#its not actively telling people that i think is the problem bc them ppl think ts a capitalist agenda when its bc hosting this much content

[johannestevans]

i wanted to write a BIG essay on disability in House MD but the thing is that as it goes on the show plays and delves with the themes a bit differently - like in s1 they begin to introduce some addict stuff but not too much, and much less of the big grapples with house's own medical agency etc by his friends and coworkers

so i think i'm gonna do an essay series, set up some main themes around disability and autonomy in house

the first things will obviously be about the nature of house's own disability, firstly talking about his physical disability - yes, the lack of mobility from his leg and his reliance on his cane, and also the chronic pain that that comes with, but also specifically noting that house became disabled later in life and was previously extremely physically active

while the themes of house being an addict are extremely overstated because of the us' manufactured opioid crisis and its dehumanisation of addicts due to its racist and eugenicist "war on drugs", it's also noteworthy that he used to exercise all day every day on top of fucking and playing with substances on the side. no one minded this because his "addiction" to exercise was fun and sexy and healthy, bc he was making his own pain-killing substances rather than taking a pill

and then also talking about house's mental health issues - evidence of his autism and the way that people hate specifically his autistic traits, even when they're not actually causing them problems, and the way in which house masks and performs certain emotional responses, but more so like. his depression and his loss of identity as a disabled man, and his difficulties being OKAY with his disability when everyone around him hates disability

so apart from that evidence, the points of house grappling with this stuff will be:

house bonding with other disabled patients - in cases of chronic pain, lost physical mobility, and also mental illness and/or neurodivergence

and house specifically understanding disabled people's perspectives, or thinking about the PRACTICAL needs of the person they're treating or engaging with rather than what society cares about or what the hospital thinks is "appropriate" or "proper"

house bullying abled people for being Weird

times where house makes commentary about the injustice of the system (when he points out that the hospital is designed not to treat the poor, chronically sick, etc)

house being anxious and defensive of his own bodily autonomy (eg when ppl are trying to control his pain management or force him into systems that don't work, take over his medical autonomy, in general try to physically control his behaviours)

esp bc season 1 culminates in the stacy episode where we find that like... so much of house's trauma is not just being disabled

but the fact that stacy OVERRODE his desires, waiting for him to be put into a medically induced coma so that she could make "the best" decision for him and literally being the cause of his current disability. esp bc like...

she specifically went for the middle ground that he rejected, she was NOT a doctor

and in so doing she. invented his chronic pain. like there's a reason that in that same episode, we see the volleyball player who gets an amputation and is able to go back to sports - yes, house is a lot older than that volleyball player, but like

if he had either treated the infarction successfully or just got an amputation so that he could later work with a prostheses, house thinks he would have done much better

and so much of his TERROR around trusting others - not just stacy but wilson, cuddy, anybody else - is because of that. the one person he loved and trusted overrode his desires and created the hell he lives in where he's just in constant agony and he hates it, and the worst part is like

everyone tells him it's his fault. no one cares about what stacy did to him, that she manipulated him. every day they tell house how terrible it is that he does that to others, but when it's what happened to him and he lives in hell, it's on him because he's Mean and Too Autistic and he should just Stop Being In Pain etc

god it kills me.

BUT YEAH i think. season by season is gonna be a lot better to track the development of these themes and the way they shift and change from season to season - also idefk if i'll be able to stick with like. the last three seasons bc they just suck so ba dhfskjjgh

BUT WE'LL SEE

#house md #gregory house

[butchviking]

ppl are always saying that the most important thing with """mental health""" (they mean mental illness) (no, they mean depression and anxiety) (no, they just mean emotional wellbeing i think) is to talk to ppl about it. but like. sorry how does that help tho. maybe this is just whatevers wrong w me talking but for real how the fuck does it help to actually tell ppl the actually bad stuff in ur head. like i think it's good 2 be able to say stuff in passing and for everyone to not clutch their pearls if u joke abt killing urself or whatever like its good to not have to actively dig it down and repress it. its good to b able to say "ive been bad lately" or whatever and move past it. but genuinely honest to god does anyone in this whole wide world actually feel better after they tell the people who care about them abt their serious emotional problems in any significant detail. its not going to fix anything! its not going to solve anything! "a problem shared is a problem halved" no!!! its a problem doubled!!!! now you feel bad AND the person u told abt it feels bad bc they wish they could make u better and they can't!!

#i mean i love posting my whiny shit on here which is like. halfway between talking to someone abt it and screaming into a void just to vent #and i like 2 scream into voids to vent but. #1. i will only disclose so much.. im not gonna actually rip my guts out on the internet #2. if any of my friends try 2 message me abt it i WILL say 'ah im fine its just one of those nights its whatever' #bc whats the point!! how on EARTH would 'talking about it' help!! that just spreads the misery it just brings guilt for both parties!!!

[arowrath]

i am losing it the tiniest bit .

googling like "my mother treats me like a child" or wgatever just brings up like ppl talking abt their mothers not wanting them to grow up or not giving them enough freedom which is a valid problem and one i have but it is a completely different problem from the one im looking for information on which is that i am a 20 year old man and my mother babytalks at me like a four year old on a regular basis. its drivng me fucking crazy but i dont want to argue and she wouldnt listen anyway she'd probably just be like "i dont do that" which .okay. but like holy fucking shit it is SO annoying and demeaning and WEIRD.

and like i can handle it when she treats me like. a teenager. like whatever im 20 close enough i dont care. but when she treats me like im 10. or 7. or fucking 4. its like. what the fuck is your problem.

and like okay i was thinking abt this the other day bc i was talking 2 my dad like just hanging out and he was treating me like a Person and like. idk i feel like when he had kids he was Expecting and Excited for us to turn into little people with our own thoughts and free will (maybe not the transgender communist thing i think that was a bit far but he's always been supportive in terms of like. me being my own person otherwise).

and my dad volunteers at church with some of the kids like 9-12 age range, and a lot of them have rough home lives and 'act out' cuz of that and he's very patient with them and helps them with what theyre going thru and generally just acts like theyre little people. because they ARE little people. like he genuienly cares for those kids and is always like... taking them to the park and stuff but also like, being character witness for their parents' custody battles n shit like actually helping and suppotying them.

whereas my mother volunteers at church with babies and toddlers and its almost like she sees them as pets. and will complain abt them being annoying or MEAN if they cry or dont want to play with her. like she's nice to them but she will complain abt it as if theyre trying to spite her

and i feel like she didnt become a parent bc she wanted to raise a small human i feel like she just wanted a pet. and shes been better with my sister but when i was a kid the second i was like 6 and developed some free will she kinda like. Moved on from me LOL. and stopped caring abt me outside of like. buying food. wire mother type shit. idk it's just really obvious that my dad cares abt these kids as people but my mother cares abt them for only as long as they dont upset her or do something she doesnt want them to. if that makes sense

and idk its like. i am 20 years old. im not going to go back to a 4 year old with no sense of the world outside of u because I AM TWENTY YEARS OLD. I HAVE LIVED ALONE IN SCHOOL I HAVE GONE TO THE DMV I HAVE WORKED A JOB I HAVE DEALT WITH MEDICAL EMERGENCIES ON MY OWN . i have had to make my way through every single social problem and mental health problem and shit since i was SIX bc thats when she stopped giving a shit about me. im not a child anymore

but i think its also part of why im so fucking bad at Being An Adult. bc she never taught me how do to any of this shit bc she was busy pretending im still a little kid. and now im too anxious to figure out how to do things on my own and i dont know how to ask for help and everything is very overwhelming and she tells me she wants me to get a job but doesnt help and she acts like she wants me to leave but she doesnt tell me that or help me leave and i am SO FUCKING SICK of living at home but i dont have the money or the skills to get out

and she's NEVER helped me with adult stuff either . the only thing i can think of is when she took me to the bank bc i needed her signature to take her off my bank account . otherwise my dad has been the one to help me with college applications + college stuff in general + finances + jobs etc etc . whereas my mother ACTIVELY LIES TO ME ABOUT THOSE THINGS TO TRY TO STOP ME FROM GETTING MY OWN DEBIT CARD !!!!!!!!!!

and it's this fucking exhausting mix of signals where she's like "u need to get a job u need to learn to drive u need to do this and that" but also she Literally , not exageratting , treats and talks to me like i am a child . i am so fucking sick of it it's unreal . i am going to lose my fucking mind .

#text #neg #really long post abt my mother U dont have 2 read it im just going fucking crazy

[i-d-e-g-a-f]

“demonized her by putting her in a relationship” and “being harassed for existing” yall are one to talk every kataang post i see on EVERY platform y’all are lurking saying “kataang sucks” and telling ppl to kll themselves over the ship. also demonizing her is ironic bc if she ended up with zuko it would’ve just ruined everything she went through and worked for so stay mad fucking freak 💀💀

1. Get the quote right, I said “disservices her by putting her in that relationship.” which is very different from whatever you said.

2. I can’t argue against anecdotal evidence or your experience but I can say in my experience, I’ve always seen people shit on zutara unprovoked and try to justify it with their performative activism or try to act as if it’s okay to make assumptions about someone’s character because of an unproblematic fictional ship. Also I don’t cross tag so if anything is ironic, it’s that you’re lurking in our tags when you just criticized zutara shippers for doing so.

3. Once again I said disservice not demonize, massively different. But for arguments sake tell me what did she gain from being in a relationship with Aang? Did that relationship not ruin everything she worked for? Because the Katara in ATLA was passionate and never stood on the sidelines when she saw injustice. But the Katara we see in the comics and LoK is passive and constantly sidelined to being the Avatar’s wife or mother of the Avatar’s children. Not her own person. She doesn’t even have a statue when everyone else in the gaang does. In season 1 Katara literally protests for the right to learn how to fight and in LoK we see none of the passion. What is exactly so fulfilling about her relationship with Aang? Was it him being an attentive father to their children? Oh, no that wasn’t it. So tell me, would being with Zuko really ruin everything she’s worked for, because it seems like being with Aang already ruins that quite successfully. Katara basically becomes an accessory to Aang which, yes, I would say disservices her! Especially when we’re shown that she is capable of having relationships with people based on mutual respect, compassion, and mutual emotional support. Relationships where they are equals and one is not an accessory to the other. Relationships where they respect each other boundaries and don’t act entitled to another’s affection.

But you know what’s even crazier is that at the end of the day none of that even matters because that is just what I prefer and you don’t have to agree! My problem lies within the fact that I constantly see anti zk’s assert that zutara is an inherently problematic ship or that people who enjoy the ship are problematic or are just hysterical women. Those assumptions are problematic and unfounded and if anything perpetuate misogynistic stereotypes about women being not knowing which man is actually good for them. It also requires an incredible amount of cognitive dissonance to arrive at those conclusions because the people who argue that Zutara shippers only like Zutara because they want a bad boy will talk about how Zuko has a great redemption arc in the same breath. We truly cannot have watched the same show, watched Zuko say “Hello, Zuko here” if they think the appeal of Zutara is that Zuko is a “bad boy.” However, even if it was, that still wouldn’t justify the constant negative assumptions made about the people who enjoy the ship, or the way those generalizations about zutara shippers are used as a way to delegitimize zutara (ad hominem fallacy). I fucking hate kataang and I am open and honest about that, but I don’t go around saying the actual people who ship kataang are problematic or are all secretly incels because that is a ridiculous and unfounded generalization. I hate kataang so I will critique kataang, not try to discredit its shippers in an attempt to make the ship seem less legitimate. I cannot say I’ve seen anti zks and the general fan base behave similarly.

I can’t speak for the anti kataangers in kataang tags because fun fact i have it blocked because i don’t like it! But I will say, although i do not condone going into other ships tags to instigate, there a massive difference between shitting on a ship versus shitting on the people who enjoy a ship. And mind you, I noticed the pattern of people shitting on zutara fans long before i even became a zutara fan. This is a trend amongst this general fan base that flares up anytime new atla content is released and I was venting about it on my page as someone who is tired of it. It is my god given right to vent about a fictional couple I don’t like on my page and to vent about the fandom discourse trends I notice. If you notice different ones and want to vent about make your own goddamn post, don’t act like a coward and send anon hate just because you disagree with me. I have my opinion and you’re entitled to yours. You have your own experiences with this fan base and I have mine. If your upset, vent about it on your own goddamn page instead of accosting me with your dumbassery.

[selfshipseaside]

omg i totally agree with the “dnis are just a way of trying to prove you arent a bad person” thing (DEFINITELY not the exact quote sorry lol) and thats definitely the reason why i dont have one… theyre just so stupid to me :P like whats stopping someone from just. lying to you yknow? i just block and move on… but also i have this irrational fear that bc i DONT have a dni ppl will assume the worst of me… its really silly… and dumb… and i dont really believe it but it does scare me!!! also considering the fact i have a bit of a problematic f/o im terrified every day that bc i dont explicitly say in every post of mine that I DONT CONDONE ANY OF THEIR ACTIONSSSSSSSS that someones gonna come in my inbox and tell me im the scum of the earth for shipping with them 😭 they arent even THAT bad. kind of went on a tangent a bit there but i compleeeeeetely agree dnis are SO performative !!! i think all discourse labels are performative honestly liek. i dont know. i just think its all really stupid and im just like you i choose not to associate myself or my blogs with shipping discourse… of course i have opinions but i think my followers and mutuals know what to expect from me… i really went on a tangent here 😭😭 sorry… you can ignore this i wont mind :P i hope youre having a lovely day/night :)

I completely understand! The age-old rule of don't trust strangers on the internet, unsurprisingly, still applies today! People can lie, even if they're a "good person". People can tell the truth and seem completely unproblematic, even if they're a "bad person". We simply do not know anyone's true self or intentions. We cannot know those things by simply sharing fictional people and gushing over them or telling people who we do or don't want interacting. It's not that simple. People will tell you who they are, and sure, believe them. But know that their actions will speak louder, surely. Being performative is a huge issue in our community, and people who genuinely are affected by performative activism and this whole new genre of being a "good" person...it's impossible. There's far more nuance in these social inter-community spaces and issues than anyone wants to admit. But you see, being a "good person" should be second nature right? That's what everyone wants to say. But, that's incorrect. We all go through enough turmoil as it is, and we have to continue to be as good as we can despite that. It's easy to be an asshole. That's why we have the problems in this community that we do, because simple respect and being kind is more expensive than it ever has been. Out-casting people and finding identity in hatred is the new gig, apparently. Often times, we are not what we believe in, we are what we do. If you believe in protecting children, and then go and tell a child to off themselves...well that's just plain ol' hypocrisy. Anon, you're really cool in my mind! You and your f/o are extremely valid! Keep on shipping! Problematic f/os are cool, and I think it's safe to say that most of us with problematic f/os don't condone their actions. Hopefully, at least.

#Marnie answers ✦ #Another one for y'all! I like this discussion a lot!

[im-smart-i-swear]

If funky guys had become paladins of voltron which one would be in which Lion?

back in the VERY early days of this whole au(like. buddys-name-was-still-ryou early) i wanted to base every clones personality/character on a diffrent lion.... but over time it slowly stopped fitting their personalities and i kinda abandoned the concept lol. though you can still see some remnants of that in . certain design choices...

going back to this concept after uhhh two years?? i think? was definetely interesting! all the characters changed WILDLY since then and i tried to re-assign the lions to fit the changes........ it was surprisingly hard

i couldnt for the life of me decide in a few cases, so instead im just gonna give the most suitable options lol

tashi & soup - im putting these two together beacuse- and i have NO IDEA how that would work- theyre copiloting the black lion! they function the best as a duo and separating them would NOT be a good idea in a situation as stressful and complicated as piloting voltron. they barely manage to keep everyone alive on a good day... also picking only one of the two as The Leader just feels wrong

buddy, ideally, would like to stay as FAR AWAY from voltron as psyhically possible, thank you very much- but nothing in this cruel world is ideal, so they get the red lion:) i actually have this whole story idea where basically stickbug ""goes rouge""(like. some sort of 'sleeper agent mode' left over by haggar gets activated by accident??) and runs away to do some evil shit so buddy goes after him(on a whim)(alone)(without telling the others) and while searching for him they bump into fUCKING VOLTRON- so they form a very uneasy truce until they find stick. and at some point buddy finds out he can pilot the red lion! its awful he hates it:/ he pilots anyway cause his loved one is in danger(this whole thing is way too complicated to talk about here lol)

i had A LOT of problems figuring out the last three..... they changed so much that i just cant rlly fit them into these categories anymore... but i tried!!

ORIGINALLY stickbug was supposed to be based on the green lion but he doesnt fit it as well anymore....... i think taks does pretty well tho! shes very bold and iquisitive and a pain in everyones ass<3 plus loves learning about diffrent planets' unique ecosystems n stuff. stick IS very curious and likes exploring so he still kinda fits? but hes not as forward as taks, so yeahhhh im very torn on this one

i have NO FUCKING CLUE what to do with blue. all three of em could propably fit there ngl....

yellow could either be taka or stickbug- taka is the youngest and the brightest, hes what brought all of them together in the first place(it takes a village to raise a child)....... buuuut hes not really a 'puts the needs of others above his own' kind of person? hes still a kid and NOT ready for that kind of responsibility. soup is an OBVIOUS choice here of course, but im not sure- honestly, the more i think about it, the more stickbug starts to feel like the best option here? ok hear me out: stickbug, for most of his life, had very little power over his life. even while with the funky guys(ESPECIALLY in the beggining, these bozos were dysfuctional as fuck) there were moments when the others would talk over him bc 'hes a kid', and even without that theres still his people pleasing problem wnich meant he often disregarded his own good to make other ppl content. so, taking this scrawny guy desperate for control over his life and putting him in the toughest, stongest, most resilient lion- basically i think he deserves to go a little apeshit. as a treat. let him wreck shit for once

honestly it kinda funny im stting here and calculating all of this like a mad man where IN THE ACTUAL SHOW the paladins switch the lions like pokemon cards

realistically speaking i think they would all trade and switch em a lot and then squabble over who gets to pilot yellow bc they ALL want to wreck shit sometimes:)

#thank you for asking!! #i know it took me a while to answer lol #but i did it!!! yippie!!!! #ask #my funky guys #i feel like i dont talk enough about how dysfunctional this family is sometimes...... they love each other and theyre working on it!! theyr #all trying!! #but after everything theyve been through OF COURSE theyre not doing well..... #no family is prefect and ESPECIALLY if they went through so much shit as these guys #i know i mostly talk about how wholesome and caring they all are(and they ARE) but that doesnt mean they dont have a lot of problems also #and thats okay. shit happens sometimes y'know? what matters is that they make the effort to change and grow #its messy and complicated and Not Fun sometimes tho- love is never easy....... #im propably going to go into more detail about the whole 'buddy teams up with voltron to get stickbug back' thing someday cause MAN i have #a ton of thoughts on that one #i dont have the energy to explain All That rn.........

[yuukei-yikes]

You make me want to rewatch the anime...wonder if i can force my husband to watch it with me(he showed me it but it was like...highschool its been sooo long)

Since everyone has autism/hj? Do u have any headcanons for special interests?

I FUCKING LOVE THIS ASK also husband?? HUH?? KAGEFANS ARE MARRIED ALREADY??? huh...well...kagepro IS 12 years old HUH...HAHAHA *holds head* (happy late kageversary, btw)

everyone is autistic. yeah.

ayano's is 1000% all the superhero shit. comicbooks. i like to think of her as a huge spiderman fan. i think she'd love the guy. BUT YEAH comicbooks, superhero franchises in general lol

kido's is music! i imagine them as the kind of person who basically studies a whole album when it comes out LMAO i also think theyre the kind to be embarrassed abt talking a lot so theyre probably online a lot and is instead active in there. they rotate hyperfixating on different bands but music in general <3 also i think they hyperfixate on cooking sometimes and they will just cook and cook and cook one thing after another. it used to be a problem when they only lived with 3 other ppl but now there's like 10 more and also haruka so <3 no more wasted food!!!!

fuckgn. seto. animals. ANIMALS. ANIMALS. ANIMALS. i love ppl with animal special interests bc its literally the fucking BEST thing to talk about ever. and mary is plants. theyre both into each other's things too so their talks are so awesomely autistic i think seto and mary just talk for hours and hours and are always asking each other questions and if seto had a long day marys just like tell me abt why birds are fun colors like blue but not other animals :) and seto's like :DDDDD

momo and kano..... hmmm.. everyone else's seems so obvious. but them... like i see momo getting hyperfixated with a ton of different shit always rotating from lets players to toy collecting to makeup to lost media and etc etc but i cant think of like the One thing. kinda same with kano i feel like his thing is that he doesnt know who he is or what he wants so he wouldnt even Have his one thing. i think he'd be super into makeup tho. bc thats awesome but not only cutesy makeup but like special effects insane kinda thing. hes like whoa ppl change so much without any powers......... lol special effects makeup artist kano real

takane. lol. god theyre all so fucking obvious. coding. and i love takane but programmer ppl are SOOOOOO ANNOYING god this bitch would be insufferable. but the autism makes it awesome so its ok theyre not annoying <3 obviously videogames too. UGH harutaka indie game developers is so real to me. also this one is more my hc but erm technician takane is real he is real to me <3 the dan out of wifi bc this bitch took apart the router AGAIN just bc they like looking at the insides. the dan is complaining until the wifi is back AND its faster bc takanes improving and hacking shit. she helps shintaro build his epic pc

shintaro ohhh mygod have u ever met a more autistic bitch than this. he is everything. music!!!! like kido!!!!!!!!! i think kido and shintaro are an underrated duo. in the novels they hang out so much. wait im getting off topic ERM pianist shintaro is real to me idc. also super into collectibles of anime figures lol. also videogames!!! and lost media. i think he'd be one of those people super excited that a secret burgerking commercial never translated from english was found (momo too, they bond over it)

hibiya with the doll making shit. doll costumizing. also psychology post-shitshow bc hes 12 and hes like whoa. this wasnt normal *studies abt how this will affect him and his friends* i talked abt this in a hibiya ask i got lol but yeah also his whole thing abt making dolls. ofc it comes from something creepy but i still think its a cute thing he knows how to do i think he'd love using his new smartphone to find out abt doll costumizing communities and he sews mini mekakushi dan for everyone <3

i bestow to haruka the autistic honor of dinosaurs. FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHHH also art/drawing ofc. and cartoons/animation. ppl who like to draw like cartoons okay. he'd be into that. idk if into animating himself i rather see haruka as a painting kinda girl. AND OFC VIDEOGAMES. srry to harutaka again but harutakas autism coexists so harmoniously ...domestic harutaka... these bitches have NO real schedules and are staring at their computers drawing/coding for days. it stinks in there. they make an autistic game together born from their autistic and disabled love. heart<3

i cant think anything for hiyori so hiyori experts feel free to add. maybe idols n stuff!! back to music heh

#ask tag #headcanons

[farmersliga]

:)

sometimes i wish i never became either a bayern fan or a dortmund fan. bc like,,, for the most part being a fan of them Both is the shittiest part of my tumblr life

idk i just. dont deal with conflict well. and ive always responded rly horribly to ppl (validly) criticizing things i like. and the way ppl talk abt the rival team sometimes gets too much for me i guess

and i know that i signed up for this by liking them both and actively following ppl who post abt their faves but. i cant rly help how sensitive i am to this kinda thing, in the same way that ofc these ppl cant help their own opinions and are absolutely entitled to post abt those on their own blogs. AND I DONT BLAME THEM OFC!!!! like. this is rly just a me problem

but yeah i dunno i just hate seeing the negativity from both sides. to the point that it makes me wish i could go back in time and just fucking pick one to stan and full on hate the other. but in that case, i cant even pick one to keep????? because bvb is my first club and if it were about club loyalty then i’ll always love them first, but bayern gave me some of my best friends here and i wouldnt trade that for anything. like i think technically the best thing for my mental health would just be to unfollow all the people whose posts make me uncomf but i like those people!!! in every other context theyre my mutuals n friends n just rly great people!!!!!!! and i respect that they have loyalties different than mine. and god i think im just a mess lmao

so yeah idk i know this is totally my fault but well. just sucks i guess when half my dash is talking shit and the other half is getting super offended about it and i dont even know what to think anymore. ugh. realtalk btw that bvb vs bayern is my least favorite fixture of the season for this exact reason lol i try to avoid tumblr during n directly after that

honestly like i always try to tell myself to just ignore the hate except. i cant. these things sit and stew in my brain forever. im the type of person who cant read goodreads reviews bc if i see a negative one for a book i liked, i end up feeling horrible

ah well. im just. gonna go sleep now cause its past 3 am anyway. my chest kinda hurts still but i feel less like crying after spilling all that lol im a fucking weirdo. anyway disclaimer i mean no offense here n i rly dont want you guys feeling bad bc of this, i just had to get it off my mind

#to delete #sorry just feeling kinda shitty so im venting #it’s abt club shit tho so yeah #sorry yeah im not tryna make anyone feel guilty for having opinions or anything its just #hard sometimes

[bjornolf-bjarki]

Feeling really glad that I sent a private message last night to hells-pastel-etcetc to give them the heads-up that anons were about to storm their inbox. Telling people to kill themselves over their dumb fanart, no matter how misguided or outrageous its content, isn't the moral high ground that side of the fandom thinks it is.

imo hells is naive and probably sorely did need a reality check about romanticizing the Nazi Aesthetic, but chastising an unpopular fanartist does nothing to hurt the real Nazis in our communities. If their activism begins and ends with harassing fanartists (and maybe voting in the mid-terms, rofl), well. Maybe they need to do a little self-examination of their own.

I know Hells is a bit strange but I'd just ignore it or try to keep your critiques on the down low and try not to be weird about it. Also, I was more infuriated by the fact that the person I called out was going after someone who had nothing to do with Hellspastelangels in any substantial way. That's what I was angry about. And that person had the balls to say that "uh I'm not doing anything wrong to this ghost account bc hellspastelangel or something." Talk about mental gymnastics to justify shitty behavior. Look you can take a legit point and make a good argument as to why "hey maybe try not to do this thing bc it's a bit weird or awkward or I've got intergenerational trauma bc of nazi war crimes" but you can't go after randos who happen to be on better terms with the hells. Like seriously the real nazis of this fandom are way sneakier than somebody who's fairly oblivious to the problems of certain media they make or create.

I understand people's discomfort but for the love of god try not to be aggressive about it unless it's actually very fucking egregious. This whole fandom is based off of a problematic manga and tv show and it's hard to navigate that with an IRL lens but I can say with confidence that Millennium is full of shitty but very hot ppl I'd probably want to fuck (With exception of the major and Schrodinger bc no just no) bc of the whole "stupid sexy villain" thing which plagues my eternally horny mind. back to my original point though, don't go super hard after people who did nothing to you. Especially some random kid who's just enjoying goofy art that isn't even necessarily hellspastelangel's art but another person's art.

#Like seriously it's strange to go after scapegoats than the real problem. #also I'm done talking about this drama publically #hellsing #ask

[transmasc-wizard]

Hey so nico I realise now that I copied way too many options from the ask game my apologies

If you have any, what are your special interests?

What are your most common stims?

Do you headcanon any characters as autistic? If you want, tell us why you headcanon them as autistic.

Do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

What kinds of things are sensory hell for you?

Are your friends and/or family accepting of your autism?

Do you enjoy hugs? Or are they sensory hell?

Tell us something about your special interest.

If you could have any item related to your special interest what would it be?

Are you generally a loud or quiet person?

What's something you find hard to do because of autism?

no problem i like to Answer Questions

what are you special interests:

i have two!!! the long-running one (ive had since i was 10 or so) is just like. fantasy stories? in general? epic fantasy first and foremost but it also bleeds into urban fantasy and more fantastical horror. this manifests mostly in writing, because the mechanisms of fantasy stories in particular capitivate me, so. writing them is fun. i am less unhinged about this one but still unhinged

the second one, which i am EXTREMELY unhinged over, is the magnus archives!!!!!!!! this special interest really only started to develop a few months ago but i know it will have its hooks in me for a very, very long time kjdhkdfg

most common stims:

listening to really loud music with a lot of Noises in it, sort of like shaking in place, hand flapping, making the motion to snap but like with all my fingers at once

headcanons:

jonathan sims, head archivist of the magnus institute, london !!!!!!! reasons: he canonically had a tendency to run away as a child (eloping), preferred books to making friends, has a very specific sense of humour others dont always get, often doesn't realize other people are joking, tends to show signs of low empathy but high compassion (not realizing people are upset, not knowing why they're upset, but wanting to help them Not Be Upset), likes things to be ordered & logical, tends to have rather black and white thinking at times/a strict (if admittedly... very strange) moral compass, and, most importantly: he is my skrunkly and i say so

i also hc Gansey from the raven cycle and Katniss from the hunger games as autistic! gansey mostly bc of vibes and parallels (the way he acts around most ppl vs his friends reminds me a lot of masking), and katniss bc of her horrible social skills, one-track mind, and. also vibes

do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

yes and no. other autistic people tend to be more understanding of the way i think and act, and we often share a lot of more Odd(TM) traits. but also. like . i have lived with an autistic person for over a decade (my brother). and i love him, he is my brother, but our needs as people are so incredibly clashing that it is hell to spend more than a few hours with him at a time. so yeah sometimes the answer is "yes" and sometimes it is "no" skdhfksdskdjf

sensory hell:

most noises? aksjhkdshf. just. yeah. most noises. also very light touches, they actively hurt. i also dont like the texture of velvet or anything with a strong smell.

are your friends/family accepting:

hmmm lets separate "friends" and "family" into 2 separate boxes there

friends: mostly ! sometimes they say/do stupid things abt it (like when my one friend got upset at me for losing speech and made it about her) but for the most part theyre fine.

family: dad? great. he and i think the exact same way (tbh hes probably autistic too). mom? ... sort of. only when my traits are convenient for her. rest of family? yeah mostly. they dont actually Know i dont think (except my cousin) bc no one's bothered to tell them, but theyre like "oh haha thats our nico, hes just really weird but it's fine".

hugs:

i am like a cat in that my preferences on any sort of touch change randomly at all times, but i ALWAYS need to be the one initiating it. if i want a hug, theyre great. if someone else tries to hug me without permission, i am going to bite them

tell us something about your special interest:

when season 5 of the magnus archives was begining production, it was the start of the pandemic and a bunch of people were starting up podcasts since they were bored. Alexander Newell (voice of martin, a soundscaper, and the director) was like "oh shit the microphones i need might get sold out, this is bad" (bc he had to get multiple microphones to every actor in season 5, needed backups, etc) so. he just. went (in person or online) to every single store in the country that sold them and bought EVERY SINGLE MICROPHONE OF THAT BRAND. like, he owned every single microphone of that brand in England except the ones people had previously bought. people were asking on podcasting forums "hey do you know where you can get these mics???" and he would read those and just be like. ha. hahahahahaha

if you could have anything related to your special interest, what would it be:

the official Rusty Quill "The Spiral" themed spiral notebook. 1 because i love the spiral, 2 because haha spiral themed spiral notebook, 3 because its so pretty, 4 because i have a notebook problem <3

also maybe the spiral or eye hoodie, the What The Ghost hoodie, the extended sounds of brutal pipe murder shirt, or the ex altiora shirt !! those all slap. but theyre more expensive skdhfksdfj

are you a loud or quiet person:

around new people? quiet as hell. when i'm tired? also quiet as hell. when im comfortable and not tired? pretty loud skdjfhkdhf

what's something you find hard to do:

remembering to do shit like brushing my teeth and eating 3 meels a day. also, stuff like making friends, knowing how to interact with people in what way, comforting people, etc.

#asks #will/lee #ask game #autism ask game

[golbrocklovely]

I disagree with your previous statement. A “influencer” is there to not only entertain but to provide influence, its in the title. You dont just get 100k+ people following you for nothing.

I believe a influencer or person who chooses to be a public figure, giving their two cents on a war that is actively happening in another country, or speaking of a natural disaster in another country is not comparable to a 50year old health right currently happening in one’s own country because this is a human right that we have the power to truly change unlike a foreign war. Anyone with a uterus or someone who is a partner to someone with a uterus and is pro choice should be talking about it. This isn’t about “you can google it yourself”, its about getting the word out to your 100k+ followers that if we do this we can be of great influence to our nation. Cant go out to protest?, protest via social media, here are links, here are pressures you can place on your state representative, here are ways to protect yourself from getting arrested and go undetected, here are ways YOU can contribute (sale your art). Here share this, donate to my stream which i will then donate to a prochoice health clinic. Simply saying “don’t expect it from them” or just “unfollow” isn’t the way, then why on earth do they have a massive platform (having that many followers just because is not normal) and are allowed to make an income off it if you are just going to stay quiet on an issue that can affect 90% of your audience perhaps not today but in a few years. If we tell these influencers “hey you have a big platform, can you talk about this and get the word out”, i see nothing wrong with that and if they dont then to me personally it means they dont give a fuck and or are pro-life.

Blm, asian hate, understandably some wont get involved because they don’t belong to that specific race, and sometimes even as an ally you may come off in a negative way while actively trying to understand the hurt from this specific group of people while advocating for them. However, this right here is talking about not only a women’s health issue but one of our biggest rights in this country, 50yrs of it being taken away that can lead to other things being taken away which should be a huge deal to everyone. Personally it feels like a slap in the face to ignore it and talk about something so baseless and materialistic and for the only options to be unfollow or look it up yourself.

i mean, they get called that, but i don't think it literally means they must influence those that follow them. i think it's more the other way around: that because they have a following, they have the ability to influence those that following them, whether or not that was something they wanted in the first place.

but no one signs up to be an influencer. it mostly just happens. they don't sign up to gain 100s and 1000s of ppl to follow them to tell them about what's going on in the world or in their country. there are some political and news commentators. but snc are not those. none of the ppl they are friends with are those. which is why i don't expect them to say anything. i would hope they would want to, but i also understand why they may not (whether that's bc maybe they have dealt with someone who has had an abortion and don't want to speak on it, maybe they don't know enough to say anything, maybe they don't know what to say, ect)

personally to me, i don't expect ppl to use their platforms. while i would love for some to at least speak out, as long as it doesn't seem like they side with the oppressors, than that's probably the best we're gonna get in some instances. and i've learned to accept that bc it's not worth the strength it takes to get angry at these ppl bc they aren't the problem. there is a bigger picture to focus on.

most influencers are entertainers. they are here to entertain us with their content. and to say they HAVE to educate their audience is not something i can agree with. it's not their job to tell their audience what's happening in the world. they are not new sources, they don't know everything that is going on, they don't have to be fact checked to say something off the walls or stupid. it is up to us individually to educate ourselves.

they got their following from the content they make, not the political stances they might have. i don't think remaining silent means they are pro-choice either. again, i think there is a bigger picture that needs to be looked at, and it doesn't include calling out influencers who make tiktoks lip-syncing and shaking ass. they aren't the problem. it's the old fucking white men in power that are the problem, and the overzealous religious crowd that just sees anyone that can have a child as a walking womb. those are the ppl that need to be targeted and yelled at. those are the ppl that need to be silenced and taken down a peg.

blm and stop asian hate is in the same ballpark as roe being overturned. it's intersectionality at it's finest. while some might not have felt comfortable speaking up or knowing what to say when all of that was happening online, it all lines up in the end. i agree, this effects everyone, way more than most realize. another anon, that i haven't answered yet, said that snc probably haven't said anything bc of their privilege, and i think that's 100% right. i don't think they realize how deep this runs. and while i would love for them to say something or to wake and see what's happening, again, i'm not gonna hold my breath. they aren't the ones that caused this to happen, they aren't gonna be where my anger goes towards.

if you want to be angry at influencers that don't use their platform to talk about this, that's fine. you have every right to. and you can go on and call them out for it too. i'm just not gonna be one of them. it's not a materialistic or baseless argument, but the fact of the matter is, you can't change who doesn't speak up. all you can do is speak as loud as you can, and hope someone hears that can ACTUALLY change things, like politicians or those that apparently still need to be persuaded.

#ask #personal

[sadisticyouko]

honestly i tend to latch onto any characters thatre kinda fucked up and obsessive with their attraction bc yandere stuff is like. a really big vibe for me jfjdjfj and its why i sometimes project a bit of yandere-ism on other chars too jfksjf i be out here kinning himiko toga and shes not a low kin by any means- ACTUALLY i just remembered a song, its one im absolutely obsessed with, cant tell if itd be ur style or not but its Mx Sinster by I Dont Know How But They Found Me and its. very good creepy lover yandere song 👀 (their other song Choke isnt the same vibe but its an upbeat violent song which is really really fun too :3 )

also yeah i dont relate to hiei at all but im absolutely obsessed with him because he hits like. all of my points of Favorite Character. which means basically he checks off all of the points of shadow the hedgehog, who im equally obsessed with HFKSHFK the only difference is that hiei is much more of an asshole and has no problem with murder lmao. but hes SO. hot. cute. handsome. im literally thinking about him constantly daily and its absolutely a key part of my major kurama kin feels hfksjf i just want to hold him so baddd. sits him in my lap and kisses and bites him. edgy lil tsundere who owns my heart

also its no worries !!! i dont mind vents on my dash, hell on the occasion ill vent on my main too lol. its ur blog so do whatever the hell u want with it !! sometimes we just gotta yell shit out of our brain!

ALSO YEA IM VERY INTROVERTED TOO and conversing in asks like this at first is for some reason easier. less daunting. brains r so weird fbsjf BUT sometime. hopefully soon. i will try to dm u. or u can try to dm me first if u want fjdkfj hell if ud wanna talk on discord instead (if u have one) u could lmk bc i tend to be more active on there since im always chattin with my gf there lol. but yeah uve always just gave me a vibe of someone thatd be fun to chill with !!! (so hopefully we both can breach our introversion to actually chat LOL)

Omg I LOVE himiko 🥺 I kin her relationship with her family but I’m not exact enough to say I fully kin her 😂 I don’t really relate to too many ppl in mha (except maaybe todoroki, or ururaka on a good day) I kin so many people in yyh cuz I grew up watching it and reading the manga since I was 9 ! and then proceeded to read very inappropriate fanfiction for the rest of my life apparently 😂 so they’ve all had very strong influences on my personality ! yandere is a favorite vibe of mine, I haven’t heard those songs but I’ll definitely check them out ! i like the aggressive stuff so it sounds like it’d be right up my alley !

and omg that makes so much sense ! hiei is definitely … attractive >\\\\\< it’s the height that makes me conflicted tho ! I’m only 5 feet tall but I still struggle with the idea of it 😂 his personality is perfect tho 👌 definitely simp material, he’s still one of my all time favorite characters and for good reason ! I feel like if I think too hard about him I’ll fall down the rabbit hole of crushing on him and I won’t be able to stop, and kurama wouldn’t like that very much at all ૮⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა

yea idk how but it feels easier like this for first time interactions ! It’s like I’m in a big open field and it makes me feel safer than if I were a bunny in the cardboard chat box or something IDK 😂 we’re just gonna play dm chicken until someone cracks 😂 I don’t have a discord but I’m almost always on here ! don’t be afraid to dm me ! sometimes my social battery runs out BUT I enjoy the interaction !! ૮⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა

#I’m glad u think I’m chill #i try to be good #not too unhinged yanno #bunny girl sadisticyouko confirmed #jkjk I like to think of myself as also a fox or wolf #okay now I’m just rambling #sadisticyouko asks #don’t be afraid to reach out I’m mostly normal ! #sadisticyouko rants #not writing

[puthyjuth]

idk if im just delusional but slowly ive just been seeing ppl as their child selves like just anybody out there 25, 50, 70 years old like youre just some kid thats been around for a while then your physical form changed i think about how boomers are just children and because they're old now they expect to have control over every younger generation no matter what experiences either of them has had

its like seniors in high school that think they're at the top of the social hierarchy but in reality you're just some kid in high school.. i've been thinking a lot about "respect your elders" and i think it made sense in the homeland because they've built up the land that they live on and created all these cultures and literally fought to keep those people alive they worked super hard, in the farms, selling food, going around in boats etc

but in the US i have no, literally zero connection to the land, and also the boomers actively made our lives worse like we can't afford housing or even basic necessities we have 0 time and they have a million and one expectations for our performance yet see us as lazy

then i think about the idea of respect and honestly i respect elders in the US just as much as i respect children and people my age and teenagers and 30 year olds like i respect everyone the same so is it a matter of respect or control? to some degree all they want to hear is a yes, not an opinion.

and this is why i especially can't talk to older viet folks bc all they wanna do is tell us what to do or what we should do as a form of projection cuz yea their lives are hard and were hard, or maybe not, either way, the life of an immigrant is difficult and a lot of things-they never got to experience that we easily have access to. and its hard to see these "entitled" kids getting all these and still complaining when in reality there are a lot of things WE lack that they had access to

hennyways it's around that time when the illusion fades and tensions are high in the house again, and i always come to the conclusion that it's about a lack of control in everyone's lives that we are all tense. and we are an easy target, so i'll let them target me but i wonder what's gonna happen when we leave and there's nothing left for them to complain about and it's just them and their own problems

[patrophthia]

it hurts me too to see how bad people treated rv when they just debuted :( all bcs SM decided to debut them when most of their artists were having problems so thats why netizens said that sm was just trying to cover up the scandals with rv's debut

but im more than glad and proud at where they're now :D they're truly named the nations pride after they went to perform in North Korea to promote peace between the two countries <3 now even though they're at 9th anniversary this year and will be 10th anniversary soon, i noticed how red velvet is still very much standing strong as a 3rd gen gg in this 4th gen 🦾

because remember when back then ppl said RV is weird for not having a permanent concept and keeps changing themes in each of their comebacks? now look at these 4th gens wanting their music to be as diverse as red velvet's ^^ not trying to bring down the other groups but i just feel like RV did inspire others a lot in terms of song genres. and because of RV's diversity is one of the reasons i think they're still standing strong, their songs are timeless

by the way i feel like both of us have so much in common 😭 i found your account bcs of the tom riddle x reader tag as im a potterhead (and a tom's simp 🧎🏻‍♀️) too! if its fine may i be called 🦡 anon ??

i’ve only began knowing them around queendom era and actively stanning during 28 reasons era so i feel like i don’t have much of a say of what they had gone throw compared to older luvies but i do understand that it was hard for them and it’s so true about them debuting during very controversial times, then later adding on yeri which only made her receive so much unnecessary hate. i don’t know much about the past scandals but i’ve heard other people say the same thing about SM using RV’s debut/comebacks to cover up scandals :(

and i’m so proud of how strong their standing esp with their beginning and many scandals/hate train that followed them through the year. i’m so glad i get to spend an anniversary with them soon, they’re such amazing people!! and i totally agree on how most 4th gens wants their discographies to be as diverse as them, their songs always feels so new? and their concepts are always fresh to look at and see through the story telling.

i saw a tiktok that said most 4th gen music follows the exoprint, shineeprint, neoprint, or rvprint and i somewhat i agree with that :)

and i’m you feel that way!! i too am a tom riddle simp and could barely find fics so i started writing them so i’m glad you found them and i in turn found you! and ofc!! what an honour to have my first ever anon! i hope you have a good/night!!

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[everythingsinred]

003: You did Subaru, what about Sakurano😊

(And what about Hotaru? Did you do her yet?)

yes i can do sakurano, absolutely!

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How I feel about this character: sadly, sakurano isnt very important, but i think hes cool! hes very mysterious. i kinda feel like we missed out with him though.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: subaru. idk if sakurano interacts with many other ppl his age to begin with. he has slim pickings lol

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: oooh his and subaru's bond with yuka is so cute. i forgot to mention that for subaru as well. they are so cute as kids <3

My unpopular opinion about this character: uhhh i guess ill just say that when he was first introduced i thought he'd be more important lol. i kinda wish he had been :( sad.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: just in general i wish hed had more to do towards the end. i really did think the student council would be some mysterious, powerful organization, but we dont rly see very much of them at all. its kinda disappointing.

Favorite friendship for this character: he only ever hangs out with subaru so again i will put the student council trio!

and yes i can do hotaru as well!!!

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How I feel about this character: idk how to talk abt her really but ill try my best. i do have my fair share of problems with some of her actions, but shes a kid so i forgive her (i always forgive kids. its just how i am). i like watching her become more emotionally open with mikan and her brother. ive been harsher with her before (ive NEVER hated or even disliked her, to be clear! in fact i love her) but my opinions on characters change depending on my mood. i learn smth new w every reread and this time i made sure to examine her closely and im more satisfied with her character development than i was before. i want to be a big hotaru fan! i just dont connect with her as much i guess.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: rly i only actively ship her with ruka.

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: subaru ;-; they are the whole world to me. theirs is definitely my favorite of hotaru's relationships.

My unpopular opinion about this character: these days ig its kinda unpopular to ship her with ruka? i dont rly care; i think they suit each other very well.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: i wish her ending had been different (obviously). it rly feels pointless ig... the whole thing feels rly pointless. yes it makes me cry, mainly for the sibling stuff, but its still not smth im fond of. i dont know what id have done differently but smth for sure.

Favorite friendship for this character: i sometimes feel like im too hard on the hotaru/mikan friendship but the truth is i DO like them, theres just something missing that leaves me unsatisfied. do not ask me what it is, i couldnt tell u. maybe its bc i dont connect with hotaru as much. i think my fav scene of theirs is during the escape arc when mikan tells her she has the telepathy alice and thinks she can hear her mom, and hotaru assures her that she can and that she'll see her soon. that scene is fully perfect. i do like them a lot. i also like her friendship with iinchou. her determination to help him during the z arc (to the point where she makes unreasonable decisions, which i always love for her) is so touching and moves me to tears. she loves idiots <3

#i get so sad about hotaru pls dont look at me #i wanna be a big fan like i am of the other main 4 kids. im working on it! #i aDORE her dynamic with subaru so i was trying to examine why i love them so much. couldnt tell u quite yet but it gets to me #sakurano shuichi #imai hotaru #ga #answered #ask games #doggocatloverwriter #thank u for sending me two! i rly love doing these games! #i should say that ive been a fan of ga for more than 12 years straight #i love almost every character #i love so many relationships platonic or romantic or familial #do not think i dislike hotaru! im not even ambivalent to her! its just harder for me to connect with her which is smth id like to change

[vividaway]

hey i hope you learn to not take things so personally on behalf of gabbie hanna bc it's gone past parasocial relationships and i think you have developed a one sided codependency and it literally very obviously negatively affects your daily mental health :/ like ppl don't just say stuff to be mean - you're unhinged. legitimately.

(pt 2) also ur post abt jen is really funny bc you're like "of course she's jessis best friend" but i literally don't think she is currently and i think you're just saying that bc you can't see past being personally upset. just a thought. pls be aware that when experiencing heightened emotions doesn't mean ur reality is heightened too. :/ (pt 3) also in general id advise seeking professional mental health help bc being agoraphobic & exclusively living online is clearly giving you terminally online brain rot. do you wanna be 27 in your moms home still yelling abt online haters? are you not an adult? do you not want to live like an adult? seems ur content staying mentally 14 forever.

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i find these kind of asks to be the MOST amusing, because not only do these people think they know my life, they actively go out of their way to try to get in contact with me. they side with people who believe doxxing people is alright "as long as its for the greater good" and they think harassment of any sort will fix their problems (spoiler alert: it wont.) lets get one thing straight here: i dont "take thing personally on behalf of gabbie hanna", i side with what I BELIEVE to be morally correct. its not morally correct to tell someone that theyre useless, that one no wants them or cares about them, and that they should disappear to someone who has actively stated time and time again to have suicidal ideations. this is KNOWINGLY triggering and harming someone who's mentally ill, and you're just straight up a horrible shitty human being if you do that. you CAN hold someone accountable AND have empathy to what theyre going through. they dont negate each other, and the second people learn THAT is the second i will stop riding so hard for what is MORALLY correct, not for Gabbie Hanna.

(Side note: you never hear these people talk about my interest for Lele Pons, Britney Spears, Taylor Nicole Dean, Rayleigh Link, BozeDoesTrueCrime, or Colleen Ballinger and i dont even need to pose the hypothetical question of "why do you think that is?", cause i'll tell you: they dont know who i ACTUALLY am, they only know who i am twitter.)

lets talk about parasocial relationships, because those are actually one of my favorite things to talk about! I know everything about Gabbie, or at least, everything she's told the internet. every time i (or anyone) interacts with gabbie, it is with the knowledge of who she is, and the things she has done. this puts us at a disadvantage. as fans, we then have two options.

not realize you're apart of a parasocial relationship.

realize you're apart of a parasocial relationship

it seems like a "thank u captain obvious" but it honest to god isnt. we as fans know gabbie, but gabbie knows NOTHING about us. she does NOT know we exist. if you choose path 1, you're set for a very VERY toxic situation where you slowly become entitled to somebodies time and efforts when you are NOT entitled to shitall. lets talk about path 2, though!

i know facts about gabbie. i stop and realize-- i am inconsequential to gabbie's daily life even if she DOES see me...

and that is the JOY of being a fan. of knowing you're a community of thousands, and not the one on a pedestal. we arent here because we want to KNOW gabbie personally, we're here because we agree with her. we relate to the things she's experienced, and by golly, we were harassed by the SAME EXACT PEOPLE!! we have a LOT in common-- and...and thats KIIIINDAAA the definition of being in a fandom. "A fandom is a subculture composed of fans characterized by a feeling of empathy and camaraderie with others who share a common interest."

on a side note, lets talk about my daily life, since you so inquired <3

my exposure therapy has been a really good (but frightening) experience! aside from normal visits, i hung out with a group of friends, and i went to a small live show. my plans for next week have similar plans, and i've been dealing with my agoraphobia pretty well since march.

i dont know what they mean by "negative codependency" seeing as i use my twitter the same way i use my tumblr...so hey!! WHY DIDNT YOU GUYS TELL ME SOONER THAT I HAD A NEGATIVE CODEPENDENCY TO THOMAS SANDERS?!!?!?! SO RUDE!! /J on an actual note: really? codependent to gabbie hanna? youtube, my phone, maybe, but gabbie? thats genuinely why i call these messages amusing because it honestly reminds me of THIS meme

its just a ~vibe~ yanno.

"pls be aware that when experiencing heightened emotions doesn't mean ur reality is heightened too" this is actually something i'd advise to every person who watched gabbie hanna, because they have this warped perception that gabbie is constantly planning this drama everytime she releases an album or song as IF she would want that tied to the album....that doesnt bring in listeners it only creates talk cmon now use ur brainy brains just bc ur emotions are heightened doesnt mean ur reality is

but yeah, thats my update with tumblr! how have you guys been /gen? its been awhile since i've done one of these (four or five years? wowee) and i KNOW tumblr's new "below the cut" update is gonna kill the vibe of this but its whatevs 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ alyssa will talk on.

#//twitter #//gabbie hanna #//drama #what up babe <3 #ask #answered #alyssa talks #alyssa posts