#1. i will only disclose so much.. im not gonna actually rip my guts out on the internet

[butchviking]

ppl are always saying that the most important thing with """mental health""" (they mean mental illness) (no, they mean depression and anxiety) (no, they just mean emotional wellbeing i think) is to talk to ppl about it. but like. sorry how does that help tho. maybe this is just whatevers wrong w me talking but for real how the fuck does it help to actually tell ppl the actually bad stuff in ur head. like i think it's good 2 be able to say stuff in passing and for everyone to not clutch their pearls if u joke abt killing urself or whatever like its good to not have to actively dig it down and repress it. its good to b able to say "ive been bad lately" or whatever and move past it. but genuinely honest to god does anyone in this whole wide world actually feel better after they tell the people who care about them abt their serious emotional problems in any significant detail. its not going to fix anything! its not going to solve anything! "a problem shared is a problem halved" no!!! its a problem doubled!!!! now you feel bad AND the person u told abt it feels bad bc they wish they could make u better and they can't!!

#i mean i love posting my whiny shit on here which is like. halfway between talking to someone abt it and screaming into a void just to vent #and i like 2 scream into voids to vent but. #1. i will only disclose so much.. im not gonna actually rip my guts out on the internet #2. if any of my friends try 2 message me abt it i WILL say 'ah im fine its just one of those nights its whatever' #bc whats the point!! how on EARTH would 'talking about it' help!! that just spreads the misery it just brings guilt for both parties!!!