live